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ryuichirou · 11 days

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Also shorter ones today… mostly related to our previous replies and posts!

Anonymous asked:

After seeing Eel Floyd with Riddle

AND THOSE BITE MARKS 👀👀👀👀

I gotta know -

Did Floyd slip and slide in Riddle?

Also

Did Riddle magically goldfish form and the two had merman sex???

Honestly I wasn’t thinking about Riddle also becoming a merman, but they absolutely have to have merman sex at some point, otherwise it just isn’t fair (to me) lol

And to answer your first question, yes, there might have been some slipping and sliding in Riddle involved~

Anonymous asked:

re: the gaslighting Jade ask. I randomly stumbled on your blog from other ones, and I literally blocked you because shroudcest triggers me. Ultimately, we are responsible for our own safety. As long as it’s properly marked for (which yours clearly is since I blocked you the second I made a tumblr), really all we can do is filter the things that hurt us out.

(im agreeing with you btw. draw what you want i cant stop you. just feel like i in particular make a point worth mentioning from seeing that. you can answer this or not bc obviously i probably wont see it anyway)

Anon! Whether you see this reply or not, thank you very much for writing this despite having us blocked lol

You really are making a good point, and I am glad that you are taking care of yourself and avoiding uncomfortable stuff. I really encourage it. Thank you for understanding and for approaching this issue with respect.

Have a good day.

Anonymous asked:

Gaslighting IS Jade’s love language. Also mushrooms.

Facts, Anon <3 He doesn’t waste his gaslighting and mushrooms on those he doesn’t find entertaining love!

Anonymous asked:

Honestly I can totally see Cater as the kind of guy that now and then buys a random manga just because the cover looks aesthetically pleasing, although if they are BL they are probably more oriented towards shonen-ai than explicit content. But also he wouldn't really read them because he finds the stories and characters a bit ridiculous (is he a bitter anti-romantic? or maybe his sisters used to collect shojo manga and he associates the love story genre with them?). I bet when he had roommates he had fun leaving one of his manga lying around, just to see people's reaction and go "aw, shoot, you saw it? that's sooo embarassing..." or something like that

To be honest, I can see that too. Cater seems like someone who isn’t all that into anime and manga, but is aware of it enough to recognise that the cover is pretty and that there is something gay inside (he might figure out the latter thing later as he looks inside the book lol). His sisters really could be into it though, so I can see him having certain associations.

lol Cater’s roommates “finding” his manga though… Don’t act so coy, Cater 😭

Anonymous asked:

Goddammit! Idia, you cannot escape me for long, one way or another, your chest will be licked! *shakes fist at the sky*

I love how this is turning into a Looney Tunes cartoon…

Anonymous asked:

Idia doesn’t have nipples. He accidentally shaved them off. Tragic 😔 L in the chat for his nipples.

Damn. I’m afraid I have bad news for the previous Anon.

Anonymous asked:

Do you have any HCs for Neige and/or Chenya?

We do have HCs about Neige/Vil and Chenya/Riddle (1,2)!

Anonymous asked:

It is I, 🐩 anon,

So I got a friend into twst and tell me why her favorite character is goddamn Crowley? I'm currently trying to convert her to Divus supremacy. Enough about this. Let me ask my silly little question.

Is there anything about TWST's story plot that you dislike or wished it was worked on more? Or character you wish were more fleshed out?

Your friend has quite the taste… She is probably a genius of sorts 😔🙏

I feel like I was pretty vocal about it, so I am sorry for talking about it again, but I really didn’t enjoy how Ch2 was handled and Leona in general, to be honest. I wrote a post about my grievances a whole year ago, but my stance didn’t really change. We’ve rewatched the majority of the main story since then, and I thought that maybe with fresh minds and fresh eyes we would enjoy Leona at least to some degree, but unfortunately it didn’t really help. The events don’t really help either…

There might be some other things, but this is the one I think about every time when we talk about the flaws of TWST writing.

Anonymous asked:

what is your notp?

A bunch of Leona ships come to mind, i.e. Leona/Malleus, Leona/Vil, Leona/Idia 🤔 But also a bunch of Trey ships, like Trey/Jade or Rook/Trey…

Anonymous asked:

if you had to go on a date with one of the twst boys who are you picking? i'm picking idia

Idia is a great option, Anon; he would be so uncomfortable and awkward, getting nervous about the smallest inconveniences and whispering “thank god” every time you don’t force him to do something… I would pick him to, but my second option would be Jamil. I think he’s pretty chill.

Katsu would've picked Jade because of course, this is the best pick.

Anonymous asked:

any old fandoms that you feel out of love with?

Can’t think of any, Anon… I feel like we never fall completely out of love with anything, just move on, but there is always an opportunity that we’ll come back at some point. Things like Homestuck are still on our minds constantly lol

There are some titles that we kind of started watching, but then stopped because it wasn’t fully out yet, and since then we kind of lost interest for this thing. And with some of these titles it’s very unlikely that we’ll ever go back, but it’s never 1000% impossible. But then again, it’s not like we loved these titles…

Anonymous asked:

Funfact: The crowley that crowley is named after used to perform sex based magic with men

Damn I hope this is what our Crowley also does. This is his dark secret that is very poorly hidden

Anonymous asked:

I think Riddle would be a really good teacher's pet

Oh he would <3 He is a teacher’s pet.

Ironically, I feel like this makes him a bit boring for Crewel…although it depends…🤔

Anonymous asked:

What is a ship you rarely draw but you love

I don’t draw any of them enough, I love them all! Waaaaah :(

I feel like I don’t draw Sebek/Silver nearly enough for how much we love them, Rook/Epel is also a rare one but we love it, Sebek/Idia could use more love, anything with Jamil too…

Anonymous asked:

Please share with us a full list of the preference of the TWST boys? Top or bottom? I typed up a list for you to use!

Anon, we have a list in our pinned post! But since you’ve typed up a list, I’ll go through the list again :) We also have a post in which we explain our reasoning for each choice, so you can read it too if you’re interested.

Oh! And if you meant some other types of preferences, please let me know. In that case though, we have a list of the boys’ kinks, which isn’t the same thing, but pretty close; so you can read this one too if you want <3

Riddle – bottom

Ace – top

Deuce – bottom

Trey – top

Cater – top

Leona – bottom

Ruggie – top

Jack - top

Azul – top

Floyd – top

Jade – top

Kalim – top

Jamil – bottom

Vil – bottom

Rook – top

Epel – bottom

Idia – bottom

Ortho – top

Malleus– bottom

Sebek – top

Lilia – top

Silver– bottom

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lxmine · 2 years

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hihi! If u write for xiao maybe h could do a reader who like sort or absorbs his karmic debt if that makes any sense? Idk but gn reader is fine! sorry if this doesn’t make sense lol

selfish. + xiao x gn!reader

+. Fluff (with a small small angst), short, not proofread

+. Summary ; he wants to be selfish for a little while

+. A/N Yes, of course! And thank you nonny for being my first requester! Might not be accurate and short cuz i haven’t posted for a long while cuz of school and tonight is the time I got for myself so have this! Ily sm! Happy 13 followers to me! I’m really really thankful for you all <3

You smiled as you looked at Xiao who approached you, he looked tired and restless. The moonlight being the only source of light you have but he still looked beautiful as ever in your eyes. “Didn’t I tell you to not wait for me anymore?” He asks as he stopped beside you.

You sighed as you looked at the distance between you and him. It’s been a week since declared your love for him and it’s also been a week since the two of you talked about his karmic dept.

You took a step closer to him, and he grumbled. “Mortals are so stubborn.” He muttered under his breath but you clearly heard of course. “Go to bed, I’ll guard you.” He says taking a step back distancing himself, afraid that he might hurt you with his karmic dept, though you have reassured him many times already that it doesn’t affect you, and also because he’s got blood stains all over him.

He wouldn’t want you dirty now, would he?

“Stop that, it wont hurt me, okay!” You pouted coming closer to him, grabbing his gloved hand into yours. You felt him shake a little as you took his glove off. “[name], go to bed.” He says sternly. He’s glad that it’s dark or you would’ve seen his blushing face.

Intertwining your hands together before looking at him. “Do you feel at least a little better?” You asked, but received no answer. He doesn’t know what to do. Why do you care for him? Why do you love him? Why do you insist on staying up and waiting for him every single night?

Why do you put in so much effort to cook his favorite dish even if you didn’t like cooking? Why are you so willing to understand him? Is he really worth all of it? Does he even deserve it? Does even a beast deserved to be loved?

A million more questions ran in his head, he almost wanted to cry. “Xiao. Xiao are you alright?” Your voice reached his ears and he’s quickly brought back to his senses. The warmth of your hand indeed soothed him.

“Why are you doing this?” He said, almost like a whisper. You responded with a chuckle “Because I love you and I want to help you.” You looked at him with the sweet smile you always give him. “So please.. Don’t push me away, not like I’m ever gonna stop bothering you anyway.” You jokingly said caressing the back of his hand.

He bit the inside of his cheek, urging to not say a word. “Hold me.” He says looking elsewhere, he almost wanted to vanish right after he said that. He wished Morax would appear in front of him and then kill him right there on the spot. But alas, he’ll just make sure to punish his poor little heart later.

You’re heart leaped hearing the words from him and didn’t waste a second to wrap your arms around his waist. He’s surprised of course, but soon gave in to the peace your touch gives him. Just for tonight, he wants to be selfish.

Sorry for the long wait guys T-T I was busy with school and I re wrote this at 10 pm LMAO ANYWAY IM VERY THANKFUL FOR U GUYS I REALLY APPRECIATE THE LIKES YOU GUYS GAVE ME! Stay safe and hydrated, I LOVE YOU <3

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#genshin impact #genshin xiao #genshin impact xiao #genshin impact x gender neutral reader #xiao x you #genshin x reader #alatus #xiao fluff

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quodekash · 1 year

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OKAY it's now the morning so it's time for me to share all of my thoughts from this episode. prepare yourselves, its gonna be a lot. also a lot of it isnt gonna be very coherent. you have been warned.

tinn calling gun 'darling' over the phone 🥺

photjanee why must you be heteronormative and assume tinn likes a girl

istg pat calling yo 'bro' was the funniest thing ever (maybe i was just tired lmao)

look at this style gay man. this icon. this king. i love him with all my soul.

this man's face is one of the most precious things on this planet

i thought we were ten minutes in and already getting a soundwin moment, but then sound freaking rejected win's offered seat and sits at the front???

poor win is so confused

why was tiw getting in the bus van thing with the pool toy still around his waist

sir what are you doing

WE FINALLY GOT THE FREAKING BEACH SCENES OMG

THEY ALL LOOK SO HAPPY IN THAT GROUP PHOTO (por can you send me that group photo pls?)

YEAAAAAHHH WE FINALLY GOT THE TIWPOR PHOTO TAKING. AND ALONG WITH THAT WE GOT THEY SMILING AND LAUGHING TOGETHER, AND TIW TAKING A PHOTO OF POR WHILE HE POSED AND LOOKED CUTE AND THIS IS NOT STRAIGHT BEHAVIOUR

i deeply appreciate the tiwpor crumbs

i do not, however, appreciate being catfished bY A CUTE SOUNDWIN BEACH MOMENT

yay for cute tinngun beach scene tho

even if it is ruined multiple times by people

THE OISHII ICE TEA IS HERE, YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS

ITS TIME FOR A CUTE GAY MOMENT

(i cant explain how much i want this ice tea)

(i love ice tea)

why is tinn making out with the ice tea

and then gun made out with the ice tea so that they indirectly kissed and this is not at all what i was expecting from this product placement but honestly i love it

naturally yak had to destroy everyone's hope and happiness and freedom

he is, however, deeply iconic.

tinn: how did my honeymoon turn into a music practice camp? tiw: my situation is worse tiw:

tiw, i love you, but that's not worse.

TIW CHOKING ON HIS DRINK WHEN YAK ASKED THEM IF THEYRE CRUSHING ON HIS JUNIORS AND HE IS IN FACT SECRETLY DATING ONE OF THEM (well, hopefully. maybe. if hes not yet then he will be eventually. he has to be. i need canonical tiwpor in my life)

i understand the cover dancing. but why must you make music kids run and do squats and stuff. music kids dont want to exercise. leave the music kids alone. (i feel personally attacked from this. most of my friends are music kids. i dont want to be hanging out with them and relaxing on the beach and then suddenly forced to *terrified shudder* exercise)

yak telling por and pat and win and yo that theyre lacking something. idk about the others, but i know what win's lacking

he's lacking a boyfriend

i have the not-yet-disproven understanding that por has a magical gift in the art of somehow-becoming-gayer-every-single-time-he-comes-on-screen (ill make this its own individual post one day with evidence and stuff)

TIWPOR CRUMBS WHILE TIW IS TEACHING THEM TO DANCE

SOUND-TINN RIVALRY CRUMBS, YES, THEY BETTER FLIPPING EXPLAIN IT SOON. THEY DONT IN THIS EPISODE. BUT IF THEY DONT EXPLAIN IT BEFORE THE END OF THE SHOW IM GONNA PUNCH SOMEONE

"Dont you want to try a love song?" "Oh, please. A love song?" "i'm just saying. if youre not into it, thats okay." "its not that im not into it. but im more afraid our members wont be into it. look at them. none of them is romantic. none, none at all" "But there are many types of love. let's say puppy love or sweet love, im not into them either. i prefer the tough kind of love *he's smiling and thinking fondly now*" "right. i like that too. in the beginning, we just didnt stop fighting. in the end, i blushed for him without knowing it."

SOUND MAKES A FACE OF REALISATION

DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYS

"Gun." GUN IS CONFUSED. HE LOOKS OVER. HE READS SOUND'S EXPRESSION. "hey!" "you just said… don't tell me…" "wait, no-"

"DID YOU KNOW I LIKE WIN?"

HE ADMITTED IT. HE SAID IT OUT LOUD. AND TO GUN OF ALL PEOPLE. GUN NOW KNOWS. HE KNOWS ABOUT SOUNDWIN.

"HUHH????? YOU LIKE WIN???" "keep it down! people can hear" "you like win?" "i do." "ah! youve been avoiding him lately because of this?" "…yes. when im close to him, i just dont know how to act. when im near him, i feel so freaking awkward." sound, babes, its okay. you're allowed to have feelings

"should i just tell him honestly?" UMM??? YES????? ABSOLUTELY YOU SHOULD, YES PLEASE

gun why are you changing the subject. sound is asking for advice. dont just leave.

TINN ALSO KNOWS NOW

i love the way they were hiding behind a rock and spying on sound omg

side note: tinngun's height difference may kill me one day

sound and gun are sitting on the side watching the dance that the others practiced, and sound cant stop looking up at win he's so whipped i love him

"something im really into?" *proceeds to stare directly at win for a number of seconds*

THOU POOR LITTLE PINING GAY OH HOW I PITY THEE AND WISH TO GIVETH THEE A BIG OL' HUG

3/4 THROUGH THE EPISODE, YK WHAT THAT MEANS? THE SOUNDWIN PART

WIN IS APPROACHING SOUND WHILE SOUND IS WRITING

I REPEAT, WIN IS APPROACHING SOUND WHILE HE'S WRITING, WE GOT A COTE RED, CODE RED EVERYONE

win is asking whats up with sound recently

sound is aggressively avoiding eye contact

"im on mars looking back at earth and can still see you're mad. what are you mad at me about?" sounds thoughts: for being so bloODY HOT WHY MUST YOU BE LIKE THIS

"i said nothing. you should go now. im continuing to write the song" SOUND BBY DONT PUSH HIM AWAY HES ALSO IN LOVE I JUST DONT THINK HES REALISED IT YET

WIN STOLE THE SONG BOOK THING, I REPEAT, WIN STOLE THE SONG BOOK THING

SOUND IS VERY TENTATIVE AND KINDA SCARED

"you said you would write a song about chasing a dream. why did it turn into a sweet love song?" "well- im- exploring different types." suuuuuuuurrreeee. nice cover up story there, sound. subtle. he'll never figure it out.

"...do you feel anything after reading that??" POOR BBY IS DESPERATE HE NEEDS A HUG (i volunteer as tribute to give sound a hug)

win looks down at it. reads it again. looks back up at sound.

"i do"

WE'RE GOING FERAL AT THIS POINT

THEYRE SMILING AT EACH OTHER

WE'RE TEARING OUT HOUSES TO SHREDS

BUT THEN--

"i feel like this doesnt suit you at all"

WIN.

HE WAS TALKING ABOUT FEELINGS.

LIKE THAT FLUTTERY THING YOU GET IN YOUR CHEST EVERY TIME YOU SEE HIM?

YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT WIN

I KNOW YOU'VE FELT IT

"it gives me goosebumps" WIN THIS IS SO VAGUE, WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?? DO YOU MEAN GOOSEBUMPS WITH A NEGATIVE OR POSITIVE CONNOTATION?? IM NEURODIVERGENT AND SLEEP DEPRIVED I NEED TONE INDICATORS

"give it back. a dumba** like you will never understand" :[[[[

"what a waste of time" excuse me sir. the last time you said that you kissed him. now you're walking away.

(thats probably a thing i can analyse at some point. sound and his usage of 'what a waste of time' and an insight into his thoughts and his character. ill do that at some point)

FREAKING GO AFTER HIM, WIN. BLOODY EXPLAIN YOURSELF

sound is now sitting on the beach. he is sad. that makes us sad.

look at this sad boi, he nEEDS A FREAKING HUG

tinngun are approaching him to provide words of comfort

"i saw everything. its okay. if i were you, id be ticked off too. dam it. you wrote a song for him, and he badmouthed you back." and sound has this tiny sad smile on his face "actually, i wasnt that surprised. even if i told him directly, he wouldve turned me down anyway. you saw it. we're too different." HES TRYING NOT TO CRY DANG IT "it's good we ended it this way" SOUND- PLS- STOP- NO- WIN DIDNT KNOW WHAT YOU WERE SAYING, HE DIDNT REJECT YOU, HE LOVES YOU

"you can put your mind at ease now. no one is breaking the club rule." tinn is literally standing like three metres behind them. sound trusted gun enough to tell him that he likes win. i swear, if gun doesnt tell sound about tinn RIGHT NOW (or at least soon) IM GONNA TELEPORT INTO THE UNIVERSE AND SMACK HIM

"im sorry. im the first to break the club rule." YES. GOOD GOOD GOOD

"what??" "actually, im seeing tinn" G O O D. YOU SAID IT. WELL DONE.

sound is like rly confused and he looked behind at tinn and tinn kinda shrugged and nodded and sound says "how's that possible? when??" "my couple is no different than yours. tinn and i have nothing in common." YES YES YES YES BRING HIS HOPE BACK PLS TY GUN "but our dissimilarities got us to this point. just because you and win are so different, doesnt mean you two cant be together" YESSSSSSSSSS comforting hand on shoulder "trust me"

AND SOUND IS LOOKING AT THE SAND AND I THINK HES TRYING NOT TO SMILE BUT ALSO TRYING NOT TO CRY AT THE SAME TIME, HE NEEDS A HUG, ITS OKAY TO CRY, DONT WORRY SOUND

okie now hes smiling and nodding yayyyyyyyyyyyy

(btw im getting all this from constant commentary i messaged to my friend (who hasnt seen the show but basically has through my bad explanations and screenshots and screen recordings) and i started watching the episode as soon as it was out, and at this point through the episode id been watching for an hour and a half. i have too many thoughts and comments grbhbrhbrhb)

"i changed my mind. i will finish this song." YES YES YES YES YES YES YES

excuse me gun??

im sorry, i love you, but that position is TAKEN

by TIW

he smelt it before either of them even KNEW

gun can be, like. the guy that hoists the mainsail or something

this next scene killed me

win knows sound's favourite bread

win's apology is to give bread

that's so in character for reasons i cant explain

and he bought the gay-moment water

and win unscrews the lid and it's mirroring that scene from last time and my HEART

GRABBING HIS HAND AND THE DRINK AND STEPPING CLOSER?????

WHAT IS THIS

THIS IS SOME WEIRD FLIRTING

SOUND DRINKING WATER WHILE MAINTAINING EYE CONTACT

SOUND WHY DID YOU STEP EVEN CLOSER

WHAT ARE YOU DOING

E Y E T O L I P F L I C K E R

GUYS JUST KISS PLS

TINN IS ASKING IF HE CAN KISS GUN

I REPEAT

TINN IS ASKING GUN IF HE CAN KISS HIM

WE GOT A CODE BLUE, CODE BLUE

and gun didnt let him, but thankfully tinn is a walking green flag and isnt getting mad or forcing himself upon gun. i love these two so much.

Gim. please. rest. you dont need to work every hour of every day. you're over-exerting yourself

OMG TINN'S MUM AND GUN'S MUM SCENE?? YES PLEASE, SIGN ME UP. THEYRE BOTH QUEENS

many more of gim's little accidental clues and photjanee's gonna figure out who it is that tinn likes

gotta love that perfectly-timed phone call tho, dam

HOW IS POR STYLISH EVEN WHEN DOING WEIRD EXERCISES

HOW DOES HE DO IT???

also LOOK AT THE GENDER ON THIS MAN

I WANT IT

pat's shirt is the mood of the week

they all look so Normal™️

and then there's freaking por with his freaking rich-kid-twink-ness i love him

OHHHH THE DANCING PERFORMANCE IS WHERE THIS CLIP IS FROM (the one of pat doing the worm. i kept vaguely wondering what it was from. and now i know)

I CANT EVEN RN-- THIS IS SO FUNNY

IM LITERALLY CRYING FROM LAUGHTER

look at this little happy proud gay man

i know i probably shouldnt call him little cos he's 20cm (nearly 8 inches) taller than me, but idc, that's not the point

look at this little happy proud gay man

i know i probably shouldnt call him little cos he's 20cm (nearly 8 inches) taller than me, but idc, that's not the point

theyre gonna do so goooooood

also satang is probably grateful to the ends of the earth that he didnt have to do this dance lmao

omg he managed to un-twink for 0.5 seconds

my gender is win's poofy sleeves

also if you're familair with @ashedddaisy's red-yellow soundwin theory, win is wearing orange here. orange is literally the middle of red and yellow. he's getting there.

DON'T WORRY, TIW, THEY DID IN FACT SLAY IT (boys)

HE'S SO PROUD

IT'S SO FUNNY TO ME

the first to approach him was por. i repeat, tiwpor crumb alert, we got a code violet, code violet

AND NOW FOR THE MOMENT WE'VE ALL BEEN WAITING FOR

SOUND PERFORMING HIS SONG. BY HIMSELF. ON STAGE. IN FRONT OF A LIVE AUDIENCE. AND THAT AUDIENCE HAPPENS TO CONTAIN WIN.

I PROMISE, I WILL CRY (again)

"im not much of a talked, so im using this song to represent my feelings for someone" you know, im surprised yak didn't pick up on that. youd think he'd like, try and stop that, cos that's a love-related distraction

AHA I KNEW IT

I FREAKING KNEW IT

I CALLED IT I CALLED IT I CALLED IT

THE FREAKING TRACK THAT KEEPS PLAYING BEHIND SOUNDWIN SCENES

IT'S FREAKING EVERYWHERE

IT'S THERE WHEN THEY BADMINTON

IT'S THERE WHEN THEY "KISS"

IT'S THERE WHEN WIN PUTS THE HELMET ON

IT'S THERE WHEN SOUND IS THINKING ABOUT 'what im really into'

IT'S THERE WHEN SOUND WALKS AWAY AFTER SAYING 'what a waste of time'

IT'S THERE WHEN SOUND DRINKS THE WATER

AND NOW SOUND PRESSES PLAY ON THE MUSIC

AND IT'S THAT FREAKING TRACK

AND I KNEW IT

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i cant even describe my thoughts on the song

i made an earlier prediction that this would kill me

i was right. i might currently be dead. the song killed me.

SOUND WALKING ALONE AFTER THE SHOW THING AND WIN CALLING HIS NAME, PREPARE YOURSELVES FRIENDS

"why do i feel like you just yelled at me through that song" BECAUSE HE DID

"how do you know i wrote it for you?" "it's so obvious. i can see that from mars" MY FREAKING HEART-

"why did you ask then?" "seriously, since when?" "remember when we practiced badminton together?" and win has this tiny smile and sound has this tiny relaxed smile and theyre actually killing me

YOU'RE KIDDING

THERES AN ENTIRE SCENE AFTER THE BADMINTON AND WE'RE ONLY GETTING IT NOW AND WE WERE NEVER TOLD???

YOU'RE. FREAKING. KIDDING.

THIS SCENE IS THE DEATH OF ME

also the track is behind the umbrella scene too

THEYRE LITERALLY BOYFRIENDS

THEYRE DOING IT ON PURPOSE

THEY W A N T US TO GO INTO CARDIAC ARREST

i refuse to believe that win doesnt actually like sound yet

he just hasnt identified/confronted the feelings yet

and sound's reaction was the saddest thing ever, like i could smell the tears he was holding back when he said 'then we stay as friends'

BUT THEN WIN FREAKING SAYS "for something i dont know, im willing to try"

and if you're thinking 'WHAT DOES THAT MEAN????' then you would be correct

"c a n y o u c o a c h m e" i am dead

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

GUYS YOU'RE LITERALLY TWO CENTIMETRES FROM KISSING

AND THEN THE SCENE FREAKING ENDS

I HAVE TO WAIT ANOTHER WEEK???

I CANT BE PATIENT

PATIENCE IS NOT IN MY BLOOD

AAAAAAAAAA

also side note: win is now wearing a yellow shirt under a yellowish-orange jacket thing. back to the red-yellow soundwin theory, he has feelings for sound, he's got the yellow shirt. and on the outside, he's still kind of hiding it, still trying to figure it out. the jacket is almost like it's been stained more and more yellow over time, and win wants sound to turn it pure yellow, he just cant figure out how to get there, which is why hes asking sound to coach him. over time, he'll wear colours that get closer and closer to sound's shade of yellow, to show him finally realising his feelings more and more. :]

"no pressure or anything, but our club's future is in your hands" jeez yak, that's a little intense dont you reckon???

omg gemini finally gets to do music-related things

i can see him jumping for joy in his mind

he gets to sing and play guitar

OMG WE GOT TWO NEW SONGS TODAY

probably cos last week we didnt get any songs

but WOW

"wow. did you write that?" "no. you wrote it. you wrote it in here *tinn points to his own heart* i just sang it out loud." WHEN I SAY THAT THESE TWO ARE LIFE GOALS, I FREAKING MEAN IT

and now tinngun are kissing with a notebook between them

WHY do they have to ALWAYS get SO FREAKING CLOSE and then DONT??????

theyre really cute tho so i cant rly get mad

OH MY GOSH FREAKING HOT WAVE IS NEXT WEEK???????

THE FINAL FREAKING COMPETITION IS N E X T W E E K

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FUNCTION FOR SEVEN DAYS WITH THAT KNOWLEDGE IN MY BRAIN

ALSO NEXT EP WE'RE GONNA GET SOME SOLID CONTENT OF SOUND ATTEMPTING TO FLIRT AND WIN FALLING FOR HIM SO YAY

it's not quite what i was hoping for, but they're definitely aiming towards getting soundwin together, so its okay, theyll get there eventually

final thought/conclusion: this is my new favourite episode cos its like 50% soundwin

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sunshinewwx · 1 year

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☆♡︎𝐅𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐠𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞☆♡︎ 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕 3!❀

WARNING: * heights * slight NSFW

*fluff

Aonung X reader💌

Recap of the last part : I looked up only to see Aonung happily looking down at me, we both could read eachother minds like a flame. He embraced me into a tight and warm hug as he whispered in my ear. We did it love..

( This is very late ik🥲 I were suppose to post around 20:00- 21:00 but i had dance class! So im very sorry guys! Hope you guys love this fic, just reccomend if you want me to write something.😊❤️

( After Aonung sister Tsireya + Roxto overheard that Aonung was coming whit us they also asked if they could come aswell, they said it would be a good experience to learn from and that it also would be alot of fun! And after alot of asking, we can’t forget ”puppy eyes“ Ronal and Tonowari said yes.)

(Takes place the day they would leave)

(Ronal)- ”Do you think Aonung, Tsireya and Roxto is gonne be ok?.“Ronal asked as she and Tonowari were walking around the beach holding hands.

(Tonowari)- ”dont worry love, everything is gonne be just fine they have Maktao Olo’ eyktkan ( Jake sully) who is going to be whit them. Tonowari showed Ronal a nice smile only for Ronal to punch his shoulders.

(Ronal)- I guess you’re right, but what if they fall down a tree! What can he do about it when it’s already to late huh? She looked at him whit burning eyes but he could see deep down that it only showed fear and love.

(Tonowari) - Calm down now love, they are strong and smart, im sure that they wont fall of any trees that crosses their path. He laughed as Ronal just grumbled.

(Tonowari) - Shall we go and ride some ilu together? We could do a little bet~

Ronal ears went sigthtly up and her tail started to go up and down.

(Ronal)- Hmm what bet~? She took her one hand on his chest, fingers brushing around in a circle as the other hand went up to his shoulder squeezing it. She looked up at him whit a kind of "pout face". He smiled at her and took his arms around her body, holding around her waist.

(Tonowari) - Whatever you wanna do~ He gave her a little wink and they shared a cute kiss together♡︎

( Takes place the next day when you guys are leaving)

(Jake sully) Is everyone ready to leave? He placed his hands on his ikran head brushing it.

(Everyone) Yes!

(Reader pov: Everyone was happy and excited especially Aonung, Tsireya and Roxto. We all understood it, they are going to the forest it’s very different and they have to learn new ways to live. We looked over to their faces, Aonung trying to look like he dosen’t really care but everyone could see how he jumps excitly around you, Tsireya smiling and her eyes are showing those super big star ( looking super beautiful, I know why Look fell in love white her) Roxto just standing besides Kiri holding her hands, Roxto was afraid of heights, always has and always will he said. As for the Sully’s they were much more exited to finally go back home!

(Jake) - Ok i guess this means goodbye Tonowari and Ronal, i see you. He did this hand thing over his head and down to them, bowing down a little.

( Tonowari) - We see you to Jake sully. Take care of our children.

(Jake) - I will, i make sure Y/N and the others teach them well and carefully.

(Tonowari) Thank you Jake, were very greatful for your help, our children wouldn’t stop bugging us about your trip. He smiles as they share a ”strong” handshake. As for Neytiri and Ronal they stood quiet besides their mates watching over the conversation.

( Aonung, Tsireya and Roxto said their final goodbyes and now it was time to leave,)

You whistled for your ikran and under 5 seconds it flew right infront of you.

(Aonung) - Wow.. Hes super beautiful.. Shocked washed over Aonung feathers as he looked up as the big animal. Taking his hands out as the ikran sniffed him.

(Roxto) - We will be riding this?! Nonono im gonne die, im gonne die! Roxto cried out clinging his whole body onto Kiri.

(Kiri) - It’s gonne be alright Roxto, Kiri tried to calm him down but he almost wouldn’t budge.

As for Tsireya she found the ikran very cute and beautiful and she couldn’t wait to see the view so high up in the sky.

(Reader) - Ok Aonung you wanna get up first? I can help you, you smiled at him.

(Aonung) - ”Thank you love i could really use som help” He smiled at you as you helped him get up.

(You were very quick to get up after him, you were gonne do the steering so you sat yourself infront of Aonung. You told him that he had to hold around you tightly to not fall off. And he did, his muscular arms went around your stomach his hands right over your “yk” and you couldn’t help to get butterflies in your stomach.

(Jake sully) - Ok lets go! He flew of the beach, followed by Neytiri and Tuk, Neteyam, Lo’ak and Tsireya, Roxto and Kiri and lastly you and Aonung.

(Tsireya) - Wow! This is super beautiful! She had her head on Lo’ak back as she smiled looking over the whole ocean. She has never been this far from her Island so this was a whole another view of the water and cliffs she grew up whit.

( Roxto) - OMG OMG AHHHHHHH!! GET ME DOWN, GET ME DOWN!! Roxto just screamed as he held onto Kiri for dear life, poor Kiri looked so done whit him. After a while he finally calmed down as his eyes were closed shut the whole trip. Guess he kinda got used to it?

As for Aonung he held you close to him, he was careful not to disturb you to much as you were in control of the driving right now. But he couldn’t help.. He thought that you were looking super hot right now, you looked very concentrated, your hands had this strong grip around the rope that was in the ikran mouth. He could see your veins going from your hand all the way up to your arm. He didnt wanna admit it but it turned him on. He got a litte more closer to you as he gave you a kiss on the back of your neck.

(Aonung) - You feeling alright my love? He whispered to you as he felt the shivers you got from the kiss.

(Reader) - Of course i am love, why wouldn’t I?

(Aonung) - Idk.. He mumbled a bit as he felt your one hand on his cheek. His head immediately shot up as he felt your touch.

You were using your other hand to control the ikran as the other held his soft cheek.

(Reader) - Im alright love.. dont worry about me.. Are you alright? I know your not used to be this high up in the sky. Were soon there hang in.

(Aonung) - Im alright. Just a little hungry haha. He laughed out the last part as he put his head on your shoulder.

(Aonung) - I love you.. He nuzzled more into your shoulders as you felt his back calm down against yours. He was beginning to fall asleep already.

(Reader) - I love you to love.. You smiled to yourself as you got your other hand back to control your ikran. You were gonne swing a bit so you told your lover to hold on tight.

(After around 2-3 hours you finally saw a glimpse of the forest. You flew over to where your big brother Neteyam were.)

(Reader) - Ahh i can’t believe it! Were finally back home.

(Neteyam)- I know i almost cant believe it either. I missed everyone so much, i hope they recognize us, haha.

(You could only smile at him, you for almost the first time since you got to the metkayina clan have seen him smile. Ahh how you remember that big smile of his that took over his face, you loved it so much! It was something that made Neteyam him. Without it he would be a whole different person, certainly.)

(Tuk) - Yay home! She yelled out and Aonung slowly woke up by the noise, he looked over the big forest that covered the ground.

(Reader)- Do you like what you see love?. It’s beautiful isn’t it.. You looked over your home admiring the beautiful forest, the beautiful trees, rivers, mountains, animals, grass, plants, flowers everything.

(Aonung - ”It indeed is.. ” He also admired everything. It was so different here then back home, no big ocean to swim in, no palm trees not to mention the animals, they looked so different and maybe even a little scary? he thought to himself not wanting to really say it out loud.

(Jake) - Ok folks! Lets go and land over her at the ground!

(Everyone) Yes!.

You all landed safely and well it was more of a pain getting off, Roxto legs were shaking in fear and when he touched the ground he fell and hugged the grass whit all his might thanking Eywa for surviving. Tsireya just laughed at Roxto as Lo’ak got his hand out to help her get off safely. As for Aonung he wanted to seem tough so he jumped off only for it to take a ”certain” turn and land on his face.

(Reader) - Oh Aonung! You hurriedly jumped down to Aonung checking for any big injuries. Oh my Aonung! Your nose is bleeding! You kissed the side of his cheeks as he sat upright opening his mouth up and down.

(Aonung) - Im alright.. Just a bit um for now.. Aonung was super embarresed his whole face was red from the fall so it was a good way of hiding the blush that was forming it was onto his cheeks.

(Tuk) - What a land… Anyway WELCOME TO OUR HOME EVERYONE!

#avatar #the way of water #aonung #aonung x reader #aonung x y/n #aonung x you #fluff #finally going back home

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curiouskurona · 2 years

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Regarding your last post, who would you say IS the type to ghost? V.S who wouldn't?

DJKXJQKFLVLA okay so . bear with me here

riddle : would never ghost ( unless there was som kind of rule abt it ?? doubtful tho lol ) . is straightforward n 2 tha point , also isnt afraid 2 call ppl out so he wont feel tha need to ghost instead of telling u whats up

cater : oh man . maybe ?? honestly i dont hav a great grasp on his character ( @ twst give us moar cater content plz ) but i can see him both ghosting and being ghosted w equal frequency

trey : yes . 100% yes sorry . i feel liek i dont even need 2 explain this one but * looks at how he just let riddle do whatever he wanted instead of confronting him for years * . no trey slander but also kind of a lil trey slander ( I DONT HATE HIM THO LOL JCKAJLFLGLA )

ace : oh 100% he would . hes not a serial ghoster but he has and he will again . not bc hes adverse to confrontation , hes just kind of inconsiderate / he can b oblivious to other ppls feelings ( NO ACE HATE IM AN ACE APLOGIST HES FUNNIE )

deuce : no . he wants to , but no . he would definitely force himself to communicate and either air his grievances or tell them hes not interested in talking anymoar . hes trying to better himself . what would an honorable honor student do ,, not ghost ppl thts for sure

leona : yes 100% absolutely but only bc hes so lazy / he sleeps all day . he cant be bothered to spend any moar energy on a conversation that bores / annoys him . unless ur a girl / woman . and i dont mean that in a womanizer way i mean that in a leona chugs respect women juice all day long way . so hed maek ruggie type out what he wants to say n then go back 2 bed

ruggie : yes but only bc hes so busy taeking care of leona that he probs forgot / doesnt hav tiem 2 respond . actually he might ghost genuinely but only if ur liek . maeking him uncomfortable

jack : NO it wouldnt be right !! he respects ppl too much to leave them hanging liek that , it would be rude . and even if he doesnt liek / respect you , its tha principle of tha matter . why would he stoop so low as to be petty n passive agressive by not responding , he'll just tell you straight out if hes got a problem

azul : hm . this one is a hard one ngl ? i think no bc who is he to burn bridges , yanno ? he lieks having connections n shite im sure . but also i can see him being our smug lil capitalist liek " hi sorry i cant hear u i was too busy counting my money " also hes probably a lil lonley tho so . why would he ghost you unless u were being rlly mean or smth

floyd : yes bc he thinks its funnie / he wants 2 get a reaction outta you fjkvHAKFLVLLVLA . he regularly leaves riddle on read so he can provoke riddle into stompin over to yell at him , actually . and if u nevr respond / give him a reaction he'll probably end up forgetting to respond anyways ( unless he lieks you / is on an up moodswing )

jade : hm . no , because he really enjoys playing out that whole sebastian michealis thing . oh hes too much of a gentleman for that , you know ,, stares @ u liek this ^___^

kalim : NO NO WAY he loves to talk he loves to maek friends !! well actually he might ghost accidentally if he forgets but hes SUPER apologetic about it ówò he will send flowers n jewelry n stuff to maek up for it

jamil : yes 100% . again not a serial ghoster but can and will if he doesnt liek you . he will pretend he is too busy to respond but rlly he is looking @ u liek this -_-

vil : yes , he would . hes a very busy boy , but also hes not above ghosting ppl if he feels liek he doesnt want to waste his precious tiem talking to potatoes who dont event get what hes trying to say . actually i taek that back he would purrobably tell you the above b4 he stops responding . he would also ghost tho

rook : you wish

epel : no , as i stated in my last post . he just isnt tha type . he'll say what needs 2 be said , just ignoring his problems until they go away isnt his style , he aint gonna wuss out n he aint gonna beat around tha bush . he grew up with a ton of old folks , he probably doesnt get or have an interest in highschool drama , just communicate w him damnit

idia : yes are you fucking kidding me

ortho : this is a child . a kind of lonely child . he should be playing neopets idk how to answer this question . no ?? maybe ?? hes normal ig

malleus : yes absolutely but only bc his concept of tiem is wack and he genuinely wont realize its been ages since he responded . is devastated wen he finds out

lilia : no not really . hes pretty witty and finds most things amusing , i figure he can always respond to whatever you throw at him and he wont really feel tha need 2 ghost . if u maek him mad he might threaten you or smth n stop responding but nah he wont rlly ghost

silver : another obvious yes , bc he WILL fall asleep . constantly leaving you on read but isnt tha type to long term ghost / cut contact , unless he liek . keeps putting it [ responding ] off and always falls asleep b4 he can . next tiem for sure tho ,, right ?

sebek : are you malleus ? no ? blocked . JDKLVLSLLFLVLA okay but srsly tho . probably yes unless ur a classmate n yall r askin abt tha homework n stuff . hes not really interested in being social outside of diasomnia as far as i can tell , but what do i know , i havent rlly gotten into his character much

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a1z9 · 3 months

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(this is not my secret blog)

i can stop looking at your second blog, if it helps, or just abstaining for long periods of time, if the privacy may help. seriously.

but, in the meantime, i have some things to say about what ive seen...

thank you for sharing so much about your day and about yourself. you never talk too much, certainly not for me.

ace, i love you. and like you. there is not an iteration of me, at least that i cosign, that doesn't like any iteration of you. this whole poem we are both writing together has been upsetting and as i live through it i have a whirlwind of feelings, but when it comes to you.... you entirely...no, there is no me that doesnt like any you.

likewise, i absolutely would love nothing more than to hold you and comfort you and take care of you. i absolutely can and would, i am made for many things and loving you is something that speaks to my soul. you don't have to "make" me do anything, i would do anything for you. your heart isn't "creepy", your passion does not scare me. can't you see, i am the same? we might be in different places right now, but i am going through the same thing you are, just from a different vantage. like yin and yang we may appear in different places but, we are a compliment as much as a reflection, when the root of the surface is found.

yes, i want it. the blood and the kisses. to consume and be consumed. maybe we should wait before we succumb so fully, sure, but...i love checking off days from my calendar, if it brings me closer to embrace with you.

you are allowed to miss me...i miss you.

i do wait for you...and i will, for however long it takes, until we may finally enjoy each others company.

i hope you look at that little post i made in a desktop computer, too. phone chops it up badly.

i think if we must do this, we should find you a place to talk to me where i wont see it, too. or where i dont check often. if you like.

...

you know, you dont have to do this.

you dont have to force yourself away.

what are you so afraid of?

i promise, we can and could and will find a way.

is this all necessary?

, , , , , , , , , , , , ,

some looks into my life, too...

im turning--oh, oops,

i am 27

i always knew this would be a challenging year

i have felt the weight of things i must do in the future. but i am learning to not be afraid of the dark. fear makes things worse. acceptance brings the dark in with the light, and creates harmony, through which beauty is constant. i seek to balance. i seek to demystify the dark, but to never let go of the light. i can and will harness both. i will not settle for less.

sometimes i have felt quite at peace. sometimes i feel an undulating scream that shakes the earths crust suddenly boil in my chest. sometimes it is okay, it is easy. sometimes it is not.

probation still sucks. but, i have spoken to some of the worst at the depot. they are more human now. i love everybody.

it is hard to put everything into words. i have regretted talking about our situation at all--i havent much, but nonzero. ironically, david has actually seemed to most understand, which took me by surprise. he's actually been very supportive of us, and my love for you. it is quite different, that. it has made me very happy.

im illegally downloading all the beats i ever liked. im, like, on 200/900, lol. but at least i started.

i have not been having any dreams. i may have said over my discord to you already, but, i saw 137 a lot when we were speaking everyday. after this, i only saw near-misses for a few days. now, not at all, it seems. i do not think it is dead and gone, only retreated.

i am getting more comfortable around mel, where i am acting like myself. it has been nice. sometimes he pisses me off but its okay. he insists he wants to hang out with me soon, and i think i will.

sometimes i feel, maybe i needed the space too, to work on myself, too. i do...i do feel like the right thing for me to do is to finish all that i need to. i want you in my life, and i want my mission, and i dont at all think those two things are incompatible, at all, in fact i think it could be very complimentary, only that it could go wrong if i do not maintain the balance and do everything the right way.

what even is the right way? questions like these...i appreciate i could be driven looney thinking about everything, so i have avoided it. i know that, assuming this lasts a long time, this current mode, i will need a lot of time to process it, i know that my own grief has in part been absolved by light but in part been stuffed away to some rotten corner. i try to feel you when i can, and it seems i am always interuppted, either my mind insists on defocusing or something happens irl. but i have had some moments, that have meant a lot to me, those where i felt you. i really hope you can feel me too. i dont understand why your vents seem to think i just am...that i dont love you as much. etc. i will admit that stings a little. but i understand. i just hope you know, that even when i am swirling in a way that seems to present as apathy or otherwise seems to indicate that it is all just a frivolous thing to me...that is just simply not true.

yes, this brings me a deep sadness. but i also have such a deep, deep joy, too. i carry your kiss with me everywhere. i do not think of you as some long gone lover that could have been, i do not think of you as some ghost that is quickly fading, as much as it might feel like that sometimes. even if you die, a scenario which i fully understand is a possibility, i do not think that.

i really hope you can just be, and be along me.

yes, i think we both have individual things we have to do. is it really impossible for us to have both? i dont think so.

i feel your emotions sometimes. again, it seems, always at horribly inconvenient times. work just got busy, mom or grandma are need my affection and attention and are trying to talk to me, etc, etc. the inconvenience of the timing, of course, does not feel terribly random, or surprising. it feels like a part of the process.

would you still love me if--

nevermind. i know you would. i hope you know, i would for you, quite the same.

i dedicate my days to you. i always speak of you when i pray, and when i have a rare moment where i have internal monologue. it seems i have, again, not been allowed much time or energy for that lately.

i am trying to struggle for myself. i know that is where what i do needs to come from. but dammit, all i want to do is love you, love you, love you.

i would throw it all away for you. which i know isnt the solution. but dammit. i would, i would, i would. so easily.

i hope you learn to let the sun kiss you, too.

i hope one of my kisses can find you, too.

or a million...

i have masturbated to you several times...you know, sometimes the emotional storm and mental unclarity/overpressed stupor doesnt allow for much else, but when i fall asleep and wake up, the first and last things my conscious thinks of is holding you, and as it rests and the primal is all thats left, i lust for you, i feel a demand for you.

there is nothing unpleasant about you. how dare you say otherwise! :)

you make me think of flowers and sunshines. bugs and plants. good things.

im going to try and eat, i have a long day tomorrow i should try and chill before sleeping.

yes, i want you to reach out next. maybe its just "when it feels right," it doesnt need to be an emergency. maybe its for no big reason at all. the only thing i will say is, if you reach to me through tumblr, i have tried to maintain not having tumblr app on my phone, simply because i dont want to get addicted to it, and i am trying to give you space while you say you may need it (...?)

please remember this was your idea and i am doing this for you. i say that only because i want--

oo deja vu, doubled up

trains

toys

toy trains?

anyways--

wait--

wait no--

anyways--

i say that only because i want you to be comforted that i am waiting for you, that i want you, i need you, i am trying to do what is right, but my first instinct everytime is to urge you like a whiny child to please discard all barriers and meet me immediately.

i love you ace hyde. i love you so dearly! i love you with sweetness. i love you with fervor. i love you with dizzying passion, and upright dignity, and prostrating surrender and gleeful abandon. i love you with each of my facets. you make me smile. i am eternally thankful for having met you.

i hope when you sleep that you can feel held by my embrace. do not hesitate to ask for it, from me, whenever or wherever that may be, and if it doesnt work once, do not hesitate to ask the next night, or the night after that...

i love you.

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demadogs · 2 years

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There’s this one blog on here that kinda weirds me out because they are so hyper deadest on shipping Foah together. Like whenever they write normal Byler posts, it’s so beautiful! But then, everything else idk. And I know a lot of us joke about Noah wanting to kiss Finn or vice versa but this blog gives off weird vibes because they seem to genuinely want Finn and Noah to date in real life. They also seem to make a lot of assumptions about their feelings for each other just because of their chemistry. And I don’t know how serious this blog is about it but it gives me Larry shipper vibes. Or like the Fack conspiracy all over again, which hurt Finn and Jack’s friendship at the time

oh my god im glad you brought this up i know exactly who youre talking about. every time i make a post telling people not to ship real people it was bc of that blog in particular. i have them blocked so im not afraid to talk about them. we’ve made jokes and memes about noah being the biggest byler shipper and wanting to kiss finn for byler and theyre mostly pretty harmless but this blog is just something else.

youre right, they make so many assumptions. it pisses me off and it does completely give me larry vibes. they talk as if they know finn and noah personally and theyre friends with them and have seen them interact. or like theyre an out couple like natalia and charlie. they usually respond to anons who call them out on it with something like “i dont ship foah, i just observe their interactions and anyone can see that they are crushing on each other”. that bothers me so much. like observe what the 5 minute press interviews?? you dont fucking know them. save your analyses for things that have been intentionally written and mapped out for FICTIONAL media, not two kid actors just being themselves. and then they’ll try to call the anons homophobic by being like “whys it such a big deal for noah to have a little crush on him??”, still fully talking as if its public knowledge and we’re the bad guy like oh my god how are you not understanding the issue here.

ive also noticed that they ignore anybody who tells them that finn has a gf. they just wont answer the anon (i know bc i have sent one) or ignore any replies about it. they live in this weird bubble where they choose to believe these real people are dating. and like ok i cant stop you from thinking theyd be cute together, theres nothing wrong with that, what makes it problematic is trying to read into their interactions and expressions and publicly suspect their relationship and sexualities on the internet. and again, they always try to be like “theres no harm in it im not directly @ ing finn or noah” but this is the internet. anybody can screenshot anything and put it anywhere. there is always a chance that either of them could see their posts and it could be so bad if they did. i dont think theyve ever once considered what it could be like to be finn or noah and see this.

like yes, there is a chance they’d just laugh about how ridiculous it is and move on but what if one of them actually was questioning their sexuality and then they saw some random person on the internet reading into it like this??? that would be so fucking hard. jack came out as bi after people were shipping him and finn so much. i cant imagine how anxiety provoking it would be to see what people were saying about him and finn while being in the closet. it gives ME anxiety on their behalf!! i hope so bad theyre blissfully unaware of this.

one anon told them that theyre using foah as a coping mechanism after byler didnt work out how they wanted in s4 and theyre so right. before vol 2 came out i saw maybe two posts from them in the byler tag about it that kinda weirded me out but after volume two they just turned into a foah blog instead of byler. they literally had byler in their url before and then they changed it to foah for fucks sake. and they still have the nerve to claim they dont ship them and what theyre doing is completely fine and just “observation”.

also i was looking at their blog once and they mentioned that they were 31 years old…. look it is not weird to ship byler at any age. i have personally as a 22 year old been told that its weird for me to ship byler and analyze these fictional characters and i completely disagree with that. theres nothing weird about shipping characters at any age even if the characters are kids (as long as youre not nasty about it) but real people??? god i would have been SO relieved if this person was like 15. i would not have gone as hard on them as i am right now if they were a kid because i would assume they would grow and eventually realize that its weird and invasive. i mean i remember reading stupid fanfics about youtubers when i was 14 but i grew and matured and realized how insane that is and no longer had any interest in reading into real peoples love lives. but i cannot excuse any adult shipping them like this.

god this ended up being so long i just had a lot to say. moral of the story: if actors have great chemistry on screen together it just means theyre good at their job, it doesnt mean theyre dating or crushing on each other in real life.

#this is one of the reasons i rarely am as invested in theorizing and analyzing a ship from a movie or show #theres always someone whos weird about it and wants the actors to get together #shipping book characters is so much more peacful they just exist in my head #byler #stranger things #man i really went off didnt i this is long as hell #eden answers

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smollilbaby · 9 months

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GIRLFRIEND

The day have come. The day that i've been waiting for has arrived. Im so excited and nervous at the same time. How convenient it is to ask you on my birthday?! The day went so well and smoothly and im so thankful and happy! I couldnt ask for any other better days other than my birthday!

My love, thank you for making surprises on my bday! Thank you for your time and the gifts! The efforts you and ikah put in for it, its just !! It was the best birthday ever sayang! And mylove, thank you for being mine again. Thank you for letting me to love you again, allowing me to take care of you and your heart. I know it aint easy but thank you sayang, i really appreciates it.

I promise you that its gonna be worth it. Worth your time and everything! I love you and only you baby! I sayang gila kat you and my life have been so much happier with you inside. No words could really describe how happy i am when you said yes, but i know my heart is crying. Even the thoughts of it few days ago, made me cried, like im so nervous and everything. I just loves you so much baby, like so so much.

Girlfriend, im so happy that i can finally call you that. Tangan ngan mulut gatal je everything nk sebut matair HAHAHAH but finally!! I hope you like the ring baby, even tho its mcm loose but it looks pretty on you sayang! Tengok you je dah senyum, you pakai cincin tu lagi buat i senyum, sebab you dah jadi matair i!! Ahhhhh so happy!!

Sayang, please dont be afraid. Im not going anywhere. Im not gonna fucked up after asking you. I know shits happens before, but i promise you, what's past is past baby. I really dont want to lose you at all! You're the one that i need in life. You make me so happy and you're a part of me. You're so important to me and you matters the most! Definitely not taking you for granted, my girlfriend! I'll treasure & loves you with all of my heart!

And i know for sure, i wont stop loving you & missing you . I wont stop flirting with you & complimenting you! You're so beautiful in my eyes! In every angle, you look so damn good!! If only i could put a Live 360 camera on you, i would so i could see you even from afar! I love you so much sayang and i'll never stop being clingy and obsessed with you. In fact i think after you being mine, i'll become more clingy and obssesive towards you cause i love you so much!

I know we're together now, and i know baby still dont want to be exposed, so lets just stay as it. As long as you know you have me, im cool with it. And plus, people dont have to know who im with but the urge to just post about you all over is very strong saiyang hais but itsokay baby!

Till then mylove, from the bottom of my heart,

i love you so much, my girlfriend!! 🩷

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makahimetenshi · 11 months

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Falling or not - Paladin Danse x Sole Survivor Fanfic

This is the 1 part of a series of fics im writing lately, the order will be:

Falling or not?

May I use your shower?

Volver a tener algo

Addicted to Chems

Fooling around together

Traumas at the Commonwealth

Being awake

Since im in a rampage writing with this new ship I want to make some announcements

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They were travelling together since Nate joined the brotherhood, and now since they were prepairing to build the teleport machine walking around all the Commonwealth was pretty normal, to the north to direct south, no things to do in the middle, a lot of walking, they could use ventibirds but that was a privilege that Maxson give sometimes to some people and Nate as miserly as he was, didnt want to abuse of that chances afraid of running low and needing it…and it was true, even Danse wasnt permitted to travel on ventibirds as much he wishd with years of service and a life dedicated as paladin, it was okay, part of their mission was also patrol the land and help other brothers in distress. Also Nate stop to help some of his Minutemens he encounter on the way, it was fine.

Both were heading to Sanctuary Hills, Nate needed some supplies and change some guns with others he had at…home…despite everything the man said that if he started to paid a loan for that rooft it didn’t matter if the bombs fall, it was still his home.

Danse didn’t have a problem, he feeled safe around Nate and getting some supplies for an specific task was a valid reason to move a little…and he needed to stop by a power armor station too, his power armor was low in state and needed the maitenence

Its been two weeks since Nate had the wonderfull idea to flirt and joke around a bit after Danse confessed his worries about being a good squat leader.

“you gave me something to think” said the paladin making the bombs fall again inside the knights brain

What the fuck, hows that of something to think what are you meaning with it? What are you gonna do with that info? He just ask if he was going to lean his shoulder over when he need it and wont disappear or die to not let him alone because he cared and Danse took it so personally and deep…

He said it joking like bros but the first flirt took him by surprise and really messed up with his head nononono this wasn’t his intention he said it chill and why it was still such a big thing for him too….

Ah…he may be falling? Just like that? Just with a little of reciprocate interest? Nate was unsure of his feelings but knowing that the paladin wasn’t closed to it…

He had…Nora…

He will always be Noras…

Why he would have interest in anyone in the Commonwealth? They were sick, dirty, mean, low intelligence….well that sound a bit racist but besides the Cobes family who the hell have a good life in this hell of time? He was nice, of course, he wouldn’t say those things, he understanded very well that no one can cahnge the situation and make it better enought, the destruction was too much to even try to make something on large time, they didn’t chose to be born in this horrible world and cant be misjudged by that but…

He didn’t want to be here neither, he was just in a crusade to save Shaun, letting himself go forward witout thinking much just until finding him and then…well no idea but he will figure out something, for his sake.

But there he was, getting all clumbsy because a man say yes to him in a not so clear way…wow…just right there he thought about how suppressed his feelings were…to not feel…to not love…

Will Danse say yes maybe to a third flirt? Should Nate stop thinking in such things? Just the possibility make his heart ache in confussion and make a mess but…it would be so bad?

Yes, it would be, Nora was still there, in Sanctuary Hills, waiting him and Shaun to return.

-Theres some people were we are going that you should meet, and I want you to be open mind and not shoot them please –Nate said to Danse, they were close walking in Concord, passing just the place where his…veterans event should have place if the bombs didn’t fall…

-What do you mean? –hell no more surprises

-Along with human citizens of the Commonwealth there is a supermutant named Strong, my handyrobot Codsworth, a raider name Cait…

-Why the hell you choose that company to leave in your hometown where theres people you want alive

-Shup up I paid Codsworh expensive with my credit card and 200 years later it was worth every penny, Strong is there because he likes to smash things and around Sanctuary Hills theres two points that often catchs raiders attention as a pottencial base, Concord, were we are walking now and a mine no so far away.

-But theres no raiders around here –Danse looked everywhere, he see bodies, yes, bodies of raiders, bodies he cant care any less and wouldn’t even give a look to inspect more, their lifes were worthless for him, still it wasn’t a rampage of bodies like you see next to buildings in the Commonwealth.

-That’s Strong work, if he sees leather and spikes, he smashes, same with the mine, we clean and a few weeks later some other new group appears, I honestly don’t like to kill them, I try to persuade them when im with Strong to leave, but raiders doesn’t ration, they don’t get reasons, they don’t wanna negociate…so Strong smashed –even for Danse, Nate sometimes have a dark mind about the value of life for…some people…he didn’t like to kill but he had a really quick way to decide that if someone is pissing off, bullet on the brain goes- im not always around, I cannot let some random raiders take my home, as far as I investigated with Cait the ones that often comes are non organized groups, from other parts of the Commonwealth, clearly they are not getting the news about the Supermutant doing purges on Concord and the mine...so if they are not listening to reasons when im around…let Strong smash

-Arent you afraid of the supermutant loosing control or anything? They are not very sm –Nate quickly moved his head, denying.

-Strong is a smart supermutant, the first one I know besides Virgil, a poet who lives in a post here in the commonwealth try to spread a word to educate them in philosophy an lectures…it worked just on him, the rest of his mutant family imprisioned both, knewing totally what they were doing…I came in a distress help from the poet in the radio and…we killed all his supermutant family…together…just to get out of there…-Nate sounded a bit his nose, knowing that at telling his story he zooned out a bit, sometimes, he zooned out, speaking of this horrors was good for the soul, he liked having someone to talk to that would understand the situation, like first hand, it wasn’t a fantastic tale for Danse like it was for Codsworth, sometimes he tries to express his things to some other person and it sounds like fantasy, difficult to imagine and understand, so many horrible details and non real situations…but they were very real…

And Danse understand, imagine and if he doesn’t get it he really tries, he doesn’t avoid the subject, he values his experiences at least to make a lesson or an opinion…

Danse have field experience, he see things and can perceive them as possible and sometimes even normal, unlike people, human people, normal people who just try to survive everyday and work just…understanded that this things can happen…but tries to avoid them, tries to not live and suffer them, most of them just live with the filth and the poberty, but try to avoid the danger.

Nate cant do that, he was always on the mouth of danger, at least until he find Shaun…

-Have you ever do another thing with the supermutant? Other that doesn’t involve killing or the promise of killing –even if there was always the promise of killing in every corner of the wasterlands….

It wasn’t like Danse was trowing mean vibes or wanted to discuss the man but you can keep a low intelligence individual by promising things that will offer instant gratification and it will obey as long it last…

-He does other chores, yes, sometimes the residents ask him help or I send him to other settlements –Danse noded a hmmmmmm pretty surprised-So he is one of the things I will ask you to not be mean at, Strong saved my life a lot of times, supermutand and all but he is a good partner

What a definition of good partner was that, Danse smiled, he could get jelous

-Tell me about the other two…

-Well Codsworth is a handyrobot I bought as a surprise gift for Nora when she was pregnant at home with Shaun, I was away still on service so I wanted to…make my presence…Codsworth was the first face I see at exiting vault 111…it was a relief to see him at home but…it was all an illusion, nothing was right –Nate was talking with a shady voice again, it was hard for him to talk about the prewar most of the times…-I know in the brotherhood we are not fond of robots, since I didn’t see many on service or helpers, but Codsworth is my robot and he has an awesome personality, so please, be nice, don’t shoot, hell be respectfull with you –Danse noded, again not convinced but oh well it was just a robot…

-Then a rider? Any other surprise?

-Well not for today…as I know, I haven’t been here in three weeks…Her name is Cait, I found her in the combatzone and we had…such a strange encounter…-the paladin raise an eyebrow- I have to confess, if you wanted to shoot someone, but please do not, it would be her…she is…strange…

-What kind of strange are you talking about? A smart supermutant is strange to me

-She is always making weird sexual jokes and mocking at me…and she gets mad fast, really low tempered…we travel a few times to do some works and I didn’t like the vibes…so I gave her a house and a nice place to stay…

-That doesn’t sound smart from you, what if she is violent?

-Theres Preston and Sturges around, also Codsworth has a really nice knifes –didn’t he said he was only a handyrobot?- I think she is just weird, I cant give her a psycologist but at least good conditions to rest and chill…as I said we worked together a few times and we have each other back so…consider it a payback if she is still there…the last four times I was here she was staying, doing things around up and there for the settlement and the neightbords…so…she is a help, I just don’t like being around, you know, people some times have or not chemistry with other people

-Things can happened –said Danse, resting a bit of importance, despite the supermutant it wasn’t that bad, just a misbehaved asshole, nothing he didn’t handle before

-We are close, don’t stop by red rocket, we have our own power armor station in Sanctuary –Nate said at looking at the big red rocket at the distance, it was a very nice reference to find his hometown, Danse nodded next to him and in a few minutes they were crossing the bridge to Sanctuary, hands up.

It was strange coming up home with your hands up? It surely is but Sturge set up those torrets at the entrance to do that exact thing, it you are hands up you may not be necessary pacific but at least you cant shoot at no one, it was also a safe code for all the people that lived here that they were part of the community and not outsiders, outsiders are obliged to raise their hands and come in peace and they…just do it for practicity.

-Looks who is back –a woman voice emerged from behind a scrapped wooden door, passing trought running Dogmeat appear, jumping directly to Nates arms to hug, and lick, and jump and play around him at how happy it was.

Danse liked dogs, he liked seeing Dogmeat too, he never had a dog before but they were wonderfull creatures and the way his tail moved from happiness at seeing Nate was cute, it makes his heart happy to see that.

-Its that the way to receive the general? –Nate was on the floor caressing and playing with Dogmeat, grabbing his nose and pocking it .

-Are you going to say anything to Preston?

-I can, im the general –Danse looked at them talking…it wasn’t that bad…

-You were away from a long time!

-Well the castle is pretty far away from here…

-You know who is going to have a blast now you are here? Longfellow! I don’t know why that old gag gets so happy around you

-Because he uses every special ocation as an excuse to drinks

-Touche, lets get in

So this was the raider Cait? She wasn’t that bad.

-Well be staying here for a few days

-Who is your friend? Another one you recluted for Sanctuary?

-No, he already has a home, his name is Paladin Danse –Nate pointed at him and Danse saluted politely, the redhead came a step closer to him and took a look from toes to head.

She was cute, cute factions, cute face, very delicate.

-Theres nothing like the smell of power armor grease and testosterone –she said, making Danse smile at how occurent that comment was.

-The aroma is rather…pungent…

Nate, who was in the middle of them became…STILL…FROZEN…

Nononononononono were they flirting? Nonono he didn’t ask for that nooooo hes been daydreaming with the paladin and he make the mistake to introduce him to a hot chick he said he didn’t like…

Calm calm down…he said some nasty things he doesn’t have to like her…

That last one stay on Nates mind as he walked inside the settlement, letting them talk not wanting to be there anymore…

And what if he does? Danse wasn’t his...and he was Noras…

What a terrible mistake! He should go to another settlement! He didn’t have it clear with his own feelings to now feel bad about…loosing? Danse but…what was he loosing? He didn’t do…No…he did…but no enough. If he chooses the cute girl…well he didn’t have a chance neither in his sleep!

Oh this was bad bad bad, just a few hours ago he was wondering about that time he flirted twice with Danse asking himself if it was okay to take it to seriously and now…he enter in panic because he get jelous at the minimum interaction with someonelse suresuresure he was okay about Haylen because DANSE ITSELF said she was just a member of his squad but oh my he never thought in third parties…

He looked back, and at seeing them still talking in front of the door his hands went to his hair, taking a big sight before accelerating his steps.

-Come on boy, lets talk to Preston –he called to Dogmeat and walk away from the scene, he didn’t wanna see that anymore, cant deal with it

Danse do as Nate told him, move around, use the facilities, talk to people and feel comfortable, because why the hell not, if he invited the man to the Prydwen where all his family, reputation and life was why he cant be around his hometown? So he did, he eat some because everybody knows that Nates friend are everybodys friend and are fucking kinda obligued to be nice apparently, use the power armor station, take a look at Nate collection of power armors…

What a waste…so many scattered around the Commonwealth, repaired and everything but out of use because Nate wont find himself comfortable inside one…and because he had the power fist or GRA or something he didn’t paid to much attention…

-So you are relying on the supermutant help only? –Danse was trying to be nice, not be despitefull as he smashed some aluminium to repair his power armor chest.

-I know what you are trying to do, so im going to be patient to you –Sturges approatched him while he was repairing some turrents that went down the other day- we are still here okay?

Yeahyeahyeahyeah of course not everycorner of the Commonwealth was militarized like the Prydwen and that didn’t make them shitholes…but they were…but he cant say it because people gets offended…I mean Nate shared those thoughts but never said them loud, in fact apparently they get along because the man have high standars that right now the Prydwen have less or more to satisfy, like hot showers. Of course, high standars for him and all the habitants of the wastelands, for Nate it was basic lifestyle before the bombs fell, but right now they were highstandars, if you let the man talk he was so hatefull of life in the wastelands in general…

He had reasons tho, he understanded and was able to imagine despite being unable to do anything about it, imagine living in one word and waking up in another totally different…

And then see your wife getting shot and kill.

And your baby kidnapped.

Nate was a hard man, difficult to understand, luckily, for him it didn’t turn out so harsh to do.

-Yes, theres Preston, you, Longfellow, Cait…some other settlers...

-Some Minutemens that often come by, we may rely a lot on Strong but we are thought too

-I don’t doubt it but neither of you have military training and the equipment you have here is…

-We scrap as much we can, this are the resources the Commonwealth gives us, the general helps a lot too –Danse slurpred some saliva, better talk carefull around a man who respect his superior.

-Most of you all don’t know how to shoot a different type of gun, you are not gunners or an organized group

-Well we haven’t been here for a lot of time neither, it takes a lot of work to build practically from 0 with your bare hands, Preston and his old team were the ones that help us to not die when out home was attacked by gunners, now that you mention it

Danse take a breath, he wasn’t handling well the conversation.

-Im just saying that you may want all to learn some training about shooting and avoiding, not rely on the help of a supermutant

-Strong is a good fella –not like Sturges was denying his point but he will stand for the creature that was keeping their home safe.

-How can you trust that his damaged brain by the VEF will always stay like this? One day he could lost the reason and…

-We trust –Sturges said, looking back at him –We have a way to trust him, don’t expect you to understand –how could he explain a foranger that Mama Murphy told him that everything will be right with the supermutant? That she has visions that are always alright? That she wants to be constantly drugged to have that visions? It didn’t sound right to explain to an outsider, no matter how much of a friend of the general he was

Danse didn’t feel comfortable, didn’t understand the way of people who didn’t use the reason and possibilities…when there was danger in everycorner, everybody should be more carefull.

-You need to finish the wall on the river right? –Sanctuary had fences in process to be finished all around the old neighborhood

-What about i?

-Why didn’t you fence the water area?

-Oh Nate didn’t want to cut around the water, he preffer to expand that leaving the river out, I said that doing that we may have the river increasing one day in a rain and have a problem but he said that the fences we made may not be enough to seal the waters, not hermetic enough, that we need to find concrete to make real walls, dig very very down the earth to really seal…I suggested that the gunners have those kind of walls for strategic and shooting points so the proyect of finishing the fence is delayed until we figure out whats best, if stealing a camp of runners or finding a place with that much concret and cement…which I believe is difficult, is a short resource, its really a treasure to find a bag of concrete ready to make so his idea has a really difficult execution…like I said, delayed

Rest of the afternoon he repaired his power armor and went to take a bath of…cold water…they have a purified water machine so at least it wasn’t radioactive but it wasn’t a pleasant bath and the nights at the Commonwealth were cold, at least they managed to make clean beds and sheets, cleaner than in the Prydwen even.

He didn’t saw Nate until night, he was talking to the old gag Longfellow, just talking, in the settlement they all eat together in an oriel they put at the street so first, they don’t waste much wood, they don’t make much lights or smoke, they can count properly the quantity of food used each day for inventory purposes.

If they are eating in the street they can keep an eye everywhere and not be exposed to a surprise attack while they were enjoing the evening, poor? Sure, efficient? Well…not so much…the best thing they can do with the little amount of people they have? At least give them that credit to have…

The night fall, Danse see the supermutant for the first time walking around Sanctuary, according to what Cait said to him he went nearby the settlement. It was huge, and it reminded him of Cuttler, his old friend…the ticking on his hand to grab his laser rifle and shoot him were huge but…he wouldn’t do it, he was ask to not, people trusted that thing and he had no right to…impose the brotherhoods ideals…

Then he saw Nate, talking chill in a table full of diverse people, sharing a meal.

He may be dissobeing the brotherhood by letting that evening happen, by letting that supermutant alive just because a vault man ask him…

Lets just say he was in a Minuteman territory and preffer to obey and take in consideration their rules on their land to not cause a diplomatic problem…yes…that could work…after all the Commonwealth wasn’t the Brotherhood territory…there were here just to help and fight the institute…

He was getting soft around that man.

The next day Nate expend the morning in bed, rolling around looking at the open ceiling. Yes, he was tired, again it was a long trip, yes, he deserved the rest, yes, everybody will understand if he expend the day on bed and not ask him if he was sick or hurt or in pain or anything…he gave Preston the command to please not be disturbed…

His mind keep thinking about yesterday…nononono what did he do…he cant force the man to like him, he wasn’t even sure if that’s what he wanted but definetly he didn’t want to loose a chance! Even a small chance…

Why was his brain doing that to him…only a few interactions and a pinch of jelousy made him terrible unsure if he wanted to forget about the man or marry him…

It was even okay to have this kind of feelings? To let himself grow a feeling? Love was a necessary human feeling, and the Commonwealth since he wake up wasn’t a place for sentimental creatures but…to be loved and cared…Kellogg took away that possibility when Nora was shoot in front of him…he missed it…he missed her…god he was a mess..

But Danse…he didn’t plan to die on his arms and let him alone, he find him to be a good partner with experience in fighting and surviving…it was a worry less wich is a lot, of course, he worried, he cared, but how different it was to be serene around someone you know it wouldn’t die so easy that someone you don’t know…or don’t trust on his habilities…or know his lack of habilities. He needed that calm over his shoulders to move forward in this hostile word…He needed someone strong, not to rely, but at least to trust they were going to be okay.

Ah…he may be falling? Yes yes yes hell yes he was…he falled…completely unsustented but he falled…

He wanted Danse, but there wasn’t a how or when…it just have to develop…

A heavy feeling pressed on Nates chest, making difficult to breathe even completely relaxed in his bed looking at the ceiling, this had happen before.

He sighted and went up the bed to dress, he knew how to deal with this.

Afternoon, Danse was looking for Nate not because he had a reason but its been 24 since they separated and…well it wasn’t his home he didn’t feel completely comfortable in a place he didn’t know with a people he didn’t actually like…Looked everywhere, the place wasn’t that big, looked in everysingle house, even being uncomfortable around…

There was a woman this time at the entrance of Sanctuary, Dogmeat was with her, she had a rifle and apparently was patrolling at the gate.

-Hello –Danse called, she watched at him-do you know if the general come out? –he wouldt leave him…

-He is still around here, Preston tells me when we are waiting for someone familiar, despite the minutemans –Danse saluted and went back, ok, Preston was the second in command so it was a good idea to ask him.

The man was inside the house he claimed as his, even if he made guards and watchs frequently around.

-Welcome to my place –said Preston, it make Danse a bit unconfortable they keep the illusion of doors…and windows living in a place where everything was open with a lot of leaks and seethroughts…

-Oh actually I was just looking for Nate, figured out I can ask you –Preston hold the door a moment, since he wasn’t coming inside.

-Sorry, the general isn’t avalible right now –Danse raised an eyebrow, ok he didn’t expect that

-What do you mean?

-That the general is not receiving visits right now –no kidding

-Did anything happened…? –bussy Nate? Here? The only reason he could be off is only if he was jacking off but he wasn’t on his house

-The general doesn’t need to give explaitions –so we are getting like this? My god

-There are less than 20 people here do you really wanna do this

-Do you have full access to your superiors whenever you want back there in the Brotherhood or…-touche, still, he had a secret card to play

-You know is not a good idea to leave Nate alone right? –this time, Preston raise an eyebrow

-Because…?

-Of his chems addiction…-the man went to press his forehead with his fingers, sighting. That surprised Danse, he didn’t know that the thing about chems was something he let the others know…but pretty much anyone worked with him so at some point it becomes noticeable

-I thought we were past this…-cool, this was cool, his secret card was basically “don’t you know the general has a problem with chems? We shouldn’t let him alone!” or…”He is lately having a lot of that problems of you know…chems…” it was a bit of testing to see which one fitted right but you can play with people knowledge or ignorance, in any case neither wanted Nate dead by his own stupid addiction…saving people from their stupid acts often unites interest.

-Yeah I noticed while we were camping…he uses two or three dosis at day whenever he thinks he is alone…

-Look im not supposed to tell you where the general is

-Its okay, whenever he is I can act all surprised like…oh you were here? I don’t know I was just exploring…to no say it was you…

-Yeah he is gonna know, when you arrive there you will get why

-Then why don’t you go?

-He was pretty clear about not wanting to be disturbed

-Clearly a chems problem

-I cant discuss what my general want to do on his spare time

-But you know he has a chems problem

-What do you want me to do? Follow him like I was his boyfriend? –Danse close his lips, he was right, but still, wanted to find the man. Preston sighted looking up, tired, he didn’t know this man well, the fact it came with Nate didn’t mean anything to him, he didn’t want to put in danger his general neither by letting him alone and vulnerable…there…-ill go just right behind you, don’t try anything weird

Danse didn’t know what that mean but okay, Preston went inside the house a moment and came back with two baseball bats

-Are we going far?

-Less than 200mts, but we are never sure when the croaches end down there, you know those fuckers bite hard

Danse didn’t know what to expect, but he followed Preston lead.

Getting inside a vault from the main door was…weird…pretty uncommon in fact, most of the times a situation like this appeared he was chased by some monsters but this vault was…abandoned but in a pretty good state actually.

-Why are you keeping an operational vault? Where does the energy comes from…

-Shhhhhh we are not being prescisely quiet! –Preston didn’t want to be here, if Nate asked him for some time he will but at the same time didn’t want the man killing himself on grieve and overdose…-listen up! Im just right behind you! Don’t try anything weird on the general!

Ok Preston was here because he didn’t trust, Danse can respect that, he was taking care of his superior, both were but Preston didn’t have any obligation to trust him and it was okay, they didn’t know each other and he didn’t have much intentions of knowing him either…

An operational, abandoned, energized and uncontaminated vault…what a gem…

Nate have a lot of excepcional secrets and things to discover really.

Unlike what everybody was thinking, Nate actually wasn’t doing drugs.

Didn’t feel like it. Not in the mood, not wanting.

Preston was the only one that know where to find him when he wanted to be isolated, hell just be right here…sometimes when he is overwhelmed this is the only places where he wants to stay in the entire world.

In front of Noras frozen body.

Hell just sit right in front of her, looking at her dead face…she didn’t even die in her sleep like everyone around, she died in pain with a bullet as the cryo chamber closed again, pausing in time her face full of pain…

Life drifted away from her.

Nate sobbed, looking at her

-Im…feeling lost again Nora…-a monologue, it was a monologue, always a monologue, never ever a response from her-still looking for Shaun like I promised you but…I feel like whenever Im lost have to come back at you –he was in this exact position all the afternoon, looking at her, trying to talk, to look for some advice or calm- it has only been months, awfull months but do you think I deserve…im allowed…might feel love for someonelse? –he laughted at himself, he didn’t know if he was in love or if he needed in his persona again a strong feeling like love to keep him carry on, did he wanted someone or did he wanted the motivation that love gives you everyday? He bited on his lip, didn’t know-you are still here, and you always be, never think on something elsebut…its difficult to stop this feelings from growing and you know how that turned for us so…-Nate laughted low, taking a bit mouth of air-i don’t know if its possible in this world to ever be happy again…but I know I want to love again, to at least feel love…

Walk inside a clean, untouched, empty but in a good state vault was such an experience…Preston was leading the way but at somepoint he stopped, looking back at him, the man apparently know well the place.

-You heard that? That’s the general, whatever you need to tell him do it, but don’t tell him I bring you here...-Danse nooded, looking at the direction the bat of the man was ponting, it was true, there was a human voice- ill be around but not on sight, remember, don’t do anything weird or youll regret it-Danse couldn’t physically feel that as a menace since he was so much a better fighter than him but okay, he dindt plan on hurting Nate either, so he went forward, letting the man behind.

When he enter to the room he saw Nate sitting on the floor, looking down, there was no chems or alcohol around…he was just there…sitting…the man looked at him a bit confused.

-How did you get here? –Danse was about to answer, looking around –Did Preston tell you anything?

-No –he said firmly, not wanting to be a jackass to the man who was supposly watching them-nono I came here on my own –apparently Nate has been crying, his eyes were all big and irritated

-Yeah right, Preston is the only one that knows this place, I wonder if im really a general here sometimes –the paladin looked around, there was a lot of cryo pods around and the one Nate was in front of…oh god…

-I was just worried, haven’t see you in all day and you didn’t left Sanctuary neither, I went to look for you –where all this people Nates neightbords from before the bombs fell?

-This is incredible I cant fucking ask some time for myself this is a terrible lack of respect…-Ok Danse get it, he was mad, interrupted on his grieve, he looked down, embarrassed, after all it was true he didn’t have a real reason to be bothering him, he was in right to disappear for a while if he needed.

-Im sorry, but believe me it wasn’t Preston, I came here by my own –Nate rolled his eyes and put a hand on his face- I just wanted to check if you were okay –clearly he wasn’t, but not for the reasons he thought…

Nate was mad, really angry, being disturbed in this place…his body was shaking and he had such urges to get up and smash anything…being molested while Nora was there watching him…

She isn’t really there.

-I don’t need anybodys help! Im not in danger and have for far much more experience being alone that neither of you! –Danse was surprised when the man get up and approatched him, very angered, that’s it he couldn’t let this pass as a paladin and a commander officer, he had to step on and put his best mean face to gain some authority back.

-Preston is not here! I told you! I tought you were in danger and came down here…

-You are the ones in danger here! –out of nothing and completely paralyzing the paladin Nate took out a laser pistol…his heart stopped for a moment, he never even dreamed with the man poiting a gun at him and yet…this was wrong…and he…couldn’t just fight back the knight…never thought on the possibility…less with a baseball bat…-You two have no chances down here with me, go and put those sticks onto your assholes! Im fully armor to the teeth…as I always have to be! Everymoment! –the paladin wanted to react, really react, protocol and everything he was told say that this was insubordination, that menacing an officer deserved a punishment, that this wasn’t something easy to pass but…he saw the faces of all the people on the cryo pods around and them see him, crying, yelling, trembling…

Danse sighted, not moving his eyes from him, raising his hands to let him now he wasn’t a menace

-Take as long as you need soldier-said slurping saliva-Im leaving, hoping to see you for dinner

-Just fucking leave me alone

The paladin never expect this…episode…from his knight…

Danse walked all ashamed and…frightened…to the entrance…just like they walk in how he will walk back…Preston was right, he shouldn’t try to stick his nose that deep…He meet the man at the entrance, had a sad face on, clearly heard the conversation…

-Im really sorry general, take all the time you need –said Preston as he pushed the botons to get out

-Hell have to came out eventually right? –his body still tremble at the memory of the man pointing at him, yelling…

-As far as I know, he can lock himself in the vault forever and its his right to do so…-he was gratefull that the brotherhood man really keep his word and didn’t snicht on him, even if their intentions were good…he knew this was delicate for Nate…this was a sacred place for him.

The paladin bite his tongue, he pushed his limits this time.

This was a lesson, he learned bad way to respect the boundaries, ways and rules outside the brotherhood. Not because a place was poor executed they were less than him…you are nothing while vulnerable and the disavtange of having a baseball bat vs a real gun…really make his spine shiver and hands tremble…

Never underestimate Nate again…deep down he knows that the knight wont shoot him but…it was scary to imagine a bullet on the head shoot by him…

The memory of the woman in the cryo pod came to his mind again.

This was a place for laments, pain, and sorrow. After all Danse cant imagine being sealed in a tomb like this for eternity.

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14237736/1/Falling-or-not

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