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weirdprophetess · 1 year

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been seeing people talk about Ethel Cain a lot and had chills the entire time i watched her perform Morning Elvis with Florence so I'm playing Preacher's Daughter for the first time and writing notes as I go

fair warning this is an incredibly long post

first of all i have to say i love this album cover the dark warm browns are gorgeous and really give off that rural small town vibe and i read a few articles about her so i know she grew up in a place like that and the album title is describing her because her dad was a deacon of the church her and her family grew up in

the basssss the bass starting family tree ooooooohhhhh i love that

these crosses all over my body remind me of who i used to be and christ forgive these bones im hiding from no one successfully jesus can always reject his father but he cannot escape his mothers blood W H A T

THE BEATSSS THEYRE SO DARK AND DRAMATIC AND ATMOSPHERIC IM SCREAMING IM ONE MINUTE IN AND THIS IS MAYBE THE BEST ALBUM INTRO IVE EVER HEARD

my brain chemistry has already been altered i instantly need this on vinyl

loveee the guitar starting off american teenagerrrrrr

the suspended vocalization tooooooo)(U*U@PIHF@

i love love love her voice its so rich and she does deep and high notes both so amazingly welllllllll screaming

the melody the flow of the lyrics the beat the synthy floaty sounds im deadddd i love thissss i want to rip it apart like soft hot bread and eat ittttt

SAY WHAT YOU WANT BUT SAY IT LIKE YOU MEAN IT WITH YOU F I S T S FOR ONCE

MAIN CHARACTER TYPE SONG I LOVE THE IRONY I LOVE TEH SADNESS IM GOING TO WALK AROUND TO THIS SO MUCH THAT IS ONE OF THE HIGHEST HONORS I CAN GIVE A SONG @mothercain YOUR HAND IN MARRIAGE BITCHHHH

I HAVE FINISHED TWO SONGS AND ITS ALREADY MY NEW PERSONALITY TIME TO HYPERFIXATE FOR MONTHS AND LET IT TAKE OVER THIS WHOLE FUCKING BLOG

THE SUSPENDED PIANO NOTES FOR HOUSE IN NEBRASKA???? Y E S

THE ECHOEY VOCALS MAKE ME INSANE IM CLAWING AT THE WALLS RENDING MY GARMENTS GNASHING MY TEETH OH MY GODDDDDD

I STILL CALL HOME THAT HOUSE IN NEBRASKA WHERE WE FOUND EACH OTHER IN A DIRTY MATTRESS ON THE SECOND FLOOR WHERE THE WORLD WAS EMPTY SAVE YOU AND I WHERE YOU CAME AND I LAUGHED AND YOU LEFT AND I CRIED WHERE YOU TOLD ME EVEN IF WE DIED TONIGHT THAT ID DIE YOURS

YOU KNOW I STILL WAIT AT THE EDGE OF TOWN PRAYING STRAIGHT TO GOD THAT MAYBE YOULL COME BACK AROUND I HAVE FULL BODY CHILLSSSSSS

THE ROCK GUITAR SMASHING IN AND BEING SO CRUNCHY GODDDDDDDDD

He's never looked more beautiful on his Harley in the parking lot breaking into the ATMs sleeping naked when it gets too hot from what ive heard people say about Lana Del Rey's music this sounds like she might've been an influence

show me how much i mean to you while im lying in these sheets undressed id hold the gun if you ask me to but if you love me like you say you do would you ask me to troubles always gonna find you baby but so will i crying only because im happy hold me across every state line im never gonna leave you baby even if you lose whats left of your mind cause you know ill be right there beside you riding through those western nights

ooh there's another song called family tree the first one was family tree (intro) but there's track five without (intro) delicious

oohhhhhooohohoho same first two lines but then new lyrics

give myself up to him in offering let him make a woman out of me ooooh hoo hoo hooooo

so family tree is a banger

i immediately thought emo cowboy on hearing those lyrics and google actually gave me that so thank you whoever made this image because its truly the essence of this album

the next one is hard times and the first thing i thought of was paramore ive been obsessed with that song lately

nine going on eightaayynn lay it on meeeeeeheeeeheeeee yessssss

im tiiiiired of you too tiiiiired to leave im tiiiired of you still tiiiiied to meeeee

I MET YOU THERE IN TEXAS

MY ASS WHO LIVES IN TEXAS👀👀👀

i met you there in texas somewhere on the thoroughfare on the side of the road with a pistol in my pocket i didnt trust no one but you said baby dont run ill take you anywhere

AND YOU SAID HEY DO YOU WANNA SEE THE WEST WITH MEEEHEEEEEE CAUSE LOVES OUT THERE AND I CANT LEAVE IT BEEEEEE AND I SAID HONEY LOVES NEVER MEANT MUCH TO ME BUT ILL COME WITH YOU IF YOURE SURE ITS WHAT YOU NEED

love love lovvveeeeee the beat that comes in a bit before that part

sad cowgirl winter lets go girls

i am halfway through this album and ive made more notes than i have for some albums twice the length thats how good 13 track albums always are

its not a real cowboy album if youre not spending the last two minutes of a nine and a half minute song just vocalizing

oh the nexts songs called gibson girl ive heard of that but i forgot what it is hang on

a type of drawing by a man named Charles Gibson of the ideal woman of the 1890s ooh should be interesting

the intro for this songgggg

the production is the fucking besttttt

the echoes for this one too yesss i love this shitttt

i dont even know what image to put this over but just youre all the same black leather and dark glasses pourin another while i shake my ass hes cold blooded so it takes more time to bleed obsession with the money addicted to the drugs says hes in love with my body thats why hes fucking it up

the guitar breakkkkkkk:PO(*&^%$^;l;pqokpiaw

next ones name is ptolemaea so lemme go look that up too

oh yeahhh that greek astrologer dude okay

ooh the distortion in the beginningggg

the intensity building is so horror-like i love it

the screech on the last stop made me jump a lil goodbye

I am the face of loves rage what the fuck

the guitar and drums all getting more intense after that line remind of of the end of I Know The End by Phoebe Bridgers ill take ten million more songs with that please

the entire ending um???

its a good thing i decided to listen to this album around noon and not the middle of the night because i love demonic speaking parts but not when my eyes arent adjusted to the dark girl

ooh august underground is an instrumental i went to look up the lyrics and apparently its named after a horror film trilogy so ill probably check that out soon

televangelism is also purely instrumental and genius says its ethels ascent to heaven as music god this sounds gorgeous

what i wouldnt give to be in church this sunday listening to the choir so heartfelt all singing god loves you but not enough to save you so good luck on your own baby so i said fine cause thats how my daddy raised if they strike one once then you just hit em twice as hard but in the end the fire bent under the weight they gave me and this heart would break and fall twice as far eating these lyrics

WE ALL KNOW HOW IT GOES THE MORE IT HURTS THE LESS IT SHOWS BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE THEY ALL KNOW AND THATS WHY I COULD NEVER G O BACK HOME E T H E L THERE IS NO NEED TO EXPOSE ME LIKE THIS???

SO I MET HIM THERE AND TOLD HIM I BELIEVE SINGING IF ITS MEANT TO BE THEN IT WILL BE AND I FORGIVE IT ALL AS IT COMES BACK TO ME IM STILL PRAYING FOR THAT HOUSE IN NEBRASKA BY THE HIGHWAY OUT ON THE EDGE OF TOWN DANCING WITH THE WINDOWS OPEN I CANT LET GO WHEN SOMETHINGS BROKEN ITS ALL I KNOW AND ITS ALL I WANNA KNOW

one more song i have no idea what to say

freezer bride, your sweet divine look i have been obsessed with the locked tomb for over a year im not going to NOT think of Alecto when i see this

when my mother sees me on the side of a carton in winn-dixie's dairy aisle like the one promo picture for this right

and arlington's in texas👀👀👀

f.inisheddd thea lbum(*&#!OHPI#!HFo

wow what the hell was that im going to obsess over it forever

if there is not a colored vinyl of this i am going to fucking murder someone this deserves something gorgeous for me to stare at while its playing

in conclusion i cannot in any way let my religious mother know im trying to get this album so im going to work with my friend who helps me get explicit/gay music my mom wont let me because spotifys alright but i need to listen to this on my little portable cd player with headphones on full blast on the floor in the middle of the night because truly every album experience is better that way but especially shit like this

ethel if youre reading this how the everloving FUCK is this your debut album this literally deserves a grammy we all know they havent been shit for a while but if you dont get one for this im going to maul the entire Academy for real. keep doing weird shit i literally heard about you from Morning Elvis with Florence, my number one weird music woman and her taste has not failed me yet, especially not after an hour of being immersed in this

#ethel cain #hayden anhedönia #preachers daughter #mother cain #southern gothic #southern gothic aesthetic #my post

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gorotic · 1 year

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3, 5, 9, 17, 30 for the music asks but they all have to be either The Weeknd or Chase Atlantic

wow! make the hard music asks even harder by limiting my options

i lose focus and give unnecessary info it gets longer than it should have been so..

3. A song that reminds you of summertime

i want to say all of ca's discography bc i got into them during the summer but i cant so phases, the namesake of the phases album, bc its literally me going insane every single summer.

runner up is heaven and back i wanted to pick it soo bad bc its the vibes but phases is more accurate of a depiction of my state of being

5. A song that needs to be played LOUD

oh my god. my god. chase atlantic again bc im with the summer vibes. slow down idc how overplayed overrated over popular this song gets im never going to get sick of it. the saxophone has me on the fucking floor and i need to hear all of it i will turn it up

9. A song that makes you happy

the party & the after party i dont even have to think about this. theres no competition. if i had to pick a single fav song it would be this. its so!!??? the beach house sample?? i fall to my knees and sob every time i listen to it. the second half makes me froth at the mouth. his vocals on this song are the most pleasant thing i've ever heard. i could sing this word for word backwards in my sleep i love it. so. much. sex to my ears. no one listens to this song the way i do

17. A song that would sing a duet with on karaoke

i had to use my brain about this because hmm. im thinking of songs with features and so the in your eyes remix w doja cat. its better than the solo version on the album their voices go together reallly nice and i liked dojas verse. i played it sosososo much when it came out. lyrics are so heartbreak sad whatever but instrumentally its a fun song. the mv was good too

30. A song that reminds you of yourself

last one im sad i wanted to force you to read through a book of me rambling /hj. initially, i was going to take out phases from number 3 and stick it in here and promote heaven and back but that was before i remembered dancer in the dark exists. runner ups were call me back and right here. giving no other elaboration on this

#notification terrorist #ask game #i had to actually think about this you are evil #literally baring my soul to you here bc i am incapable of not adding extra comments

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charlotteiscrying · 28 days

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i started tapering off my methadone at the start of march ! my addiction dr told me i should go down 1mg, wait a month, go down 1mg, wait a month, etc. i said lol no, that’d take 40 months, im going down 5mg, waiting a month, etc. i couldn’t even tell i took less. absolutely zero withdraw :,)

i will be completely sober around september how the math works out. i am so beyond proud of myself. i cannot wait to be totally off this. and hey, at least i don’t still gotta quick alcohol ! ooooo, you haven’t changed at all, you are right back where you started before you met me. drinking every day, drinking copious amounts of hard liquor everyday, n repeating the next. drinking so that you can not feel.

you made me feel so much, in such a short amount of time, and such not good feelings. you COULD have just had that conversation you didn’t want to have. if you never loved me, a 5 min convo on facetime would have saved me all this hurt. you actually chose the polar opposite, you chose to get my hopes up as high as possible. you told me you’re moving back home, that you can’t wait to be able to drive to me whenever. we had the sweetest, nicest, best facetime we had had in months, you said i’m sleepy i wanna go to bed, i said alright get some sleep ily, you said “I dOnT lOvE yOu” n hung up. i would not call that breaking up w me. i would simply call that confusing as hell. bc yk damn well you had said that same sentence to me a million times. how was i supposed to read your mind that that time was any different ?

regardless, you know what you did, you know why you did it, you know what came of it. you hurt me more than any other human ever has, in my entire life. you didn’t have to hurt me. you chose to. that’s what hurt the most. you couldn’t just have a 2 min convo on the phone, say “yea i truly don’t know what i want, but i do know i don’t love you, and i don’t want to be with you anymore. i never loved you. i’ve been lying this whole time. i was never serious about that ring. i lied to you abt that on your birthday. thank you for all the good times, but this is goodbye.” i would have been sad, but i would have been happy that you at least were man enough to say it to my face. how hard would that of been, huh ? or do you genuinely believe i don’t deserve that. i don’t deserve to know.

i don’t even want you to hurt now. i can’t even bring myself to wish harm on you. i truly just hope you’re happy. i hope karma comes around to you, and i know it will, but i don’t want you to hurt. i wish you hadn’t hurt me this bad, but i don’t want your life ruined. i don’t want you to be in prison for the rest of your life. do i think you deserve that ? more probable. but do i want that for you ? no, not at all. that is why i will take your secrets to my grave with me. you don’t deserve me to keep them to myself, but i always will. you trusted me enough to keep them secret, even though you hurt me worse than i’ve ever hurt before, i will always keep them secret. i don’t know if that makes me even more insane. it probably does. i wish i could wish harm onto you. i wish i wanted to see you hurt. i just don’t. you put me through more pain than detoxing off that fentanyl did. than my entire 7 year addiction did. i so desperately wish you hadn’t treated me how you did, but i want you to live a long happy fulfilling life. away from alcohol and percs and all the bad stuff. i hope you and that motorcycle get to live together happily ever after, amen.

i’m moving out so soon :) i’ve actually SAVED a LOT of money, i have enough right now to cover first and last month’s rent, the deposit, and i’ll still have several bands left over. next is buying a car, again.

i’m slowly rebuilding my life. you truly left me with nothing. this is the second time i’m having to start over from nothing. this is the 4th time i’ve had to save up from nothing to buy a car for myself. in 2 months my phone plan will be paid off, im taking my phone off my moms plan and putting it on my own line. i’m staying on my moms insurance till im 25, then i’ll get medicade. i think i know where i want to rent. i’m so excited.

i’ve gained 30lbs since the day i went to detox. i’m 107 lbs today. i was 87 lbs that day i showed up at the hospital. i love how i look more than ever. i am so happy with myself, my brain, my body, my heart. my boobs have tripled in size, my ass is HUGE, i’ve been working out everyday for months now.

my skin is CLEAR. i have ZERO acne on my face right now. i do my skincare every night, even if im falling asleep exhausted, i still get up n do it. i’m showering at least every 3 days.

i’ve been posting on onlyfans more, only solo stuff, my entire onlyfans is just me :) i had the best month i’ve ever had on there. without your dick being in a single video. i just hit the top 10% of all onlyfans creators, after less than a month of being active again. i’m un-device-banned, i have snap on this phone again !!! i’m gonna buy a microwave just to nuke that red phone in.

i got asked to walk in baltimore fashion week, i said no lol, but a modeling scout actually scouted me, is trying to get me in that industry as well. i got the opportunity to be in a vans commercial, not a ad, a mf commercial that’d play across the entire country. a fashion nova commercial too. i’m not sure if im gonna say yes. i’m still thinking on it.

i am just so happy. so many doors are opening for me, this is just the beginning. i’m taking myself all the way to the top. my black x is burnt he fucked pre-porn me. you are burnt you fucked drug addict, unhealthy, underweight, titless me.

i’m gonna keep making progress. i’m gonna keep taking small baby steps. i’m gonna continue saving, continue tapering off my methadone. pretty soon i’ll be totally sober, n you’ll be worse than ever.

n that’s another thing i realized. you didn’t even get through detox on your own. you pussied out on day 3, tweaked on 5 drs, beat them up till they shot you up with fentanyl !!! then you mf died, so the drs detoxed you, while you took a nap. you couldn’t even get through fentanyl withdraw on your own. i did :) you went psychotic for a week n you couldn’t deal with it. you’re permanently fucked up now bc of it. your brain will always be altered because of it. i live in psychosis. i’m psychotic everyday. you got to experience what i do, for a tiny fraction of the time, and you went so insane you died !!! imagine your brain bein like that 24/7. that’s why i remember every second of detox, i didn’t go insane, ive always been equally this insane. but i got through detox. i pushed through the pain. i felt all the emotions, all the anxiety, all the hurt, and i learned to push past it. not to push it down, to feel it, and to move on. to use all that pain as fuel to fire me.

i am invincible. i don’t need anyone. i don’t want anyone. i’m good alone. i have so much to prove, and im gonna do it. thank you for reminding me who i am. you fucked up doin that :)

#progress update #healed #thriving #hope #bigger is better #don’t miss you

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hyuckssunchip · 3 years

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Pairings: Johnny x Reader, ft. nct 127

Words: 4.3K

Warnings: Language (there is almost always language in my writings), angst, some fluff

Request: Angst 42 and 48 ➵ “You promised.” “Give me one reason why I shouldn’t leave.” / @jungcherie

(im so sorry i took so long.... i turned a drabble into a story... oops)

Johnny Suh had a reputation that was unmatched.

There was no other way to put it.

And a reputation like his left trails of tears.

A pool of tears that you were currently drowning in.

It was obvious Johnny was dangerous, perhaps that’s why you were drawn to him. While every single one of your instincts had you fighting and rejecting him, you were desperate for him all the more.

It was March 13th that you lost your first will.

“Y/N, right?”

You turned around to find a familiar face towering over you.

“Yeah.”

It was that stupid smile that had you.

“Hey, we have have Communications together. I was wondering if you wanted to do that project together?” He scratched the back of his neck like he was embarrassed. “I just know that you’re insanely smart so... Sorry, wait, that sounds like I’m just talking to you for your grades.”

You giggled nervously, a habit that you did when you were uncomfortable.

“Look, I just... do you? You know, wanna do the project together? I mean, I’m a pretty smooth talker so I can do the presentation. I get good grades too...”

Stupid smile.

“Yeah.”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah.”

“Alright. There’s actually a little party at my frat tonight, you maybe wanna come? Get to know each other before we drown in work?”

Fucking stupid smile.

“Yeah. I’d like that.” You blushed at the idea, cursing at yourself for being so obvious.

Parties weren’t really your thing.

But at the time Johnny Suh was.

Your ears were pounding because of the insanely loud level the music was at. You were actually shocked that no one had called the cops with a noise complaint, but the fact that they were on frat row made more sense.

“Y/N. You made it.” A arm was flung over your shoulder and, thankfully the lights were both dim and flashing enough that he couldn’t see the way that you blushed at the action.

“Yeah. Is it always this loud?” You asked, still not so comfortable with the atmosphere.

“What?” Johnny yelled, pointing at his ear, indicating that he couldn’t hear you. Of course he fucking couldn’t. Then he jerked his thumb to the right, nodding at the backyard, which was seemingly empty.

With his hand placed on your back, he guided you outside, your head already thanking him from the escape of noise pollution. It was far better outside of the house.

The two of you collapsed onto the swinging chair, sighing as you cleared your head.

“So parties aren’t really your thing?” Johnny leaned closer, noting the look of relief that you had donned the moment you exited.

“It’s not that I hate them... I’m just not a fan. I mean a bunch of sweaty, horny drunk people grinding on each other. I just like smaller things.” You explained, staring up at the dark sky, shivering slightly at the cool breeze.

“You didn’t have to come.” Johnny suddenly looked guilty, “I didn’t mean to force you into coming, I just... thought I’d invite you.”

You quickly backtracked, “No, you didn’t force me. If I didn’t want to come, I wouldn’t have.” You ignored the voice in the back of your head that begged to differ.

“Right.” He grinned, as if he could read your mind. “You’re not great at lying, but I’m gonna pretend that I believe you.”

You felt your cheeks heat up in embarrassment.

“Were you playing beer pong?” You asked suddenly, causing him to look at you in confusion.

“Yeah, how’d you know?”

You laughed, looking away from him, “You have quite the reputation Mr. Suh, even someone like me knows the extent of your skills.”

Johnny smirked, liking how easy you were making it for him. “Is that so? Is that the only skill of mine you’ve heard about?”

You raised your eyebrows, hating the turn that your mind took. “W-what kind of other skills did you have in mind?” You stuttered out.

Suddenly it felt like you were caged in, his arms tense around your frame, causing you to lean back against the back of the swing.

“Tell me what you’ve heard.”

You averted your eyes, unable to take his heavy gaze. His eyes had turned dark, full of lust, and you tried desperately to forget the effect they were having on you.

As if sensing how uncomfortable you were getting, he backed off, dusting off some invisible dirt on his shoulder. He cocked his head to the side with a sly smile, happy with a new challenge.

Things weren’t going to be as easy as he thought they were, but that’s what made it fun.

“No that’s so stupid. Are you kidding me? Robin could absolutely never beat Batman. Is that even a question?” Your hands were waving animately, far too much for an argument about fictional superheroes.

“Sure. I’m just saying that Robin could totally catch him off guard, like out of the blue, you know.” Johnny slurped on his drink shrugging his shoulders like he didn’t care.

“No. Absolutely not. First of all Robin doesn’t have the guts to do something like that and second of all Robin doesn’t have any powers. How on Earth would he beat him?”

“Umm... Batman doesn’t have powers either.” He made a duh face at you, which you chose to ignore.

“Yeah, well he’s got money, and that’s basically a super power.”

“Let’s be real, Batman isn’t even really a real superhero. He’s just a hero. Period.”

You huffed, rolling your eyes at the argument. “That’s a whole different story.”

“I’m just saying.” He sang back teasingly.

“And I’m just saying that this is stupid. How did we even get here?” You laughed, trying to remember how this conversation came about.

“Uh, you made the bold choice of saying that the Batman vs. Superman movie was shit. Very controversial by the way.” He frowned at the memory.

You let your bag fall heavily on the library table, earning you a few glares as studying students dug into their books.

You sent an apologetic look before sliding into your seat. “Let’s just get this presentation done. Our presentation date is the 23rd and I don’t even have a clue of what to write it on.”

“Well the topic is influencers that change your life. Do you have anyone in mind?”He asked, flipping through his notebook, which didn’t really have anything but drawings in them.

“Not really, is there anyone for you? I mean influencer is kind of vague isn’t it? We could pick like an athlete too, or a musician. Those are technically influencers right?”

He nodded, resting his chin on his hand. “Yeah. Influencers don’t even have to be famous do they? Like they can just be someone in your life that made a huge impact on you. Like your parents or something.”

“Yeah, I guess. But that’s kind of hard when you’re working in groups. Like you’re not gonna want to talk about my grandma, you know. Like you don’t even know her. It’s probably just easier to use a famous icon.”

“Okay, so who?” He leaned back in his chair, staring at the ceiling like it would give him inspiration.

“Hmmm... maybe we could do someone like Michael Jackson. Like he may not have affected us personally, but he affected the way that the music and performance was seen afterwards. That’s influential and life changing right?”

“I guess.” He cocked his head, “We could at least start with brainstorming ideas for him and then if we feel like it’s not working we can change it.”

“Cool. I guess we can start with that then.”

And you did. You spent every afternoon for the next week and half with each other in the library, and a little more outside of it.

“That one’s the big dipper.”

You grinned following his finger, but had more difficulty finding exactly what he saw.

“How do you know it’s not the little dipper?” You teased, squinting in to the dark, the scattered stars really just looking like paint splatters to you.

“Because that’s the little dipper.” He laughed, moving his index finger slightly to the right.

“Oh.”

Johnny leaned back into your space, smiling at you look of concentration quickly falling as you gave up.

“Where’s the North Star?” You asked turning to face him, but sucking in a harsh breath when you found your nose just centimeters from his.

Johnny lowered his voice, whispering and pointing without even turning away, “Right there, it’s the tail of the little dipper.”

It took more effort than you thought to pull away, eyes searching for it.

He leaned back, resting his body weight on his hands. “See it? It’s the brightest one.”

“No,” You pouted scooting forward, as if that would help you see it. “Oh, wait! I see it!”

Johnny couldn’t stop himself from grinning as he saw your face light up.

“Wow.” Suddenly your tone turned more mellow, still in awe. “I’ve always wanted to find the North Star.”

Johnny’s chest rumbled with laughter. “Why?”

“Well you know. They say if you get lost, just follow the North Star home.” You turned to face him, eyes sparkling with excitement, but the sound of your voice had gone quiet, almost somber. The smile on your face faded into a sad smile as you all but whispered your next words. “Now I can go home.”

Johnny frowned next to you, not liking the sudden turn in mood. He sat up, wrapping an arm around your shoulder and pulling you against his chest.

“What makes you think that you’re not home right now?” He mumbled on the top of your head, staring straight out in the dark.

“I don’t know. I can just feel it, you know? Like I’m just constantly uneasy.” You sighed, digging your face into his jacket. “I think I’ll be able to tell when I get there.”

There was something in Johnny’s chest that suddenly ached, and he felt a sharp drop in his stomach at the thought.

“Maybe you’ll only ever know once you’ve left home.” He muttered, “Then you’ll know that this is actually what it feels like, and it’s so much worse when you leave.”

You stilled against him for a moment before relaxing, mulling over the thought. “That’s so sad though. Why do we only know we’re happy once we’re sad?”

Johnny shook his head slowly. “I don’t know. Why does God make us hurt to only to help us heal?”

The sound of the wind passing through trees was the only thing that comforted you at the thought.

“I don’t want to have to heal, I don’t want to hurt in the first place.” You whisper out, feeling the most vulnerable you had in a long time.

“I’ll never hurt you.” He rubbed at your arms soothingly, feeling a lump in the back of his throat, but he pushed it away not liking the unfamiliar feeling.

“Promise?”

“Of course.”

You let your eyes fall, enjoying just the silence and comfort of each other’s arms and minds.

You woke up wrapped in Johnny’s arms, although it was an unfamiliar feeling you welcomed it with open arms.

Lost in your thoughts for the time being you were suddenly reminded of the conversation you had a couple nights ago.

Was this home?

You had never felt so safe before and it scared you. But you weren’t one to run.

“Good morning.” Johnny mumbled out beside you, his morning voice raspy to the ear.

“Morning.” You whispered back, letting his arm flop over your waist.

“Do you like pancakes?” He asked, letting his eyes fall close again.

“Pancakes?”

“Yeah. Taeyong makes some bomb ass pancakes.”

You giggled, “Yeah, I like pancakes. Especially bomb ass pancakes.”

But he didn’t move and it was only after you tapped him questioningly did he speak up. “Do you think he’ll bring them up if I yell loud enough?”

You smacked his chest. “Stop it. We should go down.”

“In a bit.” He answered, nose buried deep in the crevice of your neck.

A few minutes later you heard the clinking of kitchen tools from downstairs and you stirred. “Johnny?”

“Hmmm...”

“Johnny. Let’s go.”

“Five more minutes.” He mumbled, but he let you out of his grasp anyways.

“Fine. I’ll meet you downstairs.” You paused as you passed by the mirror, eyes tracing over the marks on your neck that Johnny had left the night before. You blushed, realizing that you didn’t have anything to cover it up with, but quickly moved on, attempting to find your shorts that were discarded in the frenzy of last night.

“Check under the desk.” Johnny said, sitting up and watching you.

Sure enough that’s where they were, although you weren’t really sure how they managed to get there.

You shrugged on the last of your clothes, turning to find Johnny doing the same. It took him less than three steps to get to you, landing a soft kiss on the top of your head.

“Let’s go.”

Taeyong was undoubtedly the closest of Johnny’s frat brothers to you. He had this really calming and sweet aura about him that just made you want to be friends.

“Good morning Y/N. Blueberry or chocolate?” He asked grinning as he took his eyes off the pan for a second.

“Blueberry please.” You slid onto the bar across from him. “Do you need any help?”

Johnny rubbed your lower back comfortingly, “No, you don’t want to get in his way. That’s when he loses his temper.” He whispered the last bit to you, but Taeyong obviously heard it, sending a sharp glare at him.

“Only when there are incompetent people in my kitchen.” Taeyong muttered back.

Johnny ignored the comment, shaking his head at you, “I’ll have chocolate.”

“You’ll get what you get.” Taeyong piped at him, still not over Johnny’s teasing, who grinned in response.

Both of them knew that Johnny was getting chocolate, Taeyong was really bad at being mean.

“Where’s the others?” Johnny asked, sipping on a cup of coffee.

“At school, as they should be because they are college students.” Taeyong answered, sliding a plate towards you. “Enjoy.”

You thanked him and bit into a piece, almost moaning at the taste. “Damn, Johnny told me they were good but I didn’t think it would be this good.”

Johnny swiped a piece from your plate. “What are you talking about? I told you he made bomb ass pancakes.”

Taeyong slid a plate towards Johnny.

His grin widened. “Thank you. You’re my favorite Taeyong ever.”

“I’m the only Taeyong you know.” He put his hands on his hips. “I should be the favorite.”

Johnny sent a wink in his direction before stabbing a piece.

“So I was thinking, that little bakery next to the park, do you wanna go? They just opened and I’ve been dying to try it.” Johnny asked around a mouthful of pancake.

“Yeah, sure. That sounds good.” You felt your stomach flutter, you were sure whether it was the pancakes or Johnny, but you had a pretty good guess.

“Sweet, we can swing by your place first if you want to get a change of clothes or something.”

You nodded, “Yeah, sounds good.”

“I’m glad that sounds good.” He teased you with a smile.

“Sorry, but it just sounds good. What else do you want me to say?” You pushed back, opting to add another piece into your mouth.

“I don’t know, maybe-”

“Okay, sorry to interrupt your little flirt fest, but can you start that after I leave?” Taeyong asked, making a few pancakes for himself.

“Sorry.” You giggled, sending him a genuine apologetic look.

“I’m not sorry.” Johnny said, shrugging.

You smacked him lightly.

“I’ll take away pancake privileges for a month.” Taeyong quipped, focusing on flipping the pancake.

“Sorry.” Johnny mumbled out under his breath, not one to admit defeat easily.

You laughed at the sight of a pouty Johnny, enjoying the view for the time being.

Waiting for Johnny had become a routine, but honestly you didn’t really mind it. Hanging out on the couch, you had met and befriended quite a few of his frat brothers.

Currently you were sprawled out on the couch with Jungwoo, who was retelling a very interesting story about his trip to the grocery store last week that involved a cereal box and a banana. Although it was a bit of a reach, you nodded and smiled at the right times, not really following the order of events, or really the importance of them.

“What does the fact that you were wearing- and I quote - ‘an incredibly sick pair of joggers’ have anything to do with your story?” You asked, tilting your head in teasing confusion.

“Oh, it doesn’t. I just thought you should know.” He replied matter-of-factly, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

“Right. And I’m so better off now that I know.” You taunted him, voice dripping in sarcasm.

Jungwoo shot you an annoyed, and yet hurt look, before finishing his story. “And that’s how Johnny found out he was allergic to shellfish.”

“Okay. What the fuck? I’m literally so confused.” You cut him off before he could recount his story again. “I don’t really need to hear it again though. Thanks.”

He whined before laying his legs over yours, giving up.

For a few moments, things were quiet as you checked the time. It had already been thirty minutes, where was he?

You rolled your head to the side, finally focusing on the whiteboard that had what scribbles of writing over it.

“What’s the tally for?” You asked, scrunching your nose at the whiteboard that was situated on the far wall of the room.

“Hmmm? The tally?” Jungwoo glanced around looking slightly nervous which had you even more curious. “It’s just a game.”

“Game? What game?” You laughed turning back to see the strikes adorning the board. “It looks like Johnny’s winning.”

“Uhh...” Again with the nervous glances.

You giggled, “You’re losing, aren’t you?” The spot under his name had the fewest tallies and you figured that’s why he was being so shy about it.

Jaehyun entered the room, seemingly in a very important conversation by the way that he was speaking animatedly.

“The game’s over on Friday and Johnny’s gonna win.”

“That’s so stupid. He hasn’t bagged any since Y/N, how is he still gonna win?” Yuta complained all but scowling at the floor, neither of them had yet to notice your presence.

You frowned at the mention of your name, not liking the term ‘bagging’ to be in such close proximity with your name.

“Oh, Mark has a new strike, looks like he finally got Claire into bed.” Yuta continued snorting, “Took him long enough.”

“Wait, what the fuck? How the hell did Taeyong get two strikes?” Jaehyun, squinted at the board.

Yuta snorted, “He had a threesome last night. Can you believe it? This close to the end? It’s like he’s actually trying to compete now.”

“What the hell is that supposed to mean?” You muttered, effectively catching their attention.

“Y/N.” Jaehyun breathed out, eyes wide and darting between you and Jungwoo who was obviously trying to get them to stop talking. “Hey... what’s up? When did you get here?”

“Ummm.... no. What the fuck is going on?”

“What do you mean?” Jaehyun cocked his head, doing his best to pretend like he wasn’t panicking.

“No, I don’t want your bullshit. Just tell me what this game is.” You were using anger to hide your fear. You could feel the pounding of your heart in your head, a throbbing sensation that gave way to a sinking feeling of realization.

At that moment, when his eyes finally met yours. Not Jaehyun’s, not Yuta’s, but Johnny’s as he walked in the room with that fucking stupid smile you felt your last will got out the window. It was at that moment that everything came crashing down.

“Y/N, please can’t we just talk?” Johnny chased after you, begging you to turn around.

“You promised.”

Johnny’s heart dropped at your words, and his chest started closing in in fear. The burning feeling in his throat had him choking, panicking in belated realization.

It wasn’t just the words that you said, it was the way that you said it. So defeated, so broken. So betrayed.

“You promised that you wouldn’t hurt me. Do you remember that? Did you even mean that?” You felt the tears brimming, and you fought the best you could to keep them down. But your wobbling voice let him know.

“Of course I meant it.” He answered breathlessly. “You know me, I don’t say things that I don’t mean.”

“Do I? Do I know you?” You huffed out. “Because I really thought you were someone different.”

“No, I- I’m still me. I’m still Johnny. I just...”

“You just what? You just lied about our entire relationship? If it was even that, because I was just another tally to you wasn’t I? Just another tally on a stupid whiteboard for a stupid game.”

You choked back the tears that were burning in your throat, not bothering to wipe at the ones that managed to escape.

“You know what hurts the most? I actually thought you liked me. I actually thought that you meant all those things that you said to me.”

“I did mean it. I meant every single word, and I still do. Nothing was a lie, my feelings were real. Please just listen to me, I can explain.” He stepped closer, but you took a step back, keeping the distance.

“Explain what? I already heard everything for myself. What are you gonna say, that Jaehyun and Yuta were lying? Hmmm? That it wasn’t a game? That that’s not the reason that you approached me?”

“I...” He couldn’t find any words, because you were right. Every single word that you said was right. He struggled to catch his breath, panicking. “Please don’t leave me.”

“Give me one reason why I shouldn’t leave.”

“I love you. I need you. I can’t- I can’t imagine life without you.”

“That’s not enough.” You clenched your jaw, face going slack. It was as if you were losing the will to even be heartbroken over this.

“Please, I-I’ll do anything, what do you want me to do?” He begged, eye brows nearly touching as they furrowed.

“I don’t want anything from you, just stay away from me.” You mumbled out, avoiding his eyes.

“Baby, please.”

“Don’t fucking call me that, I’m not yours, I never was.” You snapped at him, backing away.

“I’m sorry.” He mumbled under his breath and he wasn’t sure if it was meant for you or himself.

“So I’m kinda going rogue here. I know you already hate me, but try not to hate me anymore than you already do.”

Johnny didn’t look anywhere except for you.

The professor seemed to humor him, allowing one of his favorite students to continue with an amused smile on his face.

You on the other hand did not.

You stared at Johnny with a straight face, trying your best to not look flustered.

“The whole point of this assignment was to find someone that changed our lives. But my partner and I struggled to find someone. It’s not that we didn’t have great people around us, its not even that we don’t have people that we admired. It was because no one we came up with really seemed genuine to us. But I found someone. I finally found someone that I could trust, that I let in. But I did something really stupid and fucked it up- excuse my language.”

You watched him stand behind the podium, looking smaller than he ever did.

“You know, before I met you I didn’t think that my life needed changing. I thought I was doing just fine. But then I realized that I wasn’t. I was struggling to even feel normal, to feel like I was living for something. Y/N you helped me find home. Remember when I said that you only understand that you were already home until you lose it? Well I feel it now. And it feels like shit.”

You sucked in a sharp breath, a feeling in the back of your throat burning.

“Y/N. You’re the person who changed my life. And I don’t even deserve that. But I’m here, standing in front of you like a fool because I’m whining about losing the best thing that ever happened to me.”

For a moment you thought he was done, because the silence was deafening.

“Even if you sill hate me after this, I want you to know that you mean more to me than anything else. You are the person that changed my life. You are my person, and I want so badly to be yours.”

There was a beat of silence as he ended abruptly, taking a seat on the other side of the room, eyes still locked on you.

Your professor stood up with a clap. “Well, thank you Johnny for that... interesting presentation.” A wide smile was still on his face despite his word choice. “I guess we should end on that then. Second batch of presentations is on Friday, please be prepared.”

The students of your class stood, shuffling out the exit, voices murmuring to each other.

You sat on the bench outside your lecture hall, watching as Johnny made his way nervously to you.

“You’re an idiot.” You told him as he approached you, bottom lip wobbling against your will. Eventually you broke. “But you’re my idiot.”

Johnny felt a drop of relief in his stomach as he felt like his heart would burst.

“You’ve totally botched our presentation by the way. If we fail it it’s on you.” You shoved him away teasingly.

Johnny grinned, throwing his arm over your shoulder.

“Yeah? Well, I think we did better than you think. I think that things are gonna turn out just fine.”

(sorry, i was supposed to write a full angst, but i couldn’t help myself.)

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oh-my-may · 4 years

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Bokuto, Kuroo and Oikawa confessing to their crush who wears glasses

requested: hi omg im new to this thing,, may i request an hc of bokuto, oikawa, and kuroo where the reader always wears eyeglasses and one day takes them off? Then they get curious as to how far the reader can see their faces clearly until they're just inches away from each other, and it suddenly turns into a confession? HDJSHA tbh i see the 3 as the most flirty ones who'd do that but if you have others in mind, i'd still be very happy to read them!! Thank you so much ❤

First of all this is such a creative idea I love it and enjoyed writing it! Second of all I had to completely rewrite Bokuto and Kuroo because Tumblr deleted the draft and??? Honestly I don’t deserve this

Also requests are open! I finished everything that was sitting in my inbox so give me more!

Bokuto Kotaro:

You’ve been friends with him for quite a while and at school you always spend lunch together, you would sometimes come to practice and you’d let him rant about volleyball and what else, but you never left that ‘friends’ state, even though everyone around you knew you had a crush on each other (oblivious babies~)

Anyways he would constantly comment on your glasses and tease you about it? “How much can you see without them, Y/N? Are you blind?” “Do you think I’d look good with them? Let me try them on~” etc etc

So one day at lunch you would take them off because your head hurts a little. You rub your eyes and then lay your head on the table for some peace and quiet. But it didn’t last long.

Bokuto found you just moments after and saw your glasses laying around unsupervised. He took them and then took the place opposite to you. “Y/N-chan, can you see me~?”

You look up at him and perk an eyebrow. He was moving his head from left to right (like in the gif) and looked at you with widened, expectant eyes. “I am short-sighted Bokuto, so no, I can’t. I can see it’s you because of your hair but everything else is absolutely blurred.”

He pouts and gets a little closer. “And now.” You tilted your head a little. “It’s getting better. I can see your huge owl eyes.”

Bokuto smiled and came even closer, leaning over the table now. “How about now?”, he said, but his voice was trailing off a little. It was as if he was looking at you for the first time. Now that he was this close to you he was reminded of his crush and he was glad you couldn’t quite make out all features of his face yet, because a rosy blush found its way to his cheeks as he smiled conspirationally. “Getting better.”, you answer. “Are you blushing?”, you ask immediately after, noticing the pink tint of his cheeks.

He immediately sits back a little, trying to hide the blush. “Let’s go on a date.”, he says instead of answering and now you were the one to start blushing. “W-What?”

Bokuto puts your glasses on and looks at you as if he was thinking very deeply about something. “How about Friday? After my game? We could go and eat something.”

You gulp but nod, your face still feeling hot like hell. “Of course, I’d love to.” Because how could anyone ever say no to Bokuto? Especially when he was looking this good with your glasses on?

Kuroo Testuro:

You’ve been friends since Middle School and became basically inseperable in High School. You joined the volleyball team as the manager so you guys could spend more time together and when he became captain in his 3rd year - Mom and Dad of the volleyball team, aaw

In Middle School you never gave it a second thought but as you got into High School you noticed how your heart jumped a little when he looked at you directly, how your breath hitched when he smiled at you or how your guts twisted when you saw some other girl flirting with him.

Little did you know he did all that to subtly flirt with you and make you jealous to finally get a reaction out of you, but it never worked and he got frustrated. So one day after practice, when it was just the two of you in the gym cleaning up, he took his opportunity.

He came up behind you and snatched your glasses, before sprinting to the other end of the gym so you wouldn’t catch him. “Kuroo! What are you doing?”, you confusedly shout across the big empty hall. He stops and raises your glasses into the air. “I wanna test your eyesight! Can you see me?” You cross your arms across your chest. “This is pointless Kuroo! You already now that I am long-sighted so yes, I can very well see you!”

So he comes closer. “How many fingers am I holding up?” “Two.” “Great job!” He comes closer. “And now?” “Five.” And so it went on for some time until he was only a few feet away and it started to become blurry. “Uhm... Four? No wait, Three! Is it three?” He shakes his head in disappointment. “No, it was Four.” You still didn’t get why he was doing this but when he was getting closer until your bodys almost touched you suddenly couldn’t complain anymore.

“And what about now?”, he asks, quieter than before. When the air leaves his mouth you can feel it brush against your skin and you can’t help but shiver. “I can barely see you.”, you whisper and blush so hard that your cheeks could resemble tomatos. You felt hot all over and when Kuroo lifted his hand and touched your cheek you could feel his fingertips shaking. “A pity.”, he murmurs before his lips touch yours in the lightest way ever. Your completely black out and forget how to move for solid 5 seconds before you wrap your arms around his neck and pull him even closer.

By the time he leans back again you’re both breathless and silence fills the gym until you begin laughing and you say: “The next time we kiss I wanna see your face though.”

Oikawa Tooru:

You met in High School and kinda hit it off as friends since the beginning. You were walking past the gym and one of his balls hit you and you got so mad at him and yelled 5 minutes about who he thinks he is and everyone is just *amazed*

Since then you’ve always been the one that kept him on his toes, so that he wouldn’t get too self-centred and grew a giant ego because of his fangirls. You helped each other through relationships and break ups but after his last break up in his 3rd year something felt different.

And you felt it too, but neither of you really wanted to face reality so you kinda avoided each other for a while, thinking your feelings were something that developed in the heat of the moment and would be over after you wouldn’t see each other.

Anyways today you were at the library studying. It was Friday evening and you were basically alone until Oikawa suddenly showed up and sat down opposite of you. “Y/N-chan! You’re wearing your glasses! It#s been a while since I’ve seen you with them~”, he casually begins and grins at you. He was right. Normally you wore contacts because you thought you looked better with them, but today you didn’t feel like putting them in. “It’s more comfortable.”, you shrug, still trying to avoid his gaze.

But he just reaches for you and takes your glasses and you snap up. “Tooru! No, I need them!” “Really? Are you really blind without them?” He puts them on and looks amazed. “Woah, Y/N, you never told me that your eyesight was actually this bad.” You grunt. “Tooru, please just give them back.” But he just shakes his head and gets up. He walks over to a book shelf and asks. “How clearly can you see me?” “I can see the color of your clothes.”

He starts laughing. “That’s insane! Y/N you’re like a mole!” He walks to the table you were sitting on and sits on the far end of it. “And now?” “Still nothing new. Except that your annoying face is nearer.” He moves across the room a couple more times, until he suddenly stops and walks satright over to you, a sly smirk on his face that you can’t see.

“What are you doing?” But he doesn’t answer. Instead he places his hands on the table right in front of you and leans closer to you. “Can you still not see me? Or my feelings for you? Or your feelings to me? Or will you stay blind forever?”

You can’t even say anything before his lips capture yours and you couldn’t care less about whether he has your glasses or not, or if he’s been your friend for the last 3 years. You’re not gonna be blind from now on.

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wuvbug-kny · 4 years

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too late — kamado tanjirou

↬ tw!! suicidal thoughts

↬ tanjirou x fem!reader x inosuke

↬ genre: angst

“i-i really do like you..um, it wasnt easy to confess b-but..yeah..”

my body shook. my head ached. my anxiety was over the roof. what was i thinking, why would i confess to him?! oh god. im going insane. what was i thinking..

i felt tears in my eyes start to form as my body got hotter by the second. my fists were clenches togethee tightly, nails digging into my palms as my heart raced at an unsteady pace. i gulped. why wasnt he saying anything? why is he just standing there? oh no.. my eyes remained stuck onto the ground as the knot in my throat got tighter. the tears that had formed in my eyes began to fall to the ground, and out of embarassment i lowered my head even more hoping he wouldnt notice.

tanjirou, please dont break me more than i already am broken.

“(y/n)..”

“y-yes?”

“im sorry.

i cant reciprocate your feelings.”

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i felt numb. i felt like complete, utter trash.

i felt worthless. i feel worthless.

of course it turned out that way.

why did i get my hopes up? why was i so dumb? to think someone like him would love such a lonely, miserable girl like me.

my heart ached. ever since i felt like the hole in my chest had gotten the biggest its ever been. it hurt, the pain was incredibly painful, i felt like i seeped even more into darkness than the darkness i was emorsed in before.

god, why am i so miserable? what is this life you’ve given me? what is my purpose?

sometimes, no, at all times i just want to disappear.

the knock on my door startled me, causing me to jump up from my laying position on my bed, in result of getting up too fast i had landed on my floor painfully. i grunted in pain as more tears began to spilled out from my eyes.

im miserable..

quickly sitting up, i wiped the tears from my tomato reddened face before sucking everything up as best as i could.

“y-yes?” i replied to the knocking coming from my door.

the knocking got even louder.

confused, i called out again. “y-yes??”

i jumped, shrieking slightly as the door was kicked open. am i under attack? but this is the butterfly estate! scrambling to my bed like the coward i was, i quickly pulled out my blade, pointing it towards the now beaten down door.

“w-who is it??” i shivered.

“(y/n), you bird brain! training has started and everyone is still waiting on you!!”

in came inosuke, wearing his boar mask as usual.

i lowered my blade and sighed shakily, before putting it away. “i-inosuke..you scared me. you could of just answered to me instead of kicking my door open..” i said, getting up from the bed.

“whatever! you should be at training! you’re holding everyone up, you stupid hag!” he huffed, crossing his arms.

i forcefully made myself laugh, even though i was in now way amused by his words.

hes right.

im a burden to everybody.

i shouldnt be here.

i should just die.

im so worthless.

everyone would be better off without me.

without realizing, i felt the warmness of my tears flowing down my face. i felt my heart ache so badly, my body shaking.

unable to hold my stance, i fall to the floor. sobbing.

because im so pathetic.

taking my bruised up hands, i quickly try to wipe the tears away but they just keep coming, and coming. i cant stop. i cant stop. my bubble has bursted, i have no more energy, i have no energy to keep it all in anymore, i cant control myself.

as i was too busy drowning in my negative, self killing thoughts, i was interrupted when my hands were pulled away from my face.

a little taken aback, but still having tears flowing down my face, i looked up.

inosuke..

“what are you, a baby? stop it.” he grumbled as he wiped my tears away with his thumb. his thumb glided across my cheek, flicking my tears away as gently as ever. for a moment i felt my heart warm. this is the first time ive ever been carressed so gently. i loved the feeling, but at the same time surprised as to who i was recieving it from.

“dont cry anymore. i dont like it.” his hands gently carressed my face now as his emerald eyes looked into mine. i felt my heart skip a beat, the empty deep feeling in my chest being forgotten at the very moment. i couldnt look away from his eyes.

for the first time ever, i felt like. i was okay.

i teared up again, but before i could let the tears spill i engulfed inosuke in a hug. an endearing, loving, grateful hug. i sobbed as i buried my face into his chest.

“t-thank you. thank you so much.”

i felt his arms wrap around my shaking figure gently, as he at the same time patted my head.

i was honestly surprised as to what was going on right now. out of all people, inosuke.

you’ve made me so happy. you’ve made me feel safe, okay, and wanted.

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two months had passed ever since tanjirou had turned me down.

honestly, i had nothing against tanjirou. i never expected him to like me, heck, love me back even. i never expected him to reciprocate my feelings. but at the same time, i felt like i still had a chance. i dont know what was going through my mind at the time.

i still loved tanjirou. maybe not as much as before, but i knew i still had the slightesy feelings for him. i try my best to talk to him as if nothing had ever happened. i really just want to move on from it.

as much as i hate myself for it, seeing him and talking to him makes me feel worthless. i hate myself for feeling that way. if i could go back in time and redo everything, i most certainly would.

what hurt me even more was to see how close he had gotten himself with kanao. it was no surprise to me, honestly. kanao is a very pretty girl, and she’s just way better than me in general in regards to demon slaying and skill wise.

no wonder tanjirou would take interest in her.

i was happy for him, i really was. i held no resent towards kanao at all. afterall, it would be petty and childish.

kanao was a dear friend to me and if they really did have chemistry between one another, i do really wish them the best.

i just cant help but pity myself.

“(y/n)!”

i squeaked in surprise as i was suddenly lifted off the ground by a pair of arms around my waste and twirled around. it took me a moment to realize that it was nobody but inosuke, before having a giggling fit.

“i-inosuke! put me down!” i laughed as he started to make plane noises. i felt myself blush as his eyes locked itself with mine, before averting my gaze to block him from noticing my face had turned into a tomato red.

ever since i broke down in front of inosuke and had him comfort me, we’ve gotten a lot closer. not much has changed between us personality wise, but he associated with me way more and always seemed ready whenever id ask him a favor, etc. he also now liked to pick me up and pretend to toss me, or making plane noises as he twirled me around.

he’s honestly like my best friend now. i can actually talk to him about how i feel deep down inside. he listens but doesnt really give much input on it, but i dont mind. its inosuke afterall, what can i expect? all im grateful for is that he listens.

inosuke grinned before setting me back down on the floor. he patted my hat before literally collapsing onto the grass covered ground, yawning and using his arms to rest his head on.

“im tired, (y/n). take a nap with me.” he grunted, patting the spot next to him. i smiled before laying down too, as i looked up at the sky.

“hey, inosu-“ i cut myself off after i had looked at him and noticed he was already out like a light. i giggled a bit. hes such a baby, honestly.

i stared at his face a bit more and noticed how pretty and feminine his features were. his eyelashes were curled and at a beautiful length, his lips slightly parted making him look angelic. his fair skin with no scars made him look like an angel.

jeez, god really do be picking favorites.

i sighed before laying back down on the grass, closing my eyes as i rested my head on inosuke’s chest. i felt myself sleeping into sleep and just let it happen.

this was one of the many times i felt at peace, always with inosuke.

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“im telling you, inosuke and (y/n) have a thing going on! have you seen how they are with each other?!” falling onto the floor, zenitsu started to sob. “why, out of all people, him?! a pretty girl like (y/n) deserves better! eUUugGNnN!!”

“what are you guys talking about?” tanjirou asked as he walked into the room, a smile worn on his face as he laughed at zenitsu obviously being overdramatic about whatever it was.

aoi and the other three girls sighed as they continued on eating their lunch.

“zenitsu thinks (y/n) and inosuke are dating and hes freaking out about it because he knows he’ll never get someone as pretty as (y/n).” aoi said, laughing at the last part.

tanjirou froze, before laughing nervously. “aaah, dont say that, im sure zenitsu will find someone one day!”

aoi shrugged, followed on by more giggles coming from sumi and the two others.

“are (y/n) and inosuke really dating?” tanjirou asked, sitting down.

“dont even mention it! agh!” zenitsu cried from his laying position on the ground, before burying his face in his arms again.

aoi rolled her eyes before moving onto answering tanjirou. “well..no, actually yeah, no, we dont know. i mean it looks like it. they’ve gotten a lot of closer and inosuke is always up on (y/n) now. i mean, they’d make a really cute couple! i see the way (y/n) lights up when shes around him.”

“a-ah. i see.” tanjirou said, letting out a slight laugh. “well, im gonna head out to train now. ill see you all at dinner.”

aoi and the three girls said goodbye to him as he made his exit.

tanjirou walked down the halls of the butterfly estate, before stumbling upon the garden. he sighed, walking out with the intention to take a look at the peaceful view of the garden meadow and for some fresh air.

his peace was interrupted, however, as his eyes locked upon two well known people cuddled up on the garden grass, taking a peaceful nap.

his fists clenched, and so did his teeth.

he felt jealousy over power him. he did not realize it, but it was there and he felt it. he just didnt know what it was.

but what he knew, was regret.

that he had let (y/n) slip past him.

#kny tanjirou #tanjirou x reader #demon slayer tanjirou #angst #kny x reader #demon slayer inosuke #inosuke x reader #inosuke kny #im back #:(( <3 #kimetsunoyaiba #demon slayer #fanfic #kny fanfic #kny fandom

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dazaily · 4 years

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karasuno first years using pick-up lines on their s/o

soo.. i’ve been wanting to write a karasuno head canon for ages, and i gonna write a hc which turned into a short fic that i’ll probably never finish... so this is the replacement. enjoy!!

description: so the the karasuno boiz were playing truth and dare in their changing room. and tanaka and nishinoya had dared your bf to use a pick-up line on you.

warnings: implied nsfw. gender neutral reader. fluffy but sprinkled with swears. i was stressed writing this. long af. not proofread.

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hinata shoyo

i’m sorry but, did u rlly expect our lil cinnamoroll to know what’s a pick up line?

he babie 🥺❤️

n e ways, it was finally his turn on their little game of truth and dare and nishinoya had dared him to use a pick up line on you.

“a pickup line??? what’s that? will it improve my volleyball skills??”

like i said a bABIE!!

nishinoya and tanaka needs to stop tainting my bbys mind.

“udk whats a pickup line??? how did u even end up with y/n.”

nishinoya is in shock.

and then the plan commenced.

their lil game of truth and dare ended up as a lil plan on getting u hinata to use a pick up line on you.

that night, u were walking home w hinata after club activities ended.

with noya, tanaka and kageyama trailing you, but we pretend they don’t exist.

“soo,, y/n”

“sup? y u acting all weird for? ur usually rambling abt volleyball by now.. u okay?”

“hoW DO THEY KNOW?? WHAT AM I GONNA DO NOW?? THEY TOLD ME TO SOUND NATURAL BUT THEY ALR KNOWS!! uGh my senpais are watching me, i gotta do them proUD!”

hinatas mind ran at 1,000km/h, it was insane. especially for someone who doesn’t usually use their brain.

“um, uM, Y/N! CAN U HELP ME HOLD SOMETHING?!?”

confusion.

that was the only thing u felt at the moment.

i mean u were alr infront of ur house, what’s the point of holding smt when u were leaving??

“whut”

conveniently, during ur moment of confusion, the only word u could form was “what”.

“m-m-mm-mY HAND!!”

hinata screeched at ur face

...

silence. whilst noya and tanaka facepalms in the bg

it took a moment, but ur brain finally computes what ur bf just said

“pFFFFFTT,”

ur first instinct was to release the phatest snort/wheeze. shane dawson is jealous.

“y/nnnnnn~~ stop laughinggggggg”

hinata was now suffering from crippling embarrassment, as u wouldn't stop laughing no matter how much he pleaded.

omg imagine him all blushy and shiz akdkkoaw-- ok lets not get off topic

“ok,, okay, first of all, u could've just held my hand without asking? we’re dating? you don't need my permission to do smth we do everyday?? and, more importantly, who taught u that line u just used???”

u said half wheezing, half talking, struggling to convey wtv ur trying to say to ur bf.

lucky for u, he was strangely able to understand what u were saying, and he replies with a lengthy explanation of the entire situation.

“ooo, so that's why noya, tanaka and kageyama have been following us,,”

“hOWD U KNOW??? NOYA-SAN OUR HIDING SPOT HAVE BEEN EXPOSED!!!”

as u left to go in ur house, he stops u by holding ur hand and gives u a peck on ur forehead.

as he separates from u, he had the biggest smile plastered on his face, brightening the entire neighbourhood.

“goodnight y/n! i love you!”

kageyama tobio

erm, lbr this man would have 0 ideas in the field of flirting.

knowing this, our lovely 2nd year duo, decide its time for them to step in and help their junior in his dating life

despite it flowing extremely smoothly w/out their intervention

n e ways, so they forced the 1st years to play truth and dare w them.

when it finally came to tobio’s turn, the unfortunate child unknowingly picks dare which causes nishinoya to spring up.

“i have the perfect dare for you.”

commencing plan...

so nishinoya dares kageyama to say a pickup line to you, but since kageyamas a big baby in disguise, he dk any pickup lines.

bet he didn't even know any pickup lines, but that's not the point.

so, being the mastermind he is, nishinoya told kageyama a perverted pickup line.

being the clueless innocent baby he is, kageyama decides to recite the pickup line he received from noya to u outside ur class.

“hey y/n,”

“hmm?”

“do you like dragons?”

“eh? why the sudden question? i guess so?”

“cuz i can see me dragon my balls on ur face.”

processing...

what the fuck.

it was like god hit the pause button on earth, like literally everyone just paused for a literal second, turning their head towards kageyama, trying to figure out who tf was the brave soul who said that.

while still in shock, kageyama just stood there confused, as he was suddenly placed in the centre of attention for no reason. o there's a reason honey, a very good one.

“why's everyone looking at me,”

with that one sentence, the world went back to normal as if someone had hit the play button all of the sudden, leaving u to deal with the weirdly awkward situation u found urself in.

“ummm... tobio.. do u have any idea what u just said.”

“uhh yeah, a pickup line.”

at that moment, when he said that, it hit u.

“what did they do.”

“huh, what are u talking about??”

*insert confused kags*

“nishinoya and tanaka told u to do something right?”

“r u a psychic???”

despite being amazed at ur ‘psychic powers’, he immediately explains the situation, causing u to face palm so much ur face may be concave.

there are times where u appreciate ur dumbass bf being a ignorant qt, but times like this makes u wish he was a tad bit smarter..

debating ur options, u decided to explain the meaning of the pickup line he just used on u in public.

once hearing and understanding the meaning of the pickup line he used on u, his face lit up like a matchstick, shining bright red, stuttering madly, struggling to get even a word out.

“oh, um, well, im sorry for saying smtg so indecent to u in public, um ill make it up to u somehow,”

understanding him was a struggle due to the severe stuttering he was suffering from, but u managed somehow.

“nahhh, its cool, i should go lecture nishinoya for corrupting my precious baby though~~”

“b-b-b-bABY!?!?”

“hehe, yes ur my baby <3″

tsukishima kei

ugh this salty ass mfcker

honestly can't imagine him being forced into using a pickup line on his s/o

cuz, despite hw much we try to deny it, he is one smart mfcker,,,

but i think he would be curious how his s/o will react, so he would do it on his own will anyways.

umm, so this is how the situation went down.

it was another boring day, and the 2nd year duo was having none of that and decided too ensue a game of truth and dare with the 1st years.

this was how the c h a o s started.

he was trying to leave the game discreetly before he had to sell his soul to the devil.

unfortunately for him, lady luck was not on his side, as he was chosen to do the next dare.

“but wait a fucking minute, when the fuck did this become a game of dare or dare, when tf did freedom of choice decide to fuck off like that?”

plot convenience

so he was forced into a dare.

the moment of dread came when tanaka stood up shouting he had a brilliant idea. and it all went downhill from there.

so tanaka dared tsukki to use a pickup line on his s/o. and his first reaction was no.

“o come on, u never do anything romantic, i bet u haven't even held hands, sometimes i wonder how y/n’s still with u.”

“says the person who has never dated.”

tanaka shut ups.

so somehow, he managed to get himself out of the situation.

later that night, he couldn't stop thinking about pickup lines. he almost spent the whole night thinking about ur reaction. cuz volleyball is just a club, am i right..

he decided to use a pickup line on u tmrw, just to see ur reaction, not like he wants to use one, lmao that's lame, haha. a fucking tsundere.

the next day, during lunch, he left yams with the 1st year duo to go find u.

when he saw u, he immediately calls u.

“hey, where's yams, u didn't tell me u wanted to eat with me today,”

“nah, i just had something to tell u.”

at this moment, tsukishimas heart was beating faster than ushijimas spikes.

“you know if u think about it we never stop tasting our tongues.”

“hmm, now that u said it ye--”

“how bout i taste urs for a change.”

since it was so unexpected, u had no idea how to react.

as u returned to reality, u notice a slight pink on his cheeks.

u were gonna come back with a snarky comment, since it was rare he was so vulnerable(?)

but ur plans were ruined when he glanced at u making eye contact, to check ur reaction.

ur face bursts into the brightest red, hes ever seen.

seeing ur extremely delayed reaction, he lets out a laugh, but immediately recollects himself.

“it was a dare from tanaka.”

you were still bright red, but u felt the blush on ur face reducing after hearing the reasoning behind the line.

“oh, haha, i was wondering what's up”

u said slightly dejectedly.

he felt like he was just punched in the gut by guilt.

“i was also curious about ur reaction, and i am satisfied to say the least.”

he leans down to ur height to whisper in ur ear, before initiating the kiss.

ur blush returns almost immediately as u returned the kiss.

since yall were in school, he separed from the kiss after a few seconds. this is a place for knowledge, y'all nasties.

“welp, bye loser,”

after the kiss, he immediately return to yamaguchi, leaving u alone with ur thoughts. trying to escape from embarrassment.

he may be equal to the condiment on ur kitchen cupboard, but he still tries to make u happy, so appreaciate him and his efforts <3

yamaguchi tadashi

a babie uwuwuwu

pickup line what's that? hehe omf he's so cute

so how this about to go down.

so truth and dare bla bla bla... ive written this exact thing 3 times please excuse my behaviour.

since he was bored, yamaguchi forced tsukki to join in on the fun together, a decision he would regret.

soon it became yamaguchi’s turn, and everyone turned quiet due to the lack of dares they had or yamaguchi.

that was until the one and only nishinoya stood up.

“hEY, u have a s/o right, how about u use a cheesy pickup line on her!!” *eyebrow raise*

while processing what nishinoya just said, yamaguchi’s face morphed into one of dread and fear, as he turns his head to tsukishima for help.

“u dragged us into this mess, i aint helping u.”

and there goes his only help, well it was his fault in the first place dragging him and his best friend into this mess. tsukishima u tsundere.

yamaguchi was on the verge of tears, thinking of excuses and ways he could get out of the god forbidden situation he brought upon himself.

but the only thing he could think of was the worst case scenario, which was u breaking up with him.

looking at his senpais, he slowly faces the fact that there's no escape and accepts his fate.

if this is the cause of the end of ur relationship together, it just means the gods don't want y'all together.

“idk any pickup lines....”

this was his last attempt of escaping as he bids ur relationship farewell, already aware it was not gonna work.

“thiS IS WHERE I COME IN, don't worry yamaguchi i am the encyclopaedia of pickup lines.”

ofc his senpais would know the cheesiest lines on the surface of this earth. despite insisting the earth is flat.

and so the dreadful event began.

after school ended, otw to his club, he met up with u. with his senpais trailing behind stalking y'all, to see ur reaction.

“ugh out of all the pickup lines, they had to make me use the most overused one... im gonna cry,,, y/n i hope u don't leave me after this.”

well here goes nothing...

“hey y/n,,” extreme stutters that im too lazy to type out.

“hmm?”

“k-k-kiss me if im wrong,,, b-but dinosaurs still exist right?”

before he could even cringe at himself, u gave him a peck on his lips while smirking afterwards.

yamaguchi proceeds to poof into redness after processing what had just happen, as u laugh maniacally in the background.

“u could've just asked for one, and tsukishima already told me everything so u don't need to explain,"

yamaguchi did not have the brain power to comprehend the situation at hand, as he was still affected from the kiss from earlier.

“i can't believe u think i would breakup with u because of something so trivial.. im kinda upset..”

finally coming back to reality, yamaguchi finally realises the situation he's in.

“o-oh, i didn't mean to make it seem like i didn't believe in our relationship, its just that w--”

he gets cut off by u kissing him again.

when u separate, u began to laugh again.

“hAHAHHA, ikik, i was just joking around, don't worry ill love u no matter what, now off u go to ur club ill see u tmrw.”

not knowing what to do or how to react, yamaguchi felt the need to do smtg before u left.

“i love u, ill call u later tonight!”

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cs-discourse · 4 years

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it is my dream to unlock all of the cs & discourse mods backstories. why is juice box filled with hatred? why does phe hint vaguely at a sad angst backstory? ( legit tho phe, you ok? ) why do rando anons dislike cinna for super petty reasons? why did I think phe and peach were the same mod? why does raey suck so much? actually, why do all the rp mods suck so much? these are some of the questions I hope will be answered by the unlocking of the mods backstories.

fjjvhdhhche honestly, if you really wanna know, sit tight for a second. Youve unlocked my sad anime backstory by asking 😔😔😔😜 But yeah tw for abuse and suicide ig.

So to keep this as short as I can, my mom yeeted basically as soon as I was born, my dad went off to war and when he came back he couldnt hold any jobs so me and him lived w my grandparents (who were taking care of me when he was gone too). My grandmother (bitchma from now on) hates him (and i hated him for a while, but now I see why she did and I love him) and kicked him out bc he had no job and major ptsd.

So I lived with gparents up until I was 18. In that time I was basically subjected to gaslighting, manipulation, all types of mental and physical abuse, mostly by bitchma. They believed in spanking (ofc. which is fucking horrble. do not spank your child) and I would legit have panic attacks??? anxiety attacks? (not sure which. i bever figured it out) where I couldnt breathe and I hyperventilated and sobbed and it was horrible, and bitchma would just tell me to “Stop that, you can breathe” while im sobbing and gasping for air. She’ll get mad at anything and everything, screamed constantly, blamed me for everything. Always said “Well (insert other child) didnt do this” or “I bet your friend (only friend i talked about) gets good grades”. Would scream at me about clothes I would wear, even if she backhandedly approved them earlier. Would hurt my feelings and when I would cry or feel the courage to tell her she hurt me she would just say “the world doesnt revolve around you”. Never apologized. Got mad at me for bad grades when I was in such a bad mind state because I had to live there with her. Said “I’ve never had a child that’s failed before, even your dad got good grades. But it seems like the only thing you can do.” That hurt me a lot. I remember it so clearly. I tried to kill myself that day, and other days, but by then I had friends I cared for. And I loved my friends as my family. If I did it, they would hurt and I never wanted to do that to them.

But coming back to my dad hate, she hates him because she couldn’t mold him into a perfect little child and was realizing she couldn’t mold me into a perfect child either. My dad and I have such similar personalities and likes it’s insane. Most likely because we were raised by the same tyrant with the same mindset of “I hate her”. He’s told me that even though he’s literally been deployed in war, some of the shit she’s done has given him more ptsd than it. I moved in with him when I turned 18. This is the happiest I’ve been in my entire life, escaping that hellhole. There’s so much more she’s done, but honestly I don’t have the willpower and don’t want to drone on, this is very long.

But yeah. She’s the only person that I’ve ever had no mercy for. When I heard she may have cancer, I was so fucking happy. But she didn’t, sadly. With the shit bitchma subjected me to, I honestly wish her the worst with her growing age. That’s how much fucking pain she’s caused me. Sorry to dump, but 1: you did ask and 2: it feels nice to vent

.phe

You probably thought we were both the same because I tend to keep to myself and both mod names start with P and I was signing as MP for a while when I started typoing Peach a lot and wanted to save myself the trouble.

Also, here’s my backstory LOL.. o<-<

I was born with a tumor disorder called infantile myofibromatosis and all that means is that I had self-resolving tumors all over my body at about age 3. As a result of the tumors going away, I spent a lot of years 8-12 in the hospital getting spinal transfusion work and checkups due to a destroyed vertebra, which would have resulted in paralysis from the waist down if untreated. I’ve got some pretty neat scars from all of this and I kinda want to get them turned into tattoos but I can’t because of MRIs scheduled for every 10 years.

Thankfully, the surgeries worked and I could resume “normal” activity approved by my surgeon at about 16. I have pictures of my before and after spinal x-rays if anyone wants to see. I think they’re kinda cool.

I tend to be a shut book about everything unless we’re friends and usually when I tell people everything they’re like D: I’m so sorry. So I just skip the guilt of sharing and don’t.

I’ve got a lot of nostalgic interests because I feel like I’m always trying to make up for lost time but I’m working on letting some things go.

My family tries to be supportive most of the time but my father is manipulative and tries to gaslight everyone. He kinda treats everyone in the house like we exist to serve him like a king and my brother’s frustrations often wind up being exploded all over my mother and I. It’s very a toxic household situation and I was happier before COVID when I could party and club and avoid my family with my college friends but I think that ship has sailed.

I’m currently in the process of trying to save money for future rent and new clothing, take my GRE again to raise my score above 160 and then fly the coop for good. It’ll probably take a year for all of this at least, if not longer. We’ll see. // Mod Peach

#tw #tw abuse #suicide tw #medical tw

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justmesadgirl · 5 years

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mistakes - part four

Paring: Ben as Roger Taylor x Reader

Warnings: angst, fluff?

Words: 2.3k

a/n: sorry that it took so long once again I will try to get back to posting couple times a month!

and if anyone could help me by check my writing let me know!

requests are open!

“y/n.” The way he said your name made your heart skip a beat. He still looked as good as a couple months ago but a worn out version of the Roger you use to know. Not sure what to do so you just stay there, not moving, just looking at your ex boyfriend who cheated on you. For a second,you just wanted to wrap your arms around his body and just cry. Cry until you had no tears left to cry but you couldn’t. It was over now and there wasn’t Roger and y/n anymore it was just y/n and just Roger. Not a happy ever after. Just two broken hearts and a baby on the way. At that thought, you quickly look down at what you are wearing. Oneof Brian's shirts that came down to your knees. Hoping to god that Roger wouldn’t see the baby bump that's growing fast. “W-what are you doing here?” Roger speaks up again. He had no clue probably why you were here. You were almost sure someone would have told him by now that you lived with Brian but to your surprise, no one had told him. “I-I’m j-just staying here for... umm... a couple of days.” You sounded so unsure with your words not sure how you should react to him. You just wanted to slam the door and go back to bed but it was too late now. “S-so you are with Brian now?” That’s when you realize he had been drinking. He wasn’t drunk but he wasn’t sober either. “Umm.. no?” Your answer was more like a question than a reply. You weren’t with Brian and you could never be with him. He was like a big brother to you, nothing more. “So you just randomly stay at his house -“ he glances down- “Only wearing his shirt?” Now he sounded more mad than before. Like he had the right to be here judging your life choices. As if he wasn’t the one that ruined your life in the first place. If he hadn’t been so horny all the damn time, maybe you would be at home. Cuddling up on the couch watching something stupid on the television. Instead you were here in this goddamn awful situation. “Yes.” Is all you say to him. The cold night wind blowing inside making yourself wrap your hands around you body. When you look up at him standing there on the other side of the door his eyes are on your stomach that shows now that your hands are pulling the shirt up a little and you quickly unwrap your hands. “Brians not here so...” you mumble to him trying to get away from the moment but at that moment you see Brian's car pull up. “Well here he is.” Roger drunkenly mumbles out to you. Not sure what you should do so you just stand there until you see Brian get out of the car and his eyes fall on you two. If you were Brian you would just sit back in the car and drive off but luckily Brian wasn’t so selfish. “Hey there friend!” Roger calls out to him and as Brian gets closer you can see that Rogers body tenses. Like he was about to explode because he was so mad. “Roger?” Brian questions as he finally makes it up to you two. Giving you a worried look as you just give him a tight lipped smile. “Well well the man who fucks my girlfriend arrives,” You are as shocked as Brian with the words Rogers spits out of his mouth. “E-excuse me?” Brian chokes out at his friend, clearly trying to make sure if he heard right. “You really think I’m that stupid! I always knew you had a thing for her and now you just... just take her away from me like this!” Roger was full on yelling at this point. So mad that tears were running down his cheeks. You reached to wipe them away but stopped yourself before you could reach his face. You just wanted to tell him everything would be alright and that you still loved him but you would never do that to yourself. “What the hell are you talking about.” You speak out as you see Brian struggling with his own words, Brian who always knew what to say. “He fucking loves you a-and now he has you!” He didn’t make any sense. He was talking with his hands and looked so sad and mad at the same time. “No he doesn’t.” You tell Roger with a small sarcastic laugh as you look at the silent Brian. “A-and now you are pregnant with h-his baby-” he choked- “when I was supposed to be the one you spend the rest of your life with and had kids with!” He yells out as he suddenly just hits Brian straight into his face. You let out a loud yelp as Brian stumbles on to the ground and places his hand on his bleeding nose. You get down on your knees trying to help him. “I-I... I’m sorry Brian.” Roger chokes out when he realized what he had done to his best friend. “You need to leave, mate” Brian tells him as he spits out blood. “Let's get you inside.” You whisper to Brian as you help him up and inside. “Roger you really need to leave. Now.” you tell him as you turn back to the sad looking man. You close the door to his face as you follow Brian to the bathroom. “Sit down. I will get the first aid kit.” You tell him as you take out the kit. You turn to face your best friend as he was sitting on the edge of the bathtub, holding his bleeding nose. “I’m sorry.” You hear him whisper out to you. “Brian you don’t have anything to be sorry about. I’m the one who should apologize to you.” You tell him as you set yourself between his legs and wrap your fingers under his chin to make him look up at you as you start to clean his cut. “I’m sorry for that. Sorry for leaving you alone to face him. I should have been home.” He whispers to you, Brian tries to look down again but you place your hands on his cheeks and make him look at you. “Please don't be sorry about that. I should not have opened the door to him. It’s my own fault.” You tell him. “It was just so... um... so different to see him after all these months..” you tell him as you let go of him. “Y/n” brian whispers out your name as you are about to leave. He takes your hand in his and pulls you back to where you were standing before. He softly places his palm on your cheek and leans in. Kissing you lips so softly and sweetly. You missed touching someone like this but you couldn’t kiss him back. He was your best friend and you were still in love with your cheating ex boyfriend. “B-brian I can't do this... I’m sorry.” You tell him as you pull away from his gentle touch. You give him a sad smile before your rush out of the bathroom. You could hear Brian call your name after you but you couldn’t stop and talk about what had just happened. Maybe Roger was right and Brian was in love with you. But you could never love him more than a brother or could you? He always had been your best friend and you had always thought about him as your brother never had you had the thought in your mind that you two could be more than what you are now. The kiss made you realize that you are still utterly in love with Roger. After everything he had done you still loved him. You still had hope that maybe one beautiful day you could be happy together again and have your family but you were insane to think like that. You and Roger were over. You walk to your room aka to Brian's guest room that you stayed at. Locking the door after yourself you make your way to your bathroom. Washing your face with cold water before looking at yourself in the mirror. Letting your hands find your growing stomach. “Everything will work out in the end right?” You mumble to yourself. Everything was so confusing right now. Brian kissed you. Roger found out you are pregnant but he thinks it Brian’s when it’s actually his. Taking a deep breath in before you walk back to bed and lay down. It takes a while before you finally fall back to sleep. When you wake up the sun is shining. Letting out a groan as you turn to face the clock. It was almost 12 am, luckily you didn’t have work today. Slowly getting up from the bed heading to the shower. After a long hot shower you start getting ready for the day. You didn’t have plans but you couldn’t stay inside after everything that had happened last night. You check yourself in the mirror before walking out of the room. Quietly walking to the front door. You really didn’t want to have that awkward conversation with Brian right now. You needed time to think about everything and maybe day in town would help. So you make it out of the door before you start fast walking away from the house, scared that Brian heard you shut the front door after you. It was relaxing to spend the day alone. You walked around stores had a nice dinner at your favorite pub by your and Rogers old place. You and Roger would come here almost every Sunday for a Sunday Roast. You missed it, you would spend some time alone in your special place that no one close to you knew about but just you and Roger and you missed you two having dinner while talking about the upcoming week and your plans. Looking at the almost empty plate in front of you as you hear someone sit down next to you. When you look up you are glad to see that it was Larry, the owner of the pub. “y/n! I haven’t seen you in so long! How are you my darling?” You give him a tight lipped smile. He was always so nice to you, making you feel so welcomed. “I'm good thank you. How are you?” You ask him. It was nice to see him after so long. You use to see him almost every weekend and now it had been months. “Im great darling. Where is Roger? I already thought that something happened between you because Roger is always here alone nowadays” He tells you. His words make your heart ache a little. “Oh we aren’t together anymore.” You tell him trying to give your best sweet smile. “Oh...” is all Larry answers you. “I need to get back to work. Hope you enjoy your meal and I hope I will see you soon.” He gives you one last smile before he gets up and gets back to whatever he was doing before sitting down. Slowly finishing your dinner and staying there for a while after. Not ready to go back home yet but at the same time you couldn’t stay there any longer, it probably looked weird that you were having dinner alone in a local pub and didn’t even have a drink. Taking a deep breath before gathering your stuff. Saying goodbye to Larry before walking out of the door to the cold late autumn air. You loved winter but hated it in London.

You loved snow and cold but just the cold wasn’t your thing. Not wanting to go home yet you just start walking around your old neighborhood. Not even thinking when you finally stop in front of a really familiar house that you use to call home. The lights were on and you knew that meant Roger was home.

Not sure what came to you but you walk up the driveway and knock on the front door. You hear someone walking on the other side when you realize what you were doing. So you were about to start walking away when someone opened the door. “y/n?” Rogers voice was soft and questioning. Like he wasn’t sure if it was really you.

Slowly turning around to face him giving him a tight lipped smile and bursting some of your hair behind your ear. “Sorry I don’t know what I was thinking.” You tell him as you start to walk away but you feel his strong hand in yours. “Please stay.” He almost whispers to you like he was afraid you would disappear. “I don’t know if that’s a good idea.” You tell him as you turn to face him again. For the first time you take a good look at him. His hair was longer, he looked sleepless and he had on old jeans and a white shirt. “I don’t know either but just come inside... I’m begging you y/n.” It felt so weird to feel his hand in yours and hear him saying your name. Giving his hand a small squeeze before letting go of it and nodding your head. “Okay.” You say before making your way into the house you use to call home.

Guys tell me if y/n should end up with Roger or Brian!

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kyouxa · 5 years

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Diabolik Lover Chaos Lineage: Ayato Sakamaki (Story 11)

Place: Scarlet Mansion — Living room

Reiji: You won’t be able to beat us. Did you forget that you lost last time already?

Ayato: I didn’t. This time you’ll lose. I’ll show you Ayato-sama‘s true abilities!

Yui: (After all, Ayato-kun is willing to fight! We weren’t planing on this at all)

Ayato-kun! That’s wrong! We weren‘t planing on fighting them!

Ayato: That’s right. You‘re not wrong at all but i‘ll get their memories back like this!

Yui: (What is that supposed to mean?)

Choices

1) — Don’t forget (black) 2) — Good luck (white)♡♡♡

— Don’t forget Yui: Don't forget the real purpose! We said we‘re not fighting them

Ayato: Shut up. I know that

— Good luck ♡

Yui: Good luck! You’re their real brother after all Ayato-kun, they should remember at least something

Ayato: ...Heh, I hope so too

Yui: (Im sure you’ll be fine. Believe in the bond between your Brothers)

end Choices

Reiji: What are you talking about? If you won’t come for me, I’ll come for you instead.

Ayato: Hey, wait! It’s not like that! We just came here to talk!

Both Shu and Reiji are having fake memories, which were planted in your heads by our father!

You haven‘t noticed it, but it’s something like your senses are discomforted or something!?

Reiji: If you’d think of what you just said, it’s stupid

Shu: I have no intention in believing such a silly story.

Yui: But everything Ayato-kun‘s saying is true!

For some reason we are gathered in this place we don’t know about and we’re supposed to fight ...

Reiji: This talk is cancelled now. Come on, fight me now!

*Reiji attacks Ayato*

Ayato: ...ugh!

Shu: ...ah... !

Ayato: ... Ngh! Fuck, why can’t you listen to what I say!

*Ayato attacks Shu*

Shu: I don’t want to hear it

*Shu attacks Ayato*

Ayato: That’s not good, they‘re not listening to me! Chichinasi come here

*Ayato grabs Yui*

Yui: Y-Yes!

(Ayato-kun, he’ll fight while holding into me ...! It's even harder like this… !)

Ayato: ... Ngh! Tch!

Reiji: Why don’t you just handle us Eve? Wouldn’t it be painful to fight against us while protecting her?

Ayato: ...Ngh… !

Yui: (Its like Reiji-san says. I think I'm getting in his way)

(I can’t stay with Ayato-kun like this...)

Shu: Heh, let her go

Ayato: Ngh! Fuck!

*something fell off*

Ayato: Ouch… What? Something fell from the shelf. Was it a lantern?

Yui: W-Wait there are flames spreading... !

Agh! The fire of the lantern’s burning up!

Ayato: Tch! That’s not good. We‘re going to die if we stay here!

Hey, let’s stop the fight! We need to hurry up and escape! Shu! Reiji!

Shu: ...ngh...

Reiji: ...ah...

Ayato: Hey, what are you waiting for?!

Yui: (Whats wrong? Even if the flames are coming closer and closer, they both won‘t move ...!)

Reiji: Ngh...

*Reiji faints*

Shu: ...Ngh? What is that?

*Shu faints*

Ayato: Hey, whats going on! I can‘t handle this flames alone! Stand up and do something!

Yui: Both of them fainted...

(Oh, but speaking of that, it was like this when Ayato's memories returned.)

(Symptoms like having a headache or fainting for no reason ...)

Ayato-kun! I think this is the same situation when your memories returned ...

Ayato: So you mean, their memories are coming back?

Ngh, the shelf is breaking! Look out!

*Ayato protects Yui*

Yui: Ngh!

(The nearby shelf burned down already! The flames are spreading with tremendous force)

Ayato: This is bad! The fire is spreading way too fast! We‘ll get locked in here like this!

For us vampires this is actually no problem, but for you as human this situation is pretty bad!

Yui: Ah...

Ayato: We need to get to a safe place! We’re going to die like this!

Yui: ...B-But

Ayato: What is it! We don’t have time

Yui: Now you might be able to get back the memories of Shu and Reiji-san

Ayato: Huh, what do you mean?!

Yui: They need to listen to you because of the fire, you may be able to restore their memories if you do well!

Ayato: ...That might be true

Yui: Yes. I'm having a strong physical feeling about that —

It may be a chance to remove the lid of their memories, right? If you try to recall on two or more …

Ayato: They might return. But we don‘t have much time. If it won‘t happen quickly, the house will burn down

Yui: Yes

Shu-san! Reiji-san! Wake up… ahem, ahem, ahem!

(I can‘t get air anymore... ! My consciousness is also getting weaker!)

Ayato-kun… ahem, ahem, ahem

Ayato: Hey, are you okay!? Is it because of the smoke?! Seems like we dont have more time

Shu! Reiji! We won‘t go without you two! Get up now!

Are you two really that weak? I cant remember the eldest Sakamaki Brothers being such nuisance!

Shu: ...

Reiji: ...

Yui: (Can‘t they hear us? We‘ll die if we can‘t get out quickly ...!)

Ayato: Really, those guys

Yui: Look, the pillar is breaking... !

(It will fall down on those two like this ...!)

Ayato: Look out!

Here!

*Ayato breaks the pillar*

Yui: Ayato-kun — !

Ayato: Hey, you two — !

Reiji: W-What is...

Ayato: There’s no time for that! You still don’t accept me as your brother, do you!?

What happened to your usual bossy attitude all of the sudden! I won’t forgive you for being like this!

Reiji: ...Ngh!

Shu: ...

Reiji: ...Ayato... ?

Yui: ...Hn!!

(Just now, he said Ayato...)

(That probably means... Reiji-san's memories returned —!)

Ayato: It's really getting serious! It‘s crumbling more and more!

We’ll leave now! Reiji! Shu! Are you awake now!?

Reiji: ...I woke up quite a long time ago. I will escape from here as well. ...Ngh...

Yui: Reiji-san are you okay?

Reiji: Yes, I’m fine. I just got a little headache. Now come Shu, let’s escape from here

Shu: ... Reiji...

Reiji: ... ?!

Yui: Shu-san... ? No way, are you okay!?

Ayato-kun, you need to help Shu-san...

Ayato: What are you talking about! Hey, Shu! Come on, lend me your hand...

Reiji: No, that’s not necessary

Ayato: Hah? What are you saying! I won’t leave him behind!

Reiji: *sigh* I really hate him from the bottom of my heart, but I can’t help it. Now Shu, turn your arm around my shoulder

Shu: ...Y-Yes

Yui: Reiji-san!

Reiji: This is the first and last time I’ll help you. I refuse to do such a thing ever again

Yui: (That’s good. Shu-san will escape together with Reiji-san)

Ayato: Yui, we’re leaving too!

*Ayato grabs Yui*

Yui: Kya!

Ayato: If you hold into me we can escape way faster. Just don’t lose your grips

Yui: ...Yes. Thank you

Ayato: Okay, we’ll escape through the window! ...Ngh... !

Yui: Ah, Ayato-kun that burn mark... ! Did the fire hit you awhile ago!?

Ayato: It’s really nothing you should worry about. We need to escape from here now! Yui, we‘ll get going now!

Yui: Yes!

*window breaks*

Place: Scarlet Mansion — Outside

Subaru: Hey, what was that sound just now?

Kanato: How should I know? But as you can see the mansion's burning

Laito: That’s true. I wonder what happened inside there?

*time passes*

Subaru: I wonder what happened inside there.. ? I wonder if they all are okay

Kanato: Oh, they seem to be alive

Ayato: Huff, Huff, Huff... we made it. I thought we’re going to die in there...

Yui: Huh?

Ayato: I’m alright. It’s not like anything can stop Ayato-sama at this time

Yui: Well that’s true! Thank you so much for protecting me!

But, what about your burns? Are they hurting a lot!?

Ayato: Nah, I can handle them

Yui: I see...

(During that blazing, he got away with me ... I'm sure he’s trying to act like he’s okay)

Ayato: I still wonder how those two are doing in their situation

Reiji: Ngh... Huff

*Reiji collapses*

Shu: Huff...Huff...

*Shu collapses*

Ayato: Talking about them, we were waiting you know?

Reiji: Huff... We’re glad you decided to wait. We were close to die in there.

Shu: ...Alive

Yui: (I’m happy... somehow we all managed to escape —)

(Without Ayato-kun's words, neither Reiji nor Shu would’ve been safe now)

(After all, I had Ayato-kun with me, who encouraged me the whole time)

Subaru: Hey, what happened in that mansion just now?

Laito: Yes Yes. Was everything settled?

Kanato: What's actually going on? Why did you get away with Scarlet's eldest and second eldest son?

Ayato: It's still a mess. The detailed circumstances will be postponed. There is something we need to do before that

Yui: ...Yes. You’re right

(We need to check if their memories really returned —)

Shu-san, Reiji-san, do you remember us?

(Since I heard a good response to it earlier, maybe their memories are back)

(Please, I want them to remember who they are and their real memories —)

Reiji: I finally managed to understand the situstion. I expected our brother to come to my Mansion with quite an annoying scandal.

Yui: Reiji-san... ! You do remember everything!

Ayato: Hehe, an annoying scandal he says. You’re not really wrong

Yui: Ayato-kun! You don’t need to say it like that!

Ayato: No, I mean it as I said. After all I changed a lot after I met you again

Its your fault that my actions turned out like that thats why youre taking the responsibilities for me, right?

Yui: Uhm, what...

Shu: *sigh* what a mess. Stop being so noisy...

Yui: Shu-san!

Ayato: Heh, seems like your memories are back as well. All thanks to the great me. You should thank me now!

Shu: I´d rather go insane then thanking you for this

Ayato: What you mean!? You can’t even say thanks even tho I saved you!

Shu: Don't make such loud noises. I still have a headache

Yui: (I don’t know the detailed circumstances, but that fire may have shaken the memories of those two)

(Because of that, the lid of their memories finally came off)

Reiji: I should appologize for my behavior but Im all fine now. Lets work together from now on

Shu: My headache is fading as well

Reiji: Still, I need to thank you for something. We´ve been close to be covered from a pillar which has fallen

Ayato: Oh, at least you´re brutal honest. Are you sure you´re okay since you´re being so nice to me?

Reiji: I dont want to be that way either. My brother who usually acts selfish, defended me so I felt like it

Shu: Including the burns you got from protecting us

Ayato: So seriously not a big deal. Chichinashi was worried about me too

Reiji: Not only that. It seems like I was doing a lot of ridiculous things while my memories were a mess

Yui: (Reiji-san...)

(I can forgive what he did because of how strange his memories were.)

Ayato: If you are saying that now. You should repay me with something once we got home

Reiji: Heh, if you don’t insist. --Thank you… for your patience. I... Ngh..

*Reiji faints*

Shu: Ngh...

*Shu faints*

Yui: Reiji-san! Shu-san!

(They both fainted. Is it, because of the fire… ?)

Subaru: Hey, what happened to them?

Ayato: Ah~ I understand them. When my memories came back, I was as tired as they are now

Yui: Oh, I see. Ayato-kun also lost consciousness when his memories returned

Ayato: Don't worry, let‘s find a place to rest for them.

Let's go to the forest for now. It would be problematic to stay here

Yui: Yes, that’s right!

Ayato: That’s why Subaru should carry Reiji and Shu

Subaru: Whats with you! Give me a fucking break already

Laito: That's right. Apart from this, wouldn’t it be better to leave these two here?

Kanato: I agree. I don’t understand the meaning of getting along

Ayato: Shut up! You still are my servants! Now follow my orders!

Laito: It is only Subaru-kun who became your servant. I have nothing to do with thaaat ~

Kanato: Then Subaru will carry those two spars. I dont have the slightest Intension to help Subaru, so enjoy the suffering

Subaru: Hey, don't push me only! They both are too heavy, even for me!

Yui: (Wow, all six brothers have been together like this for awhile)

(Subaru-kun, Laito-kun and Kanato-kun are still having strange memories ...)

(Let's find a way to return home... !)

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insphoeration · 5 years

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KDRAMA RECS

(In no particular order)

Have watched multiple times with no shame:

A Korean Odessey (Also known as, Hwayugi)

So Mi (played by Oh Yeon Seo) has the ability to see ghosts which causes her to get wrapped up with Devil King Woo (played by Cha Seung Won) and mischievous god, Son Oh Gong (played by Lee Seung Gi). As a child So Mi is tricked by Son Oh Gong into making a deal which would only benefit him. 25 years later, So Mi is the only one who can stop the apocalypse, but she can’t do it alone.

Basically one of the best drama’s I have ever watched. A really interesting plot based on the Chinese novel Journey to the West. Really interesting and complex characters as well as decent special effects. While being a romance, this drama follows the stories of the other major players involved, making you fall in love with all of them. This story is a modern spin, so it takes place in modern times while also bringing history and legends into the mix, really entertaining, especially if you’re not a fan of historical drama’s like me.

Genre: Romance, Fantasy, Comedy, Horror

Where I Watched: Netflix

Strong Woman Do Bong Soon

Bong Soon (played by Park Bo Young) is born with super human strength, which can only be used for good. An Min Hyuk (played by Park Hyung Sik) is the CEO of a gaming company with a target on his back. Min Hyuk finds out about Bong Soon’s strength and hires her to be his body guard, despite her finding her strength a burden. Together they are able to keep Min Hyuk safe as well as Bong Soon’s community which is being terrorised by a murderer/kidnapper.

Fair warning: because of the mature themes of kidnapping and murder thrown in throughout by the main antagonist, this Drama may be triggering to some people. However if you skip past those parts, this drama is really cute. The thing that made me fall in love with the two main characters was not their romance but the friendship that came before it. A lot of people will tell you this drama is the poster child for second lead syndrome but I really liked it regardless.

Genre: Fantasy, Thriller, Action, Romantic comedy

Where I Watched: Netflix

My ID is Gangnam Beauty (Or just Gangnam Beauty)

Based of the webtoon of the same name, Gangnam Beauty centres around chemistry major, Kang Mi Rae (played by Im Soo- Hyang) who underwent plastic surgery, tired of being bullied for her looks. Fellow classmate Hyun Soo A (played by Jo Woo Ri) continuously fights Mi Rae for a position she already has. Only Do Kyung Seok (played by Astro’s Cha Eun Woo) see’s Soo A for who she really is.

This one is also one of my favourites that I always find myself coming back to. Mi Rae starts off pretty insecure but as the drama progresses she starts seeing people for more that her looks as well as grows to stop being ashamed about the fact that she got surgery. And Eun Woo’s acting phenomenal because he doesn’t even resemble Eun Woo with how smiley he is in real life compared to his tsundere character.

Genre: Coming of Age, Romantic Comedy

Where I Watched: Viki.com

School 2015 (Also known as Who Are You?: School 2015)

Another potential trigger warning: the main character gets bullied so bad she attempts suicide which is the thing that really throws the whole story into gear.

Go Eun Byeol and Lee Eun Bi (played by Kim So Hyun) are identical twin sisters separated at birth, while Eun Byeol is cold in nature she is popular and well liked by her peers. Eun Bi however, is like a mother figure to the other kids living at the orphanage, and often stands up for others, she is bullied at school to the point of attempting suicide, which coincides with her sisters disappearance. Eun Bi, with no memory is mistaken for Eun Byeol and is taken to live life as her sister.

This drama was crazy and kept driving me crazy, first of all the antagonist is only a high school student and yet one of the most sinister characters ever written. And while most people think Strong Woman has second lead syndrome, School 2015 almost killed me with second lead syndrome and I’m still not over it. But I still love this drama and I think it’s worth the watch.

Genre: Teen, Mystery, Coming of Age

Where I watched: Youtube

W: Two Worlds

Surgical resident, Oh Yeon Joo (played by Han Hyo Joo) is sucked into the webtoon; W, written by her father. This complicates the storyline of the webtoon’s main character Kyung Chul (played by Lee Jong Suk) as the two get involved.

Wow. Another one of my favourites and the drama to kick start my love affair with Lee Jong Suk. The series as a whole is so original and interesting but every episode leaves you wanting more, Lee Jong Suk’s charcter is so insanely complex my heart really felt for him. And Han Hyo Joo’s acting is marvellous, you coulod truly see the pain her character felt at certain times Fun fact: this drama about a webtoon is based on the webtoon of the same name. (Inception?)

Genre: Fantasy, Romance, Suspense, Thriller

Where I watched: viki.com

While You Were Sleeping

Nam Hong Joo (played by Bae Suzy) has the ability to see visions, usually bad, in her sleep. She teams up with prosecutor Jung Jae Chan (Played be Lee Jong Suk), and later police officer Han Woo Tak (played by Jung Hae In), to help the people plagued in her dreams.

The first episode had me in all types of confusion but looking back on it, it was actually done really well, introducing characters and the overall plot. What I really likes about this drama was that it had me on the edge of my seat nearly the whole time, and every episode amounted to something bigger. Unfortunately this series does come with a decent about onf second lead syndrome, but not like School: 2015 or Cheese in the Trap where you’re kind of mad at the main character for choosing the wrong person but like Strong Woman Do Bong Soon and Sassy Go Go, you fall in love with both leads and you just want the second lead to also have a happy ending.

Genre: Romance, Fantasy, Thriller, Legal Drama

Where I watched: Viki.com

Descendants of the Sun

Brought together by unfortunate circumstance, Korean special forces Captian Yoo Shi Jin (played by Song Jong Ki), and Surgeon Kang Mi Yeon (played by Song Hye Kyo) have to work together to protect the people they love. Set in the fictional country of Uruk, Yoo’s Alpha team and Kang’s medical team learn a lot about themselves and what life is like on another side of the world.

I’m not going to lie, I put this off for so long because I thought I wasn’t going to like it but I actually ended up loving it. This is in most part due to Song Jong Ki’s charter, when I heard he was in the military I was like ugh it’s going to be one of those tough guy gets softened up by the girl drama’s but on a much larger scale, but boy was I wrong. Yoo Shi Jin is a responsible and hardworking Captain that cares about the people around him, almost to a fault, but he’s hilarious and light hearted at the same time. And at some point the bromance got me more than the main romance. There is a reason this drama is so popular and often referred to as iconic. Go watch it! Another fun fact: Song Jong Ki and Song Hye Kyo got married in October of 2017.

Genre: Romance, Melodrama, Action

Where I Watched: Viki.com

Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Jo

A coming-of-age story about a group of college athletes who are fighting for their dreams, experiencing and finding love in the process.

Sorry I couldn’t come up with a good summary, the overall story is a bit hard to explain. I liked this drama although I didn’t love it. It’s cute and funny and it also deals with important topics like mental health on top of physical health. The one this that rubbed me the wrong way with this drama is the ‘thing’ between Bok Jo and the second male lead, simply because their age gap was far too large to ignore. But skipping through damn near all of his scenes, I enjoyed it.

Genre: Coming of Age, Sports, Romantic Comedy

Where I watched: Viki.com

Honourable Mentions:

Reply 1997

Coming of Age story that deals with a lot of important topics like friendship, sex, relationships, family and honestly just growing up.

Cute but another one where the second lead rubbed me the wrong way. Maybe it’s because he played the evil guy in Hwayugi and I can’t see him as anything else but his whole thing was weird. I don’t want to spoil it but I genuinely cannot believe people thought his character was sane not to mention a good match for the main.

He is Psychometric

Lee Ahn has the ability to see the past of whatever he touches, he uses his ability to help a police officer and prosecutor solve the mystery of the fire that killed his parents

I honestly only watched this for Jinyoung okay, and while I was impressed with the acting by all the actors, the story would slow down right before it hit you in the face, so overall kind of all over the place.

EUN JI SOO DESERVED BETTER

The Heirs

Typical poor girl falls for a rich guy drama (kind of a classic)

One of my first Drama’s, you could really feel the chemistry between the two main leads, and the character of Kim Tan was so passionate it was captivating

Doctors

Medical drama based on a former delinquent who ends up being a surgeon and her mentor

Another drama with a weird age gap

Park Shin Hye is a badass.

#kdrama #kdrama recommendations #kdrama review #weightlifiting fairy kim bok joo #strong woman do bong soon #while you were sleeping #w:two worlds #school 2015 #my id is gangnam beauty #descendants of the sun #hwayugi #korean odessey #reply 1997 #he is psychometric #the heirs #doctors

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marvel-af · 5 years

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For The Best (Part 5) (Peter Parker x Reader)

I know its been a hot sec since i updated this, so here you go! If you ever read the little blurb before the fics, reply to this with “corn”. Hope you enjoy!!

Warnings: Talk of Suicide, Peter Parker’s guilt complex and bad parents

Words: 2530

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Peter lets out a loud laugh at a joke from Ned. The noise is enough to break Sarah from her thoughts.

Y/N’s dad was going to be here any second, according to the texts that were blowing up her phone. Y/N still didn't know he was coming, and Sarah knew that Y/N wouldn’t be happy when he came.

“Sarah? Are you okay?” MJ asks. Sarah blinks a few times.

“Uh yeah.”

No. Sarah was sweating, and only a few more texts away from shaking. She hated lying to Y/N. She just looked so happy for the first time since her break-up and the news of her cancer, she was even laughing along with Peter and Ned. She looked okay. Sarah didn’t want to ruin that.

Peter and the rest of the nurses had done more for Y/N in a few days than Y/N’s own mother had done in years. Sarah will forever be grateful for the help she’s received from them and she knows Y/N is too.

Paul slowly walked the short path to Y/N’s apartment. He wanted to quickly drop his bags off at where he would be staying. He uses his key and opened to door quietly.

To put it shortly, the apartment looked like shit. As Paul walked through the room, his heart breaks for his daughter. There are blankets thrown all over the living room and containers of food left out on the coffee table. He walks past the living room and passes the bathroom.

It looks like a murder scene. There is a cup on the floor, surrounded by drops of blood, and the toilet seat was covered in blood. It was dried, given the days it had been since Y/N was there. Paul feels his eyes sting for his daughter, that she was going through this, almost alone.

He shakes his head, rubbing his eyes and willing the tears back. If Y/N was sick, the least he could do was be strong for her. He leaves his luggage in her bedroom and then speeds to the hospital, mentally preparing himself to support Y/N.

Y/N notices the door handle move before she hears Sarah exhale deeply.

“Dad?”

“Daughter.”

“W-what are you doing here?” Y/N stutters. She spares a glance a Sarah, seeing her hiding from her gaze. Suddenly it clicks, and Y/N shoots a glare at Sarah.

“Well, I heard that you got cancer,” Paul's face softens. “Sweetheart, why didn’t you call? You know I would’ve been here at the drop of a hat.”

“That’s the issue! I don’t need you here, watching me with those sad eyes!” Y/N pauses, watching a look of hurt flash across her father’s face. “ Look, I-I know you want to help me but, I just didn’t want to worry you and I didn’t want you to feel like you have to be here. I’m sorry you had to hear it from someone else.” Y/N says, her eyes downcast.

Peter, Ned and MJ sat watching the worried man stand in front of his sick daughter.

“Well, I’m your dad, so you get me here, worrying about you.” Paul says, defiant as ever and suddenly Peter realizes where Y/N gets her stubbornness from.

“Um, our lunch break is over, so we have to go.” MJ says slowly standing up, Peter and Ned following. Paul whips his head away from Y/N and looked at the group of nurses.

“Oh my, I’m so sorry. I’m Paul, Y/N's dad. You guys are?”

“I’m MJ, and that’s Ned and Peter.” MJ says motioning to the boys standing behind her.

“And how did you guys all meet?” Paul asks. Y/N stiffens in the bed.

“We’re nurses here and we all meet in the cafeteria.” Peter lies. He shoot a look at Y/N, almost as if to say, ‘we’ll talk about this later’.

“Very nice, well it was nice to meet you all. Y/N always was good at making friends.” Paul smiles sadly. The nurses nod and exit the room.

Paul turns back to his daughter who sat in the hospital bed with her arms crossed as Sarah sits beside her with a frown.

“So, where’s Derek?” Paul asks with a smile. Sarah sighs lightly and hunches over with her head in her hands.

“We broke up.” Y/N states. Paul notices the way her eyes become slightly watery and she clenches her jaw.

“Oh. I’m sorry to hear that. Was it because of the-”

“It wasn’t because of the cancer Dad. God, your mind always goes to the worst place. We broke it off before I knew.” Y/N interrupts.

“Okay, well I’m sorry.” Paul says, pulling a chair over and sitting quietly. He can’t take his eyes off of her. She already looked so sick. The shaved head, the sunken features, the dark bags under her eyes, it all broke his heart.

“Stop staring at me.” Y/N says, her voice sharp.

“Sorry.”

Y/N winces as the nurse gently pushes the needle through her skin.

“Good job Y/N.” The nurse says. She knows it’s supposed to be comforting but Y/N can’t even bring herself to smile back at the nurse. As her dad sits next to her silently Y/N wants nothing more than to sink into the chair and never be seen again. But she can’t, so silently she wishes her dad would stop looking at her as if she’ll shatter into a million piece at any given moment.

It drives her crazy. Her clenched jaw hurts and Y/N contemplates just ripping the IV out and running up to the roof again. For a moment she wonders what would have happened if she did jump before Peter found her.

Would Derek have come to the funeral? Would her mother have come? Would she even be sad? Who would miss her besides Sarah, Dad and maybe a few people from her job?

Her thoughts are interrupted by Peter walking into the room with a smile that could blind the sun.

The only good thing to come out of this cancer diagnosis was Peter. And his friends of course. But Y/N felt a more special connection with Peter.

“How it going so far?” He asks. Paul looks up from his laptop and smiles at Peter.

“Peter! What are you doing here?” Paul asks. Peter blushes.

“Well, I just wanted to...to make sure Y/N was doing alright.” Peter says glancing at Y/N.

“I’m okay.” Y/N mutters, her eyes pointed downwards. Peter laughs and pulls up a seat next to the bed.

“And the truth is?” Peter smiles, grabbing her hand.

“I-I just feel so gross and ugly. And I miss my hair.” Y/N grumbles.

“Hey, you could never be gross or ugly, you are so beautiful.” Peter says, staring deeply into Y/N’s eyes.

Paul watches as Y/N and Peter talked and as Peter held Y/N’s hand and as they looked at each other. Paul could recognize the lovesick puppy look on Peter’s face from a mile away. It’s the same way he used to look at Y/N’s mom. Quietly, Paul stands up and walks into the hallway. Y/N and Peter don’t even notice the older man walk away, too busy laughing and talking.

Once Paul was in the hallway, he pulled out his phone.

Kara

Your daughter is in the hospital with cancer. If you care as much as you claim, you’ll be here.

Paul sent out the text and stowed his phone back in his pocket. He leaned up against the wall and sighed. He wasn’t sure it was the right idea to tell Y/N’s mother to come but he rationed that she deserved to at least know.

When Paul walked back into the room, Peter was gone and Y/N was back to frowning at her phone.

“Where’d Peter go?”

“Back to work.” She mumbles.

Y/N lays in the uncomfortable hospital bed alone, visiting hours are over and Sarah and her Dad both left.

Sleep doesn't come easy when her mind is screaming at her to go back up to the roof and finish it all. She knows she shouldn’t but the ideas are loud and overtaking any good thoughts she can attempt to come up with.

Y/N pulls out her phone and scrolls through her recent texts. She sees the group chat between her, Sarah and the nurse and she clicks on Peter’s contact.

im bored

A few minutes pass before Y/N gets a response.

Hi bored, I’m Peter.

lame

Sorry :)

what can i do in a hospital after visiting hours

Sleep?

i cant

Well, I’ll make you a deal. If you fall asleep, I’ll come in early with breakfast.

you would really do that! my hero

Go to sleep. I don’t want to deal with a cranky Y/N in the morning.

Y/N falls asleep quickly after the promise of a good breakfast and seeing Peter.

The sound of the door slamming shut wakes Y/N up. She panic for a moment before seeing Peter stand sheepishly at the door, holding the handle still.

“Sorry.” Peter smiles. Y/N relaxes back on the bed and smiles sleepily. Peter feels his heart beat a bit faster, but quickly calms himself. I’m just helping her out, no feelings here, he reminds himself.

“How are you here so early?” Y/N says glancing at her phone.

“I work here. I don’t need to wait for visiting hours.”

“Huh, cool,” Y/N sits up, “so food?” Peter laughs and raises a bag of food, handing it over to her. He sits in the seat that usually belongs to Sarah.

“Praise you! I’m so over oatmeal.”

“Yeah I’m nice like that,” Peter smiles, “so how are you?” Y/N pauses, her face falling for a moment before putting on a big fake smile.

“I’m holding on, cancer sucks, but I’m working on it.” Y/N lies. Peter notices the fake smile and the overly optimistic words. It just doesn’t sound like Y/N.

“Well, finding you on that rooftop was insanely scary. Like I knew about Derek and I knew about your diagnosis, but watching you sit on the ledge, was crazy. I mean I thought you were going to…” Peter pauses looking up at Y/N. Her face is guilty.

“You weren’t going to right?” Peter asks. Y/N opens her mouth to speak, but quickly shuts it again.

“Wow.” Peter says, his eyes widening.

“Please don’t tell Sarah. I don’t want her to worry about me anymore.” Y/N says, her voice cracking and her eyes watering.

“I went up there planning to jump but once I was actually up there, looking down at the ground, I couldn’t go through with it.” Y/N explains. The urge Peter felt to protect Y/N nearly quadruples.

“Well, I’m glad you didn't.” Peter says.

“Yeah me too.” Y/N smiles sadly.

“So, do you still think about it? Because you have to realize how good your treatment is going. Dr. Barton is seriously the best. This cancer won’t kill you Y/N. So I guess you have to decide how you leave this hospital.” Peter says bluntly. Y/N gulps.

“I don’t want to die Peter. I want to be able to walk out of this hospital, cancer free. I want Sarah and my Dad to be able to think about something besides me. Hell, I want to see my hair grow back.” Y/N laughs wetly. Peter feels his eyes sting.

“And I want to see more of you… and Ned and MJ and I want to be able to hang out like real friends. I don’t want to die.” Y/N says slowly. Peter lets out a breath of relief.

“But some illogical part of me does.” Y/N breaths out.

“Y/N, as a nurse at this hospital, I need you to tell me if you currently have any plans to hurt yourself.” Peter states firmly.

After a moment, Y/N huffs and says no. The crashing relief that comes down on Peter is enough to make the tears that were waiting in his eyes fall freely.

“Y/N, I need you to know, that I want to protect you and I really enjoy being with you. But I’m being selfish.” Peter says.

“What do you mean?” Y/N questions. Of course Peter has ulterior motives she thinks.

“When I was younger, my parents died in a plane crash. I lived with my aunt and uncle after that, and they were amazing. Until my Uncle Ben died, it was a mugger and I was there with him. I could have done something, anything, but I stood there as my uncle got shot and bled out in front of me. I spent a lot of my time regretting every decision that led me to that point. And lets just say, now I’m really protective of the people I care about.” Peter says.

Y/N sits with her mouth parted slightly, processing the words that Peter just said. And Y/n thought her problems were huge. At least her parents were still alive, maybe she didn’t talk to one of them, but last Y/N knew she was alive.

“Peter, I’m so sorry.” Y/N says. Peter waves his hand.

“I didn’t say all that to get you to feel sorry for me. I said it because I want you to know why I’m really hanging out around you. When I saw you on the roof, I felt this need to protect you. I wanted to help you like I couldn’t help my uncle.”

“Okay. That’s okay Pete. Just don’t smother me and we’re good.” Y/N says, trying to calm Peter.

“Thank you.”

Y/N lets out a yawn.

“If you’re tired, I can go?” Peter says standing up.

“Don’t go.” Y/N says, grabbing Peter’s hand.

“Come on, you don’t have to be at work for a little bit. Come lay down with me.” Y/N says, moving over on the small bed to make room for Peter.

“Oh no, I shouldn’t.”

“Please,” Y/N frowns, “I have cancer.” She pouts. Peter lets out a short laugh. He really wants to stay with her, to protect her obviously. He want to have her lay her head on his chest and he wants to feel her warm breath on the bare skin of his neck.

“You play that card, you’ll win every time. It’s just not fair.”

“Great so get up here.”

Peter kicks off his shoes and climbs up onto the bed, but instead of her resting her head on his chest, she presses her face into the side of his arm.

“Comfortable?” He laughs softly.

“Very.” She says, her lips moving on his arm. Peter brings his other arm over to rub her bald head and he swears he hears her groan. A small smile creeps onto his lips when he hears her breathing even out, and he falls asleep soon after.

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I Like You Okay

Akko x Diana (Little Witch Academia)

Warnings: slight OOC

A/N: This is my first request and the first time ever writing this pair. I will admit I am a bit rusty in terms of writing, but I hope my ideas and writing techniques will improve with time. Criticism is welcome! :)

“She’s doing it again.” Sucy mumbles. For weeks Akko has been dozing off in classes. Sucy and Lotte just assumed that Akko was just tired of her studies and constant nagging Professor Finnelan. However, it became clear that Akko was spacing out and daydreaming rather than just being sleepy. Though, Lotte and Sucy have yet to come to a conclusion as to what Akko was thinking about. “Maybe she’s thinking about lunch.” Lotte offered. “She’s not drooling.” Sucy countered.

On the other side of the classroom, Diana was writing down notes from the teacher. Even if Diana knows more than enough information to pass the next test in that class, she still likes to write down neat and organized notes in case Hannah or Barbara needed help. Diana was minding her own business, but she couldn’t shake the feeling of someone watching her. This has been happening for a couple of weeks now. And every time it has been Akko who has been looking at her. Diana quickly scans the students in front of her, silently hoping Akko is looking at her. Then, she finds Akko; her icy blue eyes met the latter’s crimson ones. Quickly, Akko turns red and looks away, feeling embarrassment creeping up to her. Diana sighs. Akko has been acting a bit distant towards her. At first, she would stutter and become more clumsy whenever she was near. Now, for the last week, she’s been avoiding her. Hannah and Barbara felt Diana become cold recently. Constantly in a bad mood.

When the teacher dismissed the students, Diana ran to catch up to Akko. She was tired of Akko’s childish actions and wanted to get to the bottom of this. Diana pulled Akko’s wrist once she finally caught up to her. She was deeply concerned that Akko thought she did something wrong. Akko turns around and turns bright red. “H-Hey Diana! W-What’s going on?” Akko asked. Akko usually never stutters. Is she scared?... No, her face is red so she’s just embarrassed. But what could she be embarrassed about?

“Akko, is something wrong? You’ve been avoiding me this past week. Is everything alright?” Diana asked softly.

Oooo nooo! She’s way too close! My heart is going to explode out of my chest! Why is she so perfect? Why do I have to like her? NO! I don’t like Diana Cavendish! Get your stuff together Akko! I don’t like her!

“Akko I-”

“I-I’m so sorry Diana. I promised Lotte that I will study notes with her for our potions class. Y-Yeah that’s right. S-So I’ll need to go. Bye!” Akko says, making a beeline out of the hallway. Leaving a confused, a disappointed Diana.

Akko runs to her dorm and shoves her face into a pillow. Nononononoooo...Diana will think I’m some dumb stuttering idiot now. She caught me staring at her in class. Now she will think I’m some crazy stalker and she’ll hate me forever! She probably thinks that already. She’ll never feel the same way I do. Never in a million and one years....NO! For the last time, I don’t like her. I can’t possibly like someone like Diana. Sure she has the beauty of a goddess and she smells good, but that doesn’t mean I like her. She probably likes Andrew or something.

Akko’s chest tightened at the thought. Diana liking someone else...Just the thought of that doesn’t feel good. Let’s be honest, she’s way out of my league. Even if I do like her-which isn’t the case-she wouldn’t like me back. I don’t think she even likes girls like that.

Diana walked to her dorm, thinking things over. Akko was acting really off these past couples of weeks. She’s been purposefully avoiding me and wanting to distance herself away from me... Was this something I said? Did I cause her to hate me? Her body felt sick thinking that.

Diana’s blue eyes fell upon the ceiling. She felt like she wanted to cry. But a thought hit her like a thousand bricks. What if she liked me? Diana’s chest warmed at the thought. She had known the effects of having a crush, even though she never had one. Hannah and Barbara have always told Diana the constant struggle of having a crush. One of them being that they would avoid seeing their crush out of embarrassment. Akko having a crush on me...

“I like Akko.” Saying it out loud lifted a lot off Diana’s shoulders.

Diana mulled over her situation for a while. When she first met Akko, truth be told she wasn’t the biggest fan of her. But over time, she saw Akko in a new light. She truly cared about her. To the point where she thought about what it would be like to be with her. Back then, she wasn’t sure why her stomach filled with butterflies whenever Akko was around. Now she understood. Tomorrow after class, I’m going to confront Akko.

“Class dismissed.” Professor Finnelan says. The class packed up their things and headed out of the classroom. Akko stole glances at Diana throughout the class, but couldn’t look for too long because she needed to accumulate notes for her to study. Getting up, Akko searched for Diana; she just needed one more look at her to get her through the rest of the day. Suddenly, a hand touched Akko’s. Turning around, she was met with Diana. “Akko, is everything alright?” Diana asked, “You’re looking a bit...flustered.”

Akko was a mess. Thoughts were racing across her mind, her heart beating a mile a minute. She was avoiding seeing Diana because whenever she was near her, she couldn’t think straight.

“I-I UM...” Akko’s face rivaled that of a tomato. Damnit she’s too close! I can’t think! Dangit how is she doing this to me?

Diana grasped Akko’s wrist and led her to the empty hallway and away from any prying eyes and ears.

“D-Diana...W-What’s going on?”Akko asks nervously. Diana tried her best not to give away any hint of what she was about to do. Diana grabbed Akko’s hands and held them up to her chest.

“I was wondering as to why you were acting strange.”

Akko’s mind shut down. I-I can’t possibly tell her that I might have feelings for her! That’s insane! H-How am I supposed to answer her now! Think Akko! Think!

Diana inched closer to Akko’s face.

“I’m curious Akko, why are you suddenly acting so nervous around me.” Diana moved down to Akko’s neck, her hot breath making Akko’s heart beat faster.

“I thought I did something to upset you.” Diana pressed a light kiss on Akko’s neck, making the latter jump and squirm.

“D-Diana...” By now, Akko was sure her mind turned to mush. Her heart was going to burst out of her chest any minute now. But that didn’t mean she wasn’t enjoying the sensation Diana’s touch was giving her.

“Akko, tell me. Why are you acting like this?” Diana kissed Akko’s pulse point, which earned her a loud squeal from Akko. Light feathery kisses peppered Akko’s neck. Diana wasn’t sure where the boost of confidence came from that made her do this. But she was thankful for it.

This is it! This is how I’m going to die!

Akko was done for. She knew she had no way out of this. Diana’s touch drove her insane.

“Akko-”

“I LIKE YOU OKAY!” Akko blurts out. Diana stops her movements. Akko’s chest heaved, the only thing she could hear was her heart beating heavily against her ribs. Diana pulls away. Akko closes her eyes, half disappointed and half glad Diana stopped so she could recover. Diana gently held Akko’s beet red face and planted a soft kiss to her lips. Both girls’ hearts warmed, the kiss made them feel complete. When they pulled away, Diana felt her face heating up a second later.

“I like you too, Akko,” Diana confessed. “For a few weeks now. Though I must admit, I perceived you as reckless and an airhead.” She placed her hands over Akko’s. “But the more we spent together, I realized how special you are. How selfless and genuinely kindhearted you are. I only hoped you shared the same feelings as me.” Akko could only stare at her. Diana...DIANA LIKES ME?! HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE? DID I DIE AND NOW IM IN HEAVEN?

“I-I thought you only liked me as a friend...” Akko mumbled. Diana’s face softened. She gave Akko a small kiss on the cheek.

“Well, I thought you hated me. Looks like we were both in the wrong.” The two of them giggled. Diana was happy to see Akko’s happy face again.

“So does this mean I’m your girlfriend?” Akko asked. Diana smiled.

“Yes, yes it does.”

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