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pixxyofice · 3 years

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Luz Noceda in Knock, Knock, Knockin' on Hooty's Door

aka oh my god this girl has been bullied

I think about many things when i watch this show and Luz Noceda is one of them. My mind hops between many topics, but one i keep thinking about is how, in luz’s part of this episode, she just. slowly spirals. not helped by hooty at all. I keep going over her part and pointing out where her mental state is and i think it’d be interesting to line it out for people.

Is this partially projection? maybe. but i WAS a bullied kid with (undiagnosed) adhd when I was her age, sooo...

so luz wants to ask out amity. this is pretty clear. she’s stressing about it, as young teens like her tend to do. she wants it to be perfect, she wants it in her cheesy little heart. but also... everyone back home said she was cheesy... can’t let amity think the same?

after amity had kissed her on the cheek?

This might be speculation on my part, but maybe she wants it to be perfect and “not cheesy” because she doesn’t want Amity to see her doing Luz Things and go ‘i don’t like her anymore’. Like I’m sure Luz has experienced in the past.

yeah. after thinking about that, even on a subconscious level, her mood’s not in the best place. and then hooty comes in and tries to help and just ends up kicking all over her trauma. the hooty letter being initially negative probably didn’t help very much.

So Luz is like ‘whatever, guess i’ll follow whatever Hooty’s doing and go to the basement we apparently have’, goes down there, initially thinks a lamp shadow is amity, calms down seeing it’s not, and then OOPS AMITY IS ACTUALLY THERE.

as, ah, someone with adhd, luz not being prepared at all to see Amity is probably another thing that hooty messed up with his plan here regarding who he’s helping. like with him trying to do a ‘you are you’ message with king and just putting eda to sleep with sleeping nettles, him just dumping amity there and luz not being able to prepare herself the way she wants to probably sent luz’s nerves spiraling just a bit.

Then.

Amity wants Luz to forget about the kiss. Amity’s regretting it.

Luz doesn’t let Amity finish her sentence and tries to divert the topic but oh boy! this does NOT help her fears at all! and, ah, rejection sensitive dysphoria that kicks in when you’re expecting to be rejected my fucking beloathed.

Luz isn’t going to confess after that, it’s just gonna be awkward and stuff, get Amity out the basement and apologize for Hooty again, cry about how someone else changed their mind about you later-

... only for this to happen. and luz is expecting amity to reject her for it. she’s already expecting it, and this is just making it worse- amity not only is regretting kissing her, amity’s seeing this and associating it with Luz. and Luz’s past experience tells her this is not going to end well for her At All.

Oh yeah, need i remind you of the line...

”if amity sees this, she’ll think i’m such a loser” ? she wouldn’t. but the fact that luz automatically assumed that... means something. Luz is thinking back on probably her being rejected back at home, and she’s full of dread from our good ol’ pal RSD. dread that just gets worse and worse by every second.

That noise she makes is definitely not one of glee.

“oh no, i’m gonna be made fun of again”

again. AGAIN. god i’m such a mess over this line- AGAIN. THIS HAS HAPPENED BEFORE. maybe not exactly this, but luz is seeing all this lovey cheesy stuff and instead of being happy about it she’s thinking back on probably something she did back home that led to her getting made fun of and she can’t focus on the moment- she’s focused on the feelings of both the past and the present and the common thing connecting that is just a big ol feeling of negativity and dread.

RSD. my fucking beloathed.

speaking of rsd, my secondhand embarrassment very much kicks in for the entire tunnel of love ride and i can’t ever rewatch it, but i can tell you something for certain:

Luz looked up to Amity, trying to muster up some sort of positive response, but she sees that stupidly corny pun and she knows Amity’s gonna see it. and her thoughts are going “amity’s gonna see this and i’m gonna be made fun of and called a loser for something I didn’t set up I have to make sure she doesn’t see this and explain that hooty set it all up because I wanted to confess but you don’t like me in that way so-”

spiraling thoughts like that. and she’s focused so much on that she misses how amity’s reacting. she’s missing how amity reacted positively, and how amity’s distressed at her actions.

so, tunnel of love done, luz’s spiraling thoughts are... going less spiraly. she’s able to actually tell Amity that this was hooty’s stupid idea and don’t worry about it-

then Amity hits her with the ‘us, dating? that’s stupid, right?’

and luz realizes that she Fucked Up. and that probably slaps her directly in the face. and it’s definitely a different feeling than the negativity she was feeling in the tunnel, but she’s now very aware of some sudden facts.

1. Amity actually wants to date her, and 2. she just did a very. very stupid thing.

It was only Hooty immediately crying ‘NO’ and freaking out that saved whatever that conversation was going to be, and in fact gave Luz a better opportunity to explain herself and confess.

Funny, that.

#The Owl House #toh #luz noceda #luz noceda toh #luz toh #knock knock knockin on hooty's door #lumity #amity blight #she's here too

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a-lost-crow · 3 years

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*plays megalovania for you*

do any of the jesses reset time just because they accidentally said the wrong thing to someone

- Luu

Thanks broski :D

Butwhy’dyoumentionmeonyourpostofyouplayongmegalovania-

Picture below is for reference. The answers will consist on how much shame or confidence they put to it and also how they use the rewind option.

January:

No shits given

Has a decent amount of confidence to where he doesn’t feel ashamed of his choices

Like oh! He made a wrong choice? Meh. Guess he just has to live with it now.

(I’m literally personifying the same Jesse. They have all done the same actions but with different personality)

February:

Like January, no shame at all

But will show less shits than him

Internally she curses when she makes a wrong decision. But she just lives with it

If she doesn’t like it a lot it could go two ways:

She internally curses but lives with it

She rewinds. But would have a habit of reliving her wrong choice to see if she really wanted to do it

Why? Not really sure.

March:

Forgot that there was even a rewind option

She can be ashamed with her choices but not to where she would rewind it

It bugs her that she even had to choose dialogue

Like why would that be there in the first place? Why does she need to rewind?

(I explained how the choose-your-story AU works and it applies to all Jesses. The only thing different are their reactions and their usages of it and that are up to my interpretation)

April:

Only for their curiosity

Just like February she rewinds to see if her first option is a good idea or not

It’s rare that they would rewind just to pick a better option

But it can be noticeable if she did

Aiden is aware of this choose-your-story mechanic AU in April Jesse’s story. So he notices when she has rewinded

Not because of the commands stuff. It’s because of April’s change of mood

Aiden checks up on her being like “you good fam?” and April slowly turns her head to face him and going “DOES IT LOOK LIKE-”

May:

Mf will start punching the imaginary screen even though he doesn’t think there’s a screen

He knows what a video game is and pretends that someone is playing a game where he is a protag breaking the fourth wall and being mad at the player (even though he is one)

(He also kins Kris from Deltarune)

(”He’s just like me fr!” - Jesse “What?” - Lukas

He and Lukas bonded way too much for him to rewind. It will only cause damage for both of them.

This Jesse is the one I mostly used for my au. He out of all Jesses use the rewind option the most because he doesn’t like f*cking up

It’s gone to the point that Lukas in the AU is tired of it and wants the best for Jesse

I think that alone shows how much of an emotional turmoil this Jesse is. Or I should’ve pick on the other Jesses

June:

Yes

Not because she’s a big perfectionist but she doesn’t want to die it down with her bad choices

It’s sorta perfectionism but ya get what I mean

Especially if it’s a choice involving Petra

Cus she’s a huge simp

Since she’s my interpretation she has RSD and her mind wouldn’t like letting go the things she had said

They aren’t aware of the fact that their RSD will still haunt her with her choice of dialogue if they chose either a right or wrong one

July:

I doubt he remembers his bad choices

He’s only caught up of what happens after he picks his choices

Like March, he forgets that the rewind button even exists

(I said that Romeo has damage the choose-story mechanics during season two. So when July and March found out they were just like “oh. I forgot that was there.” *tries to rewind* *it fails* “Shit, that could’ve come in use. There are other ways to get out of this prison anyways.”)

August:

Used it once and never again

On what? He accidentally said the wrong option in wanting fight chicken sized zombies or zombie sized chickens

Finds the rewind option pointless and wants to treat himself as human as other people

Didn’t even bother trying to use it when not wanting to high five someone when coming home in Beacon Town

That was on purpose

He was both bothered and shy

September:

Like August, she finds it pointless

She wanted to treat herself equal as everyone else

And she wants to enjoy life to the fullest. Why rewind?

There are some embarrassing things she may had said but it’s part of life

She did resist on trying to rewind to push off Aiden in Sky City though

October:

“How did I not see that until now?” - him at the last episode of season 1

Sure. He tries using it once in a while just to come up with a better comeback

Sometimes if his comeback is lame he will rewind again

Every time I mention rewinding, Lukas’ will receive a headache. Stop this now by following me on my Twitter dot com /j

November:

*Says wrong dialogue* “Oh darn it. Oh well.”

She keeps watch of herself on what she’s saying

November recovers by reciting funny stuff

December:

He used to do it often mostly because he gets bullied for saying the wrong things

But after him exercising and trying to improve himself he doesn’t rewind much anymore (This is coming from a headcanon that he’s the strongest)

He wants to influence his mental health to May. May looks like he needs it

He lives with his mistakes

So the majority of the Jesses don’t want to rewind because they learnt that they are like other people and to not put themselves on a pedestal. And probably because I haven’t characterize them yet. If the Jesses rewind they have other reasons for it.

#Minecraft story mode #MCSM #Choose story au #Individual!Jesses #mcsm jesse #Crow stop bullying May challenge (IMPOSSIBLE!!! LUKAS GOT ANOTHER HEADACHE!!!)#I'm hitting the slay button and y'all can't stop me

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seasidefallenangel · 3 years

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hq characters with a neurodivergent s/o

✰ neurodivergency refers to someone with adhd and/or autism.

sugawara koushi;

○ he tries his best to offer as much support as possible. he can’t say he understands a lot of it, but he absolutely sympathizes with you. you don’t have to worry a ton when you have more off days, or in the event you have rsd, that he’ll get upset with your feelings. he knows you genuinely can’t help it, and very rarely gets upset to point where he’d need a little distance from you

○ picks up on the concept of hyperfixations fairly easily. he can’t even begin to imagine how horrible it is - if one day he woke up and his passions meant nothing to him anymore. if you have a hard time making friends because of how quickly and intensely your interests change, he makes an effort to try and get into some of the new stuff you pick up. he can’t always guarantee he’ll like it or anything, but he’s always willing to listen to you infodump

○ if he spots any sort of fidget toy/stressball/etc, he’ll buy one for you. he’s not sure if they actually help you a lot, but you always seem super grateful for it. he’ll take notice of what ones you tend to reach for more and try to gear towards getting those ones for you

○ as patient as he is, he does have his moments where he can get overwhelmed with you. times where your impulsivity, aggression or other symptoms of neurodivergency become too much for him to handle can lead to him snapping a little. he’ll make sure to leave the room as he knows it’s not your fault and you don’t act like this on purpose, but he’s only human. he makes sure afterwards to let you know he’d never blame you for what you can’t help, and to not be too hard on yourself in these situations

nishinoya yuu;

○ there’s honestly a fair chance he had adhd himself, even if he doesn’t realize it. you’ve never explicitly said you think he is to his face, but sometimes you hint that the way you treat certain things is really similar

○ he’s a big believer that being spontaneous keeps a relationship fun and interesting, which is both a blessing and a curse. on some days, something new and unknown is exactly what you need to stimulate your brain and keep your attention. other days it’s hard to find purpose in doing anything at all, and keeping up with his energy proves to be difficult

○ he really doesn’t want to get annoyed with you, but it tends to happen pretty often. he recognizes you’re not purposefully trying to make him mad and in return he’ll try his hardest to never lash out at you. there’s been a few moments where it was just impossible to control himself (another sign of someone who’s nd, you noted afterwards), but both of you understand each others grievances and are able to work past it

kageyama tobio;

○ at first, he’s not going to take you seriously. he’s the type to say that you're just avoiding your problems, making up excuses, overreacting. the “if you want to do something, then just do it” type of person. he doesn’t really think he’s coming off as being an asshole, but when there’s a very noticeable rift between the two of you, he starts racking his brain for what might’ve made you upset and eventually puts two and two together

○ it takes time, as many things like this do. you’ll have to really sit down and explain things to him, and he slowly starts to understand. he’ll tell you some of this stuff reminds him of himself before brushing it off and never questioning it again. you absolutely suspect he’s on the spectrum but won’t bring it up until he either asks you or starts thinking about it himself - which happens when you accidentally mention how volleyball seems to be his special intrest

○ it can be... difficult to say the least. he can’t really keep up all that well with sudden shifts and the irritability you often show over things that seemingly don’t matter. sometimes it’s hard for him to not take things personally, and the fact you two seem so similar in this regard raises a fair amount of problems. you both have to learn from the issues and work together to co-exist peacefully, but it’s very worth it in the end

tsukishima kei;

○ tsukishima will pick on almost anyone for almost anything. this is something he will absolutely never joke about. he made the mistake once early on - something about a test grade - and had to deal with your emotional outburst, following a meltdown, over how you tried so hard but nothing makes sense. you can’t just sit in a class and learn like he does, you’ll never be normal, never be good enough-

○ he had to stop the downward spiral in the middle of the sidewalk, but he was too shaken up to worry about embarrassment. that sort of reaction wasn’t normal by any means, and when he got home that night he tried looking into why exactly that happened. the complete shift in attitude the next day was jarring you to, but the genuine apology was even more jarring. he doesn’t apologize easily, but something about having made fun of a neurological disorder you’ve suffered with your whole life just doesn’t sit well in his stomach

○ he picks up extremely quickly, even for him. he’s very perceptive of when you’re more on-edge than usual and reminds himself to be patient with you. he’s not coddling in public (unless you’re having some sort of breakdown or panic attack) but it’s noticeable that he doesn’t make any sort of jabs at you like he does with most others

○ helps tutor you without any gripes. he won’t lie and say he gets how hard it is for you to understand certain concepts, but he’s aware things don’t come as easily to other people like it does to him. very thorough in explaining whatever you have difficulty with and tries coming up with real life examples to help it make more sense. if it does become too much for him (he’s still a high schooler regardless of how he acts), he’ll end the session and let you know it’s nobody’s fault

kuroo tetsurou;

○ one of, if not at the top of the list, the best people to date if you’re neurodivergent. he takes this extremely seriously and doesn’t doubt you at all when you explain how it feels like everyday your disorder slowly rips you apart until there’s nothing left. every part of your life is affected by this and he wants to be able to help you feel as normal as possible despite everything weighing you down

○ puts a lot of time and research into your disorders. he wants to understand what’s helpful and what’s counterproductive without bothering you about it since he doesn’t know if you might react badly. he has a very good balance of figuring out how to help you cope in certain scenarios even if they’re not ideal and removing you from a situation where things are just too heavy for you to handle

○ he really stresses how important it is you talk to him about your boundaries, things you need, moments where you’re overwhelmed, etc. he can’t imagine life has been that easy for you thus far and tries to do everything he can, from helping with schoolwork, getting fidget toys, introducing you to new things that may help, and anything in between. he never wants you to feel as if you’re a burden or difficult because of what you can’t control, and will bend over backwards to prove it

kozume kenma;

○ kenma is fairly well versed in online topics and this is one that comes up often. given how perceptive he is towards the world around him, he was pretty easily able to figure out that something was different about you far before you started dating. he doesn’t speak about it much with you but does a lot behind-the-scenes to help make everyday life easier

○ given that kenma is always getting into new games and franchises, he’s able to help make the time in between hyperfixations more bearable. you had described to him how empty and monotone everything feels when you aren’t focused on something specific and he really hates picturing you so lifeless because your brain just won’t let you consume things normally. even if you aren’t playing the game so much as just watching his do it, he feels better knowing there’s something distracting you

○ something important to remember is that you’re not the only one who can act out or get overwhelmed easily. kenma hates being pushed out of his comfort zone and imagines it the same for you, so he makes sure to never put you in a place where you might face sensory overload or anything of the sort. he expects the same treatment back. infodumping is fine and he’ll nod and listen to you, but if there’s a point where you become suffocating then he’ll ask you to take a step back and give him a moment. wants to avoid triggering anything rsd-related so he’ll specify this isn’t your fault and that everyone makes him feel this way at some point

oikawa tooru;

○ quite possibly one of the worst people to go through this with you at the start. oikawa puts his soul into everything he does even if it shatters him, so some of your behaviors might not sit well with him. a lot of people who are neurodivergent have something they naturally excel in and in the same vein, end up dropping or disregarding because they no longer hyperfocus on it. it reminds him too much of a certain kouhai who had all the ability oikawa did with none of the years of practice it took him to get there, and puts a bad taste in your mouth

○ explain to him it’s not fair that he treats you in a way that implies you enjoy living like this, because you’d give anything to keep interests you have for longer than a few weeks or months, regardless of how much you try to force yourself to stay into it. he re-evaluates himself and realizes he’s in the wrong. he’ll never fully understand how it affects you but he’ll listen and learn about it, ask questions, study how he can help. he compares how you hyperfixate to how much he’ll focus on volleyball and knows this has to be an equally giving relationship in regards to respecting the other interests

○ he’ll have his moments where he can’t pretend that he’s able to handle your mood swings and inability to just sit down and pay attention to something. you tell him he wouldn’t be normal if he was somehow okay with everything you do. an afternoon where he practices in the gym by himself and you sit and binge watch something is good enough for some breathing room without causing any unclosable rift to appear. he’ll may sure he’s listening intently when he comes home and you go into detail about a new hobby of yours. he’s trying his absolute best, i promise you

bokuto koutaro;

○ it’s highly likely bokuto has adhd himself. it’s one of those things adults just say to kids when they’re being hyperactive without actually knowing all the things that come with having adhd, but the older bokuto got the more he looked into it and realized it might actually be a thing for him. there’s a lot of neurodivergent-related issues you have that sometimes fly over his head or he has to go back and think about again, but he’s the last person who ever wants to cause any issues for you

○ he’ll ask you questions regarding if you think he has adhd and some of the signs that make it recognizable. he’s terrified at the idea volleyball might just be a hyperfixation of his, but feels much better when you explain special interests and how if anything it would fall under that category for him. these conversations are a very intimate bonding moment for both of you, given how vulnerable you really have to be to let all your weaknesses be known without worry of ridicule. he wouldn’t trade the knowledge of having your trust so deeply for the world

○ bokuto, for as supportive as he is, can stimulate your brain in a bad way. he’s easily excitable and often has volume issues, and more than a few times has he triggered sensory overload for you. he feels horrible whenever it happens and wants to comfort you so badly, but knows the best thing is for him to just quiet down and leave you be. he never takes it personally and goes into “emo mode” because he knows how serious it can be. the only time he’ll get close in this moments is if you have a panic attack because of it in which case he tries helping you steady your breath and stop shaking. normally you’d hate being touched when you’re like this, but his arms and warmth work wonders for your psyche

tendou satori;

○ it’s terrifying how in-tune he is with you. it’s almost like you’re just talking about the weather instead of you trying to scratch the skin off your arm while your brain got the better of you. stimming, hyperfocusing, lack of interest, social interaction issues, you can talk to him about literally anything related to your neurodivergency and he’ll be on the exact same wavelength as you. he’s able to adapt very easily and can read your irritability, mood swings and any triggers you might have. is excellent at getting you out a situation before it becomes too much for you to bear

○ tendou is another character who always has something new to show you, so he’s also very good at filling the gap between hyperfixations. he’s somehow able to completely keep up with your infodumping and even will do something similar of the sort right back you. he loves finding new games and anime and will automatically partake in anything you show him. it really helps you mentally since you never feel like you’re talking too much or uncomfortably passionate about anything since he seems so genuinely interested in what you have to say

○ is extremely protective and defensive of you when it comes to others questioning why you act a certain way or do certain things. there’s probably a little bit of a personal tie there since he got bullied for being different when he was a kid, and he absolutely hates when people are derided because they don’t follow the falsely conceived notion of normalcy. you’re not harming anyone, why should it matter what you’re doing? if you’re insecure about stimming in public though, he invests in fidgets cubes for you to keep in your pockets to play with secretly so nobody notices anything out of the ordinary. his main goal is to make sure you’re happy no matter how much your head tries to tell your otherwise. really, he just loves you more than anything else

kita shinsuke;

○ if anyone else treated this the way mr. no gaps does, you’d absolutely freak out on them - but for some reason since it’s kita it comes off as comforting. he’s the type that doesn’t let you use disorders as a restriction or excuse to let yourself settle for mediocrity, but he makes it obvious that he wants to see you thrive despite the things holding you back. he’ll never put you in a situation he thinks will trigger any sort of attack, rather things he know you can handle if you put a little more faith in yourself and your abilities

○ if he sees you’re spiraling and can’t take any sort of outside forces interacting with you a ton then he’ll make sure you have a day or two off to yourself. he won’t criticize or ridicule you for anything and goes along with whatever whims you feel (or in same cases, don’t feel like doing anything at all.) understands there’s a very important balance you need to maintain in order to go through life feeling even semi-decent and doesn’t want to jeopardize any progress you’ve made towards helping yourself

○ likes to play casual volleyball in the backyard when you’re stable and attentive enough to understand what’s going on around you. if it becomes a hyperfixation of yours then he’ll be glad to go more in depth so long as it doesn’t hit a point where it’s damaging your ability to interact with anything else. he’s a big believer that moving your body and being outside helps relax you, even if you’re not enthusiastic at the moment about it. he won’t let anybody - not your family, not an outsider, not even yourself - look down on you for any disability you have

✧·ﾟ: *✧·ﾟ:* 　　 *:·ﾟ✧*:·ﾟ✧

✰ this was stupid self indulgent but idc!! i’m neurodivergent myself and let it be known that if you say you have hyperfixations and you’re not nd i will stick your arm in a deep fryer <3

#sugawara koushi x reader #nishinoya yu x reader #kageyama tobio x reader #tsukishima kei x reader #kuroo tetsuro x reader #kenma kozume x reader #oikawa tooru x reader #bokuto kotarou x reader #tendou satori x reader #kita shinsuke x reader #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu!!#haikyuu headcanons #fluff #headcanons #haikyuu

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appleflavoredkitkats · 3 years

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You gotta give me some time to come up with a quesrion bc rn im blindsided by how cool las nevadas fundy is

AWWW ANON THANK YOU

you know what, if you don't know what to ask in particular, i will provide basic hc's of the au so you fan familiarize urself with it more!! it'll be called the famberg las nevadas au!!

tw: substance abuse, smoking, gambling, self-deprecation, mental illness, implied depression, dissociation

fundy's main motivation after he's joined las nevadas is: do whatever the hell he wants because he thinks his life is genuiney purposeless, so why not just? do whatever?

it comes with repercussions, especially in the health department because fundy smokes PACKS of cigarettes as if it was a part of his diet. even schlatt is fundy he can finish a pack in a day if he really wanted to

but the fun fundy experiences is definitely at work— because as much as quackity merely asked fundy to work in las nevadas because he viewed him as useful, quackity eventually learned to kind of appreciate fundy and schlatt since they are literally the only ones quackity has left. even fundy and schlatt feel the same. they don't really hate each other, nor are they close, but they have a fondness for one another that they wouldn't exchange for anything else

they also play a lot of poker together! i say that fundy's style of poker is more fun and whimsical, so most people underestimate him, but fundy is REALLY good at poker and detecting tells. his only flaw is that he bluffs too often and never knows how to retreat from a bluff

schlatt is the more of quiet, observant, tryhard gambler. they kind of make fun of him for being the slow and practical one but i think out of all of them, schlatt does lose the least. his flaw is that he's too uptight and safe, and sometimes, he takes SO LONG to make a decision

quackity's the shit talker one with very obvious tells that he tries his best to suppress. he's very analytical of everything, but he mostly plays casually!!

quackity kind of runs the place but it's schlatt and fundy who do more of the hard work as quackity kind of. makes sure his customers like the place. fundy is a card dealer for some blackjack or hold'em booths while schlatt does roulettes because he's bad at shuffling cards. fundy's obviously the better worker though as he can calculate fast and deals cards well while schlatt is more uptight and doesn't like being rushed

in other boots, fundy has made redstone contraptions that dispense and shuffles cards itself!! most of the self-distributing booths are made by fundy— this counts slot machines!!

their only down side is that these bitches are really bad at comforting people. quackity can sometimes be too strict and cold while fundy tends to hide a lot, so schlatt takes up the role of Mother Hen whenever something bad happens. but as much as they aren't SUPER close, every argument does end with a small apology and them just. sitting next to each other because they know that's all they have and they will cherish each other for as long as they can live

this is especially important bc i do headcanon that fundy is kind of depressed/dissociates a lot as it was a byproduct of his trauma + identity loss, so whenever he does something wrong, he shuts down IMMEDIATELY. or when someone questions fundy's skills, fundy really loses energy— big rsd vibes you know

schlatt on the other hand kind of relates in a way but because he's still a ghost (quackity doesn't get revival book rights), his mind isn't that Good so he will forget easily or drift away or forget and his body is REALLY bad bc his skin is graying and flaking

quackity is their mother hen in this department bc he kind of is their medic in a way, and fundy's also the bubblier one in the group who will lighten up the mood whenever needed

okay that's the basics of this au but i'm down to expound any plot ideas if you want :DDD

#mcyt #dream smp #fundy #jschlatt #quackity #famberg las nevadas au

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heller-obama · 3 years

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The Dean Winchester has adhd masterlist

(Aka the adhd!dean essay I promised awhile ago)

Emotional disregulation: (trouble regulating emotions, i.e. going from laughing to sobbing) I mean you can’t really dispute this in canon. You could say he has anger issues from John “piece of shit” Winchester but going from extremes in emotions that quickly is an Adhd Mood™️

Impulsivity: Dean being an impulsive human being is more canon than destiel, do I really need to say more

Hyperactivity: okay he’s not the stereotypical jumping off the wall adhd, but its literally been set up since s1 that he much prefers going out and doing things and hates sitting and reading all the dusty old books and lore websites

Hyperfocus: (an intense almost obsessive focus on a certain task or project at the moment) on the other side we’ve seen him do research before but in those scenes he usually has an obsessive focus and forgets to eat and sleep and stuff, which is practically textbook hyperfocus.

Hyperfixations/special interests: look me in the eyes and try to tell me Dean doesn’t have hyperfixations or special interests. I mean, extensive knowledge of classic rock, cars cowboys, Dr. Sexy. Like cmon those have big hyperfixation and special interest energy

RSD: (rejection sensitive dysphoria, kinda like diagnosed general anxiety disorder level anxiety, but laser focused on rejection) okay this one could maybe also be attributed to his abandonment issues, but also it has total rsd energy bc think about it. All the drama about Sam not coming for him in purgatory in s8 bc he thought that meant Sam didn’t care about him anymore (aka rejecting him), obsessively following johns every order in s1 bc he thought he wouldn’t love him (and would reject him) if he wasn’t the perfect soldier of a son, etc.

Delayed sleep cycles: (basically just some adhd ppl have natural sleep cycles that run from 2am-11am instead of the neurotypical 11pm-8am) I mean it is totally canon that he gets shit sleep bc he goes to bed super late, and then he gets a lot less sleep bc they have to get up early to hunt

The adhd vibes: he just has them adhd vibes. Y’all lgbtq+ folks know how you just meet someone and you’re like “ah yes they’re not straight”? It’s like that but with adhd and lemme say I’m usually pretty accurate. Also I’m desperate for that adhd rep

Feel free to add your own!

#ik I missed some lol so y’all add your own!!#supernatural #dean winchester #spn #adhd representation #adhd!dean #adhd

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mariaiscrafting · 3 years

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ahhhh ty ty ty <3

ok, so I think that what makes Dream act this way (iykyk) is how dreamwastaken became so big so quickly. and by quick I mean fucking lightning speed.

he didn't have enough time to learn enough about cc etiquette, especially in these three aspects: influence, boundaries and fanbase/stans/whatever you call it. I'll try to explain it:

• Influence: Does he know the influence he has? Like, when he hears that he is the myct with the largest fanbase, does he really process that? I remember he talked about not being able to control all of his fanbase and there's bad apples everywhere -- which is true, and that only like 1% of his fanbase breaks his boundaries (that include sending hate for him, harassing, doxing, etc. yk, basic twitter culture lol) but, honey, with your big ass fanbase, 1% is still a lot of people. As a content creator you *have* to be aware of that.

let's take the hbomb situation. First off, as a streamer, it's you that set the mood of the stream. Even if he was only messing around with his pals, even if they did say to do not send hate to hbomb, dt dunking on him created a toxic environment, which caused his fans being toxic towards hbomb and you know what happens next. Hell, when this happened, I was watching Tapl and he was watching them and he was crying laughing over them screaming bc they were just. so loud and so aggressive that it was kinda ??? Sirs, this is literally a Minecraft Stream lmaooo

my point is, that was not the road that dreamwastaken, 21M fans, should've taken. he don't condone his fans actions but he knows his fans are diehard and will always be on his side, he should be more careful before stating negative opinions, especially if its towards another person.

• Boundaries and Fanbase: He posted a list of his boundaries a while ago, idk if you know or seen it (btw please george copy your bestie for the love of god <3) but I'm not talking about those boundaries, I'm talking about the basic boundaries between cc and viewer. boundaries that, in my opinion, should exist between cc and viewer. I get that Dream is an open person, an oversharing type of open person if I may add, but I think he should take a step back regardless. When I heard that he was taking a time from twitter, I genuinely got so glad, not because he couldn't start any drama then, but because it would do so so good for his mental health. I'm not even that fond of him, it's just that for me, any cc taking a break or outright leaving twitter is a win for me. I know how RSD is hard to deal and honestly letting shit out it's better but dream you have dt you have bbh so please don't make things worse online 😭 I know how good can be to feel validation from millions of people but. it's not a good idea, especially in the state that his fanbase is on rn (this topic is kinda sensitive to talk abt for me bc people be outright ableist and hide it as criticism like. say that shit's not helping his reputation and whatever without acting like he's fucking. manipulating his fanbase for being affected by his rsd💀 or, on the other hand, don't say that hes just being adhd🤪 when he's just being an asshole like damn that's a Him thing bro lol)

(omg it's so big I'm so sorry and theres a part two I'm so sorry tumblr user messed-up-gal ToT) - morango 1/2

pt. 2:

Dream is the proof that the people who loves you can be your downfall. istg. Have you noticed that every drama that Dream enters, people usually get more mad abt how his fanbase reacts (85% they'll react in a bad way) than Dream himself? it's not always, but its definitely more likely. I'm not saying Dream is saint, he Is petty and his ego does him dirty and made him choke multiple times before,, But! i dont think hes a bad guy. he's literally just a dude. ok, he's a 21yr old white gamer man that has a trumpie past (maybe?? idk. I think hes cured now ig lol) so he's bound to do some shitty things but he still tries to get better and hopefully he'll mature. 21 is old enough but it's still so young, yk? I kind of lost my mind during the end and my eyes are literally begging to be closed so tl;dr: Its gonna be hard for him to become a better cc bc his fans don't let him be criticized (by infantilizing his adhd symptoms or the mob mentality as soon as someone says anything abt him), the honest criticism get lost between lies from antis that don't know shit, he still has a lot of growing up to do and overall he became famous too fast and he needs to learn things even faster bc as soon as there's not a single one dream hater on sight they'll turn their back and attack him instead lmao I hate twitter i definitely have more to say but I'm tired and my memory is shit. just-- hate dream if you want, love dream if you want, nobody is obligated to have an opinion but I wanted to express mine. have a lovely day! -morango 2/2

Aight, there's a lot to unpack here, so Imma try to only go into the points I have something to add to (here's what I talk about in each paragraph, if you want to jump to a specific point):

Speed of Dream's rise to fame

The "bad apples" in the Dream fanbase

Post-MCC HBomb stream

Not condoning versus actually condemning his fans

Manipulation & RSD

Criticism of Dream, his fanbase, and his brand

The “just a dude” argument, flipped

First, I agree that one of the many factors that has resulted in the current image Dream has set up for himself, the way his fanbase functions, the ways people hate on him, and the way the Dream brand functions, is the speed of his rise to fame. It's unique, and there are probably a hundred social/psychological angles that could be used to examine the exact effects of that speed upon all of these facets of the Dream Name; did rapid fame beget the rapid rise of unrighteous hatred, did those waves of hatred then instigate the rise of a surprisingly overdefensive fanbase, did that rapid fame get to his head and/or result in an inability to appropriately handle all the after-effects of rapid fame, etc.? That point you bring up, about how the speed of his rise to fame requires him to learn even more quickly, is so interesting to me. I think that maybe Dream expected to get pretty famous pretty quickly, hence the preparedness in regards to some mechanics of influencer fame- merchandise, business-building, networking, knowing how to manage his fanbase to best benefit him. But I don't think he expected to get this famous this quickly. This is all speculation of course, as are this entire post and your ask, but I think that he just couldn't anticipate having to learn how to handle enmasse controversy, waves of antis, or every Youtuber speculating/knowing about him; and yeah, that results in him having to learn all of these things very quickly, lest he allow his whole brand and fandom to fall apart.

Second, I disagree with the frequent argument that Dream's fanbase is only marginally toxic. Personally, I think that the circumstances of Dream's fame, his personality and management of his fanbase, and his brand of content have resulted in the very specific kind of stan that Dream stans are. I don't think this is simply a case of "all fandoms have a small percentage of assholes who take it too far;" rather, the nature of the community itself breeds the kind of mentality of "an asshole who takes it too far." I only even know this because I was a Dream fan (kinda a stan, I'm ngl). At one time, I watched every single Dreamwastaken & Dream Team video multiple times; I listened to the Manhunts on repeat, as though they were podcasts; I followed mostly smiletwt and dttwt accounts on mcyttwt; I had upwards of 10 tabs for AO3 DNF fics open on my phone at a time; I watched DNF and Dream Team Being A Family-esque compilations on repeat; I watched every George and Sapnap alt stream I possibly could; I went out of my way to defend Dream against Redditors and Twitter antis regarding the cheating scandal. For the latter half of 2020, and a couple months of 2021, I lived and breathed this part of the fandom; so when I say that Dream stans are a whole other breed than any other kind of mcyttwt stan, I say that because I used to be like that, too. I usually use parasocial very loosely or ironically, but Dream stans are genuinely one of the most parasocial fanbases I have ever seen or been a part of. The level of investment Dream stans have in this man's life, the lengths they will go to to defend him, the amount of psychonalysis and digging they do on his life and character, the amount of emotion he can evoke in them- it's taken to another level, man. This isn't just characteristic of a fraction of his fanbase; this is what the fanbase is like as a whole.

Third, I partially disagree with your take on the HBomb thing, but not in the way one might think? I actually empathize with the way they reacted much more than I thought I would, simply because I suspect I have RSD (also suspect I have ADHD, have for several months now) and I can see myself getting insanely frustrated because of something like that. Like yeah, it was "just a MC stream" or "just an MC game," but that's kinda disregarding the fact that something that might seem like "just a [insert inconsequential thing]" to a rational mind might have a major emotional consequence/take a major emotional toll on someone with RSD, or really anyone who gets easily impatient/angry about video games (Sapnap reminds me of many of my friends, in that way). The issues I, personally, had with the way they handled the HBomb situation is that these are simply explanations and reasons for my empathy; they are not excuses. I have no excuse when I get irrationally angry about something inconsequential in my own life, for a couple of reasons. One, because I am an adult and I need to learn how to handle my reactions and manage my own anger. Two, because as someone with many mental problems, it is my responsibility to learn coping mechanisms to ensure my own emotional stability and livelihood; this includes learning whatever I need to handle RSD- whether that be isolating myself from others when I know I will become violently/passionately angry about something, creating and sustaining a support system that can get me through bouts of extreme emotion, finding healthy emotional outlets for my negative emotions that won't harm myself or others, or a combination thereof. I don't think what they said about HBomb post-MCC was an irreversibly horrible thing, or anything. I think there were errors committed by two men who should be fully capable of foreseeing and preventing those errors, but I don't unconditionally hate Dream or Sapnap for the post-MCC stream or comments. I just wish they had made amends quickly, publicly, and sufficiently, because the greatest consequences from the whole thing weren't even from those two criticizing HBomb themselves; they were from the waves of backlash because of their immense influence on the MCYT fandom, which could've been prevented, if they had acted maturedly and responsibly after the stream.

Fourth, you’re right, that he doesn’t seem to condone his fans’ behavior. I detest the frequent anti argument that one of the reasons Dream should be criticized is because he explicitly uses his fanbase to attack others, or something of the sort. Personally, I think he created his fanbase in a very specific way and interacts with them in such a way so as to benefit him as much as possible, yes, but he never actually tells his fanbase to go and yell at or harrass anyone. Still, there is a significant difference between not condoning something and condemning something. It might seem unfair, and it might be annoying of me to say this, but I truly think that someone with this large a fanbase, especially one as overzealous as Dream’s, needs to be condemned every single time it goes on some kind of rampage/harrassment campaign. Either that, or Dream needs to make a definitive, permanent statement against any kind of harrassment of others on his behalf. I know he’ll occassionally make the odd tweet or serious stream addressing something his fanbase did, but one of the many reasons his fanbase keeps doing the same damn thing is because he’s so lukewarm and spotty about this condemnation. A fanbase like his needs to be given explicit guidance and boundaries for the numerous things they do in his defense- harrassing/doxing antis, harrassing people who criticize him who aren’t antis (respectful criticism, other CCs, other MCYT stans, etc.), harrassing the people he critcizes (i.e., HBomb), speculating about his personal life (his relationship with his gf, his mental health/ADHD, his romantic life, his childhood, etc.), and speculating about his relationships with his friends and colleagues. My personal ideology is that, if you have significant influence over someone or a group of people, you are at least somewhat responsible for the things those people do or don’t do, if it at all relates back to you. I’m so fucking tired of the argument that CCs aren’t responsible for what their fans do. Obviously they aren’t responsible for every single one of their fans, and obviously they can’t fully control their fans at the end of the day. But I think there are certain things that reach such a level of extremity that does make those CCs responsible. This can be measured by either scale or intensity; that is to say, if a CC’s fanbase does things on an extremely large scale, or one person from/a fraction of the fanbase does something really extreme, then the CC is made all the more responsible. Another CC I’ve always had trouble discussing with other people on this subject is Pewdiepie, in particular, about the extremists in his fanbase. Because the things a small handful of his fans have done in reference to him and/or in his name were so fucking extreme, I thought Pewdiepie had to take at least some responsibilty. Along a similar vein, because the things Dream’s general fanbase does are so widespread and on such a massive scale, Dream has to take at least some responsibility.

Fifth, okay. Hmmm. I want to tackle this point you made about the ableism he faces in some criticism of him carefully and with empathy, but not coddling. One, I do think a lot of the criticism he receives for the ways he handles criticism (post-cheating Tweets, reactions to John Swan, post-MCC HBomb stream, etc.), disregard his RSD and can be oftentimes ableist. I’ve actually encountered people irl who criticize this aspect of Dream’s character, and have had to explain to them their disregard for how ADHD/RSD affect neurodivergent people’s reactions to criticism. But - and this is a big, and very controversial but - I think mentally ill/disordered people can 100% leverage their mental illness/disorders for the sake of manipulation. This is actually something I’ve learned from a psychiatrist, regarding the ways people I know and I handle our anxiety and depression. This manipulation can be unwitting or intentional, but it is entirely possible, and the possibility shouldn’t be entirely dismissed as ableist. Living with a mental illness or disorder that others know about/that you are very public about puts you in an interesting position to receive frequent sympathy, empathy, and/or pity. I’m not saying that empathy for Dream having ADHD/RSD is entirely unjustified; on the contrary, I have frequently expressed how I can relate to his ADHD symptoms and have defended him for expressing those symptoms, both on mcytblr and in real life. I am saying that Dream fans tend to use his ADHD as a kind of shield for a lot of criticism levied against him, including the supposition that he could be manipulating his fanbase to defend him because of his public expressions of RSD. So yes, my theory is that Dream knows how to levy every aspect of his life for his personal gain and for the growth of his brand, and that includes his ADHD. I think he has courage for his openess about his ADHD, I think his openness has contributed to the rise in awareness of mental health and empathy for neurodivergent people within Gen Z, and I think at least some of his expressions of RSD publicly/online weren’t intentionally made public. All that being said, I also think he has to know just how much his fanbase cares about defending him for his ADHD, and I think he has to know that some of the things he does related to his neurodivergence endear him to his audience, in a coddling, baby-ing, mildly ableist sorta way. Maybe this is all incredibly presumptuous of me. Of course, I can never know the real intentions behind any Dream video, Tweet, or stream. Maybe I’m just projecting, because I can see myself doing just this, if I had the maturity I had circa 2018-2019. Idfk know, man.

Sixth, I actually agree with you here, people probably do get more mad at his fanbase than him. Dream puts out content pretty seldomly, considering the frequency of content output for other Youtubers/streamers in his field/at his brand size. And yet, he has received masses of criticism. Considering that the things Dream himself does/says do not entirely correlate with the amount of criticism he receives, I think it’s a logical assumption that a lot of that criticism actually goes back to the size of his presence online, rather than the man himself. That is to say, because of the massive community he’s amassed, the exponential growth of his fanbase, their presence on every single social media site and in virtually every single Internet space/fandom, and the size of his metaphysical presence in his fields, Dream is much bigger than the man himself, so the criticism he receives will, at least in part, be a direct or indirect result of all these other aspects of the Dream brand. Something I don’t think many Dream fans/stans, or even most MCYT fans in general, understand, is that Dream isn’t just “one guy” in the eyes of the Internet- at least, not anymore. He hasn’t been for nearly a year. Like Pewdiepie, Mr. Beast, and other CCs who have amassed similar levels of fame and wealth via Internet content creation, Dream is a brand now, and most people will treat him as such. He isn’t just some uwu soft boy playing Minecraft anymore. He is on a whole other level from any other MCYT in his friend circle or colleague interaction bubble. His words will never again live in a vaccum or private bubble, his friend circle will never again be under anything less than intense scrutiny, his past actions will never again be simple mistakes or silly errors, his words will never again be casual tweets or streams for laughs among a couple thousand followers. Dream’s name represents something much bigger than just the one man. As such, all aspects of his brand, including his fanbase, will tie back to him and, ultimately, to any general criticism of him.

I’m not saying I like any of this, and I actually think the evolution of influencers from people to a marketable brand with similar mechanisms, responsibilities, and liabilities as a corporation is some kind of late capitalism nightmare fuel; I’m just stating my own observations and theories as to why so much anti-Dream criticism seems to be directed at his fanbase, rather than him.

Seventh, he’s just a guy, you’re right, but I think a lot of the antis on Tumblr understand this more than you know. As I’ve seen it, the sentiment among much of the “DSMP stans DNI” crowd seems to be that of “Dream/other MCYTs are such ‘bad’ people, so why do their fans stick to these mediocre, racist men, when there are so many better people to watch/better content to consume?” We know this argument is flawed for many of the obvious reasons - the conflation of all MCYTs’ actions regardless of individual identity, the equating of a CC’s fanbase’s morality to that of the CC they enjoy watching, the exxageration of any error MCYT CCs have committed as bigotry/racism, the fundamental misunderstanding and misinformation that led antis to believe this exxageration of the facts, etc. But I want to focus on the general, underlying sentiment of, “why not watch someone better, when your creator is problematic?” Sometimes, I ask this of Dream stans. Yes, being mildly ignorant, getting involved in the scandals Dream has, and being a right-leaning/libertarian centrist in the recent past all seem like harmless things, all things considered. One could say Dream isn’t nearly as bad as many antis who are misinformed seem to believe, and that there are much worse CCs Dream stans could be watching and creating fan content for. But I think what Tumblr antis wonder is, aren’t there also much better MCYTs/CCs people could be watching and stanning? Because he’s just some guy, right? Is his content truly so exceptional or is he really so exceptional a person, that people have to stick by him, despite the things that spike up regarding his current or past actions? I think that’s what made me finally decide to stop watching Dream. I realized he was just Some Guy. The Dream Team was a comforting dynamic to indulge in, DNF was a cute ship to read and speculate about, and Manhunts were fun videos to watch; however, once the Reddit posts came out and I read them in-depth, the cost-benefit analysis tipped over to the “not worth it” side for me. I realized Dream’s content, while fun and comforting, was not entirely unique, and wasn’t worth sticking around for, given what I then knew about his past political leanings. If he is just Some Guy, then there are a hundred more like him out there. There a hundred more ships, a hundred more found family dynamics, a hundred more entertaining and skilled Minecraft players. So while I agree with you on the point of people being allowed to love him regardless because he is just a guy, at the end of the day, I think that, if we are to believe that sentiment or use that argument in such a manner, we should also understand the flip side- that, if he is just some guy, why is it worth sticking around? To that I say, maybe because people just enjoy the simple things they enjoy.

Anyways, I wholly agree with your tl;dr. Thanks for that insanely long ask, this was a fun thing to keep me occupied while I’ve been at work, facilitating Zoom sessions this whole morning.

#ive been writing this on and off since 830 am est SHEESH #dreamwastaken #dream critical #eh i think im relatively lenient of him here given my past posts ab him #but still just in case the blacklist tags for yalls convenience:#discourse #/neg #asks #long post #long posts #this a LONG one bois #morango

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mcytagere · 3 years

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hi! if you'd like, could i please have some regressor!skeppy headcanons (preferably with badboyhalo as caregiver)? if you need inspiration i recommend looking up "skeppy crying because he wanted sand" and "skeppy being bbh's baby" on youtube

You absolutely can!! I was actually just talking with someone on the server about regressor!skeppy + caregiver!bbh earlier, so some of this is going to be lifted from that!

Skeppy regresses to around 6-8 most of the time, usually closer to 8.

He and Bad have a relationship that they like to keep unlabeled when Skeppy is big, but it’s closer to romantic than anything. It’s ambiguous when Skeppy is little.

He’s an INCREDIBLY chaotic little. Taking care of Skeppy is pretty much the same amount of work for Bad as taking care of George AND Sapnap is for Dream. Bad adores him, though.

He has mood and energy level swings a lot. He’ll jump from being really needy and cuddly to being super hyper to being bratty to crying within an hour or two.

Skeppy uses regression as a coping skill as opposed to a just-for-fun thing to an extent that most other regressors on the SMP don’t. He strikes me as someone who has a lot of stress and anxiety that he internalizes, and sometimes he just needs a break from it all.

When he’s bored he’ll sometimes break the rules, just for fun and to see how far he can go. One of his favorite ‘games’ of this nature is saying swear words in front of Bad and seeing how many times he can do it until he puts his foot down for real.

Despite doing it on purpose, he still gets mad when he gets an early bedtime or revoked desert privileges.

He’s resistant to being taken care of on a basic level (food, sleep, bathing, taking medicine, etc.), which might link back to something on a deeper psychological level but is probably just because he thinks it’s boring.

His favorite games are (like I said) playfully bugging Bad and being chaotic outside. He also really likes playing with stuffed animals and action figures when he’s feeling more mellow.

He HATES being alone when he’s little.

On a similar note, he’s also got some RSD going on when he’s regressed, and gets really upset when he feels like someone might be mad at him, especially Bad.

Is friends with all of the server regressors, but especially Sapnap!

I hope that these were okay! I know that some of them were kind of weird and specific, but that’s just how I headcanon regressor!skeppy. Thank you so much for sending in a request, I love getting requests for this type of thing! If anyone else wants headcanons for something, please send them and I’ll get around to them asap!

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i followed u for spop and have no idea what the rest of this stuff is but i asked my little brother who dream was bc i don't still really understand what minecraft youtube is (how do they stream it??? isn't it just blocks????) and he made this face EXACTLY "😳" so i guess my question is... is dream cute? i'm not attracted to men but i guess my little brother might be and i want to know if he has good taste

LMAOOOOO oh god. this is so funny. i love this.

short answer: yes. dream is a faceless YouTuber so technically no one “knows if he’s cute/hot” but he is. i’ll explain that later. is ur brother attracted to men? ask him if he likes georgenotfound. if he says yes ask him to explain. tbh no matter what explanation he gives theres a 40% chance he’s attracted to men. which is a really low percentage. so what u should REALLY ask him is “do u like dream or george better” and if he says “george” this statistic increases to 95%. if he says dream there’s still a chance he’s into men he’s just not into pretty men that boss u around. or he thinks confidence n skill is sexy or something. or– never mind. i won’t elaborate. he could also be VERY casually into their content so like i really do not know. this is getting messy. anyway yes if he knows who dream is he 99% knows who george is btw. they do everything together

(side note: did u ask ur brother if he likes dream/is a fan of dream? bc i feel like that’s different from just Knowing who dream is. if he starts going “UM NO HE TOTALLY CHEATED HIS SPEEDRUNS–“ then ur brother is the straightest person i have ever met in my life. if he doesn’t say that then it’s okay ❤️)

long answer:

for a rundown on what ‘mcyt’ and dream smp is click here

(jk this answer isn’t actually going to be long. i wrote most of this like 2 days ago n forgot. i’m out of steam now probably but lets give this a go)

dream is endearing. he’s sweet and funny and he just wants to make everyone happy. he’s nice and kind to people and is nice and kind even when people are obscenely rude or mean to him. he tries to make people change their minds about it instead (tbh…. adhd. it’s the rsd n just. god what a mood) and he approaches things with a lot of compassion and like. he has grown a lot as a person over the last half year or so and he’s made himself LESS and LESS cynical somehow? which is the opposite of what u would expect when someone gets really big, especially as big as he’s gotten. n he’s only 21 (like me!) but he’s shown so much emotional maturity compared to people way older than him. his laugh is both funny (the WHEEZE) and also really beautiful at the same time. he wears his heart on his sleeve and LOVES so much and so big and he tells his friends that he loves them w zero hesitation. he wants to shower his friends w love n gifts n share his success w them. he’ll appear on their streams n videos to the point where he doesn’t stream as much, to the point that he never streams his perspective on dream smp anymore because he wants the others to get the views. dream is also like… playfully confident? idk just something about his Attitude and the way he Talks it’s like. yeah ur a sexy person. when he taunts n says Come Get Me or Oh Come On Now or some other shit its like. i hate u. kinda hot tho but that’s precisely why i hate u. mmm n honestly just his voice in general. idk what the fuck it is. he doesn’t even NEED a hot voice but his voice?? something about it is just weirdly smooth. idk. some people have described it as caramel. i don’t KNOW ok i just love it when he talks. i hate him. he’s good :) that’s it I’m gonna stop now bye

#ask #mcyt #dreamwastaken #dream smp #this ask SENT me i love u anon #i hope ur brother is a mlm :)#Anonymous

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nepenthendline · 4 years

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S/O with ADHD - Sugawara

I had the urge to write this because I can’t stop stimming tonight omg I’m gonna throw myself off my chair at this rate lol and thank you!! I love writing these types of requests! Also (as you’ve probably noticed) I’m changing the formatting of my posts so I hope this is alright with everyone 🥰🥰

Request: Hii! I love ur writing especially the adhd ones!! I was wondering if u could do a sugawara with a hyperactive s/o(adhd) who has a tendency to be very hyper and fidgety but also has rsd(rejection sensitive dysphoria ) and was nervous about meeting the team and thought they didn’t like them?

Sugawara:

Sugawara is incredibly caring, so it’s no wonder he helps and deals with you so well

he’s pretty used to hyper types of people by now with Tanaka, Noya and Hinata, so you’re no big deal for him

in fact, he enjoys seeing your hyper side, especially when you switch between what your attention is on many times in a row - he sees a lot of charm in it

while he might not have as much energy as you, he certainly does his best to keep up and loves getting involved in any things you want to try

he doesn’t understand much about ADHD but he does his best to research it a lot, looking into what things can help you, what you struggle with and signs that you might be getting overwhelmed

he also asks you questions often to check up on you, he really does appreciate if you are open and honest with him so he can help you

he’s perfectly happy for you to fiddle with his hands, play with his hair or tug at his jacket as long as it’s not stopping either of you from doing things you need to, such as paying attention in class

if you do get fidgety or feel the need to stim in an environment or situation that calls for your attention, he will hold your hand or stroke your arm in hopes that the feeling will stimulate you enough to cope until you can leave

he always keeps an eye on you to see how you are doing and if you’re getting distracted at all, if you are, he’ll give you a couple taps to try and re-centre you in the situation, as well as a big, comforting smile

he works with you to try and create schedules and routines that you can do your best to follow in order to help you get things you need to done and plan things for when you have the most energy to do them - also to try and stop you doing too many crazy impulsive things due to boredom

also really encourages you to exercise with him in order to lessen your fidgetiness and any excess energy

at times where you feel down or frustrated, he likes to help you by talking through your feelings while doing something consistent, such as throwing and catching a ball so your thoughts don’t wander too much

he also recommends you keep a journal to track how you are doing each day, whether that be your mood or how well you felt you could keep your concentration

Sugawara is pretty good at studying himself, so he’ll definitely help you if you are struggling to get through long bouts of homework - he slowly breaks down each question for you, and also makes sure you take a lot of breaks

he understands if you feel too nervous to meet his team; it’s full of big, loud guys and he totally gets that it would be an overwhelming situation, even for someone without ADHD

he starts by introducing his fellow third-years as they are the most tame of the lot, plus he’s closest to them and can warn them of the situation in advance

when you leave and mention that you thought they didn’t like you (mainly due to Asahi’s intimidating stare) he was confused as he thought they loved you, but he helped explain to you what they thought about you and their ways of communication, especially that Asahi was just as nervous as you

once you get more comfortable with the third years, then he’ll start slowly introducing more people

at first Tanaka, Noya and Hinata really startled you and freaked you out a little, but over time you were able to build a close bond with them due to your similar traits

he’s very good as wording his thoughts in a way that never hurts your feelings too much, even if the two of you argue or have different opinions on something

always helps to remind you to take general care of yourself in case you forget, such as eating, sleeping and drinking enough water

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