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bozepomagaj · 5 months

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ATINY/MOA/CARATS vs Made in Abyss was the last thing I expected and its hilarious

feel like I need to say something since twitter absolutely loves spreading misinfo and just accusing people of shit, how have you people not LEARNED your lesson yet? Since when is twitter such a trusted source, especially gossip accounts?

And before you braindead stans start calling me a d!ckrider, I promise you I do not care about these men cuz I've got better things to focus on and I'm making this because people are overreacting and it's getting annoying. It's so obvious 90% of you haven't watched the anime (and thats completely fine, I get you) and then ended up listening to someone who made stuff up and overexaggerated. I'm not here to defend the author because I hate him as much as you do and can absolutely recognize the dude is into some weird shit but saying people are ONLY interested in this series because of r@pe and p€dophilia is INSANE. So let me answer some questions as a Made an Abyss reader (not calling myself a fan because you'll catch me DEAD before you see me buying any merch or manga despite my love for the series), kpop fan second.

Does Made In Abyss contain p3d0ph1l1c themes, gore etc.?

There absolutely is because the author is a creep (refering to the nsfw however, most of the times it's very easily skippable. As someone who hates l0l1con cuz it creeps me out, I can tell you that I really didn't have a hard time skipping said scenes even in the manga which is far more explicit than the anime (Prushka asking about Bond's 'stick', Faputa looking into Regs pants, Vueko's weird comments) and sometimes, they're even added as extras (0.5 chapters) which certain sites that contain scans don't even include. I didn't even know about the existence about a few of these chapters BECAUSE they don't include them.

The OVA is a nightmare to watch and was not only unfunny but creepy as fuck especially when they try to boil down such an amazing character like Ozen into 'I like seeing little kids in pain'. Now I have no idea if this was made independently but I don't remember the author making any spin-offs that they could base this on so I can't tell you who wrote it but even then I doubt that the author minded it since the man himself had to include that Faputas behind smells like the 'Sun' so again, not here to defend him cuz he most definitely is a weirdo, no doubt about it.

Is Made in Abyss torture p*rn?

If MiA is torture p*rn then AoT is military propaganda and supports child labor, TPN is also torture p*rn, JJK promotes violence, Berserk excuses r*pe and Evangelion is also p*do bait. See how stupid that sounds? Just because an anime INCLUDES something, does not mean it necessarily supports it. Yes, r*pe is mentioned but it's not even SHOWN, and it's a cruical part of a characters backstory. The torture that happens, happens only once if we exclude Riko's 'experiment' at the very beginning of the manga. And Mitty's transformation can't even be classified as torture cuz it's a.... transformation. Prushka's death is very censored so its not like you can jack off to that anyways. Now the piss thing is something I have noticed but haven't really payed attention it because bffr why the hell would I so idk, maybe the author is trying to tell us something or the guy thinks pee pee poo poo funny🤷‍♀️.

Is there any plot besides the weird stuff?

See now this is the part that gets me most because the reason why a majority of people nowadays got into MiA in the first place is BECAUSE of the amazing plot. The world building, the mystery, the fight scenes, etc. It's amazingly drawn, nicely paced and unique in its own way. But of course, it's manga&anime and what's anime without fanservice? I already explained that in manga, said scenes can be easily skipped and the anime thankfully doesn't include a lot of these. I do have to admit thag I dropped the manga for now since the chapter where they were in a bath cuz it was another one of those 'here we go again' moments where it made me roll my eyes and just close the tab so I don't really know what's been happening recently and if things go weirder.

I'm also gonna tell you honestly that yes, the fandom is filled with sweaty dudebros itching to see these kids half naked and the author is aware of them and pondering to them because he too is one of them. But a large majority is back from when the anime originally came out and are mostly hiding on twitter so it's easy to avoid them and they've been pretty rare ever since people with actual interest in the series have begun watching it. A reason why back in the day I didn't wanna interact with the fandom at ALL was because the moment I tried to have a normal conversation about the plot and what might actually be going on, I instead get bombarded with "UWAAAA😭😭😭" and 'c*nny' comments. I also cannot defend and don't even plan on defending the fact that Faputa is pretty much naked the entire series. I get that she lives in the literal wilderness, but the very least you could do is put a cloth on her y'know. And mind you, I'm talking about the manga. The anime is a LOT more heavily censored, and from what I heard, even MORE censored in Korea.

To sum it up:

Do I think Mingi/Soobin/Woozi are p*dos cuz they watched the anime? Absolutely the fuck not. Considering Mingi is a big CSM fan, I can see why he watched Made in Abyss because I was in that same pipeline. I think some of you are going way too far with these comments, if you wanna call them weird, creepy, wanna unstan them for reading stuff like this go ahead, not gonna stop because in the end no one can but accusing people of crimes isn't funny and never will be. If they were exposed for watching shit like Kodomo no Jikan then that most definitely IS eyebrow raising. Maybe I'm slightly biased due to me only enjoying MiA for the plot so seeing people say the fans are p3d0s when the first time I watched this was when I was freshly 15.... yeah idk abt that one. Whether they liked the weird and questionable scenes, I have zero idea I'm just here to say that you can enjoy said anime without being a weirdo and you shouldn't begin jumping to conclusions and start calling people straight up criminals. If anyone wants to have a productive conversation and ask questions abt said anime cuz I doubt you're gonna go watch an anime over a Twitter drama, go ahead and ask. If you wanna insult me and call me a d!ckrider then go ahead and do that too, who am I to stop you?

#mingi #soobin #woozi #seventeen #ateez #txt #tomorrow x together #made in abyss

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stunning-eclipse · 1 month

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So... DID and the Daycare Attendant.

I don't think I need to do an introduction to everyone's favorite Daycare Attendant, so I'm going to start this off with a description of DID and what it's like to live with it, because I in fact have it!

DID is a weird case. It's both easy and hard to live with. My alters have saved my life in some cases, and they've made me have some strained relationships as well. One moment I'm here, then one positive/negative trigger later and I'm gone and someone else is piloting this fleshy mech. I have around 20 alters, some with names, some unnamed, some fictives, some ordinary people. But funnily enough, I have two fictives that take after Sun and Moon (named Sunnydrop and Moon respectively). They're both friendly, at least Moon is nowadays, but they've been around for a long time.

A positive or negative trigger is whenever something happens that brings an alter to front. Music, games, voices, people, etc can all be triggers for an alter to front, as well as trauma or distress which are typically referred to as negative triggers. We'll get back to that later when we talk about the lights off and Sun and Moon's positive triggers.

So! How about we get into why Sun and Moon (and Eclipse) are positive DID representation!

Here's why the Daycare Attendant is a great representation of DID!

First off, I want to regard the whole "Moon is an evil alter" thing. While yes, we are led to believe that he is indeed evil, there are a few interesting things about him that still make him excellent as representation. Remember how I said my alter Moon is friendly nowadays? Yeah, well not all alters are friendly off the bat and they can be quite aggressive based on whichever trauma they are defending you from. My alter Moon defends me from my abandonment trauma and trusts no one, and therefore can get really aggressive and even violent towards people. Not all alters are going to be friendly, and while I'm not saying they'll just be murderous killers looking for the thrill of a hunt, they can be mean. Really mean.

Now I wanna get into the smaller bits. When someone with DID is going through a switch, it's not as easy as "oh well he's gone now say hi to this other guy." It can be that easy on occasion, but most of the time it is a slow and painful process. Migraines, fighting for control for minutes on end... just like how Sun and Moon react. Moon mentions his gears are grinding in his head when trying to hold off Sun, not only having a fight for control, but a migraine as well. We can also see Sun struggle with the same pain in the base game when you turn the lights off.

You can also tell the two know each other pretty well. Sun never refers to Moon by name, but it's very clear he sees him as a threat and has seen the stuff Moon has done while fronting. This is called co-fronting. When someone is still conscious and watching whatever the alter is doing while they're fronting, that's when they are co-fronting. And in Ruin, you can see they are co-fronting the entire segment. Moon also refers to Sun by name plenty, meaning they are both aware of each other and really aren't fond of not being in control of the body.

Their pronoun usage of we and us is also incredibly accurate!! When I'm dissociating, I will refer to myself as we and us due to not being the only one fronting and sometimes being unsure of who's actually in control in the moment. Sun seems to do that plenty whenever he's distressed, alluding to Moon being present or trying to front in the moment. And once Moon's positive trigger is used, aka the lights being off, he can finally assume control. It does seem like Moon has stress as another positive trigger due to Sun's usage of plural pronouns but that's more of a theory than anything concrete, so I'll move on.

Here's my favorite part... Man, Sun and Moon are very similar. Scarily so. When someone has alternate personalities, they will all share some minor similarities. Queen and I share the same germophobia, Sunnydrop and I are both artists, Moon and I both have social anxiety. Etc etc. In the case of Sun and Moon, they both are very energetic and can't stand still. They bounce side to side or move in very eccentric ways. They both have an innate need to clean up, showing a sign of hating things being messy. They both tend to laugh a lot, have similar vocal inflictions, and even growl their words (listen to Sun in Help Wanted 2, he growls so much.) They both respect not going behind the desk, and supposedly want the kids to be safe and well assuming Moon is indeed hacked and not evil from the start. They both rock the jester aesthetic too which, sure they're dressed like them but, they sure do act like clowns. In the end, the two are strangely similar outside of one of them being obsessed with killing you.

Finally... let's talk about Eclipse. Eclipse is a third alter and very similar to a fusion between the two jesters. Calm and collected, while also remaining protective and very clean-centric, Eclipse is... very clearly the "host" alter of the three. An alter that is a mixture of the others? Yeah, very clearly, he is the host, so the main personality that primarily controls the body. Meaning Sun and Moon are both alters, making Sun a positive friendly alter! Don't see those in media very often, huh? Also, the fact there's three of them makes me incredibly happy, I always see DID represented by just one alter present. But there's three! Not a realistic number by any means, but it's better than one.

So... yeah!!! That's my basic run-through of how the Daycare Attendant is a positive representation of DID! If I missed anything or if you guys have questions, please shoot me a message or comment and I'd love to answer questions! Thanks for reading if you did! We appreciate it!

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bunglegaydogs · 8 months

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skk dynamics!

I just want to talk about Soukoku so that is precisely what I'm going to do ^^

As per, this post has no specific or planned direction, I'm just gonna see where it takes me lol.

It genuinely irks me to see the rampant mischaracterisation within the fandom pertaining to not only just Soukoku, but several other characters as well. Ranpo, Akutagawa, Kunikida, etc. It might just be my dumb little screaming brain being scared of something that's not supposed to be in my head, or hell, something that's in the BACK of my mind, and I know that makes no sense but it does to me xoxo

I just really treasure the dynamic between Dazai and Chuuya and I get frightened that when I think somebody is mischaracterising them, I'm the only one that thinks that and that I'm just perceiving them wrong. Which genuinely is the one thing I never wish to do; when I write fics, my number one goal is to make the characters as true to life as possible. I try my damndest to do justice to their characters, and based off of the lovely people that read it and comment, I'm doing something right, surprisingly.

The characterisation of Dazai and Chuuya specifically is something so important to me because I relate to the both of them the most out of any of my interests. And I have a LOT of interests.

I don't know why or how, but they came to be my absolute favourite characters over all other fandoms and shows and games and films I enjoyed. (I'm excluding the Marauders fandom here, because I also love Remus and Sirius exactly like this). I piss myself off with it sometimes, because I accidentally base all of my creative outlets off of Soukoku, and lo and behold, I have about 30 unfinished ideas/fics after one night of ruminating over these motherfuckers.

Anyways. Like I said, this post has no point, it's just my incoherent, incessant rambling that if I don't write down, will slowly eat away at me until I die ^^

So, I guess, without further ado, I'm just gonna get going?

LMAO

Anyways,

Soukoku's dynamic has always been interesting. We were introduced to them first (as a pair) as enemies; ex-partners, rivals, loathing each other. But, when we slowly got to see more of their relationship, more of their past, more of their dynamic, quite a lot of us slowly came to realise; oh shit. There's more to them here.

The two of these together aren't just black-and-white characters. Dazai is not inherently good just because he works for the ADA. Chuuya is not inherently bad just because he works for the PM. They are morally grey characters. They've killed people, tortured people, stolen, beaten, attacked, hurt, all that good stuff that comes with being in the Mafia (nevermind fucking Mafia executives). Something that a lot of people seem to forget is where to draw the line between these two organisations; if the ADA is harbouring two fugitives that are ex-mafia, one of them being an executive, another fugitive that terrorised the streets of Japan as a man-eating tiger, and is run by an ex-assassin who was close with the current leader of the Port Mafia, who's to say that they're the good guys? Who is the one to define the evil and the light?

Nobody.

There are no sides.

The Port Mafia aren't the bad guys, and the Agency aren't the good guys. They're both doing their morally grey jobs with their morally grey cast of characters.

Yes, on a base level, the ADA are supposed to be the good guys, whereas the Mafia are the bad. It's a narrow-minded way of thinking and looking at the series, but on a surface level, yes, that seems to be the case.

However, we have layers to this. We know how morally grey these characters are, good or bad. Take Tanizaki, for example, and his way of going about it when Naomi is threatened. He knows he's morally grey. He knows he's not one of the good guys. None of them are! They save people, and that makes them good. But it doesn't make them the good guys. I'm not calling them bad people, of course not. I'm just saying, in the wise words of a post I once read months back, 'Maturing is realising that neither the Port Mafia or the ADA are the good or bad guys'. Something along those lines.

ANYWAYS, I've written this much already and still haven't spoken about SKK.

My point here was their good apple/bad apple dynamic. Dazai is from the same place Chuuya is at, the Mafia. So, by calling Dazai a 'bad guy' you're indirectly also calling Chuuya a bad guy. You're calling Hirotsu a bad guy. You're calling Akutagawa a bad guy. You're calling Higuchi a bad guy. You're calling all of these Mafia members the bad guys; when that's not strictly true. Morally grey characters, yet not monsters. Not bloodthirsty, demonic, evil motherfuckers. They're in the Mafia; not a good start, of course. But again, this does not make them bad people. Actions don't define the person you make yourself out to be, if that makes any sense. Just because a bad person did one good thing one time does not necessarily make them a good person. But if they strive to become a better one by constantly doing good and making active efforts to change their ways, then they're well on their way to earning that title, or coming close to it. Just because someone good did a bad thing one time does not automatically make them a bad person. They're not awful for making one bad choice, depending on the severity and their actions after the choice. Because it can go both ways; strive to be a better person, or fall to be a bad one.

ANYWAYS.

SOUKOKU.

I LOVE SOUKOKU.

So, I'm actually going to talk about them instead of fucking RABITTING ON FOR HOWEVER LONG.

Anyways.

Soukoku is special to me. I relate to the both of them the most. I recognise the flaws in each of them, and I recognise the good. I recognise the changes they're willing to put themselves through for the sake of the greater good, and I recognise the struggles they've been through to get there. I see myself in them, and so I can't help but latch onto them and want to keep them for myself. My subconscious wants to protect them and make them happy and becomes unhealthily attached to these fictional characters.

Anyways.

Soukoku dynamics. Right.

One of my favourite dynamics about Soukoku is the childlike behaviour they exhibit with one another. Even after seven years and they still bicker like they did at 15. I've said it a thousand times before and I'll fucking say it again; they let each other be the children that they never got to be. They let loose with one another. They unwind. They relax. They recognise their similarities (much to Chuuya's chagrin and unwavering denial) and each other's differences. Where there is hate, there is love and trust. It's buried deep. But it's there. The two of them have their walls put high up. They guard themselves well. They keep their shit inside. They let not another soul see what goes on in their hearts. So, with their crying children stuck inside of them and locked down, they let them out around each other. By simply being with each other at any given moment, they're healing their inner children, and allowing them to breathe.

Each moment with Soukoku is so delicate. It feels intrusive to watch their intimate scenes. It feels like such a beautiful moment, so precious to watch and so delicate to touch. The intimate scenes with the two of these are either emotionally charged, blazing, action-packed and full of chaos, or quiet and serene. Tranquil. It's never really neutral ground for them. It's either chaos or serenity, just a calm moment between the two of them, away from the rest of the world and taking (unknowing) comfort in each other's presence.

It's the small smiles from Dazai when Chuuya isn't looking. It's the words and actions with hidden meanings exchanged between them. It's the concern when one of them gets hurt, or is stuck in an unprecedented situation. It's the unfaltering trust and loyalty between each other that pushes them forward, even if it kills them, or seems fruitless. It's the determination that sits in the both of them to protect those that they care about, and put the world above all else for just a moment.

Small, knowing glances. Inside jokes. Petulant, playful bickering. Concerned thoughts. Constant thoughts.

I find it hard to believe that nobody else finds Dazai and Chuuya suspicious; they're hardly discreet about how much they think about each other. Example number one:

Chuuya is drunk with Hirotsu and Kajii. On a whim, he decides to go on a rant about Dazai. Hirotsu and Kajii are apparently sick of it; he does this a lot. He decides, impulsively, to ring Dazai's phone. Dazai picks up the fucking phone. Hirotsu answers, Dazai's like 'Oh, hey, yeah this is my old phone.' Blatantly lies to the motherfucker, because Dazai, honey, you're at home reading; what have you got your old phone from seven years ago next to you, working, and on for? Chuuya wants to speak with him. Gets angry when he can't talk to him to shout at him and complain. Keeps trying to call him back in anger.

Now, if I do say so myself, that's pretty suspicious of them.

Example two:

Dazai in fucking general. He does not shut the fuck up about Chuuya. He tells everyone he meets about how much he spends thinking about Chuuya (everyone except the Agency ahem). He's fucking gay.

That also brings me on to another point. Dazai rarely speaks about Chuuya with the ADA; I'm not too sure I've ever seen him say anything about him to them, except in Wan and the like. (I'm dumb tho tbf). However, upon Yosano figuring out Chuuya's identity, his first reaction is "Goddamn it, Dazai told them". Not that he's a widely known gravity manipulator and its not fucking hard to figure it out, plus the fact that he's a Mafia executive, PLUS the fact that they're a detective Agency? His first impulse is to blame Dazai lmao. Anyways.

You can ignore the first half of that paragraph I was just chatting mad wham.

Anyways.

I just enjoy how peaceful and serene the intimate moments between Soukoku can be. Even the world around them is falling apart, it still somehow feels so beautiful, real, raw, and personal. When Dazai is watching Chuuya fight in storm bringer, it feels so quiet. All hell is breaking loose, yet Dazai is so breathtaken by Chuuya that we feel as if we're interrupting. I don't know why but all I picture upon imagining that scene is a very quiet scene, just for a few seconds, of no music or anything, and white. Just the colour white in as many places as possible. A softness to the screen. I don't know. It just feels like that to me and I can't explain it.

Soukoku's dynamics are so important, because when people mischaracterise both Dazai and Chuuya and then smush that together it creates an abomination of what was supposed to be beautiful and ruins the relationship they really have, muddying their name. Their relationship is special. It's so much more than hate.

Hate is also a crucial part of their relationship, however. And a lot of us Soukoku shippers tend to forget that. We're so blinded by how much we want them to admire and adore each other that we forget how much they do despise one another. And I've mentioned this before in another post.

Their hate is real. It's not a ruse, it's the real deal. They genuinely do hate one another; but that hate is filled with so much more than downright disgust. That hate is filled with the trust of their bond, seven years of partnership, love, and so many unspoken things between the two of them.

Chuuya hates Dazai because he hates himself. He refuses to let himself see the similarities between him and Dazai, because he could never be like him. Chuuya often struggles with his identity and who he is and just how human he is. He didn't know until he was 16 whether he was a real human or not. And so, upon meeting this other human at 15 who craves death and wants to just throw away this human life that he's been given? That's a hard no for Chuuya. He resents Dazai for being so willing to give up his life so carelessly, so easily. He'd do anything at that point to realise just how human he was, to prove his humanity to others and to show his compassion and human qualities. And he stumbles across this stone-cold, suicidal kid who wants to let go of all of that, sees no point in trying to even be human, and who is lacking empathy for other human lives. Chuuya disgusts and loathes that. So, he wants nothing to do with him. Does not want to be attached to him in any way shape or form. Refuses to acknowledge their similarities. So, when he's being tortured, and the first thing he hallucinates is Dazai? It preys on his insecurities and deepest fears. He fears that he's not at all a human, and he fears that he is like Dazai, an unfeeling, indifferent, seemingly heartless boy who wishes to give up on the world, who wishes he was never born, who wishes nothing more than to be granted that sweet release of death.

I can't articulate very well, so for that I do apologise! But yeah, this has always been an important scene for me. In his moment of weakness, Chuuya hallucinated the person that he wanted to see the least, first. He hallucinated Dazai before his freshly dead friends, etc. And claims that, whilst he's being tortured, after Verlaine has killed the people closest to him, that he hates him the most out of anyone in the world. A lot of people said that this was an overreaction; respectfully, shut the fuck up ^^ My boy was being tortured, give him some leeway, yeah?

Anyway.

It just goes to show how deep those roots of self-hatred go within Chuuya; it seems him and Dazai have something more in common than originally thought.

Now, I don't actually have a complete grasp on the reason why Dazai hates Chuuya so much. Because, he doesn't hate him as much as Chuuya hates him, or as much as he makes it out to be. Dazai is an eccentric bastard, dramatising things for the sake of stirring up trouble. He overexaggerates for a variety of reasons, one of those being to conceal any emotion he IS feeling. He makes a big song and dance out of the little things to try and forget about the big things. To not think. Dazai is not numb by nature. He's numb by conditioning. He has conditioned himself to feel nothing, to be cold and logical and rational. Mori, of course, only exemplified these traits, making him colder and more calculated than ever/before. So, my blind guess is that he holds a sort of resentment to Chuuya for being able to be more normal than he is, for wanting to live and not seeing the world as a boring, pointless place. But, he also wants Chuuya to thrive as a human, to be able to live his life knowing and being sure of his humanity. And, when it's only him and Verlaine, he grows quite... emotional (trust me, it's not a lot but that's the only word I can think of) when talking about his humanity. That, Chuuya has to be a human. Because how could he hate someone so much? He has to be a human, because if he wasn't he would like Dazai more.

I think Dazais "issue" (I CAN'T THINK OF WORDS RIGHT NOW LMAO) is that he just wants Chuuya to like him. Maybe he wants a friend. Maybe there's something else to it. But, Dazai has always had strong... feelings, towards Chuuya. "Jokingly" telling him he loves him. Getting awfully close when he doesn't need to, and never does with anyone else. Yeah, you're not fooling anybody hun. Makes many romantic comments that could be passed off as something else entirely about him. Showing active concern for him. Caring for him. Thinking about him. He shows a lot more attention to Chuuya than he gets in return; by that I mean speaks about it more. Is a lot more verbal than Chuuya is.

GAHHHH sorry sorry I just have too much to say and don't know when to SHUT THE FUCK UP but I have SO MUCH more to say, but I'm going to be going off and writing my shitty little fics that should've been written yonks ago <3

have a lovely day/night! ^^

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd analysis #kind of #skk #soukoku #double black #dazai #chuuya #osamu dazai #nakahara chuuya #anime #manga #novel #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #fifteen #stormbringer #bro im sorry

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i-care-bout-things-too · 2 months

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👀 Tell me about an up and coming wip please!

❌ What's a trope you will never write?

🎶 Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately?

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc.

🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

🤡 What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?

Love you babe!! I know the answer to some of these but 🫶

Wheezing so hard rn kitty cat you sent like 1/3 the list

Okay so—

👀: I started a Jon/Dami civilian au FOREVER ago, and it’s *this* close to being finished. I really can’t wait to post it because it’s a fun mix of fluffy and angsty (the latter is my specialty), where Jon/Dami have a very unusual first meeting when Damian walks into the veterinarians office Jon works at concussed, bleeding, and cuddling an inured raccoon.

“I am fine.” He says, resisting Jon’s attempts to be seated. He ignores Jon’s bewildered look as well and proffers up the raccoon he’s swaddled and had up to that point been practically cuddling. “Help him. I have grievously injured him and I am at fault.”

While admirable, Jon really wants to point out that he also looks pretty injured and also needs help. “Sir,” He replies calmly, even though this guy can’t be too much older than him. “You’re bleeding. I will help both of you, but we need to call 911 now and get your head checked. If I give you the phone and take the raccoon, could you describe the situation to an operator and explain what happened?”

To Jon’s horror, tears well up in the man’s green eyes. “You’re right. We should call the police, I need to be arrested for taking his life.”

❌: hmmm, now this is a bit of a hard one, I tend to write across a bunch of tropes and don’t really judge people for indulging in theirs… I genuinely can’t think of an answer, you’ll have to tell me something I forgot after I post this.

🎶: I’m always listening to music while I write. My music varies heavily month to months. I tend to find a new batch of songs and listen to them on loop while I write until it’s done or I get sick of them. As you know, I listened to Stranger by Thomas Day for the second chapter of the fic I gifted you, Rook, which is about very sad, angsty stuff centered around Tim and Damian. Click the fic name to end up on ao3!

✨: I actually love my own work sometimes, maybe not *always*, but there are fics I’m especially proud of. I’ll recommend (myself, yes!) Leave a Message, which is a civilian au fic about Damian celebrating his second Christmas ever, while really missing Dick who’s driving a taxi around Bludhaven unable to remember his family who’s waiting for him to come home. Trust me on this one, read it, I won’t let you down.

🛒: Damian running away. It’s a staple in a decent number of my fics, possibly because he does it A LOT in canon too. If I counted the number of fics where Damian was running away from his family or his problems, I think I’d be counting a majority of my fics.

🎢: This…okay look, I’m answering these like I’ve only ever written Batfam fic, which isn’t true, but we’re going to pretend it is to persevere some of my dignity. ANYWAY, definitely going to point a finger at Unimportant and Like We Were Then. Unimportant has spiralled beyond my control, and there are characters and things going on in it that I wasn’t planning for or expecting. Meanwhile, LWWT went from a 5+1 to a 33k word monstrosity with a plot that wasn’t planned either, but I’m actually quite proud of. Hoping to get the epilogue up soon ♥️

🤡: Basically the entirety of I Think I Have A Ghost in which Jason can’t remember his time in the league, and there’s a small child sized wraith who’s been following him around for weeks. These things are not unrelated. I’m proud of both works in the series, but particularly:

He drops a bag of tea in each mug, sits on one of a few stools around the kitchen island, and slides one of the mugs across the table to the side opposite of him.

He waits for the presence to decide what it wants to do.

“It’s going to over steep.” He tries.

It shouldn’t work. What ghost drinks tea?

Apparently, his.

The kid, because it really is an actual child, on silent feet, steps through the doorway to the kitchen and scales the stool in front of the steeping tea. All of this is done without a sound or any indication that this whole situation is really bizarre.

Jason raises a brow at the kid, and takes a sip of his tea. The kid copies the motion, only making the slightest face of distaste.

So not only is he not a ghost, Jason decides, he’s a posh not-a-ghost.

“Cool.” Jason says. “Wanna explain whatever this—” He motions between them, “—Is, kid?

The kid takes a longer sip.

Okay then.

Thank you for asking all these, Kat ♥️

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the-himawari · 1 year

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A3! Usui Masumi - Translation [SSR] MANKAI Party (3/3)

*Please read disclaimer on blog; default name set as Izumi

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Tsumugi: It’s finally Masumi-kun’s birthday event.

Banri: Itaru-san was in charge of filmin’ the VLOG, right?

Itaru: Yep. So I can’t wait to see the fans’ reactions.

Tsumugi: I’m looking forward to watching it too.

Izumi: Masumi-kun should be coming any minute now…

*walks in*

Masumi: …

Itaru: Oh, speak of the devil. Here comes the star of today’s show.

Tsumugi: You look great in that outfit, Masumi-kun.

Banri: Clothes maketh the man, huh?

Masumi: Thanks. …Director. How do you think I look today?

Izumi: You look really amazing.

Masumi: …Great. Will you be watching too?

Izumi: Of course. I’ll be monitoring you from the back. Good luck out there.

-pause-

Itaru: Hello~.

Banri: Ayy.

Tsumugi: Hello there.

Itaru: And so, thank you for coming to Masumi’s birthday event today.

Banri: That’s enough of an intro, right? It’s a waste of time to keep chattin’ without the main star here.

Tsumugi: That’s right. Shall we call him over now? Please welcome him with a warm round of applause!

*applause*

Masumi: …Hello.

Banri: That’s it? Don’tcha have a little more to say?

Masumi: …Thank you for coming.

Guest A: His awkwardness actually shoots through my heart…

Guest B: That’s how Masumi-kun has to be!

Banri: They’re as hyped as ever.

Itaru: Well, despite how it looks, he’s enjoying himself too. Alright, let’s get started with the “VLOG Viewing Party” segment.

-pause-

Banri: Tsumugi-san and I have no idea what the VLOG is about yet.

Tsumugi: Yes. I hope we can enjoy it with all of you.

Banri: Man, you can guess who the cameraman is if we say that, huh?

Guest A: Eh, does that mean…

Guest B: Don’t tell me…!

Itaru: “Mm. Hello, everyone.”

Guest A: Itaru-san really is the cameraman…!

Guest B: Spring troupe’s so precious…

Tsumugi: I see. Is this a CD shop?

Banri: That’s perfect for Masumi.

-pause-

Itaru: “Do you come here often?”

Masumi: “Well, more or less.”

Itaru: “Subscription services have become mainstream these days. But are you the type who likes to have everything on disc?”

Masumi: “I do stream music… But there are songs that aren’t available on their services sometimes.”

-pause-

Banri: They did a legit interview, huh?

Tsumugi: Fufu. Itaru-san knows what people want.

Masumi: It was a leading interrogation.

Itaru: That’s one way of putting it.

Banri: Oh, you even introduced the band I’m into?

Masumi: It was close by.

-pause-

Masumi: “This is… the one I borrowed from Citron the other day. And… Guy-san told me about that pop song that’s over there. Tsuzuru was listening to that one—.”

Itaru: “…Aren’t the genres all over the place?”

Masumi: “It’s true that I tended to stick to the same genre of music in the past…” “But now I borrow and lend CDs with the other troupe members, so I’ve started listening to a lot of different things.” “If I hadn’t joined the theatre troupe, then I doubt I would have listened to such a wide variety of genres.”

Itaru: “I see…” “I guess you can say the range of the things you like has broadened thanks to joining the theatre?”

Masumi: “…Yeah.”

-pause-

Tsumugi: Masumi-kun…

Banri: He’s got a nice expression there.

-pause-

Itaru: “Alright, since we’re here, can you give us your recommendations?”

Masumi: “Those are probably over here.”

-pause-

Itaru: What did you think, everyone?

*applause*

Guest A: That was eye-opening!

Guest B: It was awesome!

Banri: That was chock-full of stuff we don’t usually get to hear.

Tsumugi: I’m not that familiar with music myself… But I am glad to know about the things Masumi-kun likes.

Itaru: That was the sight he wanted to show his fans, which is also the goal of all these VLOGS. Isn’t that right, Masumi?

Masumi: …Yeah. Was it conveyed?

*applause*

Guest A: Loud and clear!

Guest B: I’m going to listen to Masumi-kun’s recommendations as soon as I get home!

Tsumugi: I don’t know much about popular songs either. I’d love to learn from you, Masumi-kun.

Masumi: …I’ll lend you some later.

Tsumugi: Really? Thank you.

Banri: Masumi sure is gentle when he talks with Tsumugi-san.

Itaru: Tsumugi is a kind person to Masumi, after all.

-pause-

Itaru: …And so, we’re about to enter the final stage of this event. It’s time to take the annual photo.

Tsumugi: Who would you like to take it, Masumi-kun?

Masumi: …Tsumugi:

Itaru: Not me, the one who filmed your VLOG for you?

Masumi: …*Sigh*. Fine, I have no choice. Itaru will do.

Itaru: Aren’t you going too far?

Banri: There’s Masumi’s treatment of Itaru-san for ya.

Tsumugi: Those two are close, aren’t they?

Guest A: The exchanges between Masumi-kun and Itaru-san are so soft~.

Guest: I could watch them forever…

Itaru: Alrightey. Please look over here, Masumi-san. And I’m taking it. 3, 2, 1…

*click*

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seariii · 8 days

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A condition called love EP 2

..... Huh.....

I see myself a little bit on the mc-Hotaru, in the sense that she is clearly aroace spec....

But now.... Damn....

Like, the guy isn't healthy, and she has never been in love, but this is an anime about learning to love, or so I've heard, so yes.... But.... Even so they're very sweet and kind to each other

... the "trial period" seemed reasonable, seemed understandable... "If I don't fall in love with you, I'd still want you as my friend" "no. I don't want to be your friend, I don't want to be another man in your life" "If we aren't a couple, what will happen to you?" "You won't see me again" ..... I was impressed by that he knows what he wants I thought, my brother thought it was unhealthy, but my mom said that it was the healthiest option... And....

When the friend recommended getting close to each other, as if they were gonna kiss, that that would help her notice if she feels something.... To me it also seemed reasonable, just like to Hotaru.... But when she proposed it, and after the guy said to not let anyone she isn't sure how she feels towards do that to her... I was a little caught off guard.... My mom and my brother both agreed that yeah it wasn't okay for her to ask that, because it would be painful for him if she actually didn't like him... My brother said it stung badly when she asked it.... I was very surprised... I mean... The reasoning behind it was "if you don't like them you'll back off, if you actually like them you won't" a little archaic but to some degree made sense....

I... There is a lot of times where I notice I really don't understand allos... I don't understand how their mind works, how they view the world or certain stuff... On an RP that I have with the bestie, my character, when she felt frustrated at not understanding allos, and at how no one tried to look from her arospec pov, she got told "you wanted a relationship with an allo, right? You have to adapt to that" .... And.... I still think about that sometimes... I don't understand so much stuff... Stuff that comes naturally to others, I have to put effort on understanding... It's kinda frustrating... And I mean, that's not just in romance, there is a lot of stuff that I don't understand... That when I'm told not to do something or something like that, I do as I'm told, but I don't understand the reasoning, why is it wrong?...

I might seem all knowledgeable and like I know what I'm doing, but sometimes I notice how little I actually understand others... How simple stuff that everyone understands I don't... Basic behavior that everyone does or avoids, that I don't know about.... It's frustrating...

I... Try, I search, I ask.... The amount of stuff I've heard that is wrong from my brother is impressive... And the amount of explanations the bestie has given me on why an action is wrong is also massive....

At the end... Both what's happening on the anime and what's going on irl will end up being nice... But.... I do wonder.... If it was selfish of me... Was it wrong of Hotaru to accept that?.... She wanted to learn, to give it a shot, to see if anything happened... She had fun, she tried her best... She even adapted to him.... and he also seemed happy...

....

Well....

I don't know if my past actions were right or wrong... I just... I'll just keep going forward... I like the path that I'm walking... And I can see where I'm going... Even if it takes a little while... Yeah... I want to continue on this path.... And everything seems like it'll fall into place... So we will just... Watch as it happens....

#seari watches anime #and writes a diary

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dove-caverne · 14 days

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Chapter 2 is out!

The Black Sheep and the Silver Rabby My Stardew Valley Fanfin novel is underway! I appreicate any reads and support! Official link: https://www.wattpad.com/1437425257-the-black-sheep-and-the-silver-rabbit-chapter-2 Sebastian x Reader Romance

Elliott x Reader Romance

Love triangle ?? Sortaish Warning: Swearing (A lot) and steamy 18+ content to come.

Other fluffy and spicy stuff to come

12k words released so far ! Chapter 2 - Salt Water

My eyes open slowly, they feel insanely heavy, as I sit up I feel an awful rush to my head. "Ugh, what the actual fuck." I mumble to myself. "Abby really can hold her alcohol, unfortunately, I cannot." you giggle. You reach for your phone realizing you didn't get anyone's number last night. Wait 10:05 AM??? You completely slept in and even with all that extra sleep you still have a massive hangover. "Today is going to suck," you think to yourself.

As you get dressed and out the door, you notice you have some mail. It's from a man named Willy who wants to meet you down on the beach... "Well that's a bit weird, some stranger wants me to just meet him at the beach...I guess maybe that's not totally considered creepy in a small town like this." You head over to your nicely planted turnips and give them a sprinkle of water from your rusty old watering can. "There you guys go, now hurry up and grow already." you scoff to the turnips as it took almost all your energy just to water the 15 measly crops.

You walk through town, doing your best to smile at a few townsfolk despite your raging headache. "Let's just get to the beach and get this over with, I seriously need a coffee." you groan under your breath.

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At the beach

The smell of seawater fills your nose as you walk across the sand you spot a variety of pretty shells getting you distracted from your mission. It's so quiet, although it's almost 11:00 AM there is nobody around. "Probably because it's still a bit chilly out", you surmise. "Hey Farmer!" you hear someone calling suddenly. You look ahead on the pier and see someone waving to you from afar. "C'mon over I've got a little something for you," he says. You walk to the peer to meet this strangely dressed (and strangely smelling) man. "I'm Willy, the local fisherman, just got back from a little fishing trip and wanted to greet ya with a little welcome gift! Not every day a newcomer makes their way to our little valley." He says as he passes you a pretty basic-looking fishing rod. "It's been used well, but it's still got a few good reels in it! All yours farmer! I've gotta go open up my fish shop but stop by sometime to update your rod!" He walks off to the little shop on the peer. "Strange...but very nice of him, glad that was quick." you think to yourself.

You walk back across the beach focusing on the sand in hopes of finding some more shells. You're about to reach for a really beautiful one, and as you go to grab it you see another hand reaching down for it. You look up and are in literal awe. An actual angel of a man stands before you, with shimmering ginger hair, and emerald green eyes he also happens to be extremely well dressed... but maybe overdressed for the beach. He smiles at you and you feel your knees get weak. "I'm sorry beautiful you can have the shell, it just caught my eye, I have plenty, it's all yours." He picks up the shell, grabs your wrist and places it gently into your hand. You feel your face get flushed at the feeling of his strong manly hands touching yours. "Are you new here?" he adds on, breaking you from your utter shock at this man's existence. "Uh... yes, sorry hi I'm (Y/N) I just moved into the farm outside of town." You look down, as his gaze is just too much for you to handle and he will definitely see you blushing. "Ah, well I am honoured to meet such a lovely lady, I'm Elliott, local writer and beach enthusiast." He says with a chuckle. You can feel your heart starting to race as you stand in awkward silence for a moment. "Well I hope to see you around (Y/N) I am usually here on the beach, I live in that cabin over there. It's small but at least I get to wake up to this view every morning." he smiles at you. "I hope to see you around too Elliott. Thank you for the shell," you say softly as you put it into your pocket now feeling like it's some sort of treasure of you meeting this radiant man. You can't take your eyes off him as he walks back towards his cabin his long ginger hair flowing in the breeze and his tall well built body filling out his collared jacket. "Wowza," you say as you take a sigh of relief that the close contact is now over.

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You make your way back through town planning to stop by Pierre's shop to buy some more seeds for your garden. You walk in and see a variety of things for sale. Out of the corner of your eye, you catch some violet hair and remember that Abigail works here at her dad's shop. "Omg that's right, should I go talk to her and ask for her number? I was way too wasted last night to actually ask." you think to yourself. You sigh, wondering if you embarrassed yourself, hoping she will still want to be friends. "Hi Abby" you say in almost a whisper. "Oh (Y/N)! how are you? I hope you had a good time last night! It's been so long since I had a girl to hang out with I'm pretty much always stuck with just Sam and Sebastian." she smiles at you. "They don't seem that bad though! I had fun with all of you, although... I did drink way more than I should have, I am definitely feeling it today." you giggle. "Oh shit, I'm so used to out drinking the boys I totally didn't consider that I'm so sorry," she says seeming worried. "It's alright it was worth it, so glad got to hang out with some new friends...I actually came over to ask if maybe I could get your number?" you say mumbling nervously. "Yes! Omg! Let me put it in your phone and I'll put in the boy's numbers too I can't believe we didn't think of that last night." she says taking your phone from your hand and inputting the numbers. "Just text them and say I gave their numbers to you." "Thanks Abby, I will text you later then maybe we can hang out and you can show me your favourite video games!" You say smiling as you walk up to the counter and purchase several new seeds from Pierre.

You hurry home to plant the vast variety of spring seeds Pierre convinced you to buy, "the sooner I am done the sooner I can lay in fucking bed." you think to yourself. Your garden is looking great you now have over 40 seeds planted, in a variety of spring crops. "Things are looking up mom, I hope you are seeing this, I am actually doing it, taking over your dad's farm. I feel so happy, being here I feel close to you again somehow." you smile to yourself reminiscing on your memories of Mom and you.

It's now 1:30 PM and you decide to go inside for a much-needed break. You lay on your bed and play on your phone for a bit. An hour or so goes by and you start to get a bit bored of looking at social media, it's mostly just filled with pics of the preppy "friends" you used to have in Zuzu City. Feels so ridiculous now that you were trying too hard to be "friends" with them, "they are so stuck up," you mutter as you close your tab...Your mind wanders and you remember that Abby had told you to give her and everyone a text. "She wants me to text the boys too." You feel a bit nervous just texting them out of nowhere without having asked for their number, "but maybe it's a good thing I didn't have to ask for their number, doubt I coulda actually asked that out loud, well to Sam maybe cause he's so damn friendly, but Sebastian is another world completely."

You decide to text Abby and Sam first and see how it goes. They both respond fairly quickly and are already discussing plans for another night at the saloon or a jam session. You find yourself smiling that you were actually able to meet some friends in the first week here...You look over at your table and see Sebastian's sweater leaning over the chair. You feel your face get red as you recall how close the two of you were last night when he essentially saved you from collapsing drunk in the middle of the town centre. "I guess returning his hoodie is a good reason to text him..." You open your phone to his contact that Abby added, you're actually a bit surprised she was so willing to just give out his number considering they are dating. Well, you're still figuring that one out...you think back to last night when you spotted Abby staring in awe at Sebastian. "They must have something going on right?" you wonder. You continue to stare at his contact number not wanting to type something totally awkward, he already gives you a strange feeling when he's around. He's so mysterious and standoffish yet he helped you without thinking twice making you see that he has a very kind heart under all that doom and gloom.

Welp here you go: "Hey Sebastian, It's (Y/N), Abby gave me your number, I think she was trying to get a group message going to plan another hangout."

Send

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Sebastians POV

Buzzbuzz

"Ugh... Abby stop texting me a million times I am trying to work" he mutters to himself.

Glances at phone

"Hold up, it's from (Y/N)? And of course, Abby gave her my number without asking first, typical." he sits back in his chair in a bit of shock and a flashback of you giggling on the couch with Abby pops into his head, he starts to feel butterflies in his stomach realizing he will actually be talking to you again. He's confused and slightly uncomfortable, "Why do I feel like this? She's just a girl, c'mon Seb you barely know her." he can't focus on his work at all now, he's never really thought about a girl that way before. Not surprising considering there isn't much selection in this tiny ass town. "Ugh what do I even say." he sighs, he seriously has no idea how to talk to a girl.(**See's Abby as one of the boys)

"I need a smoke break before I reply to this", he thinks getting up from his desk placing his phone back down leaving it behind.

He walks outside the air is cool as the evening approaches and it feels nice on his warm face. He sees Demetrius doing who knows what over by the bushes. "Science freak," he mutters under his breath almost hoping Demetrius hears him. Everyone knows they both tolerate each other for the sake of Robin. Sebastian walks faster hoping he won't try and converse with him considering it's usually a lecture about his smoking habits or a comparison to how much more accomplished Maru is. Sebastian knows he's essentially an outcast in the family coming from a different dad who wasn't known for being a good role model or caring father figure. Essentially, he has never been loved by anyone but his mom and she is the only person in the world he cares about more than anything. "Hmm maybe I could ask my mom about what to say to the new girl, I mean she grills me all the time about being sad and lonely in my "basement dungeon" and how she expects me to give her grandkids." He thinks to himself as he lights his cigarette looking out at the lake. "Would that be too awkward? Ugh. But if I ask Sam then he's never gonna drop it and will probably make it super awkward when we're hanging out and if I ask Abby she's gonna think it's her that I am interested in... Fuck, guess I have no choice...ill talk to mom."

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Walks into the kitchen

"Oh hi Sebby, do you want to have dinner with me? Demetrius and Maru are busy with a project this evening." She stares at him seeing he's a bit distressed. "Sebby you really need to get out of that basement dungeon of yours you are looking pale and honestly just like complete shit." "Thanks, Mom, I get my looks from you." he snaps back, they both let out a giggle, that's just their relationship, savage and loving. Robin puts both their plates on the table and they sit down together chatting about her work and ongoing projects. Sebastian is being pretty quiet just listening, watching his mom light up at her love for her job. He can't figure out how to ask her about you without it totally being awkward. "You alright Sebby, you're unusually quiet?" He stares down at his plate and feels his face getting red. "I...think" he sighs, "I THINK THE NEW GIRL is pretty and cool and I feel weird when she's around and she texted me out of nowhere and I don't know what to fucking do," he says at lightning speed stumbling over his words just wanting to get it off his chest. There is a moment of silence as Robin is shocked that he actually might not be forever alone. He finally looks up from his plate and sees his mom smiling. "Finally, Jesus I was beginning to think you and Sam were going to become lovers with how much you guys hang out." they both let out a laugh and her comment lightened the anxiety in the room. "Pretty sure I would choose Abby before Sam mom," he replies sternly. "I mean you never know, whatever makes you happiest Sebbybear." "Mom, stop, just please what do I do, I want her to not see me as a massive loser." "Sebby, you want my advice, it's simple, be yourself. Don't be fake, don't be someone you're not, you've got a sweetheart under all that bullshit you give me and everyone else, I know any girl would be lucky to have you by their side. Just...don't block her out like you block the rest of the world out." She lifts his chin "Yep my son is handsome, she'd be silly not to be interested." "Fuck off" he scoffs "Thanks though Mom...don't block her out got it" he quickly sneaks in before running down to the basement. Several hours after receiving your text he finally musters up a short reply.

Sebastian: Hey (Y/N), that's no problem, sounds like a good time let me know what's up and I'll be there.

Send

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BuzzBuzz

"What she replied already?" he says utterly surprised

(Y/N): Great! Think they want to do Sam's place for a jam session sometime soon.

BuzzBuzz

(Y/N): Oh, I meant to ask if you would like me to stop by your place tomorrow to return the sweater you lent me the other night. Thank you so much again."

Oh right, he had completely forgotten to grab his sweater after helping you home. He feels flustered at the thought of his hoodie on you, now he can't stop picturing you in it.

"Ah fuck, hmm... I think I better just go get it...if she comes over I bet mom will say something awkward after the conversation we had earlier."

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Farmer's POV

BuzzBuzz

Sebastian: It's cool I will come by and grab it sometime soon, probably in the morning before I start work. Pretty sure you owe me a farm tour anyway."

"Wait? He wants to come here? He wants a farm tour? Did I offer to show him around, I honestly don't remember. Wait he's really going to come here?" You think to yourself feeling your heart rate increase with excitement. "Stop it (Y/N), he is with Abby...yes he's gorgeous and his dark hair and light eyes made you melt...IT'S not like that get a grip."

(Y/N): Sure stop by whenever, I am usually here. Have a good night, Seb.

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almost 2 weeks later

Your garden is blooming, you were able to harvest and sell several crops and more will be ready in the next few days. You are running pretty low on cash having been essentially haggled to buy 50 packs of seeds from Pierre. You have cleared out many more sticks and weeds and are making a new space hoping to add a chicken coop as soon as the next crops are ready to harvest. You even started to build a fence and fix up the pathways around your house. You're starting to think you can actually manage being a farmer after all.

You've been so busy getting things started you haven't had much time to hang out with your friends. Luckily your trips through town have allowed you to introduce yourself to almost everyone, a few people your age stood out to you as potential friends. You met a cute sporty boy named Alex, who seemed eager to meet you and show off his workout routine. You met two sisters Haley and Emily... they were actually total opposites how funny. You met the local teacher who actually teaches Sam's little brother Vincent, her name was Penny and she was actually adorable and sweet and good with kids, a total catch in my opinion, really hoping to be friends with her. You also bumped into another guy but he seemed in a bad mood and kinda looked hungover so you didn't catch his name but he wasn't too much older than you? And of course, you also made time to try out your fishing rod...at the beach.... specifically at the beach... and yes you did catch a glimpse, or more like a good 10-minute stare at the ginger angel who lives in your mind rent-free. You were lucky enough to have several nice chats with him and he invited you to coffee to help him with a chapter of his book. Not sure if he was implying it was a date or not but either way you will take any additional time to stare at that gorgeous beast of a man with long flowing hair and perfect teeth. He's so handsome and such a gentleman sometimes it feels like Elliot fell through time.

Anyway...you've also seen Abby a couple of times and texted both Sam and Seb but are looking forward to tonight as you haven't gotten all together since the saloon.

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Later that evening

You look down at your phone and it's 6:30 PM, you are just cleaning up from a later supper as you were working on the farm longer than expected. Everyone is meeting at Sam's place in an hour so you should probably start getting ready. You decide to take a walk down to the baths to freshen up. On the walk back you wonder to yourself. "How do I dress for a jam session?" Your long clean hair is blowing in the wind, the weather has been really nice lately, and you can tell summer is around the corner.

Hmm...you end up going with a navy baby tee, black baggy jeans, and chunky sneakers. You put two small braids in your hair, fix up your makeup and by the time you're finally feeling put together after your sweaty day of farming it's already 7:30 PM and time to make your way over to Sam's.

On your walk there you spot Abby leaving her house. "Thank god, now I don't have to walk into his house for the first time alone." She waves you down and joins you for the rest of the short walk to his house. She opens the door and walks in like she essentially lives there. "SAMM, you can start the party now the hottest girls in town have arrived." (big competition here in the valley) She yells out. "Hey, ladies," he says poking his head out of his room with a smirk. "C'mon in!" "Wait we're hanging out in his room?" you're a bit surprised but as you walk in and see how huge his room is and all the instruments set up, now it makes more sense. "Hey (Y/N), I know it's more of just a show for you tonight so why don't you take a seat on my bed? Seb will be here any minute and we will get started." "Sure", you reply, you take a seat on his soft comfy bed, it smells like his cologne, and it's kinda nice. Sam and Abby start to get the instruments set up, Abby plays the drums, Sam the guitar... so I guess Seb plays the keyboard... it's really cool they have a band together." you think to yourself, butyou also feel a bit sad at the same time as you aren't very musical at all and will be more of just the audience at these jam sessions. "Hopefully they will still invite me." you think feeling a bit anxious and out of place. Not even 5 minutes go by and you hear Sebastian entering the house. He opens the door to Sam's room slowly. It's been nearly two weeks since you've seen him, you almost forgot how handsome he is. His dark hair hangs down the side of his face constrasting intensely against his pale skin. His eyes look especially blue in the lighting of Sam's room, you hadn't noticed before. He's wearing his usual all-black hoodie, tight skinny jeans and black Converse. He notices your eyes on him and gives you a slight smile. "Hey Seb, I missed you, you've been ignoring my text again," Abby says coming over and wrapping her arms around him into a hug. He rolls his eyes and brushes off her comment by changing the topic. "Let's get this jam going Sam," he says as he lifts up a pack of beers he brought to share with everyone. Abby passes you a drink smiling "Don't go too hard this time Starlight." "Starlight?" you say confused at why she called you that. "Yeah, Starlight, cause your hair shines like the stars and because you're a lightweight who can't even handle a couple of drinks without almost blacking out." She teases you giving you an exaggerated wink. "Shut up Abby. at least I'm not an alcoholic" you snap back, getting a giggle from her. She goes over and joins the boys.

"We're finally set up, enjoy the show (Y/N), we don't play for free for just anyone," Sam says giving you a smirk.

A couple of hours go by, and you find yourself and the gang laughing, enjoying some drinks and listening to some interesting music. They actually were including you and getting a city girl's advice on what kind of music to play to have more chances of landing an actual gig. This was so nice, you felt really happy around these new friends. "Hey Seb, thanks for bringing the drinks... unfortunately you didn't bring enough," Abby whines. "Let's just stop by the saloon and get some more quick Abbs, we need a break from the music anyway," Sam suggests.

They walk out the door together.

"Wait where are they going?" "Wait they're leaving me alone here with Sebastian." you feel anxious as you look over at him, he's lying on Sam's bed holding his beer and looking at his phone. His eyes glow in the light of the screen. You find yourself captivated by him, you're eyes look over him hopefully you're not making it too obvious. You notice his hoodie is pulled up a little stuck under his back, revealing his pale skin, he looks thin under that hoodie. You peek up again from your phone and realize you can totally see his boxers peeking out of his jeans. Ugh, why does he look so good effortlessly this is driving you crazy. Fuck. he suddenly looks up and notices your eyes on him. He sits up and fixes his sweater and you're worried your gaze has made him uncomfortable. "You wanna try the keyboard out?" he says noticing you are sitting on the bench. To be honest you just sat here cause he was on the bed but how can you turn him down when he's looking at you like that? "Ugh... sure," you reply nervously. He gets up from the bed and shakes out his hair, you notice he has a cartilage piercing on the ear that's usually covered by his hair. "hot" you think to yourself, trying desperately to stay focused as he gets closer to you. "Here," he says as he presses the power button on the keyboard. "Start with just the normal piano setting." You look at him nervously as he leans over you. "well..." he nods for you to try. You press on some keys, probably looking like an extremely unmusically talented idiot. "Hmm... here try this." He suddenly stands over you leaning forward to reach the keys, his chest and stomach pressing on your back and head. You feel your face getting redder by the second. He plays a couple of cords together, to be honest, your heart is beating so loud you couldn't even hear the piano. You place your hands back on the keyboard and try to replicate what he just showed you unsuccessfully, you really couldn't pay attention. "I guess it is hard when you first learn...here," he says he grabs your hands and places them on the keyboard, he grabs each finger and softly moves them to the correct key. His hands are cold against yours, he's so gentle it's like he is worried your fingers will break with too much force. "Now try." You press down on the keys and hear the same chord he played before. You smile and look at him "I did it!" He lets out a little laugh. There is a soft moment of silence and his eyes are on you. "Will you play some more for me Seb?" you say to break the silence worried it will become awkward or maybe he will hear your heart beating profusely. "I suppose I could play a little, scoot over." You move over a bit and he squeezes in beside you rolling up his sleeves. Your eyes are glued to him as he plays a recognizable tune so effortlessly. You look down at his long fingers moving from key to key and are in awe at how even his hands are handsome. You are so close to him that you can feel his warmth as his hip is pressed against yours squished on the tiny bench. As his arms move you catch a smell of his cologne. "You smell nice." you blurt out without even realizing what you just said. He stops playing and looks at you, you see his face turning red, and he fixes his hair nervously. "Do I?" he finally replies. "Yeah, you do, sorry I didn't mean t-" You are suddenly cut off by the sound of the front door opening, you quickly stand up from the bench and greet them. Suddenly you are feeling embarrassed and think you want to head out for some air before you actually passout. "Hey, sorry guys I think I am going to head home your music was really great, have fun practising though! I hope I can come again!" you say as you excuse yourself. You rush home feeling so embarrassed how could you just blurt that out? You crawl into bed immediately burying your face into your pillow in shame.

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Seb's POV

"Wait she's leaving? Fuck, did I fuck up." he thinks to himself feeling defeated and confused. "What was that about?" Sam asks after you left so prematurely. "I might have pissed her off." Seb replies. "I should probably go apologize." He says walking out the door in a hurry.

Abby and Sam both look at each other in confusion. "Alright well i guess the party is over, let's save these drinks for next time."

"Fuck, Fuck, I thought it was going so well, she's literally so sweet, and adorable, I can't believe she thinks I smell nice," he says under his breath as he looks around to see you're already long gone.

"I guess I will just have to text her." He spends the entire walk up the mountain contemplating what to say as he smokes his cigarette. DripDripDripRumbleRumble

"Fuck those clouds look bad I should hurry back home. Hopefully (Y/N) made it home safe" he says picking up the pace.

Just before he goes to sleep he quickly sends you a message.

Sebastian: Hey (Y/N), sorry if I upset you tonight, I want to make it up to you. If it's okay I will stop by early tomorrow to get my sweater back and I'll bring you a coffee."

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Farmers POV

RumbleRumbleBangBang

The slight daylight and the loud noises from the storm outside wake you up. You look over to your phone and see Sebastian sent you a message. Just thinking about last night makes your tummy turn, and you decide not to read it as it's still early only 5:50 AM. As you lay in bed you hear the storm roar on. "I should probably get up soon" you sigh. You're slow to get up knowing it's going to be muddy out there today not realizing how bad of a storm it was. You eat your breakfast and it's almost 7:00 AM and you figure it's time to go out and check on your garden now that the rain has stopped.

You walk out and look ahead to see your beautiful field of crops completely destroyed. It looks essentially barren, with rocks, branches and sticks blown all over. The crops flooded away with the amount of water and wind that rushed through the valley. Your fences are all torn apart with barely any still standing. Your heart sinks into your chest.

You drop to your knees not giving two fucks about the mud you're kneeling. You feel your eyes fill with tears, as all the hard work you put in, your heart and soul, for your mom, for your grandfather, for yourself. It was all gone, you had to essentially start all over. "Why" you mumble through tears as you sit and kneel in the mud sobbing. Your sobs are suddenly interrupted by a soft familiar voice. "(Y/N)?" You look over and see Sebastian looking as perfect as ever, holding coffee, he's just standing there staring at you as you cry. You feel embarrassed and try whipping away your tears with your sleeve. "What... what are you doing here," you muttered trying to get yourself together unsuccessfully. "You didn't get my text?" he says sounding surprised. "I guess I did send it quite late last night sorry," he says as he places the coffee on the edge of your porch and walks over to you. "Ugh.. please don't look at me." you say covering your teary face in embarrassment." You suddenly feel his hand grab yours pulling you up from the ground and into his arms. He is so warm, it feels so comforting, it's been so long since anyone has hugged you so closely. You can't help but let the tears roll down your face as you feel like you've failed your mom, and failed this farm, you feel so defeated. He says nothing and just lets you cry into his chest. After a few minutes, you pull away from him, "thank..you" you mumble still feeling your face get flushed. He looks down at you and brushes your hair away from your face with his soft hands. "Your hair is really beautiful you know, I swear it shines silver in the sunlight," he says hoping the compliment cheers you up even somewhat. You're shocked at his words and look up at him meeting his gaze. "(Y/N )let me help you," "Oh.. you don't have to Sebastian, I'm sorry, this probably ruined your morning, oh.. and sorry about last night too." you look back down at the ground feeling like you've done nothing but mess up lately. "No, (Y/N) you don't understand, I want to help you, I want to see you more, not just over text. Please let me." he persists. How can you say no when he's essentially begging you with those intense blue eyes inches away from yours? "You would do that for me?" you say almost in a whisper as a few more tears roll down your cheek. "Yes I would, my mom will probably insist on helping too please don't give up yet, I'm really sorry about your fields and please don't apologize for last night." Suddenly his hand grabs your face softly and tilts it up to look at him once again. "The tears have to stop though, he says, as he wipes away one tear with his thumb. He's staring into your eyes so intensely, you have not known each other long but you can't help but feel like he is actually starting to open up to you, even though everyone says he's insanely anti-social and doesn't like newcomers. Out of nowhere, almost as an impulse he suddenly leans in and presses his lips on your cheek, kissing away your last tear. "I don't like the tears, we can fix this, it will be okay." Your face turns beat red as you are in literal shock from his soft warm lips against your cheek. You had not idea that such a quiet, mysterious boy with a reputation like his was capable of such sweet action. "Did... you just kiss my cheek?" you say embarrassed. "Sorry I couldn't resist, your eyes get so blue when you cry, and your tear...it was salty," he says with a small chuckle. "But what about Abby?" you blurt out not wanting to cause any trouble for your only close friend in town. "What about Abby?" he says seriously confused. "Are you two not dating? She is seriously crazy about you it's obvious?" "...Oh, ya I know that, she's had a crush on me since we were kids. I mean she doesn't give up that's for sure. Pretty sure at this point she realizes that it's not going to happen. She's nice and all but... I am happy with her as a friend and have always felt that way." he says firmly, finally settling your uncertainty around that topic.

#stardewvalley #sdv elliott #video games #sdv fanfic #fanfiction #fanfic #sdv sebastian #stardew fanfic

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Interview with the Devil-Part 3

So today’s the day. The final day. So many questions. To me it seems more than I had for her, God. Not that this one is more interesting, just makes me more curious. How could one thrive off of evil? How could ruin, run a life? How can the despair of others be your fuel?

Well, today I ask my final four.

As I walk into Starbucks, he is waiting today. Dressed to the nines in another Italian suit, hair slicked back, and shades on, he does look cool. Hip, I guess you could say.

“I’m ready today”, he laughed. “I hope you have some good stuff for me!”

“I think I do. I wanted to close with a bang” I say.

“Let’s light this candle” he says, as if he’s had one too many expresso’s.

“First question”, I say. “Do you have a relationship with God?”

“Well,” he starts, “You know our history. I was up there for what seemed like forever. Then, I just needed time to myself. So, I took a crew, started a little shit, and we left. Not cast out mind you, left. Now, I know she keeps up with me. I see her “people” around. But, I am my own man. I think she needs me. What the hell would she do without me. I’m like her yang. She is the yin. She needs me. Who would think she is so high and mighty without me?”

He took a breath, “God needs a challenge. I am it. I tweak things just enough to balance her world. Let her “save” her souls. I’ve got plenty....”

“Hmmmmm,” I ponder, “Good cop, bad cop?”

He smiles, “You ever watch wrasslin’ Timmy, I know you do. Who do you love? The good guy? Or the bad guy? Who? You love to hate them. But, they are the ones that keep you coming back. Good is boring Timmy. And I ain’t boring!”

“So then, with my second question, can you describe yourself?” I ask somewhat timidly.

“Me?”, He starts, “That’s easy. I am that second slice of pie you want but maybe shouldn’t eat. I am a yes when a no should be the answer. I am the “last drink”, the “just one more”, the “watch this”. I am everything you want. The yes you want to hear. I am the giver of a good time. The no holds barred. I am the giver, but also the taker.”

He went on with “Some say I am a liar. Not true. I bargain. I only promise what you want, for a price. You decide to take my deal. I’ve been turned down plenty. And I am okay with that. I don’t condemn. People do that on their own.”

“Oh yeah, I’ve never sent a plague, she did.”

This guy is making sense to me, and I am somewhat shaken by that.

“My third question will be, did you know Jesus? And did you consider him a God?” I asked.

He starts “Jesus, he was alright. A good guy. Trouble was he believed everything they said about him. All that talk of God got into his head. I mean, I used Judas, his best buddy, to take him down. And they all turned on him. Actually, even I felt bad about that one, what they put him thru. It was a carnival act. I walked thru the crowd and could feel the hate for the same man that they were calling King the week before. Sad.”

He actually looked sullen. Regretful.

“I didn’t really want that to happen. Jesus didn’t deserve that. He was confused. Believed all the hype. But, he was a good dude. He was kickass with the water into wine thing!” He went on, “But, she said it had to happen. Die for our sins. Yes, our sins. It included me. I thought it was a bad deal on her part.”

“And I’m the bad guy? I just entice. Lure. Tempt. You ever heard the the saying “ the devil may care?”. Well, yes, I do.”

I sat there. At a loss for words. Was this an evil lord? Or an evil genius? Misunderstood in the grand scheme? A necessary part of life? I was stunned, and didn’t know what to say.

“Fourth question” he asked.

“Do you think you and her ( God ) could ever reconcile? Get back together?” I blurted out with the first thing that came to mind.

“Look Timmy” he started out, and for the first time looked at the floor, not propped up with his shoulders back, “That I don’t know. I just don’t know. She kinda holds a grudge.”

“I sometimes think I’d like to. We made a great team. But, I don’t like being the second banana. Vanity, I guess. That’s one of her “sins” right?”

“I honestly think she could use someone like me. I could sniff out then snuff out the bad in her world. I know I could. As I said, yin and yang.”

“But, it would be up to her. It’s ALWAYS up to her.”

And with that, he stopped.

And our session was done.

So I thanked him and shook his hand. His palms were sweaty, his hands hot. But they were soft as butter. Like a man that uses his wits over his muscle.

“Thank you for the opportunity to see your side”, I say. “It’s been an encounter I may never forget!”

He stops and looks me in the eyes. Says “If you don’t feel like you’ve had a religious experience, then get your money back. Cause I don’t need it!”

Then turns, and walks away...

I feel a cool breeze as he closes the door.

( feedback welcome )

#excerpt from a book i'll never write #spilled ink #excerpt from a story i'll never write #love quotes #depressing quotes #love notes #spilled words #spilled thoughts #spilled tears #quotes #wordsbyt

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Here are all of Grizzly’s chat messages from the JRWI stream earlier!

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Cropped screenshots of twitch chat messages by grizzlyplays. They read:

grizzlyplays: there are three episodes left of the feywild arc.

grizzlyplays: HEE HOOOO

grizzlyplays: HEE HOOO

grizzlyplays: including this one!

grizzlyplays: ill add the felipe emote when i get back to desk

grizzlyplays: thanks for the hype train 🥺

grizzlyplays: i will be listening with you guys tonight and taking notes for editor ikarus

grizzlyplays: know i am here looking at you

grizzlyplays: LOOOLL

grizzlyplays: :D grizzlyplays subscribed with Prime. They've subscribed for 5 months!

grizzlyplays: WAS THAT SERIOUSLY A FNAF NOISE LOL

grizzlyplays: DO I TELL HIM TO KEEP IT IN

grizzlyplays: LMFAOOO OKAY

grizzlyplays: WHAT

grizzlyplays: DEJA VU?

grizzlyplays: writing it down..

grizzlyplays: Neivien Oloxidor

grizzlyplays: keep watching

grizzlyplays: hee hoo

grizzlyplays: ;)

grizzlyplays: "this easy puzzle"

grizzlyplays: GAS

grizzlyplays: i can't watch saw i hate those movies sm

grizzlyplays: THAT NOISE GOES HARD

grizzlyplays: WOOOAH

grizzlyplays: @/xubioc yeah!! i'm very disconnected from the recording and the product so when i listen it sounds very new to me LOL. i often say things i dont expect myself to have said

grizzlyplays: The rolled for EP 79 is already scheduled for Satruday :D

grizzlyplays: 2chainzz

grizzlyplays: fun fact: i think i decided to skip another security checkpoint encounter here

grizzlyplays: for pacing

grizzlyplays: @/gothicshan i could cosplay william wisp fr

grizzlyplays: SPIT TAKE

grizzlyplays: SPIT TAKE W

grizzlyplays: W

grizzlyplays: SPIT TAKE W

grizzlyplays: SPIT TAKE

grizzlyplays: jrwishSmug

grizzlyplays: IF YOU WANT ALL OF MILO

grizzlyplays: twitch.tv/spittakelive [repeated 11 times]

grizzlyplays: always here for the boys

grizzlyplays: W

grizzlyplays: TEARS??

grizzlyplays: CRY ABOUT IT

grizzlyplays: LITTLE BABY

grizzlyplays: jrwishPretzel

grizzlyplays: pretzel is in the dark

grizzlyplays: @/misterkryptonite_ i hate horror games and horror movies LMAOO

grizzlyplays: i get panic attacks

grizzlyplays: i could read horror books tho

grizzlyplays: its ok if i make the scary stuff

grizzlyplays: our call of cthulu sessions has made me have anixety at night sometimes LOL

grizzlyplays: drawn BY https://twitter.com/shanuraru [repeated 10 times]

grizzlyplays: @/tellingphibs MY BRAIN!! IT LOOKED DIFFERENT AT FIRST BUT SHAN'S CREATIVE FREEDOM COLLABED WITH MY BRAIN CHILD AND WE MADE THIS

grizzlyplays: @/angrygay_mushroom ive been trying to slow down and be more relaxed when talking bc in past eps i talk at 1 million miles an hour out of nervousness

grizzlyplays: OH WAIT!! i got inspired for these designs by watching hunter x hunter

grizzlyplays: almost forgot

grizzlyplays: @/tellingphibs up to interpretation

grizzlyplays: SOB :(

grizzlyplays: i coulda made him roll acrobatics LOL

grizzlyplays: why am i nice

grizzlyplays: ikarus goated for those noises

grizzlyplays: LMFAOOOO

grizzlyplays: i was sitting here thinking "what the fuck do i do"

grizzlyplays: i dont remember what happens im so nervous

grizzlyplays: we recorded it so long ago

grizzlyplays: THE GOAAT!!

grizzlyplays: by himself, power move

grizzlyplays: oh damn im looking at the camera

grizzlyplays: terrifying

grizzlyplays: HEY SO

grizzlyplays: i might of described Celeste's type of hair/hair style wrong and I apologize if i did. also i named Celeste (the elder) before i named Celestine ( the archfey) and i'm still angy i gave npcs such similar names LOL

grizzlyplays: heads up

grizzlyplays: oh okay thats not that bad

grizzlyplays: jrwishSmug

grizzlyplays: @/luminoussalt likely because i described her face familiar "like someone you know," however that doesnt automatically mean mother you are right

grizzlyplays: GILLION W

grizzlyplays: HUNK OF A MAN???

grizzlyplays: he is so inspired by oogway yes

grizzlyplays: i hope hes not dead and you guys get to meet him later

grizzlyplays: @/Mintyforshort i havent decided LMAOOO

grizzlyplays: im crying

grizzlyplays: jrwishDaddy

grizzlyplays: HAHAHAHAHAHA

grizzlyplays: NO TWITTER [repeated 5 times]

grizzlyplays: v

grizzlyplays: NO TWITTER

grizzlyplays: jrwishDaddy [repeated 13 times]

grizzlyplays: NEXT WEEK THE FELIPE EMOTE SHOULD BE APPROVED

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#grizzly update #jrwi update #long post #jrwi spoilers #jrwi riptide spoilers

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herehaveafandom · 7 months

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This is a very random ask but, your tags on that post about attraction being wild when you separate masc/fem blah blah I forgot the post already.. Those are all exactly what I was freaking out about with my sexuality. I use lesbian for a lot of reasons, but some kink stuff with men or fictional men I kinda like, so seeing someone have the same situation is very validating.

Ok so sorry for the late response but I had to go back and find that post which was a lot BUT. Yeah!

I feel like a lesbian in my soul. My core. If I have a gender, it's some variation of "dyke". I love women. I love lesbians. peace and love on planet earth etc.

That said...sometimes a man is hot! Sometimes I'm attracted to him! I tell my friends a lot: "I want that man in a dyke manner. I want him in a lesbian way." and that I know it makes no sense but its True! Sometimes I need that man like a lesbian!

I've been thinking about the type of men i like recently and come to some conclusions. First, I don't like men Like A Straight Girl Likes Men (Probably partly because I'm not a girl. Also sorry for stereotyping you straight girls it will happen again).

Generally men I like are

Fictional. one of my favorite phrases is that @blue-jacket-blues is obsessed with is when I said "I need Obi-Wan Kenobi barechested and weeping on his knees." I WANT MY MEN TO BE TORTURED.

Queer. Queer men...I looooove fags...and sometimes I see a queer man and im like hm. we should be a gay couple. As my friend who i will not call out here says, "I like my men fruity."

As an extra layer to that, in drag. Trixie Mattel once said, "When I die, dipped me in G and throw me to the lezzies" and baby I will be at the front of that line.

Kinky. I'm going to expose myself here and say without giving out specifics that I put some money in the pockets of some ethical and highly enjoyable filmmakers and actors who do some, what shall we say, inventive scenes. I watch what I enjoy and if that's men then that's men. My fantasies are in the safety of MY head and thats perfectly fine!

Normal. Part of the reason I used to be so averse to ever thinking I could be attracted to men was because I wasn't into the red carpet sex symbols of Hollywood. I don't care about them. Some of them I appreciate aesthetically, but I'm not into them. You know what I like? MEN WHO LOOK LIKE REAL PEOPLE. You know who that is? BRENNAN LEE MULLIGAN. WHAT A GUY.

All of the above, or at least some combination. Kinky queer guys? (Leather daddies I am willing to do a lot for you.) When Brennan Lee Mulligan plays Garthy O'Brien and says "lovey" in that tone? Yeah. When drag queens get all domme? Hiiiiiiiii.

Also like...a lot of this is, again, IN MY HEAD. Fantasies are a safe place to enjoy things you might not enjoy in real life and thats totally fine! I engage with a lot of things in my head that I probably wouldn't do IRL.

But yeah, when I stopped trying to deny that there were some men I was into, my life got so much better. I'm a dyke who sometimes likes men. Could I force myself into a different label? Maybe. But it wouldn't feel RIGHT, and if I'm going to have a label its going to being one I feel comfortable with.

Anyway this was a lot longer than I meant it to be. No bitching in the notes about how I a person with less that 1000 followers am personally ruining the queer community. God bless and get head (Unless you dont want head in which case. rejoice freshly baked bread be upon ye)

#rambling #anyway. all that to say who want me.

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[Video transcript begin.]

[The video starts from a table. Two sets of footsteps can be heard as well as hair being brushed, one set of footsteps stop as a person recognized as Rose can be heard taking a drink of water, then talking.]

Rose: you almost ready?

?: Yep! Just need to… get my shoes on.

[Voice identified: Edgar.]

R: should i wear a helmet?

[Edgar laughs heartily, this lasts for 13 seconds.]

Edgar: Do you not trust my driving skills?

R: Edgar… you almost hit a man… also helmets can also protect against gunshots. better safe than sorry.

E: Okay, the guy I almost hit wasn’t an accident. I was given 20 dollars to do it, so I had to follow through with my part of the deal.

[Rose picks up her phone, the camera picking up a glimpse of her face, looking confused at edgar. Before sticking the phone in her shirt pocket, and walking.]

R: what?

E: Er, long story, someone gave me 20 dollars to run over Daniel. So I tried to.

R: edgar… that is stupid, but whatever. I gave myself a headache earlier worrying too much, i’m not about to get another one.

E: Shit, we’d better get going, then. We need to get your mind off of this stuff quickly, or else you might explode!

R: yeah.

[The two start leaving Edgar in front of Rose, Rose grabs a helmet on the way out the door as Edgar unlocks it and opens the door. The two walk out and head to the stairs.]

R: fuck, I forgot I'm on crutches… um help?

E: Hm. Well, we could either use the elevator, or I can carry you down. It’s your choice.

R: i don't trust that elevator, so yeah, carry me i guess.

[Edgar nods, and picks Rose up. After a few seconds, the two begin descending the stairs.]

R: um, thanks… i appreciate it.

E: Hey, it’s no problem. Really.

R: yeah i um… christ, i need to get my mind off everything, and have fun.

E: Don’t worry, this’ll be fun. I swear.

R: yeah… i, um… fuck i say that a lot. huh?

E: Maybe, but sometimes familiar words can be nice to say. We’re almost at the bottom, by the way.

R: yeah um… thanks again… i dunno what i would do without you… or A… or ness… or…

[The camera moves as Edgar places Rose down, using one arm to make sure she doesn’t fall during the transition to standing again.]

E: Neither do I.

R: fair… god, i hope ness gets me that new wheelchair soon like she said, these crutches fucking SUCK!

E: I’m sure she will, Rose. And yeah, I can see how the crutches would be annoying.

R: I HAD TO USE MY ELBOW TO GRAB THE LEMONADE!

[Edgar snorts as they walk out to where the car is parked.]

E: Sorry, sorry. It’s not funny, but the way you said it caught me off guard.

R: well… i'm glad i made you laugh!

[The camera moves to see the car, A truck with a back seat area. It looks old and kind of rusted, Rose sighs and looks at Edgar.]

R: edgar… why is this truck older than you?

E: Hey, don’t be mean! I think it’s awesome!

R: yeah it's cool, sure… but it's still old as fuck.

E: Look on the bright side! If it’s older, maybe it’ll be easier for me to remember how to drive it!

[Despite her face not being visible Rose sounds distraught.]

R: bruh… HOW THE FUCK!? maybe i really did need the helmet.

E: Well, before you can start having any regrets, we should get going. Come on! There’s room in the back for your crutches!

R: COOL! I CALL SHOTG- i get the seat next to you!

E: Alright, you need any help getting in?

[Rose looks at Edgar, looks down the camera jolting to her knees, one is a little bit taller than the other. Rose looks back at Edgar before speaking.]

R: yes.

[Edgar does a small fake salute to Rose, grinning. Before going to help her get into the car.]

R: just, like, be carefu- AH!

[The camera jolts as Edgar picks Rose up quickly, and places her in the front seat of the pickup truck. He moves the crutches to the back, then gets into the driver's seat.]

R: do the seatbelts work?

E: I’d hope so.

[Rose puts the seatbelt on, her hands visibly sweating, she speaks under her breath. Before sighing again.]

R: thank god…

E: Alright… Let’s see if I remember how to do this…

R: edgar… didn't you just say you tried to hit a man with THIS TRUCK! i knew you hit your head a lot but damn!

E: I barely moved it that time! I didn’t even leave the parking lot! Let me focus, unless you want me to crash!

[Rose nods her head moving the phone in her pocket, the camera facing the windshield as Rose visibly shivers.]

R: good point.

[The view shakes, as Edgar accidentally accelerates too quickly. He slams on the breaks, laughing. He turns on the radio.]

R: I HIT MY HEAD YOU ASSHOLE! :(

E: Haven’t really driven in 24 years, so…

R: edgar… that hurt so bad my disappointment is audible. fucking hell

E: Get your audible disappointment outta here! I’m getting back into the groove! Gimme a moment!

[He manages to back the car out of the parking spot without hitting a pedestrian, and beams at Rose.]

R: good job? what do you want me to say?

[Edgar’s expression changes to a comical frown, his lips twitch upwards as he tries not to laugh.]

[Rose laughs at Edgar's silly face, moving the camera to the windshield, setting it in a way it faces both of them. Rose keeps laughing until eventually stopping.]

[Edgar squints at the steering wheel, thinking. Before he sits up straighter and begins to leave the parking lot.]

R: just, please be careful.

E: I would say ‘careful is my middle name’ or something, but that’d be wrong. It’s Elliot. So, no promises of being careful. Sorry!

[He grins as he accelerates a little more.]

[Rose looks disappointed at Edgar's joke.]

[As they drive, Edgar starts to look a little more confident in his ability to maneuver the car, and starts a conversation with Rose a few minutes in.]

E: So.

R: what?

E: That Ness kid is nice.

[His lips twitch upwards in a slight grin. He glances at Rose.]

R: um… yeah! she's really nice!

E: You also seem to have posted a few interesting things on your blog a while back.

[Rose begins turning red. looking more and more like the flower she is named after.]

R: what are you talking about? i dunno anything about that!

E: I just want to say, I support you no matter what. So if you want to… you know. I’m fine with it. Not like I had a say in that in the first place. But I want you to know that you have people who are there to back you up.

R: edgar… thanks… and um. sorry about getting drunk and saying stuff about ropes and um… yeah.

[Rose looks like a tomato, she tries to look away from edgar.]

E: You don’t need to apologize. I just wish you’d done it with someone to supervise you nearby.

[Edgar notices the radio is playing ‘Living on a Prayer’ and turns the volume up somewhat. But it’s still quiet enough to hear the conversation.]

R: i mean mari's sister was there!... to see me extremely flustered and fall through a table.

E: She’s 15, doesn’t count.

R: yeah, fair.

[Rose begins laughing, still extremely red. But at least laughing.]

[Edgar smiles, his eyebrows raise as he realizes that the song is approaching the chorus on the radio. He begins to sing along, rolling down a window and turning the volume up once again.]

E: Come on, Rose! You should join in! It’s a good song!

R: i don't know the song… i didn't listen to music until… the mall y'know?

E: Huh, that’s a little sad. Try to fumble along, it’s fun even if you don’t know the lyrics.

[Rose begins trying to fumble along, failing pretty miserably but at least trying.]

[It finally hits the main chorus, and Edgar’s voice raises in volume, a wide grin across his face, wind blowing his hair around, eyes glinting.]

[Rose has to scream over the wind and music, though she still smiles, looking at edgar.]

R: YOU’RE REALLY GOOD AT SINGING!

E: THANKS, ROSE!

[Edgar’s eyes light up at something out of frame, and he turns the steering wheel abruptly.]

R: WOAH!

E: Finally! I found a good spot!

[As Edgar pulls into wherever he’s decided was a ‘good spot’ it becomes increasingly apparent that it’s an empty parking lot. The first chorus ending.]

R: is this a fucking sonic? edgar why are we in the sonic parking lot?

[Edgar turns to rose, a very wild smile on his face.]

E: Oh, I just wanted to see what this old thing could do!

R: edgar please–

[Rose is interrupted as Edgar abruptly shifts the car's gear and slams his foot on the gas pedal, flinging the two of them backwards into their seats.]

R: AH! EDGAR PLEASE!

[Edgar responds only with wild laughter, as he begins to do donuts in the pickup truck. The same song blaring over the radio. It reaches the chorus a second time, the music is turned up even louder.]

[Rose grabs the truck door, eyes shut. unintelligible screaming, as well as Rose shaking her head. Having to shout over the music and Edgar’s loud laughter to be heard.]

R: EDGARPLEASESTOP

E: WOO!!

R: THIS… IS REALLY DUMB! BUT I'M GLAD YOU’RE HAPPY!

[Rose is only met with more gleeful cackles, Edgar is grinning ear to ear like a madman as he twists the steering wheel chaotically.]

R: OKAY! THIS IS ACTUALLY KINDA FUN!

E: I KNOW, RIGHT? I USED TO DO IT ALL THE TIME WHEN I WAS YOUNGER!

R: GOD, WHY DID YOU DO COOL SHIT WHEN YOU WERE YOUNGER!? I MOSTLY JUST WATCHED SAILOR MOON AND PLAYED MARIO RPG!

E: THE SECRET TO DOING STUFF LIKE THIS WHEN YOU’RE YOUNGER IS TO DO IT BECAUSE IT’S FUNNY! I STARTED DRIVING AT 13 BECAUSE OF THAT!

R: MY MOM DIDN'T REALLY LET ME LEAVE BECAUSE OF THE KIDS AT MY SCHOOL, BUT I'M STILL YOUNG, SO THANKS FOR THE TIP!

E: LET’S GET YOUR FUCKING CHILDHOOD BACK, ROSE! WOO!

R: YEAH! WOOHOO!

[Transcript end.]

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