#i just had to get this off of my chest

[wildskissed]

OPEN

Eve likes to pretend that not a lot rattles her, but it's clear in the way her translucently green skin becomes even more green, that something has spooked her. The warm glow she usually dawns, and that smile that alights her cheeks, is gone now, and only fear crosses her irises as she stands by the vendor. Her hand grasps tightly around the pendant she was looking to purchase, and for a moment, it's clear that she's holding her breath.

Her grip becomes tighter as grey eyes bore into her own, and then he's gone, slipped back into the crowd like he was never even there to begin with, as her knuckles grow white around the item. She can't hear anything, just a loud hum of the noises around her all becoming one as she feels a painful tightening in her chest, making it hard to breathe even if she could, so if her companion is talking to her, she's none the wiser in the moment. It's not until she feels the blood trickle from her palm that she is brought back to it, grossly overpaying for the now ruined pendant as her legs begin to lead her anywhere but here.

There's a gasp and then a terrified keen that escapes her throat as she wraps her free hand around her own throat and tears cloud her vision, a lump forming in her throat making it hard to swallow. 'Not here...not here.' The mantra repeats over and over as she shakes her head, not stopping until she's out of the city and closer to camp. Eve knows she isn't going to make it though, and manages to find a tree, pressing her back against it and sliding down to sit on the ground, drawing her knees to her chest and burying her face in them to try to hide the sobs she couldn't hold back now even if she tried.

"Please don't be here, please don't be here..." she hears herself say.

Suddenly her whole body aches and she knows the tadpole is projecting images of the way he was smiling when his claws tried to rip out her throat. That sinister way he tried to make her still feel loved even when he was trying to snuff every bit of life out of her. The worst part being that she doesn't want the other's pity--she doesn't want anyone to know. If he's truly here though, in Baldur's Gate, then what was it all for? He was supposed to be dead.

#indie rp #bg3 rp #baldurs gate 3 rp #dnd rp #fantasy rp #horror rp #i apparently wanted to hurt her tonight is all... #forgive me #have a breakdown #violence tw #violence cw #blood tw #blood cw #╰•★ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ʙᴀᴄᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ɴᴇᴇᴅ★ [open starter] #don't feel a need to match the length either #i just had to get this off of my chest

[crybaby-bkg]

omg I’ve been reading this published book for like a few months now and it’s been taking me so long to get through it bc the smut wasn’t all that for an erotica book and the storyline was MEH mainly bc it’s one of those ‘fucking my boss’ stories. but I read it bc it was something different about the whole arrangement and I liked the banter but not enough to really have the drive to finish it you know????

bitch. I finally get 70% in the book and why the fuck did it get so good????? like I’m in here SWEATING I got so mad at what’s happening (in a good way bc of bomb storytelling) like omg. I’m at a loss for words. I wanna jump in this book and beat ass so bad like hello????

#I planned on writing some tonight and reading fics #but bitch I wanna finish this shit now??/&:):&;$;&; #okay bye I’m gonna read some more lmfao #—in store chit chat! 🍫 #I just had to get this off of my chest

[itistimetodisappear]

Yes we've all heard aroace people complain about the 'you haven't met the right person' line. But to the idiots citing this as the reason aroace people 'aren't oppressed’: No, micro aggressions aren't what's oppressing us.

I could talk about corrective rape, but I'm not going to because that's not what scares me the most. The worst thing about being aroace (aromantic, and asexual to a certain extent) is that society is set up for couples.

Being aromantic is a crushing economic disadvantage. As a couple, you can save more. As a legal couple, you can borrow more. This puts Mortgages out of reach for a lot of aromantics. Adopting too. Although aro people can adopt, you must have a similar income to a couple, which again, rules out a lot of aros. Don't forget Immigration, spousal visas will never be an option for us.

Being poor and aro means you're denied housing, family, international movement, basically anything that allos of a similar income would get. And anything you can get, you'll have to jump through many more hoops for. But we can't fix this by legalising aro marriage, like we did for the gays. Until our society's economic system is completely revolutionised, we'll be waiting.

It's impossible to compare oppression. You can't objectively say which minority group has it worse and I really mean that. But also I'd rather be called slurs and hated by Christians all fucking day.

#sorry about all the aroace stuff recently its just theres been dicourse in my notes and i want to get stuff off of my chest #aroace #asexual #aromantic #i had to work my ass off all my life #to get a job that pays two peoples income #becuase theres literally no other option for me

[benaturalandautomatic]

honestly, it always baffles me how everytime we hear about someone doing the most depraved and inhumane things imaginable, that person is somehow always a man......... like when we hear about someone that uploads videos of animals being brutally tortured, it's always a man. or when we hear about someone who was arrested for having 2 terabytes of child pornography, it's always a man. or when we hear about someone who murdered a random woman that they know nothing about, it's ALWAYS a man, but that's not the part that baffles me, the thing that i'm confused about is how people continue to insist that men aren't the problem. like do u honestly think it's a coincidence that all of these horrible crimes are mostly committed by men?? even if u believe that it's not all men, u have to ask yourself why it's ALWAYS a man. at this point it's just denial. why are people ignoring something so obvious just because they're afraid of offending males?? even 10 year old boys are becoming rapists and it just doesn't make sense to act like it's a problem with humanity when it's really a problem with men.

#lots of words were written in this post but i've been thinking about this for the longest time and i just had to get it off my chest.... 😇

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

i'm not trying to start anything, but i just saw a post criticizing misha collins for not choosing to quit spn when the network was homophobic and he was "profiting from homophobia" and i just think it's kind of... wild? that young people think that a person could just. decide to not work for a prejudiced corporation when they have a family to provide for?

i don't know, i don't even really want to debate or go into it more, but it's just kind of surreal to see opinions from people who weren't there in 2013 when misha collins was literally the only person willing to support not just destiel shippers but actual queer and trans and ace fans. i have no doubt that he saved lives through the care he showed to vulnerable young people who desperately needed to see someone give a damn about them. he's significantly flawed in many ways, but he will always be a saint in my eyes for how much he cared.

like i just don't think that people accustomed to this modern era where hardly anyone blinks over two men kissing on tv can understand what it was like when we were mocked and silenced, when we weren't allowed to breathe the word 'destiel' without getting booed, and misha was the only damn person who spoke up for us. the only one. who was probably risking his job in saying the things he did.

things have changed. that's wonderful. don't judge people surviving previous eras by the standards of today.

#i'm just. i'm kind of bewildered #misha doesn't get to call himself an ally because he kept working for the homophobic network do you fucking hear yourself #tell me what network WASN'T homophobic in 2012 please tell me #he was not some super wealthy actor who could pick and choose who he worked for however he liked #he had kids to feed #good lord #wank for ts #spn #feel free to ignore this i just had to get it off my chest

[ohcaptains]

JJ has a girlfriend that’s got expensive taste. and it’s not even as if you’re rich or anything. you just have a part time job that allows you to buy shit. sprays, lotions, oils, scrubs, perfumes…you always smell good and feel soft.

JJ got a look at your bathroom and thought he’d walked into a bath and body works. stood there for literally half an hour, just going through all your stuff. opening bottles and sniffing them. even put a little on himself and rubbed it in. made a face as if, yeah, that shit is nice.

came out smelling like lavender and sea salt.

when he walks back to your room, you look up from your phone and make a face. “there you are, thought you’d fallen in.”

JJ just gets back into bed with you, and burrows his face in your neck, looking at whatever you’re scrolling through. it’s a few seconds later that you lean back to look at him.

“did you?” you start, before frowning and sniffing his head.

“did you use my hair spray?”

JJ frowns, “…no.”

“then why do you smell like spring on the sea front?”

“is that what it’s called?”

you hit his arm, “jay that shit cost me $30!”

“what!” he exclaims. “for that tiny bottle?” he shakes his head and goes back to laying on you. “you shoulda told me you wanted that, babe, i’d have just robbed it for you.”

#just something i had to get off my chest #that boy deffo saves his money up to buy u a fancy dinner i’m #jj maybank #outer banks #outer banks imagine #jj maybank x reader #jj maybank x you #jj maybank imagine #jj maybank x y/n #jj maybank prompt #jj maybank drabble

[demilypyro]

The fact is that most “crossdressing boy” mangas we have nowadays can trace their lineage back to Stop Hibari-Kun (1982) which carried the same general premise of the male lead being confused by an amab love interest who dresses as a woman, but critically also had the context of Hibari explicitly being a trans woman who hid this fact from her peers. This gave her a real, grounded reason to be the way she is.

Without the love interest being trans, the modern crossdressing boy trope just functions entirely on make-belief scenarios of a guy just randomly deciding to come to school as a girl one day while skirting around the obvious trans implications with little more than a “nuh-uh he’s still male because I said so”, and once you recognize that’s what’s going on it becomes hard to see most crossdressing boys in media as little more than a kind of tourist version of attraction to trans women, letting cis readers live out a fantasy of trans sexuality without ever having to engage with the reality of the problems real trans people face. We saw this in action recently with the confirmation that Bridget from Guilty Gear is canonically a transgender woman: a lot of people were outraged at the idea of not being able to have sexual fantasies about her without acknowledging that she was transgender.

#just had to get that off my chest #anyway i should start my stream

[rosenkranz-isnt-dead]

they return just when you least expect them: txf + text posts

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#pardon the long post i just had to get this off my chest #you know how it is #the x files #msr #txf text posts

[vangh17a]

I feel like this mc server is ruining us

especially when the person you thought you could trust

couldn't resist the urge to knock you off a cliff

/lhj /aff

I'm gonna get you back one of these days @centerofleesmind

#standalone comics #minecraft skadoodles #I gave up halfway through on the backgrounds but #the vibes are still there asldf #rottmnt #minecraft #save rise of the tmnt #I promise the next wanderer update is coming soon #I just had to get this off my chest #rottmnt leo #rottmnt donnie #my art

[the-bad-batch-baroness]

Crying, screaming, and throwing up over baby clones that got abandoned by their brothers 😭

#IT MAKES ME SO SAD #all of those cadets killed... and for what??? #there was a lot of sad stuff to unpack but THAT was the breaking point for me #they may be clones but they’re still CHILDREN #will the cruelty ever end? #*sigh* #😮‍💨 #i just had to get that off my chest #tbbb speaks #tbbb rants #the bad batch #bad batch #tbb #tbb season 3 #tbb spoilers #tbb stak #tbb deke #tbb mox #clone cadets

[leenfiend]

everyone saying lance is son of poseidon, son of aphrodite, son of appollo.... i hate to say it but you're all wrong. the answer has been right in front of us all along.

Lance is a son of Hermes and I will stand my ground firmly on this one. He's drowned out by his big family, never really the Most Important or The Most Interesting in any team, he's self conscious about not having a Thing, that's like, his whole character arc (assuming vld actually continued his character arc hehe). Kids of Hermes are quick-witted, funny, charming, jack of all trades types. Those (IN MY OPINION) are the defining traits for Lance. PLUSSS like I said, his whole character arc is being the guy who is just kind of good at everything but not GREAT (which obviously is also his greatest strength), he's worried about being forgettable and useless. There's literally no way he could be a child of the big three and still have that self conciousness that is so core to his character. He'd have no need to show off and prove he's cool and important because being a kid of the big three means you're the Main Character by default.

Anywayyy thanks for reading my essay I love thinking about Lance <3

#me and nicole MAY be doing pjo au things in the future but i had to get this off my chest. #i saw one too many son of poseidon headcanons and it just doesn't sit right with me but i respect u all #vld #lance mcclain

[science-lings]

okay this has been going through my mind for days and I have to get my thoughts out before I explode

Disclaimer, this is not talking about a specific artist/person and would never condone or participate in anon hate or online bullying for any reason but especially this one. 

I get why people are mad about Link being portrayed as this buff, hypermasculine, tall guy. I am too (again don’t fucking attack people over it though) and it seems like such an infuriating way to change the character just to fit into some ideal of hypermasculine attractiveness or to make a ship fall into a more hetero lense by making him a decent foot taller than whatever girl he’s being paired with. 

The world of video games and action movies and every form of media ever is extremely saturated with male characters that are swole and manly and whatever other descriptors people are trying to push onto Link that don’t fit into his actual character. There are so many characters out there that already fit this male standard and having a clearly androgynous elf guy was like a breath of fresh air. 

Link was literally designed to be a character whose lines on gender were blurred, ‘a girl with a masculine touch or a guy with a feminine touch’ so that anyone could project themselves onto him. His physical design in botw/totk was specifically made to be feminine enough to wear a certain outfit to pass as a woman (which includes a nearly mandatory cutscene where he puts on the clothes and blushes after being called pretty, like you have to be blind to think that its an experience that he doesn’t like at all) and in totk there are a bunch of outfits made for Link that are blatantly gnc, ones that are practically dresses, include nail polish and lipstick, you can even dye his hair bright and vivid colors and that’s half way to giving him new pronouns. The whole reason Linkle isn’t included in more mainline loz games was because her existence would force Link into a gender dichotomy, if there's a clearly female version of the main hero, that means the main hero has to be a man, and they would rather abandon a potential reoccurring character than make Link conform to a gender binary. 

So pardon me when it feels disingenuous and even malicious for him to be morphed into these clear masculine ideals, where he towers over any female romantic partner (even when in canon he is regularly depicted as noticeably shorter than her) or even in m/m fanworks he’s really beefed up, perhaps to make the scene feel more gay or something. 

Perhaps it’s because his more twink-y/ femboy body type is so heavily sexualized (though obviously when people are sculping abs on him it’s totally not because they’re horny about it) and that’s an issue in itself that bothers me. But it’s just so tiring to see one of the very few popular main characters who is short and feminine and androgynous be molded into just another bland muscle-headed action hero over and over and over again. 

I’m not mad at the creators for portraying him differently than how I like him portrayed, I’m mad because we really do get so few characters like him in good popular media, and to be honest, I really like him the way that he is. I love that he’s tiny and has long hair and has the option to dress any way the player likes. It seems a little distasteful to make him taller than a female love interest just because that’s how straight couples have to be, there’s just never been a real straight couple where the guy is shorter than the girl, that’s just Impossible! (/s) 

#i doubt anyone read this all i just needed to get it off my chest and this felt like the best place to do it #again i don't think it's a reason to bully or even just say mean things to people over their portrayal of link #but i get why it's so frustrating to people #like... link is lowkey a hero for trans guys who aren't tall and aren't ending up as masculine as they had hoped #but he's still exceptionally capable and he's still there to be an image for people who see themselves in him #idk this is just a rant #rant #zelink #loz #botw #totk

[itskindnessinfinite]

the recency bias in the f1 community is insane actually

#this is mostly regaring the comments i’ve seen about how ferrari are going to regret signing lewis over carlos for next year #like have people just forgotten everything lewis has achieved in his career??? #even last year! he came in third in the driver standings! #like #how can people compare carlos and lewis now and think that it’s a compelling argument #??? #the ferrari is literally the second fastest car!!!!! #but no just cause he has had trouble with his car in the last 3 gps he’s ’washed’ #let’s just disregard the fact that the merc is a tractor in disguise right now i guess….. #please be so fucking for real right now #formula 1 #f1 #lewis hamilton #this is not me being anti carlos btw. carlos is undeniably an amazing driver and i hope he gets a good seat next year #but please. we’re only 3 races into this season #we still have a long way to go #just chill #anyway #just had to get this off my chest

[poisonpercy]

“The changes are what Rick wanted so if you don’t like it, it’s on you.” This is literally a reply on a comment that I left on a tiktok that was explaining what someone did and didn’t like about the latest pjo episode 🙄 Rick can’t even remember what happens in his own books and has been butchering his own characters since the creation of heroes of olympus, that’s not the comeback you think it is. When a show is marketed as a faithful adaptation when it is more accurately a rewrite, people have a right to criticize the show. You aren’t getting a gold medal for liking the show in its entirety. Get off your high horse and let people discuss the show

#literally all i said was that the show was more of a rewrite than an adaptation #and that that’s disappointing #i didn’t even say i didn’t like the show 💀 #rr’s dick riders need to get a grip #i just had to get this off my chest. sorry for the rant lmao #skys post

[carouselunique]

Last post about it we’ll be back to art once I’m recovered from being sick (possibly with a comical bit of art about my woes as I try to get my Twitter back…)

I’m so sorry Mr. Schneider, I should have phrased my ire about your evils in a more family friendly way since apparently I should have known you’d search your own name. Allow me to try and remedy that here:

Dan Schneider when I catch you, by any means necessary I will… sit you down and politely lecture you about why you shouldn’t be evil to children, women, employees, etc. And then I will put you in the time out corner for an undetermined amount of time until you realize the error of your ways.

There, is that better? Is that how we should handle talking about abusers even when we’re not addressing them directly and are clearly being hyperbolic out of response to finding out their shitty behavior?

Great. Wonderful. Good to know so that my platform doesn’t get merked.

#quiet on set #dan schneider #not art #I won’t dwell this just sucks and I’m allowed to be irate about it #was it a stupid tweet? yeah - should have kept the true shit talking to myself #however one mistake should not get your whole Twitter perma-suspended #that’s wildly stupid #plus he’s a fucking creep! #anyway we’ll resume regular form later #just had to get this off my chest #carousel vs Twitter

[stuckinapril]

me stoically navigating my way through drama bc bigger things are ahead and it’s not my fault people are dumb

#kissed a guy at a kickback and thought we caught a vibe only to find out he just wants to fuck me. next #friend’s bf of 7 years drunkenly hit on me at the same kickback (I was not ok w this). they ended up beefing over me. he denied everything. #do I want to be involved in this? no. and so I simply ignore it and keep it pushing #and the guy I kissed is cancelled. like he is dead to me. so that’s also taken care of #it’s back to studying full-time for the mcat #going to the gym/taking walks daily #volunteering at the refugee center + clinic #getting published in orgo research papers #and trying to snag the opportunity to shadow doctors at a massive cancer research center. like I’d kill for it #december was such a mess but I’ve finally made peace w the fact that most of the stuff that happened I couldn’t prevent #but I’ve mourned it enough !! whatever drama comes out of it I’ll handle just fine #i literally want to be a multitasking academic weapon everyone is intimidated of this year #i am not letting something as puny as a dumb man (both of them btw) stop me. goodbye #also everyone involved is older than me (they’re both 23) but it all just feels like such high school behavior #this is not a euphoria episode like I’m literally just not entertaining any of this #had to get this off my chest. i feel better #p