Please Don’t Go (pt.2)
A/N: here’s the part 2 of ‘Please don’t go’! I honestly did not expect the first part to blow up 😳 but im happy you enjoyed the first part! I hope you enjoy the second part my little bun buns! Also just a disclaimer, in no way shape or form am I trying to romanticize toxic relationships. No one should be in a relationship like this. Not only does this kind of toxic relationship harm somebody emotionally, it harms them mentally as well. I’m basing this off of my own personal experience so your experience might’ve not been the same as mine.
Content contains the following that could be triggering: angst, toxic relationship, manipulation, cheating, comfort kinda (?), fluffy at the end (?)
If any of the following makes you uncomfortable, please go read a fluffy fic for your soul! Take care fellow bun bun! <333
Kaeya x GN Reader, Platonic! Diluc x GN Reader, Platonic! Amber x GN Reader
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The blue haired captain kept his quiet as he watched the scene unfold before him. You waved goodbye to Diluc while thanking him once more, you walked away from him. Taking deep breaths, you managed to calm yourself down thankfully. Your posture stiffened when you felt familiar arms wrap around your waist. A wave of dread rushed through your body. You felt the wrong feeling once more, you usually had that feeling whenever you were with Kaeya.
“Hello darling, how are you today? You seem a bit tired.” Kaeya said. You put on a small smile and nodded.
“Yeah, just woke up a bit grumpy today.” You lied.
“I certainly hope that isn’t because I wasn’t there in the morning.” He said. You shook your head and pressed a kiss on his cheek.
“Of course not. I probably just slept on the wrong side of bed. No need to worry about me.” You reassured. For some reason, the words you said and the kiss you gave him made you sick to your stomach. You felt disgusted with yourself. Ever since that talk with Diluc, you’ve been feeling grossed out with yourself. Why did this guilt and regret weigh so heavy on your back? Feeling guily of letting yourself be blinded by love, regretting every single choice you made in the relationship with him. Is this self pity? Every part of your body screamed to push him away, you wanted to escape from his grasp. He wasn’t even holding you that tight so why did this feel suffocating?
“You know I love you right?” Those words snapped you out of your focused state. “I feel as if you tend to forget that.”
‘Why did his words sound so genuine if they weren’t true?’ You thought to yourself. ‘No, you’re playing right into his hands. He’s lying. He’s trying to manipulate you. Dirty liar.’ You told yourself.
“I love you too. I really needed to hear that, thanks my dear.” You said. ‘But doesn’t that make me a liar too?’ You questioned. Kaeya kissed your neck and smiled. He was relaxed, thinking that he probably still had you wrapped around his finger. You weren’t going to let that happen. You’re going to stand your ground. No more punches, no more heart shattering cries.
‘But...it wouldn’t hurt to stay with him for a few more days.’ You thought to yourself. A few more days turned into a month. You got addicted to this horrible feeling. ‘Surely, I’m going to leave him soon but let me stay in his arms for a bit longer.’ You said to yourself.
“Y/N.” Diluc’s voice called out to you. You snapped your head to him. “Are you sure you know what you’re doing?” He sighed. You furrowed your eyebrows and looked away.
“I don’t know anymore. One moment I tell myself I’m breaking things off with him. The next, I fall right into his trap. I know Diluc. I-I can’t get out.” You ranted. He could sense the hurt and confusion in your voice. “I know he’s bad for me but I just get so addicted to the praise and affection he gives me. I’ve never had anything like it.” You continued. You sighed, “I must be some sort of masochist I swear.”
“It seems like it. I don’t know what it feels like to have someone do that to you, I admit but you have to cut things off soon. All of last week, I saw him on a date with a girl.” Diluc said. Your heart broke once more but you were used to it.
“It’ll be fine. I’m used to it. So it doesn’t hurt as much, I just want someone by my side for once.” You tried to argue, knowing you were going to lose.
“Just because you’re used to it, doesn’t make it any better. It makes it worse. That’s not a good thing to be used to. And you do have someone by your side that’s not Kaeya. I’m on your side and I always have been. I’m here for you.” He said, looking you in the eyes. “That’s why I came here to make sure you cut things off with him for good.” He said.
“I’m here to tag along too.” Amber said, appearing out of nowhere. The brunette looked at you sympathetically. “I’ve noticed this entire thing for a while just like Diluc but I didn’t know what to do to help. I just knew Kaeya wasn’t a trustworthy guy.” She admitted. “You have my full support along with Diluc. I’m sorry that I didn’t intervene sooner.” She said. You teared uo again, hugging the both of them tightly. You didn’t get a grossed out feeling like you did when you hugged Kaeya. You felt happy. You felt...loved. To have this much support, it made you cry tears of happiness. Though it may not seem like much support, it was more than enough to break things off with the beloved captain of Mondstadt.
“I don’t need your love. If you could even call it that. I’m sick and tired of being used. I’m done being your play toy.” You told Kaeya, your voice was cold and stern. His hand reached out towards you, you quickly smacked it away. “Don’t even try. I’m done Kaeya. We’re over.” You spat, venom filling your words. He only let out a small sigh.
“It’s a shame really. I really did love you.” Kaeya said. Those words filled you with rage. ‘Don’t waste your energy on him. He’s not worth it.’ You kept telling yourself. “Oh well, I was waiting for this to happen anyways. It was obvious after you talked to Diluc. He really does like to ruin the fun.” He scoffed lightly. You clenched your fists but pushed him out of the door.
“Get out of my sight.” You said, before slamming the door in his face. You panted, shoulders and chest rising up and down. You were shaking so much. That was so difficult, more difficult than you thought it would be. Feeling a bit lightheaded, you went to the bathroom to wash your face with some cold water. Relief and happiness washed over your body when you fully processed what happened. You were free. You were free. You smiled happily while tears streamed down your face, you clutched the towel in your hand you used to dry your face.
“I did it.” You cried out. If this wasn’t one of the most happiest moments of your life, you weren’t sure what else it would be. You felt proud of yourself for the first time in a very long time. And you should be proud of yourself.
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