ik this fandom has long been split between "jeremy knox is so perfectly normal it's unnerving. sunshine incarnate." and "jeremy knox is secretely fucked up, could've made the fox lineup, his sunshine persona is a complete façade" but i could not be happier with the secret third option we got in canon
it's not a complete façade. jeremy knox cares deeply about other people and he would do almost anything to make them smile. obviously he puts on a show for the cameras, he's a fucking human being, but he genuinely believes in what he preaches.
he has some baggage. this might turn out to be even darker than what we've seen so far, but i highly doubt it would be something that could potentially qualify him for the fox lineup. his family isn't perfect, he'd rather live with his friends. his sister clearly blames him for "ruining their family" and he avoids his older brother and the police like the plague.
jeremy carries these secrets and keeps them from jean, but he clearly has been open about them with cat and laila. even coach rehmann sknows about his trouble with the police (whatever that is about..) and assumed jean knew about it too !* he's clearly not carrying whatever it is completely on his own
he's not the kind of sunshine character that buries everything and secretely kinda loathes everyone and feels trapped in this cage they've made for themselves, while simultaneously not being all rainbow and sunshine 100% of the time.
he's human.
*post-grayson when they go back to the house, rhemann says he would call the police for jean if he wanted and says "i'll send jeremy away first", thinking jean is saying no because of jeremy
I literally cried when i read this chap... i had to take off my headphones and bluelight glasses and plop down on my bed to comprehend what I just read....
DDUDE!!! THAT CHAPPPP!!!! AUGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I WAS ON MY BED STRUGGLING TO COMPREHEND WHAT I HAD JUST READ!!! MY EMOTIONS WERE ALL OVER THE PLACEEEE!! KNOX!!! DUDEEE UR TRAUMATIZING MEEE!!!!!!!
Anyways *ahem* the expression I imagine that was on Kai's face was one of a kicked puppy loll. Bc after all that Knox has put the poor fire boy thru.... Kai is most def a kicked puppy.... :')
ANyways, y'all!! Go and check out @ninja-knox-ur-sox-off's fic Wobbly Hearts AU !!! IT"S EPICCCC!!! <3333333
i'm thinking about jean and his magnets and postcards again and it seriously breaks my heart. the way he pulled out that first postcard and his heart sank when he saw the writing was blotted out and how he desperately spread them all out trying to find any still salvageable. and then the bear missing a piece and the hope that maybe the missing bit was at the bottom of the box but there was nothing there so it would never be fixed. like they knew it was his favourite and purposely left it irreparable.
and i need to know so many things!!! like when was the first time kevin gave him each of them?? what made him think of jean and pick them up?? what had he written on the back of the postcards??
what did jean think and feel when kevin first gave him them??? did he clutch them desperately in his hand?? bc it had been so long since anyone had given him anything after he'd been snatched from his home and come to the nest empty handed and reduced to a number. did he immediately display them proudly in his room?? or did he keep them hidden at first?? afraid that riko or someone else would take them away from him.
why was the bear with the beret his favourite??? what if it's because kevin handed it to him a stupid smile on his face saying "this one reminded me of you" and jean looks at it skeptically and says "why?? bc of the beret and i'm french?" and kevin just snickers a little and jean rolls his eyes and kevin says something teasingly in french newly taught by jean and jean feels something pull at his chest and he clutches the magnet tighter and says a curt thank you but every time he looks at it he'll remember how kevin smiled at him and how for a second they felt like normal kids and not helpless caged animals. and then he gets them back and they're broken and ruined but they're the only thing he's truly owned in so long so of course he will keep then forever even if he can't bear to look at them anymore. even if the thought of them damaged and destroyed makes him sick to his stomach.
and then!! and then there's jeremy who notices when jean's gaze lingers on the magnets on cat and laila's fridge and gets all excited when he spots jean's collection and tells him they can make room on the fridge and isn't aware of the sadness jean probably has to force down when he tells him they don't stick anymore and how jeremy automatically assumes it's because they were well-worn and sentimental bc he has no idea how much they meant to jean and how they were used as a way to get to him to hurt him.
my heart hurts it really hurts thinking about it. i really hope the trojan's start gifting him some and he starts a new collection and idk maybe jeremy learns the truth about what happened to them and tries his best to fix them up again or even searches desperately to find the same ones and maybe kevin hears about it too and starts sending jean new ones whenever he travels so that one day jean will think of those old ones or even see them up on his fridge or in a drawer and he won't feel an ache in his chest anymore.
the only way presenting new possible interests to me works is if you introduce them to me like you'd introduce a kitten to a grown cat that's never seen a baby in its life
I desire… To send you an unfinished sketch of your sona I made in the past… It’s of a specific variant of your sona… Can I submit it to you here? (if you wanna see it, that is) ~Monkey Anon
Honestly, I’m really hoping that we are seeing Snake’s backstory from cinematic records that some reaper is reviewing because getting another near death situation as Bard’s would be meh :// But IF someone is actually watching Snake’s cinematic records, who is it? It would make soo much sense for this grim reaper to be William considering his involvement in the circus arc and all of that but we saw both him and Ronald in the previous arc🤔Besides there was already a scene in circus arc with William watching Joker’s records, wouldn’t be weird for Yana to do similar thing twice?