#letting go of the past

[stevesbipanic]

@steddiemicrofic prompt: edge, WC: 509, rating: T

Eddie arrived home to a quiet house, which wasn't completely unusual for the Harrington home to be quiet but usually Eddie found his boyfriend moving around the kitchen making dinner, softly singing along to the radio.

"Steve?" He called out but was met with more silence. Strange, but Steve could be up in bed, maybe he had a migraine. Eddie checked quickly upstairs but found their bed cold and empty too. He'd seen Steve's car in the driveway so he hadn't left, and Robin didn't have her licence yet so she couldn't have picked him up, plus he'd have left a note.

Eddie went back downstairs checking the loving room hoping maybe Steve had just fallen asleep on the couch. Still, he was nowhere to be found. He went back to the kitchen ready to start calling around hoping maybe Steve was just visiting someone and forgot to leave a note. He was halfway through dialling the Hendersons when a shadow in the backyard caught his eye.

"Oh sweetheart," he mumbled to himself as he hung up the phone. Eddie grabbed a blanket off the couch and opened to sliding door to the back deck. Steve didn't flinch at the sound, eyes staying ahead. Sighing, Eddie wrapped the blanket around Steve's shoulders and joined him sitting at the edge of the pool.

The two boys sat silent for a few moments, Eddie knew better to just wait for Steve to talk, he'd made his presence known and that's what Steve needed right now. He wouldn't always talk, sometimes choosing to simply sit before they went back inside and curled up in bed. Sometimes Steve wanted touch, sometimes he'd just want to know Eddie was there.

Eventually, after what seemed like an eternity, Steve spoke. "It's been five years and I can't look at this pool and not see her." Eddie knew who they were talking about, after all only one girl had drowned in this pool. "She should be at college with, Nance, she should get to have a grave with a body in it, she should be here instead of," Steve choked out a sob instead of finishing that thought. Even though it ripped Eddie's heart to shreds, and wanted nothing more than to tell Steve he's loved and that it's not his fault, he knew Steve didn't want that, he'd said those words a million times before, Steve knew so Eddie waited.

Steve tilted his body until he lent against Eddie's side and Eddie let out a breathe as he was finally allowed to comfort his boy, wrapping his arms around him and holding him tight. He sat there with Steve crying softly in his arms until they slowed to a stop, it was time for bed.

Eddie took his hand leading him back into the house and upstairs, curling him into his chest and reminding him he was there, that he'd always be there.

"I think it's time to move, Steve."

"Do you think she'd forgive me?"

"I know she already has," and that was enough.

#another month another microfic #stranger things #steve harrington #eddie munson #steddie #barb holland #past trauma #grief #dealing with grief #letting go of the past

[healingviawords]

Letting go of what we can't control is accepting that while we can drive our own boat, the ocean may have other plans. While we can fly our own kite, the wind will still decide how high it can soar. It's about finding peace in the fact that our book of life will be an incredible masterpiece, but not all of its chapters will be written by us.

#letting go #the past #letting go of the past #forgiveness #surrender #beautiful words #self love #hopecore #healing

[turningwheeltarot]

Full moon in Cancer (Dec. 26, 2023)

It's interesting that the day after Christmas -- when many of us will have spent/be spending time with our families -- we have a full moon in Cancer -- the sign most associated with the family.

For many of us, issues surrounding our past or families of origin will come front and center in a way we can't deny. This is a gift because it allows us to clearly acknowledge what it is we need to release and/or heal.

#cancer full moon #full moon in cancer #capricorn season #cancer #family #the past #letting go of the past #holidays

[myglowingupjourney]

I Learned this hard way (WHISPER NOT MINE)

MOVE IN SILENCE ALWAYS. Learn how to gatekeep the smallest things that make you happy. You think people want to see you happy? Nope. You'd be so surprised at who is praying on your downfall and has the biggest smile when you have your greatest downfall. I've had people in the past try to sabotage opportunities...and succeed at it. If you are someone currently telling those what makes you happy, STOP and be very careful!

#becoming that girl #it girl energy #letting go of the past #wonyoungism #wonyoung #gaslight gatekeep girlboss

[catsforthewin]

....: You should try to move on ....: I don't wanna move on ....: Don't stay in the past ....: I'll stay in the past ....: You gotta let go ....: I can't let go ....: You know good things don't last ....: It's the only good thing I've had

#mental health #lonesome #painful #depressing life #sad and tired #sad and lonely #writing dialogue #hope it makes sense #moving on #letting go #life lessons #sometimes #you know #letting go of the past #is needed #holding on #is not helping #not healthy #healing takes time #here for you #for me too #take care of yourself #little things #mental health matters

[themaskofthephantom]

You know what, I am letting go of the mental programming that I have to be “right”. I was asked to sing today (and if you don’t know, I sing beautifully most of the time), but today, I could just tell I was not going to be able to hit the highest note in the song. And I didn’t. It sounded terrible. But instead of skipping the note entirely, I still tried to sing it just for that slight chance I might surprise myself and get it anyway. And I could just see my father’s disappointed face in my peripheral, and I realized my entire life I have been programmed to be made to feel like I always have to be correct. I always have to know the answer, be the smartest person in the room, etc. And then when the inevitable happens of me not knowing, not being correct, - because I am a human being - I feel like I am bad. Because I’ve been programmed to. Well fuck that. I’m done. I don’t have to be the fucking “gifted child” anymore. I am messy, I make mistakes, I don’t know all the answers, and sometimes I sing horribly out of key. And guess what? That is fucking beautiful, because it is authentic. And it is human.

#thoughts #letting go #gifted child #letting go of the past #inner peace #mental programming #singing #Alexa Rae Smith #mindset #also the hypocrisy of my father being disappointed with me when he can’t carry a tune in a bucket

[etherealsign282]

"people can change if we give them a chance" disrespectfully, I don't have to do shit. Change starts with them, not with us.

Not with us going against our boundaries with what we don't want in a relationship or friendship to give someone a chance.

Not with us giving someone another chance back in our life.

Not with us ignoring the red flags in the hopes that they go away. With them.

Sometimes yes, you might not know what your progress is unless you're faced with other people with solid boundaries and high standards. People can be as performative as they can fake it with those who would accept dog crap from them. But ultimately it's still up to them to figure it out.

And it should already be enough that someone DOESNT want to be your friend because of xyz. You're already aware. Unless someone is oppressing you, there's nothing else we can do- not emotional labor, not being a babysitter, not infantilizing you, not tolerating you fuck up 20 more times or make us uncomfortable because you're adjusting.

If you can't change unless everyone in the whole world likes you, you're gonna have a tough time changing.

#toxic friends #toxic people #toxic #past relationship #letting go of the past #trying to change #change

[panaceatthedisco]

Kanan is just so trans coded actually

#im sure this has been said before #it's not just the #dead name #thing #he also has the whole was raised to be one thing #ended up being someone completely different #thing going on #he even spends time feeling shame about #letting go of the past #and his past self #i love that man #kanan jarrus #caleb dume #star wars #a new dawn #reread #star wars rebels #transgender #my not so humble trans opinion

[fireheartofleo]

I live in peace knowing that I'm the villain in somebody's story because I told the truth about who people really are and refused to play along with fakeness and lies. The side effect? Being happy and living life bullshit-free while being surrounded by authentic people.

#no bullshit #real talk #fake people #whats done is done #letting go of the past

[slaughtermelonj]

It’s so crazy how life changes and how the painful choices led sometimes to amazing things. It’s so weird not having the people I used to have in my life. This would be one of those big moments I’d be sharing with them. However, sometimes the best decision is letting them go. Mourning lost friendships can be so very painful. I hope you’re doing the best and your life is going in the direction you want. I’ll miss you forever like crazy. I hope I made the right decision in letting you go. Hopefully, you can feel this virtual hug and have a weird strange random moment full of happiness. Here’s to our futures 🥰

#i wish you the best #mourning friendships #healing wounds #living in the present #letting go of the past #planning for the future #sending lots of healing and happy vibes

[howifeltabouthim]

As she turned to leave, a small part of her wanted to take more, keep a few more memories and things that were her. But was this her? Or was this just her past? She glanced around again. Then left everything behind.

Shannon Messenger, from Exile

#leave it all behind #the old me #identity #memories #letting go of the past #outgrown #memorabilia #keepsakes #letting go #quotes #lit #words #excerpts #quote #literature #poignant #shannon messenger #exile

[spilledinkjh]

For Teenage Me

I feel like I left out a major pivotal point in my life as far as when this healing journey truly began.  I know I mentioned how I found myself really tapping into the spiritual aspect back in 2021. However, my past really started resurfacing towards the end of my first pregnancy. I remember this moment, fuck it hit me like a ton of bricks. I was sitting alone reading my kindle I think I was…

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#childhood trauma #letting go of the past #self healing

[healingviawords]

We've all made mistakes. We've all said and done things that we've regret. But we can't change the past. It's time to free yourself from your victim mentality. Unburden your mind from the weight of the past, because whether good or bad, they were meant to nurture your growth, not trap you. Forgive yourself, embrace acceptance, and gracefully release. Your mind is a powerful creator and it's calling you focus on shaping itself to a better present and future.

#self forgiveness #forgiveness #the past #letting go of the past #letting go #healing journey #inner child healing #mistakes

[mynonblwatchlist-bl-bam-beyond]

STAR & SKY:

Kuafah is feeling down as Yayah gets married. It brings back memories of being at his former girlfriend May's wedding. Prince is there with a shoulder to cry on.

Prince has empathy for the handsome doctor.

Fah feels low but Prince seems to have the words of comfort he needs at that particular moment.

Fah's feelings suddenly become romantic towards this handsome young volunteer teacher. A moment between them becomes mutual. Something has been put in motion that can't be stopped.

Has Fah let go of May and fully decided to move on with Prince.

#STAR & SKY #SKY IN YOUR HEART #FIRST KISS #GIFS by ME #FAH & PRINCE #LETTING GO OF THE PAST #EMBRACING THE PRESENT #HOPING FOR THE FUTURE #MOVING ON #FAH MAKES HIS MOVE #EPISODE 3

[bl-bam-beyond]

BL- BOYS LOVE:

Series: STAR & SKY: SKY IN YOUR HEART (2022, THAILAND)

A moment between Dr. Kuafah (JIRAKIT THAWORNWONG aka MEK) and Teacher Prince (JIRUNTANIN TRAIRATTANAYON aka MARK) leads to the two men's first kiss.

#GIFS by ME #THAILAND #BOYS LOVE #BL SERIES #SKY IN YOUR HEART #DOCTOR TEACHER #LETTING GO OF THE PAST #MOVING ON

[stacysloft]

Welcome Home Chiffon

It's been a very long time since I had the luxury of time to write so this is a very long back log but since i still remember it as vividly, I might as well do this update.

Dream Entry: October 1, 2022.

Factual Background: Since I broke up w/ K, my biggest regret was giving him Lychee (the maltese we bought together) thinking he'd bring her to see me once in awhile. I never thought that our relationship was that bad that I never got to see Lychee ever again.

In my dream, it was a typical morning were K and Lychee would wake me up. Except that this time it was only my K who woke me up and when I looked down expecting to see Lychee looking at me with her glistening eyes and wagging tail, I saw a golden brown fluffy dog run with a wagging tail instead. I thought I could hear lychee bark but couldn't see her.

This dream came to me as a surprise because I have long let go of such past. It's been 10 years after all.

When I woke up, I even attempted to message K to see if Lychee needs me or anything even though I knew he wouldn't reply as usuaal.

2 days later, we bought a new Chinese Sharpei because we missed having more than 1 dog in the house after Toffee's death. We named her Chiffon and she looks exactly like the golden brown fluffy dog I saw in my dream.

#dream diary #dream journal #foreshadowing #chiffon #lychee #letting go of the past