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binary-not-found · 1 year

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I see why the anon think this may be an episode filler (is not) or the story was kinda sudden (maybe)

Things like that happens often on TVShow, cast often have other projects or they get sick/injured or pregnant or whatnot, and the writers have to find a way to incorporate a storyline that will adapt to their needs and justify the absence of an actor/actress.

Said that, even if NCIS writers aren’t perfect and consistent all the time, I kind of like how they are progressing Kacy storyline and relationships.

When I broke up with my ex I moved to another continent lol, by myself, no job, no friends, no house, nothing…It is something that I wanted to do by myself for myself (I was in a pretty toxic relationship where I gave up a lot of things in my life to please my gf and I realized only very late what was happening to me)

So I get why Lucy did what she did, when you are in a fragile emotional state, and the world is crumbling and the love of your life broke your heart,sometimes the things that can help you or make you stronger is to do something that scares the shit outta you so you can focus all the energy the pain into something new, scary, I did it, it’s frustrating and tiring but it’s fucking awesome, so I’m happy Lucy decided to do it anyway.

Also Kate was super super supportive even if you can tell she was sad, but great partners support you no matter what.

On another note I’m kinda curious to see this new dynamic with Kate and the others, so far we saw her as someone casually collaborating and interacting with them often because of Lucy, so to see the future interactions with the team without Lucy, I think is gonna give Kate some more layers to her character and a new challenge for her.

Also 4 months is nothing, especially with today technology, as I mentioned I live in another continent from my family/friends and I haven’t been back since the beginning of the pandemic, 4 months is nothing….

Im happy to see the growth Kate and Lucy can do during challenging circumstances, I love to see their relationships but they are more than that, hopefully the writers use this situation to show us more, we know Kate is Work and Lucy and I want to see Kate the friend, I think she has a weird humor and I’d love for the gang to see the more funny silly side of her, also not gonna lie, give me all Jane and Kate lol

Lucy needed this, even if things are Going well with Kate, I think in a way she never really had time to reconnect with herself after this waterfall of feelings, like she said; are they, aren’t they, maybe, than yes, no than really yes, and boom moved in together, sometimes even if things are going apparently well, it’s good to stop, breath, think, listen to yourself and find yourself away from everyone else. I don’t think she really had time to stop during these emotional roller coaster she had in the last year, she never really had a chance to analyze and understand what was going on in her brain and heart, so this may be super good for Lucy.

Also, who doesn’t love a good old reunion between lovers?

I’m in for it and I’m excited on what is gonna happen next.

oh god, anon, you are a breath of fresh air!

A lot of times as fans of the relationship we feel like any episode that doesn't focus on them being a couple is filler, but this one definitely wasn't, I agree that it was sudden, but at the same time that's what makes it feel more real.

I don't know what to tell you just that I agree with you, it's not something that is "out of character" for Lucy or Kate, it's something that maybe was needed now, and they were definitely going to be forced to be apart for work reasons at some point, and personally I liked that they adapted Lucy's absence in this way, because it's giving them the opportunity to prove that they can against everything when it's still early in the relationship, this will make them grow more as people, professionally and within the relationship.

And about Kate with the team, I've been begging for 29 episodes to let Kai and Kate be friends! I need that typical rom-com best friend chaotic dynamic!

I don't know what else to tell you, just that I love your opinion and I appreciate you sharing it ✨

#anon ask #me answer #bnf speaking #kacy #ncis hawaii #ncishawaii #lucy tara #kate whistler

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robotvampire · 11 months

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ahh I just finished the first chapter :( I love it!! So many option tho, you had to go crazy with so much coding xD

I love Sameer with all my soul, but I don't really know if I can trust him completely, imagine if his master plan (and a very simple one /sarcasm) failed and he founds out he can't do it, and the only way is going along with the prophecy... I mean, it would be a downfall if you are making me love you and trust you for something even himself dont really, really know if it could work...

SPOILEEEEER

And what frustrate me more is that my friends apparently prefer to risk Mc live and go with him, even without knowing him than thinking about the other possibilities

Im curious, so in my mind I choose the option of "No." when Izzy and Jess asked about if Mc would kill Sameer. But I wanted to know all the options XD so that was what I did. I was a little surprise with the "I dont know" Cause, in my mind is the most logic one to do. I mean, I kinda understand that, if mc kills Sameer, the apocalypse it may or may not be near, and that is not a good thing... at least not for humanity xDD, but its not totally fair for Izzy say things as "[…] but at least he knows what he wants" its like, of course he knows what he know he had like +20 years to think about it??? and what is more, we dont really know if he knows something that MC not... there is so many variables to considerer :(... can you really trust someone you met for the first time two days ago? and one of them was not even present?

so right now im kinda tempt to put the worst answer or the idk answer just to mess with them like «fuuuk u friends who think of me as a possible murder but it does not cross their minds to believe that the other person, who you DONT know, could try to kill me» (Its more sad for me cause Jesse is probably my fav character rn, lol, like he is maybe in the same place as Sameer, I think he is such a cute and sweet boy and I want to protect him lol), so, there will be any punishment in the future if you choose the options that lower the friendship score with your friends?

Can we pleeeeease in the future have an interaction with them like: "oh, wow look at this, I didn't kill him, what a surprise" in a sarcastic, sassy way? extra point if we add something like "the only time things got hot was in bed", for romance lol

I love this story and the way you write it, so thanks for your work! and sorry for my mumbling XD

Hello! I'm glad you enjoyed the demo!! ☺️ The coding is a bit tedious at times, but there are a lot of stories I want to tell within the story, so it's been worth it! (Not saying I won't want to kick myself in the future, though, lol.)

I can't really comment on your mistrust of Sameer too much without getting into ~spoilers~, but he does have a fairly good reason for believing his plan will work. If he knew of another solution (that didn't involve dragging MC into it), he would absolutely have gone that route.

As far as Izzy and Jesse go, from their perspective, what MC is telling them has to be the truth. It's too outrageous not to be, right? And presumably if Sameer wanted to hurt/kill MC, he would've done it already.

For any of the non-no responses about whether you could kill Sameer, Izzy and Jesse respond negatively because they're thinking about it from their own perspective - that they, and everyone they love (with the exception of MC), would die. They can't fathom that MC could really look them in the eye and say anything other than "no". It certainly can be argued that they're placing too much responsibility on MC's shoulders too quickly, but keep in mind that they've had this information even less time than MC has. I think if they'd waited to ask that question at a later point, they would have been able to respond better. (Though depending on the MC, they may realize that they would NEVER do that and not ask at all.)

There won't be any punishment, per se, at this point if you lower your friendship score with Izzy/Jesse. It may change some of the dialogue, but there's still time to earn those points back. You're not going to get rid of them that easily!

"Wow look at this, I didn't kill him," does sound like something sarcastic!MC would say, so we'll see! 😂

And never apologize for mumbling! I appreciate hearing from folks!! ❤️

#asks #character: sameer misra #character: izzy maldonado #character: jesse stern

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italoniponic · 1 year

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Okay first off happy 1k cherry! You deserve it so much!! Your writing is so delectable I'm so happy you reached this big milestone! You are such a shining star and an amazing person, you're very talented and very sweet so im not that suprised that so many people like you and your work. I also hope that I'm here to see you reach more milestones like these in the future!

Number 2. I KNOW I LIKED THAT EVENT THING BUT IT DISSAPPEARED FROM MY LIKES AND I FORGOT ABOUT IT BY MISTAKE IM SO SORRY😭 (pando tysm for refreshing my memory)

may I pretty plz request your opinions on Chizuru Yoshida or Ayane Yano (from kimi no todoke) and if you dont mind I wanna also request character bingo with dear yulia's opinion on cater!

Thanks so much, Yako <3 your message was really sweet! I hope you can reach high grounds in the future too and we can both grow together, as blogs and ofc as people too. Lots of success for you too~ also don’t worry, I’m just happy with having your ask <3

I want to also communicate here that I felt like one bingo didn’t cover much my opinions, so I’ll be doing the one I mentioned in the event post alongside the unhinged bingo (just bc it’s really funny)

now, for Chizu-chan and Yano-chin~ [we get Cater later]

I want to adopt Chizuru and Yano is such a gem. It’s been a while since I last watched Kimi ni Todoke but I’m currently finishing reading the manga and, let me say, I was really (gladly) surprised since episode 1 that Chizuru and Yano would become such good friends for Sawako in all ways

Because they really start off as a bit absent minded and just like everybody, they didn’t get that Sawako was really gentle and not-scary at all, but the friendship that grows between the three of them and as the manga/anime flesh out their characters, you simply fall in love with them.

I love how Chizu is this big tall delinquent-ish (without actually being one) with a big heart and 100% air head in everything lol she’s so precious <3 as for Yano, at the same time I didn’t think much about her previously (more bc she’s a very solid character and that’s enough for me), reading the manga helped me see more of her and discover a lot of development and growth that was really interesting. Her arc is very deep but so good!

In summary, I love them! Like Hanajima and Uotani from Fruits Basket, Chizuru and Yano are another iconic best supporting friends duo for our beloved protagonists <3

hold up, it’s Cay-kun time~~

Now, Yulia is an introvert and Cater is an extrovert. That alone sums up the situation they have lol While it’s true that Yulia is not so intimate of Cater as with other Heartslabyul boys (especially Deuce, Riddle and Trey), they have a normal acquaintance relationship and Cater treats Yulia like the little sister he never had: quiet and that don’t drives him crazy~

So in general they might not be besties~ but Cater likes Yulia’s presence in Heartslabyul and will try to spoil her a little bit (more like bribing her to help him take photos and eat at cafes so someone can dispose of the cute pies and cakes that he will never eat).

Yulia does know of Cater’s backstory and his inner sadness with all the personal stories she read about him previous to her isekai’d situation, and she relates to him about having to move out from where one was previously established a lot of times bc it happened to her too in her world. ��He’s like me fr” — she cries a bit remembering it

But that’s how far and relatable Cater can be for her tho. Yulia senses really fast that Cater hides a lot of insecurities behind his facade and that his social-driven personality is very influenced by this problem too (at the same time, there’s a bit of truth in it). And yes, she will run away from having to go outside NRC in most cases bc she already dislikes interacting needlessly and going out really burns her out, so she has to be strong when Cater cries out that “it will be so fun to go shopping and see stuff!!~” and she denies. Sometimes too fast that it should be considered rude.

Cater laughs at this, believe it or not. Maybe bc it reminds him of Idia and while Yulia is a bit more outspoken if measured next to Idia, she has most of his mannerisms and dislikes. Then again, Yulia’s quiet personality is something that Cater started to appreciate, especially next to the fact that he was surrounded by energetic girls like his older sisters. Also, Yulia has a sweet tooth, so Cater can always count on her to eat his leftovers from Unbirthday Parties when he couldn’t get Trey to change the flavor.

Yulia is not particularly someone who asks to eat something a second time but she is really, 100% thankful that Cater helps her out on that. 1) bc she doesn't need to ask for more herself, 2) her stomach is a black hole when it’s about cake and chocolate.

In summary, Yulia gives a 6/10 for Cater in terms of good average relationship. No, she will not call him “Cay-kun” or “Cater-senpai” in a cute voice. All things considered, it would be easier to get her to say that than taking a picture together lol

#twisted wonderland #cater diamond #kimi ni todoke #chizuru yoshida #ayane yano #twst yulia #twst oc #bingo ask cherry & yulia #1k followers event #twst oc headcanons #cherry's mumbling about twst #cherry's mumbling about kimitodo #ask cherry~

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creelteeth · 2 years

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damn it, i'm so sad there won't be a sequel 🥺 but as a former fic writer i totally understand. we love to write, it's a hobby, but it's also really important when people like and interact with your fics, that's what motivates us.

if you ever feel like writing bfb!steve again, like the unofficial part or some blurbs, there's two parts in chaperone that really peaked my attention and i'd love to read about (along with the whole plot, smut and the relationship they hide from his sister, obv).

the fact that the main character was leaving hawkins for school but didn't tell anyone

our boy would be so upset, he was really enamored with the mc and they just had their first real night together. would she try to end everything to avoid both being hurt by a long distance relationship or maybe he would be the one ending things and leave her heartbroken. or i don't know, something else

that part where his sister mentioned he has a box full of porn magazines bookmarked AND pictures of the main character in the same box

i wonder if the pages he marked had pictures of girls that looked like her, imagine if it did and one day they went through his collection together…. and also how did steve got pictures from her? and how did his sister didn't enquired him about it (and freaked out) whenever she found out?

putting those two topics together we can go to that part where he mentions putting his old polaroid camera to work, like, omfg, steve doing a hot photoshoot of her so he could keep personal pics when she goes off to college 🛐

baby, i'm going to put myself to sleep today creating fake scenarios about bfb!steve lol

sorry for bothering you with it by the way, just know that i'll keep up with your account cause i really liked your writing 💗 i'm looking forward to read those requests you mentioned you're working on

i hateeee that it put a damper in my mood about it cause i had at least two more parts id planned to do but ! oh well , maybe it’ll come back to me at some point. tbh all writing has been a little wonky for me lately :/

but YES the school thing was gonna be a turning point cus i love me some angst n reader was gonna be faced with a huge moral dilemma. i didn’t decide what direction i was gonna take it. one of the ideas i had was farrrr more devastating than the others i think ppl would’ve been mad lol. i wasnt sure if i wanted him to find out on accident, overhear her telling his little sister and HIM break it off cause he didnt wanna hold her back from her future— orrrr for her to tell steve first before her best friend and they figure out the distance issue later. either way both of them kind of know they’re operating on borrowed time, their whole dynamic was a bit solemnly.

the pictures part , i more so imagined it to be like , pictures of her in swimsuits n stuff of that nature. stuff he could’ve ethically collected just from knowing her,hanging out with her butttt because he’s a lovesick fool and also a horny boy he finds a way to integrate the two. has some of his favorites used as bookmarks in the pages that he thinks looks like her. puts her face over the model’s faces. stuff like that. so it was weird , definitely but also not weird enough for the sister to confront him lmao. just a shoebox under his bed that has a mix of things he didn’t want laid around. condoms, pictures, keepsakes, and his unruly amount of porno mags. she saw the playboys and scrammed cus who wants to see what porn their brother is into? was probably looking for his weed stash or something.

i hope all that makes sense idk if i articulated it well that’s just some of the ideas i had with it!! but pls im so glad you liked it. i loved writing bfb!steve it’s one of my fav steve’s cus he’s just so perfectly boy next door it’s delightful. i hope you continue to like what nonsense i put out!!

<3<3<3

#casey answers #anon

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nhellybabee · 10 months

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This season of waiting that im currently in, simply means that lord god is cooking big for me and my future. I know that he's doing his works so everything will workout for me!

These past few weeks, I've been so frustrated because of the pressure and all. But lord just made me realize what is really happening. Lord wants me to be patient, he want me to wait for something big. In this season of waiting, i also realized what are things that is truly important to me. Lord really humbled me with his love. Grabe ka lord. Ikaw lang ang kinakapitan ko lord. Maraminh salamat po! Kagabi grabe yung kaba ko, that's the first time na ginawa ko yon and lord hindi mo ako pinabayaan! Grabe ka! Grabe yung takot ko, pero nanaig paden yung katapangan na binigay mo saaken. Grabe ka lord. Kagabi, nag dodouble isip pa ako eh kung mag sastop over ako sa cakeshop to bought the cake. Grabe yung kaba ko pero nung malapit na ko doon sa loc, bigla na lang akong nag act to do it. I did it scared, grabeeee. Mej lutang ako sa kaba ng nandon ako pero di ako pinabayaan ni lord!!! Grabee ka lord.

You know sa isang araw andami kong realization. Nung andon na ako kina maryjoy, i saw ivy, faye and rachelle and everything feels so good. Then dumating yung highschool classmates namin. The Takla, though hindi complete andon sila. The situation last night just proved to me that they're not really my friends. Im not bitter ha. It just that i can really feel the barrier between us, im so proud of myself kase i am now self aware of my reactions, even though im being myself, the maingay im observing whats happening. Hindi ko alam kung nagbago sila or ako yung nagbago, hahahha well technically ako yung nagbago. Nung nandon ako sa situation na yon nasabi ko nalamg sa isip ko, aww isee wala nga. Disappointed myeah but im actually not surprised. Buti nalang hindi ako tulad ng dati na parang im so into them. I just didn't care. Andayn sila? Okay, hindi naman sila yung pinunta ko. The only mistake that i did last night was telling the couple na nakita ko sila, well i thought sila yung nakita ko. I was just starting the conversation and sa una palang i really feel there's something off. Well i care but not anymore. As for the two guys, sa curly one ako biggest na nadisappoint, di ko talaga naisip na ganon yung reaction or ganon sya kase, nagkaroon naman kami ng interaction like, pag nakikita nya ako tinatawag nya ko and super natutuwa ako don. Pero last night? Grabe di nya ko matingnan ng deretso sa mata like di mo ba ako kilala? We've been friends oyy hahahahahaha kinda sad, kase sinasabi ko pa naman sa sarili ko na isa sya sa pinakaclose ko don sa group tapos turns out that delulu lang pala ako. So don kay kitchen i will not expect anymore. Di ako ang magaadjust for you guys. Hindi ko na ipagsisiksikan yung sarili ko sa sainyo. Pero grabe lang talaga si curly like arghhh. And i just realized din na. Hindi din pala ako nag reach----- sasabihin ko sana di nag reach out ng maayos pero i did. I yayah them to seat. And i also told them na kumuha na ng food pero halos di nila ako pinansin. Hindi ko nama sya siniseryo pero i did my part. Pero siguro may part lang saken na kahit papano is kakamustahin din nila ako, kase of all us ako yung hindi nakakasama and after how many years saka ko lang ulit sila nakita. Pero wala, ni kamusta wala, ni hi nhelly wala. Well maliban kay shaii pero sa iba like okay. Sa susunod alam ko na, i should not expect anything from them. Lol kung may next time pa hahahahahaha. Anyways kung may next time man, hindi naman sila yung dahilan kung baket ko sila makikita. Like casual paden ako.

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asuuul · 1 year

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The World is My Oyster

Episode 01

From the very start I heard about Le Sserafim, I wanted to stan them right away. I wanted to be a fan of a girl group that was just starting.

Kazuha was my first bias because I liked that she was a ballet dancer. Everyonelse is amazing. Garam still has my heart and watching the documentary slowly breaks it. I can’t believe I won’t be seeing her in it and that I won’t learn about her thoughts.

Hearing them talk about how much they want to work hard and be better is so inspiring. I need to watch more of these.

WHO IS HARUKA?? ohmygod i hope she debuts someday.

Kazuha really had to do a lot to be in that debut in such a short time.

Them meeting Kazuha and cutting out Garam. Im crying

KAZUHA CRYING NO OMG HUHUHUH

The fact that she only joined last 3 days ago, she cried and every member was so nice to her. This is why in the present you can see and feel how close they are. I always wonder how the other members treat Garam if she’s still in the group. They have always been the loudest.

I finished episode 01 and I’ll continue this tomorrow.

Episode 02

Watching it while eating my breakfast. I should not be doing it because it’s making me think that its fun to it when it really isnt. lmao

Because of society telling Sakura that she’s a bad singer, she wants less line. This made me think of other artists with less line. Maybe its actually their choice and not because it was bias.

Since Le Sserafim are full of introverts, I feel like that’s why they gotten so close that fast. Introverts look for the closest friend they can have and they share their thoughts to them. Introverts become vulnerable and that’s when they know they can trust the other person. They all have shared hardships before they debut, they find comfort within each other. That’s why when they’re all together they become loud, they’re comfortable with one another. I’m comparing it to the show where introverts are all in the same house but since they don’t really know each other it seems awkward and quiet.

Jesus, the fact the they already saw one another cry. I feel so bad but I get it. Now, they can talk about crying while practising and they’re all comfortable with it. They can laugh about it but deep inside they udnerstand one another.

Episode 03

Love how supportive they are with each other. My eyes are still looking for a glance of any garam sigh. Just found a clip where they erased her upper body but you can still see her legs blurred. me so sad.

The part where sakura cried and they’re talking about the meal plan? I’m kinda confused. Were they against it or hoping they can be better with it .

I need more of Yunjin’s songs and writing. I wish in the future they can write on the album

Episode 04

I finished it a while ago while eating jollibee (omad). I’m glad chaewon becomes the leader and how they are still treated fairly. Their group has so much to offer and I’ll be obssessing with them. I still wish to see garam and watching the behind the scenes of their debut and not seeing her hurts. I just wish to see more of their interactions with garam cause i know damn well they all get along.

Their harships are greatly appreciated. I love you Le sserafim. I’ll be with you until tall are grandmass

#series #just watched

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love-ice · 2 years

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no. 10 tuesday july 12, 2022

i think ive been doing better. i started working, i started waking up early, changing my clothes daily, brushing my teeth every morning, sleeping at a reasonable time. it seems like such a simple task yet it took such a long time to get here. i miss the days where i just laid around and didn’t do shit for days but i like that i feel productive everyday. college was harsh im not gonna lie. i failed my first class ever, my parents weren’t too mad about it surprisingly. i had no focus in class at all but i think working has helped me gain the focus i needed. i stopped smoking as much, i definitely still smoke a lot but for sure less than a couple months back. honestly i really miss school. i miss seeing people my age, seeing people interact, i miss making friends, even though i didnt make many of them. i tend to keep to myself and the people who know me best. i don’t know how to reach out to people and make the most of my life yet here i am. making the most out of life even if i dont want to. maybe weed fucked up my mind a little bit but who cares we only have so much time left to live.

time has always felt slow to me. yet once that time passes it seems like it went by so fast. we waste so much time just to die. we live just to die and i dont know if i want to even do that first part. everything i have ever done or do seems so useless in the world we live in today. people are dying because of gun violence yet here i am living. people protest the government on a daily basis due to fucked up laws yet here i fucking am. leaning into corporate america. feeding capitalism. i thought that one day, if im still alive, i would make a change. yet it feels like my time is almost up and i havent accomplished shit. i leech of my parents and i continue to be this person i hate. although some times i feel good about myself it isnt often.

im almost 20 now. in a couple more months im going to be at the age i said i would die at. for some reason i always said im only going to live til my 20s. maybe its true. maybe it isnt. all i know is that i have such a hard time looking into my future. you can ask me “where do you see yourself 10 years from now?” and honestly i dont have a response. because i dont see myself. i see sad people walking over my grave. i dont want them to be sad but i cant make evereyone happy can i. i tried my best but its never going to be enough. i try and i try yet happiness doesn’t last long does it?

its like im walking down the path of life right. i continue and i walk farther and farther. the further i get the slower i become and the harder it is to continue. its like im walking through mud but the mud isnt there. i know im the only one holding myself back and pulling myself back. i fight back but sometimes she stronger. honestly shes stronger than i could ever be. after i graduated high school it was like i became a child again. i needed my parents to guide me yet they didnt do shit before why did i need them now? i couldve moved out of state. i couldve became my own person yet here i am. back at square one. at least thats how it feels. you know i never want kids and i continuously tell people that i dont want them because ive at a life time of children around me already i tell them i will take care of your kids but honestly its because i dont see myself living long enough to have a kid. my friends have even said they dont see me with a kid and i dont know how that makes me feel. is it supposed to mean something when they say that? or is it just a genuine reaction to it all? either way i dont want kids i dont want to burden children with the same brain i have. i definitely picked up the substance abuse stuff from my dad. i got my emotional state from my mom. my brother got the narcism from mom thats for sure. i just really want to be happy one day. not just for a day but i want to stop feeling the way i do now. maybe these thoughts will fade away one day. maybe i just push them too the back. who knows what i will do next. i just want to feel free.

love,

ice

#my diary

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roonilwazlibimagines · 2 years

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arranged - r.b x reader

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Blurb: arranged marriages always end up with someone hurt the request was for regulus cheating on reader and so i did it an unconventional way pt 2 Word Count: 3.8k Warnings: cheating, regulus is a bit mean towards the end, bit of muggle born hate :/, but of self-doubt and feeling sad A/N: i think ive been editing this for the last month and im still not really happy with it but i dont see it getting better so ive kinda given up. also the reader is implied to be female, but there is no explicit reference to them being female (unless ive completely missed it, it is late and i am tired so if i have missed it please let me know!) also the ‘tense’ of this piece? couldn’t tell you. also i wrote like five different endings for this and i still dont like it im sorry :///

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Arranged marriages were a common thing in the old and noble wizarding families. They’re still quite common now, but after the defeat of Voldemort there was a surge of wizards from these families who were brave enough to be with half bloods and muggle borns and go against their families wishes. It was a good thing, really, arranged marriages were completely outdated and I would never wish the pain it brought upon me to anyone else.

Just before my sixth year my parents told me that I was arranged to marry Regulus Black. His family had had issues with his older brother so it was imperative that he was to marry someone from a noble family as soon as we finished Hogwarts.

We were in the same friend group but I could count the amount of conversations we had had on one hand. Regulus was known for being mysterious and hard to talk to, but he was nice to look at and there were definitely worse people I could have been arranged to marry. It seemed that he had been told the same information because when I boarded the train the next week he had given me a small toothless smile that was more like a grimace but certainly something I had never seen him do before.

Whether it was coincidence or we both were suddenly intrigued by the other, we had ended up sitting next to each other in the Great Hall making polite small talk about our holidays. Neither one of us mentioned what our future held, but there was an air of understanding and a knowing that there was a reason for this sudden interaction.

Eventually we realised that we had quite a bit in common and I was happy to call him my friend. Walking to classes together and pairing up in Transfiguration soon turned into eating together and spending nights in the Common Room talking about our past and present, but always somehow dodging our future.

It wasn’t hard to fall for Regulus Black. He was kind when you got to know him and he was much more intelligent than he let on, and of course, there was no denying that Regulus Black was pretty and nice to look at.

Our wedding was small and we only invited our closest family and very few friends. I should have realised what our marriage meant to him when we talked that night. Our parents had bought a house for us and it was our first night sleeping in it. We didn’t speak about it, but it seemed neither of us wanted to spend our wedding night alone and so we were in our pyjamas with our backs on the mattress lying next to each other.

“You know,” we were both looking up at the ceiling but his thoughtful tone had made me look over at him, “I’m mad about being in an arranged marriage, but I’m not mad it’s with you.” I smiled over at him when his eyes quickly met mine.

“I feel the same way,” I had told him truthfully. I didn’t exactly love him at the time, we had only started speaking to each other only almost a year ago, but I had a hidden hope that one day it would turn into that.

“Could’ve been with someone horrible, but we get along,” he chuckled, “and I will let you do your thing and you’ll let me do mine and our parents will be ecstatic that we’re making it work.”

I didn’t exactly know what to say because I didn’t exactly know what he meant. There were a few meanings that crossed my mind but I told myself not to dwell on it. Our relationship needed time and understanding and if there was any chance of this arranged marriage turning into something more, I couldn’t let this small thing bother me.

About three months into our marriage Voldemort was defeated. Regulus and I had survived and fortunately did not meet the fates of our friends currently sitting in Azkaban. I got a job at the Ministry and Regulus was a successful potion maker. While mine was a regular office job, Regulus' work required odd hours and sometimes I wouldn’t even be awake when he came home. I was so happy that we had survived that I didn’t even care.

Life became easier for muggle borns and half bloods but old prejudices were hard to kill.

“It’s weird that while everything has changed, nothing has really changed, you know?” I had brought up to Regulus one night while we were cleaning the kitchen after dinner. If I was fortunate to have someone I genuinely liked as my arranged husband, I didn’t know what I was to have someone whose beliefs aligned with my own.

“Yeah, I guess so,” Regulus had murmured. There was a crease in between his eyebrows as he sank deep into thought.

“Purebloods still want nothing to do with muggle borns, and it’s still unacceptable if you’re with one.” I continued, folding my arms across my chest and leaning on the kitchen counter.

“It’s not acceptable for you to be seen with a muggle born,” he corrected me. I had agreed with him instantly as we usually were on the same page about these things. But as the night went on his words kept replaying through my head. What an odd thing to say. To be seen with a muggle born.

That night I had tossed and turned for hours, the words replaying in my mind as I tried to fall asleep. To be seen with a muggle born. I mean I guess that distinction is important. There are many people from noble pureblood families who are with muggleborns but keep their relationship secret in fear of judgement and exile. It probably wasn’t anything I needed to worry about.

She had been working in the same department with me since I started and our offices were right next to each other. She was very pretty, and nice, and a muggle born. Which wasn’t a big deal, anymore. My family had their beliefs and I had mine and I wish that I was stronger to get their voices out of my head. What does a mudblood have over a pureblood?

We were in the same year at Hogwarts, but had never spoken to each other for obvious reasons. It was awkward at first, she knew my family and their beliefs and I knew hers, but she had always smiled at me when we crossed paths and one day I took a risk and sat next to her at lunch. She didn’t move away and instead initiated polite small talk which continued until polite small talk turned into workplace gossip which soon turned into more personal conversations and I was now happy to call her my friend.

No matter how ‘noble’ Regulus and I’s families were, it was difficult trying to find work after Voldemort’s defeat and it was even harder finding new friends who didn’t constantly glare at you, for justified reasons.

I had confided to Regulus one night about the loneliness this caused me. I was sitting in our lounge in front of the fireplace, wrapped up in blankets with a frown tugging on my lips.

“I feel so lonely,” I whimpered and Regulus sat down next to me and put an arm around my shoulders, “no one at work wants anything to do with me, I have no one outside of work, I-”

“You have me,” he offered and I turned to him, trying not to look hopeful. He gave me a cheesy grin and the hurt on my face vanished as I felt my whole body relax. He pulled me into his side and I let my head rest on his chest.

“Really?” I had asked pathetically. Regulus and I were always friendly with each other, but this was an area we had never entered before.

“I’m your arranged husband,” he chuckled, “you’ll always have me.”

It was then when I was happy to admit to myself that I loved Regulus Black. Really, I think I knew all along, but at the beginning of our relationship I was too concerned about the fact that I was in an arranged marriage to properly focus on any feelings that may have been brewing. Then my worries about Voldemort had taken up all of my thinking space, and then I was so focused on trying to re-enter society as a functioning member while half the world hated me that I had almost forgotten about it.

But I knew that throughout all of that there was some hope that one day Regulus and I would turn into something much more than an arranged couple. Whether it was locked away tight or close to the surface, it was always there and I had naturally assumed that Regulus had the same idea. This conversation was only proof that there had to be something there and I felt as if I would go mad if things weren’t resolved.

I debated whether or not I should finally admit my feelings to him and the anxiety of this was making it hard to focus at work. She noticed there was something wrong the minute I sat down at lunch.

Even if I had made peace with it, the fact that I was in an arranged marriage was not something we necessarily wanted public. Regulus and I had only ever told our closest friends about our situation and most of them were currently locked up in a cell.

She never pried and I respected her for that, but with all of these emotions brewing inside of me I decided that maybe it wouldn’t be such a bad thing to let one person know about our situation.

“What’s got you down?” She was cheerful as always and I smiled up at her. I paused for a moment, debating whether or not it was truly the best idea for me to tell her everything. I didn’t want to burden her, but I trusted her and I knew if I didn’t reach out to anyone I would go mad. She was waiting patiently, looking at me with kind eyes as she ate her lunch and I decided that there were worse things I could do.

“I’m in an arranged marriage.” It was almost humorous watching her face go from shock to confusion, from skeptical to happy and then resting on a cheerful note when I reassured her that we were friends and got along really well.

“Well, who's the lucky guy? Did he go to Hogwarts?” I wasn’t surprised that she didn’t know.

“Yeah, he was in our year as well. Regulus Black.” I was so caught up in finally being able to get something off of my chest that I didn’t even notice when her face fell because she was back to smiling like a supportive friend so quickly that even if I was paying attention, I’m not sure I would have noticed. “And I know he was a bit off-putting in Hogwarts,” I giggled, “but trust me, once you get to know him he is really easy to fall in love with, but I just don’t know if he feels the same way. Which is pathetic, who gets married and doesn’t know-”

“When did you get married?” It was a little weird how she cut me off but I wasn’t thinking too critically about it.

“Early June, pretty much as soon as we left Hogwarts.” I shrugged, quickly continuing my previous train of thought, “like who doesn’t know that their husband loves them, right?” I chuckled, trying to make the situation a little less weird.

“How long did you know?” She had placed her lunch down and I pushed my own away, suddenly not hungry anymore.

“Know what?” All of a sudden a weird feeling had flooded my body. Something was wrong but I just wasn’t sure what.

“That you would marry him?” I could see the edges of her lips fighting to stay up, but there was hurt all over her face and I had regretted ever bringing this stupid conversation up.

“Just before our sixth year, I don’t know-”

“I need to tell you something.” My heart was pounding and it almost felt that there was a static in the air, a warning just before a storm.

“What?” A cold chill ran through my body and somehow I already knew the answer.

“I-, Regulus and I, we--I didn’t know,'' her voice broke off and there were tears forming in both of our eyes. “You have to believe me,” she pleaded and I wondered if she also suddenly couldn’t breathe. “He never told me he was married,” she let out a harsh sob and for a brief second I wanted to reach out and hold her and tell her that it was okay.

“I believe you,” was the best I could offer. The tears hadn’t fallen yet. I didn’t want them to. It’s pathetic being told that your husband is cheating on you and my pride wouldn’t let me be so pathetic as to make a big scene of it at work. “When?” I asked, not feeling confident in saying anything more.

“During our seventh year.” I nodded slowly. He was with her when he already knew we would be arranged. I felt like an idiot. That whole time I thought our friendship was going to naturally lead into something else he was out finding that something else with another person.

“I think-,” I took a deep breath and closed my eyes as a single tear fell down my cheek, “I think I need to get back to work.” All I wanted was to be alone. Her body was shaking from the intensity of her sobs and when I stood up, she did too and she reached out to give me a hug. She kept mumbling, “I’m so sorry,” and if I was being honest I didn’t really care.

As soon as I shut my office door I let the tears fall. They fell for the rest of the day. I couldn’t stop them. It didn’t feel real. It felt like I was no longer in my body and I no longer had control over anything that happened to me. I was just there, waiting and watching it all fall apart.

The worst part was that I didn’t have a right to feel any of the emotions that I was feeling. I had never even spoken to him about my feelings and she didn’t even know he was married. I knew that none of this was her fault, not one bit of it was, but my parents' words kept playing through my mind, what does a mudblood have over a pureblood?

I had also never felt such a strong dislike about myself and if I thought I was going to explode with all of the emotions I started with at the beginning of the day, I didn’t know where all of these new ones would fit. What does she have that I don’t? Sure, she was beautiful and pretty and smart and kind and no one was even forcing Regulus to get along with her.

It was a long day. I had a migraine from all my crying and I had barely gotten any work done. I felt horrible that I had sent her away at our most vulnerable moment. I hadn’t even considered that she would be feeling similar to me. I wondered if she did.

When I got home that afternoon I started piecing everything together. That weird conversation the night of our wedding, his weird statement about being seen with a muggle born, and for a horrible minute, I even wondered if he worked late at night.

My heart sank that afternoon when I heard a pop outside. I tried to focus on my breathing, knowing that I could never do this if I was a sobbing mess.

“Honey, I’m home!” My body tensed at his voice and sitting at our dining table I didn’t respond. “Where are you?” I could hear him murmur but I stayed quiet. “There you are.” If I turned to face him I knew I would fall apart so I kept my back to him.

“You’re home early.” I commented, keeping my voice neutral.

“Don’t sound too excited,” he chuckled and I could hear his footsteps getting louder.

I let out a sarcastic hum and he pulled out the chair next to me to sit down.

“What’s wrong?” His eyebrows were furrowed in confusion and when I finally turned to face him I felt the sadness from earlier come over me all over again. Trying to find my voice, I stared at him and the crease in his forehead, his bottom lip jutted out ever so slightly and suddenly, I realised that I shouldn’t be upset. I should be angry.

“How did you not know?” It wasn’t my desired approach, but the anger was so strong that I couldn’t help it.

“Know what?” The concern he had for me was replaced with confusion and the cold chill I had been feeling since she first told me was replaced with a hot fire that was making me see red.

“I know this isn’t how either of us expected our lives to turn out, but I thought you’d at least respect me enough to tell me.” I was upset because Regulus didn’t reciprocate my feelings, but I had brought that upon myself. I was angry because Regulus never told me he was seeing someone, at least then I would’ve known where I stood.

“Tell you what?” I scoffed at him and rolled my eyes.

“When you’re seeing two girls you might want to make sure they don’t know each other first.” My voice was grave and I watched his face turn to stone as the words sunk in. “Do you even know that she works with me?” I glared at him and he finally turned away, “Or did you not know that I work with her?”

“I’m sorry,” his expression hadn’t changed and I wasn’t sure he was sorry at all, “I didn’t expect you to find out.”

“Obviously.” I met his gaze and kept the stare even if it made me wonder who the hurt behind his eyes was for. But I wasn’t going to be the one to look away.

“But I don’t-I thought we agreed that this was nothing more than an arranged marriage?” It would’ve hurt me less if he had slapped me in the face.

“You still could’ve told me, I’ve spent the last year trying to make this work and I feel like such an idiot now.” I think it bothered him that I was angry and not upset. Maybe if I was crying and shaking he would’ve taken pity on me, but Regulus never liked when people were mad at him.

“Trying to make what work? We are working, we’ve been doing great this last year and I-”

“You’ve been doing great, Regulus,” I spat, “I’ve spent the last few months going crazy not knowing where I stand in this relationship and I’ve just-I felt so alone and I thought we had each other-”

“I thought we were happy to do our own thing?” His voice was getting louder and I was clenching my fist so I wouldn’t cry.

“Maybe I would’ve been if you were clear about what ‘doing our own thing’ meant,” I replied sarcastically, “and even so, why did you keep her a secret? Why didn’t you just tell me about her, then?” I was going to continue but he cut me off.

“Why would I have to tell you?” His words and the venom in his voice shocked me and in that moment I knew I was about to lose all power in the conversation. “We were arranged to be married, meaning if I had my choice, I wouldn’t pick you.” I thought he couldn’t hurt me anymore, but I was wrong.

“And you think I would pick you?” I would have. But he didn’t need to know that.

“Well at least someone has picked me.” He had a cocky look on his face and I let out a sarcastic laugh.

“You think she’s going to keep you around? Think she’s going to welcome you back with loving arms and accept your shitty apology?” I shook my head at him, but he didn’t show that my words had any effect on him.

“No darling, you’re the only one getting a shitty apology.” I didn’t know what I had done to make him so mean but I didn’t want to fight anymore. It was painfully obvious now where I stood and I knew there was no hope in moving.

“I hate you,” I spat at him, finally giving in to all of the emotions that had built up and letting out a harsh sob.

“What are you going to do about it?” he challenged and it hurt me more that he was ready to deepen my wounds, “Divorce me?” He had a smug look on his face and if I was stronger I would’ve hexed him.

I was trapped and we both knew it. To divorce him would be to put a blemish on my family's name, my parents would never forgive me and I would have no means to make it by myself. I was stuck with him. I would be stuck being constantly reminded of this pain that I was currently in and I didn’t have an escape.

After I didn’t respond he chuckled, “that’s what I thought.”

“Well, I hope she makes you happy.” I was expecting him to go further and say that she does but he only rolled his eyes. I stood up from my chair and walked past him without another word.

“Where are you going?” He called out after me, not moving from his chair.

“To the bedroom,” I paused, “I assume you can go stay with her for the night?” He didn't respond and I didn’t hear the chair move but I was far from caring about what he was doing at the moment.

I threw myself on the bed and buried my face in my pillow to muffle the sounds of my sobs. I was such an idiot. I felt horrible about myself and while I knew my circumstance was different and that there were other people out there, I couldn’t help but wonder how anyone would ever love me if my own husband didn’t.

I was numb. Even if Regulus did follow me up I wasn’t sure I’d even be able to move. It was so much easier to sit in this hurt, to let out everything that had been building up inside me.

The worst part was that I knew I would never be able to escape this pain. I would face it again tomorrow when I woke up, when I got to work and saw her, when I’d get back to the house that we share, and then I would wake up again and live it on repeat.

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garrothromeave · 3 years

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let’s talk about minecraft diaries rebirth.

and why it’s literally amazing. (warning: this will contain spoilers. lots of them. also, long post ahead.)

i think a lot of people hate mcdr because they were expecting a remake; but the point of rebirth is for jess to rewrite it. it wasn't supposed to be exactly the same.

honestly i went into mcdr with a closed mind. as an og mcd fan, i thought that this was going to suck ass and that i'd rant about how bad it was to my friends later. but actually watching it, i just... couldn't help but immediately fall in love with it.

ik im probably the only motherfucker that likes mcdr, but honestly how could i not? for one, garroth and zenix actually have personalities at the beginning. AND; the villagers? actually amazing. donna made me smile, visher made me laugh and cry, brendan was just bein as good as ever. like... i even didn't despise emmalyn with every ounce of my soul like i usually do?? the characterizations of them were GOOD, man.

and honestly, aphmau like--the way she spoke, her whole thing. it was reallyyy well done in my opinion. she was oblivious to things, but it wasn't overdone and wasn't done in a way to make her annoying. she's a very appealing character in mcdr, a main protagonist i do not mind following along with. her dynamics to the characters are really cool and all very unique. gonna cut it here so i don’t clog y’all’s feed cuz i got a lot to say :)

the early use of aphmau’s powers was actually pretty cool as well, it also really showed how clueless aphmau really was to everything going on around her. AND UH, THE FACT THAT SHE THOUGHT THAT GARROTH FELT FAMILIAR? GOLDEN. absolutely golden.

AND GENE OH BOY, the early introduction of gene? ik a lot of people are upset about it, but god DAMN i love it so much. his role in the story is very important in original, and i cannot express how much joy this brought me learning that he was actually getting the proper attention for it. and the fact that gene and aphmau were working together?? i mean ik gene was just trying to use her to get back to the "shadow abyss" (pretty pog replacement for the nether, gg) but god DAMN i loved every moment of it. i found their dynamic to be pretty fuckin funny to be honest, would absolutely love to see more of it.

i might be biased considering gene is one of my absolute favorite characters, but i honestly think that introducing gene this early on in the story was a good move. again, he's literally the right-hand man to the shadow lord. it makes you really wonder why he didn't have as much of an important role in season 1 or even 2 of the original mcd plotline. also, we get some of that good-ol-fashioned exposition with seeing early on how vylad and gene interact. vylad’s at a very strange point in the story right now; his motives are unclear, even to the side he’s ‘supposed’ to be taking (aka, a shadow knight.) another early introduction to a character is zane! this, my friends, is good. really good. i’d say that zane is the main antagonist of season 1 in the original series--and he wasn’t even introduced until like, episode 50. it’s not necessarily a bad thing, but him being introduced this early on really gives the audience a better understanding of what threats are out there and what our protagonist will have to encounter in the future. in the original series, there’s not much explanation as to why lords are disappearing/dying left and right--and while yes, that was supposed to be the mystery of it, having some of that early information is a better move in terms of writing.

AND IVAN?? BEING A PART OF THE JURY OF NINE?? I COULD NOT HAVE ASKED FOR ANYTHING MORE LIKE GOD DAMN that was a very pleasant surprise i'll just say that, thank you jess :)

and no i did not loop the 4 minutes of screentime laurance got in that one episode haha who would do that i would never do that anyways

SPEAKING of laurance, im so glad jess actually wrote him in this early :) she totally could have just waited for the first time aphmau visits meteli and meets him there, but no! she put him in an early episode. i dont even care if she did it just to shut up the fans about laurance but man that made me so happy seeing him, even if it was only for a bit.

okay i kinda wanna go over the guards real fast firstly; garroth. ignoring how weird the helmet showing emotions is, i really like how garroth is portrayed. he's under a lot of pressure because the village is putting a lot of the blame on him for malik's death, and he's trying his hardest to keep things running. the fact that garroth utterly refused the to take up the position of lord and even got a little snappy about it was actually really cool to see as well. and while he doesn’t have that same “reserved, quiet, observant” feel as the original mcd version of him had, this version of garroth is absolutely awesome. he’s more direct and blunt, is significantly more sarcastic, and isn’t as stiff or as much as a pushover as he is in the original. he even has a sense of humour. also, no homo, but he’s kinda adorable. plus, the desperation that he goes through during the whole thing is just--it’s really cool to see how hard he’s trying to prove himself and help the village. my rating for mcdr garroth? 9/10. the helmet... the helmet is the main thing throwin me off, i can’t lie. next, zenix. oh BOY do i have a lot to say about this man. first of all, his and garroth’s dynamic is incredible. when i saw how the interacted with each other, my first thought was: father and son. zenix has this immaturity to him that is so fucking fun and interesting to watch, and seeing how garroth scolds him is so fuckin good man. and! seeing how he interacts with the rest of the village... honestly, if jess ever picks this story up again, i would probably cry when zenix (literally) backstabs garroth. HELL, i hope that’s something that still happens, it’d be heartbreaking to witness this character that we’ve come to love hurting his mentor, the man who took him in. he’s just a really good character all in all, and much more appealing than the original mcd zenix. ...except season 3 zenix. no zenix can be better than that one. either way, zenix is amazing written to be the comic relief and he’s just an all-out lovable character in this series. finally, dale and brian. yes i’m going to group them up because there’s not much to say regarding them, but i do want to address them. for starters, we have brian; who’s already 16 when the story starts. good on jess for doing that, because in the original aphmau watched brian be born and age INCREDIBLY quick, haha. THOUGH i do feel like there’s a slight connection lost there--one of the hardest things about brian’s betrayal in the original series in the fact that we watched him grow up in phoenix drop. we were there from the moment he was born, to the second he betrayed phoenix drop. BUT OF COURSE, this version is a lot more realistic, so it’s understandable. i just think that if it’s brian who’ll be betraying phoenix drop again (if it even goes down that same route), it won’t hit as hard unless jess really takes the time to grow the connection between brian and aphmau. as for dale; gotta admit, love it. and like, i think one of the main things about how good of a call it was to make him a drunkard from the beginning is considering how much the village is struggling. the fact that the second-in-command is literally drunk all of the time really conveys the message of, “yeah. this village needs help.” plus, he’s another good comic relief character. i loved seeing molly and dale’s relationship too, it was very funny. PLUS. we were blessed with a well scene, in which aphmau had to help villagers out of the well. i don’t know about you guys, but that was one of my favorite nods to the original series. i cannot thank jess enough for that, there was a smile on my face the entire time. another amazing thing--visher’s character. instead of just being introduced to this quirky lil merchant who only had one or two interactions with aphmau like in the first one, we got to sit there and really get a feel for someone worth remembering and worth mourning over. we had a reason to be sad over his death, it wasn’t just some npc getting blown up suddenly. this was different, and this hurt. one of the major things that i hope is to come out of this is for jess to fix the major mistakes she had when writing the first series. she’d expressed how unhappy she was with some of the decisions she made, and i’m glad that she’s getting that second chance to undo the things she didn’t like. this series also gives her a second chance to really, really dig into characters and their motives. like, gimme laurance backstory in better detail. or like, garroth and zane’s relationship from back when they were kids? or how vylad died and who killed him? etc etc. she’s already done an excellent job so far, and i can’t wait to see where this goes. that is, if she ever continues it. god, i wish there were more episodes so that i could seriously let you guys know how beautiful of a series this is. there’s so much i want to say about rebirth, but i think i’ll stop here. i might say some more shit about it later, but if there’s anything i’d want you to take away from this, it’s: give minecraft diaries rebirth a chance. there’s a lot of potential, and this is a chance for jess to really change things for the better! ... but again, that is if this ever is continued.

#aphmau #minecraft diaries #minecraft diaries rebirth #garroth #laurance #gene #zenix #vylad #rant

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anxiouspotatorants · 3 years

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heyy first off im obsessed w your account and the underdog quartet but also i feel like, with your new jess/paris playlist post, we need to acknowledge paris and jess’s first interaction when paris went into luke’s diner in “Richard goes to stars hollow” they had a very subtle interaction but he was clearly memorable enough to her to remember him and his name. I wonder if whenever paris when to stars hollow in the future she would look for jess what do you think

Thank you so much for this ask and the kind words!!! I’m obviously obsessed with UQ too, so finding more people who love that dynamic is just amazing!

Also yes we only had about two direct interactions between Paris and Jess but holy shit was the platonic chemistry there!! Paris bothering to remember him is something I would love to take as a sign that she was a Jess gal (especially since if you combine that with Keiko Agena saying she and Lane are team Jess, that means all my faves support my ship!)

Now for Jess and Paris specifically, I could honestly give you three different types of answers for this. First is that ASP and company didn’t feel like exploring that dynamic, so Paris probably doesn’t think about Jess or seek him out in the future, especially not after Rory’s break up. But that take is boring so let’s go for wild headcanons!

The second approach is on the more realistic side. I bet that Paris would avoid bringing up Jess every time he popped into her mind in front of Rory, but she would be too desperate to finally have that decent conversationalist to not bug Rory about him. She probably wouldn’t head over to Stars Hollow of her own accord considering how disappointed she was with the research results for that article, but she would ask about when Jess could come over to Hartford so she could rip his literary takes to shreds at a nearby cafe or at the elder Gilmores. Once Jess and Rory were a couple, Paris would double down on her requests but probably only have them met once or twice (Jess has work, Rory still has a tendency to compartmentalize parts of her life etc.). Post-breakup Paris would take Rory’s side, but secretly be sad to see a potential friend go. She probably felt like this guys really could be something, not just for Rory who seemed to finally get decent taste in boys, but for Paris who was finally starting to get more true friends. She carries a secret team Jess torch for the rest of the series but hides it in general criticism of any and all guys Rory is involved with.

On to approach three, aka balls to the walls whatever I want!! Hold on to your hat because this will be a long and windy ride:

After the diner-meet, Paris is intrigued by the guy who played along with her interrogation and eye-flirted with Rory. She doesn’t think she’ll see him again, but she would be lying if she said she didn’t want to.

After the dinner at Rory’s, Paris is honestly elated to finally have a great literary conversation with a guy her age. The only one to have come close is Rory, and that doesn’t say much for the «opposite sex» in Paris’ eyes. But she’s also furiously disagreeing with Jess’ «Austen loves Bukowski»-take, so she writes a whole several page argumentative essay and forces Rory to deliver it to Jess the next school day.

Jess responds not with a letter, but by having Rory hand Paris an annotated («blasphemy!») copy of a Bukowski work. There are no arguments from Jess notes, just underlines of quotes he thinks Austen would approve of, and excerpts from different Austen works put in the margins for comparison. Paris despises him for how much she is seeing his point.

At some point Rory get’s sick of being a carrier pigeon and drags Paris with her to ST after school so the two can fight in person. All three stay until Lorelai pops over for dinner, and Paris realizes she needs to haul herself over to the bus. She’s hungry and worried about the time she should have spent on homework, but ultimately really happy about the day.

She’s bummed to see Jess go after the car accident, but doesn’t have much time to think about it between school and… well, school. She does end up being one of the few Rory can talk to about Jess without getting the whole «bad bad boy»-speech she gets over in ST and at her grandparents’.

Rory doesn’t tell Paris Jess is back until the very end of their Washington trip when Paris finds the unfinished letter and Paris is boiling. She does cool quickly, but only to constantly bug Rory about when the three of them are going to meet up again for coffee and verbal war. Rory gets so stressed about it that at some point she gives Paris the number to Luke’s and tells her to go on her own for all Rory cares.

Paris does. Jess is surprised, but they get in the groove quick. What doesn’t go as smoothly is Paris asking what the hell is going on between him and Rory. His non-answers pretty much spell everything out, and in a rare moment of comradery, Paris decides to turn the conversation in to hating on Dean. Jess appreciates it. It doesn’t happen again, but Paris firmly puts herself in the team Jess camp from then on.

Paris is releived once Jess and Rory finally are together and it is great! More cafe talks! Study sessions! Movie nights! They even sneak both Paris and Lane out into concerts! Paris feels like for the first time in a very long time, she has real friends her own age. The kind who actually like you for you and want to spend time with you for you, not just to get better grades or a better reputation.

Paris sucks at being strong for Rory when Jess leaves. Like, she takes it really personal. This was supposed to be the one good guy, and he decided to be just like everyone else. But with time she learns to coach Rory into speaking her mind about the whole thing, and to support her in her own Paris-y way.

What she doesn’t tell Rory is that at some point after summer break (either because she gets hold of Jess for some scolding or because Lane does and spills to Paris or even if Jess gets in touch himself) Jess starts sending Paris beat up books he collects on the road around the country. None of them feature letters (at first), but annotations at the beginning declaring his safety and momentary location, as well as his general style annotations of the book inside the text. Paris starts responding with letters, and with time they start talking on phones and through email.

Paris helps Jess with his GED. They make it an equal study-buddy thing because Paris needs help taking certain writers seriously in her essays. Most of their sessions are over the phone, and a lot of it is just them daring each other to actually try. Paris gets actual stars on her improved essays, and Jess passes with flying colours.

Paris doesn’t know about Truncheon until Jess stands in front of her place ages later, dressed like a Kids Bop version of himself and holding a messengerbag with his debut novel. Paris tears through it in two hours (forcing Jess to sit on the couch next to her the whole time) and then spends another half hour furiously trying to tear it to shreds but actually praising it. She gives him their first hug ever, and hopes this afternoon is a sign they’ll slowly get back to being close friends in person.

Paris sucks at hiding how team Jess she is. So. Much. She does have genuine critiques of Logan and other guys, but her gut-defenses of Jess at random times in the day and weird reminiscing back to the «good old days» of diner talk after school gives her away immediately. Rory is uncomfortable, but Paris doesn’t even change her mind after Rory still picks Logan.

What she does do is invite Jess over for grown up evenings with Doyle. Whenever Rory is scheduled to be out and Jess needs to visit Luke anyway, Paris extends her invitation. They test wines based on price and taste, watch cult classics, eat takeout (in honour of Paris’ very first Mac and Cheese night) and talk for hours. One day wires cross and Jess gets in while Rory is there/Rory gets back while Jess is there and things get awkward.

Paris invites Jess to the graduation. Yes she has a limited amount of tickets and yes it’s weird to invite your friend who has barely been around ever but damn it she wants him there. He came to her when he was celebrating his accomplishments, she wants him to be there for hers.

They actually grow even closer as adults; emailing, texting and calling regularly. About 70% of it is general banter and picking on everything and everyone around them, but it’s a far more loving kind now — not that anyone who isn’t them would know, from the outside it looks like they want to kill each other. Regardless of outcome, Paris remains forever team Jess, and the two end up having each other’s backs for life.

So this went long and away from the point (and I only went through Paris’ pov!) but it was fun to write! I hope you like rant answers!

#sing it with me all together now:#THE POTENTIAL #btw thank you so much for the ask it brightened my day!#snark attack #jess mariano #paris geller #jess x paris #lowkey underdog quartet #gilmore girls #gilmore girls headcanons #gilmore girls au #my aus #my headcanons

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what-the-stories-have-foretold · 2 years

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Hey there! 😃💐🍫

I recently read a fanfiction (post organization showdown) regarding kaito and conan (after confessing their real identity to furuya) getting recruited by zero for psb. Initially during the contract signing it seemed that they would both be in same ranks as trainees under Furuya. But when actual work started i realised that Conan was getting trained to be an agent who will be filling in Furuya's rank in future, while kaito is getting trained to be a collaborator (which kaito does realise to be a pawn role). Not only that, Furuya made shinichi his "handler" when shinichi himself was a trainee.

Although kaito was pretty much accepting of this and infact happy with it, I am absolutely not able to digest it😭.

I kind of already imagined it that Kaito wanted to become a police officer since childhood, yet his kid circumstances made him bury that dream. Now that Furuya had given him an opportunity he finally got hopes that he could become an agent just like zero. He had started to admire Rei as an idol. That is precisely the reason why he accepted the contact in the first place. But now what he has to face everyday is absolute minimum interaction with Rei (while shinichi gets to meet and directly work under rei as Rei's personal trainee), never getting direct orders from Rei instead getting them though shinichi, conan getting all the credits for any cases they solved together, conan being introduced to all other agents him being the sidekick of conan, and when conan is in trouble Rei contacting him just to know the welfare of conan (since kaito and conan are still best friends inspite of kaito being jealous of conan because of rei) etc. Kaito knows it that he's equally talented and skilled as conan, even better than conan when it comes to all works other than detective ones like spying, reading people, etc etc list goes on. Yet he's not given equal importance or respect just because of his criminal background.

When kazami informed him that his best friend Conan is getting trained to eventually succeed Rei, that was his breaking point (my breaking point to be honest 😅). He couldn't take it anymore and Furuya seemed to be completely unaware of his inner turmoil. 😭😭😭.

I really want a happy ending but I'm completely unable to image a happy ending.

Could you please write a oneshot on how will Rei understand kaitos feelings and they have an happy ending...

Ps. And i promise i tried to shorten the length of this ask but i don't know how to😔😔.

And im very sad about this kaito being conan's collaborator thing. Just imagine, he has always been a topper in studies, sports and every damn thing anyone can image, yet he's asked to be even lower than a trainee officer forever. Like come-on, everyone knows it how skilled and valueable he is. I empathized so much with kaito that my feelings got hurt instead of his🙈🙈 when will Rei understand this situation 😭😭😭

Hey 😊

It sounds like such a good fanfiction. (I agree, Kaito is probably more fit, or at least equally fit to be a successor. Also, in the manga, I've never understood everyone's hate for him? Because as far as I remember he always returns the stolen good to the people it actually belongs to, doesn't he? Or am I confusing stuff right now? 😅) Do send the name of the writer! (Though I don't know how I feel about getting my emotions wrecked like that while reading).

Unfortunetly, I do not feel comfortable writing essentially a second part of someone else's work though - especially without their direct approval. However, again, I'd love to read the work if you want to let me (and possibly other ppl here) know its name. 🥰

#el 🌺

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srirachvbi · 4 years

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Kageyama and Bokuto taking their kids to practice headcanons !

request: hihi i was wondering if you can do a continuation of the bringing their kids to practice with some of the other haikyuu characters? i’d love to see it with kageyama especially but honestly you can pick anyone! thank you :)

a/n: i AM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG... I have no excuses, i was too sad about haikyuu e wording but i have read threads on how to write characters on twitter and i am thriving... so n e ways i was looking for a reason to write more of these because i just... love the idea of this so tsym for requesting!! if i write more parts, i might do hoshiumi, hinata, atsumu, and... maybe oikawa? i’m a huge bokuto stan so his might be longer than kageyamas im sorry <3 and and ik that kageyama goes to italy but for the sake of i want to write other characters, i will be using the adlers oops. i will also be only doing probably two characters per post for these because i write so much for it. LMAO ALSO these are super unrealistic this would NOT be allowed during pro sports practices but for the sake of entertainment, let’s just... do it warnings: manga spoilers

Bokuto Koutarou

He had been wanting to bring Kaori to practice for a while but each time he tried to, you would be like no bitch </3

heart been broke so many times

When you told him that you had to go into work and couldn’t schedule the nanny in time, he was like “I’LL TAKE CARE OF HER!!!”

Honestly you were only against him taking her because you were still mad at him for leaving her in the high chair for a while and you came home to her crying and him just knocked out

Like... Kou, pls <3

He had brought Kaori into post game interviews before but you were always there so this would really be the first time he’d take care of her by himself for a period of time longer than an hour

He’s a good parent dw !! he had just spent the whole night thinking about the most random shit and he ended up sleeping like three hours

He was thinking about horses cause Ushijima brought them up in an interview >:0

You were still mad tho

It had been a while and he had actually shown to you that he could take care of her by himself so you were fine with him taking her to practice

He was super pumped and was practically shaking in excitement (he was texting Akaashi the whole morning asdlfjskdf)

Bokuto-san AGHASHEE!!!!! Y/N IS LETTING ME TAKE KAORI TO PRACTICE!!!!!!!!! AGHASHEE Congrats, Bokuto-san.

That conversation but every two minutes

I’m sorry Akaashi <3

He also texts the whole group chat and Hinata’s equally as excited

Kaori and Hinata were best friends !!!! She literally loved him

Like he would put her on his shoulders and they’d run around for hours

How he has so much energy goes beyond everyone but it’s fun to watch

You lectured him for half an hour about what he should do in certain situations and unlike most times, he listened really well because :(( the baby cares about Kaori

Both Kaori and him actually walked with you to the train station and saw you off before heading to practice !!

He normally drives to practice because he has a super nice car and it’s easier to drive with Kaori instead of public transportation

When they get to the gym, he goes running in with Kaori on his shoulders

“WE HAVE ARRIVEEEED!!!!!!!!”

cue Hinata cheering super loudly

Kaori’s giggling and being all cute omg i love her

She was being carried in on her dad’s shoulders so Bo lets her down and she immediately runs (read: waddles quickly) to Hinata

“Hinata-nii!!!!”

Hinata starts crying-- jk, no

He goes “Kaori-chan!” and scoops her up in his beefy arms

BEEFY HINATA BEEFY HINATA BEEFY HINATA

Sorry

She’s giggling and she like kisses his cheek and everyone’s like “so cute...” ohmyogd babies

Similar to her dad, she’s super friendly!! and a bit simple minded

It’s literally in her blood to not actually hate anyone so she gets along with EVERYONE at practice

She even makes the coach super soft omg

Atsumu’s just watching her and being like “child. want. child-- oh god, i need a kid.” cause she’s just so god damn cute

Lol atsumu having twins cause it’s a gene or smth idk biology

I barely passed bio please spare me <3

I actually got an 80 smth on my final last year don’t listen to me

Sakusa being hesitant at first to be near her but she’s actually super sweet to him!!

CAUSE LIKE HER DAD SHE’S ACTUALLY REALLY EMOTIONALLY INTELLIGENT AND CAN READ PEOPLE REALLY WELL

like she saw Sakusa’s face and was like “oh!! I remember what dad said!!”

Kou talks about his teammates a lot and somehow Kaori remembered him telling her about how Sakusa’s a germaphobe so she’s like

“Sir!! I washed my hands!! I’m not dirty!!” and he

He just 👁👄👁

He thinks she’s cute and treasures her now

Suddenly Kaori has a whole team of dads

it’s okay

Bokuto itching to let her play volleyball but at the same time worrying about her if she does

It’s like the angel and the devil on his shoulders

One sides like

let her pLAY!!!!! LET HER PLAY (read it as if it’s the LEt ME INNN meme)

While the other sides like

👁👄👁 (y/n) will kill me if she gets hurt and i’ll kill myself if she gets hurt and hinata will kill me if she gets hurt-

In the end he gives her a volleyball after she asks once and he’s like ‘PFFT KAORI-CHAN IF YOU INSIST’ while she’s like

dude i asked to play once and normally someone disagrees with me tf are you on, sir?

she tries to pick the ball up but it ends up being half her size and it’s just... such a cute image

Bo takes a picture of it and sends it to you!!

You reply back in seconds lol

Kou-kun ❤💖 [image.jpeg] LOOK AT HER!! FUTURE PRO (Y/N)-CHAN!! (Y/N) MY LOVE ❤💕❤💕💕❤💕❤💕 be careful letting her hold that it’s too big!! but so cute!!! have fun taro <3

He ends up taking the ball away after a bit because she can’t walk while holding it

Eventually practice has to start tho so he asks her to sit on the bench and she’s an obedient angel and does so !!

The whole time she’s like swinging her legs and watching her dad practice

It’s fun for her to see him play

Okay but like I’ve said, she’s similar to her dad

At one point at practice during a break, she stole Atsumu’s water and was running around the gym with him chasing her

He was ofc not actually chasing her cause he found it cute that she was trying to steal his stuff

Lol Sakusa being like “oh, you can’t catch up to a child? are your knees getting bad, old man?”

Atsumu’s like “bro, we’re the same age”

Sakusa ignores him

She ends up TRIPPInG AND ATSUMU’s LIke “Oh fuck”

SHE CRIES

omg Bokuto’s like “tsum tsum-- do you want to die 👁👄👁🗡” because she just got hurt because of him

Atsumu picks her up and is apologizing so god damn much

This is the first time anyone’s seen Bokuto remotely irritated

Kaori: WAAAHHHH

Atsumu: please, child... i don’t want to die today... please... shhhhhhh

He lets her down and she walks (read: waddles) over to her dad and is giving him puppy eyes omg

Bokuto stops being mad and scoops her up and he’s like “did Kao-chan get a boo boo” and she nods, sniffling

Ohmygod dad bokuto dad bokuto dad bokuto stop

suddenly I actually want kids

Shion ends up getting a first aid kit since Meian asked (woah more black jackals players except I don’t really know how to write for them??? woahhh)

Shion roasts Atsumu with Sakusa for letting her fall and suddenly Atsumu’s the bad guy

lol

By the end of practice tho Kaori’s fine !!!

She’s back to her regular happy self so cute :(

She asks Bo to call you and when you pick up she shows you her bandaid on her knee and is like “Miya-san was chasing me and I fell!!”

Suddenly Atsumu feels a cold chill and knows you found out lol

Hi this is (y/n), and you’re watching disney channel-

good luck, atsumu *stops camera*

Kageyama Tobio

sigh

He would be equally as confused as a father as Ushijima

It’s okay, he’s trying his best

You normally work from home so you guys haven’t really hired a nanny!

And if you needed someone to watch your guys’ son, Sho (which can mean to fly oho see what I did there I’m so smart), you just drop him off at your parents’ house or Miwa’s!

WAIT SHO... SHOYO... WAIT I DIDN’T EVEN DO THIS ON PURPOSE IM LITERALLY

However, today was the only time you had to go in for like the next few months and both your parents and Miwa are busy

So, you enlist in your husbands help

“Tobio... I need you to watch Sho...”

He spits out his milk “wHAT” cause like,, he’s hardly taken care of Sho by himself and normally had either his sister or you around

He doesn’t actually spit out his milk-- you’d kill him if he did because it would be a pain in the ass to clean up <3

It takes a bit of convincing being he’s really nervous about taking care of Sho!!

Okay but he’s a great dad dw it’s just he’s nervous about having another human being literally rely on him completely

You also just remind him that Romero’s a father so he won’t be completely on his own while taking care of Sho

So he somehow gets to the gym with Sho in one piece but he’s literally so stiff like bro, i need you to relax

Hoshiumi yelling “KAGEYAMA SHO!!!!!!!” and Sho (who has actually met the team like two times) goes like “HOFIUMI-SAN!!!!!”

Sho’s a bit of an energetic bby-- he’s less emotionally constipated than his dad <3

He’s... he reminded you guys of Shoyo and well, you thought it would be nice to name him after his god father

No this isn’t a kagehina post i swear i love them but this is me saying that i love their friendship sm omg stop im gonna cry 402 really just popped into my head again

Hoshiumi getting mad when he sees that Sho has actually grown even though he’s a grown ass man and the little toddler would not, in fact, be catching up that soon

“KAGEYAMA SHO HAVE YOU GROWN >:0000!!!!!”

Sir, pls... sit down

The Adlers all love Sho since they’ve come into contact with him like twice at games before

Ushijima just... doesn’t know how to interact with Sho

He just stares down at him and honestly Sho stares back up without fear

Kageyama Sho: no (0) fears

I think it’s cause his father gives a similar stare sometimes and he just... got used to it

Ushijima gives him that stare and Sho just goes SIGH this again

Jk he’s a baby

He literally looks up at Ushiwaka and gives him this cute ass grin and Ushijima’s like “oh, children are very cute.”

Thank you, Wakatoshi-kun

Romero does, in fact, give Kags some tips about fathering and ends up showing pictures of Rubens to the team (love that)

OKAY BUT LIKE OFF TOPIC FROM THE PRACTICE BUT

Sho being such a big fan of Hinata and being like “woAHHH!!! I’M NAMED AFTER HIM!!!”

Hinata rubs it in Kags face because Sho practically idolizes him

anyways

Practice starts and Sho’s just sitting on the gym floor with a volleyball in his hands cause he

Kags just giving newborn Sho a volleyball and expecting him to become acquainted

It worked

Sho’s used to holding onto volleyballs and even tries to hit it but everytime he did, he’d fall backwards onto his lil bum and would be like :(

Kageyama watching from the other side of the gym and his heart just goes AHHHHHHHHHH

He’s about to cry that is the cutest thing he’s ever seen

Sho making sure he doesn’t interrupt practice!!! and like chasing after the ball to make sure it doesn’t go onto the courts!!!

Cute babs is so good :(

He ends up tripping tho and starts to tear up and Kags is watching during practice and goes “OH GOD”

He’s literally whipping his head from Sho to his coach and has this desperate look on his face

he’s saying “JUST ONE BREAK!! JUST ONE, SIR!!” with his eyes and his coach just gives in

Kageyama going from one side of the gym to the next at insane speed

Sho: dad :((( i hwurt my knee :(((

Kags just picks him up and cradles him to his chest (he does this after making sure there’s no blood or anything-- it’s literally just a little bit red)

Kags being a good dad just... WEAK

Only like two minutes later, Sho stops sniffling and is like “!!! go back to practice daddy!!”

Kags does and he can’t focus on Sho anymore cause his coach would yell at him asldfjlsf

At the end of practice, Sho is like “dad i wanna play voweyball!!!!!!” and Kags heart just CLENCHES

He grabs his heart like that meme or smth

You call them cause you know when practice normally ends and Sho’s just talking a lot and it’s so cute

He’s super excited and you’re like !!! My CUTE CHILD !!!!

Lol you tease Kags cause he was worrying about nothing

“Maybe I’ll let you take care of him by yourself more often Tobio” “Pls, I lost ten years of my life when I saw him fall pls not yet <3″

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normal-thoughts-official · 3 years

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I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOUR BEAUTY AND THE BEAST IDEA. But may I also propose: Magnus cursed from a young age (probably bc of Asmodeus) that anyone who touches him is hurt by a blast of magic he can't control. (This may result in his mother's death). He locks himself away of his own will. Alec teaches then that it's fear that makes him lash out. Featuring: touch starved Magnus.

this idea is GENIUS actually and i love it. tbh me and my friend have a similar idea that we talk to each other about (lol) but it isn't a B&B thing, its more of an adventure AU. anyway, lets go!

so in this universe i guess magnus banished asmodeus like in the original sh verse but asmodeus cursed him with the "everyone you touch will be in indescribable pain" thing. maybe just as revenge, maybe to try and use it as bargaining chip because okay magnus, is it freedom that u want? u want to be able to have ur own friends and ur own life? fine. get me back, and ill leave u alone, and ull be free to have friends again. if not, ull be still isolated just like before. so is it gonna be win-win, or lose-lose?

but magnus doesn't budge because he knows that if he lets asmodeus free things will only get worse not only for him, but for the whole world. he is too dangerous to be out there. so, magnus resigns to his fate

and i guess in this version he wouldnt have a lot of close friends because he had been with asmodeus his whole life before he was cursed, so he was just. alone in his self-imposed isolation with no one to talk to. maybe he enchants the furniture so they gain sentience but they can't really feel pain, so at least he has someone to talk to. god im so fucking sad already

so is the furniture his friends in canon? im not entirely sure how i feel about that but also the idea of ragnor as that clock from the original movie is great. thats my most important thought on the subject ngl

btw its 4 degrees Celsius in here so im typing with gloves on so ull have to excuse my typos i am a mere brazilian and i want death

anyway okay so i guess his friends are like pieces of furniture that he spelled into sentience and they aren't his servants or anything cuz that's gross but they just like, hang out. wow im actually managing to type pretty well all things considered

so at least magnus has people to talk to but he's still touch starved because you know... a clock can't hug you and that'd just be weird. maybe them becoming sentient was an accident? lmao like magnus just wanted to automate some functions like having the clock talk to tell him the time or something and it turned out that they became sentient. possibly his magic is a little fucky because of the curse so that's why that happened? or maybe he just is way more powerful than he realizes and we all know he invented the spells he used to try and automate the things anyway. but if he gets people to talk to, well, he's not complaining

im focusing too much on this. anyway. id also like to note that im making rapha the cook/stove thing because i mean, come on. it's right there

and ok i guess alec comes into this because he uhhhhhh no u know i might go with that izzy thing. so izzy ran away from home because of maryse's bullshit and alec was sent to bring her back. so he was going after her but in the middle of the path there was the whole wolf attack thing that scared off his horse and LUCKILY magnus' house/tower/whatever was right next!!! so of course they take alec and his horse in but also WHOOPS there's a huge snowstorm that lasts for days (par the course for where magnus lives, actually. he DID want somewhere people would avoid. but also i think maybe his magic being fucky has something to do with it) so i guess alec is stuck at magnus' for the foreseeable future

which is HELL for magnus because he is terrified out of his mind that they will accidentally touch and alec will be hurt. and like.... his Constant Crave For Touch is already bad on a regular day, but having someone who could actually hug him in theory just makes it worse, you know? he hasn't interacted with other human beings in so long, just having one there is enough to make his need for touch almost unbearable and just... completely constant. it's hell

so magnus is scared, which means that he keeps to himself. so he tells alec not to go into his room, he tries not to eat at the same time, and other stuff like that, bUT his friends keep sabotaging his plans because they want him to have another friend, jesus christ!! (rapha being like "come on now magnus, you don't want my soup to get cold, do you? i'll be deeply offended. i guess you have no choice but to eat with alec". so magnus goes but the first thing he does is magic his regular table into a gigantic rectangular table with 41908410 seats and seat on on the side opposite to alec. alec just sighs

so like he's constantly coming across as rude because he is trying to avoid alec, alec just doesn't know why

but alec is also a stubborn bitch who goes stir crazy and refuses to just sit around isolated doing nothing while they wait for the stupid storm to finally be over so he can go get his sister. and magnus saved his life, so it's the least he can do to repay him in some way. besides, this is what, the first time that he's been completely away from his mom? for such a long time too? and he's finding that he feels... weirdly free and just relieved and he doesn't want to waste that opportunity with standing idly around alone all day. he had enough of that at home, thank you very much

besides yeah magnus is being rude but alec is used to straight up assholes and abusers (jace. i'm talking about jace. also maryse ofc but mostly jace) and magnus is not that. in fact he makes very polite conversation and is actually pretty fun during dinner, all things considered. he's just.... super private, i guess

AND magnus' friends are all being a nightmare with the making them interact so you know. they end up interacting. and alec makes it a point to help him take care of his house because it is a certified Depression Lair™. magnus can take care of it magically but it's like... so dark and almost suffocating at times and there is stuff like bad painting and piping problems that he never bothered to fix because it isn't affecting the functionality too much but it DOES makes life harder and alec "everything must be at 100% always" lightwood is not here for it so for a few days they are working on fixing the house and... magnus actually feels a lot better when the place has actual sunlight and looks inviting and like a home, he has to admit. when he says that to alec it might be the first time he's given him a real smile and man, is alec smitten

sidenote i guess this means that magnus doesn't exactly... dress well in this au lmaoo i mean it makes sense too because canonically magnus uses dressing up as a way to convey an image of power and untouchability and he doesn't really need that in this AU since he is completely isolated. so i guess he is a bit more like twi magnus - bare-faced and wearing comfortable clothes and the like. this isn't a twi au i'm just saying that it makes more sense for him to dress like that in that context

anyway. after the whole house fixing thing, they officially become friends. it turns out that alec also knows a bit about what it's like to feel isolated and touch-starved (altho he's always had izzy to help in that department, but still) and also what crappy parents are like. magnus shows alec his little mirror that he's enchanted to be able to show him anything he wants and how he uses it to be able to see all the places in the world he'd like to visit - he loves people, he loves culture, and sometimes it's all he can do to watch what's going on in Mumbai and it makes him feel a little better, so, he does that. he also admits that sometimes he catches on some drama happening and uses the mirror to see the people involved and make sure they are okay. kinda like a soap opera of his own but he has the means to interfere and help because of magic, so he will have someone who's struggling with money suddenly find hidden cash or have an "unknown dead relative" give them a lot of money in their will, or something like that. and if he also watches some of their personal drama that unfolds, well. he is lonely and it's not hurting anyone

but magnus doesn't tell him about the curse, and he still makes sure to keep his distance. it stings a little to alec, but it hurts magnus the most because fuck, maybe he just desperately needs someone who will give him the time of day, but he likes this guy and that only makes it harder to keep his distance. he makes it a point to always be at at least two arms length from alec, which alec thankfully respects and doesn't try to get him to breach, but. shit. it's still so hard to not want to just rest his head on his shoulder or get a hug or even fucking touch pinkies like stupid children and he can't. alec even once jokingly suggests that they have a ball since magnus doesn't know how to dance and magnus is actually excited for a second before he remembers that he can't, it would have to mean that alec touches him, and he can't

someone - maybe ragnor - even suggests that maybe he could try gloves and heavy clothing so alec isn't really touching him but magnus refuses to try because he doesn't want to risk it not working and alec getting hurt, because he'd never forgive himself. besides, getting a taste would only make it hurt more. he can't. he can't

but it's alright because at least he has some human company - he loves his friends, he does, fiercely, but it's different when they kind of have no choice but to be with him and also are enchanted creatures. he doesn't even know if they aren't nice to him just because he enchanted them into life, even tho to be fair if he had a choice ragnor wouldn't be that grouchy - and alec makes him laugh and gets him and helped make his place feel more like home, a little bit. and he can pretend that he feels the warmth from alec's body when they are sitting by the fire and feed these crumbs to his desperate need for touch and company

and then the snowstorm ends and it's time for alec to go

honestly, alec himself is kind of heartbroken, but- he loves his sister, and he can't just leave her alone in god knows where, even if he dreads the thought of coming back home now that he's been away from his family for so long. but magnus doesn't want to keep him, and doesn't want alec to feel pity for him, so he's all but pushing alec out of the door (not literally, of course. he can't do that, it would mean touching him) all "go, go, you never know when another storm might start. go see your sister. take my mirror, you can find her more easy". and alec's all "but it's been the only thing-" and magnus waves him off, of course, all "i can always make myself another one. besides, you'll have something to remember me by. now go"

so.... alec goes

and hooo boy magnus is heartbroken and a mess because even tho he knew how much having someone else there helped he had almost forgotten what it was like to be the only human in the house. he just feels extra lonely and even kind of bad about it because hey, his friends are there - not that they begrudge him for it, of course. it's not like they don't also hope for the chance to get out of the house and do other things, but well. they can't. so they understand him. and they know how awful he's feeling right then, but what can they do?

meanwhile alec finds izzy pretty quickly - she's living with this one insufferable villager named clary that alec absolutely can't stand, but- she's happy. and she doesn't want to come back, which alec expected, but he finds that he can't actually insist for her to come back. how could he, when he himself doesn't want to go?

and izzy insists that he stays with her - there's no reason for him to come back. they can stay in the village, and work, and build a life for themselves. alec is the only thing she's been missing ever since she left, and in here the both of them can actually be happy. and do it together, like they're meant to

and when he first gets into the village is the first time since izzy ran away that he was hugged and fuck, it's hard to say no to her

but also... he misses magnus already

and he doesn't know if he can just stay and leave him behind

and of course izzy is like "who is magnus?" so alec tells her the story, how he was attacked by wolves and rescued by this house that miraculously was in the middle of the single most inhospitable placealec had ever seen in his life. and the kind but wary stranger who always keeps his distance but seems so eager for connection, who made alec feel welcome and laugh and feel like he built a life for himself there

and clary tells him that she's heard of the story, but she never knew it was more than a legend - no one really remembers what happened. some say that magnus made a sacrifice to rid the village of a demon, and it turned him into a beast, forever locked in his castle. some say that he himself is the demon, and it's the tower that's containing him and keeping the village safe. some even say that he died battling the demon, and it's his ghost that keeps watch on the tower

she wants alec to explain which one is true, but it's all alec can say that none of these are right and he knows nothing because magnus never told him. all alec knows is that he doesn't want to leave magnus behind

and clary is like... well, if he's not a demon or a ghost, maybe we could bring him to the village too. he has magic, right? he could bring the tower closer. and maybe the other villagers could, you know, visit him and hang out. and he wouldn't be as lonely, and then alec and izzy could both stay

driven by this failproof plan, they decide to go back to magnus and tell him their great idea

except they are IDIOTS and forget about. you know. the damn wolves

and like holy shit is this pack big or what? like no seriously why are there infinite wolves in that one singular pack in beauty and the beast. like holy shit dude there's more wolves near the beast's house than in the whole yellowstone park

anyway there are Many Wolves and while alec is a good archer, izzy is a fantastic fighter, and clary is Fucking Crazy if you give her something stabby, there's only so many wolves they can take on at the same time

good thing magnus is a pining idiot who did in fact make himself another magic mirror and was watching alec with it. so he knows that the dumbass is in trouble and for the first time in years, he uses the portal (his own invention, and he had never gotten to use it before!) to get to them and fight off the wolves

so magnus saves all their lives, at the cost of getting severely injured and passing the fuck out. izzy, who's the one closest, runs to get to him and help put him on one of their horses... and is immediately hit by a blast of magic that almost makes HER pass tf out too

which is when they finally learn that, oh. that is the curse

izzy is fine, of course - the pain ended as soon as she was away from magnus

but it does pose the problem of How The Fuck Are They Getting Him Back To Safety, because they can't exactly wait for magnus to wake up (it's freezing, for starters) but with this amount of pain it won't be physically possible for them to hoist him up and get him on the horse. shit, will the curse work on the horse?

they bring alec's horse (by far the strongest of them because alec is huge buff mcgee) and try to get him to touch magnus and the spell does NOT work on the horse because in order to be dramatic asmodeus was like "you shall never feel human touch again" when he cast the spell, which accidentally gave a LOOPHOLE for non-human animals. so magnus could have had cats the whole time, which he had always dreamed of, but he didnt want to risk testing. besides, his house would be a poor environment for a cat and [self torture noises]

anyway thats one less problem to deal with, 99 to go, so they use some ropes to hoist magnus on top of the horse and bring him back to the tower (it's closer than the village) so they can tend to his wounds. thankfully, as the assigned Big Brother of a very irresponsible izzy, alec has experience with first aid, altho he never really dealt with anything quite this bad. and magnus' friends help, too, as much as they can. inevitably this means that alec ends up touching him even if by accident sometimes, but he knows what to expect so he Powers Through It because he won't let magnus die, damn. and as horrible as that is alec has experience with powering through pain, so. he's gonna bandage him up god damn it

izzy can't stand to see him dealing with that himself tho, so she helps, and clary ends up helping as well because they figure sharing the pain makes it easier and alec doesn't have to be too hurt. minimal touching accidents for alec! good

*narrator voice* And Then Magnus Wakes Up And Alec Hugs Him

full on launches on top of him and brings him into his arms and Magnus screams like NONONO OH MY GOD WHAT ARE YOU DOING ALEC NO GET OFF ME YOU'LL BE HURT and his shock and distress at the whole thing sends another whole blast of magic that explodes that whole mf before it can touch alec and alec feels no pain and magnus is like.............. did i just COUNTER the spell? and everyone's like well! it looks like u did!

which earns him ANOTHER hug (oh my god alec stop he's so stressed out by this) (who knew alec was so touchy?) and this time he's paying attention to that gut reaction and because magnus is a Certified Magic Genius he realizes what it is that he's doing to counter the spell and immediately starts working on a way to turn this into unhexxing himself for good

which he DOES after some time idk how long but alec stays with him meanwhile and maybe izzy and clary do too, because magnus needs all the company he can get and besides, izzy has always wanted adventure and clary has never left the village before, so this is interesting to them at least. and magnus gets to meet new ppl which is nice

eventually the Begone Spell spell is performed and it works and turns out that when it does that it also unfucks magnus' magic and perfects his sentience spell turning all of his friends into humans WOW WHOD HAVE THOUGHT. so all of them are free to leave the tower as ppl at the same time and GROUP HUG!! and magnus cries like a baby in the group hug because holy shit hes been needing something like this so bad for so long and he never expected to have that with his friends but here he is :)

and then yeah they all move to the village to live a simple but fulfilling life and Magnus and Alec start living together in a little cottage and become husbands the end <3 this is so long too rip me

#sh #shadowhunters #malec #magnus bane #alec lightwood #izzy lightwood #lightwood siblings #clizzy if u squint #beauty and the beast au #part 2 i guess lmao #ask #shum-baby #long post #abuse mention

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butteraway · 3 years

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when time runs out | iv

⋆ summary: A young girl has fallen deeply ill with an unknown disease in her, so with all her free time spent in an empty hospital room, she spends it online playing video games. That's until she meets her cousins friends, one spiking her interest with his extremely vulgare language.

pairing: bakugou katsuki x reader

word count: 2.5k

warnings: none

authors note: I wanna say im so sorry for lying to yall about that extra chapter KJDFFF😭😭 ALSO @chibiiichann I APOLOGIZE FOR SPAMMING YOU WHENEVER I REPLIED TO YOU💀 A DIFFERENT ACC WOULD POP UP BUT THE FIRST CHAPTER WAS AN INTRODUCTORY CHAPTER EXPLAINING THE OC'S CONDITION JFJDJD

"HAHA! I GOTCHU NOW LOSER!" Y/N smashed the buttons on her controller, basically on the edge of her bed. A grunt was heard through her headphones, then a loud bang with laughing in the background. Y/N felt her stomach turn at the sound of this, feeling a little left out, but smiled nonetheless.

"HOW'D YOU EVEN DO THAT?!! YOU’RE DOING SOME HACKING MY GUY!" Denki yelled through the laughing in the background, hands pulling at his hair. He seriously couldn't believe it!

"I'm not! I just wanted to show Sero I'm way better at this game than you are. And turns out I am!" Y/N let out a loud laugh, falling backwards onto her pillow. After finding out that 'Tape Dispenser' went to her cousin’s school by hearing his voice in the back of Denki's room, she got to learn more about this Sero dude. She already knew this after their last game a few nights ago, but he was so chill. It was still insane for her to find out that her cousin and online friend went to the same hero school. The coincidences in this world. Y/N thought as she grinned.

"It's okay Kaminari, you still lasted a long time! But you did get brutally beat by Y/N at the end though..." Sero said, trying to raise Denki's low spirits, but only succeeded in making him more miserable. Rustling was heard through Y/N's headphones, making it obvious that there was movement happening.

"You don't understand Sero! THIS IS THE ONLY GAME I COULD FULLY BEAT THIS GIRL IN!" Denki shook Sero by the shoulders, quickly doing the action. Cackling was heard through the speakers while the girl wiped a tear from her eye. Sero laughed along, as he was pushed to the ground by Denki. His arms were crossed as he looked away, upset that Y/N managed to finally beat him in every game they played.

"It's okay Denki, not everyone can be as good as me!" Y/N exclaimed, getting up from her bed to start taping specific parts of her room. Kaminari continued to complain about his defeat to Sero, who only chuckled in response. As she finished taping the bottom of the walls, Y/N sat back on her bed, sighing in content.

"So, how are you? I'm doing terribly after being utterly destroyed by you, by the way." Said Kaminari, opening his water bottle and taking large gulps from it. Y/N felt her face light up as she remembered to tell Kaminari of her future activity.

"Bro, you won't believe this! So, basically, they're actually letting me paint my room! All by myself! How fricking cool is that?!" The girl laughed out loud, jumping on her bed in excitement. Kaminari's eyes widen, in surprise and slight fear, sitting up and taking in the new information.

"Wait, really? But isn't that like extremely dangerous? Cuz of the chemicals and what not??" He tried his best to keep his voice leveled, not noticing Sero look at him weirdly. That guy had no idea what was happening.

"Well, they said that they were gonna do something to the paint so it won't hurt me or anything, I don't know what, but-" Y/N was cut off by an extremely confused Sero. "Wait wait wait, hold on. I don't understand what's happening. How can paint harm you? Besides like...eating it. And what do you mean by 'finally getting to paint your room?’ Silence was the only answer he got. Sero gulped in embarrassment, thinking he asked a really personal question.

"Um, it's nothing du-" A loud 'shhhhhhh' was heard from Y/N, who let out a shaky breath. She never really told anyone, it's not like she could either way, being confined in the hospital room for a long time. She pushed a loose strand of her away from her face, preparing herself to tell Sero.

"Well, the reason is because I basically live in a hospital. I can't go outside, or have 'unpurified' air, as the doctors like to say, meaning my interactions with people and the outside world are extremely limited. That means anything that's not cleared of dust and germs, I guess, can be extremely harmful for me? As pathetic as it sounds, it could actually kill me, haha." It was quiet as Sero took in the information, a large wave of emotions crashing on him. A person shouldn't have to be locked in a room for the rest of their life. Especially someone who is such a sweet person like Y/N.

"I-I'm so sorry to hear that Y/N. If you don't mind me asking, how...how long have you been in the hospital?" The young girl answered with a quick 'Two years', and that's when Sero felt his stomach twist uncomfortably. Kaminari abruptly got up and headed towards his door.

"I'm gonna get something to eat, you want something dude?" Kaminari's voice was low and trembling. It didn't take a genius to see that the blonde haired boy needed some time alone. "No thanks." Kaminari let out a hum, quickly exiting his room and closing the door shut. Sero heard the loud sniffs that slowly faded away, as he hung his head down.

"Hey, you good Sero? That was probably a lot to take in, sorry." Sero shook his head, letting a sad smile adorn his face. "It's fine, really. I actually feel honored that you're comfortable telling me. Feels like we're getting closer, to be honest." He smiled happily, meaning every word he said. And Y/N knew that. "Ha, we are though!" The air was tense, despite the two teenagers being in different rooms.

Y/N went to clear her throat, but was interrupted when a light knock echoed throughout her room. "Someone there?" Sero asked, noticing her silence and hearing the very faint knocking.

"Yeah, um Sero, I'll call you guys later, my doctor wants to talk." Y/N quickly replied, seeing Receen open the door and walk in with his thin suit on. Sero let out an ok and they hang up. Y/N finally took in how the doctor looked, noticeable eye bags under his blue-grey eyes, from lack of sleep. His dark hair slightly tousled, probably from putting on the protective helmet that came with the suit, and a small smile on his welcoming face. And a large container of paint in his left hand. Her eyes immediately lit up.

"What’s up doc? I see you have something in your hand, can I see it closer?" The small girl asked, getting up and making a grabbing motion with her hands. Receen chuckled, lifting up the paint for Y/N to see. Even if he were to hand her the container, she wouldn't be able to hold. She was just too weak. Said girl let out a high pitch 'OOOO ' in excitement.

"I'm not sure if you wanted more, but we managed to get you your favorite color! This should be enough to paint the room, you can even put a second layer if you want." Receen walked over to where Y/N put all the equipment, opening the container of paint. And with a low grunt from him, the lid was opened. Y/N watched with amazement as the doctor poured the soft looking paint into a tray. She picked up a roller near her, and drowned the roller in paint, the white fluff getting covered in color.

The two began painting, Y/N's hand shaking every now and then. After painting half the room, they sat in silence, resting for a while. Receen seemed to be tense, though Y/N didn't seem to notice since she was too happy to speak. Receen let out a breath, breaking the silence, causing Y/N to look towards him.

"I didn't get to ask you how you were, did I Y/N? How are you?" Said girl let a beaming smile spread on her face, causing Receen to slightly squint his eyes from the intensity of her smile. "Honestly, I haven't felt this happy in a very long time! I actually still can't believe you guys really let me do this! Thank you so much!"

Receen gave her a small smile while rubbing the back of his neck. "It's not a problem, you could’ve asked sooner and gotten this done a long time ago. You've been here for two years, so please don't be afraid of asking for things!" At the mention of her time spent in the hospital, Y/N lowered her head, causing Receen to wince. Well, might as well tell her. The doctor cleared his throat and began to talk.

"Y/N, as you are aware, I, along with many other doctors and scientists, have been working hard for you to be able to go outside again. To see your family, hug them, be a normal kid again." There was a pause and that alone caught Y/N's attention. She looked up at him. "There is a way for you to finally do that, Y/N."

Shock evident on the girl's face, she abruptly stood up and faced the doctor. There was absolutely no way anyone could have found a cure for someone like her. Someone who had an incurable sickness. Someone who was too sick, to even have medicine. He's lying. Y/N narrowed her eyes at the grown man sitting in front of her.

"With all due respect Doctor, I highly doubt that that's possible. Cuz, y'know? I basically have an incurable disease? I mean, like, even if you did manage to find a way for me to leave this place, how do you even know it's gonna work? I don't think you've tried this medicine since no one in recorded hospital documents in the past have had people like that checked in before-"

"How do you even know that?"

"-so how do you truly know it'll work?" Y/N quickly finished, completely ignoring his statement. Receen sighed, scratching his head. "We live in a world where quirks exist. Would you believe me if I told you centuries ago that the human race would evolve to have super powers? It's kind of like that, but not really." Y/N eyed him suspiciously. He's avoiding the question.

Receen looked straight at the girl standing in front of him. He felt slightly intimidated by her piercing gaze. He quickly looked away and got up, towering over Y/N's small frame. Then he smiled. "Y/N, you are a very sweet girl, no doubt about it. I know how much you want to get out of here, and I want to help you. My team has created this almost perfect pill, especially suited for your sickness. I know you're very cautious, just like your mother, but I can only reassure you, that these are your ticket out of here." He pulled out the bottle from his protective suit, shaking it in front of [Y/N].

Her eyes widened as she restrained herself from reaching out and snatching the bottle. Her eyes slightly narrowed as she pulled herself together. Crossing her arms and slightly tilting her upwards, she looked into the doctor's bright eyes. "There's always a catch when it comes to these kinds of things. What's the price if I take these? My lifespan shortens, I only have five hours to go outside, it drugs me or something?"

"I'm hurt you think I would just give you these without setting out the consequences." There was a slight glint in his eyes before it quickly disappeared. Y/N hummed, urging the doctor to continue.

"There are exactly 15 pills in here. And consuming just one of these bad boys right here, would allow you to go outside! Though, time is very important when taking these. You'd have 10 hours before the pills effects wear off. These would dull your hypersensitive senses, but not to a point where you can't feel, smell or do anything. No no, it'd just be like how you were before. You'd feel slightly dizzy and be a little itchy, but besides that, nothing too extreme. It just dulls all your body senses down." Receen gave Y/N a small smile. She looked a little weary, unsure if what he said was true. She looked at the bottle then back to Doctor Receen, fingers twitching every now and then. Breathing in and letting it out slowly, Y/N stared straight into the doctor's eyes.

If I take these, I can finally go out. I can hug mom and dad, I can be around Denki again. I can meet Sero face to face and feel the grass again! I can be... happy again. But if these don't actually work, I'd immediately die on the spot. I'd be able to go outside though. Aah, so much going outside, I can meet new people! I don't wanna spend the rest of my days slowly rotting away in here anyway.

"So Y/N, are you going to take them or let all our time go to waste?"

Sero looked at his hands solemnly, thinking about what Y/N had told him. He swallowed the lump forming in his throat, then lightly slapped his cheeks to stop the wave of emotions from spilling out.

"Yo, you good dude? It's not everyday I see someone willingly slapping themselves." Kaminari chuckled, walking in and closing the door with his foot as he carried a soda bottle and a bag of chips towards the boy sitting on his bed. Sero grinned, feeling the sadness of everything wash away.

"Yeah, I'm perfectly fine. But what about you though? After we had that conversation, you were, well, umm... kind of out of it." Kaminari froze, letting a dejected smile appear on his face. Dragging a hand down his face, he let out a sorrowful laugh.

"She's my best friend. My first real, true friend. She's basically my sister at this point. So when she collapsed that day, I felt my whole world crashing down. She is the sweetest, the most kindest, person I have ever met. She never let me degrade myself, alway cheered me up when people called me stupid." Kaminari rubbed his eyes, opening the bag of chips and plopping one of them into his mouth.

"It hasn't been the same ever since she left, her parents barely come over anymore, and they're always so sad whenever I see them. My own parents aren't the same either, they treated her like their own daughter. I can't even begin to imagine how Y/N feels about this all. She was the top in our grade, highest scores in our test. No one could compare to her. M-my heart breaks for her. She lost everything." Sero let that information sink in, thinking about how she was before. He smiled as he saw Kaminari's shoulders begin to shake. He cares so much for her.

He put his hand on his shoulder, watching Kaminari slowly lift his face towards him. "Come here you emotional ball of feelings." Being the friendly guy he is, Sero gave the sobbing boy a hug, cuz hugs fix everything.

"No homo though bro." And with that, they both laughed out loud, continuing their bro day.

#bakugou katsuki #bakugou #bakugou x reader #bakugou katuski x reader #mha #bnha #mha angst #bnha fluff #bnha x reader #fanfic

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aitarose · 3 years

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hi! i’ve been so inactive lately and wanted to post something today, and i realized i haven’t made an appreciation post for my moots in a hot minute—so hey hotties, here’s some cute words about uu. oh and this isn’t all of my mutuals, just the one’s i’ve spoken to outside of the discord lol asjfdkl

@hesthermay —❥ you’re one of my best friends and ilysm and i hope that we get to meet in person one day, so you can endlessly hear me talk about how much i love jimmy woo. also i want to get matching marvel bracelets or smth, gonna look on etsy later for us ajskdlf

@probablydisgusting —❥ you’re like actually so funny and sweet, whenever you pop in the gc on snap just to say goodmorning or goodnight—it really makes everyone’s day and we love having you around. plus, you were one of the first people to pop into my inbox when i was an atla blog and i think that’s so nice.

@imarizaki —❥ i literaly love you sm mari, like you’re adorable and i want to give you a hug, i feel like you give rlly good hugs. and congrats on 400!! you deserve it and i hope 500 comes rolling around fast so you can hit another milestone in the near future ajskfdl

@tsukishumai —❥ cam i swear i know your name like I SWEAR I DO! you’re like an older sister to everyone in the discord and you bring such a comforting presence like it’s so nice to have you in the chat whenever you choose to pop in. you’re quite literally the calm to our insanity

@fukurodianthus —❥ dani you’re asleep rn but when you wake up and see this i want you do know that ily wifey. pls i love it when you harass me in my inbox, i think it’s so funny AND IM GOING TO FLOOD YOUR’S EVENTUALLY I JUST NEED TO BECOME ACTIVE AGAIN ASDJKL

@missmorosis —❥ you’re literally one of my favorite moots ever and you’re always so sweet to me and everyone else around you, it’s so heartwarming to see your positivity and happiness on tumblr and how hard you work! pls ilysm

@ray-ofmoonlight —❥ I LOVE TALKING TO YOU ABOUT THE BACHELOR. i haven’t responded in a hot minute, but dw i’ll answer in a bit i have to go through my messages jaksfld. you’re so nice and fun, and literally the sweetest ever

@diorzumi —❥ hi rheya! i’m so glad you took the time and all that hard work to make the server, like that’s insane and i still can’t believe you did all of that. pls the amount of effort you put into keeping it up is so evident and amazing!! also ur rlly pretty, like RLLY pretty

@luvoikawa —❥ gigi!! my face literally lights up whenever i see you in my notifs or on my dash pls. i love your energy sm and the presence you bring to the discord. like idk, you just seem really cool to me, does that make sense? like you have cool girl energy.

@sugas-cookie —❥ hello rissie. you should be sleeping rn, but ily and you’re my favorite and only child, and no matter what i say i would never bring you back to the ditch. but like...the frogs? i fucking hate the frogs, abolish all frogs they make me physically cringe i cannot.

@kei7ime —❥ CHLOEEE!! every time i see your theme i feel so satisfied, like it’s so pretty it rlly is. you’re so fun and i love talking to you or just popping in your inbox to say hi. omg hi chloe!! ok ok ily

@pxnk-velvet —❥ angie your drawing of us are so cute and i love them sm, and i can’t wait to read the story that you’ve been writing of our gc as a volleyball team, like pls i’m so excited. also the line “just shut up already, angie” lives in my head rent free

@miyalove —❥ hi dylan! i haven’t popped in your inbox in a while but i just wanted to tell you that i love u and you’re so nice and sweet and ilysm. you give off hot girl energy dylan, like for real, you rlly do.

@iwaizoom —❥ HI JADE. you’re so nice and your blog is so pretty, like the light green jaskljl PLS ITS SO PRETTY. i love the vibes you give off like you’re so chill and so easy to talk to sjakljdkl pls ilysm

@kageyuji —❥ lore i love you. like i love you. every time i talk to you i just feel happy like idk it’s this overwhelming feeling, you just have this gift where people feel comfortable when they’re talking to you. and your blog is so pretty pls asdjl

@hikariakaashi —❥ you’re one of my favorite moots, firstly bc of our interactions on tumblr in the early days of the discord and now on snap too. you have rlly good style, like rlly good style—and whenever you do your voice asks, your voice is like rlly pretty! girl you have a rlly pretty voice!

@ceci-chan —❥ hi twinnie! pls i think it’s so funny that we have literally the exact same nose, that’s actually wild. it’s so fun to watch your blog grow and your events are so cute and ily

@nekomabvc —❥ i buried you in here so you’d have to search for your part. literally going to say nothing i’m tired of writing about you goodbye. you called me a whore this morning. that’s not very swag of you, i’m going to report you to mab and cancel you on corpse tumblr.

@bellesowl —❥ hi isa! we haven’t interacted all that much, but in the times we have you’ve been so kind. and you’re rlly pretty, just sayin. you’re blog is also super aesthetic and i literally live for it, pls the muted tones are everything ajsdlk

@gellysticks —❥ angela pls you’re actually so funny like you’re so funny. every time your tiktoks come up in my suggested they literally make me laugh pls—but the frogs are terrible. abort frogs. this is a frog slandering blog. me and all my homies HATE frogs.

@cafemiya —❥ issy you give off such hot girl energy (and you are a hot girl anyways) and your energy is so contagious, like idk how it just is. you bring this positivity to the discord just by being there and i know everyone is so thankful that you’re so interactive with us jaskfdl

@biqherosix —❥ DANIZA I HAVEN’T OPENED YOUR SNAP YET BUT I RLLY WANT TO HEAR YOUR BAND PLAY. pls that’s literally so cool, like i wish i was in a cool band with my friends jsakdljkl. i love talking to you and we’ve been friends for like a good three months now which is crazy

@velvetfireworks —❥ rach i literally never read fics but yours are so good and they live in my head rent free. PLS THE SAKUSA ONE FOR THE BROKEN HEARTS CLUB AUDHS. you’re so nice and so talented and i reread your masterlist OMG I JUST REMEMBERED THE MOB AU ONE THAT ONE IS PERFECTION.

@hajiswife —❥ hi gabbie! your blog is gorgeous and your so nice pls!! like i literally can’t believe we’re mutuals it hits me like a brick. i love your works and your energy sjaklfdjl i’ll probably be popping in your inbox later just to say hi lol

@svgashi —❥ NIKE!!! omg we’re literally sister wives. you’re the first moot i had on tumblr that understood how great sugawara is and it’s like a breath of fresh air from the constant slandering my friends give him. ILY

@sexy-bee-juice —❥ aja!! i love getting your messages and just saying the most out of pocket things with you, and your reblogs make me laugh so hard like you’re rlly funny. also my broken french is terrible but i’m glad it makes you laugh ajskfdl

@koutarousangel —❥ MICKEY PLS YOURE SO FUNNY. I LOVE YOUR VIBES AND EVERYTHING LIKE YOURE FUNNY. and ily too. just putting that in there in case i haven’t said it in a while <3

@hvnlydmn —❥ hi ains! congrats on 5k!! that’s literally so insane like omg you must be reeling rn jadskfl you really really deserve it tho, everyone sees how hard you work and how much content you produce in such a short amount of time CONGRATS ILY

@akaashi-bby —❥ victoria you were the first person i talked to teen wolf with in like three years pls. i’m listening to a song from the show atm and it’s making me sad but ilysm and i love talking to you about literally anything

@laineywritesstuff —❥ LAINE!! hi! you’re so pretty like you look like you give the warmest hugs and i feel like if i ever met you in person i’d just get engulfed does that make sense? you’re so nice and ilysm and i hope you’re have a fantastic day!

@kiyoalex —❥ you’re rlly funny. like rlly funny. and i feel like we match each other’s energy pretty well in pms. pls my insanity is too real back there BUT IT’S OK I THINK BC YOU SEEM TO UNDERSTAND IT LOL ILY

@shoutamajiki —❥ hi nana!! you’re so nice and i’m so glad you joined the discord! and i’m so sorry i added you to my terrible private story on snap pls it’s so bad i’m very very sorry about that jksalfjdl

@sunacity —❥ nea i love your works so much like literally they LIVE in my head. you’re so talented and i can’t believe we’re mutuals that’s literally insane bc i love your stuff pls. and on top of being talented you’re so nice, like the nicest jaskdflj i can’t

ok ok i think that’s it for now, this isn’t all of my mutuals—but it’s the one’s i interact with the most and if we are moots and i didn’t include you pls my inbox or pms are always open to just like go insane in. ok have a great rest of your day!!

#2021:appreciation

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