#i still want to cry bc they broke me and it’s not fair

[soulsanctuary]

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#tw #one of the most difficult things about getting over physical abuse and trauma is the long term health implications #like. sometimes i wasnt allowed or couldn’t access healthcare so broken or fractured bones never healed right #and now i will forever have to deal with and ache in my ribs and a slight limp #worse on some days than others #even though i know with time and effort and healing i can come close #i still want to cry bc they broke me and it’s not fair #its not fair that i have to live with the constant reminder of what was done to me. as if scars aren’t enough #but it is what it is #sometimes i push my body too hard just to prove it’s mine and that i still can #i need to go easier on myself. my body is me and mine and the fact I’m alive and functioning is a blessing #personal

[hideaway-or-safehouse]

my least favorite thing about having autism + CPTSD is how a trigger of mine can be barely touched and then im silently crying on/off for the rest of the day as i have an autistic shut-down

#my mom was telling me my half-siblings were coming over on sunday. and i just broke #context: my half-siblings have a 20+ year age gap with me and vaguely knew our shared dad was abusing me #and i get not wanting to confirm if abuse is happening to protect yourself from said past abuser and whatnot #but i also just think about the fact that i dont have any of their phone-numbers and none of them checked in on me #and they just come over on christmas (and potentially when invited on fathers day/dad's birthday and whatnot) #and like. if you ask me: i dont consider someone i see for a total of less than 10 hours a year who #also never checked in on if their youngest sibling was being abused for 20+ years a sibling or family #at best: youre like a second cousin three times removed from me or some shit #the people that were with me every day or most days are my family #but yeah. i cant take masking in front of dad AND them rn. so i just fucking broke down #(also: my nieces and nephews are fine. i have no grudges against them. we just also are not close) #(my half-siblings i dont have a grudge against in the sense of actively hating them. i just want them cut out of my life) #(which sucks bc like. my dad is to blame. hes the abuser. it sucks his abuse impacts how i see my half-siblings. but dad is dying and i jus #want his funeral to be the last i hear/see from my half-siblings. like i will get pissed of they try to reconnect post his death like stfu) #(adults who didnt intervene bc they had no idea: fair enough. // adults who didnt intervene even tho they had a p good idea bc they #were abused by the same person: fuck you. like. just be estranged from me (and dad) my whole life. i could pardon that. not this tho.) #anyway. i think the solution is to just: not be home on sunday #idk what my lie will be but im still crying about all this.so evidently i doubt ill be able to disassociate well enough to ''tough it out'' #barnes and nobles sounds nice. i probably would want to bring my cat with me in her backpack but thatll be suspicious so idk #maybe ill just fake sick in my bedroom. i dont want to tho #id rather just leave the house #ill probably get some pushback bc its dad's birthday celebration but i think its p obvious ill start crying soooooo #shame my mom thought she was being nice (she was. my half-sibs and my dad is dying. of course they wanna be there for his birthday) #i just wish things were different #might delete later

[slut4slytherinss]

Labyrinth

Pt. 1 - Gold Rush

SEND REQUESTS!!

Summary: reader finds herself falling in love, hard, for Mattheo not long after she broke her own heart over him. Initially convinced that she will never recover from her pain that he caused, she marvels at how she finds comfort in the boy that hurt her.

1,470 words

Warnings: cursing, basically the same as pt.1 minus the angst, so much cheesiness it’s gross, lovey dovey!mattheo bc I’m extremely soft, sort of angsty but in a beautiful way, these aren’t even warnings atp, the other students being jealous cunts, possible references to books or movies, Regulus is STILL dead (wdym he’s literally in bed beside me rn), Dorothea being kind of rude (dw my girl is still your bestie), Drastoria(to all you Drarry shippers I’m sorry), mention of ronmione, slight rush and basically no plot, SUPER FUCKING SHORT IM SORRY😞

2nd person pov

Hufflepuff prefect reader

Female reader

“It only hurts this much right now.” Was what I was thinking the whole time.

You walk down the hallway aside Mattheo, fingers intertwined. You agreed to try it out and it’s lasted a month, but that doesn’t stop everyone in the castle from starting rumors. He traces circles on the back of your hand with his thumbnail, in a comforting manner, he leans in to whisper in your ear “Let’s go back to my dorm, okay?” You nod. You two go to his dorm a lot, not to hook up, you haven’t had sex since the party, his dorm is like a safe space — and his friends are fucking awesome. You’ve barely even told Dorothea what your relationship has been like, becoming closer and closer with the Slytherins.

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When you get into his dorm you take your robe off, leaving you in your white button-up, skirt that rests appropriately at your knees, calf high socks and black Doc Martens. Mattheo places your robe gently atop a chair next to his desk before taking his own robe off and kicking his shoes off. “Lay with me, love?” He asks sweetly which causes you to roll your eyes, but oblige. You lie next to him in the bed, just talking. That’s all you two ever do lately, though, it gives you a fair bit of anxiety — trusting him with your secrets. It terrifies you, actually. You need to just—

Breathe in, breathe through, breathe deep, breathe out. I’ll be getting over you, my whole life.

Seriously. He’s unforgettable. You close your eyes and take a deep breath, trying to ease your nerves. Mattheo must feel how tense you are because he begins to trace stars on your back, it’s his little form of comfort. I’ve never been good at that, he’d told you once. Which seems like total bullshit because he always manages to calm you, or at least make you forget about your issues for a while. That also scares you, the fact he can make you want to cry, strangle him, and yourself, but also smile, laugh, hug him. Terrifies you. No one has ever impacted you this much. Everything is moving so fast, but Mattheo is there with you, along for the ride.

You know how scared I am of elevators. Never trust it if it rises fast, it can’t last.

-

You walk into your dorm, laying down on your bed and dropping your bag on the floor. You quickly turn over when you hear Dorothea’s voice “Look who’s finally home.” She says in an annoyed tone. “Dor? What are you doing in here?” You sit up, she looks at you with raised brows and crossed arms. “Really? You start dating Mattheo Riddle, leave me alone for weeks, get new friends and you’re asking me why I’m here?” You swallow, “You told me you’d get over him, you lied to me.” “Dorothea, c’mon, this is like—like a trial, to see if we’re good together, he’s really sweet.” You try to justify your actions “He’s Mattheo Riddle!” She whispers aggressively, shaking her head. “He’s my boyfriend!” You spit out, the word feeling foreign on your tongue. Dorothea visibly flinches, “What?” “He’s—he’s my boyfriend,” you repeat, more confidently. “You just said that the relationship was a trial.” “Well it is, but he’s still my boyfriend. Mine. So stop trying to criticize him and me simply because I care for him.” You breathe out that last part “You care for him?” She asks with a raised eyebrow. “Yes, I care for him. It’s not like—I’m in love with him or something, I just care.” You say quickly. You’re not in love with him. You can’t be, right?

Uh oh, I’m falling in love again. Oh no, I’m falling in love again. Oh, I’m falling in love. I thought the plane was going down how’d you turn it right around?

-

The day after your interaction with Dorothea is, odd, to say the least. You sit outside in the courtyard, leaning against a tree, you’ve been avoiding Mattheo like the plague ever since your revelation. This whole things just feels so—raw. But of course he found you.

It only feels this raw right now, lost in the labyrinth of my mind.

“Hey,” he gives you a small smile. “Hi.” You reply, he sits down next to you. “I haven’t seen you all day, you avoiding me?” That causes you to laugh—and also tell the truth with a few nods. “Yeah, yeah I have.” He tilts his head but doesn’t seem upset in the slightest. “Why’s that?” “Well—um,” you try to get the words out but they seem a little stuck. “It’s okay, take your time.” He brings his hand down to hold yours, tracing gentle circles on your palm. You smile and lean your head on his shoulder. “I care about you, Mattheo.” You admit. He grins, really grins. “I care about you too.” The boy says, “Really?” He nods “Always have,” he leans down so his lips are right next to your ear, “always will.” His whisper is like a secret for only you to hear, a promise that will never be broke, a sacred oath.

Break up, break free, break through, break down. You would break your back to make me break a smile.

-

“Boys!” You call out in a sing-song voice, “I’ve brought sweets!” They got in trouble for talking too loudly during class and were removed from this weeks Hogsmeade weekend, you decided to buy them some sweets. Blaise is the first to you, “Thank Merlin, Y/n!” He snatches a bag from you as you giggle. You toss some sweets onto Draco’s bed as all the boys thank you, Mattheo stands up and wraps his arms around you from behind, kissing your cheek. That action causes all the others to groan and tell you to “Get a room.” Pansy and Astoria walk into the room, talking animatedly, Astoria sits on Draco’s bed beside him, tossing bags of clothes at him, “I’ve got you a new suit.” He grins and kisses the side of her neck in thanks. “Y/n! You totally missed it,” Pansy exclaims, practically shoving Mattheo off of you to lock her arm onto yours. “We caught Weasley and Granger snogging in the bathrooms at Three Broomsticks!” You giggle at her words and sit down on Mattheo’s bed with her, “Seriously? You steal my girlfriend and now my bed?” He asks Pansy, in a mock-offended way, she sticks her tongue out at him. “C’est la vie.” Blaise shrugs with a smirk playing at his lips as he eats the chocolate you gave him. “Speaking of that,” Theodore begins “how’s the sex Matt?” He teases, which causes you to blush and Mattheo to shove Theodore. “Shut it man, that’s so gross.” “Oh c’mon!” Astoria exclaims, “Y/n never tells us anything about it.” She shakes her head. “Maybe she doesn’t want to.” Mattheo defends you, you just stay silent. You tune them out, you just hate how everyone already wants you to be sleeping together. Why would you? It’s taken you long enough to call him your boyfriend, let alone touch him (approximately three weeks). Sure, you’ve hooked up before, but never as a couple. That act is supposed to be intimate with a person you care about. So why do it so soon? You’re taken away from your thoughts by the feel of Mattheo’s hand gripping yours.

You know how much I hate that everybody just expects me to bounce back. Just like that.

-

It’s now been around two months, officially dating, Dorothea has apologized and became friends with the Slytherin’s, it’s all perfect. Except, you and Mattheo still haven’t kissed nor done anything but cuddle and hold hands. You’re not sure why but the act feels too intimate, too scary for you. You’ve kissed lots of guys before—granted none were your boyfriend—but still. You can’t seriously be falling for him, right?

“Hey love,” Mattheo murmurs, dropping a kiss on the top of your head. “Did Dorothea let you in?” You question with a yawn, he just hums and nods, sitting next to you on your bed. “How’s my girl doing?” He asks, “Stressed and exhausted.” You reply as you trace your quill along the parchment “You’re seriously doing that extra credit essay?” “Yes, Mattheo, I am. I’m totally failing Slughorn’s class and he never lets us do shit like this for extra credit, I’m savoring it.” He chuckles and pulls you closer to him by your waist. “Just take a little break. For me?” You groan but end up giving in, leaning back against his chest. “You’re so lucky I lo—“ you cut yourself off quickly, immediately looking away from him. He stiffens, “You what?” He murmurs, you swallow. “Nothing, nothing important.” You say quickly. Mattheo desperately wants to change the subject so he just nods and looks forward.

Uh oh, I’m falling in love again. Oh no, I’m falling in love again. Oh, I’m falling in love. I thought the plane was going down how’d you turn it right around?

After a few minutes of silence, Mattheo speaks again “What were you going to say?” He asks in a whisper, his thumb tracing gentle circles on your hip bone. “It doesn’t matter.” You murmur, but Mattheo is quite persistent and asks again, you finally give in and mutter “I love you.” Which causes his breath to catch, I love you, those words shouldn’t be a big deal—you aren’t asking him to marry you or anything—but they are. He swallows before murmuring “Really?” To which you reply with a timid “Yes.” A slow smile creeps up on his face. “Well, I love you too.” You grin like an idiot, love, a silly thing to be obsessing over—but alas, you are.

Uh oh, I’m falling in love again. Oh no, I’m falling in love again. Oh, I’m falling in love. I thought the plane was going down how’d you turn it right around?

-

A/N: sorry this one was so short, I just wanted to end this on a sweet note.. sooooo yeah. And sorry for the wait lol🙈🙈

#angst #fluff #harry potter #slytherin #blaise zabini #draco malfoy #evermore #slytherin boys #mattheo riddle fluff #mattheo riddle #mattheo x you #mattheoxreader #mattheo x y/n #mattheo riddle angst #x reader #slytherin boys x reader #x you fluff #x you #benjamin wadsworth #Benjamin wadsworth x reader #slut4slytherinss #this took way too long #labyrinth #taylor swift #midnights #fanfic #pls dont hate me #don’t flop #literally gonna kms #i’m dead

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

would i be the asshole for contacting my ex to ask them if they could stop talking about me online to a community that knows who i am? (🥐)

tw: kinda emotionally abusive relationship

bg info

me (24f) and my ex (28) were in a three month relationship three years ago following a whole year of friendship. they were my first partner and i came out as a lesbian to everyone during our relationship. when we were together, they were 24 and i was 20. i was very emotionally dependent on them when i was 20 due to mental health issues and so were they which is probably one of the reasons why our relationship was as explosive as it was. i looked up to them, my whole emotional world revolved around them, and our friendship/relationship was the only thing i had in my life at the time. they constantly asked me "hey is it even ethical that im dating you, im 4 years older, you tell me please, oh i feel like such a bad person", yet, they still continued dating me every time they would ask.

our fights were horrible and truly explosive as they broke their stuff in front of me out of anger, threw things at me and insulted me as stupid, amongst many other things. our fights usually ensued because i would ask them for reassurance and they would start panicking and screaming at me to shut up. to be fair, i would cry every time i was asking for reassurance which probably made them feel scared about losing me, so i consider myself 50% at fault for everything that happened in our relationship, i shouldve been able to talk to them in a secure manner that wouldnt trigger their abandonment issues. our fights were quite jarring and made me walk out on them several times out of fear. yet i always came back and apologized and took the whole accountability, even though i dont consider myself the only one at fault. walking out several times during fights was probably one of the worst things i could have done but at the same time i was simply scared. even when i walked out after our last fight, they begged me to come back, which i did, i apologized under tears, and yet, told them that i cant promise them to stay no matter what.. and left.

we met through tumblr and were in a medium distance relationship. after our relationship, i went to a clinic and had to learn a lot about myself, what i experienced and what i want from life. im in a very happy and healthy place now and since the end of 2021 im with my current partner whom i want to be the love of my life and whom ive started to build a life with.

context

i have my ex blocked on all social media because they used to do hour long deep dives into my blog, even as of recently (i have statcounter installed for my safety bc im paranoid about them sending me anonymous asks). at first i also used to visit their blog after our break up but stopped doing so after moving on with my life. one year after breaking up i temporarily unblocked them and explicitly asked them not to look at my social media (or at least to do it in a way in which i dont notice aka asked them not to watch my instagram stories).

while i dont visit their blog/social media because i dont want to know whats going on in their life, tumblr mutuals frequently dm me stuff like "hey i think you should know that your ex posted about you/shit talks about something that you posted". i havent asked my mutuals to tell me whenever this happens but i imagine they do so because within the tumblr space we exist, everyone kind of knows everyone (so my ex doesnt have to mention my name for people to know who theyre talking about). sometimes mutuals send screenshots of the posts so that i dont have to visit my ex's blog. last ive heard my ex joked about throwing jewelry at me and posted extensively about a tattoo that i got. my ex's behavior makes me uncomfortable and feel just as helpless as i did back then.

why i might be the asshole

im scared that they might be venting because i was more at fault in the relationship than them and that i am unconsciously deflecting. however, i talked about every detail of the relationship and this fear extensively with my therapist, friends, and partner who are of the opinion that i was young, scared, and intertwined in a relationship that was incredibly toxic. im still unsure though because my emotions frequently triggered theirs.

why they might be the asshole

i asked them once to stop visiting my social media and i feel like venting about our relationship that broke off 3 years ago to a tumblr community of friends and acquaintances is kind of unfair. however, i might be the asshole and they might just need the space for venting. i could just ignore the vents and let them heal in their own way from what ensued.

WIBTA if i confronted them again and told them that i want them to stop talking about me online? or would i be a party pooper because every person needs a space for venting?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

[bowandcurtsey]

When the kids ask for a second child (haikyuu) 

So I did this with the BC boys and I thought of some scenarios for the Haikyuu boys too ♡ඩ⌔ඩ♡

Kuroo | Bokuto | Atsumu | Tsukishima | Oikawa x f! reader

d/n : daughter's name s/n : son's name h/n : her name

TW: pregnancy, implications of nsfw but not mentioned, unchecked.

Black Clover Version

Kuroo Tetsuro

"Daa daa!!" d/n ran towards her dad the first thing he stepped into the house. Her eyes were red and there were still tears left in her eyes.

"hey there little one," your husband picked your 3 year old up, "are you crying because you missed your daddy soooo much?"

"you wish," you laughed at your husband, giving him a peck on his lips as he frowned.

"so you don't miss daddy anymore? My princess is all grown up now, huh?" he feigned a hurt expression to your daughter.

"I do.." d/n gave a little pout exactly like her father's, "but daddy, Aunty h/n and Uncle Bokuto are having another baby!!"

"oya?" Kuroo looked at you in confusion, "why is this a news to cry about?"

"It's not fair!" d/n wailed, "I want another baby too!"

Kuroo laughed as he tossed his daughter in the air, giving a little kiss to her forehead.

"I'm on it," he winked at his mini him, "give daddy about 4 weeks, then you can share with Uncle Bo that you're gonna have another sibling too~"

"Tetsu!!" you pinched his sides, but something tells you that he was indeed serious.

Bokuto Koutaro

"Mummy! You're buttercup, I'm Blossom and d/n is Bubbles!" Your twin daughter came running to you while you were making an afternoon snack for the family.

"Hey! how about daddy!" your husband whined.

"You're professor!" d/n, twin number 2 exclaimed.

"But that makes mummy my daughter!" you husband finally got the logic right, "That's wrong! Mummy's my wife!"

You always found it funny how your husband liked to bicker with his 4 year old twin daughters about small matters like this.

"Okay!" twin number 1 exclaimed, "Mummy, we need another sister!"

"YA!!" twin 2 shouted from the living room.

"HEY HEY HEY!!" your husband stood up, skipping towards you with sparkles in his eyes.

He picked up the carrot you were slicing and dipped it into the hummus, "I think that's a great idea, mummy."

The carrot and hummus were placed right at your lips, "I think we can have the powerpuff boys next~"

"BO!"

Miya Atsumu

"alright, let's eat!" Osamu placed the pot of curry down on the dining table. You, Atsumu and your 3 year old son were visiting Osamu and h/n at their new home. Of course Osamu the chef had to cook personally for his favourite little nephew, s/n.

s/n always loved eating whatever his uncle made. He would polish his plate clean and that always made Osamu very proud.

"So~" h/n started to talk as everyone began eating, "we have news to tell you guys~"

"h/n is pregnant!" Osamu could barely contain himself.

Atsumu and you cheered loudly. "s/n! Uncle samu gonna have a baby! you'll have a play mate!" Atsumu told his son.

s/n stared at everyone with a blank look, feeling confused at what was going on. He didn't really understood the words 'pregnant', or 'playmate' quite yet."

As the four of you settled down, s/n suddenly broke the silence. "daaadaa! I want baby too!"

Everyone broke into laughter again as Osamu scruffled his nephew's hair.

Atsumu propped his head on his elbows as he looked at you with a grin on his face, "we'll have to see what mama says about that, little monkey~"

"Okay, let's just focus on dinner, shall we!" your face was flushed red.

Tsukishima Kei

"daddy~" your little princess tugged onto her dad's fingers. It was always when she wanted something from her dad, she'd do that.

"What is it, d/n?" The middle blocker picked his daughter up.

"Stella said that she's gonna have another sister in awhile so she won't have time to play with me next time..." she pouted

"oh, Stella from school?"

"Uh huh.." she frowned, "daddy?"

"Mhmm?"

"Can I have another sister too?"

Tsukishima blinked twice at what his daughter just said. The heat creeping up to his face as his ear tips reddened.

He cleared his throat, "What if it's a brother?"

"no, I don't want a brother!" d/n crossed her arm.

"But we can't really decide on whether it's a boy or a girl, princess.." Tsukishima gave his daughter a little sheepish smile.

"okay.. I just want another baby so they can play with stella's baby and I can play with Stella again!"

Tsuki raised a brow at his daughter. She was indeed smart but in kinda the wrong way. He shook his head, deciding not to further explain the situation.

"I'll talk to mommy tonight, okay? So you'll have to head to bed earlier so mommy and I have time to discuss about this."

Oikawa Tooru

"daadaa maamaa!!" your four year old was excited to see both of you pick her up today.

Your husband carried her in one arm and held your hand on the other. Even as he grew older, your husband's charisma never faded, there were still many moms stealing glances at his handsome features. But now as he held your daughter and you, all you felt was pride.

"Teacher Daisy is having a baby in her belly!!" she excitedly exclaimed.

You both looked at the young teacher, and congratulated her, wishing her all the best and to take good care of yourself.

"Cupcake, you have to be careful around Teacher Daisy, alright, do not knock into her or cause her to fall, her little baby in her belly might get hurt." You reminded d/n.

"Okay mama," she nodded her head

"When you were in your mommy's belly, daddy was very careful too~" your husband smiled at the memory, "daddy watched as you grew bigger in mommy's belly~"

"daadaa, I want to take care of mama and the baby in her belly too!"

"mama has no baby in my belly right now, cupcake." you giggled.

"That can be changed," Oikawa winked at you.

"Tooru!" you gave him the look.

d/n clapped her hands, "yes yes!! baby!!"

"Honey, we have to give our little cupcake what she wants~" Oikawa wriggled his brows at you.

#kuroo x reader #kuroo tetsuro x reader #kuroo scenarios #bokuto koutaro x reader #bokuto x reader #bokuto hcs #atsumu miya x reader #atsumu headcanons #atsumu imagines #tsukishima kei headcanons #tsukishima kei x reader #tsukishima x reader #oikawa tooru x reader #oikawa x reader #oikawa headcanons #haikyuu scenarios #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu fanfiction #haikyuu fic #haikyuu x reader

[allamericanb-tch]

crimson rivers thoughts (12)

@tastetherainbow290

chapter 26

rip james potter’s leg he’s gone full peeta

sirius is visiting reg

reg ☹️

talking about throwing up is arguably the worst part of this fic so far

“It's fine. I didn't even like this shirt. (Sirius really liked this shirt.)”

i am legitimately shaking but i don’t know if this is important so i need to read it

please stop talking about throwing up

poor regulus i feel so bad

and hes throwing up again

i cant even think about this what if i just skim the rest

ok pov switch thank god

oh no i forgot remus has to go back… 

sirius is so considerate

nooo remu

sirius pov again im praying there isn’t any more throwing up

and there it is.

poor regulus ahhhhh i just feel so bad for him like. i want to give him a hug.

why doesn’t regulus want to see james ☹️

sirius is visiting james now

that was sweet. sad, but sweet.

remus pov again

remu ❤️‍🩹

can someone tell me why the rat is my 5th most used emoji

"You're so precious to me, did you know that?"

remus loves sirius (duh)

chapter 27

i’m sad for wolfstar what’s gonna happen

"You can trust that the only person I have an interest in seeing naked is your brother." 😭

this hallow drama is actually hilarious

reggie 💔

i’m scared that pandora is going to die in the future bc we have t seen any of her pov

this is so sad.

no thoughts just sadness.

“i’m collecting them all” i’m glad to see you making jokes reg

"Oh, this is just the bruise finally blooming from where I tripped and fell the moment I saw you,"

this was a lighter chapter but still sad

chapter 28

back to james pov

oh no a nightmare

CRAP I FORGOT ABT MY MATH HOMEWORK it was due yesterday but she hasn’t graded it yet so if i turn it in now she won’t take of points for it being late

math homework is finished! back to reading (suffering)

oh yeah. nightmare. ☹️

"I wasn't supposed to go through this," no james, you were not. i’m sad now (i have been sad)

james leave regulus aloneeee (don’t leave him alone)

shrodinger’s cat mention

“james”

i’m actually crying right now.

nooo why are the fighting

james is getting his glasses back soon!!! huzzah

"I don't want to be a great, big tragedy anymore,"

baby

“it’s a parting gift” i’m crying again

regulus and remus friendship <3

“we broke up” “you were together?” 😭

ugh this is so sad. already i’ve cried more times than reading atyd AND choices and ive barely made a dent in cr

oh no interview prep

evan mention 💔

every time i see the word hallow in this fic im like “i need to add this (hallow/hollow) to my list of homophones” and i never do bc im writing all my thoughts in my notes app and my homophones list is in a different folder than my marauders thoughts 

chapter 29

oh me oh my hanky panky happening in this chapter i wonder for who

every time i call sex hanky panky i give myself the ick

"We broke up? This is news to me” james 😭

“No one needs romantic love to be fulfilled as a person. Not everyone wants it, and then there are those who aren't ready, and all of it is okay. That doesn't mean there's an absence of love, or that you're getting it wrong. You're not, Regulus, I promise." 

they’re holding hands (but for sad reasons)

interview time i’m scared

evan ☹️☹️☹️

vanity ☹️☹️☹️

“We love your love, don't we?" 💔

this is so sad omg i genuinely don’t know how im going to survive this

GLASSES!!!!!!

so he’s just been wearing contacts this whole time?

ok i need to go do my duolingo. 

i am back from duolingo.

james telling sirius to go have sex with remus on their last night 😭 i mean fair. they should

"I'm absolutely thinking about your brother right now." oh, james

james telling sirius about him and reg 😭 poor sirius

sirius asking james for tips 💀

“i expect all the details” james fleamont potter 😭

sirius is such a good brother. i love him. 

remus pov !!

“i would not have known joy if i did not have the pleasure of knowing you”

ugh wolfstar. i love you. 

😯 hanky panky

spine has been realigned

ok but any time any of them ever talk about getting off it just makes me think about one time when i was at a district choir concert and when we were practicing one of our songs the director said “there won’t be a dry seat in the audience” (he meant dry eye, bc the song was beautiful, but it just came out like everyone in the audience would dream their pants 😭) but. unnecessary story and it isn’t really that funny unless you were there but. 

chapter 30 (?!)

evan 💔

god.

remus ‘reading’ sirius’ mind 😭

they have to say goodbye ☹️

barty mention!!!!

*singing* i just miss you and i just wish you were a better man

“i love you” eeeeeeeee

omg kissing

and it’s over.

“i don’t want to hurt you anymore” 💔

eeeee they’re kissing again

“it’ll take a while but later—much later—james will look back on this and wonder, sadly, if it was a parting gift, too.” WHAT

sirius kissing the mask so remus will always have a sirius kiss

i love pandora

wolfstar goodbye 💔

the fact that all of this happened in the span of two weeks

effie and monty!!!!!!!!!!

the next chapter is lily… should i read it or go to sleep 

#crimson rivers

[honeybear-yammy]

hey!! i was wondering if you could do a friends to lovers damon salvatore x non-binary (or just gender neutral) reader where the reader has feelings for damon but doesn't tell him bc they don't feel like they could ever match up to elena? and there's this big dramatic confession and everything?

Never A Competition | Damon Salvatore

Warnings: cursing, a little angst, self-doubt, self-comparing, love confession, friends to lovers, fluff.

Pairings: Damon Salvatore x Non-Binary Reader

Summary: In which Y/N wants to tell Damon how they feel but, their scared that they could never be what Elena was to Damon but, little do they know, Damon feels the exact same way for them.

© Honeybear-Yammy, please do not steal, translate, copy, or transfer my work.

You parked my car in front of the Salvatore Boarding house. Damon had invited you to come over to hang out with him. Damon and you had been friends since the beginning. You were the first human that he trusted with his vampire secret. Even before Elena. Yet, you still felt like Elena was better than you. You had always felt like that. And you always thought that Damon had liked Elena more than he liked you, even though he had never said anything before.

But, when Damon called you and asked you to come over to hang out today, you had decided that today was the day that you were going to tell Damon your feelings for him. You have had a crush on Damon for as long as you can remember but, when he started dating Elena, you thought that you'd never have a chance since Elena seemed so perfect. But, when Elena and Damon had broken up over a year ago, you started thinking that maybe you did have a chance with him. Maybe there was a chance that he wanted you more than he ever wanted Elena.

You got out of your cat before locking your car. You walked up to the boarding house and looked around until you found Damon sitting in the den. "Hey, there you are." You said with a smile as you walked over and sat on the sofa. Damon was sitting there with a glass of bourbon in his hand. "Yeah, here I am- wait.. Y/N, are you okay?" He asked softly. You had been thinking about how to tell Damon how you felt about him but, every time you tried to think about what so say to him, you always started comparing yourself to Elena. Your gaze left his and landed on the wood floor in front of you.

"I'm fine." You said quietly. Damon corked a brow and put his glass down on the end table beside him before getting up out of his chair and coming to sit next to you on the couch. "Hey, whatever it is, you can tell me. You know that right?" He said. "I told you I'm fine. There's nothing wrong." You said. "I know when you're lying Y/N so, please drop the act and just tell me what's wrong." He said. "Well, you must be wrong this time because I am not lying about anything. I told you I am fine, so I am fine. Let's just talk about something else." You said feeling all of your emotions come up inside of you.

"I'm not dropping this until you tell me what's wrong, Y/N." Damon said as he put a hand on your shoulder. You couldn't hold your emotions in any longer. You had been trying to hide your emotions from him for years and finally, you couldn't hold them back anymore. Before you could even say anything, you started crying. "Look, I like you, okay! I- honestly it's more than like, if I'm being honest, I'm in love with you Damon! I have for a long time now and I've wanted to tell you for so many fucking years but, I just couldn't. I was so scared of what would happen if I did." You sniffled before continuing.

"And then when you started dating Elena I thought that it was over for me and I felt like that all the years that you and Elena had dated. And don't get me wrong I was happy for both of you but, I also couldn't help but be so jealous. I was so jealous of her. It seemed like she already had everything and then she got to have the man of my dreams? It just didn't seem fair. But, then you and Elena broke up and I thought that maybe, just maybe I had a chance with you but, I just- I couldn't help but compare myself to the perfect Elena Gilbert." You ranted as you cried before you went silent. Damon sat there and looked at you and he was kind of shocked.

"I just thought that... I couldn't compare to her. That she was better than me. And that since she was so much better than me that you deserved better than me.." You sighed and sniffled. "I could never give you what she gave you..." You whispered. Before you could do or say anything else, Damon pulled you into his lap and hugged you. You gasped a little at the new contact but, you didn't fight it. "Listen, none of that is true." He said softly. "You don't need to compare yourself to Elena, okay? You are amazing and perfect. I mean yeah, I was happy with Elena for a time but, now I realize she isn't who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with." He said. You looked up at him and sniffled.

"Then who do you want to spend the right of your life with?" You asked quietly. Damon smiled before chuckling a little. "You don't know who it is?" He asked. You just shook your head slowly. "Well silly... it's you." He said. You looked at him in shock before sitting up right in his lap. "Wait.. it's me?" You asked confused. "Yeah, it is. I feel the exact same way about you." Damon said with a smile. You began to smile when you realized what was happening. "So... does this mean that.. you love me?" You asked with a smile. He smiled more. "Yeah, I do. More than anything." He said. You ended up grinning from ear to ear before you gently pulled him into a soft, loving kiss.

Today ended up being a way better day then you thought it was going to be. You no longer were comparing yourself to Elena. You weren't stressing out about Damon. You finally got to tell Damon how you've felt about him for so many years and, you found out that he's just as much in love with you as you are with him. Nothing could make this day even better than it already was.

Author's Note: tysm for reading!

#tvd #tvdu #the vampire diaries #vampire diaries #the vampire diaries universe #damon salvatore #d. salvatore #damonsalvatore #damon #salvatore #damon salvatore x reader #damon salvatore x non-binary reader #damon salvatore x gender neutral reader #damon salvatore x you #damon salvatore x y/n #damon salvatore x oc #fluff #tvd fluff #tvdu fluff #damon fluff #damon salvatore fluff #angst #tvd angst #tvdu angst #damon angst #damon salvatore angst #ian somerhalder #i. somerhalder #ian somerhalder x reader #yammy's fics

[viilpstick]

THIS IS MY REVENGE. HOW DARE YOU. HURT YUUNA... RAHHH

But to be fair I'm unsure that this will make u that sad since it has a hopeful ending🧍🏻‍♀️ I tried. Also. May I add. This is like years after their marriage (so they're well in their mid 20s/late 20s), pregnancy was by accident yada yada... I thought this idea would be good for Leona's character development when it comes to children since he would learn to not be afraid of treating his child like crap because he just would want to have them so bad, aka Kyra was a very wanted child by him. Also "them" is used bc I don't like using "it" for an unborn child and I didn't know if leobelle knew the gender of the baby yet

Also tw: m1sc4rr14ge, plus it's probably not well depicted but hey I did my best

•••

When Leona finally arrived home he didn't want anything more than to jump on his bed with Isabelle and sleep, though he was certain she would complain his ear off about wanting to sleep so early, that there was still stuff they could do… sometimes his wife was a real workaholic.

“Isa.” Leona called, the nickname now rolled off his tongue nicely, but he remembered a time where it felt strange, unnatural. He couldn't even remember now how he was so far away from Isabelle. “Isabelle?” He called once again, not finding her around the house.

Leona walked around, going from room to room and quickly stopping to take a look at… his child’s room.

When Isabelle had come to him, all worried with a pregnancy test showing positive, his heart sank for two reasons: one, the fact that Isabelle was worried about his reaction to her carrying his child, and two, the fact that… she was right to be worried, and unfortunately, he couldn't find much joy in the matter.

Leona knew himself, through his experiences with Cheka he was aware he had a problem with children. No, he didn't hate them, they're children; however, he had a very difficult time dealing with them, their lack of personal space, lack of ability to read a room and just their constant energy made Leona tired and irritable. He didn't want kids, he knew he would be an awful father because of his lack of patience and understanding… and deep down… he was scared his child would be mistreated because of being the son or daughter of the failed second prince.

But now Isabelle had a child growing inside her, and he couldn't just ignore that fact. 

Leona looked around the yellow room, the toys they had bought, the little crib… he sighed. He needed to suck it up and be a man, not only for Isabelle and that child but to himself.

Suddenly, he heard sobs. 

“Isabelle?” He called, walking a bit faster to the bathroom, where he heard the noise. His hand on the door handle. “Isabelle, are you alright?”

No response, the sobs just continued like she couldn't even hear him, but he couldn't leave her there alone, he needed to see if she was ok. He opened the door, and his eyes widened in shock, looking everywhere around the room.

Isabelle was crying, hugging her legs, and beneath her and around other parts of the floor there was blood. So much blood. 

“Wha– Isa, hey, look at me.” He urged, crouching down in front of her, grabbing her arms and face to make her look at him. She avoided his eyes and she couldn't stop crying, and Leona looked everywhere around her to understand where she was hurt. “Isa, where are you hurt? What happened? Can you get up?” After he finally got a hold of her face, she held his wrists and broke down once again, her tears falling down fast and she couldn't stop. Leona was so insanely worried, his mate was hurt, but he couldn't see where, he didn't understand. The smell of blood was making him sick, but he couldn't nor did he want to leave her alone like this. “We need a doctor. Wait here, I'll get the–”

“I lost them.” Isabelle mumbled before Leona was able to walk away, his hands being held by hers so he wouldn't leave. She looked at him desperately, almost as if begging for help. “I lost them, Leona. I lost them.”

He stared at her, then, his gaze made its way to her belly.

No.

“Isabelle, what do you mean?”

“I'm sorry.”

“Isa.” He urged, crouching down once again, holding her face gently as he felt his eyes sting. “What do you mean?” 

Isabelle couldn't answer, his question seemed to make her cry even more, as she threw herself in his chest and held onto his shirt. She kept apologizing, kept saying how this was her fault for not taking better care of herself, for not resting enough, for not eating as well as she should. Leona couldn't speak as he himself started tearing up.

He lost them. Before he could even meet them. Before he could even show his love for them or try to fight his awful habits.

They was gone.

•••

“Your highness, please, you should try to eat a bit, I promise it's–” the servant was interrupted by Leona as he took the plate and water from her telling her to go fulfill other duties. The servant bowed down and left, Leona sat on their bed.

“Isa.” He said softly after putting the plate on his lap and the cup of water on their night stand. “You need to eat, my love.” Isabelle didn't even move, she just kept with her back turned to him, hugging her body. Normally, she would blush and ask why he was suddenly using such a sweet nickname, but right now, there was no reaction. Leona sighed. “Please. If you can't do it for yourself, do it for me.”

Isabelle stayed quiet, but after a few seconds, she slowly sat up, her blanket falling on her lap as she looked down to her hands. Her eyes were red and puffy from all the crying, her hair was a mess from trying to sleep the day away… it was like a mirror, really. She looked just like him when he was still at NRC.

All the more reason to take care of her.

Leona grabbed her chin, making her look at him. “I need you to eat. Even if it's just a bit. Do you think you can do it?”

“...I can try.”

“That’s more than enough.” Leona got a bit of the chicken soup in the spoon, blowing on it so it wouldn't burn Isabelle's mouth, then, he offered it to her. She ate it without saying a word, chewing on it very slowly, and swallowing it as if it hurt her. After five bites or so, Isabelle started rejecting the food, and Leona sighed. “Isabelle, you must eat to stay healthy.”

“I wasn't healthy enough to carry our child, so what does it matter now?”

Silence. 

“The doctor said it wasn't because of your health. The embryo just couldn't develop properly.”

“The baby couldn't develop properly.” She corrected him, her eyebrows furrowed as her eyes started to sting. “Why do you refuse to call them that?”

“Isabelle.” The beastman said, a stern tone of his voice and the woman flinched. She knew she crossed a line, but goodness she was so angry. She was so sad. She didn't know what to do. 

“Why do you refuse to call them a child? You even refused to get into our child’s room, the servants had to take all of our baby’s stuff for themselves.” She questioned, her eyes tearing up, and once a tear fell she dried it right away. Sorrow, anger and pain filling her heart. “Why are you being so… so cold?”

“Because if I call them a child, if I look at their stuff I won't be able to live with myself.” He finally explained himself. Isabelle stared at him. Leona felt his own eyes sting so he blinked a few times to try and push the tears away. He put the plate on their night stand. “Isa, I– I don't talk about it because I can't. I knew I wouldn't be a good father but– that was my child. I didn't even get a chance to try.”

Isabelle went quiet at that. She started fidgeting with her hands while seeing from the corner of her eye Leona resting his face on his hand. She's been married to him for years now, she's been dating him for even longer, she knows how he functions and right now? She screwed up.

Isabelle was the mother, and there was a special bond with her and her lost baby… but Leona was the father. That was also his child, his baby. His cub.

“Leo.” She called, he didn't look but she noticed his ears twitch at her call. “I'm… I'm sorry. I was being insensitive.” Isabelle rested her head on his shoulder, grabbing his free hand and rubbing circles with her thumb. “I’ve just… I'm just so sad and angry with myself– I wasn't able to see where you're coming from. I'm so sorry, dear.”

Leona sighed, drying his cheeks. He had cried without Isabelle noticing… that was another blow to her heart. Leona sniffled, grabbing her plate once again.

“If you're so sorry then eat.” He put another spoonful of food in front of her face and she let out a faint smile, eating it right after.

“For the record…” Isabelle started after swallowing the food. “You will be a wonderful father, Leona.”

Leona felt his heart ache, his throat dry and his eyes sting. He cleared his throat, trying to ignore the sensation and gave Isabelle a long kiss on the forehead, filled with affection. 

“And you will be a wonderful mother.”

Will. Soon enough. 

me: does a really small scenario about if yuuna left, leaving her to STILL have a happy life even though she is away from vil.

mah: . . . i can do it worse.

HOW. HOW DARE YOU.

U KNOW WHAT? GO TO TIME OUT.

#𐙚 moots ♡ #inbox 𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ✧ #♡ ! mah #this actually hurt me #specially since is #like #SO WELL WRITTEN #I AM IN UR WALLS POOKIE #i am actually speechless #i will lay down in the floor and cry #♡ ! mah's writing

[moronic-validity]

The Homecoming

Me: The Suitor is the last fic I'm posting out of order Also me: hehehe, oops

This is actually part of the original lineup, but I took it out because I didn't love how it flowed.

But here we are!

I asked, you guys answered, so here it is, the missing fic!

18+ bc the rest of the series is, I don't think there are any warnings

Simon’s vision went out of focus as he left Prismo’s time room, and refocused as he entered this new version of Ooo. 

He looked around for a moment, confirming where he was, then pulled out his phone. 

Marceline answered on the first ring.

“Hey dad, I’ve got you on speaker, Finn and Peebs are here too!” a chorus of hey’s followed her greeting.

“Marcy, I did it,” Simon had to stop himself from cheering, “I really did it!”

Marceline looked to her girlfriend and friend, tears in her eyes. She pushed the phone towards Finn, who was also doing his best not to cry. 

Finn pushed the phone to Princess Bubblegum, who was doing the best out of the three.

“We’re really happy for you Simon, promise you’ll call?” 

“Of course I’ll call, every time I have a chance,” Simon assured, “hey, I am going to go for now, just so I can find Winter. I’ll update you guys soon!”

He hung up the call right as Marceline and Finn burst into tears. Bonnibel put her arms around both her crying friends and sniffled. It’d be so different without him.

Simon tucked his phone into the pocket of his jacket, and made his way along the slick path to the castle.

The King sat on his throne, high above the rest of the throne room. It was a slow day. He took the meetings of any citizen who needed to air grievances of any kind. Most were petty disputes and bored him greatly. 

Simon had been prepared to beg for an audience with the king, but he was able to walk right into the throne room. The worst he had to do was join the line that had formed. 

It took Winter a few seconds to realize it was Simon.

Winter stood up and the crowd went silent.

“Fair citizens of our Winter Wonder World, I’m afraid I can not take anymore meetings today, though my door is always open for my wonderful subjects!” He bowed graciously to the few people still present. 

Simon’s head dropped as he walked out with the rest of those in attendance. 

“Simon Petrikov, I’m afraid I’ll need you to stay here for a moment longer.” He did his best to keep his voice as steady as it had been. 

He stopped and turned back around. 

Winter didn’t step down from his throne, but he lowered it to the floor, standing across the room from the other Petrikov. 

“You came back?” He took a step towards him. 

Simon didn’t respond, choked up at the sight of Winter standing and breathing, no longer a pile of ash. 

He broke out into a run, wanting to hold him so badly. 

Simon made it halfway across the room before he slid. He was so certain he could right himself, attempting to lean back to prevent face planting. 

Certain, until he nearly kicked himself in the head as he fell. 

Winter was there before he hit the ground, catching him before he made contact. 

“You caught me?” Simon wasn’t sure if it was the adrenaline from the fall, but his heart was beating out of his chest. 

“Of course,” Winter smiled, “I’m radical, remember?” He rightened them both and helped Simon straighten his clothes. 

“I can’t believe you used that line again,” Simon laughed this time. 

Simon stood there for a moment, unsure of what to do now; so he turned and hugged the taller man. 

Winter wrapped his arms around him and squeezed him

Neither wanted to let go. 

Winter had to pull away first. 

“Simon, why did you come back?” He held the man at arm’s length, still wanting to hold him, but also wanting to see his face.

“Things didn’t feel right when I left..” Simon trailed off, not wanting to tell Winter everything that had happened. 

“Well, you’re definitely not the Ice King, but Fionna and Cake aren’t with you; were you able to get them back home?” 

“It’s a really long story, but they are home!” He laughed again, “I’ll have to tell you all about it some time!” 

“Well, I’ve effectively cleared the rest of my day so…I guess you have a story to tell,” Winter motioned to a table that appeared out of the floor, “Sit for a spell?”

They sat there and drank hot chocolate as Simon recounted the tales of his travels through the many versions of Ooo, conveniently leaving out the part about the other man’s death.

Winter hung onto every word, awed by Simon’s travels and the heartache that came with them. 

“So your version of Betty got absorbed into Golb and she managed to save you, again?” 

“She did and she did,” Simon nodded, “though I haven’t even asked, what happened when we left?”

Winter shrugged. 

“Well, not that much, as you know, the madness of the crown was broken by Fionna, freeing both me and the Cand- Princess Bubblegum.” 

Simon raised an eyebrow. 

“So things are back to normal?”

“Well, normal is a bit of a stretch. As anyone could expect, she was absolutely furious,” he rubbed the back of his neck, “She wanted me imprisoned for my apparent ‘war crimes’,” he did air quoted around the phrase war crimes, rolling his eyes, “but with me being an acting ruler, diplomatic immunity and all, she wasn’t able to actually do much, other than beat the daylights out of me.”

“But things are better now?” 

“Oh, absolutely not, but we make do.”

Simon snorted. 

“So Dr. Petrikov, how long do you plan to stay for your visit?” 

Simon’s face fell. 

He fully expected Winter to extend another invitation to stay.

“I…well…” Simon trailed off, “I was looking at moving here.” 

Winter beamed in delight.

“You’re staying? How wonderful! Do you have a place already?” 

“Oh, not yet,” Simon paused for only a moment, but that was long enough.

“Perfect, you’ll stay in the castle with me then. I have a room set up for you already!”

“I don’t need a room to myself,”

“Oh, then you’ll stay in my room with me?”

“I’ll probably just sleep at this table with how comfortable you made these chairs,” Simon laughed, “Plus, I couldn’t invade your space like that.”

“Oh please, if you think the chairs are comfortable, you’ll love the bed!”

“Winter, I couldn’t. I’m already a guest in your home.”

“No, not a guest…my advisor! You’ll be my advisor and everyone who works with me, must have their own quarters,” Winter clapped his hands, having solved the issue. 

“Well, how about you show me my quarters and I’ll sleep there tonight, deal?” 

“Perfect!” 

Winter took Simon’s hand and led him down the hall and to the left. 

“Welcome to your new home!” Winter said as he opened the door. 

It looked nearly identical to his college dorm room, down to the periodic table poster with the line ‘I only have sex periodically’ hanging above the writing desk. The only noticeable difference was that this room was made out of ice, and in his memory, his dorm room had not been. 

Simon smiled at the gesture, walking into the room, basking in his vague memories from undergrad. 

“Thank you Winter, I really appreciate this. More than you know.” Simon sat on the edge of the bed, looking at the man who hadn’t left the doorway. 

The king smiled, glad he had built this when they were visiting all those months ago. 

“Well, I must be heading to bed, royal business to take care of in the morning and all; good night Simon!” He turned and left, heading further down the hall to his own room.

Simon waited until he was sure Winter was asleep, then took the pillow and blanket from the bed and walked back to the throne room. 

He appreciated the gesture, that part was true, but he hadn’t slept in silence since before he put on the crown.

Now, without it, he couldn’t sleep in the quiet. 

He made a makeshift bed on the table, listening to the hum of life that came from the kingdom and fell asleep counting the stars glimmering through the dome.

#teddy talks #theo's thoughts #winterkov #simon petrikov #simon x winter king #simoncest #the winter king #winter king x simon #winterking #simonpetrikov #dwu

[toastywatchesstevenuniverse]

S1 E40

On the Run

This episode broke me.

I am...

I....

I am a broken creature & my heart has been thoroughly stomped into the ground.

This is....this is the best episode so far....but it's achieved the status of best by absolutely tearing me apart in every way & leaving my emotions as a pile of tear soaked dust.

Okay before we get to that: I have one thing to say....

GARNET HAS MASSIVE AND PLENTIFUL BALLS. Look this post ended up being a lot more personal & emotional than this blog usually has been so I'm giving you a balls joke to balance it out. I have a feeling that there will be more emotional venting if this episode is an indicator of what the rest of the show is like: we're gonna need all the dick & ball jokes we can muster up.

First off: easily the best musical number in the show so far. Yes even better than Pearl's solo number. And I do not say that lightly. That is a tough level to beat. And they did it. Steven & Amethyst take the gold medal for best song so far. 👌

ALSO OH MY GOD THESEE SHOTS THESE COLOURS THIS DJFJFNDIFJW ITS SO FUCKING GOOD????????

WHY DID SO MANY PEOPLE ON YOUTUBE TELL ME THIS SHOW HAS BAD ANIMATION WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU PEOPLE TALKING ABOUT ARE WE WATCHING THE SAME SHOW?????? SURE THERES BEEN SOME WONKY DRAWINGS BUT MOST OF IT HAS BEEN VISUAL GOD TIER SHIT LIKE THIS. This episode was actually quite a step up in the animation compared to the previous ones. It's like the animators stepped on the gas here. I love it.

(Hey there uh so Trigger warning for this post just in case bc I do mention the topics of self harm/self hate/passive suic*de & that kinda stuff. So if that's not your thing, I'm really sorry & I understand if you wanna just stop reading here. If this isn't a topic you like to see mentioned at all, I'll just summarize my opinion here real quick & you can click away, I'm happy you're here at all btw thanks for reading this far!! & I want you to know you're valid for feeling this way btw: Don't let anyone tell you different. Anyways tldr I love this episode & how it tackles Amethysts character & it's the best episode so far & it made me cry really really bad & I am more of an emotional mess now than I usually am.)

So getting a bit personal here: I have said many times throughout my life that 'I never asked to be born'. I still think it now.

(Side Note but oh my god the animation in this fight was fucking incredible. Holy shit. And these shots go so fucking hard they COOKED this shit to perfection.)

Ive been depressed & passively suicidal for most of my life. I honestly cannot really recall a time where I didn't feel this way. I'm just kinda used to it by now I guess.

(This shot. This frame right here. This was when I had to pause the episode to calm down from how bad I was crying.)

So to hear Amethyst say the exact same thing that I have said so many times before: That broke me. That just fucking broke me. And like it's not the first time I cried at this show so far: BUT this IS the first time the show genuinely struck an such an extremely difficult & personal chord with me, not just like being sometihng I relate to, but the chord it struck was deep & painful enough that I had to actually pause the episode because of how much I needed to process it. Like I could not pay attention with how bad it made me break. So yeah it's now score 1 for the amount of times this show has fucking utterly destroyed me. Not every show is able to get me to react like THAT. The only other show in recent memory that got that reaction out of me that I can remember at the time of typing this is well, The Owl House. To be fair I haven't watched too too many new shows but yeah. This got me crying badly enough that I had to take a moment to calm down. Wasn't expecting to have that nerve struck like that.

That just hit on a personal chord for me & just....fuck man. I know that feeling. And they nailed how it feels. Amethysts reaction was exactly how it feels for me, just outwardly anger & tears. It hurts. Obviously anger & crying is simplifying it a lot, it's a lot more than just baseline that but you get what I mean. You could tell that she was feeling that exact way. & holy shit the fact that she's been the "comedic relief" of the gems so far & yet she's had easily the most fucked up & sad backstory of the show so far. Yeah if catching me off guard & completely blindsiding me with this was the goal: Goal fucking achieved because that was like a whack to my fucking face with a frying pan.

So....like, is this gonna be a reoccuring thing? I just.....get the feeling that this is a sign that the show absolutely fucking me up emotionally may become a more frequent thing going forward. So like, if that is the case......fuck. I'm so fucked. I am going to be a fucking wreck by the end of this show. This is gonna fucking leave me a sobbing mess, isn't it? What the fuck have I gotten myself into-

I am afraid. Also I am going to need to buy more tissues.

And the scene where Pearl & Amethyst speak in the hole is some of the best writing in any CN show. Ever.

(Also to break up the depressing talk, OH MY GOD I LOVE THAT PEARL IS SO FUCKING TALL THAT SHE HAS TO BEND DOWN AND SIT STANDING UP ON HER TIPPY TOES. THAT'S SO FUCKING ADORABLE I LOVE HER I AM GOING TO FUCKING LOSE IT.)

This episode was absolutely perfect.

#toasty steven universe watchthrough #steven universe #su #watchalong #cartoon network #currently watching #crystal gems #su pearl #amethyst #pearl steven universe #garnet #rose quartz #rebecca sugar #cartoon #pearl #first time watch #first watch #no spoilers #mod toasty #on the run #amethyst su #amethyst steven universe #tw sui vent #tw sui implied

[james-a-b]

W!

!!!!! getting one ask for this game surprised me tbh, two is incredible and you need to know that if i were a golden retriever i would be wagging my tail SO fast

anyway, they've done a fair number of things that have surprised and delighted me, but my favourite is and always will be the moment they broke out in song during TATINOF.

To provide some context there- at the time, youtubers doing a show the way Dan and Phil did was absolutely UNHEARD of. No one had ever done anything like it before, and no one really knew what to expect. The show I saw was in Seattle, near the end of the US leg of the tour, but Dan and Phil had asked everyone to avoid spoiling the show for others, and I'd managed to avoid any spoilers that WERE out there pretty much entirely. I went in blind.

That day was the best day of my life. Not solely because I was seeing TATINOF; Seattle is my favourite city and we went on the underground tour and ate a pizza that was almost bigger than our table and went to the pop culture museum, where they had a Dalek and a Cyberman and a bunch of other really cool movie/show props, but seeing Dan and Phil was definitely the highlight of the day.

I'd been depressed for almost a decade and actively suicidal for going on six years at that point, but when I first discovered Dan and Phil in the fall of 2015, I realized for the first time that the way I was feeling and had been feeling wasn't just a natural part of growing up. They seemed so alive and so so happy in a way I'd never seen from an adult before, and it gave me hope that maybe I could feel that way again, too. So they meant and still mean a great deal to me. They saved my life.

TATINOF had just begun touring the UK when I started watching, and then in early 2016 they announced they were coming to America. Now, I'm Canadian, and I was living in Kelowna, BC, so I was understandably disappointed when the nearest show was in Phoenix, Arizona, too far to travel to. But then, a month later, they announced more dates, and Seattle was among them. So I begged my parents to get me to Seattle for the show.

Mom bought my ticket, and Dad arranged a Seattle trip. Mom offered to buy me a VIP ticket, by the way, but I thought about it and then decided I'd rather have a regular ticket in part because I was such a new fan and in part because the thought of standing in front of them and being seen made me want to spontaneously combust. (I did get a VIP ticket to II, and then I ended up spending the first half of the show hyperventilating bc I got too excited/overwhelmed lmao)

I remember specifically choosing a balcony seat because while I knew Dan didn't enjoy audience participation from an audience perspective, I wanted to play it safe. Just in case. And Dan did make some jokes about asking for audience participation, so I'm actually glad I did. My heart could barely handle things as is!

The show was... indescribable. I'd taken art to submit to crafty corner, and while it wasn't chosen, I was absolutely beside myself just knowing they'd seen it. And during the show, they took things so much farther than anyone ever expected them to, with the suggestive themes of the fanfiction part (brokeback montain references?? only one tent??? this was YEARS before they came out, mind, and they'd NEVER really leaned into or encouraged that sort of thing before) and then Dil being revealed as the entity causing everything, and then, on top of literally every amazing incredible thing they'd already done in the show, they started SINGING??

We knew they did little songs for things like baking videos, but that was a FAR cry from performing onstage, and they were hardly professional singers, so a musical number was absolutely the last thing I expected to actually happen. I absolutely screamed myself hoarse during the course of that show, as did most everyone else in that theatre, but I don't think I've ever screamed so loud as I did when they started singing.

So... yeah. That's my answer.

(ask game here)

#phan #mine #dan and phil #tatinof #ask game #answered

[starlite-writes]

Hello I am here to be a problem! Anyway!

1 -> Angel 11 -> for any 5 of your kids bc I would ask for all of them but that's excessive so I am just asking for 5! 19 -> Asirli 21 -> Silk and Tussah C: 33 -> Mal 36 -> A......a.......angel......asking for a friend....................also Dr Silk

!! Thank you for asking i appreciate you... dropping these under the cut because BOY did it get long

1. If your oc was to host a TV show, what would it be about? Would your oc be good at it? What sorts of guests would appear?

God, could you imagine Angel hosting any kind of TV show? LMAO But I think, if they had to... maybe some kind of weird psychology show... How To Gaslight 101... /hj They have no guests ever it's just Angel all the time because they can't share the spotlight... but you know, of course, there was a guest on last week; don't you remember? No? Hm, weird. There was definitely someone there. Perhaps you should pay closer attention next time.

11. What is the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to your oc?  Do they still feel ashamed for it? Were there any witnesses?

Oh, God. Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Luke! I think he's still really embarrassed about punching Maximilian when he first showed up... it was really out of character for him, but to be fair this was immediately after Mal in his mind and he was extremely combative and disoriented... he's apologised many times and so has Maximilian for making it worse but that. it took them a while to get over that first impression LMAO like a week before they would even say a word to each other kind of while. But now they're friends so it's cool.

Maximilian... even though it's probably not canon anymore, the masquerade was one of his top three for sure. Being paraded around in fancy clothes and forced to act like you like your kidnapper while you're stuck in a fucked up mass dream with your co-workers, who should have kept you from being here in the first place? That shit scarred him. In Trinity, it is 100% Silk putting him under curfew like a grounded teenager. Absolutely humiliating he has never recovered from that.

Tinashe... she was super excited when she first got her android body,,, but when it inevitably broke down the first time you know she was hella embarrassed and cursing Remy to hell and back. Imagine trying to pass as a person and then your body just breaks??? Awful.

For Mal,,, canonically, I got no idea. in Trinity, his first meeting with Starling. You try to beat someone up and you just beat yourself up instead???? Fucked up. But at least he got a hot black-magic-witch partner-in-crime out of it.

Rixi... that time Tina called her out about being in love with Remy and told her she was crazy for it. Rixi is really good at pretending things don't bother her or brushing them off after she has a cry but I think that's one of the few things that's stuck with her even though she never addressed it again.

The Raven Prince... [All of these words have been stolen from me sorry.]

19. If your oc were to be arrested for something, what would it be for? For being too kind, for a legitimate crime?

Asirli,,, stole a priceless map, probably. They were going to return it! They just wanted to study it a little! Is that so wrong? :(

21. Are there any public events your oc would love to go to? Concerts, plays, movies, parties, etc? What about ones that they would hate? Why?

Oh, hmm... I mean, there's not really anything they couldn't get themselves invited to, if they really wanted, but I think Silk would want to go to a casino and let loose for a weekend. I think she would really enjoy it, actually, especially given her competitive streak, but alas... that would require her to take time away from work. For Tussah... literally anywhere he would not be recognised would be great. Let him be Aurelius for a single day. Let him go to like. an art studio and paint with a group for a day without being hounded about work.

Places they would hate... Silk's is the beach. Tussah's is literally anywhere further than five feet off the ground. In all seriousness, Silk doesn't really enjoy large gatherings all that much, and Tussah gets bored during movies. He's a talker.

33. How does your oc’s own perception of themselves compare to how other people see them? Is your oc aware that other people see them differently (if it’s different)?

Thank you for choosing Mal out of everyone; he is The character for this question!

Mal definitely sees himself as someone who is much smarter and more mature than he is. He thinks he's cunning and strong and all, but he's really just extremely lucky (and being in league with Angel doesn't hurt). Mal's one of those who outwardly has a very inflated sense of self, and to a degree, he's definitely tricked himself into believing it. He's certainly aware that Angel (and most other people) sees him as childish and impulsive, but he doesn't really care too much, because regardless of what Angel says or thinks, they still need him, and vice versa.

36. What is your oc’s ideal night out like? Or would they rather spend it at home?

Wow, I can't imagine why you'd be asking this for them (/lh /s).

For Silk! Her ideal night out is a quiet visit to a planetarium so she can infodump at you about the stars,,, maybe a trip out to the middle of nowhere to look at constellations and have a cup of coffee and some dessert...

For Angel! Good luck getting them rested enough to go anywhere! But if you did manage, they'd probably enjoy a really fancy dinner and a formal concert... or like,,, a night at the opera. You know. Something pretentious.

#text #not writing #thehellishtrinity #ask #ask game #thank you for asking

[lume-nosity]

where the wind blows

kazuha x gn!reader

summary: you can’t be on the run forever, so you have a choice. either to continue to run with a wanted fugitive away from the world, or to go your separate ways to decrease your chances of getting punished along side the criminal when found. it’s a tough choice, but your heart does the talking.

style: angst/fluff

song inspo: mary on a cross by ghost (there’s a reason why i chose this one hour video focused on that one part. it’s my favorite part of the song! also i do know what it means so don’t come after me chsjvj)

notes: not proofread, takes place before the vision hunt decree got abolished, imputed a bit of comedy bc i didn’t want this whole thing to be gloomy, kazuha’s friend is referred to as tomo, can be perceived as a romantic/platonic sense, n/n is nickname

Running.

Running seems to tire you, but there’s no other choice is there? After all, you are last seen with the wanted fugitive the entirety of Inazuma is after. And right now, the criminal is holding you by the hand, running away from a hoard of doushin.

And that criminal is Kaedehara Kazuha. A man who has dealt with many struggles in his past. After losing his friend, you’re the only one he has left. You and him are practically close friends, courtesy from Tomo who had introduced the two of you.

To say that the three of you got along splendidly would be an understatement. After that incident.

The day where you and Kazuha got word of your friend who’d been defeated by the Almighty Shogun. You were only conversing with Kazuha and the mood instantly dropped. Oh, how happiness converted to disbelief and sorrow in a matter of seconds. But with Kazuha, he took off. Swift as the wind as they say.

You tried reaching out to him but as he was running he yelled back at you saying that he’ll be back as quick as possible. He was right, because he did come back in minutes. However, he came back scathed. With a burnt hand.

“This.. is all I have left of him.” Kazuha opened his palm and it revealed a dying vision.

This disheartened you by a landslide and so did Kazuha. You take one look at the vision and broke down. You fell to the ground and spilled your emotions out. A friend, stripped of their life right then and there? That’s enough to make anyone cry buckets.

Kazuha bent down to your height and comforted you, his heart still aching over what happened, but he accepted it since Tomo had challenged the Shogun to a duel and lost fair and square. The thought still hurts him regardless.

You missed how the three of you had shared many memorable moments together and you very much missed when Kazuha wasn’t labeled a fugitive. Well, unfortunately you can’t turn back the clock.

The memories flooded back into your mind and hot tears threaten to fall while you and Kazuha were panting and running for your lives.

Kazuha’s scanning the area to see if there’s any place to hide and when he’s found one, he skidded in his tracks and pulled you towards him. Pushing you behind him as the two of you are hiding behind a stone wall.

Attempting to catch your breath, you can hear loud footsteps approach you both. Before you could say anything Kazuha places his bandaged hand over your mouth and whispered: “Shh… Don’t say a word.”

Your eyes widened but you slowly nodded. You can hear light bickering in the background; the pursuers proclaiming they’ve lost the “suspects” and left the scene.

Kazuha sighed in relief and releases his hand off of your mouth. When he sighed in relief, you heaved a breath of relief. A total contrast.

“Kazuha, how long are we going to be running for? You know we can’t run forever.”

He turned around to face you and had a sad smile painted on his face.

“We’ll be on the run for quite a long time if we’re still together. Because of me, your life is in danger. So what I propose is that we should go our separate ways. As much as I loathe our separation and it’ll bring me much heartache, it’s the only way it’ll keep you safe.”

Going your separate ways? After all of that running? Now? No, you don’t want to leave him in the dust. You have been sticking together with Kazuha for years. After the fall of your dear friend, you didn’t want to lose Kazuha too.

Even if it’s in a life or death situation, or it makes sense logically, you still didn’t want to leave him. You looked up at him, showing an unreadable yet serious expression.

“No. I’m not leaving you.”

“Y/n, now’s not the time for jokes. I’m serious-“

“I’m not joking! Just because you say my life’s on the line doesn’t mean yours isn’t. We’re on the same boat here.”

Kazuha lets out a soft sigh.

“That’s why I think you should leave. Departing now would lessen your chances of getting punished alongside me. They’ve already grown suspicious of you after catching sight of us being together, and maybe they’ve come up with a conclusion that you’re my accomplice.”

You continued to stand your ground and let your heart do the speaking for you.

“And if they did, then I wouldn’t care any less. If you fall, then I fall too. Besides, they’ve already known of my existence and are probably itching to get my head on a platter too.“

He’s at a loss for words. How could you be saying things like that? ‘Itching to get my head on a platter’ as if he’ll ever let that happen. Though, he is impressed of how you’re not afraid of the fact that the two of you are technically wanted criminals now. If it were anyone else, they’d be terrified.

“I admire your courage Y/n, but you are very stubborn.” He chuckled a little before lightly shaking his head. “Then, if this delights you, how about we run away wherever the wind takes us.”

You raised a brow before chuckling a bit too.

“Well, if that’s your way of saying we can continue to stick together, then sure.”

Kazuha lended you his hand.

“Yes, that is if you’re willing to take this risk.”

You gladly took his hand.

“It’s a risk I’m willing to take.”

And with that, you both are on the run once again. Slipping past the guards and stealthily making your way through everyone with Kazuha leading you. You can almost hear Tomo cheering for the both of you.

“Well then, N/n, let’s see where the wind takes us this time.”

an: yooo my first work here! i am still on a semi hiatus but this idea popped up in my head so i wanted to write it since im free this labor day weekend and got nothing better to do. got stuck for a bit while writing this but yeahhh!! you’re partners in crime with kazuha literally and figuratively, isn’t that cool? oh also, does anyone wanna be mutuals? i wanna make some mutuals on here :) here’s my intro or whatever!

#✏️ lume writes #genshin #genshin impact #genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin oneshots #genshin impact oneshots #kaedehara kazuha #kazuha #kazuha x reader #kaedehara kazuha x reader #kazuha x gn reader #kazuha x you #kazuha x y/n #kazuha fluff #kazuha angst

[supernovaa-remnant]

god. genuinely sorry if like. the whole vibe of this blog is in shambles. I really really try to make sure this is primarily a safe and fun and happy space because that is what fandom should be and I want that to be my fandom experience and by extension the experience of anyone who follows me.

but.

it's just. so much. I wanna like. make silly posts and reblog things and have fun interacting with my mutuals again but I'm just crying like half the time soo haha. I need a vacation. as in I need to travel not I need to take a break from the blog. unfortunately I'm broke and also a full time uni student :/

it'll be okay. it's just. a lot. idk. maybe it's not even noticeable and this post was unnecessarily made but I'm doing it more for myself, I guess.

anyway my askbox is always open if people wanna ask me questions about space or just talk abt anything. I might be reblogging a fair amount of stuff for other fandoms, but I am still in this fandom bc the dsmp and dream team mean a lot to me. but this is technically a multifandom blog sooo. anyway regularly scheduled posting eventually.

I love you all. things will be okay I promise. 🫂

#I still don't wanna talk abt it on the blog btw #this was more like. a personal update lmao. #also because I know I'm being kinda horrendous at maintaining contact w/ ppl rn which I am sorry abt #I'm also maybe switching majors so that's also just a lot of stress rn anyway soooo yeah sorry if vibes are off #stella rambles #personal

[sayosdreams]

Thanksvember 2022

Shoutouts to some amazing fics and fic writers! Thank you so much for all the time and energy you put into your work!! Your fics mean the world to me and have gotten me through the past year. I can’t thank you enough <3 This year’s list is definitely going to contain a lot of Regulus stuff bc that’s my current fixation! So, here's a list of some of my favorite fics that I've read over the past year:

November 1 - As Soon As He Can by Trex_Patronus (ao3). This beautiful fic is what sent me down the Regulus Black rabbit hole bc it was so good that I wanted more. The Black brothers angst? The trauma? The healing? It’s all *chefs kiss*. Everything I could want and more ✨ oh, and it’s now completed with 62 chapters ✨

November 2 - I see how this all ends (poorly) by @quillium . I think that Seer!Regulus is one of my favorite kinds of Regulus characterizations, and this fic is the reason. The balance of angst and fluff in this fic is absolute perfection. The characterizations? The relationships? The evolutions of every character? Absolutely amazing✨ (I've reread the Sirius-meets-sleepy-Reg-and-gang-in-the kitchen scene at least 20 times bc its so ajsfbfsk!!! <3)

November 3 - Follow in her paw prints by @scottish-purple-shrubbery . I adore this fic, because what more could I want from this world than McGonagall taking Regulus in and giving him a path that doesn’t lead to an early death? 10/10, would recommend, we stan having healthy adult figures who actually care abt children as more than pawns✨ ♥️

November 4 - A Thing Like Stars in the Dark by toliveinthesky (ao3). Who doesn’t love a good “what if Reg survived the cave” story? Sprinkled with Black brothers interaction, Reg playing with baby Harry, being in love with a muggleborn 😍 I’m not usually a huge fan of OCs, but Reg/Maggie 🫶 I love this fic so much

November 5 - Live Fast, Die Young, Leave a Pretty Corpse by atta_boy (ao3). This fic is so underrated. I LOVE IT SO MUCH (I mean, Sirius thinking Reg is dead, only to hear about a muggle model named “Aster An” who looks just like him? *chefs kiss*) The irony of a disguise being the truest version of yourself is beautifully written in this fic. I need more ppl to read it (and join the discord 👀) so y’all can fangirl over it w me

November 6 - He Can’t Hurt You if You’re Already Dead by @unspeakable3 . So, yeah, I think I’m obsessed with the Ghost!Regulus concept?? I love everything about this fic — the chracterization, the internality, the mix of fluff and angst ♥️ You have no idea how many times I just randomly think of Reg folding Sirius’ clothes to “haunt” him or hiding inside a vase or being scared Dumbledore will exorcise him 💀

November 7 - In the fires of our youth (oh, brother of mine) by @quynhorlose . The writing! The art! I'm obsessed with everything about it, from the format that includes articles & poster style chapters, to the content of Regulus-and-Remus friendship and the Padfoot & Prongs band.

November 8 - We are all stardust by @rrosie08 . I have mentioned that I love Seer!Regulus, right? That, combined with Ravenclaw!Regulus, Black brothers angst, Reg having an awesome friend group, and Jegulus and Wolfstar drama is just *chefs kiss*. The scene where Reg just broke up with his bf and is crying and gets his first detention bc of Sirius on his birthday has been on constant replay in my brain. <3

November 9 - There is another sky (--Ever serene and fair) by llamallamaduck (ao3). This fic is everything I could ever want and more out of a "black brothers run away together" story. They travel the world, and I LOVE all the different magical systems & cities. All of the concepts in this story, along with all the emotions (angst! fluff! everything!), make this one of the best black brothers fics. I still haven't read the last chapter (I'm sad it'll be over!) but I'm so excited to read it too. Definitely recommend!

November 10 - Kill Your Darlings by MesserMoon (ao3). Marauders era meets college ice hockey in this amazing fic. I love all the tension, like the complexities of Evan and Peter's characters, Regulus working through his internalized homophobia, and ofc the extreme gayness <3 Deaf Remus! Jegulus! Rosekiller! Evan and Reg being roommates and becoming besties!

November 11 - Best Friend's Brother by @zeppazariel . This is one of the first Jegulus fics I read, and it dragged me down the Jegulus rabbit hole that I will stay in forever. This fic was amazing. It made me laugh and cry, and I felt like I also went through the raw emotional rollercoaster of a journey that Regulus and Sirius and Remus and James experienced. It's so beautifully written, and it felt healing? Like I have a lot of crappy childhood trauma, and it felt like this fic was me working through it Definitely recommend if you haven't read it yet (or if you're thinking about maybe trying your first Jegulus fic). Be warned: Angst! Feels! Drama! Working through trauma! Aka everything I adore <3

November 12 - I Didn't Catch Your Name by @kachwoww . This fic!! OK so basically, James & Reg hook up, but in the morning James asks Reg his name and Reg leaves without telling him. James, ofc, is obsessed and is searching for Reg. Meanwhile, Reg left the paper that Sirius (his estranged brother) gave him with his phone number at James' house, and panics about how he lost it. Basically they're all freaking out, Reg and Remus are librarian flatmates, Pandora and Lily are dating, Sirius and Remus are dating, and... yeah! It's #Drama and I'm hooked.

November 13 - The Marauders read 'Harry Potter' by SilverShadow1 (ao3). It's been a while since I read this types of fics, but this one!! Basically James, Regulus, Sirius, Remus, Peter, & Lily read the books & react, but it's set in a Jegulus & Wolfstar world and the fic dives into their pasts (through flashbacks and their reactions to different events) and their relationships with each other evolve throughout. The series is currently on PoA (so I have a lot of hope that it'll continue)! I've been hooked since the beginning and love seeing it update.

November 14 - i got wasted (like all my potential) by ascxlla (ao3). I love the Slytherin skittle shenanigans in this fic! Regulus interacting with Sirius-as-a-dog without knowing it's Sirius 🥹 It's a "I'm doomed so fuck it" fic and I love that. Want to explore the forbidden forest at night to get a cat? Do it! Want to kiss your friend for funsies? Do it!

November 15 - Hush Hush by @crippledgoddess . This fic was one of my main obsessions this summer. There are so many iconic moments, like drunk Reg flirting with James, or Reg just saying stuff like "You know what James looks good in? Me" to make everyone uncomfortable, that I ADORE. There's a lot of angst and feels, but I'm hoping for a happy ending (please!!) and I really enjoy the writing!

November 16 - Your Stars are True by Penelope_Muir (ao3). Sirius and Regulus haven't been close in years, so Sirius checks up on his brother by coming to him as Padfoot (though Reg thinks he might be a Grim). It's so cute and sad at the same time 😭 The scene where James tries to follow Sirius to see where he goes every night, only to have to transform into Prongs and Reg is like "oh you brought a friend?" to the dog is ingrained in my mind forever!

November 17 - with my back to the shoreline, i dreamed that he drowned by onceuponalazy (ao3). My favorite "James gets amnesia and can't recall the life he built with Regulus" fic. The pain Regulus is in, knowing that he loves a man who no longer knows him and doesn't even know that their son (Harry) exists 😭 It's beautifully written, and I love how James and Reg's relationship evolves and heals ♥️

November 18 - Confessions Under a Pride Flag by 55_cents_in_nickels (ao3). Supportive coming out black brothers fluff + asexual biromantic Regulus Black (which I read during my "questioning if I'm on the aroace spectrum" crisis period) = amazing fic that I love so so much. Yes, I am capable of loving something besides angst It's a comfort read that's close to my heart <3

November 19 - Burden of Duty by Grey_Kenaz (ao3). Aroace sex-repulsed Regulus Black meets Sirius in St Mungos after trying to figure out how to conceive with his (arranged marriage) fiancée. Sirius helps Reg figure out that there's nothing wrong with him and accept himself 🫶 We love supportive Black brothers!

November 20 - i can feel you slipping away (like the sunlight at the end of the day) by @casualmaraudering. This fic is so good! It's fluffy and angsty in all the right ways. Contains: Dumbledore critique bc fuck him, Black brothers have a strong bond, Reg grieving, aroace Regulus, a baby, and Sirius giving Regulus a hug. The writing is so good and the rollercoaster of emotions this fic takes you on is incredible ❤

#thanksvember #fic recs #thanksvember 2022

[stuckinapril]

Drama? OK now I gotta hear this... if i may.... (I've had my fair share too! Currently living the 'bad rom com' life except there's not much of the comedy.)

omfg you would literally not believe the mess it has been. broke off w my ex a couple of weeks ago after finding out (through a mutual friend. yeah. yeah) that he was talking to another girl behind my back. he literally lied to me about the whole thing while trying to justify himself & and i haven't seen his ass ever since. i keep hearing about dumb shit he does through our mutual friend and it's so embarrassing bc like. this is the guy i gave 8 months of my attention to. what was i thinking.

had a fallout w an ex friend like a month and a half ago. need to deal w that mess and i just don't want to (but have to).

cut off another friend!

yesterday i got into an argument w yet another friend (she started it, i promise). still need to deal w it bc i see her in classes every single day.

yesterday a close friend and i were walking together at night and talking abt things and we just started trauma dumping on each other. she started crying. we held each other. we are not ok. it has been such a mess.

#how are YOU doing <33 #ask