zeldalexis

[zeldalexis]

I have published the first chapter of my first book.

It is on Wattpad. (This is an app)

It is called: The Great Empire Of Mr.Mallory

My pen name is Victoria Phantomhive but my username on Wattpad is ZeldaPhantomhive. (Someone. Already took Zeldalexis)

I will try to update chapters as soon as possible I’m still in the middle of writing the whole book. Once a chapter is done I’ll publish it

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[zeldalexis]

Cinnamon

Dedicated to my best friend, Canelo. Here’s his story before he passed away. Please share this. I have no clue where his grave is.

I remember when cinnamon used to be something I put on top of my mom’s protein shakes.

Then I had no contact with no friends.

So I was helping my mom run her shop of nutrition in a sketchy neighborhood.

I was ten.

There was business next to us.

They towed cars, I think.

I don’t remember.

But I remember meeting my best friend.

I always called him ”Canelo”.

The reason was because the Spanish word “Canela” meant cinnamon.

That was the color of his hair and eyes.

I think he was in his twenties.

Even though I called him “Canelo”, he never ate cinnamon.

I remember meeting his girlfriend who he was about to start a family with.

I remember watching all that TV.

Him telling me not to eat so much sugar.

I remember all those rides on his tow truck.

But most of all…

I remember the guilt.

I didn’t tell Canelo I was moving back to the United States.

I just...left.

I wonder how he felt.

I wish I could have said sorry.

In the seventh grade, he passed away.

I still remember how my heart broke when hearing the news.

Death gave me its poison:

Grief.

Making the guilt grow more.

But if I could talk to him one more time…

I would say:

”Thank you for giving Cinnamon a whole new meaning for me”

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[zeldalexis]

Going Through The Door

This is a sequel to my story “At The Door”. Please read that first.

Sister, I am glad that you’re living your own dream.

We all are.

I can’t wait for you to move back.

At least, I thought I would be.

I thought I would be okay with mom comparing me to you.

I thought I would be okay with being known as your little sister.

I thought I would be okay with being…

Your shadow.

But I am not fine with it.

I am my own individual.

I have my own unique achievements.

I am NOT you.

So my dear sister, when you come home…

You will see me going through the door.

You will see me trying to achieve my dream.

You will see me moving out.

You will see me going on my way to become an Olympic figure skater.

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[zeldalexis]

Reasons I Haven’t Posted

First I hope all of you are safe from everything that is happening in the world right now. Now I have been going through a few things.

1. I went through a break up

2. My short term memory loss made me forget I had to post

3. WRITERS BLOCK

4. Had to reveal a secret that was scary for to my  family to protect myself

5. I can’t go outside because I have a higher chance of getting corona since I have Epilepsy

I’ll start posting again. I have a question for y’all. I want to practice my drawing so I’m curious if you want me to draw my own OCs for each of the characters of my stories. Do you want me to draw OCs?

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At The Door

Dear sister, I have a message for you.

When I moved away I missed you.

I was learning how cruel the world can be…

But I still had hope.

I didn’t care that I was five years old.

I didn’t give a damn.

The door I would stare at…

Hoping for you to come through it.

I would wait everyday…

Sometimes I would sleep beside it…

Have you ever noticed I don’t like sleeping in my room?

I’m so used to waiting for you at the door.

I don’t care how long I will be your shadow…

I don’t care how long I will be compared to you…

I don’t care about how many burdens you have and will give me…

I will wait for you at the door.

I have realized something lately…

You never noticed anything.

You always lived in your own world.

You partied…

Ran to our parents first…

Ran to everyone else first…

You hung out with your friends a lot more than I did…

Gave me more gifts than attention...

Yet I still waited at the door for you.

Yet I was still loyal.

I love you.

You say “I love you too” every time…

But sometimes I wonder…

Are you actually sincere?

Just answer me this question:

I have waited for you and will wait for you at the door my entire life.

If you go to heaven first…

Will you wait for me at the door?

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[zeldalexis]

Cursed Deadly Snowflakes

*This is a sequel to Cursed Winter Love. Please read that first*

Years later I met another girl.

She was even more beautiful.

When we first met our conversation went something like this:

“Hey”

“Hey. What is a cute girl like you talking to someone like me?”

“I’ve seen you around work lately…”

“And?”

“I wanna be your girlfriend”

I had a crush on her for a while so I answered this:

“Of course you can, cutie”

5 years later…

She was pregnant.

Since we were going to have a child together…

I thought it would make sense if I proposed.

“Dear cutie, will you marry me?”

“Only if you catch me a snowflake”

Why?

WHY?

Why did she ask the same thing?

I went to the same forest.

The same people kept telling me not to go there.

I ignored them again.

The last girl died from a seizure when I gave her the snowflake.

When I grabbed the snowflake...

And I gave it to her…

My child who was in the womb was acting strange…

That’s when I noticed the snowflake was a bit...reddish.

When she put the snowflake against herself for our son to feel…

The doctor said he died.

That’s when I realized the snowflakes I had been catching were…

The Great Cursed Deadly Snowflakes.

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Cursed Winter Love

I once met this girl.

She was the most beautiful girl I had seen.

I got to know her.

6 years later I asked her to be my girlfriend.

I mean, after all, I had to ask her at some point.

She said yes.

I was so happy.

2 years later I proposed.

I really wanted to marry her.

She said “I’ll marry you if you catch me a snowflake.”

I didn’t know what to do.

I went to this forest where it snowed all the time.

People kept telling me not to go there.

I ignored them.

I really wanted to marry this girl.

When I got there…

Snowflakes started to fall.

It was midnight.

I managed to catch one.

At the moment I gave it to her…

The second I grabbed it…

She died.

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[zeldalexis]

I Wish...

I wish I wasn’t bullied.

I wish I knew how to defend myself.

I wish my crush would notice me.

I wish I was rich.

I wish for everybody’s dreams to come true.

I wish I still had my father.

I wish I wasn’t child abused.

But even if I could make these wishes come true, I wouldn’t.

Because I can’t escape life.

And more evil would be after me.

So I’m fine where I am.

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[zeldalexis]

Labyrinth

“My life is like a...a...labyrinth!” I shouldn’t have said that…

Every time I try to hang out with my friends, they don’t have time.

Every time I want to buy something, I either don’t have the time or money.

I fail at everything I do.

I’m lost in the labyrinth.

A dead end.

I constantly find dead ends.

“Where’s the exit?!” I ask myself.

I need to leave.

I’m hungry.

There’s no food here.

I’m sleepy.

There are monsters everywhere.

“I can’t sleep with all these monsters” I thought.

Then I remembered…

Why did the king put me in this labyrinth.

Because I tried to give his daughter epilepsy with my magic.

There’s no escape from the labyrinth.

That is why it is so famous.

I’m gonna die here.

I may have wings…

But without my energy…

I can’t fly.

There’s also a spell that won’t let me leave.

They are probably going to erase my memories again anyways.

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[zeldalexis]

Why?

Whenever I’m at home, everybody loves me.

But at school…

I’m bullied.

I don’t care about popularity, really.

I just wished I knew how to defend myself.

Or how to make some friends.

You see, I don’t really care how I look so...

I’m ugly.

And I’m made fun of because of it.

I fell into depression.

My bullies continued to make fun of me.

One year later of depression…

Suicidal thoughts came.

More bullying…

I started to self-harm.

I started to believe what they were saying.

I don’t remember graduating high school…

On anything for that matter.

Probably because I killed myself the day before graduating.

I’m sorry I killed myself, Mom.

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[zeldalexis]

Everyone Has A Secret

I used to have a best friend.

At least, I thought she was my best friend.

Let me tell you a story.

The story of me and my ex-best friend.

When I was in middle school, one of the students was my neighbor.

We later became best friends.

Little did I know she had many secrets.

Way too many.

The last birthday we celebrated…

Was hers.

She had told me and her boyfriend the day before she was going to be “busy” at a family birthday party for her.

I asked her where it was and she said her house.

Her boyfriend and I decided to surprise her with a surprise visit.

When we got there, we went into her room.

We found her cheating with her other boyfriend.

Both of the boys broke up with her.

I stopped talking to her after that.

She texted me asking if we could walk to school together.

I accepted the invitation since I decided to talk to her again.

Then the day after that...she said she got a cold and if I could visit after school.

I accepted.

When I went to visit her…

She introduced me to this girl.

Apparently, this girl had been her best friend since they were in grade school.

This girl supported her crazy ideas.

She did the same.

The last thing I remember is that they both came at me at the same time…

With knives.

Then I woke up on top of the clouds.

And that’s the story of how my own best friend killed him…

The end.

I learned that anyone who is too open has a big secret.

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Not Allowed To Be A Lesbian

I have always been a lesbian.

I never told anyone as a kid since my family was homophobic.

I was scared they would kick me out of the house or disown me.

When I told my family...that’s exactly what they did.

In highschool...they would make fun of me.

Rumors started to spread.

I was even being cyberbullied.

Somehow, the subject reached the president and the rest of the government.

They made this law of no pride people allowed.

In college...I moved far, far away.

They had the same law.

So my life was like that. 

It was never the same.

Since I’m dead now…

I’m okay...even though I was executed.

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The Concert

Dear Readers,

I wanna sit down with you.

In the middle of 2018.

As you know, I have epilepsy.

I had an orchestra concert (For school), the last one of the school year to be specific.

The president of the orchestra student council (As I like to call it) moved.

So my friend was picked to do the speech instead.

During my friend’s speech…

It’s the last thing I remember.

Then the next second…

When I blinked…

When I opened my eyes again…

The audience weren’t in their seats.

I wasn’t sitting down with my cello listening to my friend’s speech.

I was laying on the floor…

With paramedics and my parents around me instead.

They took me home in the ambulance.

I remained a scar in my heart.

Why?

I had epilepsy…

No doubt, I knew that.

My friends knew that.

My family knew that.

The church I went to knew that.

After all, I said it on a microphone at church.

But…

Now a bunch of strangers know that too.

At church, I wanted them too…

But I didn’t want the entire school to know…

Now they treat me differently…

They stare…

They treat me nicer than other people…

I feel like a fucking a sick, depressed, excluded, alien.

Is there something wrong with being epileptic?

Yes, it’s horrible to have.

But I’m still a person.

I still feel.

I still have questions.

Will I ever be able to play again? Everything reminds me of the concert.

I’m too traumatized. Am I even traumatized?

Why has almost everybody changed?

Why didn’t somebody just turn on the A.C.?

How long was the seizure?

How many people helped?

How many people faked their smiles after I regained consciousness?

How many instruments were damaged?

Why wasn’t I told I may have a seizure in the heat?

How many people didn’t care?

How many people knew about epilepsy?

How many people did not know?

How many people believed in the stereotypes of epilepsy?

I know my questions will never be answered.

But I want the world to know from my point of view.

There’s one question only the future can answer…

Will I ever be able to touch and/or play my cello again?

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[zeldalexis]

Can You Keep A Secret?

*This is a sequel to My Daughter. Please read that first.*

Can you keep a secret?

I am suicidal,

I wanna kill myself,

I wanna slit my wrists,

And watch the blood flow.

Can you keep a secret?

I am a criminal,

I like being a troublemaker,

I make people suffer all of my pain,

Especially my foster parents.

Can you keep a secret?

I love someone,

I can’t call him mine,

My foster parents made him suffer,

All my pain before me.

That’s...that’s...

That’s why I tried to kill them.

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My Daughter

I once had a daughter.

A daughter with epilepsy.

You might think I feel depressed that I lost her...

But I’m actually glad.

Whenever she would give an order...

And we would disobey...

She would hurt us.

My daughter had all kinds of torture weapons.

Whips ready to hit you...

Knives ready to stab you...

Ropes ready to choke you...

And more.

She never tried to kill us.

We had to home school her.

Until one day while she was sleeping...

We called 911.

I think she was prepared.

I forgot she had magic.

When the police got to her...

She used her magic...

Even if her epilepsy was making her magic weaker...

She still used her magic to attack the police.

They managed to arrest her...

But when they put her in the car...

She was smiling...

At that moment, I knew...

This was all part of her plan.

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With Love, Comes Pain

Some people say:

“Love comes with pain.”

But it shouldn’t always be like that.

Yeah, you should risk some things like:

Other crushes if you have a significant other (Emotions can get weird)

Other stuff, it really depends on you on what you risk.

So yeah...it comes with some pain.

Let’s say...you got married to your significant other and y’all decided to move out.

The pain comes when exploring a new place and leaving your regular life behind.

But you shouldn’t go through abuse.

It doesn’t matter if they’re a friend…

A family member…

A significant other…

Anything.

Because you deserve true love…

And nothing else.

#true love #risk #pain #hope you enjoy #hope you like it #poetry

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I Am The Real Ex

*This is a sequel to Fake Ex. Please read that first.*

I am Alexis as you already know.

We were in high school when we started dating.

In college, we had to break up.

Our colleges were on different sides of the country.

We didn’t have money to afford a long-distance relationship.

We couldn’t see each other in person...

And we couldn’t pay for the internet.

After all, calling with video requires internet.

So we broke up.

We cried.

Then this demon found me.

I always could see ghosts, so I wasn’t scared of them.

But this one scared me.

Because it looked exactly like me.

And I don’t have a dead twin sister.

She trapped me in this place she called...

“Limbo”. 

I saw what she did to Ryan and David.

She wants to “play” again.

What a psychopath.

I just want all of us to go back to normal.

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