#you have my gratitude and love

[inkskinned]

i got my isbn today for the book. 8 months to go. my mom and i were talking about what the next steps are. i was eating trail mix, standing on one foot, phone tucked into my ear.

"yeah," i said. "the problem is that tumblr as a market is like, not something that can be studied." there's this weird wave of nostalgia and affection for this place that came up over me: how lovely we avoid consumerism. okay, it sucks as a creator. but also? keep stickin' it to 'em.

my mother made the sound at the back of her throat that i also make, the one that means i've got an idea. "you should figure out some kind of reward for presale amounts. maybe you give out poems or a mug or a signed book or something. would your followers like that?" my mother is sweet, and kind, and i have no idea how to explain on this website you can buy someone crabs.

i put more m&ms down the hatch. i had to speak through peanuts and almonds. "if it passes 25 thousand i will print the book out in its entirety and eat it live on camera."

"oh god. no, you don't have to do that." she was anguished. "just tell them that you'd love them to read it, and that they've inspired you to write. you got started on that site, and they helped you keep going. raquel, you love these people. the community? you talk all the time about the other writers and artists and whatever else. tell them that you're hoping for their support, they'll come through."

"no," i assured her. i discovered i had dropped an m&m, but an ant had already found it, so it belonged to him now. i will let his little life have a surprise blue treasure in it, too. "i'm gonna fuckin' eat the book."

#writeblr #:) #the small secret love i have for y'all. the way i am filled with gratitude. #for the nosebleed club. for stephen particularly. #for every artist i've ever been in contact with and collaborated with. #for every person who has commented on my work and passed it along or fallen in love with it #for every silent 'just hitting like' follower and for every person who sends me dms and for each of you #i know i suck at replying bc i have anxiety. but like. you keep being here. so i keep writing. #i legit wouldn't be here without you. #thank you sophie thank you katie thank you carolyn thank you stephanie thank you jess #thank you if you're reading this #i got too overwhelmed with love and have to stop writing this FAR too early into the thank yous bc im about to cry with love

[roselise]

ʚ 🎀 ɞ ⊹ . ˚ * . Hello, sweet friends ! ♡

It has been a while since I shared an outfit so I thought I might as well put this one up here ♡

(Some might have seen this on my other blog? Well I will put this up here anyway for those who did not! It is still a very nice outfit after all)

I know it is a bit simple, but the ribbon and tights make it special ! This was an outfit for going to the bookstore, but it is nice for school and lots of other places, too c:

What about everyone else? Was sort of places have you been going ??

I am sorry I have been so quiet and have not replied to things yet! I will do so when I feel better, and truly I hope no one feels ignored ♡

Seeing everyone’s kindness during this time has really warmed my heart though — so thank you *so* much!

It means much to me, and I am giving all that love back times a *billion* in return ♡

Sending soft hugs & sweet thoughts to all my friends! I pray that everyone has a blessed day, and takes care ~ !

⊹ 🤍 ˚ . 🎀 ⊹ ˚ ♡

♡ ⊹ . ˚ 🧁 XOXO ⊹

⊹ 🧸 ˚ . 🤍 ⊹ ˚ ♡

#♡ #me #selfie #i have a pretty dress i will wear for easter c: #it is my fairy dress ! #so i plan to put up new stuff soon when i have more energy no worry ♡ #no matter what is happening in my life — easter is a time of hope and great joy for me ♡ #i am looking forward to sunday and the sermon and worship and just having a good day celebrating Christ ! ♡ #thank you again for thinking of me and my dad during this time ♡ #my last visit was a bit difficult and i confess i am not sure i am processing all this well #but i am doing my best #giving a big hug and much gratitude to all the kind souls here ♡ #you are loved and i am praying blessings over you and the happiest day ok ? ♡ #xo ! ♡ #🤍 ˚ . 🎀 ⊹ ˚ ♡

[waitingforthesunrise]

And what do I do? I live. I try to make sense of life. I lean on my kitchen counter and get lost in the soup. I gaze at flowers and sunbeams and the cracking paint. I am in love and I am in pain and they are becoming less like lovers and more like friends. I like it that way; when I’m at the breakfast table, my head is quieter. I watch sunrises and I go insane, very quietly, over the twists and turns of poetry. I still smile when I cry. I am so loved, so fucking loved, and I hold the love carefully between my hands – like a present I’m still shocked to receive. 

I stand in the grass and close my eyes; the trees laugh, softly, caressing the wind, and I am a life in a life full of little lives. 

What is worship but a wordless cry – how good it is, how good it is, how good. How good is the laughter of friends and the sharp decoration of a pinecone? How good is the blue slide of sky, how good is my song, how good is a voice raised loud in joy?

And I live. I try to make sense of life. I cry in restaurant bathrooms. I dance. I pull my car over to take pictures of sunsets. I am in love. I tuck my pain into bed and kiss her forehead gently. Rage grabs my shoulder; I stare back. I am a life in a life full of little lives and I still don’t know how that happened. How good is it, to have people who your heart can rest with? How good is it, to see the stars? How good is it, to know I will cry again – I will wonder – I will let my heart be ripped clean and yet. And yet. I go on. 

What is worship but a wordless cry? 

I am glad to be alive.

#this was meant to be about gratitude and i got carried away a little lol #its been. a year. #last october/november/december was some of the hardest moments i've ever been through #and now. this november. io be honest. I feel more loved and happier then i ever have #and my tumblr family has had SO MUCH to do with that #my wordless cry is that i'm glad to be alive with you #original poetry #original writing #creative writing #female writers #writers of tumblr #ari writes

[edenfenixblogs]

More of this

שלום

#Judaism son #Jewish goyim solidarity #the granola bars made me cry #I know how he feels #when someone is so kind #you don’t know what to do #but you have to give someone something #or feed them #or demonstrate gratitude in a material way #but nothing feels big enough #so you get my favorite granola bars #but THEY ARE ENVELOPED IN INVISIBLE THREADS OF LOVE #😭😭😭 #Jewish joy #jumblr

[crescentfool]

the persona 3 protagonist 25th anniversary nui in food appliances!

#lizzy speaks #persona 3 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #guys friendly reminder that this is what adulthood is about dont listen to anyone who calls you cringe #hence why im putting these in the main tags. i mean they're not incorrect for what the photos are about. lmao #anyway this was a very fun birthday!!! i feel very loved and supported by so many people and i got to do very fun things (like this)... #i think... birthday is like thanksgiving to me. in the gratitude respect. #a reminder of all the lovely people that i have gotten a chance to meet and how i've learned from them #it makes me very happy to have been born... i think every day is a great day to celebrate life's grandeur + brilliance + magnificence #it's just a very poignant and strong feeling that i have that i'm happy to have met so many wonderful people #and while there are some people i've only known for brief periods of time or people who i havent really been good at keeping in contact wit #i do cherish it! im so grateful. so happy that there are people who cheer my silly shenanigans on #while there are ways in which aging makes me go “oh hmm” i think overall i'm happy that i get to keep on living and learning #i have so much fondness for humanity and people... like even if i dont get to talk to ppl directly i just get very emotional yknow #like wow.. you exist.. thats so fucking awesome... i hope you have an awesome day... im glad our paths could cross #if you have read up to this point of my tags.. thank you for reading and being part of my life #i will keep on being the silliest guy ive ever known! cheers to more shenyanigans and self-discovery :3

[nuppu-nuppu]

I’m back!!!

#have this deku as a token of my gratitude for all of you #sorry for not being active #i have been struggling #i love u all #<3333333333333 #bnha #boku no hero academia #mha #my hero academia #bnha fanart #mha fanart #deku #midoriya izuku #digital art #digital artist

[satans-knitwear]

Gl breastie, hope you can get your tiddies out better or whatever the phone does

I'm pretty sure the contract does in fact say that it will get my tiddies out better. Isnt technology these days just amazing?!

Treat me ~ Tip me ~ More of me

#Thank you so much for your help my loves!!! Im really hopeful about this!!! #Your support means the world to me 🥰🥰 #Have some fancy tiddies as a token of my deep and undying gratitude #More tiddies available soon #Satans knitwear #Bit fancy for a tuesday innit Tuesdays

[amazing-captain-castiel]

*RUNS IN* HELLO HELLO HELLO I HAVE SOMETHING VERY IMPORTANT TO SHARE -- POPTART AND STICKERS ARRIVED TODAY!!!! The whole package is incredible and I've been looking forward to it all week!! Ell even drew a Leo and added my name on the back 🥺 my insides are in a happy puddle of tears and I keep happily wiggling and flailing. Thank you so much to the incredible @intotheelliwoods!! Now it's picture time!!

#I LOVE IT SO MUCH ELL #I DASHED OUT TO THE MAILBOX AS SOON AS I GOT THE NOTIF IT ARRIVED AND IMMEDIATELY OPENED IT #AAAAAAAA IM SO HAPPY AND DON'T HAVE ENOUGH WORDS TO EXPRESS MY JOY AND GRATITUDE #TYSM ELL I LOVE YOU MWAH/P #2al merch #2 arms left #hamato leonardo #leonardo #big leo #sprout #poptart #little leo #medium leo #big leo 2.0 #little leo 2.0 #lil leo #OH MAN WHERE AM I GONNA PLACE MY STICKERS THIS IS A BIG DECISION #i shall upload photos of the stickers when i know where they're going! #poptart is safely hanging out above my bed until my ita bag comes in #if he goes with my carabiner for my keys the other keychains will beat him up because they're so big. i won't allow it

[luna-lovegreat]

I like how Jojo said they can have one (1) eye with colour

#it was when he was dying of course #anyways #I like that we got at least one reference to the fact that Twi has blue eyes was soooo emphasized in game #in human form #she did it several times in wolf form but this is the one human eye with colour #unless I missed one let me know if I did you'll have my eternal gratitude #linked universe #linkeduniverse #lu #lu twilight #love you guys

[hella1975]

hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x

#seriously another shout out to my mutuals #id particularly like to say thank you to boom who's always right there for me no matter what's happening or how insane im being #and also everyone in our little discord that wound up having to make a whole new channel for venting #bc i was there so often like 'today's weird ask isssss.... telling me about my cupsize!! rip them to shreds!!!' #hannah and theo especially being there and pushing me to finally turn off anon. war is truly over #and of course rori bc the shamelessness u show when hating on my anon asks has been genuinely really cathartic #sometimes u really do just need a rottweiler mutual to tell random people online to kill themselves 😭 #okay weird oscar acceptance speechcore gratitude over. i do just rlly love my mutuals #like i went three years not telling anyone about the worse side of internet popularity for fear of looking spoiled and ungrateful #so for the first time to open up about it and be met with outrage on my behalf and people saying in fact it's MORE fucked up #than i initially realised bc ive grown desensitised to it is. yeah cathartic i guess #they are singlehandedly reassuring me of the good this cursed app still holds #so everyone thank them and send them flowers NOW #okay im done i think. see you guys soon. i truly do want to come back asap bc like i said i NEVER EVEN WANTED TO FUCKING LEAVE #SOME ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO PUT GRENADES ON WHAT I ASSUMED WERE VERY UNIVERSAL AND OBVIOUS BOUNDARIES #if you're reading this like 'ohhh fuck i defo sent something invasive lately. i thought it was a joke/we were friends' #then 1) we arent friends if you're on anon. it immediately creates a power imbalance where you know me and any necessary context #but i have no idea who you are or how much you know about me. that's already a fucked dynamic #and 2) I HOPE YOU FEEL BAD. LIKE GENUINELY I HOPE YOU FEEL AWFUL AND HAVE A GOOD LONG LOOK AT YOURSELF #okay i think that's all. ta-ra lads??? how tf do u end something like this #ive queued this to reblog a couple more times throughout the day

[dewdropsintheevening]

Why do you love her?

When you ask me "Why do you love her" I find my words tangled on my tongue

I cannot describe to you why I love her Mere words could never do her justice

Her love is gentle Her love is kind Her love is selfless Her love is unconditional

I look for her in every painting I observe I look for her in every song that is sung I look for her in every poem I read I look for her in every dream that I've dreamt

When we meet It is as if time has stopped completely My world is taken up by her presence I feel at home for the first time in many lonely years

When you ask me "Why do you love her so?" I find my mouth numb For mere words could never describe what we have

She took me in my broken entirety Observing my cracks and imperfections She saw the rotting garden inside of me And tended to it, as a mother would to her sick child

For every scar she saw She kissed it to make it feel better For every wound reopened She embroidered new skin for me

She doesn't see a wilted garden She doesn't see a worn down garment She doesn't see a tainted piece of flesh Nor does she see a waste of breath

She does not see these things Like others most often do She only sees my entirety And she deems it beautiful

When I am broken into pieces Backed into a corner and shaking Naked and vulnerable like a feral dog She doesn't scorn, nor shun

She takes me in And soothes me Like a mother would a crying infant Gentle and reassuring, she tells me

"Everything will be okay."

When you ask me, "Why do you love her?" I find my mouth empty, my only answer being "She loves me too."

#poems on tumblr #poemsbyme #poetry #poems #relationships #love #lovers #couple #intimacy #healing #healing journey #self awareness #gratitude #romance #healthy relationships #this is like a breath of fresh air for me to write #I cannot tell you how thankful I am that I have her in my life

[mitamicah]

Not me brainstorming ideas for my post op tattoo (context) like I'd contact the tattoo artist tomorrow and not in a 1,5 year or more

This was where my inspiration took me today I guess :'D

#bold of me going for colour in most of these since none of my other things have colour x'D #after all this is only what ideas I have rn :'D #as mentioned I don't think I'll be able to get a chest tattoo for at least one year and a half #in half a year I've been promised to start appointments with a therapist again about the surgery #then if I'm lucky I'll get approved #and then there's a waitlist on at least a year last I heard #and then I need to heal a bit first #so when we arrive at that point in time who knows if I've better ideas #or if I've changed my mind #I hope to have käärijä in my life for years to come still #or at least feel the same sort of gratitude for him showing me how to love my body and/or feel neutral about it when dysphoria hits #look at me being chatty in the tags yet again #also - these are of course only concepts #I will probably have send the reference picture as well to the tattoo artist if I actually went to find one to do these tomorrow x'D #I hope you like them :3 #I really enjoy number 2 (top left) and 3 (mid) #jere pöyhönen #käärijä #cha cha cha #mine #my own art

[dungeons-and-dragon-age]

Anders buddy i have barely done anything 😭

#anders when you show him a bit of basic kindness: you have my deepest gratitude and devotion and i am madly in love with you #buddy. friend. please raise your standards ToT #poor guy is so starved for affection #(& misses the vigils keep gang probably (no bioware i dont believe u that they hate each other now)) #laya plays dragon age #also liams start of his friendship w merrill is so. he never really agreed to bring her along and kinda is uncomfy around her #cus of her whole blood magic deal any everything #but shes also so genuine and lonely and sweet?? and he doesnt have the heart to tell her uh no id rather not come visit regularly actually #(which is true for his friendship with anders too tbh LOL he wanted to keep his distance but also hes so sad and lonely) #((this is ALSO mutually true for him and varric lmao)) #his and varrics first shared trait: getting accidentally attached to people xdd #my ocs #oc: liam hawke #since i got rambly abt him in the tags again lol

[dekarios]

its very easy to forget that theres people in the world who are genuinely so kind, and are full of love and want to help, that generous souls who will put themselves out to be supportive really do exist......

we see so much doomer shit about scams, and hate and really just evil shit yknow. all the fucking time. it's so rare to see good stuff that helps reaffirm a sort of, belief in humanity if you will. if you get what i mean

and it's only when you experience it or see it up close that you remember like yeah. there's seriously people out there who will just help you because you need help, without wanting a thing in return. and it's just. holy fuck man. it really ain't all bad

#fray.txt #so many donos are anonymous like its just their real name and maybe a nice message but its just. anon and i can't personally thank them #and man for those people like pls consider this ur thank you and that youve really like idk #made me believe in the goodwill of people again i guess. i feel like. im just bursting with love rn? and gratitude and. all that good shit #and to my friends who have been helping and shit i know ive thanked you already and shit but fuck. i love you guys #sorry im literally crying rn thinking about how much i love people and humanity and shit . fuck #;lsdfksl;dzkgdf;lkgfd;gk

[ganondoodle]

a wild assortement of comic wip screenshots and a random doodle that i posted to twitter but not here

(this doodle here is of Raal (aka demise before he became a deity) but whatever happens here isnt anything 'canon', i just randomly doodled him to try a loosen up my painting style bc when i work on the comic i tend to concentrate too much of rendering it perfectly and i dont like that)

#ganondoodles #doodles #art #i am so very tired #too tired for tags #btw i do love and read every ask i get but damn i just dont have the energy to reply to most #and i feel so guilty #i wish i could make a warning show up when someone wants to send me an ask #that just says -yo i love and cherish and reread all asks but unfortunately have zero energy to reply but chances are it made me cry- #given the asks isnt mean spirited or straight up bots #which my impsoter brain sometimes still tries to make me think #like either woo look at all those people LYING to your face #but i have grown alot since those days and now its mostly just #so look what a nice and lovely absolutely beautiful ask this person send you and you disrespectful fool are not answering it shame upon you #thats most likely why i have been getting less and less and man i feel so bad #like when its asks about drawing advice i either dont know what to say bc i dont have any idea what im doing eihter #or bc i plan a giant response with a big ass illustrated tutorial even tho i know i neither got the time or energy for it #but still cant answer then bc wait you wanted to make a tutorial you cant answer it just like that #and when its a super nice compliment about my art i just #dont know how to express my gratitude and silently reread it time and time again never answering it bc then it would be gone from the inbox #;__; #alright falling asleep brain better not have written sth i will regret reading tomorrow #i think this is the longest tags i put on a completely unrelated post of mine #if you have read all these tags send me an ask only containing the name of your fav fruit and i will make you a little pixel sprite of it

[allastoredeer]

I didn't realize we could just drop in and say "hello"! Hello! I just wanna say that I legit haven't been so deep in any kind of fandom since the Harry Potter days and I'm SO GLAD that I came across "Just Kiss Already" a couple of weeks ago. It's been like a domino effect ever since. Firstly, I watched the show and was like "Okay that was really good but I need more! I wonder if people still write fanfiction?" I went my my old stomping grounds, fanfiction.net, but there was only like 1K HH stories there. Clearly there's another place. Thankfully I discovered AO3 and omg.. the OPTIONS it had! So I found your story, LOVED it, then found your tumblr, looked though it and found all the awesome fanart, made my own tumblr and now I'm drawing fanart again for like the first time in almost 20 years! I just wanted to let you know that you are such an AMAZING writer and I feel like I'm fortunate to have discovered your work as early as I did. The show alone, I might have lost interest already but because of fantastic people like you, you've made me so much more interested in the characters, their personalities and their possible stories.

It's going to be a painfully long wait for season 2 you make the wait more bearable. Please don't stop writing. You have an astonishing understanding of the characters and I check every day for new updates! Thank you!

HI! Hahah, I love it when people pop in to say hello, so feel free to do so whenever!

Ah, when that hyperfixation sets in deep and won't let you go. Oh man, I feel you. When you mentioned fanfiction.net you sent me ZOOMING into the past when that was my old stomping ground too XD I've since moved to AO3 and despite still having fics on FF.net I hardly go there anymore. So, welcome!! AO3 is a goldmine of fics, so I hope you're eating your fill!

AhhhhhhhhH! ♥‿♥ It's so awesome to see people getting creative and writing their own fics & making their own fan-art! TBH it's been a while since I've been in a fandom THIS active (actually, I don't think I've EVER been in a fandom this active), so interacting with so many awesome people with shared interests is just hhhhhhhhhh it's been amazing.

And thank you so much (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) I absolutely LOVE writing. It is a passion of mine. Storytelling and character analysis brings me so much joy, and to hear that it brings other people just as much joy makes me just

I love sharing stuff with you guys 🥺 and I love that you love it in turn. It's a cycle of love and appreciation and it's beautiful. I have a lot of Hazbin thoughts and prompts squirreled away, not just for my RadioApple series ;) and I'm very excited to get into them!

Thank you so much for dropping by to say hi! 😍

#ya'll making me feel so much love and gratitude #my heart is yours #im feeling things and they're all good things #thank you very much #getting asks like these never fail to brighten my day #and seeing how its a cold cloudy day today #it couldn't have come at a better time <3 #asks #anonymous #anon