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badaziraphaletakes · 2 months

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can you please stop? screenshotting someone else’s post is extremely rude and only makes the fandom a worse place. talk about a bad take you saw, describe how it’s harmful, and vague all you want, but don’t screenshot. i agree that most of these takes are awful but that’s no excuse to do this to people. either confront the person who’s take you don’t like or make your own post. stop screenshotting, please.

Either confront the person who’s take you don’t like or make your own post.

The assumption that I didn’t try that is where you went wrong. I (mod X) started this blog only after I tried many, many times to confront people about their offensive takes directly and it didn’t work. I was subjected to appalling harassment and even bigotry. That’s what happens when you try to engage with someone who’s being offensive.

I had been throwing the idea around for weeks and what finally decided me on starting it was that I found out that I wasn't alone. That the anti-Autistic bias and the ableism and the transphobia and the victim-blaming and the misogyny (and on and on and on) that we kept seeing and being subjected to was ruining our enjoyment of this show. This was bigger than just me.

FTR, most of the takes that are submitted to us (note that I'll be switching between "I" and "we" in this reply depending on the context) don’t have a handle attached to them, but of the few that do include a handle, 99% of the time I have recognized it as someone who I have seen being so bigoted that there was no possible way I could engage with them. We don't confront people directly partly because we don't want to direct people who disagree back to the OP's blog, and partly to keep the mods safe.

You say “do this to people” like this blog is committing some kind of outrage, which is absurd. We are, at worst, being slightly rude (which I think is justified considering sarcasm and humor are one of the only weapons we have to fight back against hate), whereas most of the posts we comment on are outright hateful. They’re the ones “doing this to people”.

We are being far more considerate of the writers’ feelings and their dignity than they ever were of other people’s in the fandom. The takes are not just ‘awful’ (although, that too haha); they are actively harming vulnerable members of the fandom, and, more concerningly, are spreading messages that will poison our views on how we should treat Autistic people, ab*se survivors, and the like in broader society. Quite frankly, the people who are spouting the kind of anti-Autistic/ableist/victim-blaming/otherwise bigoted crap that forms the bulk of the content we feature here deserve to have their posts screenshotted. People who say things like that do not deserve to be handled with kid gloves in response.

(Also I don’t have time to re-type and slightly paraphrase every bad take I see. And if I did, people would throw out “no one is really saying this”. And even if it weren’t for that, I don’t think it’s reasonable or appropriate to expect me to use my time that way.)

Incidentally, nothing is stopping people from messaging/asking us or commenting if they recognize a post as their own, but only one person has ever done that, asking if a post was theirs. I replied that it was, leaving the ball in their court. So far we haven’t heard back from them about the matter, which is fine. But I digress.

As for this blog making the fandom a worse place - even though it’s only a few weeks old, I’ve had an average of two new people a day, every day, tell me how grateful they are I created it and how it makes them feel safe and how it’s the only reason they haven’t left the fandom. I’ve even had multiple people say “I was going to leave the fandom because of that specific post and then your blog called it out and I felt like I wasn’t alone”. So yeah, I'd say screenshotting is important here.

There is a subset of the fandom - many of us Autistic, Disabled, ab*se survivors, GNC, trans, and/or otherwise oppressed - who have been made to feel EXTRAORDINARILY unsafe by the Aziraphale hate (which far, far too often is thinly-veiled hate for some of the aforementioned groups of people) and the truly scary way people double down when we push back against it. So I don’t care if people are annoyed by my sharing a screenshot of their post. Not when this blog has become a safe space for so many people who otherwise would have had Good Omens ruined for them by the bigotry and general hatefulness we keep seeing.

LSS I will not stop building this tiny lil corner of the internet that is the only part of the fandom where many of us feel safe.

I actually made a post addressing almost this exact thing a couple weeks ago; if I can find it, I’ll add it here in a rb.

#good omens #goodomens #good omens 2 #badaziraphaletakes #goodomens2

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am-i-the-asshole-official · 7 months

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Aita for being harsh to my friend who was asking me for reassurance over anxiety

I (21F) have a friend (21m), who we'll call Sam, who is very anxious and is autistic. Sam has a tendency to take everything I do as a sign that I secretly hate him, even when it has nothing to do with him. It's honestly a bit suffocating. Previously, hes gotten upset about me not being on my phone while I was studying for an exam, he's gotten really upset with me when I said I couldn't talk right now because I was really hungover, etc. We've had discussions about this before, and I've been like "look, if I hated you we wouldn't be hanging out at all dude, please stop reading everything I do so negatively." It hasn't really improved the situation.

Two weeks ago exactly from when I write this, there was a death in my immediate family. I was there when they passed, and I've never seen anyone die before, and it really hit me hard. I want to grieve alone. I don't want to talk to anyone for a while, as I process things. I told my friends, and Sam specifically, that I was going offline for a while as I grieved. Everyone, Sam included, told me to take the time I needed.

It's been a hectic two weeks, and I've not had as much time alone to process as I would have wanted. People, including Sam, have checked in on me and I've told them im not doing good and I'm not ready to get back online.

Yesterday, Sam messaged me (all of this took place on Snapchat so I don't have the exact messages anymore) saying that he knew I said I wasn't talking to people but that he felt neglected and ignored. He said that is RSD was playing up and he was convinced that I hated him, and he wanted reassurance that I didn't.

I was absolutely furious with him when I got that message, I'll be honest. Inwardly, I was like how fucking dare you make this about you. How dare you ignore that I literally told you that I wasn't speaking to people because of MY OWN metal health and that it was nothing to do with you. I was (and still am really) so, so angry.

I knew, however, that it wouldn't do any good to say that to him. Instead, I said that my life does not revolve around him, that I hadn't thought about him once since our last text, and that we were good friendship wise on my end but that I was not ready to talk as I was really not doing well.

He said I was being mean to him, and guilted me into a 3 hour conversation to sate his anxieties. He thinks we're good now, but I'm so fucking angry with him for this. Fuck me, I suppose, my one fucking request to be left alone means nothing. Fuck my mental health. Fuck the fact I just watched a family member DIE, Sam has decided that I hate him again so I must drop everything to reassure him. AGAIN!

I'm too angry to see this situation clearly; I have no idea whether I'm an asshole or not. Was I mean? "My life doesn't revolve around you" might be mean.

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

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reidsaurora · 2 years

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"Kisses Make Everything Better" ~ S. Reid

Summary: Spencer and Y/N get taken hostage, he goes into sensory overload and they have to help him through it.

Pairing: Autistic!Spencer Reid x GN!Reader (i'm p sure no pronouns are used)

Word Count: 1,195

Content Warning: Y/N and Spencer do be kidnapped, mentions of guns, minor character death, mentions of hospitals, sensory overload/overstimulation, very mild swearing, lmk if i missed anything!

Genre: Angst to Fluff, Hurt/Comfort

Extra Notes: another crappy summary but i promise the imagine is written much better

Based On the Prompt: "Hair's Breadth from Death" - gun to temple (from 2022 Whumptober Prompts)

Originally Written: 10/07/2022

Beta Read By: @dungeons-are-too-cold and @theghouligan

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"Where did you take him?" she growled, grip tight around the gun in her hand.

"For the last time, Ruby, we don't know where your son is," I huffed. "Oliver was placed in foster care after your arrest. We don't know where he went or if he even has the same name."

My eyes darted over to Spencer. His chest heaved, tears brimmed his eyes, and his leg bounced as best it could through the restraints around his ankles.

I could tell Spencer was headed toward sensory overload, most likely caused by both the flex cuffs around his wrists and ankles and the volume of her shouting. One of Spencer's many sensory triggers was plastic, the texture he hated most. He had a couple sensory overload tells, but his most dominant tell was his fidgeting leg.

My face softened as I looked over him. I craved Spencer's touch constantly, but when I saw him in situations like this, I wanted to wrap him up tight and prove to him that things would be OK.

Ruby must've noticed my look of sympathy, prompting her to shout, "Hey, don't look at him! Look at me!"

My eyes flickered over to her, watching as she paced. Her face contorted from a look of anger to a look of curiosity as she paced over to Spencer.

"If you won't tell me where Ollie is," she said, sliding a singular bullet into the chamber, "then I'll just have to make you tell me."

Click!

"Ruby, don't do this," I pleaded. "What will Oliver think of his mother when he finds out she killed a federal agent?"

Spencer's chest heaved five times harder than it already was. "Please," he managed weakly, tears sliding down his cheeks.

"Tell me where he is."

I couldn’t take it anymore. "Ruby, I already told you a hundred times-"

Click!

"Y/N, please make her stop!" Spencer begged.

My mind raced as I attempted to find some way to calm them both. I thought through my options, trying to find something to give me leverage over her.

I knew I shouldn't, it was the one thing Spencer hated telling people about himself, but I knew it might work. I knew it might make Ruby take a step back and consider her son. "Ruby, he has autism."

She pressed the barrel to his skin, surely hard enough to cause an imprint. "No, he doesn't. You're lying."

"I'm not lying. He has autism, just like Oliver," I told her. "He’s going into sensory overload. You wouldn't do that to Oliver, would you? So please don’t do it to Spencer either."

She scoffed, her eyes rolling sarcastically. "You're just saying that so I'll feel bad."

"It's true," Spencer whimpered, "I got diagnosed last year, not long after you lost Oliver."

Click!

"Tell me where Ollie is," she demanded once more, still holding the gun close to Spencer's forehead.

"I already told you a million times, Ruby. We don't-"

"'Know where he is.' Yeah, I know. We've been over that song and dance before," she antagonized. "I'll put the gun down when you tell me where my son is."

I rolled my eyes at her, throwing my head back in frustration. "You wanna know where he is, Ruby?"

Her eyes lit up, her expression filled with sarcasm. "I was wondering when you'd get the message."

My eyes narrowed as she walked closer to me. I leaned up close to her face once she was close enough. "He's living with a nice family who could take way better care of him than your sorry ass ever could," I spat. "He's living with a nice family where the mom isn't a hit woman and the dad is actually in the picture."

BOOM!!!

My ears rang as a gunshot sounded off throughout the room. My eyes screwed shut as tears slid down my face.

"Are you two OK?" I heard a familiar voice ask from across the room.

I slowly opened my eyes, spotting Rossi and Morgan as they walked over to untie us. My mouth fell agape as I registered the fact that Spencer was still alive and breathing. "You're OK," I managed through shallow breaths.

"I'm OK," he confirmed. "What about you?"

Once Rossi had successfully untied me and Morgan had untied Spencer, we rushed over to each other, falling into each other's arms. "I'm OK now," I answered.

Spencer kept his distance during the ambulance ride to the hospital. Luckily, I was able to plead with the driver to keep the siren turned off for Spencer's sake, though I could tell the flashing of the light did nothing to ease his overstimulation.

Once we reached the hospital, I stayed close enough to Spencer to let him know I wasn't leaving his side. The nurse allowed me to share an exam room with him too after I explained our situation.

The room stayed mostly silent, save for us answering the doctors' questions. Spencer's heart rate was still extremely high, probably the result of him having difficulties with calming down after such high stakes situations.

Slowly, I stood from my seat, sitting down beside him on the exam table. "Are you OK?" I whispered.

He nodded slowly, avoiding eye contact with me. "Hey, do you think Rossi and Morgan heard what you said? A-about my diagnosis, I mean."

I exhaled, attempting to figure out how to answer his question. "I'm not sure."

"You don't think they'll make fun of me, do you?" he asked, his volume matching that of mine. "I don't want them to think I'm less capable in the field now that everyone's suspicions have been confirmed."

I held my hand close to his face, not touching him quite yet. "May I?"

He swallowed hard, but nodded nonetheless.

I pressed my hand to his cheek, wiping the remnants of his tears. "No one is going to think you're less capable. And if they did, I'd beat their ass for being ableist."

He cracked a small smile, his eyes finally fluttering up to meet mine. "Thank you."

"I love you, Spencer. I would've never said that if I hadn't thought it would help the situation. I thought telling her about your diagnosis might make her take a step back and think about her actions," I explained. "I'm sorry it didn't work as well as I'd hoped."

"I love you too," he whispered, leaning into my touch.

The room stayed silent for a moment, a comfortable silence I'd craved ever since we'd been taken hostage in the first place. I listened to his breathing, feeling a sense of serenity wash over me as I heard shallow breaths turn into deeper, calmer breaths.

"Y/N?" he spoke again after a couple minutes.

"Hmm?" I hummed, still running my thumb across the soft skin of his cheek.

"Can you kiss me?" he asked, his eyes immediately darting away. "I think it might help distract me."

I gave him a soft smile before leaning in, placing my lips on his. His lips were slightly cracked and dry, but I didn't care.

"Thank you," he whispered as he broke away.

"Of course," I smiled. "Kisses make everything better."

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i don't wanna talk about how much i hate the title of this aldjslshsksgajs

you know what i do wanna talk about tho? how much i love georgia and gracie 🫶🏻

bc they both saw the potential in this fic and gave me so many pointers on making this better for you guys. i just wanna give them both a lil shoutout. love u guys 🥰

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voids-ideas · 4 months

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I recently went to a very ugly place, with comments that were attacks on me and people like me. Unfortunately, I have the habit of going to read those comments when I discover them on the internet.

But that's not the point I want to go to, what I want to go to is that those comments were about invalidating asexual identities and aromantic identities.

And as I was looking at all those lovely hate messages, I came across one specific one where they said we were weirdos, that we were trying to stick our problems where they didn't belong, and that we were attention seeking.

It was the weird part that stuck with me, the other... yeah, I accept it as the comments that always come out in hate speech. But weird?

You see, I'm also autistic. And I know one thing: Asexuality and aromanticism are more common in autistic people.

And I know another thing: All my life I've been called weird because of the things that make me autistic.

So the only thing I can conclude from this is that she was not only invalidating the aro and ace communities. She was also indirectly attacking autistic people.

It's a common thing with autistic people, it's a community with a lot of autistic people. And you want to once again lump us in where you can't see us, where our problems can be ignored.

Defining a group with a lot of autistic people as weird, very innovative, isn't it?

Stop calling people you don't like and don't feel comfortable with weird. Stop talking like they should be ignored. No one deserves to be fucking ignored by society. If society doesn't seek the benefit of ALL humanity, then what do we have a society for?

#And yes #I know I should probably ignore those types of blogs.#But... i can't #asexual #asexuality #aroace #aromantic #aromantism #autism #actually autistic #autistic community #autistic

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donniesexceptionalmind · 8 months

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Hey, I kind of wanted to rant about something that's been on my mind for ages. Sorry if your not doing asks, I didn't see anything saying you weren't. If your not, you can gladly ignore this. TW:Sewerslide :((

I feel like my mum and step-dad are embarrassed of me for who I am. Btw I am autistic. I do this really weird thing were I eat sandwiches and burgers, were I kind of, deconstruct it? So like,I eat the ingredients in order of what it's made in. I have tried eating it with all the ingredients,but I just feel like I'm going to be sick. They always have to remind me to eat it normally, and make me feel like I'm a burden. Technically, I am eating it normally, because it's going into my mouth, I'm chewing it, and it's going into my stomach 😂 and I just end up eating the burger when I get home, because I'm scared my stepdad is going to shout at me. Nearly every holiday we go on I always do something to get shouted at about. Mostly because of tone. Sometimes my brother does things that really annoy me, like stealing my things, like just now he's stolen my cat laser and is trying to blind me with it. My stepdad was mumbling, "Why isn't she smiling?" And earlier he was blatantly asking my mum why I was sulking when my brother called me dumb and was kicking me for no reason. I'm constantly afraid I'm going to ruin a day out with me feeling sad because of something. My stepdad in the past has made me develop body issues, saying I walked like a boy, I walk weird, my dancing and singing was horrible, and that I ate like a pig. And my mum does nothing. Once he shouted at me for something really fucking dumb and I tried commiting Sewerslide in the bathtub. I'm really sorry for being negative but I feel like I'm just boring my gf with how many rants I'm giving her 😂.

I hope you have a good day, Donnie :))

-Colin✨💻

Greetings, Colin.

You express a lot of the struggles other autistics, neurodivergent otherly disabled or mentally ill people go through on a daily basis. You have my compassion for that. It's not easy.

You are valid just the way you are.

Too me, nothing you do seems particularly weird - well, I am considered weird too (outside the fact that I'm a literal turtle mutant). I could tell you A MILLION things that I do that allistic people would consider weird, crazy or stupid.

Let me tell you something:

If people get upset by you being your natural self & tell you you ruined their day - then they are not worth your time. It's THEIR fault for not accepting you & your autistic traits.

I know by default that our autistic traits can be difficult to face (outsiders & ourselves). That's why autism's a disability.

Your uniqueness should be celebrated. That counts for everyone reading this.

It's really sad that your mum doesn't support you & what your stepfather did to you was unacceptable.

I am incredibly sorry that it made you so miserable.

My take:

Stop. Commenting. On. Other. People's. Behaviour. And. Appearance.

Yes, even though you're close to them.

Yes, even though you care about them.

Yes, even though you think it's weird.

Yes, even though it isn't considered normal in society's bullshit rules.

If it is NOT HARMING someone or themselves - YOU DO NOT HAVE THE RIGHT TO COMMENT.

AHEM.

I hope you have a pleasant existence.

P.S.: my asks are always open, I might not reply immediately - it can take a few days seeing I am still a busy ninja & a scientist & I also have a private life - but I will reply. If the message is not mean, hateful or anything nasty.

#donnie answers #donnie speaks #donnies exceptional mind #turtle net #autism #rottmnt autistic donnie #rise autistic donnie #autistic donatello #autistic donnie #self worth #comfort character #mental heath support #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt donatello

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ocpdzim · 2 years

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so ok in deep space nine they HEAVILY code the genetically enhanced people as neurodivergent (imo they all read quite clearly as autistic coded like, specifically, but most of them also seem to have other neurodivergency going on on top of that) and on one hand it kind of really sucks and is one of the biggest fuckups in the show in terms of like. representation. bc it’s sometimes played for some sort of shitty comedy and also plays into the autistic savant stereotype which nobody likes.

however also with that big “THIS KINDA SUCKS” disclaimer out of the way , there’s also some other things about how it’s handled that i want to also discuss bc they’re either interesting or actually good or just fucking weird and the combination of “this is good” and “this sucks” and “what the absolute hell were they even trying to do here” has resulted in me not being able to stop thinking about it.

first of all the number one thing that i think is actually really good about it is the very blatant and obvious “we need neurodivergent doctors for neurodivergent people” subtext that i’m not even sure it’s accurate to call subtext, it may just be text. NEVER have i seen that as a message in any show, the closest i have seen are shows where there’s a neurodivergent doctor but the reason the show considers that great is that the doctor in question can come up with novel ideas for helping neurotypical patients with unrelated issues. but it is really important - we do need neurodivergent doctors!!!! it makes a MASSIVE difference in pretty much the exact way depicted in the episode - neurodivergent doctors treat neurodivergent patients like people and engage with them on their own level and can relate to them and understand what they’re going through. star trek really said “maybe some of these patients who are ~difficult cases~ aren’t actually difficult cases and don’t need some kind of novel special procedure or whatever, they just need someone to fucking respect them for once.” and it extended that compassionate and humanizing perspective to neurodivergent people who had extremely visible and debilitating symptoms. brilliant incredible ahead of its time i just wish that it wasn’t weighed down by other Problems In The Episode. and since i figure i ought to throw in my two cents, i think this is a valuable enough message that it makes up for the flaws of the episode overall even though they are so glaring.

second of all the other thing i think is Actually Really Good about it is bashir being neurodivergent already before augmentation (they pretty much explicitly state he had some sort of learning disability) and how his parents’ attempt to “fix” him was NOT a good parenting move but instead, even though it DID make him fit in more with society and “fix” his symptoms, was a massive violation of his personhood that severely damaged his sense of self and pretty much destroyed his relationship with his parents. they weren’t evil or hateful parents - they really did want what was best for their son - but because of their ableism they couldn’t understand that what he really needed was to be accepted and respected for who he was, and to have his needs accommodated, not to be changed. neurodivergent kids get put through traumatizing and harmful “therapies” by parents who really do love them and would never intentionally harm them just like this all the time in real life. i really liked that his parents were dealt with sympathetically and it was made clear that they really did mean well, but despite that, he didn’t have to accept any justifications for what they’d done and his father ended up facing real consequences for it and accepting that it had been wrong.

this is a continuation of the bit about bashir being neurodivergent already, but i felt it needed a paragraph break - the other thing about the way being augmented by his parents in an attempt to stop him from being neurodivergent impacted bashir as a character that worked really well is that it DIDN’T stop him from being neurodivergent, it stopped him from outwardly appearing neurodivergent super obviously. it’s made very clear that even though he doesn’t have the same symptoms he had as a child, he’s still neurodivergent and instead of freeing him from any kind of burden, the treatments he was subjected to have condemned him to a life of masking forever. once again this is something that is the actual goal of many “therapies” for developmentally disabled people (fuck you aba), AND it’s something that a lot of neurodivergent people end up self-enforcing even if they’ve never been through these abusive therapies. bashir has to hide his neurodivergency to avoid making others uncomfortable and to protect his career, and it takes a clear and painful toll on his wellbeing even though it allows him to become a successful doctor. he makes it very clear he’d have rather lived his life without being forced into this box in the first place, even though now that he’s in the box he doesn’t want to get back out of it since being his authentic self now, after all the years of hiding, would put everything he has at risk. a lot of us do grapple with that and i don’t often see it portrayed at all.

now onto stuff i cannot slot neatly into “this is great” or “this sucks.”

on an actual serious level it is not good but i personally find it extremely hilarious, like as a concept, that in the sci-fi future of star trek, they invented a procedure to give your kid autism and then banned it because it makes your kid smarter and stronger than all the other kids and maybe he’ll take over the world. i’m drafting my world domination plan right now as we speak so watch out, i will destroy the government with my autism beam attack.

i have a lot of mixed feelings about lauren. on one hand, the way she’s written is often very flat and sometimes kind of creepy, and i wish she was dealt with with more nuance and depth. on the other hand, having a character who is not only disabled but institutionalized and nevertheless presenting her as beautiful, sexy, and capable of wanting and having romantic and sexual interactions is kind of nice in the face of the rampant desexualization experienced by disabled people.

the federation’s broad anti-augment stance is interesting in a show that generally presents the federation as being over most other types of discrimination. i think it’s intended to be up for audience interpretation whether the federation policies about augments are good or bad. personally, i think that it’s FLAGRANTLY bad - it isn’t the choice of a child whether to be augmented! it certainly makes sense for the procedure to be illegal considering both the risk of it being used for eugenics and the nature of it as a horribly violating procedure, but the consequences should not fall on the genetically enhanced person, but rather on whoever did that to them. i wish we’d seen more pushback against the federation’s policies and more examination of what they meant for augmented people.

the treason plotline being connected to all this was baffling to me. i am not necessarily against it on a principle level - “neurodivergent people will engage in high stakes treason and espionage in order to solve the world’s most fucked trolley problem” is so silly that it isn’t really a message i’m worried about - but i felt like it wasted the potential of the episode to go in plenty of other, more impactful directions. i would’ve much rather seen it end with the augments and the federation coming up with a better arrangement for their treatment and living situation - either to integrate into mainstream society or to find a way to improve the way they’re treated at the institution so that they are respected, listened to, and have their needs met better. ideally i would’ve really liked if we saw them all end up with different solutions, like maybe some of them would want to leave the institution and make a life for themselves outside it but others would want to stay, but with more autonomy and respect within the institution.

#NOTE i havent finished watching the show. i am aware they come back in at least 1 more episode. i didnt see that one yet #so like. no idea what happens in it or how it impacts this analysis #deep space nine #deep space 9 #ds9 #star trek #julian bashir #AUGH THIS IS SO LONG. sorry guys <3 #i have lots to say lol #ableism mention -#you can reblog this if you want to. like it isnt a personal do not reblog post you know?#also yeah i have been watching star trek from the 90s #they took it off netflix and so i pirated it to watch the rest and i guess paramount has a whole team dedicated to tracking down star trek #pirates bc they IMMEDIATELY threatened to cut off my internet. joke's on them though. eat shit paramount i already downloaded it #so i do not need to continue downloading it anyway

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transgenderdoctorwhomst · 18 days

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So I've spent the past like, two weeks, trying to dissect with my partner what exactly is making 13's first season so... uninteresting and even just bad to us. And today I've finally figured it out!

Obviously just my opinions, disclaimer I've only watched up to the end of Spyfall, this is not intended as hate but rather criticism, and you are completely free to disagree or just ignore the whole post..

I'm going to put this under a cut in order to not take up the whole dash. Topics: The Doctor's autism, and the dynamics between 13 and her companions. So, let's start!

The failure to characterize 13 consistently with past incarnations, especially in regards to the Doctor's naturally rebellious nature and extremely visible autism.

As someone who's autistic, the very very consistent autistic traits in the Doctor are always extremely obvious. And for an incarnation written with that in mind, you'd think that it would be consistent, right?

But here's where something major about the Doctor is missing: so far, as of the end of Spyfall part 2, I have rarely seen 13 engage extensively with her special interests. The only examples I can think of are when she meets Rosa Parks, visits Kerblam!, and when she meets the Solitract.

The Doctor has a strong tendency to get so caught up in their special interests that they basically will not shut up about it when it comes up, often rambling without fully checking if someone is actually listening. I... feel like I rarely see 13 do it that much? Sure, she's happy to explain things when she's asked, and she clearly has special interests, the sheer prevalence it should have in how she engages with the world is just... not really there.

The lack of it makes it feel like her character is missing something major, and was hard to put together that it was this specifically that was bothering me. I can think of a million examples of each Doctor respectively engaging with their special interests near constantly, but it feels like it's hardly there for 13 in comparison.

As for her rebellious nature, 13 has so far been remarkably passive about capitalistic crimes. I'm sure we all remember her and Kerblam!. And the spiders in the hotel. You would expect the Doctor to challenge the systems that caused those respective problems, encourage the people in those systems to fix it, but she just sort of... doesn't.

She doesn't care the warehouse employees have to save up miniscule wages just to see their family once a year, that they're tracked and constantly under threat of losing what little income they have, that even though society has progressed so this can all be automated, the powers that be are not adapting with that to provide basic necessities to the public, and instead are telling everyone they're lucky if they get to be indentured to Kerblam!. The Doctor stops a man from committing terrorism (because all protesters of these systems are also serial killer terrorists, clearly), and then doesn't stop to deal with the root cause. She just tells him he's wrong, is satisfied the company will hire more humans (put more people in the meat grinder), and leaves.

The spiders episode is a whole thing, focusing more on the side effects of the actual problem, which is capitalist businessmen cutting corners for profit and ignoring regulations, and getting away with it. The message of the episode at the end comes out as "you shouldn't actively kill any living thing for any reason", citing trapping the spiders in a room to die as more humane. But I would strongly disagree.

The humane thing to do for those spiders, who were mutated, suffering, and having a negative impact on both the local spiders and humans, would have been to swiftly kill them. The Doctor cares more about not feeling bad about killing the spiders than the system that made this happen in the first place, or ending their suffering, which feels wildly out of character.

2. The companions don't feel like they have a lot going on, and lack the kind of strange connection past companions have.

So, Graham Ryan and Yaz are all kind of just boring. I see the dynamics and relationships they're supposed to have with each other, but none of it feels compelling. I don't feel any connection to them.

At first, I thought that it was because Chibnall introduced three companions in the first episode. It's definitely a contribution, since having to introduce four major characters compared to one or two isn't the easiest thing to do. But it's possible.

Torchwood introduces six characters to us at the start: five members of Torchwood 3, and Gwen. Every single character feels distinctive, they have clashing personalities that also bounce of each other. The introduction feels great, and you can immediately watch their characters develop and change over the course of the first season.

The Doctor and the Fam? I literally cannot tell you distinctive personality traits about each of them besides basic vibes. It took until Spyfall for them to start feeling distinct. I can't tell you major flaws, major anything. I can barely describe their respective relationships to the Doctor, besides "weird friend with the time machine we know nothing about."

The single thing portrayed as a flaw in the Doctor is that she doesn't like talking about herself unprompted. They don't know a lot about her, but in her defence, they barely ask.

Past companions in New Who always have some strange relationship with the Doctor. Rose is having a situationship with him after he blew up her workplace, and has complex feelings about how travelling with him affects her life at home. Martha is having this weird situation where he's using her to fill the gap left by Rose, while trying to keep his distance, and Martha is just trying to figure out how the fuck to get him to look at her as her own person. Donna decided she wanted more in life, and by god was she going to grab the Doctor and take it, assigning herself his new best friend.

Amy met the Doctor as a child, obsessed over him for 14 years, ran away with him before her wedding, and then dragged Rory along, and ended up with the weirdest family dynamics possible. Rory isn't sure how to feel about the Doctor, and the two of them for some reason take turns being the "mature" one. Clara is overly dedicated to him and deeply enjoys the power trip that comes along with having time travel.

I can't speak about Bill or Nardole, because I haven't actually met them, but I know there's some kind of dynamic going on there.

The point is, every individual has some kind of distinctive and very strange relationship with the Doctor, from the very start. Friends, but something else. Romantically interested in each other, but dancing around that boundary. The 13th Doctor has absolutely nothing strange or compelling with hers so far.

Like, I could think of at least some with what we have! 13 decides Graham is her grandson, because Ryan and Yaz have a grandparent figure, but Graham doesn't, and then extends that to Ryan with deciding to be a great-great-grandparent figure to him.

At least in her first season, she doesn't seem opposed at all to a relationship with Yaz. The Doctor is notoriously weird about relationships. If Yaz panicked and told her mom that she was dating the Doctor, the Doctor could just roll with it and now Apparently They're Dating ???. It could be so fun! But there just... isn't anything!

Maybe it gets better in her second season onwards, but these kinds of things should be established fairly quickly. Like, at least halfway through the first series. I genuinely hoped her first season would be better on a rewatch, because I watched it while it was airing, and dropped the show after because I was just so not into it. I shouldn't have to be doing this much work to make it interesting to me! I shouldn't be enjoying early Moffat Who more than this!

Anyways if you read all this, I am very happy to hear thoughts and counterpoints, just please don't send me hate anons :)

#doctor who #thirteenth doctor #meta posting #ramblings #ok to reblog #i do like 13 she's just like. my least favorite so far #theres so much missed potential. babygirl i could fix you #this is 2 for 2 of chibnall shows ive seen where the first season is mid at best #and then picks up in the second season #i think he just sucks at making his own characters #he's fine when he's writing existing characters #i like every single torchwood team member #like a lot #i did not intend this post to be this long. whoops

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there are few things that make me sadder than how blatantly parents of autistic children just never stop talking about how much they hate their kids even if they dont think thats what theyre saying. definitely my fault for ending up in places where parents of autistic children are discussing things but its kinda hard to avoid when you look up tips for how to deal with any autism struggle bc that's most of what exists. its just like...they dont love their children at all. like a little bit. its always about how they make everything harder and their innate behavior is so frustrating and disappointing and hard to live with and how much they wish they could be different and all sorts of advice on how to "fix" "problem behaviors" and it just. makes me so upset like i know this is nothing new but its just insane. the lack of love. the way the lack of love is seen as justified and normal. the way having that child in their life is understood to be a tragedy by everyone present. the knowledge that their child has grown up knowing on no uncertain terms that everything they do is hated so much by their parent and theyll never truly just be accepted and loved. i grew up undiagnosed and even i got these same messages and this same frustration with my behavior that had me growing up thinking i was born unloveable, but its a special, extra type of horrible when there's a specific word to dehumanize you hanging over your head as you're growing up and giving that behavior societal legitimacy. people dont seem to be able to wrap their head around the idea that we genuinely do not know how autism would present in someone with no trauma but its because there are arguably no un-traumatized autistic people. and this kind of shit is one of the biggest reasons, right up there with every other person in our lives pretty much being the exact same way. you're never loved or cared about no matter where you go. youre never valued as you are the message you get over and over in a million ways is that everyone would be better off if you didnt exist its sickening and it feels like society at large does not care and never will

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am-i-the-asshole-official · 7 months

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Spoiler for Jujutsu Kaisen

I'm sorry it's so long and looks like a vent post. I'm sorry for those of you who had great luck in avoiding Jujutsu Kaisen until now. With that, let me give some context before the assholery.

Jujutsu Kaisen has a breakout character, Gojo, he is unique, flawed, well written, well loved, overpowered, and the most misunderstood character in this series. He recently met his end in the most infuriating way possible. It was an unceremonious death, off screened, after the biggest most violent battle in the series. Before he was brutally offed with just meaningless exposition detailing how he was killed and him uncharacteristically justifying the death in an afterlife scene that's written to appease a large part of the fandom (shippers- he's gay coded, no waifu here). His death completely destroyed his legacy and the future of this manga.

Problem: This is a popular series with disproportionate numbers of haters, casual fans, fans who get their information from tiktok or fanworks instead of the manga, fans who did a surface level reading of it, opinionated fans who didn't read after a certain point but discuss every new chapter like they're experts, people who hate it because they compared it to their favorite series and Jujutsu Kaisen didn't go that way, people who harass the readers and wish bodily harm on the author for not conforming to FANON, the works.

Gojo was MIA for almost 3 years which made fanon takeover the fandom, when he came back the author was accused of mischaracterization and bad writing because he didn't match 3 years of fanon. Reiterating, I mean fanon not headcanon, the headcanons here are almost all fanon based too and you will get nasty anons if you say you dislike FANON or praise CANON but I believe in people's right to headcanon.

My relationship with this: I've been a fan since 2019, this character of Gojo resonated with me like no one did in my 20+ years in fandom, he is my specialest blorbo, his relationship with his best friend has moved me etc. I'm autistic and this is my special interest as well. Needless to say depression has hit me like a freight train.

MY problem: My friend of 7 years who's currently deeply into yuri and danmei, who shared many fandoms with me, has been through the thick and thins with me, has decided to make me an enemy. When the chapter came out he chatted with me sent his condolences. Then he in his own social medias started talking about how he knew it was going to be a bad series, how he's glad he quit after struggling through 50 chapters, made all the jokes in the world about this death, discussed every little thing he hated and mocked this with his other weeb friends who are like the people I mentioned in the Problem section, validated all their complaints based on their reading of the FANON. He has had many discussions with me about this manga and very rarely did he express any of this negativity.

My assholery: I got frustrated, it was like he wanted me to see how much he could hurt me. I messaged him saying, "Hey what are you saying here, that's not how this character is written. The chapter is bad but this criticism is baseless and in bad faith" He laughed it off, "It's not that deep, this is fiction." I argued that's a shallow thing to say, he said it should have been like FANON since that makes more sense. I said that's conventional writing I thought we wanted different things than the same old nice characters in found family and such.

Then I said something about his favorites and hypocrisy, he said he's not so into it that he couldn't take criticism. I said that was a lie he's always writing essays about those characters. I also said criticize it for the right reasons damn it. He kept denying his own love for his fave so he could keep criticizing mine, because he at least had the sense to not fall for a shounen series. I asked if he was enjoying hurting me. He said are you for real, get a grip and stop justifying your behavior for fiction, they won't giving you cookies for defending them, if you can't bear to see negativity then feel free to mute or block. I snapped and said this is why no one likes casual fans, you can't keep your mouth shut about things you don't know. Have fun with being a two faced friend to everyone. Then I blocked him everywhere.

Some of my friends said I should have muted him long ago, I said this was inevitable if he was just going to validate everyone in vicinity, he had to pick a side. Others said I was right to tell him off. I regret some of the comments I made now.

AITA for the way I handled it? He is right, I could have muted him, I could have not spent my time doomscrolling and seeing all the bad takes he agreed with. I could have waited it out and not dropped an old friend over fiction. I could have done many things.

Please don't comment about touching grass, that's the least helpful thing anyone can say on blorbo the website. It's not a real advice we all know that. Therapy is also there for the depression and it will take years for me to get over the death, you don't need to remind me.

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

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Random pic of my hometown for visual interest haha.

I finally had the chance to watch The Assembly interview and I need to talk about it.

I wasn’t diagnosed autistic until I was in my 30’s. I went my entire life missing a measure with the humanity around me. I was forever off time. Out of pitch. The orchestra played along without me. Arguably they sounded better when I didn’t try to join in. Or at least that’s the message that was very strongly given. I didn’t understand why making friends was SO hard. Interactions so stilted and painful. Why people seemed ok with me until I got excited about something we were talking about. I misread signals. I missed entire essays worth of subtext in conversations. I spent my entire life until almost a decade ago feeling like a stranger in a strange land, all day, every day.

When I was diagnosed an entire world of understanding opened up to me. Maybe I would always be a bit of alien on Earth, but at least I had a reason why. And while how society views and often treats autistic individuals hasn’t changed, it has helped me to stop hating myself for all the ways I’m not “normal”. Many of us go through our lives being disrespected, talked down to, excluded, made to feel as if we are damaged beyond repair, a drain on society, a burden to our peers, too much, too loud, too weird. It’s exhausting. And it can lead to a level of self loathing that can be nigh impossible to overcome. Many of us are capable, impassioned, and damned talented in our respective fields and interests. Yes we are loud and miss inference in conversation and we tend towards a rather alarming amount of candor. But we aren’t less. We never have been.

How does this come back around? It’s about respect and kindness. Michael was absolutely respectful to every single one of his interviewers in The Assembly. He met each one of them where they were at, he was gentle and patient when needed. Encouraging or funny as a matter of course. Complimentary in a way that wasn’t disingenuous. He answered questions honestly and he didn’t “dumb things down” (hate that phrase) when he answered questions. He engaged actively and respectfully and treated each and every single person as worthy of his time, patience and respect. That sort of acceptance is exactly what we are talking about when we are pushing for “acceptance not awareness”. We aren’t a disease to be cured. We’re just human. Albeit on a bit different wavelength, but human nonetheless and deserving of being accepted and treated as such. Not forced to shove ourselves into a societal mold to survive, not shunned. Just treated like everyone else. Michael did that. Didn’t even blink. Just went about it like it was how everyone acts. As if I didn’t want to hug the shit outta that man and thank him for his frankly astonishing amount of genuine decency before. Neil cast him perfectly.

#michael sheen #the assembly #autism awareness #autism awareness week #actually autistic #autistic adult

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peachiime · 9 months

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serious about akademi (the actual emotional investment i'm putting into my yansim rewrite)

what i want people to understand about my rewrite is that it's NOT just another case of someone improving the shabby aspects of yandere simulator. no hate to anyone who does that, you all have great ideas, but mine is just not the same.

and i realize that makes me sound like i'm being "quirky" and "different" but i swear it's not that. my rewrite is an entirely different genre to yansim. it takes the original setting and characters and puts them in a different situation. that's how i'm rewriting it.

it's a silly slice of life comedy, sure. but this isn't just mindless humour and shenanigans. i put the characters through real struggles, real things i've been through. as i write this story, i find myself reflecting on my own life more and more. i reflect on myself, i project it onto the characters, i reflect more, i project more, and it keeps going.

without realizing it, i've put myself into a lot of the characters. people like gaku and horuda and toga and ayano especially. i point those four out specifically, but it's everyone. everyone has a little part of me in them, everyone goes through a struggle i've gone through before.

and i know i'm not the only person who's struggled. i know others have been through the same things i have.

this story has a message. a message to myself, a message to anyone who's gone through or is currently going through the things i am.

life is scary and unpredictable and difficult, but i want to tell you that there is hope. there is light at the end of the tunnel, you can't succumb to the darkness. it's definitely hard to keep going, but it is so worth it and it is so rewarding in the end.

never stop moving forward. always work to improve. you can make it better. it will get better.

"it gets better."

that is what the main message of this story is.

that is what i tell myself every single time i feel down. that is what i want to tell to anyone who feels down. anyone who's on their last thread, feeling like they can't go on, wanting to drop everything and give up, i want to tell them it gets better. i want to SHOW them it gets better.

i know i'm not alone when i struggle. i put myself in these characters, knowing i'm not alone, knowing someone will relate to me but more importantly them, and i want them to understand they're not alone too.

you aren't alone. you're somewhere in this story.

this rewrite is not just an ordinary project to me. this is not just me rewriting a video game that my autistic brain has latched onto. these are my thoughts, feelings, values, heart, brain, soul, blood, sweat, tears, everything. this rewrite is ME. I AM this rewrite.

so if you want to see me, and if you want to see YOU, then i highly recommend following antics at akademi. it's pretty much my magnum opus.

and if you don't want to read this, that's okay too! whether you choose to or not, i just want you to understand the message and remind yourself of it every time you feel down.

so. remember, it gets better.

#yandere simulator #yandere sim #yansim #antics at akademi #yandere simulator rewrite #yandere sim revamp #yansim rewrite #rewriting yansim #rewrite #you're never alone <3

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pumpkzsafeplace · 8 months

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Hi! If you're comfortable answering, how did you first ask your daddy to be your cg? How did you start the conversation or even tell him about your regression?

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hihi lil bug’ 🌼 (tw warning)

good question honeybee! <3.

honestly- i was completely petrified to tell my daddy about age regression <3.

my battle with age regression and self acceptance has been going on for a looooong time. i remember being 15/16 and realising that this was who i am & being petrified at the very thought because of the amount of hate that would come up just by typing the first couple of letters.

it's such a hard process fighting who you are, and it only made both my mental health and trauma build up worse. after eight long years of hiding, my mental health hit new depths.

i was having autistic meltdowns, bpd meltdowns, suicidal meltdowns until my daddy said enough was enough & we took a step back. we finally stopped trying to please everyone else and began to live the life we wanted.

i quit my job, i got therapy, i got mediciation (finally) and i really did begin to heal. i got back into my pagan routes & witchcraft, i got back into writing and self expressing myself.

but something still felt wrong.

i still felt like a part of me was missing.

and so, one random night when i knew my daddy was fast asleep- i took that same deep dive into age regression on google eight years ago. however, instead of hatred- i was finding positive messages, i was finding therapists positive feedback on it & i found tumblr.

i found all these agere tags and fellow people that felt the same way that I did- but i was still terrified. I had been feeling this way for so long- and had it burried down so deeply that i didn't even know what being little felt like anymore- i felt like a shadow watching people be accepted in the sunlight.

so i created a small tumblr account, met some friends & kept hidden amongst the tags. but the more i was seeing agere things- the more i began regressing without even realising it. my friends began picking up on it and after a couple of emotional breakdowns they gave me the final push into creating an actual agere account.

i remember actually crying- because i was so scared but so so so excited to finally be me after so so long. i was pratically buzzing with adreline, until i realised i hadn't told the one person that needed to be told.

my daddy.

so i decided to tackle both hurdles at once (after much convincing from my 🐟 friend). i made my introduction post- which is still up after all this time & i decided to tell my daddy. he was making his video game at the time- and i wrote out this embarrasing blurp of information and just left my phone unlocked so he could read it.

i remember running & hiding somewhere- petrified for the outcome. but instead he came to find me, gave me a big kiss and a hug that must have lasted a good 10 minutes. he told me how proud of me he was & how excited he was to not only see my tumblr grow, but see me accept myself in the process <3.

which takes us to here! suprisingly only 4 months later! he's still learning how to be a daddy as much as i am learning how to accept myself as an age regressor <3.

it's a process to say the least- but i wouldn't change it for the world <3, plus i got to create a safe space for other littles struggling too <3.

i know coming out to people is hard, but honestly- the people who care for you will stay and accept you, i promise <3.

plus we are all here to support you too <3.

big big big hugs <3.

-🍰

#askpumpkin #blankanonasks #safe agere #sfw agere #age regression #agere community #sfw age regression #agere blog #sfw little community #sfw little post #agere little #sfw little blog

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1: oh nooo i hope you do not have to stay in station for long

2: tell me more about your morris and his favorite things? does he have like a favorite snack or anything??

3: would it be okay if maybe i stopped hiding behind my anon facade and sent a normal message? (Little nervous about that one)

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about six hours to wait now!! so not too bad. i’ve stayed in worse places longer, and i’m indoors!

(i’m gonna be sleepin’ on the floor for sure! …in a worse train station!)

plus it’s paddington, so there’s a fair few other people here too sleepin on the floor or workin on their laptops. there’s a girl next to me watching japanese reality shows real quiet on her laptop :’)

also, you’re absolutely 1000% more than welcome to come off anon! i’d love to meet you beyond the anon, but if you’re nervous then there’s absolutely no pressure. i’ll just assure you that i’m super not scary, especially not more scary once you take anon off - you’re already talkin to me! that’s like 80% of the battle!

i would looooove to talk more about my morris, always. in either modern au or canon era, he’s not really one for material possessions - he doesn’t have many, can’t, never has - and he’s deeply reluctant to have any favourite things. any thing can be taken away - and will be, if he loves it. but, despite himself, he’s got his blanket. one shameful thing he managed to keep, a comfort item from a childhood without comfort. he’s desperately attached to it, an autistic attachment that he doesn’t really understand, but it’s there and it controls him more than he could ever admit.

in modern au, it’s what you’d expect from a childhood blankie - it’s pink, and mottled and faded and stitched and patched from years of living through all the same things morris did. it’s the one possession he’s managed to keep through a childhood of foster homes and care and facilities, the one thing that’s his amongst a patchwork of hand-me-downs and thrift store finds and cheap target multipacks given when he first enters a new facility with nothing. it’s the one thing he’s grabbed every time oscar took him by the hand and said they were running away.

in canon era, it’s not a blanket at all. it’s one of oscar’s old childhood undershirts, torn and worn away at the seams to make something of a blanket. more a scrap of fabric than anything. but morris is still desperately attached to it, even as it lives its life hidden deep in any of their bedroom’s hiding spots, the ones wiesel won’t know to check. oscar hides it with the money like it’s just as important. (it’s mentioned in my fic normal people, if you want any of the full details and story about it <3)

chocolate is morris’ absolute favourite food or snack, made more special - particularly in canon era - by the fact that he so rarely gets to have it. it’s expensive and unnecessary, a treat by every definition, and he and oscar hardly live the sort of life that allows treats. but oscar’ll get him some sometimes, if he gets the chance to swipe a box or even just fist a few loose into his pocket. morris always lights up like the sun, looks half happy when he’s eating them. snyder or pulitzer bought him some too, to help keep the brothers on their side during the strike and ensure their loyalty through manipulation. said it was for their hard work as the box was handed to oscar. he took it, and didn’t mention anything when he gave it to morris - just said he found it, and refused when morris offered him some. for reasons beyond just him hating sweets.

also, morris likes coffee and hot chocolate.

#answered #badger anon #morris delancey #modern au

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(to be clear this isn't a vent, at the time it made me upset but now I just laugh at how stupid that kid was)

I remember this one time when I was 13 my friend introduced me to his friend, we shall call him D. Me, D and the friend who introduced D to me mainly talked in group chats with each other alongside some other friends, D and me didn't really talk much in the group chats

Of course since at the time I loved Jojos Bizarre Adventure (and I still do) I sent a bunch of Jojos memes and fanart to the group chat because a few other people in there watched Jojos. Apparently D absolutely hated anime, which I didn't really care because people have their preferences of course, he never really commented on any of the jojo stuff I sent to the group nor did he comment on anyone elses

Until ONE DAY one of our friends sent me a text saying "Hey D has been saying some mean things about you outside the group," and I was confused because D was usually the "chill person". They sent me a few screenshots and screen recordings of messages/voice recordings of him saying things about me, my favourite probably being "Oi, *friend* send this voice message to Sebastian. Hello Sebastian, GO FUCK YOURSELF"

Its probably my favourite because he was such a pussy he had his friend send it, instead of just sending it to me directly himself.

What about the other things he was saying? Average edgy 13 year old stuff

So why was this wannabe edgelord angry at me and telling me to fuck myself? Well it was because he hated anime and hated how I always sent Jojo memes to the group chat all the time.

Yeah, this guy really said some horrible things about me just because I liked anime and he didn't. The thing is whenever I sent a jojo meme to the group chat he never said anything like "please don't send anime stuff I don't like anime" because even though thats odd I would've been okay not sending jojo memes and stuff

In fact the only reason I knew he didn't like anime was because his friend told me randomly in a conversation and never mentioned it again afterwards, I always thought "oh so D doesn't like anime as in he's not a fan of watching it, not as in he would say horrible things about someone he knew liked anime"

But nope. And it doesn't end there it gets funnier.

So I went and texted the friend who told me about all the stuff D was saying and said something like "Tell him I'm sorry for sending anime to the group when he doesn't like it but I don't appreciate how he's acting, I have autism and my special interest is Jojos so I often info dump about it because it makes me happy"

If this happened now I would've just blocked D and ignored him, but when I was 13 I was the type of guy who thought that if not everyone liked me it would be the end of the world so I was kind of telling him "hey please don't tell me to fuck myself" while also sucking up to him because I blamed myself for D not telling me to stop sending jojo stuff to the group chat and then getting his friend to send me a voice recording of him telling me to fuck myself

So after the friend told D about my autism and stuff, D pulled out the classic "BuT mY 3 yEaR oLd BrOtHeR hAs AuTiSm AnD hE dOeSnT aCt LiKe ThAt, He DoEsNt oBsEsS oVeR aNiMe AnD sTuFf"

Oh yes because a toddler 10 years younger than me who probably doesn't even know what anime is (unless its like pokemon or something) and probably has a special interest like Thomas the tank engine or Peppa Pig is totally the base of how the average autistic person acts

D was acting as if I said liking anime was a symptom of autism, no I wasn't, I was saying having an extremely special liking to a certain interest (aka a special interest) is a symptom of autism. My special interest is Jojos, but another autistic persons interest could be memes or goth music or zebras or Bendy And The Ink Machine or something like that

Anyways I eventually did what I SHOULD'VE done at first, and that was block the little twerp and I thankfully have not talked to him since, I hope he's a lot more mature now.

The thing that boggles me the most about this whole situation was that I wasn't the only person who sent anime content to the group, there was a friend of mine in the same group who loved Attack On Titan and Death Note, she would send memes about those animes as well as fanart and stuff to the group, yet D never picked on her (as far as I know anyways)

This unfortunately was not the first time that I was yelled at/had mean things said to me for info dumping, it mostly came off as a shocker at the time because most of the people doing that were just horrible from the beginning, but D was just the "chill guy that my friends hung out with and would talk with me in the group chat every once in a while"

If you have autism and someone yells at you and tells you to "fuck yourself" because you simply like talking about your special interest and they for some reason don't like it, its not your fault that there are angry people who are probably jealous that you can find so much happiness and passion in a certain subject or piece of media you watch

#jjba #jojos bizarre adventure #jojo #autism #autistic #autistic things #autism info dumping #autism special interest #special interest #info dumping #info dump #rant #story #storytime #true story #autistic experiences #anime

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