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taesap · 2 years

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When he doesn’t love you; Kim Taehyung

Pairing; Taehyung x (partner) F! reader

Warning; breakups?

Genre; sad angst

-@taesap

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a/n: i wrote this a long time ago, so i apologise if it is sucky although i did try to refine it the best i could without taking away from it, the actual plot. i wrote this for the prompt i read that went; “I’m sorry I was so hard to love.” i hope you like my take on this deep, depressing prompt! <3

Author’s P.O.V

He disregarded her, again. He couldn’t even bring himself to look at her because he dreaded it. He dreaded the grief in her eyes. He dreaded the one question she would ask. He blamed himself even when he wasn’t at fault. But didn’t he break her? Didn’t he put her through endless suffering? He sinned despite never committing crime.

Your P.O.V

Your boyfriend overlooked your date once more. He invariably ignored you and used the same explanation every time. At first, you believed him but doubt slowly made its way into your mind and you couldn’t help but wonder if there was someone else? Every day, these very thoughts took over your life. You deserved to know the truth, even if it would break you. You wanted peace, and you were determined to find it. Picking up your phone you dialled his number. Voicemail. You sighed and recorded a message for him.

“Hey Taehyung, I know you’re busy… as always but whenever you’re free, do call me back, this is important” You put down your phone, eyes darted towards the frame resting on your desk. It was a picture of you with him. Tears formed in your eyes, blurring your vision.

His P.O.V

I played Y/n’s voicemail over and over, it chipped at my heart more and more every time.

“I can’t bring myself to look at her” I sighed “I hate myself for being attracted to someone else when I know that Y/n is waiting for me at home. I hate how I make her doubt herself when I’m the one who’s at fault here. I can’t even look at myself because I feel the shame.” Tears formed in the corner of my eyes threatening to fall.

“Taehyung…” Jin sympathised “Falling out of love isn’t a bad thing. Feelings come and go, there’s nothing you can do to change that. Everyone has a person and you just don't belong to each other. My suggestion to you is, tell her. Tell her how you feel and how you don’t love her anymore, ignoring her will break you and her.”

I, finding wisdom in his words, decided to return Y/n’s calls

“Hey...Y/n how are you?” I asked

“Taehyung, you...you called” Her voice wavered.

“Do you want to meet up today? I’ll come over at 8?”

“That sounds great. I’ll see you at my house then?”

“Yeah, bye Y/n”

“Bye, I love you,” She said and I winced. I couldn’t reply, I couldn’t lie so I hung up, pinching the bridge of my nose.

Time Flash; 7:45 pm

Your P.O.V

The bell rang and your heart skipped a beat. He was here. You rushed over to open it and there he stood. He had a bouquet and a paper bag.

“Hey,” you murmured

“Hey yourself,” he gave you a weak smile and made his way to the couch.

He took a seat and handed you the bouquet and bag “This is for you, you like lilies, right?” You hum and placed them on the table.

“So Taehyung uh ab-”

“Y/n I have to tell you something, and before I do, you have every right to be mad at me but please, hear me out.” He looked at you, eyes softening. “Y/n I- I’m sorry. I lost feelings for you. I was being drawn to others and I-” His voice broke. “I know I promised that I would never leave you but I did just that” His eyes moistened. Tears blurring your vision, you fought them back and tried to form an answer. You wanted to ask him. You wanted answers. You wanted to say so much but all you could manage was “It’s okay, feelings can be lost as swiftly as they’re gained” His eyes widened. “You’re not mad? I broke my promise. I hurt you!”

“It’s okay, promises are meant to be broken.” After a moment of calm, you broke the silence “What’s their name?” He looked down not wanting to face you. “She’s… a colleague at work it’s- it’s not important. We haven’t even interacted or anything-” His voice wavered, he abruptly stood up and looked back at you one last time “I’m sorry I couldn’t love you”

“I’m sorry I was so hard to love,” You replied and slammed the door shut, leaning against the doorframe.

You could hear his sniffling on the opposite side knowing he’s in the same state as you.

The heart is a fool. Loves even those who break you without mercy.

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sidekoo · 2 years

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sanctuary - kth

summary ✩ taehyung has a new neighbor, you. he begins watching you intrigued by your every move. you find it insane how a person could even be so interested in a person like you. you finally talk to him after 6 months of staring and you realize he's actually pretty cool. and sexy

pairing ✩ boynextdoor!tae x f.reader

genre ✩ smut, very coming of age movie lol, strangers to lovers

rating ✩ 18+

word count ✩ 3K

warnings ✩ sub/dom themes?, taehyung kinda stalks reader? kinda not intentionally? jikook calls him a creep for it. they kinda stalk each other? strangers to lovers (supa quick (please choose your lovers carefully), cliff jumping, tae is kinda a simp literally so obsessed with yn. yn eventually obsessed with him, unprotected sex (please get some fucking condoms y'all), nipple play, slapping?, fingering, big dick taehyung, death? (not main characters i can't do heartbreak well) body worship? petnames (if taehyung called me doll i'd probably fucking die), and (little bit of) shy taehyung.

★ sanctuary - joji

★ listen to the song yourself! its a cool vid too!!! promise its a great one!!

a/n: i love this fic please love it too thank you sexyz. seriously thinking of make this a series instead. let me know if you want to see taehyung's spot. more to come *kisses kisses*

"who is that?" jimin asked a staring taehyung. "my neighbor she moved here 6 months ago" he responded quickly. "instead of watching her, maybe you should go talk to her? have you watched her this whole time?" jimin said with a huffed laugh. "no. what? I'm not watching her. I'm just looking. she's..." he trailed off "okay she's gonna think you are a creep for sure." taehyung scoffed waving his hand at him to go away.

you worked at a coffee shop in the city, taehyung and jimin hung out at the skatepark across the way everyday. taehyung hung out in the window recently to get a good look at you. what for? you had no idea but your coworker, jungkook was extremely close to beating his ass.

"what is his fucking deal? does he have a job?" you laughed. "i don't know he lives right across the hall from me, hasn't said a thing yet. i want to know what he's thinking. it's been 6 months." you said. "6 months?! can you not die? you're the only coworker i like." you chuckled, wiping down a table in the barely filled shop. "I'm going to talk to him." you stopped mid-wipe, leaving your cloth on the table.

you leaned up against the wall next to him. you pulled out a carton of cigarettes, taking one out and placing it between your lips. you pulled out a hot pink lighter and lit the end. "I'm yn, but I'm sure that's something you know already" you said to him in a normal tone. you pulled the cigarette from your lips and blew the smoke out of the corner of your mouth. you smiled at him as his eyes looked your face up and down and stopping at your lips for a longer look. "you don't talk?" you said, putting the cigarette in between your lips once more.

"im taehyung" he said looking you in your eyes. "i live across the hall." he said, looking down at your lips that held to cigarette. "i know, i see you every day."

he nodded. "I'm not trying to be a creep, you're just not like everyone else here." he said. "meaning?" you said, flicking the ash off the end of your cigarette. "meaning i am so intrigued by you, and in the least creepy way possible, everything about you." you smiled with of huffed laugh. "me?" you looked out at the skate park across the street, wondering what about attracted a boy like him.

"okay." you took the cigarette from your lips and blew the smoke in his face, placing the cigarette in-between his lips. your hand grazed his chin. you began to walk away. "okay what?" he said eyebrows raised. "you'll see" you said. leaving him with a smile and a cigarette with cherry lip gloss on the filter.

you stayed on his mind. all he could think about was you. he couldn't wait to see what you meant. he thought it was weird that he felt a little obsessed with you, but in a strange way you made him feel comfortable. not the way the jimin did, not the way his mom did, you made him feel something he had never felt, he had only spoke to you one time ever. he knew you were different from anyone else.

11:00...

12:00...

taehyung usually never slept until 3:00, video games and cat videos occupied him for the couple of hours he was at home and not working, at school or skating and being a menace as the shopping mall police tell him to stop skating on shop property.

suddenly there was a knock at his door. he opened it to find you. pink bikini top and light jean shorts. your hair clipped with one of those claw clips from the 2000's, it was hot pink decorated with stars.

"how do you feel about cliff jumping?" you asked simply. "I've never been." you gasped. "cool boy's never been cliff jumping. well, get your trunks, baby boy. we're going. meet me in the car." you said, waving an unlit cigarette in your hand.

the boy smiled, "come on!" you said, waving your hand to make him go. he turned, shutting the door. he snatched his headset off and quickly threw on his trunks and a white tee.

you pulled up, honking your horn thrice. you drove a cherry red convertible. tan leather seats, you named her maggie. mainly because your aunt maggie hated the idea of a 19-year-old owning such an expensive car, so you begged your dad for it just to spite her.

he hopped over the door and sat quickly, and you sped to the high way. you drop fast wind in both of your guys' hair. no radio, you hated the radio. you noticed taehyung staring out the corner of your eye. "take a picture." you said, he quickly turned his head. "no, I'm serious, you stare at me all the time, this isn't anything new. take a pic" you opened the glove box to reveal a kodak funsaver. he took the camera out, then snapped a photo.

soon you arrived at your father's house off the lake. you entered the code and the door popped open. "this is a mansion" taehyung muttered. "it's just my dad's lake house" you responded.

"if you have all this money, why do you work at a coffee shop?" taehyung asked. "because i don't want to be that stuck up rich girl, who lives off her dad's money. I'm too smart to even play dumb rich girl. im going to make a name for myself." you said quickly. "the lake is right out back. come on" you said, opening the patio door to reveal the cliff.

you walked out and sat on the edge. he calmly sat beside you. "so, what's your deal" he asked. "my deal?" you questioned, looking at him. "look, ask me any questions and i'll respond truthfully." he looked at you and nodded. "okay... um... what's your biggest regret?" he asked. he stared at you like he always did.

"wow, right into the deep stuff. well..." you chuckled. "maybe being an asshole to my mom. she was great, and i treated her like shit because of the things her fiancé did. i wish i just talk to her instead of shutting her out. i would like to think she would like the person I've become." you said looking out to the moon. "where is she?' he asked. "she died, i don't believe in god and whatnot, people would day heaven, but i just glad she's not hurting now. what about you, cool boy?"

"do you have a question or-"

"i do. why do you really stare at me? do you just want to fuck me? or were you serious at the coffee shop?" you looked over to realize that he had never even looked out at the moon and had only been looking at you. "i was serious. everyone who moves here is the same. basic boring never wanting to speak their mind, not wanting to think for themselves. when we were in patterson's class, he brought up the cognitive dissonance phenomena. he was so sure that people who purposely disregard consequences are arrogant and lack care for others, but like you said, in reality some people just disregard these consequences simple because they don't think it could truly happen to them due to the odds of the situation, i agree with you. you are smart and beautiful. i truly admire you. i never felt that way for anyone. i hope that doesn't weird you out." finally he was looking out at the moon. "do you like joji?" you asked.

"never heard of him" he said, "joji!? god fuck this cliff, come here." you stood up and he quickly followed. you grabbed his hand and dragged him to the couch in the living area. you pushed him so he flopped down. "this is my favorite song" you turned on the smart tv quickly typing in the song title and letting it play. you climbed into his lap and sat so you were straddling him.

"sanctuary" you whispered into his ear. and so you both sat in the room lit by the light of the tv. he wrapped his arms around your waist. the song ended and you sat up looking at him. "now we can cliff jump." you said, climbing off of him. "i couldn't let you live any longer with out hearing this masterpiece."

he looked at you so passionately, you looked back at him. his eyes warm brown, hints of amber and honey. he was beautiful, you finally looked at him completely, not a quick glance. his soft yet defined jawline, dark thick eyebrows prominent against his tan skin. he was perfect. "yn? you okay?" he asked. "yea" you muttered and nodded.

you opened the door, running back out the the cliff. you shimmed off your jean shorts. revealing your matching bikini bottoms. he pulled his white tee over his head. you started to feel him. that was new for you. he felt like a risk, and one you were willing to take. your life had been the same, you need something new. and the stalker guy from across the hall felt like an adventure.

"ready?" he asked, "i should be asking you that" you giggled.

suddenly you were both free-falling from the tall cliff. the cold water shocked your bodies. "holy shit!" he screamed. "that was so fucking fun! my god! let's go again" he said swimming over to you, grabbing you. you brushed his long dark curls back behind his ear. "okay, okay" you said following him out of the water.

again and again you both jumped. "this was really fun" he said as you were both walking up to the house. "yea it was. i haven't done this in ages." taehyung noticed your shivering, he grabbed your hand and pulled you close. you stayed silent as you leaned into his chest.

"you were shivering." he said, wiping the water from your nose. he smiled. "you're cute, cool boy" you pushed your body away as you were reaching the door. you opened up the door and stepped inside. he followed you inside. he flopped down in the same spot on the couch.

you walked over, admiring him. he head fell back. that jawline killed you. his wet curls dripping onto the dark wood of the floors. he stared at the ceiling quietly. "what's on your mind?" you asked, thinking maybe you call him cute crossed an unspoken line. or was it the straddling him while listening to a love song. he chuckled, shaking his head. "i don't know, just fog brained" he said with a smile.

a small idea popped in your head. this could go many of ways, you thought. but you truly couldn't hold back. the truth is you watched each other. once you realized he was watching you and was completely harmless, you watched him too. not your intentions of course, it just happened. you walked over so you were behind him. you ran your hand down his naked top-half. "wanna clear your mind?" you whispered in his ear, your lips grazing his lobe. his eyes shut slowly. he nodded with a small hum.

you walked around the l-shaped couch, so you stood in front of him. you kneeled at his feet. you ran your hands up his thighs, avoiding the growing tent in his trunks. suddenly, you palmed his cock, over the thin polyester. he let out of huff before grabbing your hand. "im not using you. i just want you to know that what i said about you, i meant it. i think you are fucking amazing." he said quickly and surely as he stared into your eyes. he grabbed your face, kissing you deeply. the rush of adrenaline was different from the cliff jump, this was faster, beautiful, rough, yet graceful.

you both stood as you kissed harder and faster. he broke the kiss and began to kiss your neck from your collarbone to your ear. "let me make you feel beautiful as you are." he said, grabbing your waist and pulling you close. "please" you whimpered. picked you up, laying you down on the long end of the couch. he pulled the long string of your bikini top, the fabric slip around, revealing your tits. "fuck" he muttered as he kissed up your stomach to your tits. sucking on your nipple. you moaned at his actions. he moved to your other nipple, leaving them hard. he kissed you once more, you're chest to chest. nothing in the way.

his hand slip underneath the small bikini bottoms that covered your lower half. he began to rub your clit slowly, you moaned at his touch. so delicate yet it drove you crazy. he rubbed your folds, "you are wet for me" he said, so much pleasure overwhelmed you, no words came out of your mouth just rough breaths. his middle and ring fingers plunged into you. slowly and sensually he fucked your cunt with is beautiful fingers.

"you are such a pretty girl, you know that?" he said in your ear. only a hum came out. your eyes were closed, but you were sure he couldn't take his eyes off of you in the state you were in. you were reaching your end. breath heavy, scratching his back from the pleasure. he suddenly took his fingers away from you.

"fuck!!" you yelled. slapping him quickly in response. he chuckled, tongue poking his cheek. "patience doll, patience" he lifts his hand from your folds, sucking the fingers that were once inside you. you had never ever been more turned on in your entire life.

he untied the string on his trunks, slipping them off. your eyes scanned his fully naked body. his cock wasn't just big. it was huge. it was the prettiest cock you'd ever seen. "eyes up here, doll." he said with a chuckle. you wanted inside you so bad. "please fuck me." he smiled. "gladly."

his cock was so thick and long, you screamed at the stretch. he was fully inside you. deep inside you. he fit so perfectly inside you. you were on cloud nine. he started to move. fucking you perfectly. hitting every spot to drive you crazy. "faster." you moaned out.

his thrust faster, harder, crazed even. sweat covered your bodies, suddenly he hit the perfect spot. "right there!! fuck!! taehyung please" again and again he hit that spot. "fuck!!!" you said as you reached your high. "cum for me." taehyung groaned out. he fucked you through your high, pulling out rubbing his cock until he was cumming on your stomach. "fucking hell!" he moaned out. finally flopping on top of you. the sweat of your bodies, made your skin stick together.

"mind still fogged?" he shook his head, smiling. he grabbed your hips and rolled over so you were on top. "will you only call me taehyung when i make you cum?" he said with a big smile. "shut up" you rolled your eyes with a laugh. you stood, he grabbed your hand. "where you going?' he asked. "shower. your kids are in my bellybutton." you chuckled. you made it halfway up the stairs when you said, "you can join me" suddenly he was at the bottom of the stairs. you laughed at his antics.

after your shower, you headed to bed in one of the bedrooms up stairs. he laid down first. you tied your hair up and laid down next to him. he turned toward you, grabbing your waist and interlocking your legs with his. your body fit in his so perfectly, and you loved it.you both felt the need to be extremely close to one another. "night cool boy" you said.

11:30am

you woke up to the sun shining, lighting up the room that was once dark. you moved your hand, searching for the boy who once preoccupied the space. you sat up quickly after realizing he wasn't there.

did he regret last night? were you took much for him? did he change his mind? did he only want to fuck you? a wave of broken-heartedness filled your head. you had never felt so close to someone and quickly as you did with taehyung. you were starting to feel played, taken advantage of. you stood walking out the door, grabbing a white robe before heading down the stairs. suddenly.

now playing sanctuary by joji on apple music.

you heard some banging and sizzling then the delicious smell of bacon took over. he was still here. joy overtook the broken-heartedness. you made it to the bottom of the stairs. "did i wake you?" you smiled. "no!" you shook your head. "i hope you don't mind i went to get some stuff for breakfast, i didn't know what you like so i got like everything." you stared down at the plate filled with all of your favorite things. "taehyung, im vegan" he looked up. "what?! im sorry, i should've asked but i-" you stopped him grabbing his hand as you tried to grab your plate. "im kidding" you said with a smile. he sighed, no allergies i love everything except olives." you said with disgust. "what? olives are bomb! you are missing out, baby" you looked up at him as he went on about olives and the taste. 'baby' the pentane lingered in your mind.

it was strange, he was a complete stranger but you felt like you've know him for years. "next time, ill make omelettes and i'll put olives it'll change your life, is swear." he said. "next time- next- if you want- um..." he trailed off, shaking his head, thinking he's made a mistake. you grabbed his face. kissing his lips softly. "there will be a next time taehyung." you assured him. he smiled as you kissed him again. "god i love the way you say my name." he said.

"taehyung!" you said singingly. he laughed at your screaming. "eat up baby, now it's time to take you to my spot."

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