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booksandpaperss · 1 year

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A Look Inside Max Mayfield’s “last word” letters to the party: El

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Hey El,

Gosh, it’s been so long since I’ve written those two words. Too long, really.

How are you? Are you.. are you doing okay? I know that’s a silly question considering the shitty circumstances of this letter but I hope you are, you deserve every good thing that happens to you. Even if that was me… leaving. Or, pulling away, I guess.

This vecna asshole better leave you alone. Tell him he better not mess with you. It doesn’t matter that I probably won’t be here soon, he better leave you alone. I’ll make sure he does. Somehow.

Shit, I’m so fucking sorry for not writing to you. I miss you so much, you have no idea. And now you’re not even going to see this until after… well. I’m not stupid, I know you miss me too, or… at least that you care, even though I tried to convince myself you didn’t. I got your letters, I read all of them. You’re too good for me El, way more than you even know. I know we technically haven’t known each other for that long but, you’re the best friend I’ve ever had. I feel like I’ve known you my whole life. I really wish I did, honestly. My life is better with you in it… it still is.

Lucas and Dustin and Steve, they’re all set on saving me, but this vecna guy… he’s really strong. He’s like you, with powers, but like, way less awesome of a person. I don’t think I’m going to make it. Is it selfish of me to wish you weren’t in California? Just so I could see you before I.. go? I’m glad you’re safe though. I just miss you, is all.

I have a bit of a confession. Multiple confessions, technically. And since this is like… my dramatic last words or whatever I should probably tell you. You’re my best friend, so if anyone should know, it’s you.

I’ve never really felt totally in with the party, you know? It was nothing they did, they’re great, really, even Mike. Don’t tell him I said this but I kinda get why you like him, under all his shit, sometimes he’s kinda sweet. Seriously please don’t tell him I said that, if I actually manage to live he’d never let me hear the end of it. Not that… well if you’re reading this that means I wouldn’t really, well. Be here.

Anyway, I got off topic, it’s so easy to do with you though and I wish we could talk more, and I miss you so much and I but anyway my point was, Mike and Lucas and Dustin and Will, they’ve all known each other for so long. They’re all so close and I’m just… I’m just here yknow? I’m just me.

But then I met you. Like, really met you. And I don’t mean when I just vaguely heard about you from Lucas and Dustin who talked about you like you were some otherworldly mystical sorcerer, and then saw you once right before you had to go off again to close a massive supernatural gate. I mean when I met you. And really… you were “just you” too. Just like me.

And El, you is so much. I don’t mean your powers, I just mean you, who you are. You got me, in a way no one else has, not even Lucas sometimes and that’s what and you didnt even have to say it, you just understood. We’re both outsiders, even with the party sometimes, but… never with each other.

El, you’re so fucking special to me. I hope you know that. Please know that. You’re more than your powers, than what you can do for other people, you’re just… so amazing, and supportive, and kind, and beautiful just as you.

Although, I guess if you’re reading this that means I’m not here so… you deserve to know. I think you’re beautiful, El. This is going to sound so cheesy but I really think you’re so beautiful, inside and out. Even when I’m not here, you can’t let anyone make you think otherwise okay? I know you won’t, you’re strong, without anyone else.

I wish I could say more but if I let this keep going I’ll be here all day, and I won’t get to our other friends letters, and then of course Mike would whine to you and Will about it, so I gotta save you guys from that. You’re just… I feel safe with you. Talking with you. Even if you’re not really here.

I’m sorry El. I’m so, so sorry. I’ll try to fight him okay? I wouldn’t forgive myself if I didn’t, because you don’t deserve this shitty letter as my last words to you. You don’t deserve any of this. Or me. I’m sorry.

Love,

Max

#no one:#me: writes the most ambiguous elmax letter ever #ngl guys the end made me tear up just a lil #enjoy! more letters for the other members coming soon but I rlly wanted to do El’s first #if u liked this pls rb it! it would mean a lot <3 #and id love to hear yalls thoughts too #anyway #max mayfield #elmax #el hopper #bi max mayfield #(it’s hinted at)#max mayfield analysis #character study #st ficlet #stranger things 4 #elli’s writing #a look inside Max Mayfield's letters: elli's version

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miniimapp · 1 year

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Chat Room - Aaron Z

Gen ;; Fluff - Headcanons + Chatfic

Warnings ;; panicking + not sure how i feel about the writing style mashup in this one so apologies if it sucks <3

Proofread + Edited ;; mildly,, assume that for the most part no tho lmao

Auth. Note ;; WELCOME TO DAY 2 OF 4*TOWN CHRISTMAS COUNTDOWN !! Happy holidays everyone !!

headcanons are my usual cup of tea but i thought i'd branch out for the christmas countdown,, you're welcome

Enjoy !! <3

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ringshooter: i think im bout to head off

ringshooter: my friend keeps calling me like the worlds ending fr

ringshooter: literally save me

not_interested: no<3

not_interested: gl with that tho

not_interested: feel for you

ringshooter: nah i dont think you do

ringshooter: youd be nicer if you did

not_interested: i thought you were going

not_interested: or do you just like that much???

ringshooter: you wish

ringshooter: later

not_interested: see ya

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you've been talking to ringshooter for a while now

you met in a chat room and honestly clicked right away

you were pretty surprised when it happened

you never really thought that you could have a strong connection with someone you'd never met in person before

but here's to the present completely proving you wrong

ever since that historic day you somehow managed to get into really lengthy conversations pretty much every day

and there's never a day where you don't talk to each other at least a little

with ringshooter it's really easy to just be

it's surprisingly nice to talk to someone who has no expectations for you

someone who'll talk to you about anything

your eyes flicker down to your phone as the screen lights up again with a new notification

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ringshooter: we still on for sunday?

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you smile widely at the message

you've been planning for the coming Sunday for what feels like years now

it'll be the first time you meet ringshooter in person

of course, you've called before but ringshooter's never really been a big fan of showing his face

you're certain everything will run as smoothly as it can though

ringshooter is your best friend and whether he's exactly like you imagine him to be or not you're thrilled he trusts you enough to let you this close to him

ringshooter had told you that at some point you might end up meeting his friends/brothers

you still aren't quite clear on the relation and never really felt the need to clarify..

or "the guys" as he continuously refers to them

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not_interested: absolutely i am

not_interested: can't wait

ringshooter: me neither

ringshooter: only 3 more days..

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the days pass quickly after that

it shocks you how quickly sunday comes around

you swear you had a little more time to prepare yourself

..yet here you are..

on the way to the airport

ringshooter had told you he was catching a flight over with the guys™ and that he'd meet up with you and then you could meet the guys™

you're beyond nervous and not at all ready

and if your excitement wasn't overtaking your nerves you'd be tempted to ask for a rain check

but you're nearly.. no wait you're actually here..

deep breaths and big smiles !!

you make your way into the fucking huge building you spin around, head twisting in all directions as you take it all in

and after nearly bumping into a fifth person you decide now isn't the time and here isn't the place..

you quickly shuffle into an out of the way spot and thus begin the waiting game

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not_interested: waiting for you by the giant column

not_interested: the one near the weird fountain thingy

not_interested: yknow just in case there are more column things

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you sigh, slipping your phone into your pocket and willing yourself to relax

ringshooter is an absolute sweetheart and you know it so there's no reason why you should be nervous

it's just..

well,, you know ringshooter is super nice and a really cool person but.. what if he doesn't think of you like that ??

how humiliating would it be if he took one look at you and decided it isn't worth it

that you're not worth it..

you probably wouldn't even know it either,, you never notice him slipping away

and before you know it he'll be blocking you on everything and you'll have lost your friend forever and-

but equally what if he does talk to you and then decides you're boring-

what then ??

no !! no,, this is no time for spiralling..

you're about to meet your best friend,, and he will like you no matter what !!

you nearly leap into the air as the familiar buzz of a notification interrupts your spiralling from your pocket

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ringshooter: literally getting off right this second

ringshooter: see you in a minute <3

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you took a deep breath in,, puffing out your cheeks,, and then let it out

nerves ?? what nerves !!

you're excitement is coming back tenfold and you're practically vibrating on the spot

nearly time..

luckily you brought a homemade sign so your friend would know where to look

if you were to overthink it you'd probably spiral over how it may seem cringey

but right now you're too excited to care about how you look to other people

ajbzksbdobdodbid

you're so excited to meet ringshooter

maybe you'll even learn his real name

and maybe,, if he's lucky,, he'll be given the honour and privilege of knowing yours

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ringshooter: i can see you

ringshooter: cute sign ;)

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your heart jumps into your throat as you read the message

omfgjsbzosbosbalpbxobe

literally help

a hand basically petting the top of your head disturbs you from your fluster

you look up, ready to kick some stranger's ass for touching you when

"Are you still not interested or has this meet up piqued your curiosity yet?"

Holy shit he's tall..

and omfg he looks so awkwardly hopeful about his stupid joke landing fuuuuccckkk

you stifle a laugh,, bad jokes do not deserve smiles

"Ha ha.. bet you got that one from your dad friend, huh?"

You held onto your stony-faced facade for a moment longer before dropping the sign and wrapping your arms around him

"Nice to see you, ringshooter"

"Call me Z"

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Hope you enjoyed !! <3

#4town christmas countdown #4town #4town aaron z x reader #4town aaron z

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frankiejay03 · 2 years

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I made like five really long comments on this tumblr post I came across and I hate @ing people so I won’t but it was essentially another HashiMada vs MadaTobi vs IzuTobi vs… uh whatever else there is and here are my two cents.

Before I begin, we’re on tumblr. Yes, we’re making this up. We met the founders for like two episodes or whatever like. Yeah. This is an anime about moon aliens trying to take over the world because some not-grandpa somehow spent 80 years alone in a cave surviving on resentment and sheer spite alone. Don’t give me that bullshit. If you didn’t actually care about made-up stories/romances you wouldn’t be here.

Moving on.

In regards to the HashiMada/MadaTobi/IzuTobi argument, I have one main point that blows every (Hashirama) ship argument out of the water:

Mito Uzumaki.

Okay, backtracking.

To summarize these ships, I think HashiMada, when viewed romantically, is too sweet and… typical, yknow? Like stereotypical Romeo and Juliet and yeah I like the occasional Hashimada post, yknow, it’s not BAD it’s just… meh. IzuTobi is fun because they can have an incredibly strong rivalry going on, but I think Izuna is waaay too toxic/aggressive for anyone… he’s like… he gives me… like… *squints* incel vibes sometimes yknow? It’s so hard to explain, but I know exactly what I mean. Now, MadaTobi? Gorgeous. In the anime/manga they’re like perfect opposites yknow? Well, not PERFECT like SNS but like… so complimentary (kinda… ish).

Okay look, Hashi and Mito are very complimentary. Bright red/white vs earthy green/brown. Girl boss vs malewife. Incredibly intelligent vs incredibly powerful. I love HashiMito, they’re just so good for each other.

On the other hand, HashiMada is a little strange because they don’t mesh so well; earthy green/brown vs angry red/black/purple, malewife vs Tired DadTM, both ridiculous powerhouses, one centered around peace and prosperity while the other is centered around his family. It CAN work but it’s not nearly as poetic and perfect (and yes I mean PERFECT) as HashiMito is. Again, no problem with HashiMada but… Madara is not The One for Hashirama, yknow? I’m all for the gays but come on, you’re gonna overlook an icon like Mito? Unacceptable.

Now I can’t say I understand Izuna very well but I do understand (I think) Madara and Tobirama decently well. Back to compliments, angry red/black/purple vs icy blue/white/red aren’t COMPLIMENTARY but it is very indicative of Tobirama and Madara’s natures. Tired DadTM vs Adopts-all-the-strays single mother, family centered vs found family/family of choice centered, incredibly powerful vs incredibly intelligent (wait a minute, that sounds a little familiar…), and (my fav) a very rough exterior to hide a very hurt, war-traumatized person underneath (Hashirama was always a little too… idealistic to truly understand that no, you can’t stop fighting your ancestral enemy just because you WANT to).

Again, I dont really have Izuna pegged very well but… he’s just a little sus (and whiny seriously I’ll never get over him snitching on Madara and Hashirama at the river or his constant dOnT tRuSt ThE sEnJu like bitch (lovingly, tiredly) shut up) ((I don’t hate Izuna!! He’s just… a brat actually that’s kind of the theme with younger Uchiha brothers lol))

Uh, I feel like people won’t understand my characterizations so here is how I understand the founders which may not be correct/what was intended but I don’t care and neither should you:

Hashirama - eldest son which usually implies having the heaviest load (for example, Madara) but he’s actually a little spoiled. His enthusiasm/generally cheery demeanor isn’t like Naruto’s (a coping mechanism and also he’s a little dumb because no one ever taught him otherwise or gave him the time of day), it’s more like he’s JUST like that. He’s incredibly short sighted/narrow minded. Spending the entire war blowing up entire battlefields for fun (he didn’t kill anyone, sure, but he didn’t help anyone either) just to fight with his friend knowing he’s going to deny all overtures of peace? Yes, Hashirama will survive the battle, but his clansmen won’t. He’s striving for peace so the children can have better lives but… his method is so… terrible. He’s just not the brightest bulb even if he has good intentions. So, malewife, super powerful, idealistic.

Mito - cant say I know her incredibly well but I know she’s incredibly smart (her little chakra diamond thing on her head already displays a sort of forward thinking Hashirama is incapable of) which is a different kind of powerful but powerful nonetheless, she’s Uzushio’s princess so… take from that what you will, I just think it further pushes her need to be intelligent to be able to survive being royalty.

Madara - right, Tired DadTM means like Madara is always so worried about his brother and his clan mates. He is driven by the need to protect them, something that typically male animals in nature have in common: the NEED to protect what is theirs. Madara is smart, sure, but more than that he’s incredibly powerful (Mokuton alone puts Hashirama leagues above the rest of the ninja world, to be able to compete with that and survive without the god ex-machina that is Mokuton is quite the testament to Madara’s abilities as a ninja) Madara doesn’t care about peace for peace’s sake but rather for his clan and family’s sake (which is why it’s all the more detrimental when peace is achieved but when the main reason he worked towards it is gone, Madara drifts astray)

Tobirama: my beloved. He’s an idiot but he’s the smartest man in the room ALWAYS. Where his brother will always be stronger (and coincidentally the strongest ever), Tobirama is a genius. (Jutsu creation is NOT an easy feat, much less what is essentially teleportation via what amounts to scribbles of ink of paper) while Hashirama got to live in his happy little bubble of “ooh like at the nice boy I met at the river I’m sure nothing could go wrong there!” and “I am guaranteed the seat of power because of my status of clan head’s first son and mokuton wielder” Tobirama got none of the above. A weirdo in every sense (albino, freakishly intelligent, lacking in a few moral codes that keep most other people from fucking with mortality (which, yes, was a coping mechanism from his brothers dying in his childhood but not the point)), Tobirama has a completely different worldview than his brother. When they do achieve peace, Tobirama focuses on his brother’s goal more than his own brother: peace for the children. While Tobirama, war-traumatized and just a little socially inept, goes about it in the worst way it is still the only way he knows. He adopts all the strays and nurtures them to the point where they won’t NEED protection (in animals, this is typically the female’s role *hint hint*) ((how well his methods work is also debateable *COUGH COUGH* danzo *COUGH COUGH*)) oh and the family of choice thing referred to his band of gremlins from different clans

If you’re the type of person to say “ToBiRaMa WaS rAcIsT” then I know you have never experienced true racism in your life. I am a queer gender-fluid (most often perceived as a woman, idfc) person of color who has experienced ALL SORTS of -isms and -phobias, don’t tell me your male anime characters (WHO ARE ALL THE SAME RACE) are being RACIST to each other when they LITERALLY CANNOT BE. Was Tobirama particularly prejudiced and bigoted towards a specific clan? Yes. 100%. Was it justified? That is up to the reader to decide (((a little))). Was he racist? Go fuck yourself.

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nemesis-is-my-middle-name · 3 months

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Okay okay, for the ask game, what about 1 and 14 for Emmet and Laventon? Assuming this is an au like oop (or actually oop) where Emmet ends up in Hisui somehow

(character dynamics ask game) ooooh ok!! these two are fun bc they don't get chances to interact... much really at all, in most of my things. like even in oop they juuust missed each other rip. so this is a fun underexplored duo

1. what were A’s first impressions of B? were they mostly correct or have they changed?

i feel like emmet would not be quite as immediately fond of lav as ingo is. not that he dislikes him, just, it takes emmet a little bit longer than that to really decide he likes a person, most of the time. he wants to know that whatever initial impression a person is giving him isn't just empty words! tho i think one thing that would make him more immediately friendly is like, if this is oop-adjacent, hearing ingo talk abt him beforehand/knowing ingo likes him. bc then he does actually know that lav is sincere in his dedication to pokemon and the 'dex and etc. which makes him like him more out of the gate. in general tho i think emmet's like, bad at making very nuanced opinions of ppl, so his first impression is probably not going to go much farther than "seems cool"

on laventon's side otoh. hmm. i think lav is sort of an easily intimidated person and- as we have previously covered- emmet has this sort of absolute confidence and surety and commitment to his own principles that can be pretty intimidating. so lav's initial impression of him is probably along the lines of "this is a person who could and would wreck my shit without needing to lift a finger if he wanted to, and i should be careful abt that." and then he gets to know him better and realizes that most of said principles are along the lines of protecting people and making sure things run smoothly, which takes the edge off a good amount. yes he probably still COULD destroy him, but he probably won't.

14. for two characters that met very recently, how would their dynamic be different (if at all) if they had known each other for much longer? for characters that are childhood/longtime acquaintances, how would it be different if they met for the first time today?

OOF yall keep throwing such fun fic pitches at me. my immediate instinct was to connect this to the other one w/ cyllene, and say that emmet met lav at the same time she did, but that runs into the same problem as cyllene+kamado where i still wouldn't consider that exactly knowing each other a long time. yknow. i realize this is not exactly the point of the question but now i'm just thinking about scenarios... au where they went to school together... anyway tho. hmm. well i think lav would. as above, not be nearly as intimidated by emmet w/ furthered context, but would also probably be much more familiar with his penchant for Committing To A Thing that is inadvisable according to basically everyone else. lav finds out about alphas and is like (thinking) oh god fuck he's going to go hunt down the strongest one he can find just to catch it isn't he.

this also goes into the question of what these two were like when they were younger. esp. laventon, who i don't think i've thought/talked much abt his early life much at all. i mean he's clearly well educated and probably from a well-off family, and i said "went to school together" earlier bc i sort of picture him as having gone to some kind of boarding school situation, but it's also possible that he was taught privately at home. either way i think he didn't have a ton of practical survival experience before hisui. maybe he was even more deeply absorbed in books when he was younger, hardly even considering the practical side of research. so in that case i think emmet would probably be sort of a balance to him. not that emmet HATES reading or anything but he's also very much like. if he has a question abt a pokemon and can't immediately find the answer in a book he's just gonna go check for himself. so they would probably make a pretty good research duo each trying to pull the other in their direction.

it's also very fun for me to imagine them being collaborators, though. it's not exactly canon supported but i still like to think lav invented pokeballs so they could have worked together on that... emmet being the only one who can properly field test their invention bc he can actually hit a target throwing things lmao

#the nemesis speaks #the nemesis answers #anonymous #ask game #pokefic pitch #pla analysis #also very enamored with the idea of field researcher emmet in general...

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still-a-morosexual-help · 3 years

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May I ask your opinion about Mammon calling MC his "servant"?

I mean, Mammon is tsundere and all, and he calls MC names in S1, and keeps calling them "dummy" (and personally I love that "dummy" as it sounds very soft somehow 💗).

But "servant"?? In the "Mammon the butler" Mammon tells MC that he wants equal relationships, so calling them "servant" sounds out of character for me. It's somehow.. upsetting, it ruined his birthday event for me, and now I can see it in S3 as well 😥 but I think may be I misunderstand something and it's ok?

Personally it's not a big deal for me (and I'll break down why) and it'd be pretty hypocritical of me to have a problem with it (so disclamier/warning I'll be using personal examples) .... but I totally understand why it might make someone uncomfortable and tbh I did prefer his 2020 birthday event (because MC went absolutely wild in it - they were so active, just took charge, amazing)

Okay so why I think it's fine;

1.) Friendship

The most important thing to remember is that Mammon & MC are friends before they are anything else. Not just friends but according to the game, close friends (possibly bestfriends depending on how the player interprets it) and (at least for me) this is definitely the kind of shit you say about your closest friend

I know I'm close with someone when we can be complete dickheads to each other and still know that none of that is said in seriousness and that at the end of the day we love each other and would go through hell for each other and that's definitely how I see their relationship as well

From my experience, dating your best friend doesn't so much change your friendship, rather it adds a new element to it. An element that doesn't really take up a large fraction of your time? Like you're not gonna be romancing them 24/7, yknow? You're still gonna spend most of your time getting together trying to pull off stupid shit, or to call the same entitled asshole you both know a fuckhead to his face, or to talk about cool frogs you saw, or to introduce said bestfriend you're dating as 'this fucking shithead stalker' for a whole day because they cheated in a game. Dating's an added bonus (because you accidentally went and fell in love with them) where you get to kiss their stupid face whenever you feel all your love for them overflow or where you get to tease and fluster them in front of their friends till they're hiding their red face in their arms.

So yeah, the way I see it MC & Mammon are bestfriends who happen to be dating and bestfriends are gonna act like bestfriends

Also, MC calls Mammon their 'pet' in a chat. It definitely reads as teasing (and Mammon's reaction only adds to it)

Note: you wouldn't call them names like that where they can't hear and so won't be able to react. The whole point of teasing someone like this is to get a reaction. Both MC and Mammon call each other names in places where the other is clearly present

Tldr: as far as ik, introducing your best friend to complete strangers as your 'servant' or trying to get them to actually be your servant (aka fulfill your every stupid wish) on your birthday is normal?

2.) Actions

7 outta 10 times Mammon's actions and words don't match up. He is much more likely to show how he feels than say how he feels

And there's not one point during the whole game where he treated MC as a 'servant' , even when they first met and he was snapping at them and trying to take control of their pact he had a grudging sort of respect (?) for them when they snapped back

I mean:

1.) He's constantly buying them things that they like

2.) Constantly prioritising their safety over everything else (even his own safety)

3.) He's very supportive about them studying to be a sorcerer and the last thing he says to them in S3 is how he knows they can do it

4.) A lot of his 'tsundere' characteristics have dropped in S3 and he freely admits that he loves them/cares for them

5.) This man straight up gushes about MC, multiple times. Under the truth bracelet he said that if he was gonna list how perfect they are he wouldn't be able to stop

6.) He never genuinely orders them to do things, sure he bosses them around and asks them to do things, but it's never an order you'd give someone you saw as not being on "equal ground"* with you. Mammon, himself, doesn't believe what he just said

(*Not my personal belief. Your job doesn't dictate your worth as a person and I actually went on a huge tangent and wrote a complete rant about this before I realised I'd completely deviated from the topic and deleted it all)

The way I see it, words need to have meaning behind them.

When you're close enough with someone you can say shit and have them completely brush it off because prior examples have shown them that there's no intent or meaning at all behind the words. It all boils down to Trust. You trust them to not take you at face value. And they trust you not to mean what you just said.

OBVIOUSLY YOU CAN'T JUST DO THIS WITH JUST ANYONE/EVERYONE!!! You need to be really close and able to understand each other and even then it needs to be someone who's okay with it? Like someone who is 100% okay with teasing and can give it back at the same rate. Who would never internalise it etc.

It's also about knowing someone's boundaries and respecting them. Eg: Mammon didn't really seem to care when MC called him their 'pet' but he'd probably be really hurt and upset if them called him 'Scummy'

Eg: I've got a friend who I've known for 17yrs who I'd never say anything like this to meanwhile here's a real conversation I just had a couple weeks ago:

Me, *texting the girl I've known for 5years in tears while I complete an assignment for her a couple days before the due date because her boss is the kind of Evil that doesn't even give her a proper lunch break* : You bitch, you monster, I hate you, I genuinely fucking hate you, I hope you fall in a ditch you cruel tyrant, when I'm done reading ((*through these journal articles for you*)) I'm gonna come stab you to death

**Her: Cool, how far along are you?

Me: Need 1500 more words, what's the referencing style you want?

**This fucking idiot ran into a room and dragged my ass out because it sounded like the entire roof was gonna collapse into it and I love her to death

3.) Reality

Aka The Butler Card vs Mammon calling MC his servant

So, as said above;

1.) Mammon & MC are close enough friends that the "servant" thing isn't really a big deal (for me)

2.) He said it in front of them and they barely even reacted

3.) None of his actions point to him actually believing what he said, and I doubt MC would either considering they've seen the way he really feels about them

So how does the butler card differ from this?

It's reality.

The servant thing has no basis behind it. It has less of a foundation than "Dummy or Airhead". It doesn't affect their relationship or cause a power imbalance.

The butler card does.

Mammon calls MC his "servant" and there's no truth behind it, at most it's teasing. MC is never obligated to listen to him or serve him.

In the Butler card, Mammon wears a collar and an uniform, he has to be poilte to MC and do everything they say, if he doesn't he's reprimanded - there are external consequences to not listening to MC. He has to call them Master during the whole thing. What's happening here is "real". There is an actual power imbalance between them in it. Like Mammon says, they're not on equal ground.

Tldr:

The two situations, despite seeming similar on a surface level, are completely different from each other. Mammon does want an equal relationship. There are many reasons why him calling them his "servant" a couple times (to a stranger and during his birthday, while in front of people who know that isn't true) doesn't affect them having an "equal" relationship. Whereas, in the the Butler devilgram, he was very much their actual butler and they were his "Master", and there were real consequences if he disobeyed them. Their relationship was very much not equal here.

Hope this helps clear it up! Let me know what you think?

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Prompt - villain Hange. Marleyan or from Paradis. Hange is against the survey corps. Levihan fight each other and have an enemies to lovers type of relationship

this was a def a challenging prompt, anon! hope you like it!

A tall, messy haired titan shifters with glasses. Levi had encountered her just two times before.

The first time had been the day the Scouts had chased after the traitors—Reiner Braun and Bertholdt Hoover, who had captured Eren and Ymir. The day Eren yelled and the abnormal titans began to attack Reiner and Bertholdt. The day Erwin lost his arm.

At the end of all the chaos and everyone began riding horses in retreat, Levi stayed behind to make sure everyone had escaped safely. He watched as the armored titan, Bertholdt, and Ymir trying to fight off the abnormal titans who suddenly began attacking them after Eren commanded them to. Levi almost... felt bad for them, conflicted feelings bubbling up inside as they were once considered his comrades.

However, as Levi turned around, he saw another titan—one he had never seen before. The titan took the form of a wolf, oddly majestic for such a monster, it’s shaggy brown fur lighting up with a subtle sheen of gold from the setting sun. It ran towards them, and Levi took his chance to capture its shifter. He launched himself out towards it, at the advantage as it didn’t see him coming. He fought with it, and the wolf titan put up a good fight, until Levi finally cut at the nape.

Messy brown hair tied up in a ponytail, she looked at him, desperation showing in her brown eyes surrounded by titan marks. Levi was almost dumbstruck as he looked at her—beauty catching him quite off guard. They locked eyes for a moment, and time seemed to stand still as they stared at each other for the very first time. Before Levi knew it, the moment had ended, and the shifter had brought her hand up to her mouth, electrifying light shining, the explosion of her turning back into a titan blasting Levi far out of the way. He could only watch as the wolf jumped bravely into the mess of titans, pulling out Reiner, Bertholdt, and Ymir out safely by its mouth. It ran away, but for a brief moment, Levi watched it turn its head around as it sped off, taking one more look at him.

He wouldn’t hesitate next time, he thought. It was invaluable to the Scouts to catch a titan shifter who might talk to them.

The second time he encountered her was during their attack on Marley, many years after the first time they crossed paths. This time, their fight was much more fleshed out.

Levi encountered her alone, as her wolf titan form ran around, seemingly trying to defend both the jaw and cart titans, who both seemed to be severely injured, maybe even on the brink of death. Levi came in quick like lightning, aiming for its nape. As he sped down, somehow, she matched his inhuman speed, wiping him away with a swipe of her tail. Levi caught himself by his feet on a nearby building, launching himself back at her. Back and forth they exchanged blows, both of them so skilled at their movements that it almost felt like a choreographed dance, each of their hearts feeling like they stopped beating as they held their breaths, unsure as to who would make it out of there alive. Levi was impressed, and it made him that much more determined to capture her. Levi came back at her, sure he'd aimed himself right towards the nape, but was shocked as he stared at her human form, throwing him off. A smart move--she had emerged from the nape herself this time to surprise him. He was moving so fast that he couldn't change trajectory, and he didn't want to risk killing her since it'd be the smart move to capture her and bring her back to Paradis. He faltered, holding his blades back, but was met with a strong punch to the face. Levi felt the blood rush to his face on impact, and he fell to the ground.

The blow was quite strong, and Levi saw stars as he watched her jump upon the lifeless titan bodies, grabbing Pieck and Porco from the napes of their titans.

He was out of commission, laying on the ground trying to catch his breath and calm his spinning mind, and once again, he watched the shifter run away with the two, Porco on her back, Pieck in her arms. He watched her turn and look at him again, this time, seeing what might have been sadness in her eyes, but also a strange sparkle of curiosity as she stared back at him. The moment ended as she turned around and continued to run to safety.

And now, this was the third time he encountered her. Levi lay in the grass, his wounds from the explosion with Zeke oozing blood all over his face. He was falling in and out of consciousness as he stared Floch in the face, who held him at gunpoint. Levi thought this might be his end, but suddenly, he saw a flash of yellow light, and then, all the Yeagerists were gone. He felt himself being carried quickly into the forest. He couldn't make out who had saved him, but whoever it was felt warm, and he oddly felt very safe as his vision gradually went black.

Levi woke up, a dull pain all over his body. He felt bandages on all of his extremities, and what felt like stitches across his face. He turned to see who was sitting next to him, the person who had saved him from what seemed like his inevitable death. His vision blurred until it finally focused on a weirdly familiar figure. It was...

"Hi, Levi. You're finally awake! You had me pretty worried."

Levi's breath hitched in shock--he felt his heart raced as conflicting feelings rose from his chest, knowing she was his enemy, yet, for whatever reason, she had been in the right place at the right time, and saved him. Levi tried to sit up, but quickly felt dizzy, and felt her hand on his chest, urging him to lay back down.

"Easy, shorty!"

What?

SHORTY?

"...What the hell did you just call me?"

"Shorty! Yknow, cause you're short!"

Levi felt a twinge of annoyance shoot across his brain.

"What the--I'll... I'll kill you right now!"

"Oh no, the little Shorty is gonna kill me, I better run, huh?" she teased, followed by a huge laugh.

Levi was thrown for a loop, a mix of emotions swirling around inside him from annoyance, to anger, to strangely enough, comfort. Despite being pretty annoying, her presence was warm. It put him at ease--at least in a way that no enemy had ever before. He watched her smile at him as he lay.

Coming to think of it--in all the times he encountered her before, she had never attacked him directly. Only in defense of her comrades. Every time, she was there to save people, and ran away. He found that to be quite strange considering this wasn't the case with any other Marleyan he had encountered so far. And this time... she had saved him. An enemy.

"Why?"

"Why, what, Shorty?"

"Okay, stop calling me that... four-eyes."

"Oooh a nickname for me now?" She asked excitedly.

God.

"Why are you here? Why did you..."

"Save your butt?" she said matter-of-factly with a big grin at the end.

Despite his annoyance at that, Levi nodded his head in agreement.

"Well... you seem like a good person, Levi Ackerman. Despite all the rants I've heard from Zeke. He thought you were dangerous, and I mean, rightly so based on what you've done to him. But! I knew you had a good heart. And I think you proved it a little more to me over the past few days."

She laid a fist on his chest, right over his heart.

"You were in and out of a fever for a few days and I'm not sure if you remembered but, we did talk a lot."

Levi was surprised, and wondered what they might have talked about--he truly didn't remember any of that. She could have been lying... but her eyes looked pretty genuine. Whatever he said clearly allowed her to feel like she could trust him.

Levi had a million questions, but his mind was interrupted as she crawled towards him.

"Looks like you can probably handle yourself from here. I left some medicine in that bag over there, and there's some food and water I have stashed for you in it as well."

Suddenly, he felt her face achingly close to his. And he felt, a small kiss on his forehead. And for whatever reason, he felt calmness fall over him. She stood up, and began to walk away.

"Wait--" Levi felt himself say, surprised at the amount of longing and desperation in his voice.

She stopped without turning around.

"My name's Hange. Hange Zoe." she said, as though she read his mind.

"Hange..." Levi said, feeling warm as her name rolled off his tongue—as if it was the name of an old friend.

"Maybe in another life, we could have been friends, Levi."

She turned, and felt a surprising amount of emotion build up inside her as she locked eyes with him. He looked sad to see her leave.

"Or maybe well... if both of us survive all of this..."

"I'll find you, Hange."

She stared back at him, her mouth slightly agape in surprise. After a moment, she felt her lips curl into a smile, unconsciously.

"Okay, Levi. I'll hold you to that promise. And if that day comes... I'll tell you everything you said to me in your little feverish state," she whispered with a grin.

And with that, she turned, disappearing into the forest, leaving Levi staring at her long after she was out of sight.

#levihan #levi ackerman #hange zoe #levihan fanfiction #ask #anon #hanji zoe #villain!hange #replies

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villainsandvictimsalliance · 3 years

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Okay so yknow the adele song 'rolling in the deep'

but these lyrics here;

"We could have had it all,

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

Rolling in the deep

(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You had my heart inside of your hands

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

And you played it to the beat

(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)"

As shigadabi (or any other ship) angst

(Sorry if this doesnt make sense my mind is running in circle rn and had to get this off of my mind)

KEHEBEKHRBDKFIFJFO I MEAN YES

Consider:

The general situation is that Tomura refuses to go with the heroes and he thinks Dabi is a traitor for going back to his family.

At the same time, Dabi is very confused and angry because he thinks Tomura manipulated him into being a villain.

(Both idiots are wrong but when they are angry and sad, there's not stopping them. You know how it is.)

Tomura is the one singing in between lines and Dabi is singing the main lyrics.

Consider as a bonus the heroes finally getting to know what the hell was the type of relationship the League had with each other. gossip time.

Endeavor getting offended by Dabi having something not only with any guy, not only with a villain, but also with the biggest villain out there, WHO WAS HIS BOSS.

On the other hand, the League is like WE KNEW IT. YOU TWO GOT SOMETHING FOR THE OTHER.

It's like that one revelation during a dinner where the thing is said, there's a minute of silence and then everyone starts screaming at the same time and there's people standing, forks pointing, food flying.

Tomura and Dabi promising to ruin the other's life is sooooo funny to me because they're going from rivals / to boss and worker / to friends / to almost lovers / to enemies / to that one person that is not your ex but is kinda your ex / to bickering redemption partners / to bitter lovers with a bunch of regrets / to boyfriends.

No one have a clue of what's happening expect Izuku, who keeps track in one of his notebooks. He gives updates every Friday on the class 1-A dorms using PowerPoint presentations.

You know how Mamma Mia is just ABBA songs? This is the same but it's Shigadabi with Adele songs. Such drama queens.

Somehow Hawks keeps getting trapped in the middle of the situation because 1) he enjoys gossiping, 2) he goes to buy chicken wings at the worst times, several times a week, 3) both Tomura and Dabi hate him a lot so either they are using him against the other, or they are joining forces to hate him.

Class 1-B and class 1-A have bets about when are they going to kiss, who's gonna give up first, if it's gonna be romantic or kinda bloody, etc.

The entire Japan population agrees this is way better than having them around killing people. At least now they are more like a reality show or something.

IT'S ACTUALLY REALLY ANGSTY, OKAY? DON'T BE FOOLED BY THE COMEDY.

Why? Because trust is a big deal for both Dabi and Tomura. Everything is laughter until Dabi starts screaming about how Tomura was the first person he trusted after what happened to him when he was still Touya, but he took him down a corrupting road and never cared to push him away, never care to help him, he never care about him at all. And Tomura starts screaming about how he knows he ruins everything he touches and gets killed all the people he had ever loved, but he's tired of people running away from him, specially if he likes that person. Growing up he could only think about how he was a monster and he never cared about anything as much as he cared about the League, but Dabi is making it sound like Tomura is like AFO, and it hurts more than any fight he has lived through. He's not like AFO. HE'S NOT LIKE HIM.

At some point Dabi goes back to his villainous ways right at the same time as Tomura starts redeeming himself. And it's a mess of a situation.

Tomura almost gets killed by AFO at some point, and they can barely save him. They take him to a hospital and the Todosiblings really need to restrain Dabi from burning down his way to Tomura's room because no visits are allowed.

You can imagine how guilty they both feel about the things they've implied about the other.

The Todosiblings stay with Dabi the whole night because they know Dabi is in a dark place and he can't be alone with his sadness. But after three nights, Dabi runs away to find the members of the League. He only feels sane with them around, even if it's because they have seen the worst of him and they have never judged.

When Tomura finally wakes up, Dabi is the one visit he gets, courtesy of Deku and Shoto influence.

Tomura refuses to look at the traitor walking into his room. Dabi is so angry and so sad and so worried, but he just stands there, feeling like he's burning again, the disappointment on Tomura all over his skin.

But they almost lost each other. Dabi will never forget how helpless he felt when he saw Tomura on TV fighting AFO, his body falling apart, his stupid red eyes dark and empty.

Tomura swallows how he could only think about the League while almost dying. He could only think I failed them I failed them I failed them.

It's Dabi who moves first, taking Tomura's hand. He's careful to not end up decayed.

Tomura almost yells and tries to push away, but Dabi takes it, rest his forehead on it, trembling.

And he sings quietly that stupid song.

“ I can't help feeling

We could've had it all ”

And Tomura sobs a little. He is being careful, but he asks in a tiny voice for Dabi to let go. He doesn't want to... He doesn't want to accidentally kill him.

Dabi refuses: “Your hand. It's cold.”

It's in that white room with dark curtains and a closed door that Dabi tells Tomura that he regrets meting him.

And Tomura's heart stops. Until he feels the drop of blood over his hand and hears the words that come after.

Dabi regrets meting him too late when he's already fucked up, when all he has is the same rage that is drowning his siblings, the same rage ...

... That had them both running around, Tomura finishes before Dabi could.

They talk. No one's knows what they talk about. No one knows what happens in that room that night.

They are still very angry, very sad, very many things, but they also know they are madly in love with the other and they don't want to crash and burn alone.

They made a pretty good team, in fact.

The end.

I need to stop getting carried away and giving you guys so much nonsense. Sorry.

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Hello! May I request a BNHA ( Male ) matchup, please? Thank you so much in advance!!

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I go by the name Prince or Jun, and my pronouns are : He/They. I'm an INFP and a 4'10" Pisces.

I'm a total introvert who would not leave the house unless necessary, and I tend to avoid large crowds and people since I have social anxiety. I'm quite distant, cold and awkward when I first meet people but I get really weird ( ahem, shameless.) and outgoing once I warm up to someone. I'm a worrywart and prone to have pessimistic/intrusive thoughts. My humor is dark and inappropriate and very sexual. Although, I'm panromantic asexual. My love language are physical affection ( back hugs, cuddles, face peppering, playing with your hands, hand holding, & arm over the shoulder. ), and cheesy/corny flirts. I'm also a psychology student, an artist, a cosplayer, and a creative makeup artist. I enjoy horror films and historical novels. I like playing pranks on others, listening to all kinds of music, and dancing. I dream to be a full-time cosplayer or a psychologist. I like to travel the world as well, take photos, and, of course, watch anime and read manga! I like hanging out in a dimly lit bedroom, watching movies, or at an abandoned area ( parking lot, building, etc. ) I enjoy solitude and the dark. Oh! I'm scared of butterflies and allergic to dust.

I tend to be impulsive at times ( mainly concerning money ), and I exhibit extreme mood swings. I'm very affectionate though, and always willing to lend a shoulder or an ear. I also care too much. Apart from that, I'm very sarcastic and a swearing sailor ( I cuss a lot with people I'm comfortable with. ) Playful, bad memory ( sometimes ), bad at picking up jokes most of the times, and has a tendency to suddenly disappear for a few weeks before returning like nothing happened. I need to recharge to be able to socialize again.

I'm a total sap and an affectionate person to the person I love. I'm the type to wake up every morning and message them, "Good morning, hun!" and I also check up on them if they're feeling well. Although, I also enjoy playfully bullying them, I find it adorable but I always spoil them afterwards.

I have two ideal dates.

One : Just casually lounging at either one's bedroom. The lights are dim, the windows are closed along with the curtains while we cuddle on the bed, binge watching movie series or an animated series. We'd have snacks and drinks as we stay up late till 3 AM. Maybe we'd take short, funny videos and post them on our stories. Turn up the music and have small dance party. Do each other's hair and makeup. Have a small fashion show. A sleepover date, to be precise.

Two : Going on an exploring date to an abandoned building or a forest. Just the two of us. No other people around. Taking photos or videos, or just hanging out as we have small talk. It'll be even better if it's a haunted area and we do it at night, scaring each other just for shits and giggles.

i match you up with… HANTA SERO

notes: i’m so sorry this took so long T^T you added a lot of stuff and i wanted to get at least most of it in, plus my inbox is flooded ;-; but i hope you enjoyed what i cooked up nonetheless!

⇉ requests are open!! || main masterlist || rules

you are all over the place and sero is just down for the ride

i think kaminari introduced you to him and that’s how you met?

even if you start out cold, sero will persevere. he’s a part of the bakusquad and he has to deal with bakugou everyday—don’t underestimate his determination to befriend with you

and then you two proceeded to get closer throoooough: humor (sero is a high school boy, there is no way he doesn’t share at least a little of your sense of humor), historic novels (he seems like the type to enjoy history!), and pranking bakugou (somehow neither or you have died yet and everyone is shocked)

the usual is sero is the chill one and you’re doing whatever, but there’s moments where he just has to let go in a different sense, yknow? and you help him do that 👏👏👏

will pretend to have no idea who you are if you show up in a cosplay

threatens to kill any butterfly that comes your way

“back the FUCK UP FROM MY BOYFRIEND I WILL TAPE YOUR WINGS TO THE WALL AND RIP YOUR BODY OFF OF THEM”

he is your #1 simp

it’s like gregg and mae from night in the woods but romantically (if you know what night in the woods is)!

things they love about you

your affection towards the people you care about! your caring side, one could say, warms his heart whenever it’s out in the open. and it sounds a little “self”-centered when i say he likes it when he’s the outlet for that affection but hear me out: this guy is so used to just existing—just staying in the background. the SLIGHTEST but of affection will fluster him beyond reason

sero doesn’t really have too many sides of his personality—your versatility makes you a complete opposite to him. not only that, but it’s interesting to learn every little part of you. and picking up little facts you share with him subconsciously really shows just how much you affect him

your reliability! sero knows that he can come to you with any problem he has and you’ll lend an ear. stress of UA is a pickle enough, and adding the fact that he’s in class 1A, the class that has been targeted the most? the pressure on him to improve and succeed is almost unbearable at times. but he knows he has you and he couldn’t be more grateful

relationship headcanons

those two dream dates you mentioned? pack your bags cause he’ll be waiting for you at the front door the minute you tell him about them. he’s down for any kind of fun! and with you as well? sign him up

for the first one: he brings the snacks, you choose the media—tv or show. though, be prepared because no matter the genre, it’ll be hard to focus on the tv with sero’s stupid comments:

“let’s make a bet. who do you think will die first?”/“are you SERIOUS? HOW ARE THEY SO OBLIVIOUS? KISS KISS FALL IN LOVE—”/“he’s pretty. he’s really pretty. if he liked you, would you leave me? i wouldn’t even blame you—he’s really good looking”

first date scenario also includes making stupid videos, satirical spa treatment with the fuzzy slippers/robes and everything, dance party with sero’s dorky dancing, and more!

second date includes: sneaking out of heights alliance to go to an abandoned house, scaring each other every two seconds, flashlights and phones dying halfway and ultimately getting separated accidentally, finding each other after getting separated with a long marco polo game, running, spinning, and dancing around in the dorm building’s parking lot on the way home

sero’ll check in on you as much as you do him! someone who cares so openly needs to be cared about just as much, and he is fully aware of that

be able to take your own medicine: despite how devoted he is to you, he will have a come back every time you bully him

also he has a TEASING SIDE—

GET READY TO BLUSH CAUSE THIS GUY ACTUALLY HAS GAME!?1!1!

sero is a little bit insecure about how amazing you seem to be compared to him, so there will be moments he is afraid you’ll leave him for someone better. but, his worries are washed away whenever he sees your smile

he will try to understand the times you disappear—he just hopes that with certain things, you’ll trust him enough to talk to him about it

(author’s note: as someone who has disappeared from friends unannounced multiple times and came back after months, it’s not a good feeling when you find out what the people you cherish accidentally thought. be sure to communicate with your friends about it and assure them that it’s not their fault!)

songs that remind me of you two

honeybee by the head and the heart

mr loverman by ricky montgomery

are you bored yet? (feat. clairo) by wallows and clairo

summer nights from grease

i love you too much from the book of life

#bnha x reader #mha x reader #bnha matchup #mha matchup

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hey frienderbender is it ok to ask for some lore/information on your magpickles 🥺 I’m very invested in those goods ( off the topic but can I just say I am in LOVE with the way you draw Skwisgaar my heart is just fluttering to fast when I see him 🥺💞 Anyways muah you’re wonderful artist thank you have a lovely day/evening )

oh sure! first off thank you so much for the sweet message! that made my night :'] i love drawing skwisgaar and im glad you like how he looks in my style haha

anyways im assuming youre talking about my general lore for them in the canon timeline, so ill talk about that under the cut

i think they first met some time in the late 80s while pickles was still with snb. they met after a show specifically. magnus introduced himself as a fan, and that was true! but (quick tangent for some general mag thoughts) it brings up something that ive always thought about when i look at mag. magnus definitely gives off the vibe of being the guy who was always just Around in the music scene, especially in the rock and metal scene of this era. like, hes a mysterious dude but he has connections. he will play with random bands sometimes. he knows so many fucking people in this industry (not saying hes friends with all of them though); what im trying to say is. Everyone Has A Magnus Hammersmith Story. hes the type of guy that gets talked about in podcasts decades down the line. ok all that to say he was able to get backstage because he just Knows People. and he introduces himself as a fan blah blah pickles and magnus drink and do some drugs and honestly i wouldnt be surprised if they at the very least made out with each other the first night they met.

so pickles is like, pretty into him right off the bat. magnus was too, but i think on his end INITIALLY he was more just interested in hooking up but they exchange info and keep in touch and all that. so. this is RIGHT before snb implodes. and theyre still meeting up fairly regularly and becoming closer and doing a lot of drugs and drinking a bunch. typical rockstar stuff.

but pickles had been on a steady downward spiral at this point (he was already like this before he met magnus), and in one night snb is no more. having burned all those bridges in his band (for now), pickles turns to his only friend left: magnus. and i think its at this point, when pickles comes to him, wrecked by the dissolution of his band, that magnus kinda starts to realize he might actually feel something for him too? seeing him like this, seeing pickles from fucking snakes n barrels, so raw and real and not at all like the fiery redhead he met that night after their show...it just feels different somehow. like yeah he was attracted to pickles from snakes n barrels, but he realized he had grown to care about pickles from tomahawk wisconsin. he liked that one better, there was no bullshit. no hiding beneath layers of glam makeup and hairspray.

so its the two of them against the world. its the early 90s at this point. on a whim, pickles decides they should leave LA and just drive. wherever. just away from the city because LA fucking sucks. he takes all his money and he and magnus get in his car and just start driving. they end up in florida eventually, because its the other side of the country. or something. they get an apartment, and for a couple of months they live together and its. kinda nice. its different, for sure. but not bad. magnus and pickles both always kinda skirted around the topic of their relationship. they never called the other their boyfriend. but i feel strongly that they did tell each other that they loved the other, once. and they meant it.

so heres where things get tricky for me. how did dethklok form? what was the order? who met who first? i dont know!! i wish i knew! its something i have a million scenarios for and i wish we got a canon order of the members joining at the very least so i can model my headcanons around it haha

with that in mind though, i do think magnus and pickles were a bit of a package deal. like, whoever joined first was able to get the other in. so. yeah. they joined dethklok some time in the early to mid 90s now.

they have a pretty decent few years. theyre still.......something....even in their new band. like they arent open about it and hook up when the other guys arent around and all that.

its around this time though that i think magnus is really starting to go through it. combination of feeling frustrated because of the bands status at this point, general untreated mental health, etc. anyways i think the stabbing incident occurred some time in the mid 90s, probably like '95 or '96 or something. so.....he gets kicked out. obviously. and those are the terms they end on for awhile.........

but uh. you see. pickles never completely cut ties with the dude because. well. what do you do when this happens to someone you care so deeply about. and i think probably a month or so later, magnus actually contacts him for the first time since the stabbing incident. and maybe i have a comic script and thumbnails about this encounter what about it. magnus tells him he wants to see him, so pickles slips out that night to meet up at an old bar they used to go to a lot. may or may not be the depths of humanity uhhh anyway. theyre talking for awhile but it just kinda devolves into honestly more one-sided arguing on pickles end. hes frustrated and sad and confused because fuck! magnus! why would you do that? why, when the bands just starting to take off? it becomes this whole like. you arent the same guy i knew. and in that moment it quietly hits them both that like. we arent who we were, and we dont know what to do about that. magnus asks if pickles would want to join him and leave the band, and pickles tells him to go fuck himself. and thats the last thing he ever said to him.

and thats where the magpickles lore/relationship timeline ends. i realize it really did kinda turn into a timeline but also i did write a timeline during a slow day at work once like two months ago but. anyways. this is basically that.

but uh. yes. i love them. they make me sad but in a good way yknow. its like. its one of those situations where i feel like under different circumstances, they probably couldve made it work in their own weird way. they have such a specific dynamic, whether in their background together in the canon timeline or just me fucking around with AUs and being like hmm what if i actually gave them a scenario where they could have the time to develop AS an actual couple. im rambling but i just love these two so much. this is so long.

i feel strongly they wouldnt get back together in any sort of canon capacity, but i do think they still have feelings for each other in that way you do when you remember people you loved in the past. old friendships that dissolved with no resolution. the person you still have things you want to tell them, even though you know you will never get the chance.

#IM SO SORRY THIS IS MUCH LONGER THAN I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE #asks #dicksoutformtl #IF YOU WANT. AU LORE. just lemme know and i will happily talk about that!

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remember this ship ask? yeah, i wanna do them all with lawlight bcs they control my brain. but it's a happy no death note au bcs it's me. oh and this shit is long plus it's 3 am rn so my words are very messy. but enjoy.

(i skip some numbers that i answered and the ones that i can't think of btw)

pre relationship :

How did they first meet?

L's investigation hq. he was a suspect of L, still, but this time he told soichiro to bring this 18 yo boy to the hq to test him, asking light to work with all of them. he ends up not guilty ofc, but L still wants to keep him…around.

What was their first impression of each other?

ah, the good old 'what the fuck dude???' from light and the 'oooh he got a big brain' from L. it's hard to get out of canon in this one.

Who felt romantic feelings first?

L. But it's more like thoughts, rather than feelings. It's just these random thoughts that pop out in his head like 'i don't mind kissing this guy, if he asks' but not like 'i want to kiss him' yknow what i mean? idk this is just something i experience a lot lmao. it develops to feelings once light falls for him and L can see that. So in terms of ideas, it's L, but in terms of feelings, it's Light.

Did either of them try to resist their feelings?

Oh our favorite light denial yagami. Of course he's cursing himself for having feelings like this but once L calls it out he's over.

If you had told one of them that the other would be their soulmate, what would they think?

Light would laugh it off, and be like "i don't like him that way you know". L would shrugs be like "well yes that's possible, i don't think i mind".

What would their lives be like if they had never met?

boring, lonely, empty, you name it

(more under the cut)

general :

Who initiated the relationship, and how did it go?

hmm, they both initiated the relationship? ykwim? They both notices they had feelings for each other and just...go from there. they never have like a relationship talk, they just go with the flow until at some point they starts to get comfortable to refer the other as partners. They basically can read each other's mind, after all.

Did they have an official first date? If so, what was it like?

Yes, sort of. A tennis game! And a coffee sesh after, just like canon. They plan this to be just "let's just relax, this case has been really exhausting, take a one day break, L" but when Light got home, sayu asked "how's the date going?!" He immediately said "it's not a date, you watch too many dramas it's rotting your brain" And sachiko gave him a smile while shaking her head at this statement and when he's back to his room he immediately calls L and was like "hey does that count as a date?" and L answers with "depends, do you want it to be?" with a smirk that light can hear.

What was their first kiss like?

it was late at night, light was helping L with the case when everybody went home. they were sharing their view about this certain criminal when light notices L staring at his lips, first he ignored it but it happens again and again to a point where their face just got real close and then...kiss, somehow. idk lmao.

Were they each other’s first anything (kiss, relationship, etc.)?

First person who can understand each other and are equals, the only ones who can tear the other's wall down, and just practically soulmates in any form that even their sun & moon signs mirroring each other's? YES.

What’s their height difference? Age difference?

i hc L as just a little bit taller than light, but it's not like you can see it through the hunch anyway. ofc we all know the 6 years and 4 months age gap

What’s their relationship with each other’s families?

Sayu likes L, Sachiko is kinda surprise Light doesn't date a typical pretty person, but it only makes her heart fonder. L doesn't mind them, he thinks they're nice, light grew up in a good place. Soichiro? Well, he might me a bit reluctant but he loosen up slowly, his son is happier than he ever was, after all.

Who takes the lead in social situations?

Light, obviously. Because he's a charmer and if L takes control, the person they speak to would run immediately the first 2 minutes.

Who whispers inappropriate things in the other’s ear?

it is a universal knowledge that L does this. like, come on, count the fics, you can't, there's just so many. he loves to break that perfect wall and make light feel 🥴😳. it's entertaining. But he knows when to stop. too much of that will be embarrassing in light's part, and he respects his boy's dignity.

love :

Who said “I love you” first?

Light!! The thing is it was said over the phone. He gets more and more comfortable talking with L through calls, since every now and then L travel frok countries to countries. One time he just like "yeah, safe flight. love you, bye" he expected L to say goodnight to him as a response as usual but L was silent and he realised what he just said and realised that he fucking mean it. L seems to still be able to read his mind even thousands miles away so he replies with "i love you too, goodnight". they never missed seeing each other more than that night.

What are their primary love languages?

we had a discussion for this! but as we see in canon, they're both very acts of service with a little hint of physical touch here and there. quality time is also important. words and gift aren't really needed for them.

Who uses cheesy pick-up lines?

L. Only to annoy light. It's terrible that he almost cringed to himself, but it does bring a good laugh for light.

How often do they cuddle/engage in PDA?

PDA is a not their preference, they just love being in private more. They might hold hands sometimes, butmost times they won't. Altho they always stand or sit reaaaaally glued to each other even though there are so many space.

Who initiates kisses?

both. they want it, they got it. but light gives light kisses (ha) more, not necessarily on the lips, usually when L was really busy working, keeping his feet on the ground.

Who’s the big and little spoon?

They don't spoon a lot, they prefer not touching at all or cufdling face to face, but when they do, Light is the little spoon because being a big spoon makes his sleeping position kinda uncomfy, he feels awkward with his legs, it's just not. thankfully L thinks cuddling light this way is very calming.

What are their favorite things to do together?

Tennis and solving cases, duh. Or sometimes they play video games fighting each other. Anything competitive and/or challenging that make their brain grow 10 times bigger. But sometimes, a comfortingly peaceful and quiet dinner with hushed words thrown here and there about random things feels like the best thing ever.

Who’s more protective?

L. For identity reasons, ofc.

Do they prefer verbal or physical affection?

Physical. They can read each other's mind, they knew it by gesture, touches, and glances.

What are some songs that apply to their relationship, in-universe or otherwise?

IT'S MY TIME TO SHINE. venus by sleeping at last fits them so well, that song is in the background of multiple cozy couch smooches sessions or even when they're slow dancing (please listen to this tho song it's so good). also i think they would like persephone by the tragic thrills too, L would be like "this song reminds me of you" and Light answers with "i'm persephone?" "Yeah" "i'm a fucking badass then" "yes you are". oh and first day of my life? lover of mine? pink in the night? sweet creature? the lakes? oh god i have too much answers

What kind of nicknames do they call each other?

they don't do nicknames, really. although, L sometimes called light with some snarky tony stark styled nicknames when he feels particularly playful but annoyed at the same time.

Who remembers the little things?

They both do. Big brained assholes they are.

domestic life :

If they get married, who proposes?

It's not really a proposal, they didn't even remember who said it first. But one sleepy night after a hard case, someone said "hey you wanna get married" and the other was like "sure, why not" "really?" "yeah, i think i'm ready, you?" "me too" "great" and then they go to sleep. at breakfast the next morning L called watari from across the room and said "wammy i need you to prepare [enter marriage stuff here], and light, you must call your family after this". poor old watari chokes on his tea.

What’s the wedding like? Who attends?

The wedding is in a secluded little place near the wammy's house, L used to go there a lot as a kid. With just light's parents, sayu, and watari. Well, not until Light caught Mello, Matt, Near, and Linda peeping from the bushes

Do they have any pets?

A chunky cat the wammy's kids feed daily but never try to keep them in, because no animals are allowed inside the orphanage. L saw it and was like "light let's bring this bitch home" she is, indeed a little bitch, but light and L loves her dearly. her fur has light brown and black colors, like both of their hairs, so she becomes their daughter, L gave him a weird ass name but i can't think about it rn.

Who kills the bugs in the house?

Light because he's the one who's actually bothers to. They ofc annoyed L but he cpuldnt care less to actually get rid of them.

Who’s more likely to convince the other to come back to sleep in the morning?

L. He rarely sleeps and once he did, he wakes up very fucking late and will pull light back to the bed if he's woken up by the empty space beside him.

Who’s the better cook?

Light. L is a spoiled brat. But Light can't bale for shit, that's Watari's job. Light grow up learning and helping his mom making meals for the family. He's not the best, but it's good enough to make L craves them in between his sweets.

Who likes to dance?

None of them. But they would slow dance on rare, sentimental occasions. And it's like so fucking romantic bcs all the lights are off except for a candle or a table lamp or a cabinet lamp whatever that has yellow-y dim light. And they don't speak, they just casually move against each other, but heart ready to combust like i do when i the mental image came into my head.

#lawlight #death note #very fucking self indulgent whoa #brainrot hours #anyway i love them so much #scenarios and shits

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bnhaheadcansandfanfiction · 3 years

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Could you do how the Deku squad would react to a chubby person (thick thighs, chubby cheeks, a little belly fat) asking them out? Thanks! <3

↤↤↤↤↤ 𝓱𝕆ฬ ｍĮ𝒹𝑜Ⓡ𝔦𝔂𝐀/𝓓ᵉⓚⓤ (+ OTHERS SORRY I MISREAD THE THING)) ŕⒺᗩĆ𝓽𝐬 𝕥Ⓞ 𝐚 𝓬𝓗Ǘ𝕓в𝔂 𝓇Ｅ𝕒𝐃Ⓔʳ Ãş𝐤𝓘𝐍𝔤 𝔥𝐢Ⓜ σùⓉ ↦↦↦↦↦

(( Im chubby myself! But theoretically, I’d expect none of the league except for like Muscular, and most proheroes and students to not care about weight or appearance because yknow there’s mongoose for petes sake. She’s a literal snake. Also I added Aoyama in the Dekusquad))

Midoriya/Deku

- It’s pretty obvious that he likes you.

- Always complimenting you, turning red, stumbling over his words. It’s obvious. And you knew.

- But Midoriya would never make the first move and you know that, too. So you stopped infront of his desk the one day before lunch.

- He was confused when you slapped a note on his desk to meet you after school by your dorm.

- He got EVEN MORE confused when you confessed to him.

- “ Why me?? I’m not that charming?!?” Oh boy was he wrong. You thought everything to his messy green hair, to his freckles, to the somehow always broken bones, was cute. Yes, even the bone thing.

- He didn’t deny your confession, he just was very shy about it.

- No matter how shy he was, or how discreet you were, everyone knew instantly that you were together. Probably Hagakure saw.

- As your first date, He’d take you to see an AllMight Inspired film. He watched as you got excited with him.

- After the movie ended, he hugged you....but practically he wanted to hide himself in you. He knew you’d be soft...but oh god it’s like a pillow.

Uraraka

- Yall were best friends.

- Uraraka having some baby fat knew how to help you out if you were having insecure days with your weight.

- It wasn’t until you saw her stand up for you when some other students were talking about you behind your back that you realized “ Oh god I love my best friend”

- Well, needless to say, you found out quickly she felt the same about you.

- You acted a bit more...cautious around her, and she noticed pretty quickly.

- “Y/N, what’s wrong???” She would ask as she checked your pulse, temperature, etc.

- Sighing, you told her everything because you knew you couldn’t lie to her.

- Her face turned such a pink and she instantly held you, happy you returned her feelings.

- She asked if you wanted to go get some food with her as a date.

- You agreed.

- After the date, you two went back and snuggled.

Iida

- He is....not the brightest in social cues to be honest.

- But he was very discreet with his crush on you.

- Some Classmates could tell he liked you, but others thought he was a bit too hard on you. You felt neutral.

- “ He’s just taking care of the class as Class Rep.” You kept telling yourself as he always asked the same things each day.

- “ Did you eat today? Are you caught up in the school work? Have you studied for the next upcoming test/exam? Are you caught up in laundry?” etc.

- You thought he was being his normal self.

- It wasn’t until Midoriya and Uraraka (after days and days) to convince him to ask you out.

- It was sudden too, he pulled you aside one day during break.

- “ Y/n. Please, will you attend dinner with my parents and I this weekend? I understand if it is such short notice.”

- After a bit of explaining on his side, you accept.

- You dressed a bit nicer then usual for such occasion.

- You met his family and had a nice meal.

- The only thing regarding your weight that concerns him would be your health. So he would make you get check ups regularly to make sure you are healthy, but never would force you to change you eating habits.

Aoyama

- Spoils you as a “secret admirer”

- You knew it was him. He stared at you.

-......Also because the “Love Letters” had french mixed in with English.

- It wasn’t until he brought you a cheese platter for lunch that you confronted him about it.

- He got a bit quiet as you spoke.

- then. “ Why aren’t you responding??”

- “ Oh sorry, mon beau, I was just listening to you.”

- You sighed and then just told him a place, time and what not.

- He’d wink and say “ Pleasure will be mine.”

- After the date, that was actually decent, he’d hold your hands in his and confess how you looked like a Goddess to him and how he fell so deeply for you.

- And as his Goddess, you were continued to be spoiled after yall started dating.

(( There we go! Requests are open still :). Thank you for being the first to request! Sorry I messed up the title image :c))

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transsexualhamlet · 3 years

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sherlock holmes reactions part six (aka me losing my mind over the final problem)

Hi, I am once again reminding you all that I've formed a parasocial relationship with the crackhead detective 👍 This made me overly emotional for the fact that he didnt even die

But like

hhhmmmmmmmm those were certainly an interesting 14 pages

Yeah, I already made a post about how the final problem relates to yuumori's final problem and how incredibly sexy it is but yes now I'd just like to relay to you how absolutely heart brocken i am over this lol I will eventually get to reading the post hiatus stories i just. I haven't emotionally recovered from this yet

Yelling below the cut somehow this reaction feels longer than the story itself. but it's about half cracking jokes and half sobbing so be prepared

I mean, starting off strong with "well yknow since i got married my and sherlock's Very Intimate Relations had to be modified and all but we hadnt seen each other in a while so it was kind of jarring to see him crawling in my second story bedroom window clutching Wounds and closing the shutters absolutely fucking wasted losing his mind over some dude named moriarty"

We've been over this but. Oh my god why are they gay

I just like????? Imagine how fucking bizzare that would be to just see your old homie crawl into your window bleeding on your floor and asking to exit the other way in case he's followed like "hey bro can we Talk i hope you're not busy" WHAT IS HE SUPPOSED TO DO, SAY HE IS? Imagine watson just like "no dude I'm fucking busy go get killed"

But legitimately. That's certainly something. And like, I see a lot of books starting like this lmao but. Holmes's stuff usually starts off kind of easily with watson going "yeah so lately ive been Experiencing Sherlock Holmes" and spend 20 minutes on exposition with them having a Conversation but no. mans just fucking escaped a hitman and went directly to his boyfriend's house having apparently Never Before In His Goddamn Life mentioned his actual nemesis to this guy. How the FUCK has watson never heard of him before.

And how sherlock starts talking about it isn't any less funny he's just like "UHHH SO THERE'S THIS GUY. THIS ABSOLUTE MAN. AND HES REALLY IMPRESSIVE I MEAN HES LIKE SUPER FUCKING SMART AND HES LIKE DOING CRIMES????? SO I LIKE. I NOTICED AS I DO BUT HE NOTICED THAT I NOTICED AND I MIGHT HAVE MADE A LITTLE FUCKY WUCKY DUDE CAN YOU HELP ME LIKE. FLEE THE COUNTRY" and watson's like my dear sherlock What The Fuck

Im also loving how he calls moriarty a "mathematical celebrity" awhi;grih;oaewhhta;ioh;iaewh;ii;oewh;eh;rg mans just. ok lol hes a Math Celebrity that had to quit his math teacher job because EVERYONE JUST KNEW HE WAS A CRIME LORD LIKE THEY TOOK ONE LOOK AT HIM AND WENT MANS DEFINITELY HAS BODIES IN HIS BASEMENT I DONT WANT HIM TEACHING HERE

But yeah, it was interesting to see what the big deal about og moriarty was... especially since the deal simply did not deliver. There was not really a big deal. It's like reading the first chapter of a book and immediately skipping to the climax. Everything is so hyped up and clearly having been building for years and you just get like NO CONTEXT. I swear Moriarty wasn't goddamn mentioned any time before this. He's just suddenly the big guy and watson has just never fucking heard shit about this guy.

What's so funny about this whole situation is that I just. Cannot objectively know anything about Moriarty at all because sherlock just... does not go into what this dude's alleged crimes even were, other than. The fact that he like. Does them. He's just really involved in crimes. How? Why? For how long? In what way? For what purpose? NO FUCKING CLUE HE JUST. HE JUST DOES. And there's nothing to really suggest that Moriarty was honestly a really evil guy. They're all like trust me he was just. he was just really bad but show absolutely No examples of being such. The most evil thing we saw Moriarty do personally was call sherlock stupid for letting him get into the apartment. And even then he immediately followed it up with complimenting him lol

yeah, my impression of Moriarty was like. I expected him to be worse, honestly. I expected him to be like a cartoon villain because he was kind of made out to be one and then he's just honestly a really polite and refined guy?? Mans strolls the fuck into 221B like hi shawty and it is Not like yuumori obviously man's holding a gun but like. What the fuck they are just. They have never met before but They Clearly Have and it's. its so weird

Like honestly I don't dislike og moriarty. He's really what william tried to be (and fucking failed, but beside the point) but like. Dude's so powerful and for what. He just walks into the apartment with No Pretense like why sherlock holmes is that a revolver or are you just happy to see me oh my goodness you are a dolt why would you hold the gun that way. disgusting. disgraceful. dreadful. Oh my god. I love him I'm sorry

abngnahhghifeah;iewh and Why does sherlock describe him like that hes like "MANS A REALLY REFINED LIZARD /pos" HIEHIFEHW:HGIHOEWFEEW FOR WHAT. FOR W H A T

baaaaaaaaghhhhhh but likeeeee they went STRAIGHT to "you know what I'm here for" "you know how I'm going to respond" "well then" "yeah" "mhm" "damn well it really do be like that sometimes" "ur really smart by the way" "im fucking aware let's kill each other as we both Thought in our Minds" "yes lets" AHDHDHDHDFS WTF THIS IS INSANE

But damn uh. mutual destruction my beloved this is very different from sherliam but im not. im not. opposed to it tucks hair behind ear

I just. Holy shit they really went "if you destroy me I will ensure that we both go down hand in unlovable hand" "I wouldn't mind that"

Annnnd I just noticed that the actual lines for this part kind of. that kind of happened in chapter 31 when sherlock was like i would Gladly die to take down the lord of crime and william was like. hahahah yeahNO NO NO NO

BUT SERIOUSLY THO IM LOSING MY MIND OVER HOW SHERLOCK SAYS THIS WHOLE THING TO WATSON AND HES LIKE DAMN SHAWTY HES LIKE THE REASON FOR HALF THE CRIME IN THIS CITY BUT HES SO NICE THO??? LIKE I EXPECTED HIM TO BE TOUGH AND EVERTHING NO HES JUST SOME POLITE PROPER UNDERSTANDABLE MAN WHO JUST HAPPENS TO BE VERY DIABOLICAL shawty is having a Crisis

And then watson is like wowww that was cool you wanna spend the night and sherlock is like "UNFORTUNATELY BESTIE I AM BEING FUCKING TRACKED DOWN ID LIKE YOU TO NOT DIE WITH ME"

This bit gave me a Moment Moment because oh my god. Then watson is like "no shut up i'm coming with you i don't care" and i just had to Take A Minute because THEY SWITCHED PLACES AAH SHERLOCK IS TRYING TO KEEP WATSON SAFE NOW AND WATSON IS NOW MORE RECKLESS BC OF HIM AND. AHHHH

Completely random but. How sherlock still refers to 221B as "our rooms" to watson even though watson hasn't lived their in years........ shawty i am emotional.........

SO THEY GODDAMN FLEE THE COUNTRY TOGETHER BC WATSON SAYS THEY HAVE TO STICK TOGETHER AND SHERLOCK HAS A MOMENT WHERE HE'S LIKE YEAH NEVERMIND PLEASE GO HOME WATSON AND WATSON IS JUST LIKE. NO. AND HSERLOCK IS LIKE. DAMN OK I HAVE NEVER HEARD YOU SAY THAT BEFORE

But. Ok as funny as this is. They have this fucking Conversation on the train to switzerland where sherlock is like "I have not lived in vain" and watson is like "YOURE NOT DYING" and hes like "i have not lived in vain. like i said. this will not be a bad way to die" UHHHHHH DAMN SHAWTY

hhhhhh and it just Gets. it. it. it Gets. These fuckers get to switzerland and they stay in a hotel and then leave for reichenbach but watson gets this goddamn letter telling him that hes needed at the hotel to basically save this lady's life. And he doesn't. Like. he doesn't even want to go he's like FUCK IT SHE CAN DIE IM NOT LEAVING YOU but sherlock convinces him to go fULLY KNOWING THE LETTER WAS FUCKING FAKED BY MORIARTY JUST AS A PLOY TO GET HIM ALONE

AND THEN HE JUST. WENT ANYWAY AND WATSON HAD TO WATCH HIM JUST LIKE GODDAMN WALK OFF INTO THE SUNSET LIKE "LITTLE DID I KNOW THIS WOULD BE THE LAST TIME I WOULD SEE HIM BUT IT JUST. IT HAD THAT VIBE YKNOW"

God I just. Wow sherlock really did that huh. He really went and did that. And I went over it in the post about this compared to yuumori but it just RUINED me how watson just. Never saw what happened and there's just so little information about it that all they have is these assumptions and pieces that just suggest that these guys met up, walked up to the goddamn waterfall having a nice civil conversation about how talented and smart they both were at this and how they revealed their methods to each other and complimented them because of course they did

And they just sat up there talking to each other so long and Moriarty legit waited politely or even possibly was the one that suggested he write a letter to watson in which sherlock just went "damn lol moriarty's pretty nice actually anyway uhhhh sorry watson ily ✌" and just like. left it up there in his damn cigarette box

But just like. damn the insinuation that moriarty just sat there and watched while he wrote that entire goddamn letter, sealed it up, and then got up and went alright buddy let's go but it makes no goddamn sense if they wanted to actually kill each other and assure they themselves would survive I could name like 23 different ways they could have managed it so easily and they Didn't. they were really set on mutual destruction huh. There's no way they were even trying to do anything but Die Together at that point and that's Something huh

It absolutely baffles me how they could say that these guys had plummetted like, holding each other tho. Like. ok lol but How Do You Even Know

It was certainly a ride. But the fact that Watson had to actively try to think like Sherlock to figure out what happened in the scene was just. The cherry on top. Especially after they'd consciously started to switch roles in this i just. Damn.

In conclusion uhhhhhhhh gay people real I suppose

#rowan views moriarty #rowan's hyperfixation essays #sherlock holmes #*screams* THIS BOY GOT ME FUCKED UP. FUCKED UP

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flying-elliska · 3 years

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So I watched Happiest Season (livewatch with @beeexx my fave penguin enthusiast 🐧🐧🐧)

Overall I enjoyed it ? But it's not the light-hearted romcom it's been promoted as.

Spoilers !

The positive:

- Kristen Stewart, het icon of my teen years, is just glowing in this, like she is so happy to be finally playing gay lmao. This is really her story. Her character, Abby, is by turn charming, adorable, funny, and relatably awkward. Also, her glam butch style is just A++. And she has good chemistry with her co-star - they feel and behave like a believable couple (which has been a problem with actresses playing wlw in the past where you could really see they weren’t fully into it.) They were super cute together. This still feels cathartic somehow, like Bella Swan decided to go see a therapist instead of going off the deep end and finally figured herself out.

- I loved that this isn't the "token gays in a sea of straightness" trope. Abby's BFF is gay and really funny - and this particular trope feels a lot less annoying when the gay BFF is there for another gay person so it's more like queer solidarity instead of him being a prop for a straight person's development. Him trying to play straight was just hilarious. Aubrey Plaza plays Harper's (the other part of the main couple) ex and she is just great, seems a bit shady at first but her helping Abby out was just...so compassionate. Also she is probably the hottest character in this movie let's be real. And I loved the bit where she takes her to a drag bar (the straight bar where Harper goes to seems so drab in comparison fjfj)

- There were some funny, classic rom-com shenanigans moments - the sneaking around, getting stuck in the closet, etc...the creepy twins were quite funny too, if infuriating. My favorite was definitely Jane, the overlooked kooky sister, who "has been writing a fantasy book for the past ten years" (I can relate) and whose overachiever family has pretty much given up on her (I can also relate).

-Ngl the whole ‘rich people being fake and neurotic and making everything x100 times more difficult than it has to be’ bit felt very realistic. Like, I’ve met those people, and they are just as annoying in this movie as they are in real life. Also a very realistic rep of having to fake who you are in a town full of fake people pleasers and over achievers (even if it was stressful to watch lmao) and how Christmas can bring out the worst in people.

- Even though it has issues, the ending was very heartfelt and I definitely cried. This movie is just really raw and sad in some parts, but in a way that felt genuine and you can tell that a lot of queer people were involved in making it. It really touches on this deep seated anguish of possibly being rejected, of not knowing whether your family is going to accept you or not, on desperately trying to pass because you’re afraid of change...I think a lot of that comes to the actors being really good, like all of them, and really acting their heart out. And the moment where the dad decides to forego a big donor/supporter because he doesn’t want to force his daugther to hide really touched me. I also really liked the part where the BFF talks about how everybody’s coming out journey can be different and it’s important to remember that, especially if you have the chance to come from a very tolerant background.

The Less Positive

- The movie has been criticized for being weirdly apolitical (for instance the dad is a mayor but we never learn anything about his actual political opinions) but tbh this is supposed to be a Hallmark-like holidays movie I think that’s kind of part of the genre to be in this sort of happy slightly tone-deaf bubble and I don’t think straight movies of this type get this sort of criticism so yknow i’m fine with that bit i guess not all queer movies should have to be deeply political (even tho yeah it’s still very homonormative and ‘all about family values’ etc etc)

- Most of the issues I have with this movie center around Harper, Abby’s love interest and the one who lies to her family about their relationship. Now, I think Mackenzie Davis is a really good actress. And I do feel sympathetic for the character. The movie really makes you understand all the pressure she’s under, how her parent’s love is conditional, all the public scrutiny, and why she behaves the way she does. And her finally pulling through made me cheer for her. However, there were a lot of moments in the movie where I was genuinely unsure if I should be rooting for Abby and her to stay together. She does a lot of things that are definitely deeply unhealthy and questionable and had me going ‘Abby pls run away while you still can’. I feel a lot of compassion for her. But I simply don’t think the movie gives us enough happy time with Abby and Harper for me to really want them to be together as a couple -they spend a big part of the movie being mad at each other. They should have given us more scenes with them at the start to really get a feel of who they are as characters and as a couple, so when it gets rough, we actually root for them to pull through. This is an issue a lot of mediocre romances have - they assume we will root for the characters just because they’re said to be in love. For me, that doesn’t really work. And even though the ending made me quite emotional (again, great acting) - as a romance, it doesn’t really work for me.

- I really liked the bit where the family realized they had been putting this pressure on each other to be perfect and as they shared all these secrets they finally came together as a family. But...honestly, the family started out as just so profoundly neurotic it felt a bit unbelievable (and their social circles felt like a nightmare). A bit like Abby and Harper’s relationship being all ok after Harper’s big change of heart. The whole ‘mom’s secret desire to do karate but it’s unlady-like’ being put on the same level as her daughter’s coming out had me rolling my eyes. And there is a forced coming out scene which I really really hate.

- I think what I am really tired of, is queer movies who center coming out so much, the anxiety of being accepted or not, etc. And who present coming out as this revolutionary process that is going to change everything immediately. In my experience, at least, it’s often a process of small inches, towards self acceptance, towards your family coming to terms and learning to be less unconsciously bigoted, sometimes good intentions, sometimes microagressions or being erased, etc etc. I also just really want queer stories and queer romances who are not centered on coming out, on ‘what will others/my family think’, who have shenanigans and tension based on other things, with characters who might struggle with self acceptance sometimes (or not) but who have other things going on as well and who are fuller characters. It’s about damn time. Until then, the movies we have will end up feeling a lot like a PSA for straight people.

Overall

I still think this is a pretty quality movie. Good acting, believable and often funny dialogue, good chemistry, etc. (And let’s be honest, the bar for wlw movies is uhhhh not very high.) I really enjoyed watching Kristen Steward play gay and have chemistry with pretty ladies. There was room for holiday gay movies (even tho I want to see more, with more diverse characters).

It feels like wish-fullfillment for a certain type of queer person - (upper) middle class, with parents who are...ambiguously accepting. It does transcribe well this tension of not really being to predict their reaction - and illustrates the importance of being very obviously accepting with your children - like tell them it’s okay for them to be gay from the start, even if they turn out to be straight - otherwise they will be left wondering if they’re not. It’s this fantasy that everything will turn out all-right after you come out, you will fit in your family better than before, your mistakes will be forgiven if you are earnest enough, and life can go on as usual but better. And it is sweet, and cathartic, in a way, even if not revolutionary.

But yeah, as a romance, I wasn’t entirely sold on it. And I think it was promoted as a lot more uplifting than it really was.

#happiest season #wlw movies #lgbt rep #movie review #kristen stewart #ellie watches movies #wlw rep

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celestial-archer · 4 years

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Kelpie sighed and rolled her shoulders in relief as her avatar loaded into the world. It had been a little bit since she had been able to log into Yggdrasil. Between the numerous labs and the thesis her professor kept pushing her to write, her time had been pretty much taken up. She found it regrettable, but dreams take time to complete and she was determined to get hers done. But it didn’t mean she didn’t feel the itch to play any moment of free time she could. It was certainly a struggle to juggle her life and her gaming.

She looked down at her avatar and smiled. Her long black and purple spotted tail was as beautiful as ever. This was part of what made yggdrasil so worth it, she loved her naga avatar. She worked hard to get her upper body as close to her real appearance, even the glasses which she didn’t really need in game. Her corset was amazing too. Since her tail had built armor due to the scales, she had needed some kind of chest plate. The designs she found weren’t really her style but with the help of some data crystals the enchanted metal chestplate became an enchanted pinstripe corset. All in all, every time she saw her avatar she got a thrill of happiness.

Opening her menu, she looked at the quests that were currently active. Most were filler quests she didn’t care about except for the experience, but there was one she was determined to finish today. The quest Darkest Knight was a limited time dungeon crawl full of enemies called “Star Kin”. The common enemy item drops consisted of star fragments or star dust, but she was only interested in one specific drop. Cosmic Metal, a crafting item used to give an unknown effect to any material it is made into. With a drop rate of 3%, she’d already gone through the dungeon over ten times with no luck. Today was different, she had a good feeling about it. Even if it took a few times, she’d get the item today!

With a flick of her finger, the mini map flickered into the top right corner of her view. Her tail thumped happily seeing the very small amount of players around the dungeon today. Since it was a limited time dungeon many people gathered with their friends or guilds to challenge it. Whenever the people were there, she always felt self conscious. Unlike others, she had yet to find good friends. Plus she did not like the idea of joining a guild, so she had even little chance to meet people. She liked being a solo player, but being the only one without a party could make her feel a little envy and sadness.

She shook her head to clear her thoughts and clenched her hands in determination.

“You got this! Today is your day, I can feel it!” Punching her fist into the hair, she slithered her way to the dungeon entrance.

Like always the moment she stepped in, the world became shrouded in darkness. The only bits of light shining from the walls like stars in the night sky. It was breathtakingly beautiful and could almost make one forget they were in a dangerous dungeon. She once tried to take a piece with her to give to her npc, not that he would react at all, but the walls were resistant to all attacks. The sounds of feet thumping on the floor and faint twinkling alerted her to the incoming horde of enemies. Like instinct, she shifted her hands up and a bow materialized in them. A deep breath and she turned around drawing the string, allowing a pitch black arrow to coalesce.

Then she faltered a moment, the enemies weren’t swarming to her, but a blue-skinned four-armed djinn running away. Tilting her head in confusion, she stared intently at the djinn. She had two daggers in hand but with the way she kept casting spirit bolt at the enemies, Kelpie wondered if the djinn had a debuff cast onto her or if the Star Kins elements were one of her weaknesses. There was also the possibility that she was running away to regain health. The Star Kin were not very hard to kill, but they had high damage and could easily kill someone if they got cornered. There were no other players around her, so she assumed that the djinn was a solo player.

It was frowned upon in Yggdrasil to intervene in other’s battles without prior permission, but contrary to Kelpie’s karma rating, she couldn’t help but feel the urge to help the djinn. If the player got mad, she would give some gold to appease her.

She pulled the golden drawstring tight and loosed an arrow, striking the leader of the horde in the eye and staggering. She grinned and screamed “Strike!” The horde stopped and turned to target Kelpie, but with that momentary pause, she quickly shot several more arrows. Most times to change aggro, a tank needed to use the skill taunt, but because she wasn’t in a party with the djinn, just attacking the enemies was enough.

Kelpie had a level in the upper 70s so the beginning Star Kin enemies were not difficult to kill. They only needed two hits from her bow to die. She could just shoot them again, but feeling the need to be flashy, she decided to finish it in close combat. Darting towards the horde, she spun her body and slashed the enemies horizontally with the curved spikes on the front of her bow. The words “critical hit” appeared in golden text as the enemies screamed and crumbled into stardust. Within the pile of one, Kelpie could see the shiny bright red color of a healing potion. She reached in and grabbed it.

Shaking her hands rid of the dust, she turned and threw the healing potion to the djinn standing there watching her intently. Feeling a little embarrassed, she ducked her head and rubbed the back of her head shyly.

“Ah first let me say sorry for interrupting without asking. It uh seemed you could use a little help and I didn’t want to leave you to die if you did. You can have all the drops.”

Her tail twisted around itself in nervousness..

“No no, there’s no need to apologize, really! Thank you so much for helping me out! I, uh, should’ve thought to bring my Ring of Infiltration, I guess.”

She gave a sort of embarrassed half-laugh from behind the blue mask she wore.

“Would you rather have it? I’ve got a few Soul Soups packed for health already.”

She almost tossed the potion back, but paused, fiddling with the bottle. Then she walked over and held it out. Kelpie shook her head silently and gestured with her hand for the djinn to just keep it. With a grateful smile the djinn did, dropping it into her inventory.

“My name’s Zoba. I’m, uh, actually out here to farm some materials. And i-if you’re here to do the same… maybe we could team up?”

Before Kelpie could react, all four hands shot up, as though the djinn were already embarrassed by her own forwardness.

“Y’know—just like, a temporary party, I’m already in a guild, but—just so the offer’s open! Just, I’m grateful, wanted to offer.”

“Oh, ah you’re welcome. I’m Kelpie, I’m a solo player, no guild affiliation. Heh. Um I’ll have to pass on the team up, I'm really only here for the final drop, so I don’t have time to pick up a lot of drops in case it doesn’t appear and I need to do it again. If it's your first time in the dungeon, the Star Kin have a heavy advantage in close combat, but long range, they’re incredibly easy to kill.”

The blue mask was nodding up and down, two hands clasped behind the girl’s back while the other two tried to act nonchalant at her sides. A smiling emoticon with a sweat drop appeared, and she turned to look at the little piles of stardust.

“Thanks, I’ll remember that! I haven’t been here for this event before... I didn’t realize it was going on. There sure is a high spawn rate for these enemies, it seems...”

She jumped, whipping the mask back to face Kelpie.

“Oh! Um, but, yeah, no, that’s fine, I get it! I didn’t mean to pressure you into a party or anything, sorry; everyone’s got their own playstyle, and that’s part of what makes the game fun, right? Honestly, for me, it was fun just to meet you! Thank you again for the assist. And, uh—for taking time to chat, when you’re on a time crunch, and—yknow what, I’m just gonna—yeah I’m gonna... stop talking and head on this direction and let you do your thing! And uh... yeah!”

She made a laugh that somehow echoed the awkward emoticon just vanishing over her head.

“Yup thank you good luck then bye!!”

The djinn rushed away too quickly for Kelpie to respond. She let the hand she had extended to stop Zoba drop down with a heavy sigh.

“...Way to go, Kelpie. You could have made a friend if you weren’t so blunt. Ugh!”

This was one of the reasons she didn't get along well with other players. She always spoke what she thought and never cared to deal with false pleasantries. If she said something, she 100% meant it. If she was asked a question, she'd answer it completely whether or not the person actually wanted to know. A lot of the players she met found this to be annoying and refused to party with her. Truthfully though even if she regretted it in times like this, she didn't care to change it. She liked being the way she was.

Puffing out another sigh, she slithered farther into the dungeon. She kept her vigilance as she passed through each level of the dungeon. She was truthful when she said the Star Kin were weak to long range, but it wasn't always the easiest to avoid them. Each Star Kin was a close range class, but that meant each one could have a different skill set. She remembered one of her first runs when there was a group of ninja Star Kins who cornered her and managed to kill her before she could even notice they were there.

She tilted her head and listened closely. A barely audible rustle came from a divot in the wall. She slid a small vial of ash from her inventory and tied it to the front of her arrow. Aiming it, she shot the arrow straight through the opening. She heard the bottle shattering, flames igniting, and the screams of a group of Star Kins.

Kelpie's mouth twitched up into a smirk. She loved this moment every time she came back to the dungeon. Revenge for her lost hard won levels. Phoenix dust was an expensive item to use on them but the satisfaction of vengeance was well worth the trouble.

She continued onward with nothing of interest happening. She had gone through the dungeon many times that she knew all the hiding spots and spawning points there were. In no time she was at the boss's entrance. A large dark oak wood double door engraved with color changing constellations. Based on the time of day, the constellations would be in different locations on the door.

A booming crash echoed out as she heard the guttural screams of the enraged boss. The door squeaked ever so slightly as she peeked inside. The djinn Zoba was attempting to fight the boss. It was a giant in pitch black full plate armor with galaxies, stars, and black holes swirling around. In one hand, it had a thick spiked shield as black as its armor. In the other was a large blindingly bright one handed sword. Kelpie wondered how the djinn had gotten there before her, but remembered that one of the possible spawning traps was an instant teleport to the boss room. She’d only found it once and was surprised that Zoba had managed to stumble into it.

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Ohhh shoot oh shoot oh shoot ohshootohshoot—

How had she gotten herself into this mess?? All she’d needed was a few Bailey Beads to finish a project, just three or four! And suddenly, instead of mining in a quiet corner of the cave, she looked up to see…

A boss.

She dissipated into mist as the weapon fell where she’d stood, ‘eep’ lost in her density change.

Where the heck had this gigantic knight even come from?!? How had she ended up in this room?!?

Dark oozed into the aura surrounding the armor-clad giant, and as it growled in frustration, trying to wrench it’s sword from the cave floor, an energy shot down it’s arm. Zoba’s ‘eep’ of surprise was still inaudible as the sword sparked with a blaze akin to a sun flare, and she darted her incorporeal form to the side.

Acting on adrenaline more than anything, her knives found their way into her reforming hands, swatting a blow at her attacker. Not that it would do any real damage, but if she was lucky, it would cause a recoil! That would give her time to retreat, to come up with an idea as to how in the heck she was gonna fight this boss alone, and—

No such luck.

Her natural elemental boosts were completely ignored, little number ones popping into existence over her attacks to confirm the failure. And then she realized… She had reformed on the inner side of her enemy’s arm, not beyond it.

She’d dodged deeper into it’s attack box.

Rookie mistake.

Well, dang it. Nishikienrai was gonna tease her so bad for this death.

Something smacked her in the face, and the recoil of the effect ‘Stun’ had her foggy almost instantly. Dang it!! Her arms wouldn’t respond, she couldn’t focus her vision—if she lost the levels this death would take, what would she do about the raid in a few days? She’d promised she could make it, and the guild was counting on her skills to pull off their plan—

The only thing she could clearly make out was a shake in the ground. Rhythmic. Growing closer. Footsteps. This boss was going to take it’s sweet time powering up a swing, wasn’t it? She was about to be destroyed in a two-hit K.O. This… This was turning out to be a day full of embarrassments, wasn’t it?

Just as she was trying to decide which guildmate would tease her more for dying like such a noob, Nishikienrai or Takemikazuchi, a much smaller sound rang out than the death-bringing shear she had expected, followed closely by a roar of anger, then—

KSHHINCK

Something huge landed to her left, bouncing against the stone ground. Metal? She tried to focus on the huge shining object she’d jumped away from. Was that the sword?… Why did the boss drop it’s—

There was another streak of movement, coming in fast, but before Zoba could worry too much about yet another enemy on the field she’d need to escape, her arm was grabbed, and she was being lifted to her feet. The ‘Stun’ effect began to clear, it’s penalty halved by aid of the assist.

As her vision came into focus, she noticed a short haircut. The back of a pinstripe corset. A long black and purple tail.

It was the Naga player from earlier. Kelpie.

She could have kissed the snake.

No time for that though; as images of smug emoticons over teasing guildmates vanished from her mind, she went into Teammate Mode. If she was gonna be saved a second time by the same friendly stranger, she sure as heck wasn’t gonna let the Naga fight alone.

Her screen blinked blue in the corner, and a new health bar appeared for her party member. Wow, Kelpie had accepted the invitation almost as soon as Zoba had sent it!!

Good. Outside the game, on her real face, Zoba grinned. Things had looked desperate before. But now?

Now, things were gonna get interesting.

Kelpie shifted her grip on the bow in her hand, having situated herself between Zoba and the tall enemy knight. "If you still have that health potion, drink it. I'll cover you as you heal,” she said, then she was gone, tail sashaying along the ground as she zipped to sink yet another arrow into her target.

Oh. Right. Health. Zoba looked at the glowing circles of the spell she was already casting, then nervously to the edge of her vision, the green nearly half depleted from the little bar below her name. Well… health potion would have to wait!

Two more seconds, and she sent her spell flying. Distracted by the barrage of Kelpie’s arrows, the boss wasn’t even able to angle it’s shield before the magic struck. Trickster’s Trade had hit it’s mark. Zoba let out a little victory chirp and jumped into the air, taking advantage of the momentum to dematerialize her legs and float up, farther from the boss’s range.

“Defense is gone; Specials are up but will be negated in a second!” Zoba was using two arms to yank the cork from the health potion, while the other two were already cooking up her next spell: Wishful Thinking. “The only guard it’s got against full damage for the next thirty seconds is it’s shield!”

Kelpie sprang into action, but Zoba was finished with Wishful Thinking as well as the potion, and was fully focused on her next spell. New rings circled around her hands, appeared under her floating form, and within a few moments, the magic was ready.

She flung it toward her target. Kelpie.

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The spell hit Kelpie and exploded in a puff of gold, which swirled in a loop down to her hip, forming a golden oil lamp. It was faint enough that Kelpie wondered if it was a physical object or not. Short beeps rang out, in the corner of her vision there were the status effects glowing gold: Speed +36%, Dexterity +36%, Strength +24%, Courage.

Dang, the Djinn was powerful. She had never seen a spell before capable of all these effects with such high percentages. Confident in her chances of winning, she grinned excitedly. It wouldn’t show on her avatar but she pictured the boss losing nerve at the maliciousness leaking from it.

Squaring her shoulders, she cast bloody venom, a spell that would give any attack poison damage while also draining her health a small amount with every hit. It was a new spell she had recently got when she reached the class “Venom Lord”. It wasn’t very powerful yet but with their increased chance of victory, she wasn’t gonna stop herself from trying it out.

The boss stood its ground and stared at the two players. It’s health bar was down by a sixth and more would soon be gone. It’s AI was advanced, so Kelpie knew it understood the danger it was in. If given enough time, she knew it would realize it should be targeting Zoba, but she wasn’t gonna give it that. Her arrow shot faster than ever before, whistling violently as it sliced through the air. It impaled clean through the corner of the boss’s shoulder, where the armor was weakest. A wet gurgle escaped the boss as it staggered clutching that shoulder. Sickly green 5s wafted out of the wound every second, indicating the poison damage was active.

Kelpie whistled in appreciation. She could get addicted to the power of the spell combos.

The boss flailed its shield around like it was trying to attack invisible enemies all around it. Ah, her posion’s 1% chance of delirium must have activated. This day was getting luckier and luckier. The status effect would only be active for 30 seconds so she would use her time wisely. She let loose several arrows in quick succession, getting its health down to a half.

An animation triggered the second stage. The sword returned to its hand and the helmet spasmed. The heavy clanks of metal on metal echoed as it’s helmet burst apart into heavy shrapnel. Its eyes were revealed to be large orange suns that flared. The hail of molten metal was too quick for either players to avoid and a decent chunk of their health was shaved away. The pitch black of its shield dissolved into a shower of ash, revealing the same blindingly bright white of the sword.

The boss glared at Kelpie before letting loose a roar that shook the entire cavern. The top of the cavern shivered, then began to fall apart. Large sections of stone slammed into the wall, causing Kelpie to stumble. Above them now was a spiralling galaxy purple and gold galaxy. It flashed every so often like the beating of a heart.

This was where they both needed to be extremely cautious. With their current health, a single hit from it would be an instant death, but still Kelpie was not worried. She had gone through this several times before and this time she even had status effects.

The boss lifted its sword and it shot a white beam straight up into the galaxy.

She twisted her head towards Zoba, yelling, “Watch out for the meteors!”

Immediately, flaming blood red meteors crashed down from above. Zoba skillfully weaved between the falling rocks, remaining unscathed.

Kelpie set her sight on one meteor. It was slower than the others and fell directly in front of the boss. She shot her arrow and noticed one meteor heading straight for her and narrowly avoided it by spinning to the side. She, however, was not far enough from the resulting blast. The flames burned and dropped her health to a fourth, but she was still not worried. Her arrow slammed right into the meteor, causing it to divert straight into the boss’ face. It’s health immediately dropped to ⅜.

The resulting scream reverberated in both player’s ears, causing a small decrease of their own health. They were so close to beating it!

The boss wiped the flaming stone from its eyes and slashed its sword in such a way that both Zoba and Kelpie would be hit. Kelpie shot another arrow, hitting the blade just enough that it would just pass over Zoba. In doing so though, she had no way to dodge herself. She lifted her bow and tensed, prepared to try to parry the sword.

“Spirit bolt!”

A smaller than expected impact hit her on the head and due to concentrating all her strength on her bow, she was knocked to the ground. 2 damage appeared in the air she had occupied just as the sword sliced through it. The boss stumbled and fell to the ground.

She glanced over to the djinn and saw Zoba’s arms stretched out. Nice, that was a smart move! Kelpie gave a thumbs-up and yelled out to her.

“I’m gonna try to end this!”

Setting her aim at the boss’s head, she drew the bowstring back and concentrated. The inky black arrow swirled and swelled to two, three times its size. Zoba shouted “Charged!” The gold oil lamp was already fading as Action +20% appeared next to Kelpie’s other status effects. The arrow was set loose and Kelpie reeled back from the recoil. The arrow shot even faster before, moving side to side like a slithering snake. It slammed deep into the boss’ head, causing it to fly off its body. The health bar dropped to zero and was replaced with the word “Victory”. The body and head exploded into black ash. There were two soft plinks as the drop items landed on the floor.

There in all its glory was the rare Cosmic Metal she longed for. Next to it was the common item “Solar Flare”, an orange and red swirling orb. It gave the player who equipped it flame resistance and fire damage. It could also not be equipped with any cold type items.

Kelpie gingerly picked up the Cosmic Metal. The temptation to pocket it and run was very high, but she couldn’t do that to the nice djinn. She turned to face Zoba.

“Would you let me keep this? I know it's a very valuable item, but if you let me have it. You can have the Solar Flare and if you want i’ll help you farm this dungeon and show you all the secrets I found.”

Zoba came back to earth, feet forming and prancing forward as she came to peek at the two drops. “Yeah, of course! You said you were after an item from the boss, after all. And, well, I personally wouldn’t use it, but someone in the guild might have a use for a Solar Flare; I’ll add it to the treasury, thank you!” She folded her hands behind her, shifting her weight to one foot. “Uh, if you happen to know a good spot to pick up some Bailey Beads during this event? That’s what I came here for! And, well… it would be fun to stay teamed up a bit longer. You’re pretty good at this teammate stuff, you know!”

Kelpie sent a blushing and smiling emoji.

"Ah thank you. Teaming up with you is fun for me too! There's a few treasure rooms where the Bailey Beads spawn. I'll take you to them now!"

She waved for Zoba to follow her and together they walked through the boss door.

#overlord #kelpie dark #kelpie #zoba #real life on the seventh floor #my oc #others ocs #collab

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unravelling-the-world · 3 years

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random thoughts related to kagepro (tw for depression?? death?? suicide ?? implied ?? im not sure and idk what else read at ur own risk)

well idk lately ive been thinking a lot and ik ive uh always (? since i can remember?) have been depressed (i mean...it started around age 12...i dont really remember much before that. most of what i remember are bad moments anyways. or very specific scenes. but they dont feel mine. if that makes sense. its like remembering the scene from a movie. back on track i guess idk well lately ive realized i actually kin some characters and lately ive...been relating a lot to shintaro kisaragi fromkagepro. i mean its ok. there´s always been that specific similarity in us (after all, how many characters in anime are as related to coca cola as shintaro //and me,,im literally a coca cola addict lmao// well anyways. after some days, this lead me to thinking...to a hidden memory within my brain, i guess. I remember introducing my then best friends, to kagepro. one told me haha he´s like u bc the coca cola!! and i think i just laughed and smiled? i truly didn´t see it? i was sad sure, but i couldnt really relate to him. after all, i was the leader of my own little group of 12 year old weebs,right? (i was also 12 btw) i didnt personally dislike shintaro but i didnt rly see myself in him yknow? also i have loved ayano from ever since i have memory so idk like she´s one of my biggest comfort characters and its weird bc if she was ´´real´´ idk if i could date her or anything but im just glad she exists bc it somehow comforts me a lot yeah anyways ayano essay for another time lol. anyways at this age my favorite characters in kagepro were ayano and konoha ( i still love them a lot) thing is, at this point in my life i didnt know/wasnt aware i was transgender but i already kinda liked he/him pronouns so i roleplayed a lot. online. i roleplayed as konoha obviously lmao and actually one of my irl friends related to shintaro ?? and i think we may have roleplayed lmao and stuff.... she even had a facebook account named shin hikkikomori or smth like that. anyways fast forward bc after being 12 a lot of stuff happened obviously. and none of that relates to kagepro until quite some time. i will mention some items that dont really relate to kagepro but marked moments in my friend group that may be relevant later on. Around 2016)? Some of my closest friends changed schools (but we kept contact) yet i still had a big group at school. But it got fragmented along the way. 2017 i went to Japan and formed a new, different friend group with people that even today, are dear to me. When i came back, my friend group fragmented more. I kept contact with other members of the old group but one on one, not as a group anymore. 2018 we graduated, and i broke up my realtionship with one of my former best friends (2016-2018) 2019 was a year of change, and even though i was afraid and shit got weird, i was not doing too bad. i will skip that. Well. Im sure we all know 2020 was a trainwreck, shit happened. i had a villain arc. I lost my shit,definetely. Ups, downs, whatever. 2021 has not been too different. However, even through everything, in early 2020, i kept close relationships with my friend group. as the year moved forward and the restrictions started lifting ( thank you government very cool <3 //ironically obviously, this is the reason this shit wont go away//) some of my friends saw each other irl and stuff, or talked about stuff i didn´t understand/didn´t want to hear while on discord. I felt alienated. I felt empty. I got mad at a friend for the first time, for something he said. I ended up isolating myself. A friend celebrated her birthday. She invited me and never excluded me, asked me a lot of things and asked to virtually include me. But that would just make me feel more alienated, wouldn´t it? I told her it was ok, i didn´t go. Honestly, I felt like a bother. I didn´t want to bother. I wasn´t okay, but i didn´t want to bother anyone, so i isolated myself. I had a very bad breakdown. lasted weeks. When I recovered, it wasn´t the same. It felt like everyone else was closer, while i drifted away. I kind of recconected with some of my friends from Japan after this. In the vacations, i felt like i reconnected with some friends just to drift away again later. However, i never could reconnect with one of my best friends. She never really got mad at me or anything ( i think) but we don´t really talk much anymore. We used to talk daily, be it actual talking, memes, anything. I don´t think we´ve actually talked in weeks. There´s nothing I can do. This year, another friend had a birthday, but I was so disconnected from everyone I didn´t even care. I mean. It´s all broken now, isn´t it? The other day I just started wondering. When did I start relating to Shintaro so much? I had always been like this, hadn´t I? Who am I, actually? Why do I relate so much now? It´s not just about the soda. I had lost friends before, but I never really felt like that. Sometimes I feel like I´ve lost everyone. In a one year span I became a hikkikomori. About a month ago, when I entered classes, I was recognized as Shintaro pfp and I admitted to kinning him to people i´d never talked to before (on chat) // I decided to go apeshit idc anymore about what anyone thinks of me// I had fun. I think I must´ve posted on my stories, because two different people told me they were the ene to my shintaro. I appreciated it. i mean it´s kinda true bc now that i´m only on the pc they do bother me online and try to get me to open up or get better but sometimes the just annoy me lmao but also not bc they all have their own particular lives and they all seem to be doing better than me. Still, my classmates are very nice and inclusive. But it´s not like im close to any of them I guess. I´m just alone now. I´m fucked up man....I don´t feel real anymore. I don´t really know who I am. I guess that´s why I find comfort in seeing a part of myself in Shintaro? But when did i turn out like this? Why didn´t I relate when I was younger? Well, I hadn´t really lost any friends back then. I now know how painful that is. How lonely it is to be alone even when there is people around. idk. and i´ve always been quiet. introverted. shy. a loser. yet now whenever i meet anyone i try to idk connect? but i cant. i wish i could be more evil. maybe it´d just be easier if everyone really, truly hated me. maybe i´d get the strength to actually kill myself then. it´s weird. i really see myself in route xx shintaro. I know that´s fucked up because I know how it ends. but truly, i was trying. I was healing, i think i was going somewhere. and i was trying to keep my newly formed renovated friend group together. I really was trying to. I didn´t mind if we had sub groups on the big group, but we were all there for each other. I tried my best. I felt like i belonged. but now im alone again. and this time there´s nothing i can do. if something, i´ve made it worse. and i keep making it worse. it´s weird. when i first got into kagepro, both shintaro and ayano felt like adults. i thought they were really, really big. im older than them now. now i know theyre not really adults. i get it. i still feel 18. after all, these last two years have been taken away from me. i didnt waste them myself this time. i feel like a rotten 18 year old...when i listen to lost time memory, i just...get it. i always liked the song. i thought the story was so cool. when it first came out.. i still remember. iwas there. i waited for it. i loved it. i still do, but back then, i just saw it all as some really great and cool song. now i feel like i really, really get it. i love it even more. im hiding away in all my memories. but what is my true heart? what do i really want? i don´t know, i don´t know... If I'm 'wise' then, I can't face forward; I have no reason to so, I'll rot away instead It would be nice if time could be turned back. Years may pass but I'll never die I repeat hopeful words to myself, even though I know I still won't be able to reach you. "It doesn't matter, just die already!" I said as I clutched my wrist, simply cursing it. Unable to do anything, I merely indulged myself in life. "If summer can show me dreams, then let's go to before you were taken away" The days where I hid my embarrassment are illuminating upon the atmosphere and burning my mind. If I'm wishing for a dream that can't come true, then I'll embrace this blurry past and have a dream which I don't wake up from and naturally seclude myself from the outside world. "But that means you can't even see tomorrow?" I don't really care 'bout that, so it's ok I stained my hands in order to kill these boring days I'm choosing "solitude" after all A rotten boy at 18 today too, prayed again while clinging on to your colored smile Underneath the blazing sun Asking "Somehow, please take me away instead of leaving like this!" and my murmuring breath was quietly stopped

I guess i just wish someone could actually help me. take me out of this hole. Maybe some kind of closure would be nice. It´s not the same, though. I don´t have enough bravery in myself to actually kill myself. Mostly because of guilt. I can´t take the guilt of dissapointing everyone. I don´t want my parents to get hurt. I don´t want my bunny to miss me. Yet i wish everyday for it to be over. Lately, half of my dreams have been in Japan, with many friends, some who i met there, some who have never been there. Yet my brain shows me the dreams before it was all taken away. I think one of my favorite parts of the day is dreaming. I like to sleep simply because I dream. And i sleep very few. mayb bc i hate myself? I still barely indulge in life. I do anything to stay distracted. If i think, it all goes to shit. it all does. like now. Heh. it´s funny. I guess no one is truly my ene, because no one actually knows how mentally fucked up i got these past months. No one knows how badly i´ve been treating myself and how badly i´ve been doing. Still, i can´t tell anyone but scream it into the tumblr void. No one has to keep up with my shit. No one has to take care of me. After all, it was I who chose solitude. It was me who kept them away. But I don´t get a second choice. I don´t get a change of routes if things go sour. And i guess I don´t get to get a mentally fucked up friend group where I belong for a second time. Once was good enough, wasn´t it? I.. Even when I wasnt as deep as i am now (again) into kagepro, ive always wanted to die on August 15. It holds meaning to me now as well. Every year I used to ask people to go out with me that day. I know im not brave enough to kill myself. I always hoped for a lil miracle i guess. Last year was the first year...I didn´t do anything. I just... I just hope this year i can make it. I hope the miracle happens this year....I can only hope......its too late for me to be saved, isn´t it? I never thought it´d be like this. I don´t get closure. I don´t get goodbyes. I am left behind on a world that keeps moving. I am nothing.

#long post #hinatalks #we live in a society #fr fr #when i die....if god is real..i´ll end this once and for all. all of it #i am left with nothing but pain and anger.... i cant even feel anymore. i think i forgot how to

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