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#ack. i cant like. do anything.
be-good-to-bugs · 1 month
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hey what if i like, didn't have a headache right now. that idea sounds cool we should do that idea.
#the bin#ack. i cant like. do anything.#i want to draw right now but i cant cause of this :/#the screen hurts my eyes and the leaning over makes it worse. and the leaning from traditional art is SO BAD.#hhh. i hope it will go away soon but i dont think it will. im feeling stomach sick too so i cant take ibuprofen either. sad.#i didnt end up getting to call my mom yesterday. i was SO tired probably because i had a 2 hour panic attack and it was past when#id been going to sleep anyway so i fell asleep. today should be more idea bc i stayed in bed till kinda late.#im really nervous. theres other stuff stressing me too like lending a bunch of money to my sister again. i dont have a lot right now and i#will need some extra for moving costs regardless of if i stay here or get to go home. supposedly she will return it in a week#its not for her technically. its for her boyfriends rent. if it was for her i probably wouldnt have tbh bc she sucks SO MUCH about this#stuff. i do have the money and i get it. i dont know him but its not a problem for me as long as i get it back very soon#ive lent a couple smaller amounts to him before and he was quick to get it back. and he always offers to send back more which i dont care#about but like. he gets that im not REALLY in a position to be able to do this. im still stressed the fuck out tho.#my body hurts so bad all the time. im glad i get time off this week but god damn.#i was gonna use it to clean but idk if my body is gonna let me. well. at least one of the days it will have to.#i hope i get good news today when i talk to her. i wanna stop having to stress so bad about this
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goofyjelly · 9 months
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Im going to a concert later!!! I made so many bracelets!!!
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skyllion-uwu · 5 months
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Am I nauseous because I'm hungry or because I triggered myself last night
#my stomach hurts and i need to eat but the idea of doing that is. ack#and i cant tell my parents why because id have to unpack so much spontaneously#like id have to explain i was on the internet before they let me make an account and that i didnt tell them when i was getting those dms#and how its basically ruined any neutrality i had towards sex because ill be fine and then BAM!#everyone else is 12 year old me and im an adult and im my abuser and im going to hurt them if i keep talking about this#just because it was only words doesnt mean it fucked everything up forever. i know back then i was aroace but didnt have the words#but i sincerely think id be just sex neutral if it wasnt for that fucking asshole and now i think about sex for too long and get sick#and i didnt say anything because i thought they were my friend and i dont know if they were 11 like they said they were or not either way#its just. im getting so much off my chest here i wish i could go back in time and tell myself to block after that first message#and i didnt say anything after i realized because i wasnt allowed to have social media and i didnt want to get in trouble over that part#fantasizing alone is one thing but as soon as someone else is involved theyre me and im that person on da and i hate it. i hate it i hate it#i hate it i hate it#is that a common thing. where you feel like youre the abuser in certain contexts even if youre nothing like them#whatever. i have physical therapy and then ask a prof if i can use him as a reference and then finish my application if he gets back to me#and then i can rot all i want#sky vents like amogus
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guideaus · 2 years
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yuri is literally a f4scist cop, who thinks he holds control over his sister, and yet he's a fan favourite lmao??
Yeah, lol. I think it's also to blame that the story presents it as funny (though I personally don't see how it'd be funny??) that he's like "a man loved my sister before I even approved?!?! I can't protect her?!?!" then she sits and smiles when she's the strongest character in the series. The series also kinda presents him as a weird uncle instead of a new threat or something, which ig could be interesting, but he isn't more than a fourth person w two defining traits (possessive in a dumb way and... secretly pleasantly evil I guess).
What the fandom does do that is annoying that I don't think the manga kinda implies, is seeing his devotion to his country as equal to loid and yor's role. The manga says loid and yor aren't bad people, just doing dirty work to get rid of the worse people, but then yuri is serving his role dutifully. idk if anything has happened w him, but they casually introduced his role... then didn't elaborate further, he's not the same as them, but allowed there. ik sxf is supposed to be a comedy first and isn't like fma or something, but it kinda tries to be deep while also letting things like this just happen, so that's how u get ppl being like "uwu my little meow meow" and it's the half fascist cop/siscon joke character or ppl saying he could be so deep
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piplupod · 4 months
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sigh. tooth vaguely hurts again so i think i am Le Fucked
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tinylittlebab · 1 year
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hmm.
#ack. i wanna but a scale so bad but idk how much money i have rn#well at least since im restricting again ill have more money since i dont spend it all on food#wish i could get a job but id have to walk to it and i cant in the weather so im gonna wait till spring or summer#might wait till i turn 18 bc ill have way more options so i might aswell. its only like 2 months off from when i could even get one at all#hmmm. ill have to ask my mom to tell me how much is on my card bc i cant check it myself. im kinda regretting letting my sister not pay me#back immediately for $30 bc then i could buy a scale rn but she doesnt have much rn so whatever#going another month without a scale wont kill me. for the majority of the time before i recoved it didnt have a scale so whatever#but i remember feeling so awful not even knowing if the pain i put myself through did anything so idk if its worth that#i fall ever enough as is with my pots so idk if i wanna add starvation to tye mix when i cant even see the numbers drop#well. ill find out how much i have today and if i have a fair bit then ill buy one soon but if not then ill just cry ig#idk. i feel stupid for relapsing. i KNOW.it feels terrible and i dont even care much about getting skinny. i just miss starving myself#its not about getting skinny its just about seeing the number go down and hurting myself and i know it doesnt actually feel good but like#idk. my life has felt chaotic and out of control recently and i need something to hold on to even if it kills me#i dont even wanna die anymore either. i used to but now i dont. i have life plans that i wanna pursue. im not stuck in a moldy house with#people who abuse me. i live with my only friend in a place where i can actually go places. not many places but theres at least something#idk. i think itd be easier to be ok if i had other friends but i just have my sister. i dont even know how or where you meet people#everything i read either says scool for minors or bars for adults which is useless to me. the only others things are things not around me#idk. i guess ill have to get a car eventually and when i do that then i can go places. i feel so bleh lately#i just. i wanna be sickly and skinny. not bc i think im ugly but bc i wanna be sick. i dont dislike my appearance. im relatively thin#not that it matters bc theres nothing wrong with being fat but like. idk. i used to hate my appearance so much but i dont now#so it feels so weird that im relapsing anyway#idk
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bkgml · 1 year
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hiii do u think u could write something where maybe bakugo has been stressed lately. never yells at his so, treats them so good but one night after a stressful day, he’s dreaming and his hands burn up a little while he’s holding their waist, and burns them and he doesn’t wake or anything and they try to hide it from him, he finds out and is like super upset at himself and is distant etc hehe :,-) i rlly like ur writing so i’d be excited if u got to write something like this or anything in general
omg omg this is such a great idea!
youre cooking dinner when you hear the front door swing open.
“hi, honey!” you call to him, ready to switch off the burner so you can give him a welcome home kiss.
in return, all you get is a sigh as he sits on the couch.
“katsuki?” you call as you turn the corner from the kitchen to the living room.
you see him, head in his hands and still in his hero suit.
you walk towards him and thread your fingers through his hair, pulling his head toward your stomach.
normally he’d wrap his arms around your waist and nuzzle into your stomach.
but today, he got news that he was being sent on a mission to canada for three months.
away from you.
away from his home.
away from everyone.
and if accepts it, it’s practically a guaranteed job offer to being the number one hero, his dream. though, it would put a large rift in your relationship as he wouldn’t be able to contact you in any way.
he stands from his spot on the couch.
“uh, i’m gonna shower. need to think for a minute.” he says, giving you a lifeless peck to your temple before he turns to leave.
you’d be upset, but he seems stressed. so instead you decide to throw pyjamas in the dryer for him so they’ll be warm once he’s out and start plating dinner.
you set the table before hearing the water shut off.
“ack!” you yelp, running to grab his pyjamas from the dryer.
“hey katsuki?” you call to him, knocking on the door.
you see his pretty face, ridden with stress as he opens the door.
“hm?” he asks lowly.
despite his worry, you still smile at his tired eyes and soft voice.
before you speak, you press a sweet kiss to his nose and watch his eyes flutter shut at the contact.
“brought you warm jammies.” you whisper, kissing his nose again.
he sighs against you before opening the door wider and bringing you into his arms.
“hi.” you whisper.
“mm.” he grunts, but you know he means ‘thank you, love you’.
you pull away after a minute.
“get dressed, dinners on the table.” you smile.
he nods and you head back into the kitchen.
the two of you eat dinner in silence while he thinks to himself.
“what’s on your mind?” you ask as the two of you wash the dishes.
he sets the final plate into the cupboard and clears his throat.
“just work.” he says.
“hmm. i’m sorry baby boy.” you coo, dragging your nails up his arms.
he groans, leaning back into you.
you hug him from behind, reaching your hand under his shirt and brushing against his abs soothingly.
“you gonna tell me specifically?” you ask softly.
he sighs and straightens up.
“not until i decide what to do.” he replies, turning in your arms.
you smile sadly and take him by the hand into your bedroom.
“sleep on it then?” you ask and he nods.
as the two of you get ready for bed in silence you wonder what has him so stressed out.
if he couldn’t save someone he would be more upset and he would’ve told you.
if there was a deadline coming up for his report of a scene he would’ve worked on it today.
if he was being sent on a mission he would be happy.
unless?
“come to bed.” katsuki’s call for you interrupts your thoughts and you shut the bathroom light off before climbing into bed with him.
you stroke his cheek affectionately.
“you sure i cant help with the decision?” you try one more time.
he grabs your palm off his cheek and presses a kiss to it.
“not this time, sweetness.” he replies.
you sigh but nod nonetheless before turning away from him.
he wraps his arms around your waist and pulls you close, pressing kisses to your shoulder.
“i love you, katsuki. i know you’ll make a good decision.” you smile, turning your head to him.
he smiles sadly in return and presses a kiss to your lips, the first of the night.
it continues for minutes as he conveys every emotion within him.
his stress.
his love.
his anger.
his sorrow.
and you take it all, drinking it in and calming the storm brewing in his mind.
“i love you more.” he says.
you grin sheepishly and press a final peck to his lips.
“get some rest, kay?” you smile and lay your head on his arm.
“alright.” he says back, arms tightening around you.
as the two of you sleep, your mind is calm, full of white noise of love and laughter. while katsuki’s mind is plagued with darkness, storms returning with fury as he fights to make the right decision.
katsuki’s ferocious dreams bleed into yours as you feel white hot pain on your torso.
you open your already tear filled eyes and see katsuki’s hands burning into your flesh the same way his dreams burned yours.
you swallow a cry, a shout, you wrangle yourself out of his arms and throw yourself onto the other end of the bed.
you see your katsuki, eyes still closed, brain still unconscious, as he burns himself now.
“katsuki! katsuki wake up, baby. you’re burning yourself!” you shriek.
“katsuki!”
his eyes snap open and his quirk deactivates immediately.
“fuck! i’m sorry.” he apologizes for scaring you.
“did you hurt yourself? let me see!” you cry, lifting his shirt seeing the minor burns on his skin.
“shit… i really liked this shirt.” he attempts to joke but you huff and glare at him.
jumping out of bed you grab his hand and start pulling him to the bathroom.
“i need to clean your wounds.” you mumble.
he follows and sees your charred shirt.
“did i hurt you??” he asks, worry laced in his tone.
“i’m fine, you just got my shirt.” you lie, turning on the bathroom light.
the two of you step in the bathroom.
“sit on the edge of the tub. where’s the first aid kit?” you say looking around the room.
he sits silently while keeping his eyes locked on your torso.
you open the cupboard under the sink and find what you’re looking for.
you walk towards katsuki while opening the first aid kit and ruffling through it while mumbling to yourself.
when you’re in arms reach his hands grab the back of your thighs.
your mumbling ceases and the bathroom goes quiet.
setting the first aid kit on the toilet you thread your fingers through his hair similarly to when he first came home tonight.
“did i burn you?” he whispers, restating his question.
“no, katsuki. i told you, it’s just my shirt. let’s get you clean-“ you’re forced to cut yourself off as he lifts your shirt and sees the nauseating burns on your torso.
his breath hitches and you look down to see tears falling from his eyes.
“it’s not your fault.” you rush to tell him.
his eyes look to yours.
those glossy, heart shattering eyes looking to you for guidance, for an answer.
“it’s not your fault.” you repeat.
he looks back at your burns before his eyes return to yours.
“i burned you.” he whispers, voice cracking.
“you were unconscious.” you whisper back, leaning down to press your forehead to his.
“it’s okay. it’s okay. it’s okay.” you repeat as your arms wrap around his head and his face finds the junction between your neck and shoulder.
his sobs begin to fill the bathroom and you hold him and repeat to him.
“it’s okay. it’s okay. it’s okay.”
ten minutes later he’s calm enough.
“you going to tell me what has you this worked up, now?” you ask.
“they want me to go on a no-contact mission for three months. in canada.” he whispers, numb from his crying.
you kiss his dried tears and he allows his eyes to fall shut.
“if it means you get that number one spot like you’ve always dreamed then we can get through it, katsuki.” you say.
“i’m not going.” he replies, snapping out of his numbed stare.
you blink at him.
“what do you mean? this is your dream and i’m going to support you every step of the way.” you smile.
“i’m not going.” he repeats as he grabs your hand and pulls you through the house.
you follow, confused.
“katsuki??”
“i’m taking your ass to the hospital.” he says, tightening his grip on your hand.
“we’re getting these burns treated.” he grabs his keys and opens the front door.
“i’m going to work ten times as hard.” he pulls you out the door and to his car.
“i’m going to be the number one hero.” he opens your car door and helps you sit.
“and i’m going to do it all right here. with you.” he confirms, grinning determinedly at you.
a bright smile takes over your face as you grab his cheeks and kiss him sweetly.
“i love you.” you whisper.
“i love you more and i’m sorry i burned you, baby girl. never again, okay?” he says, pecking your cheeks repeatedly.
you nod in affirmation and he closes your car door.
while he walks to his side, he takes in the fresh air for the first time since he felt the crushing weight of the rift between you and his work life.
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megumifuckmeguro · 6 months
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JJK MEN (failing to) HOLD THEIR STRENGTH BACK DURING SEX
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I write like a bot but Its the ultimate fic guys!!! thanks for all the interactions I’ve seen every single reblog and comment ahhh anyway its uh….kind of difficult to write about a state of mind without it sounding boring and conclusive, so i hope i did my idea justice lol ill be writing for geto suguru @huthaa 🥴 sukuna and nanami in part 2!!
I couldn’t write balls, its too funny
none of them used their raw power!!! They would never!!!!
Gojo Satoru
“Oh your my sweetheart aren’t you?” Gojo teases, his touches light and gently grazing, he taps his long thick cock on your pussy, his urethra leaking pre-cum on your clit as he smears it further with his cockhead, he may be teasing but you know he’s eager, “ugh fuck” he blurts out like he didn’t mean to, “i wanna fuck you like i’ve always want to” his demeanour shifts, he throws his head back glaring at the ceiling, hissing and puffing above you almost like he’s contemplating while absent-mindedly stimulating your hard clit and lips with his wet swollen urethra opening, pressing harder and harder, “i can take it Satoru, please please, fuck me how ever you like!” He looks down at your desperate body, bucking up at his cock and shaking for him to do something, anything, grinning he taunted “nah you cant” you glared at him almost betrayed, he glares back at you smirking, you were about to open you mouth when he suddenly plunges his hard cock deep into you, your cervix springs back and forth as you feel Gojo’s pubes and pelvis meet your entrance, his hips snap again, he enjoys the way your face contorts from innocent need to surprise and pleasure, “you crying yet sweetheart?” He rams into you again, and again, slap slap slap, his cock molding and stretching your insides as he pushes you into a mating press to reach even deeper, imprisoning you until you can make him cum in your pussy. His breaths are laboured, his thrusts are sporadic, indecisive, did he regret going full force on you? He fixates his eyes on you, reading you for any uncomfortablility, any sign of pain he’s causing you “ack yourgonna make me cum doll” his voice crack’s slightly, he looks down at you attempting to hold out his confidence and teasing with a grin but you feel his cock pulsate violently against your cervix, signalling that he’s close to release. “FUCK FUCK FUCK” he groans and strains while emptying his load deep in you, feeling the heat of his cum spread to your thighs and stomach, he pulls out slowly above you, a string of cum snaps between you both, “that was amazing Satoru, i told you i could take it!” You huff proudly, he looks at you almost trying not to laugh “i wasn’t even trying “
Choso Kamo
His hair unravels slowly, a hair tie slides down his back as half his hair dishevels into a long knotted mess, you grab onto it to keep it out of his face as he erratically moves in and out of you “im sorry, ack-fuck im so sorry, am I hurting you?” His attempt at checking up on you fails yet his tone is remorseful and pleading, pleading for you to be able to take him and let him give you everything he can. You can feel the bed shake aggressively underneath you, the lampshade on the bed side table vibrates in vigour, threatening to fall, as it does to Choso’s hard deep thrusts, it smashes on the floor darkening the room, it seems this was a wake up call for Choso as he pauses in slight shock, “was i too rough?” His deep voice softened with concern, he brings his large hand to your small cheek and caresses it softly, a sudden guilt pierces him as he slowly embraces you, his head placed gently on to your neck and chest, his breath tickles your hot skin as he mutters “I’m sorry my love, i don’t know how to control myself when I’m in these moments with you” you cradle his head in your arms and brush his hair slowly, you lift his head up and meet his eyes with love and understanding. That look alone made him cum inside you.
Toji Fushiguro
It was after-killing-a-sorcerer-sex Toji loved the most, he was always rough with you, but fucking you after he just got paid?
“Nah woman you would die like the monkey i just killed* he was usually callous and stoic during sex but in him you found the loving concern of self restraint, his gaze softened “yer gonna regret this doll” you continued staring into his merciless eyes, challenging him “heh” he huffed and smirked as he pushes your legs far apart to make space for himself, he slides his thick cock inside you slowly, you attempt to see it enter but he swiftly pushes your head back and pulls on your hair, he starts moving long and hard, taking his cock fully out and piercing it back into you over and over, quickly a ring of cum oozes between your pussy and his cock which he notices “your spilling yourself on me already sweet girl?” But he doesn’t stop nor slow down, his strong arms hold your legs into place, unable to move or squirm, suddenly he lifts you up from the bed and carries you by the legs, he spreads them once again and pushes his thick hard cock into you from below, you grip his broad shoulders tightly as he fucks you standing. He bites your shoulder lightly, but plunges his cock underneath, you feel so entirely full as you scratch and moan into his ear, you cum on his cock dripping down his length and dampening his pubes and the floor, yet he drags your lips up the head of his cock and slams you down again to meet testes. “You cum so easily but this is nothin doll” he continues slamming himself into you “you wanna see some real fuckin violence darlin? ill show you the corpse of the weak ass sorcerer i just killed once I’m done” he fucks you with his ego.
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blow jobs with kenny, tweek, craig, and kyle!!
Kenny
definitely the biggest.
you cant even fit him into your mouth, you have to stroke part of his dick!!
hes not loud, but hes not silent
he let's out really breathy moans
hes either praising you, degrading you, or both
"you're doing so good for me, baby"
"such a whore for me, sucking on my cock like it's the last thing you'll ever eat"
"Mmm, such a good whore for me"
insists on cumming in your mouth. if he can tell you're genuinely uncomfortable with it, he wont necessarily force you to do anything though
he definitely wants you to open your mouth before swallowing to see his cum <3
Kyle
a little shorter than kenny, but thick none the less.
I feel like he shaves, but he definitely has some pubes that you nose brushes up against. I dont wanna say it's like a fuzz, but its definitely not a lot.
he gets a little shy since he feels more comfortable pleasuring you, however he hardly passes up the chance for a bj
quiet, suppressed, muffled moans. hes really embarrassed by any type of noise he makes, so that's all your getting.
he doesnt care where he cums, as long as he gets to cum
definitely does that embarrased cough thingy before saying, "so... uh..."
he let's out little, "oh yeah"s and "just like that"s, maybe even a, "please dont stop~"
please for the love of god tell him he did good (even though he didnt really do anything) and cuddle with him after you're done
tweek
oh boy
hes so shy!!
he'd be freaking out the whole time
"Ack- y/n- it feels too good it's too much pressure!!"
hes definitely trimmed, but he has a lot more hair than kyle. your nose is definitely gonna itch a bit (hes too scared to use razors down there)
grabs on the the bed sheets and squints his eyes shut
as I sort of mentioned earlier, hes really loud
make sure absolutely no one is around because they'd definitely hear him moaning
"Oh- oh god~" it feels so good, holy shit holy shit- I'm gonna cum soon!!"
whenever he cums he moves his hands to grab your head, shoving it down and squeezing your head with his is thighs. his eyes also roll back
like kyle, you should probably give him lots of cuddles!!
craig
let's get this out of the way, I dont think craig has ever shaved down there.
your nose might get carpet burns.
hes quiet, if you're lucky you might get an occasional "F-fuuck-" but that's about it
looks down at you and rubs the side of your head
maybe ^^
when he cums he doesnt give any warning whatsoever
hes probably the second biggest out of all of them tbh
after he cums hes probably gonna take a nap 💀
thanks for reading!! remember they're all ahead up to around 19-20!
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slimeylee · 2 months
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Never Fully Dressed Without a Smile
mashup of two requests ( i literally cant find the posts i responded to them in 😭 ) !!
7. “ I happen to know a weakness of yours . ”
IM SORRY THAT THIS IS SO SHORT N TOOK A WHILE TO RELEASE I HAD NO IDEAS FOR IT TO BE HON3ST .
lee ! vox ( he / it ) , ler ! alastor ( he / it )
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" I happen to know a weakness of yours , my dear friend . " Alastor smirked .
How did Vox end up like this ? First he was sneaking up to Alastor's dumbass radio tower fuckin' thing to try and take it down . Steal back his spotlight , y'know .
And now , here it was , being held in the air by multiple pairs of black tendrils as it was forced to look at the smirk on Alastor's stupid face .
" Fucking - put me down , you asshole ! " Vox growled as he twisted his head , yanking and tugging at his limbs .
" Now now , Vox , why the frustration ? Smile , dear ! " Alastor exclaimed , its everlasting grin grew wider on its face . " You know , you're never fully dressed without one ! "
" No , I don't believe I will ! After all , you did try to sneak into my radio tower . Quite a shame on your behalf . " Alastor stated .
Vox groaned , continuing its struggles as it squirmed in the trap it was stuck in .
Vox suddenly yelped , his back arching with surprise as he let out a squeak . One of the tendrils suddenly had poked its side .
" Whahahat the fuhuck - AHAHALASTOHOR ! " Vox cackled out , as the middle two tendrils wiggled into its sides , its arms and legs being held by two other sets of the tentacles .
" Did I find a bad spot already ? " Alastor smirked with evil in his eyes . Vox gasped and squealed with laughter as the tendrils attacked his underarms .
" SHIIHIHIT- AHAHA- QUHIHIT IHIT ! " Vox made multiple attempts to kick in his struggle , trying desperately to get away from the sensations .
" Whatever do you mean ? I'm not doing anything , Vox . " Alastor said , cocking his head to the side like a curious puppy . The tendrils swirled over Vox's belly as it shrieked .
" FUHUHZzUCK OH-O-oOHOFF ! Zzzzt " Vox cackled , his screen and voice glitching out as he threw his head back , trying desperately to get away from the sensations .
" Please , Vox . You and I both know you're enjoying this . " Alastor chuckled .
Vox turned red as his screen glitched more and his laughter grew wheezier and airy . " SHIH-I-IIHITzzzt - JU-U-AHAHAST STO-O-HOzztHOP ALREHEHEzzztAHADY ! "
Its lagging became more persistent as its laughter grew louder . The tentacles pulled away for a second , before they started to squeeze Vox's hips . He fucking lost it .
To say it screamed with laughter was an understatement.
" AHAA-A-AHAA-ALASTOR ! FUHAHA-A-ACK - IHIHI'LL FUHUCK-K-KING KI-I-ILL YOOooUuuu-zzztt ... "
Vox's screen flashed blue with his error message , before his whole screen turned off and went black .
Vox rebooted quickly , yelping as it suddenly dropped to the ground .. His stomach ached from how much he had been laughing . It rubbed its hips to rid itself of the ghost tickles as it glared up at Alastor .
" Wasn't that fun ? " He asked , as the tendrils slowly slid into the floor . " Hopefully this moment we had together taught you not to mess with the Radio Demon , " Alastor said , his voice grew deeper as he spoke . It followed the tendrils down swiftly as it , literally , melted into the floor .
Vox was out of breath , inhaling and exhaling heavily . Well ... that just happend . He tsked , standing up to leave the same way he had entered .
But as it stood for a moment , its face flushed a soft red as it had to admit ... he couldn't argue that it didn't enjoy what just happened ... a little bit .
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olderthannetfic · 1 year
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I get what other anon wants to say about non-english authors preferring English for their fic by calling them "ignorant",but truth being told, German porn (written as well!!!) is so bad its a running joke across boarders, so no thank you. For many years this was my default reading material, because I was not a well practiced English speaker. Finding this new, more casual overall language was eyeopening.(I am sure there are some niche okay things here as well, but its so little you cant imagine.)
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When a given language seems "good for porn" (or for anything, really), there are three reasons:
First, we're used to reading it, so we've gotten over the initial "Ack!" reaction.
Second, that language has a whole group of people using it for porn or to write about science or whatever, so not only has new vocabulary been coined, but common metaphors and ways of writing have been developed.
Third, and I'm fucking sorry, but this is the reality: we're not as good at a foreign language as we think we are, and that sands off the top level of awful from everything we read.
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The third one goes for every weeb who is horrified to find that translations sound like they're for 12-year-olds. (Surprise! That's what canon sounds like!) It also goes for every non-native speaker of English shitting on their own language in favor of doing fandom in mine.
All native speakers of English have to get used to porn in English. It sounds embarrassing and weird at first to most people. A new genre or writing community requires a new adjustment period. Being used to AO3 won't make you used to Nifty.org.
I completely sympathize with wanting to do fandom in English because there are exponentially more people than in some languages.
I have zero sympathy for this canard that your language is bad for X.
In Chaucer's day, English was "bad for writing", full stop.
In the 19thC, written English was typically more formal and more florid than the Hemingway-fellating styles in fashion today.
How people use a language and what kind of written standard exists depends on culture, not inherent principles of the language. Not wanting to be a trailblazer is fine, but that's what is going on here and every other fucking time someone trots out this idiotic notion.
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sporesgalaxy · 11 months
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well, while i certainly have More to say and more "evidence" to provide, going all "ack tually youre completely wrong and heres all 100 reasons why" on you doesnt sound like a fun time for either of us! its just that for me personally watching a show about two equally sad and jerkish kids duking out out sounds more fun than "full grown adult man manipulates, bullies, is obsessed with, and tries to murder 12 year old boy for 46 episodes"
i cant say anything on shipping or the grooming through thereof though i forgot thats what the point of your post was sorry
Ah, I definitely understand the appeal of two kids equally wronged by their society misdirecting their frustration at each other. But I think shying away from looking at Zim as an adult who bullies kids means shying away from some very fun philosophical implications of Zim being That Much of a Terrible Person...
Er. I was originally just going to post this so your stance on zadr is on the record, but I got carried away lol.
By no means am I trying to claim you're "wrong" by continuing to ramble about my point of view here, btw. I think that, so long as shipping is NOT involved, arguing that Zim might be a kid by Irken standards is just another way to analyze the show, and I don't doubt that you've read it that way for your own reasons.
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But see the POINT of my reading is that it's terrible and pathetic and reprehensible that Zim, as an adult, would stoop so low as to bully a literal child for 46 episodes, and not even succeed every time. It is a feature, not a bug, so to speak.
Zim would do something that awful and ridiculous because he is oh-so-enthusiastically chugging Irk's fascist kool-aid. Hs is therefore willing to take any victory he can get for the sake of counting it towards collective Irken superiority-- and the only victories he can actually get are against an Actual Child.
This reading is dear to me because the reality of fascism is that it rewards hyperloyal, incompetent, incurious jerks like Zim. A lot of fascists are and were very, very stupid.
So in the Adult Zim reading, fascism and hypernationalism are the butt of the joke! Yippee! Those ideologies ARE ridiculous and stupid, so true!
Now at first glance this reading seems very uncharitable to Zim. And it sort of is. But reading Zim as someone who's held onto hypernationalism into adulthood can also be nuanced and interesting! It can be used to explore how trying to become a part of the in-group can appeal to marginalized people who are simply desperate to escape the reality of their arbitrary exclusion (in Zim's case, he can easily be read as neurodivergent, as well as being the fictional Irken marginalized status of Short). My favorite Zim fanfiction is usually about him realizing Irk sucks, for this reason :) So yeah that's my pitch!
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mackjlee9 · 2 years
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HELLO ODUEGRFBYEICEO; You started twst?? omg thats so cool ahah
frick so your gonna write for twst now right? wow your a blessing yes another twst content for male readers;; ack im so excited! i've been following you in wattpad before so i wanna tell you, your writing is wonderful<33
so hah i cant think of what to request.. lets start simple i guess how about Ruggie? can i request fluff and angst, where ruggie is pining for his chilhood best friend(m/n) but he just cant fcking cross the line between friends to lovers, so he just pins and pins but deny it everytime m/n seems to reciprocate his feelings(which he does). and when a potential love rival occurs ruggie is determined to confess before m/n even thinks about being in a relationship other than him.
you can remove some stuff if you want but thank you!
have a good day or evening to ya! <3
Ruggie is so cute 🥺, must protect the little hyena.
Also... How is this so cute, what?
Ruggie Bucchi x Male!Reader [Fluff]
Masterlist.
Game; Twisted Wonderland
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Ruggie and (M/n) have known each other for a long time, pretty much since childhood, so they've been best friends for at least ten years.
(M/n) and his family moved to his neighborhood when he was six, and not having any kind of animalistic traits made them stand out quite a lot, and kids used to avoid (M/n) when the rumor of his parents being powerful magic users got out. But Ruggie didn't care about that.
He was the first and only one to talk to the boy, who was always by himself during school break and walked home alone, ignored by the rest of the kids.
They became friends really quickly, becoming almost inseparable.
And together, they were attending Night Raven College. Well, the problem was that (M/n) wasn't in the Savanaclaw dorm with him, so Ruggie only saw him during class and at the cafeteria... well, sometimes, since his senpai, Leona, always sent him over to bring him his lunch. It was difficult, they couldn't spend as much time together, since their dorms were kinda against other dorm students staying over for the night.
And some Savanaclaw third years have tried to fight (M/n), even if fighting is prohibited on campus, with or without magic, unless it has been officially announced.
To Ruggie was a little stressful, the judging stares of everyone from (M/n)'s dorm, his instincts told him to leave immediately, which would make him feel tense and anxious, and that made him stay less and less every time it happened.
He was sad, a little heartbroken too, not being able to see his best friend as much as he used to, not being able to spend time with the person he loves...
Yes, Ruggie is deeply in love with (M/n), but he was never able to do anything about it, the fear of rejection, and the anxiety it gave him when he thought that (M/n) might hate him too. It was too much, so he just kept quiet about it, watching how he started to get along with his classmates and dorm mates.
He was pining for the other male, reminiscing the times they spent together all those years ago as he rested his cheek on his hand, his bright blue eyes staring into the distance as he dozed off at the memories. He felt goosebumps on his body whenever a memory of (M/n)'s body pressed against his flashed through his mind.
Ruggie always denied it, to him it was obvious that (M/n) didn't have feelings for him, and yet, his hugs seemed to last longer, leaving a lingering feeling on the spots where they touch, and a flustered reaction whenever they would stare into the other's eyes for too long.
It was impossible, (M/n) never showed clear signs of liking him back -of course, whenever they were visible, Ruggie would just deny them and convince himself that he was reading into it too much-.
However, one day, Ruggie witnessed something that left him with a sour taste.
Someone, another guy, was sitting a little too close to (M/n) in class, clinging to his arm like a bitch. Damn dude was even flirting with him, completely ignoring what Crewel-sensei was teaching, therefore, distracting (M/n) too.
The (h/c) haired male seemed a little uncomfortable with how close this guy was, and he would attempt to back away every once in a while, showing an awkward smile.
This kept repeating itself, and whenever Ruggie would sit with (M/n) during class, at the cafeteria, or come and stay a little while at his dorm, he always felt a threatening stare on the back of his neck. Seeing Ruggie and (M/n) so close to each other made this mob character pissed, resulting in dragging (M/n) away from the hyena every chance he got.
Ruggie wasn't happy with that, and the week after, when he was coming back from bringing Leona his lunch, he overheard a conversation ahead of him. Mob-kun was talking to mob-two and mob-three, who seemed to be staring at mob-kun expectantly.
"Are you ever gonna confess?" Mob-2 said, and Mob-3 nodded.
Mob-kun only sighed and smiled brightly, "I'll do it today, since we're in the same dorm I'll just go to his room and ask him to be my boyfriend," both mobs started an early celebration for the new couple on campus, without noticing the twitchy ears hiding around the corner.
Ruggie felt his heart beating loud in his ears as his body felt heavy and cold with anger and anxiety. He had to do something, he couldn't risk it.
He didn't want (M/n) to date Mob-kun, not now, not ever!
Ruggie started running his way back to their classroom, since (M/n) had to stay behind for something Trein-sensei told him to do, so he was hoping he would still be there.
And he was.
Walking into the classroom with loud steps, Ruggie's breath was heavy and ragged, his mind fuzzy and cloudy, not really planning what he was gonna do, he just did it.
(M/n) looked up from the pile of books he had to bring over, and he took a few steps closer to his best friend.
"Ruggie? What-?"
"Mob-kun is gonna confess to you later today and I can't allow that! You were my crush first, I fell in love with you first, I've known you for way longer than he, and, and..." With his (e/c) eyes opened wide in shock, (M/n) was only able to stare at Ruggie as his face flushed red, his blue eyes getting teary as he moved his arms around frantically, as if trying to get his point across, which he did but not because of his exaggerated, rapid movements, "I won't let him take you away from me! You're... You're mine and I should've done something to prevent this from happening but-"
Feeling his body getting covered with goosebumps as he processed what was being said to him, (M/n) started calling out Ruggie's name over and over again to no avail, he wasn't even paying attention anymore, spilling out all the words and feelings he had been bottling up for many years now. His small body was shaking, whether it was from adrenaline, anger, or anxiety, he wasn't too sure.
"Ruggie..." Sighing as he realized his attempts at getting his attention were futile, (M/n) stepped close enough to bring him closer by his waist, his other hand cupping Ruggie's face as he leaned down to kiss him.
Wide, bright blue eyes stared at him in surprise, and the moment their kiss broke the eye contact was inevitable, a darker red blush colored Ruggie's face as he snapped back to reality, realizing what just happened and everything he said without thinking.
His first instinct was to press his face against (M/n)'s chest instead of running away. He felt safe in his arms and it had been so long since the last time they hugged.
"Are you done now? I wanted to say something too, y'know?" Gently holding Ruggie's face, (M/n) made him stare up at him, the glossy look in his beautiful blue eyes made his heart pound faster and louder. He leaned down, pressing their foreheads together, and softly whispered, "I love you, Ruggie, I've always loved you... Since that day when you talked to me and asked me if I wanted to play with you."
Ruggie blinked, baffled at the confession. Has (M/n) really been in love with him for that long? Yes, he's always loved him, unconditionally, but he was too scared to say something earlier.
"And I'm... beyond happy to know that you like me back," hugging his smaller body, (M/n) hid his face in Ruggie's neck, even if he had to bend down a little further.
Smiling wide as happy tears ran down his face, Ruggie hugged (M/n) back, tighter than he's ever hugged him before.
"I'll never stop loving you, (M/n), so... we'll be happy forever."
Extended ending
"...Who's Mob-kun, by the way?" Ruggie blinked a few times before pulling away from their hug with a small chuckle.
"No one, now," holding onto (M/n)'s hand, Ruggie started heading to the door, "Let's go to the cafeteria before lunch break is over."
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lunarbroadcast · 8 days
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I hate to say something you probably already know, but if you feel like you have to change your online persona so you don't "scare your therapist," then that therapist is NOT helping you and is probably doing the opposite. Also, talking abstractly about your blog is fine, but if your therapist is a religious person who's in community with your parents, do not give them the url: they could use it in a bad way, and I don't trust them from the information you've shared so far. Obviously you know the situation far better than my impression from a single tumblr post, but I'm worried for you :(
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hhh- thank you for worrying anon (srs i really appreciate it- giving you so many hugs rn)
im not gonna change my full persona cause hh- cant change that or my love for my tv goober but by tell her i meant like saying "yeah i have a blog where i ship myself with characters to cope so i dont get as depressed and stuff" i trust NO ONE with my blog url unless its a really close friend or my mother since she did the same thing as me when she was my age.
You're honestly right about them using the stuff i post in a bad way (i actually saw people get kicked out for posting something online hence why i never shared specific things) thankfully my parents are a bit understanding of the things i do online and they do the same thing of not interacting with people who are from the congregation unless theyre close family members
From what i saw and heard during my sessions with my therapist she keeps religion out of it when its needed so im glad i didnt get stuck with someone who would most likely talk about it during our sessions BUT ANOOOON
ANON ILY (/p) FOR WORRYING I HONESTLY THOUGHT THIS WAS HATE AT FIRST BUT ACK- GONNA CRY-
IF ANYTHING DOES HAPPEN ILL POST ABOUT IT SINCE THIS IS ALSO MY DIARY STUFF BUT YEA
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Madness Mansion of Helter Spider 12
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... you show too much simp attitude and spoke of things you shouldn't. This is twisted wonderland, in what mind, do think you can go anywhere?
First Violation penalty: ...
A G O N I Z I N G T O R T U R E
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"I--" you want to reason out, to tell him that you aren't ungrateful when your body suddenly become ragged and you felt invisible hands start to choke the air out of you.
"Ack... " You held your throat yet felt no hands holding you in a choke hold, you move around and the strings have wounded you. Blood spill around you and the mad hatter stood beside you watching you suffer with no expression on his face.
On the side Grey look at you in worry, while others stood in the side expressionlessly.
"kokoko, what a stupid little cat~ did you perhaps think you could escape this world even just for a moment~? AHAHAHAH...How laughable. " He grab your hair as he stare down at you with his purple eyes of madness seems to mirror the abyss, there's nothing but the abyss.
The pain of your scrap left you to cry out if not for the part your being choke hold by invisible Shadow hands that now start to gripping your wrist on tormenting grip, like it wish to snap your bone--
SNAP!
"agh.... " You want to scream from pain but mad hatter shut your mouth with his free hand. "Don't you dare scream in front of me... Besides.... That pain is nothing~" his grip on your jaw seems trying to stop himself from snapping it off as tears fall from your eyes as another invisible force have grip your left leg, your eyes widen in fear for the worse as the grin of THE MAD HATTER become permanent on his face.
SNAP!!
"!!!!!!!" You find yourself unable to breath from the pain, everything felt so painful. You can't feel your right let or wrist. You cant scream and the person before you chuckle at your agony and won't even let you scream.
"I was going to punish you, but you did it to yourself... How amusing and delusional of you... You don't know the roles of this world... Such a stupid cousin of the so called cheshire cat." His gaze turn cold as he throw you to the floor like a rag doll, hour head collide on the floor with a soft bang. He stood up and wipe his hands. The hands disappear as he let go of you.
"Get that thing off my sight. I'm not entertained anymore." He give you no look as he left the room, red chuckle in amusement as Blue follow mad hatter. Small blue wave at you with a smile as if he doesn't feel bother to see you in pain. "Bye bye~" he the. Skip toward the other blue.
"*hic.." you weep silently as grey was the first one to approach you with worried face.
"Grey hurry up with that. We still need to play some card game since the night is yet to end." Red soon left the room as well, leaving you with Grey.
"you should watch what you think... The world doesn't treat everything and everyone so kindly, to even think of such taboo." He Slowly bandage your wounds with first aid kit he have in his pocket. A sad smile on his face as he look at your crying and sobbing form. "I'm sorry... I can't do anything. Nor tell you all the rules of this world __" he carefully fix your wounds up, so you won't feel pain from it yet every move cause you to squirm in pain.
"why would you think... This world is a simple thing... There's rules and roles... " He sigh as if trouble by something. "Your wounds is almost fetal... Yet you cannot use revive. Because it's one of your penalty, you have to go through the pain, pain that will take your sanity and leave nothing but madness." He chuckle hopelessly before he sigh.
" I have the 7th tea. Drink it. And you will only dream about stuff... You shouldn't bother much about it... When you wake up... The pain is less and it be morning again." He stood up and left the room so fast and come back, holding a tray of coffee. " H-here... " He try to not spill more tea as he hide the tea cup to your lips, you eyed him suspiciously, you cannot trust him. What if his the same as that hateful person?
"it's good you won't trust so easily, but you really need to drink it. Unless you wish to suffer through the pain..." He chuckle at your soft glare your giving him.
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Would you drink this tea?
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Hi, uh, I normally don't ask anything or say anything to authors, normally its just me reading and continuing with my life. But I just wanna let you know that the way you write your stories is so... genuine and gives me emotions only a married couple for 30+ years should feel. The details you add when it comes to describing and telling how the character feels or explaining the aesthetic and scenery......holy. There are hundreds of thousands of books and stories on this app, and all I can think about is yours. You're extremely talented, and honestly, the way you write leaves me feeling desperate when I see any of your stores come to an end. The talent you have at your fingertips leaves me almost begging for more, and man, how I wish I found you sooner. So, thank you for constantly raising my standards on stories and books and leaving me with a sense of fullness. Thank you for showing me that a book is 100% capable of making me feel loved and desired. Have a wonderful day, month, year, and rest of your wonderful and needed life. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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hey so this ask actually floored me i feel a little insane? a little ill? this is so genuinely heartfelt im??? i teared up I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN I MIGHT BE A LITTLE INCOHERENT BECAUSE IM SO FLATTERED I COULD EXPLODE BUT ;;;;;;;;
first of all!!!! from the bottom of my heart: THANK YOU SO MUCH <3333333 🥺🥺🥺 like ohhhh i dont know how to properly verbalize how happy this message made me but please know that my heart is just. brimming w love for u i am picking u up & covering u in kisses <3333 im so touched that u took the time to write this out???? ESPECIALLY since u dont do it often like that means so so much????
ack. just. every little thing u said is so incredibly sweet and kind and it just makes me feel so fortunate 😭😭 really!!!! i feel so so lucky when it comes to interactions on this blog and it’s messages like these that give me motivation to write, i save each & every one of them!! aaaaa i cant tell u how happy i am to be able to make u feel something w my writing….. :’3 i think that’s everything any writer could ask for tbh!!! knowing that my fics could make u feel loved & desired is the greatest feeling ever, im so so glad!! u deserve it!!!!
wahhhh just 😭😭 tysm. u are sosososo sweet and im gonna read this ask over and over again whenever i start to doubt my own writing <333 it’s so kind of you to take the time to write this out, i honestly couldnt tell you how much it means!! thank u again my beloved <333 i hope u have the most wonderful day and month and year and life too!!!
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