#arent those the basics of a friendship? whats even the point if nothing of that is happening

[dating-psychology-101]

https://www.quora.com/

"Do women simp over extremely good-looking men?

Have men given up on women?

Why are some men simping for women and have no standards when it comes to dating?

There is another side to this. It doesn’t simply happen in a vacuum. You see, women are also exhibiting equally dysfunctional behavior. And social media is a key component to it.

The men are simping out of desperation, it’s extremely difficult for many of them to get a woman, as such they’ve sunk to new lows trying to attract one. Or just given up entirely and going for the nearest semblance of it. The other side of this is that the women are all now promiscuous and chasing only the absolute top of all men, they all will only date a 10, and think if they sling enough sex at them they’ll snag th

Society brainwashes men to be in this simp culture. Being the male provider, paying the whole date, buying her gifts, paying all of her bills, giving the girl money, being a “gentleman” that runs to open the car door(when she can easily don't it herself), walking on the outside of the side walk to sheild a women from passing car so the man can get dirty instead are all apart of simp culture. If you have dignity, self respect and arent a coward you wont Simp/Grovel/ put women on a pedestal.

Maybe if we men stopped simping for women so much, we could finally get girlfriends. Right now the female ego has been inflated to an unjustifiably high level. Do you agree with me?

Yes stop simping. She Will never suck your dick.

Like everyone says it's desperation created by feminism. It's years in the making. Feminism is essentially the female nature at work. Low, sneaky, petty and conniving. But feminism blinded us with their flaws and red flags that are right in front of us. They basically have no shame in the game as long as they get the attention they want. At the end of it all just like in a movie the plot twist is that woman are the biggest failures not men. Sorry to be mean and frank but it's been a long time coming and many men have struggled because of this issue.

Because many of them are midgets. They can’t get women any other way but to beta bux and be a cuck

How do people avoid/stop becoming a simp?

Start by respecting YOURSELF.

No matter how attractive a person may LOOK, if they are asking you do act in ways that violate your own respect, your own rights, and your own values, WALK AWAY.

How do I avoid ‘nice guy syndrome’ in a relationship?

Be honest. Be honest about who you are, what you want, and how you want to live your life.

Want to date someone? Stop putting friendship tokens into your lady friends and ask them out.

Want sex? Ask for it.

Not interested in a long term relationship? Say it and own it.

Want a commitment? Ask for it. If you don’t get it, move onto someone who wants the same things you want.

Understand yourself. Know what you want. Go after your goals. Live your life. Nothing is sexier than confidence.

What are some things men get wrong about women?

I’m a guy, so maybe I’m not the best qualified, but recently I had an experience that pointed out a bit of a misconception men have.

I was at a speech festival yesterday. Basically, speech is a competitive performance event where you go compete in public-speaking, acting, improvisational acting, etc. This festival was a workshop for those skills.

Now, I’m an extrovert. A massive extrovert. When I’m around new people I get a tremendous amount of energy and I am extremely outgoing. So throughout the day, I talked and interacted with lots of random people just for fun.

During the lunch, I even went

What do most men get wrong in approaching women?

Hi. First…I don’t ever want to over-generalize, as there are very few things that “most men do” in approaching women. They are certainly all individuals. Also, older men are often much better at approaching us because they’ve learned what gets them shot down.

Here are things that don’t work:

Trying to be something you’re not. I kid you not, once I was in a bar with a friend when I was in my 20’s, and these two dudes, around our ages at the time, came up and started talking to us. We were all like, OK…they’re kind of cute and all…until one of them tried to tell us, in a very serious, conspiratorial tone, that they were “secret agents.” My response? “Well, you’re not very good at it, are you?”

Listening to those booger-eating-level-stupid “pick up artists.” OK, look, you don’t need a damn “strategy.” Be kind, be polite, be interesting, be clean, be well-dressed. Tell us about your life in short doses (save how your ex broke your heart for the 5th date, of course, but you know…). Even if what you’re looking for is a one night romp in a hotel room, you still don’t need a strategy. You need an eye for picking up on the vibe of a woman who would be open to it.

Not knowing what you want. I’m not talking physical characteristics, here. I’m talking about having a clear understanding of what you seek. Like above, if you want a one night stand, then don’t waste your time trying to talk a girl or woman into doing that who just simply doesn’t want to do it, just because you think she’s hot. Learn to read people. If you’re looking for a girlfriend, maybe just decide that all you want that night is a foot in the door. Invite “her and her girlfriends” to “a party my buddies and I are having this weekend.” Then, when they show up to your party (“Dude…I need to use your pool on Saturday. I know, but I asked a bunch of girls to come to a party and now they’re coming and I live in a studio. Do me a solid, OK?”), be nice to ALL OF THEM, EVEN THE UGLY ONES. Hellz, ESPECIALLY THE UGLY ONES. Women watch how you treat women with whom you don’t want to have sex, and if you knew the numbers on the amount of times a man was gonna get some from me before he treated my overweight friend like shit, you’d need a drink.

Not being realistic. No, that daughter aged girl doesn’t want you. She wants your son. OK? Sure, some girls like older. Older is like 10 to 15 years. Not 30 years.

Assuming that she’s too pretty for you. I had a friend in college who was so stunningly beautiful that most girls didn’t want to be her friend and men either practically pissed themselves in her presence or treated her like a piece of meat. She was so lonely and had horrible self-esteem because women actively hated her (I was her only friend, seriously) and had literally never had love. All she wanted was a boyfriend who would be nice to her.

Wrong time/wrong place. Know where you’ll find women for no strings sex? On vacation. If that’s what you want, put yourself where it’s more likely that you’ll get it. Other good ones…conventions. Don’t go looking for a one night stand at a church social. Learn to improve your odds by thinking a little. See, THAT’S the kind of “strategy” you need. Not the kind that tells you to say this or that.

Approaching us to tell us how much you like how we look. This happens when young men have alcohol. “Hey…your body’s amazing. I like you. Wanna dance?” Not anymore I don’t. We know if we’re pretty or not. We know if we have big boobs. Don’t tell us about it. Tell us about you"

https://www.quora.com/Why-do-so-many-men-simp-for-women-What-do-they-really-get-out-of-it-especially-if-it-is-the-wrong-woman#:~:text=Do%20women%20simp,us%20about%20you

#real men stop the simp

[somethinginthethunder]

hi!! can i get a romantic encanto matchup? <3

im miriama, bisexual, i dont have a preference, im an enfp and im a minor!! i have black-brown shoulder length long hair! the front is a bit shorter than the back as it gradually goes longer as u go down LOL i have pretty dark brown eyes and im pale!! mixed tho 💪💪 i have curly-wavy hair sort of inbetween and i have freckles that arent very evident if u look close!!

im a naturally happy and upbeat person! im really shy at first but i slowly open up. im easy to sway and im a sucker for cheesy romance!! i bond with humor and its really easy for me to read people! im not the best with words so its kinda hard for me to have a good flowing conversation, but i can really get into it!! i contain my emotions and im sort of detached from them, i only really ever show my happy side </3 i dont like ranting to most people and i dont like making them uncomfortable!! for some friends i can easily strike hard conversations whilst others i have a completely different friendship with. i can maintain various crowds easily and i blend in well!!!

any forms of art!! i love art and classical music! i have sort of a basic taste when it comes to my interests, but i love them!! i do enjoy having a couple laughs but after awhile having a serious conversation about anything is deeply enjoyed. i love being humorous and im very witty. my love languages are quality time and physical touch!! expressing my emotions thru words is hard so i expect my partner to understand me thru my body language.

im not the best with communication but i try!! i love going out and being social but it gets extremely tiring sometimes. i need a really long break and something to do or someone close to hang with </3

thank u!!! i hope thats enough HAHA take ur time and have fun!!!! <<<<<33

congrats on being my first matchup! hope you enjoy <3

you’ve been matched with: camilo!

-you two have got chemistry, baby!!! he’d easily be able to return your upbeat energy, instantly connecting over your shared love of humor.

-hard to open up? don’t worry, he’ll let you take your time but also wouldn’t be afraid to encourage you out of your shell.

-camilo would easily take advantage of your liking for cheesiness. you want cute dates? done. almost unbearable but very cute nicknames? way ahead of you. personal space? what’s that lmao

-he would appreciate any side of you just as much as your happy one. i don’t think he’d force you to say anything but any chance you open up would be completely good with him.

-something tells me he might not have the most knowledge on classical music and art, but he’d be happy to have you teach him!!

-joking around is always a must with you two, and those serious conversations you mentioned will always be in the mix. he seems like a constant goof but there’s a good chance you two would end up talking about your true desires.

-as said before, personal space between you two doesn’t have to be a thing with him if you say so! you both would probably be better at conveying your feelings through touch, so hugs and kisses it is :)

-if you’re ever ready to get out of a crowd and go home, he’s got your back. if you want him to come back with you, he’d be more than glad to tell everyone that you’ll be leaving for the night, walking out hand in hand with you.

-would probably be with you for the rest of the night, telling you funny stories or listening to whatever you’ve got to say. or even nothing, just hanging out is good with him too.

-if you’re going on your own, that’s cool as well! he’ll continue entertaining everyone after giving you a kiss goodbye.

-thinks youre gorgeous????? as he should wtf ??????

-would ask to play with your hair (please say yes)

-if he’s really close to your physically he’d probably notice your freckles and point them out, calling them cute.

-in general, a slightly chaotic but also down to earth relationship :)

#camilo x reader #encanto x reader #encanto

[hysokaz]

i cant HATE hanzo because i dont think that he meant to do what he did but his whole fight with gon was just a HORRIBLE lesson to gon. he 1000% internalised everything that happened theres just no way that he didnt. being told over and over again that he cant win, that he needs to give up, and having countless adults just stand around and not say or do anything. like i know i know its part of the exam it HAS to test his mental skill but its fucking cruel the only person helping him or showing that they care is leorio, killua, and kurapika. everyone else is literally turning their heads from him. hes getting told that theres no way he could win as hes fucking bleeding and all of his senses are fucked up. he cant see, he cant hear out of one ear, he cant get up, he has a broken arm, his nose just got busted and he still tries to fight, he doesnt give up, and he tells leorio that hes fine. its nothing he cant handle.

hes screaming out in pain and no one is doing anything. they might stare in shock or they might show that they litearlly cant stand to watch gon but gon litearlly cant SEE. gon is stubborn to all hell and he wont give up.

the fight does a couple of things.

by eventually winning, it teaches him that he can keep going. he can have absolutely no strength in his body and he still will force himself to try and recover and try to fight. i could see gon exhausting himself to death because of this mindset. he will force himself over and over and he refuses to give up no matter what and he will only ever use his own strength and try to win. he goes through the thought that hanzo wouldnt cut off his legs because that would make him bleed out-- he doesnt think about how horrific it would be to have his legs cut off, its not like he doesnt take it seriously, but he doesnt take his own life seriously. he doesnt CARE. he would rather die than not be a hunter.

people praise him when he does well in the fight, and that teaches him that all he has to do is keep going. all he has to do is do good and he will be fine. all he has to do is keep getting back up and people will love him and he'll be admired. and all of this because of his dad, because he wants to find his dad, and i think the fight also teaches him that his father would eventually praise him for all of his efforts.

by hanzo still being nice, and not actually wanting to kill gon, pleading with him over and over again that hes not going to quit, that gon is going to die if he continues... and then hanzo pussing out and not doing it like that plants the idea in his head that the "bad guys" or the people that he has to fight ARENT that bad, i believe. this ones a hunch. i think that this will put it in gons head that eventually he will come out on top because his opponents cant be the worst people inside of their hearts, that they wouldnt kill him. you can bring up that gon refuses to take an easy win, that gon NEEDS to have a fair fight, but that doesnt really change anything. subconsciously, i think gon has a bit of an overconfidence that he cannot die. hisoka didnt kill him, hanzo didnt kill him, genthru didnt kill him, whatever and whoever didnt kill him. he wont die. i think that if gon ever accepted that he COULD die, like truly let it set in, then he would lose part of himself. i think gon refuses to truly have it in his head that he COULD die because i think that would admit defeat. i know that gon knows he can die, but his mortality and his own life is not serious to him because thats not a concern to him. his concern is his father and his friends.

by his friends being the only ones to outwardly show support, by being the ones who would scream out and tell him to quit, by him hearing them and knowing in his heart theyre barely holding themselves back to save him, their bond grows. i dont want to say thats unfortunate... but its kind of unfortunate. i dont want their bond and friendship to grow over feelings of pain and anguish, but thats what happens. he hears their cries and i know he internalises it as strength for him to keep going. the desperation that his friend show him only makes him be committed to them more. gon doesnt need verbal support, he barely needs people to tell him they like him. after all killua is his closest friend not because killua says nice things to gon and tells him sweet things or anything like that-- he and killua are best friends because of their actions. killua is committed to gon. gon knows that. he trusts killua because of that. gon sees the things his friends do for him, and it makes him want to match those exact things as well.

hanzos age is also a small thing, but a big thing at the same time. hanzo does mention his age to gon as a side note, but gon brings it up as a main point. he talks about how hanzo is only six years older than him. he doesnt keep going with that point, but i think his brain does do something with it. gon ends up putting that as motivation, i know he wants to match hanzos strength. he probably wants to be better than hanzo, stronger and more skilled. if gon got to hanzos age and was weaker than him i think he would hate himself for it. gon has unreasonably high expectations of himself, and age matters to him in the way that he needs to be stronger than everyone else. yes, to make his father proud and to thank him, but i know its also so he can protect his friends and family as well.

even what killua eventually eventually does, just that small thing of drawing hanzos face on the ground and saying that gon is nowhere near his strength... thats just basically forcing gon to compare himself to hanzo (something i know killua didnt mean as a bad thing). hanzo isnt the biggest threat that gon has ever had to deal with; i dont think that he has made THE absolute most impact, but i HAVE to think about it in this sense: gons spirit is...strong. but hisoka wounds it when he gives him an "easy win" and passes gon his badge. this makes gon deal with a bunch of self worth issues for a few days straight... and then hanzo goes and does all of that to him. had it been separate from everything that hisoka did i think that it mightve not hurt as much, but all of the stress i know went to his head. the end of the hunter exams were some of the most impactful yet painful events for gon, at least thats what seems to show once you looka t the behaviour that follows. i cant hate hanzo because i know he didnt mean to make gon develop the way he did. but i think hanzos fight did horrible damage to the way gon thinks.

#90s series analysis again but tbh it goes for 11s as well #by the way i think that gon is so selfless its litearlly killing him and i am sad over it #he loves his friends so much but its costing him his own health he just. he will jsut keep going. no matter what. #oh hey just watching and i wanted to say actually borodo appreciation here... like he litearlly gave up just so hisoka wouldnt go and fight #killua.. like hello okay. decent adult for once. #like him saying that its not honourable for someone like him to fight hcildren..like i love you i wish you hadnt died #i think it does say. something about the way the hxh world works. people who have morals and arent willing to hurt the vulnerable litearlly #will die over it.. :( #okay actually laughing at the way theyre saying gittarackur .. gitta-racka-rur..JSRJGKJSRKJG LIKEMGRM #anyways . i just know im going to start hating illumi on this post and that will get to be too much so im nott going to keep going #ok wait one single thing. hes so fucking stupid i hate the way he dresses and stands i want to push him over and watch him fall i bet he wo #wouldnt even react...god i hate illumi... #hxh meta #god this was long #OKYA IMS ORRY I KNOW I SAID I WOULDNT BUT GUESS WHAT IM PISSED OFF AT ILLUMI AGAIN HES SO MEAN AND I HAVE BROTHER ISSUES AND ISM IM GOING T #TEAR HIS HAIR OUT WITH MY HANDS #okay i need to stop its 4:25 and i need to wake up in a few hours #hxh #gon freecss #hanzo #also what does it say about me that i wrote this on one go without even stopping the anime but its taken me a couple of hours to gather my #thoughts about a hisoka meta. why can i suddenly write sometimes but othertimes its just i dont know what keys to put together #man why iddnt i have this brain when i had to write an 10 pager for english last year helll me

[hxseok-honee]

You know i just thought about it (I forget a lot that this is a hogwarts au 😅😅😅) yoonyn are wizards/witches which means they are somewhat intelligent (ya know casting spells and whatnot) so how in the world have they not figured out they like each other??? Does love knowledge just not exist in wizard/witch language??? Do they not have a 'need more brain cells so i can figure out my feelings without blaming the alcohol' potion they can poof it on themselves???

Listen I love Yoonyn and I love today's chapter but,,, now we gotta ask the daily question of how and why they aren't together yet,,,,

okay listen i actually think about this so often and i didnt know how to put it into words but im gonna TRY --

basically,,,, they really arent at the point of realizing that what they feel is Not Platonic Affection

and that sounds really stupid but also they are really stupid!

but at the same time, all they really know when it comes to each other is Affection, right? theyve always had a relationship that is deeper than any of the friendships they have with the rest of the group. so they already were aware that their dynamic is special because of that. but if thats all theyve known, then,,, falling into another dynamic that's special (romantic) isnt really,,, i guess enough of a change in their current relationship for them to register that its happening.... and that doesnt make any got damn sense so im gonna try again--

basically, between "normal" friends, there are lines. there are lines you dont cross in physical affection and also emotional affection -- things like saying i love you, holding hands, cuddling, etc. yes these friendships definitely exist and are probably fairly common tbh, but in the case of this friend group, yn would never even think of doing these things with tae, joon, jimin, or jin. even with jk, it never crosses her mind to do those things UNTIL the romance aspect starts, and even then, theres a progression they need to get through in order to reach, say, the i love you stage.

these lines dont exist with yoonyn at ALL, and thats why in blossom, when yn calls them best friends, yoongi corrects her jokingly that theyre platonic soulmates, but he def wasnt joking. because even best friends have some boundaries, and these two just,,, never even considered a version of themselves that had those boundaries. theyve always just Been Like That. this weird middle ground of lineless existence lmao

ofc, there are physical affections which are just very clearly attached to romance like kissing and sex, right. but the depth of the emotional attachment that comes with romance is something they already HAD, which says a lot about jk's (poorly handled) jealousy. so once they start "dating", literally nothing changes about yoonyn except the physical stuff they start doing together. nothing about their emotional attachment changes in a way thats noticeable or perceivable enough for them to consider "hm this might be something more".

but because of this new dynamic theyre pretending to have, their actual dynamic is changing little by little. and if theyd been "normal" friends to begin with, they would have noticed it a LONG time ago. but they cant tell the difference between platonic and romantic affection with each other, because theyve always had a bond that makes it difficult to distinguish. what that says about the "label" of their relationship all these years,,,, ill leave that to you

but to them, theyre actually genuinely still just friends, and they actually believe that these new feelings that pop up here and there in random moments are things that can be attributed to these new physical forms of affection that theyre practicing and that its just something to get used to. and as for yn, whos actually experienced these emotions before bc shes actually been in a relationship, she's not even realizing that the little glimpses of romantic affection she's feeling for yoongi are the same that she felt for jk once, both bc its been so long since shes genuinely felt those things for jk bc they were super not doing great toward the end, and also bc these feelings arent,,, necessarily different enough from her normal perception of yoongi for her to realize its not platonic love.

basically, what im trying to say is, they REALLY wont be able to get this on their own, even when they start having real feelings for each other. because theyre stupid. and even the things they feel during spicy moments are just physical attraction, which isnt the same as romantic attraction. so even once they (finally) accept that theyre attracted to each other, it still,,,,, wont exactly be enough. so theyre gonna need some help.

and its definitely gonna come in the form of an accidental realization made because of their friends who Genuinely think theyre dating LMAO

tldr ; boundaries dont exist so yoonyn Cant See It Happening

#and hobi #who is gonna be Very Tired by the end of this #i said a lot that might only make sense to me i am very sorry

[1990jeevas]

hi hello i dont think we have talked b4 but i would love 2 hear ur craig ND headcanonz :))

hehe hello!! thank you for the asks!! here's my ND craig headcanons aka me projecting onto one of my kins :>

note? ig: im diagnosed with adhd buuuut i probably also have undiagnosed autism and idk how to separate those symptoms tbh so im not gonna be too specific about what's what ig. this truly will just be Pure Projection soooo

let's go!

-was absolutely that one kid growing up that got either "never applies himself" or "has good grades, but issues with socialization" on report cards

-bad at making and maintaining friendships :/

-school probably tested him and was like "yeah there is something here but we arent gonna diagnose bc that means we have to give him Actual Accommodations" and then stuck him in SPED classes which just got him bullied ajsksk

-has bad sensory issues with like. the feeling of skin and the sound of like silverware on plates, it literally makes him wanna peel his skin off. there's other ones obvs but those ones are the worst

-sensory overload makes him incredibly agitated or just downright pissed. gets very snippy but doesn't yell bc yelling feels Weird and he doesn't like it

-cant wear more than 2 layers, cant sleep with more than one thin blanket, it makes him feel like he's being suffocated and having his movement restricted

-always stimming but pretty good at making it unnoticeable, has a lot of normalized stims like playing with rubber bands, leg bouncing nail tapping, cracking knuckles, etc.

-but when he isnt trying to hide it? ohhh boy is he a loud motherfucker, very into stims that involve noise like rolling his r's, doin lil brr sounds, clickn buttons on like remotes and stuff, etc.

-not very good at masking tbh

-mmm echolalia galore

-flappy hands!! lots of flappy hands :]

-stims by hitting the balls of his hands/wrists together repeatedly, is probably one of his most used stims

-has like. harmful stims when he's upset or in pain? like hitting himself, scratching himself, etc.

-has lil dancey stims but only really does them in private or around close friends

-so flipping people off is already basically a stim in canon lbr but imagine he starts doing 👉👈 as a joke and then it just becomes a Default Stim. he jus be standing there and outta nowhere he's goin 👉👈 while having a completely normal conversation

-very bad at reading tone and social cues but he just wont admit it. refuses to ask questions either. leads to a lot of bad situations but he'd rather die than ask for clarification

-if you don't tell him exactly what to do he will just kinda. be confused. like you need to give him a step by step tutorial otherwise he will not do something very obvious on his own just incase he's wrong

-low empathy my beloathed /hj

-uhhh pls dont put him in a situation to comfort someone he will say and do all the wrong things even if he's trying his best

-red racer hyperfixation <3 guinea pig hyperfixation <3

-the most dry texter known to man bc he refuses to have important conversations over text due to Lack Of Tone Indication (his friends would be an exception bc tone indicators pog but still greatly prefers irl)

-its the having multiple swears as stimmy words for me /hj

-walks while leaning on the outside of his feet more than having them like. level? if that makes sense. similar to toe walking but like on the sides of the feet

-dont ask him to read a book he'll either hyperfixate or end up rereading the same page over and over again bc he retained nothing

-very blunt but he's not trying to be mean he just has literally no idea how to Not talk like that

-does a lil high picthed mm sound when happy flapping and usually rocks back and forth with it :]

-will be in the middle of the test and you'll just hear him softly muttering "bonk. bonk. bonk. bonk. bon-"

-that ^ or bababooey

-basically any tiktok sound he hates turns into a stim at some point

-has a playlist just titled "neurodivergent moment" bc he's that kind of person. the first song on it is the home of 47, followed by stupid mf (idk if the person who made the home of 47 ((trolleycat)) can reclaim the r slur but it's used a good amount in the song, stupid mf is just blatantly ableist tho lol)

-*info dumps by tearing apart his favorite media and then gets offended when a NT does the exact same thing*

-calls things ableist when they dont go his way

-has a lot of oral stims like give him anything he can chew on and he will fucking destroy it unless it's made to be chewed

-*sees strings on hat* *sticks end in mouf* *complains when its soaking wet 2 minutes later*

-hyperfixates on a lot of problematic media so he has become the most critical ass mfer when it comes to the shit he consumes

-sometimes he just. screams. bc he can. and he feels the need to.

-has rsd but shhh he'll never discuss it

#shit self #asks #craig tucker #south park #headcanons #kinz #long post #swearing

[camelely]

TFATWS Spoilers under the cut

Literally the following is my thoughts and opinions, and there are probably some unpopular opinions lol. It's kinda really long lol.

Starting with some positives.

I loved how the two leads had storylines that mirrored each other. Sam needed to become Captain America and gain a title and Bucky needed to move on from The Winter Solider and loose a title.

Sam. Just Sam I loved him before but now I love him more.

Sam becoming Cap.

I loved Isaiah and his story.

I loved Sam's family, how they welcomed Bucky and the struggles Sarah had.

I really liked how they spent time with both Sam and Bucky and didn't forget the show was supposed to be about both of them. Often times shows tend to lean into the more popular or fan favorite lead and this show didn't do that. When Sam took center it felt natural and when Bucky took center it felt natural.

The Wakandans were great. I love Ayo and her friendship with Bucky.

Zemo was fine and fun enough.

John Walker was incredibly done. Wyatt Russell did an amazing job and the scene with the blood on the shield will forever be in my memory. Hands down one of the most impactful MCU moments.

I like the genderbend on Karl/Karli and the direction they took her character. People that go from sympathetic ideas to unforgivable means, make good villains. I think her more boring elements come from the lack of development she got.

Now on to the negatives.

This show could have been like two hours shorter and still told the same story with the same impact. Also earlier episodes, (maybe later episodes too I might have just gotten used to it and stopped noticing lol), had some weird ADR moments. IDK what happened behind the scenes but it was noticeable.

I would have loved it if one of the episodes was a flashback episode. The Sharon twist was obvious from the first episode she appeared in but like they thought it was good enough to save confirmation for the mid/end of the finale? Both her and Karli would have been benefited from a flashback episode.

Karli should have fought Bucky while Sam was focused on Walker. Sam could have had a moment where he tells him he will never be forgiven and Walker would responded with something similar to "I do what is right. I don't need forgiveness." Then when he becomes USAgent it lands more like the next progression in an arc rather than the redemption arc this could be interpreted as. I personally think this is a stepping stone and not a redemption but the MCU (and Disney) doesnt have a great track record when it comes to handling anything with nuance and the fans have an even worse track record when handling things that arent black and white. I guess my point is they could have handled the John Walker set up better.

Speaking of set up, this entire show was set up. This is my main and only real problem with this show. Nothing felt like it was resolved at the end. Karli even says she was part of a bigger movement. Killing her didn't change the fact a lot of people felt the un blip ruined their lives. People always shit on Tony for wanting to bring people back five years later instead of going back in time but like it had been five years, while some like Steve and Natasha hadn't moved on, others had. Some had better lives. Assuming everyone wanted to back to the way things used to be would also be a mistake. This has consequences too, as we see in these shows. But ruining the lives of the people who had bettered themselves would have been shitty too. And yea some people who had been bettered were worsened once again when the un blip happened but my point is going back and erasing the five years would have been shitty too. There is not really a right answer here as the right answer would have been to either stop the snap before it happened or to come to terms with the fact that the snap can never be undone. Leaving everyone as dead might have hurt, but it was the best thing for a community that had five years of mourning and moving on and counseling ETC. Ooof that was a tangent lol and I could probably write an essay so going back to my original point about set up. The flag smashers, or at least people who think the way they did still exist, Sharon Carter is the powerbroker but Sam and Bucky dont know and now shes back as agent 13, John Walker went from war hero to committing war crimes and his journey as USAgent is just starting, Sam has taken the Cap mantle and is ready to begin acting as Cap, and Bucky is both coming to terms with and moving on from his past. Nothing is actually resolved in this mini series. I know it's supposed to make you excited for the next movie/show/season whatever but have six episodes of little to no payoff IMO made for a flat show.

Building off the set up problem. This show had too much going on. Sam and Bucky each had their own personal journey (The A and B plot depending on the episode), Sam and Bucky being friends and their shared journey (C), John Walker and the Flag Smashers (the D and E plot depending on the episode), Zemo and the Wakandans (F), The PowerBroker/Sharon (G), The boat and Sarah which could be considered part of Sam's plot but since if you cut it out the only thing that actually effected Sam's journey would be the bank in the first episode and yet it still went on till basically the end I'm calling it it's own plot (H), Valentina Allegra de Fontaine, which might be part of John Walker's story but since it's all set up for her to take a bigger role in the future and his set up could be completed without her I'm counts her separately (I), then you have the big meeting at the end, the senators and policy makers making choices the vote that they keep mentioning and once again more set up... (J). 10 ideas by my count, all needed their own set up, follow through, and payoff. And yes some stuff like Valentina the pay off will come later but still... It's all too many plots! And thats not mentioning side characters that were new to the show that they wanted to spend time with but couldn't.

Even though I think the shows aren't comparable/two different genres WandaVision had two more episodes (and yes some were shorter but I already mentioned I think FATWS could have benefited from that), completed all the main plots and had Wanda's journey (A), Vision's journey (B), Agatha, Pietro/Ralph, and the citizens of the hex (C), Outside the hex Monica (D), Outside the hex everyone else and sure you can separate Darcy, Jimmy and Heyward but none of them were setting up future stories or had their own distinctive plot outside the hex thing like Monica so she is the only one I am separating (E), the kids who could be counted as an extension of the Wanda and Vision plots since they didnt really have their own arc or story (F). 6 total. And some of those could be combined. Like I think we should separate Wanda Vision and the kids but technically they are just an extension of Wanda. And same with Monica, her story was mostly intertwined with Darcy, Jimmy and the outside the hex stuff. I separated her since I think she had enough moments to herself and she set up secret invasion or whatever, but like Valentina being a part of John's story it is arguable. Of these plots only the missing witness Jimmy thing, Wanda's post credits moment a moment seperate from everything else, Monica's mid credits i think? moment another one separate from everything else, and white vision were unresolved. They gave Agatha an opening ending but it was still an ending. And yes Darcy Heyward etc will probably come back but the plot they had here was finished. So arguably they had 2/6 unfinished plots. And if you don't count Jimmy's witness as a plot and just count it as an unanswered question then 1/6. And technically white vision is just half a vision and the other vision got a complete plot so really it's 0.5/6 At best they completed 92(ish)% of the plots and left 8 (ish) % for future stuff.

In contrast FATWS only finished Sam's journey into becoming Cap, Zemo and the Wakandans, and arguably Sam and Bucky's friendship. You might be able to argue that Bucky had a full circle moment with the guy whose son he killed, but that is one guy and Bucky has been carrying around a list of people like that guy. It's not the end of a story it is the start of a journey. And maybe it is possible to say the boat thing had an ending kinda. 2/10 completed. maybe 3/10 if you wanna push it 5/10. IMO at best they completed 50% of plot set up.

Clearly FATWS is meant to be this way and thats why it bothered me. They want you to watch Cap 4 or whatever they decide to call the theatrical movie that will come after this. I guess I was just expecting it to stand on it's own, and other than Sam's journey into becoming Captain America, which was amazing and deserved in every way, nothing this show did felt like it could have stood on its own. I know it's arguable that was the main story and only story that deserved to end. But I've already pointed out all the other running plots this show had, and I think at least two or three of them should have had follow through in the show.

Someone who plans to never seen an MCU movie after these shows could have watched WandaVision and enjoyed it. That is not the case for FATWS. If you don't plan on watching any MCU stuff in the future you won't know how over half the plots of this show will end. THis isn't even how the movies work. They each tell their own story while also setting up other things, so it is clear they know how to do this.

I can see why Disney decided to submit it as a series and not a mini series. Not only do they not want to compete with themselves (nominating WV as a miniseries) but also this isn't a miniseries.

I guess to conclude I'll say I did really enjoy watching this show. It was fun and there were some great moments. It featured amazing character and amazing actors, but I wish it had bothered to finish more of what it started.

Thank you so much for reading till the end of a post that has surely become unintelligible gloop by now. If you disagree I'd love to hear why!

#mcu #falcon and the winter solider spoilers #the falcon and the winter solider spoilers #falcon and the winter solider #the falcon and the winter solider #fatws #fatws spoilers #tfatws #tfatws spoilers #sam wilson #bucky barnes #the falcon #isaiah bradley #john walker #karli morgenthau #baron zemo #wakanda #ayo #sharon carter #agent 13 #captain america #powerbroker #usagent #the winter solider #falcon #wandavision

[normal-thoughts-official]

Ghost hunting Magnus and Luke with Malec headcanons go

well that certainly is...... specific. i love it

okay im actually gonna do this based on that whole "supernatural home repair" show that ppl were talking about because that's just..... hilarious

Luke is the showrunner/guy who goes there to check if there are Ghosts™/historian. He actually puts the effort into his work and hes very good at it, has natural charisma and is good at explaining stuff, so hes actually great on tv. Doesn't know if he believes in ghosts but hes at least gonna try to make the show entertaining

Magnus is the psychic, and - get this - he's an actual warlock. He auditioned for the show as a joke basically and then ppl were like "oh, youre amazing, so funny, the charisma, perfect for tv, you even came in character, amazing" and he was like "..... you know what". he 100% thinks this is all hilarious and does the most stereotypical, obviously fake shit his mind can cook up ("*shaking hands with eyes closed* i can sense...... presences............."). but he kind of gets attached to the show so he uses his magic to ~help~ supernatural events to happen so luke can chill

Alec is the home repairer. He just really wants to do his job. Ghosts dont exist. Ur room is cold because you put the heater in a bad spot. There is a rational explanation for literally all of this (Magnus, behind him: "yeah, ghosts")

s1 is an absolute trainwreck, but the craziest fucking thing happens: the show gets so popular. it's huge

show fans on twitter are like "innovate nothing change nothing do NOT raise the budget just give me more of this absolute garbage show" and it GETS RENEWED

the show basically gets amazingly popular because of lukes charisma, magnus' absolutely hilarious shenanigans (but also his wit and personality that pour through sometimes), and alec's grumpiness.

magnus gets a lot of fans and he has no idea why

the show started when magnus was basically at the final stage of his recovery from depression (due to both abuse, racism, loneliness and queerphobia), and it helped him get outside more, find fun things to do and remember why he loved meeting people and doing over the top shit he kind of didnt anymore. it also earns him new friends. so its very good for him

at the beginning alec is very closed off. hes just the workaholic, hyper-rational kind of guy. he auditioned for the show because it pays well and he was unemployed and struggling financially a bit and he really didnt want to go for his parents' help, since they were in the middle of a divorce and there were still some unresolved things from when he came out (although at the point the show starts theyre already getting around) so he takes what he can get. he doesn't have many fans at first, hes very no-nonsense and focused and barely interacts with the camera in s1.

but his grumpiness and no-nonsense attitude are kind of..... funny? so he adds this other element of trainwreck and dysfunction that makes the show so amazingly popular. also, alec can be pretty witty and even sassy when he wants to, and sometimes those parts of his slip in - mostly when he's fixing something, because the physical labor + feeling comfortable with something he knows how to do and likes doing helps him relax and be a bit more like himself. so slowly his personality starts to shine through to both the audience, and magnus

magnus and alec basically start developing a friendship over magnus constantly teasing alec's seriousness. alec will be in the middle of an Important Explanation about how incorrect door installment can lead to problems in the long run and magnus will show up all like "the door is a ghost". initially alec would roll his eyes and hide his smile behind his hand (really badly i must say) but eventually they evolve into their quick teasing banter

magnus keeps insisting that of course hes 100% serious, hes the real deal and ghosts do exist. the best part is, hes not actually lying. but they dont know that, obviously

luke is the one who first realizes that getting them to interact more would be crazy good and help make the show more dynamic and funny. so from then on they start doing their bits together instead of separated

you know where this is going

there are even some emotional moments where alec talks about his struggle with coming out and being more openly himself, and magnus talks about his struggle with depression and racial/sexuality issues, and Luke talks about how his family rejected him after he decided to work in showbusiness

it always hits the viewers like a ton of bricks

"dealing with depression is hard because it makes you think 'is this who i am? is that what im made of? this emptiness and lethargy?' but what recovery and therapy have taught me is, no. how you deal with depression, survive it, learn from it to get out of your destructive habits and environment that got u there in the first place - that's who you are" "i cant believe this is a quote from the psychic from the supernatural home repair show" "excuse me its from what"

their relationship develops. the three of them become very good friends, and the show only gets more and more popular as time goes by and they get closer, have more fun, interact more

you know what happens

the pining between magnus and alec is just. unbelievable. luke frequently looks at the cameramen like "can u believe this" and it makes the cut like half of the time. him and the cameramen start forming a supporting friendship based on their despair at seeing the two of them just make eyes at each other

magnus makes up 'supernatural' excuses to hold alec's hand, like, once a week

sometimes when magnus cracks a joke or laughs or does something particularly silly alec just. looks at him with so much tenderness and adoration in his eyes the cameramen feel like invasors for filming it

edition team: "why is it that every time magnus laughs the camera gets weird and wobbly?" cameramen, who started ducking and jumping out of the way so as not to invade alecs clearly private looks at magnus: "we were, uh, laughing at his joke too"

somehow neither of them notice. luke refuses to intervene because "im not their dad and they can get their shit together on their own"

he does do his best to guarantee they arent exposed tho

"malec" shippers start popping up anyway because looks or no looks their dynamic is amazing and fun. they are called tinhatters by most other fans. they arent major harrassers or anything like some other real ppl fans, tho, because its my au and i will give common sense to whoever i want

i dont even know how they get together, honestly

it takes a really long time

luke is about to go crazy

they get married at the end idk

#ask #anonymous #sh #shadowhunters #magnus bane #alec lightwood #luke garroway #malec #malec au #fic #kinda? #ficlet #fic idea #overflowing trashcan #supernatural home repair au #brotp: downworlder dads

[midoriyaizukustan-inactive]

Also,,, uh,,,, If midoriya let out all his emotions, bc he is such a good boy, he'd feel so fucking bad and start sobbing like 'IM SORRYY I DIDNT MEAN IT A R R AJTJENFJGN' even if bakugou didn't care,,, Midoriya would definitely act like 'NOOO IM MEANT TO BE A HERO HOW COULD I SAY THIS TO SOMEONE WHO IM PROBABLY GOING TO NEED TO WORK ALONGSIDE IN THE PRO HERO FUTURE R A A A WHAT IF I GET FANS AND THEY FIND OUT AND GIVE ME HATE ALL MIGHT SAVE ME' AND IN ALL HONESTU, I FEEL LIKE ITD HURT HIM MORE

hold up imma boutta project/analyze

ok so i do believe ur right that midoriya would feel absolutely AWFUL before, during, nd after any conversation that is a confrontation w baku

i believe this for a couple reasons;;;;

1) midoriya has a hard time letting loose negative emotions that like. arent characteristic of a “good person”. like he refuses to let himself act out and/or respond in ways that may be a little mean bc he just. idk if this is canon technically but like from what i can analyze abt his character, he hinges his self-esteem on being a good person. so, if he were to ever act in a way that would Question that notion, i think he’d fall in on himself. so he doesn’t have any experience letting loose such emotions nd he’d be scared of the aftermath of doing so, not just bc of bakugou, but also what it might mean for who he is

and also 2) as fucked up nd complex as his relationship w bakugou is, he does care for him. i think its also canon that he hates him at the same time?? so hes got a lot of internal conflict over him, let alone bringing it out into the light and trying to mediate between those two sides of himself during a conversation

and then 3) he spent a long time like,,just pushing bakugou’s assholeness off?? like he knew bakugou was like a dick but he cared for him and didnt want to ruin his future w his personal beef (even though he was entitled to like u dont use ur quirk on someone @/young baku) so he just shrugged off the incidences the best he could. to confront baku abt everything tho, he would have to acknowledge everything that happened to him nd that would be so taxing emotionally he’d have to face the fact that he never even got a childhood bc of the relentless bullying not just from baku but the rest of his peers and oh GOD

so its bc of these three main reasons i think midoriya would l o a t h e to confront baku abt anything, and if he did confront him, he’d feel awful afterwards

HOWEVER he has good friends now and he knows what a good friendship is supposed to look like and also his self-esteem and self-image isnt so crippled anymore and he knows he deserves basic decency now and bakugou like.....for years never gave him that. for YEARS. and it cost midoriya many things, the least of which were having friends/a sense of importance

so like. i think for months he’d be warring with himself over “to talk or to not talk” bc,,,the three reasons but also he wants ANSWERS bakugou was so awful to him for YEARS he wants the REASONS he wants an APOLOGY he wants to be TAKEN SERIOUSLY because DAMMIT people -- teachers, peers, strangers at parks, whatever -- all simply WATCHED him being brought down OVER and OVER and OVER and he just. he needs to know he needs closure he needs. he needs.

SOOooo i think one night he’d just snap like baku does smth snarky or w/e and midoriya just completely freaks the fuck out

its a screaming match and midoriya can hardly breathe thro his tears but he NEEDS baku to know and he NEEDS answers and he just. he cant keep this contained any longer he will literally die if he tries to keep this to himself to his grave

so midoriya probably pulls a conversational curveball (probably brings up baku s*icide baiting him) and baku just freezes

while baku is frozen midoriya just fucking spills his entire guts and heart out and at the end he tries to demand an explanation but his actions have caught up with him at that point nd midoriya cant even move hes feeling so many emotions and oh god. he just yelled everything at bakugou

if midoriya could stand he’d probs run away but he cant MOVE fam his heart’s just so heavy

anyway theyre probably heard by like Everyone in the dorms so when the silence stretches on midoriya’s friends probs come in and help him to his room while baku’s just left to like digest all of that

back in mido’s room he’s probably crying just not as loudly bc “oh god im such a bad person i was supposed to keep it to myself i was supposed to be better im supposed to be a good person what good person would scream at the person theyve known the longest im so awful hes right im useless im evil im so fucking-” nd midoriya’s friends Quickly put an end to that the best they can but yknow midoriya’s just all over the place tonight

anyway some hours later baku knocks on the door nd under the izucrew’s monitoring, baku has a talk w midoriya

midoriya didnt rlly get to ask bakugou why any of their past happened, but bakugou feels like he should tell him his side of the story since midoriya told him his

nd its not,,satisfying cause bakugou’s still trying to figure out his past actions and motives himself but its something and hes actually remorseful and also he heard midoriya out and doesnt hate him so midoriya will take it

anyway once bakugou tells his side, he ends it with a *gasp* actual apology!!!! and he promises to do better

nd midoriya’s like “i cant forgive u, not yet at least, but like. thanks for this” bc hey he got his closure yknow

so theyre probs just rlly on uneven footing w each other for a couple months before midoriya asks if he wants to try as friends again nd blah blah im sure we all know the story from there

SOOOOOOOOOO basically; ur right midoriya would feel like complete shit before, during, and after the conversation(s), but i think in the end it would be beneficial for both him and bakugou’s character

cause bakugou will see how his actions hurt the person he’s known the longest firsthand, and the person who’s done nothing but admire him will snap at him for the first time, nd i think that would lead to good introspection on baku’s side

nd ofc midoriya getting to spill his entire guts would be cathartic as shit he’d feel a lot better after getting it out there instead of trying to keep it pushed down. plus, bakugou (or anyone else for that matter) wouldnt hate him for talking abt his feelings SO yeah after he accepts the situation Happened he’d feel,,a lot better,,

so like. to midoriya this whole conversation would be like a necessary evil thing, but it would help him and by extension bakugou, not hurt them

anyway thats my hot take dkjfdkjnk this became half a fic so i apologize anyway stan midoriya thanks thats all

#this episode in ive got issues and on god if i dont project them on midoriya--- #OOF anyway #c makes a word #answer #bakugo katsuki #midoriya izuku

[thecakeofpan]

Yall ever been friends with someone for a really long time and it seems like things are getting to the point where yall are drifting apart and you try really hard to engage and converse with them at least once or twice a week after a solid year of almost silence and that year of silence just being tagged in random memes but nothing other than that and during this time period things arent going insanely well in your home environment either but this friend is really the only one who knew everything that goes on and the only other person youd be able to talk to during those dark times and later when you ask how the friendship is going they basically tell you that they got tired of you and found new friends and you saw this coming in the past whenever you'd invite them to online games they'd straight up ignore you because they're playing with someone else but dont even want to say anything about it so you keep trying by calling them up every so often but then it's gotten to the point where it's getting frustrating because yall are in a group chat with this person's friend group and you dont know them like that so most of the time you dont really participate in the groups and you just keep trying to stay in contact with them to try and save what is left in that friendship but ultimately it seems like they got tired of you a long time ago?

Because m00d

#fuuuuck #i am sad

[axelstrash]

this is going to be long...

i dont even know where to start. i was one of the few people who was still hopeful that they could turn this season around. i was trying to understand their thoughts and plans for so long. i still defended season 4 until basically last Friday. then i joined everyone who was extremely disappointed in it. i could see the point of everyone disliking this season before but still had hope that these last two episodes would make us all change our minds and would wrap up amazingly (since basically season 3 was literally perfection in my eyes). well i was kinda wrong.

since last friday i became so disappointed. the way they handled the ingrid situation was soooo bad i cant even handle it. the ingrid storyline could have been so good if it was well written. they could have make the girl squad be so happy to have her in the group oblivious to her racism but as soon as they found out that she was being racist side with imane even though they were fucking mad that imane did those other mistakes.

they made me hate characters we had fallen in love with in previous seasons (manon alexia and emma) Daphné was kinda having some (slow) character development with her ignorance but then everything came completely crashing down.

then the whole manon/daphné unfollowing ingrid on instagram last weekend but still laughing and hanging out with her in school (was it bad instagram management or what).

one of the things that disappointed me the most was how the girl squad didnt once defend the racism and everyone acted like it was nothing. even if u are mad at your black friend and even you dont even want a friendship with them (even if u dont have black friends) letting someone say racist things to them without reacting makes you just as bad as them. the fact that the girl squad didnt call ingrid out but instead even defended her when imane got mad and there's no one saying anything about it is such horrible writing.

the other thing that disgusts and disappoints me so much is the whole charles story. omfg i could cry with how mad i was when i heard manon saying she was back with him. i understand the choice the writers made to bring michel back because there is no reason for him to not be on the show (contrary to thomas who wasnt on skam anymore) but to write a storyline so disgusting make charles a rape apologist a manipulative fucker, a violent person who said he would end whoever sent the email, the most disgusting horrible person and then make manon go back to him. this is way too much. the whole sexual assault storyline is already pretty bad written in all the remakes where the noora feels the need to apologize for being assaulted and the william characters feelings are the focus and not nooras is already fucking awful but then go the extra step of making him side with his brother who sexually assaulted his girlfriend when she was drunk and unresponsive there's literally no words for that bullshit. i could literally throw up. i will never be able to understand what was going on the writers minds when they decided this was a good idea. (why couldn't they go with the same story as william who was working too much and had daddy issues so he wanted to be perfect for his dad that he forgot about noora if they had the idea of wanting the bring charles back)

also the constant mention of eliott and not once letting him explain himself. instead lucas did it for him and later imane with idriss is pretty fucked up but never once did we hear something from eliott even though he kept being brought up. why make this big deal about him and his story if they wouldnt give it the time and attention it needed since it was imanes season not his. to never give the one with a mental illness the voice is apart of the problem.

the clip today was a joke. imane apologizing again. saying that she never felt out of place with the girl squad when the whole season was her distancing herself because she didnt feel like she belonged. couldnt they include a 20 second line like 'i acted the way i did because i felt outta place in this group i felt like i wasnt welcomed anymore like you guys couldnt and wouldnt understand me' or something. something.

with all this said im pretty disappointed on how they handled this season. i had such high hopes. i cant believe this is the remake which gave us the most wonderful season 3.i cant believe the writers who wrote season 3 wrote this one. my brain can't comprehend that. i just wish the last episode is somewhat of a redemption but the hole is way too deep at this point.

this is all just my thoughts and opinions if you dont agree okay im happy to discuss about it. and also if anyone wants to let david niels or the others writers know we are disappointed do it with manners and respect. they are human beings and even though they fucked up a lot i dont believe it was with intention. i dont agree with anyone calling them islamophobic/racist and rape apologists like i have seen many people do. thats not okay. david made sure the actors were always in a good mental space while filming he cares about them a lot. he treats them like children he treats us with all the respect so do it to him too. they fucked up but they arent bad people. like lucas and imane said maybe they are just ignorant or naïv...

#skam #skam france #skamfr #lucas lallemant #eliott demaury #imane bakhellal #sofiane alaoui #manon demissy #alexia #daphné lecomte #emma borges #idriss bakhellal #charles munier #manon x charles #lucas x eliott #skam imane #imane #imane x sofiane

[rosapeachhogwartsmystery]

I just wanted to meet up with my girlfriend! (Hogwarts Mystery Imagine - fem!reader x Rowan Khanna)

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Pairing: fem!reader x Rowan Khanna

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Rowan and you have been together for a little while now. During the adventures you have had with the Cursed Vaults you two grew really close. After finding the third Cursed Vault you had actually kissed her. You definitely surprised her back then and it wasn’t even the start of your relationship. After you got the next clue you actually realized what you did and ran off with an awkward grin on your face. The two of you couldn’t even look at each other for a week. It wasn’t until Merula shouted “Just kiss already!” when you two decided you needed to talk. After a long talk with each other you two realized that you really liked each other. Rowan didn’t want to ruin her friendship with you by asking you out. She thought you didn’t seem to be interested in her romantically and she thought it would be better if she hid her feelings for you.

 In the beginning you didn’t have any romantic feelings for Rowan, but only because you weren’t really interested in romance at all when you were a first year. Romantic feelings grew during your third year, but didn’t have the guts to tell your best friend about your feelings for her. So, at the end of your fourth year it happened. You two were officially dating before your fifth year at Hogwarts. Most people were supportive about your relation with Rowan, but there were also people talking thrash behind your back. Especially some guys that were saying bad things about your relationship with Rowan. You ignored most of them. Unless they were saying things along the lines of ‘but Rowan is so plain, Y/N. How could you date someone like her?’. You really had to tell some people off. It was your decision, not theirs.

You would meet up with Rowan in library today. Only to be cornered by one guy. “Well, hello Y/N.” He said. “Eh… Hello?” You said, trying to walk past him. Of course, he wasn’t going away and tried to block your path. You were feeling annoyed and gave the guy a look. “Excuse me, but I have to go somewhere.” You mumbled, trying to walk away again. Once again he stepped in front of you. “Where are you going?” He asked. “I’m meeting up with someone. My girlfriend is waiting for me.” You said, looking really annoyed. “Oh, you mean that plain friend of yours. Come on, you could have so much more fun if you come with me.” He said with a grin. “No, thank you.” You simply said when you tried to walk away again. This time another guy blocked your path as well. “Oh, come one, Y/N. Let’s go to Hogsmeade and drink some butterbeer with us.” The other guy said. Oh great, a third guy walked over to you, with a grin. “You will have so much more fun with us, than that silly girlfriend of yours.” The third guy said.

 You tried to walk away from them by going back where you came from, but they grabbed your arm. “Don’t go, Y/N.” The first guy said. “You will come with us.” The second guy said. They basically pulled you along and you were starting to panic a little. “I don’t want to go with you.” You told them, hoping they would perhaps listen to you if you directly told them you didn’t want to go along with them. They didn’t listen, just pulling you along. “Just drink a butterbeer with us, we are not going to bite.” The third guy said. You shook your head, frowning. “No, let me go!” You said, trying to struggle free from their grip. They didn’t bulge, just pulling you along even rougher than before. You could tell you were about to pass the library, knowing Rowan would be waiting for you at the entrance. You weren’t sure what the guys’ true intentions were, but you weren’t feeling good about this. You took a deep breath.

 “Rowan! Help!” You yelled as hard as you could. Before the guys could do something you heard a familiar voice. “Y/N!” Rowan ran over to you and the guys. She pulled you away from those guys and held you close to her. “What were you doing with Y/N?” She said, glaring at the guys. “We just invited her to drink some butterbeers with us.” The first guy said with a smirk. “Well, clearly she didn’t want to go with you.” She told them. “How could you be so sure about that, Khanna?” The second guy said. “Are you serious…?” Rowan muttered. “We thought she would be up for something more exciting than you.” The third guy said. Rowan looked pretty angry. “By forcing her to come with you guys?” She said angrily. “Oh please, she doesn’t even know what she wants. We thought we could help her a little to see how lame you are.” The first guy said, not being impressed by Rowan.

 Rowan looked pissed and then she grabbed her wand. “Locomotor Wibbly!” She shouted, pointing at the first guy. The guy’s legs collapsed and he fell on the ground. The other guys looked at Rowan, their eyes widening a bit before they looked at the guy on the ground. “What are you two looking at? Get me out of here!” The guy said before the other two helped him up and scurried away from the scene. Rowan sighed and then she looked at you. “Good riddance, don’t you think so?” She said, looking a bit relieved. You just stared at her, not saying much. She tilted her head, looking a bit concerned. “Y/N, are you okay?” She asked.

 Suddenly you surprised Rowan with a tight hug. “Woah, Y/N!” She said. “Oh my Merlin… Thank you so much, Rowan.” You said softly. She smiled sweetly. “What kind of girlfriend would I be if I didn’t rescue you from those buffoons?” She said before pulling away from the hug. She still held your shoulders though, studying you. “You are okay, aren’t you?” She asked you. “They didn’t try anything else did they?” You quickly shook you head. “They didn’t do anything besides pulling me roughly along with them.” You said honestly. She frowned and looked at your arms. “I can tell they weren’t being very gently with you… Look at your arms! You actually have bruises on your arms.” She said, not looking too happy about that. “I’d rather have bruises on my arms than going with them to wherever they were going to take me.” You said.

 “Still, they shouldn’t have been so rough with you, Y/N.” Rowan said honestly. “I’m just glad you heard me.” You told her honestly. “I’m glad I heard you yelling. I don’t want to think about what would have happened if I didn’t hear you.” She said, almost shivering when she mentioned it. You gave her a quick kiss and then smiled at her. “But they didn’t. I’m really glad you helped me out when I needed you. You are the best, Rowan.” You told her. She blushed a little, but gave me a smile as well. “It is no problem, Y/N.” She said. “Also, that Jelly-Legs curse was wicked.” You said with a grin. “Well, I had to do something and quick, because they wouldn’t take me seriously. I think they will think twice before they mess with you again.” She said and then she held your hand.

 “Is our library date still on?” You asked with a smile. “Only if you want to.” She said before you two walked to the library. You two would study together like always, but you could tell that Rowan wasn’t completely focusing on studying with you. She seemed to be lost in thoughts, looking a bit uncomfortable. You tried to catch her attention when she was lost in thoughts, but Madam Pince would shush you whenever you tried to. After a while you sighed and suddenly grabbed your books. Rowan suddenly looked up and blinked. You gave her a look, like you were saying you were getting out of there. She nodded before she grabbed her own books. Once you were out of the library you looked at Rowan. “I could tell you weren’t able to focus.” You said. “About that…” Rowan said. “Let’s go to our dormitory. We could talk there.” You said when you walked towards Y/H’s common room.

 Once you two had reached your dormitory you sat down on your bed and patted the spot next to you, wanting Rowan to sit down next to you. She sat down next to you and looked down a little. “Tell me what is bothering you, Rowan.” You said. “It is just that I’m worried about something.” She said. “About what?” You asked, tilting your head. Rowan looked at you. “I’m worried about you.” She said. You looked confused and raised an eyebrow. “About me? Look Rowan, I know you were worried about me because of what happened, but I’m fine.” You told her. “I’m not just talking about today, Y/N.” She said seriously. “Then what are you talking about?” You asked, not sure what she meant with it. “I’m talking about people harassing you.” She said. “Harassing me?”

 “Y/N, I’m well aware about the guys that keep bothering you.” Rowan said. You blinked and then you slightly bit your lip. “It is not that bad, Rowan. I mean, it is nothing I can’t handle.” You told her. “Y/N, three guys tried to pull you along against your will today.” She said. “It’s not like that happens to me every day.” You said. “It still happened, Y/N.” She said seriously. “All because we are dating.” She said, frowning a little. “What are you saying, Rowan?” You said when your eyes narrowed. “That is my fault you are getting harassed by them. That’s what I’m trying to say.” She said. “That is nonsense!” You said. “No, it is not nonsense! Ever since we two started dating they started harassing you!” She yelled. “What do you want to do about it, Rowan? Break up with me so they will stop?” You yelled back. “No! I don’t want to break up with you! I just want to do something so they will stop!” She yelled back.

 “I don’t want anything to happen to you when I’m not around.” Rowan said seriously. “Rowan, I’ll be fine. If it makes you feel any better I could try to avoid these kind of people and be more careful where I’m walking.” You said. “Y/N, that is impossible. You know you won’t be able to avoid these people all the time.” She said. “I know, but I could at least try so you would feel better about me walking around the castle with those jerks.” You said. “Maybe we should inform a teacher about what happened.” She suggested. “I know, that is probably a really plain answer, but-” “Ah-ha! That what this is about, isn’t it? This is about them calling you plain and stuff.” You pointed out. Rowan rubbed the back of her neck. “You got me there.” She mumbled.

 “I suppose I do kind of wanted to know if you weren’t bored with me, Y/N.” Rowan said. You raised an eyebrow and then you moved closer to her. “If I was bored with you, I would tell you, Rowan.” You told her. “I really like you, Rowan. I don’t want anyone coming between us.” You said honestly. “Besides, if I didn’t like you anymore, I wouldn’t do this.” You said when you kissed her. Rowan kissed you back, feeling more relieved about everything. “Did that reassure you?” You asked her. “Definitely.” She told you with a grin. You began grinning as well and wrapped your arms around her neck. “I guess our library date didn’t go well, so we should do something else to make up for it.” You said with a playful pout. Rowan laughed. “What did you have in mind?” She asked. “Maybe we should have a nice date on the Castle Grounds.” You suggested. “Sounds like a plan to me.” She said with a smile. You were glad Rowan had told you what was bothering her.

 “We still should tell a teacher about this, Y/N.” Rowan said. “We should, or else we might be the ones in trouble.” You agreed.

#harry potter hogwarts mystery #hogwarts mystery #hogwarts mobile game #harry potter imagine #imagine #fem!reader #female reader #rowan khanna #fem!rowan khanna

[sometimesrosy]

Hey Rosy i know you do not talk about it and i am sorry but right now i am so confused,why is some people going to the conclusion that it is going to be a love triangle(when Jason especifically said there arent and they hated it) between Bellamy/Echo/Clarke(when clearly actors sai nothing pointing to it or confirmed it,all the opossite Bob said bellamy is not in any relationship,Tasya said about them there is to much bagage between them,she is seeking for friendship and family,1/2

they tolerate each other,bob said bellamy did not forget or forgive,basically we get nothing in the trailer or interviews pointing to that,and they know if that’s going to happen they need to get the fandom ready,so i don’t get it how this fandom makes all about ships and romance when Jason(not my fav)is all the time staying away from that,i’m sorry i just want to ask you,because some people is so concern and they get to that conclusion for what beliza said about bellarke still don’t get it 2/2.

I don’t know. I think because they are afraid of it, and they need to make themselves face their fear of it so they won’t be disappointed if it happens? The same way people don’t like to be hopeful of Bellarke because they’re afraid they won’t get it. They say they’re being “realistic” but believing you’ll NEVER get what you want just because you want it is no more realism than believing you’ll always get your way just because you want it.

Pessimism is not realism. It is specifically choosing to look at worst case scenarios and considering them to be inevitable. Because life (or JR) hates you. 

I do not think the evidence in the story so far, in the preview materials, or in the cast and crew commentary at ALL leads to the inevitability of B/cho. Is there a possibility? Sure, but it’s not the most likely scenario at all. The best reasoning for romantic Be/cho is that they are two good looking people stuck in the same place alone for 6 years. That’s it. Proximity.

Because Echo’s storyline in the show has not been AT ALL romantic. Their relationship has not been about romance AT ALL. What the actors have said about it has not hinted or teased at B/cho romance AT ALL. When they started L’s storyline, it was romantic from the start. They talked about love. L looked at Clarke longingly. She talked about Clarke’s intentions towards Bellamy. She KISSED her. Bellamy’s relationship with Echo has always been about being comrades in war, trust, loyalty, battle, enemies, allies. They don’t talk about love. It’s not even on the table. 

I don’t know. I’m tired of it. And people can’t let go of it. 

I don’t care about B/cho. I think it might have happened over the timejump and I don’t think it’s important. The issues of loyalty, feeling left out, jealousy, not being loved enough, these are all there WITHOUT a love triangle. They literally don’t need one. Clarke is set up to feel abandoned, because she was literally ABANDONED. Whether there’s another love interest or not, all those love triangle angst issues are built into the narrative. 

I don’t, however, think JR would make Bellamy a cheater. And I don’t think he would make him a person who abandons his girlfriend to be with someone else. That is Finn. Finn was NOT a good guy. Bellamy is a good guy. And he’s grown and matured in the past 6 years. They’re not going to paint him as disloyal when his character has been defined as doing anything for his people. 

This theory doesn’t fit what I already know of the story or Bellamy.

Fandom don’t care though. Fandom cares about drama, gossip, shipwars, fear, anxiety, and soap opera style story machinations. This is not a soap opera? No one cares. 

#the 100 #meta #spacekru #bellamy blake #echo #can we stop asking about them romantically now? we pay WAY too much attention to this possibility when it's not important

[onlyjihoons]

policeman!jihoon pt.2

a/n; special thanks to bff jupiter @chaeyolks for the pretty pretty moodboard once again,, also! this is a collab w @alliwannado-w1, her installment for woojin is coming up this weekend so do look forward to it^^

policeman!jihoon pt.1//policeman!woojin

warning: slight alcohol mention+slight violence, however characters are written when they are of adult age

“you’re illegal, why are you even a police officer?”

“you’re going to do undercover duty with y/n.”

“again?!”

“unless you want me to–”

“yes sir”

so here he was, groaning at his impeccable luck

he needed to get back at daniel for making him buy that drink LOL

“hello, im inspector park jihoon, please take care of me”

you looked up, being greeted by jihoon, in a light blue button down and ripped jeans

with that lanyard that has his name and picture??

usually staff id pics look like mugshots

but hey his pic deadass looks like a shot of those models for some fashion show

“hello, i’m sergeant y/l/n,” you smiled, sticking out your hand, “i hope we will work well together.”

at that moment jihoon fell for your brown eyes

and dimples when you smile

whatever he said about having zero interest in girls was thrown into the gutter

jihoon was tasked to shadow you for your duties for a month

he was pretty sure he was gonna get sacked for falling for his superior LOL

anyways

your first day of working with jihoon was nothing big, just typing out some reports

it was a little weird because an inspector from the violent crimes department in a street crimes(idk what its called pls forgive me) department? typing out reports of a lost puppy??

anyhow your female colleagues from the other departments will ever more often drop by your desk just to see jihoon

it was getting annoying how theyre actually paying more attention to jihoon

so you asked minhyun to dispatch you for more undercover duties LOL

“i thought you loved writing reports”

“not until the female sergeants from other departments come to my desk to see inspector park??”

“are you jealous?”

ngl you were but you arent gonna let it show

especially in front of minhyun

he would f l i p

“try having 3 colleagues flocking to your table every 2 hours to see your co-worker instead of talking to you, and also distracting you from doing work.”

“fine”

undercover was boring, you would normally drag sergeant!baejin along with you

but this time he wanted to stay in the office because he doesnt want to be the “third wheel”

you and jihoon would go to the same club everyday to do undercover duties

and the both of you manage to bust some sleazy dudes

since the whole thing was already under control the both of you soon don’t need to go to the club

and actually do night patrols

it was fun, because jihoon would entertain you by pulling funny faces and treat you to ice cream

contrary to your expectations, jihoon was actually quite nice to be around with

but then something in your mind went off about him

 you remembered the fuckboy senior that played with girls’ hearts in high school

it was jihoon

you were well aware that you were a position above him despite the 2 year age gap

but you couldn’t let yourself fall for someone who breaks hearts

so you decided to build a invisible wall of friendship to prevent yourself from falling for him

i mean how couldn’t you,, he was good looking, good at his work, and had a faint protective vibe which you liked

like whenever you were feeling only a little chilly at the cool breeze jihoon would not hesitate to drape his jacket over you

and also let you walk on the inside of the pavement

besides, minhyun would fall off his chair at the thought of his sister dating someone from the violent crimes department

but that didn’t stop you from having fun

the both of you would sit at swings and play at the slides

there was once jihoon was stuck at one of the slides and you had to help him LOL

but ended up pulling out one of his Stan Smiths and nearly called the fire brigade

day by day, the both of you got closer

and you told jihoon not to call you “sergeant hwang” bc that sounds rlly formal

one day the both of you were just talking about random stuff and you mentioned that you wanted to pick up martial arts

“i can teach you if you want!^^”

“really? what martial arts do you do?”

“i have a six-don black belt in taekwondo, i do teach little kids in my spare time as well”

so here you are, standing at the back of jihoon’s taekwondo class

you felt very over-aged learning taekwondo with a bunch of white-belt kids

but they were really good, and jihoon told the kids you were his assistant for the time being

yeah, assistant with a white belt

and just saying, jihoon looked rlly rlly hot in that taekwondo uniform

with slightly sweaty bangs and all

when he just stands aside for the kids to practice and adjusts his belt

bOI

ok moving on

you learnt some basic moves and jihoon barely needed to coach you to get them right

so all those years of fighting with minhyun was worthwhile

jihoon would shift you up to a yellow belt in two weeks because you were that good

so one day your eyes obviously wasn’t doing you good

you kept messing up the sequence throughout the lesson, maybe your condition wasn’t good

jihoon could see it and asked you to rest for a while

after the lesson ended, you took your street clothes and accidentally walked into the men’s changing room

and you walked into a topless jihoon

luckily, he was the only one inside

you could see his toned abs, and defined arms

not to mention that killer jawline

and in taekwondo pants????

jihoon noticed you staring slightly and then fumbled to find his taekwondo robe

and you noticed you were in the wrong changing room

“oh shit im so sorry i--i”

just as you were about to get out of the changing room jihoon blocked the door

without his robe

“y/n, did you enter the wrong changing room to see,,,”

“see?”

he pointed to his abs, “this?”

you could only laugh, “i would never do that, i can easily see them on the internet”

he raised his eyebrows, “so you watch porn?”

“no??” you rolled your eyes, offended, “do you think i’m that kind of person, inspector park?”

“n-no--”

“i’m sorry i’m not like those girls you played with back in high school, i’m not after your body--”

“you’re driving me crazy, y/n”

“what?”

“your eyes, your nose, your lips, drive me crazy.” jihoon stared right into your eyes, making you blush

“hey inspector park--”

“why don’t you call me ‘jihoon oppa’ anymore? is our relationship strictly work-related now?”

“i just...” you sighed how something small could escalate to something big like this, “i like you, jihoon-oppa”

you slightly cringed but you continued, 

“but we cant do this. minhyun will get mad, and there goes my job.”

“b-but--”

“sorry, inspector park, i’d have to go.”

you pushed jihoon aside weakly, then going out and into the ladies’ changing room

you felt hot tears trickling down your face, in reality, you just didn’t want your heart to be broken

the next day, you and jihoon went to work like a normal day

just, no patrolling and writing of reports the whole day

the office could sense a tension between the both of you, even your female colleagues stopped coming over

“hey y/n,” baejin stopped by your table and handed over a file, “you gotta go undercover again for that club, the perverts are striking again.”

“again?” you sighed, “okay i’ll go.”

“do you need me to go with you?” baejin leaned against your desk, “ you seem, off, today”

“i-”

“i will go with her, sergeant bae.” jihoon spoke, “it’s my last day here anyway.”

so fast, a month has passed, you thought.

“thanks inspector park. i’ll get going then.”

you skipped dinner, all you did was to write reports continuously throughout the day

until jihoon slammed your laptop shut, and stared straight into your eyes

“we need to go now, sergeant hwang.” his lips stretched into a straight line.

you unwillingly got up from your seat, as you shrugged on your coat and headed out to the carpark to wait for jihoon

the car ride was quiet, with you staring out of the window, not talking to jihoon

though it was jihoon’s last day, and you were sorry he had to spend his last day like that

you had to stop yourself 

though the club was playing upbeat music, all you could do was to stare into blank space

just then, some sleazy dude came up to you

“can i buy this pretty lady a drink?” he winked

“no thanks, im with someone else--”

“ey, that someone else can wait.”

“i really do have someone--”

“i said i will get you a drink alright?!” the man’s rogueish smile appeared, grabbing your wrist, “i know you’re here to do undercover duties, sergeant hwang--”

just then, a fist was sent flying to the man’s cheek, as he stumbled backwards

you saw an angry jihoon, his face was red with anger

“if you ever touch sergeant hwang again, you’ll end up in the hospital.” jihoon growled.

“wow, sergeant, i didn’t know you were into flowery pretty boys like--”

jihoon sent another punch across the man’s face, making him fall to the ground

you had to physically stop jihoon from hitting that sleazy dude, or it would’ve turned into a full fight

“jihoon-oppa,” you held his arm, which weakened at your touch, “let’s stop, minhyun wouldn’t be happy if he saw this.”

jihoon scoffed, putting the dude in handcuffs

“you’re under arrest for sexual harrassment, you have a right to remain silent, unless with witness that will support your innocence.”

after that dude was thrown into jail, jihoon immediately hugged you

“are you okay?” he then took a step back to analyse your frame, “he didn’t hurt you, right? i was so--”

you then cut jihoon off with a kiss, shutting him up effectively.

jihoon kissed you back with more assertion, to make up for the time he didn’t get to talk to you throughout the day

“what was that, y/n?” jihoon smiled, ruffling your hair

“don’t tell minhyun about this”

boyfriend!jihoon in the police station is super sweet, leaving you a sandwich for breakfast, then dragging you out for lunch

minhyun soon found out about it, “i knew the both of you had something going on”

and jihoon wasn’t the asshole you expected him to be

he only had eyes for you, and it was really endearing

the both of you would go on night walks, and then sitting on the swing set, talking about random things

overall, the sweetest crime-busting couple in Gangnam Police Station

“I don’t know how you became a police officer, your looks are illegal, you’re my illegirl”

lowkey stole that from dimple by bts sorry im lame i hope you guys enjoyed this as much as i liked writing this,,my request box is always open, so do send in requests!

#park jihoon #hwang minhyun #wanna one #wanna one scenarios #produce 101 season 2 #produce 101 scenarios #park jihoon scenarios #Fluffy writes #collab: policeman!wna1

[foodhx]

I havent written in a very long time. Im grateful i wrote previously and have something to look back on. So much has changed. S and i broke up. Its been more than a year, depending on how you count it, maybe 1.5 yrs.

Im not sure where im going with this, or in life. There were things i believed in before, had hope and ideals. I havent any hope now, i dont know what to hope in (apart from God). Its been like this for a while. What does it look like to hope in God now?

Ive ended up in a specialty i didnt plan on going into. What’s done is done. But the learning point is, it would have been better to take more time to rotate around before deciding, because it was an emotional, impulsive decision (felt way too rushed, i knew this even at the time of applying). It wasnt a peaceful decision, the way such “life-defining” decisions should be made. It was an emotional time - literally six days after S sent that message to break up with me, my boss texted to ask if i was still interested in applying. Im deeply grateful for the opportunity he gave me which i didn’t and don’t deserve. I should have a word with him at some point. On a side note, im deeply grateful that this dept and the people i work with now are mostly of incredible Godly character, a very unique and irreplaceable quality in a workplace.

So much has fallen apart. My career, and the relationship with the person who became my best friend over the course of 7-9 years. It felt unreal, standing there watching everything explode. I couldnt believe what was happening. I never expected things to explode this way. I never expected myself to leave, and i never expected him to leave. He didn’t mean to be cruel, but i experienced it as such, through the whole months of me begging. Especially at the point where he physically walked out on me and closed the door when i was crying hysterically - not to be overdramatic, but it felt like pure coldness to do that to my uncontrollably hemorrhaging heart (like watching that aorta spurting on cardiothoracics). He still thinks choosing not to carry on is right and directed by God, which i doubt. He declined reconciliation despite months of my sincere apologies, pleading with him and my attempts to remediate where i screwed up (he hasn’t made an effort to reconcile with me in 1.5 yrs, cos he’s lost faith in our relationship and, it seems, me, entirely. Unfair as it might feel, that’s the way he feels). All in all, the break up was devastating. I’m still disoriented and trying to find my feet.

Ive significantly lost respect for him, because of his choice not to carry on and to, well, give up on us. I feel that this was more an emotional decision than a decision based on a true seeking of God, true dying to self and true obedience, especially to certain biblical instructions (love your neighbour as yourself, in humility value others above yourself, the relationship as an expression of love for Christ “what you did to the least of these you did to me” rather than a competition for love for Him, 1cor13).

I feel his decision to give up, abandon and betray is not biblically based, even if it can be justifiable by a twist of verses (he justifies not carrying on as him “putting God first”). I feel his decision was driven more by his hurt that i broke up with him, over text, last feb, and my cheating on him in july, than a real, honest, self-challenging attempt to “put God first”. I feel the decision not to carry on came more from his hurt over what i did to him than a true excavation of what it means to obey God and seek Him first. Its not necessary to leave someone whom youve built up a relationship with in order to put God first. Its arguable that being there for one’s friends IS putting God first, rather than leaving them because you can’t deal with it emotionally (greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends).

E says that its never so simple as “i heard it from God”, its all a mix of (sometimes sinful) human emotions as well as right-minded intention to follow God. How much of this move is driven by God vs his own human uncontrollable emotions? I doubt he’s admitted the whole truth to himself or me.

But i think his hurt is valid. It definitely is. He says he still doesnt feel whole coming out of 2019 and how i broke things off with him over text in feb and how i cheated in july. I’m not sure what he feels because i cant identify, but he says he doesnt want to deal with the pain with me because it was caused by me, and he’s not ready to talk to me (“can’t deal with it”). He tried to forgive me at the time, attending counselling with me, but gave up after 2 sessions. So i guess i can believe there may be a part of him that could want to work towards a friendship at some point (tho this is thrown into doubt at times, because of our apparent fundamental and irreconciliable differences). On my end, I feel that ive given him the benefit of the doubt many times, and hes always disappointed me in this process, since the break up. He’s never showed up or been the bigger person.

I could give him time, or i could end things. I could give him time to process what he needs to, and give him the chance to potentially engage with me the right way at some time in the future.

Should i, though?

Well, yes and no. Part of me knows he will only ever disappoint me cos thats all hes ever done consistently. The other part of me wants to give him the benefit of the doubt and just let him process things in his own time because its destructive to operate with such cynicism. One is overly cynical, the other is overly hopeful, and both responses arent centred.

Overall i just dont want to think about this anymore. I just want this whole thing out of my mind.

But is that enough for me to cut him out completely and forever? When i ask him, he replies that he wants to be friends but doesn’t know how or when that could happen. He isn’t at all invested in this “friendship”, even if he says its what he wants. He thinks God needs to encourage it or something before he will put in the effort... its all so screwed up cos of his ridiculous view or way of hearing from God that’s so mystical and non-bible based. I honestly feel really disgusted by him. He has been asking me not to contact him for a long time, more than a year. I’ve agreed to honour that. Mainly out of an understanding that he’ll never change, and ive outgrown him and his cuckoo ideas about how to hear from God. I know even if we become friends in the future, he’s gonna be the exact same dud - and why would i want to go back to that? Even as a friend. My basic requirements for friendship are that i respect the person and they respect me back. He absolutely does not respect me, and i absolutely dont respect him. Even tho we pay lip service to each other in emails for the sake of appearing holy and peace loving, we each are 100% convinced we know better. I don’t see a friendship here. I see disgust. I see contempt. Its beyond repair. And theres no instruction from God to repair it. So it will lie unrepaired for life.

Thinking about him makes me get into unpleasant thoughts and feelings. I dont have the exact words to describe how i feel. Not quite just anger (im over the peak of that), not really sadness (i do feel its sad that i still care about him and think about him so much when he wants nothing to do with me and wants me to not contact him - i mean, i dont have a practice of asking people not to contact me indefinitely, i think its rude, unfair and cruel), not just superiority cos i do admit i dont know everything and God works in mysterious ways and He still establishes a relationship with S even tho there is likely disobedience and misguidedness in S that he may never ever come to realize in this life). Its not purely a sense of betrayal as i walked out first - i knew he wasnt what i wanted, cos he wasnt loving me, or kind, or Christlike in his countenance towards not just me but everyone around us. I shouldnt just have walked out i should have pointed us to God, but there you have it. I dont regret ending things cos i know if i had continued we would be in a worse place than we are in now, where im stuck in an unhappy relationship out of obligation and fear of being alone. Its better to not be in a relationship than to be in one where you arent respected or loved.

I would say this whole event has had an impact on my relationship with... effort and commitment? Knowing you can try your best and have everything still fail. I used to believe in the “power of my dreams”. That i could get anything i wanted if i wanted it enough. But ive learnt that where the outcome is dependent on things outside my control (eg other people, genetics, politics), just trying my best and bringing my best intentions isnt enough. Its something but it doesnt guarantee an outcome - nothing can. You can say God can guarantee an outcome, but i would be cautious to believe only what He’s given in the bible and some revelations that are consistent with that and have been confirmed by wiser believers than myself, and those who know me well.

I have to hope again. And i have to stop wallowing and being selfpitiful. No. I have to hold myself to a higher standard.

The between places.

To focus on the next right thing - passing anatomy and being punctual. Seeking God, esp in my work...

[astownd]

So lets start off with in the ends it is all completely and utterly my own fault.I should have been able to see the signs. I should have been a better person, friend, fiance, man, and most importantly a dad.

Where do I even begin?

I felt like I worked so hard for my family I was creating in my own way, making money in my own way. Got a house with the beautiful mother of my little boy, things were good for awhile, than rough, than covid, than bad. But before that we lived in an apartment, and the things i was doing and the substances (alcohol and adderal) were my coping mech. I would stay up for days, not eat, constantly trying to make every dollar I could to make sure we had a place to live freely. ( we both grew up in not so good broken homes). She made little mistakes one that completely don’t matter and are way overlooked, love her with all my heart. 

but the drugs and alcohol started getting to me, i became irritable constantly, never wanted to leave, hated everyone. I was always mad, always needed my way. Than I cheated once and thank god that she took me back even after that. Honestly she did a ton and most of all the work. She is one of the most dedicated and hard working woman/mothers I have ever come acrossed. She never stops making sure our son has everything he needs plus more, working constant hours at terrible jobs, sometimes with terrible people. I didnt see the stress it was putting on her, the constant cries for just down time for herself, or her need to want to go out and do things. I held her inside and caged away. ( not literally lol) I really should have been showing her off and paying for her countless nights to go out and have fun with her friends because honestly she fucking deserves and deserved it. I couldn’t be any happier that, that woman is the mother to OUR beautiful little boy. After my first few mistakes I just started tumbling downhill. Never stopped making them. I am so fucking sorry and truly dislike the person i became over all of it. After all that we had our son, and we put down a down payment on a home. We moved in things were good for awhile, than rough because of my laziness and lack of will to do anything ever. It was a mixture of that but also a mix of me actually being comfortable where I was at for once in my life. I finally had a place I could call a home, I FINALLY HAD A REAL family I could call my own. So i just got more lazy, I just began to lackadiscally relax all the time and do nothing, didn’t help unpack, barely got stuff done around the house. The stress built on her alot, and I saw it. She wanted me to get a job, a real job. So I would be a man. And I agree with her, I was not a man, and honestly probably still not, but I am trying to be for our son. I wish her too but I know I lost that part of me. She would come home and just want to relax, but would have to cook and take care of our son. She needed time alone but also out, and I never gave her either. Im so dumb for alot of things, but honestly losing her has to be by far the dumbest thing I could have done besides trying to take my own life after the fact. I wish we could have fixed it, I wish we could have communicated better. We both have mental issues, more me than her by far, and hers were probably caused by me in the end. But we got super bad right around christmas time, real bad, i was basically staying upstairs in my gaming room, my clothes were in the dressers anymore, they were up there. But like two weeks prior of one of the worst days of my life, things started to seem almost better. We were getting along again, I was seeing a smile in her face that I haven’t seen in so long. I feel so deeply, and honestly from the start of our relationship/ friendship her smile has always been my most fav thing about her. She even came an said to me “ why don’t you put your clothes back in the dresser, you have a family here, and we love you” because we got into an agruement over me being constantly needy and clingy. I was begging for her attentions for months but I didnt realize she didnt want to give it to me because I wasnt a man but I also was just ruining her along the way.  So that night I didn’t move my clothes becasue it was late, but I got off the couch went downstairs and got into bed with my beautiful family. A week or two passes. I could tell she was being a little off. and at night one night she looks over to our son while were all in bed together and says I think daddy and I are better just as friends. Right away I teared up and began to cry because im so broken down at this point but purely because of my own causes. She says to me “ what you dont like the sounds of beings just friends” I said no, I love you, and so much more. She didn’t want to hear it, she didnt want to give me an ultimatum, or tell me what I had to work on. But she was in the complete right by far. So I eventually get quiet roll over and fall asleep crying. the next early morning I wake up to her flustered trying to pee. Our son wakes up so easily, so immediatley he gets up and follows her to the bathroom, its probably 630 am so Im dead asleep. I wake up and go right to the bathroom and she yells at me because she can’t go pee alone ever. In no mean tone or nothing I just said baby wake me up and Ill grab him for you anytime, and immediatley it started a fight because of the lurking thing from the night before. She said that we were toxic, that if we continued to be together now and longer that we couldn’t fix it and that we would always stay toxic. Clearly I didnt agree with that, begged and pleaded. It turned into the most heated agruement I have probably ever been in with some I have loved. I regret everything rotten and mean thing I said in my angry judgement. I didn’t mean any of it. I love every part of that woman, still even after all the things that have happened. and that she has maybe or maybe not done. But I was kicked out that day with nothing but my computer, xbox, wallet, monitor, and a handful of clothes. That is the day I LOST EVERYTHING my entire world. My entire dream, everything I began to strive but also wanted in my life. A home, a family, a beautiful wife, mother, and children. I went into a complete and utter psychotic break and was nuts. still am. I made her life hell, I scared her, I threatened her with taking our son away from her. So many things I did not mean but I would never do. Our son needs both of us, but most imnportantly he needs his mother. She worked and works so hard for him day in and day out and takes such good care of him. Sorry I needed to let it out somewhere, everyone near just says go fuck someone go do this. BUT NONE OF THAT is going to make me feel better, none of that is going to bring back my family, none of that is going to even help progress, if anything it would make things worse. So I sit and I remain forever loyal to who I would love to call my fiance still.  But where I wanted to get at is WHAT the actual FUCK do you do when you lose EVERYTHING.She was my bestfriend, my everything, honestly probably the only reason geniune person I had in my life for a really long time so It was even worse, I had noone to turn to. No where to go. Noone wanted me . Noone wants me. I was just angry bringing everyone down around me after. Constantly drinking and just being stupid. Im really trying to get a better handle on things now though for my son. What kills me the most is before we had Wesser bean, she got preg before and had a miscarrage. Which kills both of us mentally, but more her than anything. That is her body, and that beautiful child was growing inside of her. We weren’t going to try again for the sake of our sanities after that. But on some of our long talking nights with one another we agreed that we wanted to try again, we wanted a family. But we promised to each other that we would never NO matter what let our children grow up like we did. In a broken home, a broken family. I want my son to be able to wake up next to his mother and father every living day and be able to enjoy all his little ups and downs. But I ruined that. I caused everything, I am the reason I lost everything. I am still so utterly confused and dont know where to go or what to do. My mind is always worrying about those two because they arent in arms reach and I cant be there quick enough. I still worry about her a ton even though everyone tells me I shouldn’t but that was my best freaking friend from almost the instant she curved me the first time. Thats the woman I loved, the woman I wanted to marry, the one I called fiance, but most importantly the mother to our child. So I will never stop worrying, or caring about it. I wish I had anyone, anyone that wouldn’t just push me off, or just give me some petty advice to go do some petty stuff like its going to slap her in the face? No becauses it not, she doesn’t love the piece of poop I am, nothing is going to slap her beautiful face. I would give anything to go back, fix some mistake, and be a man for them. Honestly I over think, thats my biggest issue. I love this girl to death, and I know im not adequate and she hasn’t had time to have fun or do the things she wanted too. But no matter what she has done, said, did, or didn’t do I would probably still take it like a grain of salt and do anything to immediately be back in her home, what I used to call home with them. To be a man, to be better. To be a dad. To be everything. Her and my son are my only lights, without them I just see darkness and it consumes me and just makes me want to do nothing, but it should burn a fire in me. I want them near by, cheering me on, but also helping me steer back onto the right path when im going astray. Its been three months now since I have been home, Since I have been able to sleep next to my son and wake up to his little smiling face. To be able to feel the warmth and hear my best friends voice on a daily basis. Shit three months since I have even slept on a mattress. about 2 months ago I took a estimated count of 32-45 pills of multiple different varieties. From pain killers, to adderal, to anti depressants, and sleeping pills. All one big mix. Got stupid drunk on top of it and tried taking my own life. I went to go lay down finally about an hour after I finished all the pills because I didnt feel well. The second my head hit the pillow I started throwing up really bad. I could not stop, I could not breathe. And the whole time All I could see Is my sons face. crying. not knowing where I went, What happened. Or why I was such a coward I would do that. about 5 minutes into me hurling I started to really not be able to breathe, I almost couldn’t choke the words out from the back of the trailer, I screamed as hard as I could from an ambulance. My mom came running in and looked at me and asked seriously If i needed it or not. I looked back and told her I would die if she didn’t. She called, I ended up waking up 3-6 hours later in a hospital bed completely and utterly confused but so fucking ashamed. They had a therapist or someone in there waiting for me to wake up, I guess I said somethings in my delusions of substance. But about after 15 minutes of talking to him and him seeing my sit. He looked at me told me they pumped my stom, and that If I didnt make that call My son wouldn’t have a father. Hearing him say that still kills me. I messed up big that time. they released me within 25 minutes of waking me up. no shoes, no shirts, puke covered pants, no cell phone at 630 am. What a wonderful hospital right? Try to take my life and they save it, but let me go just like I was nothing. I got to a near by store called for a ride and waited. Showed up home at my moms more ashamed and more sad because of yet another terrible choice I made. Tonight is the first night aubs have let me have our son alone for a time period. And for a solid 15 minutes I Couldn’t stop but also wanting to apologize so much to my son. He just came up to me gave me a big wesser hug, layed on me, and let me sing to him for 30 mins just like mummy used to do so he could fall asleep.  I never felt a love like I do for my boy, loving a human like aubrey is wonderful and beyond one of a kind, but loving your child and their love back is something words alone cannot describe. I can’t ever be so sorry that I ever tried that, that I ever would do that to my son. He deserves so much better. I am slowly trying tho too. Not alot of people know because noone cares and I just want to be alone but I scraped together the last remainder of any cash or any value I had left and got 4k. Didn’t sell our wedding ring or anything for that money. (its worth is 4.2-5.5k) I be holding onto that thing like its my life, I constantly catch myself grabbing it and wearing it still like a loser lol.Went and looked at a little trailer today, needs gutted almost, decent amount of work. Guy was asking 4k. with the work it needed I went balls deep said 2, he hit me with 2.5k If the mobile home park accepts my background check hopefully Ill finally have a little place I can lay my head. Its been a rough three months, homeless I would say, couch hopping, place to place. I am done now. I am fed up with myself but with everyone and everything around me. I need to be better for my son, so this is my start and my little way I guess. I have been applying countless places, All I want to do is dive all my time into some form of work/ works and be alone unless my son ( his mother included one could wish) is the company. My bills would be utterly dumb cheap. I just want to work and help her out to provide but keep the beautiful home she chose for her future family. I want to be able to make sure I can reassure her she won’t lose that roof, or that she can go out and eat, or wes can have that toy. She works to damn hard to lose it. It was like a movie too, third house on the realtors listings. We walk through the front door threshold, immediate second she turned around with the smile I fell inlove with and said this is the one. AND BY god when this woman says she wants something or is going to do something, she fucking does it, does it well, sticks it to ya, and does it kick. Immediately she got an offer in and she got her home. I’ll never be able to fix the mistakes and wrongs I did. Never be able to give back all the time and tears and heartache I caused her and her family countless times. But I want to be able to be part of my sons life, to atleast try to atone for the terrible things I did. I want 0 pity by the way. This was soley for me. For me to let stuff out. I will forever love aub snuffalfugus. and of course our beautiful boy Wesley. I would do anything, give anything, forgive and forget anything this second to see her walking up to me holding our little man and say “does daddy wanna come home” or “ dad come home” or “ i think its time dad comes home”. I understand I never will get that chance and by far I never will get that chance. I understand I did this, I created this, and I am the one to blame. I pray to god every night that maybe right now just wasn’t the exact time or what we needed. That he will lead our path back together one day. I see glimmers of hope in dumb things, but thats my over thinking. I love that freaking beautiful furrowed browed woman and our son so much. and with me being gone, I can’t tell if shes struggling, I can’t tell if she cares, I can’t tell if she thinks about us, our old family, or the things that happened. She has such a good poker face, shes so good at holding things in. But she has been glowing, has been looking more beautiful than ever with her hair all curly and down. She is constantly in her phone texting and smiling, and when I say that I in no form care who or about what, I care that the fact that the smile is there and its the real one. She seems happier, healthier, and more together than ever and I hope that its not a front, not that it matters because shes a strong ass mom and she kicked thru it. I love seeing her happy. I love seeing her look good. i absolutely adore the fucking smile. I am trying to come to terms that maybe I wasn’t the right one, That I couldn’t make her happy, but I was placed there to get her through a time , but also for her to have our beautiful son. Now that he has come, she has seen that I wasn’t much of really anything, so she bettered herself. But even if shes not with me, as long as she is safe, our son is safe, they have a warm roof above their heads, and full tummies than I can’t complain. That is what im striving for. To just be able to simplify their lifes but to see her smile again, and I have been seeing it and she rockkkkk that shit. Everytime I see her I get into my feelings, but tonight hit me for some reason. Tonight really had/has me thinking. Forever stay our beautiful little chunk Wesser. I love you both. 

ok done word vommiting, think im ready to cry if off in the shower lmao. 

#personal forme

[downwithwritersblock]

I'm a 13 yr old bi writer in a very homophobic country. I wrote a couple of stories (personal+vent), and my dad wants to publish them. He is v v homophobic and my stories have many lgbtq+ characters (he hasn't actually read them yet.) I don't want to change my characters sexualities, but people over here get killed for being lgbtq+ or even supporting them. I wanna make it more subtle without actually erasing their sexuality, any advice? And can I just have some general writing advice as a minor?

I want to start off by saying that I am sorry. When I first started writing, I was just a bit younger then you are now, and I was about 15 when I first started realizing that I wasn’t straight. Now here I am, years later, a grown adult, and I am still too afraid to share my stories with my family, and I am even more afraid to come out to them. My circumstances arent any where near as harsh as yours. I live in California, in the U.S, and for the most part, we are pretty chill on the homophobia here, at least in my experience, and while my parents arent extremely homophobic, they still tend to look at LGBT+ very differently. I know the worse thing that could happen to me if I came out is that my parents start to look at me differently, but that still terrifies me, but If I am scared, I can’t possibly imagine what you are feeling. So I want to give you some pieces of advice that I wish people would have told me when I was your age.: 

1. Your writing is yours. You don’t have to show it to anyone, you don’t have to publish it, if you want to keep it to yourself, then that is fine. You don’t have to do anything you don’t want to. If your dad is persistent in wanting to get your writing published, find good reasons not to; Tell him they arent complete or that you arent finished with them (that’s what I tell my parents when they ask to read my story), tell him that you want to wait till you’re older when you have more experience and confidence and more possibilities. Make up whatever excuse you have to. If you don’t think you are safe to publish them, then don’t. It’s not worth your life. Nothing is worth your life. 

2. If you really do want to tone down the LGBT+ themes in your writing, it’s easy; First, avoid all romantic relationships. That’s the dead giveaway, try not imply anything either, leave it at friendship, or up to reader interpretation, and if anyone asks, you could tell them it’s just a friendship. Don ‘t explicitly say anyone is a member of the LBGT+ community, you can imply it, if you have a bi female character, and you want to calmly express that she is bi, let her check out another female. If anyone asks, chalk it up to her admiring another girl, or that she’s jealous of other girls beauty or something. I’ve used this one a few times as well. Leave everything kind of vague, don’t get too specific. Make everything so it could be LGBT+ rep if looked at a certain way, but to most, it would just be friendship, or closeness, or something. I often find that while it’s disgusting and harmful at times, heteronormativity can also be lifesaving. Most straight people will automatically assume things are straight until given too many clues to say otherwise. Use that to your advantage. 

3. Writing is hard. When I was 13, I thought writing was going to be this easy thing, I thought you just made up characters and scribbled out a little story about them. I had no idea how hard writing actually was, and it shows. If I go back to look at my writing from that time, it shows how little work I actually put in. Give writing all you’ve got. Take your time with it. Build your characters and your world and your plot as much as you can. Save all the resources you can find. People make writing out to be easy but it’s not, and you can’t let that derail you. Keep going. Take it as a challenge. Keep writing no matter how hard it gets. 

4. Don’t let anyone tell you that you cant. I don’t care who it is, or what reasons they have to tell you that you shouldn’t write, do not listen to them. When I was a little kid, I used to sing all the time, I loved to sing, and everyone encouraged me to do so because I was a kid and it made me happy. My parents even thought about sending me to singing classes. Then one day my big sister told me that I wasnt as good as everyone said I was, that they only said that so they wouldnt hurt my feelings. After that, I lost all confidence in singing. I never took those classes, I never felt comfortable singing in front of people. It was years before I sang in the car with my own mother without feeling uncomfortable, and it’s still bad. I have a full mental breakdown if I try to sing in front of people without lyrics to sing along to, and being a theater student, that meant musical season kicked my ass every year. I know that was a long, unnecessary story, but my point is, people, no matter who it is, are going to tell you stupid things. They could mean to bring you down, and it could just be an off-hand comment, but you can not let it get to you. Take everything as a challenge. If anyone ever doubts you, prove them wrong. Never stop doing something you love, just because of something someone says to you. 

5. You’re young. You have a lot to learn. Don’t deny that. No, I am not calling you stupid, the opposite actually. When I was your age, I thought I was so damn smart for my age, I thought I knew everything, I thought I was above what people could teach me. That was stupid. I wish I had reached out to people. I wish I had asked people for help, for advice, for guidance. I wish I had the confidence to ask people for help when I needed it, but I never did. You did. You had enough confidence to come into my inbox and ask me for help. Keep that confidence. Find people you can trust, make friends in the writing community, find mentors. You might think you don’t need one, but trust me, growing up in the writing world, you will find a lot of moments you are going to wish you had someone you could easily reach out to for help. You are not stupid, don’t let anyone tell you are, especially because of your age. But avoid the mistake that I made, and realize that you are naive, and that you do have a lot to learn. Writing is an ever evolving trade. No one is a master in writing, thinking that you are is only going to mess you up, and ruin your confidence later on, and weaken your ability to learn and grow later on. Trust me, I know. 

6. Don’t cater to anyone. Do not write what other people want you to write. Write what makes you happy. Write for yourself first, other people later. Write the story you want to see in the world. Write something you would want to read. I guarantee you if you would like to see that story, then so would other people. I spent a  long time trying to write what I thought people would like to see me write, and that resulted in me not liking my own stories. I hated my own stories, I was bored with my own stuff, because I wasnt writing what I liked to write. 

7. Practice! Practice! Practice! The best way to grow in writing, just like with any other art form, is to practice. Find writing exercises, keep journals, play with prompts, Make short stories, try poetry, try song lyrics, Just write. 

8. It wouldnt kill you to read a book. Read books of every genre, read poetry, read plays, read novels and autobiographies. Read. Reading can help inspire you, and can help give you basic writing guidelines, and it could help you find your style. The kind of books you like to read? Guess what? That’s the kind of writing you should be doing. If you love mystery novels? Guess what you’ll have loads of fun doing? Hate romance novels? You know the kind of genre to avoid trying to write then. Dyeing for a good horror fantasy book? Write it yourself. (Also, side tip: Your favorite books? Get two copies if you can. For many of my favorite stories, I have two copies if I had the opportunity. Why? Annotation of course. I break them down. Like a puzzle, find what I like about them. What I don’t like. What works. What makes them so good to me. It adds fuel to my fire.) 

9.  This isnt completely about writing, but it is something I wish someone had told me: Your life is so valuable. I know you said people in your country can be killed for being or supporting LGBT+ so I just want to remind you to be careful. Don’t do anything that could put your life at risk, please. I struggled a lot at your age, for many different reasons. I wish someone had told me that my life was valuable. That my future is worth living for. Hell I wish I had someone to tell me that now. Look, the future is a wild thing, and you never know what it has in store for you, but I promise you, it’s worth finding out. I promise you that If you want it to, and if you try hard enough, the future can be a great place. You just gotta fight for it. You gotta fight to see it. I don’t know if that’s something you are struggling with, but just in case you are, or just in case someone tries to convince you that publishing your stories the way they are would be worth it, I need to say that: Do not do anything that could get you hurt. Do not risk it. Save them, save your stories for a time in your life when you can publish them they way they are meant to be. You’ve got a long life ahead of you, and you’ve got a lot more stories to write. Don’t let anyone or anything keep you from that. 

I really hope that helps, and I wish you the best of luck with everything. If you ever need anything else at all, please don’t hesitate to ask me. My inbox is always open! 

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