ninetyninequestions

[ninetyninequestions]

C’est épuisant 

Écœurant 

Décevant 

De vouloir être aimé

De toujours s’accrocher 

Pour une minute d’attention 

Pour une soirée sans démon 

Et on s’y perd

Et on s’y lasse 

Puis on efface 

Pour au final se retrouver 

Esseulée, désolée, 

Totalement prise au piège

D’un amour où l’on s’est égarée 

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[ninetyninequestions]

Bye bye to love

To lust

And trust

And being addicted to the rush.

I’m leaving it all behind

Your thighs

Our rides

Us being mad.

And to everything

That left me lost,

This is a heartfelt

goodbye.

No more of your lips and your smile

And finally,

Life.

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[ninetyninequestions]

Life is glory, life is trouble

Life is peace, life is disruption,

Life is love, life is envy,

Life is better than what

I could ever have imagined.

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[ninetyninequestions]

After all I’m happy, finally!

Super, superb

So silly, so dreamy

So fun, so light

It’s a delight.

So funny, so sunny, I’m happy

Victory, Victory, Victory

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[ninetyninequestions]

The fakes, the lovers, the friends

I cannot bear to stay around

In my head I’m stuck and I cry

Oh isn’t it beautiful

To be alive.

The pain, the sadness, the smiles

I cannot bear to be around

In my heart I’m stuck and I cry

Oh isn’t it cruel

To be alive.

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[ninetyninequestions]

Therapy

Going far inside of me

Trying to get everything out

Putting in it all in front me

Understanding the mechanisms

That have shaped all of me

“Who I am who i am”

It’s like a scream inside of me

The only way to move forward

It’s to complete the puzzle of me.

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[ninetyninequestions]

I thought I could die

Anytime

Anywhere.

I thought I had control

Over my thoughts

My decisions.

Oh I now I realise

How I was greatly mistaken.

Is this for the best ?

Do I finally understand

The value of human life?

I still have my doubts

But for now

I’m still alive.

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[ninetyninequestions]

Burden

All of this distress, sadness, anger

Wasn’t caused by any of my actions

Words they do have meanings

And mistakes will keep happening

If you refuse to understand

That you also have emotions

I won’t let myself be broken, hurt, beaten

Trying to make sense out of this situation

For too long I felt ashamed, stupid, useless

Now staying away sounds like my only option

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[ninetyninequestions]

Dreaming of a brand new day

Lots of smiles

Peace for everyone

Surrounded by my loved ones

Oh I’m dreaming of this day

It will be so special

And the sun will shine

Oh I can’t wait to see this day

No dark clouds in the sky

And only fun all around

Oh and maybe it will be my birthday!

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[ninetyninequestions]

I’m so angry, I’m so sad

It eats me alive

I hate those feelings

I need to be nicer, kinder to myself

But it’s so hard

I take everything as a failure

And keep destroying myself along the way.

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[ninetyninequestions]

I can’t catch my breath

And it always feels like I’m back to square one

Trying to run away from my problems but as soon I turn around, they all here waiting for me. Seems like I can’t escape any of them.

They are simply hiding in plain sight, using tricks and costumes but hurting me the exact same way.

Oh I know that I need help! And maybe I will bring myself to get some. Next time...

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[ninetyninequestions]

Lights on

Look at me

I’m sexy right?

Am I worth it?

Am I enough?

It doesn’t matter

For you I’ll do it all

I just want your approval

Do you see my potential?

Anything to make you love me

Oh baby...

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[ninetyninequestions]

I wish I wasn’t so naive

Didn’t put my heart on the line

Gambled with my sanity

But how could you not love me?

Did you not see how much I’ve tried?

I made everything perfect, seamless

But you decided to ignore me, break me

How am I supposed to act?

Who i am supposed to be?

Should I be the one that makes you pay for your crimes

Or just be quiet and disappear gently?

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[ninetyninequestions]

Life isn’t easy

Being a black woman

All the hate, sadness and anger

Pointed towards us

And in the meantime

All I see is people that look like me

Being killed and put down

I wish I could scream

And make it all stop

End the suffering

But tonight it’s just me myself and I

And all I can do is praying

That I will stay alive.

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[ninetyninequestions]

Am I even allowed to believe ?

After all these times being put down

Treated like I didn’t deserve anything

How am I supposed to trust myself

I am slowly starting to see a life

Something that will be good for me.

But too many words that left me suffering

Am I still able to put my trust in the future?

For now it seems too hard and I am too scared

But I’ll try, I have to! My life needs to change...

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[ninetyninequestions]

Even after all this time

It is still inside

Memories keep coming back,

accusing me of being weak

Voices calling me delusional, stupid, dysfunctional

Days when I want to hide

Others where I shine.

And through it all

A constant reminder,

a never ending flow

Telling me that sooner or later

I will have to let things go...

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[ninetyninequestions]

Let me go

I don’t like it here

I don’t like these people

Always have something to say

I thought this was over

That I had grown

That could fend for myself

Take all the decisions

No more meaningless discussions

But again

I feel like my life is sand

And it won’t stay in my hands

I see it pass

And I cannot be asked

To relieve these kind of moments

Fuck her, fuck them

All of you,

please go to hell

Get me out here

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