#processing thoughts

[mysticdragon3md3]

I noticed some dialogue from the Nimona movie, and now I'm wondering if Ambrosius was bullied by the other Institute kids in his class. And did Ballister and Ambrosius end up so close, partially because they were ostracized together?

During that scene with the knights surveying the collapsed statues, Todd declares "This is his fault!" And then other knights joined in with Todd, to gang up on Ambrosius. You can hear them almost booing Ambrosius, while agreeing with Todd. The one clear "Tell him, Todd!" gets subtitled. But you can also hear "Yeah, that's right, Todd."

It sounded like all the other knights in Ambrosius's class were eagerly waiting for any excuse to attack him. Really sinks in the pressure Ambrosius felt to conform. They probably hated him because of the special treatment he gets as the direct descendent of Gloreth. Even in that very scene, the Director gives him special treatment, instantly giving him command of the mission to arrest Ballister, as soon as Ambrosius expresses interest in leading the mission. She even cites "We have a descendent of Gloreth to lead us!" Even though Todd was much more enthusiastic and probably reflected more of the same motivations/sentiments as the Director, she still chose the descendent of Gloreth.

Now it becomes clearer why Ballister and Ambrosius became close: They may have both been ostracized by the rest of their class, and only really had each other.

(Instagram post by the official storyboard artist estebravo mentions that Ambrosius and Bal met as children and agreed to go to school together, but I mean their likely mutual ostracization probably brought them even closer, since they would have been isolated together, from the rest of the class. https://www.instagram.com/p/CvK56M3vCEo/)

Ballister gets ostracized because he was the one commoner, "intruding" upon a space filled with the nobility class. Ambrosius gets ostracized because, as the descendent of Gloreth, he was always going to get special treatment. And considering Ambrosius's lack of motivation to become a knight (citing estebravo's storyboards that were cut from the final movie), the rest of the class probably hated him even more. Ambrosius probably didn't have to work as hard as Ballister, to prove he was worth taking up his spot in the Institute class, but Ambrosius would have had to work hard to make the special treatment he was likely given, probably seem more earned. After all, if his skill could justify his special treatment, almost or as much as his status as Gloreth's descendent, then the rest of the class probably would have to admit it was at least partially valid.

That probably wouldn't stop the bullying, but it would probably stop the bullying from being overt, constant, or from as many classmates. They'd at least hesitate before sabotaging his equipment or something. Or they'd worry about the consequences of getting caught going after the Director's "golden student". Maybe it'd be enough to get half of the would-be bullies to chicken out.

On the other hand, if they couldn't take out their frustrations on Ambrosius, it just might make them take it out onto Ballister even more, since he was the more "acceptable" target. I wonder how often that gave Ambrosius a guilt trip, or motivated him to beat them up in return. Imagine little Ambrosius having another parent-teacher conference in the Director's office because he keeps getting into fights, "disgracing Gloreth's legacy", and disappointing his parents, who I assume are very invested in their pride as Gloreth's descendants. No wonder Ballister has to hold Ambrosius back from defending him in the movie. Not just because Ballister cares about Ambrosius getting into trouble, but also because the ones Ambrosius beats up, probably come back to bully Ballister even harder for it. It's a bad cycle, that I'm sure they learn to navigate better as they grow older. Unfortunate they act like they have to placate it, even during that "locker room" scene.

I've heard some reaction videos call Ambrosius his class's number two knight, after Ballister. But if they're referring to ranking by skill level, I realized, do we ever actually hear the movie state Ambrosius's skill ranking, compared to his classmates? We know Ballister was number one, and he worked harder than everyone else. But I like the idea that Ambrosius would have also worked hard to make his special treatment seem justified. Maybe not just to keep off the bullying, but maybe also to prove it to himself. Maybe with Ballister's personal training being so demonstrably effective, Ambrosius would have asked Ballister to help him train, get tips, or just spar together a lot. If Ambrosius trained most often with Ballister, then I could believe Ambrosius as the second most skilled knight in his class.

#speculation #headcanons #processing thoughts #goldenheart #ambrosius goldenloin #netflix nimona #ballister boldheart #skill level #bullying #ostracization #shunned by the rest of the class #pinkfluidnf #ambrbalnf

[sanddollarpoems]

Motherhood is mourning

The constant loss of yesterday

And who they used to be

The slow act of letting go

Motherhood is acceptance

That they will need and want less

Each year pulling away

Growing into independence

Motherhood is a small moment

Of being relevant again

But always being the safe space

Always having their back

Motherhood is the act of love

#sanddollarpoems #spilled ink #poem #poetry #motherhood #hmm... may rewrite this some time #oh well lol #processing thoughts

[lonely-soul-02]

31 May 2023

Call me

He tells me: “I’m busy for the next year and a half with my album but anyway, Liam is full of s**t.

“He knows as well as I do that he doesn’t want it either. What he does like doing is making me look a c**t.

“He’s being ingenuine (sic) to his beloved Oasis fans who put him where he is today. “Go fing call me then. I’ve said it to him, ‘Call me directly or indirectly. Get your people to call. You don’t even have to speak to me’

“But unless he’s called during this interview, my phone is still silent,” adds Noel, looking at his phone.

“And I’ll tell you why. Because if he calls and I say, ‘Let’s do it’, then he’s got to stand in the same room as me, right? And then it’s on him.

“And he doesn’t want that. He won’t stand in the same room as me because then he’s got to pull it off, and he can’t pull it off. And you can quote me on all of that.”

His good friend Damon Albarn, of Britpop “rivals” Blur, has placed a bet that Oasis will reform following Blur, who play Wembley Stadium next month.

But Noel says with a laugh: “So he’s put money on it. But he’s got enough money to waste.”

Last year Liam and Noel were urged to patch up their relationship as an 80th birthday present to their mum Peggy.

But Noel is having none of it, and says: “I get strangers coming up to me, saying, ‘Be nice to your mum and get back together for her’.

“It’s got nothing to do with my mum. I’m 56, not 17. She has never mentioned anything to me about it.

"She knows not to get involved. I wouldn’t say to my mum, ‘It’s time you and Dad got back together’.”

https://www.thesun.co.uk/tvandshowbiz/22538962/noel-gallagher-liam-oasis-reunion-full-of-it/

Thanks for the heads up!

The stand out quotes to me:

“He knows as well as I do that he doesn’t want it either. What he does like doing is making me look a c**t.

"...my phone is still silent"

“And he doesn’t want that. He won’t stand in the same room as me because then he’s got to pull it off, and he can’t pull it off. And you can quote me on all of that.”

"She knows not to get involved. I wouldn’t say to my mum, ‘It’s time you and Dad got back together’.”

Pull it off = pretend he likes me and can stand to be in the same room as me.

Noel's had it in his head for years and years that Liam doesn't like him. It's even reflected in some of his lyrics 'you put me up like a fly on the wall'. The notion of being ignored, feeling rejected or trying to reach someone who can't be reached is a recurring theme in his solo work. But why does he believe this? It clear as day to the rest of us that Liam adores him.

Noel gives out desperate to reconnect vibes but why won't he call Liam? As big as their egos are, I can't help feeling there is something more to it than mere stubbornness...unless this latest is all about throwing everyone off the scent.

That last quote though...still getting my head around that one...lots to unpick there...

update:

Sounds a bit kinky?? lol His mind immediately goes there. And he is ALL OVER this article first thing in the morning. Showbiz?? Or obsession?

#gallagher relationship #processing thoughts #what a maddening pair these two are #noel gallagher interviews #noel gallagher #oasis #oasis reunion speculation #is it all showbiz? #obsessed with each other

[loveyourlovelysoul]

When there's too much noise around (inside and outside) and you try to keep pushing, things may just get heavier. Try taking a break instead, sitting with the noise and taking your time to turn it into some kind of music just for you.

#words #healing #positivity #important #self love #thoughts #positive thinking #self healing #healingjourney #love yourself #self care #mental health #recovery #reminders #healing process #emotions #processing thoughts

[md3artjournal]

12:27 PM 8/26/2023 So, I've been looking at my OC Smaugust drawings lately, and I'm beginning to appreciate my art style. The same chibi art style that I had been lamenting about, and crying about, and beating myself up over…I'm beginning to admit it has charm. I can be happy with it.

Even back when I was only using it for fanart, some part of me actually liked it and felt proud of myself whenever I finished a fanart, but that feeling always went away when I started browsing other people's fanart of the same series. (FE3H, Persona 5) But now that I'm using the art style for my OCs, I can kind of appreciate it on its own. Thanks to squeaky-potat and dimiclaudeblaigan for always encouraging me with this art style. ;u;

It's probably not an appropriate art style for any serious stories though. And my OCs are full of angsty backstories. But I had been thinking of writing my Personal Myth with a "slice of life" tone, with all the serious backstory stuff, more in the background. And if I start drawing 4koma, then I could totally get away with a cuter art style. So maybe I'll do that for my Personal Myth. I remember a long time ago wishing I could draw a comic of my Personal Myth. I've drawn some pages before, but it never went anywhere. So if I manage to pull off a couple of connected series of even 4koma, then maybe I could die happy.

One thing though. I've really enjoyed how easy coloring with markers has been. I don't have to spend forever mixing paint colors, not making a big enough batch, then having to re-mix AND color-match… I've timed it before, and when I color using any type of paints, it takes me FIVE TIMES longer than when I color with markers. But even though I'm using artist, alcohol markers, streaks are still showing. I'm so stingy. I just can't get myself to absolutely saturate paper with ink, until the streaks disappear.

I'm beginning to think I should give watercolors another chance. At least when the "streaks" stay visible, it's pretty. It can be like blotchy puddles and nicely organic looking. So I've got to go look for some waterproof ink to use for my linework now. I have Copic Multiliner pens, there's a sale at Art Supply Warehouse for Sakura Pigma Micron pens, and I might even have some Staedtler technical pens still able to write. Those are all waterproof, but they don't have the smooth fluidity that I like to draw with. And I like to draw directly with ink, often without pencil underdrawings.

I really like drawing with fountain pens, but I know me: I'm not going to take the time to regularly clean out my fountain pens, if I start using pigmented ink. I use dye based ink, because I know I can be negligent with my pen maintenance and not be punished for it (much). But a lot of the dye based fountain pen ink is not waterproof. I think my Noodler's Ink proved to be mostly water resistant, so I'm going to experiment with that today, for today's Smaugust drawing.

I'm getting fairly comfortable with dip pens (though I still don't even know what type my hand-me-down nib is), and I heard that with dip pens, I could just use Indian ink and be fine in the waterproof department. But not only am I unsure which ink to get, but I'm still a cheapskate, and I can't always use dip pens. One of the big reasons I like fountain pens is that it's so self-contained. I can bring it anywhere. I don't need flat surfaces for my ink bottles, and clean water glasses, and cleaning rags. …Now that I list that out, those are the same reasons I stopped using watercolors (aside from all the time-eating paint mixing).

I've still got some options to figure out, but at least for today, I'm going to experiment with Noodler's Ink in my broken Platinum Preppy fountain pen, then see what happens when I watercolor over it. Actually, my Monteverde fountain pen ink completely erases with even just the littlest bit of water, so maybe I could use my Pilot Petit full of Monteverde ink, to do an underdrawing, then use my Platinum Preppy full of Noodler's Ink as the final linework. That could be interesting.

#processing thoughts #finding my art style #project ideas #OC #OCs

[qiinamii]

we'll do fine.

#fionna and cake spoilers #what hits me a little is how similar fionna and simon's stories are in the case of finding nuance in their lives #when both have gone through their separate but still valid pain no matter the extent it had been #and its that they met each other they get to see how it compares and they're no less worth of the peace and fun they dreamed of #even in the form of simplicity and just being normal #“i wouldn't have met THE fionna and cake” “we wouldn't have met THE simon petrikov” #it hits me harder that after the dandelion scene would've been their last time seeing each other physically #and how assuring simon sounded when fionna didn't know what to do with the literal world in her hands #tho im sure prismo isnt that much of a rule jerk lol i still drew out the revelation anyway with this tiniest addition #also the fact fionna's world is influenced by simon's thought processes and conditions so now things are a little better for both of them #fionna the human #fionna campbell #simon petrikov #qiiarts #the lil flashback of #betty grof #fionna and cake #adventure time

[lu-inlondon]

source

#saw those pictures and immediately thought about my writing process #have a shitte meme i guess #writing #fanfiction #ben affleck #5k #8k

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

--

no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[linktoo-doodles]

i'll strangle you or i'll kiss you on the mouth

#laius thorden #laios touden #kabru #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #my art #Linktoo art #labru #narrative foil yaoi my weakness.... anyway #the way he grabs that guy and begs him to stay and begs like please LISTEN to me #its so funny how kabru‚ someone who prides himself with understanding people and their motivations #just can't handle having some random guy like laius with a big prophecy on his head remain a mystery to him #the way laius just entirely evades him it drives him crazy. kabru puts motivations and assumptions in his mouth in any attempt to Know him #hes so scared of this man yet simultaneously drawn by being unable to discern his thought process #meanwhile #laius is just autistic

[nidailylife]

8.13.2023. I feel like i keep venting too much on my main blog, forgetting i have this sideblog.

My main blog is supposed to be about fandom stuff. ...Unfortunately, a lot of my meltdowns and mental crisises are about famdom stuff. (I dont have too much else in my life. Too much social anxiety.) I must be scaring people on my fandom blog. No wonder even some of my favorite arists blocked me. 😥

Maybe i just need to get back to journaling offline. But it can be a hassel to boot up my computer. And once i turn it on, i often forget to turn it off. It's going to wear out too soon. Sometimes it's just easier to write on Tumblr. It's been so much more dependable than other apps I've tried in the past. Apps that lost everything when my phone died. Like all those notes i took of my symptoms when the pandemic first started. I wish i could still reference those. So many habit trackers that just got bugs and messed up my notes too. Tumblr is just more reliable. And it's not like I'm followed by non-bots anyway (except for maybe like 2 or 4 people). Maybe i should just have a private Tumblr for my journalling and venting. But i never remember the passwords for private sideblogs. And writing my hand is unsustainable for me. There's always too much i want to write and not enough stamina in my hands.

Anyway, i got really annoyed over a fictional character, almost for the entirity of yesterday. I dont want to delete my ranting posts, because those are important personal fandom records for me. But it's also pretty ridiculous, embarassing, and unnecessarily hostile. But you cant Archive tag search private posts. So i went back and hid all my ranting posts under cuts. I just hope leaving my rants posted publically doesn't make me the infamous crazy fangirl they talk about behind my back or on other platforms. ...But it's alwaysba possibikity because I AM a crazy fangirl.

I just feel so stuck as an artist, when all i want to draw and make merch for is my OTP...but Ive probably destroyed my reputation in the fandom. I can't be confident about opening an online shop or selling stickers or especially networking and advertising my art/merch, when i know the fandom i make art for, probably hates me, ON TOP of my illustration skills being objectively bad. But "small business artist" is my only career/financial option right now. And I'm destroying it by expressing my fandom.

The other day, someone poated a list of things to do to have a good reputation online, for small business artists, or maybe it was for people in general. One point was to not post opinions about anything (especially political). I'm a human being. Is that really possible to do?

I keep thinking about rebranding, separating my past fangirl self from my art business. But i hit a wall when i realized almost all my art is attached to my fandoms. Even if i changed my online name brand, it'd be too easy to anyone to find my art also on my art blog or fangirling blog, then realize i eas that crazy fangirl with a ruined reputation. How can i feel confident, sinking hundreds of dillars, making merch out of my fanart, and then advertising it to the corresponding fandom communities, when even a rebrand may not save me. I used to be so hopeful that a rebrand could free me from all my worries. But if you need to advertise your art, it's too easy to use that very art to track my old identity. I really feel trapped and stuck, and unable to move.

...But i guess that's usual with my frequently catastrophizing brain. I still dont know what to do tho. Im still too afraid to open that online shop or advertise my merch.

I think about rebranding to only my original art, cut ties with fandom when it comes to my small art business. But I've watched too many marketing vids to know that not piggybacking off a preexisting community, is the opposite of smart. ...but ive ruined my rep with them...i think...

Just feeling trapped. Paralyzed. Too afraid.

And journalling on Tumblr. Tho even that is stressing me out, in a way, too, i guess.

#journaling #blogs #processing thoughts #artist problems #small business artists #venting #fandomfrictionfracas

[mysticdragon3md3]

For anyone who needs it:

Dealing with the death of Akira Toriyama by Bonsai Pop

#akira toriyama #death #mangaka #processing thoughts #trending #Youtube

[mauv-the-bluest-cat-ever]

#thought drawing her will help with processing?? idk #once again. rest in peace Jellie. you were the cat ever #jellie the cat #goodtimeswithscar #mauv's work

[hyenaa-euphoria]

hope 1/???

more angst!! i am actually building an au around this comic but I’ve never done aus before so like this is new to me!!!

#catnap #dogday #poppy playtime #poppy playtime 3 #NOT SHIP ART!! #art #fanart #deep sleep #au #okay maybe ive tried to make an au before but it was like an undertale au with no thought process behind it i just thought the name of #the au would’ve been cool #anyways #muahahahahah #angst #maybe #comic #yeah #i always forget that one #dogday is having a bad hair day #poor guy #and catnap is just devoted man he wants freedom #who wouldnt #actually #and some of the little critters bit some of his ear off #just because #man those little things are like parasites

[loveyourlovelysoul]

No matter how much you've done for some people, they might be forgetting about you even if they call you friend. It's not that you didn't do enough, or that they didn't appreciate it. It's just that... minds are weird. You may also be related to a period of trauma for them and therefore they might forget you and mention someone else, when asked about something that is related to you. At least on a first thought. That's a mind's mechanism of defence.

I know it hurts, it hurts deeply to always be the forgotten one, no matter how much you do or give out and how many times people call you friend. But it's rarely done on purpose if you have been behaving correctly with them, even if you only wanted to be friends but life came in between with something. It just happens. It's not your fault or their fault.

Take a breath. If you think that it won't trigger them too much, you can kindly ask for explanations. Don't attack, collect yourself first: you aren't there to argue since the first minute, you only want to know why they forgot about you. Stay focused. And listen with a free mind: remember to not interrupt or come at them with your own conclusion, cause many times our pain and anger can cloud our judgement and make us come to wrong conclusions so we end up not really listening to the other, and it only causes pain to everyone involved. Listen to their real words and watch their body movements too. Take all in and talk calmly about your feelings too. You can both communicate about this, without making it a tragedy. You can still be friends if you feel so, after having had this speech. And they'll remember you the next time. I promise. We always remember those who can make us feel good about our worse mistakes.

And if you feel too hurt to keep going on, or they did it on purpose, just leave. Do what makes you feel better, but only once you have all the answers to your questions from them, and with a very calm and clear mind. And once you know how much you value them still. Remember to take care of yourself too, in the process. Remember about your boundaries and never fall for a pretty face or easy fake promises/words. Be grounded.

#words #important #healing #positive thinking #love #positivity #thoutghs #forgive #forget #thoughts #healing process #processing thoughts #self love #love yourself

[md3artjournal]

Been trying to get back into watercolors.

Even though I don't really have watercolor paper. LOL Actually, I think I have a pad of watercolor paper, but I'm not sure where to dig around in my room for it. Or maybe it's in storage; not sure. But either way, I've always been too anxious to be anything less than stingy with art materials. It was a real problem in painting class, when everyone kept telling me that I don't mix enough of the paint colors that I need. But I just couldn't stand the idea of throwing it out at the end of class. And even though I've switched to alcohol markers, I'm still too nervous to use expensive paper like watercolor paper. When I'm too afraid to mess up with expensive supplies, I end up drawing nothing, for months and years. Though, it is strange that I have no problem using Copic markers and other artist markers, though on cheaper paper. Maybe it's because I almost always get my markers on sale at anime/comic book conventions. Never pay $8 for one Copic marker, when convention booths will usually have them for $5 each.

Been making some notes during these past few days, while experimenting with getting back into watercolor painting:

5/12/2023. Tried to make intentionally messy, to differentiate from marker coloring. I wanted this to be obviously watercolors, to make switching from my usual markers medium, worthwhile.

5/12/2023. Still practicing watercolors, so tried doing my final linework as only pencil. Sometimes I wonder if the softness of pencil fits better with watercolors. I still want to differentiate my watercolors from my marker/ink drawings. So I tried some wet-on-wet techniques and allowed a lot of messy imperfections.

5/14/2023. I know I should have stuck to my usual Copic markers, since I was short on time. But it’s been a long time since I’ve done referential drawing, and I wanted the pencil’s ability to erase mistakes. Also, I’ve recently been experimenting with trying watercolors again. Back before markers, I primarily used watercolors. (Then again, back then I also had sketchbook paper thick enough to handle watercolors, and that’s not really the case anymore.) I may be comfortable with alcohol markers and ink pens now, but I keep wondering if something good might come of me returning to watercolor painting. Maybe it would look nice to color more organically, and allow some loose messiness, the way watercolors are often afforded. Maybe that type of style could really work for me. So I’m trying watercolors again. Today reminded me how much I love drybrush, when I use brush pens—even though I haven’t gotten the hang of setting up that technique with a paintbrush yet. So I might practice more drybrush with watercolor paintbrushes.

5/18/2023. My last watercolor drawing reminded me that I could use drybrush with watercolors, to mimic the feeling of using brushpens, which I love. So I did a lot of hatchlines, like I would do with my usual pen/ink drawings. I actually wanted to do more sharp detail, but needing lighter colors for those details necessitated more water, which made the brush tip less tapered, so those smaller details I wanted, ended up broader and messier. But didn't I recently get back into watercolors, wanting to differentiate them from my pen/ink drawings? And I determined that allowing watercolors to be messy and looser (since people usually afford/expect that from watercolors) would be how I would differentiate my watercolors from my marker drawings? Then again, I had been wanting for a long time to find a way to break out of my hyperfocus on one medium at a time. If I could switch to dip pen in the middle of a watercolor painting, maybe that will bring me closer to mixing color pencils on top of marker drawings, or mixing pastels on top of marker ink, and just mixing more mediums. I want to be able to use the mediums to achieve the effects I need in each case, but I keep unconsciously locking myself in to only one medium at a time. But if dip pens make my watercolors too precise and erases that lovely, organic, messy looseness, then what's the point of me going back to watercolors from alcohol markers? Hmmm….We'll see what happens.

#watercolors #drawing practice #art mediums #processing thoughts #confused with myself #progression

[nipuni]

THE DOCTOR We had a pact, him and me. Every star in the universe, we were going to see them all.

My version of The Master and The Doctor in their Academy days 😊

A speedpaint video of this will be available at my Patreon on april 1st!

#doctor who #thoschei #doctor x master #academy era #my art #My thought process for their appearances here was sort of an average between their incarnations #the doctor is mostly taller and has messier and usually lighter hair while the master is shown to have had black hair in a flashback #also since Hartnell had white hair as an old man and we are not sure what color his hair was I thought what if it was always white #I've seen most draw him as blond but couldn't find any sources for it so I just went with this instead because it looks cool #I had fun making Prydonian robes designs!! I would love to design a bunch of Gallifreyan fashion for each Chapter and House it seems so fun #I also wanted to draw a Gallifreyan night!! since I never see any depictions of it even tho the planet should have nights #even if it's a binary system since the orbits would have to be very large for gravitational stability both suns would set at similar times #anyway I'll stop talking lmao 🫡