#psychosis vent

[taralen]

Well, guys, it was FUN being sane for 72 hours! Enjoy this visual garbage I vomited while having an extremely intense psychosis episode. 👌

SOMEHOW DESPITE LOSING MY @#)$ I MADE SENSE OUT OF THIS.

[[My "LoveLetter" AU interpretation of Spamton's situation shortly after making "the deal" with the "phone entity."]]

It was 1992.

Spamton, still a White Addison, was shown proof of the phone entity's "Absolute Certainty," a power he claimed to possess that accurately predicted the future 100% of the time. He showed proof of this by telling Spamton to call a specific number to pitch an item to, and after following his exact instructions, the sale closed without a hitch. He chalked it up to coincidence, but after a similar success with an e-mail sale, Spamton could no longer deny that there was merit to this man's power... And so, Spamton signed the deal to have the phone entity work as a permanent advisor and business partner for absolutely no commission fee and with the promise of transforming him into a BIG SHOT, one the likes of which Cyber World had never seen before.

But fear consumed his SOUL. His coworkers congratulated him on his two big and successful sales and planned to celebrate at the local bar. However, as they made their way there, a massive wave of anxiety consumed Spamton. Thoughts swirled and blended into garbage noise, making it difficult for him to pay attention to whatever any of his friends were saying. Only the chill sting of hard liquor could completely pull him out of this anxious trance and snap him back to reality, allowing him, for at least this short time, to relish in his unexpected success.

#my art #deltarune #deltarune au #spamton g spamton #spamton #spamton g addison #addispam #white addison #addisons #blue addison #pink addison #orange addison #yellow addison #bant #pryce #orvarstok #yahoosen #loveletter #loveletter au #psychosis #psychosis vent #vent art #vent #manic vent #HAH my madness thinks it will stop me!? THINK AGAIN DUMB BRAIN #I'LL TURN THIS DUMB@SS ANXIETY AND PARANOIA INTO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE HAEHAEHE #OVERLAPPING THOUGHTS but which one are his and which one are mine?! HARD TO SAY as they all blend into GARBAGE NOISE

[canineborderline]

I feel more like a tool than a human. I feel like I need to be handcuffed and muzzled so I don’t hurt myself or others.

#vent #borderline blog #bpd vent #psychosis vent #thought dump #journaling #actually borderline #borderline thoughts #actually bpd #borderline things #bpd feels #guilt vent #vent journaling #borderline #ptsd journaling #tw violence #cptsd vent #abandonment issues #rabidscreamin

[taroguts]

Written in the moment, no touchups. I can't explain the disgusting feeling keeping me awake.

#vent #writing #original writing #original poem #rambles #derealization #dereality #psychosis vent

[creatively-ill]

I feel so dead right now I don’t have any energy or bones for that matter I’m so out of it and I’m barely here

#feels more like a slightly mushy grass field #psychosis #delusion #cotards delusion #help #psychosis vent #vent

[ars3n1cc]

blehhhydxidoyxeyaey noooooo i hate when scooby doo triggers my paranoia it always does thisss

#arsenic speaks into the void #ventish #mainly in tags #cause now the uh #freak of crystal cove #yeah that guy #hes standing behind me watching me #and i cant turn around or acknowledge him otherwise hell like #chomp my face off #very fun /s #its uh #pretty fuckin terrifying #vent #psychosis #psychosis vent

[thecorvidforest]

boy it would be nice to be able to google something related to personality disorders, psychosis, intellectual disabilities, autism, DID/OSDD, etcetera without finding majority articles that are like “how to deal with a person with X” “how to cope with your child with X” “how to spot someone faking X” “can people with X be cured?”

#corvidforest vent post #i wish ppl would stop acting like it’s some awful traumatizing burden to know us #dissociative identity disorder #did system #osdd #personality disorder #intellectual disability #psychosis #vent #vent post #tw vent

[mekhanesdominion]

🐍 Psychosis vent. Unreality.

I listened to a reading of 2294 and I'm so comfy and cozy in the paint.

I know exactly the feelings they describe. That feeling of fluid reality. It's beautiful and I am so thankful it's all inside me. I have no need to yearn for home, no need to search for a door when it's just inside my head. All I need to do is look inside and Alagadda is there. Ambassador isn't mad at me anymore so it keeps track of everything while I deal with consensus reality. I don't know where my siblings are!! Maybe they'll arrive soon, maybe they've been here in different shapes. I hope they aren't mad at me like the Lord Ambassador isn't. I'm excited but I think I'd be fine if I never saw them in here. Alagadda does what it needs to.

I'm at work and I feel the weight of my Alagaddan dress, the religious veil I already wear imitating the fashionable one from inside. Lacking the weight of, well, me, is uncanny. I can wear a mask over the lower portion of the body's face, but I don't think it would feel the way I'd need it too, but at least it would make me feel less naked.

I want to make my Alagaddan outfit someday. It might be a bit too indulgent in my psychosis for my beloved who watches over me to allow, but it is some sort of passing whimsy at just this moment.

#035 tag #alagadda tag #unreality #psychosis vent #🐍 speaking

[jasongraceenthusiast]

oh my god do people not realize the effect they have on others

like - some things can seriously trigger our psychosis and its not fun. it can also not only make us freak out, but effect what we do externally. just like !!!! it isn’t that hard to tw something. and i mean things that are seriously triggering

#vent #psychosis vent #im sorry im fucking pissed #dereality #<- just in case #cursing cw #roy speaks

[deludedcrayon]

every so often im reminded that i really am completely alone in this

#psychosis #schizoaffective #meanspø #vent art #actually paranoid #actually traumatized #trauma #mental health #neurodivergent #actually schizophrenic

[delphisarm]

Rambling about schizophrenia/psychosis in general

#art #my art #traditional art #comic #ramble #vent #mental illness #mental health #schizophrenia #psychosis #ableism #sanism

[dorianbrightmusic]

PSA

-OCD is not a synonym for neat or preoccupied with tidiness. Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is all about distressing intrusive thoughts and rituals (compulsions) used to combat those thoughts.

-Intrusive thoughts are not synonymous with silly things I want to do. They're deeply upsetting, often taboo mental apparitions. Letting them win is the last thing anyone wants, and nobody is immoral for having them. (See 'impulsive thoughts' if you need a term.)

-Anorexic is not a synonym for thin or emaciated. The majority of anorexic people have OSFED atypical anorexia – that is, their BMI is above 18.5. You cannot judge the severity of someone's illness by their appearance. (If you're worried about someone, look out more for rapid weight loss than thinness, even when it's occurring in someone in a larger body. 10kg in 10 weeks is never a good thing.)

-Eating disorders are not synonymous with just anorexia and bulimia. Anorexia is an ED, but it's nowhere near the most common. Bulimia is an ED, but again, not the most common. Together, they do not constitute the most common. The most common ED is binge-eating disorder, and the second most common is atypical anorexia, which is one of many, many OSFED categories. Those living with ARFID, pica, night-eating syndrome, rumination disorder, subthreshold BN, subthreshold BED, and orthorexia all deserve dignity, compassion, and acknowledgement. Remember: EDs are not necessarily thin, and never glamorous.

-Schizophrenic is not a synonym of all over the place, abnormal, unpredictable, dangerous, or crazy. Nor is schizoid or schizotypal. Folks with schizophrenia spectrum disorders live with hallucinations, delusions, disorganised thoughts/behaviour, and/or catatonia. They are far more likely to be victims of violence than perpetrators, and go to huge lengths to act okay even when distressed by symptoms.

-Schizophrenic is also not a synonym of multiple personalities/volatile. For the disorder involving having different facets of personality that are generally unaware of each other, see Dissociative Identity Disorder, and even then, don't assume it's a) dramatic as it is in the movies; b) evil; or c) trivial. DID is a trauma disorder.

-Delusional is not a synonym of wrong. Nor is it the same as this politician/friend is saying something I do not like/that is potentially dangerous. Delusions are false, fixed beliefs held despite evidence. And generally, folks with delusions don't tend to proselytise them. I know that certain politicians have beliefs that seem to persist in the face of evidence, but nevertheless, we don't need to stigmatise mental illness further to call out poor political/social behaviour. If you need a word for the pundit spewing potentially dangerous content, use 'dangerous' or 'wrong', but don't call them delusional.

-Bipolar is not a synonym of all over the place or fluctuating results. Bipolar disorder involves mood states that, even in the rapid cycling form, tend to last at least 3-4 days (mania) and weeks (depression). If you need a word for the weather, use 'British' instead.

-Psychotic is not a synonym of evil. Psychosis is losing touch with reality, whether it be through hallucinations or delusions. It doesn't make a person bad or violent. It's just a neurological phenomenon that may be distressing. It's also relatively common: 6-15% of people will hallucinate in their lifetime.

-ADHD is not a synonym of just quirky/scattered/forgetful/unfocussed/lazy/careless. ADHD is fundamentally a disorder of being able to choose where to direct attention, rather than of just I can't focus. If someone can't tune out the noise of the crowd, but can't prevent themself focussing on something trivial because their brain is wired that way, it's not laziness or just being quirky/scattered.

-Autistic meltdown is not a synonym of temper tantrum.

-Borderline is not a synonym of harridan.

-Narcissist is not a synonym of abuser.

-Mentally ill is not a synonym of volatile or bad person. This doesn't mean we have to make something artificially positive out of mental disorders. If there is good to be found in certain disorders, great; if there is nothing positive about living with certain others, that doesn't make you any less real or resilient than anyone else. It's okay to have complex feelings about your own disorders. It's okay to feel exhausted or frustrated by a disorder. But never should anyone have to face stigma.

#vent post but also important #ocd #intrusive thoughts #eating disorders #eds #schziophrenia #delusions #bipolar disorder #bipolar #psychosis #adhd #bpd #npd #cluster b #mental illness discourse #i want to make this for a couple of reasons: #a) i have intrusive thoughts (and possibly inserted thoughts) and they're awful #b) i've had OSFED and seeing the AN = thin stereotype is... frustrating #c) so so many people live with the other disorders on this list and don't get help and support because of stereotypes #d) so long as stereotype persists the medical system will not acknowledge the needs of its patients #e) while i don't have the right to speak over anyone with any of these disorders i can at least try to start a conversation #those of you with the above disorders: feel free to correct me if i stuffed up a detail #nt people you may interact with this post #everyone: feel free to add more to the list

[canineborderline]

GOIN’ FERAL!!!

#psychosis vent #vhswave #vhs aesthetic #horrorcore #werewolf #borderline blog #vent #moodboard #vent moodboard #tw knives #tw weirdcore #weirdcore #potential unreality

[taralen]

Psychosis vent art channeled through my favorite [[most beloved]] salesman...

#my art #vent art #deltarune #spamton #big shot spamton #spamton g spamton #big shot era #rough drawing #mental instability #psychosis #paranoia #mental illness #drawings this actually helped calm down the paranoid thoughts #thank you based salesman

[sandswirls]

People with psychosis deserve better.

Psychotic episodes are fucking terrifying.

If you say "delulu" I'm going to hit you with my car !!

Be normal about schizospecs and psychotics *bonk*

#my art #digital art #art #vent #cw vent #cw vent art #actually psychotic #actually delusional #psychosis #delusional #psychotic disorders #mental health #mental illness #tw ableism

[creatively-ill]

I was going to pant my eyes they’re normal yellow & red buttttt, I wanted pupils

Enjoy my vent art

#psychosis #delusion #cotards delusion #vent art #psychosis vent

[schizo-vulture]

there needs to be actual help for schizospec and psychotic people. i'm tired of calling up hotlines for help and getting told "oh but you know it's not real right?" "oh that's what depression feels like, it's common" "do you need me to send an ambulance?"

i need help through the moment, not someone dismissing me and asking if i should go to the hospital over a temporary spike in symptoms

#vulture's vents #schizophrenia #schizospec #psychosis