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compassionatereminders · 7 months

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hi, i hope its okay if i vent here cause i know shits been rough for you lately (wishing you the best btw, which ik simply saying that doesnt magically make things better but hope yk what i mean)

i sent an asks a few months ago about having empathy for someone for the first time and really struggling to come to terms with it, how to deal with new overwhelming emotions and the like (i believe i also mentioned them being in an abusive situation at the time, which was a whole other complicated feeling to empathize with someones pain and to take it internally on levels i had never experienced or was capable of fathoming before in my entire life)

currently struggling with that person again, they left their original abusive situation but have entered a new complex one, as this person isnt intentionally shitty but they're rich, white passing and extremely privileged and out of touch, like truly they don't grasp my friends trauma and why it makes things hard for them (friend has gone through severe abuse and childhood trauma, neglect and homelessness just to say the light ones, its truly awful what they've been through) despite having some trauma of their own and i truly fucking despise them with my entire being

my friend is abusing alcohol and debating killing themselves due to this person dangling ending their relationship over my friends head --- (which is another thing thats complex and hurting, my friend never told me they were dating which like they totally dont have to obviously!! but they continuously insisted to me they were only friends, before suddenly revealing through a screenshot of their partners text that they were together, which they did with their previous abuser so like having it happen twice was icky feeling for some reason despite the fact ik they don't owe me that information at all, i dont care they hid it i just feel hurt and confused if i had done something to warrant not being trusted with that information but thats a whole other can of worms) --- due to them struggling to do something the person wants, because my friend has trauma what the person is requesting is hard and my friends explained why its hard and hurts them, they've thrown up daily from the stress and this person knows that but somehow doesnt grasp why its causing my friend such distress

i feel utterly suffocated by the entire situation and its put my life on full stop because i cant just leave my friend to deal with this themselves, but theres nothing i can say or do that can help them because they're deeply in love and won't break up with their partner even though the stress is physically ruining them. i feel hopeless and unable to do anything, i encourage them to talk to me because really i wanna be there for them but i feel so scared all the time that somethings gonna happen to them which makes me need to listen even more because their other friend is horribly abusive and contributed to their trauma, so i don't wanna leave my friend alone. i don't know how to deal with empathizing with their pain and not being able to stop it feels like its killing me cause now im also throwing up multiple times a day, genuinely debating drug relapse to cope with it all and i can't sleep properly anymore and only sleep on specific 4 hour intervals throughout the day next to my phone so i can be on constant standby for the friend and i know its not healthy and if they knew it was like this they'd never tell me whats wrong again (which i really dont want i truly honest to god wanna be there for them), i feel like no matter how i go about it theres no winning in this situation and honestly i wanna die from it all which sounds so silly cause my friend is going through SO much worse and here i am going waaah this hurts me!! i just eugh, i don't know what to do. which i guess i know what to do, but i don't wanna do any of it i've never cared about someone like i care about them and the thought of leaving them to sort it out themselves feels like the end of the world, even though i know they're also a sociopath and don't feel empathy towards me which is also a new shitty feeling cause now i know how people feel around me. this is exhausting i don't know how people with empathy deal with it especially you kat!! if i remember correctly you mentioned being very empathetic, it's amazing you're able to handle having empathy and running a blog where people often dump stuff in your inbox (which uh is the very same thing im doing now, sorry!) ok i got it all out of my system i'm gonna go take a nap and hope the problem is solved tomorrow (it wont be but a bitch can hope!!) thank you for being a space where i could word vomit my brain out, i really hope things get better for you and that your eye gets sorted out <3

No matter how unwell your friend is, you're allowed to have boundaries and limits. And while I get the desire to be there and do everything you can because you care about your friend, you will not be able to continue pouring from an empty vessel. This is not a sustainable situation. You neglecting yourself and not sleeping and getting physically ill and wanting to die is not an acceptable consequence of your friend being in a toxic relationship without being able to change their situation. I know you didn't ask for advice, but I strongly encourage you to establish some boundaries here and stand by them. You do not lose your right to have boundaries when a loved one is mentally unwell and if you do not prioritize your own mental well-being, you will not be able to continue being there for you friend

#chat with kat #abuse tw #alcohol tw #trauma tw #addiction tw #suicidal ideation tw #suicide tw #vomit tw #drugs tw #homelessness tw

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gebtoons · 3 years

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my contribution to the bapo timeline discourse bc i’m just gonna propose a timeline and will not be taking criticism <3 (under the cut bc this is gonna be a long post probably)

ok disclaimer I am quite stupid, however I’m gonna use my knowledge from my own 12 years in american public high school and what little info I have about american boarding schools/catholic schools that I have from my friends lol. so. idk.

i’m also gonna date songs/major events and i’m gonna be taking some “just trust me bro” liberties bc y’all are right it does NOT make that much sense.

January 6: Epiphany; this is like an actual holiday lol. like its always on the sixth. idk its good that this is the starting point bc its an actual date yknow? For the purposes of this timeline were going with that its early in the week, so lets go with Monday idk

January 6-13: You and I, Role of a Lifetime; so we’re all kinda in agreement that this timeline (at least the beginning) only really makes sense if you and i/role of a lifetime aren’t like. a singular moment and are instead multiple days. so yeah, of this first week, this is like. monday-next sunday ish yknow.

January 14: Auditions, Plain Jane Fatass; ok so having auditions for a spring musical right after kids get back from break actually makes perfect sense to me, like i can see it being like “ok take break to prepare so as soon as you come back we can have auditions so we can jump right into rehersals” yknow? and since the rave is clearly on a friday (”we’ll meet in tanya’s room on friday night”) so i’m going with the monday before.

as for pjf, i know it doesn’t make a ton of sense for them to get a two week late birthday package their first few weeks back from school, but hear me out it makes sense. the implication throughout this entire show is that the twins have decently shitty parents. from bits of dialogue (in this song in particular lol) i’m kinda inferring their the “only concerned with how their kids make them look to others” kind of neglectful. so I don’t think it’s too outside the realm of possibility that they went away for the holidays, didn’t bring the twins, and instead mailed them a birthday package and having it show up two weeks late. realistically the timing of this isnt that important and the explicit “two week” time frame could’ve been an exaggeration on nadia’s part to mock her shit parents (idk its in her character) basically ppl are a little two fixated on this imo but anyway. moving on.

January 18: Wonderland, A Quiet Night At Home, Rolling, Best Kept Secret; a very agreed upon point in the timeline. its the friday following the auditions. moving on.

January 21: Confession; also very agreed upon. the monday following the rave. moving on again

January 23: Portrait of a Girl; the date here is kinda arbitrary, but bc sister chantelle says “ok lets try to put yesterday’s rehearsal behind us” and i for the life of me cannot think of a scene she could be referring to (there’s none in the script either) that implies it wasn’t the same monday as confession (bc even in a boarding school i think holding extracurriculars that aren’t sports over the weekend (especially when they are no where near crunch time lol) is weird and not common) so i just picked a random day during the week

January 25: Birthday Bitch!, One Kiss, Are You There?; from matt’s line in wonderland, ivy’s birthday is a week after the rave. in my timeline that’s january 25th (an aquarius queen).

btw given all grown up’s “17, how will i manage?” ivy is 16 during 17 at her party, which is strange given shes a high school senior and seniors are typically 17 during 18. so either a) she skipped a grade, not an unheard of thing. or b) shes not a senior, shes just a junior who hangs out with a bunch of seniors, which is also pretty common. and looking through the script i can’t find any mention that she is also a senior, other than yknow she graduates with them, but she isn’t mentioned during the class ranking scene? so idk not that it really matters just a fun detail

February 3 (at night): 911 Emergency!; ok controversial. i know i like the joke about how its funny that peter having a weird dream when he was high prompted him to want to come out and really ruined his relationship with jason. BUT. i think the dream (despite it’s weirdness) would have a lot more meaning if it wasn’t the result of being really high, but if it was a dream he had like a week later as a result of a building sense of guilt/anxiety bc he told matt. also it fits better given later timeline things. (this timeline literally only exists if there are weird jumps in time that don’t make a ton of sense) (EDIT: I forgot one line about Jason crashing at ivys but fuck it forget that bitchass line this makes for more drama its staying this way)

February 4: Reputation Stain’d, Ever After; the next day following peter’s dream, idk what else to say, moving on.

February 25-28: Spring; another jump! i’m sorry but the only way for this to make sense logistically is for there to be quite a few time jumps! however, i also think this one works bc i think it gives time for everything from around ivy’s party and peter and jason’s break up to stew emotionally. like obviously a musical only has so much time to tell a story so the audience cannot see every realistic beat, but honestly i think it makes the whole thing a little more dramatic™ if there’s space for everything to settle, and for ivy to come and apologize and such. also, the reason it’s multiple days is bc in the script, ivy is trying to study (presumably for some sort of midterm) while nadia is playing, so that probably takes place a few days before they move out, so before finals. but in the script, jason and peter are packing and peter is leaving, so that part of the song/staging takes place on the 28th. yes, that’s weird, but we are clearly thinking more about the logistics of this school than the writers were so.

March 1: One; assuming st. cecilia’s works kinda like boarding schools here, they probably do staggered move out/move in, just bc that would be a lot to have people coming and going at once so it makes sense that peter left the day before, while jason and ivy are leaving the next day. also, given that peter is trying to call jason while he and ivy are banging, it’s probably been a hot minute since the actual break up, since peter was clearly very hurt by the whole thing, it would make sense (at least to me) that peter would reach out a month ish later, rather than like a few days later (you have to make so many assumptions to make this timeline work granted they aren’t super out there assumptions but still this is annoying)

March 1-25: Spring Break. the coworkers I have who are in boarding school work over their school breaks, which are longer than the public school breaks (which are only a week) so i put their spring break at 3 weeks. it makes sense, and it makes the later part of the timeline make sense.

I know i’m already halfway through this, but to me it makes sense for their to be quite a few time jumps in the story bc its a musical. they cannot show every day. there are a lot of other shows (particularly shows set in high schools) that are set over a whole school year, but if you just look at the events of the story that doesn’t make sense, so you have to imply that obviously they are not showing every little detail. moving on.

March 25: Wedding Bells, In The Hallway, Touch My Soul; peter wakes up from his nightmare in the church, so im assuming he fell asleep in church (like he almost did during epiphany). also it makes sense that class ranks are announced in late march-early april, I know my school announced ours in like, the first week or so of april? so yeah. moving on.

(from this point on i was giving myself a headache trying to make it make sense so its all weird from here!!)

April 4: See Me, Warning; the date doesn’t really matter here, I picked a random day in early april. the script said peter is calling from him and jason’s old dorm room, as he was picking up the last of his things, so he clearly made the roommate switch after school started (makes sense to me).

April 15-20 (approximately): Ivy finds out she’s pregnant. look google tells me on average people find out they are pregnant around 5-7 weeks after conception. i went with around 7 just so this timeline makes a tiny bit more sense given the later stuff, so yeah here we go.

May 4: Pilgrim’s Hands, God Don’t Make No Trash, All Grown Up, Promise, Once Upon A Time, Cross; a rough night for our heroes. so given sister chantelle saying “again? wonderful.” and nadia saying “i can’t believe you missed rehearsal again”, clearly ivy has been missing quite a few rehearsals, so for dramas sake maybe from when she found out she was pregnant? also i know i’ve been saying they wouldn’t have rehearsals on weekends, and given my weird timeline this would be a saturday, but its tech week so i’ll allow it.

May 5: Two Households, Bare, Queen Mab, A Glooming Peace; pretty self explanatory, and it makes sense to have the spring play in early may. rip jason.

May 11: Absolution; the day before graduation peter goes to confront the priest. gives him a small amount of time to start processing, and it makes sense it would be the night before, at least to me.

May 12: No Voice; i fucking hate this. “peter, we graduate next sunday” i hate that stupid fucking line. do you know that this timeline literally would be fine if it weren’t for that stupid fucking line? bc then, the school play would be in early may and graduation could be in late may-early june (when most high schools hold graduation) but no. keeping with continuity, they have to graduate the sunday following the school play. “peter we graduate in a month, are you really never gonna talk to me again?” would have been fine. but no, now we have beef. literally everything else about the end of this timeline being kinda weird would work itself out, except for the fucking graduation. god damn. anyway, may 12th, the graduate on may 12th which is really fucking weird bc of that one fucking line. whatever. i didn’t write the damn thing bc if i did i wouldn’t have written that fucking line. (i’ve been at this for over an hour and a half, so i’m a tad annoyed, can you tell?)

anyway, that’s it. that’s my long as hell proposed bare timeline. if there’s anything glaringly wrong with it i don’t care bc this timeline literally cannot make sense. but honestly, now that i think about the Popular Tween High Schooler Musicals (heathers, bmc, deh) the timelines of those (especially heathers and bmc) don’t make tons of sense either. that’s just the way it is, that’s the way its gonna be. and we have to live with it.

this post is so long it is actually slowing down my laptop as i type it

#bare a pop opera #bapo #me speaks #i stg there is no real way to make this timeline make sense #a whole lotta this is #it makes sense bro trust me bro #also apologies if this is hard to read i am not very good at phrasing things over text #or at all

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polyamorouspunk · 2 years

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im sorry youve been having a rough time, its good to hear that youre taking a step back tho, take care of you dude! honestly ngl everything you say about him reminds me of this one girlfriend i had years ago, she jerked me around for AGES with the "my lifes really hard and traumatic, im just not ready for a relationship *does relationship things* *makes me her emotional sweat rag*" and after months when we officially got together she always found excuses to not see me in-person even though we lived in the same city, and eventually dumped me out of nowhere and i found out she'd been cheating on me almost the whole time, lmao :/ obviously theyre different people it just gives me VIBES yknow xD hope u feel better soon this was a RAMBLE

Yeah I’ve been saying for ages on here that there are so many red flags and I haven’t forgotten about them. I don’t think he would cheat on me since he’s getting a divorce after his wife serial cheated on him but I mean who knows you know. I’m… glad I’m not alone in having this happen to me. Like “oh okay so it’s a thing, people saying they don’t want a relationship but then acting like they do”. And like yeah I was like “well we’re just going to wait until all his divorce stuff is over and then we’ll be together” but I guess that’s not officially the plan it’s still “wait and see” so… He’s been good about keeping his word when meeting up with me, so I at least mostly trust that. He’s always late but he always comes no matter what comes up.

#punk gets mail #crush stuff

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scribbledghost · 3 years

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hey🥺🥺 ive been having a shitty couple past days bc all the constant things like my parents continued Existence &work & u know the everything abt the world rn has just finally got 2 the point where im just running tooooo tired? i usually find it v easy 2 be happy nowadays, so the fact that i feel just unavoidably miserable is reminding me of how i used 2 live &i just dont like it!!!! but anyways (lol sidepoint bc my thoughts dont work in order, do u remember that sunshiney reader hc ?? on my mind 24/7 , absolutely just so reassuring. i know where 2 come if i dont feel good honestly ur mind is just peak escapism) i was wondering ,since u keep maybe hinting at wanting 2 talk abt him if u might have anything abt neighbour!whiskey that u wanna share or talk abt ?? u know how much i adore him lol, but my brain is EMPTY rn, nothing in my head, & i rly cant think of anything 2 ask. it rly doesnt have 2 be anything abt the start of the ask (idek what that was lol. me explaining myself-) . & also ur header thing says requests are closed obviously so i wanna make it clear that like im not asking for anything thats gonna take a long time 2 do, & of course u are not obliged 2 reply 2 this at all but. any recent thoughts on neighbour!whiskey ??? i am the excuse 2 share them. okay well no matter if u feel like u have smth 2 respond 2 this w or not: thank u& love u bye!! 💗💕💗💞💓💕💓💓💗💞

Aww, I’m sorry things have been rough lately! And I’m always down to talk about neighbor Whiskey, so lets see what I can come up with!

So. Neighbor Whiskey. Just imagine a time early in your relationship, where the two of you are officially together but you haven’t been together for very long, yknow?

Jack is still adorably shy in some areas, still not wanting to overstep your bounds even though you two are literally dating in an official capacity. He finds a particular joy in bringing you flowers once per week, sometimes ones he got from a store, other times ones he picked from his own garden. He loves the little smile you give him when he hands them to you, how you put them on the kitchen windowsill so he can see them from one of his own windows when the light is right.

If you ever go an unusually long time without leaving your home, or if your demeanor changes, he instantly knows. He’ll simply ask you if you want to talk about it at first, but at some point he’s knocking on your door and asking what he can do to help. He’ll do chores for you, get groceries for you, or even just sit on your couch and hold you if thats what you need. He really just wants to see you feel better.

Really, neighbor Whiskey is just absolutely smitten with you, and he wants nothing more than to take care of you and see you smile. Because your smile is his favorite sight to see.

#starless-eyes-remain #asked and answered #neighbor AU

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davieslandon · 4 years

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Discord Thread || Alison and Landon

Discord thread featuring: Landon & @alison-haynes

Mentions: @aaronhart93 @luca-regio @lorencourtier @theharrykingston @romanbeckett

When: 27th July

Description: Landon visits Alison to catch up and ends up being told some news.

Trigger Warnings: angst

Alison.

Alison didn't know what was going on in her life anymore. She had just texted Aaron, and the conversation hadn't gone well. Alison's eyes were red and puffy, and she had two suitcases by the door. Alison wasn't feeling great, it had become her normal state lately. The morning sickness was awful, but part of her felt as though -- it wasn't just morning sickness. It was sickness from all that was happening around her. Alison had every intention on driving back to Rhode Island. Everything was more peaceful there, and she could stay on her house on the beach, watching the ocean waves crash to shore. Right now, she needed to be somewhere where she could think. Think about her and Luca, her and Aaron, but most importantly, where she could protect her baby. Stressing out wasn't great for the baby, and being around either of those guys were not helping it. Alison left her penthouse, and made her way down to the lobby of her secure building, and headed towards the door that led to the garage where she stored her car -- that she barely ever used. But then she spotted, Landon talking to the building monitor. Part of her said to run, the other part of her knew she couldn't. So she went over, and let the building monitor know it was fine for him to come in. "What are you doing here?" She asked him, leaning on her suitcase slightly, and hoping that he didn't bring up how crappy she looked.

LANDON

Elle had been staying with Harry since Saturday and was set to stay with her other dad for a few more days so Landon figured it was the perfect opportunity to pay Alison a visit. They hadn’t really spoken since their conversation at the cafe where Ali had talked about her wish for another child. He wasn’t sure how helpful his advice ended up being and they were due for another catch up session. He was explaining who he was to the building monitor to be let in when he saw Alison making her way towards him with a suitcase in tow. He hadn’t known that the singer was due to leave again for work so soon and he was even more confused when he saw her puffy eyes, almost as if she was just crying. What was going on? “Hey, thought I’d pay a visit and we can spend the evening chatting”, he explained, holding up the container with two coffee cups. “Don’t worry, it’s decaf. I don’t want to make it impossible for us to sleep tonight.”

Alison.

Alison was crazy busy as it was right now, this pregnancy couldn't have come at a worse time. With the album set to release soon, it was like Alison's mind was on overload. She needed peace and quiet, and the only way she would get that would to really not be around anyone. Of course, the blonde would be around her young daughter, and who she needed to be around for work, but other than that, Alison didn't want to see many people. But, Landon -- she hadn't seen him in far too long. Things had been crazy in her life, and she hadn't reached out much, which she felt awful about. And honestly -- it was nice to see someone else other than Aaron & Luca. Alison smiled sadly, "Yeah - uh, I was heading out, but I can stay for another couple hours. I mean -- you brought coffee, so how can I say no?" She grabbed her suit case and dragged it towards the elevator, "How've you been?"28 July 2020

LANDON

“I don’t want to make you late for wherever you’re going though. We can do this another time if you want”, he offered but Alison was already making her way towards the elevator so he quickly followed her. Landon could tell that something wasn’t right but he wasn’t sure how to bring it up without being rude. Alison looked sad and he was getting the impression that she’d been crying but he couldn’t just say that. “I’ve been okay, getting a little break which I feel was well-deserved which I like.” As soon as they got off the elevator and to her penthouse, Landon sat down and handed one of the coffee cups to her. “Are you okay?”

Alison.

“Don’t worry, you won’t make me late. I don’t actually have to be anywhere until tomorrow.” She mused. When they got up to her penthouse, she left her suitcase near the door. Alison took a sip of coffee, but the second he asked if she was okay, tears came to her eyes. She hated how emotional she had been this week. She hadn’t been planning on telling anyone else she was pregnant. Not until she was through her first trimester, but now she felt like she might not have a choice. Alison let out a shaky breath, “No. I’m not okay.” She admitted. “But if I tell you why—you cant say anything. To anyone.”

LANDON

Even though Landon could tell from his friend’s behaviour that something was wrong, he still wasn’t expecting her to start crying. Whatever this is must be worse than he thought if it had Alison reacting like this. “I promise, it’ll stay between us”, and Alison should know by now that he wasn’t one to break his promises. He just hoped it was something he could help with and that it wasn’t actually as bad as it sounded.

Alison.

Alison took a seat on her couch, letting out a huge breath, to try and calm herself down. She hadn’t been planning on telling anyone else for a while, but truthfully she needed to talk to anyone who wasn’t Luca or Aaron. “I’m—Im pregnant Landon.” She said, “And I — I don’t know what’s going to happen. I don’t know—“ she cried

LANDON

Landon wasn’t sure what he was expecting but it definitely wasn’t this. The last time they talked he did suggest she could try for a baby with her new boyfriend but her reaction gave him the impression that it wasn’t something she could really consider. And yet here they were. Landon knew it couldn’t be Aaron’s as his best friend told him he said no so it made sense for him to assume it was her boyfriend’s. “Oh wow, congratulations!” he said once he wrapped his head around it, even though Alison wasn’t looking very happy right now. “Is that...I mean do you not want to be? Because I thought another kid was what you really wanted. You know, a little sibling for Des.” He got up and sat down next to her, wrapping an arm around her when he saw her crying. “Hey, hey, it’s going to be okay.”

Alison.

Alison hadn’t been thinking about having a child with Luca. It was still early on in their relationship, and Alison had wanted to focus on the relationship before focusing on a child. Alison wasn’t upset that she was pregnant, she did want another child. “No,” she sniffled, “I am thrilled to be having another baby, a little sibling for Dessy.” Which was true, she wasn’t upset with the child, she already loved that baby just as much as she loved Des, she was upset with the other adults around her. “But, I feel like I’m in the middle of a war zone with Aaron and Luca.” She said, leaning onto Landon as the tears continued to spill over her eyelids.

LANDON

Landon didn’t know much about Alison’s boyfriend, he barely even knew his name. All he knew was that their relationship was quite new and that this was her first serious relationship. He did remember her telling him that she hadn’t even slept with anyone after Aaron. That was all he knew so he was surprised to hear that apparently him and Aaron weren’t getting on so well. “Oh, so I take it they don’t like each other then?” Landon knew first hand how protective Aaron could get of the people he cared about if he didn’t like someone they were around with. So if his best friend didn’t like Alison’s boyfriend, it was bound to cause problems. “What happened?”

Alison.

Alison wasn’t sure where to even start with it. She could right out tell Landon that Luca had gone to prison and that was why Aaron disliked her boyfriend so much, but when she told Aaron Luca had been upset she shared his business. So now, she had to pick her words carefully. Alison took a deep breath, “I’m pretty sure they hate each other. Neither of them have said those words, but I can feel it.” Alison sat back up, turning to look at Landon. “Let’s just say Luca has some stuff in his past that Aaron isn’t a fan of. But —it’s his past. And he’s not looking at his past, he’s looking at his future.” Alison has a few tears slip from her eye, “I told Aaron we need to take a break. Him and I. Was that wrong of me?”

LANDON

Landon could imagine that being in a situation where your boyfriend hates the father of your child was complicated. He didn’t even want to think about what he would do if he was seeing someone and Harry hated them. Throw another baby into the mix and it was a recipe for disaster. He was quiet for a bit, thinking over his words. It was a delicate situation and he couldn’t just blurt the first thing that came to mind. It was important to thread carefully. “I’m not saying it was wrong of you. Obviously I don’t know what Aaron said and I don’t know what Luca did so I can’t comment much about the situation. I just feel like it’s a little hard to take a break from your child’s father, you know what I mean?”

Alison.

Alison took a deep breath, there was nothing easy about this situation. Alison loves Aaron, and anyone who knew the pair knew that they had a different kind of love for each other that could never be broken. Alison also loved Luca, and she was currently carrying his baby. The whole thing was complicated. “I wouldn’t take a break from him when it comes to anything regarding Dessy. More of our friendship.” She sighed, “Luca and I have been fighting a lot. But whenever we fight it is always about Aaron. And between both of them — I’m stressed out and I know it’s not good for the baby.”

LANDON

Landon knew that there was a lot about the situation that he didn’t know and so had to be careful what to say but at the same Aaron was his best friend. They were only now getting out of a rough patch after what happened with Roman but still, he didn’t know Luca at all. So it wasn’t surprising that he’d be taking Aaron’s side while at the same time knowing not to ignore Alison’s concerns. “You guys have been friends for so long...the fights with Luca must have been pretty big for you to decide to take a break”, he said. “What were the arguments concerning Aaron about though? Because I know Aaron pretty well and I don’t think he would hate someone like that for

Alison.

The blonde hated upsetting anyone. More often than not Alison went along with what others said because she didn’t want to upset anyone. So this situation was really taking a toll on her. She looked to Landon, “Well, Luca didn’t want me to tell Aaron about the pregnancy yet.” She mentioned, “But I felt as though I had to tell Aaron? I mean this baby is going to be Des’ sibling. He deserved to know.” That was one thing she knew she had been right about in this whole situation. “And Luca is mad at me for telling him. And well— Aaron left when I was telling him. I didn’t expect him to be thrilled about the baby, but — I needed him- and he just left me.” She said, rubbing her head at the thoughts that kept running through her head. “And I needed someone to talk too, and well I talked to Luca because until now— him and Aaron were the only person eho knew about the baby. And Luca isn’t making me feel great about my friendship with Aaron. I don’t know— I need to respect both of them. And I’m at the point where I just don’t know what else to do.”

LANDON

It seemed like both guys needed to get their heads out of their asses for long enough to realise that they were upsetting the person they were so adamant they cared about. “You did the right thing telling Aaron about the pregnancy.” That was the one thing he felt he could safely comment on whatever the situation was. “Aaron isn’t just a friend, he’s your daughter’s father. If Harry was going to have a child I would want to be one of the first to know because it’s something that would affect Elle and as her father I deserve to know so I can prepare for that change.” Landon tried to ignore how sad the idea of his ex-husband having children with anyone else made him feel. “And yeah, I can see why you would be upset with Aaron. That’s a pretty shitty move.” He wished his best friend was in front of him right now so he could give him a good shake because what the fuck. “As for Luca...I don’t know him so I feel like I can’t really talk about him much but making you feel bad about your friendship with Aaron is not okay. You’re raising a daughter together and you’re lucky enough to be on good terms even if you’re not together. Destiny is getting the best upbringing because of that so I can’t see how you two being friends can be so bad.” Landon really thought about the situation Alison found herself in and really started to understand her reasoning behind needing a break. “It kind of feels like you need a break from both of them right now.”

Alison.

Right now, all Alison cared about doing was protecting the child that was growing inside of her. She knew being constantly stressed out while pregnant, wasn’t good for the baby and she just wanted to focus on what would be the best for the baby. And right now, she didn’t feel like Aaron or Luca was helping her with that. “I went against what my boyfriend asked of me. Because Aaron was the only person I wanted to tell. Because he’s always been my person, and then he just left me there, in tears. After I asked him to not leave.” She said. That had stung, to watch Aaron wall out the doors of his penthouse. “I love Des. And I love Aaron, and their both my family. I don’t think Luca understands that Aaron is my family. He isn’t just some friend.” Alison said, “I was gonna just get away from New York for a while. Probably go stay in my house in Rhode Island for a bit. I need somewhere to just clear my head and be stress free, even if it’s just for a couple of days.”

LANDON

In a way, Landon could understand why Luca was upset. Alison went against what her boyfriend asked of her but it’s not like she did it to hurt him. Anyone who knew Alison also knew how important Aaron was to her. Those two with Des were a family, even though they were never together romantically. There was still a bond between them and Luca should have known better than to underestimate it. Although both Aaron and Luca were unfair to her for putting the pressure of their dislike for each other on her. Especially since she was pregnant and they should have been helping her avoid stressful situations not cause more. “I think the both of them need some time to cool down and to understand that this isn’t about them. You’re going to have a baby so you need their support not their judgement and pointless arguing.” And Aaron was going to have some groveling to do to get back into Alison’s good books after his behaviour towards her. “That sounds like a nice plan. Although if you ever need a familiar face around, you know the spare bedroom at my house is always available for you”, he offered.

Alison.

Alison wanted to do right by both Luca and Aaron. But I’m this situation, it felt like it was impossible to do just that. Both men were now part of her family. No matter what happened in the future, Luca & Aaron both would be a father to one of her children. “And Luca basically told me that he wants to move in together before the baby is born. So there is also that.” Alison wasn’t sure why she had said those words, but she felt like she wanted to lay everything out. Talking about it was making her feel better, just a bit. “That’s how I feel. I just want to not stress myself out or the baby. So I need them to stop stressing me out.” Alison felt like her life was spinning and she couldn’t stop it. “Thank you, Landon. I’m just gonna go to Rhode Island. I mean I just want to sit on the beach, and sink my feet in the sand. But when I do come back, I will keep that in mind.”

LANDON

“Do you want to move in together?” Landon was worried about Alison. He couldn’t help but worry that the two were going to be moving too fast because of the upcoming baby and the last thing he wanted was to see a close friend getting hurt. “Because you shouldn’t move in with him until it’s what you really want to do and you’re a 100% sure. Baby or no baby, it should be your decision.” In reality, Landon thought then not stressing her out was easier said then done. Just because she left to Rhode Island for a few days didn’t mean Alison wasn’t still going to be thinking about them and about the situation. He didn’t want to upset her even more though so Landon just nodded. “Sounds like you have it all planned out already. I really hope you’ll get to relax, at least a little.”

Alison.

“Honestly, I don’t know what I want. Everything is changing so quickly. You know Luca hasn’t even met Des yet? I’m going to have a kid with him, and he hasn’t even met my daughter. How am I expected to just move in with him?” Alison loved Luca, and she would love to live with him, but there was still too much to figure out about him before they made that decision. And the fighting, she couldn’t live with him if they were going to keep arguing, especially about Aaron. As Aaron was destiny’s father. “I mean, I still have a lot to do for work. But I just think it’ll be good to be away from the mess that is here. I love them both, but I can’t be around them right now.”

LANDON

Alison was right. Moving in with someone who hadn’t even met her daughter didn’t sound like the greatest idea. And while living separately with a baby wasn’t ideal, it could still be done. It’s what Aaron and Alison had done for all these years after all. Living with someone just for the baby was dangerous and could end in disaster. “That’s understandable. They both did something that hurt you and it’s completely understandable that you would need a break from the both of them. It could help you figure some things out.”

Alison.

Alison didn’t want to just make impulsive decisions. She knew if she made the decision this early on in the pregnancy, it would be impulse. She hoped it would be easier to make that decision later on into the pregnancy. But right now, it was too much on the blonde. Everything was too much at the moment, “That’s what I need to do. I can’t just keep doing this constant fighting with them both.” She said with a sigh, then looked at Landon, “I’m sorry, you didn’t come over here to listen to all my problems.”

LANDON

Landon wouldn’t want to be constantly stuck between two people he cared about fighting either. “Hey, don’t apologise. I came here to catch up and that’s what we’re doing. Besides, what are friends for if not to listen to each other’s problems?” he teased, trying to at least get a smile on her face. Landon picked up his coffee cup again and took a sip.

Alison.

Alison knew Landon was right. That was what friends were for, and honestly it had been nice to talk about it to someone. “Thank you Landon. It means a lot. I haven’t had anyone to talk too about all this.” She said, reaching out for her coffee cup. “Is there anything new in your life?”

LANDON

“I can imagine but now that I know what’s going on you can talk to me about it anytime. Even while you’re away, just text me. I tend to be up at all hours of the night so don’t worry about the time”, he reassured. Landon was about to say that there wasn’t really anything new in his life when he remembered that there was something quite different the last time they got to talk. “Well, you probably know this already but I’m back to being single and ready to mingle.” He tried to put it off jokingly so as to not make it too obvious that he’d been pretty broken up about it.

Alison.

"Thank you, Landon. It means a lot really. It feels nice to get it off my chest," She admitted. Alison was planning on running to Rhode Island, and sitting on the beach, with everything pent up inside, but having told Landon, did make her feel better than she had an hour prior. She had really just needed some reassurance on the situation. Her eyes raised an eyebrow, "What happened with you two?" She questioned, not meaning to push, but she was curious.

LANDON

Landon was glad that he got to help a friend out and lend an ear, especially since Alison looked like she really needed someone to talk to. He wasn’t sure how to explain the situation with Loren, mostly because he didn’t understand it himself. He still wasn’t sure how they went from dating, to being broken up, then deciding to give them another try and...back to being broken up. All in the matter of weeks. And now his ex and Jace apparently even adopted a puppy so it was serious. “I honestly don’t know. Don’t get me wrong, this isn’t me trying to get out of talking about it but I’m not sure how we ended up here. We’re through though, that’s for sure.”

Alison.

It was nice to talk to Landon, even if she hadn't been planning on letting him in on her secret yet. It was supposed to be just family, but it was important that she had someone to talk too. But now, it was time to find out about Landon's life. She tilted her head, "Huh. Are you okay?" She questioned. She knew sometimes relationships just ended, but Landon looked as though he was doing well with it.

LANDON

Landon shrugged, unsure of how he should answer. He was still hurt over how things had ended between them but if this was the way things were supposed to be like then he was glad it ended when it did. At least he was spared from being hurt even more. “I am. I guess I still miss him sometimes but at least I’m at a point where I can safely say I’m better off this way.”

Alison.

Alison reached over, setting a hand on his shoulder. "It's better that it happened now instead of later, just have to remember that." Alison wasn't great at giving relationship advice, because well, she hadn't been in all that many relationships, and those she had been in, didn't work out. The one great one she was in, was falling apart currently. But, she would still make sure her friend was okay

LANDON

Landon smiled and nodded, agreeing with his friend. It still sucked that it had to happen but at least it all came to a head before he could introduce Loren to Elle. At least he didn't have to feel guilty about that. He drank the last of his coffee and got up. "I don't want to keep you from your trip to Rhodes Island, I know you must be on edge to get there. Just...text me if you need anything, okay? And don't be a stranger."

Alison.

Alison got up, giving Landon a soft smile. "Thanks, Landon. It was really nice to talk. I needed it." She admitted, as she strolled over to where her suitcases were. "And if you need anything, you can text me as well. Okay?" Alison said, leading him down to the lobby of the building. "I'll see you soon!"

#discord #thread #c: alison #m: aaron #m: luca #m: roman #m: loren #m: harry

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sarasfm · 4 years

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Sarauniya “ Sara ” Davies, 24, pansexual, cisfemale, ISFP Enneagram 9w1; Pisces sun, Sagittarius moon, Pisces rising 1st year Advanced Encryption Major; did not go to a spy prep hs

Imma keep it real with you, chief, I have absolutely no idea what’s going on. I mean, obviously, I know what espionage is ; I’ve read books and articles, and I’ve seen Spy Kids and all the Charlies Angels and James Bond movies, but I genuinely think I need a minute to wrap my head around everything. Make that two weeks, because what’s this I hear about two murders ? I literally just got sent here to be safe, I — I’m sorry, I’m freaking out. Give me five seconds, and we can start again, because I promise I can totally pretend this is all normal. @gallagherintro

full name: sarauniya “ sara ” davies

dormitory room: 105

birthday: 20 march 1995

soundtrack: “ go gina ” by sza

favorite dish: efo riro

aesthetic: when i see them walking around in the halls, i usually see a flash of light reflecting from her earrings, eyeglasses perched on top of her head, and a caviar iphone always in her hands

Bio Points

her mom’s a nigerian baddie billionaire & her dad’s a soft academic brit

she grew up between london and abuja where their family’s business is based. it’s a trading enterprise, the largest industrial conglomerate in sub-saharan africa

she’s the eldest of three siblings, was raised to be prim & proper and groomed to run their family’s business. her family’s not pushy though and they’re really cool. very healthy dynamic so she doesn’t mind ; she loves her fam and would do it w a smile !

Coding is her Passion though. total dork. stayed up all the time just sleuthing and being an internet geek since she was a youngin’

loves education and is the type who would willingly stay in school to learn. has a degree in economics from harvard and was almost done with her mba when her littlest sister got abducted ! was it about business ? money ? who knows ! the sister’s fine now but her family sure is Scared especially since sara’s alone in the big bad united states

her mom made some calls and went “ gimbiya, look, u aint safe n we sorry. we’ll work something out to make sure u get ur mba degree somehow but shit is wild so we gotta get u somewhere near that’s safe asap. u like studying & ur a geek with computers right ? cool beans, go back to school & welcome to gallagher, babe ”

she enters gallagher in the middle of the spring semester very overwhelmed & inwardly ignoring how unhappy she is about having to be here bc she is not & does not want to be a spy. she just tryna distract herself by looking at this entire thing as a weird vacation where she can do stuff she wasn’t able to before because it’s literally detached from the world. she is mostly probably in way over her head, but let’s see !

Other Information

Nicknames: Sara (to everyone), gimbiya (to family, means princess in Hausa)

Languages: English (native), Hausa (native), Arabic (C1), French (B2)

Strengths: is money a strength ? also coding. and being the sweetest. and a general smartypants but that’s in a university setting & gallagher probably doesnt give a fuck

Relationship History: only has one (1) experience. ( well,,, 2 if a three-second drunken kiss w kass counts ) his name’s royce and they’ve known each other since their bougie secondary school back in britain. started dating at sixteen and went to harvard together. they’re long term as fuck. he’s like her best friend and their families adore the couple & each other. got engaged last september and sara broke it off before leaving for gallagher, oof. she deadass milked the opportunity but lbr she wasnt rlly Feeling It so she’s kinda glad for the ‘valid reason’ to appear bc it rlly wasn’t Love for sara so boy bye

Physical appearance: 1.76m, 55kg, long black hair, slim and toned build

Classes: GEN 105, GEN 206, AE 101, AT 101, PE 101

Personality

the sweetest. v charming & sensitive to others & curious about things. enthusiastic too ! loves adventures & is very passionate. queen of empathy.

she’s not stuck up even tho she loaded. she doesnt rlly talk abt her family having 12B or the fact that she’s an ivy league girl, bc she’s just generally very uwu

easily stressed and flustered and overwhelmed ! man, gallagher’s gonna shook this goddamn academic dork to her core for the love of god someone pls get the aed ready

rlly fun !!! can be a lil unpredictable bc it b lyk dat for rich girls. loves her independence which she hasn’t maximized bc of her ex fiancé & responsibilities but it’s chill so chill totally chill, no ounce of further longing exists in the crevices of this girl’s heart

she is so not good with confrontation and is so allergic to conflict ok. she will sweep discomfort under a rug and lie on it ‘til it’s flat which makes her a queen of repression & conforming

is she easily overwhelmed & stressed ? yes, but she’ll try not to show it so much. it’s all mostly an internal monologue so don’t underestimate her pls. she’s v smart and competent. can be so competitive ( albeit mostly inwardly ) and a boss ass business bitch like her business momma bc that’s what she’s been training for altho she is still generally a soft bab so ... yeah, if u would be so kind as to Estimate her, that’d be grand

she needs to always be on top of her game. maybe not the best in the class, but definitely pushes herself to be her best, so a lot of late nights studying & won’t settle for bad grades ever. gonna be rough in gallagher bc she is not spy material ok, she’s just a pretty rich geek behind a computer

just imagine her as the nice girl in ur ap classes who’s a lil awkward & just so happens to be super hot & stinking rich

Fun Facts

has a six-month old rescue pup named sooty ! who kinda looks like a sheparnese

has a tendency to ramble if she’s comfy w u enough or mayhaps if it’s too much man

is v diligent w keeping a journal & does it everyday

likes to dance ! not super good but she likes it. hits da clubs for dat shit

is a lil instagram famous bc she’s a gorgeous rich harvard girl & all that jazz. queen of selfies & of looking hot but doesn’t actually get to play around rip ffff

doesn’t drink much bc she is an extreme lightweight and 2 is her tap out limit

if she’s had more than 2 drinks, she is Very Honest but still very ramble-y

she is physically active but mostly just runs and does yoga. knows very basic self-defense. is not sporty, definitely not a fighter, may god have mercy on her soul

isnt a virgin but is not sexually experienced lmao lbr she kinda Itching to get out there

don’t ask me what her accent is because i have no clue it’s all over the place

Established Connections — just bc i think y’all would like to know

kassandra sutton — internet friends ! loves kass to bits. have known each other since sara was 14. when kass was 18, sara took her on a grad trip to montreal and became a lil lowkey into her. doesn’t help that kass drunk kissed her & doesn’t remember lmfao. poor sara told her then-bf & they had a lil fight but they made up bc sara didn’t talk to kass for months. eventually they became friends again & now sara’s in gallagher w no idea that kass is a mf sutton & honestly, my girl is just very shook w everything

Possible Connections

crushes — she does not know how to flirt. she is ,,,, p pathetic tbh but a real heckin cutie. will be super nice to ur bab ok

flirtationships — sara and i r gonna continue to keep it real w u chieves, her ex fiancé royce was vanilla and bland as fuck. can u believe she has not been single in a decade ? ? someone give her love & attention & fluster this soft innocent child. get her Experienced but also dont hurt her

enemies/angst !!! — or maybe do ! maybe hurt her. maybe obliterate her. maybe smash her poor heart to pieces, because tbh i would love that. so someone pls for the love all things holy and divine, someone hurt her !!!!

fwb — probably just one (1) bc she’s still a romantic ? and she’s probably gonna want something exclusive even if it’s no strings attached and will surely want to ,.,. get to know them a little bit more first ,,, at least ideally , idk , maybe impulse & thirst gets the better of her one of these days who knows lets find out !

friends !!! — sara will love u ok. she may be a lil easily flustered but she’s doesn’t rlly give up on ppl quickly. as i’ve said, queen of empathy. probs feels v sorry for majority of the gallagher & georgetown kids bc, .,.,., this environment just screams highkey Trauma to her and she’s valid bc she’s right

mentors !!! — she hates feeling dumb ok she Always has to be on top of her game, so u can bet ur ass after her first meetings in her classes she goes to ppl going “ hey could u help me out w working out ? boxing ? firing a gun ? literally everything & anything ? ”

anything & everything — meaning just come @ me & let’s talk about it uwu

( did i just create georgina’s antithesis ? fuck yes, and i am sooo excited to have a child that’s not always plotting & scheming & being mean like y’all have no idea ;_; nywy, that was long bc shutting up and brevity are things i do not possess. whats up it’s ur og flower garden girl rose here aka bugleweed aka fiancée of many and lover of all, and i am open to anything and everything ! just drop an IM or hit dat like & ill slide in ur dmz w love, plots & sanitized hands x )

#gallagher:intro

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hi hello im several days late i just got home and im catching up with my whole internet including the tumblr dash and i just gotta say that: if we are to take what dan says in BIG and the vday vid (that shall not be named i know) at face value... i think even the possibility that dnp broke up earlier on than around 2012 seems a little far fatched. like either they broke up early in a relationship that seemed pretty intense (first of its kind?) to both of them OR they broke up after a few (1/..)

years of that kind of relationship?? and tbh both of those scenarios just feel to me like theyre not the kind of break ups where you can have a good and SO CLOSE relationship afterwards.... also can i just say. first when i saw dnp vids i thought they were together. then i watched and got into fandom some more and i wasnt so sure. thena after a few years of not being active i saw most of the 2018 vids and i was in no doubt. there are so many things that just SCREAM long term relationship (2/3)

to me. also the amout of alluding to linking guys they've done, both in 2018 and earlier and now the coming out videos. i honestly don't know how people can believe otherwise!! everything they've done since the coming out vids too. it's like obviously they aren't becoming a relationship channel on yt now, but it's all been very much confirming their exsistance as "companions through life actual soulmates" hasn't it???? anyways. love them love your blog sorry for jumping in literally days after

hi anon!! you bring up some great points!!

i also don’t believe dnp ever broke up. i can’t imagine how hard it would have been for a couple as entwined as they are (professionally and just, in life) to part and keep living together so closely.

i know for a fact that 2012-13 must have been hard for them but like... this isn’t a romcom, people don’t break up just because things are rough.

and YES they do really act like a longterm couple! and the thing is it’s hard to describe exactly why because it’s just a ~vibe that shows through their videos? i even had that impression when i met them during ii, just the way they move together and look at each other, idk. it’s just there. and you’re right, if they wanted to prove they’re not together they wouldn’t have done all that they did after BIG.

thanks for these lovely messages 💖

#ask #long post #discourse

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thequeenofadream · 5 years

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Somebody that I used to know (Ben Hardy x Reader)

Summary: you used to be ben’s and ben used to be yours, but you broke up due to distance and media pressure. you both decide that beings friends is for the best, but ben barely even sees you anymore.

Words: 2,473

Notes: drinking is done (i’ve never drunk bc im not an illegal yes yes so sorry if this is not accurate i tried to do research) get rEKTT BY THE ANGST TRAIN.

A/N: i know it’s valentine’s but uh yesa.. um HAPPY VALENTINES!! <3 ps. this will probably be a three part series and if this flops u never saw me

🎊 tagging: @obsessedwithrogertaylor @malekdarling @i-padfootblack-things

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You were a mess; much like a painting, a thousand words hid behind your gaze. Words of anger, words of sadness, words of relief; they all raced through your mind. He was a mess; much like liquor, he’d try to numb the pain, but he couldn’t delay the inevitable any longer. The day had come where he couldn’t hide behind a pillar of excuses.

You and Ben had been dating for a year now and six months in, you decided to go public. There have been many downfalls and peaks within that time. Ben was always out either shooting or doing press tours; meanwhile you were almost always on the other side of the world, busy with your own tour. Whatever time you had together would be miniscule; the way time flew when you were together was almost surreal.

You met on the set of Bohemian Rhapsody. You were called upon to do a cover of “Killer Queen” along with a small part in the movie; You obviously could not say refuse. You cleared your schedule for the next two weeks, right before you’d leave for tour, and packed your bags. When you got there, you were lost and late, but luckily a blonde british boy found you wandering the halls.

“Hey, are you (Y/N)?”

“Uhm, yeah.”

“Lots of people are looking for you.”

It blossomed from there, and it was what a feeling it was. You only spent two weeks in production, but you could feel the strong friendly energy radiating off of everyone, it was particularly amazing to watch Rami become Freddie Mercury. You had gotten acquainted with everyone, and even exchanged social media handles, but Ben was especially ‘friendly’. About a week before you had to leave, the blonde finally asked you on a date.

You were honestly completely oblivious to his efforts, because everything seemed to good to be true on the magical sets of Bohemian Rhapsody. You thought he was just being his kind, generous and chivalrous self, however all those intimate moments between you two did spark butterflies in your stomach. It kind of baffled you, trying to figure out what about you caught his attention. He took you out to see London, and at the end of the day he brought you to a cozy bistro where you were spent time alone. At the end of the date, he had built up enough confidence to ask you if you wanted to try and be a thing. With the adrenaline pumping in your veins, you accepted a million times over.

You spent the last week, absolutely smitten over one another and when you left you both called each other everyday. On your sixth month together, he flew all the way to one of your concerts. He surprised you after the show and you almost cried.

“I want the whole world to know you’re my whole world.”

That was when you cried. You agreed and you both went public. It had been a rough seven months, from cheating allegations to pregnancy rumours to the constant harassment from paparazzi and others. It was ripping the both of you apart, and there was so much pain because of your love. It was like being together, unravelled the both of you. The only reason you were still strong was because of him, but all the consequences had struck you down. You felt like you couldn’t be yourself without being associated to Ben, and he felt the same. You loved each other dearly, but you still wanted to have your own careers.

And this was where you stood, in Ben’s London apartment. You had a show tomorrow night, but you figured you had to talk to him.

You both at looked at each other, your faces full of sorrow and disbelief. You thought you could somehow last forever, but almost is never enough. You both knew what had to be done, you just didn’t want to imagine each other apart. You decided to speak up, sobbing softly.

“Ben, we can’t go on like this.” You held his hand lightly. You felt weak and tired, but you were holding onto whatever you had left.

“I know.” He said simply, tightening his grip on your hand. He seemed almost mad at himself.

“So that’s it?” You asked tears trailing down your cheek. You thought he would have something more to say. He took you by the waist and held you close.

“All we do is hurt each other. It’d be better for us to be friends.” He paused, running a hand through your hair.

“We just hurt each other, I knew this since before. I just didn’t want to believe it, but now I see that it’s unhealthy. I’m not worthing of saying I love you when I’m the cause of your everyday agony.” He speaks softly, his voice cracking at the end.

“You’re not the cause of my everyday agony. In fact, you’re my sunshine. ” You say quietly, hugging him as close as humanly possible.

“But you wouldn’t be in so much pain if it weren’t for me.” He replies, taking in your scent, holding onto it. He clung onto you as if you were never to see one another again. You just stayed in each other’s embrace, one last time in silence. It was a somewhat comforting silence, knowing the pain would be over, but you were going to lose who you thought was the love of your life.

After you had both said your goodbyes, you left. You agreed you would both still be friends, but it just didn’t seem right to you. Maybe, if you had both met in much more normal circumstances you would have reached the end, but that wasn’t going happen. You had to go on and put the best happy face for your concert tonight.

“(Y/N), Are you okay?” Lucy asked snapping a finger in front of you. She had gone backstage to check on you, before you went out. You had invited the cast to your concert, but you weren’t sure if Ben would even come which was understandable.

You were zoning off into the distance, unable to process anything. Ever since yesterday, everything had been a blur and you couldn’t get your mind off of him. You hadn’t been able to sleep, eat, and think straight. You missed him so much, and it was bad.

“(Y/N)?” Lucy asked once more, shaking your shoulders.

“Yes, I’m fine.” You finally said, sighing deeply. You were most definitely not, but who could tell? Ben usually did, that’s who.

“If you say so. You’re gonna kill it tonight!” She said smiling softly. She knew what happened, but you had basically told everyone to not mention it and told the media to ‘piss off’. You really needed to do well tonight. You flashed a weak smile, assuring her you were ‘pumped’. She left you to it and went back out into the crowds.

She sat down with Rami, Gwilym and Joe, who immediately started asking about you.

“Not so good.” She sighed as the rest of them sighed in unison. They had been trying to comfort you and Ben, but that was proving to be difficult as it seemed like everything reminded you both of one another.

“Where’s Ben?” Rami asked, worrying about his other friend.

“He’s probably watching a livestream of the concert. He said he was going to practice drumming, but we all know that it could be very much code for well..” Joe trailed not even daring to put them in the same sentence. Suddenly, the lights went out and the show was about to start. Gwilym quickly added “We’ll have to split up later.”

It wasn't that they wanted to meddle between your relationship. It was more like seeing their parents divorce or something. They didn't want to choose any side, and they didn't want to see either of you looking terribly miserable.

The show was typical. It wasn’t anything grand, but it wasn’t boring. Although if you looked closely, you could see hurt written across your face. You remember how you would send Ben videos of the concert and he would express how proud he was. Almost every love song you sang was inspired by him and you couldn’t avoid him while pouring out your emotions on stage. You had to physically restrain yourself not to become a sad and depressing loser who had broken up with her boyfriend. You started feeling hazy towards the end of the show, so you were pretty loose in those last moments.

“Goodnight everyone!” You chriped, faking confidence, before stepping off stage and heading to your dressing room, lying across your sofa. You had literally told everyone that you'd deal with whatever they needed later, right now you just needed to breathe.

Your closed your eyes, trying not to think of him.You blamed yourself for the downfall. Maybe if you hadn’t gone too fast, you both wouldn’t end up crashing and burning. Maybe you shouldn’t have said yes to being the girlfriend of a guy you had known for a week. You had let everything go to your head. It was all a mistake, a beautiful yet tragic mistake.

You decided that if you wanted to get over him you needed to get rid of everything that reminded you of him, but you didn’t really know how to. You weren’t ready to just throw everything away. You needed start small. You fell asleep whilst mindlessly thinking; honestly you just wanted to sleep for a thousand years.

Lucy and Rami arrived to see you passed out on the sofa. At first they were filled with absolute dread, but someone had informed them that you had just taken a nap. You weren’t sure you were taking a nap though, if it was possible you didn’t want to wake up. Rami shook you shoulder lightly, trying to wake you up and it was indeed enough to awake you.

“Hi, sorry, that really wore me out.” You said yawning as you sat up straight.

“It was a phenomenal concert afterall! I know exactly what would do you some good.” Rami said happily, desperately trying to brighten the mood.

“We should go out for drinks, maybe some dancing?” He continued, seeing your eyes somewhat light up at the idea. It was at least brighter than the darkness that had clouded your pupils since the break up.

“Yeah, that sounds nice.” You said nodding, feeling a genuine ping of joy. “But where are Gwil and Joe?” You asked looking around the dressing room. Lucy suddenly panicked trying to find an excuse or explanation to where they had gone.

“They had to head over to the pharmacy! Something about joe drinking a milkshake earlier.” She came up with a pretty believable excuse, enough for you to believe. You just nodded and let them take you.

The three of you wasted the night away drinking and singing karaoke; getting drunk also meant you letting loose which was just what you needed. You were actually drunk enough to mingle with other people on the dance floor.

“Hey I’m (Y/N) and-”

“(Y/N) (L/N)? Didn't you just perform a few hours ago?”

“Yeah yeah whatever, so I was thinking you looked cute and I think I look cute sooo..”

“(Y/N)!” Lucy interrupted your attempts at flirting and dragged you back to the booth the three of you had gotten. You were drunkenly protesting against this, wanting to go back, but she had a strong grip. She sat you down at booth, before she sat down, keeping you from leaving.

“Aww, party pooper.” You said teasing her.

“I don't think you should make rash decisions when you're drunk, love.” She said slightly annoyed by your complete ignorance to the situation. Hey, at least you weren't mopping about Ben. Rami came back with two drinks handing one to Lucy and sitting on the other side of the booth.

“How about me?” You whined, furrowing your eyebrows.

“Sorry,, but I think it's for the best.” Rami said taking a swig from his drink. You just grumbled in response, annoyed by his validness. He was most definitely right. The night went on with the three of you just hanging out; they shared funny stories on set and you shared funny stories on tour. You wish you could’ve stayed longer, but everyone has their responsibilities. Speaking of responsibilities, Rami looked at the time to see it was getting pretty late and they had an early day tomorrow.

“Hey (Y/N), We have an early day tomorrow so-”

“Say no more! I’ll just call a cab home.”

“Are you sure, you could go with us you know?”

“Nope, it’s totally fine, promise.” You smiled as they got up from the booth. Lucy gave you a knowing look so you just raised your hands in defense. “No rash decisions, promise.” You held out a hand and she took it, shaking on it.

“Get some rest, (Y/N).” Rami let out a chuckle, linking arms with Lucy. You nodded and watched them go off. You were left to your thoughts in a bustling and rowdy club. You thought about taking our your phone to call a taxi, but the fire coursing through your blood said otherwise. You ordered another drink or five, despite Rami’s past wishes, and sat all by yourself, wallowing in alcohol.

You liked it. You couldn’t feel anything, pain, regret, gloom, they were all gone. You had completely lost yourself, in the chaotic atmosphere. You didn’t feel guilty or sad or mad, You felt insanely confident. You decided to go back out to the dance floor and mingle.

“Hello there.” You smirked slyly.

Meanwhile, Ben was with Gwil and Joe watching action movies to get his mind off the subject of romance. Little did they know that this was yours and Ben basically watched every genre together, so it didn’t really work. He has spent the whole night watching your concert, before the two came along with ice cream.

Frankie was in his lap and he pet her gently as the movie played. He wished he was a better boyfriend; maybe he wouldn’t be guilty out of his mind. He should of visited you more often, he should’ve told you how much he loved you; but that was all in the past and he can’t do anything anymore. The mere thought of being in love with you made him feel liable for his actions.

He would always hold himself responsible for everything that came crashing down.

He looked on the brightside, you two could still be friends. Maybe without the media suffocating you both into romantic endeavors, you could spend time together openly. He kept telling himself everything was going to be better, but was it?

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latina4bangtan · 5 years

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Let’s Make a Deal

Times are hard for (y/n)’s family. After her father gets himself in some major trouble with one of LA ‘s biggest gangs (y/n) has to make a huge sacrifice to get her family out of danger by marrying Namjoon the leader of Seoul’s most ruthless gang who’s trying to take over in LA.

Warnings: Violence, Gang referenceS, Adult Language, eventual (m) rated chapters and I’ll add as I go if necessary

Genres: Angst, eventual smut & fluff

Word count: 1332

Namjoon x latina

Namjoon x reader

“Why in the hell did it have to be raining outside. I’m already running late to my second job. Apparently my life is just so grand that’s why duh🙄” you said to yourself.

Having had the worst past couple months you felt that if one more thing went wrong you were sure to lose your damn mind. It had all started when your Dad had gotten laid off from his job 8 months ago. This had really put your family in a rough place and you didn’t even know how you were gonna make it out at this point. Your Mom was always trying to pick up little side jobs to do at the house to help out as much as she could but it didn’t seem to help much. As for you....well you got a second job to help put your little sister through school mainly to keep her as far as away as you could from the situation at home. What she didn’t know would keep her from getting hurt is what you kept telling yourself.

Though it still didn’t seem to be enough considering your dad still wasn’t finding any work....or any legal work that is.

A couple months in and that’s when you started to notice it. The late night visits from strangers that dad was taking. Deals from all walks of life would happen in the alley behind your home. Some that came were men of different ages others were women all looking for something. Something you knew would end badly for everyone.

**DING DING***

“Shit!” You had been so caught up in your thoughts that you hadn’t noticed the bus had stopped.

Rushing out the door with your head ducked as to avoid the rain you rush out the door of the bus and run right into some poor innocent soul.

“Hey! Why don’t you watch where you’re going!” The man had said.

He was trying to regain his balance as he tried to keep his what seemed to be a really fancy suit dry from the rain. All the while you were also trying to process what had just happened.

“My bad I didn’t mean to run into you. But no harm done right?” You said while trying to keep yourself together and giving him your best fake smile ever.

“Why don’t you try and be more careful next time. You may actually run into the wrong type of person some day.” He said looking straight at you with a very irritated expression.

Now listen I’m not gonna lie I felt bad about running into him and when he looked at me I almost went cross eyed cause he was probably the most beautiful person I had ever seen but he didn’t have to be an ass. It was an accident and honestly you didn’t have the patience or the time for his attitude you had thought to yourself.

“Ok I get it you’re pissed but honestly I’m sorry I don’t know what else you would like me to say or do but having an attitude sure isn’t helping amigo.”

“I’m not your amigo.” He said

“And at this point I’m almost positive you never will be so with that being said I gotta get to work. Have a very pleasant rest of your day.” You said with a heavy load of sarcasm and you walked around him and continued on your way to work.

Jeez what was his problem you thought.

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Namjoon’s POV

He stood there in shock that this girl had the nerve to talk to him in such a way. Did she not know who the hell you were?

Obviously not or she wouldn’t have acted the way she did.

In that moment you see the driver pull up to the curve causing you to get out of the thoughts that remained in you head of the girl from the bus stop.

Getting into the car you told the driver to take you to the address that you had been given on a sheet of paper from Taehyung prior to almost being tackled.

Namjoon. The leader of the most ruthless and heartless gang in Seoul had traveled a long way to settle the score he had with his rival Samuel. Samuel was the leader of the biggest Mexican gang in LA. They currently had the highest market of illegals coming in and out of the country and Namjoon wanted to take over....and he would he told himself.

When he pulled up to the house he sees his best friend J-Hope standing outside the front door.

“So what happened?”

“Exactly what we thought was going to happen he had some of his guys rough him up a bit to send a message.”

“Well I guess it’d be best if we finish that message off for him. It will show that he’s too weak to even handle his own business to the point that we had to step in.”

“Whatever you say man you’re the boss Im just here for....moral support.” J-Hope says as he gives Namjoon a mischievous smile knowing well enough not to try and question his friend but unable to keep himself from messing with him.

Going through the front door Namjoon sees the older man slumped on the floor covered in bruises and blood. Evidence that he had taken a major beating prior to his arrival but not at the hands of his men....or at least not yet.

“Looks like you’ve had a pretty rough day. Can’t say I’m all that surprised considering you decided to steal money from one of the biggest gangs here in LA....In my opinion they let you off pretty easy.” Namjoon says as he kneels down to face the man.

“Please.”

“Me and Samuel don’t have the best relationship you see....” he says without paying much attention to the man on the ground. “I’m currently trying to take over what he has going for him here in LA but to do that i need to show his men that he’s incapable of running such a large organization. Unfortunately for you that means finishing a job he couldn’t do.”

“I’m begging you” the man says looking straight at him as Namjoon starts to stand.

As he was getting up from kneeling down at the corner of his eye a picture frame catches his attention.

Walking over and grabbing the frame a sudden idea pops into his head. One that would change the way he was going to take over the market in LA.

“On second thought....I think we might be able to make a deal that will not only spare your ass but will also keep your little family safe.” Namjoon says to the man while picking up the frame.

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Your POV

Dead beat tired that’s what you are. This two job life is really starting to take its toll on you. At this point all you wanted to do was go home, jump in your bed and fall into a deep sleep.

Walking into your home you immediately feel the uneasiness in the atmosphere. Though if we’re being honest at this point it’s not even out of the ordinary with all the shady people your dad had been doing “business” with always hanging around by the house.

Without giving it a second thought you head to your room.

When you walk in you’re shocked to see both of your parents sitting on the bed. Noticing that your mom had tears in her eyes you begin to walk forward only to really take in your fathers physical condition.

“OMG! WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED!?! Are you ok!?!”

It wasn’t your dad’s appearance that scared you the most in that moment.... it was the way he looked at you and said.....

”We need to talk with you”

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Authors Note: Wow so I like love namjoon incase no one noticed 🥰🥰. I was gonna write this with another member but I just couldn’t help myself 💁🏽‍♀️. Anyways this is gonna have some fluff some angst and a whole lot of other stuff that I’m not so sure about yet. I'm thinking of making this into a series 👀 so please please if you could give this a like I would really love you and appreciate it 🤗. This will be my first so feedback is also soooo appreciated. Mucho Love! ❤️

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niel-trbl · 6 years

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Lover!Yang Hongseok x Colleague!Kang Kino AU

Note: well if you can’t tell, im kinda stuck on continuing my previous scenario and also another one that im still working on. hence why i managed to whip up this one! hope you enjoy this one! drop me some feedback or requests right here! (btw let me know if i should do part 2 to this!)

The clock finally struck twelve noon, meaning that it was time for lunch. Finally some time out of the office. You quickly tidied up your workspace before leaving.

“You’re in a rush,” your deskmate, Hani, looked over.

“Yup, Hongseok wanted to see me for lunch since he can’t make it for dinner,”

“Wait, do you think he’s-”

“WHAT, no no no. It can’t be... Anyway, I’ll see you later!” you quickly rushed out.

“Let me know how it goes!” you managed to catch what she said before you left.

Could it be? You noticed that Hongseok has been awfully sweet lately - always buying your favourite flowers, having dinner dates and whatnot. Sure you appreciate all of it but you were a little suspicious. So you asked Hani for her opinion on it and she popped the big question, “do you think he is going to propose to you?”

You’ve always had that thought, especially recently as you are moving forward into your fifth anniversary. Was it already time for this new phase of your relationship? It got you feeling a little excited, just at the thought of it. But you decided to put that thought at the back of your mind, just so that you won’t have any expectations.

Here you are, sitting at your favourite cafe with Hongseok, chatting while having lunch. Well, more like a one-sided conversation since he has been awfully quiet the whole time. You’ve always been able to pick up on his feelings or so you thought so you asked what was wrong.

“_________” your heart skipped a beat, hearing him call your name.

You weren’t ready for what he is going to say next. What should you do? How should you react? What should you say?

“Let’s not see each other,” this was not how you expected it to turn out.

Sure you said that you wasn’t expecting a proposal but a break-up was the very last thing you thought you would hear. You suddenly lost your appetite and everything just fell silent at your table.

“It’s not you, it’s me,” Hongseok tried to reason with you. Such a cliche excuse and it obviously meant it was because of you.

“I’m sorry. How long do you want to not see each other? A week? Two weeks?” You compromised, trying to save your relationship that is at its ends.

“Which part of not seeing each other do you not understand? What makes you think we are getting back together? Stop trying to hang onto me! I don’t need you,”

“There’s someone else, right?” He tried to hide his shock expression when finally said something after the long pause.

That was all you need to confirm the intuition you had. You saw him through his lies. He didn’t need you only because he has someone else. When you asked him about why he treated you so well over the few weeks, he merely said that it was just to give you good memories of the relationship. Hearing this made you even more mad.

“Wow you really had to break up with me during my lunch hour,” at this point you were just spouting nonsense, trying to make sense of the situation at hand.

“Don’t cry. Goodbye,” Hongseok then took his leave.

Awhile after he left, you could finally find the strength to leave the place. You decided to take the longer route back to the office to clear your mind. You wanted to hold it all in but as you made your back, you found yourself sobbing uncontrollably. Conveniently, it started raining, almost as if it was trying to help you cover up your tear-stained face.

You can’t believe Hongseok did that to you. Did those years mean nothing to him? All those memories together, were they easily replaced? It was such a precious relationship to you. You actually thought it could lead to forever. But it just ended right before your eyes, with no prior warning.

You were making your way towards the traffic light, with your mind still occupied by the break-up. Just as you were about to cross the road, you felt someone grabbed you by the hand.

“You should be careful! You could’ve gotten into an accident,” the person then sheltered with their umbrella.

You looked up to see who was your saviour and it was Kino, your colleague and neighbour. He’s one of the kindest and sweetest person you’ve ever met in your department, apart from Hani. Even though you don’t talk to one another as much, he’s still very caring towards you.

“You’re soaking wet. Here, put on my jacket. You’re gonna catch a cold,” he placed his jacket over your shoulders.

You thanked him softly then continued walking with him in silence. As you stood by one another in the empty lift, Kino handed you a hankerchief.

“It seems like you had a rough day. It’s okay, you don’t have to tell me. But whatever it is, just know that you’re not alone,” he gave you a soft smile.

“Thanks Kino. It’s just... Hongseok just broke up with me. He said he didn’t need me anymore. But i’m pretty sure it’s because he already have someone else. Wow i can’t believe i’m blurting all of this out to you. I’m so sorry. I’m such a wreck right now,” you tidied yourself up, before heading back to the office.

“No no it’s okay. It’s times like this when you need someone to talk to. You should take the rest of the day off. I’ll tell the boss that you’re not feeling too well. Don’t worry, i won’t say a word about what happened. Just wait here, i’ll grab your stuff,”

After awhile, Kino came back out with your bag and told you that he already called for a cab to get you home.

“Your jacket?”

“It’s okay, you need it more. Don’t worry,” he gave you a soft smile again.

You thanked him then headed into the elevator. You quickly pressed the open button again when you heard him call your name again.

“Hongseok’s an asshole for treating you that way. I’m sorry you have to go through this. Take care ________,” you were touched by his genuine concern.

When you got home, you quickly shed off your work clothes then changed into your pyjamas. You literally just spent the whole day sobbing in bed. Hongseok don’t deserve these tears but you just kept on crying. The day slowly transitioned to night. It was only then when you dragged yourself out of bed to grab a bite from the kitchen. In that moment the doorbell rang. It was none other than Kino.

“Hey, sorry for disturbing you this late. But i thought you might be hungry?” He held up bags of take-out.

“Were you working overtime today? You really shouldn’t have bought food,” you invited him into your home.

“No it’s fine, it’s the least i could do. I just wanted to make sure you were doing fine,”

Both of you spent the rest of the time, eating together while you let out your emotions. Kino kindly listened through all of it. You felt bad for burdening him with everything but he kept insisting that it was okay, as long as it made you feel better. Honestly, it did made you feel better and you were very glad that he came by to accompany you.

The next day, you headed back to work as per normal. Thanks to that late night rant session with Kino, you felt a lot better. You still felt like shit but you had to move on.

“Hey, are you feeling better? Heard from Kino that you had stomach pains from lunch,” Hani went over the moment you got to your desk.

“Oh? Oh yeah, i’m feeling better. Good thing we bumped into each other. Hey, did you see the stack of papers on my table? I told boss that I’ll submit it to him by today since i missed yesterday,” you started going through your desk drawers.

“Kino took it yesterday. He was still working even after everyone left. Maybe he went through them,”

You headed over to his desk and saw the said stack of papers. As you flipped through them, you noticed that he already went through them. You were touched by his actions. He really didn’t have to but he even did your workload. You left a post-it on his table saying “thanks again. Lunch later? My treat”

You were curious why he cared so much for you, even though you were just colleagues. Kang Kino, what are you?

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crybabybyee · 2 years

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it’s been a rough few days.

on saturday i found out my grandad died...

he died whilst he was in the bathroom, suspected heart attack. im just so so sad to think of him dying alone like that. and sad that my sister had to go identify his body.

it hasnt really hit me yet. when i found out i cried, but since then i just feel weird...sad...but i guess until i actually ‘see’ that hes dead ie at the funeral, its hard to think its really real...

i just feel so guilty. i wish i was closer to him, but we barely had a relationship, he didnt speak to me much because he couldnt hear me as he was deaf (he was 90) and would always look at my sister to translate. always called my sister but not me, i guess because he knew i was autistic and i had heard him say “its a shame” in a sad way about me before. but still i wished we were closer. when we were kids he barely spoke because my nan did all the talking, and when she died he opened up a bit because he was lonely. they also lived far away, so i barely saw them...

my sister basically helped him sort out appointments and things and carers but she hardly saw him either, so she feels guilty. my dad had nothing to do with him as they had a major falling out. he is probably feeling guilty too but i understand why

i cant stop thinking about it all obviously and just feel so sad for him, but i also knew deep down this is how he would die. i just hope he is with nan now, he wasnt happy being left without her and had said “if i make it to 90 ill be fine to pass over”...its weird how things like that always come true

so the weekend passed.

yesterday was valentines day and guess what? i heard NOTHING from my ex who is sooo in love with me. no gifts, nothing. fuck him. im pretty sure he knows about my grandad too because my mum mentioned it to his dad.

i was feeling really ungrounded obviously and just wanted him to contact me?? but hes also proved that he doesnt know ANY of my other social medias nor spares a thought to even email me??? because he is blocked everywhere else. im just shocked at him honestly. he must have really thought he has shown me.

all hes shown me is he would actually be an even more useless boyfriend, making minimum effort now, but wants me to forgive him, forget the past, change my behaviours AND, believe that hes changed

yeah fucking right mate

no doubt he was chatting up endless girls yesterday feeling sorry for himself, boohoo im alone on valentines i must find one immediately. like if what he said is true to me why the FUCK would he not send me a card, gift, even a message??? wtf???

i missed him as well. i missed him yesterday even though i was growing more mad by the minute. and now that yesterday has passed i just feel pure resentment, huge ICK feeling, and that i need to make some changes to myself yet again.

today i felt more grounded...maybe it was the heavy rain making me wet and tired and reminding me im a human thats alive. i didnt feel the need to really check my phone much, because trust me i have been obsessively checking my phone lately, ESPECIALLY yesterday i would open my emails, instagram, even my twitter and snapchat...discord..steam

ive checked once today...maybe twice but thats because i was bored in the car...but now i just have to remind myself to live in the moment again

i have 4 days left of sub on ff. im not renewing. not for a while.

it was nice kinda making friends in the fc. S is bleh, boring as usual, so dont really bother talking to him unless he aims something at me. i became sorta friends with L too, we were all randomly chilling trying to buy a house and having random convos like about what takeaway to get

but its not really serving me to be on that game. im enjoying it but its just making me live in a fantasy world again. and on the discord, people dont really reply to what i post, because it involves cute stuff or horses and gamers just arent interested in that, only absurd memes, its the same old song.

so i wont really miss the game. im going to let my sub expire and then buy legends arceus on the switch, since i wanted to before i bought ff. ill be more present irl, and can sit with my baby more.

and if i get kicked from the fc for being inactive, its not a big deal either...id just join a new one. i just need to detach from the online world that hes still basically a part of. stop meeting new people who are emotionally unavailable. just focus on being happy for myself and my son. dont look at my social medias, maybe tiktok and youtube ofcourse. i just feel stupid for letting him drag me down to this level again. planting a seed of doubt in my head.

fuck you i will be better

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yonblu · 6 years

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someone: shut up

me: nothing can truly excuse yondu being a bad father to peter but how he was raised is understandable to a point considering yondu himself never had a family until he was twenty years old, and spent his entire childhood in slavery and knowing that his parents sold him into that life, and it’s also worth pointing out that the family he DID fine were ... ravagers. literal violent, rough space pirates ---- the only life he’s ever known is either getting hit or hitting other people. he also picked peter up on a whim like, ok actually hold on im rambling too much for this to be a joke post

i think it’s likely that yondu only found out about what ego was doing after picking quill up. OR WAIT. NO. i bet he knew, at that point, and picked peter up anyway, probably thinking he could ignore his conscience and complete the job. but he couldn’t. especially seeing peter so scared, probably curled up somewhere w/ his walkman absolutely frightened to death and in so much pain bc his mother had just died. yondu is ... rough, but he’s soft at heart. zero idea how to deal with kids or how to comfort them, but he probably tried his best. ended up making peter laugh. and then it’s like, oh no, can i really send this kid to his daddy just for him to die ?

oh my GODDDDD THIS GOT LONG IT’S GOING UNDER A READ MORE

so i think that’s when he decides to adopt peter, because he probably thinks it out of the question to just dump him back on terra ---- probably chats to him a bit and learned his mothers dead, anyway, so it’s like, what has this kid got to go back too ? he decides it on a whim, and then he has to justify that decision to the rest of his crew ( bc like, i doubt most of them would care abt what ego is doing, judging from their attitudes in gotg2 ). SO IT’S LIKE. he’s skinny, can fit into places adults can’t, good for thievin. and his crew r like yeah okay, good idea captain

SIDE NOTE that’s probably why peter thinks thats why yondu took him in. like, the crew thought that, so they told him, and yondu Can’t Act Soft, so he goes along with it. obviously peter believes that. he never heard otherwise.

and like !! we can’t ignore the fact yondu beat peter up to teach him how to fight. he probably didnt mean to scare him or like, give him permanent emotional damage, but that DID happen and he IS sorry about it, and can’t excuse that. he probably did it bc the ravager lifestyle is FULL of violence, and you have to know how to fight if you wanna survive, so better to teach him that from a young age. fuckign. lets him spar w/ the rest of the crew who also have like, no idea how to deal w a kid, so they’re probably way too rough w him.

god. and he rlly does love peter. it’s shown especially in peters flashbacks in gotg2 at the end, where we see yondu teaching him how to shoot. you CANNOT TELL ME there weren’t a bunch of soft moments like that, esp when it was just the two of them and yondu doesnt have to keep up appearances. a lot of what peter knows now is thanks to what yondu taught him. flying, shooting, stealing.

HES JUST !!! he wasnt a good dad. he didnt do it right. he didnt know how. but he loved peter, he always did, from the very first time he made him smile he’s been soft on him. despite everything: peter is his son. he’s family. and honestly, as much as he wishes he didnt break the ravager code ---- looking back, he doesn’t regret it, because otherwise he’d never have had peter. like this kid means the world to him, even if hes absolutely horrible at showing it. can i just fucking die im literally crying as i write this

AFTER GOTG2 WHEN HE SURVIVES and he’s well enough to be back on his feet, he works on rebuilding his relationship w/ peter. he rlly tries to act like a dad, even if its too late and he still... doesnt rlly know how.

anyway i love yondu. thanks

#➴ OOC » number one yondu stan ❞#i need a headcanon tag or like a meta tag but H

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disanddatmedia · 3 years

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So, normally i would say the connection that you have to family but by the sounds of how your mom is, lets say a good family member/friend that youre really close to

so as I said, a partner should be someone that is like your best friend but with some extra

relationships (of all kinds) can be broken down into 3 parts: friendship, emotional, physical

friendship: this is pretty easy but it essentially being able to get along with, trust in, have some similar interests, and you have some protective instinct (like not wanting them hurt) towards them (at a basic level), you hang out with them at times and talk to them and whatnot, this is pretty easy, you might find yourself hugging them or high5ing them, maybe even dance innocently with at times.

the other 2 build on top of friendship.

Physical: this is a physical attraction towards the person, now to basically sum it up is, this is things that you won't typically do with a blood relative (we are not Alabama, so we aint counting them in this xD, sorry for the bad joke). this has a few grey areas but that is something that gets cleared up by communicating with a new partner about this (like "hey where does 'x' fall under")

emotional: this is the harder one but hopefully you will understand after this. emotional is all in the mind and non-physical interactions. so this is like: interests lining up really well, personalities being compatible (so being able to get along really well and can even play on one another), the protective instinct (wanting to help them, wanting to make sure they're okay, wanting to make sure they safe), wanting to do things for them, you think of them when you're not around them, you miss them (whether that be in person or talking to them) and so on and so on, it basically takes parts of mental and personality parts of a friendship and ups it more

now, you can arrange these to make different types of relationships, so:

friendship=regular friend

friendship+physical=friends with benefits

friendship+emotional=best friends/close family (assuming they are good family, bad toxic family dles not fall unddr here)

physical=causal/one night stand

physical+emotional= crush (not to a friend), well this makes a bad relationship if it doesn't add friendship honestly, you need that friendship part, so ill say toxic relationship if it develops without friendship

emotional= this is the weird one, ill say... family that you're not close to but care for, like you're not going out to hangout with them but if something happen you be sad still

and now, all 3= relationship/partner. When this is reach it expands on all 3 as well.

so love, what the fuck is love then? love falls under friendship and emotional (not physical)

so under friendship, its an platonic love, like that caring for them, enjoying time together, missing them at times, etc. and under emotional, well it actually really needs both friendship and emotional, so it would expand and be more intense for things that a friendship has.

some say that you get butterfiles in your belly and some say you cant them off your mind, and some say its you get reminded of them everywhere, but those dont last forever even if you're in love with them, so lets not think of those, instead lets grab to other things (non toxic trails obviously, im not leading people into a toxic one)

so that person is who you feel very safe around and find comfort in

you enjoy your time with them

you are happy around them (even with depression but its more of a break from depression)

you feel like you can be yourself around them without Judgement

you and your partner are a team, so you both work together to reach your collective and individual goals and help one another/support each other

you flirt with each other (that can be dirty jokes to complements and joking around in ways that are for you two)

you complete each other (i know people say this without explanation so what they mean is if you think of it like if you were writing music and you write something but something is missing, so you think of it and then someone comes along and gives you what your sound has been missing this whole time and you also give that thing that they were missing from their sound so now you both make this beautiful sound that without the other, you wont have known.)

you want to have a future together (whatever that intails)

you want to share your live with them

you want to show them things that you did

you either understand or have similar love language (how you express it and yes you have one too because this can be extended to friends as well at times, so everyone h a love language)

you trust them enough to tell them stuff (includes secrets/trauma stuff)

when something good/bad happens to them you feel what they feel as well

you do things for them/inspired by them

and theres more.

the love language is the way that you should love (romanticly or friendship/family) is how you should said love to them, theres primary ones and secondary ones (i.e. most common and not as common), they are not the same between person to person and they can be different on how its expressed towards different groups, so for me for example some of mine would be ( btw, 'ff'=family/friend and r=romanticly, romanticly will also have parts or include all that are label 'ff' but not the other way around)

sending memes/tiktoks etc. (ff)

helping them (ff)

doing things for them (ff)

making things for them (more R but can be ff, depends on the thing i guess)

"loves ya (too)" (ff)

"(I) love you (too)" (R) (notice that ff has an "s" at the end and uses "ya", its how i differate, im weird i know)

showing music/movies to with (ff, tho while there might be limits on this, R has no limits)

touch (hugs, high5s, fist bumps, comforting pat/hold, basic dancing) (ff)

touch (hand holding, dancing of all types (and will be the first choice always), kissing, etc.) (R)

cooking for them (ff)

staying up super late for/with them (ff)

enjoy talking to them/talk to them alot (ff)

and memories made, which ill explain upon in a bit

anyways, im sure theres more BUT! when in an relationship, the "ff" are very common and are more prominent and the "R" are included (where they may (depending) not be included in a friendship)

if you are to say "I love you" to someone it should feel natural, mind you, the first time saying it to someone/saying it back for the first time can be absolutely terrifying, lots of anxiety, heart pounding, nervous as all hell as you not only await for the response but also say it out loud to them to see how that feels for you yourself and hey if the stars align you get the response you hope for and the feeling you wanted and its like when you beat a really hard boss in a game or when you finally get down that hard song you were trying to learn.

memories, why is this separated? its because it is what makes relationships stronger, you gotta make memories to make it stronger (its really not hard honestly). While it is applied to all types, a relationship itself deepens that feeling of love, and expands even more on all of those trails in each of the 3 parts of the relationship, which means it makes the relationship feel more better than before. Also if one remembers something small or important from awhile ago and show they remember later it can make one feel very special.

now, theres the chemical part of "love". there are 4 main chemicals that is associated with love, funny thing, you can feel these without love, however, when in love these chemicals are easier to reach and easier to combine, this is where the reference "love is addictive/love is a drug" comes from, the 4 main chemicals are: dopamine, serotonin, endorphins, and oxytocin. Also know as: pleasure/reward, satisfaction/importance, enjoyment/pain relief (not strong but a little), and love/connection (also known as the cuddle hormone). being around/talking to this person you love can be enough to trigger any or multiple of these chemicals and if you're having a bad day, being around this petson can help ease the rough day due to the emotional attachment and these chemicals being released when needed to balance out.

(insert the 2 photos talking about these chemicals)

now, you might be wondering "I hear alot of songs that talk about love but I can't relate." And well if you want lets listen to some and well analyze them with this document ive made

-sing your heart out, the trews (song about the feeling of love, like how one would be)

-loveless, said the whale (how love grows)

-man of two minds, the trews (when you crush on 2 different people)

-agape, bear's den (when you fear losing someone you love romanticly)

-perfect, amy hef (feeling like you found someone perfect)

-shut up and dance, walk the moon (the chemical rush of love)

so in summary, love is this magical and confusing thing, where its elements of friendship, emotional, and physical components all together to make all of it stronger and better, its like a best friend that you can be closer to, someone that is like positive family, your other half that without, you dont grow the way that you want to grow (like you learn about yourself and learn new things and have a support system), a physical partner that knows you well and wants to do well by you, an cocktail of strong chemicals that can make people crazy and wonderful, and something absolutely beautiful feeling. I hope that you are able to feel this feeling one day, its wonderful, and if you do feel this feeling, i hope that it is with someone positive and wonderful for you :)

(insert playlist songs to analyze and compare)

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLKRwutKPPfjUFLawhNJ_jCSfAs9wxSRzP

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clefairytails · 6 years

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lesbian tag game

thx for sending me this @redcladsheikah <3 all my lesbian friends should do this too, if you want uwu i’m too lazy to tag like 50 ppl hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh @lebians @tiedyked @talaxian @lesbian-mcelroy @ireallylikecameras

1: did you ever think you were straight?

not really, i knew i liked girls even as a child. but i did go through multiple periods of trying to convince myself i was straight, needless to say it didn’t work out lol.

2: what’s your favorite element of gay culture?

our sense of humor! it’s amazing that we’re all so funny despite putting up with so much bullshit.

3: are you femme, butch, or neither?

femme! i’ve been looking into femme history lately, bcs the idea that femme is just an aesthetic is a misconception c:

4: do you prefer to date femmes or butches?

tbh every time i declare i have a type i immediately fall for someone that’s the complete opposite of that, so i have no idea. lately i’ve been wanting a goth gf, but i just developed a crush on a prep soooo i’m terrible at self-reflection. this bitch don’t know what she want.

5: what’s the worst part about being a lesbian?

the feeling that there’s a part of you that needs to be fixed, but you can’t do anything about it. it’s like seeing a picture on the wall that’s crooked, but it’s stuck like that and you can’t ever straighten it. or having a hair out of place that keeps sticking up no matter how much you try to gel it down.

6: what’s the best part of being a lesbian?

is women too obvious of an answer? girls are angels and i’d die for all of them

7: how long were you questioning for?

pretty much never, i guess. i had crushes on girls since kindergarten, then in 2nd grade i was told girls could only like boys, so i tried my best to be straight even though in my heart i knew i wasn’t. since i couldn’t make myself like boys, i kinda just ignored the idea of liking anyone at all until middle school, when i found out what the word “lesbian” means online. of course, all the stuff i found about lesbians called us disgusting perverts, so i went through many phases of calling myself literally anything else but a lesbian. i’ve only started using the word lesbian specifically in the last few years, especially since i joined an amazing discord group. i love them so much, they’ve helped me feel so proud of being a lesbian <3

8: what’s the most annoying thing straight people do?

exist.

jk lmao, i’m honestly not annoyed by straight people, but i like making jokes as if i am. it’s hard to annoy me in general, i’ve got a high tolerance for that type of stuff. if i have to answer, i hate it when strangers (usually straight men) pry into my sex life, but i’m not really annoyed by that as much as i am creeped out.

9: what do you look for in a girl?

vampirism is my only requirement.

10: if you had to marry someone you know right now, who would you choose?

@lebians bcs i feel they’d be the most able to put up with my bullshit. everyone else would kill me on sight. if only @ireallylikecameras was still single, then when we got married we could put together our 50% employee discounts at BK and get infinite food for free, ending world hunger. i think that’s how it works, but also im gay and therefore bad at math.

11: do you have a crush right now?

does being in love count as a crush? if so, then i have three.

12: do you fall in love easily?

i crush easily, and i say i’m in love easily bcs i’m a leo (meaning i need to exaggerate to live), but actually feeling love? only once.

13: is there anyone in your life right now you think you’ll date in the future?

fingers crossed.

14: is there anyone you want to be kissing right now?

at the moment i’m feeling very touch repulsed, so no. but i also go through periods of feeling touch starved, and during those times i’d kiss pretty much anyone lmao.

15: do you think you’ve met your future wife yet?

i don’t know if i want to be married. i hate making commitments.

16: top, bottom, or vers?

i suspect i’m a bottom, but i’m also a virgin with no self awareness about what she wants or likes, so who really knows.

17: is there anyone you wish you could fuck right now?

still feeling touch repulsed, so no. also i have issues with actual real life sex. i always think i want to have sex, but when the situation becomes real, i feel disgusted by it and chicken out. i have no idea if this is some sort of asexuality or internalized lesbophobia. i should probably go to therapy lol.

18: rough or gentle?

rough, in theory. like i said, virgin who doesn’t know what she likes. but as a general rule, i don’t like slowness.

19: how many stereotypes do you fit into?

i’m fat, hairy, make lots of jokes about hating men (at least online, not in real life bcs i dont wanna get stabbed), i sometimes look like a guy,

20: what version of the lesbian flag do you like most? (butch, lipstick, original, etc.)

i like the femme one! i have it as my banner, it’s the lipstick lesbian flag without the lip print. the original flag was so fucking good, too bad it got taken by the terfs. the labrys is such a powerful image, and purple is a good color. also i saw a moon lesbian flag going around, that one is so good.

21: do you have a good gaydar?

hhhh i’d like to pretend i do but tbh i’m not very observant and straight up bad at reading people.

22: be honest, would you rather be straight?

yes and no. i’d rather have been born straight, because it would’ve saved me so much pain, but it’s a few years too late for that lol. if there was a magic pill that could make me straight today, i wouldn’t take it. i’ve been through so much as a lesbian, it means something to me now and i wouldn’t trade that for anything.

23: are you cis?

yep.

24: are you a sugar mommy or a sugar baby at heart?

hardcore sugar baby. my dream job is being an older woman’s trophy wife.

25: are you committed to someone at all right now emotionally?

hhhhhhhhhh unfortunately. i don’t want to be.

26: are you looking for a serious relationship currently?

yes, but i shouldn’t be. i don’t think i’m ready to be in one.

27: is there someone you’d like to be in a serious relationship in?

yes, but she’s straight and already married lmao. whoops.

28: do you want children?

no, i’m too selfish and irresponsible.

29: is your family accepting of your sexuality?

my mom and dad are, though they don’t take it very seriously. pretty sure they expect me to grow out of it one day. can’t blame them tho, i’m waiting for the same thing lmao. my extended family is huge, and their opinions range from being extremely homophobic to being gay themselves, but i’m interacting with them less and less as i get older.

30: how confident are you in your sexuality?

very confident, though i don’t want to be. i’m still secretly hoping one day i’ll see a guy i’m attracted to and he’ll fix me, but being realistic, i’m a huge fucking lesbian. women are enchanting.

31: are you polyamorous or monogamous?

monogamous. my insecure ass could not be poly hhhhhh.

32: what advice do you have for your 12 year old self?

be more selfish. you don’t have to put yourself second for the sake of others, especially at your age. nothing you do will matter in a decade, go fucking wild.

33: have you ever been to a gay bar?

nope. i want to go one day, but i have terrible social anxiety.

34: leather jackets or flannel?

both of those are really hot, but i’m gonna go with leather jacket.

35: describe your dream girlfriend

- vampire

- big tiddy goth gf

- nice personality or smthn

- uhhhhhhhhh tiddy

(ok but srsly, i can’t answer this question bcs i NEVER know what i want!! i always thought my type was THICC for sure, but all three of the ladies i have feelings for rn are pretty skinny and flat chested)

36: do you have any lesbian friends?

at least 50 lol.

37: what elements of gay culture do you actively participate in?

air, water, sometimes earth. never fire.

38: do you find straight people irritating?

nope, but i do find straight pda uncomfortable to look at. mostly bcs it reminds me of what i'm supposed to want. but i’d never tell a straight person that, obviously. i’m not rude.

39: would you rather adopt a kid or have a biological kid?

i’ll adopt a tortoise, and feed her any children that cross my path. but if i did ever have a child, i’d want it to be biologically mine and my wife’s. mostly bcs i’d want to know what it would look like, which is a selfish and stupid reason to have kids, and exactly why i’m not gonna lmao.

40: do you love yourself?

i’m a LEO (jokes aside, i don’t know. sometimes i do, sometimes i don’t. but i love myself more as time goes on. definitely more than i did than when i was a teen, at least.)

#tag game #long post #im a LEO

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wanna1things · 6 years

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Kindergarten Teacher!Hwang Minhyun

because minhyun with kids is all i have ever needed in my whole entire life

Genre;; if kindergarten teacher is an au, this is it... also super fluffy

Warnings;; NONE unless you hate kids and minhyun

Pairing;; Hwang Minhyun x reader

Requested;; no... i wrote this last year lmao

Summary;; Hwang Minhyun is the perfect kindergarten teacher; he can sing, play piano and he’s amazing with kids. He’s also amazing at stealing your heart...

Style;; bullet point

Word Count; 1691

I wrote this last year around the time when Canvas was released and i realised its super cute and i’ve never seen an AU like this so while im in this busy period i might as well post it!! also yeah its time for me to actually post something about my ult lmao

minhyun works at the kindergarten that your niece goes to

of course he’s her teacher lol

but no really all of the kids love him because he’s always so funny and he’s the best singer??

every day they have half an hour where he plays piano for the kids and sings children’s songs with them and it’s so cute all the kids aspire to be in minhyun’s class lmao your niece got lucky

the headteacher doesn’t even get mad when he forgets to teach them proper songs and instead teaches them the theme tunes to tv shows sdhfgsd

‘go go power rangers’ yes minhyun sing it

they hold recitals/showcases every 2 months that showcase the kids singing i mean they’re not the best singers but it’s cute for the parents

and of course every time minhyun plays the piano for them

and every time minhyun’s class is the best in sync and they always get a standing ovation

and they always sing a tv show theme song hsdgfjs bless

when your brother has a job come up in japan for 2 months he leaves your niece in your care

lmao good luck with this hyperactive child

but no she’s wonderful

so... now you have to drop her to that kindergarten class

it’s not like you didn’t know who minhyun was i mean everyone knew

and you’d been to the recitals so many times because well… a) you love your niece and b) christ that mr hwang guy has a VOICE and he’s BEAUTIFUL

the first time you drop your niece off minhyun is so confused

‘excuse me,, you don’t look like y/n/n’s parents… who are u’

takes you a second to process what he says because lmao close up he’s like 20x better looking

‘ahh;; im y/n;; she’s my niece;; im looking after her for 2 months while her dad’s in japan for work’

‘oh okay!! thanks for dropping her off, y/n!! in case you didn’t know i’m mr hwang but you can call me minhyun!! i’ll see you here at three~’

LISTEN after that you had to go catch your breath outside OH MY GOd you spoke to the guy you’ve secretly been crushing on since your niece entered kindergarten lmao

when its pick up time you decide to get there a bit early

and you manage to turn up exactLY WHEN HE’S DOING THE SINGING CLASS

and as you’re waiting in the hall for the class to finish you hear minhyun singing the theme song for this really popular kids show and you really can’t help but laugh

like a voice that nice singing a kids tv show theme is kinda funny because it’s so unexpected sjfhdh

the bell goes and it pulls you out of your daydreaming about mr hwang

and as you wait for your niece to come out someone taps you on the shoulder

uh minhyun’s back

‘hey , y/n!! I saw you got back here early today!! I was wondering if you’re always here this early you can come and sit in the music lessons!!’

‘yeah, sure!! i’ll come and watch every day then thank you!!!’

he just smiles that cute smile (that STILL REMINDS ME OF MY TORTOISE)

‘i could hear you laughing from inside’

UM OOPS

you can honestly feel the blush on your cheeks as minhyun waves and disappears back into the room like wow okay your cheeks are bURNING

and your niece runs out with her bag in her hands and basically drags you out of the kindergarten tbh you’re still completely in shock

from that day onwards you’re a regular at the music class

at first some of the kids are like ?? why are you here?? but once your niece explains they accept you like a second teacher

after about a week minhyun recruits you to play an instrument

at first he tries getting you to play piano with him but that’s a bit too crowded there’s only one piano stool

so uh welcome resident triangle player

it’s an easy job but you’re not going to complain i mean

playing tv theme songs with minhyun is surprisingly fun and really it’s the highlight of your day

one day after you had a particularly rough day;; you got stuck in the barriers at the train station and your scarf went missing

minhyun noticed and let you sit in the special chair in the corner of the room that looked a bit like a throne to play triangle

instead of having to stand up or sit in one of the kiddy chairs

by this time you’re about three weeks into the 2 months

and it was time to start preparing for the showcase which your brother was returning from japan to see

one day he asks you to stay a bit later to help him pick out a song

and of course you agree

you let your niece go to the corner to play with the toys while you and minhyun chat and discuss the ideas

while you two are brainstorming what song to do, he suddenly puts his hand on your shoulder lmao you got a bit shook

‘hey,, y/n… can you perform on stage with me at this recital?? i’d really like it if you could!!!’

who are you to deny this beautiful angel this request

‘of course i’ll play with you!! it’s only the triangle though i’m not sure how supportive that will be lol’

he hugs you suddenly and it’s like hEARTBEAT SPEED X100000000000

but you can feel his heart is racing too like aw okay bless

you know

about a week later the kids start teasing you and minhyun shfdhs sneaky assholes

‘mr hwang!! are you and y/n married??’

literally that question or a variation of it every 0.5 seconds

and you two lovebirds are blushing because you both obviously like each other but you’re kinda blind and don’t want to say anything uhh

he just flashes his eye smile and winks at the kids not even denying it

that is until one friday minhyun asks you to stay behind again

and right as you’re waiting for the kids to go out one of the parents approaches you and is like

‘hey!! my son told me you and minhyun are married!! congratulations on scoring the guy all the parents here are secretly swooning over lol’

and you blush a lot bc omg no we’re not married not even dating

you just mumble a thank you and go back to waiting for them all to leave

when they’re all done leaving minhyun asks your niece to step out of the room for a second

and so she does wow obedient child

minhyun suddenly takes ahold of your hand and he breathes in and out like really deeply bless nervous boy

‘uh;; y/n;; i really like you?? and i want us to date?? but if you don’t that’s okay??’

WHAT

you don’t even need to think you already know your answer

‘of course i want to date you omg???????????’

he hugs you really really tight and you can hear him breathe a sigh of relief bless

‘let’s not tell the kids though,, i think we should reveal it to them at the showcase’

CUE ONE MONTH OF TRYING TO HIDE YOUR RELATIONSHIP

kids are super perceptive but obviously because you two keep denying it they drop it well kinda

they just say it a bit less often lol

when it gets to the day of the recital/showcase thing

you two are planning your big reveal at his apartment while your niece is at her parents seeing as they’re back from japan now lol

and you’re helping minhyun change into his suit ready to leave

and sjfgshgfj omg he looks so good in a suIT YOU’RE ALMOST DYING

you were just going to wear jeans and a tshirt to play triangle but minhyun passes you a box and inside is like a really smart outfit that he picked himself and it looks really expensive lmao how did this kindergarten teacher afford this

but you go and get changed

and uhh cliche minhyun is just;; shooketh

you look so good he can’t resist kissing you UH

but no time to waste you gotta goooo to the recital

minhyun starts on stage but as always his class is last

and when it’s their turn you’re backstage with them cheering them on when your niece turns to you and says

‘hey are you sure you and minhyun aren’t in love’

you just wink at her and boom time to go onstage

THE SONG GOES DOWN SO WELL though it’s amazing

you spot your brother in the audience and send him a wave in the gap in your triangle playing

the song ends and minhyun does the thing where you tap the microphone

‘hello everyone i have an announcement to make’

the hall is just completely silent like boy better not be resigning

of course he’s not he loves the kids too much

‘the school has a new permanent triangle player!! they’re y/n and we are in love!!’

ALL the kids suddenly cheer and you can hear about 20 of them just saying ‘i knew it i bet on it you owe me $3 pay up’ I’M KIDDING

then minhyun does the cheesiest thing

yea he kisses you in front of everyone

when you look back over at you brother he is just clapping wildly and giving you a thumbs up wow brothers approval

BUT ANYWAY

from that day on you two are the cutest couple

you’re officially the triangle player for the whole kindergarten

i mean the kindergarten doesn't pay you but they should by now because you’re there literally 24/7

you move in with minhyun and you spend 90% of the day together but it's cute

when your niece comes to stay it's always so cute because

you 3 crowd around his electric piano and sing songs together (there's no triangle for you to play here sorry)

and those moments really make you look forward to your future together...

uh yeah this is cute and i love minhyun sm im going to die anyway its really late so !! good night && i hope you enjoyed;;

#minhyun #hwang minhyun #hmh #nu'est #nuest #wanna one #wannaone #wannable #wannaone imagines #wanna one imagines #nu'est imagines #au #kindergarten!au #teacher!au #kindergarten teacher!au #produce 101 #produce 101 imagines

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