#when we get home

[wwilsonbarness]

when we get home

pairings:  sam wilson x bucky barnes 

summary: Bucky opens up to Sam about his past.

warnings: mentions of sexual assault, mention of Bucky’s being held by HYDRA, flufff

word count: 1271

a/n: i’m trying to get back into writing so this isn’t written the best but I really wish we got a conversation like this in the show :( 

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“Are we gonna talk about it?” Sam almost whispers. Not one word had been spoken between them since they arrived at Sharon's safehouse. 

Bucky doesn’t move his eyes from his hands where he was playing with his fingers. “Talk about what?” 

“You know what.” Bucky takes a deep breath, he wishes he didn’t know. He knows already that him and Sam aren’t really friends, yet something in him feels safe enough to open up to him.

Sam moves closer to Bucky, close enough that their thighs brush together. “Buck..” 

Bucky can feel his eyes grow wetter as the flashbacks of his time at Hydra flash through his mind. He turns to Sam and looks into his eyes, they’re full of trust, full of care. “I just.. I haven’t spoken about that with anyone before.” 

“Look, you don't have to talk about it.. just know that you can anytime and I’ll listen.” 

“You won’t judge me? Or look at me any different?” 

Sam shoots Bucky a slight smile. “I promise.” 

“I only remember parts.. a lot of my time with Hydra is still full of gaps, it comes back sometimes at random times but I remember..” Bucky pauses for a second and tries to think of a way to word this.

Sam puts his hand on Bucky’s thigh and squeezes slightly. Once his hand makes contact he worries he might have overstepped but Bucky leans into his touch and pushes those concerns away. 

“At first when they found me in the snow it wasn’t bad, I honestly felt relieved that I had been found, but then they told me who they were and I knew I wasn’t safe. I noticed too late, there was no way for me to escape. They locked me in a room and left me there for what felt like days. Food and water would appear in my room but I never saw anyone come in or out. I later found out that they would put gas into my room to knock me out.” Bucky feels like he is going off topic but Sam reassures him he’s okay to continue. 

“Once they’d gotten in my head with those damn words, they controlled everything I did. They would use me for their missions as you know, but it didn’t stop there. At one point, I don’t even know when but they moved me to a room and it had windows. At first I thought this was a good thing but then I realised they were only one way windows. I couldn’t see out but they could see in.”

Sam didn’t say anything but nodded, urging Bucky to continue. 

“They would take turns coming into my room, one at a time but I could hear the others on the other side of the window. They made me do different things and I’m still putting the pieces together but I remember one in particular. He would make me stand right in front of the mirror and take my clothes off.” Bucky felt Sam tense beside him and looked at him, checking if he should continue. Sam’s heart melted at Bucky, even at his most vulnerable he was checking on others. 

“It’s okay, only keep going if you want to.” 

Bucky nodded before continuing. “Once I had my clothes off, sometimes he would make me..” Bucky’s voice grew smaller and smaller as he continued, so much so, Sam could almost not hear him. “He would make me touch myself, whilst they all watched. I could hear them laughing, like they were enjoying themselves. The guy in the room, he would keep telling me what to do but he would stop right before I..” Sam gave Bucky a look of understanding, Bucky was thankful he didn't have to say it. “He would do it over and over again, never letting me finish.” Bucky cringed slightly at his wording but kept going. “Once they'd had their fun they’d just leave me there in pain.” 

Bucky suddenly felt like he had to defend himself. “And it’s not like I wanted to.. but anything would have been better than having to wait it out.” 

Sam can feel his anger rising, thinking back to earlier in the night. Zemo asking Bucky to go back into that mindset and let him touch him was uncalled for. He felt guilty for letting it happen even though deep down he knew it had to happen. Still he made a mental note to apologise to Bucky when the time was right.

“It’s okay, you don’t have to defend yourself. I can’t imagine how hard that would've been.” Bucky felt relieved at that, he almost felt silly for thinking Sam would judge him but after a second he realises probably not everyone would react this way. He really was grateful for having Sam. He made him feel safe and listened to so he kept going. 

“There was another man, he only came in a few times and he would touch me.. but…” Bucky took a deep breath and paused for only a moment. “He wouldn’t use the words. He just told me to lie down and I would do it. I just let him.” 

Sam didn’t want to interrupt Bucky but he couldn’t let him blame himself for that. “Bucky.. That wasn't your fault. Whether he used the words or not, it was against your will.”

“But I could have stopped him, If i’d just been toughe-”

“Bucky no. Please listen to me when I say this.” Sam shifts sideways slightly and grabs Bucky’s hands. He looks up into Bucky’s eyes and continued. “None of what happened to you is your fault, you had no choice in what happened.” 

Bucky can feel a tear run down his face before he can stop it. He quickly brings his hand up and wipes it away. “I’m sorry for this. I know you probably don’t want to hear about it.”

“Buck” Sam chuckles lightly. “I like to think we’re close enough now that we can vent to each other. This is gonna be pretty tough if we can’t.”

This brought a little smile to Bucky’s face. “Thank you for listening to me Sam, and thank you for not looking at me like I'm some freak.”

“You’re not a freak. You’ve been through a lot, that doesn’t make you a freak, that makes you strong. I know this was hard to look back on but I’m glad you felt safe enough to..with me. I’m here for you okay? From now on, we have each other's backs, no matter what.” 

“I’m here for you too. You can talk to me, I know I’ve been a bit of a dick in the past but I promise I got you. You can talk to me about anything, I know you’ve been through a lot too. It must be ha-” 

Before Bucky could finish speaking, the door swings open and Zemo walks in. “Gentleman.” Bucky pulls away from Sam and wipes his face once more, he absolutely does not want Zemo to crack any jokes about this. He shoots Sam an apologetic look but there's no need, Sam understood and nodded slightly to show that. “ Are you two ready to leave? We’re waiting.” 

Sam and Bucky both clear their throat before standing up. Both mumbling a response that sounds like a mixture of “Yes” and “Let’s go” 

Zemo leaves the room first and Bucky goes to follow but not before looking back at Sam and grabbing his hand. 

“When we get home.” They both smile slightly and Sam squeezes Bucky’s hand. 

Sam nods before responding “When we get home.”

#wwilsonbarness #when we get home #sambucky #sambuckyfic #sambucky fluff #sambucky fanfic #samwilson #bucky barnes #marvel #bucky barnes fanfiction #sam wilson fanfiction #sam wilson x bucky barnes #bucky barnes x sam wilson #the falcon and the winter solider #sebastian stan #anthony mackie #winterfalcon #fanfic

[lovelybabey]

I want to edge a girl before we go out to a club so I can spend the whole night toying with her and keeping her right on the edge. Eyeing her like I want to eat her right there at the bar and grinding against her whenever I get the chance. Whispering in her ear all the things I’m going to do to her when we get home. Tease her by saying she seems awful damp between her thighs and I’m not sure it’s all sweat.

#and when we get home…. #god the things I would do #wlw nsft #lesbian nsft #sapphic nsft #sapphic smut #nblw nsft #nsft wlw #wlw ns/fw #nsft bunny #bunny #femme bait #masc4femme

[pep-tides]

i vacuum sealed my blahaj for the move and im fuckign dying hbgmvjvjfjsbsj

#mother help me i have been flattened #i will release him when we get home don't worry #blahaj #funny

[bluerosefox]

One in the Same

Hmmmm

Hmmmmm

So we know during the time Tim lost in spleen (his Red Robin run) and wakes ups next to the pit he almost believed he had been tossed in the Lazarus Pits.

What if

Now hear me out.

What if he actually was.

But what if instead of gaining Pit Madness, he unlocked his past life memories.

His memories of being Daniel 'Danny' Fenton and Danny Phantom.

And once the memories returned so did his ghost form and powers.

And as Tim sits at the bottom of the pits, crossing his legs and letting all his memories slide back into place he questioned what to do now. He pondered for a moment and hummed tapping a finger to his chin.

Maybe he'll play the Pit Madness card? After all Ra's chucked him in here to either turn him into a mindless rage machine he could manipulate or see what the Pits would do to a mind like Tim's. Or Tim could pretend to be a silent rage, a calm before the storm.

Well, Tim grinned his eyes glowing green as he stared at the surface of the Lazarus waters above him, he was very good at lying this life time around. After all he was Tim 'I can even lie to Batman and get away with it' Drake-Wayne and he did used to be Danny 'Commit to the bit' Fenton/Phantom.

He was going to have fun playing that fruitloop named Ra's like the cheap kazoo he was.

#danny phantom #danny fenton #crossover #dp x dc #blue rambles #danny phantom dc #writing ideas #random idea #dpxdc #tim drake #Danny is reborn as Tim Drake #the Pits instead of giving him Pit Madness unlocked his memories #Danny/Tim is going to have fun playing Ra's like a fool #A lot more league bases gonna go boom now #does he play into being having Pit Madness? #or will be a calm before the storm kinda person #either way Ra's believes he can manipulate and mold Tim into his heir #when Danny/Tim stops Ra's from taking over WE he legit pieces out of Gotham for a bit #gotta go build a very strange machine and see a Time Master to get B home

[mblue-art]

BAD SANSUARY // [8] boxed in for owl-bones's event !

sneaking in a little kissie under the desk or whatever hiding place we were in :]

#badsansuary #dust!sans #murder!sans #self insert #mblue art #i love flustered dust......... #he might uhhh get back at me when we get home... 😳 wops #looking at most of my sketches for bad sansuary and oh man i am a very kissy lil guy #how can i Not kiss these skeletons yk

[egophiliac]

GRIMS COMING!!! You gonna pull for him??👀👀

I'm gonna try, but...

I have mere hours to decide if I want to make one last attempt at Malleus or save a few to try for Grim...and this is all before the new event reveal on the 16th. truly the most difficult choice of our modern times. the gacha is getting its revenge for all of my Lilias.

#art #of a sort #twisted wonderland #glorious masquerade #can't believe that malleus still won't come home two years in a row #okay. okay. so we'll get a free 10 pull for grim and then if i use ALL my keys and gems that'll get me up to...ugh. numbers. 91? #literally 9 short of a guaranteed summon. oh my god. #curse you trey why is your birthday just too late to get me another 10 set when i need it #i was really trying to ration but i still spent too many of my hoarded keys failing to get masqeralleus #my hubris... #and this is assuming that i won't even want any of the 2023 halloween ssrs which is. unlikely. #may we all get ridiculously lucky and get the fancy ssr on our first pull using the free event keys #it can happen if we all BELIEVE #(sobs)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Welcome to the Dungeons of Fear and Hunger.

#Fear and Hunger #D'arce Cataliss #Cahara #Ragnvaldr #Enki Ankarian #Unlike Dungeon Meshi - I cannot in good faith recommend this game to a broad audience. #My background with F&H goes as follows: I am hanging out with a friend. He says “hey try this game I've been playing.” I say “Okay!” #I have never heard of this game. I pick the mercenary. I go through 5 min of character history and background. I am mauled to death by dogs #It took me 4 resets to even get in the dungeon. But I finally get there. I am caught by a guard. He cuts off all but one of my limbs #I am forced to crawl around in a blood and corpse pit until the game tells me 'give up idiot'. #I reset. I am mauled by dogs again. I realize this is not for me but I am intrigued enough to go home and watch some playthroughs #And WOW what an interesting game it is! I really do appreciate games that blend their design philosophy with the theme it wants to set #This is a game about fear and hunger. And persevering. And penis (my god is there a lot of penis) #I recommend this to people who like extremely challenging games and can handle the many *content warnings* within this series #If the idea of Bloodborne/eldenring and undertale having a little RPG maker baby sounds appealing to you - give it a shot #It's made by ONE GUY and it's a great horror game. I am just really bad at it. #My friends just enjoy putting me in situations where I scream and yell. We don't talk about the corn mazes. Or the other horror game nights #Apparently I'm funny when I'm Scared! #As people who follow me on twitter might know; I am deep in the pits of this series right now. I will be back with more art.

[aerequets]

nothing like a child’s creepy drawing to make you fear for your life (seriously why do kids’ drawings look so scary sometimes... and the things they say? hello??)

loid does many things and messing with paranormal shit is NOT one of them

buy me a coffee

#how much money are we betting that anya is messing with him #when yor gets home he has to huddle behind her and pretend he has any semblance of dignity left #what can a guy do when he feels safest behind his wife right #spy x family #sxf #spy x family art #sxf art #spy x family comic #sxf comic #loid forger #sxf loid #anya forger #sxf anya #yor forger #sxf yor #twilight #agent twilight #my art #my comic

[enden-k]

this entire bit does unspeakable things to me

also

other hand hiding because hes shaking (if u remember) 🥹🥹🥹

#if someone forgot abt that part: he hides his hand when hes doing big bets bc hes scared #RAAAAAAAAAAAAH one more day #!!!!!!!!!!!! #its so funny to me how i was looking forward to him then my excitement turned 0 in 2.0 bc he felt too much like fucking chi//////lde to me #but then it turned all the way up in 2.1 when we learned more abt him and i was able to separate him from that guy (tm) im so relieved #anw aventurine better get ready bc he WILL come home and he WILL get pregnant #tbd #hsr tag

[necromycologist]

yall better stop calling Shakespearean English Old English… thats Early Modern English. that English is not old it’s barely stale ???

#i realize this is a real nitpick on my part and honestly i didn’t know this a couple months ago #but old english is like. Old. this is back when we still used the thorn and the eth #Early Modern English —> Shakespeare. Understandable. Some strange word order and thous/thees but mostly ok. #Middle English —> Chaucer. Confusing. You can probably get the gist better if you read aloud but you have to struggle a bit. #Old English —> Beowulf. Different language. You will understand maybe 1 word in 50. #linguistics #home cooked hijinks #queue gotta be kidding me

[ew-selfish-art]

DP x DC AU: Danny desperately wants to find the explosion guy. Tim is really good at covering his tracks... he didn't account for ghosts.

The explosions make it onto TV as purported terror activity and most people haven't heard of that part of the world much less ever given a second thought to care about it. The only real reason it gets reported on has something to do with the Justice League and... Danny knows too much.

He's been in training for Clockwork's court (which he's suspicious of- feels like kingly duty bullshit- but Danny is playing along out of curiosity for now) and he's learned a lot about how the living and non-living worlds collide. That means learning about CW's usual suspects- one of which just happened to have a ton of bases around the area Danny was seeing on the news.

It didn't take long for Danny to try to piece together that whoever blew up Nanda Parbat was trying to fuck with the League of Shadows, and was doing it successfully. Less green portals in the world the better, same goes for assassins. But it gets Danny thinking... Maybe he can employ similar tactics on the GIW Bases that keep spawning on the edges of Amity Park. It would at least set them back while he and his friends navigated the help line desk to request Justice League intervention. None of them can leave Amity Park, so outreach is going to have to be creative.

So Danny figures he'll just find the guy. Call up some ghosts who were there, or er, came from there and get a profile and track him down. But the ghosts keep saying it was The Detective. Annoying!

Danny goes full conspiracy theory, gets Tucker and Sam involved, and begrudgingly asks Wes Weston his thoughts.

He hadn't expected Wes to garble out a thirty minute presentation (that had 100 more slides left to go before he cut it off) about how Batman totally trained with a cult and so did his kids. Danny kind of rolled his eyes but... hey, new avenue of searching in the Infinite Realms at least.

The ghosts confirm that Bombs is for sure not Batman's MO- But maybe his second kid would know? The second kid was already brought back to life though, so no way to easily reach him... Danny starts to realize that this might be the work of a Robin now. Wasn't the red one known for solving cold cases? (Sam provides this information- its a social faux pas to not know hero gossip at Gotham Galas- everything she's learned is against her will).

It all comes to a head when Danny goes about the hard task of opening a portal for the guy to come through at just the right time, explain the infinite realms so he doesn't panic and then describe what the fuck was going on with the GIW. It takes months, just over a full year, of random (educated guesses) portal generating- Finally, Red Robin drops into the land of the dead.

"So, you're the guy I've got to talk to about explosions right?" Danny enthusiastically asks.

Tim thinks he's died and landed in the after life following 56 hours of being awake and plummeting off the side of a building into a Lazarus pool. Nothing makes sense about the kid in front of him.

"Yeah, I got a guy for munitions." Tim answers cooly.

"How do you feel about secretly sanctioned government operations that violate protected rights?"

"Gotta get rid of 'em some how. Need me to point you in the right direction?" This might as well be happening.

#dcxdp #dpxdc #dp x dc #dc x dp #danny phantom #long post #tim drake #red robin #tim and danny team up to blow up the GIW au #Tim being known as the explosion guy is my favorite and i will not let this part of his lore go ignored #Jason is the munitions guy obviously and the ghosts go crazy over the gossip it enlights when he helps in amity park #Danny one hundred percent is living for this working relationship- what a weirdo -danny hasn't met someone stranger than himself in a min #tim bartering his services for a few more years of life and danny just pikachu facing him #Tim wants to improve his relations in the afterlife be he still completely thinks hes dead #danny: dude ur still alive #Tim: yeah thats the goal but i'll help you meet your goals first and then we can negotiate #Danny decides to make the guy super ghost rich (thinking big Haunt real estate) and send him home #Tim blows up the GIW with no remorse and with all the data back up for proper justice to be served court side #tim returns from the dead and this is how the bats learn that he's the one who blew up nanda parbat all those years ago #it takes danny so long to find tim bc tim was spiralling and only after bruce got back did he get into a normal routine enough to get got

[puppyeared]

au where asriel comes home early

#this came to me in a dream but i dont remember the rest #i just think it would be pretty interesting if asriel comes home since im assuming the game #takes place over a series of days until he comes back from college #i havent kept up with deltarune since chapter 2 came out so i dont remember much abt the theories around asriel #esp what ralsei is supposed to be- im kinda suspicious of ralsei actually since he didnt mention the roaring until #the end of chapter 2. plus we dont know why hes able to go between dark worlds without freezing so im a little sus #plus noelle points out that he looks like asriel so it makes me wonder if ralsei knows abt that or ow he would react to that information #and when noelle points it out she gets cut off because she says ralsei turned to face them as she was thinking that. hmmmm #im also curious if we actually get to see asriel and what he looks like so im looking forward to that #my art #myart #doodles #utdr #deltarune #ralsei #asriel dreemurr #deltarune asriel #kris dreemurr #deltarune kris #deltarune fanart #au #i dont think id actually call it an au its more of a one off but if anyone wants to take this and run go for it ^_^ #its probably already been done at some point anyway lol

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 138

Danny squints up at the blurry form cradling him, brain trying to catch up with his situation. He can feel the pulse of his siblings’ cores nearby, gently pulsing contentedly despite the chaos of his last memories. His limbs feel too small and pudgy, too-small fingers gripping onto something as his vision started to clear. 

There was a man, holding him? Cradling his too-small form like he was an infant- was he an infant? He was pretty sure he wasn’t supposed to be, he had been older but now he wasn’t. He squinted up at the stranger, green eyes meeting green. Huh. They kind of looked like he could be their dad or something. 

#dcxdp #dpxdc #prompts #league of shadows #Ras gets a trio of infants the first/second time he exits the Lazarus Pits #So very early Ras who semi recently lost his first wife #Phantom siblings are his first kids who keep him semi-sane #As far as Ras is concerned the Pits blessed him with his firstborn sons and daughter #Dusan Nyssa & Talia are grumbling whenever the trio come back home #”Ugh we don’t Want to do Family Time” #”Too bad it’s family time c’mon we brought you all presents” #Danny when Talia brings Jason home: Did you steal a child #Talia: Of course not brother but by chance would you convince Father to let the child stay #Bruce doesn't know about the trio because they were away while he was training with the league #They do know about him though- baby sisters first crush how cute! #Talia where did you get that test tube baby have you informed the other donor- TALIA #“We all know you three are the favorite children” #“No we aren't” #"Danyal you Daig & Eva can literally leave whenever you want as long as you call every week w can barely leave without him being overbearin #Daig means fire/flame #Eva means living & breathing

[nuclearanomaly]

“I can’t offer much in the way of entertainment”

> Are you sure about that?

#ffxiv #Estinien #Estinien Wyrmblood #Estinien Varlineau #6.4 #6.4 spoilers #when I tell you I lost me mind #I'M STILL REELING #Thank you stay at home Estinien #thank you dev team #good GODD #they took me out at the knees 2 cutscenes in #I thought we were gonna get him failing to eat the curry #I was NOT prepared for this #I was gonna add the Zero pov pan shot but the lighting was so different it didn't go well with the others #Nini is all :)c until Zero asks if they should all be disrobing then she is combusting on the spot #his lil pose when he gets up... cute 😭 #anyway I am like shocked I haven't seen gifs of this yet so I make my own food #edits: mine

[lepakonpaska]

okay but l*reen winning aside because that's false and i don't belive in that: it's so insane that a song IN FINNISH got SECOND PLACE and im absolutely crying about that and the entire country is so so SO proud of our funky green man 💚 he won everyone's hearts and that's the most important thing

#no but fr after all the 'lmao a song in finnish will never do well' comments i am happy #this is our second best place EVER jere from vantaa ur the best ily #anyway drawing the real top five (finland australia germany serbia slovenia) immediately when i get back home on monday #eurovision #esc 2023 #käärijä my baby we are so proud of u #kultarakas tää on mahtava suoritus

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hello Stranger. Whom I have never met.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #xiao xingchen #xue yang #a-qing #Xue yang realizing the situation and changing up his mannerisms on the spot probably should not be as funny to me as it is #Everyone here is in a bad situation. XY and A-Qing are playing the long game of faking critical information #XXC is just vibing. I am calling him 'baby girl' in the most 'oh god we got to get you out of this house' tone #The situation at hand is the xxc took home a bobcat to nurse it back to health #thinking it would be just like a housecat. But a house cat would also eat your face advantageously. A bobcat wont wait for you to die #meta note: I've been drawing the last few comics in the same room as my buddy while they play hollow knight. #They were going through the royal waterways while I've been drawing. Fighting Flukes. #If you care to know about the auditory experience in the BG that underlies these last few comics. #if you know then you know. If you don't... then I wish I was you. #but I like to think thats what XY hears when he's passed out in his nightmares. As he deserves.