thereisverylittleleftofme

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

you held me hostage in your bed while

i held you hostage in my head

#sa survivor #sa #poetry #breakup #spilled poetry #spilled emotions #spilled thoughts #spilled words #writing #mental health #heartbreak #hostage #broken words #words #words words words

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

what became of me because of you

a once vibrant soul, every lonely moment with you crushed my being.

the trust i had in you that wasnt fully shattered until months after you broke me for the first time.

second, third, fourth chances given at the expense of my sanity with a profit of heartbreak.

apologies i dont quite understand ring underneath your bedsheets as you do what you need to

and for some reason “im sorry” is coming out of my mouth after you violate me yet again.

her words fell flat on my rational mind but they lingered in my heart with each hour we spent together locked in your attic bedroom.

the boundaries crossed and mocked began to feel optional and i began to feel like a dictator for feeling wrong about it.

you convinced me that my values could be compromised for you.

the aftermath

so many long nights spent crying on the floor

taking sleeping pills to escape but still waking up

from the heartache every hour

blasting music to lean into the hurt

#spilled thoughts #poetry #breakup #i hate you #sa survivor #highly sensitive person #writing #spilled poetry #mental health #thoughts #goodbye

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

one day you think: I want to die. and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book. and I want to die turns day by day into want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun, I want a cleaner kitchen, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else. I want to live.

- via duckbunny

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

i find myself so deeply affected by other peoples’ hurt that i need to step back

and then i am forced to ask myself the unaskable question

at what point does empathy become selfish?

#empathy #empath #feel #highly sensitive person #hsp #heartbreak #poetry #addiction #spilled words #art #journal #spilled thoughts #spilled emotions #fear #selfishness #selflessness #thin line #love

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

how am i supposed to heal

while being aware of the pain of those around me

#poetry #heartbreak #addiction #spilled words #im sorry #highly sensitive person #hsp #empathy #recovery journey #not recovery #growth #i miss you #alone

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

i am a solitary tree growing in the middle of a lake, surrounded by a forest but unable to reach it

#poetry #short poems #metaphor #nature poetry #solitude #forced solitude #lonely #lonely poetry #loneliness #lake #stuck in my head #no friends #nature #poem #spilled words

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

(i took the photographs but not my graffiti)

#abandoned #abandoned buildings #graffiti #abandoned building photography #art #military base #abandoned village #photography #lyrics #graffiti is art #nature #overgrown #haunted #poetry #haunting #graffiti art #photograph #new england #history #massachusetts #historic preservation #abandoned photography

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

how can i still love and protect someone

who has hurt me so deeply

-the sibling you abused

#abusive sibling #abusive sister #abused #emotional abuse #physical abuse #heartbreak #sister #younger sister #parent to my siblings #parental problems #parental issues #sibling abuse #addiction #why do i still want to protect you

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

love songs

every love song was about you, once.

now i drive too fast down windy roads,

and turn the music up too loud

as if it will bring that feeling back.

i search the lyrics, begging to understand

why i loved you

#breakup #breakup poetry #rant poem #poetry #poetry rant #bad poetry #toxic ex #ex lovers #music #driving too fast #driving fast blasting music with the windows down #what we could have had #oversharing #broken heart #broken romance #growth #i dont miss you anymore

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

i lost everything because of you. i take responsibility for the friends i lost but you stripped my personality away and turned me into an anxious shell of a person who would cater to your every emotion and i resent you every day for that…

…for what became of me because of you.

#breakup #heartbreak #loss #poetry #resent #character defects #healing journey #you did this #how could you #i trusted you #sa #sa survivor #broken heart

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

i found myself apologizing to him after he tore me apart because his guilt was enough to make him turn away from me

#sa survivor #survivor #sa #breakup #broken romance #toxic relationship #toxic mindset #apologies #insecurity #fear #poetry #spilled words #broken words #i thought i loved you

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

addict

how to love someone who loves drugs more than you-

accept that youre going to lose yourself

accept that youre going to lose them

-i was right

#addiction #loving an addict #toxic relationship #addict loving an addict #unhealthy love #love #losing you #im sorry #i tried my best #goodbye

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

you were the first person who loved me like that, i think i’ll never get over the way you used to stare at me

-watching you fall out of love broke me

#breakup #heartbreak #im sorry #broken heart #broken romance #ex #heartbroken #i miss you #love #falling out of love #broken #sad #toxic #toxic relationship #relationship #lovers #unrequited love

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

im scared that i’ll be searching for him in every future partner’s eyes

#breakup #heartbreak #broken #broken romance #broken heart #ive never felt so broken #pain #its been a month when does this end #how did he move on so fast #traitor #relationship #i miss you #scared #fear #anxi4ty #ex #i still love you

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

✨ heres how my month has gone

🌟my bf of two years broke up with me at prom🌟

💝my dad relapsed after 8 years clean💝

🔥my friend of ten years cussed me out🔥

🌸my cousin is dying🌸

🍀my stepfather is dangerously sick🍀

💍my best friend has been talking shit abt me💍

theres more but this is the gist of it ✨

june 2022 <

#month #june #a series of unfortunate events #misfortune #bad luck #breakup #broken #relapse #dad #daddy issues #best friend #best friend breakup #cousin #stepfather #family #dysfunctional #losing people #unfortunate #sad #lmao #my life #june 2022 #2022 #lol i hate it

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

you threw me away so fast its like the past two years meant nothing

#breakup #heartbreak #ow #heartbroken #broken heart #broken romance #im sorry #i miss you

[thereisverylittleleftofme]

how many times can you break my heart

until it has no more love for you?

-an almost breakup

#breakup #broken heart #break #heartbreak #relationship #not relationship goals #im sorry #not poetry #boyfriend #lovers #toxic #unhealthy love #toxic relationship #love me #why dont you love me #i love you more than anything #broken romance #heartbroken #music #mental health