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mrrharper · 9 days

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A Real Jock's Supposed To Be Dumb

Mike had a problem. And that problem was Tyler Grant.

Tyler Grant and Mike were both juniors studying finance. Mike was, according to the commonly used way of stereotyping people in college, a nerd. He studied, read books and academic papers, didn't posses good social skills. A nerd.

Tyler Grant was a college athlete, a wide receiver on their university's football team. and at a first glance he was very much a typical jock. He was muscular, his clothes always made that clear. He was popular with everyone, a bit cocky. Everyone knew that type.

But this wasn't the whole picture. For a football jock Tyler had surprisingly good grades. He spent at least some of his free time studying for exams and projects, he was active during classes, and he made an effort to get to know everyone who was present in the lecture hall alongside him.

And that meant Mike was... not frequently, but consistently approached by Tyler. The athlete usually exchanged a few words with him whenever the two bumped into each other.

And Mike was infuriated by this.

Because of course Tyler wasn't doing this because he was a genuinely nice person.

For sure he was doing this out of pity.

He probably laughed all day about Mike, that sad little nerd.

And all that pretending, which was definitely what Tyler was doing, made Mike fuckin' annoyed.

One day Mike was walking through downtown and he stumbled upon a thrift store. Lead by an impulsive thought he walked in and moved through countless racks and shelves. Then he saw it. A random golden chain, similar to the ones jocks like Tyler wore on a daily basis. Again driven by a strange impulse Mike picked it up.

"When you wear it, your word will be reality" A voice, belonging to some older man, whispered into Mike's ear. He quickly turned around but saw no one standing next to him. His eves went back to the chain. He had to have it.

So he bought it. What happened next was pure magic. The golden chain, when hanging form his neck, allowed Mike to alter reality. Which was insane. The chain's power was limited, but clearly visible and Mike was amazed.

He knew what he wanted to do with that power.

A week later Mike had to do a project for a class. The project required working in pairs and, what a coincidence, Tyler was sitting close to him and suggested they work together. Mike put on a fake slime, deep down sure that this was some new plot to make fun of him.

The next day they met in the university library to work on the project. As Tyler looked through some data on his laptop, Mike made sure the chain was under on his neck, hidden by his t-shirt and hoodie.

"You will treat everything I say as normal" Mike said. Nothing changed, Tyler just nodded after hearing these word and continued working. Mike smirked. Perfect.

"You will start behaving like a real jock. No more talking to me out of pity and then laughing at me behind my back. Be a real jock bro."

"Yeah, bruh" Tyler muttered to himself. His position shifted, his upper body more relaxed on the chair, his legs spread out. He swiftly removed his hoodie, revealing a white tank top.

"And let's not kid ourselves, deep down you know you are a dumb idiot. A jock like you will always end up with a brain that can only understand football plays." Mike grinned. He felt real good saying those words. Getting rid of academic competition, putting Tyler where he belonged.

"you callin' me a dumbass, fuckin' nerd?" Tyler stopped typing on his laptop. He looked at Mike, a dumb, cocky grin now clearly visible on his face. Moke could now see the arrogant dominance in his eyes.

"Yes, and you won't do anything about it, because you listen to everything I say, you dumb jock." Mike said straight into Tyler's face. The jock chuckled dumbly and flexed his arm. He put his hand on the bulging muscles and squeezed them.

"duuuuuh, dude" he drawled "wha' were we doin' even bruh? muh brain foggy dude..." he looked at his still opened laptop. "shit, nerd, what is that fuckin' nonsence!"

"I'll take care of that" Mike said as he closed Tyler's laptop. "You have other things to care about."

"fuck yeah i do, nerd!" Tyler barked at him. "Gotta get these guns pumped bruuuuh!" He flexed his arms again and laughed out loud, attracting attention of other people in the library.

"Okay, my jock, we gotta get you out of here" Mike stood up and waited for Tyler to do the same.

"oh fuck, nerd, we gotta get out of this fuckin' nerd central, am i right huhuhuhuhuh" He chuckled loudly as they left the library, Mike's hand on Tyler's biceps. After they were outside Tyler stopped for a moment, got his phone out and took a photo of himself flexing his arm.

"gotta keep the chicks on insta hot n' bothered, nerd" Mike smirked as he heard that. Oh yeah, his plan was going great.

#jock #jock tf #football jock #personality change

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delicate-cupcake · 3 months

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Love Letter From Your Future Spouse

Hello everybody 🌹

Here is another PAC for you guys enjoy it my beautiful people.

Close your eyes and take a deep breath then choose your pile intuitively:)

Pile 1 ---- Pile 2 ---- Pile 3 ----

Pile 4 ---- Pile 5 ---- Pile 6

Pile 1

Hello m'lady

I love you because you actually put effort into me I love you because nobody has ever given me the love that you have given me and you are the only one that would ever love me this way. I love you because you always make me feel that I am worth something I love you because you have a nurturing nature and you take care of me because you made me smile when I almost forgot how to. I love you because you have a huge and honest heart. I love you and every little thing about you. I love you because you are simply you.

If nothing else I hope you know that I love you with everyone ounce of my being I hope you realise your importance not only to me but to everyone who has been lucky enough to know you I hope you know that when you are feeling down I pray for your happiness I hope you remember that no matter what I am here for you and I always will be I won't leave you I am in your life forever I am not going anywhere I hope you recognise the fact that I appreciate and adore you and that this will never change I love you unconditionally

Pile 2

Mi amor,

I love you enough to fight for you, compromise for you enough to miss you deeply no matter the length of time or how far apart we are enough to believe in our relationship to stand by your side to hold your hand through the ups and downs to have faith and strength in our relationship to never give up on you I love you enough to spend forever with you each day I fall more in love with you making me realise no amount of time is ever enough and even one day forever will run out but I have decided that will be fine because getting to love you is worth it And no babes I am not going to lose feelings no I am not going to find someone better no I am not going to cheat on you and no I am not going to leave you I have already made up my mind I want you and only you No one else because to me you are my kind of perfect.

Pile 2 I think you require a lot of reassurance. Don't worry. this person will always be ready to hear you and give you reassurance

Pile 3

My Honeybee 🐝,

I am going to love you I am going to love you in our weakest moment to our strongest ones. I'm going to love you when you are happy and I am going to still love you the most when you are sad. Don't you understand? I am here and I am not going anywhere I want to love you each and every piece of you I want you with your imperfections as much as I want you for you and I am always going to want you and always going to be here loving you with my everything. Because I see it I see getting married , moving in together , cuddling on the couch , waking up to good morning kisses , having arguments , making up after , cooking our favourite food , smiling for no reason , annoying each other , when we are bored having the cutest little babies *not them trying to be funny*, watching them grow up and never leaving each other's side.

Pile 4

Love of my life ❤️,

My dreams came true when I met and fell in love with you what is even more amazing is that we are now building dreams together I cannot thank you enough for coming into my life and making it what it is today. We are perfectly in perfect I love how we are beautiful together and that we continue to help each other become stronger and better both as individuals and as a couple I learn everyday from you you are so genuine and courageous I admire and love so much about you and I can't wait to spend the rest of life with you. And trust me when I say that I did not just fall in love with your body yet your soul I fell in love with the way you look at me with your eyes full of joy the way you smile when you talk about animals that you adore the way that your hair flies in the wind like they have mind of their own the way that you walk the way you speak so politely and calmly the way you love unconditionally and without a request I fell in love with all your flaws so hard that no one could save me

Pile 5

Babes,

I wish I could explain in words how much I love you but I can't because there aren't any words to describe the love I feel for you I miss you also but I am not going to let the distance keep me from loving you even if it's from afar I want you to know that I will always be there for you I will be your shoulder to lean on your distraction when you want to escape and everything else in between I know we have got a long road ahead of us but I am willing to stick it through. And I hope you are as willing too no matter the bad that has happened or will happen always remember that you are so special to me and have a special place in my heart , in my mind I don't know how you see our future but I am going to share my vision with you

We will go out on our own little adventures going places you have always wanted to go but of course we will come back home to see our family and friends whenever you'd like. We will get married and have our first apartment together we will have all the adorable dogs and cats that you want under a reasonable number of course I will constantly be surprising you with gifts and love and I will promise you everyday the same thing. One word. Forever

Pile 6

Baby,

I want you to understand that love was never meant to be easy people fight people make mistakes people walk out and then run back but when it comes to love there is no limit to what you do for one another to protect to provide to profess it's a lot harder to stay together then to fall apart, but for our love for one another being unconditional will make it worth every second But I want you to know and understand that at the end of the day I want it to be you and me I want your early mornings I want your late night I want you on your good days even more on your bad it is like I am yours the way the sea belongs to the moon the way the moon belongs to the sky and even if the jealous stars break and shatter upon the Milky way I will still see heaven in your eyes. *This is a poem written by Mark Anthony*

Thank you so much for reading this PAC. Please remember that this is only for entertainment purposes.

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beegalactica · 4 months

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The real 'glow-up' is all mental.

With it being the prime season for the 'how to glow up' guides to make their rounds in the media we consume, it is always worth reminding yourself that the only way you are going to 'glow up' on the outside is if you 'glow up' on the inside.

I personally get annoyed with the whole glowing-up phenomenon because it perpetuates this idea that there is some kind of 'end goal' in life and once you reach it, everything will be perfect. In a world where the idea of what it means to be attractive, intelligent, successful, or desirable in any way is constantly changing, there is only one constant: YOU.

You are a lifelong investment, and you are worth every penny, second, and ounce of effort you put into yourself.

Let's go over some of my glow-up tips and habits for you this year and examine how much of your levelling-up will really need to take place in your head.

Invest in your hygiene. This doesn't mean buying the most expensive skincare and having a 30-step routine, this means brushing your teeth every day, taking showers regularly and looking after your hair. Of course, we all want to achieve that 'clean girl aesthetic' but to me, simple hygiene is the best way to send a message to your body and mind that you care. Nothing says "I love you just the way you are" to your body like taking the time to clean it, care for it and pay attention to what it needs.

Invest in your surroundings. Now I know, making your bed every morning can be an unnecessary waste of time, especially if you're just going to end up getting back into it at night, but I like to think that my surroundings reflect my mental state, so if my room is a mess, best believe my mind is a mess too.

Invest in your interests. Start a hobby, pick up a new skill, try to find a book that interests you, or even start a Tumblr blog 😉😉! This year, I am focusing on really cultivating myself and becoming an interesting person who has things to talk about with people, instead of mindless gossip or resulting in self-deprecation to entertain others.

Invest in your happiness. Do what makes you happy. Distance yourself from those who seek to pull you down, to prop themselves up. You are worth so much more than that. Sometimes, those people are in our households, and the only way to cope is to know what makes us feel good and chase that happiness. Know that whatever issue you are facing shall pass and you will feel good again.

There is a common belief among people who may struggle with their self-image that once they fix this, or change that, everything will be perfect, but as someone who has had that mentality, it won't. If you want to lose 10kg for example, but hate your current body, waking up skinny tomorrow won't fix that voice in your head that tells you that you're still not good enough. If you love yourself as you are, and acknowledge that exercising is a form of self-love, and it doesn't take away from it, that mental glow-up will begin to manifest itself physically.

What's the point of others complimenting you daily if you don't believe it or can't accept it because you don't think of yourself the way that they do?

Trust me when I say this, my biggest milestone on my 'glow up journey' was not losing x amount of weight, but looking at myself in the mirror, first thing in the morning with no make-up or styling, and still being able to say "Damn, I'm so beautiful." And I can confidently tell you that to reach this point, I didn't set the intention of losing weight and trying to become more beautiful, I set the intention of loving and accepting myself the way that I am and all the actions that followed after stemmed from this love that I have. I didn't feel the need to exercise because I wanted to be skinny, but because I knew that it was what my body needed, and I loved my body so much that I was willing to do that for her.

It's easy to get wrapped up in so many things and lose sight of yourself, but when that phone is off and you're all alone, disconnected from the rest of the world, what do you say to yourself?

P.S. If you're reading this thank you all for the love on my first post! Opening Tumblr every day to new notifications has created this sort of excitement and extreme joy that I didn't even know was possible! Stay safe and take care of yourself 💗💓

#lifeblr #girlblogging #girlblogger #it girl #that girl #becoming that girl #glow up #it girl energy #clean girl #glow up tips #self improvement #self development #how to glow up #self care #self love

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apalapucian · 25 days

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it's lily who finds him. he's lying on the topmost bench on the quidditch stands, drenched and on his back, eyes open and narrowed against the rain. he's crumpled that leather jacket he loves so much into a lamentable pillow.

"i don't need your pity party," he says when she reaches him. she almost doesn't hear over the downpour. she wouldn't have if she hadn't seen his lips move, if she didn't know his voice so much that she can pick it up from anywhere.

she rolls her eyes. "you need a fucking umbrella," she points out, casting a drying spell and then sitting on the space beside his head.

sirius glares at the overly bright yellow umbrella now blocking his current best friend: his stupid, unforgiving ocean of nimbus clouds. lily waits for the cutting remark, the blunt admonishment. it doesn't come. he just huffs, and then closes his eyes.

eventually, he says, "my god, i am a drama queen," the ice not quite melting, but noticeably chipping at the edges.

"yes, you are."

"my brother's a fucking death eater though. that's got to be worse, isn't it?"

"regulus is not a death eater."

he flinches at the name. "not yet. but like we all just fucking heard, he's clearly — "

"that's not your fault."

he clenches his jaw. "feels like it is."

"it's not."

"how do you deal with all that shit with your sister?"

lily keeps her eyes on the pitch, but the umbrella sags an inch. this. this is why she sought him after that whole regulus fiasco. because he gets it. maybe she needed the pity party. she says, "well, not by storming off to brood in the rain alone, for sure."

he opens his eyes to raise an eyebrow up at her. when she perfectly mirrors his expression as an answer, he breaks and laughs. "why're you even here," he asks irritably, but he's sitting up now, and he's slackened, and lily doesn't need to answer his question because they both know that he knows why she's here.

he pries the umbrella from her hand and holds it up for them because he's taller. more on her side than his, she notices, but that's because he's already mostly rained down on. when she puts her head on his shoulder, he says, "stupid. i'm wasting effort here holding this up for you and you get yourself soaked anyway."

"shut up."

"if you get sick, james will kill me."

"if i get sick, i'll kill you myself."

that makes him chuckle, at least.

they stay like that until the rain softens to a drizzle, neither of them saying anything. when the mist has thinned and all the greens start coming back through, lily straightens up. "sirius."

"what," he says, in that eternally irate, snobbish tone of his.

"you have more than one brother, you know that?"

—

sirius thinks, i've got three more, yeah. i do know that.

he also thinks, and an annoying sister, seems like. do you know that?

and: thanks for being here. i feel like i'm losing my head.

and: it's not my fault it's not my fault reg's an idiot and that's not my fucking fault.

he says, "your hair makes my neck itch."

lily laughs.

—

james, remus, and peter see that laugh. they don't hear it, being too far down, but james knows exactly what lily's laugh sounds like, that one and all the rest, so he, at least, might as well have heard it. he pockets the map and starts walking back inside to the changing rooms. remus and peter exchange a glance before following suit.

"we're leaving?" asks peter, craning his neck while he talks, reluctant to wrench his eyes off sirius and lily.

"yep," says james brightly. "kitchens. let's go."

"but there'll be dinner in the great hall now," says remus, checking his watch.

"those two won't be feeling like dinner in the great hall tonight," says james. "we have to get them the good stuff before they run out."

"but i'm hungry," says peter.

"we can eat there, we don't have to wait for them," says james. "come on."

he slings an arm each around them, and off they go to the kitchens, james smiling to himself all the way.

#jily #jily*#blackevans #marauders #jily fic #jily fanfic #jily fanfiction #jple #sirius black #lily evans #this is for everyone who liked/responded to that blackevans thing i posted last night and were like #THATS NOT A PROBLEM #here's a rewrite of an old fic #also im posting this out of spite because im annoyed this morning and work is kicking my ass lol #apalapucian*

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necros-writing-stuff · 3 months

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Imagine this: a younger/kid PC finding out about the attic, maybe even a picture from when Bailey and Eden were still in school, and is now determined to find Eden, and try to bring the two together again

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Basically The Parent Bait, but there’s only one (1) annoying and stubborn kid (except anon has never seen the movie)

Bailey knew you were a menace as soon as you were dropped off on his doorstep. And he was right. You break out of the youth wing and wander around, you latch onto him as he passes by despite his best efforts to not be fatherly, and of course he caught you coming down the ladder from the loft.

Now you've followed him to his meeting with Eden, staring up at both of them with a big smile on your face as they feel a mutual relief that they kept their pants on.

"One of yours...?" Eden looks jumpy, ready to get gone. Its best that people don't know he exists, and if this kid is some sort of spy (a terrible one if they are), then it could mean trouble.

Bailey flicks some ash off the end of his cigarette. "You're meant to be at school, kid."

His glare doesn't change a thing, you're still there, swinging your arms back and forth as you rock on your feet, a giggle bubbling up from your chest.

"Is this your boyfriend from that old photo?"

Both of them freeze. There's an old photo? You used the word 'boyfriend', too, which doesn't help with how god damn fragile the line of friendship and lovers is between the two.

"We aren't boyfriends, what fucking photo, kid?"

Your little hand dives straight into your pocket, producing a faded picture with creases marking the material. "This one! From an old box in the loft. I don't know why you don't like me up there, it's just dusty."

There's so much innocence still in your eyes. So much lack of knowledge about the world leaving blank spaces in your head that you fill with dreams. You don't even seem to realise how the mention of the loft makes both men grow pale.

Bailey snatches the photo from you, briefly glancing at it to ensure its really them. Eden looks away from it. He'll have to burn it later.

"Wait here kid. Don't move - not an inch, do you understand? I need to talk about something you're too young for, so no listening in."

He grabs the fabric of Eden's coat, hauling him several feat away before speaking once more in hushed tones. "I'm worried about this one. They'll give me a stress heart attack when they're older, I just know it. Hope someone just adopts them so I won't have to put up with them."

No response from Eden as he looks at you over his shoulder, nodding his head when you wave at him.

Bailey continues. "They think I'm like. Their dad or something. It pisses me off, Eden, how can one kid be that dumb? I mean-"

"Or whoever raised them this far was just as much of a cold bastard as you and they think it's normal cause they don't know anything else."

Sometimes Eden says smart things. Sometimes. Bailey rarely likes it. "Yeah well they should learn better anyway."

Eden has something in his eyes when he looks back at you once more. A hint of pity and wistfulness.

"I want kids, I ever tell you that?" They're speaking quietly, but this one is whispered.

The hunter can't adopt. He doesn't have the paperwork, can't pass inspections. But you're an adventurous kid who runs off a lot.

"I can just report them missing. You'd be doing me a favour, and it's better than killing them because they know we used to be just like them."

A month passes before he's able to see Eden again. A month where it looks like the man hasn't slept and has claw marks on his face. He's smiling, though.

"The kid decided we needed a pet badger."

Fatherhood looks good on him.

"But also is asking when their other dad is coming for tea."

And you're still finding ways to make his life difficult.

#spill your guts #anonymous #eden the hunter #bailey the caretaker #baileden propaganda #i give eden feral child

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skyenish · 1 year

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Twisted Wonderland Personality Swap AU

Thanks so much for the support on my previous posts, it really means a lot to me. Because of that, I've decided to continue writing for this AU and keep you all updated! I'll also be using this post to answer some of your questions. (In this AU the Housewardens and Vice-Housewardens switched personalities)

I went ahead and made some doodles for Ruggie, Leona, Jamil and Kalim (Ruggie with Leona's eyes scares me tbh)

Questions/explanations/clarifications:

-I didn't change the characters' backstories (unless specifically stated). Riddle still has a horrible mom, Trey's family still owns a bakery, Leona is still second prince, Ruggie is still dirt-poor, etc.

-What changed is how the characters reacted to their respective trauma I guess, which resulted in their personalities changing.

-Their personalities are not exact copies of eachother. For example, Riddle isn't just Trey but with red hair. He's very similar to Trey, yes, but they have a few differences in their personalities too.

-I'll explain how the characters became the way they are over time. Plus, it's also fun to think about it yourself, right?

-I've already worked out Heartslabyul, Savanaclaw, Octavinelle and Scarabia.

-I'm planning on doing every dorm, but I play on the English server so I haven't finished book 6 yet.

-Yes, I'm planning on having the Vices + Kalim overblot, and to do that I'll be using their already canonically established backstories.

-I am NOT a professional artist, nor do I have ANY experience with drawing comics, but just know that I'm passionate about this little project and will work hard to make it as good as possible.

-I'm busy with school (I'm busy in general lol), so I don't have a lot of time to work on this AU- I've been sick for the past 4 days, which is why I could post so much.

-If you have literally any questions, just ask. I love to read you guys' reactions!

Characters:

Jamil wears his hair in a loose braid in this AU, since I don't think he has the patience to braid his hair the way he originally does and his hair is kinda connected to his personality. Jamil is much more optimistic and positive, and he's always supportive. People seem to naturally like him, which annoys Kalim. Jamil always tries to look at things from a positive perspective, trying to make the best out of his situation, though it's not that bad for him, because Jamil genuinely thinks that Kalim is amazing. When he got an invitation to NRC he INSISTED that Kalim come as well. Jamil always wants to throw feasts, and if his master allows it, he'll disappear in the kitchen to cook enough food to feed 3 entire dorms for a week. Jamil frequently tries to get Kalim to relax, because he just wants him to be happy, but Kalim then reminds him that they're at NRC to study. (I already talked about Kalim in a previous post but I'll copy paste it here too)

In this AU, Kalim is much stricter, much more focused and MUCH more responsible. He studies rigorously and insisted on actually working hard to earn his position as Housewarden instead of his family buying the position for him. He’s very sharp, quite intelligent, and is annoyed by his naïve servant and his carefree attitude, who keeps following him around.

Leona is a menace, playful, optimistic and cunning, but he also puts a lot of work into his dorm and school. He knows he has to work had to achieve his goals and he knows that he has a lot of responsibilities. He values hard work.

Ruggie is the complete opposite to Leona though. He is lazy, quick to irritate, and forces lower-classmen to do his work for him because he just wants to sleep. Ruggie is a terrible student, never showing up for class or duties and never putting in any effort. He feels like no matter what he does or how hard he works, he'll never make any changes and his life won't ever get better anyways, especially with a high-and-mighty prince as his Housewarden. He thinks that nothing he does is of any use , so why bother at all, right?

Thanks for reading this word vomit, reblogging would be appreciated lol

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zeynepaura · 3 days

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𝐃𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐆𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐇𝐚𝐛𝐢𝐭𝐬

˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ 𝑯𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒐 𝒈𝒊𝒗𝒆 𝒖𝒑 𝒃𝒂𝒅 𝒉𝒂𝒃𝒊𝒕𝒔 ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

First off, giving up an old bad habit is difficult, that I know; however, it is not impossible. I've had a lot of difficulties in my life where I repeated the same habit over and over again and I thought for me I would never overcome them. But you know what changed? trying. I tried my best every day and even if I failed, I slowly accepted that I am not perfect and I am only human. That is who we are, and that is why Allah the Almighty is so merciful, because Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala himself knows we humans will slip up and fall. But listen, it's not impossible and as annoying as it is, as long as you keep trying, keep having that good intentions of becoming better and to do better; trust me those habits will be history.

Whenever we do something for the sake of our lord, everything works out, everything clicks together. These habits you have won't be vanished for one day of course, or a week, it's a process--a journey that we all need to accept. Think of it as a fitness journey, you won't get fit in one day. These things take time and after feeling so negative about myself I realized as long as you try, asking Allah for help, and doing the most you can--it is possible.

I hope these tips do help you, and everyone is different as everyone has different struggles and bad habits. These will either help you or guide you to overcome those habits in your own way. May Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala make it easy for us.

⤑ 𝑰𝒎𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑸𝒖𝒂𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒚 𝑶𝒇 𝒀𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝑵𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒛

I have seen a video of someone asking a scholar why do I still commit these bad deeds/habits if I am performing my five daily prayers? and the answer to this was the quality of your namaz. Do you rush into prayer, are you zoning out, are you not on time for namaz, and etc.

There is of course a lot to this but the quality of your namaz and how much time you spend with our lord does affect our hearts.

One of many ways to re-connect with our lord to become better with our daily prayers are:

Performing your prayers on time (I understand how our laziness could get in the way or how we are so into whatever we were doing before and cannot detach ourselves from this but, a quote I read and did help me at times like this was "Put your time and effort to Allah, and Allah will put his time and effort to you too.")

Recite a dua/surah after your namaz (Ayetel kursi, a repentance dua, La ilaha illallah, wahdahu la sharika lahu, lahul-mulku wa lahul hamdu, yuhyi wa yumitu, wa huwa ala kulli shay'in qadir, and etc.)

Perform your wudhu 15-10 minutes earlier (Let me tell you when I did this it was so effective. When you perform wudhu earlier, you are in a clear-minded state and are purified. Along with you being on time for namaz, this additionally helps you become more focused during namaz)

Perform Dhikr (Subhanallah, Alhamdullilah, Astaghfirullah, La illaha illallah, Allahu Akbar)

Learn the meaning of what you are reciting (When you learn and understand the meaning of the surah/dua's you are reciting, being focused becomes easier and the connection becomes stronger)

⤑ 𝑫𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔

Create distractions for yourself to not commit those deeds/habits!

Do what you love and enjoy (Go back to those hobbies you used to enjoy! or hang out with your friends and family.)

Educate yourself (Look up interesting things; Learn something new; Watch an islamic podcast)

Get to work (If you have any outstanding work or homework, get straight to it.)

Learn a new surah (Let's say you REALLY have nothing else to do, then what better way to spend that time in something worthy--learning a surah!)

Go outside and enjoy nature!

⤑ 𝑩𝒖𝒊𝒍𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑮𝒐𝒐𝒅 𝑯𝒂𝒃𝒊𝒕𝒔

Along with giving up those bad habits, create new good habits to incorporate in your day-to-day life!

Each day, add something in your routine--even if its small! For instance, get back to that skin care routine you were so lazy to do; or go on that walk you kept saying later to; or even folding your clothes and organizing your closet. Each time you add a good habit to do, you become distracted to those bad habits, have less time do commit them, and on the long run you are creating habits for a better difference!

With this in mind, please do not do everything at once. To prevent a negative on-going cycle, just like that book "Atomic Habits" said, that "If you can get 1% better each day for one year, you'll end up with 37 times better by the time you're done."

A habit to always include and progress even more is repentance! Recite and repeat Astaghfirullah; Ya Gaffar and Ya Gafoor; as well as the repentance surah's! Before doing anything, always say Bismillah and whether you're doing chores or scrolling on your phone, always say Astaghfirullah. This helps you be more aware of Allah subhanahu wa ta'ala!

And lastly, remember you can do it!

: ̗̀➛ Allahumma musarrifal-qulubi, sarrif qulubana 'ala ta'atika

O Allah! Controller of the hearts, direct our hearts to Your obedience.

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axlerica · 9 months

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ARGUMENT ~

Y/N and Pedri had a fight because he seemed to be ignoring her and didn't seem to care about her anymore.

Y/N: Hey, Pedri, I noticed you came home late tonight. Why didn't you tell me earlier?

Pedri: (irritated) Can't you just give me a break, Y/N? I had a busy day at work. Afterward, me and the team went for a drink, and I forgot to text you. It's not a big deal so stop being so annoying.

Y/N: What did you just say? Not a big deal? It feels like you don't even care about me! I worry about you, and you can't even bother to keep me informed? How could you say I’m annoying for caring about you?

Pedri: (defensively) Look, I said I forgot, okay? Why are you making such a big deal out of it?

Y/N: Because I care about you, Pedri! I want to know that you're safe. Is it too much to ask for a simple text?

Pedri: You're always overreacting! It's just one night. I don't need you constantly breathing down my neck!

Y/N: (teary-eyed) Maybe you don't need me at all! If you can't see how important this is to me, then maybe we shouldn't be together.

Pedri: (sarcastically) Fine, if that's what you want, then go ahead and leave! It won't bother me one bit.

Y/N: You know what? Maybe I will! If you don't care enough to understand my feelings, then I'm done!

Pedri: Whatever, do what you want. I'm not going to beg you to stay.

Y/N: Wow, you don’t care about me at all huh? Alright then, I’ll just pack up my things and go if that’s what you want. Goodbye Pedri. Maybe someday you'll realize what you've lost.

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Y/N: (starts packing her bag) I can’t believe we’ve come to this. He’s not the same man i fell in love with anymore. It hurts so bad..

Pedri : What are you doing? Can u please stop overreacting? Stop doing whatever it is you’re doing right now.

Y/N : I'm serious, Pedri. I can't do this anymore. I can't be with someone who doesn't even bother to ask how my day was.

Pedri: (panicking) Wait, Y/N, don't go. Alright I’m sorry, okay? I know I messed up, and I've been a terrible partner lately.

Y/N: (tearfully) It's not just lately, Pedri. I feel like you're always on your phone, and you never seem interested in what I have to say.

Pedri: I didn't realize how much it was affecting you. I promise to change, to be more present, and to make an effort to connect with you.

Y/N: (hesitating) It's just hard, Pedri. I need to feel valued and loved in this relationship. It can't always be one-sided.

Pedri: You're right, mi amor, I've been selfish, and I haven't been treating you the way you deserve. I don't want to lose you.

Y/N: I don't want to lose you either, but I need to know that you'll change and that you'll prioritize our relationship.

Pedri: Alright mi amor, I promise. From now on, I'll put my phone down and give you my full attention. I'll show you how much you mean to me.

Y/N: I want to believe you, Pedri, but actions speak louder than words.

Pedri: (holding her hand) I'll show you amor, I'll prove it to you every day, starting now.

Y/N: (looking into Pedri's eyes) Pedri, I need to see real change, not just empty promises.

Pedri: I understand amor. And I'm serious about making things right.

Y/N: Show me, then.

Pedri leans in, and their lips meet in a gentle and tender kiss. It's a moment of vulnerability and a promise of renewed affection.

Pedri: (whispers) I love you, Y/N.

Y/N: (whispers back) I love you too Pedri.

#pedri imagine #pedri fanfic #pedri x y/n #pedri gonzalez #pedri x reader #pedrito #footballer #pedri angst #pedri x you #fc barcelona #pedri fluff #imagine footballer #PG8

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Bullied

Summary: You are the Son of Aaron Hochtner, you try to isolate yourself from your family so that they won't notice that you are being bullied at school.

Word count: 2.503 Words

Warnings: mention of bullying scenes and injuries

Aaron Hochtner x Son Reader

In the last few weeks Aaron Hotchner hardly gets to see his oldest Son, when he comes home from school he immediately disappears into his room, rarely coming out to have breakfast with Jack and him before he and the Kids have to go to work or school.

He notices that his Son's behavior has changed. But he doesn't know why. Aaron blames it on puberty, but is it?

"Y/n, hurry up, we have to get going to school if you don't want to be late!"

Y/n quickly comes down the stairs and puts on his shoes next to Jack. Before they all run to the car and their Dad drops them off at the school.

"Remember y/n, the Team is coming over for dinner tonight, so be on time".

y/n nods. Turns and leaves.

Aaron watches his son stop in front of the school again and take a deep breath before going in.

Inside the School:

"Hey y/n!" I pause and look around for the voice calling me. Batty Lazy is calling to me from down the hall. Everyone knows her, since she's the worst bully in the school, and she doesn't care what gender she bullies.

As I turn around, I see that many of the other students are quickly and silently telling me to get out of there. But it's already too late. She is standing in front of me.

On her way to you, she pushed away all the kids who didn't go to side willingly. You don't understand how a person like her is a bully and also feared by everyone. And unfortunately, even a little bit by you.

"Who do you think you are,y/n, because of you the Professor gave me a bad grade!" She hisses at me, poking her index finger around in my chest.

"I can't help it, if the Professor thinks you didn't put enough effort into the project, then maybe you should have done the project yourself."

You know she doesn't like that answer when you see her face turn red. The students around you hold their breath in fear and there is a huge silence in the hallway.

Suddenly without warning, Batty grabs me by the collar and pushes me against the lockers with a violent jerk.

Painfully, I hiss out, as one of the locks is brutally pressed into my back.

"Let go of me!" I say annoyed.

"Forget it, where's your project for today?

Hmm, is it in your bag?"

She snatches my bag from my hand with the words and dumps out all the stuff in it. When she gets to the essay which is for the project.

She grins at me triumphantly.

"There it is, you want me to show you what I do with fools like you?" Sarcastically, she raises an eyebrow and looks out into the crowd.

"JUST SO WE ALL UNDERSTAND, THIS HAPPENS WITH PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO THINK THEY'RE BETTER THAN ME" with that she tears up my essay which took me two weeks to write.

Tears come to my eyes. I don't let them fall.

She drops it on the floor and then the bell rings for class, everyone quickly disappears into their classrooms and I'm late because I still have to pick up everything. On top of that, I still have to explain to the teacher why I can't give them my essay. Which was extremely embarrassing and he is very disappointed in me, you could see it in his eyes.

Awesome, great start in the day.

The rest of the day she also just picks on me, pushes me, insults me. I am glad when school is out.

When I get home, Dad's Team is already there. They sit together while Dad cooks with Rossi in the kitchen.

Jack watches Spencer show him a magic trick.

I quickly say hello to everyone before disappearing into my room.

In the room, I look at my back and see that a bruise has formed where the lock was pressed into my back. I quickly run to the bathroom and put some ointment on it so it doesn't hurt as much.

Just as I finish, dad calls for dinner. I quickly look in the mirror again to see if I look normal before I go downstairs and sit with the others.

Everyone at dinner was having a great time. Even your dad, which wasn't unusual, he just obviously hadn't noticed how you were doing at the moment

You poke around in your half eaten plate.

All you wanted to do was sleep. A hug would have been nice too, but your dad was busy with his friends.

And it's not like you wouldn't hug anyone on the team, but right now it seemed like all you wanted was your dad's affection.

You're glad when you're finally allowed to get up, and you quickly disappear into your room without even beginning to talk to the others.

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In the morning you are awake early because you couldn't sleep properly, so you decide to get ready earlier than usual. When you go down to the kitchen, you see that your dad is already making coffee.

You put your bag down next to the table and Aaron looks over at you in surprise.

He raises an eyebrow " Up already?"

"Hmm" I nod. Then I walk up to him and hug him.

His warmth spreads to your cold body within seconds.

You put your face in the crook of his neck and he rests his head on yours.

Your arms rested lazily on his shoulders and held onto his neck. He holds you close.

You didn't really want him to ask you anything, just hug you.

"Are you okay?" he asks you softly into your hair, hoping that you are now ready to tell him what happened.

You want so badly to say "no," but then he'd probably ask you why, and you'd have to tell him, and then he'd feel bad.

You sigh, "I just need a hug." That's all you can say.

He understands and rubs your back and puts his chin on your head.

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Two weeks later, still nothing has changed, it's just gotten worse.

Batty and her friends started to really get on your nerves, they even tried to trip you up at lunch, luckily you could either see it coming or just catch yourself.

The school hallway was where you felt safest, it was always crowded too so you didn't have to worry about them or any of their friends getting too close to you.

Then one day, as you were walking back from math to lunch, someone threw a drink packet at you from behind. The next day, it was either a bottle cap or a crumpled piece of paper. Or worse, food scraps.

From the beginning you didn't fight back and decided to live with it because you knew the teachers wouldn't trust you if you told them and they would rather trust Batty, she's a girl, you're a boy who can certainly fight back against a girl, after all, as a boy you shouldn't be weak. Which you thought was very stupid. The only teacher you liked was your literature teacher. Mrs. Sun, she was funny and taught well, but at the time you didn't really think of it as bullying, you just thought they were annoying you.

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one week later

You didn't think much of her leaving you alone today, and that was your mistake. After class is over for the day, you head to your locker as usual and get your stuff out for home. Then you remember that you left your bottle in the classroom and quickly run upstairs again. As you head back to the exit. Batty is standing there with two of her companions, a girl and a boy. They grab you.

Batty is angry because you corrected her answer today, after that the teacher told her that she should take an example from you. The whole class laughed at her.

"You did that on purpose today, didn't you, loser?"

Shaking my head in denial "No I didn't, I can't be blamed for what the teacher said".

Angrily she looks at me.

"Apologize and I'll leave you alone for today!"

"I didn't do anything to apologize for."

She nods, then looks at her companions who nod in response and suddenly I'm being shoved from side to side.

After a while they stop.

"And, has your mind changed now, I want you to ask for my forgiveness".

"I haven't done anything I should apologize for, so no my mind hasn't changed".

Batty nods again and I see her eyes narrow briefly, then she slams her fist back at me.

Shocked, I hold my cheek. Before I can even say anything to that. The other two start hitting me too.

I try to protect myself as best I can, but as I take a step to the side, having managed to pick myself up, I am shoved and my foot slips off the step. Before I can even react to what is happening, I fall down the stairs and as my head hits the ground, everything goes black.

Aaron Hotchner View:

As I'm going through some files, I get a call from y/n school. Concerned, I answer it.

"Hotchner"

"Mr. Hotchner, I'm calling to let you know that your son is on his way to the hospital, he seems to have fallen down the stairs".

"What hospital is he being taken to?" I ask the woman and get up, grab my jacket and car keys and leave my office.

On the way out Derek and Rossi look at me in surprise, I hang up after she tells me where they are taking my son.

"What's wrong, Hotch?" Derek asks.

"It's about y/n, he's in the hospital, I'm going there, the teacher didn't tell me exactly what it was about but it sounded serious".

They both nod. "I'll drive you before something happens to you too" Rossi gives a nod.

I nod and together we leave the BAU and drive to the hospital.

Once there, I demand to know from the receptionist where my son is. She tells me that Y/n is still in surgery and that I can wait outside.

Together with Rossi, I sit down in front of the emergency room and wait.

After about an hour, a doctor comes out. "Relatives of Y/n Hotchner?"

"Here! How is my boy?"

"According to the circumstances, he is being transferred to the normal ward, he was lucky his head injury could be stitched well, there will be no further damage and we were able to stop the internal bleeding as well"

"Internal bleeding, I thought he just fell down the stairs?"

"To be honest Mr. Hotchner, your son doesn't seem to have just fallen down the stairs, he has a lot of hematomas on his body, especially on his abdomen, he also has a handprint on his face, a split lip and on his arms hematomas from hands as if someone was holding him too tightly"

"Where is my son being taken?, I want to see him!"

"Third floor, room 436"

"Thank you", quickly Rossi and I run upstairs.

When we arrived at the room Rossi let me go ahead.

Then I enter the room.

Y/n is still unconscious, but only now do I really realize how bad it must have been.

The bandage around his head where the wound is, the split lip and when I push up his sleeve the hematomas.

They are all still fresh.

Why didn't I notice how bad he was feeling. Dejectedly, I sit down on the chair and hold his hand.

"Hotch, I told Penelope about this, she got the footage from the stairwell you might want to take a look at it. You can see exactly that it wasn't just a fall. "Rossi holds out a tablet to me. Then I let the video play.

Y/n view:

The first thing I hear when I wake up is the constant beeping of a device, then I realize that my whole body hurts, not badly but it's visible. The next thing I notice is that someone is holding my hand. As I move it I hear a chair being pushed back slightly.

"Y/n, can you open your eyes?"

Peering I try to open them and as my vision clears I see my father.

"Dad," comes a raspy voice from me.

He helps me to sit up and gives me something to drink.

"I'm glad you're awake again," comes from the other side as I look over I see Rossi.

When I look back over at Dad I see his features harden a bit.

"We need to talk, Y/N." The words are enough to make your heart hammer against your ribcage, but you keep your expression as nonchalant as possible, even though the beeping of the machine may have given you away, both say nothing to that. The last thing you should do is cry in front of the person who may be the strongest man you know.

"Listen, Dad," you begin, but he interrupts you with his own words.

"It's about the kids at school, isn't it?"

You say nothing, and he takes that as a yes. "That's also why you're hiding in your room, isn't it?" You just nod.

You dare to glance up at him. His eyes are sad, and you have to avert your gaze. "Why didn't you tell me... or the Team?" he asks.

You shrug, "I didn't think it was important."

This time it was Rossi who spoke up. "Not important? Y/N...", he breaks off, his voice filled with an unimaginable sadness, and you have to force yourself not to cry. They had enough to worry about and the last thing they needed was a teenage boy who was having a hard time fitting in at school.

"Hey, look." You look up at your Dad and he gives you a gentle smile. "Listen to me. The next time something - anything - is bothering you, you come to us, okay? I don't care if we're in the middle of something right now. If you have to call ten times, call ten times." You smile and he continues. "Just don't ever think that we don't care about you, okay?" You rub your eyes and nod. "As for those kids, I'll talk to the school board tomorrow. That's a problem that needs to be taken care of."

You sigh. As much as you don't want to, you know there's nothing you can do to stop him. And you know it might not even make a difference in the circumstances at school. But you have your Dad, Jack, and the Team. And sometimes they're all you need. As long as you have them, the best way to make it better is to talk to them in the future.

#aaron hotch imagine #aaron hotch #criminal minds #aaron hotch x Son reader #aaron hotch x reader #aaron hotch x male reader #aaron hotchner #aaron hotchner x Son reader #aaron hotchner x reader #aaron hotchner x male reader #aaron hotchner imagine #criminal minds imagine #x son reader #son reader

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topaz-witch-tea · 7 months

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HIIHIHHIHIHIHIHI I LOVE UR AU SO MUCH SNMBNHEBH

anyways is it alright to know what Yanqing's relationship is with like Fu Xuan, Tingyun, Sushang or the trailblazer? thank you!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

Of course! This is a super interesting ask so thank you for sending it. I really enjoyed answering this since it had me thinking about Yanqing's relationships with those outside of his family.

Fu Xuan

Yanqing has known Fu Xuan his entire life. She had been the Master Diviner before he was born and a close friend of Jing Yuan. Of course, she is always pressuring him to retire, saying that he would be much more suited and happier staying at home and taking care of Yanqing. When Jing Yuan brought Yanqing back from the battlefield, she was tasked with figuring out his origin. She thought adopting a baby would be good for the three, but she personally did not like babies. She's a very much a "they are cute from afar" kind of person.

As he grows older, their relationship could be compared to an older cat now having to deal with an annoying kitten that won't stop climbing everywhere. Fu Xuan would sometimes be asked to watch Yanqing at the last minute if there was truly no one available, so it would be her trying to do her work as Yanqing runs around the commission trying to touch everything. When he joins the Cloud Knights, he is still very polite in his interactions with her but also displays the same impatience he had as a child- slowly ignoring her lectures and sometimes even zoning out in the middle of them.

Yanqing, surprisingly, doesn't take offense to her attempt to get his father to retire. Fu Xuan had pressured him for so long that Yanqing has just gotten used to it. He knows Fu Xuan will succeed as General anyways so he's just chalked it up to her personality.

But at the end of the day, they still care and respect each other.

Tingyun

Same with Fu Xuan, Yanqing has known Tingyun for a long time. Tingyun was taken into Yukong's care after she showed little aptitude for the military despite her parent's hopes. At the same time, Qingni attended school with Yanqing, with Qingni being 2 grades above him. On days where she would pick Qingni up from school, she would also pick up Yanqing and take the both of them out to eat.

"All the people you are around are old and their tastes are very much set in stone. You should take the time to try new thing!" Was her justification for taking them out to try new cuisine.

As Yanqing got older and his interest in swords grew, Tingyun would be the one getting him into private auctions or discovering new merchants that might interest him. Yanqing, who has very few friends, considers Tingyun one of his closest. She's always introducing him to new things that are outside of his work as a Cloud Knight.

Sushang

Yanqing meets Sushang when she is transferred to the Luofu. At the time, he had been a lieutenant for 3 months but due to his young age and inexperience, was not given full control of his own platoon. However, he was tasked with training the new recruits where he met Sushang. The two hit it off and became really good friends. They train together and after lesson, are often seen hanging out in the night market.

Yanqing also finds himself able to confide his worries to Sushang. Her mother had trained her from a young age and put a lot of pressure on her to succeed. For Yanqing, he is held down just the legacy of his family and his desire to repay them for everything they've done for him. While they do not expect it from him, Yanqing believe that the only way to repay them back for their efforts in raising and training him is for him to succeed on the battlefield.

Trailblazer

The Trailblazer (Stelle and Caelus) are twins and still continue their life on the Astral Express. Yanqing knows them as Dan Feng's friends. 200 years before his parents had gotten married, the High Cloud Quintet went their separate way as their dreams and goals had changed. Yingxing had left to explore and find way to improve his forging. Baiheng and Jingliu had left for explore as well. Dan Feng, curious about the power of the Ambrosial Arbor and tired of the Preceptors oversight, placed Bailu in charge and left in search of a solution to move his people forward. Only Jing Yuan was left on the Luofu due to his position as General.

During his 100 year journey, he joined the Astral Express and traversed the universe in hoped of understanding the power that made him and his friends immortal. This is where he met the twins, who were taken in by Himeko as a favor for Kafka. Even though he later returned home, he still kept in touch with them and they would visit the Luofu occasionally.

Yanqing loves hanging around them. They're fun and are always willing to engage with him whether it be sparring or traversing through the city. In turn, they see themselves as the fun aunt and uncle. However, in the eyes of Dan Feng, they are the worst babysitters and will never be asked to babysit again.

After being tasked with babysitting for a day, they had taught Yanqing that is it absolutely fine to love trashcans and for a child who was reaching the age where everything ended up in their mouth. This was a nightmare as Yanqing spent the next 2 months trying to eat things off the ground and from the trash.

I hope you like it! If you want me to expand on things or just want to ask me other questions, feel free to message me or send an ask!

Thank you!!!

#yanqing #fu xuan #tingyun #sushang #trailblazer #stelle hsr #caelus hsr #hsr #dan feng #jing yuan #jingrenheng #yingxing #yanqing’s happy family au #honkai star rail #Yanqing's Happy Family AU asks

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amethystina · 2 months

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I wonder how Gaon and Yohan are going to explain the change in their interactions to Elijah, since it's going to be obvious to her that something has happened between them. Since Elijah knows that there's nothing between Gaon and Soo hyun, I wonder if she will play a role in clearing Yohan's misconception? Thanks for the update! I can't stop thinking how many ways this story can play out😅 Btw i really appreciate the time and effort you put into responding to our questions with such detail.

That definitely depends on who's doing the explaining xD Yo Han would just brush it off and pretend that nothing is happening — which would just piss her off — while Ga On would make a stilted effort to explain without making it too obvious what it's actually about. Which would also annoy her.

That poor girl, seriously. She doesn't deserve to get caught between these two idiots.

I'm not sure I agree that Elijah "knows" that there was nothing between Ga On and Soo Hyun, though. I think she very much thinks there was something between them. I mean, sure, they denied it when she asked if they were dating, but THE WAY they did so was pretty telling (especially in Soo Hyun's case). Even more so since Elijah is a bit... well, innocent? I think most of her experience with love comes from media, books etc. and how Ga On and Soo Hyun behaved is, well, straight from a drama xD

And Elijah also had that talk with Soo Hyun when they were eating ice cream on Ga On's terrace, where it became pretty obvious that Soo Hyun is in love with Ga On and has already confessed to him several times.

So I think Elijah very much believes they were in love. Which means she won't really play a role in convincing Yo Han otherwise — if asked, she'd probably only make it worse, even. Because her understanding of love is a bit superficial and probably pretty geared towards straightness. That's not to say that she's not aware of gay people (I think she might actually know more about that than Ga On does xD) but from the evidence she's seen both Ga On and Yo Han seem straight to her (because I can't imagine that Yo Han has flaunted his dalliances with other men in front of her).

I know I'm very, very firm about this but Elijah doesn't know that Yo Han and Ga On have the hots for each other. And not because she's stupid, but because she's grown up in a country where straightness is the norm and Yo Han has done everything he can to hide the depth of his and Ga On's relationship from her. Also, she's a self-centred teenager x'D

Like, take me for an example. I was around 23-24 and very comfortable in my own pansexuality but was still IN NO WAY PREPARED when my mum basically went: "I may only have had sex with two women in my life but, let me tell you — 10/10, would recommend." Because I had only ever seen her date and talk about men before and therefore assumed she had no interest in anything else. That's how easy it is to miss that someone close to you isn't entirely straight — especially if it's a parent/guardian.

So I really don't think that Elijah would notice until it gets a lot more obvious than this xD

Which wasn't technically what your ask was about (sorry for the tangent xD), but still important to know because Elijah really won't be all that helpful when it comes to Yo Han and Ga On figuring out their feelings for each other. In fact, she might just end up making things harder for them without meaning to. But more about that in later chapters ;)

ANYWAY. Thank you so much for the lovely ask! I'm so happy to hear that people are this excited and involved in my story! And, tbh, I can't help replying because I'm very excited, too, and love talking about my writing, my thoughts, and my takes on these characters. How could I resist? More often than not, I have to cut my answers short because I keep writing longer and longer ones.

Like, you guys have no idea how long the first drafts of my author's notes usually are. One time I had to cut half of it because it was reaching truly spectacular lengths. And sure, I know that some of you probably wouldn't complain if I had posted that first draft, but I'm trying to contain myself, okay? And also not reveal too much since it might end up spoiling future plot points. It's a constant struggle.

So yeah. I'm actually consciously holding back a lot of the time because I'm trying to not come off as completely unhinged x'D

#Amethystina Replies #Anonymous #Who Holds the Devil #I admit that I sometimes feel a little bad about being so firm about the Elijah situation #A lot of people seem to want her to be aware of Yo Han and Ga on's feeling?#And help them along?#But I genuinely don't see why she would be based on her character in the drama #She's incredibly clever yes #But also socially inept #(much like her uncle)#And a teenager #She's got her own problems to worry about #Her weird uncle's sexuality is NOT high on her list of priorities okay?

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sweetestofheartz · 4 months

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proxies w a paranormal investigator reader?

Proxies with a Paranormal Expert

A/N: FINNALY!! I've been waiting forever for some asks, tysm for requesting anon<33. I am not very experienced in the world of the Paranorma so if I mess a couple things up please tell me!

Jeffery Woods

While Jeff is one of the more 'human' proxies, he is most definitely still classified as a paranormal entity. Jeff is a big ego maniac so he likes to think people are interested in learning about him/his abilities. So he'll definitely answer any and all questions you have for him.

Probably the only proxy to welcome you and encourage your investigation on the spiritual energy inside the forest. Say your out ghost hunting he'll openly tell you where you're looking is wrong and far away from any real ghosts. Sometimes he'll openly sabotage your efforts just so you can ask him for help finding something.

Toby Rogers

When he was younger he did have a small knack for ghosts and demons, but he mostly liked to research them. Another humanoid one, but unlike Jeff he really doesn't like you. Not because of your occupation or demeanor, he just doesn't like being interviewed and prodded for questions.

While he'll answer some minor questions you have like working as a proxy, are his abilities different from humans, has his anatomy changed at all, etc. He won't answer any questions about his past. While he does care for you he's extremely hesitant to go out on investigations with you because he fears upsetting The Operator.

Tim Wright

He worries for you. The demonic things that have interrupted his life have made him extremely paranoid to even come in contact with people associated with it. So when you come along he's terrified you'll get caught up in The Operator and become its next victim.

It also strikes annoyance in him that you're just so willing to put yourself in danger for something so stupid! Arguments are frequent with him, mostly about your job and how you're getting yourself into things you can't even begin to comprehend.

Brian Thomas

Becomes the most annoying man ever, he'll always sabotage your outings and mess with your equipment to make your investigations delay. Like Tim, he's worried but he's much more upfront and aggressive about his dislike for your job, he'll go as far as to tie you up so you can't go explore.

When you do go on your own into the woods, he'll be stalking you from afar the whole way. If you do something that makes him get antsy more or he senses that The Operator is there he'll knock you unconscious and drag you away from the scene immediately. He cannot lose more friends.

Jack Nyras

Oh you're gonna have a field day with him. He's the most paranormal of the proxies (minus the actual ghosts) so he's gonna be the focus of almost all your questions and research. While he's initially put off by your constant interrogations he does find you slightly amusing.

Jack feels like he's put on the side lines half of the time so your making him your full focus and asking him all kinds of deep and invasive questions makes him feel slightly important. Won't ever go on any adventures with you but he will listen to you tell him about what happened on said adventure.

#creepypasta #marble hornets #jeffery woods #toby rogers #tim wright #brian thomas #eyeless jack #fanfic #pls ask #asks open #send anons #request

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ilyregulus · 5 months

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"I love you, but you're not mine." — Starchaser.

A/N: Hii, this is my first time writing something like this and english is not my first language, so forgive me for any mistakes and pls be kind.

The story is based on the movie "Corpse Bride" so some quotes are from there. I hope you guys like it :)

Word count: 2.9k

TW: they talk a lot about death.

“I'm not doing it.” Regulus said angrly while his mom forced him into the car.

“Oh but you so are, it's not like we asked for your opinion.” She replied risply, and to be honest, it's not like he had any hope of changing her mind, his parents never really cared about him, they cared about money, and right now, Regulus was just their way of getting it.

“What if we don't like each other, won't that be a problem?” He asked knowing that it would change nothing.

“As if that has anything to do with marriage. Do you suppose your father and I like each other?”

He actually never thought about that, in fact Regulus never thought about love at all, especially not his parents. But deep down he supposed they liked each other, at least a little. The thing is he didn't get how someone could do it, he understood very well about making alliances and how the rich must marry each other so they keep getting richer but shouldn't they like the person they were marrying or at least meet them first and have the right to choose?

Every step taken towards the mansion that would host the ceremony felt like a step towards the gallows, so while his parents talked to his soon to be parents in law, Regulus decided to take a walk through the large hall, enjoying his last minutes of his so-called freedom.

“Shit. You scared me.” A nice looking girl who was sitting by the piano said as he entered the room.

“I do apologize…You play beautifully.” He added sincerely.

“Thank you, mother won't let me near the piano, too passionate, she says…Anyway, I'm Victoria.”

“Oh.” It was all he could say for a while. “I'm Regulus.”

“I guess we weren't supposed to be seeing each other then.” She laughed.

“I suppose not.”

“Well, I always dreamt about this day, about getting married and finding someone I was deeply in love with, someone to spend the rest of my life with.” Victoria started saying.

“KILL ME” Regulus thought, what on Earth did he do to deserve this.

“Silly, isn't it?” She continued

“Yes, silly” He replied too fast.

He could apologize and he almost did but why would he? It's not like he was trying to make Victoria like him, in fact it would be really great if she didn't and somehow stopped this bullshit from happening. But she didn't stop anything and so the day arrived and there he was, standing at the altar, with his ganancious parents looking straight into his soul and there was nothing he could do.

Regulus didn't really put much effort into memorizing the vows and the amount of times he got it wrong and had to start again was getting annoying.

“This boy doesn't want to get married. How disgraceful!” Victoria's mom screamed.

“Enough! This wedding cannot take place until he is properly prepared. Young man, learn your vows.” Her father added.

He couldn't stand another minute of this, but he was going to learn it, it's not like he had another choice, and he really just wanted this day to end as fast as it could so, Regulus told everyone he would go for a walk in the woods nearby and would get back prepared, which seemed to satisfy both their families.

It really shouldn't be all that difficult. It's just a few simple vows.

“With this hand, I will take your wine. No. With this hand...I will cup your...Oh, fuck, no.With this…With this candle, I will...I will set your mother on fire.”

Oh, it's no use, he needed to do this. And so he said clearly.

“With this hand, I will lift your sorrows. Your cup will never empty, for I will be your wine.With this candle, I will light your way in darkness. With this ring...I ask you to be mine.”

“I do.” He heard a whisper as everything went dark.

“What..? What the hell happened?” He asked as his green eyes adjusted to the light once again.

“Looks like we've got ourselves a breather.” An old man said.

“Does he have a dead brother?” Asked a weird woman.

“He was very much alive last time I checked.” Regulus replied not really sure why.

“A toast then. To the newlyweds.” The first man raised his glass.

“Newlyweds?” Seriously Regulus thought, what the fuck was going on???

“In the woods, you said your vows so perfectly.”

“WHERE THE HELL AM I?” He asked without any patience.

“Well, that's a long story, a tragic tale of romance, passion and murder.”

“Look, I don't…” Regulus started saying but then he saw him.

He was standing there, with a suit falling into pieces, but Lord, he was beautiful, he had those eyes, deep and warm, that was like staring right into the sun and begging to get burned by it, and, oh, how Regulus would beg.

“Our boy was a beauty known for miles around” Continued a woman who looked like she was dead for ages “When a mysterious stranger came into town, she was plenty good-looking but down on her cash, and our poor boy here, he fell hard and fast.”

“Whatever, let me go straight to the point, the green eyes here doesn't look like he's a fan of long stories” The man interrupted. “He was about to get married and woke up in the graveyard”.

He was dead??? Oh…now he got why they all looked a little blue and weird, and the breather thing and everything else but how could…Regulus was not dead, at least he didn't feel like he was.

“So he made a vow…” He realized the man was still talking. “To wait for his true love to come set him free, and then you came.”

“Yeah really heart touching, what a shame I'm nobody's love so how do I get the fuck out of whatever this place is?” Regulus said but not really sure if that was what he actually wanted.

Don't get him wrong, it’s not like he was loving this whole being dead thing, but he didn't really have anything worth living for up there.

“Regulus, right?” Said the good looking boy, who now appeared to be his…fiancé?

“Yes but look, that's a mistake, I'm alive and you wouldn't want to be married to a man anyway”. He didn't know why but he felt so awkward near him.

“Well, I wouldn't mind.” He smiled.

Regulus wanted to curse him in any possible ways, how could someone murdered on his wedding day be so nice and…handsome.

“But I would.”

“You would mind getting married to a boy? I thought alive people were getting more open minded.”

“They aren't, which sucks, I get it, that wasn't my point.” Why was he explaining himself to a dead boy anyway?

“So you would marry a boy?” He lifted an eyebrow.

“Does it matter?”

“It does, Reg, since we are in fact married.”

REG.

He felt weak and Regulus Black does not feel weakness, he could feel his legs shaking and his lungs gasping for air, he has never, in his entire life, felt this way. There was something so magnetic about this boy, so charming and inviting that Regulus could almost hear their souls asking to collide. But Regulus didn't believe in love, did he?

“Look, I am terribly sorry about what's happened to you...and I'd like to help, but I really need to get home.” He said, trying not to look too much at the boy.

“This is your home now.”

“I don't even know your name and that's not a great way to start a marriage so I really should be going.”

“It’s James.”

Five letters had never made such a beautiful sound, Regulus could swear this name was made to be on his lips, he was sure he dreamed about it before. Who was he trying to fool, his parents weren't there to see anything and it's not like someone could hear his thoughts, Regulus Black did believe in love, he wanted it so badly, but he just couldn't, it's not what he was made for, love was not for him, besides, he was falling for a dead man, how ridiculous does that sounds?

“Does it hurt...dying?” He asked without thinking it would be disrespectful.

“No more than being alive.” James replied.

Regulus smiled, as horrible as it sounded he felt some kind of comfort in that.

“I almost forgot, I have something for you, a wedding present.” James said happily, giving him a black box with a red ribbon on it.

“Scraps?” He sounded confused as he looked at an amount of bones that was turning into a dog “Scraps! That's my dog Scraps!”

“I imagined you'd like to see him again.”

“He was my best friend…My only friend.” Regulus said with a sad tone in his voice. “Mother never approved of him, so she gave her way, but then again, she never approved of anything, and she always gives her way.”

James was hurt to see the boy like this, he wanted to hug him, to comfort him and say that with him he could have anything, James could love him, indeed he could, he wanted to. But instead he just asked a friendly question.

��Do you wanna go back home, Reg?”

No. He didn't want to, there was nothing up there for him and his mother was probably so furious that he would go back to where he was right now really quickly.

“Yes James, I must go.” Was what he replied.

“There may be a way of doing it.” James handed him a tiny bottle he took out of his pocket.

“Really?” Regulus said almost as if he did not believe it was that simple. “You have a magic potion with you all this time?”

“Well, I like to visit the living world sometimes…”

“And couldn't you tell me sooner?”

“I wanted you to stay.”

“You know that's selfish of you right?” Regulus asked, frustrated. “You're dead, I'm alive and besides that you don't even know me, we are not married James, can't you see that?”

If he knew the amount of sadness that would appear in James’ face he would've never said that because in Regulus' mind a boy like James was not meant for sadness, he was.

“But I could know you…” Was all he heard before drinking the potion and waking up in the woods again.

When he opened his eyes he realized he missed the fresh air in his skin, the smell of grass and the sounds of living nature, but deep inside he felt like he was letting something behind.

“Victoria?” He asked, entering the piano room once again.

“Regulus!” She exclaimed. “I was so worried, what happened? You're as cold as death.”

He thought it was funny that she said that.

“I'm sorry…I didn't want to get married and you deserve someone who does.” He was sincere when he said that, she seemed like a nice girl who was unfortunate to have the same fate as him.

“I know I do.” She replied with a smile. “And you deserve to do it only when you're ready to, but I don't think we're this lucky.

“This is going to sound really unexpected but…I guess I am already married.” Regulus told her.

“You what?”

“To me. He's married to me.” James said coming out of nowhere.

“He's dead.” Regulus hurried to say as if this could possibly make things better. The truth is he was feeling kinda euphoric to see James there, he doesn't deal well with emotions and this whole situation was very confusing. One of the reasons he left in such a hurry was that he didn't know what to say to James, and seeing him there was making his brain collapse.

“You lied to me.” James said betrayed. “You have somebody else.”

“Victoria is not somebody else, actually, you are.” He corrected.

“But you married me first”. What can he say, the boy got a point.

“This is not going to work, James.”

“Why not? It's my glasses, isn't it?” He asked worried.

“No, it's not your glasses, they are fine, they look…attractive.” Regulus hadn't thought about that before but the glasses did give James kind of a sexy look. “Listen, under different circumstances, well, who knows? But we're just too different. I mean, you're dead.”

“You should've thought about that before you asked me to marry you.” James seemed offended.

“Why can't you understand? It was a mistake. I would never marry you.”

Once again sadness became part of his face and once again Regulus regretted saying that. He was so divided between what he was supposed to do and what he wanted to, but he said one thing right, they were too different, they didn't even belong to the same world.

That was the thing about fate, this treacherous and invisible little thing that seemed to have so much power over him, he couldn't control it, and Regulus hated not being able to control things.

“Perhaps you do belong with her. Little Miss Living, with her rosy cheeks and beating heart.” He replied before disappearing into a cold and sad mist.

“Victoria, I don't know how to explain…” He began but was interrupted by her.

“You don't need to, I saw it in your eyes.” She said softly. “You want to be with him.”

Maybe she was right. He had never felt his heart beat that fast, ironic how James could make him feel so alive. But how could they do this? It was impossible for them to be together, it seemed like no one listened to the amount of times he told that he was alive while James was not and he was almost certain you couldn't bring someone back.

“I know what you are thinking, and you're right, but there's a way, you can be the one to join him.” She said as if it was a normal thing to say out loud.

“You're saying I should die?”

“For love, I would.” She explained how it should be done and left him alone to think.

Regulus sat by the piano and started playing some notes to distract himself, how could he make such a decision?

His life was lonely, empty, and surrounded by darkness, he knew that his only purpose was to serve his parents' orders and carry on the family legacy, but how much did that cost him? His freedom for sure, and maybe his soul was just fading along with it. There was nothing he could proudly say it was worth staying alive for, but maybe, just maybe he had something, or someone, worth dying for. And just like everything else that happened in his life, that was some dramatic shit.

And there he was, standing at the altar, with hungry eyes fixed on him, but with Victoria's kind and supportive smile telling him it was okay. And so he said.

“With this hand, I will lift your sorrows. Your cup will never empty, for I will be your wine. With this candle, I will light your way in darkness. With this ring, I ask you to be mine, James.”

“I now pronounce you man and wife…wait what?” He heard the priest say before his vision blurred and he woke up on the other side.

“Reg?” James asked kindly looking at his newly opened green eyes. It was like staring at the great wide ocean, full of beauty and mysteries, and James was desperate to dive in. He wanted to fill himself with his water, let his salt heal his wounds, and more than anything, he wanted to be part of it, just like Regulus was part of the dark sky. “You can't be here. I love you, Regulus. But you're not mine.”

“But I want to, James. I really do. You and Victoria made me realize that sometimes you need to take the threads of fate and trace them yourself, and so I did it, and now I am yours.” He declaired taking James hands.

“That was too much for me to ask, I couldn't have done this.” The boy answred sadly.

“You didn't. You just showed me that I do have feelings in my heart, deep ones, and I want to be embraced by it, I should be allowed to it, shouldn't I? I know now that there's love and beauty in death as much as there's pain and horror in living. I wasn't living James, I was destined for the void, I didn't even have a soul to call mine, and with you I have everything. You didn't asked me to do it, you just showed me the way and I was the one who decided to take the path.” Regulus didn't even know he had all those things inside him, all those words and those feelings, but now it was like he was meant to say it, he had never felt lighter, and nothing has ever felt this right.

“I thought I would never see you again.” Was all James said as he got closer and give him one small kiss pulling way for an instant, just so he could see a smile appearing in Regulus’ lips, and then doing it again.

When two worlds collided it felt like they were always one, like the stars and the sea were all just one big thing embracing the one who was meant for them, fate didn't look that treacherous now, it looked beautiful and it tasted like hope, like not even death could pull those two forces of the universe apart, because if Regulus was a star than James was the biggest one. For him, James was the sun.

“You set me free.” Said James.

“You did the same.” Regulus replied. “And if a heart can still break once it's stopped beating, please don't break mine.”

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I agree so much. And it’s all well and good to say the community is misogynistic (and they ARE) but we need to acknowledge the fact that the people in charge of the event do the least to support the women who take part. The male players do the least as well.

the shit jojo got about “not being s tier” and “not having proved herself” even though the reddit were more than happy to call purpled an s tier before his win was enabled by jojo being given weaker teams than purpled. scott is the one who makes the teams.

hannah feels she is being balanced unfairly and she IS she is being held to a much higher standard than her male counterparts and… why? why is hannah measured by her ‘potential’ but the men are measured by their actual scores? and again it’s scott that’s doing this.

tina being put on the weakest teams ever made and being used solely as a nerf despite her vocal upset at this for what reason? so many people spoke out on that as well and asked even BEGGED scott to give her a good team and he didn’t.

misogyny is a massive problem in the mcc community but it doesnt start and end with the community. its deeply engrained in the event as it is in the vast majority of gaming events. and until theres more of an effort from noxcrew, scott, the male players and even the damn reddit mods, nothing will change. because no one cares enough about women to listen to them alone.

No exactly, it's what Salty said in her post. Hannah and Jojo are absolutely cracked but still are never called S tiers while Nikki and Tina are consistently trashed to the ground even when there's male players with similar statistics.

And the fact that women aren't seen as people but as a nerf for a team speaks louder than everything else. They treat them as accessories that male parties can wear and that's fucking disgusting and entirely the organizers' fault.

Fuck, even the fact that they've introduced a 'women team' doesn't sit right with me cause instead of addressing the actual fucking problem they go "look we are being so inclusive! We are grouping women together!" THAT IS NOT THE ISSUE, THIS IS NOT ABOUT WOMEN BEING TEAMED TOGETHER it's about women being teamed with MEN and being treated like shit for it.

If your response to "your male audience has a serious misogyny problem" is "Ok! we are teaming all the women together so you don't have to see or deal with them" then the problem is on you.

Women don't need a tweet saying "respect women <3", women need men who actually listen and actively correct their audiences when they talk down on their female peers. (But that won't happen cause then they will turn into "the annoying one" who is "making a big deal out of a non issue" and that's not cool)

#discourse #tea.talk

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banfan69 · 7 months

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Garten of ban ban with a kid reader that the mascots basically adopt (all platonic) and can Ithave all the mascots, please .

Garten of BanBan masots adopting a kid reader (PLATONIC):

Part one

BanBan:

He's not good with kids, but he's not gonna leave one he found unattended to be alone. Especially not in such a dangerous place.

He slowly gets attached to you as time goes on, even though he tries his best not to.

He's started reading the parenting books he found.

There is no way out of the kindergarten, and he knows it. He's been filling you and himself with false hopes of reuniting you with your parents.

After the first time you call him Dad, he gives up on trying not to get attached and getting you out.

His newest priority is taking care of his new child, aka you.

"I have some news; I'm going to have a child.", "That's great! I can't wait to meet the-" , "It's you, now sign here "

He definitely shows you off to the other friendly mascots. He's a proud father.

Banbalena:

At first, she only saw you as another student in her class, but that started to change when she realized that you weren't like the other "kids" in her classroom.

I imagine she's like a soccer mom. She cheers you on throughout everything you do.

She makes sure you get an education while you're down there.

Unlike BanBan, she doesn't really try to help you go home. Finders keepers applies to children, too, in her eyes.

She's for sure a helicopter parent.

Stinger Flynn

He didn't care for you at first. You were annoying at best, but he didn't want you to die. He may be a monster, but he's not a monster.

He gets attached to you quicker than expected given how little he usually cares about others.

"I've only had Y/N for three and a half hours, but if anything were to happen to them, I would kill everyone in this facility then myself."

He makes an effort to get you back home. His goal is to get out of there too, why not multitasking.

He doesn't intend on actually adopting you, he considers himself a "temporary caretaker" at the most.

He tried so hard not to get attached to you. He even simply called you "kid" and "child" at first instead of your name like you were some cat or dog he found that he knew he couldn't keep.

Captain Fiddles

He's not a very good parent, but he's entertaining for the most part.

He sorta just stared at you for a while when he first found you.

I don't know much about him personality-wise. The only time I saw his character, alive, in the game was during the car scene, and he just stared at me like there wasn't a thought behind those eyes.

Opilla bird:

She's very protective of you. She won't let any of the other mascots (aside from her chicks) get near you.

You're just another one of her chicks to her. She even tried to feed you like a baby bird.

She knows what's dangerous and will pull you away from something she knows is dangerous.

Jumbo Josh:

He is not the best with kids, but I certainly wouldn't put him on the top of my list.

He puts you in the Jumbo Josh lounge.

He sorta just watches you like you're a pet hampster or a bird.

He occasionally tries to pet you. He is surprisingly gentle, as if he knows how fragile you are.

#mosswuzhere #garten of banban #garten of banban banban #banban fanart #garten of banban 2 #garten of banban fanart #garten of banban 3 #banbaleena #stinger flynn #jumbo josh #opila bird #garten of banban opilla bird #opilla bird #opila chick #captain fiddles #found family

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