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not-poignant · 2 months

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Sorry if you’ve already been asked this, but when did you know you wanted to tell Efnisien’s story through FFS? What motivated you to show his redemption journey?

Hi hi anon!

Honestly I started thinking about it during the chapter where Efnisien gives the USB to Augus, and Gwyn tries to kill him, and he's just laughing-crying, while knowing that he's going to be murdered in cold-blood by Crielle as a result.

And then I just...spent about 8 months trying not to think about it, because I was certain everyone would hate the story. And then one day I started making a playlist, and then started thinking about it a bit more seriously, and decided 'fuck it' because the idea of Efnisien living a barren, empty life in Hillview, dependent on Gwyn, after his sacrifice, just didn't sit well with me.

I funnily enough did not start out planning on writing a redemption narrative. I knew none of his victims would forgive him for his actions, and that his therapist would never be like 'there there it's okay' about it. For a while I even wondered if Falling Falling Stars would have a bleak, semi-hopeful ending. Just like, 'well it's better than it was but it's still terrible.'

But Dr Gary's a really good therapist so, we ended up on a different track. :D

But yeah no, I wasn't motivated to write a redemption journey, honestly. I was just motivated to write Efnisien's story after Spoils, and then it became what it became. But initially, in those early chapters, it could have become a lot of different things, because I had no real conception of it except that I didn't want to write a redepemption narrative, heh.

Now I don't care that this is what it kind of became, but I do like that it's complex enough that if anyone said 'no way I'm not reading that, he's an abusive asshole' even Efnisien would calmly agree with them and respect their right to feel that way.

#asks and answers #efnisien ap wledig #falling falling stars #fae tales au #spoils of the spoiled #tbh in the original conception #efnisien was going to be like quite badly sexually assaulted #and then meet an ex-rapist #who was trying to live outside of prison #and they'd just figure it out together #and in the end i just decided that wasn't quite right #and went with the dr gary route #which led to arden #and that led to the story that FFS became #but that's actually why the title itself is a little bit bleak!!#the idea of constantly falling #came from the original conception of efnisien's story #i'm glad we didn't get something really bleak though #administrator gwyn wants this in the queue

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bimoonphases · 29 days

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@wolfstarmicrofic March 28 – prompt 28: Langlock – word count 549

Langlock - Causes the target’s tongue to stick to the roof of his mouth

It was well past midnight in the dorm, and it was the fourth time Sirius had tried to sneak into Remus’s bed. Peter knew that, of course. He had known since the first times Remus had kept reading the same page of a book over and over again because he kept looking at Sirius. He had known since Sirius had started looking back, blush and babble some nonsense. He had known since that Gryffindor party when he had turned around and seen them way too close and with their cheeks way too red for a chat between two friends. He had known since the number of times he had found the door to the dorm locked or had heard Sirius’s feet quietly paddle to Remus’s bed in the middle of the night. He knew, and it was fine. They would tell them officially when they were ready. James, on the other hand, didn’t know and didn’t seem to notice anything. What James did know now was just that Sirius wasn’t asleep and he had taken that as an opportunity to talk to him across the dorm.

Sirius’s feet shuffled once again across the floor.

“Pads?” James’s voice came from behind the curtains around his bed.

Sirius’s feet quickly shuffled back to his own bed.

“Yes, Prongs?”

“Do you think I should get Lily flowers for Valentine’s?”

“Didn’t you try and get her flowers for her birthday and didn’t she smack them in your face?”

“Oh. Right. Thanks.”

“Anytime.”

There was a moment of silence before Sirius’s feet padded across the room.

“Pads?”

Sirius’s feet padded immediately back.

“Yes, Prongs?”

“Do you think I should move on from her? Find someone else?”

“I mean, it could do you good.”

“But I love her.”

“That might make it hard to move on, mate.”

“Right. Thank you Pads.”

“You’re welcome.”

Another moment of silence, longer this time. Then Peter heard Sirius’s feet across the floor once more.

“Pads?”

Sirius’s feet made a hasty retreat.

“Yes, Prongs?”

“I love Lily, but it doesn’t mean I can’t find other people attractive.”

“No, I suppose it doesn’t.”

“Your brother is ridiculously attractive, Pads.”

“Merlin’s beard Prongs, if I had known kissing you as a dare would end up with you being attracted to Regulus I would never have done it!”

“Shut up, you loved it.”

“Go to sleep, Prongs.”

Another silence, and Sirius’s feet now gliding across the floor. Peter shook his head and took his wand from his bedside table, being careful to be quiet. He didn’t want Sirius to glide back to his own bed because of him. A slight shuffle from the other bed indicated that James was about to speak again.

“Langlock,” Peter whispered, pointing his wand at his friend’s shape through the curtains.

No one spoke, and Sirius’s feet finally glided across to Remus’s bed, where the curtains opened and closed in record time. Peter waited a couple of seconds then cast a sleeping spell on James. He didn’t want him to jump out of bed, panicked because he couldn’t speak, and interrupt Remus and Sirius once again. With a yawn, Peter put his wand down and settled back under the covers. One day he would tell his friends this story. Probably as part of a speech at their wedding.

#everybody say thank you Peter #I love the idea of Peter noticing Remus and Sirius falling for each other and James being oblivious #also James constantly asking people stuff instead of sleeping because his brain is too active #James and Sirius kissed as a dare fight me #wolfstar #wolfstar microfic #sirius black #remus lupin #sirius x remus #remus x sirius #maraduers #marauders era #peter pettigrew #james potter #lily evans #regulus black #the marauders #the marauders era #just writing (like i'm supposed to live)

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bidisastersanji · 5 months

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i had thoughts of a canon-adjacent Zoro (nonbeliever ambitious swordsman) and Death-God!Sanji who keep meeting because of how close to dying Zoro always gets during his fights and oops now it's a messy drabble written in between breaks at work and here ya go.

In all his years as the god of Death, Sanji has never seen such a stubborn, strong willed human- he’s honestly half amused every time he's brought to a wounded, bleeding Zoro. He doesn't expect him to survive that giant slash attack from the warlord, nor the myriad of injuries he collects after that- and if he feels a bit of pride every time he escapes him Death, well, no one will know.

It takes him a while to realise that, in those fleeting moments, when he's loitering and waiting around as Zoro approaches the point of no return, Zoro can see him as well. Sanji's a bit mortified at first. All this time, he's just been voicing his thoughts out loud like he always does, who knows what the reckless man overheard! It's pure force of habit, since it’s not like there’s ever someone to hear to him- his family chose this domain for him on purpose after all; they took all the great, bright, good, worshiped domains of life, war, medicine...and left him this one to punish him, break him with eons of witnessing and bearing human grief in solitude.

It's barely morning and Zoro is dripping with blood, resolutely standing against all odds in a beautiful display of absolute devotion and conviction, and Sanji feels like maybe today will be the day he takes him- that this is the end for the stubborn swordsman. He comes closer than he ever has to the man, walks right up to him, readying himself for the weight of another soul's voyage, when Zoro's lidded eyes snap up and meet his own. His fiery gaze doesn’t go straight through him, but actually settles on him. Sees him.

It's unnerving. Sanji shivers at this feeling of being perceived.

Humans usually only see him once they fully passed on, when he’s guiding them, cold hands gripping onto him, begging, crying, frightened or even sometimes full of wrath and fighting to stay by their loved ones.

“It’s you again.” His voice is weak, raspy.

Sanji doesn’t answer.

“Why're you always here for my big battles?” A pause. “You like me or somethin'?”

Confusion. Shock. Embarrassment. “You think I stalk you and show up for you battles!?”

“Sure seems like it.”

Sanji scoffs.

He can’t believe this! He wants to chew the bastard out- who the hell does he think he is? but he bites down on his words, certain that these are the man's final moments. There's no way anyone could survive such wounds- it's a miracle he's even conscious or standing.

He doesn’t want to add insult to injury.

“I’m the god of Death, you idiot.”

Oops.

“I don’t believe in gods.”

The absurdity of that statement when literally in conversation with one doesn’t escape Sanji, but he's not really there to argue.

The green-haired man continues. “So, what, you’re into me or something? Just ask me out like a normal person.”

This cocky asshole...Sanji's heated reply is cut off by Zoro’s nakama arriving on the scene in a panic. Sanji trails after them, hovering, ready for the now unconscious body's heart to stop beating at any moment- but the moment doesn't come.

Under the attention of their talented doctor, Zoro escapes him once again.

Sanji's definitely not relieved.

It's out of curiosity that he stays around a little longer. He returns from time to time to check in on the mysterious man and his recovery, still a bit unbelieving that he managed to survive such grievous, traumatic injuries and intense blood loss. By all means he should've died the instant he made contact with the red, concentrated bubble of pain and stress that Kuma expelled from his captain's body.

His friends weep and berate him when he wakes. The ginger woman who found him screams at him to “stop flirting with death” and Sanji chuckles- she doesn’t know how technically accurate that statement is.

Later, Sanji guiltily looks forward to feeling that tug from Zoro once more, that pull on his power he feels when someone is nearing his domain. He's admittedly curious to learn more about him, this idiot swordsman who can see him, hear him, and yet isn’t at all scared of him. It's so rare for humans to accept him without a hint of fear.

He doesn’t let himself dwell on that tinge of nervousness at the back of his mind- what if the next time is the time he steals him away- from his friends, his dream, his captain? What if this time he doesn’t get back up?

But he does.

And when he lingers in the cold, empty room of Kuragaina castle where the bandaged swordsman is laid to rest, content to stare at his mossy head of hair, Sanji notices something weird. From his bedside seat, he can feel the ghost of body warmth.

He tentatively leans closer, his fingers reach out, expecting to go right through Zoro's arm. They recoil, as if burned by fire, when instead they meet soft flesh.

Huh.

Zoro's eyes blearily crack open, immediately finding his hovering form.

"You're... back."

And Sanji knows something changed, that day, on Thriller Bark. He's been on this earth for a long, long time, and he knows Zoro should be dead. Unequivocally so. And yet he isn't. Whether by the sheer strength of his willpower or his fervent defiance of the gods and the laws of this universe, Zoro is still...present. Alive enough to have warm, red blood flowing through his veins and air filling his lungs. Dead enough to perceive him, touch him, feel him.

War brews and Sanji has a lot of work on his hands. After the carnage, he wearily returns to Kuragaina, and Zoro, sullen, heavy with guilt, asks him if it's true. Asks him if the eye of this particular storm, the man known as Ace, is truly dead.

Death has long worn away at Sanji, a constant wave beating at the his endless empathy his father called a weakness, wearing him down with each soul he takes from this world. But he's never become numb to it. He openly, lovingly feels the sorrow with every loss, with each reaping, with every last breath rasped from trembling lips. He embraces it, cherishes it for all of its bittersweet taste.

So he tells Zoro of Marineford. Of the epic battle that occurred there between Whitebeard and the marines. With each somber word he feels just a little lighter- an unfamiliar, happy feeling blooming in his chest at getting to talk to someone after what feels like a forever of solitude.

Time passes, and Sanji visits him more and more, grateful for the rare company. It'd been so long since he last was able to have a decent conversation with someone. Joke around. Banter. Flirt? They grow closer, never really voicing the...whatever it is that passes between them. Zoro eventually returns to his crew, and Sanji avoids approaching him unless he's alone. Wouldn't want people to think he's seeing things.

It becomes a dance. A well oiled machine. Zoro cutting down the enemies before him, Sanji right behind him and guiding his fallen foes into the afterlife. Cut after cut, his blades sing in the air, accompanied by the groans and cries of the people Sanji welcomes into his waiting arms.

After a big battle Zoro is laying in the rubble, chest heaving from the effort. Sanji sits with him, solemn. Accepting. Enjoying his company, the only company he can keep.

Zoro still hasn't admitted that gods are real, even when he sees Sanji trail after the path his bloodied swords carve out, hard at work. Even when he sees Sanji's dark, draped silhouette raise into the skies, untethered - that’s just skywalk, he says.

Sanji grows fearful. Shaken by the feelings, the attachment he feels for the swordsman, like a tether to this world. It makes him feel more alive than he ever has, yes. But nothing good can ever come of it, and he knows the universe isn't kind enough to give him such happiness without the promise of a subsequent fall, a return to reality soured and made worse by what came before it.

It's a dark, rainy day when Zoro corners him on the Sunny. Sanji hasn't visited him in a couple of days- not much death without opponents around.

They're at the back of the ship, obscured by the mikan trees, and Zoro's hands are bracing him against the wall, locking him in. Sanji knows he could go through the wall, but Zoro's eye has him pinned, frozen where he stands. His arms lay lifelessly by his sides.

The swordsman leans in, cups his chin, and Sanji doesn't think- his eyes flutter shut, he's open and wanting as warm, chapped lips press delicately against his. They don't need words. They know. Can feel it with every tender touch as their bodies work together to deepen the kiss. Sanji loops an arm around Zoro's neck, hand digging into his hair, while the other bunches up the fabric of his kimono to bring him ever closer. He's pressed so tightly against him that he can almost pretend the beating feeling near his chest is his own heart, can almost feel the rushing sound in his ears, the warmth seeping into his skin, up his chest, his neck, cheeks, ears.

Zoro breaks apart for air, and Sanji hears himself mirroring his pants, so enamoured with the swordsman he feels like his breath was stolen away.

"Curls." Zoro's looking at him odd, nearly awestruck, eyes flitting across his face, his body, his hands reach out to take his hands in his, lightly massaging his flesh.

A stern feminine voice rings behind them, snapping their heads to attention.

"Zoro, who the hell is this man you're kissing behind my mikan trees?!"

#zosan #zoro x sanji #i just wanted to write a small text post #and then #aND THEN this #it's not very good i'm sorry #but i kind of really like this concept #of death god sanji #and constantly near death experience Zoro #if i had more time i would love to see them fall in love slowly #maybe explore Zoro's complicated feelings if he lets himself be in dangerous situations just to see the ethereal man in black robes #sanji defnitely haunts his dreams #black leg sanji #roronoa zoro #zosan fic idea #zosan drabble #zosan fic #obviously at the end what happens is that just like how Zoro defies the laws of existence #Sanji is tethered back and kind of alive in a way again #or you can interpret it how you like #i like to think that then they die together one day and get to be death gods together maybe #and because Zoro and Sanji got to be known in the human realm #people start worshiping them properly #god of death Sanji

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thejakeformerlyknownasprince · 1 year

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I know ax hates music but as probably cliche as it is, i feel like he would like fireflies by owl city. I think the main reason he doesn't like earth music is cause he was living in the 90s, aka the height of boy bands and spice girls and Brittany spears and although they can be fun, for me at least a lot of them were acquired tastes. They are very in your face to say the least. I think he would like more relaxing stuff.

At first hes confused by the song "what does this mean????" But then starts vibing with it.

If y'all had to nominate exactly one human-made song that Ax actually kinda likes, what would it be?

We have one vote for Fireflies by Owl City.

My vote is Sandstorm by Darude.

#animorphs #ax-man #aximili esgarrouth isthill #love the idea that in this universe he's constantly a) terrified and b) fascinated by the notion that if he falls asleep in the wrong place #then he'll be carried off by 10000000 bugs and possibly deposited outside of earth's atmosphere to die #all in an ill-conceived effort to teach him to dance

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vamprlestat · 4 months

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design for the track ‘fall for me’ by sleep token | whale fall | from here to eternity, caitlin doughty | midtnight mass, mike flanagan | the amber spyglass, philip pullman

#i was reading about this place will become your tomb and how they used a whale fall as the design for fall for me #and that instantly reminded me about from here to eternity #that book made me realize i want a natural burial #like just wrap me in a cloth and bury me in a hole in the ground and let nature consume me until there’s nothing left #and later that same day i rewatched episode 4 of midnight mass which has that amazing riley monologue about what happens after we die #AND THEN it got me thinking about this passage from his dark materials #that was probably the first time i came into contact with the idea of our atoms going back to the world when we die #little old 13 years old me read that and still thinks about it today #anyway #the whole idea of our bodies having a purpose in death #love that #sleep token has me constantly receiving psychic damage since i started listening to them about a month ago #sleep token #caitlin doughty #from here to eternity #midnight mass #his dark materials

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ox1-lovesick · 2 months

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#life update nobody asked for lol #I missed you guys my pookie wookie dookies #I deleted all my social media and life is so great wow #still a lot of mental health problems but I'm finally learning to deal with my emotions and not hate life (wow)#is it bad for me to say I'm so glad I left blr #I will probably never come back here lol but I think (?) today is txt's debut anniversary and since I am the self proclaimed empress of moa #downgrading to a flip phone actually #I unstanned txt and all the kpop peoples too (SHOCKER)#I do feel really nostalgic and sad when I think about them but I think it was the thing I needed most #delulu is infact not the solulu #daydreaming about beomgyu being the new student at my school and being soobin's bestie was never the greatest idea hey #it's so freeing to not care about them and focus on what's infront of me #if you need a sign to start growing out of kpop and start worrying about your own life here it is babe 😭 don't let anybody give you shit #Not to say kpop is bad or anything I just think for me it was getting a bit out of hand #As much as we all make fun of the delulus it's so easy to fall down that spiral when these idols constantly tell you they love you #The parasocial relationship was REAL istg these people felt like my friends #Hueningkai does not give a FUCK about me and he is so real for that #Thinking about deleting this blog but I'm logging off after this so I very well may forget it exists again #But I just wanted to share what's been going on #And I miss you guys a lot #I may have outgrown kpop and tumblr but you all still have a special place in my heart #I miss the good old days 😭 when discord let's me back in I might visit wme #Not much has changed with me but mentally I feel like a whole new person #But I hope you all are doing GREAT #Living your best lives and doing things that make you happy #You owe it to yourself more than you owe these celebrities anything #xoxo savie 😝🤟🤟🔥🔥🔥

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miniagula · 1 month

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ghouls. is this a safe space. bc i actually really love vaggie and i really really want to love her relationship w charlie but series charlie sometimes makes me want 2 eat drywall in the not-fun way

to tldr it: shit just didn't live up the way i thought it would be lmao

idk what it is that's giving me the bad taste in my mouth but particularly off the dome it's her desire w BEING GOOD and her disdain for hell, the show's pacing, and her inability to stand up for herself? like. why are you apologizing to the angels trying to kill you‼️‼️

sometimes it felt like charlie only rlly cared abt heaven and being good rather than loving her people for what they were, and doesn't seem to mind violence as long as it's undertaken for her own gain. and i don't have a problem with that! i thought they were interesting traits/conflicts that would get some more focus but they. didn't.

and vaggie. i LOVE vaggie so much. i love her design, i love her voice, i love the fallen angel background, i love she has so much love for charlie. ik that last bit is a point of contention for people but i loved it, and i thought all of it would also get more focus and it also didn't

#*shaking charlie by the shoulders* you are the 200y/o eternal princess of hell!!#why are you shooting fireworks at the angels trying to kill you!!#she's not a baby! she's not new to violence!#im not explaining it well but it was so frustrating to watch #but on the other hand #i've been toying w the idea of charlie knowing the whole time abt vaggie's secret‚ and trying to constantly reassure her that she's loved #& like instead of reacting w fear at the trial its just resentment for adam bc that was something VAGGIE was supposed to tell her #in her own time #it would've been a lovely addition to how so much of vaggie is love for charlie. so much of them is love for the other!!!#but it just. falls flat.#who knows! hopefully this will all be solved in s2 #but potential-wise i can't help but feel like i just watched someone continuously throw away plates of good food #in any case. vaggie i'm getting you out of there #hazbin hotel critical #long tags #this isn't to like rag on the show; just my personal grievances #i want it to be amazing! but sometimes it felt like i waited years for smth that wasn't worth it

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burning-academia-if · 7 months

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Hey, I just remembered something!

I think you said ???'s romance is not possible on the Day path? I'm not interested in them (well, that way, I mean) anyway, so it won't be an issue to me romance wise, but is it actually possible to have a good or at least decent relationship with them on the Day path, or not even that? And well, that applies to any RO if the MC is on a path incompatible with their romance I guess (though I don't remember if others were in that case).

Of course, feel free to ignore this one if it's too spoilery to answer though!

On a (I think) less spoilery note about the paths and ROs, will the paths impact how the possible romances pan out? Or not so much? Or will it depend on the character?

Anyway, thank you for entertaining my multiple questions on that matter. It seems it's endlessly fascinating to me!

Yep! So basically you can "romance" ??? on Day path but it's more a doomed romance/tragedy then an actual romance. The only other character this happens with is Rhea on Night path. I think I mentioned before but this is more a 'theme-driven' story then anything else and the characters represent the exact opposite themes of those paths, essentially. (Also again, I'm not promising anything in regards to poly routes, but on the off-chance I do, they'll be path specific for this very reason. Beck x MC x Rook would be locked to Dawn and Day for example). ALSO quick edit forgot to mention, but even outside of romance, it will still play out like a tragedy if you have a high friendship stat with them.

As for the paths, they will play like completely separate routes/story lines that splinter off after a certain point. Basically, you'll hit a key plot point and whatever your path is set on at that point locks you into that arc. Because the plot/events will be unique to each path (save for a few key ones), the romances for each path will play out differently as well! Romancing say ??? in the Dawn Arc vs the Night Arc is a completely different experience for example, it also lets me (and the player) explore different faucets of their personality.

Most of the details I'm still figuring out and I know a lot of what I have written down may change, but everything stated above is officially set!

#em answers #BA: structure #one of the things I'm figuring out is character friend/love stats because I don't like the idea of wrong choices either #like obviously there are Bad Choices that will have a negative impact #but I don't think choosing like the distant or quiet or cold choice should have a negative impact on that relationship #like that's likely just your MC's personality #I have a few ideas in mind on how I want to handle it but I think I'll figure it out the more I write the story #this would also be adding even more work on my plate but I think it'd be fun if like #there were two different version of the friendship and love stats #like your feelings towards them and their feelings towards you #like come on imagine the drama of making an RO fall for you #but you constantly choose options that state you don't care for them #(or if you want to suffer you catching feelings for the RO but not them for you)#it's a Very Fun idea I have in the mountain that is my maybe pile #anyway I'm ranting I'm so sorry lmfaO

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sesamenom · 20 days

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some funny snippets of a tentative timeline for the reverse gondolin au

#silm #silmarillion #not art #reverse gondolin au #Gondolin-born Prince Elrond is a bit more active in numenorean politics #primarily attempting to keep them from self-destructing #numenor still Falls after sauron establishes his weird morgoth death cult #because having numenor around in the TA means there wouldn't be a war of the ring in the first place #but like 60% of them are still Faithful #they establish themselves in Imladris under Tar-Miriel & Elrond (Tar-hanotur? Tar-airatur?) btw #Prince Elrond is quite fascinating to write #also yes annatar is literally booted out under lomions advice #celebrimbor still struggles with his overly-trustingness #luckily for everyone lomion has no such reservations #lomion: tyelpe i know you dont trust yourself on this but. you trust me right #tyelpe: of course #lomion: okay then somethings up with that guy. get him out of your house asap #tyelpe: thanks will do #debating whether to kill off celebrimbor here? if he does die it would be in battle next to lomion so sauron doesnt learn of the Seven #also this tyelpe & lomion have been actively using the Three in battle since FA 500something #they're pretty experienced at the magical siege warfare stuff #so maybe celebrimbor makes it out alive but injured?#okay imagine a white council w assorted wizards; galadriel; cirdan; elrond; the numenorean king in imladris; lomion; and celebrimbor #i feel like lomion and tyelpe balance each other out well enough (lomion is still quite pragmatic but less actively distrusting than maegli #and tyelpe is constantly making an effort to be Wise and Understanding #he doesn't trust himself on big decisions bc of the whole feanorion baggage. but he does trust his bff lomion #so their dynamic is kind of like 'tyelpe has a Good Idea; lomion Validates his Good Conscience and figures out how to execute it'#btwn making the Three a few centuries ahead of schedule and them balancing each other out galadriel-and-celeborn-style they're kind of op #idk how sauron amasses that much power in the SA/TA of the au-verse

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formula-fun · 6 months

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au where charles is an architect and max is the structural engineer whos forced to deal with him and the target audience is me

#the premise: they both work for huge london firms #charles is an associate and he's working on this project in italy thats unnecessarily elaborate and organic #its like. zaha hadid meets rem koolhaas #like its just a lot #max really doesnt want to deal with it but his firm has an agreement with charles' firm #and they all drew straws and max lost because he was late to work that day because he was hungover #so now its his problem #the project is a multibillion dollar art gallery in italy owned by lewis hamilton who is an art dealer #every piece of this thing has to be custom made. every beam every joint every window #the whole thing #max and charles have to travel across europe constantly to all these different factories to oversee the quality #its really REALLY annoying #but they bond a lot during their trips and actually it turns out they have really similar tastes and ideas #they both want to do more or less the same things #impassioned drunken speeches in hotel bars about architectural theory and the inherent beauty of physics #that kind of thing #at the end they quit their jobs to start their own firm #they shamelessly poach all their friends from their previous companies #the hamilton deal actually falls through as well because it turns out lewis is fucking charles' principal (sebastian)#their firm immediately fires him and then lewis hires him privately #and sebastian designs him this very nice little sustainable vernacular architecture gallery which wins like 10 awards #its on the cover of architectural digest. the founder of his previous firm? fuming.#and they all live happily ever after the end #writing tag

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theokusgallery · 5 months

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I freaking love your au and your latest comic because MAN

I FELT THOSE LAST WORDS AND I WAS LIKE "OH FUCK"

First panel was already a bit unsettling itself - like you get it's just intimate manners as you do as a couple but he felt so possessive already and

Sunny's inner thoughts

I'm sure 100% his abandonment anxiety will increase drastically the more he stays with nick and honestly slay

I mean it's kinda obvious

But like I felt that

Yeah

Nick is unhinged

Nick is crazy

Y'all are gay for him

Good 😵💥

Sunny has soooo many issues. So many of them. He's so vulnerable and he makes himself vulnerable to Nick while still being intimidated by him, it's... Dude's got some problems.

#ive talked about mental illness and nick before but not sunny...#well. only a bit. ive said sunny's autistic #but he's also got other problems-- such as abandonment issues as you said #sunny's very insecure in relationships - partly because he has a very limited experience with them #and partly because he has self image issues.#when you grow up as an undiagnosed autistic kid you tend to be very aware you're different while not knowing how to change it #everyone thinks and says you're weird but you have no idea what's weird about you so you can't even try to fit in #a friend of mine told me once that she thought i was so brave for not being scared of being different in middle school #i wasn't. i wasn't brave. i just had no idea why people thought i was weird #sunny in this au knows how deeply different he is from other people but he doesn't know /what/ makes him different or how to change it #and as a result he just doesn't open up very much. he's very reserved and doesnt talk to many people. he has like two friends total #which also conviently makes him easy for nick to isolate #sunny also has bpd! and he gets deeply attached to people who show him any kind of affection very easily #as i mentioned before he also tends to fall for people who intimidate or scare him -- people he sees as mentally superior to him #his self image is constantly oscilliating between 'im the greatest person to have ever lived' and 'im the worst thing to have ever existed'#he's extremely unstable. he has mood swings. he gets obsessive easily. he seeks out relationships with mostly toxic or older people #he doesn't have a good support system. he's socially anxious and an introvert. he's openly trans. most people think he's weird.#he has no stable sense of self. he has panic attacks. he's both hypervigilant and oblivious to lies and attempts at manipulation #all of this makes him a very easy target for someone like nick.#at least- at /least/-- nick genuinely loves him.#ask #tosteur-gluteal #rant #arsenic #i start talking about psychology and i get lost. my apologies

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kurara123 · 2 months

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Leia and Boba

#ok so i need to glue the red material because it constantly falling off so no more photos till i fix it #and i need more poses references!! dm me if you have idea or photo #sw #star wars figures #boba fett #princess leia #leia #leia organa #slave leia #rebelbounty #boba/leia #i gave this post age restriction because i don't want be shadowbanned or worse by tmblr :P #my post #sw figures

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pepprs · 7 months

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i wish i wasn’t depressed lol

#or whatever it is i am. it’s really making things hard. i feel like i suck except i don’t actually suck it’s just that i feel like i do and #feeling like i do actually makes me suck legitimately. so whatever #purrs #i don’t even know how to put it into words. im stuck in my life and if im not stuck im falling behind. i kinda got in trouble at work a #little bit for not staying on top of these 2 things and i feel so horrible abt it bc it was my idea to do it in the first place but i bit #off more than i can chew which is what i always seem to do. im falling behind or stuck in every possible aspect of my life rn it’s sooooo um #not great. and i feel insignificant and small constantly and anyway i have to worry about grad school LOL. pain #i don’t even know how to say it right like that’s how sad i am. i can’t even articulate it. im exhausted especially with myself.#i wish i could just snap my fingers and stop being miserable bc it makes everyone else around me miserable but i don’t know how to stop #like if you think about it i am kind of bad at my job. the worst possible thing for me to be. ermmmmmm 🤭

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ilmaveivi · 13 days

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did they just call mikko the team's safety blanket 😭😭

#i remember when he was but a little moose constantly falling over #avs lb #no idea who said this btw. i was going through streams trying to find one that didn't instantly lag and that was the only thing i heard

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aeide-thea · 9 months

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this is such a real and infuriating issue—the fact that female athletes have actually gotten fined for wanting to wear actual clothing while competing, and not just underwear, is absurd and enraging—but i really wish people wouldn't react to it, as the linked article does twice, by turning around and making claims about a need for 'women's specific design,' as if all women were the same shape???

i mean, setting my actual gender identity aside for a moment, i'm afab with a totally endogenous hormonal situation, so from a binarist perspective on physical sex, i get shoved into the girlbox without any real hesitation—and yet i not infrequently find men's clothing a better fit than women's, because my shoulders are broader, my ribcage wider, and (of late) my waist-to-hip ratio smaller than women's clothing tends to expect; and because i find pressure on my abdomen uncomfortable, i've been very grateful to be able to ignore womenswear's turn to high-waisted pants, and stick with midrise menswear.

i could list more examples, just drawing on my own physique and the physiques of cis people i know, but i'll spare you—really my point is just, i wish we were better at the kind of feminism that reacted to gendered inequalities by making more space for individual people and individual preferences, instead of falling back into the trap that says women deserve special consideration because they're a special case. women aren't an asterisk; they're an enormous swath of the spectrum called humanity, and there's variance within that swath just as there's variance within any subset of humanity you care to define.

#genuinely this IS just my personal pet peeve and the article deserves yr consideration separate from my complaints here #bc holy shit is this issue of women's athletic uniforms a serious and maddening one #but it's just like. it's a fucking terrible defense to fall back on this idea that 'actually women should get Women-Oriented Treatment'#when in fact in many cases what's being complained of here IS Women-Oriented Treatment‚ aka: sexism #being like 'well we like sexism as long as it's the benevolent kind that says we're special with special curves' is not the solution #not to constantly be referring back to gawain/ragnell but actually what women and other gender minorities need is: choice #don't give me Woman-Shaped Pants‚ give me my pick of all the pants that are on the market!#and frankly the article even touches on that—there's a bit in it about the brooklyn liberty‚ a wnba team whose uniform has options #of shorts with three different lengths‚ and jerseys with different necklines #and how having those options 'allows you to be who you want to be'#so it's like. you get it‚ ms. friedman! you wrote it!#now just unpack yr reflexive conditioning that wants to fall back on these objectively inaccurate claims of universal dimorphism!

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