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#she’s tried to strip me of my boricua heritage in unassuming little ways
enigma-the-anomaly
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I hate when there is anger inside my body. I am very small and my feelings are very big :(
#it really just does not matter what I do huh
#it’s spring break. I was up at 9:30 and happened to stay in bed for a bit and take my time showering and stuff
#you know? cuz I’m on break? And can do whatever the Hell i want?
#but apparently I was ‘sleeping all day’ according to my mom
#and then she reminded me to wash my hair the next time I shower. which is code for ‘your hair looks like shit’
#it’s like that one bit from friends where they’re having a funeral for the geller’s grandmother
#and Monica’s mom is like “can you imagine being criticized for every little thing you do?
#it’s amazing that I grew up to be the life-affirming person I am”
#the joke being that she criticizes everything Monica does and is constantly trying to “fix” her
#always criticizing her outfit and hair and life choices
#like. that’s exactly my mother. and guess what? I fucking hate her!
#and—this is a horrible thing to say I know—sometimes I wish she would just hit me
#because violence and bruises are easier to spot than the covert belittling and the slow chipping away at my self esteem
#all while under the guise of helping me
#as if she isn’t insulting me and treating me like a mini clone of her or a goddamn toy to entertain her
#she never wanted me she wanted a dress up doll
#she doesn’t want nano she never wanted nano she wants a perfect girl who marries a perfect guy
#and has perfect grandbabies
#she’s tried to strip me of my boricua heritage in unassuming little ways
#she’s tried to strip me of my desires and interests and emotions
#she’s tried to ignore my trauma and logic away my mental illness
#she has tried to destroy every part of me everything that makes me what I am
#and she is the victim. the one with the woefully annoying stupid disobedient daughter
#because i have resisted her attempts to mold me into something that I’m not
#vent
#im just so tired of trying to be the person she wants me to be and never being good enough
#I’m tired of feeling trapped
#I’m tired of feeling like an awful person
#I’m so sick of her
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