#ppl on ao3 seem to like it so here goes

[gunmetal-ring]

anon again. i'm sorry that i keep coming to you with this depressing messages but you seem like one of the few sane ppl in this fandom and i appreciate your honesty.

truth is im feeling really disillusioned with hellcheer lately. we don't have a lot of "canon" content so after a while, it gets tiring going thru the same 2 scenes over and over again (especially when one of them involves chrissy's death). ive been relying on fandom but it seems like it's slowed down. fics arent updated as frequently, not a lot of new artwork.

heck, even joe and grace have moved on. joe's career is taking off. grace is leaving acting. it just feels like everything that happened last summer has come to an end :(

Aw anon thats okay. Ty for thinking of my feelings though 💓 (and also im flattered that you think im sane lmao)

Unfortunately its the way things go, especially with small ships, especially especially in a fandom as hostile as this one is. People come together and build community and share their love for characters and then g(r)o(w) their separate ways again.

But not everybody does! You and me, for example. And ive got plenty of hellcheer mutuals that seem perfectly content to draw, write, and rb their little hearts out.

I for one am absolutely astounded that theres even a fandom for hellcheer, let alone one with such talent and breadth and depth of love! Our characters had 2 scenes. Our girl was killed just as it all began. Our boy died with her name on his lips. In all likelihood we will never see them together on our screens again.

But somehow. Those ~10 minutes managed to foster an entire community of people and keep us engaged and in love w the characters for almost a year at this point! With no dangling promises or false hope or anything! Like we all know the score and we still go hard for hellcheer. Incredible.

Idk maybe it's just bc ive only had brainworms like this for 2 other ships and 1 of them is even smaller and the other one is a clusterfuck of unimaginable proportions, so im a little biased in terms of community/fandom, but im just like... idk. I think its really incredible thats all. And a testament to the very real power and truth of hellcheer 🥰

All i can say anon is that the best way to keep a fandom/ship going is engagement. Likes on tumblr and kudos on ao3 are great. But whats even better and more motivating (and i say this as a fic writer/meme shitposter so im speaking the total truth lol) is reblogs and comments. Tell people how much you love their work and how much it means to you, it goes a very long way. And on the flip side of that - stay out of the infighting. All it does is sap your mental energy and the fandom infighting bullshit is a major contributor to why people leave. The negativity and bitterness warp your perspective and make it really hard to remember what we're here for - it's not anti-st*ddie or anti-qu*nn stans or anti-anti-hellcheer or what the fuck ever. We're here for hellcheer!

Sorry my $0.02 is now $2.00 bc i ramble lol its a fatal flaw of mine. Anyway im sorry if this is annoyingly positive or dismissive but im in a strangely upbeat mood rn so there you have it

#im not getting into the whole joe/grace career stuff bc ive talked abt it a million times and i dont want to invite more bad faith anons #op #hellcheer #ask #anon

[beeehar]

miles writing steel samurai fanfic for funsies at some point during the time span where he believed he killed greg and while he was writing it he was like 'yea this is fine just me projecting some of my feelings onto the magistrate for it to seem a little more realistic yk. Make the character feel human' and he thinks it pretty tame, not intending for it to be too angsty. But once he posts the first chapter it kinda blows up and all of the comments are like 'im sobbing someone sedate me' and he's like damn u guys r sooo dramatic get a grip lmao??? And then as he posts more chapters (and as life starts to go even more off the rails than what it was before hand) the comments morph from 'cryibg' to 'fu.ck you genuinely what was going through your mind when you decided to rip my heart out I'm losing it get therapy I'm serious u need help I think' and at that point he's like ok so what going on here. And then one night after he learns that he is not in fact a murderer (and after he left the letter and went to Germany) he reads through the comments of genuine concern. And that on top of everything else makes him realise that everything is pretty fucked up and maybe. Just maybe things can get better.

(meanwhile the steel samurai fandom is like where tf did go he hasn't updated his heart wrenching fic in a year I miss that prick who'd make fun of us for crying at any chance he got:((. and there are tons of theories abt his disappearance floating around. And yk that trend on tiktok with the song Mary on a Cross where it's like "no quote had ever affected me" and then shows a quote from like a famous poem or movie or something. Well ppl do that with random quotes from his (not tagged as slash but everyone picks up on it) magisteel slowburn fanfiction and that in itself ropes more random ppl on the internet into the lore that is miles edgeworths ao3 account. Like his fic has its own fandom at this point and ppl had all of these inside jokes about it and stuff)

uhh fastforward to a 35 yr old miles randomly remembering about that fanfic he first began writing under the covers in his cold bedroom in the Von karma manor so he logs in and find hundreds of comments asking if he's ok and stuff and he rereads the fic and is like Jesus Christ did I actually think this was normal back then. So then he finishes off the draft he had sitting in his docs for years and says something along the lines of 'damn u guys were right idk why I thought this was fine' in the notes and he posts it and is almost immediately flooded with relieved comments and everyone's like 'rejoice he's not dead' 'took you a while but we love a self aware king'. And then he goes and kisses his husband and smiles at his hoard of children and life his good all is well.

#miles edgeworth #ace attorney #steel samurai #I think there was something else I wanted to add and I can feel it on the tip of my tongue but I forgor #This ended up being so long it's almost 2am give me a break if half of this is gibberish #Have I mentioned that this man is all I think about #Also Maya is probably one of his most avid readers and one day she's telling him about it and hes like 'huh thats. That's sad 🧍' #Because there's no way in hell that he'll admit to writing a fanfiction it would most likely be the end of him

[abneyart]

Any favourite fics?

That depends!

I admittedly haven't read a whole lot of bg3 fic, but like I mentioned in the last ask, I religiously read cheerysmores's stuff. I particularly like their Gale/Tav stuff--and it might be my Leo tendencies, but I can't help but LOVE this fic based on this piece I did 🤭 but seriously, any of their writing is tops. Their characterization of Gale is so. Good. And a lot of people seem to misunderstand him so it goes a long way for me (a trend you'll probably see in most of the following recs tbqh)

(Here's her AO3 btw)

If you're into like the Hunger Games which I've been reading, I love Roses and Pearls which is an everlark au. Really really good!

Ik I have some entrapdak fans that follow me, and there are SO MANY good entrapdak fics on ao3 that I'm having a hard time narrowing it down, but if I HAD to give specifics, Sweet Raptured Light by Mazen SO GOOD. If one-shots are more your style (when I'm in a fic mood, I typically binge, so that's why a few of these are multichapter) Infinite by midwesterosi. I love "Against the Current" which I cannot find for the life of me right now, so if anyone has the link, lemme know I'll see if I can add it to this post.

My favorite SanSan fic (which I realize is gonna be a rarer pair) is like an epic it's so long and it's so delicious because the agency the author gives Sansa is so refreshing. She's really QITN material, but I'm not sure if/when it will be updated--it's 58 chapters rn with over 500k words tho so if you like the long haul you'll be pretty satisfied. I've probably read it twice now tbqh. Northern Lights and Midnight Sun by Ownsariver

That's kind of my main ones, I'm super open to fic recs but I kind of have to be in a mood sometimes to really sit and read (usually horizontal days for me where my body can't physically sit up which happens more often than I'd like!) but a lot of the ones I've mentioned, if the author posts something new I'll flock to it IMMEDIATELY because I love their stuff so much.

I feel the need to remind ppl to leave kudos and comments but that might be preaching to the choir in this case!

#inbox #fic recommendation #asks

[aquaquadrant]

Thank you for replying to my tags and spiking my curiosity for this. I absolutely adore this AU I have been screaming through it all. GODDDDDDD it's so GOOD!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Just. A question for me. Is this AU ever going to be posted in some way or another to AO3? Because I'd really love to bookmark it there. Though I suppose I could bookmark it as an outside source too.

Also, I would've been reading it on Firefox if it were on AO3, meaning using tumblr for other stuff wouldn't reset my progress.

Either way, I absolutely adore this AU. Thank you so much for giving us this gem. I adore the way you write the voices so muchhhh I can HEAR THEM!!!!! And OUGH the STORYYY the DYNAMICSSS the bbggngbngjn!!!!!! I love this so so much. I can't wait to see where it goes from here.

well thank YOU for checking it out, i’m glad u enjoyed it 💃 and i’m especially glad you appreciate the character voices, bc that’s something that means a lot to me so i spend a lot of time and care on trying to get it right.

unfortunately i don’t plan on posting this series to A03, for a couple reasons. the biggest reason is that A03 is currently a prime spot for AI bots to scrape writing from and i’m very much against AI ‘art’ in any form (i don’t think it has any place in creative ventures and it’s extremely devaluing as a writer tbh).

BUT also, so much of this au is developed via asks and art and additional text posts that i’d be putting like 10 links in every chapter’s notes and hoping ppl click them or else get stuck answering the same questions over and over again. which occasionally happens here bc there’s just so much to read through, but having easily accessible links in my pinned directory seems to help? IDK

so i do apologize for the inconvenience, but i don’t foresee my HTP fics getting moved to A03. but i do try to give advance notice before a new chapter drops and link it on my directory pretty quick so hopefully that helps w keeping track?

#hels to pay au #HTP ask #i don’t even visit the hc tag on A03 cuz i hate seeing the hermit’s real names #also SORRY if that came off as a rant it’s totally a valid question #i wish the A03 situation had an easy solution #bc while this au is fairly simple to keep on tumblr i’ve got other series i wanna continue someday #i’ve already locked my fics to users only which def hurt #so i’m just like 👁️👄👁️

[voxofthevoid]

fucking yikes im so sorry you get these kind of notifications, and of course theyre anonymous😒 coward cant even say it with their chest about a FICTIONAL character, in something completely optional to read. anyway, im a big fan and i reread your fics all the time! ppl complaining about gojo being ooc for being a bottom make me giggle everytime tho like no shit? fr?? gojo fucked canonically in the manga?? whens THAT getting animated and which chapter was it. can you link me 👀👉👈

and again, its not the source material. Its fanfic shared with you, not made for you. Its like walking into an ice cream parlor and demanding a steak, except even worse because the food is free!!! No one is holding you at gunpoint to sit down and read the whole thing huffing and puffing about how "its not what you ordered." and if you didnt read it, why are you here.🧍‍♂️

and imo the market is oversaturated with top gojo and bottom gojo satosugu. You're doing the lords work righting the scales one yuuji at a time🥰

"No one is holding you at gunpoint to sit down and read the whole thing": You'd think so, but some of these people do act like I'm at their house holding their entire family hostage while they read my fic with bloody tears streaming down their face.

Listen, if I had that kinda power, I'd manifest in my friends' houses to cuddle them to death. And hopefully cow-eye them into feeding me (looking at you specifically @eusuntgratie).

Delulu anon is the only one who's been a dick about it so far (and I think that one's just got several screws loose), but variations of this happen enough in my comments that I've constructed whole mental categories.

There are the nice ones, who basically say some variation of "I'm not usually into bottom!Gojou, but I'll read it from you." That's great! I generally take any version of "not my thing, but you're an exception" as a compliment, and the commenters generally mean it that way. There are also the neutral questions about who tops, usually before the fic gets explicit (yes, even in the fics where Gojou goes "fuck me, Yuuji ❤" well before the porn), and while opening my email to just that, without a peep about the fic so far, is about as appealing as eating burnt toast, I do answer and leave it be. It's fine.

And then you have the people with main character syndrome who cannot seem to conceive that any goyuu fic author would gleefully and exclusively write top!Yuuji. I've had people act like they're doing me a favor by reading my fic or assume it will be switching at the least. There was one...memorable occasion where someone liked the deaging fic overall but didn't like top!Yuuji, so they told me they'd be "stealing" the concept. Deaging is a bog-standard trope, so that's stupid as shit, but fucking Christ, the audacity. That was, IIRC, a fairly popular PWP author, so it's not even that they need any help to get eyeballs on their work.

There's just this persistent disbelief in the goyuu fandom about someone (me, I'm someone) writing top!Yuuji over and over. And it's clearly not that JJK fans just cannot conceive of Gojou taking it up the ass; like you said, there's plenty of it in satosugu, and I have it on good authority that nanago and sukugo are the same. It's just the combination of Yuuji and Gojou that gets this "one way only" attitude, and yeah, I know precisely why, but I've been in fandom for some 15 years now, a decade of it on Ao3, and JJK is the worst about it I've seen.

Sorry for the *gestures above* rant, but every goddamn month, this shit happens, and I am clinging to civility by the skin of my teeth.

But, far more importantly, please know that it put a bigass smile on my face to know that you like to reread my fics. Thank you, anon 😘

#anon #i love my anons #the civility doesn't apply to delusional anon and their ilk #i'm only polite until the other person isn't #but god those civil comments that basically insult my own tastes TEST me sometimes

[mardytoast]

with ao3 it seems like people are crazy about a fic for 3 days then immediately just forget abt it

ill be reading a fic that made in literally 2020 that hasn't had any interaction since october 2021 like?? these are bodys of WORK that ppl have put so much time into they don't deserve to have a flood of kudos the day after uploading and then pure radio silence

i can't imagine how bad you would feel if you uploaded a 80k multichap all at once bc posting as you write just isn't your style, only to get 30 kudos

it actually feels like being in a "complicated" relationship 😭

but anyway moral of the story is don't judge a fic based off the kudos, read what you want to read and support ppl just throwing out a one shot here and there. maybe even leave a comment

this is a completey safe and ENCOURAGED space to plug ur own fics or other that deserve more traction, I'll go first

Someone Worth Remembering

-AJMICKEY56

can't believe I've never talked abt this fic on here bf bc it had my FOAMING at the mouth and i said as much in tjr many panicked comments i left

it's a MURDER MYSTERYYY where wendy snaps and goes on a killing spree and oh my god. couldn't recommend anything more. it's written so fucking well it genuinely had ME scared. at so many points i actually wanted to scream i never knew what was coming next, and let me tell you, THE NEXT IS JUICY

if you like plot heavy and almost novel-like fics, read this i swear it's too good anf so well thiught out and slfksksmak

#READ IT NOW #ao3 #give love to forgotten fics 2024 #south park #wendy testaburger #fanfic #stan marsh #fic recs

[happylikeasadsong]

"About the Blogger" meme

Thank u sm for tag @cruciomione!!

Star Sign(s): Cancer sun, Libra moon and Leo rising (i couldn't explain it i you asked, tho)

Favorite Holidays: Christmas and New Years i love how crazy people go about decorations and seems like there's no end to imagination. Also it's that time of the year i have the most delicious food and share quality time with my family. And New Years's so special bc i get to celebrate with friends and usually the parties are lit.

Last Meal: A strawberry delight crepe as a 'well done' gift from me to me or not dying during my exams and finishing them all, yayyy

Current Favorite Musician: i always find it hard to just mention one, so here goes my top three rn: coco jones, the maine and rbd (latin pop band).

Last Music Listened To: back to life by lawson. this one scratches my brain like no other.

Last Movie Watched: me and one of my closest friends do this list of christmas movies every year bc we love christmas movies, no matter how awful and cringe they are. last night i watched 'exmas' with leighton meester and robbie amell and i was surprised that it wasn't the worst, so it's a win in my book.

Last TV Show Watched: it was this week's episode of fellow travelers. jonathan bailey and matt bomer are breaking my heart in a million little pieces, but i think it worth it?? it's so so so sad and tragic but they do such a great job portraying hawk and skippy's story.

Last Book/Fic Finished: i wanted distract myself from my daily problems so i reread 'remember me, remebering you' by amiera_saphire on ao3 last weekend.

Last Book/Fic Abandoned: i prefer the term 'hiatus'. i have a jatp fic that i never really finished and the thought of it hunts me.

Currently Reading: a very boring article on managerial finance i have to write on by friday (my last assignment of the year, yay!). i hated it, so i came here to get enough endorfins to go back to it.

Last Thing Researched for Art/Writing/Hyperfixation: ships in the 1800's, also dresses of that time period so i can better my shitty description in my period fic. i only had an idea and a dream on that one.

Favorite Online Fandom Memory: uhh i think it was back in the cursed years (2020, eww) and after i watched julie and the phantoms i found some really good people here and on twitter. our day consisted in checking every news outlet about the show and pics, videos about them. also the fics were so incredibly good!! those were fun times.

Favorite Old Fandom You Wish Would Drag You Back In/Have A Resurgence: arrowverse when it was good, maybe? idk but olicity had a choke on me in a concerning way. but then it went bad, so bad, and i suffered through until arrow ended and stopped watching the shows.

Favorite Thing You Enjoy That Never Had an Active or Big "Fandom" but You Wish It Did: felicity. it's mainly bc it's such an old show and bc of that, no one is really talking about it anymore, but it was my shit when i 'discovered' back in college.

Tempting Project You're Trying to Rein In/Don't Have Time For: i'll quote @cruciomione about the multi chapter fics, i feel you! one shots are better for me bc i can just write my idea down.

i've been working on a multi chapter about a second chance/lovers-to-strangers-to-lovers. i love the angst i have panned out in my head lol maybe during the break it could revisit it.

loved doing this!!

tagging some ppl to do this too, only if you want!

@imliterallyjustablackgirl, @ethxocore, @laryssamedeirss, @vacationship, @ruethrills

#about the blogger #asks #i'll finish reading the article now byee

[xx-1c1cl35-n-t34r5-xx]

Pretty pretty please can you do ride the cyclone headcanons for what the choir (and possibly Karnak and Virgil) would read in fanfiction?

don’t be afraid to include tags from your history 😌

🎢 anon

NO SHUSH PLS OK, THEY'RE NOT THAT BAD (← the tags in question are legally banned in 274 countries for being 'that bad') /j

But yeah OFC!!! Tysm for requesting!!!

RTC preferred fanfiction type headcanons!

TW: mentions of a bunch of both sfw and nsfw fanfiction mentions (dead dove, whump, all types of con, etc etc)

I need to specify this is a 'IF they read fanfiction what would they read' and not a 'do they read fanfiction, and what do they read' i think some of the ppl here don't actually read fanfiction, but this is what they WOULD read if they did.

Oceon O'Connel Rosenberg

barely reads any tbh

Reads exclusively fluff

Also only reads m/f???

Idk she seems like the type to do that

Reads on wattpad EXCLUSIVELY and un-ironically

(Low-key wants to get into AO3 but can't figure it out)

Only reads sfw

"Smut is just wrong to read!! It's so improper!!!" ← wants to get into f/f toe curling AO3 smut

Noel Grüber

( I think it's grüber, but could also be just gruber)

AO3 only

Reads both m/m and f/m

doesn't actually read a lot of smut

reads occasionally

also posts, but as his own original story

yes his story is the life story of Monique

it's not too popular but it has it's own little fan base!!

also occasionally reads dead dove (no dead dove smut, just some... questionable things discussed)

Mischa Bachinska

'fanfiction is for nerds' *sweats nervously hiding 15 open tabs*

will NEVER admit it

reads a lot actually

sends a lot of reccomendations back and forth with Talia

they're all of rlly romantic stuff

almost exclusively reads fluff

Ricky Pots

reads ABO on the regular

reads so much smut omg

reads on AO3 a lot

also goes on tumblr occasionally

quotev, fanfic.net, wattpad

anything rlly

reads the kinkiest smut so often omg

has definitely read some VERY dub-con stuff

Constance Blackwood

she has 2 moods

mood 1:

reading the most tooth-rotting fluff

lying on her stomach

swinging her legs

and gigling like crazy

then squealing because it's so wholesome and cute!!!

mood 2:

the weirdest smut ever

almost manages to be worse than ricky

ricky once reccomended her what he thought was a really REALLY heavy smut fic, and she replied 'i read that one already'

these two istg

almost exclusively reads on wattpad tho so the smut isn't as bad

not the moods but she reads a lot of headcanons and imagines on wattpad

like those 'xyz fandom characters x reader imagines/headcanons/scenarios' fics

(yes she reads x reader, you cannot convince me otherwise, only other thing she's reading MLM and that's almost never)

Jane Doe/Penny Lamb

hurt/no comfort

angst

and just that

reads occasionally

(like once in a blue moon)

really sad, melancholy stuff

Karnak

has a 203 chapter fic up on AO3

its like 622,641 words long

(which is 3067.19704433 words on average per chp in case u wanted to know)

it's a 'what if' fic

and gen

but it has made SO MANY people cry

it will actually change your life no joke

Virgil

horniest of them all

EXCLUSIVELY reads smut

also its filthy

RANCID

smut

(aka my AO3 history)

reads anything tbh

has NO standards (neither do i)

#Jane Doe #penny lamb #rtc #request #headcanons #constance blackwood #noel gruber #mischa bachinski #talia rtc #ocean o'connell rosenberg #virgil the rat #the amazing karnak

[hirokiyuu]

sols roundup masterpost

i mentioned i was reworking the original post on my ao3 and so here it is! please note that a) there are a LOT of spoilers under the cut  (guy who has 80+ hours and multiple multiple endings) and b) there’s a lot of ways to take sol and these are just me having fun with them, if u dont like thats fine but dont tell me i don’t care. lol. also worth noting i think time loops are most fun when they subtly influence each other so there’s a lot of that in here LOL

worth noting i think theres a few traits that are pretty universal to them? wants to do right and full of love are the big two, tho curiosity, (seeming) warmth, and ability to fit in w/those around them are also pretty important tho i think more flexible. its just fun the way various sols can have those traits like.... manifest? an alien-hater sol who goes hunting all the time is just as valid as a sol dating dys that wants to end the war. just different ppl they love and different experiences. its fun

with that. onto the Meat

1) solana (she/her (demi?)girl, loyalty leaning lawyer, neutral end)

baby’s first run! outwardly warm but pretty cold inside. hypercompetent everywhere except in her love life. fell for tang when they were like nine on the ship and just sort of, never stopped, feeling that way, including when she was 100 years old and had outlived tang by nearly forty years, partially bc fixating on tang as people were dying was kind of. the only solace she had. wouldve really benefited from a good therapist.

2) solanaceae (he/him tguy, governor, peace ending)

childhood optimist with a hero complex turned "realist” but actually-exactly-the-same-just-depressed-about-it adult. saves tammy and tonin and hal! cannot save his parents :) grows a little distant from most of the people around him as a result, except dys, who Gets it. avoids tang for pretty much no reason he can understand, just has a sense of She Will Hurt You If You Get Too Close when he sees her sometimes. becomes governor solely bc he wants to save people. the kind of person you can trust in your house with your keys and your valuables and then someone asks ‘hey whats his favorite color’ and youre like. i dont. actually know

3) solane (they/them nb, gardener ending)

manic overconfident freak. definitely a ‘i wont tell people about my dreams bc it’s like i’m a HERO this way!’ type. saves everyone and extremely proud about it. coasting through life from ages 14-19 until they go find dys after the bomb has gone off and he’s dating. someone else? which makes them freak out bc THEYRE the hero. so instead of being normal about this they become a gardener in a desperate attempt not to be left behind

It’s Bad!

4) solanaceae (he/him cisguy, colonial hero, neutral ending) x / x

this is the one ive been referring to in private as “fascist manwhore sol” and honestly. yeah. just as overconfident as the last but extremely charming about it. the kind of guy you kinda wanna hit but also can’t help but like? somehow manages to be close w/most everyone in the colony despite their various opinions. really really hates the gardeners + even sym, for some reason w/in himself that he can’t explain. 

in Love with dys for most of their lives but cant ever make it work, fwb with rex, dates vace despite having matching tattoos with his ex-gf. hes just that kind of guy. dies young and a hero, less than a year after dys disappears into the ridges. dont think abt it too hard.

5) solane (she/her nb, neutral end, roboticist on accident somehow but a social skills job wouldve fit much better)

if third sol Thinks theyre god this sol like. actually Is. extremely clear dreams, used to talk abt them pretty much always until her first trip to medbay, at which point she stopped ever letting adults know. kind of existentially exhausted as a result. using this life literally just as a coffeeshop au lol. poly but also probably aromantic; open rship w/rex, who they love a lot but no more so than literally any of their other friends. pretty happy with stuff! 

until they go to see dys off when he “vanishes” from the colony and they accidentally let it drop they couldve like. ended the whole war. he’s. displeased. they still make an effort to enjoy the rest of their life but when they die theyre thinking abt how they should try to be a better person next time. and also hoping they remember less.

6) solanaceae (genderfluid but generally refers to self as a lesbian, peace end, botanist) x

cheerful heroine! desperately wants to be normal and tries so so hard to ignore her dreams, which works kind of, right up until they very purposefully ignores the one abt tammy and tammy dies immediately after :) at which point they completely switches gears and uses their dreams to try and save Everyone they can. bffs with nem since childhood & into her pretty much Always. everyone’s friend! dies content and at peace.

interestingly, bc this is the route where i got paradox ending on a save, probably the sol closest to the wormhole + everything about it, despite not actually remembering much from his dreams. it manifests in other ways. lol.

7) solane (she/her cisgirl, neutral end, roboticist)

coward who can only be brave when it’s for the sake of the people she loves, most notably tammy who she actually dislikes until she saves her life, at which point she realizes maybe she Can be a hero too. better with robots than people, spent most of her childhood following cal around bc he was one of hte only ppl to make time for her. falls madly in love w/tammy; their family is her biggest joy. a good parent.

8) solanaceae (he/him agender, neutral end, doctor)

feral intense child who becomes a terrifying eagle-eyed doctor. max perception by age eleven, somehow. STRONG sense of justice. strongest belief is “if you ignore someone you couldve saved, you’re garbage.” not quite high enough friendship w/nem to convince her to leave vace as teens; helps her later on when theyre adults. years and years later after dys “dies” they end up moving in and spend the rest of their lives together.

9) solanaceae (they/them nb, peace end, entertainer)

awkward ace kid who always speaks their mind. accidentally destroys tammy’s confidence every time they talk. gets confessed to by both marz and rex, shoots them down extremely awkwardly due to both aforementioned asexuality and the fact theyve had a crush on dys since they were thirteen. takes their promise to let him go seriously to the point that when he tries to bomb hte colony, they let him, and when he wants to be a gardener, they don’t stand in his way. is alright with this at first but slowly begins to feel lonelier and lonelier about it as time passes, and when they die and realize they won’t actually be with him again they feel. Very Bad. pass on wishing they’d not let him go but resenting him for asking to.

10) solane (she/her cisgirl, neutral end, xeno wrangler)

ive been calling this one “cuckoo bird sol” for a reason. desperately wants someone to be devoted to Her and Her Alone who Won’t Leave, and feels like. cal is good for that. doesn’t like tammy as a result, which means that when she has a nightmare abt tammy dying she doesn't even care, it’s not like its REAL. yeah. It’s Bad! she feels guilty abt it and then feels bad bc she’s also happy bc cal spends more time with her but also she does sure feel like shes competing against a dead girl huh! so! that’s fun!

eventually she does work her shit out and realize she does like cal himself and does want kids on her own terms but like. the process of getting there! one fucked up kid. dies more content than she realized she could be, glad for her family.

11) solanaceae (she/her nb leaning, peace end, parent) x

rowdy. her heart is 80% love and 20% pure unadulterated rage. unaugmented, which she personally doesnt care abt, but she sure does get pissed off at ppl trying to be soooo nice to her abt it! too busy w/sfc stuff during wet and as such completely misses her chance to talk dys out of the bomb. when she finds him on the ridges afterwards they yell at each other abt being in love w/each other for forever and she manages to drag him back home.

in some ways this would be my “golden run” (full friendship with everyone) (jesus christ) but despite that her actual bffs besides dys are tammy and (unfortunately) vace. in another world i would retcon this to ot3 but in this one she kissed sym and then he died in front of her and despite herself she kind of cant stop flinching away from him now if he tries to make a move. they do hinge poly instead it works. has a boatload of kids and never augments any of them. dies exhausted and delighted and in love w/the world. 

12) solane (he/him cisguy, peace ending, parent oops)

delusion run! sol who cant stop talking abt his delusions even when he knows he should. pursues dys in the “we were In Love before so we will be again!” way not the “i like you!” way until he gets. y’know. lobotomized. in some ways not focusing on his dreams is good for him but also he loses a lot of his personality? focus? afterwards

teases tammy relentlessly but ends up falling for her but bc for some reason this run glitched and tammy’s pregnancy just. kept going. she never had the kid? so i didnt date her even tho he wouldve lol. tbh most of th ending for this one is what id consider noncanon for him but ill retcon it later when i have more Vibes in place

13) solanaceae (they/he, peace ending, astronaut) this is a dead dove run (mentions of abuse)

unlucky number thirteen :) sol coming out of a delusion run with the creeping sense that they should not trust Anyone with their secrets. a little disconnected from the ppl around them tho they get on well enough w/dys and tang. madly in love with the wormhole. desperate to get off the planet and back into space so they can see it, a sentiment no one shares until, y’know. vace.

in Love (lol) with him after his 50. first time theyve ever met anyone they think Gets them so they enable him. fucking crushed when he starts dating nem. when he offers to cheat they take him up on it, which means he learns nothing and they lose one of their childhood friends :) eventually they go into space together just like they wanted! it’s bad! die in the wormhole and i think thats the first time they ever truly, from the bottom of their heart, regret everything. never want to fall in love again.

14) sol (no pronouns whenever possible but sort of ok w/they, peace ending, farmer) warning for abuse mentions in this one as well

sometimes you get so badly abused in one life your next life it still affects you! kind of an odd child, gets along better w/congruence than the other kids but thinks of cal is like a brother. doing ok until helios lands and then it’s like. h

avoids vace like the plague, despises/is afraid of him but doesn’t realize why until after sol starts understanding dreams more. when he dies i think sol wants to be like Good Riddance but. cant fully. approaches rex bc sol want to know What’s Up With The Whole Rex+Vace Deal, end up falling pretty hard. dating sym also, the three of them living together is an Experience i think. dies full of Love.

15) solana (he/him tguy, peace end, athlete)

rambunctious! cheerful! kind of dumb! falls in love w/cal from a young age and is convinced they’re gonna grow up and get married and is subsequently crushed when cal starts dating tammy instead esp bc. cal sort of. lead them on a bit w/it. slowly falls in love w/dys in the aftermath.

a bit immature. plays sportsball even in the middle of war, tension with both cal And nem as a result despite still being their bffs. he and nem are on opposite sportsball teams for the rest of their lives and yet go out for drinks after constantly. she’s his sister, basically! dies pretty happy w/how things turned out

16) solanaceae (she/they, neutral end, merchant)

greedy greedy greedy. wants money and love and attention, time and people and things, everyhting you can think of she wants it. she marz and tang are the Terrible WLW Trio of Girls Who Might Be Dating. bit of a soft spot for dys she can’t quite rationalize, will be kind to him when she’s not to anyone else. fond of rex as well.

she and marz flirt by flirting with tang, aka the person she Actually likes. pretty happy when they finally hook up, but isn’t devastated by the breakup as much as she is.... left hollow. another mistake on top of everyhting else (capitalism, dys vanishing, girl shes liked forever dumping her, also theres maybe a fleet from earth coming but haha dw abt it) she tells rex abt the fleet maybe a year? before it shows up. dies wishing desperately she had been able to be kinder.

17) solana (he/him tguy, peace end, professor) x

sugary sweet! childhood friends with tammy, they’re v similar people. loves her a lot, cannot wait to be best man at her wedding to cal LOL. despite his gentle demeanor he is also absolutely the kind of guy to do Whatever It Takes for the ppl he loves (ie poisons uncle tonin to keep him alive LOL)

thinks nomi is like, the coolest person in the universe when they meet bc they can MAKE things. so so stupid about them. when they start dating its embarrassing for everyone but they are so happy together no one can actually say anything. dies happy but wishing he was more confident in himself/brave

aaaaaaaaanyways that’s the current list. for Now. there may be more coming. i have offshoots of some of these as well that may or may not pop up wwww generally for fic that isn’t set with a specific sol i tend towards an nb sol closest to personality+dreams to my sixth sol? cheerful and trying to help but also Just A Kid about it!

#i kind of want to make a sol who would do green vertumna forever tbh #7th sol has that as an offshoot but in the end she loves cal too much to let it happen #i do like paradox run being an offshoot of one and not quite its own thing tho. fits well #also i need to properly romance sym at some point For Rho but i see dys and im like #what if he kissed sol. what if. wh #what do you want me to do we renamed the gc 4dys bc we all love him so much #personal #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #this will be edited later

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Tagged by @banashee to post 10 of my favorite comfort movies and then tag 10 people, thanks! <3 just had a look at yours again after writing mine, we agree on LotR :D and adsfg I really need to watch Rocky Horror one of these days (I've seen it live before, but never the movie I think?? Oupsie xD fast ne Bildungslücke!)

1. Lord of the Rings (whole trilogy but if I have to choose one then Return of the King)

Comfort movie: battles and darkness and Winning

A++

2. Racing Stripes

(The film's in colour but it looks like this is the only gif I can find when I type in the title lmao)

One of a handful of taped movie me and my sister watched on repeat as a kid. Big nostalgia

3. Chestnut: Hero of Central Park

I can't find a gif for that one at all, but it's another cute kids movie I used to watch A Lot and still sometimes return to for the comfort of nostalgia and safety

4. Monte Carlo

I love all those silly switcharoo films, also the princess switch and its sequels etc, but Monte Carlo was the first one I watched and I still love to watch it for some mindless destress entertainment xD

Ummmm okay what else we got, I can't actually easily think of comfort!movies, I've got a whole bunch of comfort TV shows that come to mind, and movies I love but that aren't exactly /comfort/... *Goes through my Ao3 fandom list* no nothing clicks nothing clicks... Oh!

5. Pitch Perfect

Just the first one tbh, I mean the others are fun too but this one's a comfort film for me!

6. murder, she said

I adore Miss Marple, and this version of Miss Marple specifically! I've watched this one so many times :)

7. The Parent Trap

It's cute. Okay? It's cute xD and I've probably watched this version at least as often as the German one I'll add next, probably bc this one was on TV more often? Idk, I couldn't actually say which one I like more

8. Charlie & Louise

Again no gifs on here, but I adore this film! Also as you can maybe tell I'm actually running out of ideas and the Real comfort would be reading the book version of Das Doppelte Lottchen that both this and the parent trap are loosely based on xD my mom still has an old hardcover version and I've always adored that book, wished I had a twin whenever I read it as a kid!

9. Pride and Prejudice

Alright so th Colin Firth series version is better and the YouTube Lizzie's diaries or what it is is the best anyway but we're doing movies here and the Keira Knightley version Is definitely a comfort film for me so here goes

Ok so there are Definitely pride and prejudice gifs somewhere on tumblr. It just won't show them in the search results for sommme reason. Seems to be because it has the word 'pride' in it, because whenever I type that it switches to the 'create your own gif' error image. @staff what's up with that? Latent homophobia again?

10. Kyss Mig

First wlw film I ever watched, I still remember watching it (on mute, with English subtitles, there's no German or English dub anyway) in my parents' living room when I was 12 or so, with the computer display turned away from everyone else, actually pretending to be on tumblr (the rule was we had to be at least in the same room for evening family time even if I was uninterested in whatever movie or sports the others were watching but I was allowed to be on tumblr) and trying not to show any reaction to the screen bc at the time I had no idea what my parents' stance regarding LGBT ppl was (parents, tell your kids when you're okay with them being gay, bc they might be and they won't just Know that you're okay with that!), and idk I've had friends tell me it's not their fav film and maybe it's mainly the nostalgia for me but I still absolutely adore this movie and have rewatched it many times

Tagging my mutuals, friends and collaborators <3 @toboldlynerd @lavendelhummel @squishmittenficfan @purlturtle @mimi-mindless @asstraightasau-turn @katieswain123 @verajasmijnart @artax-risen @bookgirlfan only if you want to do it of course! :) & pls lmk if you'd rather I didn't tag you in the future!

Edit: looking at old posts in my 'movie tag' and 'comfort movies' tags now like omg! Of course! Mr&Mrs Smith, Lara Croft, Mean Girls, Carol..... Also I only just thought of Miss Congeniality! Adsfghjkl I really have 0 memory sometimes!

#I thought this would be 90% kids movies but it's only like. 50%? xD #tagging meme #movies #movie tag #banashee #lilolilyr #mine #tagged #aug'23 #20.08.23 #comfort films #movie recs #kids movies #wlw movie #lotr #teen movies #comfort movies #das doppelte Lottchen #the parent trap #charlie & louise

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I wrote a post-Foyet Hotch fic with Penelope lecturing him on how he’s actually a pretty great person, and ppl seem to like it on ao3, so here ya go:

I Need You to Know

Summary: Garcia knows what Hotch must be thinking after Haley’s death because she knows him, and she knows that his brain is wrong about him. She needs Hotch to know that too.

Word Count: 1.6k

Penelope stood outside his door and thought that maybe she shouldn’t be doing this. She needed to, but not here or right now. She really should have waited and thought this whole plan through more, but it was a little late for that. She could turn back, but she was here, and it was right now.

“Penelope? What are you doing here?”

While he had a good bit of height on her, Hotch seemed so much smaller than she’d ever seen him. His eyes wore deep bags and weariness strong enough to crush both of them.

“Hello sir, I really should have told you I was coming, but I really should have come here before now, but I needed to take the mini tornado that’s been whirling super fast in my head whenever I thought about you and what happened and I needed to try and get the right words I needed out of that mess, but here goes-“

“Wait, come inside first; it’s cold out.”

“Oh yes, thank you sir.”

She wasn’t quite sure how, but she hadn’t expected this. Penelope had just planned on showing up, saying everything she needed to say, and making a break for it. If she were to be truly honest, the only part of this plan that she actually did plan was the words, but here she was, placing her umbrella and electric blue sneakers by the door.

“Sorry, I don’t have tea or anything. What’s going on?”

They sat down on either side of Hotch’s couch.

“Well, before I get into the whole thing, I’m sorry, I really should have called before I came over here.”

“It’s okay, Garcia. I didn’t exactly have much to do.”

“I… How’s Jack in all of this?”

Hotch hadn’t quite looked her in the eyes since she got here, but this brought his gaze to the coffee table in front of them.

“Just so you know, Jessica should be home with him pretty soon, but…he’s confused, and he misses her of course, but I” he paused for a second, likely considering if he wanted to get into this yet, “I still don’t know how much he knows or if he heard anything.”

“I really hope he didn’t, sir.”

“Me too,” he said just above a whisper.

He hazarded a glance in her direction, eye contact taking too much effort right now. His gaze soon fell on his hands, and her eyes followed. His right hand was in a cast and his left was balled in a fist so tight that even with his short nails, she was sure there would be little red crescents embedded in his palm.

“But um, I have a lot of thoughts and there’s a lot of things that I want you to know, so are you all ready to hear my many, many thoughts?”

“Go ahead.”

“I could tell you that it’ll hurt less and time will pass and someday you’ll be able to think about her and just miss her instead of not being able to think about her because what you feel when you do is so enormously bad and painful, but you don’t need to me tell you the future right now. I want to tell you about right here, right now.”

From the moment Hotch opened the door, she had seen the hurt in his eyes, but now, his brow furrowed in concentration and focus entered into the look in his eyes. His left thumb ran along his other fingers.

“I need you to know that the team loves you, and we care about you. I love you sir, and I know you’re going to blame yourself because I know how your brain works, and that’s just what your brain does when bad things happen, but it’s just plain wrong. You loved her to the edge of the Milky Way and back, and you did everything you could have possibly thought of to stop this, but we don’t know everything. It would make every single thing so much easier, but we don’t, and without knowing exactly what would happen ages before it happened, there’s no choice you could make there that would have saved her.”

He was shaking. Hotch looked down at his hands again and opened his fist. Each finger trembled, and color began returning to his white knuckles. He kept his palm down, not wanting to see the red crescents he was also sure were left there. He scrunched his eyes and blinked away the tears that were building.

“I also know your brain in that when you feel bad, you hate it when other people know, but we care about you, so we worry about you when something really extremely bad like this happens. That’s how it’s supposed to go, whether you like it or not. I need to know that you’re not going to go all distant on us. I actually want to know when you feel bad, so I can know what you need. Can you do that for me?”

He was crying now, face ashamedly angled toward the coffee table. Hotch crossed his arms tightly around his chest and did everything he could to stop his breath from hitching. It didn’t seem to be working very well.

“Sir, I think by now, you have the right to cry, but if you don’t feel comfortable crying in front of me, then that is A-OK… Would you like a hug, so I wouldn’t be seeing you cry? You don’t have to if you don’t want to.”

He leaned over and embraced her. Penelope felt how much he was shaking. They stayed like that for at least a minute before Hotch’s breathing settled enough for him to talk.

“I don’t… I haven’t felt comfortable talking about this, but you said you wanted me to tell you when I felt bad. I know I need to talk about it, and I feel you would give me an honest response,” he murmured, arms still wrapped tight around her.

“Lay it on me.”

“It was warranted, and I needed to to save Jack from him, but… I lost control.”

“Sir, you don’t have to be strong all the-“

“No, that’s-that’s not what I mean,” he slipped away from her arms.

She scooted just far away enough to give him space. Penelope’s hands didn’t quite know what to do with themselves, so she spun each one her rings several times over.

She again noticed how small Hotch looked, elbows on his knees and shoulders curling around him. His lack of a suit jacket surely contributed, but that didn’t account for how stark the spike was in how much vulnerability (or weakness he’d call it when it came to himself) she’d seen from him.

“I did things that I didn’t have control over. I killed a man with my bare hands. I don’t even remember some of it. All I remember is being so angry and terrified, but what happened to her hadn’t set in yet. I just knew I needed to hurt him. I needed to keep him away from Jack, but it terrified me.”

She could tell from the look in his eyes alone.

“Sir, that sounds truly awful. I am so sorry you went through that, and also, I’m not letting you say it’s fine just because there isn’t much you could say after I say that. I’m just going to keep talking. Is that okay?”

“Go ahead.”

He closed his hand into a fist again but just tight enough to fidget with his fingers the way Penelope had been seeing him do for years now.

“Okay, here comes another thing I need you to know, and I need you to know these and believe them, not just like how people who say “I’m sorry for your loss” really do care, but sometimes it just kinda goes in one ear out the other. Okay sir?”

“I’m listening.”

“You are an amazing person. You do what this job, which can be really bad and icky sometimes, takes and more. You also put everything you can into trying to be there for Jack, and you used to do that for Haley. You take every teenie weenie ounce of effort you have to give, and you give it. Everyone who has ever known you knows that you try like super duper hard, and sometimes you don’t get anything back for how much you try, and it sucks like really bad, but you are a good person, and even the best people out there, which includes you fyi, lose themselves sometimes. But, you’re back, and I can only imagine how awful that whole thing must feel, but you did those things you couldn’t control to save your little angel of a son. I’d say that’s 100% worth it.”

“Aaron we’re home.”

“Daddy!”

Hotch’s posture straightened, and he brought Jack into his arms.

“Hello Ms. Penelope! I like your orange hair.”

“Hello Mr. Jack! Thank you very much.”

“You’re welcome!”

“What did you do today?” Hotch asked him.

“We went to the park and I petted a dog that was this big!” He stretched his arms out as far as he could, “and then we went to the movies and watched Batman!”

Hotch talked to him and Jessica, his voice even and his shoulders held back. He looked even stronger than usual. He even smiled.

Penelope soon headed off with her umbrella as Hotch got Jack ready for bed. She really hoped he believed her. Hotch was a legend of a person, but heroes will fall and break, and it takes time to be put back together again.

Hotch would remember that conversation for the rest of his life. From then on, he tried to believe what she said, and he tried to be someone that deserved Penelope Garcia.

#criminal minds #cm #aaron hotch hotchner #aaron hotchner #george foyet #penelope garcia #jack hotchner #jessica brooks #haley brooks #character dialogue #fan fic #the special interest half: criminal minds #i write things

[brieflygorgeouss]

thinking thoughts of you and me

They are supposed to write about what they're most scared of.

Which is — great. As if Lucas didn’t dislike literature enough already.

The teacher says, ”Focus on your personal experience, okay?” and writes a date on the board, of when they’re supposed to turn the paper in. It’s next Monday.

Lucas’s gaze catches on it and then stays, until Imane nudges him with her elbow, saying, ”Just so you know, if you don’t write down the requirements right now, I’m not giving my notes to you later.”

———

”If you could be anywhere right now,” Lucas asks, ”where would you want to be?”

It’s past midnight. Lucas can hear Eliott’s steady heartbeat where he has his ear pressed to Eliott’s chest. All he can see are the dark shapes of furniture on the other side of the room and the numbers on the digital clock on his nightstand blinking in the dark and the faint outline of Eliott’s shoulder illuminated by them. It’s one of those nights when his mind doesn’t want to sleep even when his body does. That happens sometimes, when he’s tired and when something in his mind goes slightly sideways, and Lucas just keeps thinking and thinking and thinking. The night always feels a little heavier than it should, then. He wonders if that makes any sense at all.

Eliott is warm next to him, running hot everywhere they’re touching, his arm slung over Lucas’s waist to keep him close, and Lucas would think that he’s asleep if it wasn’t for his fingers tracing Lucas’s spine where his shirt rides up, a tiny movement. Lucas presses his ear closer to Eliott’s chest and counts his own breaths, matches them to the pace of Eliott’s heartbeat just because he can.

”I don’t know,” Eliott answers after a while, quietly, after Lucas counts to 30 and gets lost. His voice blends into the night, fits right in next to the sound of cars outside, sounds of the city drifting into the room through the open window. ”Where would you want to go?”

”I asked you first,” Lucas says. He tilts his head up, trying to catch Eliott’s gaze, but then Eliott’s hand tangles in his hair, lazily, familiar, and Lucas stays where he is, closing his eyes. He wonders if Eliott can feel Lucas’s lashes against his skin. He hopes so.

”But my answer depends on your answer,” Eliott tells him, sounding right on the verge of sleep. His hand in Lucas’s hair feels heavy. His arm around Lucas’s waist feels warm, a familiar weight. Lucas breathes in, breathes out.

”Why?”

”Because I wanna be where you are,” Eliott says. His hand on Lucas’s spine stills. ”And I’ll go wherever you wanna go. So?”

And Lucas thinks, anywhere. Anywhere, with you.

———

They don’t rush things — or try not to, anyway, because minute by minute is one thing and being in love is another. Lucas moves back into his room and makes sure the lock on the door works, and Eliott spends every other night in his bed, now that he actually has one and doesn’t have to sleep on that godforsaken couch anymore.

Eliott asks him about it, once, smiling like he never ever stopped, ”Was the couch really that bad?”

”Yes,” Lucas says. ”You’ve spent enough time on it to know that yourself.”

They’re supposed to be doing homework together, which Lucas should have known was a bad idea from the very beginning, but Eliott kissed him at the school gate, saying, ”We’re going to yours, then?” and how was Lucas supposed to say no to that, honestly. So here they are, sprawled on the bed side by side, Lucas with his chemistry notebook and Eliott pretending to go over literature. Neither of them touched their notes in half an hour.

Eliott props up on his elbow and casts Lucas a glance, turning towards him. His hair is a mess and his eyes are gleaming in the afternoon sun; Lucas’ gaze catches on his lips for a second too long before moving elsewhere. They’re mingling into each other’s spaces, curling like parentheses, centimeters apart, Eliott lying on his side and Lucas on his stomach. Eliott’s hand brushes Lucas’ arm when he plays with a page of his book.

”I mean, I don’t know,” Eliott is saying, tilts his head like he’s in deep thought, but Lucas can see a smirk starting to pull at the corner of his mouth already. ”I kind of liked it, you know.”

It makes Lucas frown, half-confused and half-sure it’s some kind of a joke. ”Are you serious?”

”Yeah,” Eliott tells him then, and then the beginnings of the smile break out into a wide grin before Eliott can stop it. He raises his eyebrows suggestively, says, ”Some really cool things happened on there, it makes me feel almost nostalgic—” and then he starts laughing at Lucas’ slightly flustered oh my god, the sound loud and free, and Lucas can’t help a smile on his own.

”I don’t know what your priorities are,” he says in retaliation, fighting his ridiculous abashment at the thought, ”but I actually prefer to have a door that locks instead of camping out in the middle of the living room while doing all the cool things you mean,” and it only makes Eliott grin wider as he smoothes a hand along the line of Lucas’ jaw, ducks his head down to press a kiss on his cheekbone.

”You have a point,” he giggles, kissing Lucas’ temple, then again and again, sweet. ”You have a point, actually.”

———

So what is Lucas afraid of?

———

The thing about fear is this — once it grows roots, it’s impossible to weed out.

He doesn’t think about it often, but sometimes he does. See, Lucas is good at it — at pushing thoughts onto the outskirts of his mind, at keeping the thoughts at bay. Somewhere where he can lock them away in the daylight and reach for them in the nighttime. Keep them around for only a second or two, feel the sting of them, then tuck them away again, for later. For good. He’s had a lot of practice.

He does that less and less, but it happens, still. It’s a sting as he writes a new message to his dad, wonders if he’ll reply this time and knows that he probably won’t. When he talks to his mom and she keeps smiling at him like nothing bad ever happened, even though they both know it did. When he lets his mind wander and remembers all the shitty things he did to Yann because he was looking for the sun at midnight like an idiot. Remembers all the shitty things he said to Eliott, once, thinks that Eliott is a much better person than Lucas himself if he was able to swallow it all down, push it away, forgive.

———

He walks Eliott all the way to his parents’ apartment on Wednesday after class; they hold hands throughout the whole bus ride there, and then during the walk from the bus station, too. Eliott lifts their tangled hands to his lips at one point, brushes a kiss against Lucas’s knuckles and Lucas almost stutters halfway through the story he’s telling.

”Come on,” Eliott tugs him to the front door of the apartment building once they’re there, ”You can just say ”Hi” and go.”

Lucas pretends to think about it as Eliott rocks on his feet, but then just rolls his eyes with a smile when Eliott mutters a please, come on. ”Just for a while.”

”Just for a while, scout’s honor,” Eliott tells him, makes a weird salute-like gesture, and before Lucas can tell him that it doesn’t mean anything if he was never a scout, he’s tugging him upstairs.

Eliott’s parents are in town for a visit, a couple of days here and then off to somewhere again. His mom makes dinner, and Lucas would love to stay for it, too, like Eliott insists, but he already promised Imane to meet up and go over the biology material before the test next week. He needs to be at her house in half an hour or she might never agree to help him again like she threatened last time, and he’d like to prevent that from happening. He tells Eliott as much as they climb up to the apartment and Eliott just shoots him a look over his shoulder.

”She likes you too much to do that,” he says, opening the door.

”That’s not true,” Lucas says, but weakly. Eliott raises an eyebrow at him, gestures for Lucas to come in first, then shuts the door behind them, shrugs off his jacket.

The whole apartment smells of spices already; there’s music coming in from the kitchen, followed by a low humming, slightly off tune. It stops seconds after the door shuts behind them, and then Eliott’s mom comes out of the kitchen, drying her hands with a towel, smiling brightly.

”Everything’s almost ready,” she says in the lieu of a hello, rises on her tiptoes to kiss her son’s cheek, then kisses Lucas’s cheek, too, unexpected. ”It’s nice to see you, Lucas.”

Lucas tries to ignore the weird urge to lift his hand to where Eliott’s mom kissed him and smiles politely instead. ”You too, Mrs. Demaury.”

It’s only his third time seeing Eliott’s parents, since they’re out of town so often. They’re nice people, warm and welcoming and seemingly fitting with one another like Lucas only has seen on TV or read in the books. There is something about the atmosphere they’ve created in their home that makes Lucas feel slightly off, every time he’s around.

They’re a real family. Maybe that’s what it is.

”Hello, Lucas!” he hears from the kitchen, Eliott’s dad in a spot Lucas can’t see from the hallway, so he pokes his head into the room. Mr. Demaury is the midst of chopping up onions and looks like he’s about to cry from it. Lucas waves at him a little lamely and he waves back.

”How have you been?” Eliott’s dad asks. He smiles the exact same smile that Eliott has.

”Good,” Lucas says, because he’s stellar at small talk, you see. ”I’m sorry the onions are making you cry, Mr. Demaury.”

Eliott snickers at that as he comes up behind Lucas and rests his chin at the top of Lucas’s head.

”Thank you,” Eliott’s dad says at that, shooting his son a look and then turning back to his task. ”You’re the only one who feels any compassion here.”

”Will you eat with us, Lucas?” Mrs. Demaury asks, ignoring her husband, and it makes Lucas smile. ”There’s more than enough for you, too.”

”I promised to meet up with a friend today, I’m sorry,” he tells her, and something like genuine disappointment flits across her features at that. Lucas writes it off as a trick of light. ”Just came to say "Hi".”

”That’s nice of you,” she says, and Eliott repeats it into Lucas’s hair, low enough only for him to hear, yeah, you’re so nice, Lucas, which makes Lucas’s chest swell with affection, a sudden surge, there and then gone again, even though he knows Eliott's kidding. ”Next time then.”

”Yeah,” Lucas agrees, ”next time.”

He feels weird about it. Feels weird as he and Eliott lounge around the kitchen for a couple of minutes, feels weird when Eliott kisses him goodbye at the front door later, once, twice, thrice, drawing it out as if they aren’t supposed to see each other tomorrow. Lucas is not complaining, only melts into it until Eliott mutters, ”Have fun with Imane,” and Lucas is reminded that he’s supposed to be at her place in like fifteen minutes. He hears Eliott laugh at him as he scrambles down the stairs, calls out to him to shut up as a goodbye but without any real heat in the words. Eliott sends him a text approximately 10 seconds later. It’s a heart.

It feels weird when he’s sitting on a bus, and later when he’s arguing with Imane over their notes, later when he’s on his way back to his place. It’s one of those things he pushes away until he can’t anymore, until it bubbles up like a balloon someone wanted to keep under the surface of a lake.

On his walk back from the bus station, Lucas’s phone vibrates with a new text message. It’s a notification about a transfer to his bank account, the exact same amount as always, not more, not less.

He feels weird, and here’s why — looking at Eliott’s family makes him miss his own.

They used to be like that, too, is the thing. When Lucas was five, six, seven years old and everything was okay, in a different time and a different place. They used to go on vacation in the summer, go to the park on the weekends. His mom taught him how to play the piano every Thursday afternoon and sent him off to school with a kiss to his cheek every morning. His dad used to read him bedtime stories and always pretended not to see when Lucas very obviously fed his vegetables to their dog under the table at dinner. His parents used to dance around the living room in the evenings, with Lucas curled up on the couch. He used to think it was gross when he was eight. He used to think, I can’t wait for the day when they stop.

Sometimes Lucas thinks it would be better for him if things between his parents were always shit; if he never knew what it’s like to have a full, loving family, he wouldn’t know what he’s supposed to be missing, right?

But he does. It’s not fair.

And now, it’s Eliott’s mom who presses kisses to Lucas’s cheek, Eliott’s dad who’s asking about his day. Imane’s parents smiled at him when he was leaving, too, saying, ”See you soon!”

It’s a stupid thing to get sad about, but that’s how he feels.

He sends his mom a text, i’m sorry that we haven’t talked recently. i miss you. To his dad, he sends, thank you for the money.

A couple of minutes later, his mom sends him a Bible verse in reply, something about patience, and humility, and longing. His dad doesn’t respond at all.

Lucas remembers, acutely, as he stares at his phone with the city streets getting dark around him, how when he was smaller, he asked his dad once if he thought the world was a fair place. A child’s question, and he doesn’t even remember why he asked it in the first place. His dad said, ”I think most people get exactly what they deserve, son.”

Lucas pockets his phone and goes.

———

Later, he opens up a word document on his computer and types his name at the top of the page, then the title below it, and then stares at the blinking cursor for the next twenty minutes.

The thing I am scared of, the page tells him, in big letters.

Lucas closes the file without writing anything, tells himself he still has time. It’s just a stupid homework assignment anyway.

———

”Truth,” Basile says, ”or dare?”

Arthur says, ”This is ridiculous.”

It really is. The party is going wild in the living room, the bass pouring through the speakers and people laughing and mingling on the dance floor, while Lucas is — well, here. Sitting on the floor in a circle with his friends and a few other people he doesn’t think he knows, more than slightly tipsy, playing fucking truth or dare, of all things, or something between that and spin the bottle, anyway. Basile had ushered them all in here and made them sit on the floor and then whipped out an empty bottle of beer out of nowhere and it was already too late to escape by then, even though they all kept telling him that this was not how this game worked.

The only thing that’s making it all slightly less dumb is Eliott’s weight against Lucas’s side where he’s sitting next to him.

”Don’t try to get out of this, dude,” Basile says, shooting Arthur a look that is probably meant to be warning, except that Basile is too far gone at this point, so it just looks weird. ”Truth or dare?”

”Fine, Jesus. Truth.”

”Who,” Basile says, ”is the person you hate the most and why?”

Arthur very obviously pretends to think about it before he says, ”You, for making me play this game right now,” while looking Basile straight in the eye, and Lucas can’t help the laugh that escapes him, especially when others start laughing, too.

Because yeah, the game sucks, kind of, but the rest is fine. Lucas has been stressing over too many things at once again, has been getting lost in his own head, thinking about school and family and everything else. It’s good not to think about anything for a while. Good to just spend some time with his friends, with Eliott leaning into his side, getting tipsy and loose-limbed and flushed, feeling the bass thrumming in his veins. He lets his hand trail down Eliott’s arm, centimeters from his own, then tangles their fingers together without looking.

Arthur spins the bottle this time, even though Basile complains, and Lucas watches it until it stops, pointing at Eliott.

”Truth or dare,” Arthur asks.

Eliott squeezes Lucas’s hand in his. ”Dare.”

When Lucas turns and looks at him, Eliott is already smiling brightly with a glint in his eyes, slightly flushed from the alcohol and the overall commotion of the party. Lucas feels light-headed at the sight; then briefly wonders if it’s because he’s drunk too much or if it’s just Eliott.

”Okay,” Arthur says, raising his eyebrows, and it takes him just a few seconds to come up with, ”Kiss the most attractive person in the room.”

”Dude,” Basile says, ”he’d have to, like, kiss himself,” and Lucas faintly registers Yann and Mika cackling across the room at the comment, but Eliott just shrugs a little sheepishly, muttering, well, that’s easy, and then turns and cups Lucas’s face and kisses him right there and then.

Time gets a little wobbly after that. Lucas closes his eyes and angles his head and everything that isn’t Eliott’s lips or Eliott’s warmth kind of just fades away. Maybe playing this game wasn’t such a bad idea after all, if he gets to kiss Eliott just like that. His heartbeat is thrumming in his veins, almost matching the rhythm of the song from behind the wall.

”You two need to get a room, I swear, you're both insufferable,” Emma mutters when Eliott moves away and Lucas regains the ability to process his surroundings again, but she’s smiling widely as she says it. Lucas smiles back at her.

”More like boring,” Arthur says, and then, ”I should’ve known he’d choose Lucas anyway.”

Eliott laughs at that, throws his arm around Lucas’s shoulders and drags him closer, presses another quick kiss to his hair.

”Not boring,” he says, but it’s quiet enough that Lucas doesn’t think anyone else can hear the words, ”Just in love.”

———

Later, when they’re collectively staggering to the nearest bus stop, Yann leans a bit more heavily on Lucas between one step and the next and then all of a sudden says, words slurring together a little, ”You seem happy,” and then, ”Are you happy?”

That’s — unexpected, a little. Lucas blinks, repeats the question in his mind, then asks, ”Is that what you think about when you’re drunk?”

He’s sobered up a little by this point, although most of his thoughts are still hazy. It’s probably closer to dawn than to midnight right now, and the streets are quiet and dark but familiar despite it all, still. Eliott is behind them somewhere, saying goodbye to Sofiane. Arthur and Basile went ahead with a few other people and have already disappeared behind a corner, wobbly and laughing at each other.

”You’re my best friend, you know,” Yann says, and stops on the sidewalk, abruptly. His expression is serious. He gets like this sometimes in the strangest moments when Lucas least expects it. Lucas used to read into it a lot, before; now, he just breathes the night air in and watches as Yann sways on his feet a little. ”Of course I think about you.”

”Okay,” Lucas says, letting a tentative smile onto his face, but still not letting go of Yann entirely, because he doesn’t trust his balance fully yet. ”I’m doing fine. Why are you asking?”

”Just wanted to make sure."

It’s— such a simple and honest statement that it makes something warm unfurl in Lucas’s chest. And then Yann says, ”You deserve all the happiness you can get, you know.”

He means it. Yann’s leaning on Lucas in the middle of the sidewalk at 4 in the morning on a Saturday and he means it, Lucas realizes with slight bewilderment, Yann means everything he’s saying. Lucas blinks up at him, at his solemn face, a weird thing after a whole night of drinking and having fun, looks at his best friend who’s decided that right now is the best time to make Lucas feel like he’s more than he really is, and he thinks, stupidly grateful, thank you, thank you.

”As long as you guys are around,” he says after a couple of seconds instead, when he finds his voice, ”I’ll be okay.”

———

On Saturday, he drags himself out to the kitchen at roughly 2 pm, makes himself tea in an attempt to somewhat ease the hangover and then joins Mika and Lisa in the living room. They’re watching reruns of some TV show Lucas vaguely remembers having seen before. He stays around anyway, rolls his eyes at Mika’s running commentary and argues with Lisa over the volume being too high.

When Manon comes over, later, a tray of muffins in her hands, she only shoots them a glance and, chuckling, asks, ”Having fun?”

And honestly, Lucas thinks in the back of his head, fighting Mika off of him when Eliott sends him a text and Mika immediately tries to read it over Lucas’s shoulder at one point, yeah. It’s not bad at all.

———

So, here's how it is, eventually — on Sunday, Lucas finally writes the goddamn assignment, stares at the words until he feels lighter.

His assignment starts with, ”I am scared of people leaving me behind.”

It ends with, ”Some of them will. Some of them won’t. That’s okay.”

———

Eliott waits for him by his classroom when Lucas gets out of literature. He’s leaning against a wall, typing something on his phone, but raises his head before Lucas can even call out to him. The smile that lights up his whole face is breathtaking.

”Ready to go?” Eliott asks, kisses him in lieu of a hello as soon as Lucas gets close, and Lucas lets a smile bloom on his face.

”Yeah,” he says, takes Eliott’s hand, holds on tight, ”Let’s go."

#skam france #skamfr #elu fic #elu #ppl on ao3 seem to like it so here goes #might delete it cause im a cowardly bitch lmao #my writing #fics #fanfic #td

[sunandalsomoon]

if u havent pls go read loseyoutoloveme on ao3 ,, they mostly write jaehyun x reader and i know some ppl don’t like to read y/n fics but when i tell yall it is SO GOOD. all of their works are so beautifully written w well developed plots, well rounded characters, and they know how to make a bih CRY. i literally BAWL MY EYES OUT at every story. also there is no smut in any of their stories !!!

here are my top 3 stories!!

(btw when i say o/c i mean y/n lolol)

1. stitch your heart upon the blossom of mine

word count: 435k (38 chapters)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/25393999/chapters/61579372

summary: takes place in a dystopian country where o/c is taken in by a high ranking government official and his family. every citizen of this region is given a seed that will only bloom if it is watered by that person’s soulmate (yes a soulmate au 👀).

ik it’s rlly long but IT IS SO WORTH THE READ !!!!! it’s dystopian and involves more violence than their other stories so if you enjoyed books like the hunger games and divergent (me in 7th grade) i think u’ll rlly like this one !! it doesn’t get too heavy into politics or make the layout of the world too confusing or complex so it is pretty easy to follow along. one thing i love about this author is how relatable she is able to make the main character and how easy it is to empathize with every single character, so even though o/c is a dystopian orphan princess you are still able to feel the pain she goes thru throughout the book. also the angst w her and jaehyun 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨

2. the umbrella against downpours of remembrance

word count: 98k (8 chapters)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/30210003/chapters/74439444

summary: o/c is the widowed secretary of a hospital where her husband doyoung, a doctor, used to work. a new doctor and doyoung’s former best friend jaehyun begins to work in the same hospital.

THIS ONE IS SO SAD. i’m usually not one to read marriage fics bc sometimes they feel too cheesy for me but this story really captures marriage as 2 people living parallel lives like you can tell how strong the love and respect was b/t o/c and doyoung. this story talks about soulmates less in the physical sense like with Stitch but in a more realistic sense (?¿) like do you only have one soulmate in life and can you love someone else if you intended to only love one person forever ? PURE ANGST.

3. a melancholy weekend in december, or when the end of us wasn’t the end

word count: 462k words (ongoing as of 7/2021)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/28947483/chapters/71029833

summary: o/c is a ballerina and jaehyun is a pianist. they meet when jh becomes the new pianist for o/c’s ballet studio, but they also attend the same high school where o/c is ‘popular’ and jh is a ‘nerd’. o/c comes from a similar background as jh and they build a strong friendship. the story follows their lives and relationships throughout young adulthood.

THE DRAMA THAT HAPPENS IN THIS FIC. 👀 U WILL NOT GET BORED. ok yall im actually rereading this one bc it’s my favorite rn and i cry every single chapter because the relationship b/t jh and o/c is so beautifully constructed and you can feel how much they rely and support each other. UGH ITS SO GOOD. the ‘popular girl nerd guy’ trope seems cliche but trust me their personalities are much more than that and they are only in high school for the first few chapters. i love love love how real this story feels and it truly feels like i’m reading about somebody’s life and how they cope with life’s unexpected twists and turns. highly recommend listening to lover by taylor swift while or after reading if you love to cry

btw these are not in any order/ranking !

AHHH MY SUMMARIES RLLY DO NOT DO THESE STORIES JUSTICE !! they are truly so well written and addicting because you get so immersed into the world and attached to the characters the author creates. i am absolutely obsessed and i could not recommend enough even if you are not a person who typically reads fanfic or au type stuff. trust me.

#jung jaehyun #jaehyun #jaehyun scenarios #jaehyun angst #jaehyun x oc #jaehyun x reader #jaehyun x y/n #jaehyun x you #jaehyun imagines #nct imagines #nct angst #nct scenarios #nct x y/n #nct 127 #nct 127 scenarios #nct 127 imagines #angst with a happy ending

[tsunderedoctor]

I just wanted to check in and see how you were. Hopefully you’re feeling well and staying hydrated👏. I felt like I was in a writing slump for so long(mostly post work on Ao3) but for some reason I can’t post my work on law… I feel like I’m stumped. I have 3 stories I’m working on. Here’s the prompts since you’re someone who also adores law. Tell me which one you think is your favorite.

1) soulmate trope: tattoo of the persons name is written on your wrist/forearm and the closer you get to them the more it reveals itself. O/C is a famous singer whos really a slave for a performing crew. law finds himself attracted but not dying over the fact of leaving her. They both kind of realize they couldnt be together. Something happens the night law goes to leave and it forces his hand on having to take her with him but that’s if she even lives…. DUNDUNDUNNN (I wrote this one a lot already and I’m not LOVING it. Think I drowned it with too much nsfw 😭

2) law finds himself a new cremate and she’s half mink. Meaning she looks human except for the cat ears and tail with faint stripes on her face (look up miquote from FFXIV to get a better reference) I feel like law is a lover of cute things and he would protect her at all costs even though she doesn’t really need his protection. But she’d be more quiet, observant.

3) the heart pirates go out on a large city island for one of the crew members birthdays, meets a really pretty girl. she’s a civilian and he ends up hooking up with her. (She’s either a bartender, dancer, or one of the ppl inside the bar/club. the next day when he’s leaving he finds himself a bit hesitant. Then throughout the months he writes her letters and she’ll write back sometimes only when he leaves an address to send it to. He tries to make excuses with himself why he needs to go to that specific island, like he hates the fact he wants to see her again. So more of a long distance relationship. She seems to be normal, someone with no weird past….

Which one is your fav out of the three? I feel like I’m biased with the mink story because I do play FFXIV and I have a cat girl,.. I may or may not have created law in the game 😭😂 I’ll have to send you this screenshot. Sometimes I die a little inside.

That's so cool you were able to make Law!!! And thanks for the ask!! Hmmm let's see, I like number 3 the best, but I also am biased because my self insert isn't a pirate haha!! But truly it's up to you, my love and what you decide ❤️❤️❤️

I can't wait to see what you make!!!

#tsunderedoctor #not ask #a new friend!!!!

[dykesprentiss]

ok so. i know a lot of this has probably been said before, but i wanted to put my two cents in. very rambly and disorganized because i am just like that.

i think everyone in this fandom needs to examine the way they interract with male vs female characters. why is it easier for you to focus on and create content for male characters that have appeared in 2 episodes maximum, then it is for the women that are in the main cast? why do you gravitate towards ships between two male characters who have never met (specifically jonah and like. his harem of old british men. usually based on one single line of dialogue) then the actual, canon wlw relationships?

like dont get me wrong, when lonely eyes first started cropping up it was funny! i enjoyed it, i enjoyed the multiple divorce jokes, because it was a small fandom in joke that made fun of some old bastards. and now its the second most popular ship in the fandom. now its so popular, people think its canon before they start listening. why are you unable to muster that same kind of enthusiasm for any of the female characters? gertrude and mary have very similar appeal to lonely eyes, and yet its a fringe ship that nobody ever talks about. gertrude and agnes have very significant moments and mentions in the podcast, and yet the only people i see talking about them are wlw.

or we could talk about michael and helen! helen who, as of this moment, has become a key player in the storyline. helen who yeeted michael out of existence, who took over the power of the distortion by her own choice, and with her own strength. and so often i see her relegated to "vodka aunt that coos over jonmartin" is that a bad take on her? of course not! but having her only purpose be to comment on the male characters rubs me the wrong way.

lets talk about elias and mary. elias gets praise, and love, and devotion, regardless of the horrible things he does. the entire fandom has the reputation of eliasfuckers now because everyone goes so crazy for him. mary is just as evil, has just as sexy a voice (i assume lol cause tbh? eel eyes does not do it for me and never will), and people just. hate her. full stop. why is that?

it seems like manuela has been. completely forgotten. i Never see anyone talk about her. she has just as much appeal as the male avatars, so why are you so uninterested in her? sasha and tim have the same amount of importance, and both have died, but there is So much more focus on tim. why.

daisy/basira and melanie/georgie are incredibly well developed relationships, their stories are as beautiful and tragic and intimate as jonmartin, but the f/f and m/m fic ratio on ao3 is abysmal. because it seems to me that the only people writing about them are wlw.

which happens.....a lot. het relationships and gay relationships are for everyone, but lesbian ships? thats just for gay women. everyone goes head over heels for mlm movies, regardless of sexuality, but wlw movies never receive the same kind of treatment. why.

this isn't even touching on the. blatant and disgusting fetishising of mlm. elias is evil because hes gay and skanky. tim is bi so he must sleep around. tim and martin are both mlm in the same vicinity of each other so they must have had a friends with benefits relationship. jon/elias and peter/martin have significant age differences and power disparities, so they must have an incredibly fucked up sexual relationship. jon is ace, but yall just fully ignore that so you can write horny fic of him. (and im going to be completely honest, if you get legitimate joy from writing manipulative r*pe fic involving these characters, Especially involving an ace character, ( edit: i apologize for my wording here, i didnt intend to compare trauma between ace and non ace ppl. my point is that jon seems to be the main target in these fics, and that they seem to be a direct response to his asexuality. fic like this is bad regardless of who is targetted). than that is a big problem. you arent "exploring dark topics in a meaningful way" youre writing fucked up porn for your own sick enjoyment. get angry at me all u want lmao but i stand by that)

i could go on about this forever, but what im really asking is for people to look inward and ask yourselves why you are so against connecting and interracting with female characters? no one is saying you cant like the men, but if theyre the only ones you care about? thats a problem. there are more women in tma then there are men, but they still feel like the minority because of the way the fandom acts. this isnt just a tma problem either! you can put as many rounded out female characters as you want into your content, and every time without fail they will be pushed to the side in favor of the men.

and dont come at me with "oh if you want content of the women you should make it" like we fucking are. the issue is that wlw are the only ones doing it. just take a second and think. are you ignoring the female characters in favor of the men? why? why is that your first instinct? why do you not feel the need to go against that instinct?

#the magnus archives #tma #i used to have so much more love for the male characters too but now im just tired lol #long post #ok to rb #rape mention tw

[chrolloctrl]

hello～! can i request for Adultrio who fell in love with fem crime hunter Reader? also have a nice day/evening💘

thank you for the request! i tried my best to make all of these different from each other, but i also tried to stay true to how the characters would sincerely react:) oh and sorry for the late post, school’s been tough :( but yknow it be like that

note(s)/warning(s): some mentions of blood and violence, but other than that nothing you wouldn’t see on hxh though

fandom(s)/character(s): hunter x hunter, adultrio, aka illumi, hisoka, and chrollo

for dialogue purposes, italics are you, and bold is the character :)

i l l u m i

since you’re a crime hunter and he is a literal trained assassin, the relationship is pretty much seemingly doomed for failure

however i imagine that you guys meet in an a very unexpected way

he’s on a mission to kill someone who had stolen from the zoldycks, and you’re on a mission to take out a thief

yeah it’s the same guy you got it

illumi gets there first and gets the job done

much to your dismay

you’re standing right behind him as he’s covered in blood over the body

all you say is “since when does the assassin do something morally correct?”

“when it benefits him.” he responds.

i think he recognizes you before you recognize him

“you’re y/n, right? crime hunter?”

“you could say that.”

“we aren’t so different you know..”

“we are incredibly different. i don’t kill for sport.”

“you still kill, though.”

you’re so pissed off because he kind of has a point

oh and that emotionless stupid little face of his pisses you off even more

it’s all love we know i love illumi

illumi’s bloodlust is out of control at this point, your interaction with him just increased that

“what are you going to do? kill me?”

“no. it doesn’t benefit me now does it?”

“what do you want from me illumi?”

“ a deal.”

somehow he ropes you into helping him on missions as long as it corresponds with your own morals

i think the moment he realizes he’s in love with you is when you explain morality to him

like obviously he has no idea wtf good morals are lmao

you act as his therapist in a way, comforting him about his past and telling him that his bad actions don’t make him a bad person, just a person who used to do bad things

sorry guys i love soft illumi, and i genuinely think he has the capability to be good

one day he breaks down after a mission, and he is so embarrassed that you’re the first person he shows his deep, buried emotions to

you just hold him and comfort him, telling him its not his fault

after that he doesn’t want to talk to you because he’s embarrassed

“i think emotions make you a better assassin.”

“how does that make sense?”

“makes you think twice.”

and now he knows why killua loves gon so much.

h i s o k a

we already know this bitch is obsessed with you

probably keeps tabs on you to see what you’re up to

every headline involving you “taking down another lowlife” catches his attention so fast

he wants a fight so bad

so he creates a plan

commit a crime so terribly that they HAVE to send you to take him out

just another amazing idea from hisoka!

so he figures out who you’re working for, and kills someone close to them, obviously leaving behind a trace so they have somewhat of an idea as to who he is, but still making it a hunt

he probably leaves a star and tear behind, something that only those who knew him would recognize

and so he watches you hunt him while he hunts you

you’re asking anyone and everyone if they recognize the star and tear, most people either having no clue, or recognizing it but keeping quiet about it in fear of what hisoka would do

eventually, someone says they know a person who draws a star and tear on their face — hisoka morrow

once hisoka hears that you know his name he is absolutely ecstatic, he probably reveals himself to you right after

“it has been so fun watching you search for me.”

“if you knew i was looking, why be a coward and hide?”

“there’s no fun if there’s no chase, darling.”

you guys battle it out, i imagine the fight is very close, but evidently you just can’t keep up with him

“you put up a beautiful fight…hmm, perhaps i’ll let you survive if you join me?”

out of breath and on the brink of death, he assumes you’re saying no

right as he goes for the finishing blow, you hold your hands up, and whisper through a mouth full of blood a small “i’ll do it.”

he has a huge grin on his face, so excited to have successfully “corrupted” you

sorry y’all added a little corruption kink in their my b

once he takes you to machi so she can heal you, you both go on ur little killing ppl missions together cos what else does hisoka do lol

he realizes he’s in love once you finish someone off, a crazed look in your eyes, smile on display, covered in blood.

“you’ve never looked as beautiful as you do now.”

you and hisoka’s love is weird. but it’s intense, and it is real. just not...normal.

you guys are crazy killers, but it works

he probably draws a star and tear on you just so u guys can match

after u.. murder people <3

yandere reader vibes sorry

c h r o l l o

for this, we are going to assume that you are the “weakest” link of the crime hunter agency

so they make you the bait

sorry i just want to cover all of our bases

you definitely have a lot of potential, you are just incredibly clumsy, and taking down the phantom troupe is something that requires plenty of people on the job

chrollo already knows you’re a crime hunter when he “runs into you” at a bar, as well as the fact that you aren’t working alone

but he entertains you, just because he’s bored lol

i can already picture you being caught off guard by how handsome chrollo is, because honestly im sorry who wouldn’t be

you kind of even forget you’re there on a job

but, when chrollo asks if you know about nen and what type of nen you use, you quickly remember why you’re there

you smile, “yes, i’m a specialist.”

he asks you to show him, but you decline

“i will lose it if i do.”

chrollo smirks, “smart girl.”

with that, you feel a sharp pain on the side closest to chrollo, and everything goes dark as you tumble into his arms

once you wake up, all the spiders surround you, chrollo in the center

“caught in the web.” you say, as chrollo’s eyes lighten up.

“precisely.”

“is there any way to escape a spider’s web?”

“prove to be worthy.”

there he went again, begging to see your nen so he could steal it

but just because you were thought to be the weakest link, didn’t mean it was true

“i mean, you’re looking at it right now.”

the troupe stares in confusion, and before chrollo can respond, one of the spiders falls to the ground, beheaded. (i can’t pick who so just pretend its ur least favorite <3)

the spiders stand there in shock

there were two of you.

the real you, free and unbounded, makes the clone disappear

“you said you were a specialist, but this seems to be a conjurer technique?”

“the speciality is that you can’t steal it. it isn’t exactly nen.”

this is the first time someone’s caught chrollo off guard, he has no idea what to do, i mean how did he know that this you wasn't a clone?

“now, i’ve heard once a leg is missing, there needs to be a replacement. what does the head think?”

you weren’t just a crime hunter, you were a double agent who wanted in on the phantom troupe

the moment chrollo realized your abilities weren’t nen, i think that’s when he fell in love

hear me out

he knows he’s going to be indebted to you forever

and we all know those books he reads...mf is a hopeless romantic who if in love, pretty much is absolutely obsessed

and boy is he obsessed already

of course, he is unable to steal it from you which is quite a drag

but, with you there, and your undiscovered abilities, the phantom troupe was basically unbeatable

something he wanted so badly

“welcome to the troupe number ___.” (once again i can’t decide who LOL you guys can pick)

you protect him and he protects you. 

if any of the troupe questions you and your decisions, he defends you so fast

eventually the troupe is referred to as “a spider with two heads”

kinda cute, kinda funky fresh name for thieves and murderers<3 at least u guys r passionately in love <3 

i hope this was good!! im kind of rusty so sorry :( im finishing up some other requests, and im thinking of crossposting a fic on here and on ao3, inspired by my dr strange/hxh hcs :) but requests are still open! guidelines right here  (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡ thank you to everyone who shows love to my posts!

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