#my brain is trying to decide if you mean writing the thirst or writing it for daishou.... im deciding prob both

[kazemi-archive]

Kaze, darling, why would you do this to us?

honestly... i don't know... i think i need to be put down whenever i have thirsty thoughts... would make it easier on everyone...

#☾ nesi’s moon ☽ #𓇻 asks #my brain is trying to decide if you mean writing the thirst or writing it for daishou.... im deciding prob both #i apologize for both

[moraxsthrone]

OK I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY AND PROUD OF YOURSELF BC YOU SINGLE-HANDEDLY GAVE ME ITTO BRAINROT HOW?? WHY?? W H A T???? DFCVHBNJNKMLAG

Indulge me with this little thirst

Imagine you're wearing the cutest lacy frilly lingerie set (bonus if it matches his colors black/purple/red) that just accentuates all the right curves and spots, crisscross stripes over your skin aND WHEN HE SEES YOU HE JUST GOES 👀!!!!!!! jaw hits the floor blushing drooling and repeating "babe" your name and freaking out, brain stops working just pulls you up on his big strong arms and sits you on his lap (and BOI his not-so-little friend downstairs is already excited huh)

and you just go :3c all coy and cute and delicate leaning in pressing your chest against his, scooting closer "Itto baby you gotta be careful unwrapping your present, it would be a shame to tear up something so pretty... right?" finger drawing circles on his skin making him SHIVER

AND IMAGINE HIM JUST S T R U G G L I N G TO KEEP IT TOGETHER and be delicate untying the lacy strings like NAH MAN he's got BIG HANDS NOT MADE FOR THIS TASK LMAO

plus you're making it REAL hard kissing and chuckling at his neck and rolling your hips against his crotch slow and sensual

by the time those panties come off they're soaked through with a mix of his pre and your slick asxdcvghjbnjkl

*HSAKING BITING MY PILLOW HORNY GRIP*

MA'AM I WROTE AN ENTIRE FIC WHAT HAVE YOU D O N E i think.... i think you gave me a size kink........ BUT GODS YOUR WRITING IS SO!!!!! *rabid horny crys noises*

i’ll have you know i am quite pleased with myself for making you (and anyone else who will listen) foam at the mouth for arataki mf itto.

‧₊˚ pairing — arataki itto x f!reader

‧₊˚ wc — 1.3k

‧₊˚ cw — nsfw. mdni. fem!reader. praise. oral (m. & f. rcv'ing). implied squirting.

‧₊˚ a/n — okay, so crys sent me this WEEKS AGO and every time i sat down and tried to answer, the words just wouldn't come out right? BUT THEN i realized itto's bday was only a few weeks away (at the time) and since she describes you as being his "present" IT HIT ME LIKE A TON OF BRICKS...THIS WOULD MAKE THE PERFECT BIRTHDAY IDEA FOR OUR ONE AND ONI KING ARATAKI ITTO!!

poor itto’s just sitting there, looking down between his claws and the cute frilly bra you have on, his big oni head full, debating with himself over whether he should try to be delicate and slowly work the lacy underthings off of you, or throw caution to the wind and get the things off of you as quickly as he can by Any Means Necessary™️. as ravishing as you look in that dainty lingerie, he decides it's worth sacrificing in the name of getting his mouth on your tits as quickly as possible. his hands are trembling a little and his cock is throbbing underneath your thigh when his pretty crimson eyes meet yours, full of unspoken apologies.

but then he gets another idea. a better idea.

what if he can do everything he wants with you without taking the lingerie off at all????

itto grabs two handfuls of your ass, squeezing your plush flesh between his big fingers as he guides your hips, rocking them back and forth to feel the heat of your cunt dragging along his clothed length. he’s so hard and big you can feel the ridge of his cockhead through the thin material of your panties, which are getting wetter with your slick by the second.

you huff a breathy laugh against his neck, shuddering a little when your clit catches on the front seam of his pants. you’re moving on your own when he captures your chin between his thumb and index finger, guiding your face away from his neck so he can press his lips to yours. his kiss is needy and passionate, a quiet groan escaping his throat when you push your tongue into his mouth. oh, he likes that very much, especially when you lick at his fangs with a playful moan.

he cups one of your tits in his hand and gives it a gentle squeeze, making you whine a little in his mouth. he can feel your hard nipple through the lacy material and pushes the cup of the bra down to let your tit spill out into his hand. he temporarily abandons your fervent kiss to trace the tip of his tongue around your pebbled bud before closing his lips around it to suckle, his tongue still swirling. You push your fingers into his hair, holding onto his horns as your head falls back in pleasure. 

he picks you up and puts you on your back before getting on his knees and pushing your open legs back, spreading them wide so he can see the dark wet spot that has formed in the fabric that's covering your juicy cunt. he can smell you and it’s making his cock drool inside his pants. he kisses your folds through the flimsy cloth, the tip of his nose nudging your hard clit as he goes. soft presses of his lips turn into open-mouthed kisses just before he teases your sweet little pearl. he flattens his tongue against your cunt, making you moan at the feeling of his hot, wet muscle as it makes pinpoints of contact with your skin through the lacy panties.

“mmm baby, your pussy tastes so good…fuck,” itto mutters, his voice heavy with lust.

hooking his finger inside the crotch of your panties, itto moves the lace over to one side, exposing your pink, glistening slit. the sight of your beautiful pussy has him licking his lips...then slowly licking yours. you flinch beneath him, heels digging into his hard shoulders when he flicks and rolls your tiny hard-on around with the tip of his tongue before wrapping his lips around it and sucking it in. your oni may not be the smartest guy, but he knows how to eat pussy like no other. he pulls off long enough to stick his middle finger in his mouth and get it wet before carefully pushing it in your hole, watching your face with a mischievous grin as your back arches for him when you feel the slight stretch of his thick digit. he slowly fucks you with his finger before adding another.

and you certainly don't have to take anything off to be able to swallow his thick cock. he thinks it’s so sweet when you choke on it bc it shows how much you wanna please him and make him feel good. so he brushes his thumb over your hollowed cheek and there’s so much adoration in his fiery eyes when he groans and tells you how good you are to him. you treat him like a king and he dotes on you bc you’re his queen. 

and when he's ready to fuck you, he just rolls you onto your belly and pushes those purple little panties to the side. the thong is hooked around his thumb as he holds onto your hips and pushes his leaking cockhead inside you. little by little, inch by inch, he fills you with his thick oni cock and starts hitting it from the back. your whimpers and gasps of his name spur him on, driving his big dick in and out of your juicy cunt. he watches the way your tight little hole stretches open around his wide shaft, his fang leaving an indentation where he bites his lower lip to keep from cumming too fast. “nhnnn…fuck yeah, baby! takin’ my cock so well…” he praises you as the front of his muscular thighs clap against the back of yours.

a few more thrusts and he pulls out, making you whine. but before you can protest, he’s got you on your back and his huge hands around your ankles, pulling them against the hard plane of his chest. itto’s bedroom eyes are burning into yours when the tip of his tongue swipes across his lower lip as he guides his fat tip back to your hole. he pushes inside you again, his open-mouthed groan harmonizing with your pretty sigh as your wet heat stretches around him, tight and welcoming like he’s right where he’s supposed to be. leaning forward, he puts you in a press and starts fucking you again, but this time it’s slow and deep. irises of molten rock peer into your watering eyes as he tells you how beautiful you are, how good you are to him, how much he appreciates you and the way you’ve given him the best birthday present of all:

you. you, and your love.

your legs are hanging helplessly over his beefy, marked arms. the red straps of your bra have long fallen off your shoulders, your tits spilling out of the flimsy cups and bouncing with every hard thrust of itto’s strong hips. his long, white hair has fallen over his shoulders to tickle your skin, and your eyes soften.

“mmm, happy birthday, my king…” you sigh.

he leans in closer, pressing your knees to your chest, his hips still snapping into yours as he cups your jaw in his big hand. “i love you, my queen…love you so fuckin’ much,” he breathes, then kisses you hard. your tongues swirl and his hips begin to stutter. “fuck, m'so close. cum...cum with me, baby…” 

with the way his thick, bulbous cockhead has been tugging at your sweet spot for the past few minutes, you don't need to be told twice. you place your hands on either side of his face and nod, panting. he buries himself deep and grinds into you, his coarse thatch of white pubic hair rubbing your clit as his heavy balls draw up tighter and tighter against your taint.

“oh gods…” he sighs, “...fuck…”

“cum for me, itto,” you gasp, beckoning him as your own orgasm takes hold and he feels you gush all around him, soaking his lower abs and crying his name.

he plants his lips against one of your palms and squeezes his eyes shut, grunting, “cumming…i- nngghhaa fuck!” his hips twitch and jerk into you as the first jet of his hot semen erupts inside you. his oni ancestry ensures that he cums in massive loads, filling you to the brim and spilling out of you before he’s even done emptying himself inside your womb.

‧₊˚ itto m.list || happy bday you big sexy oni *kisses his horns, one at a time*

#itto #arataki itto #itto x f!reader #itto x reader #itto x you #arataki itto x f!reader #arataki itto x reader #arataki itto x you #itto x fem!reader #arataki itto x fem!reader #itto smut #arataki itto smut #genshin x f!reader #genshin x reader #genshin x fem!reader #genshin x you #genshin impact x f!reader #genshin impact x fem!reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact x you #genshin smut #genshin impact smut

[pokelolmc]

One of my new favourite Hazbin Hotel fic AUs is this weird crossover niche of "Alastor is/was a character from another fandom, before he snapped and became who he is today" AUs, eg. "Harry Potter becomes Alastor", and one random "Tim Drake becomes Alastor" fic I found on AO3. Because I find it interesting to try and figure out how to meld the other character's backstory, powers or personality with his.

And that inevitably led my traitorous brain to the idea of "Danny Fenton becomes Alastor" (because now DP and DC are forever associated in my lizard brain, curse you Phandom!).

Which is just...the weirdest thing ever, because they're just so different—like, how the fuck do you set up Danny to become Alastor, of all people?! It feels like the most unfitting character to do this with...

And that's exactly what my brain has decided to see it as a challenge.

Added caveat: this is an AU!Danny specifically from a generic angsty dissection fic scenario, where he's been traumatised by his parents and fucked over by the world (and he has no healthy way to cope)—then he's sent back in time, lost and completely alone

-Danny falls through a natural portal to 1900's Louisiana with no way back (something something, Clockwork's-out-of-the-picture, something something)

-Alastor being a mama's boy? Danny gets taken in by a loving mother figure after getting lost in time—a kind woman familiar with the supernatural who accepts his ghost half right off the bat. He sees her as his family. After a year or so, though, she dies. He spirals again. He dyes his hair brown and starts wearing glasses when he runs away to New Orleans to change himself and cover his tracks.

-Alastor feels like an interesting name for Danny to choose because it means "the avenger", and can also mean "defender of the people" (a meaning more apparent in the Scottish version "Alasdair/Alastair"), but could also have a negative connotation of "persecutor"; the character symbolism writes itself

-the normally tech-savvy Danny who finds old-timey stuff boring would be forced to find something to entertain himself in the 1900's. So he gravitates towards radio, with it being the closest thing he's got to modern tech. Give him several years or so to grow attached to it and enjoy the idea of working in it. He goes from fantasising of radio comms at NASA to a public radio host, playing with all the fancy knobs and dials.

-his ghost half is the reason Alastor's powers/magic in Hell is green

(also I heard someone say the typical human!Alastor design has the "Timmy Turner hairstyle", which I can't unsee now. And it's Danny's hairstyle too. Because we know how well Butch Hartman and originality mix. Male protagonist? There's only one hairstyle for that!)

-he becomes a serial killer because he's snapped over the years after all the shit that's happened to him; he's developed a bitter, cynical and self-aggrandised ego and thirst for justice and revenge, and he's all alone with no one to keep him out of the dark echo chamber leading to villainy

-a serial killer with ghost powers plays cat-and-mouse with cops, and never leaves a trace; before he starts killing, he's already made deals with and intimidated the ghosts that come to New Orleans through other natural portals (it's a portal hotspot) under a new ghostly persona. He has both sides of the city fearing or respecting his power. Every ghost who goes to New Orleans knows whose territory it is. They just never link the ghost and human together. He becomes like an even worse Plasmius. It sets him up for Overlord stuff in Hell from the getgo

-the cannibalism was a...happy accident. On a whim, he decided one guy's crime was too insufferable to die without torment, so he took the guy back and...tortured him the way his ol' folks knew best. He starts cutting people open as if trying to relive what his parents did to him, but from the other end—as the person with all the power. Taste-testing what he cut up came incidentally, but he decided he didn't mind it and made it a routine.

I can imagine a villain!Danny with more narcissistic tendencies, but my main trouble is where the overblown confidence and charming/manipulative skills come from. After all, Danny's pretty socially awkward. How exactly does he grow into that?

#danny phantom #danny fenton #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel alastor #crossover au #cw: murder and cannibalism #but I mean it's Alastor what did you expect?

[roo-bastmoon]

Fractured and Adrift

I was going to write a big huge post with lots of screen shots and chart data and analysis that I'd saved on my phone, but honestly I'm too sick right now to sit up and organize all that. If you go on twitter, you see in real time what is happening, anyway.

Bottom lines:

it's very clear to me that ads, payola, pay to play, vpn and other "networking" tactics that go against what BTS has always been about have pretty much come into play--for a catchy, but ultimately impersonal and generic, pop single that was given to only one member.

I'm not just disappointed, I'm gutted. I don't know where to go from here, as someone who used to take pride in being an ARMY and stanning artists who made it to the top the organic and hard way, by being genuine and talented and real with us.

As always, I look to my ult-bias, Jimin. His debut album was abandoned the moment he hit #1, yet he continues on with this company and to be a team player. He was with JK on private time during a couple's holiday. He's been filmed with and is likely working on some sort of project with JK right now. These are my cues. So without any further information about what is happening, I will continue to follow Jimin's lead.

I am a person who believes in the potential and the very best of others until I just can't any more. But I also cannot hide from the glaringly obvious. Jimin was mistreated, and Jungkook was prioritized in ways I personally find dishonorable.

I don't know how much, if any, input JK had in this. He's got a Masters in Communications, a decade of industry experience, and owns stock in his company; but I also know that talent are very rarely given complete insight or say over sales and marketing strategies--that's external, executive business decisions. I don't know what conversations, trade-offs, or internal pressure came into play here.

At this point, I would say I'm very adrift.

I'm a good soldier. I bought the CD, I bought each version of the song, I added it to my playlists. But I no longer feel needed as a fan for Seven; I feel replaced by Scooter's dollars. And I don't feel any personal connection to this particular song, as catchy as it is. I was excited when the styles JK helped choose seemed to be an homage to Jimin's Face, but... now a lot of the elements of this work seem rushed and disjointed. I just don't know.

I'm very worried about what this rollout means for our 7, especially how they are supposed to come together in a fair and equitable way after military service. I'm trying to read through their book when I can stay awake long enough. Trying to trust and hope and manifest the best.

I wish there was more transparency, more communications around what the game plan is, and if the members are all on board with everything.

All I can think to do is to keep loving Jimin and the people who are good to Jimin, keep working hard for what I want and not invest energy and time into what I don't. I do believe that Jungkook and Jimin love one another.

But I'm... fracturing... inside. It hurts.

I'm very ill. Maybe I'm just too emotional right now because I'm so sickly. Maybe I just need more time and more data to have a more rational perspective.

All I can think to do is hang in there and wait to be more anchored in facts before I can decide what all this means--for Jikook, for BTS.

I'm sorry if this post isn't very coherent. I'm on a bunch of steroids until I can get to a specialist and the brain fog is immense. I'm gonna go rest now. I think I might stop posting memes and thirsts and other things for a bit, while I just focus on getting well. But I'm sending you all so much love.

Hang in there. Deep breaths. We will find our way. We will make our way, if necessary.

#jimin #jikook #jungkook

[dreamtuna]

1 week on and it's still all I can think about but the void inside of me is starting to soften around the edges thanks to all the amazing conversations I've had, thanks to the fanworks I've seen, thanks to the kindness and love.

This is a long(ish) post about my feelings, stretching back to 2014 and some bad memories (tw: shitty partner) and talking about compassion, love and healing. If you read this, thank you. ♥

More than anything I just wanted to be able to have my feelings out there somewhere in the world and not just trapped inside me.

I haven't read the manga (yet). I decided to finish my journey with the anime since the end was near and that was how I started my journey. This meant dodging spoilers, which I mostly achieved! Apart from one. People just couldn't stop posting the manga page of Levi's last salute. But since I'd not been enlarging it, just scrolling past asap every time... I wasn't sure what I'd seen. And my brain began to think "oh my god, is he dead? is that what this is?" and I spent 50 days just trying to process those emotions in preparation all while avoiding as much of the fandom as possible because I knew I wouldn't be able to handle it any other way, I couldn't risk seeing any other spoilers or the context for that one. And so I processed it, I got myself to the point where all I wanted for him was to find peace before his death. I went into the finale so anxious and when we finally got to that scene everything just burst in me. I'd been crying throughout anyway, but that scene just destroyed me in the best way. Not only did I have the relief of it not being what I thought I'd seen, but it was the conclusion I'd been hoping so badly for. Following on from the previous special, that was all I could ever want for him. That moment when all the weight of the world, the weight of all his comrades that he carried with him - that we saw right from his introductory scenes - finally lifted off his shoulders. I've watched it so many times this past week and I can't get through it without crying. I just feel so much for him. I'm just so proud of him.

To combine that with his final post-war scene giving candy to the kids in the refugee camp, oh my god, my heart couldn't take it. So much pride and happiness seeing him, seeing how far he's come from the days in the underground. Seeing his peace. I've always said his compassion is what makes him humanity's strongest, and to see that reflected in his final scene just filled me with so much love and joy. It was absolute perfection. I honestly could not have asked for a more perfect conclusion for not just my favourite character in the series, but my favourite character period.

I originally wanted to write a long post the day after, reflecting on what Levi means to me to help me process things and get everything out of my head so I have room to breath and think again. My head was just thick with Levi and the meaning of the conclusion and series as a whole. But reading everyone else's content - the analysis, the fanfics, the thirsting (oh god we really did get the prettiest boy that ever did exist, huh?), EVERYTHING - has helped so much more than I expected. It's been really healing and helped turn that loss into love.

I watched the s1 dub back when it came out-ish. It would've been like 2014? I remember where I was, who I was with and who I was at the time. It was not a good time in my life. My relationship with my partner, who I watched the series with, was not good. It was very unhealthy and stifling and I was not good to him either but he was really fucking awful to me. It tainted the series a little bit for me, because I always remembered how badly it felt at the time. I wanted to be in fandoms again so badly at that time and I felt like I couldn't because of him and his expectations of me and the other people in my life at the time. And yet, the series still took root in my heart, Levi especially. Over the years I never forgot them and I craved the knowledge of the rest of their stories. But whenever I thought about returning I felt sick with remembering everything else from that time.

Fast-forward to this year, 6 months (to the day) before the finale airs. I'm looking for an anime to start. I'm a different person. I'm much older, much wiser, much more hurt and much more healed. My outlook on the world is entirely different and finally reflects the way I've always felt in my core. I'm not in a great place, but I'm doing my damn best to get there one day.

Fuck it, I'm going to start Attack on Titan.

I rewatched season 1. I remember asking my friend "why is this so easy to watch?". I'm the type of person who really struggles sometimes to sit through a single episode, but here I was watching 4-5 in one sitting. Then I hit s2 and I watch the entire thing in a single sitting. It continues and I binge so hard that by partway through s3 part 2 I'm starting to get too attached, too upset. I take a breather. But I can't even breathe for more than a few days before I'm back. I finish the series and look back on my journey completely stunned that I was able to overcome my wandering mind and watch something so fast.

I realise I'm completely in love with the series, and with Levi's character especially. The things he represents... I always had been in love, I think, but now, with all the development the series undergoes, it had consumed me. And I loved the feeling.

I convinced my current partner - an extremely loving and attentive partner despite our long distance situation who respects me and my interests and makes me want to be a better me every day until I'm the best me I can be - to watch it with me. And we devoured it together. Later I watched the series for a third time in preparation for the finale. And on each watch I got more and more out of it. I saw more. I felt more. My hatred towards some characters for their actions simmered out as I started to really understand some of their stories and the themes. Not knowing how the ending would tie it all together, I had no idea that some parts of the series, some of the themes and whatnot, really resonated with me and my worldview. I just instinctively felt it, I guess, from the information I had at hand.

But most of all I started to heal. A lot of things from back in 2014 and around that time had never healed. They have now. I owe this series so much. It gave me back a part of me I thought I had permanently lost. I owe it so much.

Loving AoT, loving Levi, has given me so much warmth and joy. The things I could never speak of no longer need to be spoken of, except to say "I overcame them".

And of course, I cannot and will not go into details of those things. Because like I said, they no longer need to be spoken of. I know what happened. And I know who I am now. Someone who is bigger, better and wiser for the things I have gone through. Someone who, thanks to a "stupid anime", thanks to a "dumb fictional character" as some people might think, someone who can walk a little more securely and proudly.

This fandom has been a part of that healing process too. I'll forever be grateful for every post I read and everyone who read and interacts with mine. I'll be here, even if I'm not always active or writing. I'll always be here in this fandom now. Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this, whether you interact or not. I hope, even when a lot of people have moved on to other things, that we can still be here never truly letting our happiness end. I may not have had the years with you, but I'm sure looking forward to the years we will spend in the future.

Now please resume your thirstposting for Levi. Please, I need more unhinged comments that feel like they've been ripped directly from my brain they FUEL me. I love you all so much

Let us always channel our inner Levi and show the world the love and compassion he would've.

#yumemi fucking rambles holy shit #this is emotional and i cried writing this but i'm glad it's out there #tl;dr is i love aot i love levi ackerman and i love this fandom #i really really do #levi ackerman #attack on titan

[julesofvolterra]

Well, Volturi Babes. I meant to write Car Guy Alec last night during cuddles in bed with my IRL mate. He asked what I was working on and so I told him about our latest sexy Witch Twin thirst wishes (car guy and brat tamer) and how I thought I probably had enough personal experience to write the classic car one but wouldn't even know where to start with the other and HE SCOFFED. He scoffed at me and then laughed! I'm obviously offended and snapped out "Did you just- What in the hell do you mean by that?" He didn't give me an answer. I decided to ask again, a bit more whiney and insistent. "You think I know anything about brat taming?" and he just rolled up on his side to face me and RAISED AN EYEBROW.

(Me, finally registering where this is going): "Are you saying I'm a brat?!?"

He simply smirks.

I gasp. "I am NOT a brat!"

Silence. He just lays there, his head propped up with his fist, and waits in silence. I try to ignore his beautiful bare and flexing bicep and push again.

"Babe! I'm not... I mean... maybe I was? Like, when we first met, but I've changed a lot since then."

"Mmhmm" he acknowledges, "You've tamed a little".

"Tamed?!? Are you insinuating you've-" I'm cut off by his crawling on top of me. "That you've been-" his hands find my wrists and pin them above me. "BRAT TAMING ME?!?" I screech. He answers me with a deeply passionate kiss that causes me to temporarily lose any thought I had in my brain.

He begins to grind against me. I whimper. He stills and looks me in the eye.

"Daddy, please" I squeak out.

"Please what?" He innocently asks.

"Please more?" I timidly ask as I turn my head to the side, a wave of sudden shyness overtaking me.

"More what?" Is his simple retort as he shifts my wrists to one hand and tilts my chin back to center with the other. He kisses me again, softer this time. I squeeze my eyes shut with a tiny moan.  I'm frustrated. His patience is way better than mine. I can't wait him out. I know this. If I wait too long he'll simply roll over, grab the blanket, and go to sleep. We've been there done that and I want what I want tonight. Okay- maybe I *am* a bit of a brat.

"Please fuck me!" I demand, more harshly than I meant.

I feel him tense and freeze above me. "Wanna try that again?" He says, much more sternly.

I'm too desperate and caught up in my emotions now. I buck my hips. I need him to move again. He is silent but grips my hipbone with his free hand.

I squirm in his hold, tugging my wrists, rolling my hips, shaking my head. His hips slam down to pin mine and his hand moves to my throat. I moan and still immediately, opening my eyes to see his twinkling above me, dark brown eyes nearly black and pupils blown wide with lust. "There's my girl. Ready to behave?" He croons as he applies more pressure to the sides of my neck with his large, rough hand. "Uh... yes, Daddy?" I say more as a question than an answer.

He leans in to nip my ear before whispering "Good girl". A low moan escapes me before I could even think about stopping it. "So, you're really into vampires lately." he quips as he snarls into my neck....

...Anyway, I didn't get anything written for Alec last night, seeing as how I was otherwise preoccupied, but hopefully this work of non-fiction inspired by Brat Tamer Alec will quench the thirst for now. I will try to tackle both stories again soon now that I've gathered that I really do have the necessary perspective. (I guess because he is such a tender, soft Dom and we've been together so very long that I never even realized the dynamic we've naturally had going on here LOL.)

#car guy alec #brat tamer alec #thank you daddy

[beneathstarryskies]

shout out to @actuallysaiyan for the pretty header!

The time is upon us! My 2K event is here! Again I want to reiterate how thankful I am for everyone who follows me and supports my writing. It means more than you'll ever know to have my own little corner of the world to share the random thoughts that pop into my brain. Without further ado, on to the fun stuff!

I'll be using the tag #beneathstarryskies2k on all the drabbles I post, so if you want block or follow along there it is.

The Festivities

So, this is sort of a two part event. My ask box is going to be open and I'll be online answering asks, thirsts, FMK, and "would you rather" stuff all day long (within reason obviously because I'm still a human.)

I will also be writing drabbles based on the prompts you guys send in. These are gonna be short pieces (between 300-800 words depending on how inspired I am by the prompts sent in) that I'll be posting off and on throughout the day. I was thinking it would be sort of a rapid fire type deal. You guys send a prompt, I write the first thing that comes to mind, and then post it. So think of it sort of as thirst hours but a bit more in depth and actually in a narrative style.

The Prompts

Prompts generated using this and this

So, send me a character you want (a list of my fandoms can be found on my pinned post) and if you want them to be person A or B. I'm going to assume the other role will be filled by the reader, but if you do want to do a certain ship instead lemme know. Even though it is a prompt list, feel free to get a little creative if there's something more you want to see.

Person A and Person B trying to hide their relationship. However, it turns out everyone knows they're dating.

Person B kissing away Person A's tears.

Person B breaking into Person A's room through their window.

Person A and Person B watching a horror movie. Person A can't sleep that night and Person B comforts them in a cuddle.

Person B reading in bed while Person A rests their head on Person B's shoulder, sleeping.

Person A has a way with words, their hard voice and determined look able to make Person B obey instantly without the need for anything physical.

Person B holding a sobbing Person A. Person A cries themselves to sleep with their face buried into Person B.

Person A and Person B burning something together.

Person A has a thing for creating marks on Person B’s skin – bruises, hickies, the like. They likes knowing and showing that Person B is theirs.

Person A enjoys tying Person B up, keeping them spread, vulnerable and submissive. Person A always ends up pleading and begging for Person B to touch them, and they do depending on how good they’ve been recently.

Person A orders Person B to touch themself in front of them but Person A always stops them – with words or more forcefully with their hands – before Person B can orgasm which leaves them whiny and needy.

Person A is hired as the nude model for Person B's art class and, well, Person B would enjoy getting to know the model a little more intimately, perhaps in the comfort of their own bedroom.

The Rules

I'm trying to keep this fun and sort of relaxed, so I'm being pretty lax on the rules.

I will probably put a cap on how many prompts I'll take at a time, as of right now I don't know how many I'll get. So if it gets to a point where it's too much at once, I'll make a post letting you guys know. Please respect that.

Don't be a jerk if I don't write your prompt or don't get to it as fast as you want me to. I am only human after all. There could be any number of reasons I decided not to write it or didn't see it.

Don't take this as an opportunity to be a troll. I've noticed a lot of blogs getting weird asks lately that they don't know what to do with. If this becomes an issue, I'll pull the plug on this thing.

#🌚random #beneathstarryskies2k

[xxgoblin-dumplingxx]

House Keeping 11/9/22

There's No THIRST TRAP THURSDAY this week

I'm just doing a little depressive episode rn and it's hard to write porn when you're on auto pilot. Not to worry, Thirst Traps will resume soon. I'll either adjust to the brain lag or the switch will flip.

In the mean time, I have just a couple reminders:

If you want a continuation of something, you have to put an ask in. I try to check replies through out the day but I have a full-time job an act as a caregiver to one of my parents. I don't see everything.

Please check the nope list and the other details on the pinned post at the top of my blog. I'm going to start ignoring asks about tag lists and master posts because that information is available.

And this isn't a reminder but just a detail: I'm probably going to discontinue Salty Sunday. I just wanted to give bad advice to petty problems... While I appreciate and deeply respect that people need a place to put their trauma and I'm touched people decided to share it with me, I feel underqualified to give ANY sort of advice bad or not to some of the asks I got. I don't want to inadvertently hurt anyone. And I'd hate to misread a situation as someone wanting bad advice while they're genuinely struggling and need someone to hear them out. OR give well-meaning advice, have someone follow it, and wind up in a worse position.

So. Yeah. I think that's it this week, y'all.

Stay safe, stay hydrated, stay gold.

💜 Ari

#House Keeping #Note to followers

[meowzfordayz]

hiii I’m a wee bit down but i don’t think I’d consider my request an emergency, focus on the actual emergencies before this one 💖

Lowkey I’ve been a sad lonely lesbian lately and seeing all of my friends get together is like 😭😭😭😭

Could u do a harem of female kny characters (Mitsuri, shinobu, tamayo, Tengen wives, any woman who isn’t a minor) Smut? I’d prefer it to be on the softer side since I just wish I had someone to take care of me in that way. (I love eating out stuff anything with that is 🥰)

Thank you! Happy summer break!

Hiya! I rarely have the energy to write fanfics w/ many characters 😅, so I'm going to decline your thirst 😕, but I appreciate you reaching out for comfort❣️

Wish I could be there to take care of you. 😤🤗 I'd cook you the fluffiest scrambled eggs, take you out to my fave Mediterranean tapas restaurant, and sing you to sleep (or stfu, if that's what you prefer when trying to fall asleep lmao). 🥺

On that note, Mitsuri would totally cook for you 😋; Hina, Makio, and Suma would ~drag you out to 3 restaurants (bc they couldn't decide on just 1 😆); Tamayo would massage your feet after a long night out ☺️; and Shinobu would concoct the perfect tea(s) for restful zzz's! 😴

18+NSFW below

Oh yeah, they'd pamper aka fuck your brains out beforehand too (sometime between returning from your evening out and going to sleep) — prepare to be a drowsy, blissed out puddle. 😉 Mitsuri loves feeling you cum on her tongue; Tamayo enjoys overstimulating you with toys; Shinobu delights in tying you up and edging you; and Tengen's wives... I mean... Makio sits on your face while Hina fucks you with a strap-on while Suma sucks on your clit... (if you feel like throwing Tengen + anal in there, then consider this: Tengen stuffing your ass while Hina fucks your pussy)

#to write... someday ?? #thirst

[fathermarty]

hi angel! would i be able to request a harry potter ship?

(preferably for the marauders era)

my name is katherine but i mostly go by kate. i’m a bisexual ravenclaw and my pronouns are she/her.

i am a waitress and an avid reader who has a thirst for knowledge. i’m somebody who loves learning about random things that spark my interest instead of school work (my grades aren’t bad but really not the best).

i play the guitar and my most played artists on spotify are lana del rey and the smiths (bit of a red flag??). i adore sixties/seventies rock with my entire heart. david bowie stan <3

i have three black cats (otto, marlon and hera) and two goldfish (jimi and stevie). they’re all my children. i used to have a third goldfish (emmeline) but otto ate her :(

i’m a sarcastic mess with a mean streak but i promise i’m really lovely when you get to know me. i smoke too much and have a caffeine addiction so im trying to get my shit together (it’s not working. my life’s a mess.)

sorry if this is really long? take you’re time obviously no rush at all. have a cup of tea and a good day <3<3

Okay, I know by reading this that we will become the best of friends. Also, thank you so much for requesting, + I hope you enjoy this. :)

I ship you with......

REMUS MF LUPIN

From the first moment I knew you were made for Remus, or he was made for you? Either way, you get what I mean. I HIGHLY, recommend listening to "Sweeter Than This" by Katie Herzig while reading this. It inspired me to write this, and I definitely included some quotes from the song for this. (They are in italics and blue coloring).

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One day you and Remus were paired up in Transfiguration after Professor McGonagall decided to split all the boys up because they were causing a ruckus. She wanted to eliminate any further disruption of her class -- but everyone knew that wouldn't last long. Of course, you know who Remus is, everyone knows who all the Marauders are. You know though that he is the brains of the operation, you can see it when they pull a prank + Remus is wearing a small smirk of success while the other three whoop + holler.

"You know Lupin, with those conniving plans of yours I would almost think you are Slytherin," You say to him once McGonagall resumes her lesson.

"Well Kate, if you spent more time trying to keep your life in order than focusing on mine you would have noticed the coffee stain on your shirt." He shoots back with a sideways smirk on his face. To your dismay, you did realize the front of your shirt had a small coffee stain right front and center.

Remus Bloody Lupin caught you off guard that day, + ever since you two have playfully taken jabs at one another. They went from in-class remarks to passing remarks in the corridor, to remarks to one another anytime one saw the other.

"Oi Lupin, whatcha reading? 10 Ways to Make My Enemy Love Me?" You joked sarcastically one day when entering the library.

"Why Kate why would I need that when you're already hopelessly in love with me?" He would shoot back with a matter-of-fact tone. The boy's friends staring at you two because Remus is usually the quiet + reserved one, + to see him interacting with a sassy Ravenclaw was new.

"If you think ragging on you every bloody time you enter my field of vision is a gesture of love, you might want to reevaluate your standards mate. I think they may have fallen shorter than Sirius."

"HEY!" Sirius put his hand up to his heart in mock hurt, looking between both you + Remus noticing the comfortable familiarity between the two of you.

Remus would blush when they guys ask him about you. Remus is used to sharing everything with the boys + part of him wanted the moments he shared with you to stay strictly between the two of you. He didn't want to share your attention with anyone else.

Eventually Remus found himself wanting to learn everything he can about you. He knows you enjoy books, the occasional smoke at night, + playing guitar in the astronomy tower when you think everyone is busy. Remus became infatuated with you when he noticed you playing the guitar with a cigarette hanging from your lips. The way your hair fell effortlessly around your face with your blue + bronze school tie undone + lazily hanging around your neck. (I know you probably, smoke a vape, but the cigarette aligned better with the image in my head.)

"You know how you mentioned I was hopelessly in love with you?" You said startling Remus, "I think that was you projecting your feelings onto me. When are you going to quit watching me from afar + have an actual conversation with me?"

This was the beginning of your + Remus' late-night adventures, every night you would meet at the Astronomy tower + either talk about the book you are reading or attempt to teach him a guitar.

"I like to watch you play Kate, you look so at peace." He tells you one night.

You turn your body so your knees are touching his leg, "If I didn't know any better Lupin I would say you're flirting with me."

"Would that really be an issue?" Remus never ceases to amaze you, + that is something you have adored about him since your first interactions. The fact that he is himself, + the confidence he exudes with you makes your heart dance.

"I guess it wouldn't be an issue if you would just-" before you can finish your snarky remark Remus grabs your knee to pull you impossibly closer.

"Just what Kate?" He said looking into your eyes with such intensity.

"Merlin Remus, will you just kiss me already?" + kiss you he did, it was something you never experienced before in your life. When he kissed you it was gentle but full of passion. So much so that you find yourself relaxing into his touch + he smiles.

"I have been waiting to do that since I saw you with that coffee stain on your shirt." He said smiling.

"I've been waiting for you to do that since you caught me off guard with your wit. What took you so long?"

Remus tucks a piece of hair behind your ear, "Because someone like me doesn't deserve the raw and precious beauty you possess." Without thinking you bring Remus into another kiss. This time you put all the love + pent-up feelings you had for the boy into it. Conveying to him that no matter what living is simple when love isn't broke.

Things between the two of you got more intimate, but Remus began to push away, fearing what you would think if you knew about his furry little problem.

You knew his secret, hell you knew what the other Marauders did for him monthly. You have called the Astronomy tower your home away from home since you first attended Hogwarts. Of course, you notice Remus every full moon, + when the other three animals showed up + started taking care of the wolf you knew it was his friends.

"Remus Lupin, if you do not show up to the damn Astronomy tower tonight I will come to the Gryffindor common room and kick your arse." You told him one morning after he missed not one but TWO nights. The boys gave him a look + he couldn't help but look down in shame. It broke your heart to see him like that, but you knew what you were going to show him tonight would make up for it.

You had spent the past few weeks during your free period putting together a small journal of the next few years with all the moon phases + when the full moon would be out.

When Remus saw what you had done he didn't even need to ask if you knew because by this gesture + attention to detail it was obvious you knew. Of course you bloody knew, you're a Ravenclaw.

Without hesitation he wrapped you up in his arms + buried his face into your hair, "I love you, Kate." Remus whispered into your ear planting a kiss to your temple.

"I love you, Remus." You pull away to give him a kiss before saying. "You can fix anything with a kiss."

He smiles at you, "If life gets any sweeter than this, I don't want to know."

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I ACCIDENTALLY POSTED THIS WITHOUT FINISHING IT HAHAHA, I AM SO SORRY. Anyway, I had so much fun writing this, I love Remus with my whole heart + I think he deserves the world. Thank you so much for requesting @divinekills I really hope you like it!

✰REMEMBER; if you would like a ship go to my Navigation (it is pinned on my profile), + read over the "Ship Request Info" before you request!

#remus lupin ship #remus lupin #remus lupin fanfiction #remus lupin headcanon #marauders fluff #marauders fan #marauders ship #marauders matchup

[dollwrites]

HI BABE please take all the time you need I know you're probably sooo busy right now!!! I'm so sorry about your old page you didn't deserve that, but I'm so so happy you decided to stay and make a new one I couldn't even imagine coming on here anymore if you weren't here 😭

THEY ARE TALKIING ABOUT BANNING TIKTOK! Unfortunately our government REALLY wants to ban tiktok they had a hearing with the CEO of tiktok and everything about it, and they're also trying to ban vpns so we cant get to tiktok that way either 😒 it's so annoying I would be so crushed lol I have hundreds of edits and stuff

I DID GET TO SEE DEMON SLAYER OMG IT WAS AMAZING I mostly just went to see the tengen/gyutaro fight on the big screen tbh lol. They only showed the first episode of the new season but I will say koku looked and sounded VERY cool he was super mysterious I'm very excited for you to see in like a week 👀 hate to say it but muzan looked BEAUTIFUL and of course akaza did too, but as someone who hasn't read the manga I was SHOCKED at just how HUGE Doma is like the stature on that man is insane I was expecting him to be kinda skinny and lanky but NOPE 👀 Also mitsuri I- 😳 the bi in me cannot handle it I just love her 😭 like was there a certain scene that was just brazen fan service, yes. But did she look gorgeous YES. I'm also kinda excited to see more of Genya his character design is so cool to me. I'm very excited to see what you think when the new season comes out 👀

Also PLEASE write more diabolik lovers!!! Diabolik lovers is one of the only animes I consistently rewatch I just cant help it it's like a guilty pleasure lol. It has so much potential for dark content like idk if it's just me but I love reading about blood/my blood getting drank etc lol so it fits perfectly. I also just love the trope of being forced to live with them and the whole gothic vampire vibes 🖤

I didn't want to send many tiktoks since ik you're probably so busy with the new blog so I'm just gonna include two diabolik lovers ones lol 🥰

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRceDUYr/

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRceukvJ/

I'm so excited for the new things you're going to post, I hope you're doing well 😘 -jjk anon

BABY YES HI

First of all I’m so sorry all the shit happened before I could answer your big ask I WAS SO UPSET 😭

OH NO THEY SHOULDNT DO THAT. I mean I pretty much exclusively use tiktok to watch thirst edits of anime hotties BUT STILL I wonder why the gov doesn’t like tiktok???

if they do ban it we’ll have to send each other fan art back and forth 😭😭

YES DEMON SLAYER IM SO EXCITED I’ve been getting so hype about finally seeing Koku baby animated my big big big warrior man 😵‍💫😵‍💫 BRO I SAW SOME LEAKED CLIPS AND PICS IM NOT A MUZAN GIRLIE BUT HE LOOKED V V GOOD and douma is fucking MASSIVE !!! I haven’t read the manga either but one of my besties has and I did make her ( begged 💚 ) to give me all the spoilers which is how I knew about koku in the first place SKKSKSK SO IM EXCITED

YOU LIKE DL TOO ?? YES WE SHARE ONE BRAIN I SWEAR. DL would be a guilty pleasure anime if I possessed even 1 ounce of shame but I do not so I just openly love those slutty slutty vampire men. I must know who your favorites are 🤨🤨 YOU KINDA GIVE SUBARU AND YUMA STAN VIBES but I can also see you being into ayato also THE FORCED DOMESTICATIONNNNN ONE OF MY FAVES WE REALLY DO HAVE ONE BRAIN SKSKSKKSK

THE TIKTOKKKKSSSS OMG YOU SEND ME THE TWO BABIES ??? IM GONNA SCREAM kanato is my little meow meow the urge to be his mommy ( bc his real mom is….. ya know 💀 ) and let him drink from me while I pet his hair is OVERWHELMING and AZUSA SOFT BOY I’m shaking trembling I love those TikToks thank you for the snack babe 💚💚💚

It is kinda hectic trying to transfer everything 😅 BUT I always want to make time for you when I can !!

I have some for you too 🥺🥺

listen… I’m so excited to write that upper moon reverse harem au I’ve been HOLDING ON TO FOR THE LONGEST TIME it’s finally almost time to release these fics and Douma is going to be a MENACE to our poor reader

I SAW THIS AND IMMEDIATELY SAVED IT THINKING OF YOU

I genuinely cannot believe my FAVORITE va was cast as the deadbeat dilf I am going rabid

I WISH I HAD MORE FOR YOU BUT SINCE THE MOVE IVE NOT BEEN ON TIKTOK THAT MUCH

#jjk nonnie ! #DONT THINK I MISSED THAT #‘can’t imagine coming on here anymore if you weren’t here’ WHAT IF I STARTED CRYING RN #I was very worried you wouldn’t see I moved and I’m so so glad you did 😭😭

[nialltlynch]

dec '22 -> jan '23 reading and writing check in

reading

the atlas paradox - olivie blake (3/5 - a veritable capri sun pouch: loads of fun!! packed with flavor!! but quenched my thirst about as well as one measly pouch of fruit punch on a sweltering day.)

sundial - catriona ward (4/5 - read this whole thing in one afternoon. ENTRANCED, i tell you.)

soft science - franny choi (4/5 - super yummy)

limbo, and other places i have lived - lily tuck (2.5/5 - started out kind of interesting and for sure i was compelled throughout it's just. i never cared about any of the characters. and maybe that was the point? idk. well constructed just not to my tastes.)

sisters - daisy johnson (3/5 - i usually don't mind when characters are annoying but OOOHHH BOY both girls were trying my patience. i get it i get it thats the point and i mean yeah i did LOVE the messiness but ugh. i dont feel the theme/point was well served but meh. that's just me.)

heads in beds - jacob tomsky (3.5/5 - i love hotels even though ive had an inkling (and now PROOF) that they dont love me)

writing

liddol declan fic !! i have so many thoughts about canon declan and niall....... so many thoughts........

and i have almost 18k words of this second?third? draft. it's gonna happen !!

upcoming

im reading a book about operas right now. very neat! unfortunately im in a reading slump. need to soak my brain in something else for a minute i reckon. my goal this year is again two books a month!! so far we're on schedule ((:

as for writing, once i finish this thing.... well who knows. im in the middle of migrating my fic wips to a whole new thing since zoho decided to be Unfree /: i have a lot of unfinished ideas that are certainly compelling i just don't know what to do with them. is posting unfinished works acceptable? maybe just on tumblr yknow informally? or maybe ill finish them. i dont know.

i also have it in my head that i would like to be published so im trying to shift to writing more of my original short stories (as opposed to long works because honestly i dont know that i have a novel in me.) i need to find one of those crit groups so i can figure out how to Actually Write.

anyways! here is to a wonderful new year! cant wait to see what i do!

#kk books #2023 version let's goooooo #ehh #long post

[lesbesapphic]

Golden Times- Mob Leader!Natasha AU Pt3

Golden Cage

Summary- Finally the day is here, your wedding with Natasha. Watch how things are slowly unfolding and you started seeing a softer side of Natasha. Was she as evil as the stories you heard about her?

Warning- Dark, 18+, slapping, no smut? , just a filler chapter to keep things going, mean Natasha

A/N- Hello Everyone!

I know it's been a while since I last uploaded something but things have been terrible for me. Now I will slowly try to be consistent but no promises.

Thank you to a very cute anon who remained patient with my stupid arse.

Hope you all enjoy this chapter even though it is hardly much, just the story slowly unfolding to a bigger plot.

Feel free to drop in my dms with ideas! I would love to hear and write what you all have to say.

Enjoy!!

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You stretched in the bed, your muscles oddly sore as you snuggled into the warm comforter on top of you, suddenly the events of last night flashed in the back of your brain and you snapped your eyes open sitting up frantically to look around yourself.

You were on the bed, the handcuffs gone, looking down at your wrist you saw angry red marks they had left behind, you flexed your back which still ached a little but not too much and with how comfortable you were sleeping on the bed, you assumed Natasha had moved you to it later in the night.

"Glad you are awake," Natasha spoke from across the room in front of the dresser, you watched as she folded her sleeves, several wristwatches laying in front of her to choose from. You gulped softly, her hair was still wet from the shower she had taken and she looked stunning, you shook the thought away and pulled up the comforter which had fallen from your body in your haste to get up, revealing your naked figure but it seemed you were not quick enough as Natasha's eyes flashed at you from the mirror.

"Off the bed, Darling. You haven't earned the privilege of it yet." She said, her voice was calm and gentle but the command in it was mean and cruel, You had half the heart to tell her to fuck off but it would be highly stupid to fight her in the morning and put her in a bad mood which will only bring you harm and cost you your dignity.

You slowly fumbled with the blanket, pushing it off yourself as you got off the bed, standing at its edge awkwardly, your hands covering your naked assets in the hope to retain whatever was left of your dignity. You watched as the woman decided between the watches, ignoring your presence completely which only seemed to bother you. Shouldn't you be grateful to have the monster off your back?

You were tempted to ask her the purpose of bringing you here which from the look of it looks like her own room but you decided to try a different approach instead of demanding the basic questions. "Where are we going?" You asked clearing your throat slightly when it felt too dry for your liking, your voice coming off scratchy, probably from all the crying you did last night. Or the choking you received from her majesty.

You watched with alert eyes as the woman turned around slowly approaching you but moving toward the side table instead when she returned in front of you, she held the glass of water up to your lips, you were surprised by her gentleness but knew it was only an illusion, she was the same woman who had you reduce to nothing last night. You slowly parted your lips letting her quench your thirst, your eyes starting into her jaded green eyes which were so hollow, you hardly felt any emotions in them. They were empty.

"Some of us have a business to run unlike you." She replied in a condescending tone and you had a comeback at the tip of your tongue which she too seemed to understand as she raised an eyebrow, silently daring you to utter those words so she could show you your place again when you didn't seem to let in your desires, she smirked at you caressing your cheek before patting it not so lightly, you winced. "You are staying here until later."

Her hand trailed to your neck tilting your face up by your jaw, you felt her hand twitch against your skin as they slowly made their way down your body to your naked chest, "Don't ever cover yourself from me." She warned as she pushed your hand which was covering your chest away, her hand almost hovering over your breast and you watched as an inner conflict started within her before she relented and stepped back with a sharp breath.

Once again making you wonder about what could be the reason? Was she planning to sell you off to someone and needed you to stay a virgin? The thought seemed so scary to you, you have seen the mafia men around here and the disgust and fear must be evident on your face because Natasha too stared at you in confusion. "Are you going to sell me?" You asked in a scared whisper as your eyes pleaded with her and the anger that flashed in her eyes confirmed your doubt until you felt a hand tightly wrapping around your neck.

"Are you out of your mind?" Natasha asked sharply but you were too scared to notice her tone, thoughts of being sold to some fat bald man filled your head. She squeezed your neck warningly when you immediately didn't answer, "Please. Don't! I don't want to be sold to a man." You pleaded through her hold and she squeezed harder choking you.

"You are mine. I am not selling you. Understand?" She asked through her gritted teeth and loosened her grip for you to speak if you weren't so gone in your head you would have noticed the edge and red flags in her voice but you were too focused.

"Then why don't you touch me?" You demanded and your question must have caught the woman off-guard as you pulled your strength together and pushed away from her, "You are lying to me!" Your voice raised and if you had learned anything from yesterday, you would have known what to never do in front of the capo. Disrespect her.

Natasha's hand collided with your cheek so hard that you fell on the bed, your ear ringing from the impact, your eyes blurry from the tears before the pain could even register in your brain. "Get up." She commanded and you shivered slowly pulling yourself back up, your hand clutching your burning cheek while you look at anywhere but at the woman in front of her. Tears fell freely down your face while you sobbed very silently afraid that the tiniest of voice would set her off again.

"Look at me." You shook your head, you didn't understand where the courage to deny that woman was coming from but maybe the burning in your cheek and the ringing in your ear had you too humiliated to even look into the eyes which had almost seemed gentle when putting you back on the bed last night. "Y/N. You are pushing my nerves." She warned and you slowly looked up sniffling as more tears leaked from your eyes, seeing her face so emotionless.

"Why do you think I am selling you?" Natasha asked her arms crossing firmly over her chest as she stared down at you not only with her height but as well as her gaze. "I-I don't wanna talk to you. You are mean to me." You whispered you didn't understand why you were so hurt by her actions maybe because she was the only one who has shown care toward you in her own fucked up way.

Of all the things you were expecting from her, a laugh wasn't the one on the list. She laughed freely at your statement and you didn't realize an involuntary pout had formed on your lips, "Because you were being disrespectful toward me and were also saying dumb stuff." Natasha explained as if speaking to a child and only made you feel dumber than you already were.

"Now as cute as this act of yours is, I rather continue it when I get back." The woman leaned in placing a kiss on your lips and pulling away before she could leave you started again, "B-Because virgins are sold at the highest price and.." You took a breath feeling heat rushing to your face, "You don't want to fuck me." You looked away in embarrassment realizing that maybe the woman in front of you was right about you asking dumb questions.

"You want me to fuck you?" Natasha questioned with a flick of an eyebrow and your heart started racing, "No of course not! But that is why you are keeping me here right? To sell m-"

"If you complete that sentence, you would be on your knees begging for forgiveness," Natasha growled and you instantly shut up, clamping your hands on your mouth afraid of even making a single noise that could have the woman all over you.

"Last time, I am telling you. You are mine, I am not selling you and I am only not fucking you until our wedding." Natasha started explaining, your eyes widening at what you were hearing, you bit the inside of your cheek to stop yourself from speaking and interrupting the woman. "Which would be tonight, so don't think you have to wait a lot." Her calloused hand squeezed your breast before letting go. You winced but your sole focus was on repeating her words in your mind over and over again.

You kept quiet, your gaze fixated on the floor trying not to flinch when Natasha leaned in placing a soft kiss on your forehead before heading toward the door. It was like you were frozen in your place. You didn't understand but in some ways maybe you did, you had heard stories of her obsession before and this didn't sound extraordinary.

"Here." You looked up and Natasha was holding up a grey color hoodie for you, you slowly raised your arms and she helped you into it. The soft fabric smelled like her and engulfed you in warmth. You had missed the feeling of being covered like this. "Thank you." You looked up at the woman and your reply must have pleased her as a smile formed on her sinfully gorgeous face.

"You stay here until someone comes to get you." You nodded slowly staying still as the woman kissed your head again before leaving the room followed by a click of the lock.

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You didn't have to wait long as soon enough a girl who looked of the same age as you had entered the room with some maids who came in with several white gowns and make up kits, the girl Eva had introduced herself as Wanda's girlfriend, who you learned was Natasha's right in command. Since then you were busy with the preparation for your doom tonight.

"You should consider yourself lucky that it isn't Agatha who got you first. I heard she is looking for someone as well." Eva tried reassuring you while slowly applying the highlighter to your skin. "And that is supposed to make me feel better?" Yoh scoffed pushing her hand away when it got too close to your eyes. You knew it wasn't her fault that you were here from what she has told you about herself, she was too chained to Wanda but she seemed to enjoy it.

"It isn't. I am sorry." You ignored the guilt you felt and stayed quiet, letting Eva fill the silence with her talking. You didn't think you understand her, she was miserable yet happy with Wanda. "Does Wanda hit you?" You asked and your question might have caught her off guard as she put the brush down staying silent for several moments and you almost felt fear of her snitching you out to Natasha.

"Not when I am being good." That was the only answer you needed. You needed to get out of this place as soon as possible otherwise you would become as crazy as Eva, thinking of this as love. "Now which dress you wanna wear for tonight?"

Eva stood up walking over to the set of white dresses which she had placed on the bed. You swirled around in your seat looking over at the dresses, your mind already finding ways to escape the situation you were in. "Have you ever considered leaving?" You asked while pointing at the dress in the corner which Eva picked up, admiring the glamour.

"Once. Wanda almost killed me when she found me. It is useless." Eva held the dress out to you and you placed it against you after getting up from the chair. You could sense the slight sadness in her voice at the mention of the incident and knew you had to be quick with your prying before the woman shuts you off completely like the few times she had done already besides you couldn't even trust her completely. She was loyal to Wanda.

"How did she find you?" You asked after a moment, if Eva did manage to escape you could do too, you just had to be better with not being caught as she had. You moved back watching as Eva reached forward placing her hand on the back of your neck, "I assume Natasha had already placed a tracker somewhere here." Your eyes widen at the thought of never escaping the wrath of the redhead.

Eva's finger prodded the area, "It doesn't hurt?" She asked before pulling her hand away and you shook your head in answer, she hummed to herself, "She is slow. Wanda did it to me, the first night she got me." You ignored her comment and rubbed your neck feeling for any kind of sting. Your mind replaying the events since you got here to check if Natasha really placed something in you. This was beyond fucked up for you.

"So you can never escape?" You still questioned walking to the side of the room where the portable closet was to change into it. "I don't have any place I can go back to." You walked out of the room, Eva was looking down at the dresser arranging the various products, her voice quiet, the usual chirp missing from it.

"But do you want to leave?"

"Why do you care?" A brunette entered the room approaching you two in long strides, she was wearing a suit, a tattoo covering the side of her neck, the same one you had seen on Natasha. You glanced over at Eva and the look on her face was enough to tell you who it was. Wanda.

"She is almost ready. Just need to get her hair done." Eva spoke up, her voice fearful of the woman who hadn't stopped staring at you. "Did I permit you to speak?" Wanda turned to Eva who sucked in a sharp breath as Wanda's finger curled into her hair. You didn't know if this was how Wanda treated her usually or she was showing off but one thing was clear you didn't like it at all.

"No, Ma'am." Eva shook her head, her voice came off wobbly and you felt your anger rising for the poor girl who was just trying to save you.

"She was just informing you." You spoke up ignoring the way Eva's eyes widen, silently telling you to shut up but you didn't care. You weren't scared of the woman. "I see, Natasha hasn't broken you yet." Wanda let go of Eva's hair turning to you completely.

"Don't put your nose where it doesn't belong, Sweetheart or even Natasha won't be able to save you from me." Wanda snarled at you, her eyes darken by fury. You had half the mind to roll your eyes at the woman but refrained from doing so, you knew who she was and if anyone you should be scared of in this city after Natasha, it was Wanda Maximoff. The right hand of the Capo.

You slowly nodded before looking away no longer able to hold her intense gaze, you heard Wanda snap her fingers, and Eva was by your side almost instantly, gently pushing you toward the dresser to style your hair. "I will deal with you later." You heard Wanda whisper into Eva's ear before moving away.

"Bring her downstairs in fifteen min. The priest is here as well." Wanda ordered before leaving the room, the door shutting closed loudly behind her, you and Eva both stayed quiet as she slowly combed your hair curling them on the ends, styling it according to the dress. "I am sorry I got you in trouble. I really didn't mean to." You finally summoned the courage to apologize, looking up at Eva through the mirror and she gave you a little smile of comfort.

"It is okay. You should worry about yourself if she has told Natasha about your questions." You shuddered at the thought of the redhead, chewing your bottom lip thinking about all the possible ways you could get out of it if Natasha decided to confront you.

"I see.." You acknowledged quietly, watching yourself in the mirror, the white dress hugging your curves, your skin flawless with layers of makeup, your eyes standing out from the work Eva had done. You looked beautiful. You had never thought of this moment in your life. You weren't the one to settle down or marry someone but here you were. You could feel the panic building up within you at the prospect of what was going to happen next. Your hands felt clammy, you tried focusing on your breathing.

"Don't think too much about it." Eva must have sensed your distress as she placed a hand on your arm, rubbing gently trying to soothe you but you knew it was not going to work at all.

"Y-Yeah? I am about to seal my fate to some psycho bitch and yes I shouldn't think too much about it!" You half whispered half yelled at the girl trying to comfort you and mentally cursed at yourself for being a bitch to someone who you got in trouble because of your stupidity and someone who was just trying to help you, someone who was the only sane person here with you, maybe a little fucked up bu-

You stopped your train of thought and tried focusing on one thing at a time. "I am sorry. It is just my reflex to the stressful situation.." You trailed off, focusing more on your breathing.

"It's okay. Just don't make things worse for yourself. Natasha is far better than Wanda or Agatha as long as you stay loyal and honest to her. She used to talk about how lonely she is to Wanda, she just needed someone.." Eva continued and you tried ignoring her, remembering just last night when the woman had you naked sleeping on the floor like a pet.

"I understand." You said to stop Eva from shining a new light on your situation when in reality everything was just dark. As dark as the pitless orbs that stared deep into your soul in the quiet of the night.

"Let's go.."

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"Do you?" The priest insistence snapped you out of your thought and you momentarily glanced around, the garden was filled with people who you assumed were the member of Natasha's gang as almost all of them had their gang tattoo on their neck, you could see Eva looking fearfully at you from where she was standing with Wanda. Silently begging you to not mess up.

You turned back to the woman in front of you, she was wearing a white three-piece suit, a black shirt underneath her white coat, the waistcoat hugging her figure snuggly, making her look almost ethereal, her neck tattoo stood prominent reminding you of where you were and what you had to say.

"I do." You whispered and before the priest could even complete his sentence, Natasha pushed the poor man away pulling you closer flushed against her body before lifting up your veil and planting her lips on yours, taking yours into a hungry embrace as her soft lips worked against yours. The crowd started hooting and you ignored them, your hands placed on her shoulder as you tried to break free from the kiss when breathing became a problem.

But Natasha doesn't seem to care as she greedily took in your kisses, it was not until when you started tugging on her suit's collar she pulled away, her lips covered in a sinful smirk, "You need to work on your stamina, my little wife." You breathed heavily, your cheeks reddening at the show she gave the audience and most importantly what she called you.

Soon enough you two were surrounded by Natasha's friends and acquaintances who kept coming and congratulating the woman next to you, only talking to after receiving some kind of permission from Natasha which honestly disgusted you, you always prided in being your own person and how Natasha treats you and the way the people ask her permission for even speaking to you made you feel like some kind of a property.

"Congratulations, Y/N." A man shot you a grin and you smiled politely at him, he was tall easily towering over you and you glanced at Natasha who was talking to someone beside him. "You look lovely." He complimented and you nodded slowly, "Thank you.." You whispered, your hand tugging on Natasha's quietly without even realizing your action and instantly the woman wrapped her arm tighter around you, giving the man one look before he stepped back with his hands up in the air in mock surrender.

"I was just leaving." He smiled again but this time at Natasha before walking away. Natasha's hand raised a little up and met your bareback, sending a shiver down your spine at the contact.

"Who chose this dress?" Natasha's face twisted in disapproval and you didn't understand the cause of it because a just moment before she was looking at you with such hunger that you were afraid she would take you right then and there.

"I did.." You replied while your fingers nervously picked up on the dress, you glanced up seeing Natasha taking off her coat before draping it over your shoulders, covering your bareback. "It is too revealing," Natasha replied gruffly tugging on the coat over your shoulder so it stays there while looking around, glaring at anyone who dared to stare at you for longer than a few moments.

"It is supposed to be.." You said and almost regretted it with how Natasha's eyes flashed at you with the same fire you had seen a night before when you dared to fight back. "But definitely not something one should wear at their wedding!" You quickly added fumbling over your words and watched as a smile of amusement formed on the gangster's face.

"You learn so quickly, my little wife." There it was the irritating yet endearing nickname, it makes you feel worse than when she calls you doll or dollface but it still tugs at your heart because it feels like she enjoys being able to call you her wife which was disgusting, you just met her just a way ago.

Natasha leaned in pecking your lips and you let her kiss you for a brief moment before she pulled back and caressed your hair, "The only person who is allowed to see you in such clothes is me, your wife." She said fiercely reminding you of her status.

"Can't you keep your hands off her for until dinner or you wanna retire to bed early?" Wanda's voice startled you and you tried stepping away but Natasha firmly held you to her side, her hand squeezing your side warningly when you tried moving again.

"I think I would love it." Natasha laughed freely with Wanda and your ears went alert at the sound, it was soft and attractive, you didn't know the woman was capable of showing such emotions.

"Are you okay?" Eva asked quietly when Wanda and Natasha had engaged in a conversation, mostly teasing each other and discussing business. She handed you a glass of wine after seeking permission from the woman next to you. "The happiest." You replied grimly, sipping into the glass of wine, enjoying the strong yet sweet taste it left in your mouth.

Eva chuckled at the look on your face, "You will be fine. I am excited to have someone around in the mansion. It gets lonely being here all alone." Eva said excitedly and you nodded slowly, so Wanda also lived in the mansion with Natasha. You needed to know the place perfectly to put your plan into action.

"When are you putting a tracker in her?" You stiffened at the question Wanda asked Natasha and you looked at the woman who held an evil smirk, she purposely brought it up to squash down any thoughts of escaping you had from earlier. Natasha must have sensed your tense muscles as her hand started soothingly running up and down your side, it was almost comforting until you remembered it was the same hand that she used to hurt you just this morning.

"Soon," Natasha answered and you relaxed slightly, you still had time to convince her otherwise but the question was, how would you do that? From how possessive Natasha was you knew the woman won't leave a chance for you to leave her. You needed to beat her in her own game.

"Eva Darling, could you please get me another glass of wine?" Wanda interrupted your thoughts and you watched Eva, who instantly nodded with a bright smile on her face. You didn't understand their dynamic at all. Just a moment ago Wanda was threatening the shorter girl with punishments and suddenly she was as sweet as honey to her.

"Let's go, the tables are set." Natasha said tugging you toward the direction of the tables, "I can't wait for the night to end and have you all to myself, my precious little wife." She whispered into your ear, her breath tingling your sensitive ears making you gasp with a blush covering your cheeks at her suggestion.

You knew what tonight entails, the only reason the woman was holding back yesterday was over. Now Natasha won't wait a moment to have you underneath her, the thought sending shivers down your spine. You could only pray for things to get better for you but you doubt it was possible in the golden cage she has created for you in the name of her wedding vows.

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A/N-

Would love to hear from you all, what do you guys think will happen next?

Especially your thoughts on Wanda and Eva?

Feel free to send anons. 💕

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[rayofsunas]

s/o goes on a mission with them.

A/n: so, as you may or may not have seen by my recent “updates” I’m obsessed with genshin, and I’m pretty sure for one day I played for a solid 5 hours- my eyes hurt pls. but I did miss writing, I’ve just been unmotivated and busy with college stuff (mainly stressing, I haven’t even started my essay yet shh). n e ways, here’s an update, I hope this quenches your thirst 🙊

Summary: s/o goes on a mission with them. 

Parings: Kaeya/Reader, Diluc/Reader, Xiao/Reader, Scaramouche/Reader (all with a fem reader)

Warnings: crack, swearing, worrying Teyvat bois

Word count: 1.7k

Kaeya

when you’re assigned to be on a mission just the two of you, you assume he’s happy, and don’t get me wrong, he totally is!

usually you’re never on missions together, deciding it was better that way because you both get distracted (you realized after marrying, space was always nice too, space was healthy)

though the decision mainly came about because you two good around a lot... and other things 😏

no but deep down he’s worried when you go on this mission together, it’s been a while since the two of you have, a little too long, and the nerves came back

he’s always worried whenever you go on missions, and sure he’ll always be there to protect you when he’s with you (not that you need it) but anything can happen

sure taking out a bunch of Hilichurls was deemed easy, especially together, but he still worried

he never said a word about it though, he’d always keep a watchful eye on you (he does have a reputation to keep after all)

“Ya know, you did well today.” You said plopping down beside your husband, using your pyro ability to light the twigs and leaves in front of you.

“Of course I did,” he boasted, eye lighting up in the dark of the night. “What kind of Knight would I be if I hadn’t, babe.”

You groaned in annoyance, this was the ever so haughty husband you knew.

“Please, I could’ve easily wiped your ass if it weren’t for the fact that we haven’t been paired together in a while; I forgot about your skill.” You teased. The cryo user glared at you.

“Skill? Surely, I have more than one.” He snipped teasingly. Your head shook, feigning innocence. “Are you sure?” A hum sounded in your throat. “I couldn’t tell... Maybe if you hadn’t been staring holes into me every time I used my sword, I could see your progression.”

Kaeya visibly tensed, but he tried to make it go unnoticed, you saw his shoulders raise slightly. 

“Hmm?” You laughed wholeheartedly. 

“Don’t ‘hmm’ me, mister.”

Despite having been caught, a grin spread across his face, he was enjoying your teasing tonight it seemed.

“There’s a reason we don’t go on missions together, but, I did have fun with you today, despite the worrying part.”

Diluc

um, the ever so stoic and emotionless fire boy is WORRIED AF

and he accidentally lets it show

he’s totally fine if you’re only going against a few low-rank Hilichurls and Slime, but against any of the Hypostasis’s, he’s worried for your wellbeing (after a few days of trying to beat one of the Hypostasis’s I finally did, APPLAUD ME PLS, I was crying)

the very first mission you went on together, the job was done quickly and without much trouble, but before and after, he would not stop asking you if you would like to be escorted back to the Knights headquarters

he said it was his duty to protect any and every Mondstadt Citizen

you knew he was also just particularly worried about you

despite being worried, he is happy you’re here, though wishes it were under different circumstances other than battle 

he rarely sees you, so it’s a nice change to be placed on a mission together instead of alone, you missed each others company

BUT HE’S STILL WORRIED

“I’m a Knight of Favonius, I don’t particularly need to be escorted back, I appreciate your concern though.” Poor Diluc, the face he made looked like pure defeat, you used the Knight of Favonius card on him. And yes, you were capable, but he did know a certain Knights of Favonius Captain who he loathed a little too much,

“That’s why I’m worried.”

You scoffed at his jab, though it didn’t necessarily hurt too much.  

“Please, I can handle myself. We’re not all like Captain Kaeya, but even then give him some credit!”

“I know you’re more than capable but-”

”No buts! Let me do what I know how, please. Or else I could slip up, and then actually put myself in danger.”

“Okay...” You nodded, sending a soft thanks to your lover's way, but he just stared at you before muttering, “But let me escort you back to Mondstadt.”

👁 👄 👁

“I’m sorry, did you hear a word I just said?”

“I see your skills darling, but-” He paused, noticing how your arms folded across your chest. You were annoyed. “I’d much prefer if you took care of the greatest battle of all; Kaeya.”

“Kaeya does not need my assistance.”

“He’s probably in a ditch somewhere, and it would be much appreciated by Jean if we did not leave him to rot there,” Diluc explained. 

You had seen Kaeya earlier, and yes although he usually frequented the bars and whatnot, he was surprisingly sober. He hadn’t promised he would stay that way, but it would take hours for said man to get completely drunk to the point where he was immobile. You had only left Mondstadt four hours ago. 

“Amber can find him. She did last time,” He watched in disbelief as you sauntered off towards the hill in front of you, dead set on continuing your mission. “Come on I see an Electro Hypostasis ahead.”

“Also, you could’ve just said you were worried about me, instead of trying to send me back home! Kaeya is fine, worrywart.”

Xiao

it’s not that he’s worried about you and it’s not that he shouldn’t be worried either 

he can be both given the right moment

the only reason he doesn’t want you going with him is because he claims he focuses better on missions alone

you could understand where he was coming from, but you would’ve liked to have gone with him when he first left

you mentioned going on a mission with him in Liyue the night before he locked you in your Liyue Harbor Guesthouse room 

you were still asleep when he’d snuck out and had found a note in the sheets where he’d previously been sleeping hours ago

it read, went on a quick mission, be back soon. - Xiao

...one of the cleaning ladies had come to your rescue after seeing various lounge chairs from the hallway stacked and pushed against the door (she was supposed to clean the room that morning after having seen Xiao leaving, figuring it was empty to begin cleaning)

she was shocked to see you hurriedly throwing your shoes on and grabbing your spear, confused obviously

she’d asked if you were being held against your will or if you were in danger, but you’d dashed off before you could give her an answer

eventually after asking a few Liyue Harbor Merchants, you were able to get a rough estimate as to where your boyfriend went

when you finally caught up to him, out of breath, he was somewhat shocked to see you

“Hey!” You called after the ancient man, watching with glee as he turned around with wide eyes. “Locking me in the room seriously?”

“I didn’t think you’d catch up. I left hours ago.”

“I thought so too. But one of the Merchants gave me a shortcut to your destination.”

“Interesting.” He said, hand going to his chin in thought. 

“That’s it? That’s all you have to say?!” 

“Interesting.” You mocked 

He stared blankly, without a doubt the gears working in his brain, spinning and ticking at an unbelievable rate. 

“No, one more thing... How did you get out of the room? I barricaded it.” 

👁 👄 👁

Scaramouche

you better be someone who can handle yourself, and you probably are, or else he would not be able to stand being with you romantically AT ALL

he’s had you practice with him, just to show him what you’re capable of, before he ever allowed you to travel with him

after deeming you a worthy opponent, he decided you would fair well with him

he would’ve never allowed you to come if he knew you’d be a burden, slow him, or get hurt

after you proved yourself, he does not doubt you so he’s not going to be worried at all

he’s only worried if you start slowing him down, then he’ll think you’re incompetent to be traveling together

if you slow him down, you’re being sent home, no questions asked

though because he does love you, you receive a bit of a less severe punishment for doing something wrong on a mission

he may ask you once or twice to keep up with him, or take your enemies out without less hesitation, but that’s if he feels particularly generous, most of the times he’s harsh and will not tolerate your mistakes, no chances given

fortunately for you, he felt extremely generous today

It was truly evident that you were slowly pissing off the sixth Harbinger and he was losing his patience with you. Yet you continued flirting with him to get a rise out of said man (yeah, same); he often reacted, and you enjoyed it when he did. You liked seeing him react and appear differently than always being so uptight and mean.

It was a common belief that he often traveled with a young woman, who had Pyro for a vision, and she was strong but often loved to distract and tease her fellow Harbinger. You were not so surprisingly, that young woman.

“Keep up, I won’t ask you again.” 

Today, you were on a mission together which wasn’t rare, but your other mission was to piss him off as much as you could. So, you purposely walked behind him, very slow. Pretending to take in the chilly scenery of Snezhnaya, although you had seen it thousands of times, acting as if it was something new. 

“You said that the last two times.” You said, cheerfully laughing to yourself when you heard him growl lowly. He didn’t pay any mind to your retort but began showing more signs that he was aggravated.

He hissed, “There’s not much to admire, you can barely see.” Yes, he was right, he’d caught onto your antics very fast, but that didn’t matter.

“As I said, if you keep slowing me down, I’ll continue without you.” Your eyes rolled. Would he?

“Leaving a member of the Harbinger behind wouldn’t be very honorary, but if I must, I will.”

A pout took shape on your lips. “Please, you wouldn’t leave your lovely girlfriend out here to freeze would you?”

“You have pyro abilities, you would fair just fine.”

“Hmm... I suppose so, but I’d get lonely.” 

“Then be quiet and walk faster.”

1.13.21, rayofsunas

#rayofsunas #genshin #genshin impact #kaeya #kaeya x reader #diluc #diluc x reader #xiao #xiao x reader #scaramouche #scaramouche x reader #genshin imagines #genshin impact x reader

[lilly-onthevalley]

A little update on what I've been focusing on 💗

As I mentioned before I'm putting 70% of my effort into my studies at the moment and so far I'm having so much fun

It's become an addictive hobby if I'm being honest ,I've gotten a genuine thirst for knowledge and to be a master at whatever I do!

It's been a long road but I'm surely making my way back to the top ranks and it's internally fulfilling.

Here are some things I've contemplated over the time

☁️Exercise is essential☁️

Moving my body always seems to increase my brain power. After things like Yoga and pilates I'm so receptive to new information plus the added feeling of bodily bliss.

☁️The world waits for no one☁️

The world isn't going to stop for a few minutes for you to decide to do a workout. The world isn't going to stop for you to procrastinate of your work. The world isn't going to stop for you to get yourself together.

Things keep moving every second, contemplating over nothing or whether to do something you need to do or not to do it, is an utter waste of time sometimes. You are literally abusing yourself by being your own blockage to an array of possibilities.

Don't be the one at 50, crying, wishing you would've worked out more or could've studied harder in your youth.

☁️Journalling☁️

One of the best additions to my life, it helps me keep track of everything and document and organise my thoughts.

I highly recommend starting, because sometimes your brain over complicates things and the best solution would be to write it down and solve it logically on paper.

☁️Avoid the unhappy and unorganized☁️

It might sound a bit mean and by all means help these people if you can but be very careful, don't be dragged into their habits. Don't be dragged into their mindsets. Be wary as misery loves company. It's like an infection of sorts which recruits those who want to help at certain times.

Keep your standards when around people who sadly suffer with issues like these.

☁️Preparation is your best friend☁️

In academics, one of the best things you can always do is study the whole book you are given briefly. Knowing what's ahead is extremely helpful and is a big advantage in many situations.

☁️Don't be afraid to say the old version of you died☁️

You are like water, forever changing and I see some people holding onto their false identities and becoming like a rock in a flowing river.

I believe it's healthy to shed your skin once in a while.

I have changed so much, during the years and I have come to terms with throwing away my old template and creating a new one to suit my present self.

☁️Develope hobbies☁️

Not for other people but just for you in general, I wear my skills and knowledge like accolades on my body.

Being a multi faceted being adds so much more zest to yourself and your life.

Over the years I have picked up things like :

Pottery (I make little pots in whatever style I want to store my jewellery)

Art (I'm well versed in pastels, painting, drawing, you name it!)

Music (Sadly this used to be my best skill but I lost a lot of experience during the years, I used to be able to play 5-8 instruments and it would always be a fun surprise at events, I always used to go play piano at my aunt's house with her daughter who was an expert at it)

Literature ( One of my favourites. Reading, learning, analysing and immersing yourself into the hand written creation of another. You learn so much from viewing things from the lense of another)

Those are just a few that you can easily start with!

☁️Pick up a community sport☁️

Lots of networking happens at sports events and being part of them would be very beneficial to you.

Save up for high quality equipment and try a sport.

Horse riding and Tennis are my favourite!

I love my horse and the sport in general is full of wonderful competitive people.

Tennis is so fierce but beautiful as well.

Tennis is a game of love and many great friendships can be formed on a court.

Get yourself a good quality and firm gripped racket and give it a try.

☁️Get in touch with your spiritual side (if you're into that stuff)☁️

I feel the most grounded and balanced when I practice my spirituality.

It's a little addition that makes life so much brighter for me.

#self care #leveled up mindset #leveling up #levelup #hypergamy #luxury #sugar heaux #black femininity #moodboard #black women #level up #levelling up #spoiled black girl #spoiled heaux #high class heaux #high maintenance #self improvement #self impowerment #self love

[andreafmn]

Collision - Chapter 4

Word Count: 3,821

Characters: Female Reader Uley Character, Sam Uley, Allison Uley, Charlie Swan, Bella Swan, Seth Clearwater, Billy Black, Jacob Black, Emily Young, Paul Lahote, Harry and Sue Clearwater, Leah Clearwater

Story Description: (Y/N) Uley is back home after being away for four years. Her life at its first standstill and she is taking this time to find out who she is without school. But she never thought that coming back to the reservation would turn her whole life around. In the midst of secrets and mystery, a man crashes into (Y/N)’s and her life will never be the same.

*DISCLAIMER* I do not own in any way Twilight, all credits of the pre-established characters, script, and storyline belong to Stephanie Meyer and Summit Entertainment. The only thing I own is Uley Reader insert, any upcoming characters, and her storyline, as well as her effects in the others’ story line.

Chapter: 4/?

A/N: Don’t know if I ever mentioned it, but the story takes place before New Moon but after Twilight. It starts at the end of May after the dance, so it’d be the summer before Bella’s birthday in September. If you enjoy my writing I’ll also be posting them in AO3 and Wattpad along with other stories (I also hope to start taking requests if ya’ll want) Hope you enjoy and all constructive criticism is encouraged.

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Chapter 4

The next time she awoke she was back in sight of the blinding hospital lights. Her head was heavily pounding and the clothes on her body felt alien to her. Her eyes struggled to adjust to the white lights of the sanitized room, but they were suddenly off.

“Back again, Miss Uley?” She recognized the voice, Dr. Cullen. “I’ve already turned the lights off so don’t worry about that.”

Her eyes finally opened to reveal the smooth pale face of the doctor. A wave of calmness rushed over her as soon as her eyes connected with his golden ones.

“What can I say?” She chuckled. “I just couldn’t stay away.”

“Well, it seems you’ve been having a recurring headache, insomnia, memory lapses, and a lack of appetite. It looks like post-concussive syndrome. Your mom told us you were feeling like this for a few days, why didn’t you come back?” Carlisle questioned. He was trying his best to look like he was breathing but if he took even a single breath all his years of self-control would be over in an instant.

“I thought if I could just make it to at least seven days it could clear me from coming back to the hospital, at least as a patient.”

“What do you mean?” This comment had perked the interest of the man. Thoughts raced through his head faster than he could analyze them.

“I was thinking of applying for a medical assistant job here in the hospital. I recently got my degree in biology, and I’ve been thinking of going to medical school after.”

“That sounds like a plan, but let’s work on getting you better first.” It did sound like a good plan to Carlisle. He wanted to be as close as possible to her every single day, but it also meant he would have to work triple as hard to control his thirst. “We’d like to keep you for the next few days and make sure you’re in good health before you can go back to business as usual.”

“How long would a few days be?”

“About four to five days, just to make sure that the symptoms don’t worsen, and we can give you an all-clear.” It would also give him a few days to grow accustomed to her smell. “We can work over that application for medical assistant, make sure it’s something you want to do.”

“Yeah, that’d be great.” She smiled at the man in front of her, her heart fluttering with every breath she took. “Thank you, Dr. Cullen.”

“Please, call me Carlisle,” he smiled. “Now, why don’t you continue resting, and whatever you need just call. My office is right down the hall, I’ll be here in no time.”

The girl stared at the retreating form of his body and covered the heat that was rising to her face with her pillow. The butterflies in her stomach had made her uneasy and had her hands shaking. She didn’t understand why she was feeling this way. It had only been a week since her first encounter with the doctor, but those few seconds were enough to have her drooling over the man like a lovesick schoolgirl.

A few days had come and gone quickly. (Y/N) had grown attached to Carlisle, seeing and talking to him every day had felt like a dream. In his free time, she would go over to his office and pick a book to read, which they talked about the next day. They spent hours talking about nothing and everything.

It had been a long time since Carlisle had felt this way, centuries. Being around her had gotten easier each day that passed. Her smell becoming comforting instead of a trigger to the endless hunger for human blood – he’d never had a simple drop of it, but nothing could explain how much he wanted to have hers. Getting to know her had been a welcomed activity by the young doctor. He could spend days upon days listening to the sweet sound of her voice, admiring her curious-filled face when she started a new book – which she read swiftly, taking only a couple of hours to finish most of them.

“Can’t believe you have so many first editions, and you leave them at work.” She ran her hand across the spine of Dostoyevsky’s Crime and Punishment. “I would keep them in a well-preserved chamber, and no one would be able to even breathe on them.”

Carlisle smiled as the girl gawked once again at his book collection. It wasn’t hard to acquire first edition novels when you were alive when they were published. “If you’re impressed by this collection, you’d be completely astonished by the one I have back home.”

“You have more?!” He nodded. The girl shined like a kid on Christmas, her eyes gleaming at the thought of a big library. “Oh, that sounds like a dream.”

“You’re more than welcome to come over any time. It’s always refreshing to meet a literature aficionado such as myself.”

“Really? That’d be amazing!” She grinned brightly. “I could spend all day reading, forget about work.”

The duo laughed. “Too late to withdraw the application but you’re always welcome to pass your downtime in my office.”

“Sounds like a plan,’’ she smiled. “Now, doctor, what will you ever do now that I’m not going to be here every day?”

“Oh, how will I ever go on?” He chuckled. “But if you ever need help during that time, just come by. My office is always open. And hopefully, you’ll visit from time to time on personal time.”

“I’m sure it’s something that can be arranged.”

If there was still blood rushing through his veins, the capillaries in his face would have widened. He felt like he now understood Edward; how being with her made him feel human again. And there was nothing more that he wanted than to take their friendship to another level, but he wasn’t sure if she would ever feel the same. Carlisle knew that she was unaware of the supernatural since (Y/N) had allowed him to be in her life. But what would happen once she knew everything? How could he ever come between her and her family?

“Miss Uley, your mother is here,” a nurse spoke up, peeking her head through the office door. “Discharge papers have already been filed.”

“Thank you, Nurse Dalen. She’ll be out in a moment.” Carlisle smiled.

“Well, the time has come.” (Y/N) took her phone out of her back pocket and handed it to the doctor. He looked at her with a question-ridden gaze. “I’m gonna need your phone number so we can arrange any future endeavors.”

“Right,” he laughed, typing his number into her directory. “I’ll be waiting for that call.”

“I’ll be making it soon enough,” she grinned. “I’m gonna go now. I’ll see you around, Cullen.”

“I’ll see you, Uley.”

She left the office with a huge smile on her face, holding her phone close to her chest. For the first time, she was experiencing something she had heard of most of her teenage years. Once she had met Carlisle all she wanted to do was get to know him better, spend her time with him, just being near him would suffice. It was the first time she was learning what falling for someone was, and even though it was scary, she was jumping in headfirst.

“Hi, honey. Ready to go home?” Allison hugged her daughter for the first time in five days. (Y/N) nodded, truly ready to finally sleep on her own bed.

“So, how are you liking Dr. Cullen?”

“MOM!” Allison laughed at her daughter’s reaction. It was easy to see that (Y/N) had taken a liking to Carlisle Cullen, and vice versa.

“What, darling? If it looks like a duck and quacks like a duck.”

“It’s not like that, mom.”

“But you’d like it to be like that.”

“I’m not talking about that with my mother.” (Y/N) placed her cold hands on her cheeks, trying to cool down the warm blood that had rushed onto her cheeks. The cool air of the car’s A/C was only helping her so much.

“I just want you to be careful with that, honey. He’s older than you, technically has kids, and rumor has it he is married.”

A breath hitched in her throat. Married? She knew he had adopted five kids, most of them her age, but not that he was married. Had she read the situation wrong? He didn’t wear a ring, he didn’t mention any relationship, he had no pictures of a woman in his office. Then again, they had only spent five days together at the hospital. She didn’t know what he did when he went home at night, who he went home to at night. (Y/N) shouldn’t feel betrayed—they weren’t anything, and they weren’t on track to become anything.

“Don’t worry, mom. I’ve just been picking his brain about working in the hospital, and he’s been helping me with what I’m gonna be doing this summer.”

“Oh, have you decided what you want to do?”

“I’m gonna get my medical assistant certification. It’s a three-month course then I can work at the hospital.”

“That’s great, honey.” Allison smiled at her daughter from the driver’s side. “Is that where you’d see yourself making a career?”

“Not sure. I want to take this time to see if life in a hospital is truly where I’d like to work – see if medical school would be it for me.”

(Y/N) hadn’t taken the time to focus on her future. In her high school career, she spent her time focusing on the present and piling on as much as she could, and now she had no sense of direction. She would take every day as it came, hoping one day she would find her purpose.

Finally, back home, she hopped off the truck and stretched out her limbs, stiff from the days on a hospital bed. Taking a deep breath of fresh air and basking in the afternoon sun. The cold that had seeped into her bones from the hospital melted off, and she smiled feeling the warmth surround her.

“Why don’t you go upstairs, honey?” Allison told her daughter. “There’s a surprise waiting for you in your room.”

(Y/N) smiled and quickly made her way up the stairs to see what her mom meant. Opening the door, tears forming in her eyes. Her room had done a 180-degree turn. The walls had been painted a light beige color, and plants hung from the walls bringing warmth to the room. The bed was adorned with a white cover, and a fluffy duvet to keep her warm at night. A wooden frame sat atop the bed dressed in white linen and ivy vines. A bookcase lived in the corner of her room, filled to the brim with her collection of hardbacks and peppered with potted plants. Opposite the bed was a small desk with a dark green suede chair, her laptop set up in the workspace. Her room finally felt like hers.

“Do you like it, honey?”

“Mom, did you do this?”

“I wish I could take credit, but your brother and your friend Paul came over when I was at work and redecorated. I was actually surprised that they even came over.”

“I’ll have to thank them,” (Y/N) grinned. Even though their relationship was strained at the moment, and she had yet to see Paul since coming back, she was glad that they had taken time out of their days to do this for her. “I’ll go over to Sam’s house for a bit, maybe now he’ll have time to see me.”

“Why don’t you go tomorrow, honey? You should take it easy.”

“I feel a lot better, mom. You don’t have to worry too much.”

“I’m your mother, I’ll always worry. If you’re gonna go out, go see Jacob. He was really worried about you.”

“I will.”

(Y/N) kissed her mother’s cheek and grabbed her bag to head out. Her first stop was to the Black residence. Jacob saw her coming down the street and ran out to wrap her in a hug. When she collapsed last week, he had been very concerned when she collapsed in his garage. Jacob was glad that she had made a full recovery and was now back home, with minimum side effects showing. The visit was short, only a quick hello to ensure the boy that she was okay.

After spending some time with Jacob, she walked towards Sam’s house – she hoped to catch Paul there too since she had heard he now spent his time there alongside Jared Cameron. It hadn’t clicked in her head why Paul would ever hang out with her brother and Jared. Even when they were back in middle school, he never paid them any mind, having a separate friend group. She had only become his friend by spending time with him away from school, and her brother had always disliked them together, claiming he was a bad influence.

Outside of the small house, (Y/N) could hear the low chatter of manly voices, a higher-pitched one joining after. There was no mistaking that Sam was home. She started feeling nervous as she raised her hand to knock on the door. The shaky limb was able to make contact with the blue door twice before it opened wide open, revealing a shirtless Paul Lahote.

“(Y/N)?” He questioned. Paul knew she was back, but Sam had given him clear instructions to stay away from her due to their situation.

“Hey, Paul. Long time no see, huh?” The girl smiled at her friend that now towered over her. A few years ago, they were still of the same stature, but too much time had passed since then. She went in for a hug, and Paul cut it short – worried she might note his burning temperature. “Is Sam home?”

“Uh, yeah.” He scratched the back of his neck, turning towards the kitchen. “Sam! (Y/N)’s here.”

The older male appeared in front of them, a soft smile playing on his lips. “Hey, (Y/N). Good to see you’re doing better. What brings you around?”

“I just wanted to thank you both for what you did in my room. Mom told me you worked on it while we were away. It’s a dream.” Sam smiled at his younger sister and shared a hug with the smaller girl.

“I’m glad you liked it, (Y/N). We wanted to give you a place where you could rest better after the accident. It’s the least we could do.” The alpha could hear the duo that was left in the kitchen had grown curious about who was at the door. “Do you want to come in for a bit?”

“Are you really inviting me in?” (Y/N) was taken aback – the last thing she thought was that she would get that invitation.

“Yeah, there’s someone I want you to meet,” Sam responded, keeping his doubts of the encounter to himself.

(Y/N) walked through the threshold and instantly felt the warm aura that emanated from inside of the house. It was a welcoming environment that she had grown to love from her own mother’s house. She walked behind Sam, Paul following behind them. `There was nothing that could prepare her to the sight she was met with.

In front of her stood a beautiful woman. She had tan skin, long black hair, and a beautiful smile. But there was something that stood out to her, something she was sure stood out to everyone – three long gashes ran through the front of her face. Yet, they didn’t distract from the alluring atmosphere that surrounded her. Sam moved to her side, and (Y/N) quickly connected the dots and figured that was Emily Young. The Uley girl wanted to be indifferent to her presence, knowing how one of her friends had been hurt by the union in front of her, she couldn’t help but note the love that radiated from the pair. It had been a long time since she had seen her brother as happy as he looked as he stared at his fiancé.

“(Y/N), it’s an honor to finally meet you.” Emily stretched out her hand towards the girl, which (Y/N) gladly took. “Sam has told me so much about you.”

“I wish I could say the same,” (Y/N) joked. “Hopefully, we’ll have a chance to get to know each other more. I’d love to get to know the woman my brother is set to marry.”

“I’m sure we’ll have enough time now that you’re back.” Emily smiled and grabbed a basket filled with muffins, offering them to the girl. (Y/N) gladly took the baked good in her hand, picking at it and placing the piece in her mouth – a wonderful taste that quickly melted in her mouth. “You’re welcome over any time. Any family of Sam is family to me.”

“Thank you, Emily. I’ll be sure to take you up on that.”

Not much time passed before Sam had cut the meeting short, claiming there was something important the duo had to do. “We should do this another time, (Y/N). Paul and I have to go.”

“Go where?” (Y/N) questioned. “It’s already night, not much to do.”

“I can’t really tell you, sis. But it’s important.”

“So still guarding secrets?” Sam shrugged. “It’s fine, Sam. I’m growing used to it.”

“(Y/N)…”

“I can take a hint, Sam. I know when I’m not wanted,” (Y/N) smiled. “Thank you for the muffins, Emily. They were divine. I’ll be sure to take you up on that offer and visit sometime soon.”

“Of course, (Y/N). I’m sorry we had to cut this short.”

“It’s okay. I’ll see you guys.” (Y/N) took her bag and exited the house. She was confused on why Sam had welcomed her in only to have her leave soon after – there was something big he was hiding, and she needed to find out what it was.

“(Y/N), wait up!” Paul jogged up to her, turning her around. “Look, I hope you understand that we’re not trying to push you away on purpose. There are things that Sam is protecting you from.”

“Like what, Paul? What danger could possibly be surrounding us that he would stray from his family?”

“I’m sorry, but it’s not my place to tell you, (Y/N). As much as I hate keeping this from you, Sam would not allow it to come from anyone but himself.”

“Are you serious? What kind of power does he have over you?”

“PAUL!” Sam shouted, gaining the attention of his beta. “Let’s go.”

“I’m sorry, (Y/N). I hope one day you’ll forgive us.” Paul kissed her forehead and went to meet up with his alpha.

(Y/N) stood still as she watched their bodies disappear into the woods. She debated whether to follow them for a brief second, but she was exhausted. She left back home with a million questions running through her head. The pair of Sam and Paul was a strange view, and she was determined to get to the bottom of things.

When she got home, (Y/N) noticed her mother asleep on the couch, the tv in front of her still playing. The years that passed were clear on her face, the worry that she carried for both her children plastered in the lines of her face. She could see the exhaustion that she held, years of caring for two kids by herself taking a toll on her. (Y/N) grabbed a blanket and laid it on top of her mother’s body, making sure that she was warm during the night. She left a kiss on her cheek, thankful for everything her mother had sacrificed for her.

After showering the day off, (Y/N) changed into her pajamas and laid in bed staring at her phone’s screen. She thought if she stared at it long enough a message would magically pop up. Minutes passed and her phone kept silent, not a single notification appearing on the screen. She scrolled through her directory until it landed on the newest listing. Carlisle Cullen, it read. Her finger clicked on it and selected new message.

Her fingers danced atop the keyboard of her phone, no words coming to her mind to send to the doctor. Should she even send him a message? What if he truly was married? She would never want to come between a couple. But her fingers did not follow her thought train. Unconsciously, they started typing away a message and before she could analyze her actions, she sent the message.

Hi, Carlisle. It’s (Y/N). I made it home okay and don’t have any symptoms, seems like you fixed me up! Anyways, wanted to know if you possibly had some free time this weekend to join me for some dinner at La Bella Italia. Hope you had a good rest of the day at work!

Her jaw fell when her screen read message sent. There was no way to delete it now. It was out there, and it would make its way to his phone. (Y/N)’s head fell onto her pillow and muffled a scream that escaped from her throat. This feeling was alien to her, and she was learning what steps to take to grow closer to the astonishing man. Minutes felt like an eternity to (Y/N), thinking that she had imploded the friendship she had built with the man over the past week.

Beep.

The sound from her phone caught her attention. She scrambled for her phone and quietly shrieked at the words on her screen.

Hello, (Y/N). I’m glad you’re feeling better, hopefully, no symptoms will arise once more. And I did have a good day at work, although I missed our afternoon book chats. I have a free day on Sunday. Tell me a time and I can meet you in Port Angeles. Hope that day is good for you.

“He said yes. If he were actually married, he wouldn’t have said yes,” she thought.

So, she typed back.

I’m glad you had a good day, and the book chats have an easy fix. I’m just a phone call away. As for Sunday, it’s a perfect day. I think around 5:30 would be a good time for dinner. Let me know if it works.

Sent.

Seconds later, another beep.

I’ll make sure to schedule those calls then. 5:30 sounds perfect. I’ll see you there. Have a good night, (Y/N).

See you then, Carlisle. Good night. 😊

(Y/N) smiled at her phone, joy wanting to burst from her body. She was reveling in this new feeling and the happiness it brought her. If it was Carlisle, it was worth it, she believed.

That night she went to sleep with the biggest smile she had experienced in her life. Unbeknownst to the life-changing moments that were to follow this meeting.

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