i was making a “what has it got in its pocketses” joke and realised something very interesting. gollum only ever uses “he” as a pronoun for bilbo when he says, “he stole it. he stole it”. other than that, he exclusively uses “it” when referring to bilbo. it’s interesting that the only time he recognises his humanity is when he takes the ring from him
he views bilbo as food for the first half of the scene so why would he use a gendered pronoun for something he’s about to eat and after he hates bilbo so much that he strips him of this momentary humanity
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There's this idea I see sometimes that you can only like food insofar as you use it as a tool to satiate your hunger, but honestly? It's okay to like food not for how it serves you but for what it feels like and means.
It's okay to like food because it tastes good, because it reminds you of your childhood and your culture, because it reminds you of beautiful nostalgic memories. It's okay to like food. Food is such an integral part of the human experience. The more we minimize food as "solely a tool," the less connected we are to not only food but to ourselves because so often, people tie their bodies in with food and how it does or does not serve them.
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I’m just trying to put this year, 2023, in perspective.
I feel frustrated and angry. There were positives, but they don’t all feel like my positives. They don’t feel like my wins.
This is evident by talking to my dad about it. He says this was a massive year for me for getting through school.
School doesn’t feel like a win to me anymore. We’re going to see how this next semester goes but I’m pissed about it now. I feel like it has a chokehold on my life and it blows. This isn’t a post specifically about school, despite the only true accomplishments from this year being grades.
…that actually sucks insanely hard though. All I have to show for this year are some letters. I fucking hate that.
However, I got a cpap machine that restored quite a bit of energy! I built a computer that NASA would be jealous of! I even went on a trip to what felt like an entirely new planet(MFF)! I even made some extremely meaningful friends!!
WHAT DO I HAVE TO SHOW FOR IT THOUGH? I HAVEN’T MADE ANYTHING!
I’m realizing how shitty life is if I’m not creating! If I’m not making things from my soul! Every year before this I’ve made something I point to and say “that was the year encapsulated! I did that!” I’ve only been slowing. I’ve only been slowing.
I have almost nothing to show for this year.
I got an A in a sociology course.
I’m angry.
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sometimes i think what a time to be alive grates on me when im not in the right mood is because it hits just a *little* too close and i am sensitive and bitter and it hurts but not in the way that aches and heals at the same time, like a knife through a would that only just stopped bleeding and it's so goddamn upbeat and peppy and yes! when my brain is doing okay i l o v e digging into the lyrics and picking them apart and delighting in the juxtaposition of the lyrics and the music but on days when my brain is bad i don't want a peppy song about looking at 2019 and reflecting on how much things have changed and how it's all effecting our mental health because honestly, yeah, "sometimes you wonder if we're ever looking back" sometimes i feel like i can never stop looking back sometimes i feel like if i look back for a second everything will fall apart and it'll swallow me whole sometimes i feel like my life is split into before and after sometimes i feel like i haven't felt hope since 2019
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