#I blame the mental illness

[pixiethoughtsfairyfeelings]

Reading old conversations and not being able to connect with people the way I used to sucks

#babygirl #text #i blame the mental illness

[plumrat]

Me at 10pm: I’m going to sleep early and wake up early. I’m going to live my best life starting now. I am a changed person

Me still awake at 3am learning how to Waltz because I had a waltz tune stuck in my head:

…Tomorrow I will go to bed early and start living my best life

#honestly it wont happen #but I tell myself it will #it didnt used to be this way #I dont know where I went wrong #I blame the mental illness #and capitalism #I’ll start living my best life when it’s convenient to me #I will regret this in the morning #sounds like a tomorrow problem #right now is for fun time #and learning to waltz #even though I actually dont like partner dancing #like ew #personal space am I right

[inkskinned]

there's a video on instagram of a man kicking his partner's door in. the top comment is (with over 4 thousand likes): "how about you tell us what you did to make him that angry?"

barring emergency, nobody should be kicking anybody's door in. many of us lived in houses where it was always, somehow, an emergency. there is a strange, almost hysterical calm that comes over you in that moment - everything feels muted, and you almost feel, however incongruently, like you should be laughing. you are living inside of "the emergency." oh my god, you think. i am now a fucking statistic.

there is another comment with 2.8 thousand likes: "if this was a woman doing it to a man, nobody would give a shit."

do people give a shit now, though?

barring emergency, the door should remain standing. the emergency should be panicked, desperate - "i'm coming in there to protect you." many of us know what it feels like when the emergency is instead "i'm coming in there to get you."

1.5k likes: "and yet you post this for notes. glad to see being the victim has become your whole personality."

hysteria is a word connected to womb, from greek. what you're experiencing is so senseless and inhumane that you (a rational creature) try to find any ground within what is irrational and cannot be explained. one of the most frustrating things about staying in bad situations is that we also lie to ourselves. we also ask ourselves - wow. what did i do?

women can be, and often are, also abusers. abuse is not gendered. abuse is not just a "straight person" problem. abuse does not have a face or figure or sexuality. you cannot pick an abuser out of a crowd. an abuser could be actually anybody.

and then so many people rally behind the man kicking the door in. here is something nobody should be doing, right? you want to ask every person that liked that first comment: do you ask this because you side with him? do you ask this because it helps you feel safe from this ever happening?

in some ways, you're weirdly sympathetic to the top comment, because it is the same logic you see frequently. the idea is that the average, normal, sane person doesn't just break down a door. doesn't just shoot up a school. doesn't stalk and kill women. doesn't threaten sexual assault. doesn't run over protesters. doesn't shoot an unarmed black person. doesn't scream at underpaid walmart employees. doesn't just "lose it". something had to have happened, right? because the default (white. straight. cis.) - that is someone who is always, you know. "sane."

(right?)

on a podcast, you hear a sane, normal, rational person. "if you piss me off, i'm going to need to hit something. sorry but i'm not apologizing. that's just who i am that's how it is." his voice almost sounds like he's laughing.

you think of the door, and how you were almost laughing behind it, too. ironically, every real emergency in your life has almost felt peaceful in comparison. fire, car accident, flash flooding - these felt quiet, covenant to you. you'd stood in all of them, feeling them pass over and up to your chin, never actually overwhelming.

but when the door was coming down, you had felt - is there a word for that? there has to be, a word, right.

surely one of us has figured out the word for that, i mean. it's such a large fucking statistic.

#spilled ink #writeblr #warm up #this is so disorganized #i just saw that video and the comments made me want to vomit #it's actually like. in the way it's funny that you got into a car crash and got the flu within the same 24 hours #it's like. #it's funny #because certain people will blame everything on mental illness #even being transgender. #they will not #however #at any point - even vaguely suggest that a man should maybe get therapy. #like. a guy busting down a door isn't a danger-to-himself-and-others #(you just pushed him too far). #but a young adult looking for top surgery should be institutionalized for even wanting to change their body.

[eilarae]

Stardew Valley Discourse: A Summary

shane: i have depression

person: aww poor sweetie im so sorry ily im always here for u

shane: *exhibits symptoms of depression*

the same person: ew there's no excuse for that

#some of yall......... #i have been in this fandom for like a week n im already sick of folks doing this man dirty #“but he doesn't even keep his room clean after you marry him” he has DEPRESSION #“he should fix his problems before getting into a relationship” if we all waited for our messiness and struggles to magically disappear #we would be waiting for the rest of our lives. #do people with mental (or otherwise) health struggles not deserve love and understanding too?? did i miss something??? #like bruh if you personally can't deal with someone's baggage that's fine you don't have to sacrifice your own wellbeing for theirs #but at least stop blaming people for HAVING A MENTAL ILLNESS #sdv shane #shane stardew valley #shane sdv #stardew valley #.....but also relevant to real life. #my yapping

[danandfuckingjonlmao]

whenever dan and phil say words i remember misha collins coming out as straight and think, maybe if we’re really good, that could be dnp too 🙏

#/j #joke ok i’ve only had out dan and phil for 5 years but if anything ever happened to them i would kill everyone in this room and then myself #but like sometimes if they wanna not say things like maybe my mental health would be better #<- guy who’s been a phannie for 9 years and mentally ill for over 25 years #dnp #dan and phil #phan #dan howell #daniel howell #amazingphil #phil lester #danisnotonfire #danandphilgames #yeet my deenp #yeet my deet #i think it’s fun to blame all of my problems on dnp as if i didn’t start have my existential crisis at age 4 and #wasnt saying i wished i was never born at age 8 and #wasn’t writing poetry about death and the cruelty of the world and the passage of time by age 10 and #wasn’t having panic attacks by age 12 and #didn’t start watching them at age 16 #i bet it was dan’s fault somehow #bc mr amazing has never done anything wrong ever 😤 -a dannie

[cabbybaby]

spamming the refresh button as if that’ll bring ao3 back online & not time and patience

#DO NOT ACTUALLY SPAM REFRESH SINCE IT MAKES THE DDOS ATTACK WORSE #ao3 #I love you ao3 I love you volunteers I do not blame you for it being down!! #but I am also mentally ill and my life revolves around your website!!!! #JUST JOKES

[frankingsteinery]

all victor hateposts boil down to are "i hate victor because [he displays XYZ mental/physical illness symptom]" or "i hate victor because [he does things or reacts in a certain way because of reasons outside of his control due to his illness]"

#rob.txt #frankenstein #frankenstein the modern prometheus #victor frankenstein #gothic lit #you know what would be crazy #is if we analyzed victor's actual flaws #like his vanity and pride and entitlement #instead of hating him baselessly #or worse #hating him for symptoms of disability #why are we blaming everything ever #on a mentally ill teenager grappling with tragedy #i feel like i harp on this over and over #but it continues to be relevant #because frankenstein fandom is #the most godawful echo chamber of all time

[sometimesraven]

There is no such thing as an abusive mental illness. Narcissistic personality disorder is often the result of abuse in and of itself. “Narcissistic abuse” is just abuse and you are an ableist.

#npd safe #imagine blaming abuse on a marginalised mental illness #that’s like saying ‘I was a victim of anxiety abuse’

[yuridovewing]

tbh while i get the frustration at not getting a genuine chimera cat, i don't really fault the erins for assuming that a split face tortie was enough to imply it? that's mostly what comes up on google when you look up what a chimera cat is and we all know that's the most research that they do.

like.... yeahhhh they could do better than that but it's not the end of the world to me yknow? im just glad we have such an indulgent character at all. moonpaw's design wouldve sent 2010s wc fans into a rage and something abt that is charming to me

#a part of me is worried she'll get dismissed as a mary sue tbh #anyways im more concerned abt the incest and the almost certain ableism we're gonna see in this arc #also i know people are excited abt the voice potentially being the twin she absorbed in utero which would be sooooo cool like fr #but tbh this is the erins and if they know what a chimera entails then i dont think they will be normal about the twin #either the twin will show up in starclan despite being absorbed or moonpaw will be portrayed as someone who fucked up by doing that #in utero #''oh they wouldnt do that thats TOO stupid''- ive seen the mental gymnastics these authors will do to blame female characters... its possib #possible #that being said i wanna try cracking at her design and i think ill make her black and gray

[kristen-rollens]

Good Omens if it included Muppets: A Thread (Part 3)🧵

-Dr. Bunsen Honeydew as Nina/Sister Mary Loquacious: I just love this ok

-Beaker as Maggie/Sister Theresa: I can picture Beaker yelling at Hastur after the AntiChrist is born😭

-Scooter as Muriel: If this isn’t perfect casting idk what is🥴

Now for some bonus ones just for funsies:

-Lesley the Delivery Man as Beauregard: You can’t lie this WORKS

Eric the Demon as Crazy Harry: Always discorporating themselves💥

Ok that’s all I got lol

@neil-gaiman

#good omens #crowley #aziraphale #david tennant #michael sheen #the muppets #ineffable fandom #ineffable husbands #ineffable idiots #aziracrow #nina good omens #maggie good omens #sister mary loquacious #muriel #muriel good omens #dr bunsen honeydew #bunsen and beaker #scooter muppets #crazy harry #i’m mentally ill #neil gaiman #i blame you

[ovaruling]

maybe a hot take but please don’t have or stop having children if you have an active eating disorder/body dysmorphia (including binge eating, not just restrictive disorders). seriously

thinking you’ll be the exception (because you’re So self-aware, unlike those Other disordered women) and won’t give your dysmorphia/eating disorder to your child is pride before a very slow and terrible fall

it never ever works. you’re never ever immune. i mean, such a huge reason of why there are so many of us now is bc our moms thought the same thing lmfao. didn’t matter how well-intentioned they were. no matter how much they tried to separate Their Problems from Ours. here we fucking are

i know it’s not women’s fault to begin with, but the reality is that those of us affected do incubate, nurture, and pass on the virus in the Current Way of Things

the buck needs to stop here. this isn’t a game. think of all the things your mother probably thought she was expertly hiding from you that you still picked up on and were profoundly affected by in a terrible and formative way. it will happen to you, too. don’t think it won’t.

if you know that you’re not solidly and confidently recovered, you have a responsibility to stop that buck and not actively attempt to create a child who will observe, mimic, internalize, adopt, and inherit your lifelong life-ruining behavior. the selfishness is breathtaking honestly

#eating disorders are one of the most treatment-resistant behavioral issues out there #once they take firm root #this is not quite the same as ‘don’t have children if you’re even a little bit mentally ill’ btw before anyone thinks it is #this is a very specific problem #and it is LEARNED #you cant always protect your child from the outside world influence but you can do something about what your child starts with at home #i am recovered now but i could’ve saved my whole life if my mom hadn’t been dieting when i was 7 #so i started dieting too #bc she was my mom and i did what she did #cuz i was fucking 7 #she never told me what a diet was. i just observed her. #and when she binged EYE binged #i blame her always for my food addiction

[scrunkly-scribe]

Posting whatever the fuck this moodboard is before I sleep.

#I can’t even tell you the thought process to this #I’ve been more and more mentally ill lately so #blame that #moodboard #luci posting again #spn lucifer #supernatural

[writtenroses1813]

“Its easy to blame everyone else” no no, im blaming the right person

I’m blaming the one who introduced bullying to the neighboring kids. I’m blaming the one who made it popular to “pick on” me. I’m blaming the one who had the “bright idea” to lock me out or in places. I’m blaming the one who manipulated everyone and lied her way out of punishment. I’m blaming the one who made me cry myself to sleep. I’m blaming the one who peer pressured my sister away from me. I’m blaming the one who began the eight years of torture.

#sad but true #school #high school #childhood trauma #bullying #bullied #actually ptsd #childhood ptsd #depresso #tw depressing thoughts #depressing life #sorry for being depressing #kinda depressing #depressing shit #sad thoughts #childhood #peer pressure #mentalheathawareness #actually mentally ill #mentally tired #mentally exhausted #mental illness #mental health #positive mental attitude #don't blame me #can you blame me #i blame you

[mblue-art]

care. reassurance.

#cross!sans #self insert #mblue art #yeah im. soff #may or may not have been fueled by that tender forehead kiss post #(this started as a vent art kinda but!! feeling better now. hopefully. i jst wanna yearn) #(been dealing w irl stuff n fighting the brain around the time i made this. nnn. wahoo. yippee.) #(also havent had the spoons to scroll thru tumblr/twt feeds so i feel out of the loop ;w; but thas oke i'll live;;) #(simping for him makes me mentally ill /j/pos (but also /neg bc. mmm. blaming my brain for that lol)) #(ANYWAY i think he's been hogging too much of my brainspace lately and i think he should make way for lust too wth man 😤😤😤 smh /lh) #CM

[lilydoesdrawsometimes]

Pt 1 of 2 posts I shall be making that involve unholy amounts of Thierry art. I've literally been waiting almost a month to post this because I just KEPT GOING (and will continue going.) Please enjoy a variety of silly doodles, renders, and misc things, including: - My Tardigrade Narrator , Moss, but HUMAN! - One of @/coralkrill's little Fordlings (because they're cute as hell) - Some silly mini comic things that include Conversations with Velli - Thierry in the color pallet of Underfell Sans (And in Underfell Sans' Outfit) - The fusion between Thierry and Mantra (@/deviousnarrator's Narrator) - Thierry having ORGANS!!!! @vellichorom you did this to me which means you get PINGED

#tsp #the stanley parable #stanley parable ultra deluxe #tsp narrator #narrator tsp #tsp fanart #art #fanart #LilyDoesDrawArt #tspud #Tardigrade Narrator #Thierry my beloved #I need mental assistance #Good god #This isnt even all of it can you believe that #I blame Vellichorom for my illness of the mental kind

[hollypies]

Ok so this was supposed to be a a. Quick warmup doodle and then it got out of control so. Uh. Enjoy! Also this is from my very shoddy memory of them so if there's inaccuracies no there isnt

#art #help how do i anatomy #why do . why is it so hard to draw papyrus i hate this. agh #like i love papy with all my heart and soul but gotdam. hes so hard to drawww #wah :( #sans is easier because he is round. papy has more angles . #utdr papyrus #papyrus #papyrus undertale #undertale papyrus #undertale art #utdr fanart #utdr art #sans undertale #skelebros #idk why but the. sans tags are cursed. to me. #i blame it on the mental illness. and also fhe trauma. #fun fact! my mom thought the game was satanic! so i was banned from liking it for years. #and then my brothers got into it and she allowed them to play ut and i was so fuckin mad lmao #killing and violence.