My name is Aru
I’m non-binary and use They/Them, It/Its, and Vae/Vaer
I’m diagnosed with autism, ADHD, social anxiety, and depression. I suspect I have BPD and am in the process of diagnosis.
My special interest is bungo stray dogs!
I’m into classic literature, if you read it come here ily (but DNI if you aren’t an ED blog, you will immediately be blocked)
I play genshin!! I play on the American server, if you want my UID you can message me <33
The names 3rick and 4udr3y, are triggers of mine, please respect this and do not interact if one of those are your name.
This isn’t a trigger but a huge discomfort of mine is seeing the tops of clouds! I’m terrified of heights and it can make me panic so please don’t send me anything of the sorts!
I am 5’8
I don’t have access to a scale but I’m probably around 180-190 lbs
My UGW is 110 lbs!!
I’ve had my ED since I was 11, I’ve struggled with a cycle of binging then restricting this entire time
DM me! Just state your reason right off the bat if you just say “hi” I most likely won’t answer
PLEASE use tone indicators!! I’m horrible with tone!! I don’t wanna misunderstand something.
Nicknames!! They’re cool!! I don’t mind being given nicknames at all!!
Flirt seriously, I don’t mind if you’re joking/doing it platonically but I am in a relationship
Report my account!! This is my safe space, please just block me!
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"plan ist fertig 👏"
schon mal vorweg, wem es nicht passt, der kann weiterscrollen!
also, ich will mal was ausprobieren und hab mir mal einen plan geschrieben..schlaflose nacht und so..an sich bin ich fast jeden tag unter 100kcal, hin und wieder werden es zwischen 200-300kcal, z.b. beim diaet shake oder bei den suppen (kommt auf die suppe an)..sollte ich merken, dass es mir gesundheitlich nicht gut geht, werde ich es beenden..wie gesagt, ich moechte nur mal etwas ausprobieren
[March 15, 2021]
Didn't eat anything except dinner today, which was around 600-700 calories
milanesa de pollo: 500 cal
around 2-3 slices of tomato: 20 cal
1 slice of bread with butter: 150 cal
Also did (gentle) yoga + ab workouts; hopefully tomorrow I get more done and maybe only eat breakfast since I have to make pancakes for my family :/
I kinda want a friend w an ED so we can talk ab stuff, safe foods, restricting, hunger pains, etc. idk, I feel like I dont even have an ED and talking about it to someone is just me lying and exaggerating for attention.
I’ve been thinking of doing shadow work this weekend, since Monday I dont have classes I can focus on my more experimental practices when it comes to the occult. idk, overall I feel like a fraud and just plain stupid. Im shifting my focus from schoolwork which I actually enjoyed doing to counting calories and hyper focusing on food. I just,,, I just wanna feel good.
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I haven’t been on here for a while because I had a lil life change. I moved in with my twin flame and both of us don’t really eat which is absolutely great for me but I hate myself so much that she doesn’t eat. I hate myself even more for the fact that I fell in love with weighing myself and seeing changes and feeling my ribs and getting smaller. I hate myself for supporting a behavior in my soulmate that I want to have as a habit for myself. Even as I am typing this I imagine her feeling the same way as I do and I feel sick. Unfortunately somehow I fell in love with feeling sick, tiered, empty. I love to write, especially poetry, but I wish this to be the only piece I ever write not to be taken seriously. This is a sickness. I wish I was better. I wish everyone out there who thinks like this gets better. I wish I didn’t love being this sick.
I am now 200lbs (91kg) I unlocked my first goal weight and got even further down. I wish this wouldn’t make me this euphoric but I can’t stop looking at myself in the mirror.