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isimpfortoomanypeople · 2 years

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The photo of you- Eddie Munson x Female Reader

Eddie loves you more than anything in the world, he keeps a photo of you in his wallet everywhere he goes. It’s because of his love for you he decided to keep your relationship a secret, sharing small glances across the halls and date nights at one of your houses, whatever he can to stop the torment he was receiving to be thrown upon you. Till one day he photo gets discovered and Jason decides to humiliate Eddie for it.

Warnings: just Jason being an asshole and that’s about it

A/N: I’ve written an angsty Eddie fic so I decided to be nice to everyone and release the happier fic first. I haven’t abandoned my other works in progress it’s just that stranger things oneshots have been flooding my brain. I may have portrayed D&D wrong but I just joined last term (semester) at my uni (college) so I’m still a newbie so sorry if I get somethings wrong. Im Also from the U.K. sorry if it sounds overly British in some parts. Apologies for all spelling and grammatical mistakes as I’m super dyslexic, enjoy

Eddie sighed massaging the stress out of his temples. Tonight was and dare he say it, the worst campaign of hellfire he has ever had the displeasure to DM!

He had to call the campaign off half and hour into the game. Sinclair had a stupid balls and laundry basket game, Erica was sick so she couldn’t be his sub, Mike was spending time with El as he was visiting her for the week. The campaign crumbled the second it started especially without some of its most promising players, so he had to call it quits. Which of course was met by complaints and grumbles from the remaining players as they got out of their seats to leave. Honestly some people think that dungeon master is easily the most laid back role in the campaign but it couldn’t be further from the truth. You have to spend hours perfecting the next instalment so it continues on from where the game ended last time, making character sheets, remembering what has happened to each character and so on and so forth.

Being an dungeon master was no easy feat but Eddie does love it, he loves seeing the engrossed faces of all the players as they’re lead into battle to defeat orcs or dragons, he loves how electric the atmosphere gets when someone has to roll to get a critical hit it’s as if all time stops together and you’re truly there, it blurs the lines between reality and fiction for 2 hours, it’s truly a sight to behold. But most importantly Eddie for 2 hours is able to not be Eddie the freak Munson but rather someone who people regard with respect and admiration, yes he has learnt to grow thick skin just to survive day to day and has learnt to let all the insults and sneers not to get to him. But even the most toughest people deserve that small window of respite.

“Jesus H Christ!” He jumped as he felt a pair of arms circle around his waist pressing their body into his.

“Sorry baby, I didn’t mean to scare you” you giggled, pressing a kiss to his messy curls. You felt him melt into your touch, rubbing small circles into your forearms letting out that sigh he’s been holding in all night.

“What’s wrong?” You questioned not use to seeing him so stressed out especially after hellfire, resting your chin on his shoulder. Inhaling his signature sent of cigarettes which you’ve grown to find comforting, it was the smell of him, it was the smell of home.

“2 members dropped out of tonights campaign, and one of their subs was sick. So I had to deal with the shit of having to cut the campaign short which made the others pissed off at me, if they think that being a DM is easy they’re more than welcome to take over hellfire” he spat out with a mixture of frustration and exhaustion.

You both knew he didn’t mean that, he adored hellfire and all of the members. You sometimes joked to Eddie that he loved Hellfire more than you, which always ended up with you squealing as he peppered your face in kisses till you couldn’t breathe, him proclaiming how much he loved you more than anything in the world.

But you knew he was stressed, you could feel the knots in his shoulders turning to steel as frustration took a hold of every nerve in his body. So you didn’t try to crack your usual jokes as his mind was already burning in a fiery rage.

You placed another kiss to his temple

“How about you come to mine later? My parents are out of town for the week, I can get a six pack and we can watch that film I rented from family video?” You suggested, laughing as you heard his breath hitch in excitement

“You mean nightmare on elm street?” you mumbled in agreement, he sounded like Christmas has came early to him.

“What did i ever do to deserve a girl like you sweetheart” he smiled, turning you to face him, placing a tender kiss on your lips.

It felt good to give him that distraction that he needed, that his sour mood sweeten in a matter of moments. But that’s Eddie for you, he’s like a puppy, he gets excited and distracted by the smallest of things. It makes your heart swell seeing his big toothy grin emerge from the deep frown his face held just moments prior.

“Let’s go Eds” you smiled lacing your fingers through his

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Yours and Eddie’s relationship was kept a secret, only reserved to giving small waves across the room to each other, when you were both certain no one else was looking. You would kill to be able to kiss your boyfriend like every couple in Hawkins, though kiss wasn’t the right word, sometimes it felt like they were trying to swallow each other’s faces. To be able to go on a date that wasn’t reserved to the four walls of each other’s rooms. You loved Eddie with all your heart, that you make yourself sick with the fluffy nauseating way he never exits your mind, you feel like you’re a freshman all over again .

It was rather Eddie’s idea to keep your relationship a secret, not that he doesn’t love you. He loves you to the point of insanity, that his band has questioned why they’ve recently started to learn ‘I was made for loving you’ by kiss to add to their hideout set list. Eddie couldn’t love anyone other than you, the boy has favoured you over his guitar, if that isn’t the biggest declaration of love from Eddie he doesn’t know what is. He did this all to protect you.

Eddie can handle the insults that is hurled at him without any regards to how vulgar they are, he can handle the way the jocks try their hardest everyday to make his life a living hell.

But something Eddie couldn’t handle was if the insults and occasional punches was targeted towards you. It would crush Eddie in all the ways those insults were supposed to crush him, he wouldn’t allow that to happen to the girl he loved. Even if you were limited to small glances across the cafeteria so be it as long as you were safe.

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You sat next to Nancy and the rest of the people who formed the school newspaper. Nancy and you became inseparable since you joined the newspaper, she admired your hardworking attitude and that you stuck up for her when no one else supported her idea to write an article on the fires of starcourt mall. The others believed the idea too dreary and bleak especially as Hawkins has a habit to move on as if it didn’t happen last month, you argued that we needed to remember those who we lost so their names will never be forgotten. And ever since then you became close friends.

Nancy was one of the reasons you and Eddie started dating, unbeknownst to her but if she did know she wouldn’t let you forget that it was because of her, so maybe it was best that you Eddie kept it a secret?

She gave you the task to make a small article on hellfire for the schools newspaper, ‘don’t worry about it, it’s going to be a small article as I doubt many people will be too interested in the club’, it did very little to calm your nerves but you were thankful that she gave you a report despite only joining two weeks prior.

For your report all you needed to do was note down about the club and what they did, it sounds simple enough? It would of been an easy write up but you got so distracted by the campaign that it completely erased the reason why you were sitting in the hellfire room in the first place.

Your nerves took hold of you making your stomach contort into knots. Fuck! Your first report and you didn’t write a single thing down! Yep you’re definitely getting kicked out of the newspaper!

“Are you okay?”

You looked up from your notepad, your eyes met by a pair of chocolate brown ones slightly closed in confusion.

“I’m fine, why?” you squeaked your voice failing to hide the rising anxiety that coursed through your body, as your words came out so fast making the pitch become higher with each syllable.

You cringed after realising how your own throat cracked your facade, you darted your eyes towards the floor already feeling the shameful crimson blush creeping it’s way across your cheeks.

“It’s just that everyone else left 10 minutes ago and you’ve been staring into a blank notepad that you’ve been shaking frantically” the brunette stated, his voice heavy in confusion as he packed away the remaining figurines of tonight’s campaign.

“Oh” was all you could muster to say, the temperature of the room increased rapidly, your tongue felt like it doubled in size making your speech incredibly difficult to understand

“You didn’t write any of it down did you?”

You swallowed thickly, weakly shaking your head. Praying to whatever was above to allow the earth to swallow you whole.

Great now he thinks that you’re unfit to be a reporter because aren’t reporters supposed to be good at their job?!

You couldn’t stop your mind from racing, the contents of your stomach slowly rising, you felt like you were on a hellish carousel with no sign of the ride stopping anytime soon.

“It’s only because I was too engrossed in the game, i forgot that I was supposed to write about it”

The room went silent after a few seconds went by, Eddie finally processed what you just said in your anxiety fuelled outburst. The deafening silence was met by a loud thud of Eddie’s book dropping upon the floor.

Did he just hear you right? Y/N Y/L/N seriously just told him that she thought hellfire was entertaining? No surely that can’t be true? Right?

Eddie was so dumbfounded about what has just exited your mouth. All sentences he tried to form broke upon exit, leaving his mouth agape and his eyes wide.

“I’m sorry, you found hellfire entertaining?”

You nodded, still trying to find the words to speak. You’ve never really observed Eddie till this moment in time, how his eyes were rich in its chocolate tone, that his sharp jaw captured his face beautifully or how his hair look soft and luscious-

No no no! You weren’t supposed to find the “freak of Hawkins” attractive, this was far from the plan. Why did you agree to do this article?

“I didn’t write anything down, I wanted to ask some questions and hopefully I can actually write this article” you suggested to Eddie, the subtext of your suggestion was heavily applying that he suggested you should meet up again and hopefully one on one.

Eddie picked up the book from the floor and looked you in the eyes to see if he hasn’t read the situation wrong. But the way you blushed when he looked at you made him realise that the impossible was true, someone in this wretched town actually liked him.

“Well sweetheart how about you ask me these questions next Thursday, say 6?” He bit his lips and looked at you, his confidence fuelling him to make the first move, as the girl he secretly admired from a distance may finally want him back

Eddie carries your photo in his wallet, it’s his most prized possession. He carries it on him at all times not daring to part with it. He took it the night he finally had the guts to ask you to be his, still not believing his luck that the hottest girl in Hawkins is now officially his girlfriend.

It captured you wearing his famous hellfire shirt that he allowed you to sleep in, you were holding a big smile on your face, your hair messily tied up, with one of his rings looped through a necklace around your neck.

While you couldn’t bare to part from the silver around your neck, it feels like he’s always close to you in moments when you can’t be. It’s a way of you saying that your his and you always will be. You have the chain tucked underneath your shirt allowing the cold metal to rest upon your heart.

Eddie was sat at hellfire’s usual table, shovelling pretzels into his mouth rolling his eyes at the sickening posters that decorated the cafeteria, each one advertised the upcoming prom night. All these brightly coloured posters covered the walls, it infuriated him. How dare these couples be allowed to show their love freely while he can’t hold his girl’s hand in fear of her being hurt.

“So are you going to ask Y/N to prom?”

Eddie choked on the pretzels he was just about to swallow. He looked at Dustin wide eyed as if the 15 year old has just lost his mind

“Dude! We’re on about Y/N here, there’s no way” Gareth laughed, dismissing all possibilities that Eddie could get someone so well respected with in the school to go out with him.

“Yeah, she’s friends with Nancy and not once has she mentioned him” Mike added further proving how ridiculous Dustin sounded

“Why would you even think that?” Eddie nervously laughed filling his face with more food, hopefully if his mouth is full he won’t be able to answer Dustin’s pestering and would be able to keep the relationship a secret

“Because when you was stressed the fuck out during the last campaign, you dropped your wallet packing up and I saw her photo inside and she was wearing his hellfire shirt”

If Eddie could strangle Dustin he would, he buried his hands into his face covering up his embarrassment

The table echoing in a series of “whats!” By all the members, all in a serious state of shock that Eddie has been secretly dating you out of all people

“Yes, I’m dating her. But it’s a secret so I swear to god if any of you say anything I’m kicking your asses out of hellfire without mercy”

“Why don’t you ask her to prom?” Dustin question still not letting this go

“The freak is asking who to prom?”

Great! Eddie thought just what he fucking needs right now is Jason to over hear this conversation

“Non of your business Carver” Eddie said his voice laced with sarcasm rolling his eyes at the jock

“Who is this unlucky girl” he smirked, leaning into Eddie in hopes to intimidate him.

Jason cupped his hands over his mouth to amplify his voice, to broadcast what he had to say to the whole room

“Hey everyone, the freak wants to invite a special girl to prom, so go on Eddie ask her?” He mocked as the whole cafeteria erupted in laughter towards Eddie’s humiliation. All eyes glued upon him, willing him to ask this girl out for their sick twisted amusement

Fuck it! Standing from your seat you started to walk towards Eddie’s direction

“Y/N, what are you doing?” Nancy hissed trying to get you to sit back down and avoid the same humiliation Eddie is facing. Yes she can’t stand Jason and his shitty attitude but she understands he’s Hawkins royalty and someone not to be messed with. She didn’t want you to be on the receiving end of Jason’s sick and twisted entertainment

Ignoring your best friend’s cries you still continued your walk towards the hellfire table. You felt nearly everyone eyes upon you, but let them stare. You are done, done with watching your boyfriend being treated like the jocks punching bag, how Hawkins treats him like a laughing stock with no regards to the person that he actually is.

“Aww cat got your tongue? Well that’s okay you don’t need to ask her as any self respecting girl in Hawkins would laugh in your face” he sneered, grabbing Eddie by his collar to face him “you’re nothing but a-“

“Hey asshole” you called towards the blonde who dropped Eddie the moment he heard your voice. This can’t be? Right? No way would Y/N call him an asshole and try to defend the freak?

“The answer from the mystery girl is yes, yes she will go to the prom with him” you snarled giving the jock the worst death stare you could muster

The whole room went silent, no one knows what was more shocking you standing up to Jason? or you saying yes to Eddie to prom?

Jason looked at you in utter shock, his jaw nearly on the floor. You swear that you could see the cogs turning in his brain trying to conjure up a response to what you just said

“Sweetheart what are you doing?” Eddie whispered at you, his voice slightly cracking in fear for what is to happen to you. Could you lie and say this is some form of prank just to save your reputation?

You placed your lips upon his, kissing him with so much force hoping that you could make him believe that this is how much you love him. Sure receiving insults and jokes made at your expense maybe hard to deal with but not being able to be close to the person that you loved was worse, it was worth the sacrifice

“Just so everyone is clear, me and Eddie are dating and I love him so if anyone has anything to say about it well I simply don’t care, so try your worst ” you announced sitting next to Eddie.

The whole room looked at you with wide eyes, still in shock trying to process what they’ve just witnessed

Placing another kiss to Eddie’s lips to help to close his gaping mouth . He blinked back in disbelief

“Did I ever tell you how lucky I am to have you?”

“All the time Eds”

“I love you sweetheart”

“I love you too eddie”

A/N: I hope this was good, I’m super self critical lol

#stranger things imagine #stranger things fanfic #stranger things fanfiction #stranger things eddie #eddie the freak munson #eddie munson fan fiction #eddie munson imagine #eddie munson x yn #eddie munson x female character #eddie munson fanfic #eddie munson fluff #eddie munson x female reader #eddie munson x you #eddie munson x y/n

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queen-of-weird-girl-nation · 27 days

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@auroraofthesun1

Diary of a teenage Christian girl

(Front page)

This diary belongs to GRACE ADAMS

I promise to pray, everyday!

Monday 1st August 2024

Dear diary:

I never use this thing, but since we’re at Bible camp I’ll have a lot of time for journaling. So here are some facts about me:

Im Grace Mercy Adams.

I have 8 siblings

I am a Pentecostal Christian

I’m 13 years old

I love Jesus more than anything. More than my own life. More than my parents. More than humanity itself. I would pull the kill switch on humanity, on myself, for Jesus

If I had to pick a way to die, I would chose to die a martyr, in the most painful way possible

I am in the choir

I play volleyball

I’m chaste and pure

I’m a good Christian girl through and through

I’m writing this on the road to Bible Camp, with Esther napping on my shoulder. Her eyelashes are… well they’re so nice when they flicker in her sleep. And so is her hair. She always complains about how boring it is, just plain brown, but I don’t know. There’s something about it… and her green eyes. She’s captivating, I know that much. But enough about Esther; I talk about her enough in this diary as is! Well she’s my best friend.

(Did best friend in purple because it’s her favourite colour, and mine is blue, so we compliment each other nicely, don’t you think diary?)

Well, I’m off to Bible Camp. It’s super far out, but that just gives me more opportunities to take pictures and appreciate the Lords creation. It’s my first time at Bible Camp, and I’m excited. My youth pastor says that I’m one of the most devoted young ladies in the church and will serve well, which is great. Our youth pastor is called Thomas and he likes to speak in a loud voice about end times. The end times are probably my greatest fear… sometimes I’ll be at home alone (which rarely ever happens, I have a lot of siblings) and I’ll be scared that everyone else got raptured and I got left behind. But that’s normal.

We’re singing songs now, go tell it on the mountain.

Go tell it on the mountains

Over the hills and everywhere

Go tell it on the mountain

That Jesus Christ is born

Youth pastor Thomas says that’s our call to evangelise and do missionary. He says that if we don’t evangelise, it’ll be on us if a lot of people go to hell. Hell and end times. Those things scare me the most I think.

I’m also scared of sin, which links back to everything, scared I’m gonna mess up. I’m slightly scared of God…,I respectfully fear the Lord. I’m not scared.

Esther is awake, so now I get to see how her green eyes hit the sunlight, it takes my breath away every single time. Esther has nice eyes. She’s looking at me writing this

‘You have nice eyes too. They’re blue. And you have nicer hair than me. Your white blonde hair makes you look like a pretty lamb’

That’s what she’s saying. She’s so seeet, and we got stuck in a loop of complimenting each other.

‘The only lamb here is the lamb of GOD!’ I said, half jokingly, half not. And we kept on singing.

Ok, we’re here! It looks really nice, gotta unpack and then move into rooms. I’m in a room with my sister Divine and Esther and Felicity Sam’s and Ruth Lampert. Good group. Gotta go unpack!

Forever the Lords,

Grace

#tw christianity #tw religion #tw evangelical #diary of a teenage Christian girl #my writing

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inabarbi3world · 1 year

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this is my live reaction to 6x10 (ish)

*SPOILERS*

i really thought the siblings’ dad was gonna die… i was hella scared

THE FACT THAT BUCK IS LIKE “sometimes things happen out of our control and we can’t prepare for it”

HOLY FUCKING SHIT ALBERT BROUGHT BACK THEIR FUCKING PRENTNENSNSNTNNRNRNRNFN WHAT THE FUCK OMG IM SO SCARED OMG

wait, D…? what’s going on there…?

the father wanted to see them… okay… i’m a bit skeptical… they’re all together… “jee yun deserves a grandfather” no. not if he’s gonna treat her like he treated chim

oh I WAS S O CONFUSED BUT NOW I SEE WHAT THEYRE DOING OKAY GO ATHENA AND MAY!!! SLAYYYYYY

o tamara… what’s her role gonna be i wonder…

“exclusive” uh huh

100,000 DOLLARS???????????? HELLO?????????

ok. “harm reduction” k. no b it lowkey this is such an interesting storyline i really like bobby’s resolve here but i also get what athena’s trying to say but bobby is gonna bobby

“it’s not right it’s missing something” SECRET INGREUDIENTS??? COCOA POWDER???? that’s so… slay

yeah bobby is not gonna let it go… OH SHIT THE FUCKING GAP OMG IM SO INVESTED BRO OMG

omg he was a shitty father… people can change but chim is allowed to be skeptical tf

OMG A PREGNANT LESBIAN HELP MEEEE WHATS GOING ONNNN THE SCREAMING I- GIRL JUST BREATHE OMG-

i… WHAT IN THE ACTUAL FUCKING FUCK HELLO? i’m……… they better not die.

woah wait they actually have that shit omg that’s fucking amazing and genuinely so useful

THE BABY WAS FUCKING EJECTED???????????????????? HOLY FUCKING SHIT OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG OH MYGOGOODODODODODODDOODDODODODODODODODODODODODODODODDODODODODODODO WHATTHEINTHEHELLLLOJMYKYOGOFODOSTHRFUCKINTBABBAYWHONTHEEHSHBACK??????????OH NAH WHAT IN THE FUCK I… there better not be another lightning strike or something cause something about this feels so icky idk… jesus christ that scene was so nerve wracking omg

lol margaret girl… pls. o shit. GREAT???? what? okay…? nah one of them or both of them are dying or something i refuse to believe they’re just “nice” now oh also can chim’s dad shut the fuck up? thanks idc that he was raised that way just be quiet and keep your opinion to yourself and NOW THEYRE ALL ARGUING GREAT.

aww hi jee yun you sweet baby

WHATS D DOING? IM SO CONFUSED

WHAT THE FUCK, UM OKAY?????????????? WHAT IS GOING ON??????? omg. ok. talking to his dad ig

omg can we stop with this whole bullshit about forgiving chim’s dad???? why can’t he decide to do that in his own time???????? this episode is very interesting

OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT HWRE WE FUCJING GO HWRE WE FUCKING GO BUCK HEYTING FUCKING HHURT HOKY SHIT HOLY SHIT IM SO FUCJING SCARED I WANNA SEE EVERYONE’S REACTION

this whole ep has dealt with fatherhood/family and idk what it means but also bobby’s storyline and i’m really liking it bUT

i’m so fuCKING TERRIFIED IK THEYRE NOT GONNA KILL HIM OFF BUT JUST KNOWING HOW FUCKING BAD IT WILL BE TERRFIES ME, WHAT SONG ARE THEY GONNA PLAY? OH MY FUCKING GOD HOMY FUCKINGDHIT BUCKKKKKKKKKKK OH MY GOD OH NO EDDIE OH MY HEN OH NO HLOHNYMGGODOITSHAOOEBINGITHAOOENEDOMYGODEDDIRIMMEDIETALRYWENTTOESRDSITBUCK OMG EDDIE OMG GHIS IS SO FUCKING TERRIFYING BUCKKKKKK

…

the zoom in on the hat? y’all joking? omg fuck y’all see y’all next week.

#911 fox #911 season 6 #evan buck buckely #buddie #eddie diaz #911 hen #buddie 911 #madney #but also fuck this scene #chimney han

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perpetually-sad-but-its-fine · 1 year

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chicago pd 10x10

TRIGGER WARNING: RAPE/SEXUAL ASSULT. ITS NOT AT ALL MENTIONED IN THIS REVIEW BUT IS VERY MUCH PRESENT IN THE EPISODE. PLEASE PROCEED CAREFULLY

alright

this is a nice start

poor torres looks so lost

what in the actual hell is this story tho

adam checking up on torres is peak big brother behavior

‘how’re you getting home, man? i drove you’

‘uh, there's a thing called uber’

we love torres for that

adam and dante are now besties

im sorry

but i don't make the rules

adam coaching torres is great

i love it

adam further proving that bob ruzek was a shit father is great

we love bob ruzek slander here

oh yay

a call

can't wait to see how this goes

i don't have a good feeling about this

at all

im scared

irrelevant but adam and dante make a good team

watch it be only for this episode and it never happens again

oh shit

what's happening

oh no

ohhhhh noooooo

these poor people

aw dante being so considerate

he’s so kind

i love him

oh this poor poor woman

its not even five minutes in

and im crying

DANTES SO SWEET

SOO SWEETTTT

why can't we ever have a break

oh hailey looks GOOD

god i hate this so much

kim looks *mwah*

KEVINS STYLE

jesus christ im just thirsting over all of them

adam and danteeeee

danteee and kevinnnnn

i don't like this guy

this detective is a dick

i do not like him at all

youre worried about solving enough cases to keep your record up

instead of the victims

I DONT LIKE HIM

dante

im in love with you

I DO NOT LIKE THIS DETECTIVE

i wanna stab him

this is fun

i never understand how they can read the license plates from so far away

only thing I can see his blurred blobs

how do they do it

OH MY GOD DANTE SAVED ADAMS LIFE

holy fucking shit

oh no

this keeps getting worse and worse

i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it

no no no no no no no no

come on

guess detective dick is atucally useful

holy fucking shit

nope

still a dick

oh no

detective dickwad

i hate you

with everything I got

jump off a fucking cliff

poor dante

guys still a newbie

and dealing with all this bs

dante works so well with all of them

i love it

detective dick is back

i wanna kill you

i also don't believe you

youre dick face

hes getting rid of dante cuz he did something

i know it

oh i wanna see how this goes

dante hurry it up

come on

i don't want detective dick to come back

i don't believe his statement

at all

detective dick threatened him

i know it

dante would be a great detective

i want him to be one

FUCKING DETECTIVE DICK

ILL KILL YOU

I WANT TO CARVE HIS EYES OUT

ILL DO IT

dante looks like hes about punch him

i don't blame him

also

i love the way Kev says ‘chicago pd’ before slamming the door

YES

MY BABY

DANTE YOURE SO GOOD

YOURE FUCKING PERFECT

AND DETECTIVE DICK

DONT EVEN LOOK AT MY BABY

shut the fuck up asshole

nobody likes you

trudyyyy

YES

TRUDY AND DANTEEE

I LOVE TO SEE ITTTT

god

i love how everyones looking out for torres

hes the baby of the unit

and everyones taking care of him

you don't understand

I LOVE IT

this interrogation is interesting

im curious to see where it goes

kev looking at torres

hes concerned for his baby brother

GET OUT OF THE WAY DETECTIVE DICK

HE WOULD HAVE ANSWERED

YOU FUCKIN IDIOT

WHATS WRONG WITH YOU

COME ON

kevvv

my sweet baby

please

i love you so much

take care of torres

shut the fuck up man

this is your fault

torres

what're you going to do

adam and torres

again

i love my babies

what did he find

oop

what's gonna happen

please adam

support him

plEASE

LISTEN TO HIMM

oh no

come on

chicago pd writers

the fuck are you doing

please don't destroy their potential friendship

i need this more than you understand

where's this going

thank you adam

YES

‘before WE doing anything at all’

I LOVE THEIR PARTNERSHIP

poor larry

dudes just trying to do his job

and then ruzek comes along

i wanna know what happenssss

adam

just play the goddamn video

lets seeeeee

fucking detective dick

i hope you rot in hell

ooooo

the witnessss

we’re backkkkk

oh this poor guy

FUCKS SAKE

I KNEW IT

detective dick

i will MURDER you

i feel so bad for alex

this guy didn't ask for any of this

AGHHHHHH

I DONT LIKE THIS

I WANT TO K I L L HIM

oh how's this gonna go

god i don't like either of these options

IM GONNA CRY

adam and dante heart to heart

we love to see it

how're they gonna explain this to voight

real smart ruzek

voight humouring them is great

he knows what's happening

and he doesn't want to question it

we love it

oh mY GOD

THIS IS REALLY

oH MY GOD

whAT

i lowkey want voight to find out about what's happening

he’ll somehow make this better and worse

we’ll see

EVERYTIME I SEE HAILEY I DROOL AND THEN I CRY FOR HER

oh no

NOOOOOO

COME ONNNN

ITS HAPPENING AGAIN

THAT POOR WOMAN

hailey looks great

detective dick is gonna do something stupid, isn't he?

he will

i can feel it

i'll slap him

TORRES

SAVE THE DAY

PLEASE

if detective dick ruins this, ill riot

i will

I CANT HANDLE THIS

PLEASE

I WANT THIS TO BE OVER

dick

don't ruin this

torres wait

he might have a better idea

comE ON

TORRES

oh this actually worked

maybe i don't hate you as much anymore dick

maybe you aren't terrible

i change my min

you are extremely terrible

OOP

FIGHT

FIGHTTTT

TORRES

BEAT HIS ASS

YOU COME NEAR MY BABY

I WILL MAKE YOU BEG AND SCREAM FOR MERCY

voight

do something

bro

torres

youre awakening something in me

thaT VOICe

AGH

OH MY GOD

PLEASE

‘this is why i became a cop’

sir please

im not strong enough

voight looks so proud

ruzek and torres

again

in a bar

oh no

poor dante

im so sorry

ugh

i hate detective dick

with every fiber of my being

oh no

‘i just became apart of the blue wall’

oh poor poor dante

adam doing his best

hes so nic

trying to advise dante

god I miss season one Adam

he was so innocent and carefree

and now look at him

trying to convince the newbie that everything's okay

god

im not strong enough for the next episode

im really not

#*kissy kissy* watches chicago pd #chicago pd 10x10 #adam ruzek #dante torres #kevin atwater #chicago pd #hailey upton

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so sorry feel free to skip, big rant ahead.. but good ending :)

i really hope i can get free university tuition for the next year.. there are two vacant positions atm and i think i have a great chance of getting one.. i enrolled last year with 50% discount based on exam results but this discount is only kept if you stay high enough in student ratings and it kept me awake at night throughout the year and feeling guilty, and the workload was completely draining, and i was physically unwell and um. 0 friends and so i had a complete mental breakdown at the end of the year + a failed class and no year-end thesis which meant i needed an individual plan for the next year which meant no discount AND additional pay for extra courses. Decided to drop out, but instead re-enrolled in the same program for the second time to preserve 50% exam discount which is still appliable. Asked for credit recovery for all of the courses i actually completed last year and bless the faculty office because they agreed and spent this year taking my sweet time recovering and attending uni 3 times a week for language classes and thesis. And funny thing is i did pretty well last year. But complete burn out and absolutely shattered mental health, i really couldnt do it anymore. and i don't think ive recovered from it completely, i now resent the thought of any kind of confrontation or trying hard at something or taking an additional interest in something because that just means more work and thought. none of it pays off. i now give up when met with the smallest inconvenience and pushing through with anything is too much. i played The Sims Fucking 3 University one time and got so anxious and mad because the memory was painful. And i dont even remember the stuff that happened during last year that well at all, its all a complete haze, like it never even happened, but somehow still had its consequences. but like pretty much everyone was going through the same stuff in the same circumstances, but i didnt see anyone else struggling that much so i ended up thinking i am a wimp just wasting our and others' time and money and didnt complain or express my worries to anyone. i didnt exactly have anyone to express them to but well....

on the bright side i think I have succeeded in developing a "fuck-all" mentality in the last year and i hope to utilize it next time i am met with the same workload. Plus my groupmates this year round are amazing. i struggle to form close friendships or acquaintences, but they are all very nice and sweet and supportive of one another, its really nothing ive ever seen of classmates or colleagues. And i also think i have made good progress in learning Finnish and have regained just a bit of my passion for linguistics, i wouldnt want to resent the field forever because if it comes to academics i dont think im suited for anything else. my mother has been nagging me about taking what is essentially a gap year, and saying i was making stuff up when i told her about my decision and that ive been really struggling for the past year, even though i was just wailing at the time. But its alright i guess, i don't take it to close to heart, although it does make me so mad sometimes.

im better off now, but im still so scared of plunging back into all that anxiety, restlessness, exhaustion, competition and feelings of stupidity and inferiority. I have mostly dealt with the last two, but i dont think i will be able to take the stress if it is the same as last year. If i stay on paid tuition, then i have to continue securing my discount. And that means extra work in every subject, because you can't get max and pre-max grade by just completing the course perfectly, you're required to do extra work for the last two marks. I realize and understand that this is a common system, but jesus fucking christ i want to be able to choose not to do so and still continue studying like normal, not be handicapped in learning stuff i actually have to learn in other subjects because of useless shit i need to waste my time on for that sweet sweet 9 or 10. and you're competing both with people like you on paid tuition AND with people on free tuition who have some issues i think as the difference between mark 8 and mark 10 is only seen in the student rating and not recorded in the diploma, and the student rating does not mean jack shit if you're on free tuition, literally no one cares for it outside of calculating discounts and transfering from paid to free tuition. I don't want to think badly of those on free tuition who choose to compete in the system, but i believe i have become too senstitive about this topic. I want to bonk them with a cardboard tube to make them change their minds and see the appeal of being free to fuck all when it comes to grades and just do what they actually enjoy in the academics field or on the side, but that doesnt happen.

and so i have a pretty good chance of getting on free tuition with my current grades. I worked my ass off last year with most of the courses, and i got a "great" on both language classes and thesis this year. As far as i know, im first in rating among those on paid tuition. im sending mind control waves to faculty so that they give me that free tuition. i promise i will get worse grades on purpose so that people who are still stuck in clinging to discount hell have a bit of an easier time. i'll read papers for fun and find joy in learning new things again. i will do minimum wage monotone work needed for dictionaries or corpora like all the cool kids. Fuck it, i will do some afterclass activities now that ill be able to afford to spend my free time on random shit. ill attend historical dance meetings regularly, its really fun. ill make some friends even. just PLEASE give me the free tuition. if i don't, i will sigh deeply and continue trying to grind, but ill be upset.

maybe i need to stop whining and just go on with it like everybody did, but pleaseeeeeee. I think i worked hard. I completed every assignment without taking a look at how much it weighed in the grade formula. I helped fellow students when they struggled with something. I had almost perfect attendance. THIS stupid thing will change my life, stupid thing being free tuition. i cant afford to not get a mind boggling cool education, my family will execute me. Please just let me get my stupid little linguistics degree (i mean it includes programming and maths so.) and go on with my life... ...

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10 thru 30 of tommy?

Jesus christ NUMBERS. this is way too long THANK YOU FOR THE ENRICHMENT THO. im sorry i care too much about a joke character oTL

10) Neuroses? Do they recognize them as such? Oh buddy. neuroses, he has em, and does acknowledge them. He's autistic for the obvious one, it has the most clear impact on his life and is the one that has a formal diagnosis. But he does also have (pretty well managed, mostly) anxiety. His thing with rules and safety protocol goes hand in hand with it, he has gotten to the point where he can talk himself into calming down about impending disasters by just recalling how to deal with anything that could go wrong. But the 'I'm scared' default response is real, especially in the fucking apocalypse. He's a guy for which routine is really important.

11) Intellectual pursuits? Well, he made a fucking immortal dog, i think that was a pretty big one. Biology and biochem/bioengineering seem to be things hes very into, but sadly im not smart enough in these spaces to pinpoint much down.

12) Favorite book genre? Unironically nonfiction. Very dense instructional documents and peer reviewing papers. As for fiction? Sci-fi, although thats usually more for movies.

13) Sexual Orientation? Ace & gay.

14) Physical abnormalities? (Both visible and not, including injuries/disabilities, long-term illnesses, food-intolerances, etc.) Nah i think he doesn't have any physical weirdness, its all in his head LOL None of his food issues are allergies either, its all just textural disgust.

15 & 16) I'll be honest, idk about long term goals for him, i feel like this is more of a story based prompt idk. Hm.

17) Preferred mode of dress and rituals surrounding dress? He's got a very. Hm. interesting sense of fashion. This is a guy who unironically likes wearing a propeller hat. I think he's got a few other stupid hats as well, a golf visor (sorry i think he would get a kick out of the Disco Elysium froggy visor), some baseball caps with nerd shit on em. Shirts are Hawaiian shirts in loud and fun prints, sometimes unbuttoned over a graphic tee if hes feelin real casual. Chinos or golf shorts for bottoms. For jewelry, hes got a nice watch with date dials n all in it and an ace ring thats also a spinner ring for the fidget. Equally loud and fun socks with slip on canvas shoes. Does NOT like to be barefoot, wears aquashoes to swim and slippers or socks around the house. I hope you are getting the vibe of 'Had to Do it to Em' guy if he could could reclaim faggot.

18) Favorite beverage? It literally is Sunkist, but NOT the orange, its the strawberry. He also likes fruity mixed drinks, particularly the blended icy ones, usually tequila based. (Besides this, he does say strawberry coolattas are his favorite)

19) What do they think about before falling asleep at night? Tomorrows activities/going over plans. For the good, its thinking about Sunkist and what's for dinner, etc. For the bad, its ruminating on disaster outcomes and going over safety plans in his head, like rotely going thru fire escape paths in whatever place he's going to next.

20) Answered here: https://www.tumblr.com/filamints/715793409603993600/gordon-1-10-14-tommy-20-48-benrey-36

21) Turn-ons? Turn-offs? Sigh. Preemptive sorrys. He likes mean people and is a brat tamer and pet owner by nature, just look at his choice in boyfriends (in this case Benrey and Gordon). The intersection of asexuality and kink may look like a weird space from the outside but thats his home. Does Not like to be touched as a general rule. He's here for the enjoyment of his partners. This is all I can elaborate on here. Sorry.

22) Given a blank piece of paper, a pencil, and nothing to do, what would happen? Lots of doodles if allowed. He's not a good artist by any stretch but drawing out simple patterns/building mandala-y shapes is just fun mindless activity

23) How organized are they? How does this organization/disorganization manifest in their everyday life? Its an organized chaos type. Everything has a home but in a way that makes no sense to outsiders. His decorating is colorful and cluttered in a knicknack way, but everything feels right where it belongs and is on display nicely.

24) Is there one subject of study that they excel at? Or do they even care about intellectual pursuits at all? Oh yeah, the whole bio-engineering thing. He also just likes to learn and read for the sake of it too.

25) How do they see themselves 5 years from today? Gettin crazy with it in his 40s baybieeeee.

26) Do they have any plans for the future? Any contingency plans if things don’t workout? Really I think he was perfectly content in his life pre-ResCas. So now I think it's like... find a new job in a lab.

27 & 28: Answered here: https://www.tumblr.com/filamints/715720444483862528/tommy-27-28-35?source=share

29) Reaction to sudden extrapersonal disaster (eg The house is on fire! What do they do?) Outside disasters are handled with instinctual adrenaline fueled instinct mixed with memorized disaster protocol. 'Body moving on autopilot' behavior. Luckily he has very good instincts and a LOT of safety measures memorized.

30) Reaction to sudden intrapersonal disaster (eg close family member suddenly dies) Oh no, hes very much a quietly shuts down into nonverbal mode type. Stressors are dealt with by himself. Physical repetitive stims as distraction is about all for his mental disaster plans. When he doesnt have access to anything else in canon, that becomes clicking through empty cartridges and generally messing with his gun. Even if other people are having their own disasters, he is just not a verbally comforting person. When Gordon begs him to talk in canon when they first reunite post betrayal, Tommy doesnt really have anything to say. Its simply not how he works.

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Jesus Christ, Emblem of Roses had me shaking i just got back to tumblr and was looking for some Jake fics and I found yours with the angst tag and im like oh angst nice~ but it BLEW MY MIND!!! I needed several moments in between because part 1 was intense. Also yes, I fell for the prologue I expected some longing and lost lovers and shit I didn't expect full on HBO's medieval drama?! Hello this tickles my need for medieval AU AND drama. You weren't kidding M'Lord Jake was mean. I hope the angst strike back at him ten times. And Maggie (m'Lady~) is such bae, but I'm scared if reader gets too comfortable with her and she pulls a face heel turn I'll be sad :((((

- E

Thank you so much for reading. ❤️

Anon, I sell angst in bulk. Whole-sale angst!

Yeah, I take the angst tag very serious. It hurts so bad but I hope the comfort and Jake's redemption will be worth it.

Part 1 was the setting stage for everything so I cramped a lot of things (angst) in it. Hopefully the next part reader can take a breather. Maggie is, how do I say, very cunning. She's the strategist after all. It's also hinted in part 1 that she's behind a lot of house gyllenhaal's moves, including politics and propaganda. So reader has to be careful around her. 👀

I feel you anon 🥺, I really like medieval fantasy but they're uncommon in fics (I guess you can say royal AU is the same, but to me, medieval AU is darker and grittier). I want to write a medieval AU for Jake and Maggie for quite some time, but only now got to it. Thanks to @gyllenhaalstories who indulges me in my fits of brain vomit (GREAT WRITER, you should check her out ).

#E anon #nat answers #fic: emblem of roses

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Hate words for your moon sign <3

Aries moon- i seem to attract them, which is a problem because i hate these fuckers. Immature, selfish and irresponsible, they are oblivious to the fact that they need to work on themselves ( like literally all of us ) because they perceive themselves to have some sort of moral advantage for “always being right” ( my ass ). They also love weed and probably alcohol too ( cause god forbid they actually feel their emotions ). Theyre just big babies.

Taurus moon- unmovable, unshakable, will die on the stupidest of hills out of sheer stubbornness. They know everything since they were 3 and so theres no reason for them to get out of bed. Movies? Seen them all and if they havent, they already know the one you wana take them to is no good. Music? Pfft. Do you even know who bach is?

Gemini- yall have commitment issues the size of pluto and youre not doing anything about it. You are a menace. Basically draco malfoy but if he wasnt even rich and hot so he had literally no redeeming quality.

Cancer- even i, a particularly sensitive and emotional individual, cant handle your crying ass. Mommy issues WE GET IT!! Friends with this placement will make everyone in the group baby them and partners will suck your tits FLAT. Not to mention how EMO they truly are. Like 6 pete wentzs on the emo scale.

Leo- thank god none of yall seem to like me cause i swear to god you need 15 times more attention than the average human. Your redeeming quality is that youre funny. But if you dont stop acting like rachel berry im gonna laugh at you and not with you. Did i mention theater kid?

Virgo- youre so wrecked emotionally that i actually feel bad for you instead of wanna make fun of you. Like jojo siwas career. Its like you have the meanest most insidious person in your head judging every single thing you or anyone says or does or feels or thinks. Jesus christ, we all need therapy but you neeed therapy.

Libra- i dont trust a single word that comes out of yalls mouths. Youre people pleasing, co dependents, and eeeeverything must lead to you being good and nice. Youre no fun. And when you are its for other people to think youre fun. Also youre deeply delusional and limerant ( look it up ), and i can just sense you falling in love with everyone and everything for no reason. Ew.

Scorpio- listen here you piece of shit, i know you want everyone to be scared of you but im no fool. Literally no one finds you mysterious and intimidating, your just no fun. And yes, we can tell you cry to evanescence every night. Redeeming quality is that youre hot, but looks dont last and youre gonna be one cranky old peson.

Sagittarius- every time you tell i joke i can see tears behind your eyes. Youre not fooling anyone with your pseudo esoteric shit. Also chill tf out!! Please!! Youre either angry or excited.

Capricorn- like virgo, no amount of hate words coming from me will do a capricorn moon justice, because they are already hating on themselves so hard. They are under the delusion that its everyone around them that is the problem but deep inside they know, its themselves they feel bad about. And no you dont actually enjoy being productive, its just that your self worth is entirely dependent on being useful.

Aquarius- you are literally insane. The most delusional people ive met. None of your reactions make sense. You are constantly running away from being actually vulnerable and open, coming up with either brilliant or extremely dumb excuses, and your love life is suffering the consequences of your avoidant ass. At least your social life is good, but hey, at what cost??

Pisces- thank fucking god youre a rare species. Kind of like virgo, i almost dont wanna make fun of you because i feel bad. But in your situation i also have no desire to help your overly dramatic ass. Youre not just anxious, youre something on a whole new level and you probably require huge amounts of food/alcohol/tobbacco or something to keep it all bottled up. Good fucking luck to anyone who falls in love with you!! Ps if you wanna be a poet be a poet, dont be like umm UwU can i show you my poetry UwU 👉👈

If youre mad about this post, complain to my mother.

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january 18- february 16, 2024

last nice thing he said to me was in mid october. and i know he sucked but maybe he didn’t and i did instead and i just ruin the good things that come my way -----

apparently they’ve broken up because she was bored or smth. which objectively sucks for him and i’m sorry that happened. but also like obviously makes me feel a little satisfaction. the thing is tho like now this opens up a whole new territory of . no it doesnt. jesus christ. i wouldve stayed wuth him we all know tbis it wouldve been fine but ig he didnt want thag and yk what it honestly props to her has made hik more confident, hes in band now and he takes art and he puts his hair up and has a photo of his face and so obviously im fucking jealous because why didn’t i do that. maybe i made him better in someway idk how u could get bored of a relationship that’s crazy it just means u don’t wanna be with them basically. and he didn’t wanna be w me. which is awesome. idk what i’m saying. i’m saying that if he had been an intelligent person or just a more caring and long term focused person, maybe we would’ve still been together. but ig he had different needs too right like i couldn’t eat lunch w him every single day and yeah idk -----

went on a date w a man. it was ok. idk -----

i mean i literally have to be the problem. like crofton and sadie r great, sidney and evelyn are great, ira and his gf r great, even dustin and lake were great. fuckinf cameron dated that girl for four years. idk what’s wrong w me -----

i had a dream abt dustin again. woohoo. it has officially been a year. and i am maybe less sad abt it but still very sad. i think i’m just scared of being alone and not having someone validate me as a good person. i don’t think anyone else i’ve dated still thinks i’m a good person. and maybe they’re right. they’ve all dated better people for longer after me. i was just this shitty patch in their life.

#2024

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alba8688 · 6 months

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Thanksgiving with The Hendersons

Chapter 12

Word count : 2013

Eddies pov

"Son why are you so nervous ?we are only going to the Henderson's ." Well Wayne Dustin's sister is my girlfriend and I'm about to have Thanksgiving dinner with her family even though they don't know who i am.Thats why I’m nervous .Thats what I wanted to tell him but I couldn’t yet .I knew he was going to

Figure out everything the moment he asked Dani what she did ..

"You know I'm not good with people ." I was the only thing I said, Wayne just chuckled and left the room to finish making the green bean casserole he was taking to the Henderson's thanksgiving dinner .

I was surprised he even knows how to cook .

I decided to wear black dressed pants with a white button shirt and my usual chain on the pants and black high top converse. I also put my hair in a low bun .

I think I look nice.

Dani thinks im handsome so I'm starting to believe her .

Dani had texted me wanting a picture of what I was gonna wear so we can match I just told her I was wearing black and white I wonder what she is gonna wear for tonight ?

E:"Hey sweetheart."

…….💬

D:"Hey baby are you guys coming already ?"

……..💬

E:"Yes about to hop on the van ."

……..💬

D:"ok see you here baby I love you ."

……..💬

E"love you too."

"And who you might be texting that you have a big smile on your face ?"uncle Wayne asked, scaring me I didn't know he was standing right next to me .

"Is Dani ."I said softly feeling my cheeks turn red.

"When am I meeting her ?" He ask

"Soon." That's all i reply and he will be meeting sooner than he thought like in a few minutes .

"Are you ready ?" Uncle Wayne ask me .

"Yes lets go ." I grab my keys and headed to my van and drove off to Dani's house .

The whole drive was like an intervention my uncle kept asking about what was Dani doing today and how come I wasn’t spending this holiday we her or how come he couldn’t meet her ?He even said that maybe I just made her up .

“She is so fucking real.” I scoffed making my uncle chuckled I honestly didn’t find anything funny .

“What’s so funny ?” I asked him

“Nothing ,nothing.”

Ok now that I turned into The street where Dani’s mom leave I knew I wasn't actually ready at all I was nervous as fuck I didn't know how to act in front of Dani knowing she was mine but had to pretend as if she was nothing to me I hate it so much I wish things were different but they weren’t.

When we arrived I got down from the van fixing my hair and my clothes .

"Son you look good stop worrying is not like Dani is gonna be there ." He chuckles

Only if knew he was finally gonna meet Dani the love of my life my fucking history teacher .

Jesus Christ!! what did i get myself into ?

Before we even knock the door burst open .

"Eddie im glad you made it ." A cheerful

Dustin greeted us and leads us inside the house .

Even thought it was a cold night I felt like I was burning ,my hands were sweating I was sweating I felt like I was suffocating in

This clothes .

I heard Dani's voice coming from upstairs

Shouting something to her mom .

"Mom ! Eddie and his uncle are here ! !!" Dustin shouts to his mom.

We heard shuffling in the kitchen and Dustin told us to follow him there to leave the green bean casserole

"Hi Sweet Eddie ." Dustin mom gives me a big hug and a kiss on the cheek and I just smile At her nervous as fuck .

I mean I met her before so many times but this time it felt different .

"Hi wayne how are you ."

"Doing great ,here we brought this ." He says placing the casserole on the table

"Oh you shouldn't have too but thank you so much ." Dani's mom is the sweetest lady I've ever met but too overprotective but the nicest .

"Come on take a seat turkey is ready we are just Waiting on my daughter who went to change really fast ."

“That girl change like 5 times today.” She chuckles .

20 minutes must have passed before Dani came down to the kitchen and she left me speechless. She looked beautiful. I think I was falling in love all over again .

(Dani's pov)

"Hello Mr.Munson ." I shake Eddie's uncles

hand And look at Eddie who was standing next to his uncle not saying a word .

But ogling at me .

I smile at him,but I felt like my heart stop I die and went to heaven and came back in a second because Eddie look so fucking handsome,well he always did but tonight he look more attractive if that was even possible .

"Hello Edward."I extend my arm for him to shake it but he looks flabbergasted and is stuck in place not able to move or say anything he just stood there speechless staring at me .

I giggle at his dorkiness .

His uncle slightly hits his arm for him to shake my hand and takes him out of whatever trance he was in.

"Hi ,Miss.Henderson ." He says softly, not taking his eyes off me .

"Miss.Henderson?" Wayne asks, confused, he looks at me then at Eddie.

"Yes umm she is My History teacher ." Eddie tells him.

Wayne almost choked on his saliva when Eddie told him that .

He pointed at me then at Eddie ,I didn't know what was going on and why was his uncle acting this way .

"Oh my god are you ok Wayne ?" My mom asked worriedly running over to us.

"Yes im fine ."he said

After that awkward encounter We all sat down at the table my mom taking a seat at the head of the table ,Dustin to her left and uncle Wayne next to Dustin

My mother told Eddie to sit next to me and I sat on the right side of my mom with Eddie next to me. This was the most awkward dinner I ever had in my life .

I just wanted this to be over so I can head home and lay down in bed with Eddie.

Before eating we said a prayer ,I felt Eddie's hand squeeze my thigh making me jump a little and thank God know-one saw cause they all had there eyes close .

"Ok dig in ."my mom said excitedly after she finished her prayer.

Eddie served me my plate but I was too nervous to eat. I felt the butterflies in my stomach going crazy as if they were having a party inside my stomach and I wasn't invited .

I don't know why I felt like this if Eddie and I had been together already for a month going on two.

He still made blushed like crazy and in-front of my mother and Dustin this was torturous .

"So you Two know each other ?" My mom ask Eddie and I.

We both nod our heads yes

"She is his teacher ."

Dustin says with his mouth full of food

"Oh what a disappointment sweetheart I really wanted you to meet Eddie you two are so much alike ."my mother was trying to set me up with Eddie Jesus Christ if only she knew.

"So does my nephew give you any trouble ?" Uncle Wayne ask

Eddie's hand goes back to my thigh gently caressing it I try not to turn to look at him

And kiss him right there and then .

"Oh no he is great student and he is actually passing my class"I responded uncle Wayne almost choke on his drink then look at Eddie with wide eyes .

I turn to look at Eddie but he was mouthing something to his uncle didn't pay too much attention to it .

I heard Dustin say something under his breath but couldn't quite make what he said

The whole dinner was so awkward my mother saying that Eddie and I would make such a cute couple.

But it was a shame I was his teacher .

She argue that Eddie was 20 already and that it shouldn't matter anymore .

I just wanted this night to be over I wanted to head home sleep in my bed .

After dinner was over Eddie and I were washing dishes while mom and Wayne had a smoke outside .

"You look beautiful ." Eddie whispers to me

"Thank you ,You don't look bad yourself Munson ." I say shyly

"So my uncle and your mom had this planned out already to set us up ." He chuckles

"Yup apparently."I reply washing the last plate and passing it to Eddie for him to dry

The front door open and I heard Will,Lucas,mike ,El and max walk in .

"Dani !!" I heard mike shout ,I think that boy has a crush on me .

"In the kitchen !!" I shouted back

They seem To be arguing about something.

"Wow Dani you look beautiful." Mike said and turn to look at Will "yes she looks beautiful." Will said as well blushing

"Thank you guys ,you Two look so handsome too ."I give them both a kiss on the cheek making them blush ,Eddie clears his throat and trows the towel that he was drying the dishes with at mikes face.And mimicked what Mike told me making me chuckle .

"Hey!!!what was that for ??"

I turn back to look at Eddie and hit him in his arm

"Ouch !"he winced in pain overreacting like he always does i didn't even hit him

That hard .

Eventually Eddie left to drop off his uncle home telling me he would meet me at the apartment .

I stay with the kids for a bit longer talking about stupid things and about D&D I always had good

Times with them I really missed hangin out with them.

I should really make more

Time for them .

But with working and going home to grade papers then hiding with Eddie in my apartment every day I never had time but I needed to make some time hopefully during the Christmas break I can make some time for them,before I leave for vacation .

I have something plan for Eddie and I well it was his Christmas gift he always told me how he wanted to visit New York on Christmas and celebrate New Year's Day over there so I got us both tickets to go to New York and we where leaving on the 26th to spend New Year's Day over there .

Hopefully he like my present .

And that’s when I was going to tell

Him my secret hopefully he would take it well.

I said my Goodbyes to everyone apparently the kids were spending the night with Dustin and I'm glad he wasn't gonna be alone tonight.

I headed home finally I was exhausted from helping my mom the whole day preparing food I just wanted to get home and rest .

I was so sleepy that my eyes kept closing by themselves but I had to keep myself awake because I was driving and it started snowing .

Not a good combination.My eyes kept closing by themselves and I kept swerving .

As I was driving I lost control of the wheel and almost hit the car on the next lane but that woke me up and stayed awake the whole drive home .

Once I got home I changed into my pjs. Eddie was already in my apartment waiting for me watching tv .He had already showered and changed into his pjs his pjs being just his boxer .

“Hi baby .” I yawned

“Hi .”he smiles

“I’m gonna go shower real quick .” I tell

Him ..

After the quick shower I took We both cuddle on the sofa after a long day I finally was able to be with Eddie and wasn't gonna leave his side until we went back to school on Monday .

(Dani’s outfit )

Next chapter

#eddie munson #stranger things #teacher crush #hawkins high #love #lovers #student #hawkins

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they literally believe or at least attest to the idea that the god of the old testament is literally blind, and also a kind of devil, but the devil is actually jesus christ, and they know this because of the bible that says the opposite of all this and a bunch more scrolls from thousands of years ago that just so happened to be found in some pots in a cave in the last hundred years by a boy who radomly through a rock at some patshards and some shcizo rambling from albert pike. its bullshit, its the most bullshit thing thats ever existed, i read both the nag hammid libraries and the other one the dead see scrolls, i wasnt convinced, it was close! it was close i can see how one might be tricked, especially if they had previously sucked cock and were looking for some convincing sounding cope. life is actually good, the god who made it is good, the parts he made are good anyway, the parts your father made are ass and thats the parts everyone points to when they talk about the fucking demiurge. nature is sometimes brutal, but most of the time its mild and serene, its the people.

more than anything they hate me for this shit, this is how they get the goyim to do their bidding btw, what you thought they let them become full blooded jews? no they get the lion snake cope.

what are the odds btw of a pot sitting in a cave undiscovered, unburied, and unbroken for two thousand years? the odds are fucking zero. the bible is the book, everything else is cope, the jewish religion didnt come first, they dont follow the old testament but the talmud which is the written version of the oral tradition of the pharisees which the god of the old testament despised. the talmud was not written until 800 ad at the latest or until this argument catches on and some fucking goatherder stumbles on a trillion year old pot in a cave. let me say it again, Christianity is the original, they will spread all kinds of lies to make it seem like no its an amalgamation of early canaanite pantheons, etc etc. the bible was the first of its kind, and the prophesies recorded in that book written two thousand years ago are true today, christ was hitler before hitler, kanye before kanye, calling them out to their faces, how incredible that a book from 2000 years ago not only manages to be relevant but EDGY? its no coincidence, if earth were a fantasy realm that you were reading about called Gorn, and there was a 2000 year old book in this universe called the cryble, and the prophesies lined up from that book as well as the bible does in our universe there would be no doubt in your mind it was divinely inspired and probably tied to the mainplot of the game you were playing.

god is not blind you are. blinded by the pride of your own understanding, hey ive been there too. i dont want to be in your fag club or in any fag club, i prefer my own company and always have, god walks with me, and your time is coming to an end. repent means in its most literal sense, to change your mind.

im not a catholic, dont take my constant crusade against liars to be a call for your personal repentance, i obviously have a pillar of salt in my own eye. it is really the liars, im nice to gay people in my day to day and trans and whatever. not because im scared of retribution but because i love them deeply. not because they are gay but in spite of it, just like they love me in spite of my wrath. i cannot love a lie and claim to love my brothers, if my brother walks down the road and is heading towards a concealed pit trap meant for wild game and i do not warn my brother do i love him? does it make a difference or not if i the day before fell in that very same trap? does it make me a hypocrite?

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storiesofmebyme · 1 year

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08/06/22

I’ve always wondered if you will wake up and know this is the day i'm going to die. The answer is no. If you care enough to listen there are definitely signs but you'll never see them through the tunnel vision of temptation. Not until you wake up and have no choice but to face it. The raw, ugly, bitter truth my addictions just won.

I remember it so vividly for someone who was unconscious (dead) for a majority of the experience. He hit it first, seemed so high but fine, right? I pondered the consequences of fentanyl and what I was doing. Too bad the high is right in my hands and I could never say no. Thanks to my bestie, temptation. I cared about what was going to happen to me but not more than I cared about feeling sweet bliss. So I hit it again. Black.

First, I felt the mask on my face, helping me breathe. I’m barely conscious, not awake enough to open my eyes, or speak, or fight. Just enough to know exactly what was happening. Back to black.

Then it happened, my eyes opened. Surrounded by dozens of paramedics and police. Faces everywhere. My heart sunk, hard. I can't describe the absolute shame that flowed through my body. The first words said, “Megan, you just died.” Talk about heart sinking. I just died? What The Fuck. I’m not sure what i thought overdosing meant but god damn that hit. So there I was, laying on a nasty concrete basement floor covered in sweat and shame. Rock bottom is a mother fucker i can tell you that.

The paramedics said “you just overdosed and died” several times before I had anything to say. Finally, I apologized enough times in 60 seconds to set a record. I asked for my phone to call my mom before i could even get the words out a male police officer says “you’re phone is in evidence.” It was like he was just waiting for me to ask so he could inform me of my first punishment. Finally, they ask if i want to go to the hospital and if i can get up. I asked if i should go, while this answer seems obvious, remember im still disoriented. The paramedics wasted no time making me feel less than “i mean you just died so yeah i would go” Well jesus fuckin christ lets get in the ambulance and go then. So, I leaned forward to get up, all i can say is fuck owowowowowow. My chest feels like a stampede just ran across me. All they had to say is “Is it just your chest that hurts? Thats because we just did cpr to save your life.”

I get that thank you so much, a warning would have been nice regardless. So here i am again surrounded by medics and police officers watching me wince in pain struggling to get up. Finally an absolute angel of a lady reaches out her hand. A hand i really fucking needed. I held her hand the whole way up the stairs. I was scared and so alone. With no way to contact anyone I love.

We got to the top of the stairs and I was completely winded so I stopped and said “I need help.” Something I genuinely never ask for because I know better. A plea that had gone ignored for far too long.. What do you know some stupid fucking male paramedic says “were gonna get you some help.” HA what a fucking epitome of my life. So I picked myself up and carried myself out just like always.

Now we're walking out of the house Grant says “I’m so sorry megan”

I didn't say a word. I just walked down the driveway looking at the ground while neighbors watched. Finally, I climbed into the ambulance. At Least I’m not surrounded by people anymore. Then the paramedic unknowingly in the ambulance asked two of the most awful questions he could come up with. The first “how old are you”

“23”

“arent you a little young to be doing this”

Listen bud, i appreciate it but no it was “too young” when i was 14 addicted to adderall and smoking dope by 15. Then he also had the nerve to ask “did you know other girls have died at this same house” yes. Yes i fucking did] they were my friends. I cant understand why i got a chance that they didnt. Why me? Why.

We get to the hospital and they're rolling me to my room and all i can think is this isnt real. There's no way I am getting wheeled on a bed to a hospital room. Damn i really fucked up this time, bad. We get to the room and they have me switch beds. My chest is on fire btw, some of the worst pain I have ever been through. Lets just say for health care professionals they were less than patient and empathetic. More like judgmental and degrading. The paramedic started telling the nurse what had brought me to the hospital. When the paramedic explained the severity of what had happened. I hear him say “ No she was in cardiac arrest for two minutes. She was did not have a pulse when we arrived.” This BITCH the nurse goes “oh Woooow.” Are you fucking serious? I’m in the

middle of understanding and accepting what has happened - alone- and this bitch says woooow?? Hell no find a new profession this one is not for you.

Unfortunately for me that was my nurse for the visit. Fml the punishment really fuckin showed up from the moment i woke up. So the nurse comes back and puts all these stickers all over me to check my heart. They were all over my chest and back. Knowing how many unwanted people had touched me that day made me sick. To the core. The person who gave me cpr was a man.. A man touched my lifeless body. Gross gross gross.

The rest of my hospital visit was really a blur. I woke up and asked for a blanket and the same bitch nurse says “but you’re sweating.” Alright bitch you really need a new job you’re a nurse thats never heard of cold sweats??? Come on now. Everytime i woke up i would ask to call someone literally anyone. I was so done being alone at this point. I needed to tell my family. I needed to tell everyone i loved so i could start feeling better asap. This wasnt a guilt a was willing to live with and I was ready to face it immediately. I knew i would disappoint so many people with my news but I knew they needed to hear it from me.

After many hours in the hospital I’m able to finally call my mom. At the time this is all I truly wanted. I knew my mom was going to make me feel safe. Of course she immediately burst into tears. Little did I know she was on her way back from Chicago and still hours away. So next best option is my grandma.. Oh god my grandma.

I’ll be honest my grandmother is not a quick person never has been a day in her life. She showed up to that hospital, fast. A blessing and a curse. She brought me comfort but it was immediately gone when she started asking for every detail. With every “She overdosed” “She died” and “She's very lucky” i felt my heart go deeper into my stomach. As I realized this is the beginning of alot of disappointment... How did I let myself get here?

Once my grandma was there I was nice and awake. Feeling every emotion deeply, painfully. Then a nurse half mentioned discharge and every emotion turned to anger and annoyance. I was ready to go. Clearly I was ok at this point I wanted my dogs and my bed. Mostly my dogs - my only real safe space. So they

unhooked me from the IV and went to get the discharge papers. I stood off angrily ripped all those little fucking stickers off of me and left.

The ride to my house was surreal. I called everyone immediately important to me and let the rest wait. My dogs were safe, my work dogs were safe and so far no one absolutely hated me. To me that meant i could finally start making peace with what i had done.

I got home and went to bed. And thats all i did for days. I just slept.

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barnes-n-nobles · 3 years

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Attention (SMUT)

Request: Smut. Bucky gets jealous of her for getting too close to his friend Steve. So he punishes her 🍆🤤

Sorry for the delay! Here it is and I hope you enjoy! Let me know what y’all think!

You and Bucky had been invited to Tony Starks birthday party tonight. In most cases you would have an outfit ready, but Bucky wanted to dress you today. You thought it was the cutest idea ever and you let him choose for you. He came out of your closet with a beautiful black dress , that had a slit on the side. He got you this as a gift during the first month that you guys started dating. You were saving it for a special occasion so you were a little shocked that he would bring it out for today’s birthday party. Your eyebrows slightly bunched together in confusion as Bucky laid it on your bed.

“Why that dress for today babe? It’s just Tony’s birthday, not the met gala” you chucked. Buckys metal hand traced the side of the dress and smiled at the thought of seeing your body in this sexy dress. “I just want to show off my beautiful girl. Plus, my tux is all black as well. You know how I love matching with you” he smiled as he went to place a soft kiss on your lips.

You nodded in agreement , taking the dress off the bed and walking into the bathroom to change. “I just hope this dress doesn’t get ruined like my last one…” you sighed smiling at the memory that started to form in your mind. “What do you mean, Doll?” Bucky asked curiously.

“One day, Steve and Thor got so drunk at Natashas party that they started having “cake wars” and I made the huge mistake of trying to take the cake away from them and Steve threw a handful of cake at me, while he was trying to get Thor. I was so mad because the dress I got for that day was super nice but I had to get rid of it…it was way too stained” you stated as you slid yourself into your dress.

Bucky rolled his eyes at the sound of Steves name leaving your lips. Him and Steve had some unspoken tension between them that always puzzled you. Little did you know, Steve wanted you for himself but Bucky moved way too fast and was able to cuff you up before Steve even thought about it. Bucky and him were inseparable but once they both realized they were after the same girl, they both got distant. Bucky loved his friend but he always got everything. The fame, love, praise, recognition. He wasn’t going to let him get you though, because you belonged to him. Only him.

“He better not start his shit or I’m going to fuck him up” he spat. “Bucky, you’re not an angel when you get drunk either you get pretty angry AND / OR get into fights with everyone. “ Bucky knew that he had to tame his demons when he was around you just because he didn’t want to scare you off, but it’s been getting harder and harder to control it as men had gotten a bit too brave around you. Bucky wasn’t the type of shy off when something made him mad.

~~~~Later that night~~~~

You and Bucky walked into Tonys home and it never failed to amaze you how beautiful his house was. You hope to one day share a home with Bucky. One where you could one day raise a family of pets and eventually even kids. He noticed you were busy thinking about something so he nudged you to bring you back from your daydreams. “What’s wrong Doll? You seem distracted.” asking with a little scrunch of his eyebrows. “Oh it’s nothing just thinking about this huge-“ You we’re cut off by a familiar voice. “Y/n, Bucky, so glad you guys could make it. You’re only like 1 Hr late but who’s keeping track.” You all chuckled and said happy birthday to Tony. “Come join us, the food just got served”. As you walked into his lavish dining area you said hi to everyone and sat down on the 2 remaining seats. Steve was on your right and Bucky on your left. He soon started to talk to Sam who’s was next to him. “Hey y/n…I haven’t seen you in a while. How’s it going?” Steve asked you giving you a quick hug. You thought that Bucky would have turned around or at least notice but he was too busy joking with Sam.

“Hey Steve it has been a while. Just going through life, you know.” You smiled warmly.

“I feel you. It’s so good to see you. Your little boyfriend likes to keep you all to himself huh?” He asked softly so that only you could hear him. You just smiled and shook your head side to side, not wanting to answer. Steve was always a flirt you thought, but in reality he liked to push your buttons to see your pretty little face flush. After dinner you all moved to Tonys living room, everyone consumed in their own conversations. Bucky was next to you the whole night , making sure you were having a good time as well. “I’m going to go upstairs real quick, Tony is needing a hand with one of his “toys”. I’ll be right back Doll” he said placing a kiss on your cheek. You nodded and decided to pick up your phone to check up on any notifications you had.

Steve gulped down his drink from across the room as he saw Bucky leave your side finally. He started to approach you as soon as he was out of sight. “All alone?” He asked looking down at your small frame. Your eyes snapped up to see Steve standing in front of you. “ For now, Bucky is out doing something “ you said looking in the direction that he walked “May I sit?” He asked with a smirk. You nodded and scooted over. You and Steve started having a nice conversation and got all caught up with eachothers lives. He brought you some drinks to loosen you up and they seemed to be working perfectly as you started to feel a bit more chill and relaxed. Steve laid his arm over the top of the couch and scooted closer to you, making your face turn hot but the closeness. Steve leans over close to your ear and whispered “You look absolutely stunning. Tell Bucky to bring you around me a little more, hun. I’m sure he’s the sharing type.” You knew he was getting a little too comfortable due to the drinks he’s been having but you tried not to make a big deal. “Steve, please.” you warned wanting him to know there was line he was approaching and that he hould not cross. “Please what y/n…. I never see you and I know for a fact it’s because of Bucky. I’m also your friend and I want to be around you and in your life. Don’t you want that?” You turned your face around to get a bit of separation. But then he used his thumb and index finger to turn your face towards him. “Well?”. You didn’t know what to say so you stayed silent just looking down. Steve was irritated and he let go. Standing up looking down at you. “When you make your own decisions, you know where to find me” he said turning around but then suddenly he bumped into a strong chest. Your eyes shot up and you were frozen.

There he was, his chest falling up and down in absolute anger. Looking straight into Steve’s eyes. “Get out of my face Buck.” Steve said in a low tone. Bucky didn’t say a word, his nose flaring and his chest rose and fell slowly with anger. His metal arm rapidly grabbed his throat. “DONT ever touch her again. I’ll fucking kill you” and with that he threw him across the room by his neck, hitting some tables and chairs as he fell to the ground. Everyone snapped their attention over to you guys a few gasps and screams erupting. You quickly stood up and got in front of Bucky, placing your hand on his bicep as if it would calm him down. “Please Bucky, stop...” you said looking over at Steve who was surrounded by people as they tried to help him up. Tony and Sam went over to you guys to make sure that Bucky wouldn’t escalate this any further. “Bucky, you need to control yourself. This isn’t the time nor place. “ Sam said turning to look at Steve who was now up and getting held back and talked to by Thor and Vision. “Jesus Christ Barnes, you could have at least given me some time to pull out my phone to record that.” Tony said making Bucky snap out of his trance and you could see a small smile starting to form. Sam rolled his eyes and shook his head. “But yes..like Sam said. Not the time and definitely not the place. Pepper is going to kill me. “ as he looked at the broken table. “Sorry Tony, we’re just going to head out. I promise we’ll pay for that” you stated pulling Bucky away.

As you guys were heading to the entrance of the house, Bucky quickly pulled you into a near by room and locked the door behind him. You almost got whiplash at how fast he got you in there. “what the fuck were you doing with Steve, why did you let him get that close to you.” His big broad frame towered over you. “I didnt...well.. I dont know he was just sitting there and he got so close, i felt so trapped I didnt know what to do. “ you explained not knowing what to say to not make him more mad. “you know i dont fucking like him, why would you even entertain him? Do I need to brainwash you to never speak to anyone else but me... Hmm?’‘ he said pinning you to a nearby wall and pressing his body up against you. You didnt know if the drinks finally got to you or what, but you were feeling all tingly inside. Absolutely loving Buckys dominance. “or do you just want some attention. Because ill give you all the attention in the world Doll...but you'll only get it from me...no one else.” he whispered into your face.His lips brushing lightly over yours. You let out a little moan, his words going straight into your pussy. “I just need yours. You know that” you purred leaning in for a kiss. Bucky pulled away looking at your beautiful eyes, filling up with want and lust. “ Im going to show you that you only belong to me, and Ill make you crave only me and my attention. now turn over” he said giving you a quick kiss.

You obediently turned and he started to slide your panties down. Buckys hands started to roam your body, his metal arm stopping at your clit. “I need you to be quiet for me Doll. Can you do that?” he said as his hard cock was grinding on your ass. “Yes, Sargent Barnes” you moaned as his fingers started to play with your clit. “Fuck...sucha good girl”. When he felt that you were wet enough he grabbed your hair and shoved you down onto a nearby dresser, earning a gasp from you. He pulled himself out and pulled up your dress, giving you a nice hard slap on your ass making you whine. “You had your fun with that imbecile “ he said as he aligned his throbbing cock at your entrance. “now its time for me to punish you like a whore for talking to him. “ and with that he rammed inside of you, letting out an animalistic growl at your tightness. Your moans ripped through your throat as he started to pump himself inside of you, with out much gentleness. His metal hand quickly went to your mouth, muffling your beautiful sounds. “Shh babygirl..cant let anybody else hear”. He thrusted into you hard and fast, making you see stars and your mewls restrained by his cold hand. Your wetness soon started to drip down your leg. Your eyes rolled to the back of your head, feeling nothing but pure pleasure and bliss. Buckys arm went down to your neck and he pulled you up, making you arch your back. He leaned down looking at your fucked out face while he stuffed you full of his cock over and over again. He started to have a hot sloppy make out session with you, moaning into your mouth and you doing the same. Tongues interwoven into each other.

Bucky grunted your name, standing upright one more time. He grabbed your hips and started to fuck into you harder, his head snapping back as he was so close. “fuck im going to cum inside you Doll…Tell me who you belong to y/n..” he growled. “Y-you Bucky...only you Sergeant Barnes.” you moaned. Thats all it took for him to finally cum. His thrusts got sloppy as he spilled inside you. His cock twitching inside with each pause he took. He smiled as he pulled out, watching his cum spill down your leg. He pulled you up and gave you a passionate kiss. “dont worry Doll. We have much more to do at home. This was just a warm up, I’m going to give you orgasms after orgasms and you’re going to take it and enjoy it”

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