#Learning About Myself

[napqueenkae]

Not knowing that your traumatic upbringing has affected your outlook on life isn't your fault.

Not wanting to learn how to fix your mindset so you show up as a healed version of yourself is 100% your responsibility.

#napqueenkae #black tumblr #black women in femininity #black women in leisure #black women in luxury #learning about myself #level up journey #leveled up mindset #higher self #self love #shadow work #tramatized #healing ourselves #self healing

[saturnisscreaming]

Fun fact I used to laugh in my sleep and sleep with one eye open

#cryptic #cryptid #horror #mild horror #monstercore #cryptidcore #creepy #fear #weirdcore #body horror. #weird core #true story #fun facts #learning about myself #strange core #cryptid core #cryptic core #cryptids #weird facts #not my usual content #shit posting #shitposting #shit post #shitpost #stupid post #comedy #this is true #i am so silly #creepycore #strangecore

[anamollyintime]

My therapist called me a woman today

And it was the most validating thing I have felt in a long, long while.

Any remaining doubts I have about who I am inside have gone away over recent weeks (thanks to @kryspiekream for helping me break my shell a little when I needed it most), and this was enough to make the remaining doubts disappear completely. I am sure they will be replaced by different doubts and worries, but for the moment - sitting here in my closet where I joined the session (seemed the proper place for it), crying from happiness - I am doubt free and feel a warm sense of acceptance.

I. Am. A. Woman. Even when I do not feel particularly feminine, even when I look in the mirror and hate what I see. Who I am inside is who I am meant to be.

#trans #transgender #egg no more #learning about myself #gender euphoria #anomalous thoughts #anomalous origins

[alostlittleriverlotus]

anyway learned about deeply rooted trauma in me, that I have ASPD, and that I'm a system and that is all I'm saying because it is extremely personal and I am quite fragile and unstable.

My life makes a lot more sense now. Things I was always confused over and now I'm like "Ohhhhh, so that was just that. Right. Got it."

Been a lot better with my sh and suicide urges too since I now know how to rely on my system and alters.

Also learned I'm semiverbal and that I have just been forcing myself to be fully speaking for years cause of the expectations.

I'm learning a lot about myself, how I work, what has been hidden from me because of ableism and trauma, and so much more. I'm positive about my future though because I feel...so much better than I ever used to. I like that I have answers now even if I'm not allowed to know too much for the safety of our body. I feel like I can understand myself and my reactions and all of that a lot better.

Every day I'm learning and trying to understand myself. That makes me happy. That's my goal :3

#system #osdd system #aspd #actually antisocial #learning about myself #unmasking #semiverbal #semispeaking #actually disabled #actually autistic #actually borderline #actually traumatized #actually histrionic #disabled #actually narcissistic #npd #bpd #hpd #I'm a mess #but I feel good

[transpapi10]

Love is seldom reciprocated, but when it is, there have been accounts of sparks flying.

How often this occurs is beyond measure.

But surely as it has happened once, it shall occur again, as most instances do.

Were I lucky enough to encounter such an occurrence I would tell all who would listen.

A fool in love I shall be labeled.

No other thought brings me as much happiness as does falling in love.

#love #me #ftm #gemini #lgbtq #single #trans #transgender #learning about myself #heartbreak #fool in love #growth #personal growth #poems on tumblr #poetry

[softtopxpressions]

When my days are dark I find looking at beautiful things help… so far she’s the most gorgeous thing I’d ever seen

#softest life #self care #self healing #black girls frolic #softtopxpressions #learning about myself #leisure is lovely #blktumblr #blkgirldaily #black culture #blackgirlmagic #blackout #black people #black beauty #black community #black art #black fairy #black excellence #black femininity #black girl luxury #black girls in luxury #black girls of tumblr #black is gold #black joy #black love #beach life #beachlife #black lesbian

[upmala]

There is a Body.

Body is an Interface, but also a Creature. Body tells me things, though it cannot use words. Body gives signals. Sometimes it is soft and fuzzy contentment, sometimes it is screaming, demanding, throwing a tantrum. Moving makes Body happy. Sleeping makes Body calm. Not eating makes Body anguish.

But Body does not know context. Body does not learn from the past, Body does not understand future. Body can only be Now.

I am the Interpreter, and the Caretaker. Body is my tool, but equally, it is my home. I would not survive without it. It is my responsibility to interpret Body’s signals and take good care of it. Even when it is scared, screaming, throwing a tantrum.

#personal #self care #embodiment #meditation #anxiety #overexcited nervous system #learning about myself #loving myself #loving the body unconditionally

[wayfaringauthorofficial]

Talons gleam in the moonlight, ready to tear me to ribbons again. I just tied off the last stitch. Hard to believe it's come to this. It's too much too soon, but this world is cruel. I guess it's time to give in or die.

-Eagle's cry.

#just hold me #amwriting #amwriting poetry #just finished #just wrote this #writing about my life #personal #my own words #spilled ink #writing about it #i'm so numb #there is so much pain #learning about myself #i don't miss those days #but i feel like i need them back #not sure if that makes any sense #thinking too much #leave me alone #memories on a carousel #round and round #too much pain #can't really explain it #idk if this makes any sense

[happytaffeta]

Hi so today I learned from my mom, who has been doing family genealogy for both her and my dad’s family trees for some years now as a hobby, that on her side we have some Jewish ancestors from somewhere in Germany, many generations back(I am not sure of the exact number, I would have to ask her for more info). We know that they were Jewish because the records for them that she found are synagogue records.

It is probably not an unbroken maternal line, so by the heritability rules of Judaism, I am probably not officially Jewish. But there is some Jewish ancestry there and that is pretty cool I think.

#family history #learning about myself #neat shit my mom found #geneaology

[napqueenkae]

Understanding the role you play in a uneven friendship is really important for boundary setting. When you have friends you can't count on, It makes you feel isolated, miserable and distressed. You have to shift tide so you don't constantly find yourself giving more than you receive.

#napqueenkae #me #my post #learning about myself #thoughts #my thought #friends #friendships #boundaries #black tumblr #self care #self work #self love journey

[the-confused-asexual]

Okay so I wanted to talk about my experience before I figured out I was ace for a minute, considering I've not seen anyone with a similar experience yet. (Sorry for the long post in advance)

Before I realised I was ace I didn't feel like something was wrong with me, I didn't even think that sexual attraction was an inside joke everyone was in on. I genuinely did not know that it was a thing, never heard of the word at all.

I am someone who grew up watching a lot of Disney princes movies and listening to and reading a lot of fairy tales (I promise I'll get to my point), those things are the only things that really gave me any information about relationships. All these princeses and other female characters had really one thing in common: they got a happy ending that followed the lines of: married to a Prince or otherwise heroic guy, who also was their soulmate or something that came close to that (even if it wasn't really mentioned), they had a couple kids and that was their happy ending.

I thought that was how it really happend. I had never heard of sexual attraction before, so I didn't miss it. I thought everyone had a soulmate they would meet, marry and have kids with.

So when I first learned about sex (just sex, not sexual attraction) I saw it only as a way to have kids. I thought everyone did.

Now mind you, i used to go to a Christian school, and my parents are also very much Christian (not in a really extreem way, but sex was just never talked about) so I had to learn really everything I know about sex and sexual attraction (other than the biology of sex and all that) trough the Internet.

When I first learned of the asexual identity I was like "oh cool, I support those people, but I am very much just an ally, I can't be ace" but in a not really active manner? Like I didn't really do any soul searching to make sure I wasn't ace, but I did think it in a more passive way, if that makes any sense at all.

Because even then sexual attraction was not talked about a whole lot in the things that I saw so for me it remained something that didn't really exist.

So I guess that is the story of an ace who didn't feel broken or like they were missing out or missing anything at all for that matter.

#asexual #asexuality #questioning #aspec #acespec #ace culture #im ace #learning about myself #lgbqia #pride #pride month 🌈 #asexual spectrum #ace pride #ace positivity

[anamollyintime]

Laundry day 🙂. It is a cliche to say but these things, invisible to the world, make me feel closer to myself.

#learning about myself

[koddlet]

personal rules for winter ❄

#this was fun bc i didn't intend for it to be kind of cryptic #i just wanted to make some reminders for myself about winter cuz i never learn #especially the back cover which i guess isn't really a rule but still stands. i'm in a rural place so when it gets dark it's Dark #and its hard to want to do anything #zine #mini zine #illustration #nonfandom #analogue art

[mrtequilasunset]

Listen man, you guys can't be like "you guys need to be normal about asexuality" and then turn around and get weirdly judgemental when you find out someone doesn't have sex by choice. Like that's weird that some of you do that.

#like I love sex im glad we're hyping it up #but also genuinely some of you have got to learn how to be normal around people who dont want to have sex #even if you're not talking about asexuality when you say stuff like that you're still being a weirdass #im not ace myself but i keep seeing posts that come across like they're taking it personally that other people don't want to have sex #it sounds like theyre trying to prove something to someone

[transpapi10]

To love another as I loved you is an impossible task.

For I am not the man I once was.

How I love has evolved in your absence.

I have evolved in your absence.

As the leaves change and fall from the trees, such is how I have gone through my own metamorphosis.

#love #me #ftm #gemini #lgbtq #single #trans #transgender #poetry #poems on tumblr #evolution #metamorphosis #growth #personal growth #therapy #learning about myself

[softtopxpressions]

I’m fem.

I’m butch.

I’m masc.

The Mix of Mika 💅🏾🧘🏾‍♀️💪🏾

#black lesbian #blktumblr #black girls of tumblr #blkgirldaily #blackgirlmagic #softest life #black culture #black girls frolic #self care #self healing #softtopxpressions #healed black women #loving me harder #self discovery #learning about myself #self love #gay #butch lesbian #divine feminine #fem lesbian #masc lesbian #label-less #I’m me #lesbo lyfe #lesbian pride #too gay to care #the mix of Mika 💅🏾🧘🏾‍♀️💪🏾