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neopuppy · 8 months

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the jisung fic/hard hours…idk about everyone else but if it’s jisung i eat it up! like im blushing and giggling…it’s almost embarrassing 😅 I AM 100% ENCOURAGING YOU TO WRITE THAT!! if u want to ofc <333

*deep breath* alright….here we go

warning. omega Jisung+alpha y/n, thigh riding, messy orgasm

“Jisung, I don’t fucking care that you’re not an Alpha.”

He stops abruptly, pinned under your hips, bridged over his stomach to diminish his chance of getting away. His fussing calms down long enough to lower your face into the crook of his neck. “This is why you never smell like anything?”

A struggled whimper pushes from the back of his throat, flinching at the contact as your nose grazes over his scent gland taking in deep inhales.

“Caramel, vanilla and caramel..”

Jisungs falls flat letting out a long deep sigh the more you take in the barely there hint of his Omegan scent, it’s faint, but enough to render you breathless as it traces past your tongue and fills your lungs. “You smell so..”

He flinches, reaching for your shoulders to push you away. His typical clumsiness and awkward behavior had surprised you, months of living a lie that had you convinced enough despite his abnormal mannerisms and traits.

The Omegas size over you swayed your apprehensive thoughts well enough, even now as he manages to overpower you enough to at least switch your positions in spite of your effort to keep him down.

“You have to stop!” Jisung says frantically, grabbing your wrists to pin by the sides of your head before you can take control over him again. “Promise me you won’t tell anyone!”

“You know I can’t do that, Omega.” You bristle, twisting your hips to push off the floor and free from his hold.

Jisung’s blown pupils dilate rapidly, grinding his teeth together in a panic as your thigh propels up and settles against his groin. “What do you want from me?” He gasps, sucking in a ragged breath. “Pack leader will have me killed.”

His grip on your wrists loosens enough to squirm your way out, inadvertently crushing your thigh between his legs to push yourself up into a sat position, circling around the same waist you always found oddly slim, too defined and miniscule for an Alpha. “You really think I’d let them touch you?”

Jisung’s cheeks flush, bright pink on the apples, a deeper shade of red making its way to his nose the more he succumbs to every desire he’s contained for so long now. Nights of shoving a towel between the crevice of his door, leaving his bedroom window open in hopes of not awakening any Alphas with his sweet delectable scent. Not even suppressants could stop him from biting into his fist, cock rubbed raw against his pillow for a petty taste of relief.

“There’s always been something about you.” Creeping beneath his shirt, you tickle across his back to the dip of his waist, greedily delving your fingers into the carved hollows until your thumbs nearly meet at his navel. “Too pretty for an Alpha.”

Jisung can’t stop the moan that draws out from his parted pouty mouth, left open to swallow in as much air as he can the more you inch closer to him until your chests stick together; heartbeats thrumming at a matched pace. “All this time wasted trying to convince myself that these sub-genders mean nothing.”

His head shakes, eyes wrinkling shut to stop tears from rolling down his cheeks. It’s useless from the moment your thigh nestled between his muscular limbs, bending at your knee to rut against his growing size in a rough manner. “When was your last heat?” You ask huskily, tracing up deep lines of lean muscle carved into his stomach. “It’s been a while hasn’t it baby? So desperate, humping against my leg like some pathetic pup.”

Jisung whines, dropping his face in heated shame as embarrassment scorches its way across his features. Even the tears streaming down his cheeks offer a cooling sense of relief as arousal and need for more take over his mind.

“Please,” he wheezes, arms thrown around your shoulders to lean his forehead against yours, panting out faster to match each adrenaline fueled pump of blood racing through his veins. “Don’t ask me, please.”

“That long?” You coo, smoothing your thumbs around his hardened perked nipples. “Think you can cum from this alone? Is that how long it’s been, pup?”

Jisung nods pitifully, bottom lip trembling as you tweak and pinch at his chest, tugging his peaked nipples roughly and successfully earning a chase from his hips. “So long Alpha.”

The whimpered cracks between his words hide his weak attempt to stay strong. Head too clouded by lust and the delicious abusive friction against his covered length. “More, need more than this.”

With thick pink lips hung open, he leans forward, nose to nose, blinking dumbly and whining. “Will you give me more? Touch me more?”

“Cum for me like this first.” Dragging your nails down his sides hard enough to leave stains of red behind, you grip around his narrow hips, firmly gathering the fabric of his jeans between your digits. “Wanna feel you make a mess on my thigh just like this, show me how good you listen.”

Jisung’s teeth chatter, biting down and shifting his weight lower on your thigh until the hot center between his legs sits half on your pelvis, hands moving to your shoulders to hold on tight and fuck against you in earnest.

“Is this what you wanted pup? What my Omega needed?”

He groans, eyes rolling back far enough to leave only the whites visible, long neck stretched back further enticing you to claim and ruin every pretty inch of clear smooth skin.

“Alpha, I’m—oh fuck, I’m cum—“ his hips jerk, gasping out harshly. Lower half thrashing against your thigh hard enough to leave marks and bruises behind. The rough texture of his boxers and jeans adding a different sensation with each rub and sloppy thrust.

“Cum for me.” You breathe, chest rising rapidly. “Pretty Omega, so pretty for me. Give it to me baby.”

Jisung gasps, stomach caving in as his limbs give out and he drops against your chest, losing his breath with the strike of powerful orgasm ripping through his body. The release drenching right through his bottoms and leaking out onto your thigh forming a huge stain of sugary wet slick and cum.

He’s easy to lay back down after, limp and dizzy, the exposed bottom half of his stomach twitching with the last bits of bliss exiting. Fresh tears have him blinking quickly, a dreamy gaze following your movements as you reach to unsnap the button of his jeans.

“Alpha..”

“Shh shh..” you whisper, slowly unzipping him. “Alpha wants a taste.”

#asks #nct hard hours #nct smut

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my-castles-crumbling · 2 months

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Hi guys! Got an anon ask with some triggers, so I'm copying it here so I can put a 'read more.'

TW: ED, SH

Here's the original ask:

hey Cas!

hru today? <3

I rlly don’t wanna bother u but I just need some advice bc I’m in a pretty tricky situation and I don’t know who I couldn’t turn to who wouldn’t then tell OTHER people (adults etc)

also a TW b4 anyone reads further: ED (not me but a a friend) and generally bad mental health (including sh and sui)

Basically I have this friend (one of my best friends) who’s struggled with really bad mental health and attempted in the past (we weren’t friends during this time but they’ve shared it with me) they have told me they no longer sh but I’m not entirely sure if I believe him on that but I guess there’s nothing to do except just take their word for it and they are definitely doing better than they were before (about a year or two ago)

thing is this friend does still have a (pretty bad I think) ED (specifically I think they have anorexia but I’m really not sure because I don’t know that much about EDs. I’ve tried to do some research but it’s actually incredibly hard to find any info about them especially in terms of ways to emotionally show support. In a medical sense they always seemed to be talked about like minor things(?) idk it’s hard to explain but often times I’ve been reading actual factual medical stuff and just been disgusted at the ways it’s discussed, like they try so hard to describe it from a technical viewpoint that they essentially the entire mental health aspect of it which kind of demeans the whole thing bc EDs ARE a mental health disorder)

sorry went on a little side rant there but basically I’ve tried to find stuff out but it’s really hard to learn about the mental health aspect and even harder to find stuff out about how to HELP someone through an ED

I’ve even resorted to looking thru some more unsavoury places for info (including anablr), I know these types of places encourage EDs and I am actually not a person who really loves their body very much but I do think I’m in a strong enough place emotionally to do this (and so far I’ve been correct, I’m unaffected) because I just wanted some actual insight on what it’s like

the problem with my friend is that she’s ALREADY in therapy. Her parents put her in it when they found out about her vaping habit but they just lie all the time (she tells me about it) because they have like serious trust issues due to past trauma and I’m gonna be honest, I 100% believe therapy is a good thing but sadly it is also entirely useless if the person doesn’t make any effort to get better

all I can do in that aspect of it is hope the therapy is going better than the jokes he makes about it or that eventually she will feel comfortable enough to share and process her issues

in terms of the ED what im really lost with is how to help

and don’t get me wrong, I know you can’t really help a person who doesn’t want to be helped but honestly I’m not giving up on this person I care about that easily. I will NOT be another person in their life who abandons them for being ‘too much’ or ‘too difficult’. I’ve already accepted the fact that I will not be able to help them out of it really (as best as I can at least)

I’ve already taken to carrying gum and mints in my school bag as much as I can (usually I’ll have a pack of both and I just share them with everyone so this person doesn’t actually catch wind that they’re the reason I do as quite often when they skip lunch they do help themselves to a few of my mints or gum pieces but ik if they knew it was for them they’d stop bc she’s just like that)

I just don’t know how else to help emotionally though, I’m one of the only people (I might be the ONLY person at all) that they feel comfortable enough to talk to about these issues and I just think its better that they’re telling someone who cares about them and is trying to help than telling no one at all which seems to be the alternative. The issue is I don’t know how to respond or show support especially because (thank u trust issues and trauma (/s) the window of vulnerability is SMALL (I’m talking a couple of seconds literally) before they’re joking and changing the subject

Also a small (but frankly compared to the rest of this, not very important) detail is that like I previously mentioned I am also not suuuper happy with my body ( I don’t sh really or have an ED in any way shape or form) and sometimes the stuff he says slightly upsets me (just like once I told him about how my mean grandma told me I was fat and had to eat less and he said his grandma forces him to eat more and that my grandma ‘sounds like her wet dream’ - I know this was just a joke obviously but I didn’t rlly love it considering my grandma is a pretty big source of my looks based insecurities)

like I said in no way is it on the same level and obviously I know it’s not coming from a place of malice because this friend also really looks out for my mental health like way more than my other friends tbh (I don’t know if it’s bc they struggled with it or whether they’re the only one who seems to notice I’m the therapist friend haha but they are the FIRST person to ask if anything’s wrong if I’m acting different and I rlly want to stress that because I know that from what I’ve said so far they may have come across as selfish or something but they are actually one of the kindest people ever) that’s especially why I’m worried if I bring anything up about wanting to help with little things or especially anything about not being a fan of little jokes that she’ll just stop talking about it at all in an attempt to make me feel more comfortable)

for context for all of this, I’m 15 (we both are) so still in school and they’re parents absolutely SUCK (in the most non violent way possible I would like to kill them [not actually but I do really hate them and wish them only the worst]) so there’s no emotional support coming from home for him

I don’t really have anyone I can talk to about this in real life because (for privacy reasons) they’ve asked me not to share it with like my other friends and I don’t have the greatest relationship with my parents (they’re not like abusive or neglectful or anything but we just have a lot of differences and just I’ve very much emotionally distanced myself from them)

sorry if this is too much because I do know it’s a really tricky situation and even though all of us sort of deify you, you’re still only one person and if this does make you uncomfortable or upset (not just if it’s triggering I mean just in general if you’re reading this and you don’t feel comfortable) in anyway please don’t force yourself to answer or feel guilty if you don’t because the last thing I’d want to do is put you in that kind of position

Im not sure if ill send in more anons but if I do then ill refer to myself (and you can call me) lacy anon so you know who I am (yes after the song bc i rlly love it haha)

Anyway sending lots and lots of love from the person who does basically look up to you as their adult role model and who I wanna be like when I’m older <3

Hi love! You're not bothering me at all!

So, first, I want to let you know that I am an adult, but when I say this, I hope you don't take it as...condescending, I guess? Because I don't mean it that way at all. I want to be realistic in the fact that these things you are dealing with are VERY grown-up and scary, and you are handling them in a remarkably mature way, but you are still legally fifteen.

This is way too much for a fifteen year old to take on.

You genuinely seem like the most amazing person. The fact that you have done research and carry around things for your friends, all to help them with their ED is frankly restoring my faith in humanity a bit. But I worry that you are placing WAY too much of the responsibility on yourself. I don't mean to be bleak or too blunt, but if god forbid anything ever happened, I would hate for you to blame yourself, and it sounds like you would. Your job is to be this person's friend. Not their therapist or caretaker.

So, here's my advice: I absolutely agree that you should not give up on them! But make sure you have boundaries. It broke my heart to read that you were going to places like anablr just to help- that's not healthy for you! As a friend, especially at your age, your most important job is to make sure your friend doesn't feel alone. And you're doing an amazing job, in my opinion. They seem to be willing to talk to you, and that's a big deal. But, in the best way, you are fifteen, and you don't have to have all the answers! Sometimes, the best way to support someone is to remind them that they are loved and they have someone in their corner. BUT remember that being there for someone doesn't mean you have to sacrifice yourself or your mental health. Say something if a joke makes you uncomfortable. "I love you so much, but that joke makes me feel uncomfortable. Can you maybe not joke like that?" It's okay and healthy to set those boundaries.

Please remember, you are not responsible for this person. You can love them and be there for them and care deeply, but you are responsible for you and your own health. Don't forget you.

My last very gentle suggestion is this: If you ever get to the point that you are so genuinely worried about this friend that you think it is a life-or-death situation, please don't take that on by yourself. I know it is scary, and I know that telling adults mean that there can be ramifications, but remember that if you are genuinely scared, then an adult needs to be there to keep everyone safe. Very bluntly: Trust can be rebuilt but you can't bring people back from some other very permanent decisions.

Again, you are a wonderful person, and a fantastic friend. But remember to take yourself into account and stay safe in all ways. I know this is probably not the advice you want to hear, but I hope maybe you'll consider it.

Sending so much love! <3 <3 <3

#ask #asks #ask cas #tw: sh #tw: ed

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prisonguards · 1 year

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FR!!! Like oh my GOD I didnt even ship smallidarity before likeeeee I was just your average flower husbands fan, and I wanted to stick hard to the whole boundary compliance thing because I was part of dsmp twt for a year and. Well. That should say enough, iykyk. But then Joel just kept obsessing over Jimmy, Jimmy kept simping for Joel, and then the entire thing with the "he's just sooo cuuuute" and "can we just compare the size difference again, its my favorite thing ever" and whatever the fuck fixating on the noise Jimmy made was and it was like. Well. Bro. BRO. THEEEEN the having a CHILD together thing happened and I just fell into shipping them immediately from E2 alone. And now I'm watching E1 and I'm gonna rewatch 100h hardcore because your blog has just made it Worse.

This has been an entire tangent but the tldr is I didn't ship smallidarity until Joel was absolutely unbearable and obvious over just how much the cuteness aggression he gets over Jimmy Gets To Him.

Also I see your tags and I bring you this: in watching E1, am I insane or is the whole "Katherine was his first ally but I am his BEST ally, I will call her a coward and get genuinely angry at her for not going to the lengths I will to protect Jimmy" give off possessiveness. Not possessiveness as in jealousy, ownership, or anything like that but more in the sense that he takes great pride in being the one who takes care of Jimmy best, so to speak and to be the one who protects him when he needs it. This isn't really related at all to what you said but I'm doing my best and it's 6 AM as I write this, I have not slept and I should cut myself off before I spout even more nonsense.

- life series anon

ANON I LUV YOU AUSGEUE. I hope you get some good sleep friend aaueghd

I think that happened to a lot of people :3 smallidarity like was ramping up all season thanks to enemies to lovers being such a popular trope/dynamic but its Exploded in popularity lately and Im so thankful for that!!! whether it be from Joels fawning or their. insanity inducing innuendoes. the more fans the merrier ^—^

IM SO GLAD MY MADNESS HAS GOTTEN U TO WANNA REWATCH 100 HOURS :3c !!! its a comfort series for me for sure. and the episodes with Jimmy in them are. absolutely the best. ep 4 is one of my favorite episodes of anything ever. and if you want more Joel fawning over Jimmys cuteness…

YESSSSSS YES.. I ADORE THEM IN EMP S1!!! their dynamic is so unique there because of how wholly and overwhelmingly soft/positive it is. theyre allies from the start and BEST allies… auuughh.. yesshh Joel gets sooo defensive over Jimmy in s1 its beautiful. how quick he is to go absolutely murder mode for Jimmy. but how quick he is to be soft for him too. SIGGHHHHH. its my dream fr. the possessiveness.. YES.. theyre just SO important to eachother and it drives me crazy. he treats Jimmy so special. the way that he has little rooms for just Jimmy and Lizzie in his palace… the special roles they both hold… his wife and his best friend… there is def such a special connection there. and the possessiveness, Jimmy has so many more allies and close allies than Joel does. Joel just enforcing and affirming his station and specialness to Jimmy every once and a while.. by insulting his other allies augshs.. augh.. I just love them

also, for anyone else mulling over boundaries still; if you want specifics he just said he finds it “a bit weird” and iirc he didnt really say you cant do it. he just doesnt get it cause hes such a wifeguy. if youre concerned you can still tag it properly/keep it out of main tags. but if he was Really upset by it he would Not be encouraging and escalating it, and making the jokes he does, and putting them in his videos, and liking comments people make about them, and the tweets he makes, and and and and… if people are harassing u on behalf of him, they dont really care about what hes comfortable with, they just wanna punch down at someone. I get wanting to be respectful, but Ive also seen it used for such cruelty 💔 so I think the most important thing to keeping everyone, including the creators themselves, happy is to keep things to the right tags and spaces and being kind to yourself and others and blocking what you need and keeping out of peoples business.

#life series anon #srry for going off abt the boundary thing I just…#some people seriously harassed my partner for posting like the MILDEST shippy video of us. who are dating irl. in smallidarity cosplay #like we didnt do anything seriously romantic but these people are block evading and calling them all sorts of awful things for the audacity #of… a five second tiktok cosplay of an irl couple cosplaying characters they have has a baby together in a VERY innuendo filled scene #like I think hell live. hell be fine. but youre making my partner scared tp participate in fandom #anyway you seriously make my day with ur asks aaaaah :3 #I love talking abt these guuuuys and I love seeing ur thoughts 💚#prisspeaks #asks #discourse #smallidarity

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crymeariveronceagain · 2 years

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If you don’t mind answering, (I know you might have a lot of asks already, I’m sorry if me adding to them is making you feel overwhelmed.) how do you think the Kotlc cast would do in something similar to a Big Brother/Sister program? (Where you’re assigned to a kid to sort of mentor or take care of depending on the kid’s age.)

u already got sprayed with "YOU ARE NOT ANNOYING OR OVERWHELMING" juice once, i'm not gonna do it again, but I will admit i am sorely tempted.

oooooh let me thiiink

Sophie: Sophie is really a logical leader. She's straightforward, and offers like, legit good advice. This girl is just really invested, but in like, a good way. She's just a nice person to have on your side. She probably takes you out to the library or bookstore, because she's a nerd, and she likes reading, but when you guys talk about life in the coffee shop she listens and gives you all sorts of tips about how to deal with bullies. It's highkey... just. Nice. She's a nice person, especially to someone younger than her. She's always been an older sister type of person, and when she was little she was her own to guide and defend herself. So this is honestly her being what she needed when she was little.

Keefe: Oh. My gosh. He would be thrilled to do this, he's telling you tips on how to get away with eating in class and how to cut school constantly and still pass. He's showing you all the best spots in the school, and he 100% shows up to your extracurricular skill-showing-off-day, whether it's art or sports or robotics or even chess. He's super encouraging and super fun to be around. He cracks jokes constantly and he just really enjoys being someone someone littler looks up to. Alvar was always that kind of person to him, and even then, he rarely saw Alvar, so like, having someone look up to really makes him excited and want to do the absolute best by them.

Fitz: He's not super invested, but that's okay. He'll hang out once in a while but like. Eh. He's got a ton on his plate, and this program is just another extra thing for him to do, another box to check off. He checks it off, and it's all fine and good, but he's great, but when he gets home he just crashes into his bed and he's so exhausted that he doesn't move for a long while.

Biana: Has anyone ever wanted to mentor someone else more? No. Is she doing her absolute best? Yes. Does she know what she's doing? Absolutely not. I love her for that. She's doing everything she can and it's really sweet. She loves hanging out with you, loves doing things with you, and she's just a bit scattered, but it's so sweet and she really means everything that when she's consistently ten minutes late it doesn't even matter because she brought ripplepuffs and smiles brighter than the stars.

Tam: Super invested. Really cares and really wants to know. He's a lot more on the supportive side than you'd expect, and he doesn't sugar coat things. He tells you the truth. Straight facts. He's an active listener, and always tries to help you get to the best solutions. You never go anywhere interesting, or anything, but he's smart, and he sees reality for what it is, and is always willing to help or to listen.

Linh: She will let you tell her all the problems, you're holding a cat, sitting in a garden, everything's gonna be okay. Literally. She's like this aura of "it's gonna be okay." Sometimes older siblings, even the kind that are chosen, exist to show you that you can do it too. Linh is that kind of person. You can make it because she made it. You're going to be okay because she was. Everything is going to be alright because Linh is on your side, and everything that's going bad has been going bad for a long time and Linh's seen the bad too. You're not gonna face it alone.

Marella: She's effortlessly cool. Like she is the coolest person anyone will ever see. She's sassy, smart, quick on her feet, and she is everything you ever want to be. She's so, so cool. Like, the epitome of cool. She's the chewing bubblegum, black painted nails and dark eyeliner of the word cool. It's just so fun to hang out with her. She really cares, and it shows, and she listens and while she's not overly invested, or even super invested, she's cool. So at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter all that much.

Dex: Okay, he's not cool. Especially not in comparison to Marella. But he always has the best ideas and the best solutions, and he'll always make you laugh. He's just a fun person to be around and hang out with. So, no matter if he's practically "anti-cool juice" squished into a capri-sun pouch, when you hang out with him, you have a good time.

Stina: The queen of sarcasm. She listens, she really does, but her responses are all kind of sarcastic, and she doesn't really know how to act around kids, and when she's flustered she gets a little mean. So she's not super fun to be around, but it's because she doesn't know what she's doing, not because she's trying to be mean.

Maruca: Boba tea and sticky notes for you to hang up on your mirror. No, I'm not going to expand. She's just a steady presence of calm and it's really quite nice to be around her because she radiates calm out of her like other people radiate panic. It's nice to be around, and she's dangerous, too, but in a way that makes you know that nothing's gonna bother you as long as you're with her.

#hope it was worth the wait love!#<3 <3 <3 #kotlc #thanks for the ask!#kotlc keefe #keefe sencen #kotlc sophie #kotlc headcanon #sophie foster #kotlc tam #kotlc headcanons #kotlc fitz #linh song #kotlc marella #kotlc biana #kotlc stuff #idk if i did this right tho #i hope it was what you were looking for tho #it was a really cute ask!!!

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scuopsie · 2 years

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if i can speak - i think both “parties” of fans are in the wrong. fans who are adamantly for the group as a seven need to respect the fact that the boys have “gone their own ways” (in the public eye and professionally anyway - i am not so delusional to think these boys don’t hang out still) but fans who are fine with the group as a six also need to respect that people really got hurt during that time and they’re entitled to express that. it’s not fair for anyone to be telling anyone how to feel about it but when your behaviour and actions are now affecting someone else you need to take a moment to think about whether you’re simply emoting how you feel or you’re now imposing your feelings and wants on someone else (without the consideration of how it makes them feel or what kind of a position you’re putting them in - this goes for both “parties”)

as someone who became a fan literally last year i’ve never know mx as more than six but i understand the struggle and pain that comes with losing members of groups especially in a highly publicised and riddled with rumours type of way. it sucks so much and that horror kind of sticks with you for a long time. i’ve watching old mx stuff and i grieve the fact that i became a fan so late because i never got to see wonho in the group.

this all being said i don’t really know if i have a place to speak because i am such a new fan but that’s my opinion. everyone is right in their feelings but not necessarily in their actions.

Maybe I should’ve been more clear in my other ask; the side you're refering to isn't the same one I was talking about.

1)the delusional ot7 stans who keep pushing their ot7 narratives down everyone including monsta x and wonho and make them uncomfortable

2)the normal ot7 + wonho fans who support both monsta x and wonho individually as well as grieving the absence of wonho and not excluding him from things he was involved with.

3)fake woke stans bashing both other parties as if they're the same.

i didn't mention the first one in my previous ask because in my head they're a minority and i didn't want to consider them an entire group of stans (I may have downplayed their numbers) and that I thought that there was no questioning that they're 100% in the wrong. so yeah I mostly agree with what you're saying but we were talking about different groups of people.

I don't mean to be insensitive but I don't think you or anyone who didnt experience 2019 understands what monbebe and monstax+wonho went thru then. reading through the stories of the events and even having gone thru members leaving other groups doesn't even come close to really knowing how it was like and even I wasn't ulting monsta x. so even I don't fully get it and I'm still devastated just thinking about it (and remembering bits and pieces hearing about it back then). so I wholeheartedly believe that newer who didn't experience this have absolutely no right telling older mbbs to "move on". (I know u r not saying that. Im speaking generally)

even for the more extreme ones who refuse to accept that wonho will probably never join monsta x and they may never talk about each other or be seen together publicly, telling them to ‘move on’ is only going to make it worse. they just need to find a way to deal with this and understand that their intrusive actions and words will only make things more awkward and difficult for both monsta x and wonho.

I support wonho as a solo and consider him one of the best soloist of this generation, but in my heart he will always be monsta x's wonho too. I will never mention monsta x and wonho in each other's comment/fancall/concert erc or encourage people to do so because I understand that it would be pointless and disrespectful, but I don't think I'll ever move on and not be upset about the fact that wonho had to leave and start from 0 to get where he is now.

#one of he arguments anti ot7s (idk how else to refer to them dkdkd) use is that wonho is thriving now in a way he never did/could in mx #and i have to disagree #he could’ve had a solo career alongside his place in the group and it would probably be much easier to succeed actually #if the events of 2019 never happened he could’ve had a solo debut without the weight of those false allegations dragging him down #sure maybe it wouldn’t have been his main thing but in my personal opinion if i had to choose between having full time solo wonho and the-#-events of 2019 never happening id choose the latter because that situation hurt so many people most of all wonho himself.#id rather him not have gone thru that #but i cant change the past and insisting on wanting things to go back as they were before 2019 is delusional and impossible #so i will support him and monsta x and love them as they are now #but i will never be okay with what happened 2019 or be able to see it as a silver lining that solo wonho came out of it #i think only post-2019 mbb/wenee could feel that way #every once in a while i will cry abt missing wonho in monsta x and their interactions together here but never directly TO THEM (like on twt-#-or other platforms commete and just places they might see it)#ask #anon

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elizabethsaige · 2 years

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The Clock App

Raffie Pugh x Reader (female)

Request: Now- hear me out raffie pugh is a little too fine so could you make a raffie x female reader where r blows up on tiktok for having amazing fashion and her confidence (we stan confidence and self love) and creating all these fashion trends and so one day raffie does one of her trends and r being her super big marvel fan the comments under raffies post and from then and there they become close and eventually catch feelings for each other and all the fans just ship it

Word Count: 3,809

Warnings: None

A/N: thank u for being patient while I get this out lmao it was a struggle...also I really struggled writing raffie, idk why, but it kinda had a hard time with this one,,sorry if it sucks :/

One viral video and 600k likes was all it took for your TikTok account to blow up overnight. Your life went from living in a small town, working as a barista while studying in college, to the girl with 500k followers on the dance app, known for her killer confidence and amazing style that everyone wanted to copy.

The account was originally made to document your everyday life, as many videos on your “for you page” showcased people romanticizing their mundane and boring lives. If everyone else could do you, you could too. The social media platform was a great outlet of self expression for you, as your regular barista job didn’t quite fulfill your needs in the right way.

But quickly, you knew you wanted to do more with the content you were creating, even if barely anyone saw it. Slowly but surely, you began posting fashion and advice videos, teaching people how to grow into their confidence and learn to love themselves.

At first, you’d get anywhere from 100-500 likes per video and barely any traction, but one short video changed that.

emilyjune34: her confidence is so contagious, i hope she knows how much she’s helped me <3

tyoliver109: you are the cutest! love the video!! can’t wait to try this trend!

fluffybunny04: y/n reminds me of a ray of sunshine, i wish i had her confidence :( please post again soon!

Comments flooded your notifications as you sat down on the couch with a cup of hot tea. The sun was barely up, the majority of the town still asleep, but you unfortunately had to be awake to go to your 6:30 am opening shift at your coffee shop. Mornings like this made you wonder why you took the job in the first place, as your managers always scheduled you to open the store in the morning. Seeing as this was probably going to be your only free time for the day, you decided to check TikTok before you left.

Last night, you posted another video, this time creating a new trend, challenging whoever wanted to participate to create 3 fashion looks from the clothing in their closet that made them feel their most confident. It was important to you that people felt comfortable and confident in the clothing they put on their body, so a simple trend like this felt appropriate for you to post. It wasn’t much different from the usual content you put out, often combining fashion with the topic of confidence to spread the message.

You understood the concept of confidence might be a hard thing for those who struggle with it, as you yourself used to have a hard time. However, the people you looked up to growing up really helped and encouraged you to work on learning to accept yourself and you wanted to return the favor, even to one person.

The video was up for barely 12 hours and already it had gained 200k views, 65k likes and 8k comments, majority of them kind and encouraging. The hate comments never usually bothered you, as you understood that these people were projecting their own personal grievances with themselves onto you, but every once in a while, you’d find one that stuck out to you.

Luckily, this time was not one of those times, as your alarm interrupted your scrolling, letting you know it was time to head to work. Putting your barely touched, now lukewarm tea in the sink, you grabbed your backpack and keys to get a move on to work.

The city bus that ran in your town was the fastest way to get to your job most days, but the sun was rising and the birds were chirping so your bike was going to be your choice of transportation for the day. You threw your backpack in the basket on the back side of your bike, hopped on, and started for your cafe just 10 minutes away.

After the short ride, you arrived at your job and locked your bike in it’s usual spot by the door. Your coworker and close friend, Jamie, was already waiting by the door, eager to get inside to begin the shift.

Jamie was once just a coworker, but as you two began working together more, you quickly figured out how much you two had in common, and what once was a work friendship blossomed into a legit friendship. You could easily describe Jamie as one of your best friends.

“I saw your new video last night,” Jamie said as you two walked through the door. The cafe was dark, only the light from the security cameras and faint light from the sunrise illuminated the room. It was a challenge every morning for you to get to the back of the shop, usually needing your phone flashlight to aid you in getting there.

“And? What did you think?” You and Jamie sat your stuff on the table by the lockers provided by the shop, hanging your flannel on one of the hooks.

“It was good! I think outfit number 2 was my favorite, the one with the denim jacket,” she replied, throwing her apron around her waist. You followed, tieing the string behind your back.

Jamie was always your number 1 supporter and harshest critic. You knew she’d tell you the truth about your content, even when it was hard to hear, but you appreciated her honesty.

A small smile appeared on your face as you thought back to the video, trying to remember the outfit. “Oh yeah, that’s my favorite too. I’m glad you liked it, I was kind of nervous posting it. I wasn’t sure how people would react.”

Jamie shrugged as the two of you started for the front of the cafe. “It seems like everyone likes it so far! I don’t think I’ve seen a negative comment yet.”

“What, of the 8,000 comments on that video? There has to be at least one.” Truthfully, you didn’t really care how many negative comments were left on your videos.

“Well whoever leaves one is dead to me. You know I always have your back, Y/N.”

You flashed a grateful smile her way. “Thanks J, I appreciate you and your support.”

The rest of the day went pretty smoothly, less customers came by than usual, but Thursday mornings at the cafe were pretty unpredictable. The few regulars that did stop in complimented you on your new video, many of them being college students your age that followed your account. You were like a small celebrity to the people around your area, many of them knowing at least your name.

It was always nice to see some of the faces that watch your videos, and even nicer to hear them give you positive feedback in person.

As your work day came to a finish around 1 pm, you found yourself remembering all of the studying and schoolwork you had to complete. It was normal for you to remain at your cafe after your shift ended, placing yourself either in the back corner of the shop or in the backroom to work on school stuff. Today was no exception. The second you clocked out, you made your way to your favorite back corner to set your stuff down, then back up to make yourself an iced lavender latte with oat milk to get you through the next few hours.

The buzzing of your phone on the hard surface of your desk woke you up from your deep sleep. Half of your torso sprawled out across your laptop and hardback textbook, papers messily shoved to the sides. You rubbed your eyes and ran your hands along your cheeks, feeling the bit of dried drool that fixated itself across your right cheek.

Glancing at your phone, the caller ID jam :) was displayed on the screen. That was your nickname for Jamie, an inside joke between the two of you. You grabbed your phone and pressed the green answer button.

“CAN YOU BELIEVE IT Y/N???”

Confused, you groaned into the speaker, hinting at the fact that you just woke up. “What are you talking about?”

“FLORENCE PUGH’S SISTER RAFFIE JUST TAGGED YOU IN HER TIKTOK!”

Your heart dropped as you heard the name ‘Florence Pugh’ come through the speaker and into your ear. “Wait, seriously? Please tell me you’re kidding.”

You put Jamie on speaker and clicked on the TikTok app, going right to your notifications button. Right near the top of the screen, it read @raffpugh tagged you in a video. You clicked on it as fast as your finger could manage to click the screen and it brought you to her video. A quick 30 second montage of Raffie Pugh showing 3 different outfits appeared. The caption of the video read “trying out @y/u/n’s challenge, i loved her video and had to do it myself”

“Well? Did you see it?” Jamie was patiently waiting on the other side of the phone screen, fully expecting you to freak out.

For a long as you can remember, the Marvel franchise had been your favorite, and most recently, the Black Widow movie took the #1 spot in your rankings of favorite movies ever. Your obsession/fascination with Florence Pugh only grew stronger when you saw her play Yelena Belova in the movie. Like any other fan, you did a major deep dive into the actors and actresses that had the job of being in your favorite movie, quickly finding out that Florence had a younger sister your age, named Raffie. One deep dive led to another and all of a sudden, you were binge watching and liking all of Raffie’s TikTok videos, falling into an infatuation with the brunette.

She was gorgeous and so funny, just like her sister, but in a completely different light. Her accent was thick but was like music to your ears. It didn’t take long for her to follow you back, not after you liked almost every video she posted. Jamie, of course, made fun of you for embarrassing yourself for doing that, but hey, it got Raffie’s attention.

“I can’t believe it,” you whispered, staring at the video that was now playing on a loop.

You figured one or two people might do the challenge but never did you think that anyone like Raffie would do it. Your heart was beating so fast, like it could burst out of your chest.

“I have to, like, message her or something. I-would that be, I don’t know, weird?” Stumbling over your words, the butterflies in your stomach fluttered faster as you tapped on the message button on Raffie’s account page.

“Not at all, go for it! I’m sure she’d answer,” Jamie encouraged. Nodding to yourself, you start typing out a short message, erasing it almost instantly.

“Dude, I don’t even know what to say, what do I say?”

A pause from the other end of the phone made you nervous, hoping that Jamie would help you out with what to say. “I’m not sure, but hey, I gotta go. Text me and tell me what she says!”

And before you could respond, the call ended, leaving you to your own devices.

Twiddling your thumbs around the keyboard, beads of sweat formed on your forehead as you searched your brain on what you should say to Raffie.

The task shouldn't be this challenging, right? I mean, it’s no big deal! It was chill; you were calm, cool, and collected.

Except things were not chill. THE Raffie Pugh knew that you existed and that was enough to make you want to hide your face in embarrassment.

Come on, Y/N. You can do this. It’s just a small message, no need to freak out. Just talk to her like she’s a friend.

@y/u/n: hey raffie! I just saw that you did my challenge! I loved your video, the outfits you put together were so cool and I could tell how confident you were in them!

Your bottom lip was caught nervously between your teeth as you chewed on the skin, leg bouncing up and down causing your desk to shake.

Before you lost your mind, you set your phone faced down on the desk and ran your hands through your knotted hair.

A high-pitched ding came from your phone, signaling a notification coming through. Immediately, your hand reached for the phone, the bright screen illuminating your face as you checked to see who it was.

Unfortunately, it was just your mom wishing you goodnight like she does daily. A small sigh escaped your lips as you typed out a quick message back to her.

Minutes went by as you anxiously stared at your phone, waiting for a response from Raffie. It’s not like you knew if she was even going to respond or not, but the little bit of hope you had kept you nervous for what she would say.

Finally, the high-pitched ding rang through and a notification from TikTok popped up on your phone screen.

@raffpugh responded to your message

@raffpugh: hi darling, thank you so much! your videos have helped me so much with my confidence, i hope you realize how much you’re helping others <3

A loud squeal came from your mouth as you read and reread the message. THE Raffie Pugh responded to your message AND served you a hefty compliment.

Thoughts raced your mind as you tried to figure out what to say. I mean, what is there to say? Thank you???

Moments passed as you wracked your brain and still, nothing. This coming from the girl that preached confidence and normally was able to be chill in these situations.

Looking at the clock that read 12:03 am, you knew you had to head to bed or else you’d be dead to the world tomorrow morning. But not before typing out a message to Raffie, hoping it would do you justice.

y/u/n: thank you, you have no idea how much it means to have you say that! :)

Quickly, your one time message to Raffie turned into a daily conversation. The two of you would exchange messages through the clock app multiple times a day, as you could, considering the time difference. Soon enough, a month had gone by.

To be completely honest, you never expected this to go on for so long. I mean, not that you didn’t want it to, you just figured Raffie had better things to do than talk to you all day.

But truthfully, talking to you was the highlight of Raffie’s day. You were an escape from her usual life, and not that she only saw you as that, but she quite liked getting to know you.

In fact, Raffie’s friends would constantly tease her about being on her phone more than usual, talking to “some boy she couldn’t get enough of”. None of them know who you were, and Raffie wanted to keep it that way, for now.

The longer the two of you talked and got to know each other, the more you started to fall for her. You knew it was soon and you two barely knew the other, but you couldn’t help it. Raffie had developed the same feelings as you, but was a little more on the cautious side, as she didn’t want to move things too fast or ruin the relationship you two already had. It was small but it meant a lot to Raffie.

The sun was setting as you climbed out of your window, onto your rooftop, ready to relax after a long day at work. There was a slight breeze, making the night cooler and more bearable.

Work had been so frustrating and tiring, all you wanted to do was sit and watch the sun go down before having to climb in bed and do it all over again tomorrow.

It had been a few days since you and Raffie talked. For the past few days, her messages had been getting further apart; before, she’d reply almost instantly, despite the time difference, but recently it would take her hours to respond, each text dryer than the next.

You’d be lying if you said it didn’t make you sad, but you saw it coming. It might have been unrealistic to expect Raffie to keep up with you, or even be interested in talking to you for so long. It’s not like you could see each other in person, where the conversation would be easier to keep up with and things wouldn’t be so awkward.

The recent changes made your mood change. Even Jamie noticed. She offered you a tight hug and said, “Sometimes, conversations just don’t keep up. It’s her loss anyway, anyone would be lucky to talk to you.”

You didn’t believe her, but appreciated her support nonetheless. It just bummed you out that someone’s silence would have such an affect on you, but hey, the show must go on.

So you sucked it up as much as you could and put a smile on your face, even for a while.

A loud car horn brought your mind back from your daydreams, causing you to jump a little. The sun was now fully set, although you didn’t realize before because you were lost in thought about Raffie.

An alert on your phone illuminated the screen, shining some light in the dark. It was from TikTok, a message from Raffie. Your heartbeat started to race, confused as to what she had said. You quickly clicked on the notification and read the message.

@raffpugh: hi love. I’m so sorry I haven’t messaged you in a few days, but i kind of need to tell you something. do you have a minute to skype? xx

You climbed back inside and ran to plug your phone into it’s charger, opened the Skype app and sent your username to Raffie so she could send you a chat.

Worries started to cloud your mind, desperate to know what Raffie could possibly need to tell you. Was she mad at you? Did something happen? So many possibilities and yet none of them were being confirmed, making your palms sweat more than they already were.

This was your first time seeing Raffie “in person” and the thought of that made you so nervous. She’d seen you before in your videos so it wasn’t going to be a surprise but TikTok videos and video chats are two totally different avenues and not the same thing at all.

Finally, the video chat request was on the screen and with the push of a button, Raffie was on your screen.

A small smile formed on your lips when you saw her. She was beautiful.

“Hi Y/N,” Raffie said quietly, looking right into the camera. You waved, smiling back at her. God, her voice and accent were perfect. Just the sound of it made your stomach form butterflies.

“Hi Raffie, how are you doing?” She smiled and looked around her before saying anything. She was outside in what looked to be her garden, but the video was slightly blurry so it was hard to tell.

“I’m okay, doing better than before. That’s kind of what I wanted to talk to you about. But before that, how are you? It’s so good to finally meet you through video instead of just text. I’ve been waiting for what seems like months to see you,” she replied.

You pursed your lips before responding. “I’ve been okay too. Just really busy with work. I’ve missed talking to you.” Raffie flashed you a sad grin.

“I know love, I’m sorry I kind of disappeared. I sort of had a few things to think about and needed some time away from, you know, everything,” she said. You nodded back at the phone, completely understanding what she meant.

“Raff, it's okay. I get it, I was just confused because I thought we were really getting along and our conversations always seemed so good and then they kind of just…stopped.”

Raffie paused, looking away from the screen before turning her head back to her phone. She took what looked like a deep breath.

“I really like talking to you, Y/N, and I’m sorry I stopped responding. But truthfully, I was scared to keep talking to you because I began to like you, and I didn’t want to ruin things with you. I was really scared of how you would respond so I kind of ran away from the situation to think but all I could think about was you.”

Your brows creased at what you heard. “You like me?”

Raffie nodded, her bottom lip caught between her teeth, worried if she said anything else before you processed, she’d scare you away.

“Wow,” was all you could respond with. Raffie looked at you through the screen, reading your facial expressions to see what you were thinking. But all she saw was confusion.

“Y/N, please say something.”

Snapping back from inside your head, you looked at her. “I like you too.”

She smiled her huge, beautiful smile as her cheeks flushed bright red.

“You do?” You nodded eagerly. A giggle came from Raffie, who covered her mouth in disbelief. “Well, I’m so glad to hear that because I was so worried for a second there.”

“Sorry, I just can’t believe it. I’ve liked you since we started talking but I was too afraid to flirt with you or anything.” Shocked, Raffie questioned you.

“You, scared? Really?” Nodding, you tucked a piece of hair behind your ear and propped your phone up on the table, freeing both of your hands.

“Of course! I mean, you're super gorgeous and funny and kind and I was intimidated,” you exclaimed, hoping she didn’t judge you for being nervous. But all she did was laugh.

“Y/N, are you kidding me? You had nothing to be scared about! If anything, I’m the one who is intimidated. You’re amazing.” Warmth from your stomach rose to your cheeks, making you hide your face bashfully.

The smile on Raffie’s face as she looked at you made your heart swell. Seeing her and hearing her say those words to you made you so happy, all of the nervousness was all worth it.

tags: @earthtocarsyn @imapotatao @ohgrays

#raffie pugh #raffie pugh x reader #fanfics

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softluci · 3 years

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gen. writing guide

hi, so, like, if you're a white or light/fair-skinned person who doesn't wear a bonnet to sleep, and you also write y/n or x-reader fics, i am speaking directly to you. i keep talking about how people don't know how to write inclusively [because it's annoying], but i noticed that i haven't made an effort to create something that might be of help. this is just going to be a general, barely in-depth guide for what to do and what Not to do when writing your x-reader fics, with alternatives to what you probably already do. also!! feel free to add to this or ask me a question if i missed something because this isn’t comprehensive.

to start, i should note that my writing is in no way Spectacular or anything, i just learned how to write without excluding people after so many years of being excluded [albeit unintentionally]. also, this is not a, “let people write how they want,” scenario. if you want to write something wherein anyone can insert themselves, you shouldn't be excluding people because you think your experiences are universal. i'm gonna give all of you the benefit of the doubt by saying i don't think you're being malicious, but i do think you just don't know how to write these types of things properly.

and by the way:

now let's get started.

conveying emotions via skin

this is a big one; arguably the most common way for a person to fuck up an x-reader, and for a white/fair-skinned author, it’s so miniscule, but to people with darker skin, it stands out about ten times more than you think it would.

do not. do Not. Do Not say anything about your reader’s skin turning red when they’re angry or nervous or embarrassed or feeling any emotion that, to you, warrants a blush. people with darker skin don’t turn beet red, or red at all, actually, and seeing things like, “your face reddened,” is so, so frustrating, especially when the alternatives are so much better.

let’s say you’re trying to convey anger. if no one is perceiving that anger (if your character is alone), or if you just want to talk about that anger as it pertains to them, the best way to do it is to talk about how it feels. shortness of breath, a quickened heartbeat you can feel in your throat and hear in your ears, heat rushing to your face (this is an especially good substitute for redness), etc. if you want to convey embarrassment, you can do it in a way that’s almost the same as anger, just with a different context. that is to say, you can talk about your reader’s heartbeat and heat rushing to their head/face. literally as long as you do not talk about blushing or skin turning pink/red, it’s fine.

now, if you’re writing a blushy emotion, and someone else is perceiving it, the best way to do that is to talk about your reader’s outward appearance, albeit there are slight cheat codes for obm because they all have heightened senses and could 100% hear your heartbeat or blood rush. but anyway—pinched eyebrows, narrowed eyes, clenched fists, a change in their demeanor, maybe they’re yelling or look like they’re about to yell, etc.

if someone else is not only perceiving a blushy emotion, but also causing it and encouraging it (like, teasing, for example), and you want them to comment on it, there are literally so many things you can do. you can have them get close enough to your reader that they can feel their heartbeat/how warm they’re getting, you can have them touch any one of your reader’s pulse points, actually (ex: neck, wrist), you can have them say something like, “why are you so nervous?” or “what’s that face for?”

the world is your oyster, but for the love of everything that is good, just Don’t Write Your Reader Blushing. thank u.

acts of intimacy w/ hair

this is another big one that is very miniscule to non-black people, but, again, it sticks out about ten times more than you think it does, and it is one of the biggest ways you can fuck up an x-reader.

“he tucked your hair behind your ear,” “he ran his hand through your hair,” “he threaded his fingers through your hair,” friend, my hair is type 4, and i wear a bonnet. no he didn’t, and if he tried, it would just piss me awf.

i understand that, if you’re nb, a person running their hands through your hair or playing with it is a common occurrence and display of affection, but, like i said earlier, your experiences are not universal. so, what’s the best way to avoid making this slip up? pretend every single one of your readers is baldheaded. i’m not even kidding. just don’t ever mention hair.

some other ways to convey soft intimacy could be having a character play w/ your reader’s hands/fingers, tracing repeated shapes/patterns into their skin, or, if you want, literally just laying with/holding them. there are so many options, just leave hair out of it, and you’ll be better off.

imagery

this doesn’t happen nearly as much as the first two, i don’t think, but it still happens a fucking lot, where, like, an author will write something where you know they think their reader is white, and it’s so—like, i can’t even put into words how it makes me feel. just know i hate it. and, of course, this is a small thing for white authors, but it stands out So Much More than you think it does, i promise you.

“your porcelain skin,” “your pale hands,” “your pink lips,” see what i mean?

i understand wanting to include imagery in your writing, but at the same time, notice how all of those descriptive words are completely unnecessary and add absolutely nothing to anything? it would actually be easier to just Not Include Them. they’re literally just filler words, and if you’re confident enough in your writing skills, you shouldn’t be including them.

so, what’s the solution here? simply put: don’t.

cool, thanks, hope this helps, ask questions if u need to ^_^

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jiminrings · 3 years

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umm maybe this is me projecting bc i am messaging you during my break but for a drabble request, yoongi in a retail setting???? 😐😐😐😐 oc could either be a co-worker or a regular customer who asks too many questions 😔😌

retail-type beat

drabble week: day three

drabble week masterlist

pairing: customer!yoongi x retail worker!reader

wordcount: 3k

glimpse: "hi! almost thought you were hiding from me for a second. anyways, is this sweater wool or cotton?"

feedback + support mean the world to me!!

the last time you checked, work doesn’t start until nine

you kNEW it doesn’t start until 9 in the morning, so clearly that’s why you’re just wearing slides instead of your sneakers

the company uniform is either black or purple (it has to be from what the store is selling though so you can get to choose) with of course!!!! a lanyard!!!!

and you know this, because you’re still wearing your slides from home because it isn’t opening time yet

“goddamn it, i forgot to bring my slippers,” jin moans the moment he walks to see you, looking down on your feet that only reminds him he’d be stuck in his cool yet painfully uncomfy sneakers

he’s probably the only co-worker that you’re truly close with, not feeling the urge to sell him just to get a free day

“i told you to get the sneakers that nurses use!!”

hands-down one of the best purchases you’ve ever made

retail’s hard and it’s not exactly the best-paying job!!! thankfully the franchise owner is a bit more generous so that’s why you get slightly-higher hourly pay

“i would if they looked a little more seasoned,” jin snorts and stubbornly crosses his arms, “i might sacrifice my pride and buy some compression socks.”

OOOOOH THOSE ARE GOOD TOO

makes you feel like ur walking on air

but lol no seokjin isn’t ready to buy those just yet

he’ll settle on some blisters and putting salonpas patches because they look cooler that way, thank u very much <3

jin yawns, talking about finding a steam iron somewhere to replace a blowdryer so he could break in his shoes

“you wipe the glass this time.”

oh right he absolutely hates wiping down the glass — even before opening!!! even when there aren’t any grubby kids that would soil it instantly with their equally as grubby hands

you don’t mind it honestly

you might honestly like it

you prefer wiping the glass a hundred times over than steaming clothes

there is nOT a single thought in your head when you spray on the solution to the glass, rag and squeegee tucked between your fingers when-

maybe you should’ve hOLY FUCKING SHIT

it’s not opening!!!! it is nOT nine o’clock in the morning!!!!

you know that the shop you’re working in is pretty fucking famous and it’s located on one of the most populated streets ever BUT THERE’S ALREADY SOMEONE

although the bucket hat seems familiar from a distance and-

oh it’s just yoongi

yoongi?

yoongi’s already here????

yoongi, the guy in question, is an always customer!!

no, not a regular customer — an always customer

he comes every week and maybe even twice within that period

he’s a nice talkative customer who likes asking questions and even occasionally guides the other customers on what to buy and where to find it

he’s yoongi!!! of course that’s expected of him

he’s been going here long since you ever started working here, and jin keeps iNSISTING that he’s been here more frequently since you started like a year ago

but doesn’t he come at eleven in the morning?

“woah, yoongi’s already here? — doesn’t he come at eleven in the morning?”

?!!?!!

“i was just thinking the exact same thing.”

jin bangs the glass with his fist and you automatically wince and frown

you dO like cleaning the glass panes!! you didn’t say you liked cleaning them a second time :(

“YOONGI!”

“YES??”

you push jin’s fist away to wipe at the smudge his hand left

“IT’S NOT OPENING YET!”

“I KNOW!!”

wow they’re uh

they’re really loud

sometimes you forget how seokjin could be since it’s been awhile since you heard him yell

lol no one’s been shoplifting recently so you haven’t been hearing him

a mind-blowing idea is for jin to come outside and talk to him in a normal talking voice, so your ears would stop ringing

“HEY! WHAT IF YOU JUST ENTER EARLY IN?”

“REALLY? IS THAT EVEN ALLOWED??”

"YOONGI, EVERYONE ON THE FLOOR KNOWS YOUR NAME. NAMJOON EVEN GAVE YOU A CUSTOMARY BIRTHDAY GIFT, AND WE DON'T GIVE CUSTOMARY BIRTHDAY GIFTS TO ANY OTHER CUSTOMER!!"

namjoon, who technically should be called mr. kim because no one really thinks to call the franchise owner with their government first name, is actually pretty cool

but he's too busy these days and haven't been visiting because he's too busy tending to his newly-opened coffee shop

as if the money he earns from opening his franchise in a day alone isn’t enough :0

"IF YOU SAY SO?"

you’re the one who hikes up the roll-up door in the slightest, enough for only yoongi to enter and not encourage anyone else to nOT enter when it’s still not opening time!!!!

he only has to crouch a little but he still has to dust his thousand-dollar pants as if he crawled through mud

his cream-colored slacks with a large black hoodie that has a giant bear embroidered on the middle of it and mules

... you don't hate his outfits

pretty cute, actually

it's yoongi!!

you'd never catch him lacking!!!

you don't even have to envision him rocking the shit out a paper bag

one time, he came in the store wearing the WRINKLIEST brown linen jumpsuit that no iron could possibly fix and he still pulled it off

toon-teen-ten!

oh god that’s the sound of the intercom

and the sound of the intercom equates to jungkook

... as in jeon jungkook who’s the floor manager and his constant top one goal for every month is to endearingly annoy seokjin

he’s young and mischievous!! but if you were to ask him, only you and jungkook are the people in this floor he’d actually get drinks with outside the shop

“seokjin come to the lingerie department right now, please.”

you see the thing is :D

“now this is just funny

there’s walkie-talkies for everyone here!! jungkook likes intercoms, and seokjin like yelling!!

“WHY ME AGAIN?? I’VE ALREADY FOLDED-“

“there’s a literal rat and i need yOU to catch it!! you know that i hate rodents!!”

him and jungkook are forever gonna be on this eldest-youngest brother dynamic and while jungkook pouts and shared the extras that he gets, jin is the one who kills the bugs :D

10/10 totally fair

fine then!! he’ll catch that goddamn rat

that leaves you and yoongi. alone.

“why did you come so early this time?”

you ask out of courtesy, genuinely baffled too because you know that yoongi’s a creature of habit

yoongi’s eyes pop out, head fervently shaking no

“i’m typically not the type to do that, no.”

???

is he-

are you-

are you both talking about the same thing

yoongi’s face flushes in embarrassment, his mind just then registering what you were actually saying

“o-oh! it’s because last night, i dreamt of the sweater i saw here last week!!"

oh right

typical :D

"need me to find it for you or do you already know the aisle?"

you align the folded shirts by the corners as you pass, looking at yoongi briefly while he trails behind yoh

“not unless you pulled it out already."

he's hoping that dear god you haven't

the black sweater with the moon aND buildings on it and when you turn on the flash, the windows of said building reflect it right back???

he SHUDDERS just by thinking about it

it’s gonna go with everything!!! an instant boost of serotonin every time he sees it

"for you, yoongi?" you shake your head, a small smile on your face that he only sees every once in a while, "i'd comb through the entire stock room."

wait

that’s sweet :((

“i’ll hold you to that.”

you know what??? you're less cranky when it's only him, and a couple of hundred people less

your smiles aren't for customer-service and you don't have misplaced clothes hanging from your shoulders and your walkie-talkie isn't talking in latin

or when no one’s asking you to reach something from the top shelf

or when you’re on the way to the intercom because a kid got separated from their mother

or when someone’s approaching for a refund for a shirt who has a stain that’s 100% no doubt customer error

his feet immediately move on its own because he’s memorized the outline of this too many times

there it is!!!

the sweater he’s dreamt about is already on his hands, only a handful few left

the piece is considerably more expensive than majority of the items here, so that’s why they’re all spaced-out instead of being clustered altogether

yoongi rarely goes to the dressing room, regardless if it's a full-house or not!!

he could just look at an item and immediately tell that it’s made for him ta know

he's beyond sure that this sweater fits him perfectly, but he may want to be here a little longer

yoongi may have say inside one of the fitting rooms and spent a little time in it just to sit on the chair inside, not fitting the sweater at all

he's gotten his item SO quick and he wished he could've just walked slower or pretended to not know where it was!!!

he wants to spend a little more time here

you don't hate yoongi!!! but sometimes he could just be... yoongi

he's quite talkative and strikes it whenever, making you unguarded

he could be overbearing but like an overbearing kind of nice

yoongi’s nice!! he’s the type to ask a lot of questions sure, but he’s also the type that would point the other customers what to buy and where to find it

he’s the type to find an obvious faulty stitch on a shirt, but he’d just quietly exchange it instead of asking for the manager

he’s the type you wouldn’t want to stand behind in line because it would take a long time for him to finish, but he’s also the same one who buys giftcards with generous amounts for family and friends

yoongi’s kind of cool and that’s cemented on your mind

"what do you got for me?"

he materializes out of nowhere, spooked because you thought he already ringed up and was out of the store already

it just happens to be ten minutes before opening and you’re doing last-minute arrangements on a new spread

well, yoongi most certainly is still here and his attention’s piqued

“we have... a new collection."

you clear your theory, awkwardly gesturing because you’re more than aware that yoongi hasn’t seen this either

“yeah, i know that. but like, what's going on??" he gestures to the displays and racks, squinting his eyes, "what's the theme? what's the material?"

uhm you haven't read the brief about this

you aren't even sURE if there is one!!

doesn't everyone make up something on the spot in retail

or atleast that’s what seokjin tells you

“the theme," you clear your throat, scratching your temple before gesturing towards the full rack, "is everything."

“everything?

yoongi’s eyebrow is raised, not expecting that answer at all

you look back to the new feature, and nOW that you think about it,, there's no cohesion at all

“y-yes. the shop was going for the theme of uhm, everything... all at once — yeah, that's it. everything all at once."

it’s a nice way to put it when not one bit of the new collection goes together

“hmmmm. i like it,” yoongi nods solemnly and tilts his head, “and the material?"

"the material?"

you repeat, eyesight not the best so you can’t really tell anything off the bat or uh aNYTHING really

"t-the material is shirt."

they're all shirts!!! that’s it

yoongi grimaces in disgust, the first time you’ve seen of it

“what?? you can't say that.”

he outsretches his hand to the nearest article, holding it up by the hanger

"this, right here, is satin. see how it shines like silk, but doesn't feel like silk?"

uhm yes

you have a gist of what he’s saying but yes

yoongi picks up a pink button shirt this time, flipping it inside out

"this, is silk charmeuse. look at the inside, is it smooth?"

okay where is he going with this

he urges you to put your hand on the fabric and uhhh you didn't sign up for this???

it looks smooth, sure!! end of discussion

"yea-..."

“it's not. it's rough. it is smooth, but it's dull. silk charmeuse is still silk, but the backing it has is different from the lustrous part."

okay yoongi

you’re starting to feel uncomfortable and it has to do something with the tone he’s using on you

“can't believe you didn't know that!! how about this," he plucks out a shirt with a tiny print at the middle of it, "cotton or polyester and rayon?"

"i don't-"

there’s an itch in your neck that you want to scratch, a tell-tale sign that you just wANT to remove yourself from this situation

“come on!! it's a dead giveaway!!"

:((

why is he being like this?

toon-teen-ten!

“y/n, panty section please. jin almost got bit by a mouse and he needs comforting. two minutes until opening, people!!"

jungkook speaks at the right moment, and jin’s little incident is enough of a reason for you to bolt

yoongi's still looking at you but you can't afford to embarrass yourself further

“bye. happy shopping."

huh?

yoongi’s face falls when you leave as cold as that!! typically when you were going to show him out (when it’s regular shop hours), there’d be a smile :((

there's not even a customer service smile :(((

yoongi goes to the only cashier that's open so far and it happens to be far away from you and a teary seokjin

seokjin's fine he didn't even get bit!! that much he could say

but are you okay? uhhh you kinda went cold on him by the end and he thought he started on a good note

yoongi doesn't visit for another week and you don't find yourself counting the days until you meet him again

you did not have a devil wears prada moment where anne hathaway has an epiphany for fashion knowledge

you just felt belittled at a job that isn’t exactly what you wanted anyways

needed, yes. but wanted? not exactly

you know that basic knowledge about clothes is required in a retail job like this and you have it!! you do!!!!

you’d know more if only there were actual available resources for employees to know!!! nobody besides yoongi asks anyways

you’d know if you have time to yourself and aren’t working two jobs trying to make ends meet and tHEN you could pull up a book or something!!!

you’d know if your life is as lax as yoongi’s and could have the budget to buy new things for yourself every single week

“jin, i need to ask you something.”

he hums as called, looking at you briefly until you get on with it

“do you know the difference between silk and silk charmeuse?"

he shrugs casually while you're sitting inside one of the closed-off fitting rooms to catch a break, sharing a burger because the store’s packed-packed

why did you ask him? it’s too easy

“one's made by worms, and the other's a pokémon."

that,.,., could not possibly be righti* it brings you a laugh and you honestly don’t even try to correct him

it’s 11:15 and you kNOW it’s time to resume your shift, straightening your shirt because atleast one (1) person would hound you when they see a familiar red lanyard

oh you’re hounded alright

“hi! almost thought you were hiding from me for a second.”

yoongi????

you haven’t seen him for a week and you don’t know what to feel in all honesty

"anyways, is this sweater wool or cotton?"

wow

you're quite speechless as he holds up the item

really?

this thing all over again???

why are you even surprised

the only thing that yoongi gets your customer service smile, fishing your hand from inside the sweater to show him

“70% wool."

that's it???

NO GOOD MORNING????

you're mad at him, aren't you?

he knew it :((

he knew something was wrong but he just didn’t know what

he’s gonna fix this!! he will

which is why the very next day, he takes the day off from his work and comes to the store at a time he knows you’d surely be there

you're on cashier duty and you like it actually :D

you have an option to sit and the way you’re just gonna scan pricetags (and occasionally enter the code if it doesn’t work) is really appealing

“good morning!"

you’re about to grab the items from the basket laid on the counter and your eyes could only see the very familiar hand

the same one you’ve seen go through racks and racks

yoongi??

he sets his items one by one, buying himself more time

the first one is the same exact sweater he came to wait for before opening

“you already bought this."

you tell him even before you could hold it back, looking back at him briefly before you scan the tag

“i know. i just wanted to see you."

yoongi threw a bunch of other items (individually) so it would be a longer talk, but you scan each item quickly that he’s grabbing things from the counter

hand sanitizer!!! hair ties!!! keychains!!!! yeah he needs them

“i'm sorry that i tend to spring shit on you most of the time. you don't need to know the difference between silk and silk charmeuse."

you only chuckle then, a meek smile on your face

"it's okay, yoongi.”

“it's not."

... it’s not?

yoongi fidgets, opening and closing his mouth like he’s nervous!!! he’s never had his credit card cancelled but he could only feel that this type of jitterness is more than the former

“can i make it up to you? no lanyards, no baskets, no customer service?? i don't wanna fuck things up with you."

“don't feel obligated-"

“i know i could be a condescending ass who expects people to automatically know fabric and whatnot, but i wanna make it up to you."

alright yoongi’s a really good apology-maker

you mIGHT be even flustered a little

“you're holding the line, yoongi.”

“i cleared my schedule."

“i haven’t!!!!!” - guy in the back

“dinner at my place at 8. i-i promise to make your hard-earned break after your shift worthwhile!!!"

hmmm

maybe that wouldn’t hurt

“okay. just because you're holding the line."

“fine by me."

:))

yoongi transfers all the items he bought, all but one, to his tote bag

he hands back the paper bag to you, scribbling his address on the back of the receipt before he does

he lingers a little while at the counter, the people behind him ALREADY switching lanes to the one seokjin’s just opened beside you

it's the sweater that he has too

yoongi scratches the back of his head, this time being the meek one

“what? m-matching sweaters for our first date. s'cute."

#drabble week #yoongi imagine #yoongi imagines #min yoongi imagines #yoongi oneshots #yoongi oneshot #yoongi drabble #yoongi drabbles #yoongi au #yoongi x reader #yoongi x y/n #yoongi fanfiction #min yoongi fanfiction #yoongi fanfic #min yoongi oneshot #min yoongi scenarios #yoongi headcanon #yoongi fluff #yoongi angst

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felinedetached · 3 years

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u mentioned a possible wilbur analysis 👀? very interested by this

This is gonna be a hell of a lot less sourced than the Dream one, because I am lazy and because my focus on c!Wilbur analysis has always leant more towards his authoritarian tendencies and how he ran his country! But! He, like c!Dream, gives me extremely strong BPD vibes.

Once again: this has no bearing on canon, it's just my thoughts as a person with BPD, and has no intent to vilify c!Wilbur or BPD!

SO! A quick run-through of each symptom and if I think c!Wilbur has it or not, with mini breakdowns of the ones I think he does:

1. Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment (Note: Do not include suicidal or self-mutilating behaviour covered in Criterion 5)

Absolutely. To a different extent to Dream, however, as Wilbur is fully confident in his ability to manipulate those closest to him. He destroyed L'manburg because if he couldn't have it, nobody can. He made sure Tommy was loyal to him, made sure Tubbo and Jack and Niki were all loyal to him (through L'Manburg, and through pushing the idea that you have to sacrifice for your country, e.g. pushing Tommy to sacrifice his house for L'Manburg).

He doesn't want to be abandoned, so he ensures they won't abandon L'manburg.

2. A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterised by alternating between extremes of idealisation and devaluation

Ooof. This one's a hard one, because like, yeah. His opinion of people shifts at the drop of a hat — usually one that's inspired by something, but that's true for a lot of people with BPD anyway. A good example is how swiftly he turned completely on Eret! He barely spent time to process the betrayal before he was vilifying Eret, turning on them and denouncing them as a member of L'manburg. It was a quick, immediate switch in perception, and that's just— vibes.

I'd say it fits his perceptions of other people too! Turning on Techno, the shift in his perception of Fundy and Quackity, even how he saw Tommy and Dream.

3. Identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self

Hell yes. "Are we the villains, Tommy?"

4. Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g. spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating) (Note: Do not include suicidal or self-mutilating behaviour covered in Criterion 5)

Going into war without armour, apparent smoking habit (not entirely sure if this is canon or not, but if it is: yes), the fact that he ran a drug empire and that they used those drugs themselves, repeatedly announcing himself as the traitor despite knowing it would be harmful to him if people knew. Once again, it's hard to make a one to one comparison with Minecraft when a lot of these things don't really exist, but from what we can see: yeah.

5. Recurrent suicidal behaviour, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behaviour

Well. It's a bit hard for it to be recurrent when you succeed.

6. Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g. intense episodic dysphoria, irritability or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)

Oh my god, yes. This and (8. Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g. frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights)) combine a lot for Wilbur, in my opinion. He's anxious, irritable, angry and manic in Pogtopia, as his mental health takes that downward spiral. He starts encouraging fights, getting into them more himself and gets increasingly frustrated and mad about Fundy, Manburg as a whole, Schlatt and Quackity.

7. Chronic feelings of emptiness

Considering he actively committed suicide and started thinking of himself as the villain, probably! But we don't know for sure because none of these people talk about their emotions.

9. Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms

100%. He doesn't think he can trust Tubbo, struggles to trust anyone, gets increasingly paranoid about spies and Manburg finding out where they are. He plots the explosion of L'Manburg with no care for the lives of everyone else there, and forces Tubbo to be the one to decide whether it happens or not as a test. Large amounts of his paranoia are justified, but it's still there.

So that's 9/9 for Wilbur! I have hit this man with the projection stick.

I have a large amount of thoughts about Niki too, tbh, and I also think Tommy probably has BPD, but I'm really not the person to ask about that because I'm not much of a Tommy scholar. It's just vibes, with him. I have much more reasoning with Niki, Dream and Wilbur.

#wilbur soot #dream smp #bpd #anonymous #answered #the queen's commands #now for tws yall know the drill with this:#suicide #self harm #drug abuse #eating disorders #wilbur soot my beloved. you are an authoritarian bastard and I love you #you have so many qualities i can project onto its horrible in the best way #and i am very very sad that you spiralled and never got to recover </3

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kodzukenscorner · 4 years

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Being Karasuno, Nekoma, Fukurodani, and Aoba Johsai’s manager

anon asked: hey!! i was wondering if u do a team x manager like it doesnt need to be romantic it can be platonic🤧 if u do then can i request Karasuno,Nekoma,Fukurodani and Aoba Johsai seeing their shy and adorable manager kitten sneezing,i jst find it very cute🥺 its fine if u dont do it honestly😅

anon asked: heyy!! i was wondering if u do a team x manager, it doesnt need to be romantic like it can be platonic😅 if u do then can i request Nekoma w a baby face manager😳 its fine if u dont do this requests tho😅

a/n: don’t worry babies, i take all kinds of requests and i am so soft for manager!reader headcanons 🥺

wc: 1,811

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Karasuno

Look, the entire team would 100% throw hands for you and literally lay their life on the line

Even the more stoic players like Kageyama and Tsukishima hold a lot of respect for you

The two of them aren’t as obvious about how they feel towards you, but they also wouldn’t ever let something bad happen to you

Tsukki doesn’t always open up to you but he also never complains when you ask him for help studying

In fact he’s offered it up himself a couple times, he knows how you can get a bit flustered and don’t always ask for help when necessary

Yamaguchi is always there to help lighten the mood and he’s one of the team members you’re most comfortable with

He’s just so easy to open up to

Kageyama always waits to walk home with you

Especially since you’re the one who stays with him and Hinata past practice time just to help them out

Hinata is usually the one who does most of the talking on the way home, though

The third years are ridiculously protective of you, Daichi in particular is the most reassuring one and keeps you out of any situations that make you uncomfortable

Suga is always there at your side when you need someone to help calm you down

And Asahi even steps out of his comfort zone to keep you feeling comfortable

And if someone from another team hits on you or messes with you in anyway? Tanaka and Noya will bite their heads off

Those two are your actual guard dogs but the second you tell them to stop or you get all flustered they will melt like puddles

The whole team truthfully dotes on you and would do anything to make sure you’re safe and healthy

So when they heard you sneeze they froze

Tanaka and Noya practically fainted because oh my god you’re so cute??

Suga was the first one to offer you a tissue while Yamaguchi was asking if you were okay

Kageyama and Hinata kept offering you snacks because they thought you were catching a cold or something

Daichi had to scold everyone to stop worrying so much but he also secretly asked if you were feeling alright and if you needed to go home

Meanwhile Noya was plotting on recording you every second of practice to try and catch your sneeze on camera because it was just too adorable

The entire team walked you home that day

Your parents were very confused, but also grateful that they all cared so much about your wellbeing

They’re a bunch of dorks who don’t want their precious manager getting sick anytime soon

Nekoma

Being a manager for Nekoma is honestly a really great decision

The team is very competent on their own so you don’t have to worry too much about them not practicing or getting injured

Even Kenma who hates exerting energy is easily persuaded by Kuroo

Kuroo and Yaku in particular seem to be very good at whipping everyone into shape and it really takes a load off your shoulders

You know you can always rely on them

But Kai is by far the one team member who always puts you at ease and you know you can turn to him for anything

You love Kuroo and Yaku truly, but the way they fawn over how cute you are and the way Kuroo seems to have a tendency to squish your cheeks can leave you a little embarrassed

Kuroo always calls you ‘baby’ because of your baby face and people from other teams always think you’re dating

You don’t actually mind it since that means most people stay away from you but every now and again some poor soul tries to hit on you

But Yamamoto and Lev are always right behind you, ready to scare anyone off

And yes it works every time

It’s a good thing they don’t know those two are just two huge dorks

But Fukunaga is always right there with the perfect comedic timing to remind Yamamoto that he can hardly talk to a girl without stuttering

That always makes everyone laugh and puts you right back at ease

Unsurprisingly Kenma is the one person on the team you have no problems opening up to

He’s such a good listener and not overbearing like pretty much everyone else on the team

Honestly, everyone on the team just feels like the best of friends

Family didn’t seem like the right word since everyone was so happy and comfortable messing with each other

But when something happens, like when Yaku got injured, everyone jumps into action

So you weren’t surprised when you let out a little sneeze and everyone froze

You thought they would start asking if you were feeling alright

Yaku actually almost started crying because it was just too cute

Kuroo started laughing and said you sounded just like Kenma

Kai was the one who actually gave you a tissue while everyone else was too busy talking about how their manager was the cutest and they were gonna show you off at the next training camp

This team always manages to put a smile on your face

Fukurodani

Oh boyyyyyyy managing this team is a ride

Well honestly, it’s mostly Bokuto that can be a lot to handle at times, but you quickly fell into a rhythm

You’re definitely not as well adept as Akaashi is at handling Bokuto, but you’re getting the hang of it

You often rely on Akaashi to help you out when it comes to Bokuto so you do your best to be there for him when he needs it

Most of the team relies on Akaashi as their vice captain and that can be kind of stressful for him

So you’re always there to lend an ear and hear him out when he needs it

Bokuto definitely gets a little jealous but only because he wants your undivided attention too

But Konoha is easily the member you’re closest with on the team

As much as you enjoy Akaashi and Bokuto they can be a little odd at times, whereas Konoha is just the perfect balance of reliable and fun

You two joke around during practice a lot with Komi often joining in

It takes a bit for you to get Washio to open up just because he’s more on the quiet side

But he’s a lot like Akaashi in the sense that he takes care of you and makes sure you’re doing alright

Overall, they’re a really reliable team and you know you can turn to them if you need anything

You were a bit nervous to get to know everyone at first, especially knowing Bokuto and his loud demeanor but they were all right there to help you out and give you space when necessary

Bokuto often brags about you to other teams which always leaves you feeling flushed and embarrassed

Thankfully Konoha is right there to yell at him to stop and Akaashi is by your side comforting you

You never really have to worry about anyone approaching you or bothering you because someone on the team is always by your side

You’re really grateful to them for that since you can get overwhelmed surrounded by lots of volleyball players

The team is usually fairly normal around you, they don’t tease you much or playfully flirt with you

But for some reason, the first time they heard your tiny sneeze their hearts actually swelled up

Even the normally loud Bokuto got quiet and stared at you

He was the first one to shout about how cute that was and call you adorable and how they had to protect you no matter what

Your good friend Konoha was at a loss for words while Akaashi sheepishly handed you a tissue

You really didn’t expect to fluster the whole team with a just a simple sneeze, you didn’t think they would even hear it

But they are just counting their blessings for having the cutest manager in the world

Aoba Johsai

You were so nervous joining as manager since it was such a coveted position thanks to Oikawa

At first you had a hard time scolding people and telling them to focus on practice and stop messing around

But Iwaizumi was your savior, right there to help you out and encourage you

Every time you wanted to yell at Mad Dog for being reckless or at Kunimi for not practicing seriously but chickened out, Iwa was right there to help you out

He was definitely the person on the team you relied on the most and you were so grateful for him

He knows you’re more on the quiet side and does what he can to help you

Makki and Mattsun love to tease and mess with you but when you get really flustered Iwa is always there to save you

Surprisingly, Mad Dog follows suit and every time you seem uncomfortable and Iwa isn’t around to help out, he does the job for him

Oikawa teases too but in a more playful way that always leaves you with a smile on your face

You know he can be a lot to handle sometimes but you like spending time with him

Yahaba joins in from time to time and he’s surprisingly a lot more flirty than Oikawa

By far your favorites are Kindaichi and Kunimi

Kindaichi is just such a sweetheart and you know you can count on him to be there for you and Kunimi’s dry humor has you in stitches

They’re also just so incredibly easy to talk to, you never feel overwhelmed with them

You can handle yourself pretty well at games and even though the team can be a lot during practice, during real matches they’re like pros

The only time you ever really need their help is when Oikawa’s fan club becomes too much for you to handle

They’re all extremely protective of you in those situations

Mad Dog turns into an actual dog

They all think you’re just too precious to get hurt and protect you at all costs

So when they heard you let out the faintest sneeze the team was a bit torn

First they thought it was the cutest thing in the world

Oikawa was actually on the floor clutching his chest while Makki and Mattsun were pinching your cheeks

But they were also concerned about your health

Watari was asking if you were feeling okay while Iwa handed you a tissue

After you assured everyone you were alright and it was nothing, they all started cooing and calling you the cutest little baby

You were very embarrassed but also oddly happy at having such a sweet team who all really liked you

Needless to say when you flashed them all a bright smile, they proceeded to have another meltdown

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transtenzin · 4 years

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ok umm deleted my first post like a minute after posting because i started panicking and had to type it out again because i didn’t save anything like the dumbass i am, but here it is again 😭

so anyways

nonbinary tenzin!!!

(i’ll be using they/them pronouns for tenzin in this)

katara and aang are trans as well. katara’s a trans girl, and aang’s not a boy or a girl and that’s all you need to know–even if that much 🙄 so it’s not like tenzin and their siblings grow up not knowing that’s a Thing, because they are both very open about gender, especially aang, who encourages them to Think Some Thoughts about gender.

and tenzin tries.

oh boy, do they try lmaoo

tenzin thinks about gender. they don’t really get it tbh. and not in a comedic “what even is gender” meme kind of way, but like. genuinely. but at this point they’re kind of too embarrassed to seriously ask. katara and sokka make gender sound simple and clean-cut, while aang makes it sound like some sort of vague, weird concept, and tenzin’s siblings just kinda took their own interpretations of these and ran with them.

like, okay, sure. tenzin is seen as a boy by the people in the around them. there are certain expectations and assumptions around this perception/what it means. they don’t necessarily like all of them–which is its own can of worms when deciding why–if that is because they simply don’t like these conceptions, or if they don’t like them because they aren’t a guy, but like… picking that apart sounds stressful and complicated.

tenzin hasn’t brought it up with anyone because it’s kind of an awkward and embarrassing thing to admit, but they Super Do Not Like how their voice has gotten deeper. after a while they have realized it is not just the voice cracking thing going on that they don’t like, but just like. in general. everything is okay until they open their mouth 🙃

it’s not like, Every Conversation, but sometimes when they’re talking to someone and it’s a bit quiet, listening to their own voice makes their stomach drop. like that’s really what they sound like. fantastic. 🙃🙃🙃 (/s)

they think about this some but like… not liking their voice doesn’t necessarily mean anything?

kya’s a trans lesbian, and when kya comes out to their family tenzin finally gathers the courage and asks her how she knew. kya admits that it wasn’t like a single sudden realization or a point in life where she just Knew like most people seem to think there is. there were a lot of things that factored into it, but one of the main things wasn’t really how she felt with being misgendered as a boy, but the comfort she took in knowing that there were other things she could be perceived as instead, and other things she could be.

that’s the first time that someone’s ever explained to tenzin their self discovery with that much understanding. it’s a lot better than bumi’s “idk. if you know you know, you know” + generally being annoying about it every time tenzin tries to have a serious conversation (bumi is agender and when they’re like “but how do you know what your gender is” he’s like “you think i would know? rip to you all with genders but i’m different 😌”)

so after this conversation with her, tenzin is just like…. 👁👄👁 omg okay…. that actually makes some sense.

that gets him thinking more, but this time in a more specific direction. they still don’t know anything for sure though. tenzin Suspects they are not Exactly a boy, but other than that??? anyone’s guess is as good as theirs lmao. they try to take comfort in know there are ‘other things’ they could be, but mostly it just ends up stressing them out.

after tenzin and pema are together, tenzin has been thinking about it even more, and wants to talk to pema about it. like. tenzin has decided that there is a large possibility that they are not a man, and choosing a specific label just sounds so… permanent. they haven’t talked to kya or bumi or anyone about THEIR gender, specifically, because like… what’re they going to say? “hey actually i don’t think i’m a guy” “then what are you?” “idk good question”???

but tenzin has been questioning for a while now (like. a while a while LOL), and they want to trust pema with this.

(EDIT: also time to mention pema is a trans woman. i forgot to mention this for some reason)

one day pema says something along the lines of “ur my husband” and tenzin takes the opportunity and kind of just laughs like… what if i’m not… jk…. unless…? 😳😳

it’s not exactly how tenzin wanted to approach the subject ofc. pema grows kind of concerned when they’re like “well… actually… i might not be” and needs to clarify they still very much are pema’s spouse, but like… not husband, specifically. but yes, spouse. maybe?

tenzin is embarrassed at first to admit this because they’re like 40 years old. they just had their first kid. are they not a bit old for this?? (the answer is no, there is no age limit to this sort of thing.)

pema is happy to know and tenzin is happy to have told her because even if they’re still figuring it out at least there is someone who kind of Knows that there is a Possibility They Are Not Cis. and pema’s kind of like… idk… if you’ve been thinking about this for that long then i think there is More than a possibility that you Aren’t Cis. to which tenzin makes sure to emphasize they are still not 100% certain about anything.

pema’s like okay that’s fine but like… you know that you don’t have to be 100% certain to try on a label? labels are not things that have to be permanent. if in a few weeks you are just 70% certain that you’re nonbinary, you’re allowed to say you’re nonbinary. if some time later you find another label you’re more confident in, you can change to that. you don’t have to be absolutely 100% all the time to try stuff out.

tenzin surprised pikachu face

okay so… logically, they’ve known this. other people they know have done this, including their siblings. but otherwise? for themself? it honestly hadn’t crossed their mind that they’re allowed to just. say that they feel like x is a term for them, and then change their mind later.

but as simple as pema makes it sound, tenzin kind of internally cringes at the thought of having to say ‘so i told you i was x gender but now i think i’m x”. isn’t it enough of a hassle to do that all once, but again? just because they weren’t sure the first time??? ughhh

what if they ditched the whole thing altogether? throw the entire suitcase out. who needs a label 😌😌 aang kind of didn’t either

tenzin starts using any pronouns (like aang did, but aang wanted pronouns to be alternated, while tenzin hasn’t necessarily specified that) by the start of lok, but only with their family and korra.

aang also didnt use a label to describe his gender, and tenzin has been trying to be okay with doing the same.

in lok, hearing pema ask “were tenzin and their siblings this crazy when they were kids?” makes them happier than they can express. it’s like there’s little exclamation marks just going off in their head. like yes!!! that is them!! them!!! Euphoria ™ 💓❤💕💞💗💖💝

and then katara’s reply with “not tenzin, she was always rather serious” and tenzin almost forgets that they have to tell korra that they can’t stay and train her because that also makes them elated, although not quite to the extent that pema using “their” did.

after that they’re still going by any pronouns, but they’ve decided they have a preference for they/them.

when they’re back at air temple island, pema asks about other aspects of gender expression. which like lol tenzin has also been avoiding that thanks 💖 they’ve just been presenting as expected by everyone else–keeping their beard, wearing their usual robes, etc. they’re just like “i’m fine as i am ig” which is true. they’ve thought about changing up their appearance but like lol. they are also on the council and tenzin doesn’t need anything else adding an extra layer of stress on those meetings when everyone already seems inclined to not listen to them. which is also why they haven’t told anyone else about using any pronouns.

when season 2 comes around tenzin is still not satisfied with just Not Labeling their gender, but now that they aren’t on the council anymore, they can think about it more.

it’s just… they spent a long time figuring out what gender was, how they felt about their own gender, and while at the time just leaving it alone seemed simpler, it didn’t make them any happier. it really bugs them, actually, lmao.

at this point they are certain they are not a man, and highly doubt they are a woman either. in fact, they’re still not sure if they have a gender like, at all, but they are very hesitant to put a word to it.

they’ve become used to being referred to as a mix of he/they/she/xe/etc. around their family, although their use of he/him has decreased significantly and they mainly use they/them, so when they hear the air acolytes in the southern air temple consistently refer to them as “he”, they sort of have to pause a minute, and then decide to finally say something.

they’re asked then abt their gender and tenzin’s just like… um actually i’m just not putting a label to it atm you know haha ❤

it goes over pretty well but telling other people that makes them realize how much they actually do want to label it, despite how aang used to talk about not needing a word just for others to perceive her gender, and how everyone keeps telling them “that’s valid!”, etc. etc.

the scene in the spirit world with tenzin’s spiritual enlightenment is also about tenzin realizing that they are also free to explore their gender the way THEY want to, not the way everyone else did. even kya’s answer to “how did u know u were trans” doesn’t necessarily have to apply to how they did.

tbh after that tenzin stops caring. and not in an “my gender doesn’t matter to me anymore” way but “it does matter but now i will stop worrying about trying to do gender the ‘right way’“.

afterward they decide they think they are nonbinary. it’s a label that makes them happy, and it does cover what they’ve determined their gender might be. nonbinary is a broad term, and while they’re still not sure of the specifics, that’s okay. if they later discover they’re something else, that’s also okay. they can tell people they are nonbinary, and it’s fine if they have to tell them something different later. it’s not a hassle if it makes them feel happy being out.

tenzin’s family can still use any pronouns for them, but now everyone else is using only they/them for them.

tenzin’s okay with being called a husband/father/etc when coming from their family despite their initial talk with pema because they trust that they Get It and know that it’s not in a Cis Way, you know???

tenzin keeps their beard (unfortunately) and keeps shaving their head and stuff but they occasionally wear dresses with long swishy skirts and the euphoria!!!!! 😭😭 they love the cloak swishing you KNOW they’d love long swishy skirts too

this is actually the happiest tenzin can remember being with their gender and stuff. people are using they/any pronouns for them, they are wearing whatever they want, they are nonbinary, AND people know!!!

also time to mention jinora is transfem nonbinary, and she’s a bit nervous about shaving her head at first to get her tattoos. tenzin reassures jinora that her hair will grow back AND she will have her tattoos, which she’s wanted and has welllll since earned. they have a parent/daughter bonding moment over her distress about finally having grown her hair out as long as it was only to shave it all off.

and tenzin understands that her nervousness doesn’t mean she doesn’t want them–she asked tenzin about getting them way before that. they are hugely significant to her identity, too, just as they are to theirs. tenzin gets it, and keeps going out of their way to give jinora compliments and use her pronouns in front of her while her hair is still growing back.

and ingores that jinora does the same for them for a little while after they tell her they’re nonbinary. no they’re not crying over how sweet their daughter is you are 😭

tenzin is pretty much freely expressing their gender however they want and living their best life now 😌

nonbinary tenzin… ❤❤ we love to see it

also additional headcanons for other characters that didn’t make it in:

sokka is nonbinary and uses ne/nim pronouns

kai is transmasc nonbianry (he/him)

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heffrondriving · 2 years

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I'm sorry if this is a little assholely but after seeing your vent post I went looking for where you said to not tag names and the only place I saw it was at the end of your very long tags,, so assuming i didnt miss another more obvious place...? Have you thought of just putting that in the post itself? Because anyone who's seeing it second hand (as in seeing it after someone else rebloged it) won't see that tag + not everyone reads tags, you know :( sorry that it makes you uncomfortable but if you put it somewhere more visible, like in the body of the post, then at least people def will see it. Sending love either way 💕

nahhh nothing to be sorry for issall totally cool and encouraged and you are very kind,, tbh i was lowkey waiting around for something like this and i'm kinda glad for it and also surprised it's not at least fifty times worse??? in all honesty i think i am in dire need and deserving of the hardest dose of criticism at this point for all the stupid messy personal posts i make on a sleep-deprived whim, as i am fully aware that this is not the place for it, and i am and should never be exempt from getting my necessary comeuppance should it arise. and like i said, this quandary was completely of my own fault. i have made my stance on personal comfort posts clear numerous times before and only put them in subtler places like the end of my annoying-ass rambly tags because i really don't wanna bother people with something that sounds so trivially inconsequential, and it makes me incredibly anxious to add them in the post itself (as i reckon it just outright ruins the whole content and that's such a selfish and gross thing for me to do personally,, like who tf am i to ask anything of anyone ech :-/). but this is still my sole responsibility to properly handle and conduct myself online, and i'm so sorry if i came across like i'm attempting to pass the blame for my own self-implicated neglect, as no one else should be subject to dealing with my mistakes. (like no joke i screamed aloud when i read that you looked through my posts or tags??? PLS LICHRALLY NEVER DO THAT EVER THAT'S A VV BAD IDEA ACTUAL ONLINE EQUIVALENT OF DUMPSTER DIVING VIBES EXCEPT THE DUMPSTER'S ON FIRE AND CAUSES MAJOR BRAINROTOFFISITIS!!!!! (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`))

i've had a well-needed rest hrk composed myself, deleted my prev post (i'm also thinking of removing the post that spurred it just to be sure, t'was super terrible anyway lmao), and muted my notifs for the time being, so please do feel free to tag anything however you wish at this point—i know i'm making an absolute fool out of myself for this full 180 departure (just in time for april 1st tho so swings and roundabouts-) but yeah that's completely fine idk, and if my walnut brain has anything otherwise to say abt it they will be catching These Hands according to the Fists Of Fury Code!!!!! ᕦ(ò皿óᕦ) but in all seriousness, emotional dysregulation is the absolute worst but i understand that maybe i can't really set boundaries for something fully well out of my control, so i just give up the ghost on this bc what else is there to do. c'est la vie if it sucks for me, tough shit @ self tough it out bebs u asked for this :^) though i hopefully can, however, keep everything else out of sight and out of mind so that i don't have to deal with the self-imposed repercussions by willingly setting my triggers off and lashing out incessantly. like mmm that's toxic shit girlie no one wants that here bls get u some therapy pare *whaps myself with an abaniko fan*. it's 100% on me if i choose to expand the tags on my notifs, and what happens in other ppl's blogs should be none of my fucking business and i'm just a super nosy lurker goblin sometimes ig exhibit a: this is what being a chronic cave hermit does to the human psyche. irreversible damage u.......*steven he voice* EMOTIONAL DAMAGE!!!!! my sincerest apologies again for all the trouble and i really hope this answer doesn't come off as too sardonic or acerbic or anything of the sort, i know i goof a lot but i really do mean all of it, even if trying to convey appropriate tone indication in text form is so whack 😩

also i'm really sorry for this mf ten-volume novel series of an answer (i really hope no one's insane enough to actually read this....whatever the hell this is .-.). thank you so much for your patience and understanding, and please keep the love and give it to another funky cool blog who's worthy of it and not deserving of getting squished like a pestilent vermin under your steel-toed bootheel!! /lh ~(இ௰இ~) anywayyy let's ignore (slash unfollow hardblock permanent dni etc. etc....very good ideas, those, bc if i could block myself i would without hesitation smh get this chernobyl elephant's foot outta my feed) this and my other inane bullshittery and let bygones be bygones and go back to our silly manband content, shall we??? this blog is for no-braincell shits and pure dumbassery first and foremost i promise......also i have more poorly-made sh!tposts and kendall's pretty grampa face stuff which i wanna plague the btr tag with if that's still allowed pls ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯

(^^^ i can't believe i actually got to use this gif for something sdjsfjksd)

#tbh i'm genuinely shocked i'm not getting more hatemail at this point (this is an implicit urge to action!) bc lawd gawd i am obnoxious??#you know when you say things and the moment it leaves your mouth you instantly know that you fucked up??? that is me all the time #i have zero filter and it gets the best of me and i just really need ppl to tell me to shut tf up so this is good. more of this is good #i'll delete this too just so it wouldn't clutter up the feed i'm so sorry ahh ;-;#full disclosure there was another ask regarding this matter that i never answered bc it got washed out of my slow braim and by the time i #remembered it felt too uncomfortably late to respond yk so. i hope this could be some kinda reparation #fr why do i look forward to getting slammed down;;; watching me get my ass kicked is cathartic ngl. painful and tr//um//tic but still >:3 #this is what u get allen!!! hoshit here comes the undertaker with a folding chair ready to body avalanche the weak spine outta u hofuckk #i'm rambling nonsense in tags again when this answer already has no right being this long sorry drank too much coffee fushfuahj #anon #all the windows down #do pretty girl don't speak

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faerielleart · 3 years

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GIRL GGFJFJVGDJD OK UMMM let me see... what do you like about levihan? or do you have any unpopular opinions? or headcanons!

oh boi i hope i won’t rant too much, i don’t want this answer to be a thousand miles long i don’t want to seem boring-

OKAY let’s start

What i like about levihan: i have to start with a lil background a say that levihan is my longest ship i’ve ever had, it’s the only one who survived time and the only ship i have never stopped shipping/lost interest into, which is kinda rare for me since i switch interests a lot and go through hyper-fixations, so i tend to lose interest quickly in something once i’ve found something else to pay attention to

this, however has never happened with levihan: started shipping them when i was 12, still trash 7 years later skdjdjfjf i didnt start shipping them for special reasons tho, at the time aot was my first ever still on air anime and i was completel new to the community, plus i didnt really speak english well and the first episodes i watched confused me A LOT. However, amidst all that confusion and trying to remember names and plot points, episode 9 came, i got introduced to this character who apparently is named levi, the first information the scene gives the watcher is “this guy is a grump” based on his reaction to the crowd, the second information the scene gives to the watcher is “this person next to him, despite him being a grump, isn’t afraid to tease the shit out of him and we still don’t even know their name” which i found ??? Cool??? I immediately paid attention to this lil dynamic, then the next scene was the hairgrab scene and,,,,,, yeah my 12 year old braincells went into overdrive and i was completely sold

i just needed them to interact once and BOOM

but OBJECTIVELY i still find extremely telling, years later, how these were the first informations of these characters. In a narrative, character’s introduction is absolutely crucial to the story, you can understand millions of things just by the way a character is presented and says their first lines and honestly choosing to introduce levi and hanji together was imho very, very telling of what role they’d play in the story/what role they play in each other’s lives.

isn’t it strange that the very first infirmation we get of these two is that the grumpy one is okay with this person teasing him? that means there’s gotta be a level of familiarity among them, right? and the hairgrab? requested by isayama himself? in the official book of season one it also says that the scene was added to “show their relationship”??? i mean 2+2 is 4 where i’m from 👁👄👁✨

so yeah my dumb 12 year old brain had FORESIGHT apparently-

as i picked up the manga and read through the uprising (and got older and my english got better) i noticed more and more things about them and i just really freaking fell in love with their relationship okay it wasn’t “oh cool grumpy and sunshine who teases him”, more like “holy fuck grumpy has a sad backstory, seems unapproachable but is the kindest person ever, just wants to be a hero and save everyone, has the most tender heart, sunshine is a multi dimensional character who has fears and doubts and they work so well together despite being polar opposites but at the same time their oppositeness results in somehow them being completely in sync with each other and almost thinking with the same brain as if they were one person split in half”.

since they’re grown adults and they’re so close, their relationship has something that i always seek and almost never find in other ships, which is emotional maturity. You never see them purposely tearing each other down just to hurt the other, they work out their problems and C O M M U N I C A T E ✨ they don’t act childishly around each other, they tease and bicker but it’s completely different than full blown arguments where both parts disrespect the other just to prove their point. They are willing to listen to what the other has to say and their judgment is precious and welcomed, since the basis of their relationship is complete trust. levi is rough with words, but he means something else entirely despite what he conveys, as seen during the aftermath of eren’s first hardening experiments, and hanji totally understands what he wants to say, which is why they never reprimand him or take offense to what he says.

what i’m trying to say, i believe in a way that nothing is half-assed about how they were written in the story as a pair, despite how i disagree with certain narrative choices *ahem*; as much as i would have wanted them to have more screentime and more interactions, i believe it wouldn’t have been “in character”, lemme explain because i realize it sounds weird and my wording probably doesn’t help: their relationship is subtle and as such it should remain subtle and in the subtext, simply because it is none of our business as readers. Show, not tell, but show in a way that it is evident only if you pay attention. levi is blunt when he speaks, but at the same time his words have another meaning than what he conveys and his actions are subtle.

isn’t it obvious with how often it was remarked that the only person who is able to understand levi completely is hanji? and this is where chapter 132 comes into play with this amazing analysis post that i’m sure we all read a thousand times and screamed over it

all this “ambiguity”, all this subtlety, all this subtext, all this wordplay, words that have more than one meaning, i believe are all indicators of one thing: us readers are not able to understand comple what levi wants to say and his words result ambiguous to us and not 100% clear, simply because the readers are not hanji. but fortunately, i believe that hanji understood that levi too wants to “stay in the forest”. this is not the reaction of someone who is confused by a sentence, this is the face of someone who finally had a realization:

what kind of realization? it’s not up to us to know (tho we know *wink wink*), because we’re not hanji and we can’t understand what levi says.

plus, 心臓を捧げよ, “dedicate your heart”, can hold a million different meanings. 心臓 is heart, を is a particle that denotes the object, 捧げよ is the verb “to offer, dedicate, devote, sacrifice”, there are no adjectives that indicate possession as you can see; levi using his own left (not right) fist and placing it on hanji’s chest instead of just taking hanji’s hand and placing it on their chest is ambiguous too. i interpet it in different ways but the conclusion is one, and i can’t honestly see it in any other way. one of the interpretations i like the most is that levi is implying that they both share the same heart, which is why he used his own left hand, meaning that both of them are dedicating their hearts in that moment to humanity, because they are actively choosing to put their desires aside to live a peaceful life away from everything (as jean too has wished in chapter 127, as hanji has expressed in 126 but in 127 too and jean seems taken aback by their confession) since they’re soldiers and duty comes first.

so yeah if i have to choose something i love the most about levihan, it’s gotta be the subtlety and the ambiguity that at the end of the day, is absolutely not ambiguous at all. everything is expressed for a reason, if an author actively chooses ambiguity, in this specific case of a relationship, he intends the result not to be ambiguous. it sounds like a brain fart but i blame it on my inability to articulate my thoughts well, i hope what i want to say can be understood 😭 and in a way, this can be considered as an unpopular opinion i think?

meaning that i get that commonly someone might want an explicit declaration that leaves no room to doubt and I honestly wish for it too, but I don’t think it would be in character, and the ambiguity (if we can call it that, i’m calling it that just to avoid backlash and controversy jshfsjdjmd) in this case speaks enough volumes to me considering both of the characters we’re dealing with, the story as a whole, the interactions with other characters.

ALSO going back to their bond, i want to copypaste something i posted on twitter regarding chapter 126 and the blush: it doesn't make sense, character-wise, for Hanji to feel in any way embarassed around Levi. They have no filters whatsoever around each other. They are close, closer than anyone in the series, the author hasn't shown any embarassment between them. Back in Uprising, when Hanji was hesitant and wanted out, Levi was the one who encouraged them. So, this thing has in a way already happened, since back then they admitted to wanting to abandon responsibilities to Levi's face and didn't blush. So, in 126's context, it doesn't really make sense for Hanji to blush "only because they were embarassed at being caught wanting to run away". It happened once already and there was no blush. So yeah, the blush means something else. And that something else is definitely much, much, MUCH deeper than "embarassment". 🙌

since smartpass stories can absolutely be taken as part of the canon universe as they’re supervised and approved by isayama and published with the manga, i am adding the rain story as further proof of what kind of relationship they have. also levi being a 30 year old tsundere is adorable but movING ON

SO YEAH MY FINAL TWO CENTS ARE : i love everything about levihan and there isn’t a single thing i would change, because wanting aot to be a huge slice of life of them doing the most random things just to watch them interact doesnt count sjdjfjdjdjfjsmdm, my unpopular opinion is that i find the subtlety and the ambiguity KEY to doing justice to what they have because it’s none of us readers’ business because only they are able to understand each other and i fucking LOVE that, my headcanon is that they totally kissed once during the timeskip, maybe on the first anniversary of the battle of shiganshina, i see them not being able to sleep alone and finding comfort in each other and in a moment of weakness and vulnerability they kiss, but pretend it never happened because things are messy and they can’t afford to get involved because again, duty first, but the YEARNING™️ and the PINING™️ only intensifies after that, but they manage not to make things awkward and they are close as ever.

my GOD i rewrote the odyssey, sorry 😭

#levihan #answered asks

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queenof-literature · 4 years

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I know that you just posted your Rito story and I loved. I can't wait for more! I noticed it mentioned Wild blushing when asked to sing one of Kass's song. I am pretty sure it's Kass's final song, and thought it would be cute if one of the other Links hears Wild singing under his breath (maybe while cooking) and the story and song get dragged out of him.

Hi! Thank you so much! I wasn't quite sure what you meant by song and story, but I used Kass' final song with the story of Wild's death and the story with Kass' teacher, so it got a little angsty. I hope that all is okay. If not, please let me know and I wil l write a different one! Thank you for the request!

It had been a rough day. The group had landed in Hyrule’s land, and had instantly been attacked by groups of monsters with insane amounts of bloodlust. Luckily, there weren’t any injuries that couldn’t be fixed with a potion or two. Some scrapes here, some sprained ankles there, physically they were fine. But they were absolutely exhausted.

Wild was making a hearty stew for his friends before they turned in early that night. Four was leaning against a tree, book in hand. Warriors and Legend were playing a weird card game that involved slapping each other’s hands as hard as possible while Wind and Hyrule watched and made fun of them both. Time and Twilight were chatting and laughing softly, while Sky was already dozing off on a tree near Four’s. Overall, it was a tired peace that made Wild’s heart swell.

He never really got this peace before he met the other heroes. It was always sleeping in trees away from monsters, or riding through the night to discover new shrines, or pushing forward to save Zelda and other villages infected by the Calamity. This was peaceful, something that Wild wasn’t used to, but didn’t really hate like he thought he would when he first met them.

“For fierce and deadly trials await. To regain his strength. Fulfill his fate.” Wild didn’t really notice when he began to sing softly as he was stirring his stew. He also didn’t notice the rest of camp slowly getting quiet, or Four elbowing Sky in the ribs. His eyes had grown distant as he continued to sing softly. “To become a hero once again. To wrest the princess from her den.” The rest of the Links looked at each other silently. Wild had a pretty voice from what they could hear. Pretty in a way that it was unique, and rough from lack of use, but also soft and comforting. He almost looks like he doesn’t notice what he’s doing. Should they tell him?

“The hero, the princess-hand in hand-Must bring the light back to this land.” Wild finished just as soft as he began, like he had sung the song millions of times before. But he realized he felt eyes on him. He looked up to see the entire camp staring at him, even Sky, all with confusion and a bit of awe. Oh dear Hylia. Wild yanked his hood up to find his bright red face as he realized what he had done. ‘I am so sorry.’ Wild signed ‘Sometimes I do that without noticing. I didn’t mean to interrupt you all I promise. I’ll stop. Just let me know when I do it in the future, sorry I just didn’t notice-’ Twilight and the rest of the boys had gathered around Wild, but still gave him space. Twilight gently put his hands over Wild’s. He didn’t like doing that if he didn’t have to, Wild sometimes expressed himself only through sign and he never wanted to get in the way of that. But if he let Wild continue too far, he would spiral into a dark place where it was harder to pull him from. All of the Heroes of Courage had that issue. Sometimes it was better to stop the train of loathing and questioning before it got too far off the track.

“Don’t apologize about what you do while you make us dinner, Cub” Twilight teased gently, taking his hands off of Wild’s. “There’s nothing to be embarrassed about, we all got our habits. Besides, ya got a pretty singin’ voice.” Twilight smiled, while Wild simply flushed further into his hood, at this point his face was the most red thing Twilight had ever seen.

“Yeah Wild! I knew you would have a pretty voice!” Wind exclaimed. The group couldn’t see Wild’s eyes at all, but they could see his lips twitch upwards slightly at the younger’s enthusiasm.

“Ummm… thank you.” Wild said softly, still not coming out of his hood.

“Can you sing us the whole song? If you’re comfortable of course.” Wind asked hesitantly. He wanted to hear the rest of Wild’s song, but he didn’t want Wild to feel forced into anything. The group looked at Wind in slight shock. They hadn’t expected anyone to ask the blatant question no one else wanted to ask, but Wind was good at that. The shy boy somehow managed to get even more flustered, his face so red he looked like he was about to explode.

“W-well.” Wild was slightly stuttering again, not that the group minded. It wasn’t just nerves, Wild couldn’t talk very well when the group first found him, so he mostly signed like he did to others in his Hyrule that needed help. Through sign, they discovered that he was actually very witty and fun, but it turns out not using your voice for more than a hundred years and having rough scars around your neck made it a little hard to talk.

“My voice isn’t very good, maybe Kass could sing it to you? It’s better with the accordion anyway.” Wild said nervously.

“Your voice is very good Wild!” Sky urged.

“If you’re okay with singing it we don’t need the music Wild.” Time stated. “But no one's forcing ya. We would love to hear it, but only if ya want to sing it.” Wild pondered these words. Ever since he started talking verbally again, he tried to push himself out of his silent shell with help from the other heroes. Maybe singing was the next step?

Once again, Wild felt weak. He could take down entire camps of monsters, defeat Calamity, and kill Guardians with a single ancient arrow to the eye, but he couldn’t talk to people properly. He had relayed those thoughts to Twilight before, how useless he felt sometimes that he could be strong except in the face of normal, everyday people. Twilight had told him that it was perfectly okay, and that everyone had their struggles and fears, but Wild still felt stupid sometimes.

“I guess… If you really wanna hear it…” Wild emerged from his hood slightly. Maybe it would prove he wasn't as weak as he thought? Wind cheered and put his head in his hands, waiting. The rest of the group smiled, and Twilight patted his arm for encouragement.

“An ancient hero. A calamity appears. Now resurrected after 10,000 years”

The other heroes are surprised when Wild starts singing. It’s still soft, and it’s still rough, but Wind is right. Wild’s voice has a nice comfort in it.

“Her appointed knight, gives his life. Shields her figure and pays the price.”

Wait, what? Wild’s death is part of the song? And the words, shielding her figure, did Wild take every Guardian laser for Zelda? How did he make it to the Shrine of Resurrection? Oh Wild…

“The princess’ love for her fallen knight, awakens her power and calamity cowers. But the knight survives in the Shrine of Resurrection. He sleeps. Until from his healing dream he leaps.”

Anger fills the group at this. It was known that Wild was in the Shrine? Why did no one check on him? Why did no one keep guard so he wouldn’t be alone and scared when he woke up? Sure it was 100 years, but did no one get suspicious? Especially with elders who saw the fall of Hyrule!

“For fierce and deadly trials await, to regain his strength, fulfill his fate. To become a hero once again. To wrest the princess from Evil's den.” Wild finishes his song while looking around the camp with nervous eyes. Some of the boys looked troubled. Was he really that bad? At Wild’s nervous look, most of the boys snapped out of their stupur and began applauding, Warriors whistling at an ear piercing volume while the others whooped and hollered. Wild, who had kept his hood on to feel a small amount of security at revealing his voice in such a vulnerable way, hid within it once again, except it was a different embarrassment this time, he was relieved he had done it and gotten through it. But the group could see a smile threatening to break out. It was a sweet sight.

‘Thank you’ Wild signed with fingers trembling from the adrenaline of singing in front of all eight heroes.

“No problem, Buddy.” Twilight clapped his back.

“Yeah Wild! Thanks for trusting us enough to sing that song!” Hyrule smiled across the campfire. A smile that Wild returned instantly. Hyrule and Wild related to each other in this way. They spent so much time away from civilization and traveling the woods, it was sometimes scary to go back. All of the boys were smiling at him, except for Time. He looked solemn and serious.

“You okay, Old Man?” Four questioned. Time turned to Wild, look serious. Wild hadn’t been this intimidated by Time since he had first met the man.

“Wild… how many times did those things’ lasers hit you?” Time said the word ‘things’ with such malice the entire group got chills.

“Time.” Twilight whispered urgently. Wild didn’t like to talk about his death one hundred years ago.

“It says you shielded the princess. How. Many. Times?” Time asked coolly. On the inside he was livid. He was trying so hard not to take it out on Twilight’s protege, because it wasn’t his fault. None of it was, no matter how much he blamed himself, Wild was sent into the situation to die. He took blast after blast with his own body, and he still didn’t make it to Ganon. His friends all died except Zelda who he shielded with his own body.

“U-um. I don’t remember. I-I guess. Maybe five? Six? I-I’m sorry Time. I-I don’t remember.” Twilight put a hand on Wild’s shoulder when the boy’s breath hitched slightly, jolting Time out of his external anger. The rest of the camp were looking at him in confusion, or in some cases, (Legend), anger.

“I’m sorry Wild I didn't mean to spring that upon you. I was just mad. Not at you.” Time rished the last part in when he saw Wild open his mouth to apologize again. “I was mad at your situation. Wild… you didn’t deserve that. No one would ever deserve that but Hylia, not you kid.” Wild tilted his head in confusion. It would have been slightly cute if the next words hadn’t come out of his mouth.

“But I failed.” Wild said like it was the most natural thing on the planet. There was an uncomfortable silence in the group, then a descent into chaos.

“Failed?”

"Wild, no!”

“How the fuck was Calamity’s shit actions your fault? He’s the fucking monster that fucked up Hyrule!”

“Dear Hylia, Wind. Language. He’s right though Wild, it was Ganon’s fault.”

“Wild it wasn’t your fault, it was Ganon’s.”

Wild appreciated the support, but all their voices began blurring together. Tears pricked at his eyes, Twilight’s hand on his shoulder burned hotter than a Guardians laser. It all became too much too fast.

“It was my fault!” Wild yelled. That halted the group in their tracks. Wild yelled sure. When he was in his environment he would yell while shield surfing, or talking about a crazy plan he had, but this was in anger and despair. Wild harshly brushed Twilight’s hand off, trying to ignore the slight hurt in his eyes.

“I doomed Hyrule! By the time Zelda unlocked her power I had collapsed. My body quit on me! I quit on all of Hyrule! The other champions died! Why am I the only one left? Kass told me the story of his teacher! He was Zelda’s age and he fell in love with her, but she loved me! I don’t even know if I loved her back! She doesn’t deserve what she was put through! No one does! I did that to them, that was all me! I failed! I got hit with laser after laser after laser but I had to keep going! But I couldn’t, I didn’t even make it the castle! Kass’ teacher was mad I wasn’t a noble or royalty, and he was right! Zelda deserved better! She and I are the only ones left! All the other champions died because of me! Why am I the only one? Why am I still here? Why am I-” Wild choked on his last words on a sob. His entire rant, tears began to cascade down his face as the group looked on in horror.

Wild couldn’t hold it in anymore. He cried and he grieved and he yelled. Wild didn’t feel the white and burning rage anymore, he just felt the despair and sorrow he had been keeping in for years, only releasing a couple of times in small doses. When Twilight reached out to gently touch his hand, it didn’t feel like lava from Death Mountain anymore, it felt warm and loving and Wild simply leaned into it, silently telling Twilight it was okay.

“Oh, Cub.” Twilight murmured before pulling Wild to his chest. Wild curled up in his mentor's arms and allowed himself to sob over all the losses he had felt. His sobs grew harder and he felt like a child, but he couldn’t help it. He couldn’t breath, his sobs overlapping and clogging his lungs. One of his hands was pulled away from where it was curled into Twilight’s tunic and he whined.

“Just me kiddo. You gotta breathe with me.” His hand was led to a different chest. Legend, Wild recognized in the back of his mind. Legend exaggerated his breaths for Wild to copy. The first time he tried, he simply choked more and shook his head. “That’s alright, you can do it. Another try.” Legend said gently. Wild would be laughing in a different situation. The word gentle and Legend wouldn’t be put together when he had first met the snarky hero. Wild tried again with a little more success. Legend kept helping him as another hand went through his hair. Four.

“I’m so sorry, Wild.” Wind said from across camp. The younger felt guilty that he had started this when asking if Wild could sing. Wild wanted to reassure that this wasn’t his fault at all, that this had just been building, but he couldn’t talk. Luckily, Warriors and Hyrule were there to cover for him, talking quietly to Wind on the other side of camp. Wind shook it off though, Wild needed them more.

Wild had calmed down slightly. Still crying, and still curled up in Twilight's arms and getting help from Four and Legend. But once he was sure he could hear him, Time spoke up.

“Wild, I’m sorry I didn’t mean to grill you that hard. That was my mistake.” Wild opened his mouth to tell him that it was okay, he knew Time had no malintent, but Time continued on. “Wild. I need you to understand something. What happened wasn’t your fault.” Wild opened his mouth to correct Time, but Time was having none of it. “No, it wasn’t your fault Wild. I’m not saying that to comfort you or baby you. What you were sent into was an execution Wild.” Twilight's wolf instincts got loud in his head and he almost snapped at Time for being so harsh but stopped himself. He remembered Time told him once after he took Wild under his wing, that mentoring wasn’t just about kind words and support. It was also about knowing when to state hard facts. Sometimes that’s all people understood.

“No one knew what Ganon had planned, and you had no time to prepare because of the mistakes of those before you. You had nothing to do with their ignorance, Wild.” Time’s face was set in stone, but his eyes showed a fiery passion for every word he was saying. “Wild. Look at me please, bud.” Wild peeked out from Twilight’s shoulder and looked into Time’s eyes, which softened as he met the younger hero’s sky blue eyes. “It wasn’t your fault, because you couldn’t control anything around you. You are not a God. You have the limitations of a Hylian that you already find ways to exceed. Wild, you were so brave. You took hit after hit to protect Zelda. And her powers awakened right before you collapsed. Do you blame her for not unlocking them sooner.” Instantly Wild’s eyes became hard, and he opened his mouth to bite into Time, who could see where this was leading just by the expression on Wild’s face. He held up a hand. “I’m not saying you should. I’m saying that she also had limitations that were out of her control, just like you. If you don’t blame Zelda, why do you blame yourself?” That one stumped Wild a bit. He wanted to say because Zelda was born into a family she never asked to be in, and worked hard everyday to fulfill their expectations… but he was in the same situation. Did Zelda feel the same way he did when he sorrowfully watched her blame herself? Time saw he struck a chord.

“I understand feeling like a failure. I lost battles too. But you did what you could do with what very little of the situation you could control. You said it yourself, you took laser after laser for her, and you only collapsed after you were sure she was safe. The safety of others is the only thing that kept you going, Wild. I’m not saying I approve of you taking lasers for others, but do you realize how much of a hero you are?” Tears flowed from Wild’s eyes once again, but for another reason entirely. Time really cared. He really thought Wild was a hero, even after he heard the song, the stories, the death. He heard it all, and the Hero of Time still thought Wild belonged with them. Wild whispered a quick thank you, and the rest of the group sighed in relief. Wild’s sobs had turned to hiccups as the rest of the group told him similar things to Time. It didn’t feel suffocating this time, it just felt like his eight brothers were trying to comfort him. Wild felt a weight lifted off his shoulders he had felt for so long. Time knew Wild would still struggle with his feelings of failure, one night wouldn’t change that, but he hoped he got through to Wild for the long run, at least a little.

Wild realized how absolutely exhausted he was before this whole ordeal even started, which only increased tenfold now that he had cried. He was embarrassed that he had lost his shit that much in front of all eight heroes, and realized with a jolt how exhausted they had been too.

“Um. I’m sorry, I know you all were really tired. I didn’t mean to have this happen-” He was cut off with a flick to his unscarred ear by Legend and a small yank on his ear by Four while Wild yelped.

“What did we just talk about you idiot?” Legend hissed, but it lacked the usual bite he had.

“Yeah Wild! Don’t be sorry. Everyone needs a good cry once in a while! It’s healthy! I’m a medical professional, you have to listen to me.” Hyrule added with a joking glare. Some snickers rang through the group at Hyrule’s proclamation. Time looked over and smiled in pride at Wild, which Wild returned with red dusting on his cheeks. Hearing all his brothers laughing and fighting, and feeling the comforting arms around him, Wild slowly dozed off into a deep sleep, feeling lighter than he had in years.

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wow , just wow. as of october 7th , 2020 it has officially been one year since i launched jackie’s original blog. now , her concept as a whole began much , much earlier. july 23rd , 2019 to be exact. i knew i wanted to delve into the world of stephen king , i knew that i wanted to do something different , i knew that i wanted to take a novel that i’d always loved with characters i always loved , & give them life through someone else’s story. ariel “ jackie ” torrance was the product of that. i did not ever think i’d get off the ground with her , as she’s a female original character & the rpc can be . . . well , the rpc. but thanks to some pretty awesome people , she’s taken on such a life of her own with eight original arcs spanning four decades of her life. she has such a detailed biography that only writing out five of those has the word count at just over 6,000 words.

she’s truly my favorite brainchild out of writing for twelve years & i’ve met so many amazing people while writing her. so many amazing people that have pushed me to go farther when i was ready to throw in the towel on her. i don’t know that she & this blog would be around today had it not been for the lovely beans i’ve met along the way & continue to express their admiration for her character. so i wanted to make this post as a thank you. thank you for listening to my 3 am rambles about the tiniest headcanons. thank you for enabling her impulsive & reckless behavior at times so that she has to be put in uncomfortable situations to grow. thank you for always believing in me & my ability to tell a story even when life has thrown me the wildest of curveballs & i don’t get to be as active as i once was.

i’m going to give a couple of little shoutouts below the cut , & then in no particular order i’d like to thank some of the people who have been by my side since jackie’s beginning. if you aren’t listed because we’re recently mutuals / friends , please don’t take offense. i adore you all & it’s such a pleasure to see you & write with you , but as a huge milestone in her creation & growth , i’d like to give credit to those who helped keep jackie around for you to meet her.

first , to the dan to my jackie , the steve to my bucky , my loveliest virgo wife : annie , you have always been there to encourage me to push boundaries with her , push her out of her comfort zone. get inventive & creative , to develop npcs with such depth that could have lives of their own too. when i told you about jackie as a mere concept , you didn’t hesitate to make a blog for dan. you’ve helped me strengthen the bond between jackie & the only family she ever needs. you’ve helped me give her such fantastically deep flaws within her torrance genes , but a relationship with her cousin that allows her to be seen as more than a “ mary sue ” relative oc. your love of stephen king reignited my own burning flame & i love you so , so much. trust when traveling is safer , i’m cashing in those flight vouchers. we will go ask mr. king about dan’s true timeline. bet. // @neverreallyend , @prouddov , @descriptionbegins , @spiritsfound

next , someone i’ve known for going on four years now. my softest bean & the other 1/3 of the triple virgos , joey : even when you weren’t on tumblr , you’d always love jackie. like , writing on discord ? just even listening to my rambling about her ? chef kiss. you’ve been alongside annie where when i wanted to give up on her or shit got rough with anything , you had my back. you supported me on this journey & always encouraged ultimate creativity. i cannot thank you enough for that or just the friendship you’ve honored me with. // @notdoriangray

another person i’ve known for four years , but arguably has enabled most of the dumbest shit jackie has gotten herself into. my chaotic fire sign partner in crime , holly : bro. you’re literally one of the hardest working people i’ve ever met , & because of that , there’s been times where we don’t talk as much or as often. but we always stay in contact no matter what. when i spout off random ass ideas or come to tell you what dramatic or thotty shit jackie’s gotten herself into this time , you tell me to spill the tea. but it’s also gotten me into personal peril , toxic friendships that you could see through & help me be a better person in the end for. & you always build jackie up when i feel insecure. if that’s not a real one , idk what is dudeski , but i love you ! // @desireforged , @createdestino , @sharpsensations

my significant annoyance , cas : you were 100% jackie’s first ship. well , isaac was. you get it. i didn’t expect anyone to want to ship with her , let alone develop something over a year in the making. it’s insane to me how loyal you are both as a friend & jackie supporter. i can tell you the dumbest shit about her & all you do is acknowledge how dumb it is but then also support her. i think i love her [ jackie ] has become your catchphrase at this point. but her connections to isaac & bruce have helped me establish her comfort in romantic relationships so , so , so much. you have no idea. it leaves me shooketh how much i adore you & everything you’ve done to help keep jackie’s muse alive. // @scarfwere , @milletant

fellow non – binary taika waititi lovebot , pantu : what started as me geeking over how well thought out & conceptualized tj is & how astounded i was at the originality has turned into the most excellent of friendships. you’re so fucking talented both with writing & in general ( elizabeth schuyler is that u ? ) & i’m so thankful to call you my friend. along with friendship re : jackie & tj , you’ve helped me establish another sense of how jackie might respond to romantic intimacy with kc. someone who is something more than temporary. & the plot we have with @multides in her it verse ? you & ash both with eddie & danny have made me fall so in love with how jackie sees a child with shit parents & instinctively wants to protect them. wants to guard them with her life. it’s yet another dimension to her that i couldn’t have discovered without you & ash. thank you , babes. // @glittervcins , @inmarcesiblcs

& now for everyone else who has always me feel so fucking great on any of the blogs i’ve had jackie on. the ones that are no doubt a reason she’s still here today & the ones who make me so damn happy she is. again , this is in no particular order & if we’re newly mutuals please don’t take offense to not being on here. also , if you have more than one blog i’ve only listed one.

@clownwork // @familiartm // @fuckingvictus // @multides // @thunderbringer // @dukecrocker // @troubldtwn // @dyingbrced // @snowbrn // @lustsfcrlife // @scribedhorror // @killedminds // @stapcs // @storiescrafted // @agtwarren // @starlyht // @kxngslxyer

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