#doubting

[momentsbeforemass]

Someone else's miracle

I saw God at Walmart last week.

A mom was getting shoes for her two little boys. They looked to be about 4 and 7 years old.

She had found a pair of shoes that fit the older one. And he really liked them.

The younger one really liked them too. And that was the problem.

Because the 4-year-old didn’t just want the same shoes that she found for his big brother. He wanted the same shoes – in the same size as his big brother.

She was trying to get him to try on the shoes, but in a size that would fit him. And he was having none of it.

The more she tried, the more upset he became. Because she wouldn’t give him the same thing that she got for his brother.

He didn’t understand that she was trying to get him shoes that would work for him. Instead of the comically huge ones that he was demanding.

It gave me a glimpse of how you and I must look from God’s perspective.

When we see something that God did for someone else – someone else’s healing, someone else’s healthy relationship, someone else’s promotion, someone else’s successful struggle with addiction, someone else’s growing business.

And get bent out of shape because God didn’t do the exact same thing for us. Because He didn’t give us someone else’s miracle.

We all do it, just like the people in today’s Gospel. We pray for something, we ask God for it, we believe for it. And then get upset when God doesn’t do it for us the same way that He did it for someone else.

Whether our reaction takes the form of doubting ourselves, wondering whether we prayed and believed hard enough for it. Or if it takes the form of doubting God. Maybe even rejecting God because we didn’t get someone else’s miracle (or trying to kill Jesus like in today’s Gospel). It really doesn’t matter.

Because all of them leave us in the same place as the 4-year-old who was angry with his mom for not getting him the shoes he was demanding.

His anger makes perfect sense. But only to his self-absorbed 4-year-old brain.

All because he can’t see the big picture. Because he can’t see beyond himself enough to trust that his mother loves him and wants the best for him.

The challenge for you and me when it comes to our relationship with God?

To see if we can do better than a self-absorbed 4-year-old.

Today’s Readings

#Walmart #Someone else's miracle #Doubting #Demanding #God's ways #God's love #God #Jesus #Catholic #Christian #Church #Moments Before Mass

[theuglythingay]

Day 247 of 365

Monday,

I REALLY LOVE THE LIVE ACTION!

Ofcourse there will be some changes but I am not mad. It was so good. The leads got a good character introduction and Koby's character has been well develope its pretty nice. Cried a couple of times. Live Action covers Episode 1-45.

September 4 2023

#day 247 #day 365 #diary #diary entry #2023 #hoping #doubting #one piece #opla #one piece live action #luffy #sanji #nami #monkey d. luffy #usopp #zoro #garp #koby

[self-dx-culture-is]

self-dx culture is putting off emailing a clinic with questions about getting a clinical dx because "what if i've been wrong for all these years?" despite several people telling you that they strongly think you're autistic

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#self dx culture is #doubting #searching for clinical dx #autism #anon

[artorojo]

Me overthinking and doubting myself at 3AM

Bruh why am I like this

#funny memes #funny cats #cats memes #cute cats #funny animals #overthinking #doubting #cute animals #orange cat #funny quotes #canva #quotes #repost

[sometypeofgraphic]

dropped call

A confused search, a concerned line. Hands playing, undressing the twine. Concerned of the loosening, stay tight, stay tied. Do not fray, do not fret. Stay bound together, do not unwind, do not fall apart.

But the wholeness is the danger, don’t go deeper it says, don’t listen to yourself, listen to me. Do I trust the line, who is on the other end?

Who wants the tightening, who wants it to fall apart. Who lurks, waiting, waiting for the tightening. Who weeps… no one. Not even I. not even I know now.

Listen to the sounds and thoughts, the crackles and the statics, what are they? They are dark, they are loud loud,, they are…. Fuzzy. They are empty, empty ringing, pouding, in my ears, on the door, silence, from the line, hanging off the line now, an old rotary cord. Dangle dangle, stupid bitch.

Listen, listen close to who is on the line, who is on the other side? Who waits for me, does anyone want me here, do I, want to be here? do I want to know who is calling from the line?

#poetry #writing #personal #poems and poetry #words words words #passive suicidality #doubting #new poets on tumblr #spilled ink #spilled poetry #prose poem #prose poetry

[bojackson54]

Doubting Thomas? Maybe You Should Hear the REST of the Story

“Now Thomas (called Didymus), one of the twelve, was not with the disciples when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord!” But he said to them, “Unless I see the nail marks in his hands, and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe it.” A week later his disciples were in the house again, and Thomas was with them. Though the…

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#doubting #doubting Thomas #evidence #Jesus #John 11:16 #John 14:5 #John 20:24-29 #proof

[mazeppafanart]

“I must be ugly...!”

#eggman #dr eggman #Boom!Eggman #sonic boom #sonic the hedgehog #consciousness #doubting #self esteem

[chocnoire]

Wake up from bad dream

Wake up from your bad dream You have the choice to walk away from it allWhat you’re observing is observing you It is waiting for you to change so it can change tooSo if you’re looking for something outside of you to change, you’ll be running around in circles until you have your aha moment I’ll save you your time.If you don’t like what you’re experiencing, experience something different…

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#consciousness #dark night of the soul #Depression #detachment #doubtful #doubting #identity shift #Kundalini #life #miserable #misery #new identity #quantum jump #quantum leap #shadow body #soul #spiritual awakening #suicidal #suicidal thoughts #twin flames #walls

[faultenshi]

I Don't Know

There is always something that 'I Don't Know', What to do if I want to know?

Of course, Research for me...

Not exactly,but imagination, overthinking, doubting, questioning, etc.., are for someone...

Which will also a depression...

#imagination land #reality #questioning #doubting #expectations #anyone #Overthinking #research #Someone #don't know #i don't know #knowledge

[anotherlonelygirlposts]

Irgendwann gelangt man an einem Punkt, an dem man nicht mehr weiß, woher diese negative Denkweise kommt.

Man hat einfach keine Lust mehr auf irgendwas.

#german #lonely #sad #anxious #doubting #doubts #thinking #thoughts #dark space #lost #clueless #german quotes #deutsch #deutsches zitat

[seizuki]

I have couple of ideas on lookism or htf picture edits, but i never did it bc i don't think i can

#how to fight #viral hit #htf #lookism #edit #doubting

[theuglythingay]

Day 262 of 365

Tuesday,

Still cant believe of this episode. Man, the beauty this episode had. 😭

September 19 2023

#day 262 #day 365 #diary #diary entry #2023 #hoping #doubting #ahsoka #rosario dawson #ahsoka tano #star wars #star wars ahsoka #series #tv series #lucasfilm #lucas film #dave filoni #george lucas

[self-dx-culture-is]

Self dx culture is doubting yourself bc "Only a specialist can know that you have" (Bc obviously the same people are IMPOSSIBLE to know 😒)

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#self dx culture is #doubt #doubting #anon

[felowtravler]

This is a world of fools, defining goodness for themselves.

Eating a fruit they cannot fathom, they cannot digest, they cannot tolerate. Deadly, in the end.

Wandering from their lines is dangerous and opens you to scrutiny but if I do not wander and find God

I will run into destruction. Because that is the path they lead.

I seek wisdom and God, but fear the time it will take. The pain of leaving. The doubts of turning.

But I wander — privately, quietly, humbly. Unsure if this is correct.

But I wander — squinting, stumbling, searching. Afraid of the consequences if they were right.

But I wander — unaware that They lead me Making steps, moving obstacles, whispering

That’s it. There it is. As I slowly move along.

I wander away from the lines of unthinkers and fear mongers and their victims.

God has chosen the wrestlers, the wanderers, the wilderness seekers. Always.

And I am no different.

Yahweh wanders with me, leading me to life.

Thank God.

- Amen

#writing #poetry #musings #prayer #Christianity #deconstruction #thinking #doubting #praying #amen #Wandering #Yahweh is of the wanderers

[lotrmusical]

never let anyone tell you that trawling through mediocre victorian poetry isn't worth it. we just happened upon an absolute BANGER of a worm poem. go read it or else 🪱🪱🪱

#was calling beckett and scouring the works of eliza cook looking for lesbianism #good amounts of lesbianism in evidence but unfortunately very little in the way of good poetry #APART from this worm one which DOES NOT MISS #eliza cook #is there a thriving eliza cook tag on tumblr. somehow i doubt it #the hand of the giant and the heart of the brave / must turn weak and submit to the worm and the grave! #not an original theme ofc but GOD the treatment is delightful. so fresh so gleeful some rlly nice use of sound. rlly solidly constructed #words #gay belligerence

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week