I was out with my family for my birthday at a restaurant when I started having an allergic reaction. So I pulled out my IV stuff to give myself something to stop it and my dad asks:
“Do you want to go in the bathroom and do that”
I laughed a little “um, not really”
I understand it’s a little strange for me to pull out needles and meds and everything in public, but the restaurant bathroom is the last place I want to be when setting up something to inject into my blood stream 😬
Can we normalize people having to regulate their bodies with medication in public please?
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Do you have an active ED and an attention disorder?
Let me put you on something (medication) (it sucks)
Like many people with ADHD or ADD, I’ve been on adderall, Dexedrine, Ritilin, focalin, you name it. Here’s he one that worked for me
I started Vyvanse about 2 ish years ago when I was 17, and it has WAY way way more cons than pros, but the pros pay off and It’s what works for me. And while it might not work for everyone, I figured I’d share what I know
Disclaimer: this is an over the counter prescription drug. I am not encouraging getting this drug illegally or using it recreationally but also idc what you do
CONS (based on my personal experience an limited research)
Because It’s a known appetite suppressant, you may have a hard time getting it if you are already underweight or have ED anywhere in your records.
Random panic. I can just be sitting there and get shaky and can feel my heartbeat super fast, and overall I just sweat more when I’m on it.
I focus on whatever I’m doing. Not just school or work. I have a midterm due next week that I haven’t started, and I’m doing research for this post instead. This happens most of the time
I scratch myself till i bleed, and I pick at every imperfection on my face and body and scalp for hours on end without breaking concentration.
When I first started taking it I got panic attacks pretty often, but that went away as I got used to it. But it doesn’t go away if you aren’t consistent with taking it every day.
It gave me a couple of motor tics, which mostly faded away after about a year and a half of taking it.
I know the point of reading this for most people is to suppress appetite, but sometimes I just don’t notice that I haven’t eaten for a long time, and I get super super hangry without actually feeling hungry, so I just get frustrated.
Unlike other adhd medications that are more “take it when you need it” It has to be taken every morning to work best
You can’t sleep when it’s active. Its designed to keep you alert and focused for about 12 hours, but in my experience it fully wears off about 15 or 16 hours in. If I forget to take it in the morning I skip it for that day otherwise I won’t be able to fall asleep until the wee hours of the morning, and will be tossing and turning all night
^Seriously. Idc how sleepy of a person you think you are, it fucks up your sleep. Other people who take vyvanse have expressed this as well
It changes your personality. It changes who you like, how you think, how you act, and how you feel. It numbs me out big time
I had to get used to actively remembering to drink water
But also your mouth is always dry
I grind my teeth a ton and started biting my nails again
Random depression
I swear I’m like 70% less funny and socially aware when I take it
Everything around me is serious and I have a generally less fun than when I’m on it
PROS
Many doctors prefer it over adderall since it’s not as well known, isn’t a good high, and doesn’t have as much of a risk of being sold and abused
I can actually fucking focus when I take it it’s crazy
It’s used for treating binge eating disorder
Unlike other focus meds, it lasts all day. It’s working during class, it’s working at the gym, and it’s still working just as well at the end of the day so I can do my homework.
It just makes you flat out, not hungry all day
Like I don’t even think about food
Makes you less impulsive
I’m never bored when I take it. Idk if that makes sense but I used to get bored of video games and drawing and stuff and now I just don’t
It makes me motivated to do stuff idk
Gave me lots of pent up energy I used for working out
It gives you laser eyes and all the cool kids do it
Anyways that’s just my personal experience with it, if you have anything to add from being on it or something similar PLEASE do so
it’s cool and evil, and I love/hate it a lot.
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i hate the way it feels to be fat
the way it feels when you get up
the way it feels when you have to readjust your shirt
how it feels to constantly wonder how you look when you make any subtle movement
when you cant wear the things you like
you just dont feel normal
you dont feel like a person
you feel less than
you feel disgusting
you watch the scale go up but you keep eating
i hate the way it feels to be fat
not just physically but mentality wise
people say if you wanted to youd lose weight
if you reallllyy wanted it
but i do want it
ive always wanted it
i just cant stop
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