#no more agony

[inkskinned]

the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.

sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.

you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.

it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.

but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.

they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.

they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.

barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.

and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.

but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.

they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!

this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.

#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone #yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post. #writeblr #ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person #and on this blog we support workers. #at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going. #when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens #have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists #and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like. #it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases - #at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory. #it was what i had seen. #and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference #we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol' #so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender #and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID. #he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different #i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.

[a-sketchy]

in commemoration of reload, here’s the full hamuko paintover from november

#my art #hamuko arisato #p3r #p3 #kotone shiomi #minako arisato #persona 3 reload #at a certain point i just realized i don’t really have the skills or motivation to finish it #i am not built for this kinda rendering at this stage in my artistic career #it’s just more time and effort and agony than i’m willing to spend rn yknow #but i’m proud of what i’ve done

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Laios's three Boy Best Friends. And yes, they hate him.

#dungeon meshi #laios touden #toshiro nakamoto #chilchuck tims #kabru #BF in this context could be boyfriend or best friend. The line is so blurry. #Chilchuck less so but whatever is going on between Shuro and Laios & Kabru and Laios is giving strong: #“dude if you were a girl I'd date the hell out of you”. And from the genderswap extra's that sentiment is canon for BOTH. #This was made prior to the translation of the Laios & Kabru & Shuro restaurant date comic and honestly I am just feeling vindicated. #I don't even know what to call this dynamic other than a situationship. There is so much going on between all of them. #Even on a purely platonic reading - the miscommunication and male yearning for friendship hurt so bad. #When we got the Big Hug scene in the epilogue arc I was whooping and hollering! Pure catharsis moment! #I also don't like hugs very much so I really felt it went Shuro ('hates being touched') went in for the bear hug. #Do not get me started on the agony of 'always lying' Kabru telling the truth (I just wanted to be friends) #and 'always believes' Laios thinking it's another lie and brushing him off. #I am once again supporting dungeon meshi day by posting art. Please watch dungeon meshi. #obligatory edit because I’m tired: YES. Chilchuck cares for Laios and him admitting it was a huge part of his arc #YES he is more just fed up with him that actually hating him. #I needed a third guy to be canonically done with his ass for the THREE WEED SMOKING GIRLFRIENDS reference

[skyeateyourdonuts]

okie gn (when i get home at least lol)

#i havent slept since this time yesterday #im hungy #and i have a sinus headache #BUUUUT #im in a superb mood rn like im so happy #my bio mates are so nice and i asked them to make a study group w me!!! #which is like!!!!! were all gonna do so well bc were gonna be studying together!!! #im so proud bc i was brainstorming how to ask for the Rest of the class #its gonna keep me on track :> #and they said my outfit was cute #and someone complimented my hair EEEEEE #oh and one big problem (that i feel largely ashamed of and wont even speak of despite it not being That big) #WAS SOLVED #no more agony #just nap :> im gonna take a big ass Sleep when i get home #charge my phone munch and Slumber #oh and cheers to wonderful uber drivers that despite my hesitance in convo r brightening my day!! #kinda missing some fresh gideon and harrow smooching fanfic But. Hey. #thats a gift for qhen i find a new one in my free time hehehe #dreamy sigh #what a wonderful day

[friendcrumbs]

The Yapping and its consequences

#reanimator #re-animator #herbert west #reanimator fanart #dan cain #i need to draw more silly shit. for the Agonies #mycrumbs

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

he is just. so shaped. so so so So shaped.

#im Attempting some new tactics #it doesnt really show! but i am! #starting to fuck around w/ watercolor brushes... #holding him up like a little bee and saying I Just Think He's Neat! #< i jest! i think much much more about him #that i cannot share without devolving into an incoherent mess! #so. i just think he's neat :]c #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #frank frankly #im also trying... to do... (dramatic thunderclap) BACKGROUNDS #i know i know. very scary. they're still very messy #but... i like objects? i like Things? i like to look at a page and see put together clutter! #maximalism babey! #which is deadly when you're an artist methinks. but. whats one more agony added onto the rest! #it will be a while until i figure out how to Accomplish that put-together clutter.... #im still bad at colors! im trying to swim before i can walk! Yikes!

[mrsrookhunt]

Imagine if you ask the magic mirror again and it gives you a dorm this time. How the dorm leaders + the poor unfortunate souls underneath them react

Magic Mirror: This soul now has a place within this world. Your dorm is..

Heartslabyul

*happy sobbing from some, unhappy from others* *COUGH, riddle*

Savanaclaw

*unhappy sobbing in, will never be sleeping again*

Octavinelle

*unhappy sobbing, wiping away tears with money*

Scarabia

*JOYOUS SOBBING*

Pomefiore

*Vil is throwing up* *Rook is about to faint*

Ignihyde

*mute button is off* NO GOD PLEASE NO OH PLEASE GOD NO

Diasomnia

*INHUMAN SCREECHES OF JOY* CHILD OF MAN------ ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

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#i will not be explaining further #bonus sebek is ripping his shirt off in agony like a bad roman empire drama #Yuu is way more trouble than theyre worth #crowley is just happy he doesnt have to keep paying Ramshackle's electric bill #twisted wonderland x reader #twisted wonderland headcannon #incorrect twisted wonderland quotes #twisted wonderland incorrect quotes #incorrect twisted wonderland #heartslabyul #savanaclaw #octavinelle #scarabia #pomefiore #ignihyde #diasomnia #disney twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland #riddle rosehearts #leona kingscholar #azul ashengrotto #kalim al asim #vil schoenheit #idia shroud #malleus draconia #rook hunt #twst x reader #disney twst #character imagines #twisted wonderland x yuu

[littleprincepaladin]

were thou naughty this year? 🤨

#bg3 #raphael bg3 #bg3 raphael #paladindraws #it looks so grey 😭😭😭😭 on my pc its so much more colorful #you won't believe the agony i went through with this for no particular reason #i don't even celebrate christmas man!!!! idk why i wanted to draw this #anyway yeah happy whatever-holiday to raphael girlies(gn)!!!! #love yall #CAN YOU TELL BY THE BG THAT GRAPHIC DESIGN IS NOT MY PASSION WHATSOEVER LMFAO #i swear to god if this gets shadowbanned---

[yennao]

I been watching Trigun, and oh BOY am I down catastrophic for 1 very Tall Plant Fucker with a Gun

#vash the stampede #vash 98 #tryina figure out how to translate his already incredibly stylized ass into even More Stylization #Vash #fuck man why gotta be so Cute #listen #im ace #but im still Simping #its the aesthetic attraction #babyyyy #me when a character who lives every moment of their lives in agony #anyway #trigun

[wiltkingart]

#i am deeply unwell. thank you for asking :] #hexslinger #chess parteger #book fanart #digital #fanart #original art #been rereading this series and let me tell you it is 100 times more painful the 2nd time around #gore #gay horror is where its AT i am telling you. i am holding you and looking into your eyes. i am in agony #gemma files

[dabislittlemouse]

♡¸.•*' thinking of dabi slowly realising what he feels about his angel is beyond possession or any dark twisted desire that he used to think of, it is a deep intense feeling that he’s never experienced before, something that frightens him to the core and makes his chest burn, and this time not from his quirk, he’s used to those kind of burns, he wishes it were those kind of burns, he can at least control them somehow, he can endure the physical burns.. but when the heart burns, that’s when he loses control, the only fire he is suddenly afraid of, and you are the fuel to it…

#late night thoughts #and he hates you for it #but that only makes him want you more #cant write dark content these days you guys i need fluff #i need ROMANCE #GIVE ME INTENSE FEELINGS AND AGONY #tainted angel core #dabi #touya todoroki #mha dabi #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #mha #dabi x reader #dabi x you #dabi x y/n #bnha x reader #mha x reader

[eternity-death]

Okay guys now it’s time to consider…

Sunday being in love with Reader… but being unable to act on his feelings because The Dream Master disapproves of it…

The yearning in this would be INSAAAAAANNNE.

#hsr x reader #sunday x reader #honkai star rail x reader #it is pure agony for him #he can deal with it somewhat bc you’re already pretty close and see each other frequently #so it’s not like he has to yearn from afar #but one might say that the closeness makes it even worse #like when you’re submerged in a dream and you’re chasing something unattainable #and it’s right in front of you but suddenly your whole body is heavy and even though it’s right at the tips of your fingers you just… #… can’t quite reach far enough #every time you mention someone with potential a romance in mind his entire body goes cold #he freezes up and that mask of his cracks #and that smile he always wears becomes all the more difficult to keep up #Sunday wants you to be happy… but the more selfish part of him wishes that you never find anyone to fall in love with

[incorrect-riordanverse]

Will: you were hurt pretty bad out there, do you remember anything?

Annabeth: i remember the ambulance ride here

Will: we’re at the battle of manhattan right now and everyone on the island is either asleep, repelled away or frozen in time. there are no ambulances

Annabeth: i swear i heard a siren

Will: that would’ve been percy

Annabeth:

Will:

Percy: well exCUSE me for being CONCERNED-

#my memory of the battle of manhattan is a bit foggy but i swear this is how it went #percy be WAILING #bro was in more pain than her 💀 #annabeth gets stabbed and he is in AGONY #riordanverse #incorrect riordanverse #rick riordan #percy jackson #pjo #percy jackson and the olympians #annabeth chase #percabeth #will solace #1k

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #tulu xuanwu #blood #Vomit on his sweater already; mom's spaghetti #I love drawing teenji because he gets to be a lot more expressive than Older Lan Wangji. #wwx is trying so hard to be supportive and it keeps backfiring for lwj. #“There's no way I would ever want you carnally ^_^” meanwhile the guy who wants him carnally is losing his mind in agony. #Hot tip if you keep finding yourself in Lan Zhan's shoes: consider being more obvious. Give up on trying to be subtle with an ADHDer. #His game is SO BAD. Abysmally bad rizz. I do not think it was possible for these to to have a chance to get together in this life. #He has no plan. He has no healthy outlet for his feelings. He is looking at his half naked crush and losing his shot. #F in the chat for Lan Zhan. He's just been accidently rejected and he is about to be accused of being straight. #Meta commentary moment: I am going to try very hard to be more consistent with outfits and details across comics #I have had some...difficulties in the past with forgetting details (COUGH the vermillion mark COUGH) #New year new goals! Wish my ADHD eyes and brain good luck!

[altcbk]

i hate the hammer

#cult of the lamb #cotl #the lamb #my art #this is for the girls and the gays that scream in agony when the hammer is your starting weapon #my only complaint of this game is if i had infinite money i would pay them to make more of it because i'm in love with it #that's not a complaint but #i'm not even DONE with it i just wish it was a 400 hour game #(i'm going to 100% it)

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i saw them in the cookbook pages and Immediately thought of this meme:

#barnaby: this is so nice. just me and my buddy whipping up a tasty treat #wally: *having six simultaneous crises* #anyway. huh? #this was a pain to scribble and i Dont Know Why #i had to redraw barnaby's face literally five times #but im trying to Expand my skillset by attempting more backgrounds #or background adjacent things... Props! #im very proud of the counter & flower vase off to the side! #and uh. Filters! those as well. i wanted to make this look somewhat like its aged... #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #man. these two. squeezes them #halloween update made me love them all the more #name a better pair of best friendsssss you canttttttt #they are Top Tier and i hope they get torn apart one way or another #you see i live for the drama the pain the agony the devastation #i see my favorites and i want them to Hurt. #anyway thinking about them baking together melts my stony heart #theyre bonding 🥺 #oh man why is that emoji So Fucking Detailed on my laptop. its scaring me. kill it kill it kill it