so ssorry to anyone i promised art to . my msm hyperfixation has unfortunately ended , which took a toll on my motivation to draw . i still really like the game , but it just does not make me as happy as it used to
above is an artistic representation of what ive been doing for the past month or so . resting . and i will continue to rest for a bit more .sorry
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Ngl some days I'm like writing crackships and ships and rarepairs is so silly goofy and fun and then OTHER days I'm like wow I wish I'd never written or drawn a ship ever in my life how do I erase this and OTHER days I just go about forgetting ships exist entirely and I swing WILDLY between those three options with no chill whatsoever
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"late for dinner, late, late, late, late! whizzer's supposed to make the dinner, make the dinner, love to screw! that's what pretty boys should do! make the dinner and love me!"
what if whizzer wants you to make the dinner for once. what if whizzer's afraid of being seen as the woman in the relationship because he isn't perceived as a man, not like you are. what if whizzer only conforms to the expectations that are set on him as the "woman" of the relationship because he doesn't know how else society will accept him because of who he is. what if deep down whizzer is afraid that no one sees him as a man. what if whizzer wants to be handsome instead of pretty. what if whizzer wants to be loved like you do rather than sexualised. what if this post isn't about whizzer at all. what if. crazy thought.
that song makes me feel things i blame a specific tiktok for it that i can no longer find anyways sorry for being sad on main i am just Feeling because of exams
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The struggle of finding decent system friendly Discord servers to be in…
The majority of the ones I’ve seen either allow endos, use TONS of fonts & closed symbols (and usually also allow individuals to use closed names from cultures they are not from), have an insanely restrictive blacklist, or believe the R slur is reclaimable (and thus allow their members to throw it around however they please)
Then of course, there is the heavenly mix of all of the above
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Happy Easter if yall celebrate it!!!!! Otherwise I hope yall have an absolutely fantastic Sunday!!!!
Aaaa I feel like I'm not as chatty as I once was on here. Been a bit all over the place! Also feel silly making a ton of text posts with no art so I try and limit how often I blab on here.
But just know I still appreciate all of you who follow and like my art! Every bit of interaction I still see and it still baffles me to see such kind words. It means the absolute world to me!!!! 💖💖🌻
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I want to speak, I want to scream, but all that comes out is blood, and it will stain your clothes and your hands and everything will be stained and dirty and tainted and you'll never look at me the same for I would have turned your pure white into an angry crimson
You will look at me and you'll see me cut open and bare and you'll see how much pain this heavy heart carries and you won't be surprised by the crimson that pours out my mouth instead of screams but it would have still turned your clothes and hands the color of pain and I don't know if you could forgive me for existing in this way
I don't want to exist in this way
In the way where everything I touch stains red
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I’m sorry but why am I always the one who has to make the plans when it comes to hanging out with friends? Not to sound like a bitch but I’m literally the only one who makes any effort to reach out and plan something with my friends and lately it’s been kinda draining and lonely. Why am I always the one who has to put in the effort? Why am I the one who has to suggest that we hang out? Like I’m always the one who texts first and asks to see them and it’s never the other way around, ever. If I don’t ask for us to hang out then we don’t hang out.
I know I’m nobody’s first choice, but is it too much to ask to be a choice at all?
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me: MY HAIRLINE IS RECEDING OH NO OH FUCK
also me: full time student (worth noting i wrote stupid here at first without realizing), 20-30 hours in customer service every week, teaching myself 3/4 classes, teaching myself advanced algebra with a teacher (basically just a proctor) who shuts down any/all asks for help, juggling college financial woes, navigating dying relationships/people abandoning and/or attacking me bc i don't have time for things i used to anymore, none of my hobbies are making me happy when and if i have time for them,, i have no time for myself, i'm on my second all-nighter this week, i'm perpetually exhausted in a way sleep isn't fixing, my body aches because i'm so tired, and i'm barely able to stay asleep when i do get the chance bc the anxiety wakes me up
my hairline: two hops this time!
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i just rememberd adhd meds exist and now im upset because i could have that if it wasn't for that freakin neurologyst we went to see that told us it was impossible that i could have adhd because i have good grades in school. literally the ONLY question he asked me and immediately said it was impossible. we spent like 5 minutes there. he could've at least... explained something???? anything?????? and now i'd feel bad about asking my parents to see another neurologist because that costs a lot of money :((
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Me: living the dream masking again, life is good ( I am in denial lmao)
My body when I read something sad, funny, etc. That makes me feel a v strong emotion: oh I hope you're ready for all this physical sensation :)
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