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lunarlivs · 4 months

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nye with r + s ⭑

#mama y papa #my parents #my everything #i truly can not put it into words how much these two fuckes mean to me #my first year being like an active in the fandom is over #feeling a lot #loving you more #<3333 #marauders #marauders era #fanart #remus lupin #sirius black #wolfstar #wolfstar fanart #my art

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enii · 1 year

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You are not just being sensitive for feeling a lot🐱💕🐻

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rroketa · 4 months

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I love Carol and the end of the world, just for the fact that it's protagonist reminds that it's okay to be me. It's fine not having to define your happiness on grand gestures, and extravagant spending. Going to the movie alone at times, just relaxing in the food court with a meal and a video, simply talking to your friends for hours can be just as a great time.

But also someone that struggles with connecting to others, overwhelmed by the need of everyone around them to constantly prove themselves and feel special, that even bringing a little attention to yourself feels terrifying.

I just watched "Sisters," and it just reminded me how much people can insult you in the name of a 'good deed'. That although their intentions can be kind, their actions can be hurtful, expecting you to do things the way they want to.

#feeling a lot #carol and the end of the world #watch for super crying #i think ill think of episode 4 a lot #rocket rambles

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greyaugustuspoetry · 1 year

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you make me small

i push down my emotions

so I don't bother you

with my own needs

i become the smallest in the room

so that you can't see me

when i have to cry myself to sleep

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chipthekeeper · 8 months

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Just…..Mon knowing Jacen and asking Hera about him. Mon seeing that kid grow up right by his mom’s side as a rebel. Mon wishing things had been different with Leida.

#hm #feeling a lot #when i should be sleeping #ahsoka spoilers #mon mothma #hera syndulla #jacen syndulla #in another life i think leia would’ve babysat him #*leida. thanks autocorrect?#it just came to me in a vision #my posts #ahsoka

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dcamato · 5 months

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“Why…why can’t you love me? I’m telling you im leaving and you aren’t even fighting for me. Why am I not worth fighting for? Did you EVER love me?!” Steve chokes out through a river of tears falling down his cheeks. They’d gone to Indy for the weekend, some holiday shopping for the Party and everyone else and a chance to cut loose and have some fun for them. Eddie had been weird all day - when they went to the diner for lunch (the waiter crossed the line leaving his number there and Steve made sure to use the napkin before leaving it behind); when they were shopping, Eddie kept moving away from Steve no matter what Steve did to stay close. By the time they’d hit the bar, it was like being alone again. Steve didn’t know what he’d done but he tried to fix it. Bought Eddie a drink, kept trying to put his arm around him, asking him to dance…when Eddie got upset and actually pushed Steve away, he was done. He watched Eddie start talking to some dude (who looked quite a bit like Steve, btw).He walked back to the hotel, tears threatening every step. He tried to call Robs (no answer) and even thought about calling Nancy (add to this pain? Maybe not) when the door opens. “I’ll be gone in a few, dude, so you can bring your date back here.” Eddie is looking down, pain and shame fighting for first on his face. “Stevie…” “no, you can’t say that to me right now, no. Pretty clear now,thinking back on the day, you want nothing more to do with me. Don’t know what I did but fine, I’ll go.” “Steve, please just…” You’re free to do and see and fuck whoever you want since you obviously don’t want me.” “HARRINGTON!” Stop! Please…just give me a minute to talk. Please, baby…” “Why…why can’t you love me? I’m telling you im leaving and you aren’t even fighting for me. Why am I not worth fighting for? Did you EVER love me?!” Eddie can barely see through his own tears but he grabs Steve as they both crumple to the ground. The next few minutes are silent, punctuated with sobs, deep breaths and mumbled words of comfort. When he can finally breathe and he knows Steve is calm enough to listen and truly hear the words, Eddie starts talking - “you are worth more to me than I could ever give and that was my problem. I made it yours these last few days, actually, and you don’t deserve that. You don’t deserve someone like me - doing nothing, going nowhere, with no future. You deserve the white knight, fighting dragons for you, going into battle for you. Coming back to you to sing your praises and offer their love. The best I can do is the last one - and I know that’s not enough. You deserve the world and all it has to offer, not some tiny corner of it that’s not much more than dirt. Since I knew I’d never be brave enough to leave you - I love you to damned much for that - I had to make you hate me enough to leave. Guess I am good at something at least. Just didn’t realize how…how soul deep the pain of you leaving would actually be. I don’t deserve you, even less now with what I’ve done but YOU don’t deserve to think it’s because your unloveable or not worthy of love. You are so insanely lovable and deserve to be loved by better than the likes of me…”. Eddie’s eyes shone, shed tears gripped tight to his lashes. He refused to hurt this beautiful man that he would love forever, not one more moment of pain would he cause him. His love for Steve simply wouldn’t allow it. Steve, for his part, was in turns confused, angry, hurt, awed and enamored. Every word spoken healed a crack in his heart; it made him understand how dumb they both were (yeah, Robs had said they needed to work on communication) and how much he needed to make Eddie understand right now - “Eds, sweetheart, you’re an idiot.” “HEY!…” “No, you are but so am I. We both want to give each other everything and we think the other one is going to leave to find it. Baby, to me, you ARE my knight,- you nearly died for a town that hated you, but you stay in the face of that and that is so, so brave; you defend my honor regularly with those shitheads when they get mouthy. You kill the spiders I can’t bring

#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #first post #be kind #feeling a lot #wish this was me

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jaaake · 2 months

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Sick with Covid. Weekend plans ruined. Financially unstable. Working hard but drowning harder. I’m so lonely. I’m sleeping horribly. I can’t afford to feed myself. My body is also in its worst shape I’ve ever been in.

#feeling a lot

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seritydoll · 2 months

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just broke up with my boyfriend of 2 and a half years who i at a point discussed marriage with

#feeling a Lot #mine

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gaypeople · 4 months

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well i’m 25 today

#feeling A Lot

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themistyfootprints · 26 days

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I've been fostering this little two yaer old lady for three weeks now, and what a ride it has been. She's got a lot of adoptive applicants and will be moving next week. It really feels heavy on my heart that I will go back to dogless existence. But it will also be a relief to get my cats (my boys 🧡) back home. They had to go away when this doggo arrived because she wasn't capable of living peacefully with cats, and it could have been dangerous to keep them under the same roof. But after the cats left, she has mostly been the sweetest and most peaceful dog who loves humans and cuddles.

It has been a lot, though. She has bad separation anxiety, and managing that in a single-person-household has taken its toll on me, and it will be a relief knowing she will have multiple humans caring for her in her adoptive home. It will take some time for me to recover as it will for her to adjust to her own humans when she moves. My heart.

#feeling a lot #will process #later #personal #my first foster #dont know if i can do this again #but she is a sweetheart

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paigeschapterbook · 2 years

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It’s the day of my Louis show. It’s past 3 am and I should be asleep but I am feeling a lot of things right now. I have loved Louis since early 2012, when I heard his angelic voice on the chorus of One Thing and then in the second verse, and I b am going to see him for the first time ever in about 17 and a half hours. I became a fan of One Direction because of Louis, I have been a Louie from the first tube I heard him sing. To be here now, to see Louis in a solo show singing his solo music, it is everything to me. It is literally a dream come true. It is what I always wanted for Louis and what I always believed he could do. I enjoyed 1D, even loved it, but it was Louis who reached deep into my soul and warmed me from the inside out. It was Louis who made me feel at home, who inspired me with his lovely soul and kind heart and resilience and strength, who made me feel comforted and hopeful, especially in the moments in my life where nothing else really did and it was bad for me. When my head is in a bad place, Louis makes me feel alive and like I can go on, I can find a way to make it though. Louis’s solo career has been a journey, a rollercoaster of emotions and worry and happiness and everything in between, but Louis’s music and the connection I feel makes it all worth it.

I love music. I love listening to music, across all genres. I love the connection between an artist and their fanbase. That to me is special and worthwhile and that personal connection is what I look for in music, in any kind of art really. And no other artist has ever made me feel the way Louis does: this connected to their songs and their spirit; this invested in their joy and career and, quite simply and at the core of everything, their music.

So I am ashamed of the Australian leg of Louis’s tour. I don’t think the Australian crowds as a whole have been good to Louis and that breaks my heart. LATAM and Asia were so much better to him, so wonderful and amazing and respectful and passionate in the best way. As I am Australian, I don’t know that I deserve to see him, especially when so many wonderful fans of his haven’t been able to. Thank you so much to my mutuals who have encouraged me not to feel this way. I really appreciate how kind you have been. And I am sorry for rambling like this, I just have a lot of feelings as I said.

So thank you, Louis Tomlinson. You have saved me and countless others, and you deserve wonderful things in your solo career. You are home, Louis, and I can never truly adequately express just how much you and your music mean to me.

#thank you louis #what louis means to me as a solo louie #feeling a lot #shaking a lot #crying a lot #please forgive this rambling post if anyone sees it 🙈#ltwt2022 australia #ltwt2022: melbourne 1 (my show)#louis tomlinson #solo artist louis tomlinson

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enii · 10 months

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kingly-fool-blog · 9 months

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Please Wait

How is it that hospital parking lots are so full and so devoid of soul?

Why are waiting rooms deafeningly silent and yet stuffed to the brim with a cacophony of sound like no other?

Each minute without news filled with both bone-crushing stress and relief that nothing else has happened

There's something in the bureaucracy of waiting your turn to be tended to while feeling the feral fear of it being your time

Is there any remedy for the procedure? Please wait for an answer.

#is this poetry?#i dont know #tw hospital #just words #feeling a lot

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greyaugustuspoetry · 1 year

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I Am Drowning

I fell in the ocean

But I couldn't swim.

So all I did was sink.

I held my breath

And I was trying my best.

But water still filled my lungs

As I got deeper

I was crushed by the pressure

And everything started to feel numb.

My body got cold

And my limbs got old

As my bones broke under the water’s weight.

As I looked up above

I saw the ones I love

Trying to get to me.

But their words were distorted

And their faces got blurry

I was far too deep for them to reach.

Water filled my ears

And I couldn't feel my tears.

But my body still shook with dread

Existing got heavy.

And I wasn’t ready

To face these depths alone.

So I closed my eyes

And said my goodbyes.

As I let the water take me down.

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colossalope · 11 months

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Sometimes, non-monogomy isn't easy and that has to be okay. Sometimes I am insecure and jealous and scared that my partner will love someone over/instead of me and that has to be okay. Life is complex and relationships are difficult and just because I see and know and understand doesn't mean it comes easy. I feel what I feel and as long as I don't let it make me act out of turn, it is okay to cry and listen to the sad songs and order Chinese and be a little scared of what it would feel like if I lost the person I've built my life around, the love of my life. Not everyone takes to this like a fish to water, even if you recognize that love is not equal to ownership.

anyway I don't know who this is for but if your partner is out right now and you're feeling a lot of things, it doesn't mean you're weak or wrong.

#non-monogomy #poly #feeling a lot #also drunk #ramblings #feeling insecure

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ezratheunready · 1 year

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Idk sometimes you just gotta cry at a brilliant and world altering works of fan creation because of that connection and feeling of being seen and understood in their art about the thing you both love.

#thanking all artists writers analysists and fellow fans #I love y’all #kissing you all on the forehead #i’m so serious #feeling a lot #fan creators have my utmost gratitude #mcr #fan creations

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