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For the Longest Time: Chapter 7

William Miller x Fem!OC (Lorelei Giang)

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Summary: Lorelei and runs into someone from Will's past. Later, Ben is in trouble.

Warnings: (This is a heavy one.) Bulimia, homophobia, self conscious thoughts, talk of euro-centric beauty standards, dinge drinking, puke and vomit (from the drinking, not bulimia endued), potential suicide attempt (it wasn't they just worry), mentions of "taking pills", stomach needing pumped, ER visit, risk of asphyxiation, Benny's alcoholism, Lorelei's worry of Will leaving her like her dad did.

Special thank you to @mrs-lockley for talking to me about Lorelei's character and correcting me to make sure things are more comfortable for everyone. As always, I am a white person who is trying to branch out ad not only write white characters. I want to be accurate and inoffensive, but I don't want to be colorblind. If I *ever* say something about a character that is offensive or inaccurate, please do not hesitate to reach out and correct me. I want to make sure I have a safe space for all my readers.

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Lorelei was going to kill Jana.

Not actually, her intention was nice. But did she have to suggest getting a massage when their fairly small town only had so many massage therapists, and one of which was Will’s ex-fiance.

She hadn’t purposely tried to get her; Lorelei didn’t even know her last name, just her first. Emily, and then a very polish last name she hadn’t been able to memorize in the brief sight she had. Lorelei didn’t think twice booking the appointment, not even knowing what Emily did. Hell, did she know if Emily still lived in town? When Lorelei saw her face, she recognized her. On their shopping trip, Lorelei had gotten just a bit messy and asked Laci if she had a picture of Emily. Laci, in fact, had Emily on facebook. When questioned if Will did, Laci said Will didn’t have a facebook. Smart man.

“Why do you have his ex? Did you used to see her a lot with the guys?”

“No, they broke up year before I met Santi, but I’ve met her couple times. She came to a christmas party last year.

Lorelei’s ear’s perked up at that. “Oh. Do her and Will still talk?”

Laci smiled a cheeky smile. “Are you jealous?”

“No! I’m just curious who's going to be around my baby and if she’s gonna have a step mom.”

Shaking her head and still smiling, Laci showed Lorelei the facebook profile. Fuck, she was pretty. Really pretty. Stunning, actually. Lorelei knew she was pretty enough. She had full lips, a slim face, and up until the pregnancy had a body she was proud of. Still, she found herself constantly comparing herself to european beauty standards. Lorelei couldn’t understand it. She was proud of how she looked; brown skin, thick, dark hair, brown eyes, but sometimes she still found herself comparing her features to other women, and often the ones who fit a euro-centric mold. She didn’t want to pass these feelings onto her daughter.

Since finding out they were having a girl, Will and Lorelei talked a little bit about Lorelei’s eating after she rested.

“Listen, you can’t tell him I said this, but Benny was bulimic in high school.” Will shifted uncomfortably. “Freshman year, he hadn’t really hit puberty yet. He was short, small, was getting bullied although I didn’t really know how bad it was for a while. I thought it was just like… y’know. Teenager stuff.” It was clear he felt guilty for letting any of it happen, but Lorelei sat quietly and let him talk. “I told him he needed to get out more, that moping in his room wouldn’t do anything, join a sport. He choose wrestling, and I don’t know if you know the connection with wrestling and eating disorders, but I sure do now.”

Lorelei nodded. “Yeah, I took a course on eating disorders in undergrad. I guess I was trying to figure myself out to. We learned wrestling triggers eating disorders in men quiet often.”

“Yeah, it got pretty bad pretty fast…”

“Is he still bulimic?”

Will shook his head. “Not that I know of anyway. Far as I know, he stopped sophomore year. I made him quit wrestling and he met a… well a friend, I guess. Yeah. His friend Cam helped him a lot. They were inseparable for two years until he left. Then Ben got depressed again and started on drugs. I left that year for the army and he just. Spiraled.” Will was fidgeting, constantly fixing up items on the coffee table to align in different ways.

She couldn’t very well tell him she stalked Benny and Will through Tyler’s yearbook pictures and she knew who Cameron was. “You needed to get out, I get it. I did the same thing when I turned 18.”

“17, actually.” Will chuckled, still not looking at her. “I graduated at 17 and got my dad to sign off on it. Started basic a few weeks after graduation.”

His dad would. Through more talking, Will expressed he wanted to learn how to be of better support, to help Lorelei in a way that he felt he failed with Ben.

“We’re having a daughter, I don’t want to pass the things my mom ingrained into me into Chloe”

“I don’t either, Lore. I don’t wanna make her feel the way your dads made you feel...”

Lorelei didn’t think that was possible. He could never be cruel. Hot headed, yeah, and he’d told her how he’s acted towards Laci in the beginning, but Will was the first of them to seak therapy, and had come a long way. He would never take his pain out on a child, especially his child. Their daughter. Her bio dad… she wasn’t sure.

It wasn’t that Lorelei though he’d leave, but she remembers her mom saying she never saw her dad leaving coming either. Being nice was easier than staying around. She was comforted by the fact Will’s whole life was her. His brother, mom, grandpa, his found family… but still, she couldn’t be sure.

Seeing Emily up close was even worse. She was in casual clothes and still looked beautiful as she greeted her cheerfully. No wonder Will loved her. She was happy, graceful, and welcoming. She bet Will called her princess.

Lorelei recognized her and realized the mistake immediately. God dammit Jana, you couldn’t let me know Will’s ex-fiance worked here? She would just have to get through this, act like she doesn’t know, pretend everything is fi-

“So what do you wanna know?” Emily said as she began on Lorelei’s neck.

“HM!?” She squeeked out, trying to sound casual. It was not working.

Emily gestured at pregnancy belly. “You’re having a baby with Will. I assume you’re here to find out about me since we were engaged. We haven't been romantically involved in almost a decade, and haven't been sexually involved for 5 years, which I’m sure he told you if you asked. I don’t want your man anymore, trust me.”

Clutching the cloth to her, Lorelei sat up, turning to the blonde. “Okay I know what it looks like!” She waited for Emily to start arguing or maybe get into a fight, but she just started back at her, curious but letting her talk. Emily seemed open to listening. “I just wanted a massage and it wasn’t even my idea it was Jana’s and you came up with good reviews so I went here and then I saw you and yes I recognized you because I found pictures of you because of course I did but I’m not here to stalk you, I’m not even dating Will!”

Emily visibly relaxed, even laughing a little bit. Her smile was warm. “It’s okay I found pictures of you too.”

Lorelei tried to calm down a bit. She was always hot tempered, but this was a different feeling. She wasn’t mad at Emily, but… anxious? Pregnancy emotions. “You… you did?”

She shrugged. “Of course. Will called me to share the news-”

“He called you?”

“Yeah, he was really excited, but really nervous. Wanted to talk to me about it. We were together for like, a decade. Sometimes he just needs someone to calm his spirals.”

Will did spiral a lot. “Have you… been talking to him recently?”

“Not much. He used to call when he was over thinking but he hasn’t done that recently. Said you calm him.”

She calmed him? Lorelei has never calmed a man in her life, outside of work. She is no man’s peace… William thought she was calming? Lorelei felt a sense of pride… she thought Will was calming too. “I don’t… I don’t think I do anything.”

“C’mon, lay down. You paid for an hour.” Gently, Emily coaxed Lorelei to lay down again and began massaging. “Sometimes he just needs someone there. Frankie is good at that too. Those two will sit in silence for 4 hours watching a game. First time they did that I walked over and asked if they were in a fight or something, they both looked really so confused.” Emily said with a laugh, and Lorelei couldn’t help but smile.

“Yeah, they uh… they are interesting.”

“I guess my point is, sometimes he just likes that. God know’s Benny isn’t going to calm anyone, and Santi is 5 feet of anger issues and attitude. He probably thinks of sitting with you as a love language.”

“Oh- we’re not-” Lorelei was quick to protest. “We’re not in love.”

“Sure you’re not.”

“We’re not!”

Emily laughed as she replied. “Okay, whatever you say. You’re just living with him, having his baby, spending time with his friends and family, putting up with Santi.”

Lorelei laid there for a while enjoying the pre-natal massage… she was good at what she did. No wonder Will proposed to her. Pretty, personable, and those hands… “How did you find pictures of me?”

“The same way I assume you found pictures of me. Through Laci. She posted a picture of you guys at the beach and I connected the dots. Can I ask why you are so insisted you don’t want to be with him? He’s clearly nuts about you.”

That made Lorelei’s ears perk up. Will? Nuts about her? “Huh? What’d he say?”

“Not explicit but, you know a man or as long as I’ve known Will-” Lorelei wished Emily would stop mentioning how long she’s known Will. “You can pick up on it. He was saying how much he admired you.”

He… admired her? Lorelei had never been admired before… “Huh?”

“He told me how you first met, how you weren’t afraid to put him in his place and controlled the room, how you took care of Benny, your concern for Laci… said he thinks you’ll make a beautiful mother.”

That first meeting… It's been over a year now since that day he and Laci took Benny to the ER… She recalls not liking him, thinking he was controlling, being suspicious he had hurt Laci… now she know’s he’d rather die than harm her, that he cared about Laci and Benny more than anything, that Laci’s inability to speak and her unwillingness to leave him side was not fear of him but fear of the world. Will would do anything for those two, Will would do anything for Santiago, and Frankie, for Jana and Rosie. For her.

Lorelei couldn’t stop thinking about the interaction for 2 days. She told Will she ran into Emily of course; it’d look bad if he found out from Emily. The words Emily had told her wouldn’t leave her head… there was so many ways Lorelei would describe herself, many positive, many not… but the way Will saw her, he had taken that interaction that Lorelei thought any man would find abrasive and annoying, he’d seen something beautiful in it… he thought she’d been a good mother…

It was a few days later when Lorelei got home at 3:29 AM from her night shift. She’d been taken off overnights due to the pregnancy, but tonight there was a car crash on the interstate so she stayed late to help until everyone was stabilized. It had been a hard day; she watched an 80 year old die from internal bleeding, but she spotted the signs of going into shock on preteen when the idiot Dr. Jones insisted she was perfectly fine. She could at least rest knowing she’d saved the young boy's life.

She told Will not to wait up, but she knew he would. He always did. Lorelei texted him updates occasionally, just to ease him mind because she knew he worried, and when her last text ‘Leaving rn. Best be asleep when I get home (this is a threat)’ was read at 3:12 am, she knew she was right. Never in her entire life did she think she’d be texting a man updates on where she was, but it was different with Will. Tyler always accused her of cheating. Her parents always accused her of sleeping around. Will just wanted to know she was okay. It was nice, honestly, knowing someone was waiting for her, but also knowing that person wasn’t going to tell her she had to come home. She just came home for him.

Home… Yeah, they had a home. She had to admit it now, she wanted him, she wanted a life with him… And goddamn did she want to fuck him again. Her vibrator had been getting the job done, but as her stomach grew, that became harder. She wanted his broad, warm body all over her, the way his mouth devoured between her legs, his hands so ready to please… he was a giver, and boy did he GIVE. God, she needed him. She’d give him the best blowjob of his life if he could just make her cum on his mouth like she did when Chloe was conceived.

Despite knowing he was up, Lorelei was surprised to see the lights on as she approached the front door. Will never left all the lights on. He left on the front porch light, then the oven light so she didn’t walk into darkness. And no, Will would not forget. He checked the lights and that any fire hazard was unplugged every night were unplugged. Multiple times… he really should get checked for OCD…

When she walked in, she was greeted with a nice sight of Will in boxers and a white tank top, showing off his arms and a small assortment of tattoos… and also looking very, very worried as he paced the floor and looked at his phone. Lorelei thought back to the day of his dads funeral, when he opened up to her about the child abuse and how she wanted to bad to protect baby Will. She couldn’t go back in time, and maybe Lorelei wasn’t the best at comfort… It was easier in the ER, people she didn’t have to be vulnerable with… but she needed to be emotionally open if she was going to raise this little girl. Lorelei couldn’t protect Will as a child, but she can be there for him now.

“William? What’s wrong?”

Will only briefly glanced at her. “Oh, hi, sorry um… somethings up with Ben…”

Of course it was Ben that had him up this late. “What’s going on?” She asked as she set her purse down. That was step one. Step 2 was taking off her bra, and she reached behind her back to unclasp it. Will wasn't phased, she’d been doing this for months.

“He sent me a bunch of drunk texts, they got more and more incomprehensible… I tried to call him after a while but he won’t answer.” Normally, Will would have Ben’s location just as Santi had Frankie’s before he got sober, but Alice made him stop sharing his location. In her defense, he didn’t go black out in bars anymore.

Lorelei slid off her bra straps and pulled the bra out through her shirt before tossing it into her room. “Have you called Alice?”

“Yeah, she sends me straight to voicemail, won’t answer my texts either.”

What’s her fucking deal? Santi had talked to Will about the fact Alice had forced Benny to cut most of his contact with Laci, who Benny had previously proudly called his best friend. Santi had hoped Will would say something to Ben, but Will took the stance that they were not Benny and Laci’s parent’s, and didn’t need to set up playdates. Lorelei had been very proud of him for setting a boundary. She liked, sometimes even loved his friends, but they all could use a few boundaries.

Will was pacing, clearly in distress and an obvious mental loop that was going to keep Will up all night. She wasn’t the best at comfort, but she could be practica. “Well, let’s go to his house.”

He stopped his pacing to look at her, and even in the shitty fluorescence his eyes were striking. She vividly remembers then staring up at her with nothing but wonder as she rode him- fuck, consentrait.

“Really? I know you’re tired-”

She waved him off. “It was a busy day, I’m pretty wired. It’ll take a few hours for me to fall asleep anyway.” She said, swollen feet throbbing in pain, feeling like she could lay down and be asleep before her head hit the pillow.

“I mean… I can do it myself. You should go rest, you need-”

Lorelei grabbed his keys. “Are you coming?”

“BEN!” Will shouted, banging on his door. Benny’s light was on and had car in the drive way, but no answer. “Fuck, something’s wrong, I can feel it…” He typed in Ben’s house code and entered the house. “Ben? You alright man?”

He wasn’t in the entry room or living area, but when Will rounded the corner and the kitchen came into view, the pair of legs with jeans bunched at the ankles caused his panic to spike “BEN!” Will ran to him, finding a passed out Ben in a state of undress, white underwear covering his butt, jeans at his ankles and a black shirt tangled up in his arms and face and the smell of puke permeating the air.

Will and Lorelei’s medical kicked in. Lorelei went for his shirt, knowing the puke wouldn’t help Will with his germophobia and Will set Ben into recovery position as more puke spilled out of his mouth. Not a good sign. “Ben! Ben, you need to wake up, man!” His voice croaked with emotion as he tried to wake the unconscious man.

Lorelei dialed 911. “Is he breathing?”

He wasn’t listening. “Ben! Come on!” He pulled his brother into his arms.

“WILL!” Lorelei shouted at him as she tried to speak to the 911 operator. “If he’s not breathing, you need to do CPR!” She told the operator the emergency and the address. She declined needing CPR instruction but set the phone down still on the line in case she needed to update. “Will, he needs-”

Ben began coughing and sputtering when Will slapped his back, hard.

“Ow.” A drunk Ben mumbles, but is breathing.

“Oh thank god” Breathing a sigh of relief, Will pulls Ben in closer, burying his face in Benny’s neck. He was okay. “Jesus, Ben! What the hell!”

Benny was still barely conscious, so they wanted to take him to the hospital anyway in case he had alcohol poisoning… Look at him better, Will could see he had a busted lips.

“Alice…” He murmurs. “She broke up with me… she…”

“We can talk later Ben, right now I need you to tell me if you’ve taken anything.”

“Mmmhphhmph” In comprehensible murmurs.

Will lightly tapped his face to get his attention, but the gesture made Benny gasp, attempting to scramble away from Will. “Hey! Hey, Ben, it’s me, it’s okay! I just need you to talk to me!”

For a moment, Benny’s eyes were wide and alert. He looked scared, and it took a lot of scare Ben… but when he saw it was Will, he relaxed. Will would take care of everything. Will would keep him safe. He always did. Ben’s eyes unfixed again.

“Pills…” then he was unconscious again, head flopping back in Will’s grasp.

That was bad. Lorelei watched as Will shouted, trying to get his attention, trying ask what fucking pills, why did he take them and so on.

“Will…” She tried to say. If he took pills, especially if he was going through a break up… knowing Benny’s past history with poor mental health, this might have been a suicide attempt.

“Ben, please… c’mon Benny talk to me…” Will’s eyes were tearing up, and Lorelei thought she was about to watch Ben die right there. Will’s love for his brother and panic he was feeling was clouding his ability to act, and Lorelei knew she had to take action to save Ben.

“Will!” She snapped, bending over and starting to adjust Ben in Will’s grip. Ben was 6’3 and heavy with his muscle, so it was hard but Will got the message. They needed Ben to throw up the pills he took.

They get him into position, bending him over and Will puts his hand to Ben’s mouth that already has vomit… then pulls it away to wipe his hands.

“Will, you need to act now.”

“I know! I know just…” He goes to try again, getting his fingers in there but retracting and wiping his hand again. “He already threw up didn’t he?” It was not enough vomit to extract what he potentially took.

After this, they were going to have a serious talk about Will’s germophobia. She wasn’t judging him; she knew he could do it if she wasn’t there and as someone who struggled with a severe eating disorder most of her youth, Lorelei knew how painful obsessions and compulsions could be. Eating disorders and OCD are often comorbid. Anything that was strong enough to make him hesitate on life-saving treatment for his precious baby brother must be so painful… but right now, there wasn’t time for empathy. Benny could be dying.

“Move.” Lorelei knelt by Ben, her pregnant belly making it difficult but not stopping her. “You hold him, bend him over, yeah like that.”

“Lore-”

She wasn’t listening. Lorelei jammed two fingers down Benny’s throat, only briefly moving her hand to the side to allow the vomit to escape, then going back in. Her arms were covered in the disgusting solution, the extraction splattering on her legs. Lorelei saw no pills, but that didn’t necessarily mean much. When there was nothing left to throw up, the red and blue lights were at his doorstep.

Lorelei took her light jacket and gave Ben’s bare chest a wipe down once over. “Take him to the ambulance, go with him, I’ll meet you there.”

Will scooped his baby brother up, all 6 feet of him. He turned to say something to Lorelei but she told him to go. They’d talk later. He looked guilt stricken, clearly hurt and feeling like a failure for not doing what he could. Lorelei smile softly at him and he headed out the door.

Lorelei took care of things here.

She wasn’t really religious. Vietnam itself practiced largely folk religions, and both her parents didn’t have anything to do with the religions of their parents… she knew now this was quiet common with the second generation in immigration. Her step dad’s family was buddhist, but it was more nominally than anything, but she did enjoy the philosophy. In short, she wasn’t sure what she believed, if anything… but she hoped whatever was out there took care of Ben.

Never in her life did she imagine she’d be taking care of men like this, cleaning up a kitchen full of vomit and gross clothing, packing up a bag of essentials for both Benny and Will… if this was an attempt, Ben would be getting put on a 72 hour hold. He’d want a few books. She never thought she’d take a little time to do Ben’s dishes so that they didn’t rot while he was gone.

But lately… it didn’t feel like she was a woman doing submissive things for a man because she was a woman and they were men. She did it because she cared about Will, and she cared about Benny. Seeing Benny like that made her sad… When she first started hanging around their group, Lorelei wouldn’t understand Laci and Santi at all. She didn’t understand how Laci could be happy in her position, so dependant on Santiago for money, cooking for him, cleaning, it all seemed so… motherly.

But as time went on, she started to see it different. Laci was largely dependant on Santi for money, yes, but Santi never held it over her. She didn’t have to ask permission for normal purchases, and bigger purchases were decided on together. She did a lot of the housework, yes, probably a majority of it, but Santi was building a whole ass addition to their house, took care of their car, mowed the lawn… And the cooking? Well, Laci loved to cook, and it wasn’t like Santi was afraid to put something together or do dishes… She understood now that the things Laci did for Santiago were not because they were expected of her as a woman, they were because she loved him, she wanted to care for him. She wanted to see Santi happy and healthy and Santi wanted the same for her.

Lorelei had never had someone outside her brother and sister she cared enough about to want to take care of them… but in this moment she realized that was Will to her, that was Ben, that was Laci and Jana and Frankie and yes, even Santi. Santi had been ready to throw hands for her at Mr. Miller’s funeral, and Lorelei would throw them right back for him.

They were a family she never thought she’d have.

Her phone chimed.

William Miller: They pumped his stomach. Benny was conscious for a while, said he hit his lip on the counter when he fell trying to undress. Says all he took was melatonin to go to sleep, I’m not sure I believe him. I hope you’re at home and asleep. Thank you for everything tonight.

He thought she just… went home?

*Calling William Miller*

“Hello?”

“Hey, William, I didn’t go home.”

“Oh. Where are you?”

“At Ben’s? I was cleaning up and going to head over. I wouldn’t leave you both like that.”

“No, Lore it’s okay, I want you to rest-”

“I can rest later. I’m on my way now with some things for both of you. Is he awake?”

Will signed over the phone. “No, he’s out again like a light. I’m gonna stay the night here. In the morning I’m gonna try and commit him. I don’t know if he’s lying about trying to kill himself or not but I can’t risk it.”

“Okay, text me where you are and I’ll come find you. Need anything from walmart or something?”

“Clean clothes.”

“Already packed some of Ben’s for you.”

“You get me.”

When she arrived, Will was awake and sitting slumped on a chair, watching Ben and listening to the melodic beep of his monitors. She pulled up a chair, Will didn’t have the energy to stand and greet her, but he welcomed the warm body that slide right next to him.

“He stable?” She asked.

“Yeah, doctors said it didn’t look like he took anything other than melatonin, but they want to monitor him over night. They said if he’s not willing to commit himself, they can’t make him.”

Will was not happy with that. How was he supposed to sleep at all knowing Ben was like this? Even if he didn’t try to kill himself, he was clearly as a low point to be drinking so much. Fucking Alice. He knew she was a bad idea.

“He say why they broke up?”

“No, but my guess is that she’s a fucking cunt.”

Oh. “You wanna tell me why you hate her?” Lorelei coaxed his head to lay on her shoulder and he was too tired to fight it. 5 months pregnant, she was not comfortable in the shitty hospital chair, but Will needed her right now.

“She was awful to him in high school. She fucking lead the crusade on bullying him for being gay. He wasn’t even out yet but… bullies always seem to know. Knew before I did, anyway. I thought they were just being shitty.” He paused to yawn. “He had this friend, Cameron… more than a friend. It was… complicated. In 2003, everything like that was complicated. I don’t know if you remember Matthew Shepperd’s death…”

“I do. Awful.”

She felt Will nod. “Yeah, that was in 98’ and… I don’t know if Ben knew what he was back then, but I remember it having an effect on him. Our dad had some… words to say about it. Ben and him broke out into a fight over it. I wasn’t there but I came home to Ben with a split lip, just like today. He iced it with a beer can. I remember thinking I was going to spend the rest of my life trying to keep him alive… Anyway, I think the Matthew Shepperd case scared Ben real bad, so when him and Cameron started, I dunno, seeing each other, he got real secretive about it. Didn’t even tell me, and he told me everything, I thought.”

“What happened to Cameron?”

“He turned 18. He was working on the farm nearly full time. Was good at what he did, too. My dad liked him more than me and Ben” He chuckled slightly. “He wouldn’t if he knew what they were doing on the barn roof, but that’s neither here nor there. Cameron had a pretty shitty home life so when he graduated he was supposed to move into the barnhouse and work for my dad, then when Ben graduated they were going to announce they were together and leave. I didn’t know that last part for years. All I knew was the day Cameron was supposed to come, he never showed. The next day Ben went to his grandparents- who he was living with- and checked on him, they said he left home. Just up and left. It was the first time since middle school I’d seen Ben cry. Was up half the night tryna make sure he didn’t do anything to himself.” Will sighed. “He didn’t have another long term partner until Alice.”

“Why would Ben be with her if she bullied him?”

Will shrugged. He never understood Ben. Never pretended too. “Ben see’s the best in people. Our leader on Delta, Tom, he was an asshole… Ben loved him though, thought of him like a dad. And Santi… before Laci, Santi wasn’t always the nicest. Ben had a crush on Santi too.”

He could feel her laugh. “What is it about Santi that’s got everyone wrapped around their finger.”

He laughed back. “I dunno, he’s certainly not my type.” Will could feel himself drifting to sleep. He tried to stay awake. Ben needed him… but Lorelei’s touch was soothing.

“And just what is your type, William?”

He couldn’t help it. He was so fucking tired, so exhausted, he couldn’t think straight. He wished he could tell her, make her know how much he loved her, how badly he wanted to be with her… his hand reached to caress her stomach with the back of his hand, feeling where his daughter, his Chloe, was growing in the safety of the woman he loved. “Pretty, short, hot tempered brunettes, apparently.”

He couldn’t see her facial expression, or feel her body language, but he could hear her soft voice as she wrapped an arm around him, rubbing his shoulder. “Sleep, handsome. Get some rest.”

“But Ben-”

“I’ll watch Ben. You just get some sleep.”

And sleep he did.

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I'm well aware Im writing this for like. 4 people only but I DONT CARE. Lorelei is so precious to me and I will see her through! She deserves a happy life with Will and her baby

A lil bit of a confession?!?!?! either way, Lorelei is able to show up for will and her new family <3

she loves them <3 and poor benny boo...

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One more ask about the East Blue Asylum AU! I saw you mentioned Germa 66 and that was something I thought about a lot as well! Whole Cake Island is my favorite arc, so please do talk about those Vinsmokes we all love and hate ^u^

Okay, well in my mind the Sora Warrior Of The Sea are fiction. They're like Batman or Superman but ig maybe more of a magical girl version of the power rangers???

I wanna say that WCI has to be one of my fav arcs as well I live it to bits! And that's one of the reasons I honestly don't know how to do it lol

I have a little post in my drafts about Zou but WCI I haven't really made up my mind. The two posts are kinda intertwined so I'll tey to post it right after this answer.

I did try to shower-think it and I came up with a few ideas but idk if I like them enough':)

At some point, Judge had started getting bad press for having a son he abandoned and is now in a mental hospital. He didn't know how the word got out, but it did and he decided that he'd get him out and treat him in some private place but it was very obvious that he didn't want to go and since he was a legal adult, he could decide for himself. (Even if he wanted to leave, the doctors were the only ones who could dismiss him after he signed himself in.)

About his brothers - They look a lot like the heroes from the Germa comics and act just as uptight and heartless as them. Subconsciously, Luffy must have mistaken them for "The Warriors Of The Sea". But in reality they're just brats who used to bully their brother - mean little kids who grew up to be even worse adults. Sanji's sister, however, I imagine has visited before, only this time she wasn't dressed like she was in hiding. The Vinsmoke family (in my head) is a bit like the Rockefellers - everyone knows who they are and it's hard to drop their name in a casual conversation and not get some kind of reaction.

In regards to his past - Sanji still got abused and beaten up by both his father and brothers. But instead of being a failed experiment, he was just a nice little boy who didn't like sports and competing in things, he just liked stereotypically girly things like butterflies flowers, cooking, and pretty things. His father didn't like that, as he believed that all his dons should be manly men who won chess tournaments, so soccer games, basketball matches or martial arts competitions. If they weren't the strongest, smartest, most handsome men in their circle, then they were no sons of his. And Sanji didn't meet that criteria. He didn't care for sports or competing, he just wanted to have fun and to have friends. Don't get me wrong, he was still smart. But wanting to be a cook is not exactly a good look if all of your family is just CEOs and multimillionaire company holders. Or at least in Judge's eyes. So when Sanji ran away at 12 (I'm making him older to make it more realistic), Judge just closed his eyes and reported him missing in the wrong region so he couldn't be found and so the investigation could declare him dead after the appropriate amount of years.

The golden bracelets were real, but they weren't exploding, Judge just used them to yank Sanji when he got mad at him and threaten him. "I'll cut them off till wherever they reach!" he'd say, so Sanji would wish to be skinnier so if they slip off, then maybe he wouldn't cut his hands off? That was his child logic at least. That's how his questionable relationship with food started, but later on he'd just starve himself to feel like he still has control over something in his life. Anything. That or as a punishment to himself, more than often he wouldn't believe he deserved food or he'd think that there are people with bigger needs than him. So he'd lose appetite and maybe feel sick enough to throw up. (Him having bulimia is one of the many reasons why hates himself and thinks he doesn't deserve food, because why eat if he'd just throw it up?(Zoro hates that he thinks that way btw and he tries feeding him every once in a while because he'd notice that Sanji could scarcely say no to him. Plus he likes taking care of him))

#east blue asylum wing au #sanji #germa 66 #wci au #answers #op

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religion-is-a-mental-illness · 11 months

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What are your thoughts on the He Gets Us ads that have been taking reddit like an eleventh plague upon religious trauma subs?

I'm going to be generous and assume that it's a problem in Reddit's algorithm. But then, I don't quite know how Reddit's ad system works. If it's deliberate, than it's unacceptable to be putting it into those types of subs. I'd hope people were reporting them as inappropriate. Imagine ads for Tinder in a spouse-abuse recovery sub. Or Triple Whopper ads in a bulimia recovery sub.

I'm sure there'd be endless complaints if the "there's probably no god" ad was targeted into /r/christianquestions.

They lost their shit and called it offensive when it was simply posted out in the open in public space. It's not like billboard trucks were parked right outside their churches.

https://www.theguardian.com/media/2009/jan/09/atheist-bus-campaign-asa

The advertising regulator has received almost 150 complaints that an atheist ad campaign, proclaiming "There is probably no God. Now stop worrying and enjoy your life", is offensive to Christians and other religions that believe in a single God.

"How dare you tell people to stop worrying and enjoy life?!? What's wrong with you, you monster?!?"

Regarding "He Gets Us":

https://www.forbes.com/sites/kerryadolan/2023/02/13/this-billionaire-is-a-donor-behind-the-jesus-focused-super-bowl-ads/

The group behind the Jesus-focused ads is He Gets Us, a limited liability company that says it’s an initiative of The Servant Foundation, a public charity and Christian foundation based in Kansas that last year launched a $100 million effort to improve the image of Jesus, as the Washington Post reported. One of the backers of the initiative is billionaire David Green, the founder of craft store chain Hobby Lobby, who is estimated by Forbes to be worth $14.8 billion.

I mean, he can spend his money however he likes, but it's weird that Jesus needs so much human assistance. Surely if he was real, they could just put him on TV. There's plenty of networks that would pay for the privilege. Why would I want to follow a savior and god who was that helpless? If he can't even convincingly exist, what's he going to do in the war against evil? (The evil he created.)

It seems like Xians are finally acknowledging the exodus - pun intended - of "nones."

https://www.usatoday.com/story/sports/Ad-Meter/buzz-meter/2023/02/12/he-gets-us-super-bowl-ad-commercial-jesus/11243476002/

In a September 2022 modeling, the Pew Research Center estimates that if Christians in the USA continue leaving religion at its current rate, Christians of all ages will shrink from the current 64% to “between a little more than half (54%) and just above one-third (35%) of all Americans by 2070.” The study also estimates that if current trends continue, those identifying with no religion will increase from the current 30% to “somewhere between 34% and 52% of the U.S. population.”

Also in the above USA Today article:

a group touting itself as a “movement to reintroduce people to the Jesus of the Bible and his confounding love and forgiveness.”

You know, forgiveness for things we didn't do, which nobody else did either. Except the crime of existing as a human.

The "Jesus of the Bible" is a pretty nasty piece of work. It's only with modern interpretation, editing, revision and cherry-picking that he's been refashioned into the "gentle Jesus, meek and mild" we are told about today.

The "Jesus of the Bible" is a racist, sexist, xenophobic, slavery-endorsing, anti-Semitic mobster. I suppose in a way I'm all for reintroducing people to that, so I can go:

And from the Forbes article:

The ad ended with the phrase “Jesus loved the people we hate.”

As has been made abundantly clear, "Jesus" doesn't care about humans. He doesn't care whether you hate someone or not. All he cares about is whether he hates them or not. And whether he hates you or not depends on what you give him. He loves people who idolize him, not people who are good, decent or moral.

What you want is irrelevant; he just wants you to join his enablers and flying monkeys.

Matthew 12:30

He that is not with me is against me; and he that gathereth not with me scattereth abroad.

Luke 11:23

He that is not with me is against me: and he that gathereth not with me scattereth.

Jesus doesn't give a shit about you until you grovel at his feet and feed his rampant narcissism. That is, he's pathologically incapable - at least as far as fictional characters are capable of anything - of genuine, benevolent, sincere altruism.

Mark 7:25-30

For a certain woman, whose young daughter had an unclean spirit, heard of him, and came and fell at his feet: The woman was a Greek, a Syrophenician by nation; and she besought him that he would cast forth the devil out of her daughter. But Jesus said unto her, Let the children first be filled: for it is not meet to take the children's bread, and to cast it unto the dogs. And she answered and said unto him, Yes, Lord: yet the dogs under the table eat of the children's crumbs. And he said unto her, For this saying go thy way; the devil is gone out of thy daughter. And when she was come to her house, she found the devil gone out, and her daughter laid upon the bed.

Matthew 15:22-28

And, behold, a woman of Canaan came out of the same coasts, and cried unto him, saying, Have mercy on me, O Lord, thou son of David; my daughter is grievously vexed with a devil. But he answered her not a word. And his disciples came and besought him, saying, Send her away; for she crieth after us. But he answered and said, I am not sent but unto the lost sheep of the house of Israel. Then came she and worshipped him, saying, Lord, help me. But he answered and said, It is not meet to take the children's bread, and to cast it to dogs. And she said, Truth, Lord: yet the dogs eat of the crumbs which fall from their masters' table. Then Jesus answered and said unto her, O woman, great is thy faith: be it unto thee even as thou wilt. And her daughter was made whole from that very hour.

"Tell me you're a filthy dog and maybe I'll cure your daughter with my magic powers that cost me nothing to use as freely as I wish."

So, "Jesus loved the people we hate" isn't the selling point they think it is. Jesus loves Gerald Ridsdale and George Pell, for example. They'll join Hitler in heaven. On the other hand, he also hates the people we love. Such as my atheist parents; he regards them as "not with me" and therefore "against me."

Matthew 10:32-33

Whosoever therefore shall confess me before men, him will I confess also before my Father which is in heaven. But whosoever shall deny me before men, him will I also deny before my Father which is in heaven.

It's always about him. That's how narcissists operate.

"Jesus loved the people we hate" kind of blows the whistle on the whole "love the sinner, hate the sin" thing, though, huh? They're admitting they do hate "the sinner."

Remembering, of course, that Xian love is - like every cult - only for other Xians.

John 13:34-35

A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another. By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.

"My disciples" ... "love one another." There is no instruction for universal love, and obligatory love is a demonstration of not understanding love in the first place.

I'm not even sure who the ads are intended for. If you're already a Xian, why are they recruiting for a club you've already joined? And Jesus is clear: only belief is necessary for salvation.

And if you aren't already a Xian, why would these ads convince you of the existence of this storybook character in the real world? It seems to be the Xian refusal to acknowledge that people legitimately don't believe what Xians and the bible claim, and are just "angry" at or "hate" their fairytale characters.

Circling back, I hope, and am going to be charitable and give them the benefit of the doubt until I see evidence otherwise, that they're not being predators deliberately targeting the ex-religious subs, and that it's just the algorithm putting "topic = religion" together.

However, these are the same people who think that questioning whether any of it is actually true is a personal failing and moral flaw. And whine that non-believer blogs exist at all. All while $100m ad campaigns for their thing air on TV. The writing appears to be on the wall.

Next time you get a religious whiner, point out the "He Gets Us" campaign and tell them to either be consistent and condemn it, or else shut up.

#ask #christianity #He Gets Us #jesus christ #religion #religious privilege #Jesus loved the people we hate #religion is a mental illness

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It’s like a fucking ritual every fall.

Im back bitches but no crazy restrictions this time.

Past week my bulimia came back but it just makes me binge so i’m letting myself binge a bit to « recover » and try to be a bit healthier about the wl.

I just had a laxatives for the first time (ik right?!) i’m only back on this app for inspo and company.

I honestly just want to be the best version of myself skinnier, prettier, more popular but in the sense i like, i wanna be the best at my sport.

So wish me luck people these are my goals:

No snacks during school, something healthy and low cal for lunch and dinner, always doing my skincare morning and night, working out at least twice (for now) out of my regular training, keeping my space clean and GETTING GOOD GRADES

Easy right?

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jadelotusflower · 8 months

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Stargate rewatch: 1x06 Cold Lazarus

It’s crystal doppelgänger time!

We have abandoned the helmets entirely, now Jack in his cap is the only one with headgear.

Jack’s locker is next to Ferretti’s, do we assume he took over command of SG-2 when Kawalsky died?

In Jack's Van Dyck cigar box o' secrets: a b&w photo of two kids, his wedding ring, a culturally incorporate coin pouch, a picture of Jack with what we can assume is his mother, Jack in military getup, and lots of pics of Charlie at different ages.

Ok we get a timeline clue - Sam says she’s known Jack for “months”.

Oh hey, there’s a female scientist in the lab! Who talks to Sam! Is this the show’s first official pass of the Bechdel test? Okay Daniel is technically present, but the exchange is with Sam about EM fields. Checking the cast list she’s only credited as “laboratory assistant” but I’m going to go ahead and say it counts.

Poor Teal’c’s room is so sparse, and the way he reacts to the tv indicates that it’s new.

Teal'c: "You received permission for me to fire my staff weapon in the gateroom?" Sam: "Oh Yeah." Daniel: "Absolutely!" Hee.

Sam and Daniel are really paired up a lot in these early episodes, not only doing their science twin thing, but for the character moments.

Daniel is wearing surgical gloves to examine the crystal, seems prudent.

I don’t ship Jack/Sam, but I am amused by the physical resemblance between her and Sara. This is a cute outfit too.

You may remember Harley Jane Kozak as Susan (with the bulimia) in Parenthood or Helen (Harry’s ex) in When Harry Met Sally. She’s really great as Sara, she and RDA have a nice chemistry and sense of history and there's a palpable difference in her interactions with crystal!Jack here and real!Jack later.

“Holly Hannah!” Hee, I love Sam.

Teal’c rattles off the sports teams of Chicago - guess he was doing a lot of reading before he got that tv. Jack tells him not to forget the Cubs - earlier we saw a photograph of Charlie in a Cubs shirt so that’s a nice touch.

“I did not understand your injury.” This whole scene hits me, I feel so bad for poor crystal!Jack, just trying to make things right.

Sara is going to need a boatload of therapy after this. I know they intended this episode as closure to Jack/Sara and his grief over Charlie, but I would have liked to have seen her again.

I hope they sent the other crystal back too!

#stargate rewatch #stargate sg1 #1x06 cold lazarus #jlf posts

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iwanttobeskinnyyyyyyyyyyy · 1 year

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Intro

totally forgot I deleted all of my old posts so my intro isn’t up anymore lolz

MASSIVE MASSIVE MASSIVE TW!!!

BLOCK ME PLZ DON’T REPORT!!!

This is most definitely an ED blog. I am def not pro ED in any shape or form, I am extremely pro recovery! I just relapsed after being discharged from an out-patient program and this is my safe space and I need to vent. I will post vents, tracking and occasionally spo so dni if that’s not your thing!

Don’t you dare try to talk me out of anything, I’m grateful for any concern but this is my life and maybe one day I will go back into recovery but that isn’t what I want right now.

A Bit About Me!

You can call me Iz!

My pronouns are she/her

I’m a lesbian

I’ve been dealing with bulimia, social anxiety and depression (all diagnosed) for about 8 years

I like Genshin, anime, coffee, boba, cats, art, and sport

My dms are always open but be respectful, understanding and not creepy. if you cross any boundaries you will be blocked. I will not have anyone ruining my safe space again.

Stats:

idk my cw as I’m still terrified to step on the scale and I wasn’t allowed to know during treatment but I def know I've gained

cw: ??

gw: 50kg

ugw: 40kg

height: 164cm

DNI:

any type of asshole thank you very much <3

e.g. ana coaches, racists, homophobes, misogynists, etc...

#ed bllog #tw ana diary #ed but not sheeran #ed disorder #ed relapse #disordered eating thoughts #ed vent #tw ed rant #tw ed diet #tw eating issues #tw ana shit #tw ed descussion #i will be thinner

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Is that CHRIS HEMSWORTH? No, that’s RIVER HANSON. The 36 year old AIR VAMPIRE OMEGA DUAL-NATURED MALE is a SALESMAN AT A SPORTS EQUIPMENT STORE. If you ask their friends, they’re known to be FRIENDLY & FUNNY, but beware, they’re also known to be SNEERING & SARCASTIC. Their friends also say that they’re into DEGRADATION & BREEDING but don’t you dare trying INFANTILIZATION and with them.

During childhood River struggled a lot with the scale, he was a very overweight child and unfortunately not everyone was so kind about it. After spending years of his life hating his own body, puberty hit him like a bullet and soon the lonely and neglected child became the one who drew passionate sighs wherever he went. His body went through many changes, he was now unrecognizable and this made him more confident, but only superficially, within himself he had not yet learned to love his own body, if thanks to his new appearance he received validation from others it mattered little how he saw himself.

When he was 17 he started to develop bulimia, people around him only found out about it after he went through a near death situation. Fortunately, he was always surrounded by people who helped him deal with this problem during the years of treatment, even after he was fully recovered, remembering all the bad times he went through until he was finally able to heal. He currently works at a sports equipment store and on weekends he gets together with friends who joined him in a garage band called "Night Fang" just over 10 years ago, they were one of the main sources of support for River in the most difficult period of his life.

#character status: taken #character name: river hanson #species: vampire #second gender: omega

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thinkhealthylivecreative · 2 years

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Cześć wszystkim! Chciałabym się Wam przedstawić jako, że jestem nowa oraz przedstawić moją historię.

Nazywam się Agnieszka. Mam 24 lata. Jestem studentką 4 roku prawa. Połowę życia jeździłam konno sportowo aczkolwiek przerwałam to z powodu wypalenia, braku możliwości rozwoju - kwestie finansowe, a to niestety drogi sport. Następnie poszłam w karate i spełniłam swoje małe marzenie o sztukach walki. Były wielkie plany i marzenia o zawodach lecz zerwane więzadła i pęknięta łąkotka zabiły mój głód o medale. Dziś już trenuje bez zapału, głównie chodzę dla ludzi i towarzystwa. A moją 'obsesję' odwiesiłam do szafy w obu przypadkach. Co do zaburzeń odżywiania.. Zachorowałam 4 lata temu. Psychiatra zdiagnozowała od razu u mnie bulimię aczkolwiek nie jestem pewna czy to była prawidłowa diagnoza, gdyż nie prowokowałam wymiotów (bulimia mi się głównie z tym kojarzy). 2 lata temu odwiedziłam kolejnego, nowego psychiatrę, który mi zdiagnozował EDNOS (zaburzenia odżywiania nieokreślone). Ale wszystko było w miarę pod kontrolą. 2 miesiące temu zaczął mi się nawrót - wróciłam do 1000 kalorii, a kiedy zjadłam więcej - nocne, nieprowokowane wymioty, a następnie podróż do szpitala. Finalnie po badaniach i kroplówkach zalecili resztę badań i lekkostrawną dietę. Odwiedziłam psychiatrę jak zalecali mi w szpitalu i.. EDNOS + graniczenie z anorektycznymi zaburzeniami odżywiania. Wróciłam do liczenia kalorii (mniej niż 1000) i zasłaniałam się tym, że nie mogę za dużo jeść bo będę wymiotować, nie mogę nic tłustego, bo zwymiotuję.. To był mój punkt zahaczenia, coś co mnie trzymało przy mocnych głodówkach. Stwierdziłam, że tym razem zrobię to raz, a porządnie. Cel? 55 kg, potem 53, 50.. Przy wzroście 170 moja waga waha się między 60-62, naprawdę bywa różnie. Nie wiem co to równowaga w jedzeniu, zawsze miałam ten niepohamowany apetyt od wielu lat. I zawsze chciałam po prostu ważyć mniej, ważyć tyle co kiedyś, być chuda, nie czuć tłuszczu, mieć płaski brzuch. Ja chciałam być idealną wersją samej siebie, w końcu się sobie podobać. No i niedawno doszłam do momentu, gdzie moje BMI było w punkcie niedowagi - 53 kg. Byłam przeszczęśliwa i chuda, naprawdę dobrze się czułam psychicznie i byłam uśmiechnięta! I cudownie się czułam w swoim ciele. W końcu czułam swoje kości. Chciałam dojść do 50 kg. Ale nie dałam rady.. W ostatnich dniach zaczęłam mdleć, już nie miałam na nic siły, ledwo wstawałam i chodziłam. Zero energii, a na karate walczyłam o przetrwanie. No i zaczęłam recovery, a z nim EH. Aktualnie fatalnie się czuje psychicznie. Moja waga wynosi 58 kg, a ja nie mogę się z tym pogodzić. Kiedy byłam chuda, byłam szczęśliwa. Podobałam się sobie, uwielbiałam zakładać te za luźne ubrania, uwielbiałam czuć zimno. Nie wiem jak w tym wytrwać, dlaczego zawsze kiedy idę tą drogą to muszę się cofać? Ciężko mi wrócić do tego co było, nie potrafię znaleźć siły. Jak Wy to robicie? Nie mogę tkwić w jedzeniu i aktualnej wadze, fatalnie się czuję. Chce znowu być chuda i szczęśliwa. A teraz nie jestem.. Pozdrawiam Was wszystkich! Dziękuje za przeczytanie!

#4norexla #to the bone #ana #recovery #me #ana angels🪽#cassie skins #ednos #ed #eh #eating disoder trigger warning #tw eating issues #healthy eating #disordered eating mention

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Your Guide to Finding The Best Dietitian in Delhi: Navigating Nutrition

In today's rapid-paced world, prioritizing our health can often take a backseat. This is particularly true on the subject of nutrition. We juggle busy schedules, rely on comfort foods, and may not have the know-how to make the most excellent food picks. This is where dietitians, also referred to as nutritionists, come in. They are qualified healthcare specialists who can guide you toward a healthier and happier you via personalized nutritional recommendations.

Finding the best dietician in Delhi can appear daunting, especially with such a lot of alternatives to be had. But agonize no longer! This manual will equip you with the knowledge and steps to navigate the world of vitamins and find the perfect dietitian for your desires.

What is a Dietitian and How Can They Help You?

Registered dietitians (RDs) are healthcare specialists who have gone through rigorous educational education and clinical experience. They are specialists in meal science, nutrition, and human fitness. Dietitians will help you with a lot of issues, together with:

Weight management: Whether your intention is weight loss, weight gain, or keeping a healthy weight, a dietitian can create a customized plan to help you obtain it safely and sustainably.

Medical conditions: Dietitians can play a critical position in coping with numerous fitness conditions like diabetes, heart ailment, high blood pressure, and digestive issues via healing diets.

Sports vitamins: For athletes and fitness fanatics, a dietitian can lay out a weight loss plan that optimizes overall performance and healing.

Eating issues: Dietitians can provide guide and guidance to people struggling with consumption problems like anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, and binge consuming disease.

Food hypersensitive reactions and intolerances: If you've got meal allergic reactions or intolerances, a dietitian will let you create a secure and exciting ingesting plan that meets your dietary desires.

General fitness and health: Dietitians also can endorse wholesome eating habits for standard well-being, inclusive of improving electricity stages, intestine health, and immunity.

Finding the Best Dietitian in Delhi: Key Considerations

Here are some important factors to consider when searching for the best dietitian in Delhi:

Credentials and experience: Ensure the dietitian is a registered dietitian (RD) with a valid license. Look for someone with experience in your specific area of concern.

Consultation style and approach: Consider factors like the dietitian's communication style, their approach to dietary changes (gradual vs. drastic), and their willingness to address your individual preferences and limitations.

Location and accessibility: Choose a convenient dietitian for you, considering factors like travel time and online consultation options if available.

Fees and insurance coverage: Inquire about consultation fees and whether your health insurance plan covers the dietitian's services.

Questions to Ask a Dietitian During Consultation

After you have narrowed down the small list of dietitians, set appointments to the meetings where you will know their approaches and also the connection between them. Here are some questions to consider asking during your consultation:

Here are some questions to consider asking during your consultation:

Which scholarly and professional domains related to my field have you covered?

What is the typical procedure described for conducting consultations?

How do basic meal plans look like?

Can you help you put the tactics you've learnt into practice and offer you more consultation?

The first thing I would want to know is how much your services cost and if you accept insurance.

Could you recommend any books, articles, or other online or offline resources?

Building a Successful Relationship with Your Dietitian

Choosing the best dietician in Delhi is the same as the first step only. Attainment of the most excellent results necessitates you to develop a cooperative and trustful relationship with your nutritionist. Here are some tips:

Be honest and open: Give proper information about your health history, dietary food, and what sort of difficulties or problems you have for your consulting dietitian.

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Messina, Giornata nazionale del Fiocchetto Lilla per sensibilizzare la popolazione sul tema dei disturbi alimentari: illuminazione per palazzo Zanca

Messina, Giornata nazionale del Fiocchetto Lilla per sensibilizzare la popolazione sul tema dei disturbi alimentari: illuminazione per palazzo Zanca. In occasione della Giornata nazionale del Fiocchetto Lilla che si celebra ogni anno, il 15 marzo, per sensibilizzare la popolazione sul delicato tema dei disturbi della nutrizione e dell'alimentazione, ponendo l'attenzione sulle strategie di prevenzione, diagnosi e cura, il Comune di Messina, partecipa alla campagna di sensibilizzazione illuminando di lilla palazzo Zanca, domani, venerdì 15, il colore simbolo della Giornata riconosciuta ufficialmente con direttiva del presidente del Consiglio dei ministri dell'8 maggio 2018. L'iniziativa promossa dall'ANCI, rivolta a tutti i Comuni per accendere i riflettori sulla problematica dei disturbi alimentari, è stata accolta dal sindaco Federico Basile, che ha anche aderito alla richiesta dell'Asp Messina di illuminare di lilla il Palazzo municipale con la quale sono state promosse nel corso della settimana iniziative in sinergia con l'Azienda Sanitaria Provinciale della città. "Lo scopo della Giornata Nazionale del Fiocchetto Lilla è quello di porre maggiore attenzione a questo fenomeno in crescita, noi come Amministrazione – afferma l'assessora alle Politiche della salute Alessandra Calafiore – siamo sempre sensibili non soltanto a adesioni simboliche, bensì il nostro obiettivo è creare una rete di supporto per chi soffre di disturbi alimentari, fare informazione e prevenzione attraverso percorsi di collaborazione con l'ASP – U.O. Disturbi dell'Alimentazione e della Nutrizione e con il contributo della Messina Social City ". I disturbi del comportamento alimentare possono colpire chiunque indipendentemente da età, peso, etnia, nazionalità, orientamento sessuale, genere, cultura e stato socioeconomico, in particolare poi l'anoressia, la bulimia nervosa e il disturbo da alimentazione incontrollata binge eating sono patologie complesse e sempre più diffuse, soprattutto fra i più giovani, che possono influire negativamente sullo sviluppo corporeo e sulla salute fisica e psicosociale, comportando, a volte, gravi problemi medici. Secondo dati statistici, pur essendo presenti in tutte le età, questi disturbi hanno un picco in adolescenza, la fascia più colpita è quella tra i 15 e i 25 anni e negli ultimi anni si stanno verificando contemporaneamente un abbassamento dell'età di esordio (8-9 anni) e un incremento nelle donne adulte, soprattutto over 40; ma i DCA sono aumentati anche nella terza età e nella popolazione anziana. Un intervento tempestivo ed efficiente da parte di uno specialista è fondamentale, soprattutto nelle forme più gravi che rischiano di avere un esito mortale a causa del digiuno o dei possibili tentativi di suicidio. Altrettanto fondamentale, per una migliore riuscita del trattamento, è inoltre il coinvolgimento attivo della famiglia. Si tratta di un percorso lungo e complesso che mira non solo alla remissione dei sintomi e al ristabilimento delle condizioni fisiche, ma anche alla risoluzione di quel disfunzionale equilibrio mentale fondato sul controllo e sul perfezionismo.... #notizie #news #breakingnews #cronaca #politica #eventi #sport #moda Read the full article

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𝐝𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐲 𝐩𝐢𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐞 — seventeen, pogue-kook. daisy was adopted by her parents only months after birth. her biological mother was a drug addict and her father is unknown. she has a seven year old half-sister named poppy who she is very close to. shyness and social anxiety often keeps her from having new experiences and she spends a lot of time alone by choice. very friendly with fellow pogues kie, sarah, john b, and pope even though financially daisy's somewhere between a kook and a pogue herself. she's had a secret crush on jj maybank for years, but has never had the guts to mention it. she battled bulimia throughout middle school and has been in recovery for two years. because of her bouts with depression and body dysmorphia, the road hasn't been easy. she works part time at a local hole in the wall seafood restaurant, the crab shack, and tutors rich kids during the school year. whenever a kook is failing a class - especially the athletes with a lot on the line - the guidance counselor sends them to her, so she is well known among them. it provides supplemental income that she's been saving for college. fc ; kristine froseth 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: heterosexual. 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲: mark & julia (adoptive parents), poppy (adoptive younger sister) 𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: high school student, waitress at the crab shack restaurant, & tutor. 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐬: swimming, surfing, reading, sports, the outdoors. 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬: book smart, level headed, supportive, a problem solver, inherently kind, empathetic, shy. 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬: bullying, small talk, violence. 𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧: virgo

𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬: dossier ⋄ threads ⋄ musings ⋄ aesthetic ⋄ desires ⋄ pinterest ⋄ daisy&jj ⋄ daisy&rafe ⋄ daisy&nash

𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐞 '𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐢' 𝐡𝐞𝐲𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝 — twenty, pogue. desi is pope's cousin and much like himself, has always had a lot of bigger goals for herself. she sailed through school and ended up getting into a large university in north carolina. fashion design is her focus and she intends to go to fashion school after graduation. desi is very friendly, a lot of fun to be around, and makes friends wherever she goes. fc ; laura kariuki 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: pansexual. 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲: pope heyward (cousin) 𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: college student & works at a clothing store 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐬: info. 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬: outgoing, talkative, fun loving, positive, sweet, a good listener, creative. 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬: having nothing to do. 𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧: aries

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𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐩𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐭𝐭 — mid-twenties. harper is the long suffering eldest daughter of richard & claire beckett. she has always been resentful of the attention (negative or positive) her parents have given her sister, shelby, who is the black sheep of the family. harper made straight a's, excelled in academics & sports, was accepted into law school, interns at one of the largest firms in the state, and somehow still feels unloved and less than. her anger towards shelby has caused the sisters' relationship to deteriorate and they're constantly at each other's throats, fc ; victoria pedretti 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: bisexual (male leaning) 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲: richard & claire (parents), shelby (younger sister) 𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: law student 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐬: board games, working to achieve her goals, being right, competition, one upping everyone around her, period dramas. 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬: uptight, judgemental, slightly ocd when it comes to cleanliness, stand offish, egotistical, defensive, a know it all. 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬: being challenged, liars. 𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧: virgo 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬: dossier ⋄ threads ⋄ musings ⋄ aesthetic ⋄ desires

𝐣𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐨 — eighteen, pogue. a pogue from day one, jade grew up running around the cut getting into trouble and lived to raise hell. nothing’s changed much. she spends most of her time cutting class to sell weed to mom’s at the local park or surfers on the beach. she’s become one of the most successful dealers on the island and is a permanent fixture at kook and boneyard parties, able to get along with everyone and throw punches if needed. she’s well known for getting high with pogues and riding around town in her 1970 chevy chevelle. fc ; chase sui wonders 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: bisexual (female leaning) 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲: daniel & ali (parents). 𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: high school student & weed dealer. 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐬: video games, smoking weed, vaping, skateboarding, swimming, partying. 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬: a stoner, silly, passive aggressive, a trouble maker, easy going, friendly. 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬: the cops. 𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧: sagittarius 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬: dossier ⋄ threads ⋄ musings ⋄ aesthetic ⋄ desires

𝐤𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐬 — eighteen, pogue. raised by a single mother with a new boyfriend every week. nothing was the same from one day to the next and there was zero stability. instead of playing with dolls, katie preferred collecting action figures, reading comic books, and playing outside with the boys. anything to be out of the house and away from the chaos. her interest in cars came from hanging around boys constantly and she learned how to work on engines in cars, boats, motorcycles, you name it. she found solace in being good at something. naturally katie got a job at a mechanic shop in the cut at sixteen, but it didn't come without problems and scrutiny. as a petite blonde that resembled a barbie, her male co-workers and customers found it hard to take her seriously... until she proved them wrong, outdoing the other employees. katie tries to keep to herself and stay out of trouble, but that rarely happens. trouble seems to follow her. fc ; josephine langford 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: bisexual (male leaning) 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲: goldie (mother), father unknown. 𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: mechanic. 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐬: sports, surfing, video games, live music, dive bars, hiking, boating, watching football. 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬: independent, confident, friendly, adventurous, feisty, resourceful, a tomboy. 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬: being talked down to, disrespect, unwanted flirting. 𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧: aquarius 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬: dossier ⋄ threads ⋄ musings ⋄ aesthetic ⋄ desires ⋄ katie&john b

𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐞 𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐥𝐞𝐝𝐠𝐞 — nineteen, pogue. millie is the oldest daughter of big john and the older sister of john b. she’s known for being a magnet for bad relationships, getting into fights with pogues and kooks, and causing trouble around the island. the local police are very familiar with her. she’s resented big john since her mother left and he wouldn’t allow her to leave with her. millie’s never missed an opportunity to push the man’s buttons. when he disappeared because of the “stupid treasure” (as she calls it) and was presumed dead, she was worried, but didn’t let it show, preferring to bury the complicated feelings deep. instead, she shut john b out and hopped from one person’s bed to the next, steering clear of the chateau and her brother’s judgment. although, she does pop up every once in a while to make home cooked meals or bring by baked goods. she also isn’t above staying at home if john b needs her. generally, millie is very reckless, hair triggered, lost, and has no idea how to take care of herself or navigate adulthood. fc ; talia ryder 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: bisexual (no preference) 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲: john b (brother), big john (father), mother unknown. 𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: retail associate at the country club golf shop; sells handmade jewelry & glass bongs through her etsy store. 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐬: getting high, laying out on the beach, rollerblading, bike riding, swimming, fishing, jogging, partying, video games, horror movies, cooking & baking, getting involved in physical fights if the situation calls for it. 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬: opinionated, reckless, protective of the people she loves, overly emotional, witty, resilient, loyal, adventurous, creative, artistic 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬: being told what to do (especially if it's big john), being disrespected, party poopers, mean drunks, routines, cops. 𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧: scorpio. 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬: dossier ⋄ threads ⋄ musings ⋄ aesthetic ⋄ desires

𝐨𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐚 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐭𝐦𝐚𝐧 — eighteen, kook. a vivacious ball of energy, olivia is your typical kook princess. she's a fixture at every social event and extremely popular with more friends than she can count. she tends to fall in line with whatever everyone else in her circle are doing, but isn't a bully or mean spirited. material things have been given to her without question since birth, so getting what she wants is all that she knows. this has made it easy for her to use her looks and social status to her advantage. despite being a spoiled brat & having zero self awareness, she does have a good heart. fc ; madison beer 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: bisexual (male leaning) 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲: larry & donna (parents), connor (older brother), nick (older brother), & harrison (older brother). 𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: high school student 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐬: dancing, pop music, makeup tutorial & grwm videos, partying, flirting, shopping, hanging out with friends. 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬: whiney, an airhead, energetic, affectionate, ditzy, overly sensitive, confidant, a romantic. 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬: when anyone is mean or yells at her, being told no. 𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧: pisces 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬: dossier ⋄ threads ⋄ musings ⋄ aesthetic ⋄ desires ⋄ pinterest ⋄ olivia&pope ⋄ olivia&nathan ⋄ olivia&marco

𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐥𝐛𝐲 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐭𝐭 — nineteen, kook. shelby is the youngest daughter of an affluent, image obsessed family with strong ties to the kildare community. her father is a successful entrepreneur and her mother is an attorney. considered a kook because of her financial status and friend group, shelby doesn't have issues with any pogues. nine times out of ten, she's the voice of reason. in high school, she was rafe cameron's on and off (mostly on) again girlfriend and like himself, experimented with drugs, drank heavily, and was the life of every party. their relationship was toxic with lots of break ups and jealousy on both sides. things took an unexpected turn after a party senior year: the couple were in a car accident and shelby ended up in the hospital with a concussion and alcohol poisoning. when her parents found out that rafe had been driving drunk, an irreparable rift formed between the two families. shelby's parents threatened to cut her off financially for good if she didn't go to rehab, break it off with rafe, and clean up her act. with no other choice, she left for rehab after being released from the hospital, sending rafe a goodbye text. since returning to the outer banks, shelby's been trying to stay on the straight and narrow, avoiding rafe and her friend group. this hasn't proven successful and she's since relapsed multiple times, living a double life. instead of applying to colleges, she spends her days lifeguarding at the local beach and country club and partying at night, becoming a stain on her family's name. fc ; danielle campbell 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: heterosexual. 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲: richard & claire (parents), harper (older sister) 𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: lifeguard 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐬: swimming, surfing, tennis, golf, shopping, partying, bike riding, sailing. 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬: sweet, non-judgmental, defiant, rebellious, spontaneous, fiery, & passionate. 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬: authority figures, being controlled. 𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧: scorpio 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐬: till death do us part 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬: dossier ⋄ threads ⋄ musings ⋄ aesthetic ⋄ desires ⋄ pinterest ⋄ shelby&rafe ⋄ shelby&rafe&topper

𝐯𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐫𝐨𝐞 — mid-forties. val has been a pogue her entire life, living on the fringes of town. her parents never paid much attention to her and she spent her childhood at the beach, riding her bike through town, and getting in trouble with friends. nowadays she mostly keeps to herself and puts all her energy into running the crab shack, a local seafood restaurant. it's one of the only things she's ever fully committed to or been good at. in her twenties, she had a tumultuous relationship with luke maybank that quickly turned abusive. when val got pregnant, she panicked about raising a baby alone and reluctantly tried to make the relationship work. the abuse continued and her alcoholism became so severe that she left in the middle of the night, leaving a letter. a one year old jj was left behind to be raised by his father and val left town. after getting sober and staying that way for several years, she returned and worked towards opening up her own restaurant. not wanting to disrupt jj's life, she and luke agreed to not tell him who she was. fc ; amy adams 𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲: heterosexual. 𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲: jj maybank (biological son) note: unless discussed prior to threads, val & luke are the only people who know that jj is her son. 𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: owner of the crab shack restaurant 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐬: arcades, the ocean, aquariums, reading about marine life, watching nature documentaries, being alone. 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐢𝐬: rough around the edges, direct, quiet but speaks up when necessary, tough, protective, resilient, self loathing, & secretive. 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞𝐬: most kooks, mistreatment of animals, small children, obnoxious customers. 𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜 𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐧: capricorn 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬: dossier ⋄ threads ⋄ musings ⋄ aesthetic ⋄ desires

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