Stuck With You*
Summary: You and Harry have been assigned to a case halfway across the country. And getting stuck for over twelve hours in a car with him is nothing short of excruciating.
But having to share a bed with him?
A fate worse than death.
(aka: enemies to lovers + one bed trope!)
Word Count: 7.7k
*Contains Mature and Explicit content! Take care of yourself first, only consume what you feel comfortable with!*
BAM!
The violent sound of the car door being slammed is what jolts you from your nap, weary eyes fluttering quickly as you sit up in the rather uncomfortable chair.
You aren't sure how long you've been asleep but from the lack of light outside, you guess quite a while.
So, in an effort to assess your location, you lean forward to peer through the windshield at the bright, neon sign shining just above you.
Roadside Motel and Inn.
Slowly, the pieces begin to come together as you yawn and roll your head back to relieve some of the tension in your neck.
You and Harry have been on the road for exactly twelve hours.
Twelve long, excruciating hours filled with bad rock music, limited snack breaks, and arguments over which part of the map to follow.
Harry doesn’t obey directions very well, something that became abundantly clear when he threw the map out of the window somewhere back in Ohio.
You have to smirk to yourself at the memory of his little tantrum before you realize...he's not in the car with you.
Curious as to where he went, you look back out the window just in time to see him slipping into the lobby of the motel, that familiar, sour scowl still set firmly on his face.
He must be going to book a room for the night, and you feel rather relieved to be calling it quits for the day.
Although, this motel doesn't look all that...safe. Or sanitary. In fact, it kind of looks like the motel in a horror movie where they'd find a dead body.
But, you aren't in a position to complain, so you lean back in your seat and wait for Harry to return with a room key.
However, after five minutes has passed and Harry has yet to return, you realize that something must have gone wrong.
And knowing Harry…it's a pretty safe bet.
So, you retie your shoes, zip up your jacket, and slip out of the car.
You can hear the aggravated arguing before you’ve even reached the lobby door. And you have to resist the urge to roll your eyes when the sound of Harry’s seething retort echoes into the parking lot.
“You aren’t fucking hearing me,” Harry is growling as he leans across the counter. “Two rooms. That’s all. I don’t fucking care about bed sizes or furnishings. I don’t fucking care if the TV is on the goddamn ceiling. Just give me the fucking keys.”
The poor man behind the counter looks absolutely exhausted with him (a feeling you know well) as he waves his hands in front of his computer. “I don’t have two rooms available, sir. I only have the one. One room. One queen-sized bed. One TV on the floor.”
Harry slams his palm against the desk with malice as you rush forward to intervene.
“Hi. I am…so sorry about my friend,” you begin hesitantly, pinching Harry’s hip in warning. “But, um…are you sure you don’t have any other rooms with two beds? No matter the size? We aren’t picky, really, we just…we’ve had a long day. And we’d really appreciate anything you can give us.”
The man’s eyes soften while Harry scoffs.
“Sorry, Miss,” the desk attendant sighs. “Just one room with one bed.”
“I don’t fucking believe you,” Harry begins again, tossing a vengeful glare across the counter. “There’s no way every other room is booked up but that one. What do you want, huh? You want money? Is that what it’s gonna take? Fine. How much fucking money is it gonna take for you to give us a key to a room with two beds?”
With a sigh, the worker says, “Sir…there are no more rooms. I don’t know what else to tell you—”
“You fucking prick. You think you can just con us out of another room because it’s the last minute—”
“Sir. No room in the inn. I don’t know what else to say—”
“Oh, you won’t say fucking much with my fist down your throat—”
“Okay, all right, let’s calm down,” you interject, wrapping your hands around Harry’s upper arm to tug him away from the desk. “We’ll take any room you have. Please.”
The charged silence seems to span an eternity as the desk attendant goes to retrieve a key.
And as he does, Harry rips his arm from your grasp while viciously whispering, “I had it covered.”
You snort. After all, you both know that’s not true.
Once you’re officially checked in, Harry storms for the exit, nearly breaking the glass in the lobby door as he slams it open and shut.
You follow a few feet behind, desperate to put some distance between you and his unjust wrath.
But, even still, you don’t miss his aggravated grumbling as he stomps back to the car, griping and cursing about, “Shitty fucking motels,” and “sleezy assholes with a stick up their arse.”
You suppose it would almost be funny if you weren’t dreading having to spend a night with him. In fact, you’re almost tempted to offer to sleep in the car but…well, you hate those fucking seats.
Harry is already unpacking your things by the time you reach him, tossing items left and right as he attempts to retrieve what you’ll need for the night.
He finds your duffle, yanking it from the backseat before nearly hauling it at you as you catch it and go stumbling back.
Then, he pulls his own backpack free before slamming yet another door shut.
With that, he leads you to your room, booted feet stomping across the concrete as you trail behind.
It takes him about five minutes to figure out how to even get inside, large fingers fumbling with the keys as he growls and nearly shoves his fist through the door.
Once you’re inside, he flips on the light, and you both take a moment to assess its condition.
The queen-sized bed is more like a full. The wallpaper is faded and peeling. The smell is…unplaceable. The carpet is stained and dingy. The TV (which is not on the ceiling) is at least forty years old. And the bathroom has no door.
And seriously, what is that smell?
“You’ve gotta be fucking kidding me,” Harry huffs under his breath, backpack dropping to the floor. “No. Absolutely fucking not. Not happening.”
“Look, we don’t really have a choice, do we?” you argue as you move for the bed to study its condition. “We’re in the middle of nowhere and the next hotel isn’t for miles.”
“So?” he sneers, moving his glare to you. “S’better than this.”
“This is fine,” you retort, but wince as you say it. “Yeah, it’s not…great. But we’re only here to sleep and then we’re back on the road.”
“No,” he decides, arms crossing as he shakes his head. “Uh-uh. Not fucking happening, I’ll sleep in the parking lot.”
“Okay, great. Buh-bye, then,” you call, waving your hand through the air as if to dismiss him.
His eyes narrow. “He lied, by the way.”
Turning around, you gingerly lower yourself onto the mattress, expression scrunched as you make contact.
Ew.
“Uh…who?” you ask, rather distracted by the somewhat moist duvet beneath your ass.
Seriously, why the fuck is it wet?
“The owner,” Harry snaps, head jerking toward the door. “When he went to get the key, there was another fucking key right next to it. For the master suite.”
“…okay?”
He seems rather unimpressed with your answer. “Seriously?”
“What?” you huff as you stand back up. “Maybe it’s his room.”
“It’s not,” he decides haughtily. “No, he doesn’t fucking sleep here. ’Cause even he knows this place is a fucking dump. All right, satan’s asshole is cleaner than this room.”
Your nose crinkles. “Ew.”
“Exactly. So, get your fucking stuff and let’s go.”
“Go where?”
“To the master suite, are you not fucking listening?”
“Harry,” you nearly scoff. “We don’t have a key. Okay, and even if we did, that’s…you know, illegal…I think.”
“God, you are such a fucking pussy,” he hisses, already spinning around to return to the door. “Fine. Fucking stay here. I don’t care. Sleep with the cockroaches while they make babies in your ear.”
You gasp as he disappears into the parking lot, the rather unsettling image in your head making your muscles recoil.
Ew, ew, ew.
You don’t know where he’s gone. Perhaps to argue with the owner again or perhaps to sneak into the other room.
But you don’t worry about him. Instead, you worry about what he said. About bugs, and babies, and them crawling into your ear, and mold, and bedbugs, and termites, and—
You fling yourself toward the door, duffle bag in tow as you slip from the room, nearly running into Harry on your way out.
He’s already returned, a key now spinning around his pointer finger as he nods at you. “Changed your mind, I take it?”
You exhale a deep breath. “Did you at least pay for the room?”
“What do you think?” he snorts. “Fucking waited till he went to the bathroom and snatched it.”
“Harry, he’s gonna notice the key is missing.”
“No he’s not. I put the old key in its place.”
You lean back. “Oh. That’s…smart.”
“Yeah. Thanks for sounding so fucking surprised,” he grumbles before brushing past you toward the stairs.
“Come on, that’s not what I—” You begin but stop when you realize arguing with him is rather futile.
Instead, you follow after him toward the second floor of building as he leads you toward the end, where only one room lies.
He manages to get this door open a little quicker and once it swings open, your eyes widen.
It’s not the Hilton, but it’s a hell of an upgrade. The room is significantly larger, it doesn’t smell like ass, and the bed is huge. At least a king, you imagine, if not bigger. With what looks to be fresh, clean sheets and even a nice throw blanket.
Harry grumbles something about, “Now that’s more fucking like it,” as you both continue into the massive space to look around.
There’s a mini bar, two TVs, and a nice vanity in the corner. The wallpaper isn’t stained, the carpet is soft, and this bathroom has a door.
“Shit,” you breathe as you practically levitate toward the mattress. “Okay…I hate to say it, but…you were right. This is…so much better.”
“I know,” he deadpans, tossing his backpack toward the floor before moving for the couch placed just across from the bed. “Okay, I’m going to sleep. We’re leaving at eight. Try not to fucking bother me until then, yeah?”
With that, he flops down onto the sofa, eyes falling shut as he settles back into the cushions.
A little surprised, you stare at him, curious as to why he’s chosen to sleep on the most uncomfortable piece of furniture in the room. In fact, the floor would likely be more relaxing.
However, his expression remains placid, most likely aware of your presence but refusing to acknowledge it. “Go away now,” he mumbles without ever glancing up. “Stop fucking hovering and go the fuck to sleep.”
And you’d likely argue or remind him again of how unpleasant he tends to be but choose instead to obey as you head for the bathroom. After all, you are tired, and tomorrow you have yet another long day of traveling ahead.
With him. And his outrageously hostile temperament.
Once you’ve changed into some pajamas, you exit the tiny bathroom and scurry to the bed. It’s still winter outside, and even though this is the master suite, they apparently haven’t mastered heat.
The covers are thin, hardly adding even one degree of warmth. You tug the throw blanket further up and curl yourself into a ball, hoping to find some relief from the shivering of your teeth but to no avail.
You have no idea how Harry isn’t freezing his ass off but can’t exactly focus on him as you begin to lose feelings in your toes. And now, the large bed seems to be working against you since all it does is provide you with more space to be cold in. And even if you wanted to readjust, you’d lose the spot of warmth you’ve created, forcing you to get stuck with the cold sheets once again.
“Oh, for fuck’s sake,” Harry suddenly growls, and you vaguely see the outline of his body as he straightens up from the couch.
Curious, you sit up as he stalks over to you, his large hand coming out to snatch onto the blankets and rip them back.
“Shit,” you breathe, recoiling away from the frigid air. “The fuck are you doing—”
“You won’t stop fucking shaking and it’s fucking annoying,” he snaps as he climbs onto the mattress beside you. “Move.”
A tad stunned, you blink at him. “I—seriously, what are you doing—”
“I’m trying to get some goddamn sleep,” he huffs, as if it were obvious. “But I can’t with your fucking teeth making so much goddamn noise. So, I’m gonna fucking hold you until you stop shivering.”
“Like hell you are,” you snort, already wiggling away from him. “The whole fucking point of us finding another room was so that we didn’t have to share a bed. Remember?”
“Yeah, well, that was before your teeth started doing the tango,” he retorts. “Now shut the fuck up and cuddle me.”
“I—Harry. I’m not going to cuddle you, that’s gross—”
“Oh, grow up. God, you are so fucking dramatic. We’re adults—”
“Yeah, but we’re not in fucking Twilight. Okay, Jacob? I don’t need your doggy heat to warm me up—”
“My doggy heat? The fuck does that even mean? I wasn’t gonna hold you doggy style—”
“Yeah, ’cause you’re not gonna hold me at all—”
“For fuck’s sake,” he seethes for a second time before his arm is extending across the space between your bodies to latch onto your hip and drag you closer.
You don’t have the time to protest before your face is being squished into his chest as he pulls the blankets back up.
Your brain is the next thing to freeze as you take a moment to comprehend what the fuck just happened.
And why you aren’t fighting it.
Because much to your dismay…he’s right. Again. Instantly, this is significantly better, and you can already feel the movement return to your toes as you take a deep breath.
And suddenly, you realize that he’s…everywhere. Against you, around you, inside you. Well, his smell is, anyway. The subtle scent of his cologne making a home in your lungs.
And it’s…nice. A masculine vanilla, of sorts. Comforting.
…ew.
And while your first instinct is to reach up and shove him away…you don’t. Instead, your hands come to rest on his chest as you feel each curve and dip of his strong body. Maybe you’re too cold or too tired, but whatever the case, you don’t push.
“You can’t do this,” you choose to mumble, despite the fact that you do nothing to stop it.
He simply snorts under his breath. “Already am.”
You shift but don’t pull yourself out of his arms. “I can’t breathe.”
“You’ll get over it.”
Your eyes narrow, even though he can’t see you.
For a moment, the dark room falls quiet. The sound of his breathing above you is soft and you feel his body rise and fall with each one. It nearly lulls you to sleep as the heat begins to surround you, much like his arms have.
“Why are you so mean to me?” you hear yourself whisper, momentarily stunned by the words that came from your own throat without permission.
He seems to tense. “I’m not mean to you. That’s just…you know, our thing.”
“Our thing is you being mean to me?”
“I’m not mean,” he repeats sternly, arms constricting around your back. “Trust me, if I were fucking mean to you, you’d know it.”
“So…this is you being nice?”
You hear him huff. “Can you please just go the fuck to sleep?”
“Okay,” you murmur, with absolutely no plans to do so.
But you allow him to think that he’s won for about two minutes before you voice your next question.
“Why is being mean our thing?”
Another sigh. “I swear to fucking God—”
“You used to bring me cookies,” you remind him, the memory of when he first joined your sector years prior coming to mind. “Every morning. You’d bring me cookies from the bakery you stopped at on the way to work.”
Again, he goes quiet, muscles hard beneath your touch. “I don’t remember,” he replies after a minute, the cadence of his voice so low you almost don’t catch it.
“I do,” you say, fingers absentmindedly stroking his soft shirt. A nervous habit. “I remember. It was my favorite part of the day. You were so…kind. Quiet. Maybe a little shy, but…you were a great addition to the program. I liked having you there.”
He snorts again, the sound full of disbelief and contempt. “Yeah. Right.”
You lean back, head tilting to look up at him. “I did.”
He looks down. Stares. Says nothing.
You don’t know what you wanted him to say but you do suppose you want to know why. What changed between the days when you were almost friends to…now.
“I’m not mean to you,” he finally answers, a bit softer than his last remark. “Not on purpose, anyway.”
“Oh, so the constant insults and degrading comments are just a part of your charm and charisma?” you tease, hoping to lighten the mood.
It doesn’t work.
His lips press into a thin line. “Why do you care if I’m nice to you or not?”
“I’m…’cause you used to be,” you say, rather confused by the question. “And clearly something changed, I just…I don’t know. I want to know why.”
“Why?”
“Yes, why.”
“No, why do you want to know?”
“Why wouldn’t I?”
“Because it doesn’t matter. We’re not friends.”
“Yeah. I know. Why?”
“Why what?”
“Why aren’t we friends?”
He leans back now, too. “…why the fuck would we be?”
You shrug. “Because we work together. And have to spend a lot of time together. And it would be nice to at least be civil.”
“I don’t want to be civil,” he scoffs. “Especially with you.”
Now even more startled, you blink at him. “I’m sorry, what the fuck does that mean?”
Again, his jaw clamps shut, effectively ending his side of the conversation.
You’ve struck a nerve, but you have no idea which one.
And despite the fact that he’s still holding you, his touch has grown cold and distant.
So, you snatch his shirt between your fingers and tug. “Stop doing that. Just talk to me.”
“There’s nothing to talk about—”
“Yes, there is. Look…if I…did something…just tell me. Okay, because I probably didn’t mean to, and I can’t exactly apologize for it if I don’t know. So, just…spit it out—”
“No—”
“Yes—”
“I said fucking no—”
“And I said I don’t fucking care. Now, tell me what I—”
“Charlie.”
The name brings your response to a halt as you hesitate and flick your eyes between his, looking for understanding. “…what?”
Harry takes a deep breath as if steeling himself from the conversation. “Fucking Charlie, all right? You started dating Charlie. That’s what you did.”
There’s a certain disdain behind his expression that you manage to make out and it throws you for a loop. “I…wait, what? I don’t get it, why is that bad?”
He hesitates before sighing, seeming to dismiss the conversation altogether. “Forget it.”
“No, seriously,” you insist, tugging on him again. “Did…did you want to date him?”
His eyes roll. “Here we fucking go—”
“No, I mean it. ’Cause I don’t understand why else that would make you hate me—”
His attention snaps back down. “I don’t hate you, I…look. It doesn’t fucking matter, all right, so just drop it—”
“It does matter. It does, Harry, because it’s been driving me nuts for four years and I can’t take it anymore.”
And maybe he’s tired, too. Maybe he’s delirious from the long journey or maybe he’s just tired of talking, but for whatever reason, he finally lets his vulnerability slip through the cracks.
You see it peak through his expression. See it—feel it—in the way he holds you. Looks at you. In the way he fights with himself to reveal the truth.
“Because I liked you,” he says. So simply, you could almost be tricked into thinking it is. “I liked you. A lot. But you didn’t like me. You liked him.”
You can say nothing. Can offer no response or reaction as your lashes flutter and your brain works to process what he just admitted to you.
His jaw tenses as he waits. “Yeah. Exactly. So…there you fucking go. Happy?”
“I—” Your heart begins to race wildly inside your chest as this secret bounces around the walls of your mind. “Harry, I didn’t…I didn’t know.”
“I know,” he mumbles, shifting a little as his grip begins to loosen, desperate to let you go and pull himself away. “Why would you have? I’m not Charlie.”
You frown. You don’t like the implication in his tone. “No, you’re not Charlie. And you should be really fucking glad you aren’t.”
Now, it’s his turn to work through your reply. “…what do you mean?”
“I mean Charlie was a fucking ass,” you tell him, past resentment slipping through your hostile tone. “Okay, cheating on me was one of the nicer things he did.”
And you almost think you see pity in his eyes mixed with just the slightest hint of rage. “He cheated on you?”
“Oh, yeah. Cheated on, belittled me, ditched me in the middle of one of our dates with no way to get home,” you recall. “Not to mention he was shit in bed, he couldn’t be bothered to learn my last name, and he owes me over fifteen thousand dollars.”
Harry rears back. “Are you fucking kidding me?”
“Nope.” You almost smirk, somehow amused by his utter shock. “So, trust me…Charlie was not a threat to you. In fact, nobody could have been a threat to you.”
“And what does that mean?”
He sounds suspicious and you hesitate, curious as to whether or not this is really something you want to admit.
You swallow the urge. “It just means…you were my friend. And I cared about you, and it kind of fucking sucked when you turned on me.”
His expression falls, frown mirror your own. He opens his mouth, ready to respond, but then stops. He stops and he looks at you and he mulls.
You wish he’d allow you a visit inside his mind. Wish he’d clue you into his thought process but perhaps it’s better this way.
And maybe he was right. Maybe this is your thing. Maybe it’s better if he doesn’t like you.
Maybe that’ll make it easier to stay away.
“So…he was shit in bed, huh?” Harry murmurs after a moment, and your brow raises.
“Really? That’s what you’re taking from what I said?” you tease, playfully slapping at his chest. “Very funny.”
“M’not being funny,” he insists, nodding his chin at you. “Must have been hard for you. Or…I guess soft?”
Your eyes narrow as you smirk. “Ha. Ha.”
For the first time all day…he smiles. “Look, I just…I feel bad for you, you know? I mean, yeah, the cheating and stealing and being an ass part all suck. But…the bad sex? That’s just unforgivable.”
“It was heinous,” you agree, feigning a wounded sigh. “Seriously, I had to replace three vibrators over the course of our relationship. Three.”
He sucks in an empathetic breath. “Yikes.”
“I know. But I got really buff in my right arm.”
His grin widens until you can see his bunny teeth. “For fuck’s sake—”
“But not the left one for some reason. So it was really uneven. I looked like a Picasso painting—”
“Oh, my god. Stop. Please stop talking—”
“What? You’re the one that asked.”
“Yeah, I asked because clearly you need some help.”
This time, you rear back, eyebrow raising as you look at him. “I’m sorry…what?”
And he almost looks like he regrets the words that just came out of his mouth, but instead of taking them back…he shrugs one shoulder up. “Well…come on. You have to admit you’re…tense.”
“Wha—I am not tense,” you sputter. “I’m…I…just because I don’t put up with your shit does not make me tense.”
“No, but you not being able to come the way you deserve does.”
It’s so…tenacious the way he speaks. The way he says deserve like he’s had this thought before.
You wonder if he has.
“And who says I haven’t?” you counter.
“Have you?”
Your split-second hesitation is answer enough and his smirk returns as he hums to himself.
“Got it,” he mumbles, letting his eyes rake down your face. “Like I said…s’a shame.”
You snort, “Oh, is it?”
“It is.”
“And why is that?”
“Cause I could probably help you out.”
There it is again. That confidence in what he’s offering that makes your breath hitch. “Harry…come on.”
“Come on what?” he teases. “Your tongue? Your stomach? Your pus—”
“Okay, all right, enough,” you interject, wincing a bit as you lean away. “Seriously. Stop.”
“Why?”
“Why do you think? We can’t…this is a weird conversation,” you huff. “You don’t…that’s not what we…it’s just weird.”
“Why do you think it’s weird?”
An unamused glare begins to form. “Because it is.”
“Why?”
“Because.”
“Because why?”
“Because we don’t do that.”
“Do what?”
“Talk like that.” Your hand quickly gestures between your bodies. “You said it yourself. Our thing is being mean. Arguing and fighting and you getting on my nerves.”
He hums again, as if considering it. “Well…maybe this can be our thing, too.”
“Harry.”
“Princess.”
The exasperated expression on your face deepens at the familiar nickname. “It is not going to be our thing.”
“Fine,” he sighs, one hand raising as he surrenders himself. “I’m just saying…it would probably help you stay warm.”
Oh, he’s such a fucking—
“That’s…dumb,” is what you choose to reply with, to which he smiles.
“Maybe,” he agrees. “But it works. All that body heat, and friction, and excursion—”
“Harry.”
“Princess.”
Your lips set into a line. “Are you being serious right now or are you fucking with me? Because I really can’t tell.”
“I’m being serious,” he says, just as simply as before. “Dead fucking serious.”
“Why?”
Another shrug. “Told you. I feel bad for you.”
You scoff rather incredulously as you turn over onto your back, forcing his arms out from around you. “I don’t need you to feel bad for me. I’m perfectly fine.”
“Clearly.”
It goes quiet then, both of you falling in line with the comfortable silence.
After a moment, you look over, suddenly aware of the absence of his body now that you’re no longer trapped against his chest.
And you almost…miss it. The warmth, and the slight serenity, and…the safety.
He’s one of the most annoying people you’ve ever met but he’s damn good at his job. He’s quick, he’s smart, and he’s quite capable.
And he’s got more muscles than he’s got brain cells.
“What?” he grumbles, seeming to finally notice your staring.
“Sorry,” you whisper, shaking the thought of him free as you glance back up at the ceiling.
But you feel him study you. “You’re thinking about it, aren’t you?”
“No,” you deny instantly, cheeks flushing at the very idea. “God, Harry. You’re so—”
“Annoying. Yes. I know. I’m also quite good with my hands if that’s any help—”
“Harry.”
“Princess,” he mimics, and you can hear the smile. “We don’t have to, I’m just saying…my services are here.”
“Services,” you repeat under your breath, snorting some. “How romantic.”
“Never claimed to be romantic. Just claimed to be good.”
“Well, you would think so.”
“I don’t think so. I know so.”
“Yeah, well, Charlie thought he knew so, too.”
“Well, we’ve already established I’m not Charlie, haven’t we?”
Your eyes flick back over to his. “Maybe. That doesn’t make you good.”
“And what about me implies that I wouldn’t be?”
“I don’t know. The fact that you called it services?”
“Getting you off is a service. A very nice one, actually. Or would you rather call it a favor?”
“I’d rather call it nothing. Because it makes it sound cheap.”
“We’re in a roadside motel. What about this entire trip doesn’t scream cheap to you?”
“The fact that we work for the government. And the fact that they’re not paying us to…you know.”
“What? You can’t even say it? Come on, Princess, I thought you were better than that.”
“I’m…I…” It’s incredible how quickly he’s managed to render you speechless. “I’m just saying, that’s not what we’re here for.”
“People fuck on the job all the time,” he reminds you. “Just last week, Spencer Reid told me about this girl he met in Vegas—”
“I don’t wanna hear that,” you exclaim, hands immediately flying to your ears to protect you from any unpleasant information about your friend. “What he does is none of my business.”
“You mean who he does,” Harry corrects smugly. “Look, Hotch doesn’t care. As long as the job gets done, it doesn’t matter.”
“So…what? That makes it okay?”
“Okay? It’s just an orgasm, it’s not murder—”
“Shit like that is personal,” you huff. “It’s intimate and…delicate. You know? It’s not for people who already don’t like each other. That makes it…messy.”
“Yeah, well…I like it messy,” he says, and despite yourself, there’s a catch in your throat. “Besides, I don’t know why we’re still talking about it if you don’t want to do it.”
You hesitate. He’s got a point.
Suddenly, he pushes up onto his forearm to really get a good look at you. “…unless you do want to. And you’re trying to argue yourself out of it.”
Your mouth drops open. “What? No, I…no.”
He snorts. “Oh, well, I’m convinced.”
“I don’t,” you insist before the truth begins to beat against your ribcage like a drum. “I mean…I don’t know. Wouldn’t it be weird?”
“No. Not unless we make it weird.”
“Well how do I know you won’t make it weird?”
“It was my idea. Why would I make it weird?”
“Because you are weird.”
“Yeah, but I’m still good.”
You exhale a sharp breath. “Harry…I’m being serious.”
He returns your stare. “So am I.”
“Well…I still don’t understand why you want to. Don’t guys hate stuff like that?”
“Stuff like what?” he retorts. “Fingering you? Eating you out? Tasting you? I’m sorry, what part of that doesn’t sound like a fucking dream?”
“Listen, Charlie used to tell me that it was gross—”
“And Charlie’s a fucking pussy,” Harry decides, rather resolutely. “Which is ironic since he doesn’t know what to do with one. But that doesn’t mean the rest of us are. Okay, we know how to enjoy the finer things in life.”
“Is that…a compliment?”
“Yeah.”
“Wow.”
“Thanks. Are you convinced?”
Are you convinced? You almost want to laugh at the very question but…perhaps you are. Perhaps he’s right—yet again—and this one-time agreement could offer you a bit of…help.
And heat.
Since it’s still fucking freezing.
“If I say yes…you have to promise to never…bring this up again,” you begin as he straightens up. “Never, Harry. I mean it. Not as a joke. Not when you’re mad at me. Not when we’re in front of anyone. Ever.”
“What, you think I want people to know about this?” He smirks. “Promise. What happens in the shitty roadside motel stays in the shitty roadside motel.”
“Great.” Your hands gather in front of your stomach as you begin to pick at your nail beds. “So…okay. Great. Is that…I mean, are you—”
“What do you need?”
You blink. “What…what do you mean?”
“My mouth or my fingers. What do you need?”
God, this feels too fucking real. You swallow rather thickly as you move your focus to his nose, looking for something less intimidating to concentrate on. “I don’t know. Whichever you want, I guess.”
“It’s not about what I want,” he replies easily. “It’s about what you need. So, I’m gonna ask you again. And this time I need an answer, all right?”
You simply look at him.
“What do you need…to come?” he asks softly, moving a bit closer across the mattress as his breath fans across your face. “Do you need my mouth? My tongue? My fingers?”
His hand outstretches for your neck, palm sliding up until his thumb can sweep along your jaw.
“Hm?” he hums, gazing down at you rather curiously as you lean back into the pillows. “Or do you need it all? Do you need more? Need to feel full? Fucked?”
You feel like you’re being pulled into a trap. Lured into the devious intentions swimming behind his eyes.
But you don’t…care.
“Can’t help you if you don’t tell me, Princess,” he continues, his voice like silk. Sex. “Give you whatever you need. Just have to ask.”
“I don’t…I don’t know, really,” you whisper, desperate to shove the control in his hands. “I’m not…I don’t care. Do whichever you’re comfortable with.”
“Darling…there is nothing about you I couldn’t be comforted by,” he says, finger teasing your bottom lip. “Do you really think…I’d choose not to feel you? Slip myself inside you and feel how fucking tight you are. ’Cause I know you are, aren’t you, honey? Bet you’re so soft…so warm…so fucking wet. Be so easy to taste you for myself.”
He was right. He is good at this.
And maybe in the past you’ve liked to have some control, but right now…you’d do anything for him. Be anything he wanted you to be.
He knows exactly what you need. Knows that you need someone to put you in your place. Guide you toward what you want.
“Why don’t I start with my hand?” he suggests gently, looking for approval on your face. “Give you a minute to realize how much you like it.”
When your only response is continued staring, his head tilts.
“Words, Princess,” he warns. “Or we stop.”
And really, he hasn’t even done anything yet but the very idea of stopping makes your stomach recoil.
“Fine,” you manage to breathe. “Your…hand. That’s…fine.”
You hate how…nervous you sound. How unsure, but Harry is more than willing to make up for the slack, grinning to himself as he trails his palm back down your neck.
“Need you to relax for me, okay?” he instructs as he reaches your chest, delicately and tamely slipping between your breasts toward your stomach. He doesn’t linger, doesn’t graze, doesn’t take a moment to fondle you like a prepubescent horny boy. He does only what he said he was going to. “Just like that, there you go.”
He continues to glide along the fabric of your shirt until he reaches your hips where the band of your pants lie.
His finger taps against the elastic, almost as if waiting.
“Say it again,” he whispers, dipping down until his nose ghosts across your cheek. “Need to hear you say it one more time.”
And you wonder if he really does want to be adamant about consent…
…or if he just enjoys hearing you submit.
“Please,” you just about gasp, suddenly aware of the lust you feel for his touch. The way you really do feel…empty. “Please, Har…just…just—”
His hand disappears beneath the material, and when you feel him brush over the fabric of your underwear…your eyes flutter shut.
He chooses to forgo skin on skin contact. At least for now, and you imagine it’s because he’s waiting for you to feel a bit more at ease.
And the rather generous thought does something to your stomach as he begins to drag the pad of his thumb down your covered clit.
You go still. Deathly still because it feels so fucking good. You hadn’t realized you were this wound up but instantly…your muscles turn to jelly.
“How’s that, hm?” comes the low purr of his voice, his lips now much closer to your ear. “Feel good?”
You nod mutely as your hands begin to fist the sheets below you.
“Good,” he replies, seemingly proud as he repeats the previous action before moving down. Then…he tsks. “Oh, honey…what’s this?”
You venture a glance over at him as he leans back to see you.
“Already so wet,” he says, fighting his amusement. “What’s got you so worked up, darling? Haven’t even done anything yet.”
Truthfully, you don’t know. You hadn’t realized. Maybe he’s just that good or maybe your body has been more complicit to his unspoken intentions than you were aware of.
Either way, he’s right. You are so pathetically wet, and he hasn’t even fully touched you yet.
“Have you been thinking about it this whole time?” he asks next, voice slipping back through the needle of salacious resolve. “Hm? Just been lying here, dripping for me? Needing me to make it better?”
He adds a bit more pressure and you gasp, the ache between your thighs growing much more unbearable.
He does it again before slowing down and your chest just about caves in.
“What?” He moves closer again, grinning to himself as he places his lips against your neck. “Something wrong?”
“Har…” you nearly whine, squirming some under his hold.
His tattooed arm flexes as he rolls the heel of his hand down your clit. “What? What is it? What do you need?”
You, you, you. The thought screams inside your head as he licks his tongue along your jaw.
“Please…” you say instead, hoping you sound desolate enough to garner his sympathy.
“Please what? Can’t read your mind, honey. Need you to tell me.”
You groan in the back of your throat, partially from his arrogant, flippant behavior and partially from the way he’s pulling at your skin with his teeth.
“Just…just…” Still, the request refuses to come out, and you want to smack yourself for being so weak.
“Just…just?” he repeats, somewhat mockingly but still gentle. “Just what? Just…this?”
You feel his finger hook around the hem of your panties before he’s effortlessly pulling it aside to graze his touch through you.
And you moan, so much louder than you’d meant to. Because even this simple touch does more for you than Charlie ever did.
“Ah,” he murmurs as he dances his mouth down the side of your throat. “That’s what you need.”
And before you have the chance to reply, he’s slipping a finger inside right at the same time that he’s raising up to kiss you.
Really kiss you, his tongue tangling with yours as you willingly give him every breath in your lungs.
The combination of sensations just about kills you as he effortlessly works his touch in and out with ease.
And he’s not recoiling the way you imagined he might. He’s not half-assing it or declaring he’s already done.
No, he’s…he’s indulging in you. Truly and completely as he groans into your bottom lip before sucking on it.
“Fucking knew it,” he whispers, moving to sit up on the bed so he can fully hover over you. “Fucking knew…”
You aren’t quite sure what he means but you do like the way he says it, your skin flushing as he gently introduces you to a second finger.
And it’s so good. So…full. Exactly the way you’d hoped. Exactly the way he’d promised.
Practiced, and patient, and pure pleasure. Right now, you know nothing but this feeling he’s giving you.
His kisses grow hungrier. Angrier. Like he’s fighting himself on how much he’s enjoying it.
And it makes sense. You’re rather annoyed yourself at how easy it was to start needing him. How desperate he’s made you become in such a short time.
Your arms move to wrap around his shoulders and keep him close, nails scratching at the few hairs lying on the nape of his neck.
You hear him sigh. Perhaps with contentment as he places his other hand on the mattress to brace himself and fully give in.
You wish you’d turned a light on. Wish you could really see him. Drink him in. Admire the man you’ve always loved to look at.
Because he is quite fun to look at.
Your hips lift from the mattress as if chasing the feeling he’s offering, and he makes a noise against your mouth that’s a mix between entertained and disappointed.
“Easy,” he chastises, subtly pushing you back down. “Come on, Princess. Be a good girl and stay still for me.”
“Har,” you whimper again, pulling a bit harder on his curls. “Please…just…hurry.”
“No,” he says simply, and your lashes flutter. “No, I’m gonna enjoy you. Gonna take my time…and you’re gonna take it.”
You exhale a wounded whine as he leans back and slowly removes his fingers.
And the loss of stimulation just about ruins you.
“Fuck,” you seethe between gritted teeth. “Come on. God, knew you’d be a fucking pain in my—”
His hands latch onto your pajama pants and underwear so he can pull them down, and when the cold air hits your cunt…you gasp again.
Once they’re off and discarded to the side, he maneuvers along the mattress until he can take hold of your thighs and guide them apart.
Then…he blows.
A warm, gentle breath dances across your already sensitive pussy, making you tense as he settles onto his stomach.
His fingers constrict around your legs to keep them planted firmly to the bed as he leans in to press a kiss to your inner thigh.
Then, another.
And another.
And another.
Higher, and higher, and higher until he’s so close…you can practically taste it.
He pauses and you aren’t sure why. You hope it’s not because something’s wrong. Or because he’s repulsed. Or because he’s changed his—
His tongue presses into your cunt with fervor and pressure, cutting your overthinking short as he takes that taste.
And just like that…everything makes sense.
All you understand his him, and his mouth, and his lips, and the powerful rush of immense and innate pleasure washing over you.
But it doesn’t just wash, it surrounds you. Overwhelms you. Pulls you down until you feel like you’re drowning.
There’s static in your brain as he sucks on your clit and squeezes your legs in his hands. As he leaves kisses across your pussy and traces his name across every inch.
“Harry,” you whisper, too overcome to care how pathetically enamored you sound. “Please…please…please…”
You can’t see him, but you don’t doubt that he’s proud. Probably smiling to himself as he releases one leg to slip his fingers back in.
He curls, and he stretches, and he sucks until your skin is on fire. Until it almost hurts. Until you feel as though you can’t hold it.
“That’s it,” he murmurs, nose bumping into your hip as he works you closer. “S’a good girl…you can take it, come on.”
“Shit…shit, Har,” you breathe, muscles burning from the way you attempt to hold yourself together. “Can’t…please…”
“Yes you can. You can, come on—”
“Harry—”
“I know, Princess. I know. S’okay, you’re okay. I’ve got you—”
“Please…”
“Shh…let me play with you. M’having so much fun. Don’t wanna stop.”
And you don’t want him to stop either. You never want him to stop again. You want to stay here, in this shitty motel, on this lumpy mattress, in his hands. Forever.
He’s so warm, and strong, and safe, and good.
And you can feel the tears slip from your eyes from the immense build-up and from the realization that you are so insanely…happy right now.
You hate him. God, you fucking hate him.
But there’s no one else you’d want around. No one else you can even imagine yourself doing this with.
You don’t want to let this go. This joy, this serenity, this moment.
Him.
You don’t want to let go.
But you know…you’ll have to.
The tears begin to flow a bit faster as you suck in a sharp inhale through quivering lips.
You focus in on his touch. His voice. The gentle rasp that encourages you to keep going. That he’s got you. That you’re doing so good. That he can’t wait to taste you.
And you can’t do it any longer. Can’t hold off, can’t fight it.
You come with a mangled whimper, fingers clawing down the sheets as your thighs squeeze around his head. As you see a glimpse of heaven while he makes you roll against his tongue. As everything changes.
“Fucking perfect,” he hums, working you through every second, thrusts slowing as he eases you back down. “So good, honey. Just like I wanted.”
But you don’t respond. Can’t. Not out of remorse or embarrassment…but because your throat has gone dry from the tears.
And as the dark motel room falls silent…he hears it. Hears your cries as you struggle to contain your emotion.
“Hey…hey,” he calls sternly, quickly straightening up so he can move closer. “What’s wrong? What happened? Why are you crying?”
You don’t answer as he reaches over to flick on the bedside lamp, and the moment the light fills the room, you throw your hands over your face.
“Fuck,” you whisper into your palms, cheeks stained with broken promises and humiliation. “Fuck…fuck, I’m sorry—”
“Whoa, whoa, whoa,” he warns, fingers already wrapping around your wrists to pull them down. “Don’t fucking do that. Don’t. Just tell me what happened, tell me what’s wrong.”
But you don’t. Can’t. You simply blink up at him as he studies you, the trepidation clearly etched across his expression.
For a moment, you both stay there. Him kneeling above you, hands tight around yours, and you. Lying in your defeat.
After a minute of silence has come and gone, he seems to understand. Seems to accept that this isn’t about what did happen.
It’s about what didn’t.
His eyes grow sad as he sighs and reaches up to brush a thumb down your lip.
Then, he caresses your cheek with more tenderness than you’ve ever seen from him.
“I know,” he murmurs while your heart just about shatters. “In another life…I would have done it right.”
And you know exactly what he means.
You sniffle as he dips down to find you again. Mouth on yours as a hundred unspoken promises pass between you.
“Yeah…in another life.”
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