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do i need an emoji for this mf this is gonna last like 3 days max

I Have A New Crush . everyone please pray

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THIS IS HORRIBLE i mean it when i say anyone who gives me attention i get a crush on

I Have A New Crush . everyone please pray

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I Have A New Crush . everyone please pray

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i had such a bad day yesterday 😭

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I GOT INTO MY SCHOOL’S AUDITIONED CHOIR IM SO HAPPY

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YOU'RE WRITING A BOOK?????????

HELP YA ‼️‼️‼️🙏🙏🙏 is this astonishing information…

#asks #Hehe

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sexting: ❌

you telling me how you’d brutally torture me and leave my dead body in the woods: ✅

#reblogs #true #tw violence

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so sleepy.

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ahaha its okay i love your ramblings...! your story sounds super interesting. post updates when u can!

you're so creative :3

also i'm praying for soren.

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hehehe yay !! :D that is good,,, . >_>

and thank you a lot !!! i will try to then,, :3 yay .

i hope i actually finish itttt eeee the furthest i've gotten in writing something was a fucking komahina fanfic i wrote in 8th grade that got to 70 pages LMFAO . .. so i hope i can surpass that with a non-fanfic story lol.

sjkdlfdsj thank youuuu !! ^_^ yippeee

please do pray for him .. he needs it .. (he'll be okay. Maybe. or maybe not !!! it's a mystery. hmm... do you think he should be okay...?)

#asks #anon #-🎱

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universe higher being whatever Please stop testing me i am not your strongest soldier

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i will stay awake.. i will stay awake..

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almost just posted about being tired two times in a row NOBODY CARES AZRAEL ok. i will stop being so negative

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i should probably do something more productive but i'm tired . at least i got uhh like etsy shop set up for Subliminals umm fun azrael fact yayyyy ^_^ still have to wait a bit to share it anywhere though

#azri's ramblings

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i'm interested in the book you're writing... tell me more :3

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eeehehhe i'm happy to share :3 !!!!!,,, i'm glad u asked,, umm okay so .

tw SH, talk of Bad mental health, dark topics, r4pe is mentioned, uhh bigotry

i dunno if i've posted about him before but the main character is named soren harlow (god i'm gonna have to delete this post at some point because i'm sharing a lot of Information here) he's a trans boy with like... these are my guesses: (c-)ptsd, maybe DID or OSDD, panic disorder or generalized anxiety disorder, somewhere on the schizophrenia spectrum, bipolar i, bpd, narcissistic traits, and an eating disorder . he's... quite mentally Unwell lol (just like me real ^_^) and literally the story starts with him Cutting Himself. (interesting hook, azrael...) and then it's... him going to a grocery store and losing his shit . . . !

Anyway. i haven't planned super far ahead though i have a vague vision for the ending; i'm still working on outlining everything. but i know there will be possession and there may already have been possession ... :) . and i have the main like... harmful spirit character planned out in my head already. very excited to introduce em... but it'll be later in the story.

and the other characters um!! they're named florencia and andrew, they're kind of... major assholes at the start of the story, like andrew immediately misgenders soren in a weird like nice guy way HAHAHAHA... it's so bad, i hate both of them at the start, but they'll have development. Oh and florencia calls soren Slurs BYE um. florencia's definitely worse than andrew, andrew's just kinda.... stupid... and ignorant. but they're all depressed as hell. my goal with those two is to make their dynamic so ridiculous that they become tolerable for the comedy relief factor... i hope i can pull it off.

ALSO FLORENCIA IS GENDERFLUID which... is really funny to me, considering she CALLS SOREN SLURS AT THEIR FIRST INTRODUCTION AND HAS A LOT OF .. EXTERNALIZED .. TRANSPHOBIA .. yeah.

i will fix them (through a lot of hard work) i swear. they have to suffer a lot though ^_^ but poor soren (he is doomed by the narrative) . ..

i hope that makes... any sense. ^^; it's fun to talk about yayy

whew that took like ~10 minutes to write my response,,, oops

#asks #anon #-🎱 #sorry for the Major rant and long text... #i am a rambler. #and i don't really get to talk about this because it's a little too crazy... #at least for most ppl i think. #i wanna finish it within 2 years and maaaybe get it published if it's even possible #i'd be 18 by then so... #maybe. it'd be pretty awesome if i couold get published but i #have no idea how long it'd take #i'm assuming SOME publisher out there would take it #plus... i could just manifest getting it published lol #Ok tags rant OVER stop talking azrael omg #JSDKLFJLDSAFJ #>_> lol. #tw sh #tw rape #tw bigotry

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i keep seeing angel numbers since. um

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umm life updates i started writing my book again (haven't since september) i'm up to 5 pages now i'm really excited to keep writing it yaya ^_^ basically the mc is umm really really mentally ill and he meets some other Mentally Unwell people who are also like assholes LMFAOO They get better. and they get involved in fucked up spiritual stuff yeeeeees it's gonna be so fun i'm really excited about writing it yay

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#spotify #Everybody's fucking with me!!!!!!!!!