My arms are giving fat. Anyway, aren't the bandages lovely? A sign of how much I care. I'll always be there for myself. Even if I'm my own worst enemy I will always nurture what I have hurt.
Oh, it's so poetic.
Also, this qeutiapine (seroquel) is not working at all. Lmao, what a joke.
Why I feel like I belong to the edblr community?It feels like a warm home, where nobody has high expectations of you, and there are a lot of people that understand you....
i've hid my pain for so long that i naturally act happy even though i'm so fucking depressed. ALL I WANT TO DO IS CRY AND SCREAM... but i don't want to be a burden 😔
I feel like as if im drowning inside my room and i want to ask for help but a tiny voice says back of my head, "don't over-react, you don't need help, we're fine", so, i stay as i am. I don't know what to do anymore, im not controlling myself, the voices are and its getting worst and worst. I want someone to save me before i k1ll myself.
I'm not me in this body I want to bleed and cut it all up until I'm no longer a figure. I want to be a non existent entity free of the shackles of my humanity.
It's sickening to think this body is mine forever tied to my name.
My head is flooding with thoughts and feelings but it's such big waves right after one another that I'm being numbed by the consistent pain and pressure
It feels like I need to sob scream and rip my flesh apart but I'm so exhausted I can't even bring myself to shed a tear