#while thinking abt something that feels profound

[transmasc-totoro]

Everyone talks about how amazing the princess bride is (rightfully so) but people don’t talk enough about the soundtrack. The motifs the themes the impeccable vibes. Have you sat down and listened to “guide my sword”? Have you heard “the friends’ song” and heard the guitar and horn in conversation with each other in a light and playful dance, much like Inigo and Fezziks’ friendship? Mark Knopfler is a legend. A legend I say!!!!

#eben talks #the princess bride #mark knopfler #idk if there’s a mark knopfler community on tumblr. I hope so #listen the man is brilliant for his soundtrack to local hero alone #wild theme makes me sooo emo guys #makes me think of sitting on the ground listening to music and looking at the trees #seeing the sunlight shift through the leaves #🍃 #while thinking abt something that feels profound #and a little nostalgic. #blergh #why do I have my 60 year old dads music taste. god. at least I don’t like steely Dan yet #nothing against steely Dan I just feel it’s such a stereotype for dads I need to have some individuality

[ghostforwhat]

i didn’t want to hijack any post but I want to ramble abt the reason that people struggle with viewing Will and Hannibal’s relationship as something not romantic is very much rooted in heteronormativity and the overall portrayal of love in a straight sense. Like i honestly think they can’t see it because they’ve never been presented with such an overtly queer interpretation of love, ie the desire to be seen, to be known, while dreading it at the same time. Like they see the show and they think that it can’t be love because love in a straight sense is generally seen as healing or uplifting, they conflate love with hope and only view it through the lens of light, as something to search for and be healed when it’s finally found and announce it loudly as a triumph to consummate it. Whereas looking through a queer scope, love is often sudden and awful and a constant struggle whether its with yourself or with another, it’s pulled into a dark place and kept hidden and protected, a possessiveness at finally having something be truly yours and an equal wretched fear at losing it again through your own hesitation. Queer love can be explicit but oftentimes in literature, in films, in worldly experience, there’s a necessity to hold back and to obfuscate the true depth of feeling in front of others. Like multiple times on screen, we hear the most profound declaration possible from both of them but it falls flat on heteronormative ears because it’s not always a pleasant interpretation, it’s something that makes them feel ashamed for wanting and they cringe away but when queer people hear it, they stop short and go still like a train is coming down the tracks, to be presented with someone who sees the worst in you and delights in it is nothing short of an impossibility, it’s literal unconditional love spoken aloud to each other with no room for doubt and a socially acceptable kind of love is rarely like that. It’s only announced to the two who share it, there’s no need to justify or prove or even celebrate in front of others because in that moment where you are finally known everything else slips away. It doesn’t require explanation or declaration because the person who matters already understands.

#maybe i articulated this badly…but its just arughhh LOVE IN A QUEER SENSE IS ALWAYS GOING TO CONFUSE A BIASED HETERONORMATIVE WORLD #hannigram #might delete this later #or add on who knows

[cumulo-stratus]

BAU autism headcannons

(GIF NOT MINE)

(male reader)

CW: possible swearing, mentions of meltdowns and overstimulation, lemme know if theres anything else!

A/N: sry i havent rly posted in a while, i started a school recently and its been a rly big change for me so ive just been emotionally/mentally exhausted like all the time, but i dont wanna abandon u guys so i decided i would get something up, even if its not super good, thanks for y’all’s understanding <3

i think both JJ and Emily would become sort of mothers to reader

(not that they werent already mothers to the rest of the team but reader especially)

like JJ would totally have a motherly instinct for readers needs (like a sort of spider sense)

like if your ever nervous about something being too much or being overwhelming, jj would kinds know this and either make arrangements for accommodations or make sure you know you dont have to go if you want to.

and like she definitely wold put herself in charge of keeping your safe foods stashed on the jet and at the office

emily is more of a mother in a protective way than jj is

like this girl will not hesitate at all to go off on someone for maybe being disrespected to about stimming your chair while thinking

or like if you dont want to shake a police officers hand when your being introduced, and you get dirty/weird looks for it, or anyone comments on it? BOOM this girl will stare at them with so much animosity they’ll be scared of her shes so hot oml

anyways i thinks he team would be super accepting of you, especially if you joined after reid like they would already have some experience with autism

and like if you weren’t ent comfortable telling anyone other than hotch(i feel like it would be like a in ur file thing idk how the government works tho) spencer would defo be able to tell and confront u privately abt it (our respectful king <3)

and if you are comfortable telling the team, everyone would be respectful

i think like rossi/gideon would be a little clueless but like trying their hardest

like rossi would have no idea what stimming is but understands that like you move in certain ways or make certain noises when ur excited

and like with all his money he wouldnt hesitate to spoil u with any fidget toy u need/want or like a rly nice weighted blanket (its insane how expensive those things are)

and like gideon despite his profound understanding of others (hope yall got that ;)) he wouldn’ t get why sometimes you dont feel like/cant talk but totally respects it

omg garcia is our autism ally QUEEN im telling you

always has a big basket of fidgets/stim toys sitting on her desk and when your having a rough day shell leave you a little goodie in a brightly colored and decorated bag

i firmly believe that she is the queen at finding brands with clothes that not only fits your style perfectly but is also sensory friendly

i think she would definitely say that if she never ended up working in the FBI she wouldve started a clothing shop for sensory friendly clothing/accessories

spencer would totallllyyyy be your best friend when it comes to being under-stimulated

he will totally info dump on you and vice-versa

spencer (like penlope) would totally recommend clothing brands that are sensory friendly, but sock brands in particular

and everyone makes fun of you for nerding out over everything

also spencer would definitely get in the habit of grabbing your hands in his when you start to pick a t your nails and cuticles

like he didnt even realize what he was doing the first time but now he does it without thinking about it and for the team its normal

“hey,” and he would gently grab your hands to stop you from picking at them

“sorry..”

”youve nothing to be sorry for” (with that little reid smile oml rf[osifjgturhv)

and i also firmly believe that morgan is the best people to go to if your having a meltdown

he would stop you from harmfully stimming

“hey sugar, unclench those pretty little hands for me. there we go… good job kid.” he would have the softest smile and voice

and when he takes your hands to stop you from hitting yourself his grip is rly firm but gentle

but hotch is the best to go to for when your overstimulated

like he would make sure you know his office is always a quiet place you can go to with out questions

and he would secretly have a stash of like stimm toys in his office that he stole from garcia

his couch is always open to you, especially like late at night if you are really tired his fatherly instincts will kick in and force you to come to his office for a break

he would would hand you and blanket and a stim toy

”sit. sleep”

thats all he would say in his cute little stern but actually caring voice <3

#criminal minds #bau team #bau #spencer reid #emily prentiss #derek morgan #aaron hotchner #david rossi #penelope garcia #jennifer jereau #criminal minds x gn reader #criminal minds x reader #criminal minds x masc! reader #criminal minds x fem!reader #headcannons #autism #autism headcannons #criminal minds x autistic reader

[infiniteko]

Can you provide advice on how to maintain a constant state of awareness, given that I've studied the law of attraction, the law of assumption, the void state, and as a shifter, I have thought abt and understand it all? Despite my efforts, I felt these theories were never profound enough and had contradictions. Yet, ND resonate deeply with me, feeling more like a confirmation than something new to learn. I understand that waking up is akin to being aware while carrying out daily tasks like brushing my teeth. I don’t need to remind myself I am awake because well I am awake. However, sometimes I find myself slipping back into thinking from my body and mind rather than my true self. It feels like a tug of war between falling asleep and immediately waking up. How can I stay consistently awake in a spiritual sense, even though I know I'm already awake?

what you call a constant state of awareness that can be attained does not exist.

Aren't you already aware right now? What are you trying to reach?

Stop reading and studying for your own sake and sit down, do nothing, turn within until you're left with nothing to label.

Without names & labels, what's infront of you right now?

#advaita vedanta #awareness #nondualism #nonduality #brahman #atman #consciousness #desired reality #nothingness #reality shifting #ask

[electraslight]

I care about ur Bevin headcannon I would love to hear

YES i finally get to yell abt these two, its my fav ship in the series idk why people arent more into it. Fanart is supplied as usual and i have some evidence-ey screenshots under the cut, mostly bc i want to share them w SOMEONE other than my friend blue. Enjoy my ramblings

-kevin is dating both ben and gwen, gwen and his relationship being a lot more outward and public and ben a more private relationship, they only ever kiss or hold hands when its just the two of them or (rarely) when gwen is around, partially bc of bens fame and his own hangups about liking men and partially bc when they are romantic they r extremely vulnerable with each other and thats the sort of thing they wouldnt want anyone else to see.

-(quoting from a discord dm w my friend) ben and kevin violence is something that if u saw it in a painting or a movie it would be rly profound and aweinspiring. in real life its also the same, but it feels so much like intruding when ur actually watchingbc kevin and ben have all their emotions about each other in v short bursts, theyll bottle them up 4 an extended period of time and then have som e massive cataclysmic event when it bubbles to the surface. there r literally no continual emotional moments between them like kevin and gwen who have contunious small emotions abt each other, kevin and ben will hang out 4 months at a time and then one day just start hitting each other, which is in a way a part of the romance

-in omniverse theres a scene where its shown that 12 year old kevin is in possession of a photo of ben that is suspiciously well worn, it has rips and stains and has been crumpled up and refolded a couple times. I like to think he kept that photo, whether to use as a beacon of hate or chew on and cry who knows. 

-ben and kevin dont give a shit about what form the other takes, the only time ben has ever blushed about a guy is when mutant kevin grabbed him in the rooters arc and kevin is around alien versions of ben every day and doesnt bat an eye. This is why i think that once kevin and ben get together kevin makes a game about kissing all of his aliens (indiscriminatley. Even if they dont have mouths) he makes a scoring system and writes reviews on how good the experience was in glitter gel pen and makes a ranking list of his favorites. Stinkfly sweeps the vote, shocking everybody. Ben would rank kissing kevins mutations but only 2 out of 5 would even consider it before turning him into pink mist so he just sticks with what he knows.

- ben and kevin get married when theyre older and gwen stays in girlfriend status (mostly bc she knows that ben has a much shorter lifespan than her and kevin and she wants to give him the happiest time she can while hes still there) and they all live in a mansion the size of the white house. Kai comes by once a month to keep kenny happy (he still thinks shes his bio mom even after theyve told him multiple times she was just a donor. Gwen says he gets his delusions from ben). Ben and kevin like to sit on the 500 foot long porch and throw rocks at passerby and snuggle. Kevin is so happy he giggles mindlessly to himself in public, scaring strangers. He tries to get them to look at pictures of his family but this only further creeps them out.

-kevin finds the most random shit ben does extremely charming. hed look at him picking his boogers and eating them and he thinks in his head i need this guy so much. ben finishes a rubix cube not even very fast and kevins like wow. cool. do you like emos.ben is charmed by kevin in the same way. he sees kevin use the toilet brush to scratch an itch on his back and hes like fuck oh fuck oh fuck

I have more i prommy i just cant think of them rn, i will make more if im able. 4 now please have my collection of bevin screenshots under the cut. Spread the word my disciples. fair warning there are a lot

#ben 10 #ben tennyson #ben 10 omniverse #ben 10 alien force #kevin levin #ben 10 ultimate alien #ben 10 classic #ben 10 uaf #ben ten #bevin #ben 10 headcannon

[stardustizuku]

I have never vibe with an MLB critic essay so hard as yours do. People put salt on a lot of different things of MLB, but you hit every point of that really hits home of why the show is a dissapointment for me; from the Love Square wasted potential, the expectation of a Magical Girl show that wasn't delivered, the messy incoherent themes that is not represented well in their powers or villains, the umbalance power dynamics complete with comparison.

Too bad you drop it though (reasonably), I really wish to read what you think of Sentimonster!Adrien or even the Finale.

Something interesting happens when I completely give up on a show. And that's that...I really stop expecting anything from it.

When the Sentimonster thing came out, I genuinely just sighed. I couldn't even form an opinion because all I could feel is "this is such wasted potential".

The idea of a child being created via an object - and having said object tied to them, is such a good one. And it raises so many interesting and profound ideas. It could speak about how parents see their kids as nothing but dolls. It could be a very cool concept of Adrien someone who has the power to DESTROY, not only having a gentle soul but having to protect this object.

All things get presented to us for a reason - even if that reason is purely aesthetics.

Why are the girls in Tokyo Mew Mew animals? Because the creator thought catgirls were cool.

Why do we have witches in madoka? Because witches are the evolved form a "girl with magic" aka a "magical girl". And that's a cool thought.

Why is the Princess Tutu inspired by the swan lake ballet and why does it chose "defying destiny" as it premise? Because in real life, the swan lake ballet has multiple endings, some tragic, some happy. The tragedy aspect of it, enhances the princess tutu aesthetic.

Why was Adrien introduced to us as a Sentimonster?

And that's the thing. I can't even wrap my head around why would you make that creative choice.

It's an interesting idea, but one that feels more rooted on someone seeing a headcanon of it online and trying to pander to the audience with it. A sort of torture porn (which in a vacuum isn't something I'm opposed to), just to hammer home how shitty Adrien's life is. How abusive his dad is. Which, btw, doesn't even make sense when you think abt how he got redeemed in the recent episodes.

My point is, I can't have an opinion on "Adrien being a sentimonster" because I can't see why. Why they did it. And my lack of interest in the series, makes it so that I don't wanna spend pondering the "why".

What's the point? What themes did it introduce? Does it tie to the miraculous stuff somehow? Does it coherently expand upon the known lore?

Like, Katherine from Genshin Impact - it recently got revealed she's a doll controlled by the Fatui. This serves the purpose of allowing Nahida, an extremely kind archon, to have a vessel she can control. It shows insight of Marionette's powers, and how likely the adventurer's guild is to be related to the Fatui or Snezhnayan politics, as well as have an in-game reason as to why there's a Katherine in each region.

While it's also an out of left field bonkers thing getting revealed, it MAKES SENSE. There's a reason why she was made this way.

But with Adrien, there isn't. It's just /there/. Not really related to anything, no foreshadow, or anything. This is all, obviously, tied to the terrible writing of the show. But this is just insane. I do not understand it. I seriously can't.

#miraculous ladybug #mlb salt #askloli #im so sorry for the rant #but this is genuinely one of the moments where i couldnt even compute #the only other time i got this intense “i dont get it” sensation that my brain shut off #was that one klace essay that looked at the background stars trying to say they queerbaited the audience #AND THAT WAS A RANDOM FAN ON THE INTERNET #THIS IS A WHOLE ASS SHOW

[im-a-matt-girl]

Could you do one where matt confesses to the reader (his best friend) but the reader is scared of starting a relationship since the fans yk (react harshly). I’d love to see how you write out the confession, then fluff afterwards

Ilysm take ur timee<3

i don't think you understand how badly i've wanted to write abt this ♡

I'm scrolling through our texts, and I'm beginning to notice a pattern. You've been a bit… flirtatious with me recently, and I'm not sure if it's intentional or not. I don't mind it at all, since I do admit I have a crush on you, but I also wonder if you feel the same. We've been best friends for a while now, so a part of me thinks that this could just be the natural consequence of you becoming more comfortable with me. Either way, I think it might be best if we have a conversation about it, just so that we're on the same page.

Can you come over? I want to talk to you I text you.

Within the hour, you are at my door. I welcome you inside with a hug, as always; but this one feels different. You squeeze me just a tiny bit closer this time, and you linger on me for just a fraction of a second longer. When we come apart, I look into your eyes, and I can see something inside of you that is desperately yearning to be released.

"What is it?" I ask you quietly.

"You called me here," you answer, your lips curving upward into a soft smile.

"I know," I nod slowly. "I've been… thinking."

"About what?" you ask me, your face still mere inches away from mine.

"About our texts," I say.

"What about them?"

I take you by your hand. "Here, come sit with me," I tell you, leading you to my couch so that we can sit down together and talk. I take out my phone, and I show you the texts and snaps you've sent me that made my heart flutter. "Do you remember sending me these?"

"Mhm," you nod with a cheeky smile.

"Are you… flirting with me?" I ask you gently. I don't want to embarrass you, but I also very sincerely want to know the answer.

The faintest hint of pink rises in your cheeks. "I… I'm sorry, does it make you uncomfortable?" you ask me, a slightly worried look in your eyes.

"Not at all," I shake my head. "You can tell me anything."

"Anything?" you repeat, leaning closer to me.

"Yeah," I whisper, gazing at your lips. I would be lying if I said that I haven't often wondered what it would be like to kiss you.

You tenderly hold my hand with yours, then you lock eyes with me once more. "What if I told you that I love you?" you confess.

"I love you, too," I breathe, faster than I can process the words coming out of my mouth.

You delicately kiss my knuckles. "Will you be my girlfriend?" you ask me.

I can feel tears welling up in my eyes, and my throat is starting to swell with a sob. This is everything that I ever hoped for. But, in the back of my mind, there has always been a little voice warning me against acting upon my feelings for you. I know how your fans are, how jealous they get, and how petty and vitriolic they can be against any other girl who gains even a token of your attention. It's why I haven't been able to be seen with you in public for all this time, despite us being best friends. I don't know if I could emotionally handle keeping our relationship a secret. "I can't," I utter.

"Why not?" you plead, a profound anguish leaking through your eyes.

I sniff, wiping away my tears with my other hand. "What will your fans think?"

"Who cares what they think?" you tell me, a tinge of righteous bitterness in your voice. "I love you, and… I'm tired of acting like I only wanna be friends with you."

I cup your face in my hand, lightly stroking your beautiful cheek with my thumb. "So am I," I agree.

"Then let's be together," you say earnestly, inching your face closer to mine.

I look at you, and I see everything that I could ever want in another person. You are extremely kind, amazingly gentle, sincerely caring, wonderfully imaginative, playfully silly, and so many other things that I value in a partner. And oh, my God, I have been keeping these feelings suppressed in me for far too long. They are aching to be expressed.

Perhaps I've been worried about the wrong people. I've been worried about your fans' happiness, when I should be worrying about yours and mine.

I close my eyes, tilt my head, and press my lips against yours. Oh, how I've wanted this, needed this. Your kiss is healing to me; it mends all of the wounds in my heart, and I shall never want to kiss anyone else as long as I live.

You hold onto my hair as you kiss my lips, my cheeks, my eyelids, my nose, my forehead. You kiss me as though you've been dying to taste me for a long while.

"Yes, Matthew," I whisper against you. "I want to be with you. I love you so much." I would do anything for you. I would bear the brunt of public humiliation for you, if it meant that we could live happily together. Their words mean nothing, and your love means everything to me.

You're right: who cares what they think?

#matt sturniolo x reader #fic #op #ask #anonymous #pov: yours

[amarriageoftrueminds]

something i truly do not understand about smbcky and to a lesser extent, smstve shippers is how they so clearly prefer the stucky dynamic genuine love for each other and prominence in the story their emotional core being each other to the point that non-shippy general audiences call BS when newer entries try to downplay their relationship

but then they don't ship that but instead lie through their teeth abt what stucky in canon is and pretend that their preferred ship has the stucky dynamic

it'd be so much tolerable if the diehard SmBck shippers were honest abt what they are and stop acting like it's a soulmate/fated lovers ship and admitted that it's more of a meme/dudebro/"haha they hate each other it's funni" joke ship, which is what gen audiences did when their show was airing, gen audiences treated it like a meme cuz the narrative never gave it more depth than a bunch of glued-together buddy cop tropes and banking off audiences being invested in the IRL actors' public on-camera personas

those shippers would be much happier if they were honest abt what it is and isn't instead and wondering why romance-lovers prefer the dynamic that actually treated the emotions and feeling with depth and sincerity instead of the dynamic of 2 cishet dudebro hwood actors who think their jokes are hilarious but you can never tell when the joke even happened or not happened

Tbh I don't really know how smbcky shippers ship them because I don't see it! (Got it all blacklisted or filtered or w/e and tend to block those posts when I see them and move on. Hard pass from me.)

So I can't really comment on whether they habitually make up bullshit about stucky or downplay it, because I'm simply not seeing it! 🤷‍♀️

I guess stucky occupies a bit of a unique situation, in terms of shipping, because shippers can lean hard into it's canon romanticism and 80+ years of comics, without needing to steal from other canon ships.

(Like, I've never seen or heard of stucky fic with Bucky in Peggy's scenes, or Natasha's, or Sharon's, because none of them have the same profound place in Steve's life or the same profound lines so it would be, if anything, kind of a downgrade??)

Whereas the MCU canon definitely is trying to downplay and cannibalise stucky to feed other ships, in just the way you describe.

(And thereby inadvertently admitting that the writers don't actually rate the existing-canon as romance, for example. Putting Peggy in Bucky's scenes in WhatIf, while completely deleting Steve and Peggy's original scenes, which were supposed to prove they're a couple! Tell me you think stucky was legit without telling me...)

Most jarring to me was WhatIf, where they had Bucky casually bumping off zombie-Steve, with zero sign that this was his best friend, the only living person who's known him since he was a child, someone he'd sacrificed a whole limb for TWICE etc etc etc…

But was then expected to be upset over bumping off zombie-Sam?

H u h ?!

It was so obvious and cack-handed an attempt to shove down one in order to raise up another, that it was just... cringe? 😬

Maybe that's the origin of this, if you what you say is happening in sambuca and stvesam shipping, is really happening. They've swallowed the 'shit on stucky' coolaid the Rat is peddling and now they're doing precisely what the Corporate Overlords want? 🤔

Kinda sad to think about... 😥

And as for this 'copying X ship dynamic to fit Y ship while ignoring Y ship's canon as if they never liked it anyway' phenomenon...

I have definitely come across a similar thing in stucky fanfic too, actually!

I've seen Bucky's personality (and even physical description) overhauled and replaced with a sort of James Charles-esque, Darcy Lewis Tony Stark hybrid.

Which leaves me thinking, 'but if that's the kind of person you think Steve would want, then you don't actually ship stucky, you ship Steve/Darcy, Stny, etc?'

So it wouldn't surprise me if what you say is true, Anon, because I've definitely seen that ^ similar thing elsewhere with Bucky.

And yes, you'd think, if the 'dramatically romantic co-dependant burn the world for them childhood soulmate' dynamic is the one you're after, then you can't actually like the Sambuca dynamic?

(Cuz if you're not a fan of 'buddy cop dudebros who hate each other on sight are forced into proximity and bicker to the point of becoming an annoyance to the other characters', then why are you here?)

It's an especially odd choice to cannibalise another ship's canon for fanon when what is in canon is a lot of queerbaiting you could draw on instead!

(eg. them rolling through a field for comedic 'lol they're doing gay stuff!!' relief, 'now give us money like you did w/ stucky!!' Annoying, yes, but extremely useful from a shipping POV! No different than destiel or johnlock, when the writers were in on it but had no intention of following through. The fans didn't let that stop them!)

Maybe it derives from a sense of a stolen opportunity? Because FATWS absolutely could have been the 'emotionally resonant ship-establishing show'.

But instead they went with 'Mackie being sarcastic was hilarious in junkets so let's just have him throw casual abuse at Stan so we don't have to bother to do our jobs.' Gave Stan one (1) Emotional Scene and Mackie Zero (0). (While also, funnily enough, shitting on all of Bucky's backstory as if it didn't matter, while not even bothering to mention Sam's at all.)

And finished with a lazy insult; a montage, so that they don't have to bother actually showing them becoming good friends, in the six fuckin hours that they wasted on What FunnyNaziGuy Thinks. 🤬

I think also, Bucky stans seem to be more able to see the flaws in that show, because they never regarded it as 'his' (since he's not being made Captain America, sidekicking remains his gig etc.) Whereas Sam stans did see it as his, so they feel as if they're being disloyal and shitting on one of the few pieces of black rep available by criticising it (and double-down on refusing to address any issues about it.)

So perhaps Sambuca shippers who come to it from a Sam-stan POV almost can't criticise the crap they were given (eg. Mackie Yells at Stan for 6 hours + Nobody's In Character). Emotionally, it's much easier to criticise, eg. skrull Steve from Endlame, and pretend that shit was IC and he and Bucky haven't been It in Steve's films or Marvel's Batman & Robin in the comics for 80 years. 🙄

Definite ship-envy going on, though what the hell there is to envy in the way MCU treats Stucky I don't know!

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tl;dr: haven't seen it personally but it wouldn't surprise me since that's what the MCU itself is doing and rarepair shippers are in dire straights anyway, poor sods.

#toAyourQ #dat's me #hey nonny #no idea how to tag this because I got death threats the last time I ventured to answer asks on this subject #😮‍💨 fun times... #mcu critical #sambuca #antisambucky #??? is that right??? #stucky meta #TFATWS critical #FATWS critical #antisteggy #mcu meta #fandom wank #diskhorse #steggy is hydra trash party #meta #aren't we all a little too old for this? 🙄 #when avoiding shippers has become self-care = 😭 #thinkin bout how hannibal lecter let will graham's brain-damaging illness progress cuz he's literally a serial killing cannibal #but when mcu character mocks bucky's brain damage people are out here thinking they're... nice... to him??

[johnnyutah]

Bestie I was literally JUST thinking about starting dirk gently, is it good?

oh my gosh it is one of the best shows of all time in my opinion and absolutely my favourite tv show. i think by the end of the pilot you will know if it’s for you or not, so my best advice would be to go sit down and watch the first episode (and let it blow your mind). but in case you need more convincing i am absolutely here to help

PROS of watching dirk gently:

it’s literally about found family, by which i mean it is about the holistic interconnectedness of the universe and how even independent actions contribute to a greater whole and how people are stronger together than apart, but by which i ALSO mean

there is a found family detective agency and they are all very cool while all being kind of dorky losers to varying degrees and i promise you will love them all

there is also a found family group of punk energy vampires (much cooler than colin robinson i’m so sorry colin robinson) and their plotline revolves around learning to embrace chronic pain and also when i say found family i mean that this is the group i think of every time i think of found family. and osric chau is there and he does wear a flower crown and i promise it is amazing

the show in general takes very silly ideas and makes them beautifully profound and poignant (not a surprise since it’s based on douglas adams books) and as a result, you end up with these absolutely ridiculous plots that could not work anywhere outside of dirk gently’s universe but that are just. Perfect. like they manage to seamlessly join a secret government training program of superpowered assassins with an actual gay fairy tale plotline set in fairy tale land and at no point as a viewer does it ever feel like ‘actually this is too much’

the mysteries are actually good and fleshed out and fun to solve (very rare for tv lmfao)

there are so many memorable and hilarious and great characters, even the villains of the show will cement themselves in your heart (which will make their villainy undoubtedly more tragic). get ready to feel emotions nobody has ever felt before about ted from schitts creek

there is canon lgbt rep in case u care abt that sort of thing ^_^

bart curlish is there. fiona dourif plays a ‘homicidal dirt muppet’ (quote from the show), an assassin who kills just about everyone in her path. i love her and i WILL NOT REST until everyone in the world loves her as much as i love her. there are so many great bart scenes i can’t even begin to list them but i don’t want to spoil you just get to watching

CONS

the show is only 2 seasons (netflix elle and i are outside your house with metal bats and our precious dvds of your 2-season-wonders and we are going to attack you) and while the second season is beautiful television it does leave the viewer desperately wanting more. the shows creators who aren’t the devil have said that they would be open to making more but at this point it seems doomed to fail. so you have to go into this thing knowing that it is a finished product but also it is, on some level, a wip

and speaking of the show creator who is the devil, the showrunner max landis is a piece of shit, fathered by john landis an even bigger piece of shit. i won’t go into detail about the abuse or murder but you can look it up for yourself if you’d like. i will say that the other creator has decried max as the worthless trash he is, and that his impact isn’t Really felt as dirk gently doesn’t contain any allusions to his abuse and in fact has strong female characters, but it’s something i wish i’d known while i was getting into the show

all that being said . one of my favourite shows of all time and i really hope you end up watching it!!! 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶

#dghda #dirk gently #dirk gently’s holistic detective agency #asks #possum mom

[grumpylia]

modern au's

i saw a post about this ages ago, but i can't remember the original creator and think i have my own thoughts to add too!

if you're a ff writer, and you want to / are in the process of writing an au fic i think it can sometimes be so difficult to properly translate the characters over, and i think that's for one key reason:

what a lot of people don't understand about au's is that, most of the time, a characters struggles and circumstances in the original work are part of what makes them who they are! this especially goes for fantasy works, which tend to have more specific and drastic plotlines and character relationships! for example: harry potter would not be *harry potter* without his life with the dursley's and his subsequent chosen one status! that unique position shapes harry into the person he is - sure, at the end of the day, harry in any universe is still going to be harry, but the unique character conflicts and contexts that he experiences are what makes him into the harry that we come to know.

i see this a lot in atla fics, especially with the characterisation of zuko. in canon, zuko's whole arc is realising that the fire nation - and, subsequently, his father - are not right and are not great. he realises that his father cannot take away his honour - it is something that he had had all along. i feel like a see a lot of modern au fics where zuko's whole thing is that he is disowned by the family for whatever reason (often for being gay LMAO) and - while i'm not saying there's anythingwrong with this objectively, and it all comes down to personal preference - but i think that is just a fundamental misunderstanding of zuko's character that therefore - at least for me - weakens the whole story. the best atla modern au 's that i have read have been able to capture that essence of zuko that is born through his character struggles - his family doesn't simply disown him; instead, he is constantly trying to prove himself by doing whatever task he has been set, constantly trying to prove himself to his father and his family or the world at large. that conflict between what he wants and what he needs is what makes zuko so interesting! and i think the best, most interesting fics take advantage of that conflict to tell a really profound story that echoes zuko's original (almost perfect) redemption arc!

same with harry potter au fics! or percy jackson au fics! in every universe, annabeth chase will need to prove herself and percy jackson will be loyal to those he loves, but in the best (imo) modern au's, more of the conflicts are interpolated, too. give me a modern hp au where ron still keeps his character conflicts, where he still struggles with jealousy of harry, where he still has reasons to feel inedequate next to his best friend! these conflicts are what makes your story interesting and complex! give me a modern au when remus lupin still has a modern situation that represents the conflict that his being a werewolf represents in canon! that is what makes remus remus!!

this is all, ofc, just ramblings and no one is under any pressure to take any of this seriously. i think it definitely is worth thinking abt though - modern au's can be so tricky to get right sometimes, but i feel like keeping in mind the circumstances and conflicts of the original characters makes it worlds easier to create a complex and interesting fic!

#fic writing #fanfic #fanfiction #writing advice #writing tips #harry potter #remus lupin #percy jackson #atla #zuko #atla zuko #ao3 #ron weasley

[rahleeyah]

ok ok ok ok

first, I was so worked up last night after the eps I couldn’t sleep and I’m so excited for next week. eeek!

second, I want to second what you’ve said abt rollins bc I’ve felt the same way for yearsssss. but I thought I was maybe not getting/missing something about their relationship? let me explain…

so we know liv and amanda are friends and, at some point, are close (considering she is jesse’s godmother). however, i feel like for a long time they’ve only been giving work friend status. and once you no longer work together, that relationship falls apart. you no longer have things in common at work and never really had much in common in your personal lives to begin with.

this would explain why she didn’t tell her abt the baby, imo. they’re not close and haven’t been for a while. and that’s ok! seasons of life and all that…

but idk..am I missing something? admittedly, I’m not the biggest 2.0 fan so when those eps are on I usually don’t watch and haven’t seen most in YEARS.

I do think there's a work friends thing happening to some extent - if it were not for the job it's hard to imagine them liking each other enough to be friends (they are both, also, not the kind of people who have friends). But the work they do has made their bond profound; there isn't a lot outside work that would make them friends but bc of what they've been thru together they matter to each other, very much. Anything Amanda needs, Liv will be there, no question. It's harder to imagine Amanda showing up for Liv - outside of a work context - but I don't think that's bc Amanda doesn't care about her, I think it's bc Amanda is not the kind of person who shows up. Like you don't call her if you need help moving. She's not coming. Liv will rent the truck and bring water bottles for everybody. I'd like to say they trust each other but that's not quite true; Amanda trusts Liv, and Liv wants to trust Amanda, but she's been burned there too many times and there is always something just a little. I don't wanna say judgemental but Liv is keenly aware of Amanda's faults, and they both know it. So Amanda keeps things from Liv, bc she doesn't want a sermon, bc she doesn't want to disappoint Liv. Liv keeps things from Amanda, bc Amanda is not the kind of girl you share your deepest secrets with, unless you're drunk. There has always been an imbalance in their relationship; Liv is older, and was something of a mentor figure, and has always sort of mothered Amanda, and I think now that she's older and maybe a little wiser Amanda resents that. But in their relationship, Liv has to be the Responsible One (when she's not!! Really!! It's a role she has to play bc) Amanda's whole deal makes Liv look stable. And Amanda is the one with the husband and the babies and the safe, warm home life Liv dreams about, and Amanda can't talk to Liv about it; I'm fully going off script here but I like to think it's bc even tho Amanda loves carisi and her babies and is happy there's a part of her that chafes inside of her safe life, and she can't be honest with Liv about that, bc she has what Liv wants and she maybe thinks Liv will think she's ungrateful. Their relationship is complicated bc they're complicated; they're both a little fucked up, in some similar ways, in some different but complimentary ways, in some diametrically opposed ways, and it makes things that should be simple - telling your friend you're pregnant - incredibly complicated - now you have to explain why you haven't called her for months while she's been mourning you as if you died. There is so much to dig into with those two honestly

#anonymous #s.vu #e.o asks

[primonizuto]

ive been rereading the bartimaeus books recently and god they are so fucking good like it's insane how good they are and i am speaking mostly of nathaniel and kitty here despite the fact that bart is my fav character of all time like

nathaniel is the worst guy ever of all time and it rules. it is so difficult to write a character who you unequivocally feel sympathy with in the first book slowly turning into the absolute worst piece of shit imaginable by the third book but IT IS DONE HERE. and ofc the series itself as a whole was so carefully plotted and everything felt so tight and concisely written, and a lot of the impetus behind the events in the books were very clearly spelled out bc it's YA lit so things Have to be clear, but it kind of still amazes me that there's so much connecting the metaphor (identity closely linked with the name you have and the face you present to the world; 'nathaniel' linked with compassion and idealism and individuality and creativity but also trauma vs 'john mandrake' linked with power and control and the repression of that trauma) with the worldbuilding (true names are dangerous weaknesses and so magicians are supposed to be nameless until they are old enough to be given their magician name) - something as simple as nathaniel being nathaniel during Amulet and Golem's Eye and then suddenly by book 3, at his nadir, he is john mandrake and everybody including bartimaeus calls him that... oof !!! it makes it stick out even more in Golem's Eye when he's still being called nathaniel in the narrative but everyone around him is calling him mandrake as a point of transition

KITTY JONES IS THE BEST YA HEROINE EVER WRITTEN BAR NONE!! i was talking abt this a while ago but it is so fucking cool that kitty's magical special power that she has (her resilience) is NOT what ultimately makes her special and important to the narrative. what makes her important is her capacity for compassion and her determination to follow through on her convictions, in this case with ptolemy's gate. her resilience is mainly there to give her a backstory and place her in opposition to the magicians, it's not there to make her the chosen one

i swear these books legitimately radicalised me as a kid. i remember reading the descriptions of the british empire in the books when i was maybe 11 or 12 and being like 'gee, i sure am glad it wasn't like that in real life', but when i was older and returned to the books i could see that it wasn't 'what if', it was allegory, extrapolating real history and applying it to the book's universe

also i'm not jewish and please correct me if i'm wrong but i think GE is one of the only fantasy stories written by a non-jewish (i think) author which uses golems as a plot point in a way that retains their jewish origins - bart explicitly mentions in his world that the golems, in line with our world's jewish folklore, were first made to protect the jewish people from pogroms!! it's not some case of like 'oh yeah golems are in this also. where did they come from, you ask? it's not important'

anyway didn't mean for this post to be so long but if you like reading fantasy alt history YA which is also a really impressive trilogy-long takedown of indoctrination, abuse and the british empire then i present to you the bartimaeus trilogy by jonathan stroud

also the prequel novel is good too and functions in every way that a prequel novel should by 1) fleshing out a few offhanded references from the main books into a contained story of its own and 2) making sure that story deepens our understanding of the main character and allows us to see him in a totally different light before a key element of his backstory had even happened which makes that element itself even more tragic and profound

#u can really tell ive been unable to post for 2 weeks lmao sorry

[robertwalton]

Writing ask

1, 3, 5, 11, 23 :)

COLLEEN. the way i saw this and thought very contentedly "well thats nice i should answer right away" and then immediately forgot you sent the ask & went to make dinner for like two hours... THANK U!!! okay.

1) is there a story you’re holding off on writing for some reason?

tbh so many but the most egregious one is the robert victor breakup heartbreak divorce story. i want to write abt victor coming back and trying to rebuild a relationship with robert/june/all their friends while they both struggle with the pain/get to know each other and themselves as the new people they have grown into after their 3 years apart. i've written bits and pieces about it, but the most defining images i have of the story haven't gone down on paper yet. honestly the reason why i haven't written it yet is because it's soooo heavy and so Real................. i don't feel like i have the necessary life experience to successfully capture it (yet!). i need to either 1) be in my thirties 2) have tried to repair and reignite an insane gay relationship after a heartwrenching breakup OR 3) be touched by true blue beauty that inspires me so strongly in such a blaze of clarity that i can't not write it in spite of everything holding me back

3) what order do you write in? front of book to back? chronological? favorite scenes first? something else?

HAHA i start at the start and that's usually pretty easy, but then the bigger it gets the more i pull it apart and start new sections beyond what i already have and go against chronology etc. i can't write straight front to back... like when i wrote successions, i'm pretty sure i leapt ahead to the aquarium scene WAY early on and built the whole sequence around two major visions: 1) luma's duel with anaris and 2) the image of the shark inside the tank. so i started with those two concepts and then wrote in all directions everywhere at once bit by bit. and on a larger level that's true for the entire writing process. i bounce around constantly whittling away on different sections throughout the story and that helps a LOT when it comes to tying ideas and themes together across the entire narrative. it does mean i have to rewrite conversations and exposition constantly to reflect updated context, tone, or what my characters know/believe, which means editing is, frankly, sooo brutal. BUT WORTH IT

i normally think of it as a surgery... like i get as much of a draft as possible and then i cut it open and start chopping and screwing and then at the end i stitch it all back up

5) character you were most surprised to end up writing?

oh my god there have been so many... it's always the character i don't think has legs to stand on that ends up having the best and brightest most interesting personality and backstory forever. cher. kennick (tbh!). theodred. esme. corinthia. JACKDAW. jackdaw surprises me every time i write him!!!! but most importantly. anaris... not to get back on my successions soapbox but i want u to know that anaris was originally "supposed to" be a straight up and down evil villain with no redeeming or even interesting qualities. and then the story as a whole turned into this kinda beautiful epic about two men who are uncomfortably similar but disgusted by each other's life choices/values & who (despite their very best efforts) end up finding profound meaning and even humanity in their father-son relationship UGH ANARIS!!!!!!! he's a bastard but he's SUCH an interesting bastard and i could write him all day. let's not even forget about the kretz/anaris crackfic because i think that opened up even more interesting parts of his character (i mean. he's an - as far as his own definition goes - entirely heterosexual man who would still rather bottom for men for release/physical pleasure than admit to women that he doesn't have a penis and therefore can't fulfill his own criteria for masculinity, sexually speaking. which i personally think is just so sad and so flawed and so self destructive and fascinating. i mean. lol. colleen it does NOT align with the worldbuilding you released for mestrus today LOLLLL. BUT it's already set in stone it's in print so i'm keeping it)

11) what aspect of your writing do you think has most improved since you started writing?

HAHA well. i "started" writing as soon as i learned how to read (brag LOL). i have always loved narrative... ive always been making little books and stories... before i knew enough words to write actual stories i was drawing little comic strips and worldbuilding... but for the purpose of this question i'm going to point to the very first "book" i ever finished writing, which i wrote when i was 12! i still have a physical printed out copy of it :-) spiral bound with a cover. since then i would Like to say i've improved just about every single aspect of my writing period. but one thing i kinda pride myself on now that i didn't have back then is character voice. all my characters used to be kinda samey... i watch out for that now and i Try to make characters think and talk differently.

for example i want louriz and mira to be looking at the same situation and have unique opinions about it & respond to it in completely different ways. i try to keep in mind how character psychology would frame whatever it is they're trying to say. i Try to keep speaking patterns consistent and unique so you can tell what character said what even if there are no tags. SHRUG. i don't know if i'm even THAT good at it but it's something i KNOW has improved since i started, bc i actually think about it now and do my best

23) any obscure life experiences that you feel have helped your writing?

mama mia... it's too obvious to say that i'm trans, and on the transgender website i don't think that's even an obscure experience... um... um...................... WELL HERE'S ONE. my entire friend group top to bottom is made up of passionate and creative artists and writers, which means i'm always seeing creation & art explode around me!!!!! (this is the life... bohemia...) when you're exposed to art and poetry and galaxy brain ideas all the time, from your entire social group, it can only help your writing! even when i'm stuck in creative blocks, my brain is tapped into this constant flow of creation and inspiration and sometimes just seeing other people write kinda starts the engine. I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#mail #TY ANSWERING THIS WAS A LOT OF FUN #i didnt see if you reblogged the post but ill check now and if you did ill send numbers...

[classic80sand90smovieloves2]

wait what version of i spit on your graves you're talking abt? cause the og one, while gory, totally shows something deeper and profound - that bad people don't go around thinking that they're bad. all these men were terrible and yet felt totally justified doing what they did and the movie shows you their thoughts and excuses for what happened. i think it shows survivors in an unrealistic way duh, but it totally shows how why that excuse of '' i know this guy and he is sweet and wonderful to me so this person (saying that this guy brutalized them) is lying'' doesn't work - bc in the movie, that one leader guy was a friendly stranger, he loved his kids and sorta his wife and he still did what he did. i thought it was well done/ the remakes on the other hand are rather gory but when i thought were sorta equal? like it's mindless violence sure but she executes pretty nasty stuff on the men too

I was talking about the remake from 2010: my mistake for not clarifying (I completely forgot there was an original).

I think that movies like those are fine when there’s a genuine pay off for all the uncomfortable or disturbing content that they include but the remake spent so long showing us this girls explicit rape scene that the message they may or may not have been trying to show just felt completely lost in translation.

I don’t think there’s ever a reason for a film to have a (at least) forty minute rape scene in it. It just feels excessive, and by the end of it, I was pretty much completely checked out attention-wise: I wound up fast forwarding through most of the last half of it because it just went on and on for seemingly no real reason at all. At that point, the movie just felt like it was made by a bunch of guys who wanted to watch a girl get brutalized and then tried to pass it off as a feminist revenge film.

The remake also lacked the depth that it seems the original might have had; though admittedly it’s been a while since I’ve seen the remake to really go into detail (and I haven’t seen the original). There was no justification on the abusers side of things; not one that made the least bit of sense or was even really explored to any degree, nor was there any real form of “oh, these are arguably decent men, all things considered”. They were just pieces of shit from start to finish.

Maybe I’ll check out the original sometime. I wouldn’t be surprised if it’s just a case of a 2000s remake turning a perfectly fine movie trashy and cheap.

[spiritofjustice]

OH I REMEMBER WHAT I WAS GONNA SAY NOW

have to say it's funny seeing how often other characters describe Vincent as like. so delicate, incapable of handling himself out here or dealing with serious problems. and to be fair he isn't very good at coping with Actual Literal Trauma and witnessing a murder of a friend of his (something everyone else is totally normal about and wouldn't be distraught at witnessing a murder at all!) but it seems to me that he's consistently underestimated by everybody just bcs he's like. a gentleman. that's it

Jerome gives him shit for being traumatized and for not completely doing a 180 on Beau even after everything. love doesn't just automatically shut off, and Vincent works hard to do the right thing with Beau, and he is never once truly compromised by loving Beau. he fights for respect every step of the way, and ultimately he IS the one to end things for everybody. he earns all their respect, but it's an uphill battle because Jerome in particular feels some animosity towards him BECAUSE he's an East Coast gentleman-type. but Vincent proves he doesn't have to be the ideal "Western Man" to succeed or to do the right thing. he is capable of so much more than most of them ever give him credit for.

and then like, Beau says a couple of times that he can't tell Vincent about killing people while he's going about with Jerome bcs Vincent is ~too delicate~ and wouldn't ~get it~ but it's like. yeah Vincent would feel uncomfortable but it's not because he's delicate, it's because he's normal! though he would be passably alright with the first death Beau causes it factually, literally was self defense. Vincent isn't stupid or unfair about it, Beau did what he had to do to survive, but he never wanted Beau to be in that position at all.

Beau brought it upon himself and i think that would be a source of discomfort. doing something Beau knew he shouldn't be doing and having to do one of the gravest things a man can do in self defense. Vincent wouldn't hold that against Beau, but it would inevitably be a fuel for asking Beau why he EVER did this to himself. why did he want to be with Jerome so bad? was it worth what it costs?

it's wild as fuck watching Beau do this to Vincent. infantilizing his own damn boyfriend like that. Beau is technically right about knowing Vincent will be uncomfortable but misses the actual reasons why entirely, and it reflects such a PROFOUND lack of respect for Vincent by that point in the story and i find that very interesting. he tries so hard to be in Vincent's good graces. groveling and working to try and make things right... but when you think about it at all... he really does not respect Vincent. does he.

i think it's arguable that the stag is working to drive them apart. i think it knows Vincent is a problem but trying to convince Beau to kill him is nigh impossible. it can influence people but it only goes so far i think and Vincent is a consistent Blind Spot for Beau. but Beau kinda started it. like the thing i like abt the stag stuff is it's really debatable what decisions are Beau's and which are the stag's. and most of the time i think you can conclude that it's literally just Beau. but you never know for sure.

i don't think Beau always saw Vincent this way. early on i think it's clear he respects Vincent a lot and does see him as someone to aspire to be like, but somewhere along the line it gets lost bcs of the stag and because of how distant they're growing. even if the stuff with Salmon Wilson hadn't happened, i think they would have grown apart. it's a good way to keep Beau from talking to Vincent and/or receiving any help from him. the stag needs Beau to be as isolated and helpless as possible, and even though he's going with Jerome's posse, he is never truly part of that crew and he knows it.

so Beau understimates Vincent, the stag underestimates Vincent, everyone does, and that winds up being sort of important to the end of this story.

#psy's no punctuation posts #SOBR tag #vincent augustus #beau rudolph

[olli-online]

watching this immediately after finishing the episode just showing how bad it really was. like this is so incredible especially with glenns acting he did such a good job not just with how he had that outburst but when he saw the gift and showed gratitude to mac and how it felt like the entire time he was purposefully holding back so much emotion. we know dennis has feelings but he wants to have control so badly in all aspects of his life that he wont allow himself to show them outside of anger and here the wall kinda cracked a bit not exactly a lot but enough that its noticeable while the new episode it was just reaffirming things we already know abt dennis when it couldve done so much more to show aspects of him that he keeps deep down ughhh im rambling but genuinely disappointed like im not gonna try and force myself to think the episode was great and profound cause it wasnt. i hate how the crew were hyping this episode up talking about how we'll like the ending ?? what a slow mo shot of him throwing something in the trash? a it was all a dream moment?? really?? thats the big ending? also this episode was just the same situation happening over and over and over again and it wasnt even done in an interesting way i found myself multiple times checking how long was left of the episode cause i was so bored the script was boring the ideas were stale the entire thing just felt put together by ppl who dont even care about this character at all

#ughhhhhhh megan carried this season on her back thanks queen ilu #and no this isnt me abt wanting to see dennis scream and cry to show character development because that would just feel ooc but omg #ugh can u tell im reslly annoyed abt this episode