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#Also sorry while we're at it we should probably talk about how thinking fanfic is inherently stupid
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Going to forever keep advertising my shit with tropes because do I have to? No. Am I too "stupid" to do it another way? No, not really. And as you've all seen, I also am perfectly capable of writing real blurbs and do write real blurbs. But I think it's fun to make the pic with the tropes anyway and have that around too. And also it keeps the pretentious people away. The sort who don't understand reading is not always for taking a "discomfort" vitamin because they A) are privileged enough to not have discomfort every day of their life to need to escape from or B) are fresh out of college and haven't discovered the joys of/have been shamed OUT of reading as a fun low pressure thing they can do to escape when they're fucking tired (and they think this sort of thing is new with fanfic and not more or less how "trash" lit like romance novels are marketed), as opposed to reading as some sort of Moral Duty To Be Deep that was instilled in them by a middle aged straight white English professor who thinks one can fulfill this by writing 10 pages about books where people scream at each other, have affairs with young women, or Make Up A Guy to warn people about things that Could Happen (that *cough* already happen to marginalized people *cough*) Anyway it's my version of a scarecrow. Firing shots to keep the rent low. Come take a seat next to me in the dumpster my fellow raccoons.
#Doing this for music of my heart for one day when I cram it all into a delicious tropey collection#God the only thing I hate about this post though is how the length of that sentence reminds me of Charles Dickens I fuckin hate that guy#I love being a shallow gremlin it's part of my brand#I jest but tbh I just am so over that stuff#It's another version of trashing romance novels or pop music or whatever to feel deep#Like if you were really deep#You would conceive of the breadth of humanity - only a fraction of which is inherently graspable by you on a deeper level#You would conceive of the fact that the experiences of the collective of humanity amount to 8 billion inner universes#You would conceive of how the ultimate 'depth' is accepting that you will only ever dip your finger into the surface of the lake#Of human experience#And that nothing hints at the existence of this lake more than someone being able to take joy in or find value#In something which you are fundamentally incapable of inherently ascribing value to - a truth that there's absolutely no fault in#aside from the fault of believing a value is universal because you possess it#This is also sort of like that thing where I talk like a caffienated teenager in a 2003 deviant art forum#But I can whip out the 'correct' grammar and spelling as needed to shut someone up who's being needlessly pretentious#I know this will get no notes and you'll think me a fool shooting myself in the foot but I really don't care#1) I have a day job so I can afford all the attitude I want#And 2) I feel like the people who like my stuff get it....and that's fine with me#if my friends and regulars like things that's good enough for me#Also sorry while we're at it we should probably talk about how thinking fanfic is inherently stupid#Or not a valuable form of reading material#Is deeply linked with homophobia and misogyny#There are a LOT of problems with fanfic but they mostly have to do with people focusing on derivative work at the expense of#Indie creators getting attention for original work that doesn't benefit from a corporations' billions of dollars of marketing
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greenteaanon · 5 months
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I'll love you no matter
Scaramouche X reader
2/18 promised fanfics
Slight angst WITH FLUFF!!! Also a fuck ton of red flags
(s/c/n) - Scaramouche's chosen name
This is made out of spite for @scarazone yea i know it took a year
This rotted in my drafts (Rushed ending so i can post this dumpster fire)
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You and the Balladeer we're inseparable, so inseparable in fact that you and him still felt like the star crossed lovers you were even after multiple misunderstandings and betrayals. Something you never did but he did, everytime you forgave him because deep down you knew he didn't mean to hurt you.
But as the time passed you start to think. Does he actually care about me or am I just another one of his followers?
He no longer stopped by with Sumeru Roses or Sweets, Even so far as tolerating Dango which he openly expressed is not a fan of. It made you—
..what was I talking about.... You thought, you don't remember the last thing you remember was a mental note to go on errands.
Taking your woven basket, you thought about where it came from.
'I think I saw this at the flower shop a while back....ehh I probably forgot about buying a boquet' you continue to ponder on the idea not realizing the blonde traveller calling you.
That was until they grabbed your arm. "Oh Sorry Traveller I didn't see you there, do you need something?" You turn to face them properly.
"No no it's ok!" Little paimon squeaked, slightly panting from chasing you They ask "Do you know the Balladeer?" Your eyes widen in shock and confusion. It felt so familiar.
"I feel like I do....But I don't remember what or who....it was" you mumbled the traveller seemed to be glad you remember something even if it's just a little. Rushing they grabbed your hand "No time to explain We need to get you to Nahida!" Rushing past crowds up the stairs past scholars to the Sanctuary of Surasthana.
"Wait we're meeting with Lesser Lord Kusanali!!??" You shrieked going to fix your hair and clothes to be a little more presentable, They pushed you inside in a rush.
"You guys slow down, atleast explain what's going on!" you resisted trying not to trip while they pulled you harder. "Don't worry, The traveller will explain everything for me" nahida spoke up.
"Lesser lord Kusanali! It's a pleasure to meet you!" placing a hand over your heart and bowing. "Don't worry! Its nice to meet you too, I guess that the traveler brought you here because of some recent events.."
"I still don't get what's happening.." you repeated. "It's ok we can explain everything now" Paimon said.
They sat you down and explained everything "But how did you find out about me? Compared to you I just a random person" You asked
Nahida stepped forward "I hid some stories about a wandering prince and a lady that lives in a flower, I made it to look like a kid's fairytales to avoid being erased, sort of like a back up file" she placed a finger on her cheek with a wondering expression.
"A lady that lives in a flower..." You giggled sweetly. "It's how he described you" Nahida shrugged. "No..no..its all right! It really does sound like something he'd say" you smiled holding back more giggles.
"WHAT! THE BALADEER BEING HAPPY AND SWEET???" Paimon screeched. "I've never met him any other way-" you spoke incredibly highly of him, of course you loved the man, no matter what.
"Would you like to meet him again?" The traveler asked reaching a hand out for you. Your eyes widen and then you smiled "If its not a problem with you then sure, I'd love to! But id rather stay here with lesser lord kusanali...im not very fit to be honest" you muttered. The traveler allowed you to. As both of you patiently waited for them to arrived you heard a high pitch voice scream. "WE'RE HERE!!!"
Your head whipped to see The Balladeer sporting a teal version of his outfit, lacking the fatui insignas, of course. Lacking the words to talk to him, your mouth was left agape.
He slowly walked towards you. "I- I feel like I should....know you," reaching out his hand hesitantly. By instinct, you pull him close for a hug. "Pretty boy! You're back!!" Giggling and squealing as you're hugging him tighter. He stutters,flustered as he hugs you back. But that's when they can see a soft, gentle smile on his face.
"Wow....If i didn't see this... I wouldn't believe it to be true!" Paimon piqued. Nahida looked over, smiling. "I dont get it. What's...happening...I need to go back and help at the shop, " he said, not noticing he was holding onto your arm. Nahida stepped up and started to explain.
"What...I...I did what?" His eyes wide and hands shaking, he couldn't believe what he was hearing. "If you accept that this is a part of you...i can give back the memories."
He accepted and as the giant robotic body that seemed to have his old motifs on it start to move on its own, the traveler tried to keep you and the others out of harm's way as you stood behind Wanderer having a breakdown.
The ray of light came coming towards you. It was then he stood up with new found power of Anemo he'd finally accepted his past. Now he was trying his best to protect you. His one and only.
After the situation died down both of you now stayed in Sumeru to live both of your lives together.
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Happy one year anniversary to this draft
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marvel-m-lee · 2 years
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Are you still doing requests? If so, could we please get lee!Hawks? I don't care so much who the ler is! Preferably with his wings getting their just desserts. 😁
Weird Wings
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Words: 4184
Fandom: MHA
Characters: Lee!Hawks, Ler!Endeavour (mini lee!todoroki, Lee/ler!fuyumi)
Summary: Hawks keeps acting weird whenever his wings are touched and Endeavour is trying to figure out why, until his family shows him.
A/N: this is 4k words long. It's probably one of my favourite fanfics. It took 2-3 hours to write too. Honestly I love it. Plus the mini family scene is my favourite. ALSO YAY. Sorry its adorable, stay safe yall, and ty for this 😭😭😭
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"Im glad we could come out for a meal again, Endeavour" The winged hero teased, the two having just ordered their meal.
Of course, the number one hero sat with his arms crossed, looking down to his second place. The two were wearing casual clothes- as casual as they could at least. Hawks had invited Endeavour out for a meal to chat about work along with other things like hanging out next Tuesday or catching up with his family.
"What did you want to talk about Hawks" Endeavour ordered as Hawks gave a toothy smile. Of course the winged hero sat back with his hands up as if put at gun point while chuckling.
"Woah! Endeavour! I just wanted to catch up, like old friends"
"We aren't old friends"
"No but we're new ones! How's life up top Number One?" Hawks teased, leaning on the table while looking up to the taller man.
Endeavour sighed, rolling his eyes and leaning forward a little. "Fine. I'm currently Training Shoto along with his friends; as a favour. They're out right now with a few sidekicks so I could attend this meeting actually"
Hawks grinned, "aw, thanks for taking time to see me 'Devie" Endeavour gave the younger a weird look at the nickname.
"Never call me- that- again" he replied as a waitress walked over to give them their meal. Hawks laughed it off and flirted with the waitress for a moment before the two ate their meals with a little more chatter then paying the bill to leave.
Of course, the whole time it's was mostly the Winged Hero talking, going on and on about something or other. Endeavour swore the bird enjoyed the sound of his own voice a little too much, though he still listened.
Funnily enough they talked nearly no business other than how their work was going at their new spots since all might stepped down. Even talking about that too. And it wasn't awful, but by the time the two were walking outside of the building, Endeavour was really beginning to get sick of Hawk's continious chatter.
The two stepped outside, Hawks going on and on about something Endeavour'd already forgotten about. And without thinking nor hesitation the number one hero brushed his hand along the winged hero's feathers in hopes to make him shut up for a moment.
Instead though, the younger's face began to blush and he made a strange wiggling with his body to turn his feathers away from Endeavour with a crooked smile on his face and a giggle in his sentence. He finished his sentence and checked his phone for the time, suddenly in a rush.
Endeavour furrowed his eyebrows and watched closely at Hawk's reaction, slightly confused at how hawks had suddenly become a little flustered. The winged hero rubbed his neck and stretched his back.
"Ah! Have you seen the time? Wow, we should really get back to our agencies- nice chatting though, we should do this again sometime Endeavour. See you around!" With that he was off and took to the skies, a couple teenage girls and a guy squealed, two fainting as they saw him fly away, screaming his name.
Hawks smiled down to them but not once looked back at Endeavour, nor made eye contact for less than a second after the attempt to make him shut up.
Endeavour questioned it in his mind but overall just decided to let it go for the moment. But it kept popping up, again and again.
The next time they fought it happened, against the Villian Dabi who at that moment had Hawks in a tricky position and decided to dance a hand up his wings which resulted in a crooked smile and slightly pink face (though it was difficult to see with all the fighting) before Hawks pushed free and the fight continued.
Again it happened when they were training some of the kids together, Hawks insisted on helping Endevour (mostly to get an idea of the three boys) and helped out one day. Though, of course, Izuku Midoriya got a little too close while asking a thousand questions and mumbling about the hero's wings while touching them making him jump away with again a crooked smile and awkward laugh, telling him that it was enough for one day before helping out a bit more.
That day however, was the third or forth time Endeavour had seen it happen and wondered if it were perhaps something that hurt the winged hero or made him nervous as he always acted a little strange afterwards.
That evening the three boys went over to the Todoroki's and the two Pro Hero's went into Endeavour's office.
Hawks walloped in and threw himself onto the hero's chair behind the desk, putting his feet up jokingly with his grin at Endeavour who just looked down at him with a deadbeat face.
"So, what's up Endevour? Got a top secret mission? Or is it about one of the kid? Their doing really well actually, they're gonna be good pro hero's-" Endevour had walked around and ran a hand over the top of Hawk's marginal convert and alula at the tip of his wings and suddenly the hero shut up and jumped out of the chair while tryna laugh it off as looking at Endeavour while talking.
"You know you should really look at the person your talking to Endeavour" Hawks chuckled, trying to keep his composure, "its manners!"
For a moment to fire hero only looked at him with his hand on the chair Hawk's had previously been sitting on.
"Does it hurt when I do that?"
"I- Huh? What?" Hawks tried to sound confused.
"When I touch your wings like that, you seem to go all strange. Your smile goes crooked and you begin acting strange. It happened at the restaurant, then with the attack, and along with today when young Deku touched your wings."
Hawks just stood there for a minute, rather surprised at how much attention Endeavour had placed on him. He couldn't expect much less though from the number one hero.
"So, I will ask again. Does it hurt you whenever somebody touches your wings? If so-"
"No- no! No its nothing like that" Hawks chuckled nervously, rubbing his neck and smiling. "No its fine, it doesn't hurt"
"Then what is it?" Endeavour asked, rather bluntly.
Hawks only smiled, hoping to avoid the topic of conversation as it was pretty weird and awkward to tell your hero to stop touching your wings because it tickled. Nevertheless, Endeavour stood by his chair and watched Hawks, awaiting an answer.
Hawks laughed nervously, "my wings are sensitive. I told you before, they're still a part of my body so i can still feel things." Hawks looked around at his red wings as they stretched out. Endeavour stepped forwards, still confused as to what that had anything to do with what he was asking.
"So does it hurt when I touch them? Or not? Is it something that effects your life as a hero?"
Endevour then touched the feathered part of his wings, running his hands along the feathers and watched Hawk's reaction as he hadn't noticed. Hawks turned to Endeavour's side and involuntary laughed, pushing himself away and stepping backwards, retracting his wings.
The small laugh that escaped Hawks mouth was much different than his usual confident one. This one seemed a little giggly and less within his control. Endevour noticed as Hawks couldn't make eye contact and held his wings close to his back, as if shying them away from him.
Hawks on the other hand felt as if butterflies were dancing round in his stomach, fluttering up his winged bones and back down to his stomach making him giggle and bite his lip and hold his stomach. He hadn't expected Endevour to try again, nor to actually seemly attempt at tickling him.
He could physically feel the way his face turned another shade of pink and couldn't keep his composure, totally flustered and needing to get out of there quick. Endeavour only looked at him buy Hawks didn't sat anything, just hurrily left.
When Endeavour returned home, he sat down with Shoto and Fuyumi. Natsuo having either already eaten or out of the house. During that time Endeavour brought up the topic in the silence at the table.
"I have a question"
"Yeah dad?" Fuyumi jumped, happy to talk and try to be a normal family again.
Shoto ate whilst turning to listen.
"I've been working with hawks recently, but he keeps acting strange"
"Like when Midoriya touched his wing?" Shoto interrupted, having also noticed the strange behaviour for a moment but thinking nothing of it.
"Precisely"
"How was he acting strange?" Fuyumi asked, confused and wanting to get a better idea of the situation. (Being much more social than her father and brother)
"When Midoriya touched his wing, he jumped backwards and shifted the conversation" Shoto explained, eating some more noddles.
Fuyumi asked how Midoriya had touched him and Endeavour only really knew by showing her. So he touched her shoulder gently and dragged his hand and fingers down from her neck to her bycep.
To both boy's surprise Fuyumi fell off her knees a little and giggled a little. Rubbing the area. Shoto just looked at her, noodles being slurrped to his mouth whilst Endeavour sat with his hand still in the air where Fuyumi just was, sat surprised by his daughters reaction.
"Are you alright Fuyumi?" Endeavour asked, slightly concerned he'd hurt her.
Fuyumi giggled but clarified she was fine, "just sensitive, that's all"
That's what Hawk's had said.
"my wings are sensitive. I told you before, they're still a part of my body so i can still feel things."
"Are you alright though?" Shoto asked, leaning up and looking over as she sat back up after Endeavour retracted his hand.
"Yeah, I'm fine! It just tickled, that all" she giggled happily but smiled at her brother.
"Tickled?" Shoto asked confused. "Did he hurt you?-" Shoto turned to Endeavour with a death glare, standing up. Fuyumi jumped up and stopped him from across the table from doing anything. The father was almost their height still sat down but nonetheless looked a little frightened at shoto's glare.
"No! Shoto! Shoto I'm fine! It's a funny feeling"
"Funny feeling?"
"Yeah- have you never heard of it before? Really? Here, let me show you"
Shoto stood as his sister walked around the table towards him, for some reason half of him was telling himself to run but he wanted to know what had happened so he stood still.
Fuyumi then grabbed her younger brothers sides and began to tickle them, making the half-half hero in training double over and hold a hand to his mouth so he couldn't burst out laughing. With his other hand he grabbed his sisters hand tickling him but didn't do much else to stop it.
Muffled laughter was heard from beneath Shoto's hand and Fuyumi had realised he showed no attempts at stopping her so she continued and teased him about it, much as tickling does to a tickler, she teased and tormented her younger brother. Tickling him by his sides, his hips, his ribs and such.
Shoto's muffled laughter brought the two to the floor beside Endeavour, Fuyumi teasing Shoto as his hair began to become messy and lost his composure.
He shook his head and laughed, weakly begging his sister to stop as he wiggles around gently beneath her. The two were laughing and messing around and Endeavour watched on, still sat in the same position he was when he asked the question.
Of course he knew what tickling was, but he'd always seen it as such a childish game. But right now, watching as his children played back and forth, he began to feel a slight smile form on his face. Something very unusual for the pro hero.
He's never seen his kids play, nor encouraged it. But right now, watching as two of them tumbled around, laughing and messing around without any care, watching as they smiled while usually he saw such pain on their faces while with him. He felt happy.
By the end of it Endeavour actually did have to get involved and pull Fuyumi off her brother as not to kill him. The girl had murder in her eyes as she was pulled off- it was terrifying. But Shoto laid on the floor, totally K.O.'d by the tickling, worn out with a silly smile on and hair in his face. After he'd recovered he quickly got rid of his smile, not wanting Endeavour to see more nor look weak in front of, but smiled as Fuyumi profusely apologied from across the table as they finished their food.
Watching his two children Endeavour felt happier. And that night thought about Hawks being in that same situation his son had been in.
The next time he saw the winged pro, the two were in a small fight. It had been a couple days but even so Endeavour hadn't forgotten the situation.
By the end the two had few scrapes and scraps and returned to Endeavour's agency to get a couple repairs. They were looked over but mostly fine, and Endeavour once more invited Hawks into his office.
Of course, Hawks being a young adult and after the fight, had mostly forgotten and continued being his sarcy playful teasing self. Which Endeavour appreciated.
Of course the young hero hadn't totally forgotten- of course he thought about it the night it happened and died of embarrassment much like the rest of us would. But even so he tried his hardest to forget. And continued his ways.
Though this time he didn't make the mistake of sitting in Endeavour's chair and just stood as the number one hero closed the door behind them. Endeavour turned back around and asked whether Hawks was okay after the fight, starting up small talk before his initial plan took place.
"Few hits, a few bumps, but i'm fine. What about you? You really took those hits like it was nothing huh?"
Endeavour had a very small smile on his face, hardly noticeable unless you're the narrator who shows it to all the readers.
"No, I have a few injuries but I'm glad we're okay"
"Awe, we're you worried about me Endeavour? You really shouldn't~" Hawks teased as they stood by one another, Hawks leaning on the pro as if he was a damsel in distress who'd been rescued by her hero.
Endeavour remember how much of a little shit this man could be.
"Anyway's, what was it you wanted to talk about? Unless it really was just how worried you were for me, which honestly is way too cute-"
"Your wings"
The two words sent the hero off as he remembered the last time the two were alone in here. He kept his composure a lot better this time round though and looked up at the hero in confusion as he showed them off, sprawling them out across the air.
"Yeah? What about them?" Hawks asked, wanting to get this over and done with.
"If I touch them, you react. Why" Hawks became much more flustered at this, much to Endeavour's hopes. He retracted his wings but Endeavour had one in his hands and began to run his hands over them, knowing exactky what he was doing without showing Hawks.
Endeavour wasn't one to start anything so childish, but after the dinner with his family, and after seeing the way the smug younger hero acted, it felt kind of fun doing so and teasing him much as he teased everyone around him. It's more than just out of character for the number one hero, much to Hawk's surprise as to why he'd started it, but also surprising as to how good he was at it. He'd never tickled his children, nor anyone in decades.
"Wahait- Ehendeavour!?" Hawks tried to hold back his laughter but Endeavour continued his attack as he began to tickle under the feathers making the poor winged hero almost collapse as he began laughing harder. He honestly couldn't control himself when it came to tickling, especially his wings. It was like everything became so giggly and it was the only thing in his mind.
"Yes?" The number one hero asked, not stopping as he tickled underneath the bone in his alula and marginal converts. The sudden touch here send Hawks into hysterica, flapping the other wing a little to push himself away from the tickles and holding his sides as the butterflies danced around from his wings to his back.
Hawk's laughter was muffled by his gloved hand from his hero outfit but after that specific touch he lost it and Endeavour had never heard his laugh so light before. Doubling over from a few touches on his wings.
"Wahait! Wahahait wahait Endeavour! Sthohop it! I cahant! Nohot my whihings!"
"What? I'm only looking at them"
Hawks couldn't believe what was happening to him in that moment. Then again he couldn't really think in that moment either. His wings didn't tickle like the most of his body. More like giggly and silly touches and butterflies tickling them up and down, sending him into bubbly hysterica rather than any usual laughing.
It was as if he was a kid again. Squealing as someone tickled his tummy with their finger tips.
Hawks then flew across the room as Endeavour let go of one wing. It tickled so much that even after he'd crashed he still felt as if more feathers had grown and began tickling his wings and back. He was laying on the ground and against the wall next to a bookshelf that had fallen down from impact, his arms around his waist and head down as he laughed like a giggly kid. He tried to stop himself but couldn't for a moment before looking back up with a bright red face from embarrassment.
The last thing he expected looked back at him. Endeavour stood tall on the opposite side of the room, watching Hawks. And a massive grin stretched out across his face. Hawks couldn't lie but in thaf moment, he felt terrified but also more butterflies in his stomach.
You see, much like earlier with Fuyumi, when someone is tickling someone else, they can get a little carried away. Well the young girl definitely got this from her father. Endeavour knew nobody would ever know about this, the red embarrassment on Hawk's face told him that much. And honestly, it wasn't the worst way to spend his time. And Hawk's reaction made it worth while anyway.
Hawk's looked terrified at Endeavour's grin, then struck with fear as the man walked over to him and knelt down in front of him. Suddenly every confident part of Hawk's seemed to die in that exact moment. No villain, no hero, no lover, no person in Hawk's entire life had ever done this to him. But Endeavour, the last person in his mind to do anything like this, had frozen him in place of his embarrassment.
Hawks couldn't say anything, but didn't have to for long before Endeavour got to the point and reached towards the winged hero's sides and began to knead them, sending him into bright laughter all over again. His laughter really just danced around the room as he threw his head back and kicked the floor beneath him, holding his waist best he could with Endeavour tickling him.
"At least I've found a way to shut you up" Endeavour stated, a smirk on his face which Hawks couldn't see due to caught up in his own laughter. He shook his head, wanting to say something sarcy but being unable to having feeling so silly and not being able to think all too straight.
"EhehehEndeavour!"
"Mm?" Endeavour continued his assault and even grabbed the young adults hips and kneaded into them, making the second pro hero double over, if Endeavour had been close enough, he would have definitely gotten his head wacked.
Hawks kicked out beneath him and burst out into loud obnoxious laughter, trying to curl up to stop the hip tickles.
"Is everything alright Hawks?"
All Hawks could think about was telling Endeavour to shut up. The teasing making it far, far worse. Especially coming from him. Someone who barely even spoke, especially teased.
Hawks could barely even think of what to say, stuck between speechless and laughter and tryna get Endeavour's hands off from tickling him so much. Just as Hawk tried, Endeavour swapped and began to tickle the others ribs and just behind to where Hawk's wings meet his back. In that moment, if you thought Hawk's had already reached his top tier laughter, you would be horrible mistake.
The pro threw his head back and yelled louder than ever expected to come from his big mouth. His laughter was so loud and his grin so wide as two fingers tickled the meeting between his body and his quirk. Forget about anything else because Hawks couldn't even control himself. His wings began spazzing from out wide to curled up and he even made a few bird noises which made Endeavour calm down a little in surprise, even if he was barely even touching the area.
Hawks shook his head and begged for Endeavour's mercy which was finally granted after another bird noise. Hawk's loud obnoxiously adorable laugh bouncing off the walls before he lay flat out against the wall, giving up with a smile stuck on his face.
He felt exhausted, he didn't even care what happened now. For all he cared Endeavour could burn him up right now to be rid of him. But of course that didn't happen, and Endeavout stood up, looking down at the usually confident hero beneath him.
"Are... you dead?" He asked after a moment, perhaps a little concerned as Hawks just seemed to die on spot. Though his breathing was still heavy so he hoped he wasn't dead.
A small noise was heard from the hero but he didn't move, his face was read from laughing and only in the silence did Endeavour realise how loud they'd been and that the whole building had probably heard them.
After a moment, Hawks still dead on the floor, there was a knock on the door before Shoto walked in alone.
"Hello, I'm finishing and-" he looked over to see his dad stood above a Hawks that looked beat.
"Uh- did you kill him?" He asked, slightly unfazed.
"No!- no. I don't think so. What did you want Shoto?"
"Nothing- its fine. I'll see you later" with that the half half child left, having a slight idea of what must have happened.
Hawks finally came back to life, having definitely died on the inside due to embarrassment and laughter. His winds still felt really funny, like when you get pins and needles and it tickles a little so he tried his best not to move them from their natural state.
He trued to push himself up the wall and still had a goofy gorgeous smile on his face, hunched over a little and holding his midsection while trying to stay away from Endeavour.
When Endeavour noticed, he asked, "Are you alright Tamami?"
Hawks just stood- arms distance- and smiled, blush on his cheeks from his childhood hero having just absolutely destroyed him.
Hawks could only laugh, only just noticing how Endeavour used his name for probably the first time. He didn't say anything but his facial features told Endeavour enough.
"So, you're wings?" Endeavour asked.
Hawks sighed and ran one hand down his face in embarrassment and moved it to rub his neck. "They're sensitive, what can I say?" Once again his usual nature slowly returned to him as he recovered but the blush on his face didn't.
"If you had told me the first day I would have never done anything more" Endeavour stated. If Hawks had just told him he had ticklish wings, Endeavour would have never done anything nor said anything other than a nod. But a part of him was glad he hadn't. A part of him was glad that he did that for the younger hero.
"Yeah yeah I hear you. It's just embarrassing that's all" Hawks brushed it off, trying to move the conversation while dropping truth bombs. "Anyways, how would you like it?" Just then one of Hawk's feathers dashed from around him and began tickling Endeavour's neck, having no reaction from the number one hero at all.
Hawks was gobsmacked.
Endeavour only grinned at the playful, yet failure, attempt Hawk's made. Mostly the look on his face though as he couldn't believe it.
But then another feather popped out of no where and began to tickle behind the pro hero's ears and Endeavour's laughter was heard throughout the building. Hawk's grin returned and much as you can guess. Shit went down.
Hawks and Endeavour though, never spoke about it again.
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plushii-gutz · 1 year
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Never a better time to type a fanfic while in agonizing pain /hj sorry for the long wait, but a special someone wanted to make art for part 3! ^^ can't thank him enough, it's absolutely adorable! He asked to remain anonymous (and also doesnt have tumblr), but provided a watermark! Stinky_Pinky!
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The kitchen emptied itself of the many monsters. Apart from two, that is.
Attmoz was wiping down the table of its crumbs and sticky residue, a few visible handprints remaining even after its cleansing. Glaishur was cleaning and organizing the dishes he often forgot to attend to, mumbling to himself about how the water left his fur soggy and uncomfortable.
"Children are the most unhygienic creatures," Attmoz joked, "absolute specimens."
"Yeah, but they're cute, so we gotta' keep 'em," Glaishur shrugged
"Where else would they go, anyway? Other than Hornacle, I don't think they'd get very far."
The land these monsters lived on sat in the middle of a vast, everlasting ocean. The island had a sort of mushroom-like shape, curving in the middle and acting like a slide down to the stretched out base, where bits of grass and soil grew whatever life was able to sprout. Blasoom and Scaratar came to the base of the island often, having grown their own plot of grass and few flowers. They created bits of life, even fruits. Apart from their garden, there was nothing but shifting waters as far as the eye can see.
"Well, they are still young-"
Glaishurs words were cut short by the sudden shaking of the walls. The two fell awkwardly silent, looking to finish the cleaning as it began again. Just as it had every day. Their words were muffled, but were still very audible.
"Don't you think you could put in a bit more effort?"
"For what?"
"Come on, we're the ones in charge. It's our job to keep the rest in one piece. I just.. I feel like I'm doing everything."
"This isn't our responsibility, and it shouldn't be either. I'm not watching over monsters that are a year younger than me."
Furnoss grew louder. They always yelled so loudly.
"You know DAMN well I'm not talking about Glaishur or Attmoz - and you know even further that they aren't 'one year younger' either! There's five kids here who aren't even verbal yet. If it isn't our responsibility, then Whose is it? It's not like we can just let them fend for themselves. They'll manage to get themselves killed in seconds!"
"They'll figure it out eventually. We didn't have anyone to guide us."
"And so we shouldn't let THEM have anyone?"
Attmoz motioned for Glaishur to follow, taking him out of the kitchen and to the hallway.
"I don' think they should hear this," Glaishur spoke, keeping his eyes on the ground.
"Yeah.. hey, you guys wanna go outside?" Attmoz spoke louder to the rest of the little ones, "Maybe play a bit?"
The excitement of the younger monsters overcame the yelling upstairs. Syncopite led the group outside, Attmoz following behind. Glaishur stood awkwardly, listening in on the argument upstairs.
"Do you understand how fucking difficult this is? Of course you don't! You don't even know which room is which, do you? Galvana takes a whole fucking hour to go to sleep! They're literally the element of energy! You probably didn't even pay attention to that, did you? Oh, or how about the 36 meals I have to make a DAY? How picky each of these little brats can be about what they will and won't touch? Is it so much for you to at least watch over them? Obviously, no one else is capable of that!"
"I do what you can't. I keep them in line. You can't do so much as raise your voice at them."
"Because I feel bad!.. I feel.. awful. They gave up so much.. it wouldn't be right, it wouldn't be fair to."
"And now we live like this," Loodvigg spoke in a chilling voice, "because of it."
Glaishur felt his throat tighten. He couldn't understand the next few words spoken, whether they were muffled due to the distance or the outside cheerful chatter. He was too scared to ask what they meant - what was "it"? Who gave up what? At the same time, he worried about being more of a burden. He knew how stressed out Furnoss was. He knew how little they already thought of him. Furnoss had enough problems. It'd be best to stay out of any more trouble.
"Hey Frosty, you coming?"
"Yeah, sorry!"
The cold monster let the door close behind him, happily walking out to the welcoming sun. The air felt nice, a comfortable warmth from the sun and a gentle breeze provided by Attmoz himself. This actually sparks and idea.
"Hey 'Moz, wanna make it a little more cool?" Glaishur asked, fidgeting his hands already.
"Eh? Oh heck yeah!"
Attmoz crouched down, only to make a quick jump to the air. A thick, fluffy cloud formed, catching the monster who now laid back with his arms crossed behind his head. The clouds surface caved ever to slightly to the monsters weight, hovering above the ground easily. Glaishur rubbed his hands together, flakes of ice falling between his fingers before being shot up into the sky and into the floating surface Attmoz had made. Snowflakes began to fall, covering the ground below in the chilling powder, and soon more snowing clouds covered most of the surface of the island. Even Hornacle had chipped in, adding a thin layer of water to cover the ground, bringing slippery ice to slide on. The stress previously had been mostly forgotten, now pushed from the many monsters' minds as they played in their own little wonderland.
Plixie, Hornacle, and Glaishur piled up enough snow to build a snow-monster, Glaishur using his own frosty friend to act as the head. The icy ground was being used to slide across the land, Vhamp and Blasoom putting on their own performance while Torrt used Glaishurs drums to add a little more energy with music. Syncopite watched uneasily, worried of any injuries that might come with the little monsters carelessness.
"Ah, they can take a few hits," Scaratar reassured, "It's part of the fun!"
Attmoz had a good look of the area, keeping each kid in check to be sure none strayed too far. A count of heads told him that someone was missing..
A sudden *bzzt!* caused the air monster to jump, turning swiftly on his tail. Galvana giggled, standing on top of their own little fort built specifically just to get Attmoz's attention.
"Oh, you think that's funny? You wanna be silly? Is this silly?"
Attmoz lifted the little monster up from the snowy steps, holding them up in the air and over the cloud. Galvana laughed up a storm, kicking their legs and sending small electric sparks from their hands. They weren't too high off the ground, and Galvana certainly trusted Attmoz enough to not drop them. Even if they were to fall, the freshly fallen snow would soften the fall. Of course, no one fell. Instead, Attmoz settled Galvana on the snow pile next to him. Unfortunately, only the air monster was able to rest within the clouds fluff without falling through.
"You're a lil goober, you know that?"
Galvana could only respond with a whistle, though they were visibly happy. Attmoz chuckled, resting his head and watching the electric monster run off to play with the rest. Sitting back and being able to see everyone happy was refreshing, especially Syncopite and Glaishur. He wished Furnoss would join them, but the idea of having to do so much as look in the fire monsters direction made him feel nervous.
Now wasn't the time to worry. It was the present. And it was just that - a gift.
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batarangsoundsdumb · 3 years
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guess fucking what? my inbox is so fucking full right now i'm unloading all of this shit in one post.
For the 11th gotham memes: gothamites react to bruce being jacked in a tiktok he made with kids, like super yoked, ripped as hell
fucking hilarious thanks. i think i did it in one meme post, but i genuinely don't remember which one
i dunno which of the batfam would do this but one time i was sleeping over at a friends house and ended up on the floor bc the bed was so very small and i just stayed there because the rug was soft
that's a drunk jason move i don't know what to tell you
tim and jason are "i listen to pop punk" solidarity. whenever jason highjacks the batmobile theyll go on long ass car rides blaring mcr and paramore and then never talk about it again
as they should!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tim: no jason it's my turn using the aux cord i gotta put on my jams jason: don't you dare put on weird shit tim: don't worry, you're gonna love this *plays fearless (taylor's version)
hear me out hear me out, red hood stans 🤝 nightwing stans t h i g h s
holy shit yes.
SNL au: Bruce breaks character when pretending to superman and says something like "I'm not superman! You've seen his gps!! It's from 2001!!!" @sabeanybabe
superman flies past the snl building the next day just to say 'actually it's from 2005, i'm not a heathen'
does your back hurt from carrying the batfam fandom
it hurts more from the exotic rock collection i keep in my backpack, but thanks for the concern.
I love your posts by why would you always leave the best parts in the tags?
as a treat for the people that check the tags ;) (and also because i'm committed to the short post aesthetic)
somehow your playlist was everything i never knew i needed. i mean it. this is my new favorite playlist.
and don't you dare get a new favourite playlist!
babe ur stoner tim playlist is exactly too perfect, earth is literally blessed by ur existence
babe thanks so much! i love my stoner tim playlist because it's just my usual playlist but people think it's an artistic choice that i put taylor swift and britney spears in there, when it's just what i unironically like listening to
JANDKSKDK BILLY RAY CYRUS ON THE STONER TIM PLAYLIST I LOVE IT IT
again it's not even an ironic choice, i know every single word and i genuinely like the song
The last chapter of Fundamentals of Casework has me crying at work. Thanks I love it @dudelookitsalesbian
oh babe, i'm sorry, but also, not sorry i love chapter 4 so much it's my lovechild with the 'mental illness' tag
soooo....stumbled on your tumblr by some stroke of fate??? read your DC fanfic first. which is PHENOMENAL btw. then found all the batmemes; the funniest thing EVER bc everyone forgets about regular old gothamites. kept scrolling and your blog pops up as recommended. clicked on the ao3 for shits and giggles and waddaya know?!?!? it's YOU!!! you're LEGEND!!!! ever seen that meme? it's a video of a cat that got into a baseball field and the two announcers get really invested in his escape attempt and start giving a play by play of the cat instead of the game. memeable moment: "GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!"
i seriously think about this ask every single day and it's so fucking funny to me that i've never seen the meme you're referencing, but i still find myself going 'GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!' whenever i see something funny. but wow i'm glad you liked this steaming pile of garbage
Fav dc character overall? And fav batfamily character?
don't ask me to pick between the loves of my life, but i can tell you i've cried about every single batfamily member and also wally west (my beloved)
What's your opinion on fans having a problem with batfam being "too big"? And some even claim that batfam is just "Bruce Alfred Dick Damian" and the rest of them are just "friends and allies" (source: reddit) Personally, I like batfam because of this reason but idk
stupid. a family can never be too big. i'm not that big a fan of like huge batfam stuff with everybody from every single universe, because as much as it's funny for bruce to have like 30 kids, it just feels a little too OOC for me.
This is the best tag I've seen involving the batfam, thanks for thinking of it
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This is canon now @nctxrejects
lmao yeah i think at that point alfred has had to sit through like at least a dozen coming out talks and just has a pride flag collection in the attic that he pulls out whenever a kid comes out
idk why batfam hits different as compared to any other superhero family
bc it's found family and usually the other superhero families are almost all genetically related in one way or another
I don't know if you watch the umbrella academy but I saw your last post about batcest and saw the similarities. But the thing is (although I think it's weird) in TUA, they addressed it by saying "they were raised as weapons, not siblings" or something along those lines, which is simply not the case with batfam.
yeah i watched tua but i also thought it was ridiculous and they still treated each other as siblings so i didn't like the luthor/allison thing, and am glad they stopped doing that shit bc it fucking sucked.
Hot take: Batcest shippers are the same people who believe adopted siblings are not actual siblings
smoking hot take: batcest shippers are the people who watch 'my sister got stuck in the washing machine' porn
Duke was adopted by Bruce?
not technically no, but do i, tumblr user batarangsoundsdumb, look like i care?
True story but I had to change my freaking name because it used to be "Damien" and most people would go "OH LIKE DAMIAN WAYNE" like please I'm just tryna live
true story, but i don't actually think of damian when i hear the name damian, literally the first thing that pops up is damian darkh like bruh what?
apparently dc comics company supported comic stores by giving out new titles and stuff during the beginning of the pandemic to help them run and I just think that's wholesome
ah yeah that's so fucking cool, still don't like dc, the company, because this world is a capitalist hellhole and we're all owned by warner brothers or disney with no in between.
ayo looking at tumblr head canons and finding out bruce is actually a terrible father is a punch in the gut
lmao yes, in like 50% of comics bruce is a terrible father and it gives me whiplash
oooh I just saw the jason todd vs winter soldier post and the real question is: batman vs iron man
while iron man has like hundreds of cases of armor, batman could throw out an emp and have the guy dropping out of the sky in 2 seconds.
dickfast = fastdick = quickdick = quickie
magnum hot take
hey bata(?) just thought I'd let you know I have copied the obnoxious emoji and Billy Ray post for use on simping men going forth
thank you 😘🌷 (@spacebarsidecar)
why would you do that to your followers???? i get why i did it, but why would you???
what is scarecrow made the nightwing funko pop himself, like those diy-ers that paint over other ones
oh god no, horrible take, horrible take, that's a disgusting thought oh no
I see your HC that Bruce and Oliver fucked and raise you this: Dick and Roy ALSO fucked
yes they did and it was a horrible moment for jason to find out dick has fucked both of his best friends
"at this rate bruce adds like 1 child to his family every decade or so" Duke is introduced in 2013, Damian as Damian, not as an unnamed child, in 2006. And he is already 14 years old, Robins rarely remain Robins after 16 😬 It looks like a new Robin and Batkid will appear in a couple of years
i mean i can't wait? but somebody will probably die first tho, we're due for another major character death. my money's on either cass or duke this time.
BRO you're so right all of your Bruce's ex headcanons are amazing but they aren't ships, that's kinda wild. Like I don't want any peeks into how their relationship was I just want to see everyone make fun of them
lmao YES it's just i love bruce being a slut, like good for him.
I am in love with your posts your honour thank you
omg thanks are we like,, gonna kiss now?
The justice league needs to have a meeting to discuss how many of their members/partners have slept with bruce. Because through a combination of cannon & fannon (if DC wasn’t homophobic) we have AT LEAST: 1) clark 2) lois 3) oliver 4) dinah 5) john
Thats not counting villains or random civilians @dudelookitsalesbian
yes yes yes, they'll have a yearly meeting about how many of their collective exes could be out for revenge and batman's list just keeps getting longer.
tim was like "i'm drake now" and everyone was like ahh so your fursona is a dragon and tim was like pffffft no. ducks.
and what about it?
when steph's fighting livewire and she zaps her with lighting and nothing happens and then they both just. stand there awkwardly for a second and talk. yeah i couldn't stop laughing at that batgirl steph is the BEST
oh yeah that was fucking hilarious and i think it would be so cool and sexy of dc to give steph a little comic series,,, as a treat
Hi I absolutely adore all of yours "Bruce and Oliver very badly pretending they didn't fuck each other" memes
lmao i do too
I need you to know that “Bruce Wayne had frosted tips” is one of my favorite Bruce takes of all time it’s so galaxy brained. you’re right and you should say it
he also painted his hair blonde once when he was travelling and in conclusion, this is why he's being blackmailed by the gotham gazette.
you know my thing about gordon being branded as the only good cop in gotham is its a load of shit like arguably he's a good person and not working to screw people over or anything but the fact that he also works w. batman makes him a shit cop. like yea batman is better than the mob but its still illegal its still an abuse of power he just not making bank
babe, all cops are bad cops. (but yeah youre absolutely right, working with vigilantes makes you a shit cop, but also working against vigilantes just makes you an asshole cop yanno?)
ruh roh i think i’m about to add “so not yeehaw” every time i don’t like something
that's a very good vocabulary upgrade
somehow i feel like steph already knew. like babs obviously knew but i feel like bruce got high/drunk in front of steph and started telling his boarding school stories and steph was just like “oh you fucked up i’m never gonna forget this”
steph and bruce have weird uncle/rebellious niece dynamic and they just hang out sometimes and bruce will be like 'i once broke my arm when i tripped over a hedge when i was drunk so oliver drove me to the hospital on an electric scooter' and steph will just have to sit there with that knowledge in her head.
Hello I just wanted to tell you you are So right in all your steph opinions bc she is, in fact amazing and I think that's very sexy of you. Ps. Your Bruce/Oliver fic is hilarious
babe, thank you so much and yes steph is amazing and i love her and she deserves the world and she's the best member of the batfam hands down. also thanks
In Supersons we see a couple of kids that are implied to be Damian and Jon's children and the boy has laser eyes and can fly, so I asume he's not adopted. The girl, who calls Bruce grandpa, can also fly, btw. So it's canon (probably by accident) that Jon can have kids and he must have married one of Bruce's kids. (I'm hoping for Damian, mostly because any other of his children would be waaaaaaaaaaaaay too old.) @artemisa97
lmao that was probably an accident seeing as jon is a 17 year old superhero in the year 3000 (by the jonas brothers)
You know, I'm a die hard fan of your memes, but I gotta say one thing: if Gothamites actually took gas mask everywhere with them, then the Scarecrow would just be a weird dude in a weird costume, and not a villain oh so scary. DC really should just takes notes from you.
bold of you to assume there's no gothamite anti-maskers
How does it feel being the funniest person on this app?
horrible, next question.
I can't listen to Green Day or Billy Joel without thinking of your post about how Bruce got arrested at a Billy Joel concert @nightwings-kid
yeah that's your mistake, i on the other hand can't enjoy billy joel without thinking about the glee rendition of 'uptown girl'
I've FINALLY been watching the Batman animated series and I gotta say, after watching "the gray ghost" I am CONVINCED that Batman is a closeted super hero geek who was 100% freaking out the first time he met Superman and is just REALLY good at hiding it.
superman: so what do you do in your free time? batman, thinking about the superman fanfiction he's writing on the batcomputer: i have no free time
bruce and oliver be like boyfriends to co-workers 401k (do the justice leagues get 401ks??? not that bruce and ollie would need them, but-)
lmao yes just 400 thousand words of bruce realising 'oh dip oliver is such a fucking dumbass' (also i don't know what a 401 k is but i assume they don't?)
Gothamites would totally boo superman as he saves Gotham while batman is out. @meenje
he's like 'okay think about that next time you want to be saved from an alien octopus'
I just took long break from dc comics and I come back to see ric grayson ??
i think it's very cool and sexy of dc to see dick and just think 'you know what? let's just give him a traumatic brain injury' and then didn't develop his character in any real way
SPEAKING OF RIC GRAYSON, gothamites making confused memes out of ric grayson is much needed
'dick grayson is my taxi driver? can anyone explain what the fuck happened he looks like an italian plumber?'
i hate to say it but batfam are def "marvel characters" in that sense they are characters who are human but become superheroes unlike most dc characters who are gods trying to be human maybe this is why I like batfam
fair enough
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meanautisticenbian · 3 years
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Fuck it, I'm gonna dissect all the bullshit in that one Lilith post bit by bit
TW// Lilith hate, victim blaming, abuse, cult mention, ableism towards Autistic people, sexualization of minors (briefly mentioned)
I'll be putting my text in bold just in case it's hard to distinguish between the pictures and my commentary
Here's the post I'm referring to in case you're curious
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Moving on and starting with this bit
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People pay attention to Eda all the damn time, she's literally one of the main characters. Funny how you only mention tik tok and nothing else. Is that the only other social media you have? Because fans on different social media platforms act much differently; on IG and Reddit stuff like the sexualization of minors and fucking ODALIA AND ALADOR STANS are normalized, where everywhere else it's pretty much universally agreed that that stuff is bad. I don't know a lot about what toh Tik Tok is like just because I don't usually go on tik tok, but even if it is like this, it's not the same for the rest of the fandom. A lot of the fandom still hates Lilith and blames her for her abuse and not being able to leave
You say that like she's a bad person, she's really not. The curse she placed on Eda wasn't intended to be permanent and probably wasn't even supposed to take the effects that it did. She was most likely scammed. I mean look at how she reacts when Eda transforms for the first time. She also feels guilty enough about it to throw herself into an abusive situation and spend almost her whole life trying to make up for it. Lastly, yes she hurt Luz, but let's not forget that Belos threatened her life upon Eda's capture and Lilith was running out of time and had no other option. Obviously what she did was wrong but she's not the real monster here.
"I do like Lilith" this entire essay says otherwise.
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Literally none of us ignore any of the bad shit she's done, stop lying about us.
Yes, Lilith did mock her for her curse, which was messed up, but we don't actually know for sure if the curse is basically canonically a disability in that world, so if that's the case then for now it's technically not ableism until we get confirmation otherwise.
"it was an accident and I forgive Lilith" no you fucking don't. First of all this entire essay is you talking about how evil you think she is and secondly, if it really was as bad as you view it, you wouldn't be that forgiving.
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Ah yes the victim blaming, the one thing that almost everyone does to Lilith and barely anyone talks about.
There is literally not a single Lilith stan out there who blames Eda for getting cursed. You're just mad that your victim blaming towards Lilith got called out so you silence us by lying about how we do the same thing to Eda.
No one is making Eda out to be the villain either, the only example I can find of this is a few fanfics where she treats Lilith a lot more harshly than she should, and even then, scenes like that are written in a positive light as if you're supposed to be on Eda's side, so with that in mind, the writers of these fics are clearly not even Lilith stans. In terms of how actual stans treat Eda, the worst they do is make her slightly ignorant of Lilith's trauma, kinda like the fandom, minus the "slightly", until she grows as a character and learns to see the red flags. If that's the problem you're talking about, then breaking news: Eda's not perfect either. She has flaws too just like literally everyone else in the show and people are allowed to write about them
Tell me the truth: are people making playlists for Lilith that include a lot of sad and angry songs because she's not a happy person anyway so there wouldn't be a point in having any happy songs, or are they making "trauma" playlists? There's a difference
I'm sorry, are you trying to tell me that people recognizing Lilith's trauma is victim blaming Eda? That's not how it works sweetycakes
There is far more Eda angst out there than there is for Lilith, where are you finding so much Lilith angst? LILITH is the one who's traumas are being ignored while Eda's gets all the attention. You're acting like one of those white cis gays on twitter who see black people talking about the anti blackness they experience daily and accuse them of being homophobic because "there is so much homophobia in the world and they still manage to make it all about race".
No one is saying that Lilith has worse trauma, we're only saying that her's is also severe and that it definitely exists. Also funny how you're allowed to be mad at us for comparing Lilith and Eda's trauma (once again lying about us), then you go on to do the exact same thing and say that EDA'S trauma is worse. Even if, hypothetically speaking, Eda did have it worse, that doesn't mean Lilith doesn't have the right to be traumatized. Both of them have trauma, both should be recognized. Also, Lilith had far more going on in her life than just the guilt of her actions, she was was implied to have been psychologically and maybe physically abused, and was probably even tortured. Stop ignoring all the red flags and condemn the actual abuser (Belos) before you criticize anything the abused (Lilith) has done.
We're not making everything about Lilith, like shut up.
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Please don't say that autistic people "have autism", it implies that it's something that can be removed from us. For example: you don't say "a person with blackness" when referring to black people or "a woman with homosexuality" when referring to Lesbians.
Oh yeah I'm also autistic so here are MY thoughts
Amity and Lilith are not antagonists anymore, hcing them as Autistic is not villainizing autism.
The autistic Lilith headcanon was made by autistic fans, allistics only latched onto it because they either wanted to be supportive or they saw that she actually had a lot of autistic traits
You're not the only autistic person alive, just because you're not like Lilith or Amity doesn't mean none of us are or they're not autistic. I mean, I know I am
You're not fun or funny
"not all Autistic people are like this" remember that line, dear readers
Actually, I prefer the autistic villain trope MUCH more than the grown ass autistic adult that acts like a five year old trope. At least we'd have less stereotypes associated with us.
Autism is not supposed to be portrayed in only fun and happy characters, that is literally the epitome of stereotyping and infantilizing. You literally just said that not all autistic people are the same, doesn't this count as being all the same? Does this mean I don't exist anymore? Am I just not autistic? Are you even aware that a flat affect or monotone voice is literally a very common autistic trait? You can't just say that we're stereotyping autistics and then just go on to stereotype us, like what the fuck are you even on? Is it only ok when you do it?
Amity is not edgy for fuck's sake
Literally no one is headcanoning Lilith or Amity as autistic because they're mean, we headcanon them as autistic because they actually show traits of it
Oh, our harmless headcanons are making you feel uncomfortable because they don't fit into the stereotypes you made up about us? Good to know our plan is working I guess
Last thing I wanna say regarding this post as a whole: why are you acting like liking Lilith and feeling sympathy for her is a bad thing? If you find this then don't say "I don't think that's a bad thing", answer HONESTLY
Well that's all I have for now, thank you for reading, I need to go to bed soon
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The Rescuers 
 Part Two: "I see it for the first time - There’s no cry in being kind”
Part One: Old acquaintances meet again
Warnings: Mentions of blood, implicit mentions of sex.
Words Count: 1,633
Notes: This part continues right where the other ended but this time we've two povs! Also, we have a bit of howzer and some flirting happening. And I've made a playlist for the fanfic, if you wanna listen while reading it's here: Spotify | Apple Music
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“What the hell?” - He sits on the stretcher.
“What… What have I done? What…”
 “Hey, hey. You’re okay now.” - You say. “They no longer control you.” 
 “How… How did you do it?” 
 “So, Rex told me that the kaminoans put these inhibitor chips on all of you guys. All clones have one of these in their heads. And somehow it makes you obey orders and you just loose control of yourself. I think?” 
 “Yeah. I was there all the time. But I couldn’t. I couldn’t help it. I just had to obey and do everything I was told to. Not matter how hard I tried to fight it….” 
  “I know, I know. This isn’t your fault. These bastards made you do it. But now, you’re free and you gonna be ok.” 
  He looks at you. His expression is carrying so much emotions that he doesn’t even need to say anything. You know he’s broken. But he does gives you a little smile like he’s silently thanking you for helping him.
 “Shouldn't we go?” He breaks the silence.
 “Indeed. Before the get suspicious. But… do you have a plan or something? Like, they can’t know you’re without your chip or you’ll be considered a traitor.” 
 “Yes, I’m aware of that. I’ve got to pretend I’m still loyal to them. And you… If anyone asks, we’re dating.” 
 “Hmmm…. Ok?”  You answer. “I mean, what else could’ve I said?” You also think.
 “So, shall we go, Cross?”
 “Yes. But first, I need to do something.” He says taking your hand and forcing you to move. When you’re at the corridor he speaks again to you loud enough so the others can listen too:
 “Darling, wait for me in my room, okay? I’ve got some things to take care of before I’m all yours.”  He winks at you. It takes you a phew seconds to process what he meant with that then you finally go do what he asked you to.
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 That was easy. Too easy. Crosshair always knew how to be mean and look scary. He learned soon enough that he needed to be like this or the others would never respect him. Or so he thought. But this reg speech earlier… It had somehow made him listened. This Captain Howzer put himself at risk in front everyone just so he could help his squad. He just spoke out like that in an empire base and some of those clones actually heard him. Cross had to admit, that was really brave specially to a reg. So maybe this guy was worth saving. 
 He entered the cell. It was just like the others: small, rather empty, clean enough and with just a seat for the prisoner. Howzer was sitting looking down but when he entered the room he looked up right at him.
“Now, what do you want?”  The captain said looking like he was done with all this already.
“I want…” Crosshair checked the surroundings again. No one was around. Good. 
“I wanna help you.” 
“What?” That seemed to catch the captain off guard.
“Yes, you heard it right. I want help you. I gonna set you free from here.” 
“Really? And how do you plan to do that?”
“Oh, please, cut the sarcasm. I’ll find a way to take your chip off first.” 
“My what?” 
“I'm sorry, this gonna hurt a bit.” Poor Howzer looked at him even more confused.
 Crosshair hit him hard. He passed out with a little cut on his head. The poor guy probably would have a bit of a headache later but at least with a real injury no one would get suspicious, right? Crosshair then carried Howzer all the way back to the medical bay. Some soldiers looked at them however none of them were brave enough to ask any questions. They all knew it was better not to question the commander decisions. And they could see a bit of blood on the other clone.
 Crosshair had seen the imperials using the equipments before a few times. Even on him once. So he kind had his way and got it done quickly. Howzer got up soon after, still confused and a bit angry maybe?
“What the hell was all of that?” 
“We don’t have much time. We have to leave.” 
“Whoa, slow down. I’m not getting. Why you’re doing this? And why do we have to leave? And why… Why do I suddenly feel… I don’t know…” 
“Free?” He nods in agreement. “The voice is gone, uh?”
“Yes? I guess?” 
“Look, I saw what you did there. The way stood up to them, you didn’t have to do that. You could’ve left and save yourself. But you went back and spoke in front of everyone. You didn’t abandon your men. And…” Crosshair looked down. “That’s something I can admire…” He was thinking about his team then.
“I just did what I thought it was right. These guys have been with me for years, they’re my brothers. I can’t just leave them behind. That’s why I can’t just leave now too.” 
“But you must. I know you cared about them but you can’t do anything if you’re just a prisoner or dead. You have to save yourself before you can save others, you know?”  The captain looks down. 
“You're probably right…” He takes a moment. “I just wish I could do more for them.” 
“I get it. Though right now, I don’t think there’s much you could do anyway.”
“Yeah…” 
“So, I’m gonna pretend we’ve got to move you to another base. I’m gonna say I don’t want anyone on your team having ideias of breaking you out. They saw you speech out there, so they might believe having you here could have a bad influence on these regs. These soldiers aren’t very bright anyway.” 
“Right. Seems like a plausible plan. Anything else?” 
“Look angry. I’m gonna send you back to cell so I can prepare some things and then be ready to leave, ok?”
“Yep.” 
“Let’s go.” 
 Crosshair handcuffed him and started pushing him. Howzer acted out like he was angry and fighting him. The commander them curse him and threat him and so Howzer pretend he was fighting back. They made a whole scene all the way back to the captain scene and everyone kept staring at them curious and whispering stuff. Crosshair finally throw him at the cell and they both cursed each other.
“We're moving to another base. He’s too much trouble for us here.” Crosshair informed the guards. They nodded in agreement.
“Agreed, sir. We don’t others getting ideais from his little speech back there.” 
“Exactly my thoughts.” He pause for a second. “I just have some things to take care of before.” They seemed to understand what he was talking about.
“Have your time, sir.” 
 The commander walked back to his room trying not to think too much about anything. Because whenever he did it was a rollercoaster of emotions and evasive thoughts and he hated. He hated not being able to control a part of him. And lately, he hasn’t being able to have a lot of control of anything at all. It sucked. 
  He opened his door to find you sitting on his bed reading one of his books while looking so comfortable, liked you owned the place. He wasn’t sure if he liked or was a bit jealous of your calmness. Probably both.
“Hey there, booknerd.” You almost jumped.
“Oh, sorry, did I bother you?” He joked.
“Haha. You’re so funny. You should be a comedian, you know?” 
“I know.” 
“Now, what do we have to do, commander?” Oh, he really liked to be called commander. Probably more than you’re anticipating.
“Actually, right now nothing.” 
“Oh, really?” You smiled. “And after that?” 
“You're gonna keep up the act for a little longer. I’m gonna pretend to have Captain Howzer moved. I’m plan on taking you plus two guards.” 
“Alright. What else?” 
“You gonna have to pretend you like to be shown around by me. Or not. And do you happen to know how to shoot well?” 
“Not sure about the first part.” He smirked like he was saying “Yeah, sure. We’ll see about that.” And you continued:  “But yes, I can handle myself pretty well with a blaster.” You showed him your holster where your blaster was kept. 
“Good. This shouldn’t be so hard then.” 
“You know, I thought as observant as you are, you’ve assumed that before.” 
“Oh, sorry, sweetheart. I was too busy thinking planning stuff, fighting the chip and looking at other things…..” He looked at you up and down. You almost felt naked. 
“Holy…” You started. “Well, now I get how you used to have quite a reputation…” 
“Did I?”
“Please, don’t be an ass.” 
“That’s an impossible request.” 
“At least you know. Now can we go?” He moved and sited right next to you on his bed. Then he whispered on your ear:
“Why? Scared of being alone with me?” That sent shivers up your body. And you quickly moved.
“No! Oh, please no!” You shouted.
“Then why are you shouting, babe?”
“Because I can.” You continued shouting. “Now shall we go or what?” You now spoke quieter.
“Hmmm… Five more minutes. Now sit here and keep reading your book. I promised I’ll be quiet.” You couldn’t help but obey him while you rolled your eyes at him. You kept reading and he support his chin on your shoulder and appeared to be reading with you.
“Now shall we start moving? It’s been like 10 minutes already.” 
“Yes. And looked tired but at the same time happy. Like you just had a really damn’ good time.” 
“And why?” 
“Well, I don’t wanna loose my reputation.” You rolled your eyes at him again.
“Let’s just go, commander.” 
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silentxxsoul · 2 years
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HE’S IN THE ROOM REACTION DUMP
Buckley's back together omggggggggggggg I love it
I hate it. Get back together now pls I need good in my life from this damn wee woo show
(but also like it makes sense considering how long they were apart and how they've individually grown and need to re-evaluate who they are before falling back into a relationship)
Also I fucking hate the apology being off screen, because hello lazy writing but clearly on par with KR's decision making
Wow, Hen wasted no time in dropping the tea on Buck and Lucy to the one dude who can't keep a secret. Can't imagine how well that plays out
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Seeing Lucy in this rescue just reaffirms they are capable of writing a competent character but still chose to go the cheating and prop for male lead drama route. Granted my opinion is based on the a) shitty choice in the 5B premier and b) the terrible TERRIBLE post-mortem interviews with the 'poking' and 'flirting' to make me think they're going for the cliche sexual tension with two hot het people *shrug*
I should know better to expect more out of fox but here we are
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EDDIE BBY IN THERAPY BEFORE THE BREAKDOWN ?!
THERAPY CAUSE THE BREAKDOWN ?!
FANFICS WIN AGAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
Yes Eddie talk to Buck about what you've been through...
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Buck babe keep the couch because it'll be your new home before the ep is over methinks
Chim and Ravi
Sassy Bobby offended about the Sushi lmao I love it
GIVE ME MORE RAVI DAMN IT
UNCLE BUCK I'M CRYING
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Buck, we know you didn't ask her for the right reasons now we just need you to know
Maddie get his asssssssssssss pls
Honestly poor Jonah, he's been a cool dude so far and I'm low key kinda sad he's leaving so soon
Fucking spider time god no I'm out uckkkk
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I'm so fucking crawly just LISTENING oh my god why does this have to be on my screen
Its like the damn snake in S1 hard pass
Can we just go back to Eddie please? For my sanity and general wellbeing?
I do find it weird that they've got Buck so separate after the initial rescue. Maybe he took time off to help Taylor move in???
Bobby I'm fast walking away too holy christ on a cracker talk about a jump scare that I KNEW was coming no thank you
This divorce arc is killing me yall
Wait, he's doing it now? While she's like 1/4 unpacked ?
Oh no oh wow did not see that coming
Yall this is rough because she's smart enough to connect the dots--oh yup here we are.
"not entirely" oh big oof bud, biiiiig big oof
"Of course, I don't have anywhere to go. You made sure of that." Hitting me in the soul, like Buck how did you not see how shitty this whole thing was???
(I hate the writers and the show runners for this, like it was so unnecessary and we could have had a way better breakup arc)
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You know, the most unrealistic thing in this whole ep is them saying she dumped $12 of premium on him when clearly that was $150 premium unleaded
So the more this episode goes on the more I'm realizing the god damn breakdown is going to be the last fuckin bit and we're probably going to see all of 1 minute of it before it cuts to the promo for 5.14. I'm preemptively annoyed lol
I keep thinking about the BTS of later in the season being in Buck's loft, so assuming BT breakup that means he stays in the loft and she's just... left out to dry. Like, how shitty. Regardless of if you like Taylor or not, no one deserves this kind of end to a relationship and (on my soap box, sorry) again this could have been avoided if the writers and show runners gave the bare minimum when it comes to caring about character development and canonical decisions.
OH SHIT THAT'S THE BREAKING POINT
THAT--EDDIE LISTENING--TO HER?!?! OH NOOOOOO
10/10 DID NOT SEE THAT COMING
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I'm so fucking nervous yall
I'm so grateful for the Maddie and Albert friendship ♥♥♥
We have less than 10 minutes for the breakdown, meaning I'm right about it being the last bit and I hate ittttttttttttttttttttt
That deserves to be an entire episode on it's own tbh and I wish we got it
Them pushing the breakdown like this is such a cock tease and I hate them.
JESUS H CHRIST BREAK THE FUCK UP ALREADY NOTHING ABOUT THIS RELATIONSHIP IS HEALTHY OR GOOD
I'm glad for that closure scene with Maddie and Jee
So he's calling an old army buddy? Interesting
Oh lord Chris really is going to find him, huh oh no
The fanfics did not prepare me for this
Oh my god nooooooooooo she's died too, didn't she oh no
Oh fuck my life how are they shoving this at the end like this I need an entire episode of this arc please
They all died ?????????????????
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Holy God alive Ryan killed that I'm deceased, heart broken, sobbing mess
7/10, the breakdown saved this. Would be higher if we got more of the Eddie/Buck or even Buck/Chris interaction.
How do they keep stringing along the BT relationship like this? Especially after Arielle hinted at 'poking' and 'flirting' like, seriously? So you've got a dude who knows how shitty he was and barely kept his relationship (and babe I'd be gone so fucking fast, even if it meant living in my car because the guy who supposedly loves me only partially asked me to move in because he felt guilty about kissing a 'rando' -spoiler alert not a rando- at a bar) and promised no more lies and they're what, going to keep fucking around??? Emotional cheating is just as bad as physically cheating.
I cannot express to you how much I don't want that on my screen, like even a little bit. Especially if BT is still a thing.
They've fumbled this BT relationship so catastrophically (not even touching how they watered down the Taylor character after they got together) that it's not even funny, just really sad because at the end of the day all of this was for naught and they're more than likely going to stick with the same tired trope of two attractive het people can't stop making sex eyes at each other because that's what attractive co-workers do. Man I hope I'm dead wrong, but I've got a gut feeling this stupid ass drama is only just beginning.
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Hello, I'm been trying to write fanfics and wanted to see if Nyone would like to check out my writing.
This is a taste of what I write like. If you don't mind let me know how you feel or think.
Taehyung - Empire Pt. 1
More parts on Wattpad.com/user/PhineMcc. Under Bts short stories
Contains- female Y/n, short girl vibes, violent actions, dirty language.
I own nothing but the storyline.
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Y/n watched as the light pink dress was being pulled onto her body, she was being prepared for her party, today was her 21 birthday. looking through the mirror she saw her four guards standing outside her door while her mother's maids dolled her up. she looked back at herself standing on a rather tall step stool.
"Ms. Y/n, are you okay?" she looked over at the dark skin maid and smiled. 'I think so.' the maid frowned as Y/n stepped into her shoes and moved off the stool. she looked back at the maid and looked away. 'Even with heels, I'm still smaller than everyone.' "What do you mean Ms."
Y/n watched as the maid looked into the mirror to realize that the others, including her was taller than Y/n. 'How many 21 year olds, do you know that is dressed in a fluffy pink dress, and  exported by four bodyguards.' Y/n turned around and walked over to the door. 'their probably waiting for me. we should get going now.'
the maids help pull her coat over her as the men centered her between them. walking down the hall, she looked up at the men, realizing they really do tower over her. anytime the male servers got too close, the men would push them out of the way. getting close the the stairs she could hear music and people talking.
two maids were standing the step and help her down them before her mother came running over. "Oh look my baby girl is here." Y/n smiled and followed her mother as she ranted on and on. after awhile of sitting and listening to people talk about her or where the furfure of the family was going, Y/n notice her questionable uncle walking over to them.
"Hello sister!" Y/n watched as her mother jumped in joy as she hugged the pale skin, rough face man. "come little one, come!" the man looked at her and motion for her to come over to him. she stood up and moved over to them. "Oh My! sister what are you feeding this child. She is far too small for her age." Y/n forced a smile as her mother hit his arm. "she is just built differently." the man made a face as he looked Y/n over. "she is small like her father. Fear not sister! for I have an amazing gift for the child. You all will love it! it will bring good luck to us again!"
looking at him, she felt uneasy at his words and watched as her mother and others jumped in joy. "Let us eat!" following her mother up some steps, Y/n sat and eat little of her food, not able to shake off the dooming feeling that is her uncle. trying to distract herself, she notice a older couple, the man lead the woman to the floor and they dance. Y/n smiled as the couple stared into each others eyes, she felt herself relax as the beautiful scene played out.
"May I have everyone's attraction!" Y/n felt her blood turn cold. the moment she has been dreading has finally come. her mother looked at her and motion for her to come. letting out a sigh, she got up and step down with the guards to the floor. looking back at the older couple, they were now staring at her as she reach her mother. "the time has finally come! as you all know, Y/n is 21 and will soon need to bare a child for our family, but before she can do that, we need a man to step up! so who is it going to be?"
taking a deep breath, Y/n looked up to see no one was moving. letting the air out of chest, she forced a smile and looked at her mother. 'Mo....' "come sister! no one wants a child!" Y/n snapped around and glared at the filthy man. her uncle walked up, making her having to up at him. "But fear not little one. I have an amazing present for you. as you all know I've been around the lands. I've fought many battles."
Y/n looked away and rolled her eyes, moving over to her mother, she reached for a hand. 'Mo...' she stopped when she heard someone yell out. turning back around she find two man dragging in a other skinnier man. "Child, I bring you the perfect husband." Y/n felt the air leave her body has the bag was pulled off his head. he was beautiful, his dark brown hair covered his eyes, and his white shirt was open enough to his wide tan chest, but the bruises on his face and arms brought her back to reality. looking away from the man, she could hear people whispering and she turn to her mom.
"Brother, what a lovely gift! he's strong and so handsome, he is perfect for her!" watching her mother praise the insane man, Y/n began shaking her head and moving away from them. '..no...no...this isn't want dad would want.' she looked around at everyone and kept moving back. 'dad wouldn't want this. I..don't want this.' hearing chains behind her, she slowly turn to see the man on his feet. turning around, she screamed and fell back as her two guards grab him. staring into his dark brown eyes, she felt maids pulling on her to stand up.
"Oh-Hahaha i'm sorry little one. we still need to break him in. he has al...." 'No!' Y/n pushed the maids away from her and moved over to her uncle. "Baby.." 'No!' Y/n turn to her mother. 'My father...' "Your father is dead." Y/n turn back to the filthy man and took a sharp breath. 'My father was a good man.' she heard him laugh and felt her mother hands on her arm. "A good man?? he got himself killed! he was.." Y/n grab her shoe and throw it at him. "Y/n!" 'No!' she pushed her mother's hand away and pushed the maids away again. 'This party is over.' "Honey.." 'over!' Y/n took her other shoe off and turn back to her guards. 'We're done here. get off of him and take me back to my room.'
the guards looked at her mother and Y/n let a laugh out. 'Fine!' she pushed passed the other guards and maids and walk back up the steps. "Y/n! ....Y/n i am your mother." stopping, she ripped the front of the dress and throw the fabric behind her and walked to the stairs heading back to the hall towards her room. reaching the top she was met with the maid from this morning. "Would you like for me to start your bath water?" Y/n sighed and nod. the maid lead her back to her room and pulled out some of her clothes and got her bath ready.
laying in the soapy lavender bath, Y/n relaxed and breath in deeply, trying to calm herself. she relax and thought about the old couple dancing. smiling, she thought about how the older man held the woman's hand so gently and how just being together was the only thing on their mind. she jumped when she heard a knock at her bathroom door. "Honey? ....baby girl, i know your in there..." Y/n sunk more into the water. "....I am sorry for what your uncle said, and your right. your father wouldn't forced you or anyone to do something they don't want to." Y/n sat up and looked at the door. silence fell between them as Y/n let the words settle in.
Y/n saw the shadow move a little. 'I love you mama.' she lay her head on the side of the tub.  "I love you too baby girl. honey, i'm going to have the maids bring your gifts in and leave them by the window. night, baby girl." Y/n smiled and nod. 'Night mama.' smiling she stretched and held her breath while sliding into the water. while holding her breath and her eyes closed, Y/n relaxed and came back up. sitting up, she began getting out and wrapped a towel around herself. 'Maids? maids do you have my clothing?' she moved over to the door and pulled it open.
looking into her room she find the dark skin maid standing in the far corner, walking into the room, she stopped when she heard chains. looking over to the balcony door she find the dark skin man sitting on the floor of her room, chain to her makeup mirror. looking back to the maid, she weakly smiled. 'Hey, just climb over the bed.' "But..." 'It's okay. just climb over the bed.' the maid nodded and did as she was told. taking the clothes from her, she blocked the maid's stare from the man. 'who brought him in here?' "the... the two men from your uncle."
Y/n nod and turn back around. 'Thank you, you are dismiss.' "But madam." Y/n smiled at her and the girl nod. Y/n walked back into the bathroom and put the long grey dress on with her white underwear. walking back to the door, she snuck her head out to find the guy looking out the balcony window. walking out, she watched as the guy turn his head to stare at her.
she looked away from him and sit down on her bed. 'so..okay.' Y/n stood back up and looked at him. 'I...I'm not going to forced you to marry me, I don't believe in that type of stuff and...i want to fix this.... but..but I don't know how.' Y/n sat back down while biting at her lip. "You could start by letting me kill that bastard." Y/n jumped at his deep voice, and made eye contact before he looked back out the window. '..yeah, i could but that would mean innocent people could get involved.' the man chuckled and looked back at her. she watched as he shook his head and lay it against the wall. "Well I am happy that I don't have to show such a intimate moment with that pig watching..... Do you think you unlock my feet long enough for me to go to the bathroom?"
Y/n frowned her eyebrows and stared at the man. 'Watching? .....also I don't know anything about locking those chains.' he brought his head back down and looked at her. "you don't know how to unlock chains? how does a maniac's niece not know about chains or their auditions." 'I am not like him, and what do you mean by watch?' Y/n got back up, and watched as the guy chuckled. "how old are you? like 15?" 'Shut up.' He laughed and looked at her. "...oh what are you going to throw a shoe at me too? can you even make a fist? how do you not know that its audition for your people to watch the new couple to have sex for the first time?"
Y/n shook her head. 'No, my father would never...' "Your father probably didn't have a choice. anyways where is your father?...oh? let me guess if he had your same ideas. he probably was kil..." Y/n felt a sharp pain in her hand from slapping him. pulling her hand into her chest, she made eye content with him, as he stared up at her. he looked away and moved his jaw. "I deserved that. I crossed a line." Y/n stood up straight, feeling a tear run down her face. she moved out the balcony door, missing the hair pen that fell into his lap.
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a-froger-epic · 3 years
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oh gods help me, there's this boy, and we've become really good friends, and if my life were a movie we'd be dating by now, I'm sure XD
(also btw for context I'm afab, she/they)
He's very nice, has great taste, and all the factors point to "Perfect Romantic Partner", I mean-
• we showed each other poetry we've written and it was really great, (and that was literally only our second interaction ever)
• He has good fashion sense, loves thrifting, loves that I love thrifting, and we now have a deal that if we find cool vintage clothes in each other's size we'll buy it for each other (which works well because we're actually about the same size and I wear men's clothing a lot anyway)
• not to sound shallow, but he is quite aesthetically attractive. and he has an actual skincare routine (I mean, the bar is so low, but still)
• he's into photography and wants to show me how he develops film & all that stuff, which sounds super cool
• We've stayed up until nearly 2 in the morning discussing art and history and music- his favorite musician of all time is Tchaikovsky- I recommended Prokofiev's Romeo and Juliet and THEN HE ACTUALLY LISTENED TO IT
• and most of all HE'S REALLY SUPPORTIVE OF MY SONGWRITING AND MUSIC AND I JUST- SKDGSKSHSKSKAKS
and I just think he's a really really interesting person and I just really want to be friends with him, and I don't want him to take that interest the wrong way...
...and part of me wonders why I feel that way??? Because, my goodness, if there's any boy on earth I should date, he fits the bill. But I'm just... not at all attracted to him in that way.
And I catch myself thinking, "Maybe I could be??? if I tried??" which is probably not how one is supposed to go about these things 😬
And the thing is, I generally call myself bisexual, but I've never officially dated anyone so I'm not 100% committed to that label and especially this past year I've started just going with "queer" bc I really just don't fuckin know at this point-
and it's probably ridiculous to be like "well if I'm not attracted to this one specific man I must not be attracted to men" but....
I am attracted to him, just not in a sexual way, and not really in a romantic way (I think)... but I don't know how to explain that to him, hell, I can't even explain it to MYSELF, so it's just... never brought up
and I'm worried one day it's gonna come out that he thinks we've been practically dating for a while, but I've thought we're just friends, and basically it's just this whole mess.
idk why I'm dumping this all on you, but it seems like in part of your fanfic one of the characters had a similar issue at one point??? (I haven't read DoA yet, forgive me if I'm wrong, just going off of vague memory of posts/asks i've seen) but even if not, you just seem really good with advice, and I know you're a good writer... maybe I just wish you could write me a happy ending... 😅
I'm sorry, I know that's a lot... you don't have to answer right away, or even at all, but I just needed to tell SOMEONE
Hey anon, I've been there.
When I got out of a 6 year relationship at the age of 22, first thing I did was go on a date with someone I met online. This was before tinder, so it was a forum and his post read "Geek Guy seeks Geek Girl" and I was like: "It meee!"
Anyway, we exchanged some emails, we had everything in common when it came to shows, film and literature we loved. We got on like a house on fire. On paper, this guy was the perfect partner for me. Literally, just wonderful.
We went on a date. He was the nicest, sweetest guy and we talked all night and we had such a great time.
I felt 0 romantic/physical attraction. Nada. It was like talking to my beloved twin brother, if I'd had one. I went on another date with him to be sure, and then called him before the 3rd date to tell him I was very sorry but the spark just wasn't there for me.
He was crushed. I mean, he cried on the phone, he was absolutely distraught. But what was I going to do? Anything else would've just been leading him on. He kept asking "What's changed?" and I was like "Nothing... I'm just... not feeling it, I'm really sorry."
Then I had three brief flings (and some really great sex) with two guys and a girl I had almost nothing in common with but felt crazy attracted to, before I met another guy who shared my interests and gave me butterflies.
So, all I'm saying is, it be like that sometimes. There's really nothing you can do, other than set boundaries. If your friend tries to make a move, you'll have to explain that you like him a lot, but the right feelings just aren't there for you.
It's not easy, and it might hurt the other person, but that's the way it is.
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Hey, I'm doing good too. Just normal amounts of stressful stuff right now. Just moved to a country I've never been to before but can't complain, things are not as hard as the last time I did this so. Thanks for asking! Yeah, I saw you posting about some pretty scary health issues before, I'm glad you came out of that alive and hope you're healthier now!
The nerve some people have! Haha I know I would be pissed if people were questioning my intelligence like that especially after a couple of drinks in haha. Though I do like taunting people when I play group games, I'll be like "don't need to try that hard guys, you're gonna lose anyway" just to mess with them or just call people sore losers if they accuse me of cheating haha (they're probably right on the accusations tho). People get real mad sometimes it's kinda funny. 😂
Omg literally laughed out loud reading this! Hahaha, how did you manage to fall over a road sign then end up in a ditch? lol omg hope you didn't get hurt too bad 😂 I was trying to downplay my drunken escapades but since you shared yours I should tell you my worst one:
I was at this summer street party at night and got drunk on something made out of tropical herbs and cachaça (which is about 48% alcohol), drank 3 and a half bottles of that like it was apple juice, made friends with a bunch of strangers in a bathroom queue (who tried to talk to me weeks later but I had no idea who they were), had to be held by my best friend while I peed (mostly missing the toilet), fell in the middle of the street and scraped my knee, threatened this boy who was helping me walk and told him not to try anything funny or I would beat him up, then dragged my friends to the beach and left them shortly after to go make out with my ex, came back with lipstick all over my mouth and chin and when my friends asked what I was doing I said I was just talking to my ex and they were like NO YOU WERE NOT, hahaha then I kissed all my girl friends on a dare and we danced under the full moon, then I told my best friend I had to puke so she took me to the ocean but I changed my mind and happened to step on a dead turtle on the way back and started crying bc of it, but last month my best friend told me it was a rock I had stepped on (I believed it was a dead turtle for 7 years!). Had the worst hangover of my life the next day. ✌️✨
Ah I'm happy you liked it! I've never listened to Six musical before but it sounds fun! I can see why you like it haha made me want to dance around my apartment 💃. And hey if liking musicals is your thing then it's great, I'm sure Hozier will understand if he's not your top artist of the year. 😋 Here's my "damie" Pinterest board if you or anyone else wants to check it out, totally recommend making one if you're a visual person like me!
https://pin.it/UcHVlkq
Oh I could talk about Dani and Jamie forever I think. I love the beast in the jungle speech too and it's so painful to watch, VP delivered that beautifully, but I have to admit I'm always a crying mess from episode 1 when older Jamie starts reciting that song about being sad while waiting for her lover to return, this show is fucking cruel I hate it and love it at the same time hahaha. Omg your mom 😂 but I mean it's truly an honor to be compared to someone like Dani, no? She's really great even if she needs a little help haha (don't we all).
Aaah you're amazing! Thank you so much, I'll read this pirate AU soon!
I used to draw a lot, really loved doing it when I was a kid as I said before, and all throughout adulthood too but I haven't done that in almost a year now bc I've got a bit of a case of burnout I guess, it just takes a lot of effort to do it when it shouldn't be like that at all. I used to do fanart too, for other fandoms. Even made one for Dani x Jamie but ended up not liking how it turned out haha. I've got a lot of respect for writers and fanfic writers also! Yall can make words make sense in really interesting and beautiful ways, build worlds so enthralling I can see them vividly in my head. Writing is such an incredibly fascinating skill to have! And I guess the most important thing is that we enjoy doing these things right? Even if we think we're not particularly good at it.
Anyway, have a lovely weekend! 👋✨
Good I'm glad you're doing great but sorry you're dealing with stressful stuff!! Hope living in a new country goes well for you I'm so jealous that you've lived in different countries I'd love to live somewhere else even if just for s few years!! Awwh thank you so much I definitely came out of it alive and am feeling so much better now thank you I mean I do some pretty ditzy things so when people say it to me it's pretty deserved sometimes, I'm secretly smart and people just don't expect it so I never mind too much haha I might have to start saying the things that you do and just taunting them over it I mean, I usually do win even when they make me answer different questions so I will definitely have to start saying things like that to them Haha I love that you're just like "yeah they're probably right in their accusations" I agree seeing how mad some people get over games and stuff is funny (it's me I'm people I hate loosing games depending on what it is and I am very competitive) So it was very dark and all we had for light was my roommates flashlight on her phone but while we were walking home a friend of ours that lived else where kept texting her to make sure we were still safe (my phone as dead at this point) so while she was texting him her flashlight was facing down and someone had moved this road sign to the footpath and it was on that sits on the floor so while I couldn't see it I walked into it and fell over it but while I feel I grabbed hold of it and flipped with it and fell in a ditch with it on top of me... I was fine and was just laid laughing while my friend looked down at me and in the most northern accent ever just said "get up you dickhead." and helped me off of the floor and then asked if I was okay... and I was so it was all good!! Haha 😂 I love this drunken story that sounds like one hell of a night and is a roller coaster from start to finish!! I'm sorry you thought you had stood on a dead turtle for 7 years though, someone really should've told you that it was just a rock!! But that sounds like my kind of night!! I love nights like that... stories that will last a life time... the only down side is the hangover... luckily I have only ever had one hang over in my life and it wasn't the morning after the road sign fiasco... I felt surprisingly good the morning after that haha 😂 It's such a good musical it's about Henry VIII wives and I just love everything to do with his wives and that musical is so much fun and actually gives a little insight to the lives the six Tudor queens had away from Henry and with him because at school we're mainly just taught about him which sucks!! I loved the Hozier song and am definitely gonna have to listen to more of his stuff!! I love musicals so much I mainly listen to musical soundtracks at the minute- usually, Legally Blonde and Six on repeat haha 😂 Ooo thank you I will definitely check out this Pinterest board thanks for sending it to me!! I could talk about them forever too... since watching Bly Manor my niece has been asking me so many questions about it and I am more than happy to talk to her about it haha!! The beast in the jungle speech just breaks my heart every time I relate to it so much and VP just delivers it so beautifully!! Oh yeah now I know at the beginning that it's older Jamie I am just a wreck the whole show is just so beautiful and heart breaking at the same time I LOVE IT!! Even though it makes me sob- I keep putting myself through it!! I mean, yeah I was happy that she said it Dani is great but it was the way she said it... my mum can be something else sometimes... she said she thought Dani was like me the first time she does the accent when she says "I've fallen quite in love with London" because I just randomly do accents a lot too but it was the way she was like "She needs help... but I like her she reminds me of you" I was just like... "Should I go get help?" I still don't know the answer to my question about if I need help or not but I mean I probably do need it You're welcome I really hope you like it!! It's a
great fic I love it!! Yeah I get that if stuff starts taking too much effort and burns you out you're not gonna wanna keep doing it so it's understandable that you stopped!! I think fan art is great and I really would love to be able to do it myself but I just don't have the skill it takes!! Awwh it's a shame you didn't like the Dani x Jamie one you did I would've loved to have seen it!! Honestly there are so many talented writers out there and when I read their fics I am just in awe of the worlds they have built and the stories they have created we are so blessed in this fandom to have so many amazing writers and so many amazing fics out there Oh yeah definitely its important to enjoy what you do!! I know I love writing and love writing fics for Dani and Jamie so I think I'll be doing it for a while even if I'm not great at it haha Awwh thank you very much I hope you have a great weekend too!! ☺️
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*knocks on door* helloo, it's me again 👀 let me start with the most important thing: you're writing is definitely NOT "meh" T_T I love you're writing style, the way you describe thoughts and feelings and the setting, like dude, have you actually read what you write? while we're already at it, I am in absolute love with Woozi's confession part? It perfectly fits his personality, I could imagine that happening exactly this way 🥺 about your milestone prompt game, I was eating breakfast (why do you live on the other side of the world D;) while reading the part with Jeonghan and I almost choked on my cereal because I had to laugh sm when he revealed they had to kiss lmao 😂
and I really loved the other parts, too, especially the one with Wonwoo, it's just...perfect :D
I was just a bit confused because you said it's an established relationship and I thought they already were a couple but I probably just got the wrong idea of what "established relationship" actually means, tbh I have no clue about terms for fanfics now about Leica 🥺 IT'S SO GOOD??? asjkdlaksusakjl the way the reader could tell it's Cheol, or maybe it was just me but I was literally sitting here thinking "I can imagine Cheol doing that...which other member could also fit tho? But Cheol.." ajkhdkjlWJD It's just reeeeeeaally good okay? okay. quick question, are you doing photography, too? 👀 and wait, I'm also on my laptop on tumblr recently since my phone is broken rn oops and I just found out that I can press the windows key and the . (point) key to use emojis? though, idk if that works for you, too I've actually reread both stories, "When we meet again" and "My dream is you", but I was talking about the one with Mingyu <3 and it's so cool that you want to write your own novels! Omg go for it! The talent is definitely there 😌 looking forward to your collabs and what else you planned or already have on hand :D now, last but not least, Vincenzo *clears throat* it's an emotional roller coaster and I don't know what to feel about that T_T I love the show, no doubts, but my heart was broken several times by now and I haven't even reached half time yet :( BUT they are iconic, he is iconic and I'm living for everything they do may I ask who your favourite characters would be? this has nothing to do with you writing, I am so sorry anyway, I should probably go to bed *coughs*, but who needs sleep am I right? well, enjoy your day/evening, stay healthy and safe and take care <3 ~🌙
well well well if it isn't the LOVE OF MY LIFE HI🌙 ANON 💕
okay before we dive in, re: wonwoo's drabble, that was a mistake hahahahaha they are most definitely NOT in an established relationship 😂 i copy and paste the formatting for previous fics and sometimes i forget to change the details (wc, genre, warnings, etc). it's happened a lot so not surprised i forgot to change it again lol
next, WOW THANK YOU FOR THE KIND WORDS 🥺 i hit a wall of self-doubt while i was writing recently and i felt my writing style wasn't good enough :(( but now i'm just using that to push myself and vary my sentence structure and be descriptive but not too descriptive, etc etc. to answer your question if i actually read what i write: no hahaha my brain is dead after i write and then i get fed up w it and then post it and never look back (jk i do reread them sometimes)
the jeonghan one i am rly happy w and i'm glad you enjoyed it 🤗 i was literally abt to go to bed and my brain went: OMG WHAT IF JEONGHAN ENEMIES TO LOVERS and the rest is history.
also i am so glad you like woozi's confession, i struggled a lot w that one 😭 and leica too omg!! i am so so so glad you thought of cheol uwu i'm soft for him and then he posted those photos from his leica lol and i was like YES ANGSTY TIME anyways-- to answer your other question, yes i do do photography!! only digital tho, so any film buffs who read leica will probably eat me alive bc idk how to actually develop film 😭
agshdkfldl thank you for supporting me and my novelist dreams 🥺 super reassuring knowing at least ONE person will read my stories 💕 (also i will try the emoji thing on my computer)
now speaking of collabs, i've already finished one and i MIGHT post a sneak peek bc i'm very excited abt it hehe so keep an eye out ;)
okay and finally: VINCENZO. it's quite the whirlwind, keeps you on your toes 24/7, funny, sad, lovely, hilarious, it rly ticks a lot of boxes that most kdramas don't usually do. the heartbreak tho, OOF, lemme just say you need to prepare yourself. fav characters? hong cha young: absolute QUEEN, she is so incredible and honestly everything i ever aspire to be. i also just love all of the tenants of geumga like they add so much color to the show. i think vincenzo would be a lot darker without them which would be FINE but i'm glad they're there ☺ also plz we don't have to talk abt my writing all the time lol
also plz get some sleep!! rest up, drink water, and always stay safe and healthy <333
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Chie was warm when she awoke the next morning. What a lovely feeling! She couldn't remember how long it had been since she last felt this peaceful — as if pure sunshine itself were wrapping around her, coiled like an affectionate snake. Even though that was a very weird mental image.
Speaking of which… the sunshine itself was just barely peeking in through the windows of the room, making her close her eyes a little tighter as she snuggled harder against her pillow. All she wanted to do was sleep in and forget the frightening, insane dream she had. Yukiko falling into the TV? Monster clones crawling all over each other — and worse still, Yu and Yosuke seeing them like that?! Horrible and crazy, even if the ending of the dream was a little less unpleasant. No, she would rather just think about sunshine and her best friend and let the nightmare fade into nothingness.
"Yukiko…" she breathed with a small smile.
"Hmm?"
The response didn't startle her. Not at first. She simply was too comfortable, too happy, for the reality of the situation to poke through that fuzzy blanket of contentment. However, she did start to feel like either her pillow was a little too warm, or her dog somehow knew the word "Hmm" now. And come to that, Muku wasn't an inside dog. Why was he in her bed today?
When she moved her face just a little to snuggle closer and hopefully fall back asleep, she could suddenly tell that there was hair covering her pillow. Not fabric, and not dog fur either… actual human hair. That was weird. Her brain finally put it together: the least weird thing to be covered in human hair was a human, not a pillow or a dog. So that meant…
That meant…
Drawing backward, Chie opened her eyes to observe a sea of silky black strands. Yukiko. She didn't need to scroll through some huge list of people it could be; she knew, even without seeing anything else. This wasn't the first time they had fallen asleep together and awoken in the same bed. Just the first time since finding out a shadowy part of her heart wanted to wake up next to her every morning.
Moving her arm a little showed her that it was around Yukiko's stomach. And it felt so good there… who wouldn't love to spoon the junior innkeeper? Flawless goddess that she was. Practically everybody who went to Yasogami High shared that opinion; with the exception of Ai Ebihara, who was gorgeous but as snooty and unpleasant as they came, she was most definitely the hottest girl in school. She had even overheard a couple of "If I were gay" discussions in the locker room that hinted Yukiko would be their ideal.
But now, Chie and Yukiko were gay. For real, not just hypothetically.
"Oh shit," she breathed when she remembered that particular detail. The shadows had been telling the truth. Sure, she knew she could put up a fight, try to pretend it was all a dream or they were lying, but the moment she accepted that other Chie into her heart she relinquished all right to deny it any longer. "Yukiko… I think we're in trouble."
"Hmm?" she groaned again, squirming a little in Chie's embrace. Her hand drifted up to rest on the back of Chie's, which made her smile. What a tender touch. "Prince? What time is it?"
Now she burst into a full rosy blush like she never had before. Yukiko was calling her that in her sleep now? She had thought the shadow exaggerated that slightly, like they tended to do, but apparently it was no exaggeration. Before she could think through her response, it was out of her mouth and into the air.
"I don't know, Princess."
Yukiko's dark eyes fluttered open, staring at the wall bordering the window. Now she could see this was Yuki's room; her brain hadn't been firing on all cylinders before. Such a traditional Japanese room, complete with low tables and tatami, a bonsai on a small table in the corner, hanging calligraphy — and they were curled up in a futon that was luxurious for one person but very slightly too small for two. There was also a poster of a pop group Yukiko loved, but it was framed; probably a compromise on her mother's part.
"Chie-chan?" she breathed.
"Yeah?"
"It's you. Why… last night, what happened?"
"Nothing! Nothing happened!" That was her first instinct; cover her own ass, make sure Yukiko didn't think she was being a creep. Then she cleared her throat. "I m-mean, uh… I don't know. What do you remember?"
Her warm body shifted, and Chie felt her neck growing yet hotter. This felt too good in a way it never had before. "I remember… the castle. You saved me. I'm… oh."
"Oh?"
"I remember our shadows."
"Damn," she sighed. "I was kinda hoping you'd forget that part. So embarrassing!"
"I know! I've never… how could that other me be s-so indecent? I've never had thoughts like those before!"
Chie sighed, petting up and down her best friend's stomach. She felt the muscles twitch and shift in response. "Um… yeah, but… I have. And I think the shadows kinda, um, fed off each other? Or something, I guess. I don't know."
Finally, Yukiko turned just enough so she could look at her best friend out of the corner of her eye. "You've really thought about me that way?"
"Not… like the shadow said I did. I wasn't trying to…" She grimaced, and Yukiko's expression grew more concerned. "Never wanted to be with you… like that. It was just a thought or two, I promise. Because there's never been any guys I was really into, y'know? So after seeing that video, I… y-you're so pretty, and we're already best friends… so I had to wonder…"
"You had to wonder…?" When Chie didn't continue, she bit her lip for a moment before whispering, "If maybe you and I could be like the girls in the video?"
"Yeah! But then I was like, that's stupid, right? We're friends! And that's cool! You've been my best friend practically my whole life, and I love that. I don't wanna mess it up."
"Chie… why are we in bed together?"
Swallowing hard, she tried to scrape together two brain cells. "Well… you collapsed in the castle, and then I was trying to help carry you out… and after that… man, I really don't remember."
"If…" Yukiko rolled onto her back, and Chie felt even more self-conscious now that they could see each other. That perfect, angelic face, gazing up at her with concern and trust. She didn't deserve that. "Maybe Yu and Yosuke couldn't carry both of us all the way to both houses? So they just left you here."
"Maybe…" She sighed, looking away. "I'm sorry, Yuki-chan. I didn't mean to flake."
"Flake? What do you mean?"
"I should have been able to carry you all the way home, if I'm really your… well, y'know."
"My prince?" When Chie nodded, she let out the softest little chuckle. "You really think I don't still see you that way? You went to an entire other world for me. A-and you accepted your shadow, even after she told everyone that you… after she did those things to the other Yukiko."
"I couldn't hide from them anymore," she sighed, slumping just a little. "Not with it all out in the open, and… and it being the truth."
"No, that's not what I was trying to explain. I know the only reason you accepted that was to make sure I was safe. I could tell." Her hand drifted up to cup Chie's cheek. "My brave prince, risking her life, and then… her reputation in front of the guys. And all I did was be a victim."
Eyebrows furrowing, she leaned a little closer. "Don't say it like that. We were all victims — of whoever's behind this stupid stuff. How were you supposed to know you'd get kidnapped?!"
"But I couldn't protect myself," she insisted. "Couldn't stop them from catching me and throwing me into the TV. What kind of pathetic-"
"Stop! You have every right to just… be a peaceful, gentle girl, who likes to study, and laugh at stupid jokes, a-and… and I would die to defend that right!"
Yukiko's face suddenly grew deathly serious. "No. Please don't say things like that, Chie. I don't want to think about… well, I just don't want to think about that. Okay?"
"Okay," she acquiesced with a little nod. While Yukiko was breathing a sigh of relief, she kissed her cheek. "I'm just glad we got you back safe and sound."
"Oh," Yukiko breathed. Only then did Chie realise what she had done, but her friend was already smiling. "Y-yes. Thank you."
"S-sorry."
"No, no, it's alright! It felt very…" She trailed off, the bridge of her nose and her cheeks turning pink. "I can't believe this is real. We're… I didn't even know. How could I not know I had those feelings buried inside of me? Am I stupid?"
"Only if I am, too," she chuckled, and Yukiko grinned bashfully.
"I guess you're right. We can't pretend that both of our shadows weren't having a great time over there."
"We could," Chie hedged playfully. "Try to pretend the whole thing was just a big hallucination. But now that Tomoe is a part of me, I don't think it's gonna work very well."
"Tomoe?"
After blinking for a moment, Chie breathed, "Whoa. I just… knew that name. That's the other me; her name is Tomoe. How? She never told me…"
"Konohana Sakuya."
"Huh?"
"That's… mine's name," she explained, sounding just as confused as Chie. "They're part of us, but… also something else. I saw them change before we accepted them; do you think…?"
"I don't know," she admitted readily. "Seriously, I wish I did. But I remember Yosuke saying something about that when we were all talking about what happened when him and Yu went into the TV before. They used a word… I just can't remember what it was now."
"That's alright. We can ask them later." They shifted and felt their legs graze each other's, and Yukiko giggled a bit. "Wow, this feels very different from before."
"You bet. I'm… I don't know what to do."
"What do you want to do? We can get up now if that's-"
"NO! I mean, uhh… it's okay. We can chill for a minute."
Yukiko smiled sweetly up at her, even if her face was glowing crimson. "You don't have to do that anymore, you know. Hide your true feelings. If you do want to… be close to me, we can do that. It's a little scary since it's new, but I… don't mind. Not at all."
"Really? It's not too weird?" She moved her legs again. "I don't think, um… we're wearing very much. Under the sheets."
"Y-yeah. It's… don't worry, I'm sure it was my mother who undressed us, or one of the other women."
"It had better have been. I'll punt that Yosuke to the moon if he even took off one of my shoes!" They both giggled a little before relaxing again, even if they weren't fully relaxed. Too much excitement.
"Your legs are smooth," Yukiko commented out of nowhere. "A-against mine. Sorry."
"What are you sorry for?"
"Well… it's strange, isn't it? For us to be doing this, and… I want to tell you what I'm thinking, but I'm also ashamed of those things. It's silly; I just got done telling you everything is fine, and yet…"
One of Chie's shoulders rose and fell with a little shrug. "It's okay. Seriously, I'm… don't worry about me judging you. I'm pretty sure it's my fault we even saw our shadows doing that since I'm the perv."
"You are not a perv," she chuckled. "Unless you were lying about how often you go to watch those videos."
"I wasn't. Like, I only went on there once." Sighing, she forced herself to admit, "I did watch more than one video, though. Like, a few. But I felt so creepy afterward that I couldn't let myself go back."
"I see. Did you want to look at some together?"
Chie nearly lost her mind at that thought. Therefore, she was quick to assure her, "S-some other time! Maybe? I dunno, um…"
"O-oh, okay," Yukiko quickly agreed, nodding as she swallowed hard. "I didn't mean to upset you, or to suggest something… too unpleasant. Just trying to help."
"You are! I mean it, this is really… I'm so happy that you're not skeeved, or think I'm being a perv, or hating me for… being gross with that website. I just… got curious, and then it was super fascinating."
After debating internally for a second, Yukiko whispered, "And then, you pictured the two of us doing the same thing?" No answer. Yukiko reached up to pet along her cheek again as she added, "It's alright. I think… w-well, I don't like anyone thinking of me that way. It seems vulgar. Except, knowing you have… it doesn't make me angry like Yosuke does when he asks what my measurements are."
Chie's lip curled. "That boy is a real horndog. Not a bad guy overall, but like, he's sure got a one-track mind."
"Yeah!" she agreed with a musical laugh that made Chie melt in a way it never had before. She always loved it, sure, but now it had a deeper effect than could be explained away. "I wouldn't be surprised if he tries to get us into swimsuits as soon as the weather's warmer."
"Probably right! I mean, God, why is he like that?!" They both giggled for a few seconds, trying to relax against each other's bodies despite the electricity sparking between them. Then Chie cuddled a little closer, feeling Yukiko's arms tighten around her back. "Mmm…"
A tender mouth came to rest against the crown of her head, pushing into the hair a tiny bit — not quite a kiss. Just a tender gesture. "Chie… I don't understand a lot of this. I really don't. But I want you to know something."
"What's up?" she breathed.
"That you and I… we're friends. And not just 'I'll see you in class' friends, but 'I'll see you every day for the rest of our lives' friends. Even if we aren't… that kind, if our feelings aren't the same, that doesn't matter. I will never turn my back on this friendship."
Her heart felt like it could burst. "Y-Yuki-chan… I… for real? You and me, forever?"
"Sorry."
"No, no, I feel the same way!"
"You do?!" When Chie nodded, she embraced her even more tightly. "Oh, Chie… I've felt that way for a long time! I just wasn't sure if I should say it, or if it would be too strange. Since it sounded like…"
When she didn't finish the thought after a few seconds, she whispered, "Yeah. It sure does sound like… a love confession."
"Right. And of course, I love you. I'm just… not sure what kind of…"
"Hey, don't sweat it," she reassured her with a smile as she held onto her friend. Trying to ignore how warm she was, how good she smelled… how little they were wearing, even if it was underneath bedsheets. "We'll figure that out. Probably."
For a few minutes, they simply laid there, too afraid to continue. To misspeak and change the whole situation sooner than either of them were prepared for. Finally, Yukiko cleared her throat as she caressed up and down Chie's mostly-bare back, fingers tripping slightly over the strap of her sports bra.
"So… um… fingers can really… do that to a woman? And it doesn't hurt?"
Instantly, Chie turned back into a mess. It became a lot harder to ignore certain physical reactions when forced to think about that spectacle their shadows put on again — especially when she could feel a very warm hip pushing against the area in question.
"Y-yeah, I guess so! Not that I tried it, but I, u-um… looked like it to me."
"Wow…"
"I know, right? Crazy…"
Licking her lips, Yukiko whispered, "And you would want to try that with me?"
"NO! I uh, I mean… yeah? But we're not doing that kind of stuff, so it's fine! Really, I'm just… I feel a little light-headed, do you feel light-headed? Is it hot in here or is it just you?"
Yukiko had been laughing until the last part, which made her gasp. "Me? Hot?!"
"Yeah, you! Geez, haven't you ever looked in a mirror? Don't you hear how the boys talk about you in school?"
"W-well… I think boys just talk about girls like that all the time," she hedged, cheeks flaming red. "And of course, I know I'm not ugly, but I also don't think I'm particularly pretty. Or unique; I'm such a common girl. What about Ebihara-san? She's much prettier than me. And so are you!"
Chuckling just a little at her friend's modesty — which she knew was true and not a facade, thanks to their shadow-encounters — she kissed her cheek and whispered, "You're beautiful, ya idiot. And everybody knows Ebihara's a bitch."
"CHIE!" she cried out in shock, even though she started giggling a moment later. Chie allowed herself to relax into the embrace as her friend shook with mirth for a few seconds. "I… I can't believe you said that!"
"What? It's true! She's a huge bitch and nobody can stand her. I mean… she's probably just really insecure or whatever, but does that have to mean she takes it out on the rest of us?"
Yukiko nodded thoughtfully as they relaxed against each other. "I wonder… if she went into the TV with us… what her shadow would be like? Or my parents, or… anyone. Not that I want them to have to go through what we have, or what the reporter and Saki-san did, for sure — nobody else should die. I'm just curious what secrets are in their hearts; it might explain why Ebihara-san is so, um, unpleasant."
"Who knows?" she sighed, relaxing a little more as they both fell silent. At least they had the topic of the egomaniacal Ai to distract them for a few seconds.
What should they do now? Of course, they could just keep lying there, but given that she already felt the embers of need trying to catch the rest of her on fire, that was a bad plan if she didn't want to end up repeating what the shadows had done. Which neither of them was quite ready for. Could they actually just get up and start acting like everything was fine? No, that ship had sailed; actually watching part of their own selves acting out secret fantasies would not be so easy to forget as a slip of a tongue, or a lingering glance.
"Yuki-chan?"
"Yes?"
"Um… I'm sorry for how I used to think about you." There, perfect. This was something she needed to do, anyway, and it would help keep them from thinking too hard about other matters. "For thinking of you as dependent on me, o-or whatever. I know we kind of already went over that, but I wanted to formally apologi-"
"Shhh," she shushed her, kissing her cheek. "Chie, don't. I know… I know I put you on a pedestal, and you enjoyed the pedestal. We both could have been… smarter? Or more wise? Or maybe just more honest about our feelings with each other. A-anyway, I, um… I don't like you any less, and I don't think you're a bad person at all. So don't worry about those things."
Great. Yukiko was so kind and understanding that now they had nothing to distract them from the deeper worries about their sexuality. And since they had already admitted their feelings, more or less…
"D-does this mean… we're… dating?"
"Does it?" Yukiko asked, eyebrows shooting upward. "Wow…"
Grimacing, she hissed, "Don't just accept it like that! We're both girls, aren't we?"
"Well, yes. But I've read somewhere that it's becoming more and more commonly accepted in other parts of the world. There are countries in Africa where it's still punishable by death, but everywhere else…"
"Death!" she squeaked, clutching at her own throat.
"Stop," she snorted with a slight smile. "It's terrible, yes, but I don't plan on moving to Africa, so you and I should be safe."
Chie forced herself to breathe. Then she cleared her throat and followed up with, "Still, um… we're in Japan. It's weird here, right? They're going to look at us funny."
"Maybe…" She frowned a little, then she shrugged. "But how will they know we're not just friends?"
"Well, that- oh. Oh, I guess you're right, huh? Unless we make out in the middle of class, anyway."
"You want to make out in the middle of class?" Chie's brain short-circuited for a minute before Yukiko giggled. "Sorry, that was mean. I made you picture it, I think."
"N-not 'mean'! Nope! And what do you mean? I didn't picture anything!" When her friend only continued to giggle at her expense, belly shaking, Chie rolled her eyes and smiled. "You're such a goof. Do you know that? Like, everybody else is fooled by your cute 'proper lady' kimono-wearing facade, but not me. I see who you really are."
Her smile was coy as she gazed upward, the sun coming through the window in just the right way to sparkle in one of her eyes. "And who am I?"
What Chie had been going to say was something along the lines of "a nerd"; she actually wasn't entirely sure. But seeing her like that prompted a quiet, "Perfect."
"What?" Yukiko's smile disappeared, only to reappear smaller and alongside a rosy blush. "O-oh."
"What?"
"I didn't think… you were going to say something like…" Throat working to swallow, she looked away. "Wow. You really are a prince."
"A-ah, come on," she tried to laugh it off. "Just because I said that one thing?"
"No. It's the way you said it; the way you were looking at me when you did. There was this dreamy sincerity in your eyes, and… your voice was so serious. I got goosebumps." When Chie laughed again, she pushed down the sheet and raised up an arm. "No really! Look, I have them!"
However, Chie became distracted by something else other than the tiny scores of bumps along Yukiko's arm. There was no bra. She had still been expecting actual clothes, really, but even beyond those having gone missing, her best friend was topless. And unless she missed her guess, those peaks were erect — probably for the same reason her arm had blossomed into gooseflesh.
Because of Chie.
"Oh!" Yukiko suddenly gasped when she realised, her other arm sliding up to lay across her chest and conceal everything. "Oh no, I- I'm sorry, I w-wasn't… sometimes I can be such a ditz!"
"Yeah…" Once hearing she said that, she hurried to assure her, "Wait, hang on, you're n-not a ditz. I don't think that! I meant, um… it's okay! Yeah."
Both of them were red enough in the face that they probably could have cooked omelettes on their cheeks. Chie took a quick glance down to see if she was clothed, and she was — in her sports bra. At least it was something. Yukiko was probably either wearing no bra before, or hers was nicer and more elaborate, so the women who worked at the inn had removed it so she could rest comfortably after her ordeal. It made sense, even if it resulted in this awkward situation.
"...want to…"
"What?"
Yukiko was quick to shake her head. "Nothing."
"No, really," Chie insisted. "I missed what you said."
"I asked if you wanted… to… t-touch them?"
Licking her lips, she glanced around the room. "Okay, I uh… I know we said we'd do that whole 'honesty' thing from now on. But are you sure you wanna be asking me questions like that?"
"I am," she whispered. "Even if the answers might scare me a little, I could never be really scared. Not with you next to me."
Heart bursting with love, Chie smiled down at her and leaned in for a gentle kiss. Neither of them were really ready, but she suddenly knew that there was no point in depriving each other of the chance to experience this connection — one that had existed all along. They just lied to themselves about what kind of connection it was.
And Yukiko's lips were soft, sweet. Perfect like the rest of her. Chie found she never wanted to stop. Her hand drifted up to grip Yukiko's upper arm, and both of Yuki's hands rested lightly on her collarbone as the kiss deepened — just like a princess! This was crazy!
"Oh wow," Yuki breathed once they parted for air.
"Shit," Chie rasped in a voice husky with need. Then she cleared her throat to try again. "I m-mean… that was… I've never… shit."
Her friend giggled warmly, one hand drifting up to cup her cheek. "My eloquent prince."
"Sh-shut up." When she only giggled more, Chie bumped their noses together with a bashful smile. "But yeah, that was amazing. And I, uh, I wouldn't mind doing some more."
"Doing some more kissing? Is that a proper way to phrase it?"
"I don't even care, man. Like, I'm trying not to scream and roll around on the floor!" They both giggled this time, and Chie buried her face in her hand. "You're my princess. How did I not see… was I just really dumb?"
"I feel pretty dumb, too, so it's okay." Pillowy lips grazed her cheek and sent her heart skipping over a beat. "But um… we should probably take a break. Before one of us faints."
"That might be a good idea." When Yukiko started to stand up, she covered her eyes. "AH!"
"Oh! Do you… not want to see my body? I'm sorry…"
As fervently as she could, she shook her head. "That's not it! I'm just… like, if I'm kind of the 'boy' now, you aren't supposed to be showing off the goods, right? Like, u-um… maybe that's stupid. Sorry! I don't know what the hell I'm saying anymore!"
"It's okay," Yukiko laughed lightly. "But you're not a boy; you're just… my prince. Prince Chie. And if you want your princess to be more modest, I can be."
"That wasn't what I meant, either; it's not that you're doing something bad! You're great! REALLY great! B-but I shouldn't be a, um, a pervert-prince."
"Ohhh… okay, I think I understand. You want my permission to look? Instead of just, um, accidentally sneaking a peek?"
"Yes. Or like, um… well, yeah, pretty much. But I don't want you to give it right now just because I'm in the room."
The quietest little giggle almost made her look anyway. "You've already seen my body."
"That wasn't you. Probably my imagination's like, idea of what you would look like naked? But you'd have to tell me if it was, uh… accurate."
"How am I supposed to do that? I have no idea what I look like down there!"
"Like I would?! And it's your body!"
"Chie!" she gasped, a little embarrassed now. "Wh-why would I look at myself like that? I'd need a mirror, and… a-and I, u-um…"
Finally dropping her hands, she saw Yukiko had donned a kimono — not the somewhat ornate tsukesage she had been wearing when dragged into the Midnight Channel, which there would be no way she could get all that on in the limited time since getting up, but a simple pink-and-white chequed yukata. Chie felt her tiny flicker of lust turning to contentment and affection.
"You never got curious?" she asked as she got up. Now it was Yukiko's turn to blush and look away, and Chie made straight for the similar red-and-white yukata that had been hanging next to Yukiko's. She wanted them to both be comfortable instead of anxious. "I did."
"You did?!"
"Sure. I mean, I didn't do anything super crazy, just… when I learned to use a tampon…" Then she laughed awkwardly. "Maybe this is nasty to talk about, anyway."
"No, no, it's alright. I never…" Clearing her throat, she rephrased, "I use pads."
"Ohhhh. Yeah okay, I guess you wouldn't have." Then she tied the robe around the waist and approached her friend. "Well, I'm sure it's… nice?"
Flushed and squirming, she chanced a smile up at Chie. "I h-hope so. For you. Whenever we, u-um… not that we need to."
"Right! For sure! Nobody's holding a gun to our heads, telling us we have to bone!" At the last word, Yukiko flinched, so she grimaced and added, "Too far? I'm sorry, I know you're not real thrilled about people using-"
"It's alright. We're um… this is a very stressful and new situation. And I should probably get over things like that if I'm ever going to be a good wife for you."
Now it was Chie's turn to flush brick red, brain misfiring and leaving her stuttering and gaping at her. Wife. Was that where this was heading? Marriage?! But two women couldn't get married! Maybe they could live together, sure, but wouldn't that basically make them lifelong roommates? Who had sex? And kissed, and took care of each other, and…
"I guess you will be," she breathed aloud as the realisation hit her. "And I'll be a good wife for you, too! Like, so good, I swear!"
Yukiko reached forward to take up Chie's hands, holding them loosely as they gazed into each other's eyes. "Of course you will. I might be scared, and have no idea what I'm doing, but it's not about who you are. I know you're the best person in my life." They shared a small kiss — that still sent tingles along Chie's spine, despite how brief and chaste it was — before she added, "But aren't you the husband?"
"Hey, I draw the line at 'prince'," she laughed back. "You want a husband, you better ask Yu."
"No, thank you," she giggled. "He's very sweet but he isn't my Prince."
"Yosuke?"
"EW! That's so intolerable — he would be the worst!"
Chie cackled as they headed for the bedroom door to finally start their day, hand in hand. "Right?! He'd be better off with some girl like Ebihara!"
"Well, let's not go too far… I'm not sure who doesn't deserve whom in that scenario."
                                                        To Be Continued…
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simpinforyoongi · 4 years
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Hey that's my water! ~ Shy!Jungkook x reader
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Pairing: Jungkook x reader
Genre: fluff?? A bit of angst mAYBe like 0.002%, attempted humour but like, IDK how to make things funny ok don't attack me
Summary: Jungkook finished all your water while kinda confessing and you just ask him to give you time to get to know him. (and you're hoping that he doesn't change his mind)
{Note: This is my first imagine on Tumblr and I'd really appreciate any feedback and comments and notes. Thank you for reading. I hope you enjoy it!!}
{p.s guess where the picture is from!}
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Don't look. Don't look. Don't look. Don't look. Don-
You peek at the confused boy to your right who sighs for the umpteenth time in the past hour.
Focus y/n focus . It's your finals.
You look back down to your half finished paper and start writing again, but not before taking yet another sneek peek at him.
You know, seeing such behavior of yours, one would think that you're crushing on this cute boy, Jungkook.
Well, it's not fuLLY wrong, I mean, he's kinda cute,ok. But its not quite true either.
Well its just, its hard to resist such a baby face and honey-sweet charms, okay?? And the fact that you're a hoe for shy boys isn't helping at all
I'd say you're giving exams a run for their money when it comes to being avoided by Jungkook.
I mean the guy hasn't held eye contact with you ever for more than half a second!
That day when you bumped into each other? Nopity. One second he was there with books sprawled across the floor and the next second he wasn't. He didn't even look at you!
Then there was that time when the only seat available was next to you and the rest were near his "fangirls". Its fair to say he shared his meal with squirrels that day.
And then there was that day when the teacher had asked you to explain something to him since she was in a hurry and you were the only one left in class. That was probably the only time he directly talked to you.
By "talk" , I mean the low "yes" when you asked whether he had understood or not. That's it.
Those were the only times when you interacted. In the past year.
And that last time was like 4-5 months ago.
Weird, considering the fact that you share a good number of classes with him. Well maybe he's just too shy, don't stress over it you dumbass.
You put your pen down and stretch out. One gets stiff after sitting in the same position for so long you know.
15 minutes are still left on the clock.
Jungkook still seems to be writing.
Your eyes linger on his face for longer than you'd like to admit.
Ok but like
Damn
he has a sharp jawline.
Slice my throat with that jaw please
But still those chubby soft looking cheeks? Howww?? Then there are those doe eyes that hold the soft chocolate brown orbs.
Oh how you'd love to stare at them for hours on end. And tangle your fingers in the soft brown locks that are hiding his forehead. Your eyes wander down to the sweet brown pools of caramel that I mentioned a moment ago and you can't seem to avert your eyes from his.
.
.
wait.
.
He's looking at you.
.
Y/N HE'S LOOKING AT YOU
You instantly turn back around and stare your paper with such intensity that if looks could burn, the flimsy piece of paper would've been long gone by now.
Well that's an amazing way to initiate contact. Great job!
Since that creepy eye contact, you didn't even dare look at his general direction
Unknown to you, he was smiling since he caught you staring at him with a hint of a dreamy smile.
He thought you looked cute with blood rushing to your cheeks.
He should try to make you flustered more often. Actually he should've tried a lot of things.
But him being a wimp is getting in his way of even looking at you nicely.
After revising your paper, you hand it in and head out.
Anyways
yeET FINALS ARE OVERRR
Walking to the entrance, you make a list of all the delicious food you're gonna eat and get fat now while binge watching all the dramas that had to be kept on hold due to exam season TT
BUT FINALLY ITS OVER SNSMMDMD
YEEEHEE
The sun suddenly seemed brighter and the sky seemed bluer.
you put in your earphones and settled on a favorite after much thought.
Ah life is sweet
And then it isn't
As you neared the entrance, a group of boys caught your eye. What surprised you more than them staring at you was the fact that Jungkook was one of them.
They immediately went back to talking amongst themselves.
Huh
Anyyyywaaaayyysss its time to PARTAYYY
So there you were, minding your own business, skipping along the song and mouthing the words.
You know, beautiful life.
But this peace didn't last long when your tranquil venture was interrupted by heavy and fast footsteps behind you.
Oh shit what if its a kidnapper. Oh shit oh shit oh shit
Instinctively, you looked behind.
Jungkook
Oh wait it's Jungkook. Hah not a kidnapper.
Oh wait
its JUNGKOOK
What if he's here to talk about the weird eye contact.
OhMY GOD OH MY GOD OY MY GOD OH MY GOD OHMY-
He stopped right in front of you and you swore your heart would leap out and break dance in front of you any moment now.
He glanced behind him at a black van.
Oh wait maybe he IS here to kidnap me.
Good as long as the weird eye contact isn't brought up.
He looks back at you and you're like ????
He says hey
You say hi
And then you're just standing there.
He again looks back at that kidnapping van and this time some of those boys from earlier stick their heads out and give him a thumbs up and you're again like ????
"So ummm.. hehe.." Jungkook looks away from you and your hoe-for-shy-boys side is just really to jUMp out of your skin and on him
"hey you tryna kidnap me or something" you smile, trying to ease his extrEMely visible tension thats being emitted from him in squiggly Iines like those in cartoons and stuff
but you're like honestly confused???when he keeps opening his mouth and closing it like a fish trying to breath in air
and as cruel as it sounds but you haTE it when someone interrupts your music sessions and its not an exception this time either,
even though the reason of interruption is extremely pretty and you're entertained just by looking at him
"...heyyy??"
"oh um... well..its just.."
"You know what nevermind Jungkook. I'll do the rest"
you look to your right and
its one of those boys
and boYY HE'S just as pretty as Jungkook if not more and you'd think you're drooling but actually you're quite a composed lady so you just normally very un-creepily look at him.
Composed lady my as-
"Hi I'm Namjoon. I'm Jungkook's friend. And I'm just here to-"
"Hi iM YOUR HOPE YOU'RE MY HOPE IM J HOPEEE"
"Hobi cAlm down you're not calling yourself that"
"hiii excujje meee I'm Jimin nice to meet you y/n"
"jimin calm down and get insi- TAE DON'T PUSH JIMIN LIKE THAT"
"GoddAMnit I'm being sqUISHED you guys let me breath-"
"ah sorry hyung but its y/nnnnnn"
"thats not an excuse to FRIGGIN KILL ME Jimin!"
"i said I'm sorry hyung but come out meet y/n"
"wait but let me breaTHsjnxxn hoBIII"
"GUYS CALM THE HECK DOWN YOU'RE SCARING HER" namjoon yelled.
wow
Ok
"umm we're really sorry. Please gimme a sec" and then he was like guys get the frick in or I'll personally kick your asses to the moon and it was supposed to be a whisper but you heard it lolol
So you're standing there like.. ok hi nice to meet you all Im y/n and wait how exactly do you know my name again???
"Jungkook talks so muc-"
"aaAAAHHHA BBBBSHHH ye ye i told them about you haha ye ye that's why they know" and he's like furiously sweating and stuttering and you're like waah ok ok calm down I don't want you having a heart attack or something good god
"Anyways, hi I'm Namjoon and I'm a friend of Kookie here" he smiles and OH THOSE GOOD FREAKING DIMPLES SOMEONE DROWN ME IN THEM
"kindly ignore these savages here" and you find that really funny so you're like "lolol that's fine XD XD haha" and smiling and all
The rest of them introduce themselves and by the end, your name just sounds unreal because of all the "hey I'm y/n"s and did i mention each of them is like.. a freaking living masterpiece?? and like so so sweet, except the Yoongi guy, he's a bit quite but you can't judge because you're like that most of the times too but you're an amazing person and so might be he .
then you ask them why they are here
"so actually, we're here because," he looks at Jungkook, "Jungkook is a coward."
"huh???"
"well you seem like a sweet girl and we decided we'd get Jungkook to ask you to hangout but he is of course a coward and thats why I had to pipe in to save him because Jungkook really likes you a lot an-"
"AAAAAAAAABABABA BALAKLAVA CHOCOLATE CAKE BANANA MILK yes hyung I'll handle this you leave" and he's just pushing all of them back in the van like a sack of potatoes despite their protests and then they just...take off??
What the-?
"ehh??"
"um..ijustwannaaskifyouwannahangoutsometimemaybeifyouwant" his eyes are closed and nose is crinkled and you just wanna SQUISH SQUISH SQUISH HIS GHADDAMNED FACE
"uh what?"
"i..i just wanna..askifyouwannahangoutsometime"
"umm?? Sorry could you please speak a tad slower??"
and he seems like he's suffocated now, like his ears are just red and sweating even more and honestly he's worrying you now
"dude you okay?? You seem really red. Here have some water" Dude. Yes. You're cool unlike those fanfic girlies with their blushing and stuttering. You're a complete badass actua-
He takes the bottle from your hand and gulps everything down and you're just like hey thats my water! but you gave it to him to drink so you can't really say anything
and okay he really seems like a fish who just got dropped in a bowl of water after being on land for 3 days
yea wait that won't work he'd die so like
he really seems like a fish who got dropped in water after being on land for like 3 minutes
So ok he seems human now
"yes you were saying?"
"Uh...do you..um.. would you wanna hangout sometime? If you're free that is.. only if you want to though" and he's like blushing a little and just so cute and you just nsndnfnfkwk
But you're also like OoO
"i-i mean d-dont worry its not like a date or anything i mean if you want it can be a date but i don't think you want that so like its just normal two people hanging out and its just like I really like you you're really cute and i just wanna hangout and just-" he takes a deep breath
"uhh.." you look down.
He just kinda confessed to you so you're kinda ?!?!?!?! right now but you also don't like dating and stuff because? Why would you waste your time on someone when in the end you're gonna just get your heart broken and like, yea that might not happen but you'd just rather sleep
But like, this weird voice at the back of your head says that you should go for it even though you're breaking your rules but like rules are made to be broken you know but you're also scared but you really don't wanna say no to him cos
well you kinda maybe a little bit like him ok?
"uumm.." your brain still can't form coherent sentences
"it's ok. Don't worry." He says and you look up and he has this sad expression and you're like NXNFFDND DON'T BE SAD PLEASE HEAR ME OUT but of course you say that in a more composed way
Ms. Composed lady
"no Jungkook that's not what i mean um.. actually.." so you explain how you think its a waste of time and stuff and you also explain that you really really really wanna get to know him more
"so..can you give me some time? Please?? So at least I can have you as a friend if you don't like me anymore later??" and he seems to be thinking and you blurt out the first thing that comes to mind
"I'll take you for ice-cream!!" and that seems to convince him
"and banana milk too??"
"sure"
And the sweetest little smile dawns on his lips and he's just nodding his head and you're just UwU
"but you finished all my water though."
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fanficmaker · 2 years
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First Sight
Matt Murdock x Zeta Xander (og! Character)
Hi guys, I’m trying my luck to write some Matt Murdock fanfic. I know this is so bad but i hope u guys read it and like it. Btw english not my first language so there’s some basic vocabulary that i use over and over, error Grammarly. Enjoy!
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Zeta was stood there facing Xavier's casket being put underneath the ground. She couldn't say anything, couldn't shed any tears. Flat face she was given. His brother left her forever in a very tragic way. She kept looking down emotionless while the rest of her family cried. Her parents were hugging each other, brothers cried together. Her aunts, uncles and cousins were also cried. Her heart felt so hurt. The detective still haven't caught the suspect.
After long enough process, the funeral is done and everyone is disbanded. Zeta said to her family that she wanted to be alone and didn't want anyone to reach her. She slowly walked away from the crowd.
At the crowd, there was a three people who saw Zeta from afar. "Hey that Xen's sister, Zeta. Should we talk to her?"
"I don't think that's a great idea." Matt implied. He could sense someone's feeling even though he lost his sight. And he kept it from his two friends. "But... how does she look like?"
Foggy furrowed his left eyebrow. "Since when...? She's basically Xavier as a woman."
And now Matt was the one who furrowed his eyebrows. "Really? I couldn't see her so i asked you to describe her."
"She's tall about 5'10 feet, long hair, kissable lips, wearing black dress, yeah... she is Xavier 2.0." Karen explained to Matt. "Alright lets talk to her before she disappear."
The three bestfriend walked fast towards Zeta.
"Hey... Zeta." Foggy made an introduction. Well actually they ran fast to Zeta and coincidently she look at them. "We're Xavier's friend from New York, I'm Franklin, he's Matt and she's Karen."
All Zeta did was smile.
"We're sorry for your loss," Matt started to talk.  "He was a good friend to us. He helped us tirelessly when we got a hard case. He was an amazing person i have ever met." Zeta's eye was all over Matt when he spoke and he could feel she stared at him.
Then her tears slowly fallen down to her cheeks. Swiftly Matt gave Zeta his handkerchief so she could wipe off. Both of his friends amazed with what Matt could do. She used it and put the handkerchief in her pocket.
"I know all of you. He told me about you guys several times. You all so lovely to him and I'm thankfull for that. And thank you so much to came."
Karen pat Zeta’s shoulder. There was a silence after that. But Matt broke it by gave Zeta their name card. “It’s our name card by the way.”
Immediately Foggy whispered to his bestfriend. “Dude what are you doing? Not a good move.”
Zeta stunned because she had no idea why he gave their name card.
Karen took over this awkward situation. “What he… we tried to say is we want you to know that we are here for you, so if you need anything just give a call. It probably too soon but yeah… Matt.”
Zeta nodded and smiled. “Thank you all.” Then she hugged Foggy, Karen and Matt for the closure. Matt could hear Zeta’s heartbeat, her breathe and her signature smell. He froze for seconds but manage to act cool when she pulled the hug. “I’m gonna keep it. Bye.” She waved and walked away from them.
“Matt, you looked different when you were around her,” said Foggy smirked at Matt. He didn’t know Foggy did that but he could sense his lips moved. “I know, she’s so stunning. She really reminded us about her late brother. I gave you my blessing to date her.”
Matt didn’t say any word, and then three of them walked back to motel.
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janiedean · 7 years
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Ok but… Laws are not about being morally perfect? They're about protecting the most people. Are you saying that you would fight for the right of a minority of people (we're talking of a very small number, especially globally) to choose prostitution for themselves even if it condemned the vast majority who is being coerced/trafficked into it? This is as if i advocated for the right of children to work because i was bored at school. Do you not see how privileged you have to be to have this pov?
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oh good fucking lord
it’s 1 am and I have no other better way to phrase this
I am against the idea that one law can override a person’s agency
like anon idk if you’ve ever been on the opposite side of the very paternalistic attitude certain people have of telling you that when it concerns a PERSONAL MATTER YOU HAVE PUT THOUGHT INTO AND YOU HAVE PERFECTLY VALID OPINIONS ABOUT they know better than you and you’re a poor idiot who has been conned into thinking differently and will take offense when you say that no, you know your own mind, because I have been tho not for that related matter and I can assure you that you want to murder someone
I’m saying that I would fight for the right of everyone to choose what they want to do with their life without someone else deciding for them that their choices are inherently harmful and that at the same time I don’t want it to leave room for coercion
like, man, you think prostitution is legal TM in most countries where there are actual huge issues with child prostitute and trafficking or that if it is, it’s regulated properly? in italy it’s not ILLEGAL but there’s a legislation making all activities connected with it illegal, there’s not ACTUAL law that legalizes it except for a supreme court sentence that says that if you’re on your own prostitution is a legal activity to have but we don’t work on common law so idek and we have huge issues with sex traffickers and underage prostitute trafficking which we didn’t have when brothels weren’t outlawed, and they’ve been for half a century and guess why people have been talking about changing that law because it was obviously not working and it’s not working yet. what are you proposing, that we ban prostitution? that sex work automatically makes the sex worker a victim overriding their agency because it happens to most people being into sex work? and how do you solve it, stopping it period or doing it like in sweden? because newsflash as I’ve been telling for ages, prostitution has been around since the beginning of times and it’s not going away because we decide it’s immortal or that it should be banned for whichever reason it is, which is a factual fact and not me idealizing shit, because otherwise prostitution would have disappeared ages ago.
like. man. humans are generally sexual beings. if they can’t find someone to do it it’s not implausible that they’ll look for it for money and THEY ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL. at this point I’d rather have SOME FUCKING KIND OF REGULATION FOR IT THAN NOT.
also I don’t think you’re aware of one thing, that if you’re thinking of ‘a vast majority forced into prostitution’ you’re talking about THE ENTIRE FUCKING PLANET, because there’s people forced into it in germany, in nigeria, in italy, in thailand and in every goddamned country in existence to various degrees. HOW do you think you can solve the issue in THE ENTIRE PLANET when the situation changes also due to specific cultural issues and how each country handles it? it has to be looked at differently in each country and in any case you can’t assume that sweden is the same as thailand.
and anyway as fucking privileged as it might sound to you, THINKING FOR OTHER PEOPLE AND ASSUMING THAT YOU KNOW BETTER THAN THEM ABOUT THE DECISION THEY TAKE FOR THEMSELVES WITHOUT LOOKING AT IT CASE BY CASE is imo paternalistic, offensive, frankly degrading and disrespectful of people’s agency. case closed. I am not budging on that. period. I want people who want to fuck others for a living to be able to do it and I want laws to persecute anyone and anything who tries to force anyone to have sex as a job if they don’t want to. and you can’t say that it’s impossible period to do it because this system as I imagine it doesn’t exist anywhere (yet) and seeing sex work as a regular kind of job is a relatively new thing at least in western culture, so it can’t be a thing that happens overnight. like, are you purposefully ignoring that I’ve stated a hundred times that I absolutely abhor the concept of people being forced into sex work (btw not all sex work is prostitution but okay) or are you just avoiding mentioning it because then it makes me sound like an asshole? because I feel like you’re purposefully ignoring it.
also, your comparison?
actually children having to go to school and not having to work is a relatively new concept because guess what it hasn’t been legalized properly for the entirety of the 19th century, like, have you read any dickens? in italy I’m fairly sure that for a while the obligatory school stopped at ten years old and the first laws seriously regulating it were made in early 20th century.
a lot of children in the world actually work and don’t go to school, and idk if you were around years ago when there was a huge scandal over nike employing child labor. actually, most probably, more children in the world work more than attend school until they’re sixteen anyway. GLOBALLY, children don’t have a right to go to school more than they are forced to go to work. but okay. like, congrats, if you wanted a problem to fight globally as well, you have just nailed one.
children are not adults. I am talking about not speaking over fucking adults when it comes to what they want to do with their life. no one sane would say that children working is a ‘right’ because we all know that it’s wrong, but no one sane says that prostitution has to be legal WITHOUT CHECKING OR WITHOUT LIMITS. or that porn industry has to be legal without checking. but one thing is STUFF FOR ADULTS MADE BY ADULTS WHO SHOULD BE ABLE TO DO IT/MAKE USE OF IT FREELY AND WITHOUT BEING COERCED, another is making children work when they haven’t developed the critical skill necessary to make life-altering decisions such as WHAT JOB DO YOU WANT. ffs I wouldn’t ask of a teenager to make life-altering decisions, but of an adult I would. I’m talking about adults. like sorry but according to your reasoning since democracy means that dumb people can vote for a dumb president (ie trump) we should all scrap it and go back to absolute monarchy because us illuminated people know better and people can’t choose whoever the fuck they vote for.
also, assuming that everyone selling sex is a victim automatically criminalizes it at least virtually because it’s automatically seen as a Bad Thing That Should Not Be Discussed Freely Because There’s Something Wrong With It and that’s how you get purity crusades. I don’t want purity crusades, nvm that you can’t fight coerced prostitution in germany the way you’d do it in thailand.
like, wow, I’m saying that people should be allowed to think for themselves but that’s somehow a privileged argument.
k anon, whatever you say. I like to think with my own head. because we start with this and then we end at ‘heterosexual women don’t know that they like dick because men brainwashed them into it and I, person who has never met you, know your own sexuality better than you’. and that turns into policing people’s sexuality. which then turns into the victorian age which then turns into puritanism and if you don’t see that there’s a problem with that, or you’d rather have puritanism than discuss about the best ways to make sure sex work is only available from people who actually actively chose to do it without pressure from anyone else, then I don’t have anything else to tell you.
also, this started from a post that was talking about PEOPLE WANTING TO POLICE WOMEN’S READING HABITS AND IT HAD ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH PROSTITUTION BUT IT HAD EVERYTHING TO DO WITH CALLING OUT A DAMAGING CURRENT OF RADICAL FEMINISM THAT’S EVERYTHING BUT SILENCED THESE DAYS, and the first place y’all went was ‘yes but radical feminism also fights prostitution so the concept isn’t wrong when applied to that but it is when applied to kinky fanfic because that’s not important enough’ like no one even brought it up can y’all just take a valid critic and think about it instead of bringing up crusades no one even asked for
and now I’m looking at the other ask I have in the inbox and then I’m going to bed because I have work tomorrow and I refuse to stay up until 2am having this discussion good lord don’t you know that when the government or the lawmakers start THINKING IN YOUR PLACE YOU GET A THING NAMED 1984 or have you not read that book in middle school
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