#ocd thoughts

[ocd--culture-is]

questioning ocd culture is swearing up and down that you do NOT have ocd and are being dramatic/that even suspecting that you may have it makes you a bad person or a faker and then heavily relating to every symptom you come across on an otherworldly level.

this fr before being diagnosed, very normal apparently but it's so frustating

#ocd culture is #questioning ocd #public ask #ask #answered #--- #culture is #actually ocd #ocd awareness #ocd tag #ocd thoughts #ocd things #ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder

[delicategravesoul]

Me: plz stop I don't want to think about it anymore

My ocd brain: hehe bad memories go brr

#ocd memes #ocd #ocd thoughts #ocd things #actually ocd

[nemevex]

Seeing that article about "5 benefits to having OCD" pissed me the fuck off man.

There are NO benefits to having OCD. All the points on there were also just false and could be attributed more to OCPD instead.

OCD is not an egosyntonic disorder, and hence, there cannot be benefits to it. Any perceived "benefits" will only make it worse.

It's the same category as reassurance making OCD worse, or how in some cases, pinpointing and trying to analyse OCD symptoms can make OCD worse.

#rant #ocd #actually ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder #ocd thoughts #ocd problems #intrusive thoughts #ocpd

[starfishinthedistance]

One thing that really bothers me in the OCD community is the way we fight over representation.

There are many different ways to experience OCD, because OCD has quite a vague definition, only describing the cognitive process and not going into specifics. And there's nothing wrong with that, it just means there are many different themes, different obsessions, different compulsions.

However the general public only knows OCD through incorrect stereotypes and media representation, which the OCD community attempts to fight. But it's happened in a sort of counterintuitive way.

It's started with the stereotype of OCD meaning you like things clean and organized as a quirk. Then people with contamination OCD and incompleteness OCD said "Actually, we don't do this because we think it's quirky, we do it because we feel in danger if we don't." But then people with magical thinking OCD, attempting to fight the original stereotype, said "No, OCD never looks like cleaning and organization. OCD is having irrational fears and compulsions that don't make sense, like flipping a light switch so your mother doesn't die." Then, in order to combat that stereotype that magical thinking people created, people with HOCD and ROCD said "No, OCD never looks like that. It looks like fearing hurting people or fearing that your partner doesn't love you."

That's where we're up to now, and I'm not looking forward to the next development, haha.

But as I said, OCD is a very broad disorder, it can be experienced in many different ways. None of those people were wrong about their OCD, but they were wrong about their OCD being the only kind of OCD. And many people know this, but still say things like "No, OCD doesn't look like that", full well knowing it can, because they want their type to get more attention. We don't need to do that. We should say "Yes, OCD can look like that, but it can't also look like this."

I don't know, just an observation.

#ocd #mental health #mental illness #neurodivergent #mentally ill #ocd thoughts #ocd problems #ocd awareness #actually ocd #magical thinking ocd #harm ocd #relationship ocd #incompleteness ocd #contamination ocd #anxiety #intrusive thoughts #obsessive compulsive disorder

[unsettledsocks]

i'm writing a hozier fanfic rn (hozier!professor x college student!reader) but i'm beginning to ponder is fan fiction is legal? am i gonna get sued for writing fan fiction?

#ocd thoughts #lawsuit #hozier fanfiction

[quinnthequestonable]

You know when you come to the realization that all your friends hate you no matter what you have or haven’t done and they are all talking about you behind your back and you spend all of your time ruminating on it until you are about to throw up because you can’t handle it anymore? Even though you know it’s probably just your ocd again?

Yeah.

#ocd #actually ocd #living with ocd #ocdproblems #ocd thoughts #ocd things

[yggdrasil-00]

I remember horrible, disgusting things I've done. But instead of moving on, I'm haunted by my mistakes. I don't think I can be forgiven. I can't know for certain that people will cancel me or hate me for it. It was a few years ago, but by OCD makes everything I've done so significant I feel like I deserve to die. Maybe I'm a bad person. Maybe I'm not. It's hard to admit that because of the gravity of the shit I did. Hell I think it's even latched onto my past lives! I'm trying to get better, but how can I when it was a real memory and it was so bad? I mean... I'll try to but it's hard. I can't ask for reassurance because it'll make everything worse. It's like I'm in quicksand... I'm so glad I'm getting therapy soon.

#real event ocd #actually ocd #ocd thoughts #vent post

[currently-getting-a-diagnosis]

Having OCD and ADHD is wild. I'll redirect one of my intrusive thoughts to a new thought which starts off a whole new train of thought. So then I'll wonder how I got to this new train of thought, retrace my steps, and end up back at the intrusive thought. So now I'm just back where I started.

#adhd mood #adhd stuff #adhd things #adhd culture #adhd post #adhd problems #adhdlife #adhd thoughts #adhd #actually ocd #ocd things #ocdproblems #ocd tag #ocd thoughts #ocd problems #ocd mood #black adhd #black ocd #ocd #jay's tism thoughts #ocd and adhd #autizzy #black neurodivergent

[lifeonkylesfarm]

Tw for mental illness

From firsthand experience, people absolutely will stop supporting you as a mentally ill person when the symptoms become more than the ideas they have about depression and anxiety

Mania, delusions, psychosis, splitting, never leaving bed or the house, not being able to keep a job, any symptoms of actual ocd basically, just pretty much anything that makes a person "visibly crazy"

These symptoms are absolutely so stigmatized.

#mental illness #mental breakdown #mentally ill #mental disorder #mental health #mental instability #mental wellbeing #mentalheathawareness #mania #bipolar #bpd #borderline #personality disorder #ocd #ocd thoughts #ocd symptoms #ocd awareness #actually ocd #actually bipolar #actually mentally ill #trauma #ptsd #cptsd #actually cptsd #actually ptsd #trigger warning #mental illness is real #mental illness awareness #delusions #paranoia

[ocd--culture-is]

ocd culture is not allowing yourself to get excited for something in the future because you think your excitement and wanting will make something bad happen to you.

^

#ocd culture is #anon ask #ask #--- #culture is #actually obsessive #mental health #mental illness #obsessive compulsive disorder #obsessive compulsive spectrum #obsessive compulsive behavior #ocd #obsessive thoughts #actually ocd #ocd tag #ocd thoughts #ocd awareness #ocd things

[historyoftimeandspace]

my ocd truly is a shit show… fuck my brain.

i hate this

it is exhausting

my hands are bleeding, again

i just want to go back to when everything was normal

#actually ocd #ocd thoughts #ocd recovery #life suuuuucks #contamination #cried for two hours i’m finally in bed

[riversidekid]

#not mine #anxiety #general anxiety disorder #ocd #actually bpd #bpd #bpd thoughts #overthinking #neurodivergent #bpd things #borderline #fake scenarios #mental disorder #mental illness #ocd thoughts

[starfishinthedistance]

cw // this is about existential fear and inevitable death in combination with OCD, so if you're not in the place to read that, I totally understand

You know, I wonder if existential fear is more common in people with OCD, or if it's just me and the people I know.

Because like, when you worry and overthink and overanalyze everything constantly, it makes sense that you'd starting thinking about death and the meaning of life and stuff. But I've noticed that pwOCD tend to be much more terrified of inevitable death than others. Like it definitely scares everyone to some degree, but with most people, they seem to have this sense of relief in the complete helplessness of it. Like, there's nothing they can do, so might as well get on with things and cross that bridge when we come to it.

But with OCD people, when we're scared or worried about something, there NEEDS to be something we can do about it. Some kind of pattern, or behaviour, or even something we can avoid that will negate the danger and the fear. If there isn't, we just get stuck in ever repeating, relentless intrusive thoughts and sheer panic, and it's torture. And with most problems we can come up with something, but with inevitable death, there's nothing we can do. We are out of control, and we cannot handle that feeling. The most terrifying thing ever, that everything we know, and our consciousness, our very ability to know, will be gone one day and there's nothing we can do about it is just so so horrifying when you're used to constant control.

And non-OCD people just don't seem to get it when I explain it to them, saying things like, "There's no use worrying about that. There's nothing you can do," as if that would comfort me??? But of course they think that, it comforts them. Helplessness is relief to non-OCD people, but it's torture to us. That's what makes me think it's an OCD thing.

Maybe this is also part of why religious OCD is so common, even in those of us who were never raised religious or a part of organised religion. We need faith in a higher power more than anyone, of course we get panicky over possibly not doing a good enough job at being religious.

I'm not sure if anything I'm saying here is right or makes sense, just some observations. I just can't help but think this has something to do with OCD.

#ocd #obsessive compulsive disorder #actually ocd #ocd thoughts #ocd tw #ocd problems #neurodivergent #mental health #mental illness #anxiety #religious ocd #existential crisis

[phtalogreenpoison]

Just remembered a completely out of pocket intrusive thought I had. So I have a really good sense of smell and taste right? Like I can pick out specific ingredients in an item. And my brain was like haha you know who else has a really strong sense of smell and taste? Hannibal. He can literally smell cancer. What if you are Hannibal? And I was so thrown off guard I just laughed really loudly as I walking along the sidewalk, probably to the confusion of others around.

#dont worry i didn't convince myself of this #simply because it was so deranged #like honey he's fictional #ocd thoughts #actually ocd #living with ocd #mental illness #mental illinois #intrusive thoughts #funny though #relatable? #honestly idk what this is

[withinmars]

having ocd is so fun. I convinced myself that my parents were going to die because I couldn’t remember if I hugged them before they left my house today. you?

#mars thoughts #ocd thoughts

[lizinherfishbowl]

i want to be everything, all at once. if i cannot have that, then i want to be nothing at all. to rip myself apart and place the pieces into perfection is all i will accept.

#poetry #mental illness #diary entry #spilled words #ocd thoughts #womanhood