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roseofdarknessblog · 5 months

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Family gathering (Postwar!Levi Ackerman x Reader)

Word count: 3 140

Disclaimer: english is not my first language, I apologize in advance for any mistakes

Summary: You and Levi finally introduce your baby to the rest of the family.

This story can be read on its own or as a part of my little post-war series: Learn to live again

Family gathering

Being back in the tea shop after giving birth felt even better than you expected. Even if you only came to visit Levi for short periods of time. But it was enough time to make sure that he really had everything under control even without your help. At least for a couple more weeks.

Being new parents wasn't easy, not even the slightest, but you were adjusting. Learning every single day, that having a tiny little human living under your roof was about changing or adjusting one too many things.

Despite that, Levi and you couldn't be happier. In your newborn daughter, you saw the reason why you fought so hard all those years. She truly was a beautiful representation of the future you wanted humanity to have.

„I think they know something is up,“ Falco said, when he walked into the kitchen, that was at the back of the tea shop. Here, you used to bake many of your sweet and savory goods, which were then sold alongside the best tea in the whole town.

„Yeah, probably. But that's fine, something really is up,“ you said, smiling at the boy.

Until now, only he, Gabi, Onyankopon, and Yelena knew about the little Ackerman baby you and Levi welcomed into this world seven weeks ago. Nobody else from your friends knew you gave birth, or even that you were pregnant in the first place. You and Levi decided, that it would be better not to tell anyone and let things unfold on their own.

However, now it was finally time to introduce your precious little miracle to the rest of your family. To all your beloved friends, who fought alongside you these past few years. To the people, who helped you create a safe world to bring your daughter into.

„Is everybody here already?“

Falco nodded, gently taking your daughter's hand. She loved him so much and lately always smiled when they were together. „Yeah, they're talking, having tea and sweets but you can definitely tell they suspect something. Mainly because you're not there.“

„I think we should go see them, right?“ you asked your daughter in a sweet voice, stroking her chubby little cheeks. In some way, they very much reminded you of Levi's. Just like her silky black hair, her blue-grey eyes, or her cute little nose. She was the sweetest little copy of your husband in the cutest ways possible. „You're gonna love them, darling. And they're gonna love you.“

When the little girl looked at Falco and smiled, both of you smiled right back at her with so much love. The boy truly loved her as if she was his little sister.

„Hey, Y/N! Come and join us finally!“ Jean screamed for you from the tea shop, making you chuckle and kiss the top of your daughter's head, who tried grabbing the collar of your shirt.

„I'm coming, settle down. All of you!“ you called back, taking one last deep breath. Falco walked back to the shop before you, giving you one more moment alone.

The moment felt almost surreal. Holding your baby and getting ready to introduce her to so many important people. Not even that long ago, you would never even dream about doing something so magical.

„Now, I have a very special surprise for all of you. Can you close your eyes?“ you asked them before opening the door.

When you walked into the main part of the shop, everyone was there – Armin, Connie, Jean and Mikasa. Even Reiner, Annie, and Pieck came, along with Gabi, Yelena, and Onyankopon who didn't even need to close their eyes. Together with Falco and your husband, who was smiling at you ever so slightly.

„What do you think? What is this big surprise?“ you asked them excitedly. But before anybody said a word, your daughter let out a loud cry to get everyone's attention, before she smiled up at you. Almost as if she knew what was happening. „Okay, I guess it's not a surprise anymore. Open your eyes,“ you said, smiling happily at them.

The awe on everyone's face was so worth keeping this whole thing private until now. Connie and Armin looked at you as if they'd never seen a baby in their life before. But that was probably because of their last visit when you were five months along and still barely showing. Under the right pieces of clothing, they had zero chance of noticing anything. And now, half a year later, you were standing in front of them with a baby in your arms.

„So... we called you all here today, because we wanted you to meet someone very special,“ you said, looking over at Levi. With a slightly pained expression, he stood up from his wheelchair and walked a few steps to stand next to you. „She'll be two months old in a couple of days. I hope you can forgive us that we kept such a big thing a secret until now. It was...“

„We wanted to make sure everything will turn out okay,“ Levi said when you couldn't find the right words. „And then we wanted to soak up every little moment with her. Just the three of us,“ he added, wrapping one of his arms around your waist. It was a gesture full of love and also a way to help him stand more securely because of his leg.

It almost seemed that everybody was too shocked to speak. The first one to stand up and come up to you was Jean. He smiled, looking at both you and Levi. Then his soft light-brown eyes wandered to your baby, looking her over very carefully. He offered her one of his fingers, which the little girl took with such excitement, seeming happy that she was seeing a new face.

„She's beautiful, Captain, Y/N,“ he said proudly and with a happy smile.

„Oi, where did you get that baby, Y/N? When me and Armin were here a few months back, you surely weren't pregnant,“ Connie shouted, hurrying to you as well.

„I can assure you, that I was pregnant at the time. Five months pregnant, to be more specific. I just hid it too well,“ you chuckled, stroking your baby's hair. Her eyes were wide open with curiosity while her tiny hands were playing with Jean's fingers.

„Was she, Captain?“ Connie asked Levi, not wanting to believe you.

„Where do you think we got a baby that looks like me if she didn't give birth to it?“ Levi questioned him, his brows furrowed. He may looked annoyed with all the commotion, but by the tone of his voice, it was obvious, that he was enjoying having them all here.

„She really does look like you, Captain,“ Armin said, coming to stand between Jean and Connie.

Behind him, Mikasa followed a little shily. You gave her a warm smile and motioned to her, to come even closer. „Would you like to hold her? You're blood-related, after all,“ you said to her, looking over at Levi, who nodded at your words.

She seemed a little hesitant but eventually nodded in agreement. After showing her, how to safely hold the baby, she took her from you and carefully cradled your daughter against her chest. The little girl looked confused when she first looked up at Mikasa, but after she grabbed a strand of her hair everything was okay.

„She's adorable, congratulations to you both,“ Mikasa said, smiling at both you and Levi warmly. You've barely seen her since the Rumbling, because she went back to Paradis, so her presence right now was even more precious. „What's her name?“

You knew this question would come. And you were preparing yourself to answer it without too much emotion. But suddenly... when they were all here, standing around you and waiting for your answer... it felt almost impossible to explain the meaning of your daughter's name without making everybody way too emotional.

She got her name after a person, who was very dear to you and Levi. And to all of the 104th as well. It was a person, who was supposed to be here today with all of you as well. And also the person, thanks to who you got one more chance to fight the Rumbling and win.

„We named her after Hange,“ Levi said in a calm voice, seeing you struggling a little. „Zoe. Zoe Ackerman.“

„The meaning of her name is... life,“ you added in a quiet voice, reaching out your hand and stroking your baby's back. „I guess it's more than fitting, don't you think?“ Feeling your eyes welling up with tears, you looked at your friends. A wild range of emotions was seen on their faces – sadness, surprise, and also happiness.

Armin was the first one to speak up, leaning closer to Mikasa and taking the baby's hand, shaking it very gently. Such a sweet gesture made all of you chuckle. „It's more than fitting,“ he smiled at her warmly. „Nice to meet you, Zoe. I'm sure we'll be very good friends once you grow up a little.“

The sweet tone in which Armin talked to your baby melted your heart completely. Feeling unimaginable happiness, you looked over at Levi and kissed his cheek. The way he was watching the scene right in front of you, was more than beautiful. His expression was relaxed, almost completely pain-free. The look in his eyes was soft and loving towards all the people standing around you and introducing themselves to your baby in the funniest, yet most adorable way possible. She was all smiles, while she was looking around and taking in all the new people.

So despite looking so much like Levi, she surely didn't get her personality from him.

Connie was the one, who made her the most excited. Mainly, when he held her in a way that she was able to pull Jean's hair. But he truly couldn't be angry with her for even a second.

„Hey, you three. Come on, don't be shy,“ you said to Reiner, Annie, and Pieck who were still standing a little to the side, only watching the others happily fuss around your baby, who was making a lot of loud excited noises.

Once they were your enemies, they wanted you dead. Now they were here amongst your closest friends and family. In a way, you forgave them for almost everything. After having a couple of difficult talks, mainly with Reiner, you gained a new perspective of them all. And through that, things between you and them started changing. Gabi and Falco also helped a bunch, too.

„It's okay, we wanted you here and we're happy that you came,“ you said to them, stroking Reiner's arm and smiling at the girls.

„In a twisted kind of way, but we're all here thanks to you, too,“ Levi said to them, his grip around your waist tightening. His knee was starting to trouble him after standing by your side for a few minutes.

So after you made sure, that your baby was truly in good hands, you helped Levi walk outside the tea shop and sit down on a bench right next to the door. A heavy sigh escaped his mouth when he finally sat down and took the weight off his left leg.

„Good? Are you okay?“ you asked a bit worriedly, sitting down next to him. While your left hand started rubbing his back comfortingly, you leaned closer and kissed his cheek.

„Yeah, sure,“ he mumbled, taking a couple of deep breaths to ease the pain.

„It went well, didn't it? They were all so surprised and happy,“ you chuckled, resting your head against his. The voices and laughter from inside were heard pretty clearly, so you didn't have to worry. „And right now, they have probably a couple of minutes before she starts crying. Either because she'll be hungry or because she won't be able to find us.“

Levi smirked, wrapping his arm around your waist again, to keep you close. Despite the pain, he still seemed relaxed and content with the way today turned out. Everybody's reaction made it certain, that you and Levi did the best thing when you kept your pregnancy private.

„It's all so bittersweet. Having so many of them here and still missing a bunch of people,“ Levi said, his fingers gently stroking your side.

„They are here with us. In a different kind of way, but still.“

You could see all of your fallen friends and comrades in your baby's eyes and in her every smile. All the things they did and for what they sacrificed their lives, made it possible for little Zoe to be born. You and Levi were grateful to them every single day. For their bravery, resilience, and determination to make the world a better place.

Hange, Erwin, Sasha, Miche, Nanaba, Nifa, Furlan, Isabel, Moblit, Petra, Eld, Oluo, Gunther... Eren...

All of them and many, many more gave their lives a long time ago, so you and your friends could have this life. In one way or another. Looking back, there probably wasn't a way to save them. To spare them from death. All you could do was continue living your best life and honor them by being happy.

„Who would have thought, really? That we would make it here all the way from the Underground,“ you sighed, running your fingers through Levi's hair lovingly.

„We made it far, that's true. And...“ he shrugged, smirking at his own words, „I'm kind of excited to see what's next, now that we have our little girl. She's going to turn our lives upside down so many times.“

„That's what parenthood is about, right?“ you chuckled, grabbing his free hand and holding it tight. „We're doing good. Learning and making mistakes. I'm so glad that everything worked out in the end and that we have her.“ Having a baby was an adventure like no other. In the end, all the sleepless nights were worth it, when you saw your little angel smile at you, with her eyes full of innocence and pure love.

„Just wait until she starts walking and running around. That's gonna be a disaster.“

„We'll just have to keep up with her.“ You gently took Levi's chin and turned his head, so you could see his face.

He was still very handsome, no scars or a missing eye could change that. For you, he was the one and only. Since you were a teenager to this very day. All those years, it was Levi. And you were more than sure, that it would stay like this for the rest of your life. Nothing and nobody would be able to change your mind, because Levi was all you'll ever need – with all of his disabilities, which sometimes still made him feel a little self-conscious or worried, that he wasn't good enough for you. He was more than enough and you never failed to remind him that. A day never went by without you reminding him, just how thankful you were for his love and his presence in your life.

„I love you,“ Levi said, leaning in for a kiss. His soft lips pressed against yours, making you forget about everything else.

„That's really good to know because I love you too.“ With a smile, you brushed a few strands of hair from his forehead and kissed the tip of his nose. „I'm proud to call you mine and be yours.“

His sweet little smile had a very strong effect on you every single time you got the chance to see it. Mainly, when said smile reached his eyes and made him look so carefree and young. Seeing him like that, nobody would be able to tell how many horrors he had to suffer through.

Levi rested his forehead against yours, reaching for your left hand. He brushed his thumb over your wedding band, finding your lips in another sweet and love-filled kiss. Time seemed to stop around you at that moment.

But only until you heard a loud cry from inside the tea shop. Just moments later, Connie hurried outside, eagerly trying to return your baby into your arms. „Guess she doesn't like when someone pinches her cheeks. But they're so adorable and chubby, I couldn't resist.“

„They remind me of someone else's cheeks,“ Mikasa added, standing in the open door, her eyes focused on Levi with a playful smirk. You bit down on your lower lip, trying not to laugh, while Connie was grinning so hard, he had to turn away.

Levi, a little flustered, shook his head upon them and took his crying daughter into his arms. You watched him gently cradle her against his chest, planting a couple of kisses on the top of her head, while he rubbed her back.

„The brats made you cry, huh? Don't worry, you'll get used to them,“ he said to the baby, looking back at Connie. „And you'll have them wrapped around your finger in no time,“ Levi added and kissed her forehead in the hopes of stopping her from crying more. But little Zoe knew exactly what she wanted and cried until Levi didn't hide her in his embrace from the rest of the world, while he lovingly started scratching the back of her head. Lately, this has become the most efficient way to calm her down. „There, sweetie. That's better, right? No need to cry.“

Connie chuckled at the sight. „Well, Captain. Seems you're already wrapped around her finger. I've never heard you talk so sweetly to anyone, not even to Y/N.“

Jean and Armin came to stand by Mikasa, all of them watching the sweet sight of Humanity's Strongest being a completely different person when it came to his own daughter. All of them changed so much during the past few years. But when you looked at them in that moment, you still saw the kids they were, when they joined the Scouts. The kids you grew to love and swore to protect. The kids, who became your family long before such a peaceful life was even a possibility for all of you.

What a shame not all of them made it this far.

Not having Sasha and Eren here felt strange and painful. It felt like you failed a little. But just until you looked back at your daughter. Her cheeks were still wet from tears, while she was so adorably clinging to Levi. In her still teary eyes, you saw Sasha's dedication and Eren's bravery.

And that was what mattered the most.

Having your family here with you and showing them just how much they meant to you. How much you loved them and how happy it made you, that they came here today to meet little Zoe Ackerman.

#levi ackerman #levi ackerman x reader #levi ackerman x you #levi ackerman x female reader #mikasa ackerman #armin arlert #connie springer #jean kirstein #aot x reader #aot x you #attack on titan #snk #shingeki no kyojin

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moxleys-whore · 8 months

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Title: Baby

Word count: 1k+

Warnings: pregnany, birth, mjf being emotional

Requested: yes

All in. The biggest event in wrestling history. And here you were, laid in a hospital holding the smallest bundle of joy ever. All the while, your husband was putting on a fantastic zero hour match and of course the main event. Of course it took hours of convincing to get Max to finally agree to still perform, even though everyone would have understood if he called out.

Max, ecstatic as ever to be a dad, looked happier than a kid on Christmas when you revealed your pregnancy to him. Somehow, he managed to look even happier at the final push and the cry of the baby. Just about bursting into tears when he finally held his baby. His attitude and usual snark was long gone, how could he be rude when the tiniest hand was wrapped around his finger?

The plan was never to give birth in London, especially not on All In week, but when does life ever comply with our plans? You and Max had arrived at London a week early, wanting to go sightseeing and explore the city as much as possible. Your baby however, had different plans and decided to come 2 weeks early. While no, you shouldn't have been traveling at 9 months pregnant, you couldn't miss your husband's big moment. Main eventing the biggest event in pro wrestling was huge, and you'd be damned if you weren't there to celebrate his win. Luckily, you were released from the hospital on Friday. Meaning you got to attend the event.

After getting through everyone wanting to see the baby you finally made it to Max's locker room where a monitor was placed for you to watch the show without having to deal with people. You settled in and waited for Max to come in. As he finally made his way to his locker room he couldn't help but smile, he's the happiest he could ever be. He has an amazing partner and a beautiful baby now, and he gets to put on 2 amazing matches with his best friend. Life is finally coming together.

Right as Max goes to open the door, a crew member calls him for his final match of the night, the main event of All In. He must have lost track of time ranting to everyone about his new family. He opens the door and pops his head in, whispering an I love you to you and the bundle of joy before blowing you a kiss and wishing you goodbye.

The match was long, but as it finally came to an end Max was filled with new energy, his usual ring attitude dropped once he remembered his family awaiting him backstage. Asking for a mic the moment he is declared the winner.

"Wow guys, I can't thank you all enough. Not only did 80,000 of you come out to support us, even more of you have shown support for me and my partner. As some of you may have known, my partner, Y/N was pregnant. And I say was because on Monday, the light of my life gave birth to the breath of my soul. I'm a dad now. I'm the world champion and a dad. I couldn't be more grateful. I came out here today and told myself that even if I lost, I still have the two most important things waiting just up that ramp. So, if you'll excuse me, I have to go celebrate and see my babies. Thank you."

Tears filled your eyes at Max's speech, not being on to typically be emotional on TV like that. Wiping your eyes you hear the door open and see a smiling Max. He rushes over to you and his sleeping baby, hugging you both as softly as he could while still managing to put all his love and adoration into it. Placing a kiss on your head and one on the baby's, he mumbles a soft "I love you".

Max couldn't be happier with his family.

#mjf headcannon #mjf x reader #maxwell jacob friedman #maxwell jacob friedman x reader #aew x reader #max would be such a cute dad

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littlethingsinlife · 1 year

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i'm sorry (happier part 2)

A/N: I was not expecting the amount of positive feedback for the first part and I was even more surprised to see people asking for a part 2! It was originally created to be a one-shot but a part 2 really fit well with how the first one ended. Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you again for all of the love and support! I hope you all enjoy. I also want to thank my friend, @tummymoth, they really helped me flush out and refine my rusty ass writing (also let me word vomit at them till midnight sometimes).

Pairing(s): Past Lo’ak x Omatikayan!Reader, Ao’nung x Omatikayan!Reader, Slight mentions of Lo’ak x Tsireya

Warnings: Lo'ak's POV, Swearing, Ao'nung saying something sus ONE time

More Info: My vision for this part 2 was to create a reply in Lo'ak's pov. So we'll have a look at what he experienced and thought process (not too sure if any of that made sense) but I was inspired by Joshua Bassett's song "i'm sorry" and it played constantly as I wrote this. Hopefully I was able to do right by my idea haha.

Summary: 7,547

Part 1: Happier

Key:

(Y/N) = Your Name

Lyrics = Bolded Italics

Flashbacks = Italics

Na'vi Words:

Yuey - beautiful (refers to a person)

Skxawng - idiot/moron

Marui - Pods where the Na’vi live

Ilu - sea creature similar to dolphins

Ikran - dragon-like creature

Tulkun - sentient creatures similar to whales

Olo’eyktan - clan leader/ chief

I thought about what I would say

But I’m two years too late

I can’t imagine how you’re doing these days, hmm

Sure, it wasn’t perfect back then

I’ll be first to admit

But it was better than being strangers again, oh

It had been a couple of months since my interactions with (Y/N) dwindled to terse smiles and barely audible greetings. If you asked me to point out the moment our friendship started to change, I couldn’t tell you. When did our bond start to break? When did it even start to crack? We used to talk every day about all the things we did and planned what pranks to pull on everyone, but now? Now, she barely looked in my direction. Now, she wouldn’t even give me the time of day.

I couldn’t remember when it started, but I knew that it was somehow my fault I grew distant once we arrived in Awa'atlu. I guess I was just so fascinated by the new environment and people, I didn’t even realize a rift started to form between us in the first place, much less that it started to grow.

The night before we left to find a new home, I held (Y/N) as she let out sobs filled with fear and anxiety. It broke my heart, but all I could do was hold her and let her cry until she was calm enough to tell me what was on her mind.

“I-I am afraid, what if the sky people come to find us again? I cannot lose any of you; it would break me into a million pieces,�� she sobbed.

“If they find us then we will fight and we will win,” I reassured her, gently rocking her back and forth.

“You are an idiot, I was so close to losing you, to losing Kiri, Tuk, how do you think it would make me feel to lose the most important people in my life?” she sniffled. My chest ached at how broken she sounded, but the only thing I could do was assure her and offer her more words of comfort as I held her in my arms.

“I promise that I will be with you throughout the journey as will my family. We love you, and even if you do not believe it, you are a Sully. And you know what my dad always says.”

“Sullys stick together,” we chorused.

That night, I cradled her in my arms until she fell asleep.

Fuck, I completely broke my promise to her, how could I forget? Shaking my head, I tried to reason to myself, “Maybe she just needs time alone. I’m sure she’ll come running back soon once she realizes that it's no fun without me, her best friend.” I felt a small, unfamiliar feeling in the pit of my stomach. “Right?”

I’m drunk too late talking to the moon

Writing songs I can’t sing to you, ‘cause

“Bah! Stop lying, I know you (Y/N). You would have fought alongside me and defended Kiri. You are not the same girl I knew in the forest back home,” I muttered, rolling my eyes and getting up to leave. Honestly, who did she think she was fooling? The skxawng had the balls to insult Kiri, and all she did was sit back and watch. She didn’t even make a move to help until it was to help him by pulling me off. “Talk to me when you’ve come back to your senses,” I called over my shoulder, refusing to look back.

“Lo’ak! Bro—” a hand roughly grabbed my shoulder, jolting me out of my daze, “why’re you just staring off like that?” I whipped my head to see who the hell it was that was bothering me, only to be met with Neteyam.

“Did you have to grab me that hard?” I hissed before my initial anger gave way to a heavy feeling. “It's nothing, just—just lost in thought” I sighed, shrugging his hand off my shoulder.

“Right, sure, nothing.” he crouched down beside me. “Don’t think you can lie to me lil bro, you’ve been spacing out more than you usually do. I didn’t even think it was possible to be more empty-headed than you already are,” he stated.

“Wha—no I haven’t,” I tried to argue, but of course, he wasn’t convinced.

“Can you stop arguing with me for once and just tell me what’s going on with you, you skxawng?”

I scrunched my nose in distaste and inhaled sharply, “(Y/N) and I have been… distant,” I admitted, turning to look at him. “She won’t even look at me. She either only answers me with one word or doesn’t answer at all.”

He nodded, motioning for me to continue.

“I—the last time we talked, I said things I didn’t mean. Things that just came out because I was so frustrated and… and angry. It was the heat of the moment and I—”

“What did you say skxawng, did you hurt her?” Neteyam interrupted, face twisting to show the beginnings of distaste.

“No, no—” I sputtered and raised my hands to calm him before he could go on an hour-long lecture that I absolutely was not in the mood to hear. “At least I don’t think I did… I just wanted to ask her why the hell she was helping fish lips, that’s all—”

“You didn’t answer me Lo’ak, what did you say to (Y/N)? I don’t care why you did it, I want to know what you said to elicit such a reaction from her.” By Eywa, if he would just give me a chance to get to the point—

“I—I told her that she was not the same girl that I knew back in the forest..." my ears lowered as the weight of what I said slowly sunk in. “And that she could talk to me once she came back to her senses,” I whispered, internally cringing at my harsh words..

“You fucking skxawng—”

“Can you stop calling me that? I already know, you don’t need to keep repeating it…” I scoffed, looking out into the ocean. I’m good enough at beating myself up over the hundreds of times I’ve messed up in this lifetime, I didn’t need another disappointed set of eyes on me.

My ears twitched at the deep sigh he let out. “Look, I’m sorry that I keep calling you skxawng but that is exactly what you are for saying something so hurtful to your best friend of all people. The two of you were inseparable the moment you were born. Even if you don’t want to, suck up your dumbass pride,” my ears flattened again. It wasn’t pride, I’m not prideful. It—it was me needing (Y/N) on my side. We used to always be on the same page, and when she said I was wrong for wanting to defend Kiri against those assholes, it felt like she was siding with them instead of me, and—

Okay, so maybe it was pride.

“Admit that you were wrong, and go talk to (Y/N),” Neteyam insisted as he put a reassuring arm around my shoulders, jostling me around to prove a point. “Your friendship is so much stronger and Eywa knows that a heat-of-the-moment argument isn’t going to break that. You should have more faith in her.” His gaze sharpened before he schooled his expression into something calmer. “Just talk to her, yeah?”

“...Yeah,” I mumbled, swallowing down whatever argument was trying to bubble up from my throat and prying his arm off me. “You’re right. I’ll just clear things up with her and apologize. Everything will go back to normal after that, thanks bro—for listening,” I agreed.

Ever since that day

The things I didn’t say They haunt me, oh

And I know that I’m to blame

So, go ahead and

Blame it on me, oh

Our lessons on the ways of the Metkayina were finished, so it was rare for the entire group to be in the same place. But every once in a while, we all finished our chores at the same time and found ourselves near the shore where we first learned to ride the ilu, and sat around a fire hours before eclipse, laughing and exchanging stories.

The rarity of these moments made me cherish them that much more, but two people continued to miss our not-so-scheduled gatherings the past two moon cycles. How was it possible that they were the only two to keep missing our hangouts? Were they together? Fish lips had better not be doing anything to (Y/N) or so hel—

“(Y/N)! Ao’nung! You guys made it!” Rotxo laughed.

“Yeah, yeah, quit shouting will you?” Ao’nung shot back as he sat down next to Rotxo, (Y/N) smiling softly as she followed.

“So, what’ve you guys been up to? We haven’t seen you in what feels like ten moon cycles.” Neteyam questioned.

“Teyam, you saw me earlier today, you literally helped me feed our ikran,” (Y/N) joked. ‘Teyam? When did she start calling him by anything other than his given name?

Ao’nung swatted her side with his stupidly wide tail and swung an arm around her shoulder with a remarkably punchable smile on his face “More like he was trying to make sure you didn’t accidentally give them your fingers for breakfast. They would’ve gotten indigestion.”

“Haha very funny Ao’nung,” she drawled, “I would’ve fed you to Tekay instead, but she would’ve gagged the moment she caught a whiff of you,” she scoffed as she quickly pushed him away by the chest.

“Wait… Do they even have a gag reflex?” Fish lips didn’t budge, he just had a dumb look of confusion on his face.

“No, but they would defy the laws of biology to gag just for you,” she quipped, sticking out her tongue and moving to push him away again, but the skxawng had the nerve to pull her into a headlock.

“Oh, yuey, the ikran won’t be the only ones gagging on me tonight,” he argued with a smirk.

Did I want to punch that smirk off his face? Did I want to gag? Both? Before I could make a decision, (Y/N) grimaced, pushing him away again and smacking him upside the head.

“That’s actually repulsive. You’re disgusting.”

“Dude, keep it in your pants, her family is right there,” Rotxo laughed, doubled over as he struggled to catch his breath.

“Yeah, we’re right here,” I interjected with a smile—wanting to join in on the jokes that were being thrown around—but it was hard to keep my face from falling when I saw (Y/N)’s bright expression falter.

“Anyway, what were you guys talking about before Ao’nung and I arrived?” she asked in a too-bright tone of voice she only used when she desperately wanted to change the subject. As if everyone came to an unspoken agreement to forget about the conversation before, one by one they all started talking about who they thought would win in a fight—Toruk Makto, or our Olo’eyktan, Tonowari.

The sound of laughter and excited chatter faded as I replayed the previous conversation in my head. When did they start joking around like that? Why the hell did fish lips call her yuey like it was the most natural thing in the world? How come she smiled so easily with him but faltered when she sees me? She was probably smiling with him right now—

I looked over at her, a pit in my stomach already forming at the idea of her smiling at him, but she looked so distant, so withdrawn from everything around her. Before I could even blink, she put a delicate hand on Ao’nung’s arm to grab his attention and mumbled something in a hushed tone. After a few beats of silent conversation, Ao’nung nodded and gave her a look of understanding.

Why did he look at her like that? How much time did they spend together to be able to understand each other with just a look? How much time have I wasted breaking my promise to her while she grew closer to someone else?

Standing up, I made up my mind that I would talk to her and clear up any miscommunication. There was no way in hell I was about to let fish lips ruin our childhood friendship. Before I could even get close, Neteyam pulled me aside.

“Bro, why’re you glaring at everyone?” he asked with concern written all over his face.

“Glaring?” I tilted my head in confusion. “I’m not glaring, this is just my face.”

“No, no.” He shook his head. “I’m your brother, I know your face. Whatever look you’ve been throwing at Ao’nung and (Y/N)? You may as well have been throwing knives at them.”

Behind Neteyam, I could see (Y/N) get up to bid everyone good night and slowly walk in our direction. This was my chance, I just needed this overbearing idiot to leave me alone.

“Whatever look you think I’m giving to them, you’re wrong,” I denied. “Can you not act like this right now?” My tail flicked side to side impatiently, an obvious twinge of annoyance clear in my tone. I licked my lips nervously as I could hear footsteps coming closer. Leaning slightly to the side, I looked behind Neteyam to see (Y/N) and—

Ao’nung? What? Why is he there?

“Good night,” (Y/N) muttered, not sparing us a glance as she walked past. I followed her every move and—as if everything slowed down—my eyes narrowed as they found Ao’nung’s hand placed on her lower back, leading her gently in the direction of the marui.

I know that I’m too late

But I’ll say it anyway

I’m sorry

Though it's far too late

“I did it! Did you see that Reya?” I shouted—out of breath—as I showed off the shell Tsireya threw.

“Yes, yes you did it!” She exclaimed, excitedly wrapping her hand around mine. For someone who spent so much time underwater, her hand radiated so much warmth. So easy to hold. My heart swelled with pride as she continued to compliment me. “You’ve improved so much!”

“Yeah? Well, I had a great teacher,” I joked, nudging her softly with my shoulder. It wasn’t just her hands that were warm either, she just seemed to radiate it.

“Oh stop, you flatter me too much,” she denied, fidgeting with her hair. Was that a blush on her face? “C’mon, why don’t we catch up with the others? Private lessons are officially done for the day,” she announced as she led me to shore. Oh Eywa, she looked so pretty like this, with her hair flowing down her back and the way her eyes cast down when she became flustered. And her smile, it was a smile that could knock the air out of my lungs.

While we walked onto shore, we joked around and laughed with each other, talking about anything and everything. The ease of each reply and joke came as smoothly as gliding through the water on an ilu—as easy as breathing. Laughing at another one of Tsireya’s jokes, my eyes scanned the village as we approached it. Families were winding down for the day as they cooked dinner, although I didn’t see mine anywhere nearby aside from Kiri.

My smile slowly dropped when I was able to make out Kiri looking frantically around as if she was searching for someone. Tsireya and I made our way to her, worry filling the pit in my stomach. As we got closer, I could see Ao’nung climb down one of the roots of the Mangrove trees and make a beeline toward her. My eyes stayed on both of them, making sure that fish lips didn’t do anything to Kiri.

Ears twitching I was able to make out the words, “(Y/N)? Did you find her? ” from Kiri as they were carried on the wind toward us.

“Yeah I did, I was able to get her to eat, but she’s not looking too good,” Ao’nung replied with concern lacing his voice.

Brows furrowing, I pulled Ao’nung by the shoulder. “What do you mean she’s not looking good? Where is she? What did you do?”

“What the hell do you mean? I didn’t do shit, freak.” I rolled my eyes at the insult. He couldn’t use that thick head of his to think of anything else to call me? From the pained look on his face, I could tell that my grip on his shoulder had too much pressure. Good. Served him right.

Before Ao’nung and I could continue our argument Kiri groaned, “Will the both of you skxawng shut up! I’ll go talk to her.” My eyes followed her retreating form as she went to talk to (Y/N)—tail lashing back and forth in agitation all the while—before turning back to Ao’nung.

Who the hell did he think he was? I’d beat his skxawng ass if he hurt (Y/N) in any way. He had no right to look so damn worried. They weren’t even close. What even happened? How long had she been missing for Kiri to go to fish lips of all people for help? Should I follow Kiri? Why didn’t (Y/N) come to me? She always came to me, and if she came to me now, I absolutely would have listened. Why—

“Lo’ak? Hey, are you okay? Lo’ak?” a hand softly placed itself on my arm. Closing my eyes in frustration, I sighed.

“Yeah, perfectly fine.”

Damn it, was that when it started? How idiotic and blind have I been that I didn’t even notice that her trust in me started to slip and die when it was right in front of me? Why didn’t I go to her and make sure she was okay? I should’ve punched that idiot’s lights out—

“Ao’nung! Stop pulling me you skxawng, you’re walking too fast, slow down!” a hushed voice chastised.

“C’mon yuey, we only have about an hour before eclipse, we have to hurry!” His voice grated against my ears as he responded.

“That’s plenty of time!” (Y/N) insisted. I could hear the laughter bubbling up in her voice as she chased after him. “Please Ao’nung slow down, I can’t keep up.”

“It can’t be helped, you’re so short—” a whack could be heard. “Ow!”

“I’m as tall as Tsireya, you giant!”

“Both you and my sister are short—Ow! Alright, just because you did that, you leave me no choice,” Ao’nung said, throwing (Y/N) over his shoulder with a laugh.

The bickering voices got closer, and my eyes narrowed at the way he held her. My breath hitched as he whispered something in her ear that made her ears perk up and her eyes widen. What the hell was he saying to her? Before I could spring up from my spot, Ao’nung tossed (Y/N) in the water, her yelp quickly interrupted by the sound of her body hitting the water.

I stayed in my spot as shock zipped through my body. Letting out a breath I didn’t know I held, her head popped out of the water, a playful glare on her face.

“I told you, you left me no choice,” he stated, guffawing at her expression.

“Oh yeah?” she groused, spitting out seawater as she wrung out her hair. “Well fuck you too. Help me out of here?”

“Only if you say the magic word,” he taunted, crossing his arms with a smirk. “Otherwise, I’m afraid my hands are tied.”

“Please, oh great son of our Olo’eyktan, help me out of the ocean,” she beckoned dramatically, sarcasm dripping from every word while she rolled her eyes. “It’s about time you recognized my proud lineage, forest dweller,” he said as his chest puffed out with a hand reaching towards (Y/N). And there was that stupid smile on his face.

(Y/N) rolled her eyes, a mischievous smile spreading across her face as she reached for his hand, making sure to tug with enough force to unceremoniously yank him into the water.

“So much for the son of a great warrior! Your instincts are shit!”

“My instincts are dull you say?” he questioned as his head popped up next to her. “We’ll see about that!”

“Wha—AHHH—'' she wheezed. “No, please Ao’nung stop! That tickles!” Her arms flailed wildly in an attempt to free herself from his grasp.

What the fuck.

My ears flattened at an angle as I tried to process the scene unfolding before me. When did she start laughing with him? That should’ve been me she was laughing with. Not him, not the skxawng who had been nothing but rude to us since we arrived. What… what was I even saying—Fuck I didn’t know anymore. Why did I feel like this every time I saw them together… laughing and making jokes like we used to?

And it was me, it wasn’t you

It’s cliche, but it’s true

I wasn’t thinking how I usually do, oh

And is your momma doing well?

Or does she still hate me?

But it was hard to watch me put you through hell

I’m drunk, too late, talking to the moon, ooh

Writing songs I can’t sing to you, ‘cause

Two weeks had passed since I started noticing the changes in (Y/N)’s relationship—friendship?—with Ao’nung. It was like every time I blinked, I could see her laughing loudly as Ao’nung tickled her with a triumphant smile on his stupid face. Since that day, I had been trying to find a way to talk to (Y/N), but she was never alone. She was always with him and when she wasn’t, she disappeared and I couldn’t find her no matter how hard I looked.

Now here I was, wandering around trying to look for her as I rehearsed what I wanted to tell her.

Where could she be? Dinner was in an hour and she wasn’t anywhere near our marui. I had to find her soon so there would be enough time for us to talk. I had to tell her that I miss her, that I was sorry for being so dumb, that I shouldn’t have let my pride blind me, and that I didn’t mean any of the things I said.

There was only one place I hadn’t looked yet… hopefully she was there.

As I was getting closer to the root Kiri stalked to, I could see two silhouettes beside each other. An all-too-familiar feeling bloomed in my chest once I registered that she was there with him.

Her melodic laughter made my steps falter. I clenched my fists tightly, contemplating if I should go over there and pull her away, force her to talk to me, to listen. But I couldn’t, I couldn’t do that to her, not when she looked so content, so happy.

Ever since that day

The things I didn’t say

They haunt me, oh

I know that I’m to blame

So, go ahead and

Blame it on me, oh

“Lo’ak? You said you were going to look for (Y/N) and never came back. She’s already in the marui helping mom cook,” Kiri stated, a twinge of annoyance lacing her voice. “Hey, are you listening?” She shook my arm slightly, making me jump out of my stupor.

“Yeah, sorry, you said dinner was ready?” I asked as I stared off.

The sand beside me crunched softly as Kiri made a move to sit beside me. “No, I said that (Y/N) is with mom helping her cook. Where is your head at?” she asked as she tilted her head to try and meet my gaze. “Are you alright?” The annoyance in her voice shifted to concern.

“I’m fine, yep—just… fine,” I brushed her off, hoisting myself up to head towards Mom and Dad for dinner before Kiri yanked me back down.

“Lo’ak, don’t pretend you’re okay when you’re not. Tell me what’s going on,” she urged. “Maybe I can help you with whatever it is that’s occupied your mind lately.”

I inhaled sharply, debating if I should tell her what had been muddying my mind, the reason why I had been so spaced out, why I had been glaring daggers at fish lips each time I saw his stupid face next to (Y/N)—how confused I was.

“Stop with the thinking skxawng, you might hurt yourself,” she admonished. “Just tell me. It’s not like I can’t handle it.”

Huffing, I rolled my eyes and turned away from her to look at the sea. I hadn't even said anything yet and Kiri was already making me feel idiotic. How was I supposed to tell her what's been going on like this? Maybe if I kept quiet for long enough, she would get tired of waiting for me to start talking and go on to eat dinner without me.

A couple of minutes of silence passed.

I could still feel her staring at me.

“I’ve—I’ve been conflicted,” I started, tongue feeling heavy in my mouth as I continued to stare at the shoreline. “I don’t know what I’m feeling.”

“What do you mean?” Kiri nudged my shoulder with hers. “Elaborate a little more, I can’t help if you don’t tell me the reason why you’re feeling confused.”

“...Whenever I see (Y/N) with Ao’nung, it’s as if I can feel my heart aching,” I said, motioning toward my chest to prove my point. “There’s always a… a surge of anger that rushes through me. All I want to do is pull her away from him so then everything can go back to the way things used to be—for us to be okay.”

“Lo’ak…” If I was looking at her, I’d probably see Kiri tilt her head with sympathy. But sympathy isn’t what I needed right now.

“I want her to look at me and smile, to laugh with me, hug me—but now, whenever I get close to her, she’s next to him, laughing with him, cracking the jokes we would make to each other… I just—” I rubbed at my face in frustration. It wasn’t as if the words were hard to come by—I had spent so much time bottling them up that it was hard to stop talking. No, I just hated the fact that I felt this way in the first place. “I don’t understand why seeing them makes me feel like my heart is about to explode—why it makes me want to scream. It hurts.”

“Lo’ak” she put a hand on my shoulder. “Are you—are you in love with (Y/N)?”

Love?

I sputtered in surprise and whipped my head toward Kiri to see if she was joking or not. What kind of a sick question was that? I wasn’t in the mood for any games.

“What? No, she’s like my… sister?”

She rolled her eyes and sighed. “If you’re not, then why does seeing her with Ao’nung hurt you so much? Why do you care as much as you do?”

“I shouldn’t!” I wrenched my shoulder away from her hand and stood up. The need to move around and do something—anything—was too much. There was too much energy thrumming right beneath my skin to sit still anymore.

“That’s the problem! After everything I said to her, done to her? I don’t have the right to say I’m in love with her. She’s my childhood friend, Kiri. That’s all our relationship has ever been… I just—” I paused in thought and tried to calm down. “I didn’t realize seeing her have so much fun with someone else would make me feel so, so hollow—”

“Let me ask you something, you have to promise to be completely honest with me, okay?”

I nodded, not even looking in her direction.

“When (Y/N) tried to pull you off from Ao’nung that one fight months ago, what did you feel? Angry? Betrayed? Jealous?”

Jealous? Did she really think I was sulking for months because of such a petty feeling? I’m not a jealous person. I never have been.

“Seeing her jump in to get me off him made me feel like she was siding with him and telling me that I was wrong. Her actions were clear as day to me, Kiri.” I started to pace around. “She was protecting him—caring for him when she should’ve been next to me, helping and supporting me. When she did that—I felt like the only person that’s ever been on my side—” I croaked and turned my head to look at Kiri as tears stung my eyes “The only person who didn’t see everything I did as some sort of disappointment or failure, abandoned me and chose someone else.”

“...”

“I know that I could’ve approached her a different way but how could I when I felt so broken?” I inhaled sharply, eyebrows furrowed. “ It’s all fish lips’ fault. If he wasn’t such an asshole, none of this would have happened, and (Y/N) and I would still be the same, she would still be by my side—supporting me, loving me.”

“Why do you keep blaming it on Ao’nung?”

“Because it is his fault that things have turned out the way it has.” I threw my hands up, exasperated. What wasn’t Kiri getting? “He’s getting in between my relationship—er—friendship with (Y/N)! If he wasn’t there I would be able to talk to her and tell her I’m sorry, but she’s always with him—”

“Stop! Are you hearing yourself?” She nudged at my foot to interrupt and scoffed. “You’re unbelievable, you know that? (Y/N) told me what you said to her, how ‘she wasn’t the same girl’ you knew back in the forest. Do you know what happened when you told her that? Do you know how much pain she was in?”

Pain? I snorted, turning towards Kiri. “Now I know what you’re saying is bullshit. You know how (Y/N) is—if she really was pissed at me she would’ve come to me instead of running to someone else.”

“She wasn’t pissed. She cried because of you, Lo’ak. Because of what you said.” I stopped dead in my tracks to look at her. Kiri's eyes didn’t waver. Another heavy feeling settled on my chest and clawed its way up my throat. If you had asked me what it was, I wouldn’t have been able to tell you. Was I sad? Guilty? Angry? Was I jealous like she said?

I settled on anger.

“If you’re saying what I think you’re saying—”

“The person that found her that night, the one who comforted her? That was Ao’nung. He held her in his arms as she sobbed when I found them.” She stood up too, forcing me to stop pacing.

“The last thing I want to hear about right now is him, Kiri. What the fuck—”

“Did you ever think about why she’s so comfortable with him now? Why they’re so close? While you ignored her for weeks, he made sure she was okay—made sure she ate every day. He didn’t leave her side until she finished,” Kiri pointed out, and before I could even think to open my mouth to remind her how shitty he was to her especially, she cut me off. “Yes, he was an asshole at the beginning, and yes he has a screwed-up way to show he cares, but he stepped up when you fucked up.” She poked my chest with a glare before she continued.

“Oh, so I’m a fuck-up now?” I asked wryly.

“You can’t put all the blame on someone that took care of your best friend. Stop being so blinded by your pride and hatred and see that you’re the real reason why your relationship with (Y/N) isn’t the same as it used to be.”

My heart sank a little more as I scrambled for something to say. “How could you say that—”

“No, you do not get to interrupt me right now, Lo’ak.” Her eyes flashed with something closer to anger than annoyance. When was the last time I saw her angry? “Listen and listen well. When we couldn’t find (Y/N) and we were looking for her everywhere—he was the one that found her spot, the one she isolated herself to so she could cry alone, and no one would see how much pain she was in. And what were you doing in the meantime?”

My ears flattened at her rising tone, and I was finally beginning to understand the weight stuck in my throat and chest. Not anger, not even jealousy.

“You were out there with Tsireya, stuck in your own little world.”

It was my fault.

“Don’t get me wrong, I’m really happy that you found her but you can’t have both of them. You can’t be that selfish. From (Y/N)’s perspective, you’ve already chosen the one you want.”

“It’s not like I’ve actually chosen anyone yet,” I tried to interject, but all the fight had left my voice as Kiri’s words dug into my skin and sunk in.

“Don’t you dare play with either of their feelings. (Y/N) held so much love for you in her heart, she allowed herself to break to the point of no repair because she didn’t want to show you how much it hurt her to see you at your happiest with Tsireya.” She paused before continuing, her voice losing its edge. “Let her move on, brother. And if it’s Ao’nung that makes her light up the way she used to, then you suck it up and let him. He was there when your pride wouldn’t even let you apologize or even look in her direction. Actually think about how she feels for once.”

I hated the fact that there wasn’t anything I could say to prove her wrong.

“It’s all I’ve been thinking about nowadays,” I muttered.

I know that I’m too late

But I’ll say it anyway

I’m sorry

I’m sorry, hmm

I’m sorry

Though it’s far too late

“I thought I was already doing that,” a faint voice huffed in annoyance. Turning the corner, I saw Ao’nung and (Y/N) standing on the beach together— far too close for my liking.

“You were, but you got sloppy. Here, you have to move your hips like this,” he said as he corrected her posture. My ears flattened against my head as he put a hand on her hip and gently directed her movement.

Why did he look so gentle with her?

“Ao’nung,” (Y/N)’s voice rang out, clear as crystal despite her uncertain tone. “Are you sure you should be teaching me this? This is a traditional Metkayina dance, right? I’m…” she hesitated, her voice becoming smaller. “I’m not Metkayina—”

“Yet.” He interrupted, holding her face in his hands. “You are not Metkayina yet. Once you become one of us, you will have to learn the dance to celebrate the return of our spirit brothers and sisters, so why not learn that now?” I hated how reassuring his voice was. The thought of how either of their eyes looked as they held contact made my stomach turn.

“Yeah… you’re right,” she mumbled with an unsure look on her face.

“Woah, hey pretty girl, look at me,” he insisted, laying his hands on her shoulders and bending his neck so they were at eye level. “I’m serious when I say you will become Metkayina one day, so don’t worry yourself over it right now. Okay?” Ao’nung tilted his head to the side, an unbelievably soft expression on his face. “You have me here to help you.”

“Alright…” (Y/N) mumbled, not convinced.

“If you don’t get rid of that look on your face I’ll throw you into the water,” he said as his face shifted from sincerity to something mischievous. “Or worse… I’ll tickle you,” he threatened.

“You better not Ao’nung, or I swear to the Great Mother herself I will hu—AHH—get away, you skxawng!'' She laughed as she tried to run away, but Ao’nung grabbed hold of her waist and pulled her into his arms. And despite her words of protest, it was clear as day that she was leaning into him while they scuffled on the sand.

“No!” she shrieked with glee. “You can’t make me go in there again!”

“I wouldn’t be so sure of that, forest dweller!”

A thought occurred. Should I go up to them? We never got the chance to talk, after all. I took a few steps in their direction before freezing. When was the last time I heard her laugh like that? She had the biggest smile on her face, and the one who made that happen wasn’t me—it was him.

And if you ever hear this

I hope you know that

I’m not proud of who I’ve been, ooh

And if I see you again

I hope you know that

I wish you nothing but the best

And my biggest regret

The afternoon was quiet, relative silence only interrupted by the crashing of waves. Without much to do, I just sat in our marui and lazed around with Tuk until a horn blew.

“The tulkun have returned! Everybody—our brothers and sisters have returned!” Tsireya’s voice rang out, and when I poked my head out to see what the fuss was about, I saw the megawatt smile on her face, as she swam by on her ilu.

The village came to life as everyone mounted either ilu or canoe to make their way to the tulkun. From here, I could see little more than a large group of dark shapes making their way through the water. Payakan himself was dauntingly huge, but to see a whole pod of them show up like this? It was spectacular. I watched the commotion unfold from one of the walkways, lost in thought before I felt water splashing at my feet.

“Come on Lo’ak! Don’t just stand there, let’s go see the tulkun together!” Tsireya urged, still smiling. Shaken out of my stupor, I grinned widely—diving into the water and clambering onto her ilu. lu may be lithe animals, but I could still feel sinuous muscle under velvety skin as it made adjustments in the water to keep balance.

“I’ll come, but only if you’re offering a ride,” I joked, gently holding her waist and playfully leaning onto her. The cool water around us made her skin feel that much warmer. It was nice.

Before I could see her reaction—I would’ve bet anything at that moment that her cheeks had become flushed—we began to quickly make our way toward the rest of the clan and the giant tulkun.

The air around me vibrated with the excitement and happiness of loved ones returning, and Tsireya was no exception—the speed of the ilu gave away her eagerness to be with her spirit sister. As we leaped into and out of the water, Tsireya’s laughter was carried by the wind and reached my ears. That, and the answering whoops and bellows of Metkayina and tulkun alike, was almost contagious enough to get carried away by the energy surrounding us.

“My spirit sister is down there,” she said as she dismounted, sliding off her ilu and into the water. “Wait here, yeah?” she smiled at me before diving down.

I was more than happy to watch the Na’vi around me. Looking around, I was in awe of the sheer amount of tulkun gathered in one area, and how each Metkayina was able to identify their spirit sisters or brothers so easily. Looking down into the shifting waters, I saw Tsireya catching up with her spirit sister, waving her hands around and swimming through the water alongside her.

All around, I could hear people telling stories and the deep, booming calls of the tulkun as they responded with tales of their own. New parents were showing their babies and calves, and as my eyes scanned the horizon, I could see small children holding onto the tulkun’s fins as they were lifted to the glittering ocean surface.

Not too far away, I heard the sound of a body hitting the water and the sound of grating, but familiar laughter along with an indignant (Y/N) sputtering.

“Ao’nung, what the fu—”

“Hey, hey, relax! It’s just some water. There are children here, yuey,” Ao’nung chided with a shit-eating grin on his face.

“The parents of those children are going to have to explain what it means to return to Eywa once I’m through with you,” she retorted, treading water and becoming even more unamused when he raised his hands in mock surrender.

“Woah there pretty girl, you’re talking to the son of the mightiest warrior in all of Pandora—”

“That’s funny, I don’t see Neteyam here,” she interjected, pretending to search the waters around them before turning back to Ao’nung and tilting her head, “do you?”

“Just because you said that you can have fun finding your own way back to shore,” he said as he turned his ilu around.

“Oh, c’mon Ao’nung, don’t be like that,” she rolled her eyes and reached a hand towards him. “You’d really leave me here to fend for myself?”

He turned and wagged a disapproving finger at her, “I’ll consider forgiving you if you say word-for-word that I’m the son of the mightiest warrior in all of Pandora. I can’t have you slandering my father’s name, yuey.” She groaned and leaned back into the water.

“You couldn’t pay me enough to say that load of bull—”

“Nope!” he didn’t give her a chance to defile the ears of any nearby children and crossed his arms. “I wanna hear you say it.”

“...”

“I’m still waiting.”

With a sardonic smile, she finally caved. “Why don’t I do you one better? You’re the mightiest warrior to exist since the time of the First Songs,” she declared, sarcasm dripping from every word as she slapped at the water for emphasis.

“That’s what I thought, was that so hard?” Even if I wasn’t able to see them, I still would have been able to hear the stupidly wide smile that made its way across his face.

“Don’t be such a big baby and let me meet your spirit brother!”

“Just because he’s here to visit today, I’ll let that one slide for now.” Ao’nung rolled his eyes, dismounting his ilu to join (Y/N). “Now hold on tight and hold your breath like how we practiced.”

We? Who the fuck was we? Why was he allowing her to meet his spirit brother? Why were they looking at each other like that?

I watched both of their silhouettes submerge and breathed deeply, forcing my thundering heart to calm as I slowly sank my head into the water. At first, all I could see were blobs floating around in the water, but once my eyes adjusted, I could see the fluid movement of Ao’nung talking to his spirit brother. Eyebrows furrowing, I swam a little closer and hoped that I would be able to see what was being signed. With each movement made, it was clear that Ao’nung was translating the clicks and bellows of the tulkun to (Y/N), and whatever was being said made her smile widen by the second.

I couldn’t watch anymore as my chest burned from the lack of air and I resurfaced to catch my breath. For once, I was thankful for the lack of lung capacity I had. I climbed back onto Tsireya’s ilu. Seeing as she wasn’t back yet, I sat back and leaned on its neck to face the sky.

Did she always glow like that when she smiled? Whenever she was with him—she always looked so happy, so vibrant. Would she have looked like that with me by her side if I didn’t push her away? If I was there for her like I had promised? I wanted to tell her sorry—that I was sorry for taking our friendship for granted, for making her go through it alone. I wish that it didn’t take seeing her smile and laugh with someone else to make me realize how I felt.

I willed my tears to go away.

Is this how she felt? Seeing me with Tsireya? Great Mother… I was truly horrible, wasn’t I? I wished things turned out differently. Maybe in another universe, I did talk to her—realized sooner, made her happier—but now? Right now, my heart was torn in two, watching as someone else picked up the pieces of the heart I crushed. No amount of words could fix what we used to have, and even though I wanted to whisk her away, tell her I love her—that I see her—that seeing her with him made my skin crawl, I knew I couldn’t. I was no longer worthy to be part of her life, because of me and my actions alone.

I had become nothing but a stranger.

Ever since that day

The things I didn’t say

They haunt me

I know that I’m to blame

So go ahead and

Blame it on me, ooh

I know that I’m too late

But I’ll say it anyway

I’m sorry

Hmm, I’m sorry

Oh-oh-oh-oh, I’m sorry

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f1letters · 1 year

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paris | eo31

"romance is not dead if you keep it just yours"

summary: maybe their family and friends didn't understand all the secrecy of their relationship, but why risk ruining what they had when they lived happier than ever inside of their own bubble?

warning: the absolute fluffiest fluff ever, secret relationship, platonic!reader x mick schumacher, brief mention of alcohol, no big warnings - just here for the ✨vibes✨

pairing: esteban ocon x reader

word count: 3.2k

note: everything in bold are song references and in italic are thoughts, which includes memories from the past.

french words used: mon trésor = my treasure; mon amour = my love; je t'aime tellement = i love you so much

omg?! cat posting a HAPPY FLUFFY STORY?! yes yes yes, I know everyone, but after last week I think you guys deserved a little sweet, lovey-dovey story haha! what can I say? I love estie bestie haha! I hope you enjoy this one, I loved writing it! (but it's actually 1:30 AM and I have to wake up in like... 5 hours! haha)

masterlist

"Your ex-friend's sister

Met someone at a club and he kissed her

Turns out, it was that guy you hooked up with ages ago

Some wannabe Z-lister

And all the outfits were terrible

2003 unbearable

Did you see the photos?"

No, I didn't, but thanks, though

Paris is unquestionably a city for lovers, said Mary McAuliffe.

And it is indeed the city for all lovers. The romantic lovers, head over heels in love with each other. The soon-to-be lovers, so shy and so scared to reveal their feelings. The inseparable lovers, so consumed by their adoration that they can't seem to keep their hands away from each other. The secret lovers, lost in between discreet touches and memories built in confidence.

Paris is the one place where your heart seems to beat even faster, where your eyes seem to glow a little more, where your head seems to be completely and utterly focused on the idea of love.

Y/N and Esteban were no exception to the rule.

No matter how many times the couple visited the French capital, the two seemed to become magnets, unable to let go of each other, whenever they went to the city of love.

The young woman was combing her long hair in front of the large mirror in the hotel bathroom, towel around her wet body, after taking a shower.

With her eyes locked on her reflection, Y/N didn't even notice her boyfriend's tall frame walk through the door until the driver wrapped his arms around her waist from behind while resting his chin on top of her head.

She smiled at him through the mirror and Esteban responded by placing a soft kiss on his girlfriend's cheek, sending shivers down her spine.

It was amazing how he managed to have the same effect on her since the first day they met two years ago.

It was her best friend's birthday and a bunch of people were gathered at his house, ready to sing happy birthday to the boy. Everyone was taking their seats around the table, Y/N opting to stay tucked away in the corner of the room as she wasn't a big fan of people in general.

"You're Y/N, right?" A familiar face asked her, as he leaned against the wall next to the girl.

"Yes, that's me." Y/N smiled, feeling her cheeks flush as she looked at the Frenchman, immediately feeling an attraction to him. "I'm sorry, but I don't know who you are..." She laughed nervously.

"Esteban, I'm a friend of Mick's." The driver introduced himself, extending a hand for the young woman to shake, with a smirk on his face. "I saw you here and recognized you from the pictures. He constantly talks about 'his best friend Y/N' and I had to approach you."

The two stayed there, maintaining eye contact for a few seconds, smiling from ear to ear, until they heard the other guests start singing. They turned towards their German friend, but, in reality, the two maintained their focus on each other, keeping their gaze on each other from the corner of their eyes.

After Esteban expressed his interest in Schumacher's best friend and after much insistence on his part that he had good intentions, Mick ended up giving in and began to arrange more outings involving his two best friends.

Months passed, with Esteban always persistent in trying to build a stronger bond with the girl in the hopes of asking her out one day, but Y/N got ahead of him and she took the first step.

"Este?" She got the driver's attention, as the two of them fell behind the rest of the group on top of the snowy mountain.

"Yes, trésor?" Esteban answered, looking in her direction, the nickname rolling off his tongue as usual.

"What if we had dinner this week?" The girl suggested, a confident smile plastered on her face.

"You mean..." The man hesitated nervously, thinking he might be misunderstanding things.

"A date, yes. Me and you. This Saturday night. My place." The girl explained, reaching her gloved hand into the boy's coat pocket, where she managed to grab his.

Esteban couldn't help but think to himself: my God, I'm falling for this girl already.

I'm so in love that I might stop breathing

Drew a map on your bedroom ceiling

No, I didn't see the news

'Cause we were somewhere else

Things between them evolved quickly, and the two simply became obsessed with each other overnight.

However, Esteban's fame scared Y/N a bit, as she had experienced a lot of the attention that came with accompanying Formula 1's blonde prince to his races and witnessed first-hand some of the hatred that other drivers' girlfriends, that she got to know over the years, got.

And that's why the couple decided to keep their relationship private between them and the people closest to them, even though many of them didn't understand all the secrecy.

No one knew but their friends and family. Even on the driver's team, no one knew who she was in specific, although there were some rumours and speculation due to the noticeable chemistry between the two of them and their occasional escapades to his driver's room when they thought nobody was looking.

The same can be said about the fans. Y/N was a familiar figure in the paddock, especially to Haas' fans as she was a usual member of the German driver's entourage over the years. But that didn't kill their curiosity about who she was, and what connection she had both to Mick and to other drivers with whom she was seen around the circuits.

But the couple couldn't care less. They were happy. The happiest they've ever been.

Esteban gently smoothed his girlfriend's hair away from her neck and placed a romantic kiss on it, making her giggle as he tickled her with his beard.

"Hurry up, mon amour." He told her, continuing to caress her as he spoke. "We have to go. Paris awaits us."

Stumbled down pretend alleyways

Cheap wine, make believe it's champagne

I was taken by the view

The girl dressed quickly, without much effort, keeping her outfit comfortable and discreet: some black sweatpants of her own, an army green hoodie stolen from her boyfriend, a winter Nike jacket on top and a black beanie on her head.

Her partner's look mirrored her own, both opting to blend in with the crowd as just two normal lovers in the city of love. There was no fame, no attention, and no fans.

"You look so cute in my clothes, mon trésor." Esteban complimented the girl, pulling her beanie down further, playfully covering her eyes with it. Y/N slapped his hand away from her face, adjusting herself to the new one, while the Frenchman laughed and placed a kiss on her forehead. "You look beautiful, as always."

Her little heart warmed with her boyfriend's words. He never went a day without making her feel like the most special person in the world, even when she was standing in front of him in sweats, with messy wet hair, and no makeup at all.

"Shall we? I thought you said Paris was waiting for us." Y/N joked, recalling her boyfriend's words. "Enough compliments, let's go, babe."

The girl's fingers intertwined with his and Y/N pulled the driver towards the room's exit as she walked backwards towards it.

Like we were in Paris

Like we were somewhere else

Like we were in Paris, oh

We were somewhere else

After leaving the hotel, the couple stumbled down an alleyway, hand in hand, hidden from the rest of the world, but always with happy smiles on their faces.

Y/N told him all about the latest gossip at her work, the new music she discovered on her Spotify, and her most embarrassing teenage stories with Mick.

And Esteban just listened. His favourite sound was her voice, especially when she told him the smallest details of her routine in an attempt to make him not feel left out due to the distance between them most of the time.

At that moment, they walked through the crowd and not a soul cared who they were. They were just... them. A couple in love among hundreds of others.

A few minutes later, they found a small, empty restaurant and when they saw an older couple dancing in the centre of the room, they decided to stick around, assuming they were the owners and would probably not recognize the driver.

The two entered, smiling at the couple, and sat at the booth in the most reserved corner of the room, picking up the menus to decide what to eat.

The night continued in the best possible way. The food was delicious, the restaurant remained just for the two of them and the old couple continued to sway gently to the French music blaring from the radio, making Y/N, the ultimate hopeless romantic, smile with her eyes half tearing up as she lay her head on her boyfriend's shoulder.

Y/N and Esteban didn't have a care in the world, since Paris always managed to keep their romance just theirs.

Privacy sign on the door

And on my page and on the whole world

Romance is not dead if you keep it just yours

Levitate above all the messes made

Sit quiet by my side in the shade

And not the kind that's thrown

I mean, the kind under where a tree has grown

After finishing their dinner and paying for their meal, the couple left the small establishment and decided to return to the comfort of their hotel room, which was not far away.

The young woman's hand found its home again in the hold of her boyfriend's hand. The girl's gaze sparkled as she studied every detail of the street they passed: the lights, the shop windows, the people, and the flowers on the balconies.

Meanwhile, Esteban couldn't help looking at her as if she had his whole world in her hands. No matter how much time passed, he was so madly in love with her that he almost felt like he might stop breathing at any second.

The driver pulled her closer to him, letting go of her hand to wrap his arm around her shoulders and let out a sigh at the feel of her body touching his. "Je t'aime tellement, mon amour." He said almost instinctively.

Y/N looked at him, with the most sincere and genuine smile, ready to return the driver's declaration of love when the two were interrupted by an unexpected intruder.

"Hey, you!" Upon hearing this, the two immediately moved away, fearing that their cover had been revealed, and the girl continued to walk forward alone while Esteban paid attention to the small boy who approached him. "You're Esteban Ocon, aren't you? You're my favourite driver ever!"

Clearly, little Louis - as he introduced himself before he enthusiastically told his idol all about the races he'd seen - hadn't been up to speed with the latest gossip from the world of Formula 1 and the couple had overreacted, but they were both used to react like this in the rare instances when Ocon was recognized during their secret dates.

Y/N started to slow her pace when she discreetly looked back and saw her boyfriend bending down to take a picture with his fan.

In a matter of seconds, Esteban took the place beside her and the two continued on their way to the hotel, although now there was some distance between them.

It was difficult at times, they admitted. Especially for a couple who couldn't seem to keep their hands off each other. But they knew their sacrifice was for the greater good, so they could have the privacy they valued so much.

Almost as if they were communicating telepathically, the two looked at each other simultaneously, though no words were spoken, and Esteban gave her a half smile, making her body relax with the comfort it conveyed to her.

The date might have ended, but the night was still young: it didn't matter where they were because, as long as they were together, they were having the time of their lives.

I'm so in love that I might stop breathing

Drew a map on your bedroom ceiling

No, I didn't see the news

'Cause we were somewhere else

As Y/N walked into their hotel room and started to take off her coat, Esteban gave her a smirk and placed the privacy sign on the outside door handle.

"Now it's just you and me at last, mon trésor." The boy said, approaching his girlfriend and giving her a peck on the top of her pink lips.

The two removed the outfits they were wearing and changed into more comfortable clothes, prepared to continue their night just enjoying each other's company. Esteban put on his pyjamas, and Y/N put on hers, which basically consisted of a pair of dark blue shorts and an Alpine t-shirt from the previous season obviously stolen from her boyfriend's closet.

The girl walked over to the room's mini fridge and took out a bottle of cheap wine that she had bought for them.

"Just pretend it's champagne, Este." She joked as she poured two tall glasses for the two of them to drink from. "Not all of us can be Formula 1 drivers, I'm just an accountant."

The two brought their lips to their drinks, feeling the pleasant taste of alcohol spread through their mouths. Y/N walked over to the window on her side, where she could see the view of the Eiffel Tower, and Esteban wrapped his arms around her, placing his large hands on her stomach and resting his chin on top of her shoulder.

The Tower shone like the brightest star in the sky, hence why Paris was known as the city of lights, and the two maintained the comfortable silence that settled in the room, both taken by the view.

Stumbled down pretend alleyways

Cheap wine, make believe it's champagne

I was taken by the view

Tired, Esteban sat down on the edge of the wide double bed, pulling his girlfriend with him. The two giggled while the Frenchman lay down against the headboard and the girl took the place on top of him, straddling him with one leg on either side of his lap.

Y/N took her hands to his neck, letting her fingers intertwine in his hair, and her mouth joined his in a serene kiss, full of love, comfort and peace.

The connection between the two was simply inexplicable and completely out of this world.

The young woman took the place beside him, removing herself from the top of it and lying down on the mattress, with her head now on his shoulder. Both were looking at their cell phones: Esteban looking for the results of the football matches that had taken place that day, and Y/N checking her Instagram feed without much attention.

Until the girl's phone alerted her to a new message and, after reading it, she fell into a fit of uncontrollable laughter, leaving her boyfriend more confused than ever.

"Mon amour, are you alright?" His voice revealed the smile plastered on his face.

"You won't believe what Mick sent me." Y/N moved her cell phone so that Esteban could read what was sent by the German.

From: Micky

Have you seen the news? Apparently, we are dating AGAIN! 🙄😂

Attached was an image that contained a particular comment left on the last photo posted by Mick, where you could see the two friends in the middle of a snowball fight.

'@f1fan: Mick and Y/N are FOR SURE together, they've been dating for years!! You have to be blind to not see it! 👀'

"Oh my God, are you cheating on me with Mick of all people?!" Esteban pretended to be hurt, with his hand over his heart as if she had broken it. "I expected better from you, Y/N."

The two simply laughed at the rumours, thinking to themselves how comical it was that people were so certain about her supposed love affair with her best friend when she was lying in the same bed as a completely different driver from the grid, who was, in fact, the one who truly owned her heart.

Like we were in Paris, oh

Like we were somewhere else

Like we were in Paris, oh

We were somewhere else

Y/N recalled all the times those closest to them had criticized their choice to keep their relationship a secret and couldn't help but ask about it again.

"Do you think our family is right?" Y/N asked, resting her chin on the Frenchman's chest so she could see his expression. "About how we shouldn't hide our relationship. Do you ever regret it? I mean, not telling the world about us?"

"Honestly, mon trésor," Esteban replied, pushing the hair that hid his girlfriend's face behind her ear. "As much as I would love to scream until my lungs give out that I am the luckiest man alive and that the sexiest girl on this planet is mine, nothing would make me change our relationship."

"So no, I don't regret it." He continued, stroking her cheek with his thumb. "Mon amour, we are in Paris. No one here to judge us, or to try to tear us apart. Just you and me against the world, come what may."

I wanna brainwash you

Into loving me forever

I wanna transport you

To somewhere the culture's clever

Confess my truth

In swooping, sloping, cursive letters

Let the only flashing lights be the tower at midnight

In my mind

"You know," Y/N pulled her body closer to his, circling his neck with her arms and leaning fully on the driver's torso. "I swear I just want to brainwash you into loving me forever sometimes."

"I think I should be worried about those words," Esteban teased, earning a gentle pinch from the girl in return. "But to be honest, I think I'm going to love you forever either way, so no brainwashing needed."

"God, we really are corny." Y/N laughed, laying her head over the Frenchman, being able to hear every beat of his racing heart. "No wonder why Mick hates us so much."

We drew a map on your bedroom ceiling

No, I didn't see the news

'Cause we were somewhere else

In an alleyway, drinking champagne

A few minutes went by, and the two fell asleep in each other's arms, again surrounded by the silence within those four walls that protected them from the rest of the world.

Their relationship may have seemed wrong to others, but Y/N and Esteban both knew that their love was the surest thing in their lives.

Their hidden connection completed them, made their stomachs flutter, gave them the motivation to wake up in the morning.

In the bottom of their heart and in the depth of their soul, they kept their best secret hidden from all the evil, all the jealousy and all the judgment.

And maybe they would never tell a soul in the world about their love.

But in the end, they would always have Paris.

'Cause we were in Paris

Yes, we were somewhere else

My love, we were in Paris

Yes, we were somewhere else

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darlinboypresley · 8 months

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i takes strength to forgive but...

pairing: Austin butler x y/n

Summary: Austin cheated on you and now he's back

Warnings: Angst angst angst mentions of cheating uhm... Cursing mentions of a break up and mental health

It's been months since you last saw austin. you swear you had nightmares from that Saturday in july. you got a phone call from your boyfriend you two had been dating for about 3 years, you haven't seen him in weeks at that point, and was so excited to talk to him, in excitement you picked the phone up. the only thing you didn't expect to Hear him and some girl moaning.

sure it hasn't all been Sunshine and rainbows, but the trust that he betrayed and the confusion that still lingered, he took EVERYTHING you loved and crushed it between his two fingers, you haven't talked to him since it happened, it's been 5 months he tried to contact you he tried trough you’re friends, family hell he even wrote you a letter saying how much you mean to him and how sorry he is.

you told them you didn’t care and said you were fine. but they knew you couldn't let it go. You tried and tried and….. tried again, and if he ever thinks about the damage that he did, but you held onto every detail like your life depends on it… So here you were on a random Thursday night. At 2 am fantasizing about everything he'd say he's a little fucking sorry until you heard Baning on you're door. you frowned, sure you didn’t live in the best part of the city.

But this was a first, you opened the door and your heart stopped for a minute and all you wanted to do was scream, there he was… looking a mess the smell of alcohol hit you the moment he stepped closer. “A-austin W-what are you doing here..?” you mumbled as austin cupped your face. “i miss you, I miss you so much baby i was so goddamn stupid.” he muttered as he walked both of you back into your apartment.

you remembered the countless arguments you won in your head, in the shower, the car, the mirror before bed you name it. every time you hoped he’d feel sorry. and here he was standing in front of you and you couldn't get a word out. and here he was apologizing over and over again,

after a whole while you spoke up “do you ever think about the… damage that you did…? cus i hold onto every little fucking detail austin, i tried to understand why you did this to me. were you so unhappy?” you spoke as he interrupted “no baby not at-” he stumbled over his words. “Austin, let me talk,” you said and sat down on your couch. “I really wonder how anybody could do the things you did so easily aus… like did I deserve it..? I try to be tough and I try to be mean. but even after all you did you’re still everything to me…”

you said as tears streamed down you’re as you looked up you saw the tears stream down his face. you blinked your tears away before continuing. "And I know I hurt people, hurt people and we both drew blood but cuts were never equal austin, you had everything and you still wanted more i-i dont get it.” you spoke with your chest “i never did anything but be there for you and support you..” you said choking in your tears.

‘i… i was drunk, it didn't mean anything, and when i heard you cry on the phone y/n i… I snapped back to reality, you are the only one for me …. it's always been and always will be you baby, i'm so sorry… I'm so sorry I haven't been here for you, i… can we restart? I know I don't deserve it but… please can we restart?” he pleaded

you sighed softly ‘it takes strength to forgive austin and.. I'm not sure I'm there yet, I guess… i'll give you another chance… but we take it slow my pace.. okay? you asked softly

Austin nodded “thank you thank you thank you.” he said. and grabbed your face and kissed you softly he had his girl back he couldn't be happier. you on the other hand felt … scared to give him your heart again…

the evening ended with you falling asleep in Austin's arms.

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harryssattelitestomper · 9 months

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Adore You💘

My Masterlist

A/N: The third part of The Fine Line - series!

Warnings: Maybe some cursing. Fluff.

Wordcount: 623

in which, Harry has never been happier.

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"Bye baby, have fun!", you wished Harry as he picked up the lunch you made him to take with and left to go to the studio. He was going to go work on some new lyrics he'd been stuck on with Tom and some other people.

That gave you the time to get some work done and go to the grocery store to pick up some things for the dinner you planned for tonight.

Harry had been really stressed because he was having a major writing slump he just couldn't get pass. So you thought making his favorite dinner would take some of the baggage off of his shoulders.

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It was nearing four pm and you had finally finished your work. So you had time to head to the grocery store to get a few things you needed for dinner.

You took your purse and your keys and headed to your car. Playing some Fleetwood Mac, you drove to the store.

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The trip to the grocery store only took you about a half an hour so you had more than enough time to prepare dinner. You decided to make a creamy pasta that was one of Harry's favorites.

The pasta was almost done when Harry sent you a message saying he was on his way home. After you quickly answered him to drive safe, you finished up the pasta and poured some wine to the glasses.

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"Lovie, I'm home!", Harry yelled out as he was taking hi shoes off. He had had an awful time at the studio, nothing going well; the coffee was out, one of his friends was sick and the lyrics he had wrote were complete shit - he just wanted to go home and see you.

As he put down his stuff and made his way through your shared home, the smell of a home cooked meal filled his nostrils. The smell making him immediately feel more at ease.

"Hi baby.", you said to him as he walked past the kitchen enterance and towards you, wrapping you in a tight hug.

His face smushed in between your shoulder and neck, he mumbled "Smells good." "Good, I made your favorite. Figured you've been so stressed and wanted to do something nice for you" you huffed out a laugh as you removed yourself from his warm embrace and led him to the dining table.

Harry didn't think he could love you any more. He couldn't help but think what he'd done in his life to deserve to have someone like you to love him the way you do.

As he slowly made him way down to sit on the chair, he looked at you with so much love in his heart it almost burned it through.

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Harry woke up the next morning turning to his left side to face you, admiring your peaceful face as you slept. Sometimes he couldn't believe his luck. He had you; someone who loved his family as if they were her own, who always went the extra mile to make him smile, and most importantly, someone who loved him for him, someone who loved him unconditionally.

And he came to the realization that he would do anything for you, including walking through fire.

As he was in his own bubble of thought, sudden inspiration hit him. It was like a light bulb just went on, on top of his head.

He quietly got out of bed, as to not wake you. And quickly made his way through the house and into his homestudio. Taking out his notebook and swiftly scribbling down the lyrics that came to his mind.

'I'd walk through fire for you Just let me adore you Like it's the only thing I'll ever do'

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A/N: I'll try to make the next parts longer. But everytime I feel like I'm just rambling and there's no story behind it.😫

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kazoosandfannypacks · 5 months

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summary: in a timeline where ezra didn't sacrifice himself at the end of rebels, and he and sabine were married shortly after the empire fell, they now celebrate their first life day together as a married couple. for sabezra life day week, day two: songfic. word count: 1.3K a/n: it wouldn't be christmas in my family without a little steven curtis chapman, so when i saw songfic was one of the prompts for sabezra life day, i decided to do a little fic based on the first verse of one of my favorites of his christmas songs, "christmas is all in the heart." also this fic never says one way or the other whether or not kanan lives in this au, so you have free reign to decide on that one! you're welcome! taglist: @laughingphoenixleader @accidental-spice @kanerallels @piraterefrigerator @jedi-nurse @dootchster @lucasbridger @redroverrider @light-umbra @commander-tech @sabezra-life-day-celebration {if you’d like to be added to or removed from my Sabezra taglist, let me know!} also on ao3!

Life Day is All in the Heart

In a one bedroom comm tower, on the outskirts of Lothal, there stood a little Life Day tree, so small and cheaply decorated it could hardly be called that— and underneath it was one little gift for him and one little gift for her.

Sabine and Ezra sat on the floor next to the life day tree, snuggled together on a pile of blankets. Ezra could feel his heart warm as he pulled Sabine closer, as her head rested on his chest and her arms wrapped tightly around him.

Six years ago, he'd had three goals in life—free Lothal, defeat the Empire, and maybe somehow earn Sabine's affections. At the time, it all seemed almost impossible, but now all of it had become reality. Lothal was free, the Empire was no more, and somehow along the way Sabine had fallen for him, almost as deeply as he'd fallen for her. They'd gotten married shortly after the war. Less than a month later, they found themselves celebrating their first Life Day together, and it couldn't be more perfect.

Sure, in the way of decorations, there was nothing there to catch your eye. There were no twinkling lights or bright red bows, and there were hardly any colorful spheres on the poor excuse for a tree. Between the wedding, and crazy preparations and celebrations for the holiday as well as their duties to the New Republic, they'd hardly had the time to finish moving in, let alone decorate for Life Day. Instead of dozens of brightly wrapped packages, there were dozens of boxes they'd yet to unpack from their move. Instead of a huge feast, they'd made a meal of some quickly thrown together sandwiches. They'd still planned on meeting with friends and family the next day, but tonight, on Life Day's Eve, all they had was each other.

And Ezra and the new Mrs. Bridger couldn't be happier. He looked down at her and stroked her cheek, and she looked up at him and smiled, in that perfect, loving way that made Ezra fall for her all over again every single time.

"Wow," Ezra whispered.

"What?" Sabine asked.

Ezra shook his head, hoping his heavy breath might carry some words with it. "I'm just... it's all so perfect."

"What is?" Sabine smiled, and though she clearly already knew, Ezra continued anyways.

"Everything," he said, "you and me— you and me— who could've seen that coming?"

"Certainly not me," she chuckled, then reached up and stroked his cheek, her fingers lovingly tracing a familiar path alongside his scars.

He took her hand in his and squeezed it.

"I think it's time for your Life Day present," Ezra said. With his other hand, he used the force to pick up Sabine's present from under the tree and set it down in her lap.

"Don't most people wait until the morning?" Sabine asked.

Ezra had been holding onto his present for too long to wait much longer, surprised that he hadn't blurted it out already.

"Tomorrow we'll have to leave early if we wanna rendezvous with The Ghost on time," Ezra defended, "may as well exchange gifts while we're not rushed."

"You also really can't wait to see what I got you?" Sabine asked, with a raised eyebrow.

"Maybe a little," Ezra laughed, "but I'm more excited to see you open my gift."

"In that case, maybe you should open mine first," Sabine teased, "build the suspense."

Ezra smiled. "As you wish."

He force-floated Sabine's gift to himself, a cube shaped box that fit in the palm of his hand.

Sabine let go of Ezra's hand and sat up so she could get a better view of Ezra opening his gift, resting her head on his shoulder.

Ezra, of course, decided to have a little fun with it. He closed his eyes and concentrated, floating the box in the air and carefully and neatly removing the wrapping.

"Most people would just unwrap it with their hands, Jedi boy," Sabine said.

"Ah," Ezra said, letting the half unwrapped package fall into his right hand, "but then how could I do this?" He took her hand again in his left hand, watched her predictable but still beautiful smile, then floated the package back up above his right, "besides, I've opened holocrons. Unwrapping a Life Day present is a piece of...."

His words stopped dead in his mouth as the wrapping fell away, and he found himself staring at a strange but familiar chunk of metal. Before he had a chance to ask what it was, he caught it in his right hand, and a memory came flooding back to him— of his parents sending out a message of hope on a Life Day that seemed as though a lifetime ago.

"This belonged to my father," Ezra said, "it was part of their broadcast equipment. How did you...?"

"I wasn't sure what to get for you," Sabine explained, "what could I possibly get for someone who has everything he's ever wanted and would probably cry tears of joy if I gave him a rock I found on the ground?"

Ezra would've defended himself, but that sounded pretty accurate, so he let her continue.

"But then I started thinking," Sabine said, "and I remembered the first present I ever got you."

"The holodisc with my family photo," Ezra said, with a smile like he was poorly hiding something.

"Yeah," Sabine nodded, "so I went back to see if I could find anything else at your old place. I don't know if this is worth that much to you, but I know it belonged to your parents," and she pointed at one corner of the almost-spherical metal, "and this end of it? It's hooked, like the decorations on the Life Day tree. I thought, if we hung it up it would be like your family's always with us to celebrate."

Ezra smiled and ran his thumb along the gift. How could something so small and simple be so big, and so deep, and show how much Sabine truly knew him?

"But if you don't like it...." Sabine started, but Ezra wouldn't hear it.

"I love it," Ezra said, floating it to the one empty branch of their little tree, "thank you so much, Sabine."

He stroked her cheek with his now-free hand, then pulled her closer, kissing the top of her head.

"Your turn," he whispered, "open mine."

Sabine let go of his hand, and he wrapped his arm around her shoulder as she unwrapped the package in her lap. Inside, she found a small holoprojector.

"What's this?" Sabine asked.

"Why don't you press play and find out?"

She turned it on, and a holo of them as teenagers started playing, one where they were sparring with each other, and Sabine was winning.

"I know it's not much," Ezra said, as a clip played of them both laughing together, Sabine laughing so hard that milk came out of her nose, "but I don't want to lose a single moment with you. Chopper and I uploaded it with footage he had— he records us a lot more than we realize— but there's a lot of space on here for new memories too, if we ever want to record them."

"Wow," Sabine said.

"I know," Ezra said, "it's not much."

"It's great," Sabine said, giggling as she watched a clip of Ezra leaning against a cart that he was unaware had wheels, "I love it."

Ezra smiled, proud to have done something to make her happy.

Sabine leaned closer to him, her whispered breaths warm against his cheek, "and I love you."

"I love you too," Ezra whispered, turning his head to hers enough that their foreheads gently pressed against each other.

"Happy life day, Ezra Bidger," Sabine whispered.

"Happy life day, Sabine," Ezra smiled, "Bridger."

Sabine smiled, then leaned forward, pressing her lips into his in a delicate kiss he was more than eager to reciprocate.

For Ezra and Sabine, Life Day wasn't anything big or fancy. They might not have had all the trimmings or trappings or whatever most people would consider "essentials" for the holiday.

But both of them would've been the first to say that they were together— and they had the happiest Life Day anyway.

#sabezra #sabezra life day week #sabine wren #ezra bridger #life day #christmas #star wars #fanfiction #ff #kazzy writes #kazzy writes fanfic #ezrabine #a kazzy little christmas #otp: im counting on you

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writtenbymisunderstoodnerds · 1 year

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Friendsgiving (Christen Press x Reader)

Just a short little fic today. We don't have thanksgiving here, but I saw so much about it and this idea popped into my head. Happy thanksgiving to everyone who celebrates it :)

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"Babe! Hurry up, they're almost here." Christen yelled from the kitchen as I had just finished putting on my pants. I slipped on my button down without doing up the buttons and ran down the stairs.

"I'm coming!"

"Don't run down the stairs. Please tell me you're doing up that shirt."

"I thought I'd give you a present and keep it undone," I winked pulling her closer. Her hands ran along my stomach and around to my back. I shivered at the coldness of her hands before placing a lingering kiss on her lips.

She kissed my collar bone before pulling away and slowly doing up my buttons, "As much as I enjoy the view, this is for my eyes only. You look great Y/n. Don't worry, they're going to love you."

My hands covered her, squeezing slightly. I knew she was nervous about me meeting her team properly for the first time. We were having a slightly late friends-giving dinner at mine and Christens, it wasn't all her teammates, but the ones she was closest to and were able to fly in would be there. A few of them were going to stay and hangout with us for a few days to make a holiday out of it. I had met a few of them briefly here and there over the years, though it was never for very long. I wasn't all that nervous, it probably wouldn't hit until they got here. "Are you trying to reassure me or yourself? Whatever happens, will happen Chris. It'll be okay. Try and relax so you can enjoy the night. I know how much you love holidays like this."

In all honesty, I had never really celebrated Thanksgiving until about 3 years ago when I had been in country and invited by her parents. I'd lived in Spain since I was like 2, my parents were from there and moved back when to be closer to family. I had met Christen in college, we grew very close, but we hadn't started dating until Christen had moved to Sweden. It was never my intention to actually start anything with her, mostly because of the distance. We were talking everyday, I started visiting her regularly since she was closer and things just progressed from there. By time she moved back to the US, I wasn't ready to move with her yet, but I was madly in love with her and willing to do anything to make the distance work.

It had been hard since we spent the better part of 10 years long distance with me still being in Spain and her being in the states. We had made it work with frequent trips to see each other and long FaceTime's. Thankfully, my job let me work remotely so I could visit her often. We'd gotten married in secret 3 years ago, but I hadn't moved here until 8 months ago. I had wanted to move years ago, and had been planning on it, then my dad died and I couldn't leave my mum alone. Christen had been nothing, but supportive when I broke down and told her I couldn't move. After my mum died at the start of the year, I had packed up my whole life in a couple of months and moved to be with Christen. It was an adjustment, but we couldn't be happier.

"You go get ready, I'll finish setting up."

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When the first knock sounded on the door, the nerves finally hit me. Christen must have noticed because she wrapped her arm around my waist and placed a kiss to my cheek, "I love you so they're going to love you."

I pecked her lips before pulling away to answer the door. Emily, Lindsey, Kelley and Megan were standing there. Anyone would tell you that I was a very affectionate person, I liked giving hugs, but I knew some people weren't huggers so I held my hand out for them to shake, but I was pulled into hugs instead. "I'm Y/n, it's nice to finally meet you."

More people trickled in as I sorted drinks for everyone. They were all friendly and seemed to not instantly hate me so that was a win. We made small talk until everyone had arrived and sat down to eat. I was asked so many questions about anything they could think of. From what I do, life in Spain, how Chris and I met, and what it was like living in the US. Christen had warned me that they would ask me a bunch of questions so it didn't surprise me. I didn't mind either, they were curious and I understood that. Once we finished eating, everyone went around saying what they were thankful for. I may have only been celebrating the holiday because of Christen, but it was nice to be around the people who made her the happiest. I would do anything to make sure she was happy.

When my turn came, I kissed the back of Christens hand, "Um, I'm thankful for my wife, she's been my number one supporter through everything."

"Wife?!?"

Christen laughed, "Oh, did I forget to mention that part?"

"You didn't invite us to your wedding?"

"We didn't invite anyone except Chris's parents."

"When?"

"About 3 years ago."

The girls all had mixtures of hurt and disappointment. Christen looked somewhat guilty in response to their expressions. I laced my fingers with Christens and spoke up in hopes of diffusing some of the tension, "It wasn't planned at all, I had proposed then a few nights later we were talking and just decided to elope. We never intended to hide it or anything."

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I was sorting out dessert in the kitchen while Christen was in the living room with the girls. I could still hear their conversations, but was more focused on what I was doing. One conversation caught my attention though.

"I'm jealous Chris, that accent alone would make me fall in love with her."

"Don't even think about it, that's my wife. I'm not so secretly hoping she never loses it, I love it. Thankfully, she is regularly in contact with her Spanish speaking colleagues and I'm getting better with my Spanish, we plan to raise our children bilingual, so I don't think I have to worry about it too much." Even 3 years later, I couldn't get enough of Christen calling me her wife. I don't think that would ever change.

"Children?"

Christen didn't say anything for a second, so I came up to sit on the arm of the couch next to her. Christen was already nine weeks pregnant, no one knew yet and I knew she was hesitant to tell them incase something happened. It would affect her ability to play, but she had always wanted to carry, while I wasn't that fussed about it so I easily agreed to it, "We're planning for kids in the near future. We've been talking about it for a while, but now that I'm here permanently, we're looking into it more seriously."

"Yes! I can't wait for little Press's to be running around," Kelley exclaimed receiving nods of agreement from the rest of the girls. Christen watched with a small smile as they discussed what our kids would be like and fighting over who would be the favourite. "I'm Chris's favourite, therefore I'll be little Press's favourite."

I laughed knowing that Tobin was in fact her favourite and would be the godmother of our child. If she agreed of course, "It's Y/L/N now actually."

"Since when?"

"Since we got married, I just never made the changed it publicly seeing as we keep our relationship private."

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I was pretty much cornered by Tobin, Kelley, Lindsey and Megan while Christen was distracted by the other girls. It was a little bit intimidating though I tried not to show it, "We were all a bit surprised that you two made it this long with the distance and everything, but I can see how you did. You are great together. I know you've been together for 10 years and everything, but if you ever hurt her, we will hurt you ten times worse."

I glanced at Christen, an involuntary smile appeared as I turned back to the girls staring at me expectantly, "You don't have to worry about that, I love her more than anything in this world. I wouldn't be who I am without her, I wouldn't be where I am without her. I couldn't imagine my life without her." Arms wrapped around my waist from behind as I felt my face heat up, knowing she had heard me talking about her, "I love you Chris."

"I love you too Y/n. For the record, right back at you with everything you just said," Christen whispered the last part in my ear making me smile widely and turn to kiss her softly. There were instant gagging sounds, making Christen pull away with a laugh. We spent the rest of the evening getting to know each other better then watching movies. It was a great evening and something I could get used to. The girls were awesome and definitely people I could see myself getting close to the more I was around them.

#uswnt x reader #christen press x reader #christen press/reader #uswnt imagines #uswnt imagine #woso x reader #woso imagines

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sugolara · 1 year

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𝘼𝙣𝙙 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮 𝙥𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙤𝙣 𝙨𝙚𝙚𝙢𝙨 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙛𝙪𝙡

feat. izuku midoriya x fem! reader

cw: angst, comfort, alcohol, mentions death, implied drugs

˗ˏˋ+ ´ˎ˗ going to a party that izuku's friend hosted, in a dark state he meets the lovely, y/n.

❝we didn't make out or do anything i just remember i was lonely. ❞

+ i was all over her by salvia palth

he stared at the other people on the dance floor, with a bottle in his hand izuku takes a small sip, griming from the taste of alcohol. he sneered at the couple who was next to him making out on the couch and grinding onto each other with no shame.

why did i even come, he asked himself. sitting on the couch, his eyes wondered as they found itself on a short brown-haired girl; ochaco.

their relationship wasn't steady. izuku was to bombarded with his essays to get the job of his dreams, that he forgot to give ochaco the love that she needed.

which was why he wasn't surprise when he found out that she had been cheating on him. as a matter of fact, he didn't mind, knowing that they would give her the love she deserved, and then wished her a very good life.

he was also in a very depressive state from losing his mother. he couldn't handle the death of his mother and he needed someone to reassure him that everything would be fine.

but ochaco couldn't stand the look on izuku's face when he came to visit her. his smile that she loved was gone, the sparkle in his eyes were also gone.

as he stared at her laughing with her friends, seeing she was much happier, izuku stood from the couch and left the room. he entered the backyard where it was peaceful and seated himself on a bench.

he stared at his full beer bottle, swirling it around. he felt the bench move, indicating someone sat next to him but he didn't look up. he thought it was someone else who was high off their marbles or was going to get high.

but all he heard was a sniffle. thinking that the person was crying, he lift his head and saw a (h/c) girl. she rubbed her nose and glanced at izuku feeling like someone was staring at her. she smiled, "cold night, huh."

izuku nodded and looked away not bothering to return the smile.

"you're, izuku midoriya, right?" she asked. izuku glanced at her, "do i know you?"

she waved her arms, "no, no! i'm y/n! my cousin, denki, has a picture of all his friends and i've pretty much everyone except, well, you."

izuku noticed how chirpy she was. she reminded him of who he used to be. seeing her smile, made him want to smile. he saw a little bit of him in her.

"yea, i'm izuku." he sheepishly rubbed his neck, "i didn't know you were denki's cousin, he never talks about his family."

she giggled, "well, denki's embarrassed about his family. he says we embarrass him to much."

hearing her laugh, izuku chuckled. he then heard y/n speak, "can i ask you something? and i hope you don't take offense."

y/n waited for him to nod and when he did she continued, "i heard about what happened. about your mother. the same thing happened to me. denki told me—and i know it wasn't any of his busy—but he was worried about you, saying how you weren't yourself anymore."

izuku sorrowfully looked at the ground, not wanting to hear about his mother. but he glanced up as she reached down to grab his hands, replacing the beer bottle with her soft hands.

"maybe, if someone was there for you when you needed it the most, you wouldn't have turned into someone who you're not." y/n watched as tears began to form in his eyes, "words won't bring her back, but i hope that help finds you and you keep those people who are still around, close to you."

smiled softly and wiped izuku's tears away with her thumbs. izuku returned the smile and thanked her. with their hands still intact, izuku couldn't help but stare at her beautiful features.

taking her words within his heart they watched the twinkling stars, knowing, after the party ends, they won't ever see each other again.

#izuku midoria x reader #mha izuku #izuku x y/n #izuku angst #reader insert #izuku x reader #bnha midoriya #midoriya x y/n #mha #my hero acedamia #izuku midoriya #boku no hero academia

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alexiabae · 2 years

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SERIOUSLY?; jill roord x fem!reader pt.2

Summary: reader finds out something about jill's past. will reader insecurities break her trust on her girlfriend?

Warnings: angst, anxiety, fluff.

Note: English is not my first language.

not my gif.

To Y/N, the summer passed quickly. She mentally do a resume about it since she stopped play on April.

First was when she can't finish the season due to her injury. The doctor recommended if she wants play on the world cup that summer, she need take care of it. A good take care and rest. So Y/N cheered her team from the stands. Her team won all the cups, again. And Y/N couldn't be happier.

Second thought was on Jill's birthday. Immediately a smile take over her lips. Y/N remember when she was injured, Jill stayed on her side almost a week, losing play the second leg of champions league. For her luck, her team pass to the final, against Barcelona. There Jill was not so lucky.

That week the blonde was watching her, literally. But Y/N was happy and never said anything. That week too was Jill's birthday, so like in theory they aren't spending it together, finally they could celebrate it. Not like Y/N had planned, but she was content how the events turned. Y/N remember too that she had to kick her out to Wolfsburg.

Later Y/N pass to another memory. The support from all her teammates, from the club to national team. And from Jill's teammates, family and friends. And of course Y/N's family. But Y/N had two people to thanked the most, to her girlfriend and Alexia. They cheered her everyday, Jill from the distance and Alexia stuck to her side. The catalan when Jill went to Wolfsburg, made Y/N moved to her apartment, so Alexia mostly accompanied her to medical appointments. When the wound healed, the scar stayed, something Y/N mentally prepared. And when Y/N take off the bandage from her left cheek, the doctor gave her a mirror to see herself how was it. Y/N felt strange, she slowly run her fingertips over the scar. It was notorious. A long horizontal scar from the nose to much of the left cheek. Y/N lowered her eyes, she didn't know very well what reaction she should have, but the one she was having, Y/N supposed it was normal.

"You look beautiful." Alexia said, wiping a tear that escaped from Y/N's eye.

Y/N looked at her, greatful for having her. Y/N remember too when they both went out from the hospital, Alexia take her hand and without a word, she placed a kiss on the scar, since there the catalan always make sure Y/N felt comfortable with it.

Alexia like the captain and good person she is, all the cups what the team won, she said that is for Y/N and a few others injured teammates, but Y/N from all of them, she was the most affected. So Alexia made her lift the Champions League cup after she lift it first.

Y/N saw Jill on the final for the first time she take off the bandages. She showed it for facetime, but in Y/N's opinion, the scar looks worse in person.

"Hey." Y/N greeted her from behind. When she saw Jill's pained expression write on her face, Y/N felt really bad.

"Hey..." The blonde paint a smile when she saw Y/N. Half content and half sad. Usually when they hug, Y/N hide her face on Jill's neck, but this time were Jill who hide her head on Y/N's neck, bringing Y/N closer to her hugging her around the waist.

"I'm sorry, baby." Y/N whispered, caressing with a hand Jill's back.

"It's okay." Jill pulled away from the hug but left an arm around Y/N's waist. Then hazel eyes from her girlfriend focused on her face, scanning the area. Y/N saw how Jill inclined her head towards the scar and planted a chaste kiss on there. "I want kiss that scar all the time, but sadly I can't. I know that you don't like it, but I do. I like it." Y/N look at her with love on her eyes.

"Damn it, I want kiss you, but then we probably take away the show to the winner team." Y/N said funnily, Jill laugh weakly while shake her head.

"Probably. I hope they are happy with all the content they are going to have." Jill gave her an innocent lipped smile, Y/N laughed.

"Yeah, I hope so too." Y/N inevitably hug Jill, hiding briefly her head where she likes. "I promise you that one day you lift that cup." Y/N mumbled convinced. She pulled away, finding teary eyes looking at her.

"I love you." Jill whispered, brushing a strand of hair from Y/N's face.

"I love you too, hemel." Y/N whispered back.

Then Jill indicated with her head where the happy screams and singing voices were. "Go and have fun. You deserve it." She stated.

"Okaaaay. See you in a few days?" Y/N asked.

Jill nod; "Of course." With a last hug, they separated. Y/N went too to greeted and comfort Jill's teammates.

Next memory was from month of June, when she reincorporated to the national team with all her club's teammates. Since there, they had an intense training sessions before they will fly to Australia, where was the place when they have their first match.

Like a tradition, Germany was on their group stage alongside with Chile and Japan. A tough group. Spain was first in the group, Germany second. Y/N enjoyed that time in Australia and New Zealand, surprisingly there were a lot of people on the stadiums, more than last time on France, so it's was something positive.

Y/N's roomie were Nerea, Jenni and Ona. With the last one Y/N always felt nervous, it's like Ona in some way intimidated her, but spending more time together, they created a special bond, so when the freckled girl tell her that that summer she will announce for Barcelona new signing, Y/N was over the moon, but not more than Patri and Aitana, since they both have a bond since a long time. The young player enjoyed her time with Jenni too, the striker make official she will moving to another club, something that it would happened after the Euro, but with some convinced with a few people Jenni stayed another season. Y/N doesn't gonna lie, the ambient sometimes was intense, but she will be missing Jenni and her jokes.

Spain didn't win the world cup. It was a favorite and potential candidate to win, but they fell in the semi-finals against Sweden. They played incredibly well, even against Sweden, but when the team its tired and the shots on goal do no enter, then you don't have many options. Sweden won against the Netherlands in the final, who surprisingly again, they went to the final. Y/N felt happiness when she watch the other semi-final on tv. Yes, she lost that same day, but Y/N seeing Jill, Lieke and Vivianne pass to another final, make her very happy. Y/N received a call an hour after that match finished. A happy Jill called, yelling, cheering, singing made Y/N laugh, then she laughed more when Jill's teammates stole her phone from her hands.

"Give me it, arsehole!" Jill's distant voice was heard.

"Y/N!!! WE WOOOOOON. I KNOW YOU LOST THIS EVENING. I'M SORRY, I REALLY AM SORRY. BUT IF I'M BEING HONEST, I'M GLAD. DON'T MISUNDERSTANDING ME, YOUR TEAM ITS A GOOD ONE TO BEAT, BUT I PROMISE YOU A THING. WE ALL WIN FOR YOU, Y/N! JILL, LIEKE AND I WILL WIN FOR YOU. I LOVE YOU!" Vivianne was the one who stole Jill's phone, it surprised Y/N. She meet the young striker and usually Viv is a quiet person. Y/N remembered when Viv won her first Champions League, and it's true that the blonde loosened up a bit, but never saw her like that before.

"Thanks, Viv. But you need win first for your family, okay? And after for your country. Promise me that?" Y/N said, she looked at Ona, who was by her side, a smug smile painted on her mouth.

"I PROMISE YOU. BUT YOU ARE FAMILY TOO. I'M GOING TO GIVE THE PHONE TO LIEKE, WAIT!" Y/N smiled, she felt a little emotional when Viv said that words to her.

"Y/N? WE GO TO THE FINAL!! I'M HAPPY IT WASN'T AGAINST SPAIN! BUT I SAYING IT ONLY LIKE RIVAL. LIKE YOUR FRIEND I SAY I'M SORRY. SHIT! JILL IS COMING!" Lieke yell, but on the line can heard footsteps and screamings.

"HELLO? ITS JACKIE! LIEKE IS ON THE FLOOR, JILL IS MAKING A JUDO KEY, BUT SHE IS FINE, SHE IS LAUGHING." Ona stole Y/N's phone from her hands. She pressed the speaker icon.

"Jackie? It's Ona." The young catalan spoke, sitting criss cross on the bed.

"HI ONA! HOW ARE YOU? I'M SORRY BY THE WAY. YOUR TEAM PLAYED AMAZING, YOU DESERVE PASS TO THE FINAL. BUT YOU KNOW HOW FOOTBALL IS." The blonde midfielder said in a rush. It's funny how it's was the only one saying that about Spain.

"Yeah, don't worry. Right now sucks, but the next time it will ours. So can you do me a favor?" Ona looks Y/N.

"YEAH, WHAT FAVOR?" Y/N laugh discreetly, she find funny how all of them was yelling while they spoke.

"Take care of the title being current champions for four years? I promise you I will take care it after." Ona joked, but a glit on her eyes say another thing.

Jackie laugh softly; "YEAH. BUT WE WOULD FIGHT FOR IT, OKAY? BY THE WAY, FIRST WE NEED WIN IT THIS YEAR, SO WE TALK IT IN ANOTHER TIME. BUT I PROMISE YOU IT."

"Okay. You deserve it, Jacks. I'm happy for you." Ona wipe her eyes fast, not letting tears fall. Y/N pass an arm around her neck, placing a kiss on her cheek.

"Thanks Ona. I will miss you." That soft words make the freckled girl break. Ona gave back her phone and went to the bathroom. Y/N sigh sad.

"Jackie? She went to the bathroom." Y/N spoke lower, playing with one hand with her sweatshirt strings.

"Take care of her for me, okay? She is special, well I'm sure you knew it before me." Y/N knew it, but later.

"I will. We will." Y/N promised.

"I miss you too, I want to say it because Jill is coming. Bye see you, hopefully cheering for us, and good luck, I hope you win that third place I love you! Say it to Ona too."

"LOVE? I'M SORRY! I HAVE AN AWFUL TEAMMATES. THEY ARE ALL ANNOYING." Jill spoke again, noises could be heard in the background, surely mocking Jill.

Y/N chuckle softly; "Don't worry. They all said meaningful things, so not bad at all."

"By the way... I'm sorry, mijn maan. It could be beautiful we played the final together."

"It's okay, love. Don't worry about me, focus on you, okay? You need win that final." Y/N stated.

"I will. And I will dedicated it to you." The blonde said with conviction.

"If you win only the medal, I hope you still dedicated it to me. Because if I win the third place, I'll do it."

"I'll do it. I need hang up, we need go to the hotel. Text you there, okay?"

"HEY, I DON'T COULD TALK WITH HER!" Daan's voice was heard.

"Hey, Daan. Congratulations! I can call you now, how that sound?" Y/N asked amused.

"THANKS, Y/N! ITS FINE, I CALL YOU WHEN I GET TO THE BUS." Daan yell.

"Okay. Well, Jill. If I don't text you back you know whose fault it is." Y/N chuckle.

"If Daan stole you from me, I kick her ass!" The dutch said seriously. Of course Jill kicked Daan's ass.

After the world cup finish, Y/N decided travel to Jill's native city. She wants know more about Jill's country, so when the ocasion present, the blonde agreed. They celebrated in advance their first anniversary together because when they will be busy with the preseason. Jill take her to a wood where have a beautiful lake, the dutch said that she went there when she was little. It's like a hide place to curious eyes.

And then, right now she turned to look at Jill, who was to her side, sleeping. They are in Madrid. Jill proposed to her if she would help her to install to her new apartment and explore some places of the city, since Y/N knew Madrid a little better than Jill.

It was her last day there since tomorrow started the preseason for both of them. And for Y/N she will go to another part to prepared for the upcoming matches.

"What are you thinking?" A sleepy voice ask, Y/N smile.

"About how lucky I am because I don't will see you with a Real Madrid tracksuit." Y/N joked.

Jill snorted, still with her eyes closed.

"Don't worry about it. I take a photo and send it to you."

•••

The next day, Jill kept the promise and send Y/N a photo where the blonde wear a Real Madrid tracksuit. Y/N rolled her eyes, but she wasn't going to deny that Jill looked good.

If you had put a patch on the shield, you would be better off.

:P don't lie to me baby, I know you like how do I look.

How humble🙄

By the way, nervous? Tell me everything later. I'm going on my way to the village.

Yeah. I'm a little nervous, but I'm excited!

Okay, take care😘😘

And I love you❤️

If someone messes with you they will deal with me😤

You too, I love you more💙❤️

"Leave the phone!" Aitana exclaimed behind Y/N. The midfielder turned around to look at her.

"Say you? Need I remember your entire stay in Australia and New Zealand you was on your phone?" Y/N teased back. The brunette catalan grunted.

"Fuck you." Aitana said funnily.

"Aitana!" Alexia rebuked behind the aforementioned, Y/N laugh while Aitana began to reproach.

"No way! I don't say anything bad. Also why do you never scold her?" Aitana asked. Y/N saw how Alexia looked at her briefly, hiding a smile.

"I don't know what are you talking about." The captain played dumb, looking back at her phone.

Aitana turned to look at Y/N again with an open mouth. "I hate you." The brunette mouthed to her. Y/N laughed harder, Mariona who was by Aitana's side, too.

"Come on, Aiti. Don't say lies." Y/N funny humming.

Y/N heard how Aitana grunted again.

"Laia! Want you be my roomie?" Y/N call to the girl from a few front seats from her.

"Oh my god, stop!" Aitana exclaimed.

Laia looked to them confused. She asked with a move of head what happened.

"This idiot is teasing me. Don't pay attention to her." The brunette said feigning be frustrated towards Y/N.

Laia shake her head laughing.

Y/N turned to look at Aitana again and stuck out her tongue, looking forward again. Then Y/N felt a strong pain on her right arm.

"Auch!" Y/N hissed, rubbing that part.

"Aitana! Why you hit her?" Alexia scolded once again to Aitana.

"She is feigning it Ale. I have not hit her so hard." Aitana mumbled, but soon she let out a yelp.

"Why you do that?" The young catalan ask, Y/N turned towards them, seeing Aitana rubbing her head.

"I haven't hit you so hard, why you yell?" Alexia said imitating the words that Aitana said before.

Y/N look to a sleepy Viv to her side. She unlocked her phone and took a picture of the blonde and sent it to Lisa. Then Y/N blocked it and relaxed on her seat, she still have an hour to get to the site.

•••

A few days passed, the intensity from the training and the heat, all of them were tired and lying to somewhere cool while they have a break. That evening after training, Y/N sit down in a chair on her balcony. She can heard some of her teammates outside where the pool was speaking while they tanned.

"So, that are all the couples from the team." Y/N heard Patri said. She let out a soft giggle.

"There are a lot." Ona comments.

"Yeah. Is a little weird if you dated someone from the same team. Mapi have experience in it. Well and Alexia. It's was weird when Mapi and Ingrid started dating and Ana was around. But they stayed cordials, and saw for the team." Patri explained to Ona.

"Lesbians are dramatic. Shit, we are fucked up, Patri!" Ona said laughing.

"Yeah! And it could have been worse. You heard about the rumors where Jill Roord would sign for Barcelona, right?" Y/N frown confused. She heard it, but a long time ago. "Well, imagined if she sign. More drama because Jill and Ingrid dated." Y/N noticed how her blood froze.

What?

Jill dated Ingrid?

And she is finding it now?

Y/N's mind was going a thousand miles an hour. She didn't know how time passed sitting in that chair with a lost look. Why Jill didn't tell her before? Why on earth she is hearing it now after a year or more? A hand on her shoulder made her jump on the spot.

"Are you okay?" Alexia's voice sound away despite being only a few inches from her.

"No." Y/N answers honestly. She stands up and walk out from the bedroom. Alexia look the way her roomie walk, confused. And worried.

Y/N went towards the canteen and went to sit where Sandra, Irene and Viv, the silences of the team. The quietness is what Y/N was searching right now. She saw from the distance how Mapi and Ingrid sit down next to Aitana, Frido and Laia. Then Patri and Ona came with Alexia behind them. Surely the captain went in search of them.

"Hey." Irene's hand grab Y/N's, making this look noticing how her knuckles had turned white. Y/N's breath was turning irregular, her gaze come back where Ingrid was sitting. "Y/N look at me." Y/N heard Irene, but she didn't pay attention. The more she looked at the norwegian, the more confused she felt.

Soon Y/N gaze was focusing on another face, Irene turned with their hands Y/N's face towards herself. Worried eyes scanned her.

"Match my breath." Irene whispered, Y/N tried hard on focusing on it. But she made it.

"Thanks." Y/N mumbled, starting eat from her plate. Irene looked at the others three there while Y/N was oblivious to everything.

"Don't dare you act like nothing happened." The basque said seriously. She noticed that Alexia -who sit down where they are when Y/N was having an anxiety attack, was going to speak.

"I tell you later." She was all she said.

Vivianne, Sandra, Irene and Alexia looked each other worried. They don't knowing the reason, they saw just like Y/N stared at a specific point. The lunch was getting normal, the four girls next to Y/N keep an eye on her, but for their relief, she is okay. Until Y/N's phone started ring.

Y/N looks the phone screen bright, showing a photo of Jill on one of their first dates. Y/N bite her lower lip, remaining ecstatic on the spot, letting the call finish. She started with her dessert when the sound of a text rang.

Hi baby! I called you but you probably will be busy. I have a break for lunch, so if you saw it before you start your other training session call me😘❤️

Y/N unblock the phone and read it over. She blocked it and finish eating.

"I'm going to lie down for a while." The midfielder communicate to the fours. She stands up and started walk out.

"Hey you! Where you going?" Ona's voice call her. Y/N looks at her, noticing that a few of them were looking at her, between them was Ingrid. Y/N tensed up.

"I'm tired, so I'm going to lie down." Her voice felt cold, not masking how she felt. Y/N didn't let Ona answers back, she go away fastly from there.

The young player closes the door and lie down on her bed. Her reaction isn't the most properly, inside she felt everything, but she was acting cold, without emotion.

She noticed how an arm posing on her waist. Y/N didn't turn around to knowing it's Alexia.

"I'm want be alone." She said with a hoarse voice.

"I don't going anywhere. So if you don't want speak, just don't speak. But don't push me out. I don't moving from here." Alexia said quietly, tightening her grip.

They are like that until Alexia saw its the hour to the next training session.

•••

The time in the village was getting to the final. Two days pass since Y/N found out about her teammate and girlfriend. Her mood worsened something happens always when she have that mood, she plays impeccably well. She had two panic attacks and an anxiety attack, all of them without knowing anyone there, a few of them knew of the only one she had on their lunch.

"Y/N! Jill is on the phone, she is worried about you. She said that you aren't answering her calls or texts." Viv came to where Y/N was sitting outside, waiting for the last training session. Y/N tensed up again that day and it showed up on her face. Her breath stuck in her throat, her chest tightness to the point she started feel dizzy. Viv looks at her scared. The blonde saw how it happen in a second. "Jill? I'm calling you later, okay? Don't worry, I promise you you're talking with her." Then Viv hung up and ran where Y/N is.

"Breath Y/N. Don't think about anything else. Just focus on me and in my breath, okay? Want you Alexia come here?" The dutch striker ask fastly, seeing how Y/N shake her head indicating a no. After a few minutes, Viv felt relieved, she saw Y/N breath normally again, color coming back to her cheeks.

"I don't a fool, Y/N. You need talk with her, okay? Whatever it's bothering you, we are here." Viv reassured Y/N, hugging her.

"You two! Come on, we are getting late if you don't come now!" Aitana yell at them, clearly trying to tease both of them, mostly Y/N. But Aitana face pass to a smug smile to a frowning face when Y/N pass to her side and just got on the bus. "Is the first time Y/N doesn't said anything to me. Is she okay?" The brunette asked Viv.

"I think she still is in a bad mood." Viv mumbled giving Aitana a lipped smile, getting on the bus after the short girl get in the bus first.

Viv kept an eye on her all training. She didn't lie, Y/N had giving them a hard time, the spanish girl was playing really good. And then, something happened. It's a 5v5 match. Y/N, Irene, Viv, Lieke and Cata and the other was Alexia, Mapi, Sandra, Ingrid and Aitana. The first team was winning, despite the fact that the other team had more possession of the ball. But it happened when Aitana pass the ball to Ingrid and Y/N went for it, but late. A huge scream resound in the pitch.

Y/N stared Ingrid on the floor, seeing how the tall girl was lying in the ground holding with her hands her right ankle. Mapi went immediately towards Ingrid, soon the others too, letting out Y/N. So she take advantage of it and run away to the locker room.

Y/N closed the door with a slam, tears running for her cheeks. She sit down on the floor, hiding her face on her hands

What is wrong with her?

Why the mere though of Jill and Ingrid together make her angry?

"WHAT HAPPEN WITH YOU, EH?" Mapi opened the door with another slam, scaring Y/N.

"I-I'm sor-ry, Mapi." Y/N said with a small voice.

"YOU SORRY? YOU BETTER FEEL IT. BECAUSE I SWORE TO YOU THAT IF SHE IS REALLY BAD INJURED, YOU WILL REALLY KNOW ME!" Mapi yell furious, moving closer to her with every word that came out of her mouth.

"I SAID SORRY, OKAY? STOP THAT BULLSHIT!" Y/N explotes, standing up putting herself in front of Mapi.

"You two stop now!" Alexia exclaimed, standing between the two.

"I'M DONE WITH HER, ALEXIA! SO MOVE NOW." The blonde tried get to Y/N, but Alexia stopped her.

"You don't gonna touch her." The catalan deadly serious said, stopping Mapi with her hands.

"Why are you always defending her? I don't fucking understand! She is treating us bad. I don't care what happened to her right now. My limit is Ingrid and she crossed it." The defender blurted out.

"Mapi! Stay away from her." Lieke came too, standing next to Y/N.

"Of course! Someone else to protect the poor girl!?" Mapi exclaimed sarcastic. Y/N felt her blood boil when she heard that she was getting protect from some of them.

"SHUT UP! I DON'T NEED ANYONE TO PROTECT ME." Y/N scream angry, her tears turned from guilty to rage.

"NO? ARE YOU SURE? BECAUSE ITS THE ONLY THING I SAW EVERYTIME THAT SOMETHING HAPPENS TO YOU. YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU AREN'T THE UNIQUE PERSON WITH PROBLEMS, Y/N!!" The aragonese yell at her while she made a fuss with her hands. Mapi's face turned red from angry, the vein on her forehead was starting to show.

"ENOUGH!" Alexia's powerful voice silenced them both, the pair looked at each other with rancor and anger. "Ona please, take Y/N to somewhere else." It's when Y/N broke her gaze with the blonde and saw how all of their teammates was looking at them, silently. She saw how Ona went towards her, extending her left hand to her. Y/N looks her hand, but remained there.

"Y/N please. Go with her." Lieke whispered, with one hand pushing her softly towards the freckled girl. Y/N looked again at Mapi, giving her a cold stare and went towards Ona, accepting her hand. She saw how her teammates gave her confused and worried looks while she passed between them to exit from there.

Y/N let Ona take to where the pool was. They sit down on a sun lounger. The sun was hiding and soon was getting dark, but still the last rays of the sun lit up the place.

"Felt better?" Ona ask after a while, squeezing the grip on her hand.

"Yeah." Y/N answered nodding with her head.

"Why are you acting cold? It's not for now, you are acting like it for a few days and don't wanna to ask before. So I'm doing it now, why?" Ona ask softly, the other look at her, seeing on Ona's eyes, worry.

"I found something out and I'm not assimilating well." Y/N answered defeat. She let her walls down with Ona, knowing she will not judge her.

"Want talk about it?" The defender offered, caressing with a hand Y/N's back.

Y/N shake her head slowly; "Not, I need talk with someone else. The person is involved on it." She said honestly. Ona nod, understanding.

"Okay. What about if you go to your room and start with it?" She proposed.

"That's an order?" Y/N ask with a tone of fun.

"Maybe." Ona answered back, bumping her shoulder with Y/N's. "Don't worry, if Alexia and Lieke come here I say you are on your room."

"Okay. Thanks Ona." She hugged Ona briefly and stood up.

"Anything for you darling."

•••

The first ring sound, making Y/N sigh nervous. She felt shy too. Shit, how is she gonna tell her?

"Hi baby." Jill's voice sound after the third tone.

"Hello Jill." She answers back, more formal. "I want tell you why I haven't been answering your calls and texts. If you let me explain everything at once."

"Yeah, of course. I hear you." She said calmly.

"Okay." Y/N take a deep breath and clear her throat. "First of all. I'm sorry for ignoring you. I... A few days I heard something that I don't knew and it shocked me. It's something involve you and I don't wanna to answer you badly. Actually my mood worsened and I've been having panic and anxiety attacks and today I... Have crossed the limit. In a 5v5 match, when I went for the ball, which Ingrid had, instead of hitting the ball, I hit her. I took her ankle and I think I have injured her badly. She let out a horrific scream, Jill. And for my fault. Everyone went to check on her, so I went to the locker room and after a while, Mapi came yelling at me. I scream to her too, after I apologized, but... I didn't like it when she said that I'm protected by some of them. Before it went to more, Alexia separated us." Y/N finished said while tears fell uncontrollably for her cheeks. She didn't know how her voice didn't break when she was saying all that.

"What was you heard?" Jill asked after of some minutes of silence.

"I heard Patri telling Ona about the couples from the team when she mentioned you, saying that luckily you didn't sign for the team because you and Ingrid dated and it would be weird after." Y/N's gaze was lost on the dark sky since the balcony doors was opened.

"It's went a long time ago. I thought you knew it." Y/N heard Jill sigh. "Ingrid and I dated for a couple months, it's was not serious. I mean, at the time yeah because I want try a relationship with her, something serious. But she didn't want. Our relationship was based on sex, so... When she signed for Barcelona I knew that that relationship had no begging."

Y/N didn't know how she supposed to feel. For a part she felt relieved, but for another... Felt sick.

"Happened two years then?" Y/N ask in small voice.

"Yeah." The blonde confirmed.

"I felt embarrassed... But I never experienced this feeling. It's like realizing that... You can find another person, a better person than me and I don't like it. And my mind imagining you and Ingrid together make me... Angry." Y/N tried to explain how she felt.

"If it made feel you better. I have experienced that same feeling." Jill let out a soft chuckle, Y/N frown confused. "At the start of our relationship, seeing you with Alexia made me jealous. I didn't tell you anything because the jealousy lasted only a few days. I understood that it was simply a special friendship. But... This summer I have felt it again, this time with Ona." Y/N was perplexed. She didn't believe it. Jill felt jealous about Alexia and Ona?

"Really? I'm sorry. That's not my intention."

"Baby... It's not your fault. We can't control our emotions, and less the jealousy. Don't worry, if I feel insecure I think about our moments together, our conversations and you looking at me with love eyes." Y/N laugh with the last part, she felt strange when she heard her laughter. "I look at you with the same look." Jill said that part softly, Y/N believe her.

"I love you and I'm sorry for being a shitty girlfriend." Her tears came back, more softly this time.

"You have your reasons. But promise me that if you felt again like that, you tell me, okay? If you have anxiety and panic attacks you need tell someone. And I love you more, mijn liefje."

"I promise you." They talked a few minutes more and then hung up because dinner was to start. In the case of Y/N was the last day there and they will have a little party.

•••

The blaugrana player went to the canteen, finding all of her teammates there, having fun, talking and few of them singing. Y/N went to her usual spot, next to Alexia and Lieke. They smiled at her when Y/N sit down.

"Everything okay?" Alexia ask.

"Yes. I talked with Jill and I tell her everything. Even today's events." Y/N mumbled the last part. The catalan put her right arm around Y/N's shoulders and gave her a kiss on her left cheek, she always does that, just like Jill and Lieke.

"I'm proud of you. Just you need do another thing." She whispered, nodding to where Ingrid and Mapi were.

"I know, but I think today is too much. Tomorrow I apologie to Ingrid." Y/N purposely not mentioned Mapi, she will didn't forget her words that easy.

"That's fine." Lieke said to her side, smiling.

Y/N relaxed for a while, enjoying the unusual sensation that week. She watches, after they all finish dinner and dessert, Patri grab her speakers and put a song, clearly with intentions for start the party. Y/N stayed on her spot with her phone, not participating. The others didn't insist much after what happened that afternoon. Her gaze travel for all of them, dodging Mapi when she spot her. She saw Ingrid sat with crutches next to their chair. Y/N swallowed, watching how the tall girl barely smile when her girlfriend or Frido do something to cheer her.

"I'm tired. So I'm going to my room." Y/N stated standing up. Alexia and Lieke look at her.

"Do you want me to go with you?" Her roomie ask. Y/N shake her head, she deposited a kiss on her cheek, other to Lieke's and go quietly from there.

The next day she didn't went to apologies to Ingrid.

•••

The first match of the preseason finished. Barça won 3-1 against Bayern Munich. And soon they all was focusing in the next match against Chelsea, an interesting game.

Y/N's mood was better, but not too much. She felt something strange towards Jill. Like she didn't trust her and the better part was that she didn't have a real reason for feeling like that. So today her girlfriend was on her way to Barcelona, they will have a free couple days and the dutch wants to go visit her.

"Close your eyes!" Vivianne enters the locker room and stood up in front of her, a big smile on her lips.

"Really?" She asked with a smug smile.

"Yes. Come on, I promise you would like it." Y/N did what Viv said and closed her eyes. She heard footsteps and voices whispering.

"Okay. You can open your eyes!" The blonde striker exclaimed.

Y/N does what her teammate said and opened them. She couldn't believe what she is seeing, I mean she was expecting it, but later.

"What are you doing here?" Y/N ask surprised, standing up and hugging her.

"Well. I want to surprise you." Jill said, hugging Y/N around the waist.

"You do." Y/N let out a chuckle. She was happy, really happy to see her. But a pang of anguish on her chest say other thing. It's contradictory, but she truly felt happy to see Jill there.

The couple leaned to kiss when someone made a sound clearing her throat.

"Not kisses in from of me please!" Irene exclaimed, putting a hand in front on her eyes.

"Oh yeah, sure. Like you aren't tired of seeing it everyday." Y/N said rolling her eyes, so ignoring her she leaned and kiss Jill's lips slowly.

"Why are you all at the door?" Y/N tense up when she heard Mapi's voice. Jill noticed it.

"Well, someone decided give us a show on how to kiss your girlfriend." Irene answers joking.

Y/N looks at the door and like a magnet, her gaze fell on Ingrid. She unconsciously tighten her arms around Jill's neck, bringing her closer to her.

"Hey Jill." Mapi greeted her, ignoring Y/N of course. Something mutual between that both.

"Hi Mapi." The dutch greeted back.

"Y/N take care of what you say to her. She is our rival now." Alexia teased, making a few there laugh.

"Come on Ale. Don't start crying already, the league even started." Jill teased back, earning some applause with her comeback.

"We will see who will cry in the end." The catalan said. Jill just laugh and went to hug Alexia who approached them. After she hugged Ale the others wants a hug too. It's weird see Jill and Mapi interact with each other so Y/N let them talk and went to where Sandra, Irene and Laia were. While Y/N was having a conversation with the three girls, out of the corner of her eye she saw how Ingrid had joined the conversation between Mapi and Jill. And Y/N didn't like it at all.

"I'm just notice it. Stop watching." Ona approached Y/N and sat on her lap whispering that words. Y/N frown looking at her. "Ingrid isn't to blame for how you're feeling." The freckled girl cleared up.

"Look at her and look at me." Ona does what Y/N said.

"I see two beautiful women. I don't understand your point." Y/N knew it that is a lie. Ona understand what Y/N wants to say.

"Whatever. Move, I need go to the bathroom." Y/N said, tackling Ona's side.

"Stop!" The young player exclaimed laughing.

The midfielder went to the bathroom, but just stood there. She wanna be alone, not wanting to continue watching. For her surprise Mapi enters, making her nervous. The aragonese look at her suspicious, but don't say anything, just went to a empty cubicle. Y/N let out a relief sigh. So with fast footsteps, she get out from there.

She saw Aitana and Mariona talking with her girlfriend, more calm Y/N approached them.

"Don't pay attention to what Aitana tells you." Y/N said while she hugged Jill from behind, earning a giggle from Mariona and her.

"Shut up, Y/N. Let the adults talk quietly." Aitana teased back, crossing her arms.

"I see two adults and a minion." Y/N said, starting running when she saw Aitana's expression.

"Asshole come here!" The young catalan exclaimed, running faster than her.

"Aitana! What have I told you a million times? Don't insult." Alexia scolded her, crossing her arms.

"Come on! If you are the one who releases the most insults." Aitana said indignant while she had Y/N cornered. "Don't hide behind Laia. I'm going for you soon or later."

"Laia is my shield against you! I never leave her side." Y/N said dramatically, earning laughs from the majority of them.

"Actually Jill. I don't know how you have patience with this one." Aitana started said, a smug smile growing on her face. "She is annoying, has not taste in music and for her fault Alexia is always scolding me." Y/N pout behind Laia. Aitana leaned her head to a side, already forgetting that Y/N referred to her like a minion.

"You are so mean with me Aiti. I don't understand why." Y/N hugged Laia from behind, putting her head on a shoulder.

"I'm the only one mean? Come here you idiot." Aitana extended an arm towards her. Y/N accept and went to hug her.

"These two are always acting like that?" Jill ask funnily to Mariona and Alexia, while she saw how Aitana started tickle Y/N's sides.

"Yep. I'm not going to complain, I have a good time with their interactions." Mariona answered with a big smile.

"Is funny tease Aitana. She is easy and Y/N likes that type of interactions. I like mess with Aiti too." Alexia said laughing.

The blonde watch with a smile the pair, she mentally thanked Aitana for make her girlfriend relax and have fun.

•••

The two days pass fastly. Right now Y/N was helping Jill to pack a few things. Y/N's mind was a whirlpool of thoughts. She had in mind do something, an idea that round for a few days. And she decided express it loud.

"I think we need break up..." Y/N mumbled. She saw how Jill stood petrified on the spot, slowly turning her head towards her. Y/N swallowed shyly.

"What?" Jill asked with a small voice, confusion writing on her face.

"We need break up." This time Y/N said more clear, looking at Jill with conviction.

"Why? Please, tell me it's not for Ingrid." The dutch throw away what she had on her hands to the bed. Y/N watch how Jill was getting angry. "Want you break up because you are jealous? I don't fucking understand it, Y/N!" Jill exclaimed mad.

"I think it's better for both of us. Maybe you can find someone better than me..."

"Oh my god! Y/N, I don't want be with anyone else. I'm want be with you! You are the better person. Why you don't see it?" Y/N let out a tear, but turned quickly for Jill can't see it.

"This past days I'm been reading and... I don't know why, but your name next to a few girls more is hard to see. I don't want be with you, Jill. I can't." Y/N said turning around with a hoarse voice.

"What do you mean? Y/N... It's you. I don't care what you read or heard. My name will always be next to yours. You trust me?" Jill approached Y/N. Her look showed more than her face, Jill was containing herself. The blonde grab Y/N's hands. A frown appears on her face when Y/N were taking time to answer. "You trust me, right?" She asked again, with a fear voice.

"Yes. I do. But... Right now I can't be with you because I will doubt every woman that you will talk. And you didn't deserve that. I think... Its better, for both if we break up."

"I DON'T FUCKING UNDERSTAND! I'M TIRED OF YOUR BULLSHIT. THAT IS A CRAP OF EXCUSE. YOU LOVE ME AND I LOVE YOU. I DON'T GONNA CHEAT ON YOU IF THAT IS WHAT YOU BELIEVE." Jill angrily started yell. Y/N knew that Jill have right in everything she said. But like the ignorant part of her, she started scream too.

"MAYBE I DON'T WANT BE WITH A FUCKBOI!!" Y/N immediately regret it. She tried to get closer, but stayed where she was when Y/N saw her expression of pain. A deathly silence settled there. Jill look at Y/N not believing what she said. The blonde pass her tongue for her lips, wiping her tears with the palm of the hand furiously.

"You want to break up? Good, we break up." Jill said coldly. She grab her things and get out from the apartment, closing the door with a slam.

It's was the turn to Y/N to cry. She already misses her presence there.

•••

The preseason finished with a satisfying result against Chelsea and Montpellier. September came with a broken internally Y/N. She regret every day since she call Jill for that word, but do nothing to apologies. Even she blocked her number.

Her mood with the team she tried to participate in conversations and act like nothing happened, even when some of them make a joke or ask how Jill is. But for some reason, Y/N was sure that Lieke and Viv knew what had happened. Viv looks at her without emotion, but never spoke at her badly and Lieke was more attentive to her.

Today was the first training focusing on the first match in the league. So the intensity was guaranteed. Y/N get out from the canteen with Ona and Caro to direction to the locker room.

"So girls, some ideas name to call to my new friend?" Ona asked, after showing them a photo of the siberian husky she adopt.

"What about Nox?" Y/N suggest.

Ona raised an eyebrow; "Something related to Harry Potter?" Asked teasingly.

"Maybe..." Y/N trailed off, earning laughs from the pair.

"For your luck I like it, so I will think about it." Ona said entering in the locker room.

"Okay." Y/N said content. Ona shake her head funny. Y/N sit down on her bench to change her shoes.

Irene and Alexia were the next on enter to the site. Y/N smiled to the two, Irene reciprocate the gesture but Alexia didn't. Y/N frown, that's weird on her friend.

"Something happen captain?" Y/N asked from where she was while tying her shoelaces.

"I don't know, tell me yourself." Alexia muttered coldly. Y/N's head raised up, looking at her confused. Then she looks at Ona, who looks back at her just as confused as her.

"What are you talking about?" Y/N asked.

Patri, Aitana, Sandra, Lieke and Laia were entering there too, Alexia's answers take them in the middle.

"About shitty person you are." Y/N's eyes opened surprised.

"Alexia!" Ona scolded her. An awkward silence settled.

"I can't believe how dumb I being to protect you! I regret every interaction I had with you." Y/N felt her world fall apart with that words.

"Alexia I don't know what are you doing, but stop right now!" Ona once again interfered going where Y/N was when she saw Alexia walk to where Y/N's.

"Y/N BREAK UP WITH JILL BECAUSE SHE AND INGRID DATED AND Y/N CAN HANDLE IT. YOU ARE SO COWARD ITS A SHAME!" Alexia vociferated to everyone there. Y/N stood up, tears falling.

"YOU DON'T HAVE RIGHT TO DO THAT, ALEXIA! I THINK THE SHITTY PERSON HERE RIGHT NOW ITS YOU." Lieke yelled when she process everything. The dutch went to where Y/N was.

"YOU THROW UP THE ONLY GOOD YOU HAD ON YOUR LIFE." Alexia ignored Lieke and Ona. The older player looked at her with contempt. Y/N run away from there just hearing that words.

Her breath hitched, thanks to her tears she can't see properly, just seeing all for where she passed blurred. Y/N when she arrived to the pitch where they all will train, she collapsed on the floor, sobbing. Alexia is right. She is a shitty person, she is a shame and she threw out the only good thing in her life.

"Hey..." A soft voice startled Y/N. She looks at the person, seeing only a blurry face but identified by hair.

"M-Mapi." Y/N stutters and pounced on her.

"I've got you." The blonde player whispered, holding Y/N between her arms.

"S-She is r-right, Mapi. I-I'm a bad p-person." Y/N said between sob.

"Not. She isn't right. Alexia haven't right at all." Mapi grab with her hands Y/N's face and wipes with her thumbs her tears in vain. "The training will start soon. Stay with me, Ona and Lieke, okay? Don't focus on anyone else." She instructed her, kissing Y/N's cheek.

"Ok-kay." Y/N nodded with her head.

•••

The training session went the most quiet and uncomfortable that they all had. Y/N and Alexia trained in separate groups. Still, the atmosphere was charged with tension. They all stayed there after finish because later will be another session, more light than that morning.

Y/N sit down alone in a table, looking down she didn't dare to look at the rest. She just look up when someone removed the chair.

"You don't have to sit here." Y/N mumbled quietly, looking at her plate.

"I know it. But I want." Mapi answered. They stayed quiet while they eat. To Y/N is a little weird that someone she had a discussion and didn't talk, sit there and it was one who comforted her. "I don't judge you, Y/N." Mapi spoke again when they finish. Y/N looks at her with confusion. She saw how Mapi crossed her arms on top at the table.

"Why?" Y/N asked shyly.

"Because I'm nobody to say or judge someone. You have your decision to do whatever you think is right, even when you aren't." The aragonese saw how Y/N started cry.

"I'm sorry for everything, Mapi. I truly do." Y/N said wiping her tears.

"I know. Don't worry more about it, okay?" Mapi stood up and went next to her, sitting alongside. She put an arm around her shoulders, bringing her towards herself.

"Y/N? Can you come with me, please?" Jonatan, their coach, asked kindly.

"Yeah." Y/N frown, looking at Mapi.

"I wait for you here." The defender informed, smiling reassuring. Y/N nodded standing up.

She followed her coach to his office silently. He kindly open the door and offered that she enter first. Y/N gave him a small smile. Then she sit in a chair while he sit down in front of his desk.

"Y/N. You knew that you can count on us whatever it's bothering you, right?" Y/N nodded shyly.

"Yes, coach."

"Good. Look I will be honest with you. It's not the first time you have problems with some of your teammates. The staff team and I discussed it and we... We concluded that you aren't going to play the first game." Y/N can't believe what her coach said.

"Excuse me?" She asked stunned.

"I know. And I'm sorry. But we need warning you that this building, this team, it's not your boxing bag. If you have problems with someone, please tell us, but don't take it into someone else." He finished said. Y/N felt really sad and disoriented.

"Okay. But... What about Alexia? She is the only one to who confronted me this morning." The young player said confused. She can understand about Mapi and Ingrid, but about Alexia don't.

"We are going to talk with her. But where we know, she just caused this morning. You in change have confrontations with three different people."

"The only thing I understand about it is you need Alexia and not me. I understand she is the choice you want maintain." Y/N said serious, she stood up.

"Y/N..." Jonatan stood up too.

"I get it, coach. Since I'm suspended, can I have the week off?" Y/N said really mad and annoyed.

Jonatan nodded with his head, looking at her with sadness; "Yes, of course. But you need training, okay?" Y/N nod and walk away from there.

She walks rapidly to the locker room and without saying anything to the few teammates there, went to grab her gym bag and get out from there. Y/N didn't want Mapi hanging without knowing about her, so she went to the cafeteria.

She spot her with Ona and Lieke.

"Where are you going?" Ona ask when she saw her gym bag.

"I'm taking the week off." Y/N answers calmly, she didn't want the rest heard her.

"What? Why?" Lieke asked confused.

"Ask your captain." Y/N simply said. "Look, I want come here because I don't wanna go without saying goodbye." The three looked really mad and don't understanding anything.

"Is seriously?" Mapi ask stunned.

Y/N nodded with head afflicted.

"Good luck this Sunday. See you next week." The midfielder was to embrace them in the form of farewell.

They hugged each other shortly and the three watch how Y/N walk away from the building.

•••

That week for a part, it was good for Y/N. She does what she supposed had to do in training with less intensity of course. She received some support from her teammates, calling her and going to her apartment when they finish training. Y/N remembered the next day to her suspension, Jenni called her. The striker found out that Alexia screamed at her in the locker room and Jenni was really angry about it. Y/N reassured that she was hurt but fine. They talked about how in Jenni's first game, she scored two goals and gave an assist. The league where Jenni was started a week before. Y/N didn't mention her suspension to Jenni because she know that the madrilenian could catch a flight and fly to Barcelona. Then Jenni made her promise that if Alexia or someone else started scream at her, she will scream more loud. This make Y/N laugh.

Another detail she has recently noted it's that she is been looking more at the scar, passing minutes and hours in front of a mirror. Everytime Y/N hate a little more that scar, she think that since she had that, everything started fall apart.

Her team started winning their first match against Valencia. 5-1, hat-trick from Vivianne, a goal from Claudia and a goal from Patri and all assist from Lieke Martens. Y/N felt really proud of her friend. She noticed that her captain played really bad and was subbed of for Mariona. Maybe it's karma, thought Y/N.

And not to mention that she thought about Jill every day and every night. She looked their photos together or just where the blonde goes out alone. Y/N watch Real Madrid's first game. The dutch not was starting, but she came on the second half and she played really well, even she scored her first goal, giving to her new team the first three points.

Since her team played on Sunday, the next is day off. So Ona and Lieke showed up that day on her apartment, bringing with them their flurry friends. This make Y/N really happy.

"Nox, careful!" Ona exclaimed. Y/N smiled when she heard the name. "Don't dare say anything." The freckled girl mumbled. Lieke and Y/N laughed.

"I guess Mapi is with Ingrid, right?" Y/N ask sitting in a chair on her balcony.

"Yes. It's like they don't see each other at all." Ona rolled her eyes.

"Ona, Ingrid is injured. They see but less and thanks to me. You're welcome." Lieke gave her a soft punch on her arm.

"Stop it. It was an accident." The dutch player said. They stayed in silence, enjoying the soft rays of sun on their skin, the only noise was their dogs playing with each other.

"Lieke didn't want you know it but Mapi had a discussion with Alexia the same day of your suspension." Ona said calmly. Y/N without looking at her laugh when she heard Lieke scolded her.

"Since there, they don't speak." Ona kept talking.

"Jenni called me this days. Before you can fuck it up, she didn't know that I'm been suspended. So please, I want she didn't find out." Y/N warns Ona. "By the way, how she found out about the discussion?" She asked opening an eye and looking to her.

"Ona and I." Lieke answered for Ona. Y/N look at her surprised. "What? I was angry." The dutch simply said, shrugging her shoulders. Y/N laughed.

"What was her reaction when she found out that I was suspended?" Y/N ask curious. She gonnat lie, she didn't forget her words that easily. But she felt curiosity about her reaction, maybe she was happy, after all. Y/N is a shitty person.

"She was mad. Alexia said that she doesn't pretending to suspend you. Even she offered that suspend her and not you." Ona mumbled.

Y/N laugh ironically; "She played bad. And Alexia never play bad. So I'm assuming it was on purpose."

"Maybe." Lieke played mysterious. "Look, I don't going to defend her actions. But she truly fight off for you when she found out. You are someone special to her, even when she said that no sense."

Y/N shake her head, deep in thought. "I don't care. She doesn't asked me why I did it or say if she didn't agree with me in privately. She did it publicly and just for humiliation." Y/N said what she truly Alexia did that.

Lieke and Ona looked at each other worried. They just found out that it was the start and maybe the end of a friendship.

•••

October arrived and Y/N started felt better. Even when half of her team don't speak her. That is something Y/N doesn't understand, they don't talk her because she break up with someone and she had discussion with Alexia. Maybe the catalan was the trigger. If Alexia does it, was for sure for a reason. Y/N smiled ironically to this thought. So her friendship reduced to Mapi, Lieke, Ona and surprisingly Ingrid. The rest talked to her only when it's necessary and Y/N does the same. If they retired the word, she too. She hasn't done anything to them. Same happens with her national team. The majority were from her club. There was no Lieke, but there was Jenni. And Nerea, Lola, Laia, Misa and Leila apart from Ona and Mapi. They are right now in the stoppage for national selections.

Y/N remembered the last month with her national teammates. In the first day after their first training, Jenni cornered Alexia in the locker room in front of everyone. The striker started recriminate why Alexia did it. Alexia remained silent, she simply waited for Jenni to finish speaking and left there. It make Jenni more angry, she tried go behind her, but Lola stop her. Literally they act like an divorced couple fighting for what their child do bad.

So a month and half and still Y/N and Alexia didn't talk, even when both of them are involved in a goal. Like the last match. Y/N knew where her teammates will be or supposed to be. And when Y/N grab the ball from a rival, immediately have two rivals trying to stole the ball, failing. She practically dribbled past half the team but she had no angle to kick the ball so in a beautiful pass crossing between three rival, the ball reached Alexia's feet and the captain did the simple thing, put the ball in the back of the net. Y/N doesn't celebrate too much, she let Alexia approach her and cordially they gave each other a high five. Y/N get away from there quickly and celebrate a little more when Mapi lifted her, making Y/N giggle.

"You think will could win against USA?" Leila asked Y/N, awakening her from her thoughts.

"Well, the last time we do... So I say a yes, I trust on us." Y/N answers sincerely. They will play a friendly against the americans and the second will be against Macedonia to qualify for the euro. Spain wants maintein the winners title another four years.

"Well... If you maintain on that form, a hat-trick can fall." Y/N laugh to Leila's answers.

"Only if you have my back."

"Deal." Leila extended her hand, smiling. Y/N reciprocated the gesture, sealing the deal with a shake of hands.

The game went surprisingly like Leila said. Y/N scored a hat-trick, taking with her the ball. She couldn't believe it. She scored three times to a big team like United States. It's the first time that she genuinely felt happy. Jenni put Camela in the locker room to celebrate after she present to her Christen Press. Y/N had heard a lot of stories from the striker with her and like Jenni describes her it's short to actually Christen is. Jenni help her to meet an idol and Y/N will always be grateful for that.

Y/N looked the ball dreamy. In the background sounding Cuando Zarpa El Amor and her head with an idea that for terms on how she is with the team, she doesn't dare to express it loud.

"I told you, Y/N/N!" Leila came to her side, giving Y/N a sound kiss on her cheek.

"And you have fulfilled the other part of the deal." Y/N said smiling, hugging Leila. The brunette alongside Misa, help her a lot. They don't know too much, Misa is Jill teammate and maybe she does, but never look or act different towards her. The couple adopt her joining Ona.

"Where is my child!?" Jenni exclaimed climb on a chair. Y/N laugh for her antics.

"I'm here Jenni. What do you want?" Y/N went to her side, letting the ball where her stuff are.

"Dance with me!" The tall woman got down from the chair. Y/N didn't want to disappoint Jenni, so she dance with her while they both sing with passion. Soon Lola and Leila joined. Y/N saw how Ona was recording it smiling.

"Cuando zarpa el amor, navega a ciegas es quien lleva el timón. Y cuando sube la marea al corazón. Sabe que el viento sopla a su favor. No podemos hacer nada por cambiar el rumbo que marcó, para los dos. ¡Cuando zarpa el amor!" They sang the chorus, laughing and cheering.

"I'm going to upload this video to Instagram!" Ona exclaimed laughing.

"No, Ona! Please it's embarrassing." Y/N said blushing.

"So that's why I'm going to upload it." Ona informed her, sticking out her tongue.

Y/N was going to complain to her threatening her with telling her to Alexia. But that thought was rectified immediately, she briefly look at the brunette, like knowing would happen, Alexia looks at her. Y/N put her eyes on Ona again, who noticed the brief interaction. The defender smiled at her reassuring.

"I will take my revenge, Batlle!" Was the only thing Y/N said, starting to dance.

•••

Barcelona won another game, staying on first on the league. Y/N was on fire that season, even when her club suspended her, something that anybody apart from the club and teammates, find out. The midfielder hoped that nobody found it out.

"Good game!" Mapi said sitting next to Y/N, giving a pat on her leg.

"Thanks. But it's a win of all of us. And the second goal was thanks to a pass of yours." Y/N compliment her and their teammates.

"I couldn't resist seeing you alone." Mapi said smiling.

They talk more about the game, commenting too about their close rivals if would win or lose maybe can destabilize some positions. For luck, Barça was still unbeaten. Real Madrid was on second place and the third was between Atlético de Madrid and Real Sociedad.

"Hey..." A new voice approached them, making both to look at the new person. Y/N jaw clenched inevitably.

"Hi Ale." Mapi greeted. They come back to speak after clear out their difference in the last convocation with national team.

"Can we talk?" Alexia asked shyly to Y/N.

The young player frown, thinking. Letting out a sigh, she nodded with her head.

"I'm going." Mapi said standing up, but Y/N stop her putting a hand on her left arm.

"Stay. If you want talk, Mapi is staying here." Y/N command, still with a frown on her face.

Alexia nod and went to sit in front of them.

"I'm sorry. For everything I said." Alexia started to say, making a pause and catching air, she started talk again. "I don't have right to speak to you like that, even if I don't agree with your choice. I regret it since the same day. I-I don't tell you anything because I know you. And I understand that my words hurt you and... I'm really sorry." The catalan finish with regret voice. Y/N could see on her face that she truly felt it. Alexia's eyes were tearful, but Y/N was hurtful and she wasn't going to forgive her. At least not so easy.

"Okay." Y/N simply said. Mapi and Alexia looked at her confused.

"What? Just that?" Alexia asked with hurt.

"Yes. I don't know what you want to me say." The young player said shrugging her shoulders.

"You don't forgive me." The catalan confirm, nodding with her statement.

"Exactly." Y/N said dryly, standing up.

"I said sorry. I know it's not too much for all I said. But I don't know what I have to do." The captain said standing up too.

"You don't have to do anything. I don't ask you to do something for it." Y/N said calmly.

"I'm sorry Y/N! Please I miss you." Y/N broke a little when she saw when Alexia started crying. But Y/N was stubborn.

"I don't forgive you Alexia. You know how you make me feel? The only person I thought that never will judge me, did it! You humiliated me. And guess what? I'm get suspended for it. And wait! My teammates, safe for four people, they turned their back on me! You think that I not regret break up with her? BECAUSE BELIEVE ME, I DO IT. I DONT NEED TO BE EXPOSED IN FRONT OF ANYONE FOR IT. SO NO ALEXIA, I DON'T FUCKING FORGIVE YOU!" Y/N yelled angrily, making gestures with her hands while she spoke. Y/N's cheeks was red from her anger, her breath was irregular and tears of rage streamed down her red cheeks.

"Y/N!" Mapi exclaimed to her surprised.

Alexia shake her head towards Mapi, wiping her tears; "Don't worry Mapi. She have right, I get it. Just if you need me, I'll be here. Always." She said and gave her a lipped sad smile and went from there.

"Y/N..." Ona trailed off, coming to her side.

"Not now." Y/N said going to her bench.

•••

April 2022

The first leg of the semi-finals against Wolfsburg were to start. Y/N wasn't going starting, so she seated on the bench with her other teammates who do not starting. She saw with amazement who the first goal came early. All the bench stood up cheering. The happiness flooded for her body. The first half finish with four goals to zero. A great result. Y/N started warm up and was called in the minute 71st to enter. She was subbed for Patri.

To say that Y/N was nervous was a statement. Alexia greeted her when the midfielder pass for her side. The first time Y/N touch the ball, she gave a beautiful pass to Caro. The norwegian almost scored, the ball grazed the stick. The tall girl applause towards her, in a form of thanks. The next action that they almost score Alexia went down from a Wolfsburg's player. The referee made a signal that that was penalty.

"Take it." Alexia approach Y/N and whispered. The young player frown, confused.

"Are you sure?" Y/N ask unsure. The other nod giving her the ball.

Y/N take the ball between her hands and went to put it at the penalty spot. She take a few steps backward, she looked at the goalkeeper briefly, taking a deep breath, she waited for the referee to indicate that she could shoot.

The referee indicate it and without thinking too much, Y/N put the ball in a part where the goalkeeper couldn't stop the ball. The young player went to celebrate it with her teammates, who went towards her to celebrate. Alexia give her a loving kiss on her cheek, like a proud sister. Y/N when they separate, made a gesture to the stands where her injured teammates were. Y/N scored the fifth goal and she let herself vibrate with the public at the Camp Nou when the referee indicate the final whistle. They all stayed on the pitch. After they shake hands with their rivals, they approached the stands.

After a while there, slowly the people started to go. Y/N find Lieke talking with someone who Y/N didn't recognize, but she understood a dutch word that Lieke teach her.

"Happy birthday!" Y/N exclaimed behind the person. The tall blonde girl turned around, making Y/N blush immediately.

"You understand dutch? Also thanks." The unknown girl ask with a soft voice. Y/N looks at Lieke, who was smiling like a fool by the tall blonde side.

"I understand a few words. Lieke teach me some phrases." Y/N answers shyly, going to where Lieke is, intertwining their arms.

"Mijn naam is Jill." The blonde said in dutch, extending her right hand towards Y/N, smiling.

"Leuk om je te ontmoeten. Mijn naam is Y/N." She said with her best pronunciation, accepting Jill's hand.

"You speak it well. Lieke is a great teacher." Jill compliment. The pair let out their hands. "By the way, congratulations. You scored a great penalty." Y/N blushed more, she heard Lieke snort to her side.

"Thanks. You scored a great goal too." Y/N compliment back shyly, putting her head on Lieke's shoulder. She saw how Jill leaned her head to a side and gave her a cute gesture with her face.

"Ze is schattig." The blonde said in dutch looking at Lieke. Y/N furrow her eyebrows, a little confused. She didn't understand that.

"She is." Lieke simply said, smiling big. Soon Patri, Jenni and Leila came towards them. The striker had the great idea of take Y/N on her shoulder, making the young scream surprised, and went running carefully to the locker room, with the other two running laughing with Jenni.

"Oh my god, Jenni! Stop." Y/N demand in vain. She heard like Jenni hummed a no while they enter at the site. "Alexia!! Help me, please. The big baby ignores me." Y/N complain to her friend, pouting.

"Wait." Y/N heard Alexia say. A few seconds later she heard the sound of someone making a photo, Y/N rolled her eyes. "Jenni put her down, please. You can take Aitana, she is more short than Y/N." The brunette suggest tentatively, something that help because the older put her down. Jenni gave her a sound kiss on her cheek and went to search Aitana, who scream when the striker pick her.

"PUT ME DOWN!" Aitana demand mad. She saw Aitana kick repeatedly unsuccessfully. She saw too how Alexia take another photo, making Y/N snort to her side.

"What? I want memories from today." Alexia said frowning adorably. Y/N didn't said anything more and giving Alexia a kiss on her cheek, Y/N went towards Sandra, Irene, Pere and Claudia were. But someone had others plans. She see how Lieke grab her arm and take her to another more empty spot.

"What are you doing?" Y/N said laughing confused.

"You like her?" Lieke ask. Y/N frown.

"Who?" The dutch rolled her eyes.

"Jill. I saw how you blush just seeing her." Lieke said while she moved her eyebrows suggestively. Just heard the name, Y/N blushed again.

"N-No. I m-mean, it's the first time I saw her. Why would like her?" Y/N stammer nervous, but she was telling the truth.

"You don't see her before of this match? Also don't like like, but are you physically attracted to her?" Lieke tried to be specific.

"Maybe I coincide with her, but I never put attention. And about the other thing... She is pretty. Why you ask?" Y/N said honestly. Lieke smiled mysteriously.

"For nothing." She answers, clearly Y/N didn't buy it. The young player raised an eyebrow. "I just discovered that I have a mission to do." Then she went to another part laughing.

"Wait, what? What are going to do?" Y/N asked.

***

Lieke didn't take long with her plan. She need some help and decided talk about it with no other than Alexia. The dutch knew that it would take a few days to convince the catalan, knowing Y/N is a soft spot to her and she wasn't going to give in so easily. Lieke just spoke once Alexia agreed. At first Alexia said no, Lieke asked why and the answer not surprised her. Jill have some fame.

"I promise you she isn't like the people said. I meet her, Ale. And you know that Y/N is a soft spot for me too. I don't put her with anyone." Lieke reasoned with her teammate. Alexia sigh.

"Okay. I trust you. But are you sure Y/N have a crush on her?" The captain ask, frowning.

"Yes. Before I tell you this I made sure. And in the last encounters I confirm it." Alexia sigh again.

"I will help you. But what about Jill? Because I don't want make her illusion for nothing." Alexia ask intrigued.

"Let me Jill to myself. I tell you to the final of this summer, this two will be together." Lieke said confidently.

***

June 2022

Y/N never used Instagram too much. But recently she had been using it. She just follow all her teammates from club and national team. But since May, she pass hours in a profile that she didn't follow. Y/N admits it after the second leg that she for the first time, a developed a crush.

She carefully made sure to not give likes. It would be embarrassing, and more if she didn't follow her. She does it less due to the training sessions with the national team for the upcoming euro. But when she have some free time, inevitably she need see almost a photo of her. The blonde make her calm and nervous at the same time.

But a normal day, on her normal routine. A new notification from the bored app, appears on her screen. Y/N frown, she usually wasn't have many notifications from Instagram. She was with a few of her teammates sitting while they make time for dinner. Y/N unblock her phone and went towards the app and tap in the notification. She almost pass out when she saw what is was.

Jill Roord started follow you.

She noticed all the blood going to her cheeks. Damn she even start to sweat. Y/N needed talk with someone. And she knew who. So standing up fastly, making the others look at her weirdly, get out from there. Y/N search the room and when she found it, started she knocking on the door.

"What?" Alexia opened the door sleepy. She open the door more and went to her bed again. Y/N enters the bedroom and closed the door and went to sit where Alexia lie down.

"I have a crush on Jill Roord." Y/N said shyly. This made Alexia open her eyes surprised. The catalan sat up in bed.

"What?" She asked again, this time more awake. Y/N unblock her phone and showed her something. Alexia take Y/N's phone and saw what it was. It was a notification saying that said girl started to follow her. The brunette bit the inside of her cheek. "You like her?" Alexia asked softly, looking at her carefully.

"Yes. I mean, she is pretty and when we talked she was super nice. Damn it, I had an interaction with her and she trapped me." Y/N mumbled the last part.

"You spoke with her?" Alexia ask playing like she didn't know anything and just find out.

"We spoke in the first semifinal. I saw Lieke talk with someone and just I heard her say her happy birthday in dutch. I wish her happy birthday, she asked me if I'm knew her language I said no then she congratulated me for the goal I said the same. Later she said something in dutch that I don't understood and then Jenni came and put me on her shoulder." Y/N resume briefly all the interaction. Alexia raised an eyebrow, smiling.

"You remember everything. What was the word?" The older player ask curious. Y/N shrugged her shoulders, letting her know that she didn't knew the meaning. Then started laugh when she made memory and saw how Y/N looked at her confused. "It's funny that Jenni apart from your crush that day. You know how many times I stopped her from trying get you a date?"

Y/N blinked a few times. "Wait, what? She tried that I get a date?" She asked incredulous.

"Yes. She even tried match you with Nerea, but then she discovered that Nerea had girlfriend. She get disappointed." Alexia explain laughing softly when she saw Y/N's reaction.

"Why I never entered about it?"

"Because I never let her told you anything about it. You look good on your own bubble." Alexia said, but worried when she saw how Y/N gaze fell to the ground, looking sad. "Hey, what's wrong?"

"Am I weird?" Y/N asked sad. Alexia frown.

"You are a good person. I don't care if you are weird or not. Okay? Why you ask?" The catalan said seriously.

"I never dated someone... I don't know, I just..." Y/N trailed off.

"Look at me." Alexia said, grabbing Y/N's face between her hands. "You don't dated anyone... And what about it? To me I don't care if you do or don't. And if you like Jill now, it's okay. But you don't have to worry about it, because you are weird, don't means it's bad." Alexia said slowly and clear.

"You are the best." Y/N said starting to smile.

***

The national team fly to England two weeks before the tournament starts. The city where they were staying since they arrived there hasn't been a sunny day.

Alexia helped deal Y/N with her new and first crush. She advised Y/N on some things. Like for example, what to do. Alexia knew that Y/N wasn't going to do anything because she was insecure and shy. So since Jill started follow Y/N on Instagram, Alexia advised that Y/N would start follow back a few hours later, just not right away. Then if Jill upload a photo, Y/N would give her a like. Just little steps, but always on Y/N's way.

But days passed and Jill didn't upload a photo. Alexia saw how Y/N get disappointed at the time so she suggested that maybe Y/N should upload a photo. And she did that. Y/N upload a photo that Patri take in their first day off on England. It was one where Y/N was caught off guard when Patri take it. But there was something in that photo, Y/N's eyes were too bright, a simple photo that say too much. Or that what say Patri.

"I don't know Ale... I like it, but..." Y/N trailed off, but Alexia curt her.

"You look beautiful. Don't though too much, okay?" The catalan said while she sit down to Y/N side.

"Okay." Y/N press the icon to upload the photo. She put a brief description; someone capture something here. Then she tagged Patri on the photo. Y/N let her phone with a nervous sigh. "Well that's it." She said looking at Alexia. They both are in their shared bedroom.

"Now we wait." The brunette said while she grab her phone and enter to the app. She wasn't the first to give her a like, because people gave some before her. It happen when you are a known person.

When Y/N looked the app that night before she went to sleep, she read the names who gave her likes and her heartbeat accelerates when she read her name. She went to sleep with a big smile on her face.

***

"Are you sure you don't want to come?" Alexia ask while Y/N was grabbing her stuff to go to somewhere that day. "You knew that they love you." The brunette added.

"I know you idiot. But I told you like to the others that I don't want to intrude. I want you have alone time with your family." Y/N said. Today was day off and their families fly to visit them. Well, not all of them can, like Y/N's family. She gonna lie, she was sad, but her parents promise her that they will be on her first game. That make her happy.

Alexia let out a sigh; "Okay, I'm going. If you change you mind, you know what to do." Then the catalan deposited a kiss on her head since Y/N was sat on her bed and went a last gesture of her hand, get out from the bedroom.

Was Y/N's turn to sigh. She was accustomed to it, her parents were always busy with work. She shake her head and grabbing her bag, she get out from there. She went not too far from there, she doesn't know very well the city and don't risk in case she get lose. Y/N sit down under a tree near of a park next to the hotel and grabbing her book, she started read it. She let herself dive through the pages of the book.

"Schattig!" Someone exclaimed in front of her. Y/N look up and she can't believe the person she was seeing.

"Hi!" Y/N greeted Jill, who was smiling to her. Y/N saw that the blonde was wearing training clothes.

"Are you staying here?" Jill ask pointing with a finger the hotel. Y/N nodded shyly. "That's cool. I knew there is another team, but I don't exactly know what team." Jill explained, giving her a smile.

"I just found out that there is another team." Y/N said blushing, giggling nervously.

"Can I?" The blonde asked while pointing next to Y/N. The spanish girl nodded, watching her sit next to Y/N. She started read again when Jill with a move of her head pointed the book. They are in silence for a good portion of time. "I'm assuming you are on your day off." Jill asked when Y/N closed the book.

"Yes. I am." Y/N confirm.

"I had it yesterday. It was a relief when I saw my family." Jill mumbled. She turned to look at her when she saw Y/N's face. "Oh shit! I said something wrong?" She asked fearful.

"No, don't worry." Y/N answered reassuringly.

"You are here alone. So I'm guessing your family couldn't come here." Jill guessed.

"Hm. The habitual." Y/N muttered to herself. But the dutch blonde heard her. She put her right hand on Y/N's left leg and gave a soft squeeze.

"Do you want to go walk?" Jill ask. Y/N nodded slowly, assimilating the gesture that Jill just made. They both stood up and started walk towards the park.

They talk about the upcoming tournament. Making a bet on who would win it. Y/N choose Germany and Jill choose Spain. Y/N laugh softly to this. Then without they noted it, they started talk about some personal things. It made Y/N felt better when she expressed how she felt with her family. Jill listened without talk, letting Y/N vent about it.

"Well. They lost it. You are her only child and they don't showed any interest? I'm sorry because I'm barely know you. But they are the worst." Jill said mad. She heard the pain in Y/N's voice and it's true that she barely know her. But no one deserves that treatment. And less from their parents.

"Alexia said the same thing." Y/N said chuckling.

"Good. Because I'm sorry but its the truth." Jill said shyly. They arrived to the hotel.

"Thank you for your lovely company this evening." Y/N said with trust, smiling.

"Well. It's all my pleasure." Jill said while she scratched her neck. "If you want repeat, sit down on that tree and I will come to your rescue."

Jill accompanied her to her room. They said goodbye with a short hug. Well Jill hug her, making Y/N does the same.

"See you. I'll hope before you first game." The blonde said walking to the elevator. Y/N waving goodbye with her hand. She enter on her room with a dreamily gaze and a big smile.

"It was time. You know how use a phone? Because... Why are you smiling like that?" Alexia started to scold her but stopped when she saw Y/N's face.

"For once I am happy that my parents couldn't come." The young player said, letting her stuff on her bed while Y/N went towards Alexia's bed and sit down. The catalan looks at her curious. "You know that tree next to the park?" Y/N ask, when she saw Alexia nod, she continued. "Well I went there to relax and read when I heard someone said the same word I head a few months ago and I don't knew the meaning. It's was Jill, Ale. She approached and decided sit with me." Y/N finish while she lie down putting her head on Alexia's lap.

"She approached you? And what happened next?" Alexia asked, passing her fingers for Y/N's hair. She likes how relaxed and happy Y/N is right now, not like when she get out from there letting out a sad girl because her family is so selfish that their jobs were ahead of their daughter.

"She came and asked if she could sit next to me. Then she sit down and with a gesture of her head indícate me that I continued with my reading. So after a while in silence, we start to talk and decided to walk... And we spoke about which team could win and about more personal things." Y/N resume everything to her friend. "By the way, she agreed with you that my parents are the worst." She said it and gave Alexia a lipped smile.

"I think every person that knew your situation would agree with me. You are the only one who maintain hope and if I don't agreed with you, I understand." Alexia sigh. "Why you talk about them?" She ask more softly.

"She comments that yesterday she has the day off and her family came to visit her. And... It happened." Y/N answered. Alexia nodded with her head, making an idea.

"We have to go to dinner." The catalan informed. She saw how Y/N stood up and said that she needed go to the bathroom quickly. Alexia take opportunity of it and send a text to Lieke.

these two are going to date this summer.

•••

Y/N wipe a tear smiling while she watch for umpteenth time that week a fan video about her and Jill. They never made their relationship public, but never hide it. They don't feel that necessity to made it official. While sha was watching it, inevitably came to her mind memories from when they first meet.

A slam scared Y/N, who was in the locker room alone and like they have a little break Y/N decided go there and watch videos. She stood up but without seeing it, something was directed towards her face, mostly to her right eye.

Y/N let out a painful grunt, putting her hands on her face while she slid down the wall she was leaning on before.

When Alexia heard someone whimper her blood froze. She went immediately to where she heard it and saw Y/N there. Alexia start to panic and cry.

"I'm s-sorry Y/N... W-what are you doing h-here? Let me see it, please." Alexia carefully removed Y/N's hand and her breath choke on her throat. Thankfully the catalan didn't hit her on her eyes because Alexia never will forgive her.

Alexia in an angry outburst she had thrown away the football shoes. And for bad luck to Y/N, a cleats had hit her in her eyebrow.

"I'm really sorry. I'm a-angry for the bad t-training I h-had and... I don't know that you a-are here." Alexia apologies nonstop, cleaning the blood on her eyebrow with the jumper Alexia take off.

"It's okay Alexia. Help me to stand up please." Y/N said with a hiss when Alexia tried clean it.

"Ok-kay." The catalan stood up first and help Y/N slowly to stand up. Once they are face to face, Y/N felt bad watching Alexia cry and practically broke in front of her. She never saw her like that. Y/N were to speak when people started to enter the locker room.

"Oh my god! What happened to her?" Laia Aleixandri asked worried, going to where the pair were.

"I'm hit her w-with my cleats football." Alexia answer weakly.

"Laia could you go and call the medic team, please?" Y/N ask kindly, hoping that the young player catch that she wants to talk with Alexia in privately. Laia nodded and kicking out the others, closed the door.

"Ale..." Y/N put her hands on Alexia's cheeks, wiping her tears.

"It's a long time that you called me like that." The catalan said smiling sadly.

"We don't have many time. So I say it. I forgive you okay? Don't think more about it. I miss you too." Y/N said, kissing her wet cheek and hugging her. This made Alexia released cry more, tightening her grip on Y/N's waist.

And like that the medic team came.

•••

Y/N needed stitches on her right eyebrow and repose, so she fell off from the call from her national team, abandoning it.

She reassured Alexia that it not her fault and they will talk more calmly when she come back to Barcelona. Y/N saw the friendly against the Netherlands and maybe is for that that Y/N was more susceptible that last week.

For Y/N surprise, she saw how Jill foul Alexia a little with aggressiveness and then when they was standing up, Jill cornered and whispered something. Something very understandable.

Stay away from her.

Then Lieke came and push her away with Viv and some of Y/N's teammates to another part. The referee give her a yellow card.

Jill found out about what Alexia did to Y/N unintentionally. Y/N's heartbeat accelerates knowing that the blonde still care about her, even if it's just a little. She grab her phone and went to Jill's number. Since a few weeks Y/N had in mind unblock her number, she didn't know why blocked in first place. So with nervousness she unblock it and blocked her phone quickly, with her cheeks red.

A few days later, when the convocation finish and her teammates come to their clubs, Alexia and Y/N talk long and wide. Alexia not letting out Y/N's hand between herself.

"Why Jill told you that?" Y/N after a silence, curiosity taking the best of her.

Alexia bite her lower lip.

"Lieke called me when she saw that you were replaced by another player. I told her everything what happened and I think Jill was with her and heard everything." Alexia explained calmly, playing with Y/N's fingers.

•••

December 13th came and with that day, Y/N's birthday. All her teammates wished her a happy birthday when she arrived to the locker room.

The half of the team who let her off after the discussion with Alexia, asked her if she forgive them. They all apologies sincerely and Y/N accept them. She apologies too for her mood in the preseason. But there's one person that still didn't spoke to her and Y/N talk to her even when she knew that she barely with had respond. It's was Viv. The young blonde had her reasons and Y/N understood very clear. She hurt Viv's best friend after all.

That day went with a lot of people wishing her happy birthday. Even after training, Mapi organized a short party on her apartment. They all sang to her the famous song and give her gifts. Y/N knew that Alexia still felt bad for everything that happened and gift her two tickets to go to Warner Bros Studios to see everything related with Harry Potter. Y/N cried excited while she repeat that Alexia didn't to have that. The catalan repeating that she would does it again if she can saw her happy.

After dance and sing with them, Y/N went to the balcony, letting the cold air embrace her features.

"Can we talk?" Ingrid's voice startled Y/N, making her jump on the spot. "Sorry, I don't pretend to scare you." She said, chuckling softly.

"Yes. Something happen?" Y/N ask, biting the inside of her cheek, nervous.

"I dated Jill. And she was the most caring person, after Mapi, that I met. I say it because I appreciate you and I think you deserve hear it. I could understand how you found it after a year of relationship with her and your reaction about it. But that was past. And she was with you and I'm with Mapi. I saw how she looks you, Y/N. She will does everything for you, just like you for her. I don't understand why you broke with her and it infuriating me. Because if I'm the reason, you are a fool. With all my respect. So... Let your proud to a side and talk with her, I think she deserve that." Ingrid said all that with the most sincere and affection towards Y/N.

The young spanish eyes were tearful hearing all that truth words. She looked at Ingrid and pounced on her, hugging her.

"You have right and... I'm sorry. I never told you it and you deserve it. You had by my side this months, always with a smile on your face towards me when I don't deserve it. I injured you but I promise you it was unintentionally." Y/N said all that fastly.

Ingrid let out a soft laugh; "I know that you don't it on purpose. And I appreciate your apology and I forgive you." The tall girl hug Y/N's shoulders.

•••

Once the party was over and all them on theirs house. Y/N decided upload a photo thanking all of them. She checked all the story where she was tagged from her teammates and some from another people. She did something she hadn't done in a long time. Check her private chat. And for her surprise, all of the messages from people who had spoken to her, there was one that stood out, the icon only mentioned the number of messages, two.

Y/N press the chat with nervousness and find out a large text from Jill. The first was simple and short.

Happy birthday Y/N!

I'm sorry but I needed told you it. I fucking miss you and I know how we broke up... But I do it and I'm sure you miss me too. The point is... It angry me that the big reason that you decided break up was for Ingrid and then you hang out with her. I know that I don't have right to tell you this, because you can do whatever you want. But it mad me. Just... I hope you the best and hoped you had a good day. ❤️💙

Y/N broke when she saw the two colored hearts. It was something that she did just because represent the colours from her club and for teased Jill, she send it. Y/N decided answer back, but in another app.

She pressed her chat and started type.

Thanks, Jill. You have right to be mad. Today, Ingrid approached me. We hang out before but was mainly for Mapi. We never spoken, almost not for my part. You want to know what she told me? Well, basically she call me fool. And she have right. I'm a fool because I called you a word that you don't are. You are the perfect person I have had the pleasure of knowing. And regret every day that fucking I wanted to break up with you. I love you Jill and I hope we could speak in person this weekend when I went play against Real Madrid. ❤️💙

•••

The first draw against Real Madrid and Barcelona happen. 2-2.

Goals from Alexia and Y/N and from Jill and Athenea.

It's was the first time Y/N and Jill coincided since their break up. Y/N felt really nervous and shy. And more knowing that they will speak after the match. Jill agreed when Y/N send the text.

Y/N waited in the tunnel after shake hands with the rivals, spoking with some of them.

"Schattig." Jill greeted when she walk next to Y/N.

The blaugrana player smile with nostalgia. "Hi." She greeted back. Jill hug her, surprising Y/N.

"How are you?" The blonde ask softly.

"I'm better. You?" Y/N answered with honest.

"Same." They look each other with wishfully and love. Jill grab Y/N's left hand.

"You have another scar." Jill point out.

"Yeah. This one is more short." Y/N said with a snort.

"I don't like how you made it. Well, mostly who made it." The dutch mumbled madly, playing with Y/N's fingers distractedly.

"Hey... Alexia haven't any fault. If you need blame someone then it will be me." Y/N said. She saw how her features turn into one of confusion. "She thought no one was there. But I was." She said without enter in details.

Jill raised a hand to Y/N's new scar and traced it carefully with her fingertips.

"You are still beautiful." The blonde mumbled, her breath bumping into her face.

Y/N looks at her with adoration. She saw how Jill put her forehead against hers. Y/N bite her lower lip.

"Y/N... We can't break up for that stupidity. It hurt me lost you for such a foolish thing. I know actually you don't think that I'm a fuckboi. But you was scared and started to read things that aren't true, it's like all came a once and you stressed out. Just give me an opportunity Y/N and I show you that you are the only one I want. You are my person."

Y/N was speechless. She stared in awe and putting her arms on Jill's neck and like the blonde is a little more tall than Y/N, she stood on tiptoe and pressed their lips together. At first was just a brush, but it soon intensified. Jill wrapped her arms around Y/N's waist and drew Y/N to her.

They separated for air.

"I miss you and I really sorry called you that. You are a sunshine of person and... I can't judge for your past and I don't care if it was true or not. I care how you treat me. So... Forgive me?" Y/N whispered slowly.

Jill pass her nose against hers and ran her tongue over her lips.

"I forgive you, my love." Jill began to distribute kisses on Y/N's cheeks, stopping at the scar, placing small kisses there. They heard noises behind them, making the pair look at that direction. They saw how all their teammates were there, a mix of blue, red and white.

"So... You are finally back?" Lieke asked hopeful, next to her was Alexia, smiling shyly.

They turned to look at each other again.

"Yes, we are." Jill answers for both.

The two teams erupted in applause and cheers.

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