#in general ends up bringing down my other friendships? sometimes with people if i don't really interact it's either i'm busy or

[skrunksthatwunk]

one kill la kill detail that's particularly dear to me that ive never seen anyone talk about is how blatant mako's crush on ryuko is from the get-go

like, mako doesn't really go out of her way to make friends. she's sometimes friendly with people, especially when she happens to be around them (i.e. maiko, gamagori, satsuki), but we don't really see her seek out friendship in the way she does with ryuko. they meet briefly before school, but ryuko doesn't even say a word to her. but then mako does stuff like immediately eagerly waving ryuko over in class, trying to tackle-hug her, declaring them besties because they're desk neighbors. do you think she and that guy ryuko replaced were bffs bc of this? or any of the other people mako has sat next to? no. and while one could argue that maybe she tried and failed with everyone but ryuko, her persistence when it comes to ryuko (which ryuko herself comments on and which is evident before ryuko really accepts her company (i.e. before she moves in with the mankanshokus)) doesn't seem to be present with anyone else. mako knows what it's like to be lonely, but she has no reason in particular to latch on to ryuko, other than, perhaps, that shes someone she hasn't tried yet. but she meets new people pretty often, and that doesn't lead to much interest on her end.

it seems more likely that something about ryuko caught her attention from the jump, likely how cool and pretty she is (something she talks about a LOT.) she talks (with her family) about how hot ryuko's body is, how good her old pajamas look on her, compares her tit size to satsuki's (which means she was either staring at both of theirs or that she simply feels that ryuko's are bigger, likely out of loyalty or respect for her (think big dick energy)), etc etc etc. like she's always fawning over her and cheering her on and showing her off as her "bestest friend" to mikisugi and aghhhghdfhgdjdjdh she's so gay man. what the fcuk

this isn't really present throughout the series, but she's often seen blushing or sprouting nose bleeds or ogling ryuko in early episodes. like any time there's a WOAH!!! HOTTIE BOOBA NAKED crowd reaction shot there'll often be a little mako alongside the horny guys blushing or peeking between her fingers or whatever like. she checks her out

she also is immediately very welcoming and supportive of ryuko. she tells her family to leave her alone when she's talking to senketsu and that it's not that weird, defends her in the fight club episode, literally invites her to uhaul on day one (classic lesbian maneuver) like. and she's also always talking about how close ryuko and senketsu are, that ryuko and senketsu are closer to each other than anyone else, that, while she's in ryuko's corner, she never really asserts herself as ryuko's best friend, even though she's very clear that ryuko is her best friend. she thinks she comes second. she's a very good sport about it, but something about that natural assumption that she's not her #1 is a little sad to me, though maybe she's just giving ryuko space and understanding in a very generous way. again, she's very supportive. like she's always doing what she can to cheer ryuko up or help her along, like bringing her lunches and standing up for her when the students of honouji bend the rules in their favor (like in the tennis episode). she's very "ily!!!! no pressure. but you're great :D" and i love that for her (though occasionally when shit gets dire she'll put her foot down, especially as the series goes on, i.e. rebelling against satsuki, the wedding dress scene, insisting this and that about the ryuko she knows (esp right after the time skip)

she's also got her cuddly streak. about half of it's reserved for hallelujah moments but there's also the scooter ride and her calling back monster-ryuko and the post-recovery nuzzling (i love that scene ehehhehdhdhshdgcvzkzh) and the epilogue moments and her GLOMPS

anyway my point is she loves ryuko and she does from the jump and she's great and i love her and ryuko loves her too but that's a separate post and yeah!!!!! girlfriends <3

#klk #kill la kill #ryumako #theyre my favorite sapphic ship idk why they just hit different. theyre so cute and they love each other etc #mako mankanshoku #ryuko matoi #i wish i could provide screenshots of the early episode blushing and whatever but alas i am. lazy. someday hopefully i will #anyway shes down bad for her lol #just gotta ramble about them sometimes. i should do that more often i like klk a lot

[mercurianthing]

ASTROLOGY OBSERVATIONS Pt.1 🗣️😻👠

🫀 Scorpio Moons may feel as children less loved by their mother than one specific sibling (sometimes the closest sibling they have out of all the siblings they have) but something I have noticed is that when they grow up it reverses and they are the ones who become their mother's favorite children.

🫀 I have noticed that most, if not all Venus in Aquarius people have experienced or will experience a "friends to lovers" type of relationship, This is mainly because Aquarius is the ruler of the 11th house which is the house that talks about friendships and friends.

🫀 When someone's Venus falls in your 8th house, it makes the Venus person obsessed with you, with the other relationships you have in your life besides them, wanting to be an important part of your life, wanting to know everything about your other relationships, about your life in general and about you, and think about you obsessively. If you two are no longer in contact and you wondering if they've forgotten about you, trust me, they haven't, and they probably never will, they can't.

🫀 Uranus in the 7th house will always have the desire to be in an open relationship, it depends on the other placements and aspects in the birth chart, but most of them would prefer to be in an open relationship or at least a relationship with someone who allows them to feel free in their relationship.

🫀 Moon conjunct Venus in synastry always ends in bitterness and bad relations even hatred between the two but always somehow they come back to each other until they have learned their lesson. and if they don't go back to each other, both or at least one of them will always have the desire to return to this relationship because of all the memories and the great love that existed between the two during the relationship, the relationship will always be remembered by both people because it was deep and powerful, with a lot of understanding and magnetizing.

🫀 If YOU have placements that fall in someone's 8th and 2nd house, they will always not mind spending money on you, no matter if they have it or not, it will always feel natural for them to spend money on you without thinking too much or regretting, they will also offer Pay for you and buy things for you, depending on which locations. (If it's in the 2nd house they'll usually like to buy you food even without you asking).

🫀 If you have any hard placement (Saturn, Pluto, chiron and lilith) in Cancer or in the 4th house, it can indicate a difficult or complex relationship with your mother and if you have any hard placement (Saturn, Pluto, Chiron and lilith) in Capricorn or in the 10th house, it can indicate a difficult or complex relationship with your father. (also depends on the aspects of the placement).

🫀 Mercury sextile Venus really know how to speak and how to turn situations in their favor through speech, people don't notice this because their speech is so fascinating and magnetizing. they also have a pleasant and beautiful voice.

🫀 Mars in the 3rd house can indicate that you will experience or have already experienced physical abuse from one of your siblings.

🫀 If someone has Mars in your tenth house it can indicate that they are constantly trying to bring you down or sting you. It's because of how people see you and how you appear in public in terms of personality and public image, you are everything that person wants to be and how they want people to see them, it can be really tiring to hear these people trying to bring you down all the time and it can make you insecure, So be very careful around people with whom you have this synastry.

NOW I'm done with my speech 🤡 hope y'all liked it and that you were able to read till the end ☠️, I love y'all 😽💌

#astrology observations #astrology #astro notes #astro placements #astro observations #astro community #natal placements #synastry observations #synastry notes #astro posts

[ghostlycorvid]

2023 Introspective

This year started with cutting off a toxic person who had already shut me out of mutual friend spaces but kept stringing me along with "maybe in a few more months I'll let you back in". 2022 was rough on its own, especially pre-antidepressants, but a huge part of it was stuff involving this person. Blocking them and finally accepting that it was not worth trying to repair what little relationship was left was the most freeing thing I've ever done and helped me to continue that with any other rude unpleasant individual I've had to share spaces with. It's been genuinely wonderful to realize I don't have to sit there and listen to bad takes or people who are needlessly mean, so I'm glad something came out of that friendship nightmare scenario.

It still took a lot of time to not sit there in anger and frustration spirals over the way things ended up, but in February I got permission from my bosses to bring my dog Chili to work with me due to needing to keep him and our other dog from playing while she was recovering from her spay. I ended up realizing that even though Chili is a huge anxiety baby, having him with me legitimately was helping distract me from negative thoughts spirals and gave me something positive to focus on when I was getting frustrated by work-related stuff in the moment. He ended up helping a couple coworkers come down from panic attacks later in the year too. My boss likes how "calm" he is enough that he gave me permission to bring Chili to work all the time (within reason), so he's come with me on most non-event days. His progress has been slow, but he's also been improving from the regular socialization!

I finally started to really focus on my own art and developing my own products and designs, both for my personal shop and for the shop at work. I've come out the other side of this year with 9 new enamel pin designs between the two! (A couple I haven't shared yet! ;D)

I was finally given an Adderall prescription which magically solved my problem where I couldn't stay awake during the day no matter how much sleep I'd gotten! And also it started helping me focus a little better too, but genuinely the non-sleepy thing was the most lifechanging part of the medication for me. The pit in my stomach when I was told that person felt like I was stalking and surveilling them if I was quiet in a call or stream despite years of me communicating that I was constantly struggling to even stay conscious was... HOO BOY. After years of fighting for my life to stay awake in college and sometimes even while DRIVING TO AND FROM WORK,,,,,,,, I really thought something was seriously wrong with me (besides the ADHD since I didn't realize it was a symptom of that)

With toxic people removed from my social spaces and general perception, I've finally started to join group calls with my friends again without anxiety or fear of not being welcome. It's helped me start to get back into playing games again, and I've been able to get into a few that either have built in accessibility features to avoid hand strain, or I've been able to modify my hardware setup to help with issues I was running into before. I've finally managed to pick up Warframe again, and I'm bouncing between that and Path of Titans without being hopelessly deep in a hyperfocus.

I officially got promoted at my job to Retail & Visitor Services manager (and got a $3 raise in Nov!!). While I'm struggling with finding help to ease my increased workload, I'm definitely way better off than before we hired on extra staff. It's given me a lot of networking opportunities (and excuses to go on field trips on the clock for ~*networking*~) and I've been juuuust starting to poke my head into local groups. One is a monthly artists crafting meetup right by work that starts right when I clock out! :D

I had the energy and free time to start branching out and trying other arts and crafts hobbies that had been interesting me! Ended up getting a serger machine to help really tidy up clothes that I make! I got into linocut & block printing, and have been having a lot of fun working on designs for that kind of printing. I even made a few printed shirts! And of course there was Andromeda, the first puppet I've ever made, and pretty much my proudest achievement in all my years of art so far.

I've honestly been spending less time on social media proper, usually forgetting to check tumblr for days or weeks at a time. Which has been good and bad, but overall better for me to stop feeling like I HAVE to fully backlog everything ever.

I got my first tattoo this year after wanting one for years and years! And that opened up a whole new can of worms and now I'm ending the year with 5 tattoos and 2 more scheduled in the next couple months oops! My first tattoo was Joltik, with my first ever pet spide!

I started keeping spiders this year after years of being too concerned about keeping pets that required live feeding! That also was a slippery slope. I picked up Indrid my red-backed jumper and Autumn my pumpkin patch t at the end of January, and now I have them, a regal jumper, a red-knee t, and a togo starburst t. You'd never guess that less than a decade ago I was scared shitless of all spiders. :> Especially now that I will occasionally free-handle wild spiders that need relocation to someplace safer. (Mostly still just jumpers tho)

Things aren't perfect by any means and I still have a lot of areas I want to personally improve myself in, but I feel like overall this has been a really really good year for me and I want to keep that momentum going into 2024! More art! More projects just for me! More time with friends! More enjoying games! More tidying my space literally and metaphorically!

#in fairness re: driving it only was a danger when i was seriously sleep deprived on top of the adhd understimulation #i am fine now if i am seriously sleep deprived but taking my medicine. that's normal levels of sleepy

[aechaz]

AB / BG / CP / PP.

hi everyone! this is isa (23, she/her) coming to u live with park aecha, a soloist under culture creative. direct links above will bring u to her pages, but i'll do my best to breakdown her background below. i have discord available upon req, but i can plot thru tumblr as well!

somewhat of a standard, subpar childhood tbh. born out of an affair btwn her mother and her father's (?) best friend in l.a. and it's something that sticks with her constantly: a reminder that she really wasn't supposed to happen. her father draws back significantly after, who ends up divorcing her mother afterwards because it's. a lot!!! she moves on quickly, hopping between boyfriends and husbands and affairs in between.

aecha's raised a lot by her aunts and an uncle, who try to minimize the effects of instability to no avail. if she's here, she knows she will end up there in a matter of weeks. aecha gets used to change really fast - she doesn't like it; but she gets used to it. it's easier to get used to it as opposed to fight it and resist it.

ends up officially moving in with her fifth stepfather; moving in with the dude on his tangerine farm in jeju. it's the closest thing to stability aecha has ever known honestly, and her favorite memories are there. her mom ends up moving and disappearing out of her life not too long after, whisking away to another country with another potential husband. unbeknownst to aecha, her mother finally settled down with this one and had children too.

ends up joining a singing club at school purely on a dare (pls don't tell her she can't do something because she will purely in spite of it) and ends up liking it, alot! becomes close with the teacher running the club and eventually is scouted by culture creative staff, who was a former alumni and friend of said teacher.

the rest, as they say, is history!

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aecha is considerably known for her ice princess demeanor. very stoic, sharp, in general icy persona. (think irene, krystal, etc) at the start of her career, she became pretty obsessed with what ppl thought of her and tried super hard to curate her music style to hit that appeal (#mommyissues), which is why her first album sounds so different from everything released afterwards.

learned to stop overexplaining and forcing other people to know her, so she gave up, which is why the bitchy persona stuck. she also stopped trying to justify herself to others and well, that's what the public was left with. the type to let others run and believe what they want - wont go out of her way to correct it. is very much this emoji 😐 on the outside

inwards however!!!! aecha is soft like butter. it's rare to see honestly, she really keeps to herself as much since she's a public figure and yadda yadda, but she's so soft hearted it's a little sad. sometimes her eyes can give away what her face will not, and you can see her almost beg with them. she loves deeply and strongly, and values platonic friendship over romantic or familial ones. she's very supportive of her friends and goes out of her way (sending flowers, cafe carts, reposting on her socials, etc) to make sure its known.

shes a woman of a handful of words, her expressions almost always give her away, but she's slowly evolving into becoming much less logical focused and blending in her deep emotions in as well to her craft and herself. definitely multilayered, a chameleon, and always questioning her existence.

all her social media handles are: @aechacha.

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currently: aecha is working in the background to release an ep at some point soon, but it's coming around slowly. she hasn't had the most inspiration or motivation so it's a long awaited piece. she's been more focused on her modelling aspects and a few talk show / radio appearances. she also wants to focus more on producing and songwriting - definitely working behind the scenes as of late.

she'd like to dive into acting at some point - but is just starting to take acting lessons. when she's not doing work stuff, she has biweekly pilates and pottery lessons she takes. likes to dip her fingers into a little bit of everything.

a big homebody, she likes to hang out with her cat (chickpea, the very definition of an Orange Cat) and tend to her plants. work on random song pieces - some that may never be completed, or cafe hop with friends.

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i have a few plots listed above, but i'm big on brainstorming and going back and forth / seeing what works best with our muses. if none of mine or yours work, let's see what we can come up with together!

#thefourintro #writing this on the clock feeling crazy

[crunchycrystals]

every book i read in september 2023

i did in fact bring this back because i thought it would be fun and all my followers should know that before everything, i am a book nerd. i genuinely think i only feel like i'm alive when i'm reading regularly. no spoilers for any of the books i talk about because i can only have one cut per post

before i get into the books here's some general info on reading stuff this month. so i read 9 books which i'm really proud of myself for after being in a reading slump for ages. i was still reading then but i really was not enjoying myself nearly as much as i was in previous months and i'm really enjoying myself now. 5 of the books i read were physical copies of them, 1 was an ebook, and 3 were audiobooks. my average rating was 4.29/5 and read a total of 13.78 hours on audiobook and 2476 of pages shout out to storygraph for all this info i am telling you use storygraph if you want to track your reading its so great

the cruel prince. i really liked this surprisingly??? the worldbuilding was great and i loved all the political aspects of it. jude was a really interesting main character and i had a lot of fun with the story (especially the plot twist/s, no i'm not saying if there's more than one). i liveblogged a couple parts of the entire series this month so you can check my tfota tag for more in depth thoughts

the lost sisters. it was pretty interesting to see the plot of the cruel prince from the perspective of a different character but i didn't think much about my enjoyment of it since i was just reading it for more info on the series lol

captain stone's revenge. so i went on a nancy drew diaries binge once and i've been keeping up with the series ever since then just because, and i had a hold on this book for like 2 months at the library and i finished it in a day lol. it's a short book and definitely not as good as other books in the series but yk it wasn't awful still had fun reading

we are okay. this is one of my favorite books and i cried for 40 minutes straight as i finished the last like 50-80 pages. it's a really great exploration of different kinds of grief that are complicated and how it affects people. i posted while reading it "every chapter there's something that makes me take psychic damage" which was very fun but also deeply painful (in a fun way most of the time, sometimes i was in public trying not to cry). the ending is so hopeful it made me cry for a different reason why i was crying for the past 35ish minutes. it's a great book i highly recommend it it's only like 230 pages.

the wicked king. sequel to the cruel prince, i also really enjoyed this but i don't think i enjoyed it as much as the cruel prince. still well written though and i have more in depth thoughts under my tfota and/or reading commentary tags

queen of nothing. 100% my favorite from the trilogy i loved it i thought the characters and plot in this one were all super great and i loved the ending especially. i do have more detailed thoughts that i wrote down for me personally but this is a no spoilers section so i won't share it unless someone asks

cress. this is the 3rd book in the lunar chronicles series and aaaaaaa i loved this so much i had so much fun reading it i love the alternating povs and how they all end up clashing with the dramatic irony in that one scene i loved kai's povs i wanted to keep reading constantly i love these characters so much go read the lunar chronicles please

chalice of the gods. uhhh so i finished this in less than 12 hours i liveblogged it all i really enjoyed it you can see my thoughts there go check it out (cotg or reading commentary tag). a lot of cringe moments (WHY does he mention boomers so much) but i am choosing not to see it i only see percabeth and percy grover friendship content again and i enjoyed reading it

daisy jones and the six. i listened to this on audiobook and it was incredibleeeeeeee the voice actors were amazing it was so entertaining. another taylor jenkins reid book about the drama between famous people and it was very entertaining to read about. stressful at times but overall i liked it. once again there are some notes in the reading commentary tag

i also started winter this month but i am definitely finishing it in october so i don't count it lol

#crunchyposts #books #monthly wrap up #<- in case i end up doing this again

[moonwize]

✰ 𝘢𝘥𝘷𝘪𝘤𝘦 + 𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘗𝘈𝘊 ✰

PICK A GUITAR

PILE 1 Channeled song ✰ Mercury ✰ Steve Lacy 9 of pentacles ✰ 8 of swords ✰ strength rx ✰ 3 of wands Don't lose sight of the future, I feel like you get soooo wrapped up into your moments of weakness sometimes. Perhaps you had a severe meltdown recently, or your mental health is just not too great atm.. Be patient, and remember that the future is still bright. There is still abundance in some form that appears in your day to day life. Whether it be an abundance of love, support, money, or creativity. Spiraling & attaching to your negative thoughts/feelings can be addicting because you tend to stonewall shit. You might be someone that people depend on or usually see as their rock- so because you are emotionally starved it can feel addicting to feed into negativity. Prioritize your needs take space more often. Have fun sometimes, engage in casual convos. Maybe take a few days to just disconnect from everyone. king of swords ✰ knight of cups ✰ page of swords ✰ strength This feels like someone's opinion of you? but also in some ways a reflection of you. Perhaps a new connection entered your life, for some it's romantic and for others it's platonic! This person thinks really highly of you and admires your strength, wit, and intellect. There is a sense of mutual excitement and mental stimulation in this connection. A lot of curiosity. I also feel like for those that this is a romantic situation you could get a relationship offer. Or that feelings will be confirmed between you two. This connection might be extremely fulfilling & life changing. I feel like there is also going to be a message of some kind that comes to you soon. It will be something positive, I heard something about a job offer in my head. ✦•······················•✦•······················•✦ PILE 2 Channeled song ✰ Are you in ✰ Incubus 3 of cups rx ✰ 2 of pentacles ✰ the magician ✰ the fool

So, it's like there's 2 separate circumstances here. Romantic, and Friendship. I'll separate you guys. Romance: Perhaps some of you have either had a wandering eye, or your partner has had a wandering eye. I feel like there was a lot of distrust, pain, dissatisfaction & general chaos regarding 3rd parties of some kind. I see that whatever the situation is, if you two chose to stay together that things are currently balancing out right now. If you're experiencing a lot of weird chaos and full circle moments here's why: a new beginning is right ahead of you. It's possible a lot of manifestations went into this relationship. You won't be disappointed at all the blessings and abundance coming. Friendship: Its possible there was some kind of falling out. Some of you will reconnect with this friend, but others of you will move on just fine. They will pay for what they did, or for those who reconnect you will both take accountability and do better in the future of your friendship & start over. I feel like some of you could've started out in a toxic friend group with this person and you both went off on the side and are still unlearning vicious cycles. on the other end, some of you dealt with a draining, toxic, and GOSSIPY person who betrayed you behind your back repeatedly. Expect the betrayal to go right back to them. You will feel so much freer and happier.

6 of pentacles ✰ ace of cups rx ✰ queen of swords ✰ strength

Okay- so I feel like you guys are honestly really sweet people but have some toxic tendencies. One of them being this tendency to overgive to a point that you are literally unable to function. If your cup is empty you literally cannot fill anyone else's. Common sense babe. You are honestly so intelligent and strong. Don't let people who take advantage of you or make you feel weak bring you down. You need to lean into your communicative nature in a healthier way. You have the strength to overcome ALL hurdles. ✦•······················•✦•······················•✦ PILE 3 Channeled song ✰ Peso ✰ A$AP Rocky dreams ✰ page of wands ✰ ace of swords ✰ 9 of cups ✰ anchor I feel like this group is locked the fuck down on what they want in life. I honestly have minimal advice for you, nothing you don't already know. Your dreams are attainable, keep exploring ideas. You're doing good not sharing your manifestations and plans with people. Be aware of people trying to look over your shoulder and get intel on you. I can tell that you guys are really focused on the future, ignoring haters & people who try to tear you down with negativity. Keep it up guys. 4 of wands ✰ 4 of pentacles ✰ knight of pentacles ✰ knight of wands There is so much stability here, I really love it. It's clear to me you have a clear idea of what you want and that you have made a lot of headway into whatever it is you're working on. Whether it be yourself, a creative project, or a raise. I feel like whatever you're working on started out really slow, and then picked up a steady and abundant pace but be prepared it might be kicked up a notch. Someone with a small business might expect a lot of orders. Be sure not to overwhelm yourself with your duties. Pace yourself. ✦•······················•✦•······················•✦ PILE 4 Channeled song ✰ Handful ✰ Father 3 of cups ✰ 8 of wands ✰ queen of wands ✰ strength This group seems to be split like pile 2. I'll be separating the 2 groups. Okay, I feel like some of you really need to shoo away some pests in your life. People who are feeding on your energy, strength, and trying to tap into your possessions I heard? I feel like you know it's time to take action, you have the backin you need. Even if people get mad or "turn their backs on you" they're literally leeches fuck them! It doesn't matter if the fakes feel slighted by your boundaries. Set them, don't live in fear of asserting yourself. For those who are not experiencing that, I feel like you will be celebrating a success soon. Like there was this road you took to self empowerment. Taking control of your life, maybe leaving an abusive relationship, friendship, etc and you've come into a more stable point of your life. I feel like you are being told to use this surge of confidence and energy to put more work into healing and creating a solid emotional foundation for yourself. 8 of cups ✰ the king of wands ✰ 3 of cups ✰ king of pentacles I feel like those of you who are leaving an abusive partner, or friendship are going to find new friends and stability. I feel like there will be so much more consistency in your life. You guys are really likeable and interesting. I feel that people admire your strength and capability. ✦•······················•✦•······················•✦

PILE 5 channeled song ✰ king of the hill ✰ Thundercat 8 of cups ✰ 8 of cups ✰ 8 of wands ✰ 8 of swords

The song I'm listening to rn was literally just like "run, run, run" and tbh, RUN. Idk what's going on, or who you're dealing with but you gotta go like yesterday. I feel like there is nothing left for you there or with that person. Whatever the circumstance, it's dead, it's over. If you're looking for a sign this is it. Stop looking for signs that "oh it'll change they'll get better" NO. leave, now, please. So, I decided to pull some more clarifying cards bc these cards are insane. The imagery of this 8 of wands card is a heart shaped target with the wands being spears stabbing into it. One of the wands goes directly through the middle. queen of wands ✰ death ✰ 3 of pentacles ✰ 3 of cups

Romantic: It's possible that whatever situation comes with this individual has run its course. It's possible they are more interested in other people or situations. Maybe they are emotionally unavailable and more interested in friendship. For most though, it's possible this person is just romantically checked out if it's romantic that is. Non-Romantic: Alternatively, this could indicate that there is someone in your life who embodies all the worst traits of the queen of wands. (Violent, savage, unstable, emotionally chaotic, immature, verbally or physically abusive.) Whoever this person is that embodies these traits, you need to let them go. You should also be aware it's possible this person is actively trying to manifest you and cause you some form of harm. Bad news could come to you regarding this person. Perhaps they are trying to re-enter your life. Please be careful.

#pac #pick a card reading #pac reading #pick a pile #pick a pile reading #tarotblr #tarot community #pick a picture #maraschinobxby

[grievedeeply]

HIII I read some of your works and I really like them! If it's okay,please do something like mitch x reader! Like how he would comfort reader when she is getting over recently ended toxic friendships (I'm going through that right now)

Have a cool day :D

decided to broaden up this idea and include how he would comfort someone in general. also decided to make this platonic/romantic depending on how you want to interpret it! i still do talk about what you requested in this, but ik this isn't exactly what you wanted so feel free to let me know if you want me to write this again

i'm also going through something similar and i know how awful it feels! if you ever need to talk, my pms are open to you (and to anyone for any reason at all). hope you enjoy! and thank you for requesting!

gn!reader , no tws

tags: @sweet-daisies

mitch (twdg) comforting you headcanons

gonna start this off by saying that mitch has no idea how to comfort anyone. he's awful at reading people and being social has never been his strong suit so he doesn't recommend anyone come to him for anything serious

but if you are close enough to him, he'll make exceptions and for you. he doesn't know what to say to a lot of what you're talking to him about, but he's trying his best

he's a great listener. he always lets you know he's still listening by humming and nodding while you speak, making sure his eyes are on you

he's horrible at helping people but he's willing to listen to you talk about anything that might be on your mind to try to help you somehow

if you tell him about how you recently ended a toxic friendship and how it made you feel, he's still not sure how to react so he'll give you a reassuring look

"you'll always have me, at least"

he's been through situations similar to yours before so he tells you about them if that's something you want to hear about. he thinks that it could benefit you, knowing that you're not alone in your struggles

he knows that it's hard to lose friends even if they turned out toxic, so he tries his best to be there for you in whatever way you need

again, he doesn't know what he's doing, so he listens to you and what you need him to do

if you need some alone time, he goes off on his own for a few hours and comes back to check on you. if you want him with you, he'll sit next to you and let you ramble or just sit in silence if you prefer that

it all depends on what you need in the moment. he doesn't ever want to make anything worse for you so he just... lets you lead things

he can be a bit of an asshole sometimes, but that all goes out the window when you're feeling down. he's built up a tough personality but his soft interior shows through when the people he cares about are hurting

he goes out of his way to make sure you're doing alright. if you don't want to leave your dorm, he brings you food and snacks, makes sure you have everything you need and keeps you company if you want it

he doesn't ever make anything you're struggling with about himself. he makes sure you know that your feelings are valid and that you have someone willing to listen to you

he drills it into your head that you aren't a burden or a problem because you feel upset or angry over something. he is always there for you

he hates seeing you feel down in any way, though. he'll lose sleep knowing that you're feeling bad in some way and he can't do anything about it to fix it

he's used to fixing things easily and when he can't find easy solutions it makes him sad. he wants you to be happy but he knows happiness comes and goes sometimes

mitch has a hard time showing his emotions, but he will try to show them for you. he wants you to feel comforted and loved, so he tries his best even if it's awkward

he won't be opposed to a hug if you need it. anything he can do to help you, he'll do it

his advice is so bad. he's good at helping out in other ways, but never ask him for it because all you'll get is nonsense. he means well, but it's awful

he does care about you. he has ways of showing it when you're not feeling down, but whenever you need comforting all of those walls fall quick and he's right by your side, helping you through everything

#twdg #twdg x reader #the walking dead game #the walking dead game x reader #the walking dead #the walking dead x reader #twdg mitch #twdg mitch x reader #mitch twdg #mitch twdg x reader

[lovecolibri]

Have you ever noticed how every season we have less buddie scenes, cause KR doesn't like them very much, and for the everything is great brigade it's all part of a big plan that will make buddie talk about everything while it never happens and buck keeps having scenes with every random guest star but eddie?

I have noticed and it's irritating for sure! I talked more about this here (forgive me, I am very tired, I'm not typing it all out again). But basically, it's frustrating we can't see their friendship while they are "waiting" to get to the Buddie reveal and it would be nice to see our main characters interacting more, though it's definitely an improvement over last season.

I'm not here to poo-poo on anyone's positivity, because I'm also feeling pretty positive about where the journey is going to end up, I just also think the journey itself matters and for me personally, what they are doing doesn't feel like it matters to TPTB as long as they can "break the internet" when Buddie happens and "shocks" everyone. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Everyone engages with things a different way and may even use different approaches for different media. My only issue is when the positivity becomes toxic to the point that people cannot say anything negative without getting shouted down. But the same works for people wanting to be positive and getting told to be realistic! I find the best approach is to not tell others how to fandom, and if you're going to send asks on anon, don't purposefully go to a blog that is super positive and try to bring them down, and don't go to a blog that's venting frustrations and tell them they need to be completely positive or leave the show. Basically, don't be a dick!

I'm lucky because all my nonnies are great! And I tend to fall into the middle area of loving the show, while being critical of some of the choices, and knowing that while some things are clearly deliberate and the writes aren't all entirely useless and putting zero thought into anything (the RNM writers room got that award), not everything is something and sometimes things are happy accidents that they may choose to build on later (or not). I will say I'm having SO much more fun this season and a lot of that has to do with the show at least taking one note and working on focusing more on the main characters. It's not quite there yet, but things ARE getting better. Hopefully they continue to improve and the feedback they are already getting about the weird separation of Buck and Eddie, even from the general audience (as well as the heavy eye rolling about the sperm donor thing) will help further course corrections.

#my sweet nonnie friends #911 #911 spoilers

[aclosetfan]

i think people cling to the little bits of the show where bc wanted to be the leader, but really that just seems as more of a way to cling at something to make her relevant compared to her sisters ig? like if we go down the ‘she was insecure as a child’ route, her name being a sort of after thought and her sisters developing abilities beyond her, it would make sense why she’d at least try to want to be the leader. but generally as they grew older the two would definitely sort their stuff out? they’re sisters and they have petty fights but there was never a second in the show where they weren’t prepared to ride or die for each other so where did this animosity come from? more than that they’d definitely grow to think highly of each other, as they think of bubbles, and it gets frustrating reading bloss and bc develop this more ‘angsty and rebellious teen vs sibling takes on parent role’ dynamic when all that implies is a) the professor sucks so bad as a parent his kids have gotten to this point and b) they would both be so intolerable AND would never even get the attention of their counterparts as ship logic dictates, never mind how they’d fail as a team. idk it’s bordering on misogyny at this point, look around! the strongest friendship dynamics are the ones where they’re all unique and different but share unconditional love, much like the sisters would!

I completely agree with everything you're saying!!! I sometimes forget that Buttercup would insinuate that she should be the leader, but I always felt that that desire was extinguished by the end of the episode. Obviously, going off some of these fics, that sentiment isn't completely shared by everyone, but I'm still in line with the idea that they grow up and can communicate better than what the fics tend to represent.

Actually, this is really interesting. Leader and second-in-command power struggles are popular in cartoons. I wonder if the new McCracken reboot is going to bring it back? To be totally honest with you, I hope they don't in the traditional sense. I think it's a tired character arc nowadays. BUT I think it would be cool if maybe instead they pull a Codename Kids Next Door (LMAO plz someone tell me you remember this cartoon) and make Buttercup actually resent the idea of being leader, like number 5 did, even if others push her to take the mantel. Or better yet, Blossom, after an undisclosed event, doesn't want to be leader anymore and Buttercup's forced to take over, and they all spend a whole arc where Buttercup's like, "PLEASE PLEASE take the role back!" and Blossom's like "I'd rather die." (but ends up doing it anyway) (or bubbles gets it idk)

Anyway, you brought up my second biggest pet peeve, and that's the professor. Like what you're saying is EXACTLY what I'm thinking. I don't like sibling-parent roles when a parent is right there. No child should have to parent another child. It's just not fair. And making Blossom a little-mother makes me grit my teeth. Don't get me wrong, I get she'd be a mom-friend, but as an older sibling myself, my brothers would just look at me and tell me to stfu if I played mom.

#good shit anon good shit #anon asks #they could be doing anything with this reboot and i hope its so cool

[manicgoblin]

picked up some ❄️ last night and hung with squad. watched scary movies and cackled together all night. ended up staying over with Elliott and watching lilo and stitch together in bed. we had v vulnerable convo after sex about new fantasies and things to explore in the bedroom together, how life is going for us in general, how we've both been feeling low and mentally off our game lately, how we crave community and new and exciting adventures in our daily lives. it was very tender and endearing. im glad we can talk the way we do. we told each other new childhood stories. I opened up about my sadness for the holidays and my birthday tmrw and he rubbed my back while I talked. he gave me the tightest hug after and told me we'll plan a friends day for Christmas. Said that I should stay the night on the 24th and spend time with everyone who's still home. hes good to me, but he's not always good to himself, and that hurts us both sometimes. Its the same with me. we're both a bit (a big bit) of a work in progress, but still our friendship continues to grow. our connection is deeply important to us both, especially at this time of our lives. I'm very grateful for him. he told me that his life here in Maine would look very different if I wasn't here that I really help him feel more at home and cared for at a time in his life where he's struggling to feel connected to the people who love him. he thanked me and reiterated that he's got my back too. we are planning to rent out a pottery studio together so he can teach me how to work with clay, and he can get back into his artistic grind, and we also are planning some volunteer days at a soup kitchen downtown. we both have been struggling w execution lately, so I said why not try it together? I told him my biggest hurdle tends to be going it alone, not that I can't, just that it feels scary and also sad to not have anyone around to share new things with. he understood. he was excited and appreciative for the suggestion. he just dropped me off at home, but he'll pick me up in the am to make breakfast and start the day with squad. we're gonna venture to a new lighthouse as a lil unit, which makes my heart v full. I love lighthouses. I've seen all the landlocked ones in this area already, so this will be another added to the list. then we're squading back up at the boys house, drinking/partying, playing the new we are not really strangers deck I bought, probably some other card games, and dancing all night. ru's meeting us at squad house after work, and I'm bringing my polaroids, so I can add new ones to my fridge. I think this time I'll let some other people take some pictures, so I can be in them too haha. I want to remember this birthday. I always let them go by so fast. I don't want to think about them. I tell myself I hate celebrating, but fuck I'm 25 now. I want this one to feel good and warm, and I want tangible proof of the love I witness with the people in my life this time around. I'm v grateful to be spending it with all of them. I do wish deeply that cherise and sunmi could be here, but I'll see them again soon. Makes my heart ache to not be near them. It would be so nice if Sam could come down from Acadia too, but I'm sure I'll see them all again soon. For now, I'll make the best of what I've got, and cherish the day with my friends that can be here. The emotional whiplash will be heavy tmrw, I know this. I warned squad I'll probably be emotional and moody throughout the day, but I'm very appreciative of them being there with me anyways, just witnessing and experiencing it with me. allowing me to grieve and celebrate in the ways that come up. Here's to making it another year I didn't think possible. To being as sad and grateful as I've ever been. To having all the freedom I've ever dreamed of in the palm of my hands, and simultaneously the most roadblocks right in front of me. To forging on anyway. To love, to love, to love.

#personal #e

[annesdiary]

1 Sept 2023

I just feel like shit. I miss my old school, I haven't been sleeping well in the last couple of days, I miss E and I struggle a bit about my friendship with K. It's been the same. I miss her, I cry about her, I feel like out friendship is ending, a few day later we talk and I feel some sort of relief that she still cares about me but it's not enough to actually calm my anxiety down and rid me of the bad thought and overthinking about this whole situation.

It's one of those nights, it's currently 4.00 in the morning and I still can't fall asleep so I decided writing down everything that crosses my mind would maybe probably help? POrbably not?

I talked to E a few days ago and she was sweet as always but it made me miss her even more. Sometimes I just get so frustrated with her that she is always busy and doesn't have time for me and I can't really handle my frustration and I am mean with her. And this time I definitely wasn't mean to her but gawd do I miss her. I just think about the fact that she'll wake up, go to work and I'm not there? Like does she miss me? Does she think of me? Does she miss me *as much as I miss her*?

The last couple of nights the only way I could fall asleep was if I imagine laying next to E and her little dog, imagining the noises that are there, imagining the breathing pattern and then maybe I can fall asleep in under a n hour. I know, that isn't the best either, one hour but it's good for me. Plus that fantasy brings me so much peace. We normally don't sleep beside each other but I want to so badly. In the past few years I haven't slept in the same bed as anybody, I miss that feeling so much.

E is generally a very lady-like lady, very classy and all that. Imagine the late queen but with ridiculous amounts of floral patterned dresses. Now, that's E. And her favorite flowers are freesias so I'm thinking about getting a freesia tattoo on the back of my arm. I know that E is completely aware of how much I love her/ how attached I am to her but I'm afraid that there's a veeeeery minuscule chance that she'd feel awkward because of I got a tattoo kind of for her? I mean it's just a flower and nobody apart from her would actually know that it's for her, so maybe she wouldn't mind? Once she mentioned how one of her colleagues has her (the colleague) daughter's name on her ankle (tattooed) and she kind of made fun of it. But also I know that she's quite

I miss my old school so much; the people in it. I miss my old life; with E, K and KK so much. My ex-formteacher said that I can always visit but I don't want to seem too attached or something. The last time I visited was in January I think. So that was pretty recent, I guess. And KK? It's just... I'd finally graduated, he's not my teacher anymore, we could have "adult" conversations and I still feel like he isn't intrested in what I have to say. And I have this HUGE admiration for him which doesn't seem to go away? Ever? So it may actually be better that we aren't having casual conversations so that he can remain on this pedestal for me. And I can forever think of him as this amazing guy.

A few years back we (me, my class, him and some other teachers) went to see a play. After the play we were waiting for the bus, it was cold and dark. He was standing there and I wanted to talk to him so badly, tell him my thoughts and I couldn’t. I would have done anything to tell him my opinion. But it didn’t happen and that picture stuck in my mind forever. My classmates, seemingly talking about some stupid shit, me looking at him, wanting to go up to you and talk  to him so badly and him catching my eyes, when lighting his cigarette.

I still haven't heard back from T's boss which makes me so anxious because I was so fucking excited when the opportunity popped up and then nothing happened? I'm thinking about resending that email in case that got lost? But T also said that his boss is just busy?

I feel like if I wrote down every single thought that is bothering me, I wouldn't sleep? Like at all?

I saw a post that was like "you know that thought that scares the living shit out of you? write about that".

I also just know found out about Benedict Cumberbatch studying autistic individuals before playing Frankenstein's monster? Which is something... Honestly, every time I grow to like a celebrity, they fuck up.

It's 4:29 now, still can't sleep. Even with the E fantasy, it doesn't help.

#E #K #KK #T

[pollyoxycotrain]

How I View the signs

Aries - Sibling / Hustler

Listen, i'ma make it quick, my better half, I know I never put yall in my top 3, but it's because y'all above that (sun sign), I love you all, and I just want to see you guys succeed in whatever endeavor you swear to, again, I love ya, take care homies.

Taurus - So Beautiful

Other than Pisces, Taurus is the sign I adore the most, just sit and awe at them, they're awesome people, like Awe-some, not AWESOME!!!!, I just find they're so...Nuturing, careful, even if they're rough with you it feels safe.

Gemini - Literally Sprite

Alrighty Gemijews, listen, yall fucking wild, the end.

Cancer - Blue Goddess

I find with Cancers they're always very Attractive in every way not just sexual, they're fun to be around, and I like them alot, but relationship wise, I'd probably keep it minimal, like friendship would be best, but damn...sometimes they get me going cray.

Leo - All Bark No Bite

Honestly, for being in sextile, I'm starting to hate this sign, I'm OK with Leo Sun, but I Especially hate Leo Moons, I find most Leo Moons either talk A TON OF SHIT, and most of the time without anything physical, or they think they're above everyone else, tbh most of the time it's both let's be honest...I feel like these are the annoying fucks to talk a ton of shit, but then if you hit them or get physical they'll be the first to cry, wail, and call the police, honestly, WORST moon sign I've ever experienced, I don't collaborate well with Scorpio moons much, but I feel like with all the shit they bring, they're still not as bad as Leo Moon, keep in mind Scorpio moon can be materialistic, petty cunts, with the same (youre beneath me) attitude, but they can be some of the best Lovers, and I think this really is one of the best moon signs, because I find genius in them, scorpio is one of the best signs in general in my opinion, Creativity is so deep in their core, yet they're just so smart, passionate in whatever they find important, pack all that into the moon and I think in reality it makes for one of the best, at least the Pros are, the cons are really really bad though. I'd still put Scoprio moon in A tier, Leo Moon in F or whatever is the lowest Tier)

Virgo - A Hazed Vision

I'm very 50/50 on Virgo, I like them, but I find I'm more 50/50 with Virgo than I am Capricorn, I like virgo, and I look up to them tbh, but most of them I find are kinda....meh, they can either be the greatest Philosophers of life or they're down right weird, but idk, there is always this weird thing I find with Virgos, even the best, I can't hardly touch them, i idolize them a little tbh, and I love them all dearly, they're one of my favorite signs, but I find once they're hurt I find they just kinda self destruct...and it makes me sad.

Libra - Cute but ugh

Not much to say here, like cousins to me, usually were good friends, and I might have a crush or two, but the ones that I do usually have HEAVY or dominant Scorpio inner planets....so yeah, yall cool ig.

Scorpio - I Luv U

Idc who reads this, I'm sorry Mom. This is the Dommy Mommy Sign for me, I love Scorpio's so much (Especially Sun sign), I just find they can give me exactly what I want and need (in any sense), this is definitely a wifey sign for me, one of my favorite signs.

Sagittarius - Luv/Hate

I always find these fuckers (Sun Sign) attractive, I find they'd be a cool wife if you could catch one, but idk, I just find them to be more of a sibling sign to me than anything, I hate to put that and then say this...the fact I have a crush on SO MANY OF THEM, but, idk, I either love them to where I'd consider something serious, or the worst is I find them annoying, hypocritical, judgmental and sometimes similar to Leo moon, they talk a lot of shit, but mostly behind your back, sometimes they can be more so two faced and if I had to pick any sun sign to stereotype as two faced it would Sagittarius, but I think it mostly depends on moon signs I'd say tho (Pisces or Leo 🤮) (Aquarius or Libra 💖)

[aly-writes]

Hi there! I really enjoy your works and damn it got me visiting your account to read more. I then noticed you haven't written anything for Taeju from My Name, so I'm here to request something!

Reader and Taeju are lovers but act like casual friends!

It can be headcanons, a small story or an imagine, anything! I just want to see how you write Taeju because so far the other writings are chef's kisses.

taeju is a bit of a difficult character for me to write, so i hope this satisfied you nonnie! yikes this one is a little short, i hope you don't mind :( inspiration kind of went down in the dumps

i wasn't quite sure if you wanted their relationship to be similar to casual friends in general, or moreso them acting like casual friends in front of other people. i decided to go with the latter, hope that's alright with you

warnings: none

taeju and his s/o acting like casual friends

taeju is more of a private lover, so it's no surprise that his relationship with you came off as a mere friendship to others.

it's not like you were totally against acting like a couple—because you weren't.

but with both of your jobs, it might be more problematic than one would expect. he's choi mujin's right-hand man, and you were a simple assistant.

his work was dangerous, and he had always expressed a bit of fear that you could potentially be harmed because of it.

he spent most of his time running around and doing tasks for mujin or accompanying the man, so it wasn't like you got much time to act like a couple in public anyway.

it happened pretty naturally, actually.

taeju was a very formal guy in the first place, so when he was on the clock you could expect him to treat you like nothing but a colleague.

you were a bit surprised to see him treating you like a casual friend, but you'd take that over the formality you assumed would happen.

of course this is all different when it's just the two of you. casual relationship things happen, and it's definitely a stark contrast to how you act around others.

other people never suspect a shred of anything between you two.

the only person to have the lightest suspicions is mujin himself. taeju has been his right-hand for a long time, it's naturally strange to see him sparing glances and friendly hellos at a meager assistant.

he didn't care enough to question the man though. as long as you didn't get in the way of taeju's performance, mujin couldn't care less.

aside from that, the other workers under mujin would never imagine someone like taeju was romantically involved with you. his glances are only seen by mujin because they're constantly working near each other, but other than that, he makes them as sneaky as possible.

this dynamic between the two of you comes in handy at times.

you're never considered a potential weakness to taeju. whether it's mujin who thinks this or an enemy.

mujin doesn't think you'll get in the way, so it's a win-win for both of you.

whereas enemies don't try to use you against him, and that's all he could ever ask for.

in the end, the both of you acting like nothing but friends gives you more benefits than you could ever imagine it would. it leaves the stress of your safety off of his shoulders, and you don't have to worry about getting scolded by mujin.

the extent of your romantic relationship in public isn't much.

you hold conversations with each other much more than taeju would with anyone else, but it's hardly noticeable.

if no one is around, he might give your hand or shoulder a quick squeeze.

truly, affection doesn't come easily in public. sometimes you get a little tired of it, but he makes up for it when it's just the two of you behind closed doors.

speaking of, your relationship dynamic changes pretty drastically when you're alone.

you like to do a lot of the cheesy couple stuff together. it makes up for the obscurity of your jobs.

watching shitty romcoms, making heart-shaped pizzas (they never come out of the oven looking like a heart though), and all of that. more often than not, it's you bringing up these ideas and him playing along with them to make you happy.

the affection level definitely goes up when you're in private. you're very content with that.

the banter the two of you had surprisingly stays pretty similar to when you're in public. taeju finds it a little difficult to turn off that filter during what little free time you have together.

though it can be slightly difficult for you to act like nothing but friends, he does have his way of making sure you know that he loves you.

this is done pretty subtly most of the time.

shared glances, most often. but in those glances are eyes filled with an overwhelming amount of love. he also likes to leave tiny notes in your work locker. he's really sweet when it comes to stuff like that.

occasionally he goes with something a little more noticeable.

one day you were sitting at your desk and a sudden delivery of flowers arrived.

they had your name on them and it was a bouquet of your favorite flowers. there was no mistaking that they were for you.

while the card didn't tell you who they were from, you knew.

while that stuff happens sometimes, most of the time he treats you casually.

you get used to it pretty quickly. as long as you're aware that he still loves you, you don't mind acting like you're friends.

it's still quite an honor to be 'friends' with taeju. not many get that title. he's kind when he needs to be, but he never gets close enough to the people he works with to consider them friends.

so either way, you get special treatment from him.

overall...

taeju holds you dear to him, which is why he treats you like a friend in the first place.

whether it's for your safety or just how he acts, he still loves you a lot and will do the most for you when he needs to.

#jung taeju x reader #jung taeju #taeju #taeju x reader #jung tae ju x reader #jung tae ju #tae ju x reader #tae ju #jung tae-ju x reader #jung tae-ju #tae-ju x reader #tae-ju #my name #my name x reader #fanfiction #x reader #fanfic #these are so bad nonnie i sincerely apologize

[ikaroux]

Xiao: Always (part 2) (EN)

f!reader

The Japanese dubbing of Kirito (Sword art online), helped me a lot to imagine how Xiao's emotions would be expressed.

The ost that inspired me a lot for most of the scenes:

Ori and the will of the wisps: Fading of the Light and The story of Niwen (The ost in general fits Xiao perfectly <3)

Masterlist

Part 1

You had been in Liyue for several months now for your research. You had met several people there, some of whom had turned into real friendships. Hu Tao, Ganyu and the lovely Qiqi were the only girls with whom you had formed a real friendship and then there was Mr. Zhongli with whom you liked to talk a lot.

But above all you met Xiao, a taciturn young man with a cold look in his eyes. After some research, you learned who he really was, a follower protecting Liyue at the risk of his life. He was also known as the last surviving Yaksha, fighting day and night against the emanations of the ancient evil gods killed by the Geo Archon.

Zhongli, who had revealed to you who he really was, often spoke to you about Xiao. Sometimes he would ask you to bring him some medicine specially designed for him to relieve the pain that was eating him up inside.

This was not a big problem for you, as you were staying at the Wangshu Inn. It was perfectly located in the centre of Liyue, making it easier for you to get to different research sites. Zhongli had explained to you that this inn was a front, built mainly to relieve Xiao a little from his eternal burden.

Since your meeting with the adept, you had never dared to call him, for fear of disturbing him. You simply left Zhongli's small gifts in his flats, placed prominently on the table in the centre of the room.

A gift... you had wanted to give him one for some time, but not knowing his tastes, it was difficult to decide. What if he doesn't like it? What if he got mad at you? What if... You then thought of the innkeeper in Wangshu who had known Xiao for a while, she must have known a thing or two about the follower's tastes!

After consulting Verr Goldet on what Xiao liked, she taught you how to prepare the young man's favourite dish. So you prepared tofu with almonds once or twice a week as a gift to him. But even so, he never deigned to show himself to you again.

Yet Xiao was never far from you, always hidden in the shadows watching you, protecting you from the dangers that lurked.

The bond he felt between you and him had never disappeared. Near you, all the pain, all the suffering he felt disappeared. He knew that you were human, so fragile, so fleeting compared to him who had lived for millennia, yet in his eyes you were a true goddess. The night he saw you surrounded by this halo of light, his world was turned upside down. Of course he had discussed this with his master, Morax, or rather Zhongli as he liked to be called from now on.

Xiao asked him during one of their conversations:

"I don't understand, I can never take my eyes off her and my heart - he placed his hand on his chest, clutching the white tunic he was wearing - hurts when I lose sight of her for even a few seconds. I don't understand... Sir Zhongli, I don't understand..."

His voice often broke at such moments. Zhongli then placed his hand on the follower's shoulder, a gentle smile on his face.

"Talk to him and you will finally understand. "he would say to her each time.

"I can't... If I stay around her too long... the darkness around me will eventually engulf her too. "

The sadness in Zhongli's eyes matched the sadness in Xiao's. The adept would often leave without the answer he so eagerly awaited, going to the balcony of the inn to sit on the railing and gaze at the stars. When his gaze turned to his room, more precisely to the small round wooden table in the centre, he was looking for proof of your presence. Almost every day you would leave him an offering, medicine, the almond tofu he loved so much, a flower, a mineral or an artefact you had found on your expeditions. Every little gift you gave him made him forget his torments for a short while, savouring the joy he felt at the time. He treasured every item you gave him, carefully stored in a small gold box encrusted with jade.

When the moon was high in the sky, Xiao would sometimes go to your room, passing by your balcony to see if you were sleeping. Sometimes he would go inside the moonlit room to see your sleeping face. He thought you were terribly beautiful, he had never been so fascinated by anyone, let alone a mortal. He would sometimes tuck a strand of your hair back behind your ear, slightly disturbing your sleep, and you would wrinkle your nose with a groan, causing him to back away hastily.

When Xiao was sure you were still asleep, he would take the opportunity to give you a gift of his own, placed on your bedside table.

As he did every night, he would end up sitting on the roof of your balcony watching for any threat to you.

By the time the sun came up, Xiao was already gone. When you woke up, you would find objects that were not there the day before. It could be a crystal nucleus or sometimes a Qingxin flower, which made you smile every time. You kept all the gifts he gave you as a treasure.

Today you had to go to Mondstadt to visit your friend Lisa, whom you had met in Sumeru. She had come one year to visit her former teachers, introducing herself to the students in the class. The two of you had talked a lot, creating a bond of friendship that you had maintained through correspondence.

In your last exchanges, she expressed a wish to see you, which you gladly accepted. You had planned to stay there for a week, so it was not surprising that you were preparing some things to take with you.

Even though your protector never showed up in front of you, at least not since that night when he gave you his name, you wanted to leave him a letter to explain that you would be back in Liyue in a week.

Before leaving, you left him a plate of tofu with almonds, your letter carefully placed next to the plate.

You didn't think that the wind would blow your letter away from him before he had even read it.

Xiao was accompanying Aether and two other companions for the day. They were to help him confront creatures once sealed in an ancient temple near the nine pillars of Cuijue Slope. The battle was long and difficult, but in the end they managed to exterminate the monsters, allowing Aether to retrieve the treasure that lay deep in the ruins. Xiao hurried back to the Wangshu Inn, feeling a bottomless pit forming inside him. He had been feeling uneasy for a while, a part of him wanted to make sure you were okay. When he arrived at his flat, he saw that you had left him a plate of tofu with almonds, and he took a bite, although he was too nervous to really enjoy them properly.

Xiao put his hand over his face in great pain.

His chest hurt terribly, the voices in his head tortured him again and his body seemed to be chained by the darkness inside him. Why was this? His karma hadn't weighed so heavily on him since he... since he... had met you.

He exhaled loudly, a sudden fear filling his body, making his hands tremble. Without further questioning, he quickly disappeared through his anemo vision and landed in your room. It was pitch black and looked horribly empty. The books usually scattered around your room were gone, your things were gone, your wardrobe was empty.

"No... no... don't go... (Y/n) don't go..."

His voice trembled in shock as his eyes still searched for traces of your presence.

"(Y/n)..."

Nothing. There was nothing. Nothing left. You were gone.

He couldn't even feel your presence on Liyue's land.

Had something happened to you? What if you had been attacked by monsters? The thought terrified him. He thought of your sleeping face, so peaceful. He thought of the promise he had made to himself to protect you.

Your absence was as painful to him as the day Aether told him Rex Lapis was dead. He couldn't bear it.

Xiao vowed to find you again and if you accepted him, he would stay by your side, he would not run away again.

He would listen to you sing again.

He searched for you for seven long days, which was a real physical and psychological torture for him. Aether, worried about his friend, helped him in his search, informing Zhongli, Ganyu and Hu Tao of your disappearance and the state in which the follower was.

Xiao always carried one of the gifts you had given him, holding on to it in the hope of finding you safe and sound.

With his mask over his face and his spear in hand, he slaughtered every hilichurl camp, hoping to find some trace of you, something that would prove to him that you were still alive. Disappointment after disappointment, the anger and hatred grew inside him every day, struggling to control it. He was leaving behind a pool of blood, soon he would sink into madness, feeling the sting of the karmic chains that made him sink a little deeper. How could he have formed such a strong bond with someone that he lost control?

"Xiao, we're going to find her. "

Zhongli's reassuring hand rested on the follower's shoulder.

Xiao had not removed his mask, but the former Geo Archon could still see tears of pain flowing from his eyes. His hand moved from his shoulder to the top of the young man's head. He knew what Xiao was going through, after all he too had lost loved ones in the past.

A varnished lily flower suddenly appeared under Xiao's nose. Ganyu held it out to him with a thin smile on his face. The Yaksha, who had watched you for a long time, knew that this flower was your favourite, many times he had seen you studying it, drawing it, smelling it, admiring it...

He could clearly see your face beaming as you drew it, singing a Sumeru tune.

He slowly grasped the flower that the young woman was holding out to him with renewed hope.

You had been leaving Lisa for a few hours now, promising her and your new friends that you would return to see them soon. You were anxious to get to the Wangshu Inn to rest. You missed your friends in Liyue and the absence of the Yaksha warrior around you left your heart empty.

You knew that he was never far from you. You knew that at night he sometimes stroked your hair, thinking you were asleep. You knew how soft his eyes were when he watched you draw.

You knew that he loved to listen to you sing.

Your lips curled upwards, happy at the idea of finding his presence. For this occasion you had grabbed an anemo crystal core which you intended to offer his.

When you reached the border between Mondstadt and Liyue, the atmosphere suddenly seemed heavy. You could not hear the birds singing, nor the wind cradling the trees.

Time seemed to stand still.

Alerted, you quickened your pace, crossing the wooden bridge that separated you from the shore.

The sudden sound of a branch breaking made you jump. You looked towards the source of the noise, finding yourself face to face with a Brutorocheux chief surrounded by some Brutoshamans and common Brutocollinus.

Your voice and body trembled.

"Why are they here? There have never been so many monsters on the border..."

The Brutocollinus came forward, threatening, it screamed, the breath knocking you to the ground. The smaller ones stepped forward, weapons in hand, while the Brutoshamans chanted their incantations.

Fear froze you in place, you were not a warrior, far from it. Your pupils dilated with fear and shook as the Brutoshaman ran towards you, fist in the air, ready to crush you. By reflex you had grown brambles around you to protect yourself.

But the creature in front of you was of a geo nature, impervious to the little thorns in your plants. Your trembling hand rose before you, summoning a flower capable of projecting poison, but again the monster crushed your hopes as did the flower beneath its feet.

"As long as you are in Liyue, I will protect you. Call me and I'll be there in a second."

Fear choked you, tears beading in the corners of your eyes as you remembered the words of the man you loved.

Xiao.

The sight of his gentle smile as he looked at you, thinking you hadn't noticed his presence.

Xiao.

The tender look in his eyes as he listened to you singing hidden behind a tree.

Xiao...

His hands savouring the feel of your hair between his fingers as you slept.

"XIAO! "

The moment you shouted his name, a gust of wind swept through the area. Blows rained down before you, and the brutocollinus and brutoshamans were the first to perish.

There he was, leaping to an inhuman height, a mask hiding his face and a menacing black aura covering him completely. The spear he always carried with him was pointed at the enemy as the Yaksha fell violently to the ground, sending out anemo illusions from his weapon that skewered the creature. He repeated his move once more, shattering its shell, before finishing it off by charging it with extreme speed. The Brutorocheux fell heavily to the ground, disappearing in a cloud of smoke.

Xiao moved his hand in front of his face, making his mask disappear, and then planted his spear on the ground. He ran towards you over the brambles you had created, not caring about the thorns that tore his legs. He knelt beside you, his eyes filled with terror and concern.

You looked into his eyes, shocked and trembling.

Finally you exploded, screaming and crying now that it was all over. You fell into his arms, your head resting in the crook of his neck, partially muffling your screams and tears.

He had found you. At last...

His heart broke free from its chains, relieved to see you safe and sound.

He felt as if his heart was going to burst out of his chest, so strong was it beating.

When he had reached you after your call and had seen you surrounded by monsters, monsters that were there because of him, because of the slaughter he had made in the camps of his creatures, the rage had risen in him. If you had been hurt because of him, he would never forgive himself.

He would never have forgiven himself.

He was surprised by your sudden embrace, not really knowing how he should react. What did humans do in such moments?

He raised his arms hesitantly, placing his hands gently on your back. Seeing that you didn't reject him, he hugged you a little tighter, soothing his soul and body with your warmth.

"Don't disappear again..."

His voice was husky, vibrant, emotion knotting his throat. He buried his nose in your hair, inhaling the scent of the flowers that covered you.

"Xiao..."

Your tears continued to fall as your hands clutched at his clothes.

He surprised you by planting a kiss on your neck. He left his face hidden there, not wanting to be seen so vulnerable. His trembling hands around you were more than enough to describe the emotions that were currently running through him.

When your tears stopped, his hands gently grasped your shoulders, pulling you back to get a better look at your face. He wiped away the tears that remained on your cheeks before placing the palm of his hand on them, caressing you with his thumb. Your hand joined his, closing your eyes to savour the sensation.

His forehead came to rest against yours, exhaling a shaky breath.

The happiness of finally having her so close to you involuntarily activated your dendro vision. Varnished lily flowers bloomed around you, and firefly-like particles of light swirled near your faces.

"Stay close to me. Always. "

"Always. "

Xiao didn't know exactly what he was doing as he tilted his head to your lips. The only thing he knew was that he wanted this connection badly.

The bond between you was stronger than any contract, he loved you, by the archons, he loved you more than anyone else.

An emotion so human but so beautiful...

Your lips... tasted like a sweet dream.

Bonus n°1:

"Ah, there they are! "

Paimon yelled to his companions, pointing at you and Xiao. Zhongli was the first to arrive and observed the scene unfolding before his eyes.

"XIAO! "

Paimon shouted, his voice carrying to you. Xiao parted violently from your lips, falling on his butt in the process, his face completely red with embarrassment.

Aether, who had arrived just after Zhongli, grabbed the little fairy in his arms, planting his hand over her mouth to silence her. Hu Tao and Ganyu were waving at you, reassured that you were okay. Xiao had completely forgotten that they had come with them.

He knew that with that chatty fairy and Hu Tao not far away, the rest of the day was going to be hell for him. He wanted to grab you in his arms and run away from his troubles, but when his gaze turned to Zhongli's, his heart was suddenly lighter with a burden. The gentle smile of his master and the kindly gaze he projected upon him broke the last remaining chains of doubt within him.

Bonus #2:

Xiao had offered you on the way back the varnished Lily flower that Ganyu had given him earlier, hanging it in your hair. You walked behind your companions towards the Wangshu Inn, laughter and loud discussions (too loud for his taste) were going on.

Xiao stood very close to you without physically touching you. You never took your eyes off his face, which he noticed. He abruptly turned his head in the opposite direction, the tips of his ears glowing crimson, forcing an affectionate smile on your face.

After a few minutes of silent walking between the two of you, he finally asked you a question.

"Why did you leave? -He looked at you again, his eyes full of emotion-"I thought you were gone forever...or worse, dead. "

His voice trembled at the thought, making your eyes widen. In a comforting gesture, you grabbed his hand, interlacing your fingers with his. The gesture surprised him, he was not used to physical (or emotional!) contact.

"Didn't you read my letter? "

Xiao blinked, once, twice, three times.

"What letter? "

"The one I left on the table next to the tofu dish. "

Xiao's face became totally impassive. He tried to piece together a visual image of his room in his mind, seeing your dish on his table very clearly, but no matter how hard he concentrated, no letter came to him.

"There was no letter. "

"Oh... Maybe it was blown away then?"

Xiao remained silent as you explained that you had gone to see a friend in Mondstadt. He listened to you without really listening, an array of emotions passing through his eyes. He needed someone to blame, anyone he could vent his anger and frustration on.

The wind... The wind...

A malevolent smile spread across his face and his amber eyes glowed with a menacing gleam.

He brought his hand up to his face, a gesture he made to reveal his Yaksha mask.

His hoarse voice whispered dangerously:

"Barbatos..."

Further on, in Mondstadt, Venti felt a shiver run through his body, freezing him in place.

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[chrysanthemumgames]

Could you talk a bit more about why you wanted gender and pronouns to be seperate options? I'm making my own twine game, but I'm kinda confused on how it would affect the story.

Sure! So.

For one, as you probably know, they just are factually separate things. You can be a nonbinary person and use exclusively she/her, and it doesn't make you a woman. One way to handle this coding wise is, of course, to just let people choose the pronouns so the game knows what to display, and let the reader imagine their character as whatever gender they are! And that's totally valid, as long as the game never needs to know what gender they are, which honestly... most don't.

So why bother setting gender at all? Well, as far as I can tell, there's two reasons why you might want to. One is just... a certain sense of official-ness. I think I can safely assert that a lot of nonbinary and trans folks are used to kinda... finessing headcanon and maybe occasionally ignoring canon to be able to sneak in anything that feels like rep of themselves in their player characters, never mind the rest of the game.

Everyone being on the same footing in terms of "your gender is whatever you imagine and the game doesn't declare it" is one way of bringing parity (a way I also use sometimes), but of late I've been kind of coming down on the side of letting the player make it explicit because even if, say, a trans and a cis man are treated exactly the same at all times by the story and the characters because the difference doesn't matter to the game at all, well... I think there's something to be said for the player with the trans PC knowing that the character is trans, is recognized as trans, and is still treated the same by the game. Speaking for myself, it can actually be super refreshing when I play an NB character and the game "knows" but nobody cares or bothers me about it or gets my pronouns wrong haha.

But the second reason you might do something like this (at least that I can think of right now), is that, well, it might make a difference sometimes! I'm not talking about like... writing in discrimination for "historical accuracy" or whatever—I think there's probably a time and place for that, but it'd take a whole lot more effort and sensitivity than most people probably want to give it, etc. But what I'm really referring to is chances for the topic to come up, e.g., with cast members who are also trans, or enby, or what have you. It can be refreshing for it not to matter, but at the same time, generally speaking being of one gender is a different experience than being another, even if that's just in terms of something like 'what other people tend to expect of you.' When you consider being enby, or trans, or fluid, there's additional different life experience on top of that, and it can, sometimes, feel like a lot of what comes one's way in life has to do with it.

And it can be nice, too, if rather than making no difference, this locus of experience is something that can be discussed and shared, particularly with characters in the narrative who would realistically be able to relate. Based on what kind of world it is, gender might not matter too much (it barely does in FoA), but there's still elements of experience that are going to be shared even then. For example, whether or not anyone makes a big deal out of it, Alekto has transitioned. That's a thing she's done, and a PC might also have done. That's a pretty natural thing for them to talk about at a certain point in a friendship.

So even if I just end up giving a few small conversational opportunities for something like this, I think, for a game like FoA, that's worth it, because FoA has a lot of emphasis on getting to know its characters not really because you're all out to save the world/solve the mystery/win the war, but because you're all living together now and need to figure out how to get on. It might not be the kind of thing that fits into every game, and that's okay!

#ask #game design #this got really long sorry anon

[kaylans-imagines]

0. i hate her

pairing: peter b. parker x fem! reader

synopsis: in which y/n hates everything about peter parker, especially the way she can’t really hate him

↳ loosely based on the movie with the same title

warnings: cursing, fluff, a generous amount of angst, peter's an asshole, y/n's an asshole, familial death, incarceration. i don't know if there's more.

chapter warnings: cursing, starts off slow, flash.

series masterlist

*gif credits to the rightful owner*

The brisk air of the changing seasons accompanied Peter as he made his way to the school entrance from the train stop. His headphones sat snuggly inside his ears, playing a song that made the usually lonely journey to school less so. Ned didn’t take the same route as he did, so he had no one to talk to or make the trek to school less boring. He didn’t mind it; it gave him time to think and even finish school work. Still, sometimes he wanted someone by his side so he could discuss whatever was on his mind that day or ask questions whenever an assignment didn’t make sense.

The long ride to the school did give him time to people watch. There were times when he would deduce who could be a possible threat. Other times, he would simply look at people and try to figure out their stories without actually talking to them. The old lady who brought her cat onto the subway had severe separation anxiety caused by her estranged son. The man with exhausted eyes who looked like he was on the brink of passing out on his seat had a newborn daughter at home. And Peter was just trying to get to school, along with the other teenager on the subway. He didn’t talk to him, they were on entirely different wavelengths, but there was an understanding between the two of them. Whenever they saw each other, they would nod their heads in greeting. They would always sit one seat away from one another, and if the other was running late, they would wait.

He made his way up the stairs and towards the school, turning up the volume as a way to tune out the sounds of high school that he hated. The cheery rhymes that left the sounds of the cheerleaders to the arguing of students over who was right; he hated them before the bite, and he especially despised them now that he had hypersensitive hearing. Sighing in annoyance, he looked both ways before crossing the street only to rush forward as a car came barreling down the road.

“I swear to god, Y/N!” he heard her sister, Juliette, shriek, “we almost killed him!”

“But we didn’t. If you’re going to complain about my driving, then you can take the bus, Jules,”

“You almost killed someone!” Peter heard her exclaim. He could feel the way Y/N rolled her eyes.

“It’s only Peter,” she stated, making eye contact with him through the rearview as she let students pass, “who cares if he gets slightly scuffled?”

“You have literal issues,” Julie gasped. The car sped down the road, leaving Peter alone with a slightly elevated heart rate and irritation laced in his bones. It was the first day of school, and he nearly got run over. And by his ex-best friend turned enemy at that. He couldn’t wait to complain to Ned.

Their dynamic had changed, and Peter blamed her. They became friends because of Y/N’s grandmother and May in kindergarten. They were two birds of a feather until halfway towards seventh grade when Y/N became snippy and ruined what Peter thought was their perfect friendship. They drifted apart, and he blamed her for it breaking apart. He watched as she became someone he didn’t know anymore and left him behind. He just didn’t think it was fair for her to act self-righteous when she ruined their relationship.

“You okay, Pete?” Ned questioned as he fell into step with Peter, who was fuming with irritation.

“Yeah, just almost got run over by Midtown’s resident ice bitch,” he gritted. Ned nodded in response. He was friends with both Peter and Y/N once upon a time. Still, after everything she had put them through and the abrupt way she ended their friendship, he sided with Peter and subsequently lost a friend. He figured it was for the best. He wasn’t as resentful as Peter was—his friendship with Y/N hadn’t been built in kindergarten—but he still didn’t appreciate her actions.

“Oh,” he nodded in understanding, “are you okay at least?”

“Yeah, but it did sorta ruin my mood,” Peter confessed. He was having a pretty good morning until his reflexes were put to the test. He woke up on the right side of the bed and had time to eat breakfast with May before she went to work. The walk towards the subway station was nice; he said hi to everyone he usually greeted and even got a muffin from the lady with the three-year-old daughter. Then the subway wasn’t as busy as it usually was, so he wasn’t squashed next to the man with the foul body odor and could actually sit down. All of that happiness came crashing down the second he saw her in her car, looking unapologetic for nearly killing him and then dismissing her sister for chastising her.

“Well, get happy, my arachnid friend, because I heard some exciting news,” Ned smiled, poking him on the arm as they walked to their first class.

“What?”

“You’re top of our class, which means you’re a shoo-in for valedictorian,” Ned said excitedly. Peter grinned at that. All of his hard work would finally be noticed and celebrated. He had been working on greeting his class for four years, doing extracurriculars, and taking on extra projects for grade boosts. Sometimes he even stayed after school to help his teachers grade papers or help the librarian sort the books back into their respective spots on the shelves. It would all be worth it in the end after he finally reached the goal he had set for himself his freshman year.

There was a snag in his plans. While he may have been top of his class, that didn’t mean that he couldn’t be pushed from his place. Y/N Y/L/N was the smartest girl at Midtown. She was everything he wasn’t. She was popular—if the excessive amounts of clubs she was part of were any indication. She was social—everyone talked about the interactions they had with Midtown’s princess. She was everywhere, and nothing Peter was. She was the head of the planning committee, and everyone knew that any school party planned by Y/N Y/L/N never disappointed. Peter couldn’t compete. He found peace in knowing that he was slightly better than her at academics.

The two continued walking in silence, content with the atmosphere they had created after finding out that Peter would finally have something go his way for once. He figured it was the least the universe could do for him. He had lost both parents before he could make memories with them, then he lost his best friend, and then he got bitten by a spider that changed his life; for better or for worse, he didn’t know. Being valedictorian wouldn’t take away the hurt the world inflicted on him, but it would make him feel somewhat better.

With a skip in his step, he walked into class with a grin so large, he didn’t think anything could bring him down. Of course, he thought wrong. His English teacher had to make a day he felt he could turn around into one he wished would end faster.

“It’s about time you all had a project—the topic of discussion, poetry. You will be partnered up and tasked with reading and creating your own poems by the end of the month,” she paused, waiting for her class to stop looking at one another and whispering amongst themselves, “I’ve already chosen your partners, so it would do you all some good to stop getting your hopes up and listen.”

With that, the high schoolers shifted in their seats and gave their attention back to their teacher. She was good at pairing up students who were cordial with one another and worked well together. Friendships usually sparked from her partnering, sometimes even relationships. So Peter, and the rest of the class, weren’t as annoyed as they wanted to be. They knew she wouldn’t let them down. Peter waited eagerly as she listed off students who would be working together. He hoped he got paired up with someone who matched his work ethic or someone he got along with.

“Peter Parker, you will be with Y/N Y/L/N,” and just like that, he hated English class and lost all faith in his teacher. He looked across the room to where the said girl was seated. She was writing in her planner—Peter was sure she was planning Ms. Ingrid’s death—but she looked up when her name was called. She turned her head and met Peter’s eyes, unamused and bored. She shook her head and looked at her planner once again. Peter took that as a sign to do the same and focus on anything other than his rising anger.

Peter watched as everyone moved to meet their partners, many of them happily talking to one another. He was stubborn. He decided that if she wasn’t going to make an effort to push aside whatever hatred she had towards him and talk to him for the sake of their grades, he wasn’t going to. He was going to sit in his seat and read a poem from the packet his teacher had handed out. Just because he had a lousy partner didn’t mean his grade had to suffer. He would complete the project by himself if he had to.

“Mister Parker, last I checked, you were to be working with Miss Y/L/N,” Miss Ingrid quipped as she walked to Peter’s desk with a teasing smile.

“Actually, Miss, I was hoping I could talk to you about that?” He asked. He liked Miss Ingrid. She was understanding and compassionate, and she didn’t talk down to her students as if they were children.

“Something wrong, Peter?” she asked, concerned. Peter felt bad. He knew he was petty, and his favorite teacher didn’t need to be pulled down to his level. But he couldn’t bring himself to work with someone who didn’t want to work with him. That usually meant he was left to do the work by himself and watch the other person still get credit. It infuriated him so much he would rather do the project himself from the start.

“Yeah, um, I can’t work with Y/N,” he muttered, smiling at her with an embarrassed smile. Peter admitted it sounded stupid and childish when said aloud, but he had his reasons.

“And, pray tell, Peter, why not?”

“I just don’t think we would work well together,” he confessed. Seeing the look on her face, Peter was quick to defend himself more, “and I just don’t want to do the work for someone else and have them get credit for doing nothing. So, if it’s alright with you, Miss Ingrid, I would like to work on this on my own.” He was practically begging. Hoping she would agree.

“I’m sorry, Peter, but this is a partner project. To lessen the workload,” she sighed, “besides, I don’t think you have anything to worry about with Y/N; she’s very good at doing her share.” She stood up with those final words and tapped the table before standing up and sending him a smile. He sighed, putting his head down and looking at his desk in annoyance. He looked up when a book landed on his desk. Closing his eyes to keep himself from exploding at whoever shattered his tranquility, he was met with eyes he used to find joy looking into. Now, he never wanted to look into them ever again.

“We’re partners. I don’t like it, you don’t like it, but we have to do it otherwise, our grades will plummet, and you can’t afford that if you want to be valedictorian. So, we’re going to push our difference aside for this one project and do it, so we never have to talk to again,” she said curtly.

That left no room for argument, which caused Peter to nod his head in agreement. She was right; he couldn’t afford to lose the one thing he was looking forward to being. Sighing deeply, he motioned for her to sit down and opened the book she threw on his desk. She took a seat beside him and opened another poetry book, focusing on the words written on the paper and trying to plan their poem out. They had to get a good grade; she didn’t want him to blame her for something else.

Despite his annoyance and hatred towards her, he couldn’t help but glance up from the book he was reading. Of course, he had seen her around, it was hard to ignore one of the most known girls in the school, but he had never taken the time to admire her. His anger and betrayal kept him from doing so. She still had the same gleeful look in her eyes and the confident aura around her. Time had done her well. She had lost her kidlike features, and it was evident that she had matured. He would be a liar if he said she wasn’t pretty, and even that didn’t truly justify it.

When the bell signaled the end of class, Peter quickly grabbed his belongings and left the classroom. He didn’t stop to wait for anyone, much less Y/N. Their only interactions would be in the English room, a controlled space where she couldn’t kill him for so much as breathing in her direction. Walking towards his locker, he heard the noises of people as they navigated the busy halls of the school. Stopping at his locker with a sigh, he leaned his head on the cool metal. The day had been long, and he shrill had six other classes to go to.

A tap on his shoulder made him pick up his head. Y/N stood in front of him, bouncing on her feet as she played with her fingers.

“You left before I could ask when you can meet up. The faster we get this done, the faster we can stop being around one another,” she quipped. “I’m free on Friday after school.”

“I’m not. I have the Stark internship,”

She rolled her eyes at his response, “okay and? We need to get this done so we can go back to never speaking to each other. I’m sure Tony Stark will understand that you need to take one day off to do a school project.”

“Not happening. I don’t know if you know this, but you’re not worth losing the internship over,” he jibed. He missed the look of hurt that flashed on her face. She shook her head and scoffed.

“Well, we need to get this done. Either we work on this stupid project on Friday, or we’re both failing,” she reminded before walking away. Peter groaned and banged his head on the now open door. He ignored the looks he got from his locker neighbors and kept his head buried in the empty space. Friday’s were the days he went into the Avenger’s compound and actively worked in the lab with Tony after he finished his Spider-Man duties; the last thing he wanted to do was infect the compound with her hatred and bad vibes.

He didn’t want to invite her, but he had been working on something with Tony for the past two weeks that he needed to finish. He figured he could get some work done while someone gave her a tour around the facility—probably Steve. He was easy to convince—then he would work on the English project with her and beg father time to go faster. She was right; the quicker they finished their work, the faster he could go back to hating her. With another groan, he picked up his head and closed his locker, rushing after Y/N and grabbing her by the wrist when he caught her before she slipped into her next class.

“Friday. We’ll meet after school in the parking lot and go to the Avenger’s facility. You can drive, right?” she nodded and pulled her hand out of his grip, glaring at him.

“Don’t ever grab me like that again,” she sneered, “but fine, whatever. I have to drop Jules off at home first though, is that gonna be a problem, Peter?” He knew she wasn’t asking him.

“No, whatever,” she nodded curtly and walked in, not sparing him a glance. He shook his head and walked away. Anger seeped into his bones, and annoyance clouded his head. The following weeks were going to be torture. He just knew. There was nothing worse than being forced to work with someone the person despised.

“Hey, Penis Parker!” there are worse things, apparently. He breathed out through his nose and turned around, meeting his eyes. He knew if he ignored Flash, he wouldn’t give up. He was relentless, and his voice sounded like nails on a chalkboard.

“What, Flash?” he ground out. Flash skidded to a stop beside him with a sick smile on his face.

“I heard from a little birdie that you were partnered up with Midtwon’s resident Princess,” he started.

“Yeah, so?” he questioned. He wanted out of the conversation as soon as possible. He didn’t want to talk to his bully about his enemy. That didn’t sound like a fun Tuesday.

“So, you can help me,”

“One, why would I help you with anything?” he questioned, “and two, I’m going to regret asking, but what could I possibly help you with?”

“Because I have something you might like, and you’re going to help me get Jules Y/L/N to go to the Fall Dance with me,” Peter paused in his step and furrowed his eyebrows.

“Okay, so what does that have to do with me being partners with Y/N? Can’t you just ask Jules?”

Flash snorted, “you’re an idiot, Parker. You don’t just ask the Jules Y/L/N out, okay? Everyone knows that Y/N tells her every negative thing about the guys at Midtown to keep her uninterested and that they’re always together.” He stated.

“I’m still not sure where I fall into this or what you could possibly offer me in return,”

“I’m glad you asked,” Peter rolled his eyes but continued listening, “if you can get Y/N to, I don’t know, fall in love with you so she eases off her ‘I hate the men at Midtown’ rhetoric, then I can swoop in and take Jules to the dance without a hitch.”

“And what do I get in return?”

“Two hundred bucks does wonders for the poor, no?” Flash snarked.

“Three hundred, and you’ve got yourself a deal, Eugene,” Peter smirked. Flash blinked in anger but nodded his head anyway, reaching his hand out and shaking it. Flash walked away and left Peter in the empty hallway, rethinking everything he had agreed to. It was cruel and harsh. Sure, Y/N had stopped being his friend and became a bitch towards him, but he would be playing with someone’s feelings. Then again, three hundred dollars could help May with the bills, and it would be retribution for all the shit Y/N had put him through.

He was going to do it, and he wouldn’t allow himself to feel guilty for it. Because it was her, and she deserved to feel some of the pain she had put him through.

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