#im going for easier to harder lol

[lover-of-mine]

Just two dads who really wanted to see their kid after really bad day...

#does this count as buddie sokaoskaosk #also chris is bucks too i dont care lol #911edit #911 #buddieedit #buddie #911 fox #911 on fox #911 abc #evan buckley #eddie diaz #my edit #otp: you don't need to pretend with me #im working thru the list in my notes app #i cant tell if the sets are going to get worse or better #they are there tho oskaoskaoks #im going for easier to harder lol #ill be back #911verse #1k

[purpleshadow-star]

Pic context: Talking about the exy stadium at USC considering the fact that USC is a real school

I love how Nora just invents things in order to avoid complications with real-life things.

Like, using USC's football stadium as the exy stadium too would take a lot of work to figure out how that would be possible. Solution: invent a new stadium!

Having the characters play a real sport that already exists would mean looking into all the rules and regulations and history, etc, and there could be multiple elements of the sport that work against the plot of the story or complicate it in some way. Solution: invent a new sport!

I mean, it gives her full creative control over what happens in the story, and we as readers get to learn about a cool new thing without feeling the need to fact-check every element. Tbh, it makes so much sense to me.

Like, go off! Make stuff up! It's your world. We're just reading and enjoying and becoming obsessed with it!!!

#also the fact that palmetto state university is made up #it's based on an actual college but it doesnt actually exist lol #and again i think that makes sense #it allows us to become immersed in this fiction story even though it takes place in our world #i think having these elements unique to that world also makes it easier to go along with the plot #like imagine if neil was being hunted by his serial killer father and the yakuza while attending the university of south carolina #and playing hokey or lacrosse or smth #the made up stuff helps woth the immersion imo #anyway i just wanted to point out how funny it was that her solution is to make stuff up #like makes sense 100% work smarter not harder #tbh if the series wasnt centered around a fake sport i prob wouldnt have read it 💀 #like im just being real here #so thank you nora for going through the trouble of creating a whole new sport #bc im sure that was the final thing that convinced many people to read it (i.e. me) #anyway rant over #aftg #all for the game #nora sakavic #the sunshine court #tsc #the foxhole court #the raven king #the kings men #exy

[electoons]

guys this "keeping myself busy with distractions so I don't get sad" thing isn't working

#my mom is basically scrubbing the house of all traces of her bc thats how she copes. thats what she did when dad died #like two days later she was cleaning out all his medical equipment and stuff #i guess thats a way of dealing with it :( just doesnt really work for me because it makes me feel their absence even harder #like for me i personally wanted to keep Dad's stuff around for a while because. idk i guess it just felt like he was still kind of there #in a way. i guess. i dunno #obviously losing a pet is easier to deal with than losing a parent but it still blows dude i hate this #(* a parent that you had a good relationship with. i know that im very fortunate in that regard. not everyone had that and i need to count #my blessings) #idk this feels harder than losing my childhood dog because jojo was basically my constant companion for the past several years #after dad died i got suicidally depressed and didnt leave the house and was unemployed for a good chunk of time and she kept me company #taking her for walks and hikes was the only thing i enjoyed doing and the only thing that got me out of the house. she was always there #(also there's probably some psychological component to the fact that we adopted her specifically to be a companion for dad #when he was wheelchair-bound and couldnt go anywhere. so she kept him company. and then after he died she did the same for me #so. idk. like.... i feel like theres something there lol) #mia.txt #animal death

[yourcalamity]

im about to have such a potent opportunity to disappear into the woods forever it itches

#i wonder how long it would take anyone to figure it out lol #youre welcome future coldcase vloggers #but for the record if i do mysteriously vanish no its not because of my job #must be said because thats the easiest explanation people come up with yeah it would be convenient right #if i could just get a new job and suddenly everything in my life will be fixed and all of the other blatant issues clearly coming from other #sources will cease to exist #also therapy and meds will do the same thing. i might as well walk up to a stranger and ask them to snap their fingers and cure me #just as long as the hand i turn to for help points in another direction technically im being ‘helped’ right #life is just a fight and you have to keep fighting for yourself and others and hope one day someone is going to fight for you #and when people dont fight for you when you need them to it becomes clear that you dont even need to fight. it would be easier to lose #you already upset them by not fighting for yourself and instead of fighting for you now theyre fighting againt you. do you really want to #fight harder. do you really want to fight people you love. no one wants that #ive been so emotionally destroyed these past years and idk if i will ever recover or find worth in myself again #and if i got a new job tomorrow at the most comfortable high paying company in the world with a one day work week and unlimited pto #i would still feel worthless because of the experiences ive had and the way everyobe has brushed over them as if i cant feel emotion #i have been carrying so much hurt #now im going home to say goodbye to the remains of a stranger who wouldve disowned me had we ever spoken on even ground #but sure i will enjoy my trip

[the-darkgod]

im trying so hard to repress some of these thoughts but being in poland for a few days has rly made me think about how similar? ig living here is to living in the US - something that i knew logically but made me anxious regardless. and then with that, im like, well.. maybe i couldve managed to live in geneva. it wouldn'tve been that different, i couldve handled it, it wouldve been for ("only") 4 years.

but idk. its like, obviously the living in geneva part is harder than just getting acclimated to the different lifestyle, if you can call it that. i was worried about more logistical things - getting medication transferred over, being able to be on hrt, moving my cats over and all that entails, etc., like it would't've been an easy move even if it was very similar. but at the same time - i might end up moving later anyway. and most of those things id have to deal with then, even if moving in the same country might be easier than moving abroad

and on top of that, im starting to feel real hesitation about switching research groups... i definitely dont like my new group as much as my old one. and it sucks having to learn about everything again, kind of starting from nothing all over. idk, its all tough. and i spent so much of this trip just kinda blankly thinking about how much i sort of wish i did move/stayed w the same group. obviously i cant possibly know if i made the "right" choice - theres no way for anyone to know that. but its still very hard

#i wish i pushed harder to try to get my advisor to pay for me to go over to cern for a bit and just like... be there? and see it? #bc i do think that for anyone - moving across the world to a place youve never been to is Hard #i mean even when i studied abroad in london #that was so difficult for me #but the fact that i had been there before #(and frankly the fact that id seen tv shows based there lol) #made the process genuinely substantially easier #vs moving to geneva just... blind? #idk that wouldve been a lot tbh #alex speaks #grad school tag #ugh #i miss my old advisor. im not excited to work on this new project as much. #itll be fine. i will live. but it is still hard

[youaremysunshine-court]

Highkey gonna cry I looked up this uni I have to go to on Insta and literally it looks like the worst fit for me

#might actually just take another gap year even if it makes me feel like a failure #do a metal working course in the village become a blacksmith #weld shit together for a living #i got rejected from my first choice and i never bothered looking at my backup option #bc i was so so so sure id get into my first choice #... #anyway #im probably gonna drop out in a week and then just take another gap year lol #its fine everythings fine #hey coach wymack ytf dont you come barrelling into my gym threatening me and giving me a safe space to study #lets be real even if he was fucking real i dont have the talent for it #its feeling a bit like i never tried hard enough so now my life is falling down around me and i have nothing to show for it hours #like #if i had only tried harder for gcses then alevels would have been easier and if id studied at all during alevels maybe id have got into a #good university and maybe if id got into a good university i wouldnt have to go to this one where ill feel like a sore thumb #god is that even the way that phrase is used #and maybe id be happier if only id worked harder to make my life better for myself like #learned something this year and uts that apathy will literally ruin your life #doesnt matter how much i write down my ten year plan if i dont care enough to keep it up in the present its all balls anyway

[bobzora]

heres the planning sheets/storyboards i did for my animatics lol

#my art #i think theyre neat to look at atleast lol #its the process man. they kind of suck to do but its better than winging it. lol #sg2 was kind of a lot easier layout wise because a lot of it is heavily referenced from screenshots. #while for gapab i kind of just had to make 90% of it up lol #my improvement in the final products is pretty clear ithink. but i did go a lot harder with the editing on the first one (b4 i got lazy) #anyway i <3 making these but its sooo hard to do with all the horrors happening. im kind of due to make a new one >.< hope so!!agh!! #oh yeah. one more thing. planning instrumental sections SUCKSSSSSSS (this is why gapab has so many empty parts >.<oops) #i have so many songs i want 2 do and then i remember how instrumental-heavy they are and then i die a little...why... #i think im gonna go eat now. i love you. bye

[another-cliche-title]

everyone on the internet when a artstyle exists: OMG i HATE this ARTSTYLE it's fucking EVERYWHERe it's always THE FUCKING SAME I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT FUUUUCJKK

everyone on the internet when the entire animation industry of an entire country (Japan) has been basically using the same artstyle for years (Anime): this is good actually :3 (Gains ability to complain about the western (read: american) industry but not the japanese one because weeb)

#ok my point is #it doesnt really matter #like who gives a shit i have no problem with anime dont shoot me #OH NO CALARTS what the fuck is a calarts i've been living under a rock all my life #to be a good critic you have to say things are Good sometimes too! #why is “being a critic” synonymous with hating everything and anything #literally the fuckin anton ego quote from ratatouille #not to be a live love laugh sign or whatever but if you focus on What Is Bad solely when you interact with shit #it's probably gonna make it harder for you to enjoy making stuff yourself without criticizing your self #also ppl have no idea how hard animating is anyway lol. not saying you have to Do It to Criticize It but #not many people are brave enough to be a critic and a creator at the same time. #i should stop writing in the tags so much lol easier to read elsewhere but im writing my thoughts as they go THIS Was supposed 2 be short #another cliche rant

[real-life-cloud]

hhhhh.

#the sky speaks #pregnancy tw (im not pregnant dw lol) #baby fever moment.................... #the other day my mom was like i mean u know u dont even rly need a partner to have a baby. u could get artificially inseminated #and like. i KNEW that was an option but hearing someone say it out loud ................................. #like i shouldnt have a baby rn. im not making that much money . am i even emotionally mature enough to raise a kid ? #but also if i had a kid sooner than later---the pregnancy would be covered under my parents health insurance .. #nd i know my parents would help me raise the kid! if anything the fact that im stillat home and have a pretty good relationship w my parent #would just make a more stable environment for the kid during their early development than if i was a lil older making just enough on my own #and also i want one :(((((((((((( #i know it might make finding a partner harder down the line #but i wouldnt wanna be with someone who didnt want kids anyway !! its a high priority for me !! #augh . idk #im also thinking more and more about going on T and getting a pretty big chest reduction. and wouldnt it be easier n make more sense to lik #have a kid and THEN do that lol #in some ways im like nooo im wayyy too young but. im 24. my parents had my brother at 20. i cant possibly do worse than them. #i would love the fuck outta the kid... #anywyas for now i write my bkg single dad AU and i yearn #maybe i'll talk abt it with my therapist. im getting back on her sched soon

[creachercrunch]

if i decided to fuck more with channel mixer like. a week ago it probably would've made one gifset i made so much easier but it's okay i will hold this for the future

#repeating over and over 'learning new things doesn't make my past self horrible; it was doing the best with what it had' #improvement need not come at the cost of condemning my past #sorry i'm being really dramatic about colour editing #actually the set im talking about didn't come out horribly i like it much better now #i think i just stared at it way too hard in making it so i was nitpicking it for forever #now that it's been up for a few days i'm like oh wait it's not that bad actually it's pretty good #oh but anyways i am wanting to learn channel mixer better so i took a clip from said gifset to attempt to colour it differently by #relying on channel mixer a bit more to see if that made it easier #because originally i relied on levels + curves (specifically red/blue curves) + color balance #because the video was horribly pink blue toned and i needed to undo like all that #oh but anyways i know channel mixer is good for that type of thing i just didn't know how to use it much at the time #well i knew basics if i had a base to start from (the stuff i previously mentioned) but i didn't know how to use it AS the base #so i wanted to try and figure that out #and it actually is going pretty well!! #it works better if i correct the brightness some first and then do it (at least in this case) and then i can re-edit the brightness after #i get it somewhere desirable but !!!! hell yes #i need a harder example to start with but i don't have anything rn lol

[malkaviian]

this is so stupid but i actually quite like jayce's skin on this one--- it looks like its supposed to be

#coloring in general is a bit harder when your line isnt black; at least thats my experience. #you have to play more with colors to make them fit; and also some colors are not... registered as the actual color they are. #like for black i actually use deep purple; but it cant be too deep bc otherwise it ruins the whole aesthetic #with the line being lighter than the filler. i dont use actual black anymore i think; its always some shade or purple. #depending on the other colors i use a very very light shade of pink/red for white. i can also use actual white #but then again; it depends of the other colors lol. and in this case isnt even that light of a color. skin is other issue #i have a palette full of skin colors but i dont really use it for just the color-- i moreso use it as a reference. #then you have me being all stupid with the color wheel for a bit trying to find a color and the saturation that fits the piece. #and dark skins are kind of their own thing; bc otherwise it doesnt give the image of actually being brown #and actually gives the image of idk you fucking slapped a random color on them. and VEEERY rarely actual brown in the color wheel works #rn jayce's color is in a mix between pink and red. but it doesnt looks like that!! it mixes and looks brown in the piece. #i used a different color on the one with chase but that was because the lineart colors were different kjsnfkjndjfds #so yeah for someone who doesnt have that much of an eye for this; this is kind of a training in a way. its ok though #i refuse to go back to pure black lines the thought of doing them sickens me (no that doesnt means i dont like when others do them) #(and no im not saying using black lines its easier or not as worthy or something its not what im trying to say) #sorry for going in a ramble about how i color?? idk sorry i just thought about adding it #lilith whispers

[fortunately-bi]

My life... Kinda fucking sucks rn

#having to deal with a really abusive father and finding out Things TM about him and youre just like #do i make my life harder physically or emotionally #and like i have to go to him and talk to him about it and i dont want to! #i dont! not after the way he yelled at me! not after he came so close to saying he hated me! #if hes so sick of me then figure it out and leave me alone! #but at the same time having 2 cars is easier then one but also like #how much longer am i going to put myself through this #how much longer am i going to try to make a man who will never be happy with anything happy #i would just be delaying the inevitable for convince and i have got to start putting myself first #if he loves me i wouldnt know it if he cares about my relationship i wouldnt know it #if he cares about me being happy i wouldn't know it #but i know he doesn't want me to follow my dreams and he actively gets in the way of it every single chance he can #i know he doesn't think im ever going to get anywhere and that im stupid #hes never going to respect my identity either #at least my mom tries! she corrects herself when we say something! #i don't want him at my wedding i don't want him around my future kid and my wife agrees with that! #so better to grieve now then later #better sooner rather then later #also yes honey i know you are going to see this its fine im fine ill cry about it later lol #my life does not suck because of you mwah

[quinn-pop]

let’s do some autistic meta knight headcanons!! over explaining my interpretation of meta knight yet again wooooo

this orb has NO idea how to talk to people!!! outside of work anyway. a lot of this is partially due to upbringing (suppressing his emotions all the time) but he does not know how to express emotions, like…at all.

this goes into a few things

1. yeah talking is hard. even after figuring out what he wants to communicate he will struggle. conversation can be so overwhelming, especially under pressure. he will need time lol

2. because of that, forming connections is hard. i really don’t think meta is much for shallow relationships, and certainly not early in the timeline. which also means he has very little experience with friendship. so a lot of the relationships he did have went kinda neglected, and issues that probably could’ve been worked on by talking became…*cough romk* escalated.

3. honestly i wouldn’t be surprised if meta convinced himself he couldn’t feel emotion (anymore) until like. katam-ish. he tried very hard lol

vulnerability is terrifying. (though this gesture here is also just comforting, like his little cape cocoon thing he does.)

unmasking—yeah im taking the mask thing very literally here—is a big deal and a very slow process for mk. i’m sure he has a lot of feelings on that lol. it served as a way to ensure no one could ever, y’know, see him.

i can’t say i think he’d ever fully ditch it—there’s always gonna be some days that are more stressful than others and if having it could help him get through it, it just makes sense. mainly when working.

it really is about vulnerability. granted, i don’t think he has the most expressive face (in my head every astral just tends to stare at things) but i doubt he has much control over it. can’t fake a smile but also can’t hide it. probably blushes easy because yeah, astrals; just look at kirby’s face.

just the idea that someone might be able to read his expression and know what he’s feeling before he’s ready for them to (or even understands it himself…) yeah he doesn’t want that

but emotional turmoil aside, i think his mask also hides a lot of his stims

remember that whole “suppressing your feelings” thing? yeah turns out that ignoring half your instincts isn’t a good idea. so in true meta knight style, he tries to stim as subtly as possible

1. he has the least control over his wings, so they will flick and twitch on their own. they’re usually a good indicator of how he’s feeling, not unlike the body language usually seen in cat ears and tails lol. flapping is also an extension of this of course, though he probably suppresses it more.

2. this also effects when he takes his wings out. pretty much every time he’s excited or nervous it just happens. kinda makes me wonder if his wing cape ordeal might also go into the suppression thing… (i’d say yes, but using a cape is also very comforting so it’s not necessarily a bad thing)

3. going back to the mask thing; he stims a lot underneath it. think like biting or pursing your lips. he bites his tongue and clicks his mouth. that sort of thing. his mask also makes it harder to notice that he is constantly sighing, humming, grumbling…all that

one nice thing about the mask though is that it helps a little bit with lights!!! woo

(look at him and his magically floating glasses)

sensory stuff—i think he’s mostly bothered by light and sound. maybe a bit of texture. he’s pretty sensory avoidant and perfectly happy standing off to the side not touching anything.

the one exception to this is physical affection, which is, despite all of this, most of how he shows affection. it’s a lot easier to hug someone than to try to explain your feelings for them, after all.

i think he would like pressure though. so that’s probably part of it. and i’m pretty sure there’s some connection in here to fighting (dang, is that the only way he knows how to get his energy out?)

anyway, pretty much all of this is in contrast to kirby, who i would gladly nominate as the champion of Doing Whatever He Wants. he might pick up a few bad habits, but he will never mask the way meta knight does. he might not understand how he feels, but he’s in tune enough to express it…usually.

this is a very good thing for meta because it helps him to do the same thing. kirby’s so energetic, it’s hard to not want to stim with him. it reminds meta to be kinder to himself and explore his own emotions. he can also help kirby understand themselves, so this connection is very important.

yeah, at the end of the day, everything kinda just boils down to kirby and mk as parallels

this is the conclusion i promise

to me, meta’s arc is about growing stronger by growing kinder, and this is mostly by learning to be kind to himself. letting himself be a person again, loving and understanding other people, and eventually, letting go of all the expectations placed on him and doing the things he’s always wanted to do…

autism headcanons are fun for me because it’s cathartic to write, but at the same time, it just makes sense in this sort of narrative. meta is, to me, inseparable from these things. and so is kirby! that’s a dynamic that’s a lot of fun to play with, and it’s at the heart of my kirby interpretation.

if you actually read all this WOW thank you

#i almost considered not posting this on a wednesday but then i wrote everything and uhhh yeah i think i gotta so #happy cringe day wednesday #for as many notes as i have on these characters i really don’t talk about it much #but meta knight is a special case because i am terrible at subtlety and he wouldn’t be meta knight without it #so this is to contextualize some things #because of what ill have in the next few days haha #basically these are just things i consider when writing meta #but a lot of it is subtextual and i dont know how well it comes across #kirbyposting #kirby #meta knight #headcanons #autism headcanon #this is practically an essay lol oops #i have like 2/3 of a fic that explores most of this in a way i probably won’t do again #but we’ll see if i ever finish it #god kirby concepts are so fun to chew on #i overthink everything i make so much lol

[burntb4bydoll]

Face sitting with 2023 Bill??

YALL HAVE BEEN ASKING FOR THIS SO HERE YOU GOOO

2023 Bill Kaulitz x fem!reader

Warnings: face sitting duhh, praising (both ways lol), service dom Bill🤭 it’s written as 2023 Bill but can be read as any era!!

“Please? I’ll leave you alone for the rest of the week! I just want taste you so bad!” Bill whines, his face digging into your thigh. You groan and set aside the work you were doing.

“You know, you’re interrupting my work. I mean, I know I got good pussy but Jesus it can’t be that good!” You teased, laughing at your own joke. His mouth started leaving open mouthed kisses all over your inner thighs.

“It is that good. Just sit on my face, please? I know you like doing that.” You pretend to think about it for a moment, making him whine again and bite you leg. “Hey! Don’t bite me, asshole! I was gonna say yes but now-” before you could finish your sentence Bill flips you over so that he’s laying underneath you with his head between your legs.

“Too late, Im already underneath you so theres no going back now.” He murmurs, kissing your cunt through your thin shorts. You tried to get up to take them off, but Bill wraps his arms around your legs and keeps you in place. “You don’t need to take them off, I’ll just move them to the side.” His hands pull your shorts to the side, revealing that you weren’t wearing anything underneath them. (It’s easier to write that way, SORRY🙄)

Bill’s tongue wastes no time, diving straight into you. Gasping, you buck your hips at the feeling. Hes always had a lack of patience when it comes to eating you out, always so desperate to please you. You push his hair out of his face so that you can see him better. “You look so beautiful, Bill. Always so pretty.” Bill whines and his eyes flutter shut, he loves hearing you praise him. His mouth moves harshly, attempting to make you feel even better. With his eyes now open, he watches your reactions to his new movements. Your hips move without your permission, grinding on his face for a moment before you stopped yourself. Once he sees your body starting to tremble gently he soothes his hands over your thighs, giving them light squeezes of encouragement.

“It’s alright, pretty baby. Ride my face, do whatever you want to me.” Bill mumbles, his mouth only slightly pulling away from you. Your mouth fall open, soft moans spilling out as you start to move against his tongue. Bill gives you multiple hums of approval, urging you to keep going. “Always such a good girl, doing whatever I tell you to. You look like a goddess right now.” His muffled words draw you closer to finishing, making your stomach tighten and your eyes tear up.

“Bill..I’m gonna cum. Fuck! You’re so good~!” Your voice is breathy from trying to hold back your orgasm so that you could warn him.

“Come on, cum for me, sweetheart. Please cum..” Bill keeps rambling, even when he stuffs his mouth back onto your pussy. The vibrations from his mumbling pushed you straight into your orgasm, your thighs clamping around his head. He groans loudly, damn near cumming his pants at the sight above him. But even after your finished, he doesn’t stop. He only grabs your hips harder and speeds up his tongue…

#tokio hotel #tokio hotel x reader #tokio hotel fanfic #bill kaulitz #tokio hotel smut #bill kaulitz smut #bill kaulitz x reader #bill kaulitz fanfic

[bearw-me]

Post-extermination!Lute x fem reader? Where lute is trying to show that she's still good/strong enough for reader and she can still be independent. Along with reader comforting Lute about how she's still perfect for her. (Details and examples below bc i enjoy rambling sorry)

I imagine that after loosing her arm lute would be very showy about overcompensating for it. And that if reader even tried to treat her bit differently, like being more SLIGHTLY gentle/careful with her, lute would get offended tell her to knock it off.

Lute's a strong woman, pre-extermination her carried reader alllll the time. Post-extermination Lute would most certainly still try too (and surprisingly succeeds somehow) despite the reader's worries of being dropped or being too heavy for 1 arm.

This ranges from trying to hold all the groceries alone to trying to prove she's still good in the bedroom by not allowing the reader to help (like she'd literally tell reader to let her do it alone)

I hope you have a wonderful day!!!

dont apologize for requesting! i adore long requests! they have all the little details for the prompt included that make the story just- *chefs kiss*

𝐈 𝐂𝐚𝐧 𝐒𝐭𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐃𝐨 𝐈𝐭 — 𝐋𝐮𝐭𝐞 𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬

𐐒 includes : post-extermination!lute x fem!reader 𐐒 cw : fluff, angst, hurt/comfort, mention of blood/stitches/wounds 𐐒 summary : lute's adjusting to life after extermination day, and as her girlfriend, you hope to make it easier on her 𐐒 note : i don't even know what to call my rambling anymore lol, love it

like we all saw at the end of the season, lute is full or rage- and a little hurt

the loss of her arm, initially, didn't hurt as much as losing her best friend

it takes longer for her to heal and accept the sudden turn of events

she doesn't want it to stop her or hold her back, especially from her relationship with you (especially with the loss of adam) she'd want to hold on tight to you

(like in the ask) Lute isn't one to just be beaten down by this, its a challenge she's going to fking overcome-by herself

likes to do things for YOU instead of the other way around, like if you want a snack or something she won't even let you stand up (let alone THINK) about grabbing it yourself

definitely wouldn't tell you about how she feels unless its too much, but you can see it in her; the way she's sluggish or looking down more often.

(although im not sure atm) I assume Lute is right-handed; without the left, things can get a bit trivial at times

like when you watch her try to balance her long spear with one arm, the weight of the steel trembling between her fingers. the muscles in her arms not used to carrying the entire weight by itself

Lute carrying you with one arm: she tries like how she used to, by putting an arm under your arms to support your back-but stops when she realizes she cant pick you up bridal style

I think she could manage holding you that way, around your back if you also hold onto her by wrapping your arms around her shoulders

(on this note) you being so close to her face is the perfect opportunity for her to kiss you

Hugging her from the back is not happening- her wings and all. . .

If you tried to help her take care of her arm too; bandaging it or cleaning it; she'd refuse all help and lock herself in the bathroom until she's handled it herself

(you can hear a ton of mumbled swearing and things knocking around)

its not a you thing, its a her thing; she needs to prove to herself that she can do it

Lute would hate all the flowers the other exterminators would get her; to the point she wouldn't even acknowledge the roses you placed on her nightstand

she's too stubborn to ever say it, but she's thankful you're still with her: Lute giving you soft kisses when she thinks your asleep, whispering all the 'thank you's' she doesn't think she could ever say to you awake

The loss of her arm pushes her to work harder, especially on the arm she still has in order to compensate for what happened

Technically, the hell-spawn didn't take her arm, but they still took a lot from her- she doesn't want that to mean they could take you from her too

You bet your ass the day will come where she picks up that spear again, better than fucking ever

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[ryn-stillstanding]

just want to post my timeline on here, so i can refer back to it later... also, in case anyone cares about my updates lol

jan 1: ~210-220

highest ever weight

not 100% sure cause i didnt own a scale back then

this was my breaking point - i started to go to the gym and eating healthy

cut out binge eating

jan 28: 204

official starting weight

wasnt getting the results i wanted the "healthy" way

started eating 500-800cal / day

started going on 5k walks daily

feb 4: 200.6

stuck to my rules, goals, and routines

took a 2 week vacation + maintained

feb 25: 195.6

was so SO excited to make it out of the 200s (love all of the support i got on here)

started falling out of my routine

got a new job, which made restriction easier, but exercise harder

190: mar 13

crunch time for school and work - need mental focus

still only eating 1 meal a day, but stopped counting calories

eating more made/makes me really anxious and out of control

stress with school and work took the center stage

186.6: mar 29

currently busy with other things

i assume i am eating 1000 calories a day, give or take

the days im at school, i eat more - the days im at work, i eat less

i have less willpower, i find it easier to give in now that im not counting

in a week, im done school - then i will go back to walking, calorie counting, and rules

with the lack of rules i have right now, i am losing 9lbs every month. this isnt ideal. im not happy with it. but, progress is progress.

i am really excited to get back to my rules and make some serious progress. with every pound i lose, i feel brighter, and more confident in what i look like. i actually cant wait to get to my first goal of 170.

170 is where i was a year ago. i can get back to it. i can surpass it.

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