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cardiac-arresting-sweetheart · 5 months

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tw od (suicidal ideation) graphic & vom

not even 8 in the morning and i've already tried to Overdose ok then guys! my body doesn't even fucking let me anymore i literally swallowed one fucking pill and barely got it down and felt my stomach already turning then the second i got it down Fell to my Knees and started gagging and then saliva just like came out of my mouth like fucking vomit would i guess it was drooling but it felt a lot worse than just drooling. and now i feel horribly sick to my stomach and my throat hurts like really tight hurts umm yay guys

#tw overdose #tw sui ideation #vent #This is so fucking annoying #like genuinely so fucking annoying #LET ME DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!#tw suicide #Only doing all this bcuz im staying home from school and feel extremely bad about it...lol!#“suicide is the coward's way out” girl no it is not i am fighting demons trying to get one single goddamn pill down #my body is AGAINST ME!!!!!!!!!!!

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lastoneout · 7 months

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I just love it when video games let you do really stupid shit that kills you immediately. I love being like "oh this is a terrible idea" and being able to do it and then die. It's good game design.

#like how fnv lets you run right up to a deathclaw at like lvl one and then you die #it's good #let me do stupid shit and let it have consequences #even if those consequences are just “yeah driving into a gas giant kills you stupid”

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stromblessed · 5 months

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Mizu, femininity, and fallen sparrows

In my last post about Mizu and Akemi, I feel like I came across as overly critical of Mizu given that Mizu is a woman who - in her own words - has to live as a man in order to go down the path of revenge.

If she is ever discovered to be female by the wrong person, she will not only be unable to complete her quest, but there's a good chance that she'll be arrested or killed.

So it makes complete sense for Mizu to distance herself as much as possible from any behavior that she feels like would make someone question her sex.

I felt so indignant toward Mizu on my first couple watchthroughs for this moment. Why couldn't Mizu bribe the woman and her child's way into the city too? If Mizu is presenting as a man, couldn't she claim to be the woman's escort?

However, this moment makes things pretty clear. Mizu knows all too well the plight of women in her society. She knows it so well that she cannot risk ever finding herself back in their position again. She helps in what little way she can - without drawing attention to herself.

Mizu is not a hero and she is not one to make of herself a martyr - she will not set herself on fire to keep others warm. There's room to argue that Mizu shouldn't prioritize her quest over people's lives, but given the collateral damage Mizu can live with in almost every episode of season 1, Mizu is simply not operating under that kind of morality at this point. ("You don't know what I've done to reach you," Mizu tells Fowler.)

And while I still feel like Mizu has an obvious and established blind spot when it comes to Akemi because of their differences in station, such that Mizu's judgment of Akemi and actions in episode 5 are the result of prejudice rather than the result of Mizu's caution, I also want to establish that Mizu is just as caged as Akemi is, despite her technically having more freedom while living as a man.

Mizu can hide her mixed race identity some of the time, and she can hide her sex almost all of the time, but being able to operate outside of her society's strict rules for women does not mean she cannot see their plight.

It does not mean she doesn't hurt for them.

Back to Mizu and collateral damage, remember that sparrow?

While Mizu is breaking into Boss Hamata's manse, she gets startled by a bird and kills it on reflex. She then cradles it in her hands - much more tenderly than we've seen Mizu treat almost anything up to this point in the season:

She then puts it in its nest, with its unhatched eggs. Almost like she's trying to make the death look natural. Or like an accident.

You see where I'm going with this.

When Mizu kills Kinuyo, Mizu lingers in the moment, holding the body tenderly:

And btw a lot of stuff about this show hit me hard, but this remains the biggest gut punch of them all for me, Mizu holding that poor girl's body close, GOD

When Mizu arranges the "scene of the crime," Kinuyo's body is delicate, birdlike. And Mizu is so shaken afterward that she gets sloppy. She's horrified at this kill to the point that she can't bring herself to take another innocent life - the boy who rats her out.

MIZU'S ONE MOMENT OF SOFTNESS AND MERCY, COMING ON THE HEELS OF HER NEEDING TO KILL A GIRL TO SPARE HER THE WORST FATE THAT THIS RIGID SOCIETY HAS TO OFFER WOMEN, AND TO SPARE A BROTHEL FULL OF INNOCENT WOMEN WHO ARE THE CASTOFFS OF SOCIETY, NEARLY RESULTS IN ALL OF THEIR DEATHS

No wonder Mizu is as stoic and cold as she is.

And no wonder Mizu has no patience for Akemi whatsoever right before the terrible reveal and the fight breaks out:

Speaking of Akemi - guess who else is compared to a bird!

The plumage is more colorful, a bit flashier. But a bird is a bird.

And, uh

Yeah.

I like to think that Mizu killing the sparrow is not only foreshadowing for what she must do to Kinuyo, but is also a representation of the choice she makes on Akemi's behalf. She decides to cage the bird because she believes the bird is "better off." Better off caged than... dead.

But because Mizu doesn't know Akemi or her situation, she of course doesn't realize that the bird is fated to die if it is caged and sent back home.

Mizu is clearly not happy, or pleased, or satisfied by allowing Akemi to be dragged back to her father:

But softness and mercy haven't gotten Mizu anywhere good, recently.

There is so much tragedy layered into Mizu's character, and it includes the things she has to witness and the choices she makes - or believes she has to make - involving women, when she herself can skirt around a lot of what her society throws at women. Although, I do believe that it comes at the cost of a part of Mizu's soul.

After all, I'm gonna be haunted for the rest of this show by Mizu's very first prayer in episode 1:

"LET" her die. Because as Ringo points out, she doesn't "know how" to die.

Kind of like another bird in this show:

#blue eye samurai #mizu #akemi #kinuyo #bes #women are birds okay they are BIRDS #the let me die line is so SCARY AND SAD like a part of Mizu wants death but she cant? she doesnt know how?? excuse you show???#when all these other delicate birds are dying all around her #akemis character gets more and more gutwrenching upon subsequent rewatches because whenever she says her life is in danger #NO ONE BELIEVES HER - certainly not other women #because shes rich and pampered and that means shes safe and is worrying about nothing right? right?????#and it turns out that all of akemis instincts were right and she was in danger the ENTIRE TIME #also I need to make a post just for kinuyo because I am sad

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endlessmidnights · 7 months

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I hate when people say suicide is the easy way out, they have no idea the pain you must be in to want to end your own life

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thatrandomblogsays · 4 months

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RIP Annabeth, I just know Percy sacrificing himself for you, after knowing you for a week, after telling you that you’ve done more for him this week than his father ever has, is permanently altering the brain chemistry of your avoidant attachment self

#epitome of the quote: there is something really healing about being loved #which is from a book I CANT REMEMBER SO I CANT LOOK IT UP PROPERLY #let me know if you guys know what I’m talking about #i just know Percy’s actions had her on her knees #what is this? unconditional love?#is this why people make friends?#i am lovable?#this is amazing #oh shit my new friend is about to die #I’m so normal about them (I’m lying)#pjo #pjo spoilers #pjo tv show spoilers #pjo series #pjo tv show #percy jackson #annabeth chase #Percy and Annabeth #mine

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lesbianviolet · 5 months

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hi. musical cosmic horrors In My Brain . they wont leave

#nerdy prudes must die #t'noy karaxis #nibblenephim #wiggog y'wrath #bliklotep #pokotho #and now their silly names #tinky #nibbly #pokey #wiggly #blinky #hatchetfield #starkid #i made a banner of them all together but tumblr wont let me upload it ? it hates me

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cephalonheadquarters · 1 year

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Im going to disappear off the face of the earth someday unannounced

#CAN THEY DIE.#I ALMOST PRESSED POST BEFORE TYPIJG EVERYTHING I HAD A FUCKING HEART ATTACK GOODBYE.#Err uhhh uhh #hmm #daffy duck #bugs bunny #vocaloid #😭😐#LET ME HAVE FUN #looney tunes #my art #baffy

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wrendered002 · 4 months

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im a whore for unrealistic goals

#please god don’t let me age #angeloflead #tccblr #tcc columbine #dumb fucking girl wants 2 die lol

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kirkwall · 7 months

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why are ppl out there going "this thing is canon" "that thing is canon" in regards to bg3. who hurt you that you need to canonize things in an rpg with thousands of choices this badly

#i promise you will not die if the thing you really love is not canon #every day i am going thru dragon age discourse 2: electric boogaloo #nina talks #nina plays bg3 #let me know if u want me to tag this as discourse bc trust me i get it

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bishy437 · 7 months

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couple's tee

#i care them #original was ‘god won’t let me die’ but HC is already dead 😝#tgcf #heaven official's blessing #hualian #xie lian #hua cheng #tian guan ci fu #mine

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st4rch1ld404 · 7 months

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if u asked him to put it on he would. only because he loves u so much and knows how happy u would be <3

#my art #bg3 gale #bg3 #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #baldur's gate 3 gale #baldur's gate 3 #I PUT GRAY IN HIS HAIR BC ITS HOT #IDC WHATS CANON OR NOT #ok but like? smash #SJKHSDJFD AHHAAH #gods i would let him read me a bed time story then kiss my forehead gn #omg i love him i would die for him #hes so soft and so anxious!!!!! like omg i cant believe im wearing this but.. u like it??#skjfdd #he is a people pleaser

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entnoot · 2 months

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Hello fellow dungeon meshi fans, I recently redrew the Senshi waiting meme specifically so I could make him into a sticker and put him places.

Here he is waiting for the bus, at the doctors office and also at the park :)

#dungeon meshi #senshi of izganda #senshi #delicious in dungeon #drawing #digital art #I’m trying to find a good online option for selling stickers but I’d rather die than go back to etsy tbh #senshi my beloved #let me know if u would like to see him in a location

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arataka-reigen · 9 months

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I'm trying to start a movement here

[ID: The first 3 images are edited versions of the "Let's take ibuprofen together" meme. The captions now say "Let's read shoujo together". They each show a person holding their hand out to the viewer; a character from the series Benigyokuzui, Mob from Mob Psycho 100, and Jerma. / end ID]

ID provided by @siroofington thank you so much

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notemaker · 14 days

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In which Lucifer starts getting comfortable, forgets social boundaries, and Alastor kind of does so too. Nifty takes 1 interaction and makes it a whole plot.

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aziraphalalala · 8 months

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I am not entirely certain what will happen once the actors & writers strike ends, but I'm pretty sure Michael Sheen will break the sound barrier with how fast he will go feral on the internets about how Aziraphale wants to eat Crowley's ox rib

#i mean have you seen how he looks at David Tennant #Have you seen how Aziraphale looks at Crowley #it's not a “I like him a normal amount” kinda look #it's more of a “I hope you've put down some solid roots cause Imma climb you like a tree” manic stare #and he has been 0% chill in all earlier statements about it #so i anticipate a feral front approaching from Wales with a hefty precipitation of Sheenussy on display #Is this post inappropriate?#i don't even know anymore #my brains are scrambled to the point of no return #what is reality #hahaha I don't care let me shitpost and die on this hill #good omens #good omens 2 #michael sheen #aziraphale #ineffable idiots #ineffable husbands #aziracrow

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twinstxrs · 1 month

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idk if this is accurate but i’ve felt like in previous seasons riz & gorgug have been one of the inter-bad kids dynamics we’ve seen the least of & this season has been so great in that aspect. gorgug having helped make some of riz’s magic gear. riz helping gorgug with his studies. the shared birthday party. gorgug’s gift to riz being something he himself made to protect riz. riz’s gift to gorgug being something he illegally grabbed to protect gorgug. gorgug who utilizes rage to put his body on the line for his friends & riz who will take deep levels of mental stress for his friends. even though it was within the context of a joke, riz calling gorgug an “absolute sweetie.” like yea they might not be in a band together or both part of a presidential campaign team or owlbears teammates, but they’d go to war for each other, because they’re best friends.

#riz gukgak #gorgug thistlespring #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #these kids are all so self-sacrificing but i do think riz gorgug are the most clear (& juxtaposed) self-sacrificers #riz will mentally tear himself to pieces and get lost in cases and take on ungodly levels of stress for those he loves #gorgug will use himself as a human shield. he will take hit after hit if it means his friends are okay.#and they’d both do the other thing too. riz would let himself get hit for gorgug. gorgug would pull all nighters & take stress for riz.#even if mechanically they can’t or it wouldn’t make sense. they would if they could.#also #the starstruck barry mechanic of being a guard is so gorgug. it’s soooo gorgug like that’s literally him #anyways love this tall green guy & this short green guy so much #especially because gorgug is tall & considered intimidating but protective in a deeply kind way #while riz is short & underestimated but protective in a deeply vicious way (affectionate)#i hope this makes sense but i think riz is primarily ‘i would kill for you’ & gorgug is primarily ‘i would die for you’ maybe #this does not mean gorgug would not kill for riz or riz would not die for gorgug. they both would.#but those are the primary ways their love manifests due to the nature of their strengths/personalities. To Me #idk this is all just me saying stuff when i should be sleeping 😭#sorry if i missed a riz gorgug moment in the main post btw i’m tired

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